#cant commit to daily activities

[richerlandtv]

Oh god don't give me another thing to think I have

Btw for anyone who needs to hear it: thinking that people are reading your mind/your thoughts are being heard by everyone is not normal. It's a symptom of psychosis and could be linked to a psychiatric disorder. This, too, goes with hallucinations.

This may seem like a no-brainer, but to teens who don't know what symptoms look like, they may jog it off for a number of reasons. I did, too, when I was in highschool! As a freshman I was having delusions/hallucinations and I didn't tell anyone because I thought they were cringe and weird. I chalked up my hallucinations to me being "tired". People who have psychosis often don't realize that what they're experiencing IS psychosis. This goes the same with other classmates/friends/loved ones. If someone comes to you with concerning behavior (even if they are joking about it) you should take note of it.

In highschool I remember a kid talking about how he could go into the matrix and he had a whole other world to protect/do missions in. He would also go still for long periods of time randomly. I thought he was weird and didn't think much of it, but those are symptoms of schizophrenia (delusions/catatonia).

I would appreciate it if this got a reblog so it could potentially help those recognize these symptoms in either themselves or others!

I wish I could have seen a post like this when I was younger. Then I could have avoided a lot of hardships and would have gotten treatment a lot sooner

[kuoukyeee]

Kanoh Agito sfw alphabet

Gender neutral reader (I hope🙏)

This has spoilers👻

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Before and during the tournament he would be more reserved with pda as he didn't know how to express himself and thought affection was a taboo thing. He deffo wasnt used to affection untill you came, the only touch he would've felt would have been during fights and also because not everyone would have the balls to hug this big, muscular, scary guy yk?

But after the tournament when he becomes a cool biker dude and he explores the world and finds himself and shit and has built up trust in you he would deffo be more welcoming towards affection and would initiate it more often. He would stand closer to you, touching shoulders/arms in public with you, if he's in a good mood he even places his hand on your lower back, especially if you are in a crowded/unknown place to make sure you won't get lost. If you go over board with the kisses and hugs I don't feel like he'd mind but he would deffo be taken aback and tell you to calm down if you're in a formal setting.

I feel like in private he'd deffo appreciate long hugs where you are both chest to chest and you can feel eachothers heartbeats, and soft kisses that make both of you melt into eachother and relax.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

He would be one of those trustworthy friends, where you could meet up once a year but still be at the same point where you left off.

He would also be dense, you would have to explain lots of things to him eg slang (and how monsters dont exist). I also feel like you could rant to him about stuff. He wouldn't necessarily gossip with you, but would deffo give straight forward advice and an outsiders point of view.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

I feel like when hes not busy he would indulge you , but otherwise he would pry you off (easily cus he stronk💪) even if ur complaining.

He likes when he puts his chin on top of your head and just koala hugs you, as he can feel your warmth and soft breaths, signaling to him that you are alive and safe, unconsciously calming him too.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Once he finds someone who he trusts and can tell his deepest secrets to, he would not hesitate to put a ring on it. Literally, the proposal is probably straight forward and he spills out all of his feelings towards you sincerely while you tear up.

Since he can literally make up a martial art on the spot to counter his opponent, I like to think he's a fast learner and would deffo not mind to lend a hand in daily chores, actually I think he would enjoy it as it makes him feel like a normal person after so many years of people stepping on eggshells around him because of his status as the fang.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

He would feel very conflicted and heartbroken. Especially if you guys dated for a long time and were very dedicated to eachother.

He would decide breaking up is the best for both of you and confront you, trying to explain to you logically that it is the best thing to do.

It would be so sad too😖, like one of those cowboy movies where the main lead says some romantic shit like "we were not destined to be together in this life" and kisses the romantic interest kunckles and then rides away on a horse ( in his case a motocycle) into the sunset and the romantic interest is just standing there tearing up, watching the figure dissappear, never to be seen again. Both always hoping to encounter eachother again, thinking about 'what ifs', even in old age.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

I feel like he wouldn't run away from it, but he wouldn't actively pursue it either. Once he realises he loves you and cant live without you he would propose soon. ( cus he standing on business)

He would maybe marry after at least knowing someone for a good 4 or 5 years, since yk he cant trust any random aquaintance, as he was/is the fang of metsudo, he needs to be alert.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Emotionally- At the beginning, I think he's less considerate of other peoples opinions, so he would be straight forward with you, which can cause some arguments or you feeling belittled. However, he improves at communicating and sensing if somethings wrong. I also think he would come to realise that you would do things in his interest, like sacrificing something so it benefits him and he would realise that relationships are give and take, which helps with his attitude towards all of his relationships.

Physically- you are definitely weaker or slightly weaker than him. So he is very aware that he has to be careful with you, though some times you need to remind him, as before most physical touch he had was in fights where he could use all of his strength, so he can forget at times.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

He doesnt LOVE hugs but he deffo appreciates and feels loved when you hug him. He might forget to hug you sometimes, but once he remembers 'oh shit I have an s/o and in relationships you need to do this kind of stuff' he would search for you and give you a hug.

His hugs would envelop you with warmth and genuine love. He cant really let his guard down and be very comfortable with others, so he learns to appreciate these little moments you guys have.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Once again, he's very dense. So he would forget to say lovey-dovey stuff, until he sees something on tv like a romantic movie, or someone teases him about your guys' relationship. He realises his mistake and tries to remember for the future, so he can drop the L bomb in a romantic setting.

He probably says I love you like half a year or more into dating.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

He doesnt get jealous easy from lowkey comments made towards you, as he doesnt realise the intent behind them most of the time, so he brushes them off.

However if someone cat calls you or tries pulling any moves he does get relatively jealous only if it is a regular occurrence/ adds up over time.He grabs you close, makes sure the threat is away and then make sure you're okay. He might sulk for a bit, but if you reassure him he does calm down. He could never be sulky for too long as its not your fault.

HOWEVER if you do something to make him jealous, he would get cold towards you and he would no longer consider you to be trustworthy and would consider breaking up. Second guessing your relationship.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

His kisses are heavy and rough if he guides them and he has slightly chapped lips. If you guide them he will go with your flow and let you take the lead.

He probably likes to kiss you on your shoulders or on your cheeks cus it feels intimate, idk.

He probably likes it when you kiss his jaw, i feel like it would make him melt.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

He's straight forward with them and a little distant with ones that aren't his own, not because he doesn't like them, but because i feel like he could only have a strong bond with his own. He wouldn't feel a duty to get involved with them if they weren't his.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Most of the time he's awake before you, just staring at you sleeping, once you wake up he hugs you closer , encouraging you to get out of bed after lazing about for a bit. He probably has no problem getting out of bed in the morning, so if you do he helps you do your morning routine. He might help you pick an outfit for the day, help you cook, brush his teeth with you, or even join you in the shower.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

I feel like he sleeps like a log. You either sleep on his fat boobie or bicep and he just throws his arm over you. Or he traps you in bed with a bear hug. He probably has nightmares sometimes or has trouble sleeping.

O = Open  (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say  everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

He has to trust you a lot in order to reveal things about his past. It probably takes him a few years to fully tell you everything as he doesn't want to scare you and push you away.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

He seems quite collected, so it doesn't seem like he would argue about pointless things. He would only loose his cool if it was something serious like your safety etc.

Q = Quizzes  (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He would remember quite a lot as he listens more than he talks. However if he had something on his mind or was worried about something he can forget.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

The scenic motorcycle rides with you and how much you enjoyed them.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He would be very protective over you and would show no mercy to anyone who harms you, or has intentions to. He would use his raw strength and let out his formless stance to eliminate the threat. I don't think he would need to be protected tbh, he can hold out on his own.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

He's very inexperienced in love, so he would need to put in quite a bit of effort in to special events. But for everyday tasks it flows easily for him.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He might put his work as the fang as a higher importance than you.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

He doesn't really care, but i think he deffo knows he has a fit body. There's no way no fan of his in the kengan matches hasn't told him.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Yes. You are one of the only things which makes him feel normal and loved.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

He melts when he feels your arms around his waist while he drives you around on his motorcycle.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

He probably wouldn't like someone if they are not loyal.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

He twitches in his sleep, which sometimes makes you wake up.

AHHHH this was so long to write 🧟‍♀️🧟‍♀️

[iriemorning]

the pressure of constantly releasing content is why people feel so miserable these days. you cant create and analyze at the same time. it activates different parts of your brain. so dont pressure yourself if you cannot commit to your daily journals, or going through a bad writer's block, or cannot come up with ideas to write your paper. truly meaningful content cannot be forced. allow that downtime to let your mind wander. let yourself go wild. go outside. create memories. live many lives. the greatest philosophers were not just philosophers; they had so many side quests and they cant help but yap about it

[pixeljade]

Really my big problem is all of these "dont vote it wont change anything" people dont seem to have any real plans. That's been my problem so long as I've been an anarchist in anarchist circles: anarchists are seemingly allergic to the idea of planning more than a step or two ahead of them.

And this isnt just the online ones either, who so often will ramble about praxis on twitter and then do nothing IRL. I used to know lots of them IRL and they were all GREAT at talking theory, but the minute you try and figure out the path to a better world they dont have anything real. The closest they get is either some unhinged terroristic fantasy (like yes, firebombing a walmart) which would do nothing, or they will tell you it has to be a "spontaneous revolution", where there's just a moment that gets everyone pissed enough they all riot enough to become independent. The former I wont discuss further because its dumb and if you still have those fantasies grow up. But the latter? Still not much better. They point to revolutionary catalonia as an example but never have anything to say when you point out 1) that did fall apart in the end and 2) there have been countless other attempts at "spontaneous revolution" historically that actually end in a bloody massacre.

And it would be easy to chalk all this up to laziness, or fear, but I think the truth is that they all are so frustrated daily by the world on all sides that they fall into the trap of letting good enough become the enemy of perfection. So often they turn to that when you talk about voting blue, they scoff and say "A democrat? They're awful too" as if voting for a democrat would be as awful to them as becoming a cop. They arent even THINKING strategy, because ultimately their ideology is one of emotions, especially anger, and they cant do anything which sets off that anger. And since our current government is such that any reasonable path toward revolution MUST include "working with what we've got", we end up with a bunch of anarchists who dont have plans outside of "maybe someday" unreasonable fantasies.

And it must be said I do still consider myself an anarchist, because I do still fit the definition of the ideology; I believe that there is no hierarchy which cannot be abused, that there is no government which cannot be corrupted, that even the most progressive or communist government alive will still have incentive to maintain their own power. But I have always been a strategic thinker, and as much as it does disgust me, I do not see a way out of capitalism that does not involve some level of working with people who disgust me, voting for people who commit genocide because they are marginally better. So long as there's a threat things could get worse, voting for the lesser evil IS always a good strategy. Abstaining or voting third party is not, that's not even really a strategy, it is just a childish refusal to compromise.

And finally, to end this, if you actually do have a plan to tear down capitalism that DOESNT involve harm reduction voting for now, I welcome you to SHARE IT! Perhaps you dont feel like you can share it publicly; if you ask in private I will give you my Signal and we can discuss there. While I do not see a path forward without voting for genocidal assholes, I am very much open to the idea that there's a better path, and would gladly jump at such a path, provided it has actual basis to it and not just some emotional appeal. That said, I have offered this before in much more active anarchist circles and gotten nothing of value, so I do not have much hope for that.

[angstandhappiness]

LMAO WHY IS THIS SO ACCURATE

@sonntam  #THATS JUST DADS#god of war#god of war ragnarok spoilers#shout out to my dad who went out in shorts on new year when it was -10 celsius#to shoot fireworks with us#mad lad

@silverswiss   🤣🤣 #dressing up is for weak#random shit#hilarious#lol#wtf is this#i’m laughing so hard#i dont get it

@keepitmovinshawty  Ok but he had this awesome cloak at the beginning of the game and Freya had to go and ruin it 😡

@trash-000​  #for real though @littlefreya​  🤣🤣🤣🤣 I am dead

@neechees  #this man refuses to fucking not be shirtless#& we love him for that

@cornsilklesbian #literally#dude must have some intense body heat or something

@milfheim​  #my man said#TITS out for the whole nine realms to see

@wafflehousecoffee​  #greek genetics provide us with all weather resistance to allow us to be shirtless in any scenario that calls for it

@gbuzy  #sometimes i pick the more conventional armor so he looks warmer

@big-guy-hendriks​  #bro cant wear regular clothes#they keep ripping in dumb places

@myletternevercame​  #he got that hot hot rage to keep him warm

@flatlinedfamed  #do not have this game but will spread the agenda because eternal fire quest

@homo-kun​  #he knows his assets (his tits) @elljwalker​  #LOL#I love him for it

@hangingoffence​  #gotta keep them tits on display

@jasoninaredhoodie​  #hes commited to his sluttiness

@fluidfox123​  #This man is on fire 24/7 give him a break /lh

@tariah23​  #that’s just white people down town jogging in 5 degree weather with booty shorts on really#typical daily activities

@scrambledeggheaded #Tits out for fimbulwinter @kelorlyn​  #manwhore

@lemonylemus #so? year round hot babygirl summer and a whoreslutty winter wonder

@grevlingitaket #thats just every random guy going jogging in the middle of the winter in norway

@pinkmenn #nips out babbbyyyy#he ain’t no puss

@yuriablu​  #his titties keep him warm @mervley​  #a hoe never gets cold

@moss--knight​  #thats what i've been thinking 

@tyranion​  #a hoe never gets cold @sw4tch​  #AGHEJDKR SO TRUE

@kyuupi #those ashes work as great insulation

@nativemossy​  #THATS WHAT I SAID#THE MYTHOLOGY IS TOO COLD FOR A TITS OUT WINTER#this is also my inherited grift against the 19th century art for norse mythology#bc they wanted to make it greek#but you can’t have nipples out arms oiled in fucking iceland

@conkeybong​  #he needs his tits out at all times ok#look how happy he got when lünda complimented his muscles

@suri-chou​  #i want to kick him so hard  @purpurniymstitel #Good for him

@corvidexoskeleton​  #he is Unfazed @bumbleorian a ho NEVER gets cold

@ghostboyjules​  #look. I'm not mad at him for it.#we get to see Kratos' titties??? hell yeah brother that's a good time

@a-dope-fiend​  #so? year round hot babygirl summer and a whoreslutty winter wonder#its soo funny to me bcuz logically since he comes from greece he'd be the most bundled up bitch in the north

@kazieka  #what if he needs to cut glass with his nipples but he’s wearing a shirt?? catastrophe

@spaceboxxes​  #He wants to show off his tits#As he should#Not enough kratos tits in my opinion

@castleintheskye​  #I know they're all gods but it does bother me how exposed they are in the winter to end all winters#I gave Baldr a pass because he's invulnerable#but some of them need to put a shirt on

@captainscrosby​  #gotta let the tiddies breathe y'all @acutelation  #Y...yeah

@uchitiddy​  #lkmao too true#how tf did his greek ass survive

@forgedobsidian #hc that he gets just. the worst cold after ragnarok

@alyona11​  #i admire his dedication to go full titties out @rozugold​  #ehehehee

@lemonylemus Whoreslut behavior

@asskylosaurus he's got his family close to keep him warm

@localraspberrywoman i want Kratos to throw me across a room

Nobody:

Kratos during the coldest winter in whole history:

[ninosimz4]

“Mother”

A young woman living with her abusive mother and drug dealing boyfriend, not to mention, her father is out of the picture too. How will life go from here?

Kara Harnandez - Daughter

Traits: Lazy, Goofball, Outgoing, bro

Kara is a young adult who’s exactly 22 years old living with her mother. The reason for living with her mother is due to her mom. She wont let Kara go out much, nor will she let her leave. However, Kara wants to live out in the city and dreams of making nothing but plenty of money to handle her future family. The reason why she wont leave just run away is because, she has nowhere to go and her mother seems unstable. She feels like she cant leave the house, as if shes trapped.

She has an easy time communicating with others around her and mostly hangs around guys due to her roughness. Shes amusing with the jokes she makes and even her aura itself can brighten someone’s mood. However, her only negative trait is her being lazy, this hinders her ability to actually get out and try to get what she wants sometimes. But when she thinks back on how her life is at the moment, her strive comes back.

She has a bad relationship with her father after he left her when she a young child

Kara is planning on saving up money from part time jobs so that she can get out of where she lives.

She doesn’t communicate much with her mothers partner because shes afraid to and to her something just seems off.

Although she lives in an area full of drug use, she hasn’t tried it herself.

Maria Harnandez - Mother

Traits: Lazy, Mean, Clubber, Hates Children, Noncommittal

Maria who is 36 at the time, grew up in an area where life was always tough, shes learned the ways and now use them in her daily life. She doesn’t like spending her time being busy since shes still trying to live out her young days, even though she is an adult. She keeps her daughter around just to have a shoulder to use, Kara was a mistake, so thats how she treats her. She loves spending her time at clubs and experimenting with drugs and even different partners.

Although she has a partner, behind his back she secretly hooks up with other men in exchange for money. He obviously knows this, be decides to show his reaction through violence. However, she fights as well and In the house its always a ruckus.

Shes a bit envious of her daughters youth and any reaction between her daughter and Maria’s partners will anger her. She makes her daughter feel as if she needs her, or else she wouldn’t get by or even have a place to sleep.

She left Ismaeul due to him not being able to provide her with enough drugs, him being abusive towards her, constant arguments, and threats to take his kid away. After finding out about this, she left and moved to oasis springs.

Sameul Franco - Step Father

Traits: Slob, Lazy, Possessive, Bum, Noncommital

Sameul who is 38 years old at the time, spends his time being in the house and doing unproductive activities. He likes the idea of being bad or “hood” since that was his lifestyle when he was younger. He doesn’t care to clean the house and often has others do favors for him, whether small or large. He has had many negative relationships due to his possessiveness, he believe what ever is his, is his, whether he has it already or not. He is also known around town as a bum, he rather receive than give in a heartbeat. He’s non commuted to serious relationships, yet he believes people should be committed to him instead.

His possessive nature causes conflict between him and Maria, he often hits her and talks down on her in ways met to hurt her deep down

Sameul secretly is interested in Maria’s daughter, he doesn’t like her, but he wants to try her for his own sick fantasy’s. He especially takes an interest in her due to her youth and finds her attractive because of this. She hasn’t been talking him much, but he will always find time for them to be alone together. He wants to hurt Maria’s feelings after knowing what she does behind his back, so what better way to use her daughter?

He enjoys black culture and tries to embody that through his tone and actions.

[iggurichan]

with yesterday being the last “unified” archive post for both my twitter and tumblr, i figured it was time to make another long post about what’s next for the accounts. i do still have plenty of old drawings to post for both twitter and tumblr, but what i’ve yet to post varies since some are already on twitter or vice versa. hence why i cant really do the same posts for both accounts (granted it’s already been off if you’ve been looking at the miiverse posts on both accounts, but i digress.) speaking of miiverse, there’s still a lot of those, but i’d rather not post those daily. so i’ll keep those for mondays as usual, while anything i’ve yet to post on either account will be on tuesdays. they’ll be tagged with miscellaneous rather than archive since i’d rather have the archive numbers (mostly) consistent across both accounts. it’ll also be a way for me to share some sketches i never finished and most likely never will. fun fact, the drawing used on the laptop screen is actually a drawing i scrapped in september, but i saw this banner as an opportunity to put it on something rather than discarding it. (i included it as a separate image)

what about new content though? yeah i didnt keep my promise with doing those ask posts (one day i’d like to answer them), but during my time reposting my older drawings it made me happy seeing my accounts be active even if it was for a short time. obviously i havent posted all of my old stuff, but with those slowing down i want to try doing weekly drawings. do i think i’ll actually commit to that? probably not, but can’t hurt to try and it would be nice to have plenty of drawings to look back on by the end of the year. to anyone who has been actually following this account, sorry you had to deal with the post spam for the past few months, but thankfully it’s finally slowing down. also finally made a banner for both of my accounts, been something they desperately needed for a long time lol.

tl;dr archive posts will be on mondays and tuesdays, maybe i'll do new weekly drawings idk 

[acid-attacc]

When they make a mistake and feel bad, does the guilt differ when it’s personal versus when it’s professional? No, if she makes a mistake the guilt doesnt differ.

When do they feel the most guilt? Mina often feels guilty about not being a good friend to those around her. How do they respond to it? For Mina she has one of two responses that could play out; option one, she tries to reassure herself that the person she feels guilty about knows she is there for them and that she cares about them. option two is worse, if she cant assure herself or if something happened and it was because she was supposed to be the one that was tasked with watching over the group she can and would shut down.

If they committed one petty crime / misdemeanor, what would it be? Jaywalking(crossing the street but not using a crosswalk) Why? getting to point a from point b faster than walking to the corner and waiting to be allowed across.

How do they greet someone they dislike / hate? she doesnt greet them. just looks at them before turning and walking away.

How do they greet someone they like / love? She'll run up to them and hug or kiss them if they are ok with it.

What is the smallest, morally questionable choice they’ve made? You mean other than being friends with a group of young men and Jirou (other than katsuki, hanta and Jirou) that all share a brain cell?

Who do they keep in their life for professional gain? No. Is it for malicious intent?

What’s a secret they haven’t told serious romantic partners and don’t plan to tell? Wouldnt you like to know

What hobby are they good at in private, but bad at in front of others? Singing. Why? she gets nervous preforming infront of others.

Would they rather be invited to an event to feel included or be excluded from an event if they were not genuinely wanted there? If she were genuinely not wanted at an event she'd prefer to not be invited but would probably want an explanation as to why she wasnt wanted.

How do they respond to a loose handshake? she wouldnt think anything of it. What goes through their head? that the person doesnt have the grip strength

What phrases, pronunciations, or mannerisms did they pick up from someone / somewhere else? When she gets mad, she'll slip into yelling at someone in german.

What’s something unimportant / frivolous that they hate passionately? The way certain members of class a fold towels.

Are they a listener or a talker? both.

Do they act on their immediate emotions, or do they wait for the facts before acting? she's impulsive af lol

Who would / do they believe without question? Aizawa-sensei, Midoriya Izuku. those are the two people she believes what they say without question. Aizawa because he almost died for her class their first year. and Midoriya because he's never been wrong in a analyst of a opponent, that and she thinks when he gets flustered it's cute. @mightiboy (this is what i was talking about lmao)

What’s their instinct in a fight / flight / freeze / fawn situation? fight. i mean come on she's been trained by Aizawa "i will kick you out" Shouta for the last three years he def would have gotten her over freezing.

If they’re scared, who do they want comfort from? Her father or anyone thats closest to her. Does this answer change depending on the type of fear? no, just changes with who's around her.

What’s a simple daily activity / motion that they mess up often? making sure her homework is in her bag before leaving the dorms. its why she's asked Momo to hold onto her homework for her and give it to her during homeroom so she cant misplace it.

How many hobbies have they attempted to have over their lifetime? alot. Is there a common theme? she just likes trying and learning new things

WEIRDLY SPECIFIC BUT HELPFUL CHARACTER BUILDING QUESTIONS

What’s the lie your character says most often? "I'm fine."

How loosely or strictly do they use the word ‘friend’? Depends on the other muse, but usually Mina is very friendly towards others.

How often do they show their genuine emotions to others versus just the audience knowing? Often, I try to not "hide" her genuine emotions.

What’s a hobby they used to have that they miss? With Mina being a 3rd year/Pro-hero, the one hobby she misses most would be dancing. she doesnt really have time for it now, what with trying to get her brand off the ground, (as a 3rd it would be because of exams/training/ect)

Can they cry on command? If so, what do they think about to make it happen? Yes she can. She usually has to remember how it felt when she was in grade school. (She was bullied alot because of how different she looked compared to the other students)

What’s their favorite [insert anything] that they’ve never recommended to anyone before? Oooo, her favorite anything huh? well her favorite snack is cookies and cream mochi, her favorite food is her paternal grandmother's Spätzle (she's half german/half japanese in my hc), her favorite class A member is Kirishima (they literally grew up together but she likes most of her classmates equally), her favorite genre of music.. literally anything, her favorite hobby (after dancing) cooking (she loves to cook recipes her Nona and Obasan have taught her over the years)

What would you (mun) yell in the middle of a crowd to find them? what would i yell to find her in a crowd? easy "RED RIOT WHO?" What would their best friend and/or romantic partner yell? her best friend/romantic partner? "MARCO" with her response being of course "POLO"

How loose is their use of the phrase ‘I love you’? She wouldnt automatically say that to a romantic partner right off the bat, but if she was talking to her friends then she says that to them often. her love languages is confirmation/acts of service/physical touch

Do they give tough love or gentle love most often? Which do they prefer to receive? Gentle love. Now see that depends, if its regular day to day she prefers gentle, buuuut if its spicy bedroom time tough because she a little masochist

What fact do they excitedly tell everyone about at every opportunity? She doesnt really have a fun fact.

If someone was impersonating them, what would friends / family ask or do to tell the difference? If and this is a big if someone were to try and impersonate her, it would be obvious immedatly, simply because she has special nicknames for everyone she knows and thats how her friends would know, her family would also know as well because she will often slip into speaking german around them and if "mina" didnt do that then thats not their daughter.

What’s something that makes them laugh every single time? Be specific! Really, really bad puns, Midoriya's t-shirt collection causes her to burst out laughing every time she see him wearing one. she will go out of her way to buy him the most obscene ones just because she thinks they are funny.

When do they fake a smile? How often? sometimes every day. (this answers both questions)

How do they put out a candle? blow it out.

What’s the most obvious difference between their behavior at home, at work, at school, with friends, and when they’re alone? there's really not a difference tbh.

What kinds of people do they have arguments with in their head? self-entitled karens or herself depends.

What do they notice first in the mirror versus what most people first notice looking at them? she notices the faint scars that litter her body, she notices how her eyes have dimmed and are not as bright as they once were.

Who do they love truly, 100% unconditionally (if anyone)? Their paternal grandfather but romantically? well so far that position is vacant.

What would they do if stuck in a room with the person they’ve been avoiding? if she had her phone on her she would be on that until rescue arrived.

Who do they like as a person but hate their work? Bakugou. Vice versa, whose work do they like but don’t like the person? This one's hard but i will go out on a limb and say Mi*eta

What common etiquette do they disagree with? Do they still follow it? N/A (i got nothing for this one lol)

What simple activity that most people do / can do scares your character? Skydiving/Bungee jumping.

What do they feel guilty for that the other person(s) doesn’t / don’t even remember? N/A

Did they take a cookie from the cookie jar? What kind of cookie was it? Maybe, why you askin'? it might have been a peanut butter chocolate chip.

What subject / topic do they know a lot about that’s completely useless to the direct plot? uhhh.... idk lol

How would they respond to being fired by a good boss? probably cry once alone.

What’s the worst gift they ever received? How did they respond? 🤷

What do they tell people they want? Gift cards. What do they actually want? Something the other person picked out, just to show "hey i was thinking about you so i got you this"

How do they respond when someone doesn’t believe them? get upset that they arent being believed.

(will reblog with the rest of the questions/answers)

[boneless-mika]

Studyblrs just straight up do not know what a checklist is

[lady-charinette]

Adrien Agreste =/= Sociopath - About Adrien Salt

I've seen a lot of posts going around about Adrien being a sociopath or the other (harasser, abuser...etc.)

What I find most of those posts lacking is looking at the big picture, or just zeroing in on certain moments of the show and even disregarding the context of those selected moments to unfairly rule judgement on a child (in canon) no less.

Definition of sociopath: A sociopath is a term used to describe someone who has antisocial personality disorder (ASPD). People with ASPD can’t understand others’ feelings. They’ll often break rules or make impulsive decisions without feeling guilty for the harm they cause.

People with ASPD may also use “mind games” to control friends, family members, co-workers, and even strangers. They may also be perceived as charismatic or charming.

We have to analyze the context and the surroundings Adrien is in.

Family, social life, relationships (platonic and romantic), personality, age, environment...etc.

Family:

We know Adrien has a father who is controlling, preferring to micro-manage every aspect of his son's life to continue to have a semblance of control at all times. We assume (heavily implied in the show), that his mother was kind, warm and emotional (whether that emotional is the "out-there" kind her twin sister has, it remains to be seen.)

According to a snippet from "Simon Says", Adrien also has "Quite a temper, you remind me of someone" according to Gabriel's own words, we can assume the "someone" is Emilie, Gabriel says this when Chat Noir refused to follow his orders and told him to basically "get off his high horse". In this context, anyone who defies Gabriel in such a way would either be branded as "disobedient" or to "have quite a temper".

According to Adrien himself in "Adrien's Double Life" (from Miraculous Secrets) he describes being Chat Noir as "...I can finally do whatever I want to do, say whatever comes to mind." He doesnt feel as restricted and controlled since that's the one aspect of his life his father has no knowledge of.

Social life:

Adrien has had no or very little interaction with peers.

Evidence: Chloe being his childhood friend. Felix commenting on Chloe's appearance in the video she sent for Adrien's birthday, saying "Chloe. Just as annoying as usual." suggests he knows her from before, maybe even as early on as their childhood days.

This makes Felix and Chloe the only kids, of spoiled and rich background, with whom Adrien interacted.

Felix is shown to be good at manipulating people and keeping up appearances (potentially connected to insecurities within the family? Not confirmed), Chloe is openly mean and bullies others (with underlying insecurities also connected to her parents).

The only positive adult (if Gorilla isn't as involved and Nathalie had been solely Gabriel's secretary and not Adrien's caretaker since there was Emilie) in Adrien's life would be his mother, who also fell into a coma during Adrien's formative years (and still during a time where he's figuring himself and his emotions out: puberty), leaving him with his father.

Moving on, even if the writer's sometimes may not always successfully show Adrien being awkward in social interactions, it doesnt mean they dont exist.

This interaction between him and Marinette, asking for her autograph, very formal in his question, awkward in posture:

He's picked up on some speech patterns from his frequent interactions with Nino ("dude", "Hey man." "Totally dude.") showing he's, like many people, mimicking his friend's behavior and speech to grow more favorably in their eyes.

The same pattern can be observed with Gabriel and Adrien: Adrien adopts his father's formal speech whenever talking to him, since that appeases him.

Adrien has had very limited friendly interactions with his peers, romantic interactions are basically non-existent. The scenes where Adrien is being chased by his fans, who obsessively adore him, cant be linked to Adrien experiencing healthy romantic contact (Lila doesn't count since she only uses Adrien to further her goals). Marinette doesn't count since Adrien's isn't even aware of her romantic feelings for him. (Again, difficulties picking up social cues due to only ever being homeschooled > limited social contact with peers)

So no, in my humble opinion, Adrien sometimes doesn't understand other people's feelings not because he's a sociopath, but because he's an awkward kid with very little experience about making friends and having healthy relationships with them.

Relationships:

Let's be direct here: Gabriel is an abusive as*hole.

If the writer's wanted to show Gabriel struggling or having remorse for his actions being Hawkmoth and putting his son through danger, well... They blew it. "Gorizilla" was a 5 second reaction of Hawkmoth showing concern after letting Adrien fall from a skyscraper. Applause. After that? Not much.

Nathalie: Adrien likes, she takes care of him, his schedule, was the one to convince Gabriel to let him attend public school. There are moments in the show where she softens up towards Adrien, but always carries that air of professionalism on her to (possibly, assumption) not grow too close. Gorilla is...Gorilla, but at least the man tries with his nonverbal support and affectionate grunts. Lol.

Gabriel: He loves his father. It's his parent, after all. However, Adrien's reactions to him are vastly different than to how he reacts when thinking of his mother. He shows signs of fear (tensing up, growing obedient...etc.), he excuses his father's excessive controlling tendencies to just be "he's just worried about me", "that's the way he always was", "father cares and protects me". Adrien shows to be frequently disappointed with Gabriel, one of the first scenes being that Gabriel couldn't attend parent's day at school, Adrien was talking on the phone alone in the school hallway. He was genuinely surprised by the blue scarf his father gifted him (not knowing it was Marinette), since all he used to get were pens (again, not even from Gabriel, but Nathalie). This is my assumption but: Adrien has previously begged his father to go outside more or attend public school, but this time it worked only because Nathalie managed to convince him.

Friends from school: Nino is his best friend, Adrien seems to be good friends with Alya too, basically everyone in class, with varying degrees of closeness. Chloe is a childhood friend whom Adrien is fond of but also grows exasperated with and corrects her behavior if she's too harsh.

Marinette: likes and respects her, but can't read her well or at least when he thinks he's got her figured out, she claims the opposite. Marinette has been sending mixed signals, on one hand even making Adrien believe (and fear) they weren't friends. "Chat Blanc" contrary to popular belief, showed that Adrien is delighted at the prospect of Marinette being Ladybug (he'd severe doubts when Chloe or anyone else was brought up as a possible option).

Kagami: likes her, respects her, admires her fencing skills, learned to have fun hanging out with her and playing as kids usually do since she also has a controlling parent and they both know some ways/tricks around their boundaries to sneak off and meet their friends. Adrien and Kagami have similarities in that respect, Gabriel pushing Adrien to be a model, Mrs. Tsurugi pushing Kagami to be a master fencer.

Lila: At first defended her, was friendly towards her since she was a new student from overseas he sympathized because surely it would be lonely? The new girl would need a friend who supported her through all this things that were new for him too. However, as soon as he caught wind of Lila's schemes, he changes his tune. He feels uncomfortable around her overstepping his boundaries, expresses anger when Lila accused Marinette of crimes she didn't commit and even makes a deal with her to not bother Marinette again (but use him instead, doing photoshoots together...etc.) to keep her safe.

Age:

A 14-15 year old, having lost his mother, the only positive, healthy relationship in his life. Surrounded by a controlling father, not much free time, many extracurricular activities and being a superhero alongside Ladybug.

Some of the signs of being a sociopath include: Breaking rules and being impulsive.... Didn't Ladybug do those too?

Breaking the rules: (since LB and Marinette are the same) stealing phones, sneaking into places where she shouldn't, using the miraculous for personal gain (latest example: getting Kagami away from Adrien), giving Adrien the snake miraculous due to personal preference instead of drawing logical conclusions. Sneaked into the Agreste mansion.

Impulsiveness: Marinette's daily fantasies (sharing a future life with Adrien and their hamster-who-must-not-be-named), when Lila's "precious family heirloom necklace" was "stolen", Marinette was quick to include her classmates in the list of potential perpetrators for it (without ill intent, but still..)

You know who the real potential sociopath in the show is?

Gabriel

Some of you might include Lila too (since she fits all the criteria for being a sociopath), but the key difference is: Lila is still just a kid.

We don't know much about her family life. Just that her mother is busy with work, we don't know where her father is, who her friends were/if she even had them. She might be lying and manipulating people to follow her own agenda, but she thrives in attention, when people notice and praise her. In some aspects, that could've been Adrien. With one neglectful parent, a missing parent, no friends (prior to going to school)...etc. There is also a lot we don't know about her.

[hotgirltarot]

hi besties, i was just about to ask for a reading on how i can work on self love but i cant remember if ive sent you an ask before, i don't think i have?😭 if i have (or not and if its best to just not answer it) please ignore me & i apologise in advance💀💗

Hi love! So, there a few things you can do to improve your self love. First things first, you must start practicing listening to and trusting your intuition. Learn to trust yourself and forgive yourself for any past mistakes and release this guilt/shame you have built upon yourself. Do you have issues with a mother figure in your life? Working on unpacking that grief, loss or absence will tremendously help you to heal. We are getting messages that you must start to praise and congratulate yourself for the small things in life that you accomplish. There is nothing too big for small for you to appreciate. All progress is progress. Learn to give yourself more credit. If you have a new habit or goal you want to achieve, try sticking to it for 30 days to start. Commit to it hard for 30 days and see how you feel after accomplishing it for a full month. You are familiar with the concepts of self-love and self-care but you don't actively practice them. Take time for yourself and make yourself your first priority. No matter how little the effort is it's a step forward. It can be as simple as doing a face mask and having a refreshing drink and enjoying your own company. Set a small goal daily where you spend time alone journaling, doing self-care, and enjoy your own company. You've come incredibly far, and you should be proud of the person you have become. Some emotional wounds from your past have caused your Sacral Chakra to be imbalanced. You must go back to those emotions and do some shadow-work to heal them. Get your feelings out on a paper and release them. Meditate for SURE, speak positive affirmations, no more negative talk about yourself! Hope this helps! Tips are appreciated at $DejaWash19 on Cashapp or Deja-Washington on Venmo. Thank you!

[crackcrocs]

DEATH WILL ONLY BE THE BEGINNING #1

1. The backbone to my emotions

As someone who  cannot conceptualise  time in any way whatsoever, I want to say sorry to my loved ones. I'm aware I still need to send my friends messages every once in a while and remind them I still want to be their friends and I need to actively work on this. I need to overcome this fear stopping me from being present and accepting peoples love and support. I want to break free from me and I want to feel content being on this earth, I want nothing more than to enjoy experiences with my loved ones. I love you I love you.

I am a young charismatic, creative individual learning to do things differently so I don't always have the same outcomes. I suffer from a Cluster B Personality Disorder; under the same umbrella of mental health I also experience extremely intrusive thoughts on a daily basis, that can become obsessive and compulsively hyper fixated thoughts in an instant. I have anxiety, depression and a lot of the time I’m deeply dissociated to a point where I struggle to believe I’m even real, even when I do know I am real- I have no attachment to my limbs or body as a whole and only feel alive in a spiritual sense or when I self harm. I don't want to get too into my illnesses; as I’m not someone who really likes labels, just know that everyday is a battle and each personality that exists within me is different. I wouldn't say drastically, however its evident for me and living with so many different masks can be intense. Especially when you've tried to convince people that you're just one solid mould in the hopes they don't perceive you as an intense person. I am going to try to take you through a few of my altars and moods starting with the emptiest subconscious alters that I call the backbones of my emotions to the more powerful  energetic ones that haven't managed to yet consume me over the years. I hope this can give people an insight.

Overall I present a pretty confident front, I like to appear like I’ve got my life together even though I’m so far from it, sometimes I’m not sure ill even find the strength to go on long enough in attempt to get my life together, which is a real problem but it's the sad truth. Don't waste time reading this if you're easily triggered as this piece of writing will consist of real and genuine feelings. I’m in no attempt trying to create content for people who enjoy turning blind eyes and wishing they didn’t see this so I’ll give you a fair warning. I'm not responsible for your triggers, whereas I’m responsible for the things I’ve done. I might have cared too much at one point, but I will not hold myself captive to those situations nor will I regret them. I want the lies, deceit and hurt that I’ve committed against loved ones to end, my secrecy has done enough damage and its exhausting pushing people away even though that’s not usually the intent, truth is I am so embarrassed of myself. I'm private, secretive and mysterious but I’ll also talk about my childhood trauma after like 5 minutes. I guess this says I’m happy to talk about my trauma because it's what I know and am comfortable with, I just struggle to tell anyone the real suicidal me behind my problems. I hate that I’m so young and feel like a dead person already.

I tend to act out or distance myself due to fear which isn’t clear at first if you know me, but does become obvious. I might appear as someone with no care in the world, like I’m unbothered, but I assure you that's the African pride combined with the Leo pride. I also don't want people to treat me like a footstool, which has happened when I’ve come off ass too passive. I care so much and over think absolutely everything, it's literally my only way of thinking. I have little to no self esteem and I have no clue who confidence is unless under the influence of something, be it weed, alcohol or psychedelics (which I don't take much of because I enjoy them and don't want to abuse them) I mean I can function sober, I don't even like to be out of control high or drunk, but as Chief Keef once said, I hate being sober. #i'mTrash4thereference. Although I’m not fully healed and functioning yet, I’m a developed character with both positive and negative traits. At the moment I’m going back and fourth between 'just stop trying' and 'you cant give up'. Sometimes depression is kind of like looking at yourself through a window, there’s this part of your brain that understands it'll pass, but you’re so far into despair that its impossible to see the way out, its a lot like being trapped. I am having a bad patch right now, the difference between this one and the last one is I’m more self aware with less of a desire to go on. At least I’m no longer suffering from paranoia and thinking everyone's out to get me all the time or that I’ll get trafficked walking home from somewhere, but depression and mania are so bloody invasive and there’s always that little voice in my head telling me ill never be good enough. Executive dysfunction kills my motivation because I have so many things to do and I cant pick anything to start first, it gets worse when my depression gets worse too. I'm not lonely though; I have a few people who care for me- and while I'm trying to not involve them in the metal episode, they are around to talk to and that means so much. My friends are super encouraging even though I've only briefly mentioned that I'm having a sad time right now, and that's awesome.

I hate that no matter how much better I get there's still this deep desire to get worse. I don't feel like a real person. I just feel like a collection of what people want me to be and various mental disorders. It would be so cool if I could admit to the world I have a personality disorder without feeling disgusting and without fear.

I've had plenty time to reflect upon every bit of thought that created the barbed wire surrounding my logical brain, I want to feel okay to be alive, but I so strongly just want to die. I am tired of fluctuating from feeling extremely vigorously suicidal to passively suicidal; where I just don't have the energy to carry it out myself. It's gotten way past the point that it doesn't matter what kind of day I have, I think about killing myself all day. Sleep is an escape from life and I'm always tired and wanting to 'sleep'. Deep down I feel like I’m waiting for the right time to end my life and it's not the right time yet because I still have a footprint to leave behind, I still have journal pages I want to burn. I cant just jump off the highest accessible building or mall car park I could find just yet- I don’t just want to ruin others by hurting them with my death. It's sad to think I grew into this mindset, waking up wishing I was dead.

Being abandoned by many people in the past made me doubt people and think everyone was out to get me or wanted something from me, it made me feel hurt and lone. So I felt it would be better to let people down before they could hurt me so I wouldn't repeat the same cycle when forming new connections. It wasn't intentional but I could just silence myself due to fear.

I just found myself feeling immensely hopeless, like I was too internally enraged at the external world to be able to trust anything of it. I definitely do want to get better because I’m tired of feeling this way, it's so exhausting and I hate pushing people away from me like I’m poison. I need to allow people to accept all of me.

Before picking up these coping mechanisms when I was younger and more insecure; I wanted to be a part of the world, I had this strong urge to fit in. I had to learn how to manage my anxiety and socialising became more exhausting stemming from my fear of being 'odd' or 'different', I didn’t want to be called out for being different- it was not a compliment at that age, it always felt like a being the joker in the card deck. I was intensely afraid of being judged or labelled as such. Being told I was a 'weirdo' didn't help at all, that type of criticism is what got to me the most. People made me feel like I needed to change, like I was too African, even in a joking manner it didn't help- because although I was okay with who I was, I did feel like I had to change and westernise myself to fit in. I ended up hanging around with people that didn't care, doing stupid things I didn’t even want to do, dating people I didn't connect with. Eventually I got tired of people using me for entertainment, tired of catering to those who refused to understand. I still have to admit there were many periods that I lowered my frequency to be on the wavelength of others that did not match mines at all, I hate that I'm someone who always feels the need to explain myself so people don't think I'm a bad person and even though I don't owe it to everyone and now I am able to make better choices and I'm no longer easily influenced, it still hurts that i was ever around people that made me feel like I was over exaggerating my mental health or uncomfortable to a point where I learned to downplay it or the mention of it. Now as a coping mechanism I’ve become so facetious and sarcastic about my trauma it's a struggle to take myself seriously at times. Users and abusers belittled me to such a point where I felt they'd underestimated my intelligence and most of all humiliated me. It made me tired of justifying myself so now most days I’m just a mute, but I really do finally have good people in my life who deserve some sort of explanation and it's a shame they don't get to be experience a truly present consistent me. It’s just after having the wrong eyes on me, I don’t want anything to see me. I hate attention because I’m so embarrassed of myself I don’t want to be noticed. People looking at me make me want to kill myself.

I've been told to move past my rage, to let go and become a grounded and level headed person. I've been told there is hope for all of us. Must be nice to believe that, all I could wonder was what it was like to get angry without getting homicidal and suicidal. Even on most days where nothing extreme would happen besides negative emotions, my brain still travelled to a dark realm. I've come to a point where I want to live in my daydream universe wile I physically rot away. That's my business. Sometimes I feel as though all my friendships are on a timer, or more so it's that my timer is about to go off, so I subconsciously shy away and make sure i have no deep friendships. Just in case my head decides to do something stupid.

I don't want to have no friends, I want to have friends and I do value friendships so much more than entitled relationships, I just have a difficulty maintaining friendships because it's exhausting for me, it takes a lot of energy to be social and on a level that isn't just superficial where I can just let go and allow myself to fully be. Sometimes I have a hard time relating to other people, and thus I may feel I don’t belong or don’t quite fit in- causing me to feel irritated, paranoid or even in pain during social situations. It's not always this bad, and I don't mean for it to sound dramatic. It's different when In person and I’m really relaxed and comfortable with the company. However virtually socialising and expressing will always be extremely anxiety enducing and its something I need to overcome especially going into this new phase of Artificial Intelligence.  So if I start to drift away it most likely isn't a reflection of you. The cycle goes I need alone time to recharge then I realise how long has passed and I just feel so bad I haven’t gotten back, I tell myself I’m an awful friend for dissociating for so long, and then I don’t know how to explain that so my anxiety rises, mood drops and I spiral back into a pit of depression, often wanting to relapse but refraining from doing so. Sometimes I manage to get out of the pit, but by then so much has piled up I don't know where or how to begin again.

I don't feel like I could have a normal friendship as well as romantic relationship. It's hard for me to long term imagine myself being fully relaxed enough to let my guard down and not reluctant to express. I don’t think there’s any condition where ill just be came and enjoy a connection without worrying that the other person isn’t putting in as much effort, or they have an image of me, or that I’ve amplified the emotions and even though I feel them that way do they really understand me or love me as much. Silence is so upsetting and I hate the fact I do it when I'm afraid of myself or don't feel good enough. I never intent for it to become 'the silent treatment' because in reality its not treating anyone, it's more a reflection of what I’m internalizing and not wanting or being unable to project and express those feelings without feeling like party pooper, an attention seeker or 'too deep'. I don't mean to give people false hope, I love the people in my life so much and every one I’ve met on this journey. I'm learning to look at life through a different lens and the people who contributed to my suffering will not be the definition of me. People have led me to believe so much and strung me along, not letting me go- and I realised those entitled controlling abusive relationships were not serving me. I couldn't keep doing it. Now even though I want closeness I end up pushing people away or leaving them in the dark because of fear, especially of something new because I've never experienced anything good and true for a long enough duration of time to rid me of that fear. I also have fear of rejection or hurting, I fear becoming too emotionally invested and becoming co dependant so I end up wanting to avoid the pain than actually wanting to experience the joy and growth the relationship could offer, so I end it before it begins to avoid any possible pain. I feel like I don't deserve these connections,and sometimes the depression runs so deep I have to push people away in case I want to do something stupid- I don’t want them to feel at fault, or obligated to be able to handle me. Sometimes I really can just only be with myself and my thoughts so I hide but it may appear that I’m pushing others away because of my isolation and neglect.

With everyone I know, I get this feeling that they're too good for me, their energy is so radiant and loving but I feel so broken and don’t want to depend on that. I've had perfectly ideal people come into my life and I feel they’re too good for me because I have a lot of work to do on myself first, primarily I need to build up confidence and self esteem because it's the root of most my issues. I want to relate to people, share our deepest fears and wishes without fear of judgement. It's not that I don't want to get better, I simply cannot remember what it was like to have an actual honest to god normal personality. The feeling of being a mentally unstable chameleon is all I have  now. I AM my illness, that's the only identifier I have left. I can't remember normality.

I understand that I’m lucky and I’m not ungrateful for the things and people I do have, it doesn’t mean that my life doesn’t suck because of those lucky things. I often think about if someone created technology to transfer life to another, I’d happily give them mine because they'd live it much better than me, I’m not worth anything to myself. I never wanted to be someone to cause pain on the people I love but now I do, even if that’s just through silence. I just disappear when I haven’t been doing well and  although I know things get better, recovery isn’t linear and that not all my days are bad, I just have extreme chronic feelings of emptiness.

I struggle to trust people because I don't want to be hurt but I need people so much, I hate feeling unloved. It's so overwhelming because I feel everything so extremely as if I’m going to explode.

My sense of self and reality feels destroyed, my future and dreams are uncertain and it's hard for me to move on, sometimes it scares me what I’m doing to people without the intention of it, being too much or not enough- or at least feeling that way. It's hard for me to give myself a reason and it's not on the people around me to fill my empty void, I hate forcing people to be my friend or understand my illness. I cant expect anyone to want to- it feels like I’m holding their hand while they pull it away; and even though it's not the case I feel awful, I constantly feel like I’m in a more pessimistic head space. I'm worried people will realise I'm as pathetic as I say I am.

[makeetelich92]

Signs that You Crave to be Healthier

When we chat more or less health, we usually pertain to how often we get a cool or get a fever. But that is not the forlorn way we can bill health. You could be someone who barely gets a cool or fever but you would be surprised how unhealthy you are. You just dont message it. docusate sodium 100

Okay, correspondingly you may be asking why it matters if you arent getting sick anyway. Well, that is a pretty fine question. The matter is even if you dont look yourself getting sick, you could nevertheless be unhealthy upon the inside. You are nevertheless affected even while these effects arent really things that youd declare to be the cause of dearth of fine health. And in the same way as regards to getting sick, just because you arent sick now doesnt endeavor that you arent going to get sick in the future.

Are you ready to know if you are healthy or unhealthy? gain access to upon below. 

You Lack Sleep

Some people can pull off not going to snooze and nevertheless quality mighty and healthy but just because you quality it does not endeavor that it isnt true.

If you arent skilled to snooze because you helpfully cant even if you tried, this could endeavor that there is something wrong in the same way as your system.

It could be in your routines, in the food you eat, or whatnot. It could even be your dearth of being activity.

Whatever it is, it may not lead to any nice of disorder but youll know that something is wrong if you cannot snooze even if you want to or in the same way as you wake happening in the day you quality correspondingly weary even while youve already slept correspondingly many hours.

The dearth of snooze and dearth of life will eventually get the best of you and later your body will collapse. Not in the way that you will die or something in the same way as that but you will be completely sick every of the get older that you can barely get everything done. 

You quality Out Of Energy

Lack of snooze is not the forlorn matter that will make you unhealthy. If you quality that you never have the life to realize the things that you set out to do, it means that you dearth the vitamins and nutrients for it.

It means that you are probably not eating right or if you are, your nutritional system could nevertheless use a bit of bill by drinking some vitamins.

If you realize not have a lot of energy, it is a sign that there is a vitamin or nutrient dearth somewhere. And you have to realize agreement in the same way as it soon. It might be a fine idea to check in in the same way as a doctor to know what nice of nutrients your body is missing.

You Easily get Tired

Easily getting weary is a sign that your body inside and out is not equipped to save happening in the same way as being tasks. In that sense, you craving to realize some foundational training to urge on it become healthier. This means that you craving to exercise daily.

Perhaps a 20-minute jogging a day will be a fine begin or you could sign happening for a gym relationship to urge on you commit to a routine.

[foulserpent]

i think the best thing you can do for yourself as an artist if youre actively trying to improve and get engagement is prioritizing quantity over like , polished finish. like saving really good ideas youre super excited about for the big paintings, but making a lot of sketches and less intensive work  on a daily basis (or as the motivation strikes, you dont want to burn yourself out and you arent a failure for taking breaks of days, weeks, months, whatever)

like not CHURNING OUT things that youre unhappy about, but if you have an idea you want to show that doesnt Require a heavy polish, commit to taking just an hour or two at most to create it, and going with what you have. try drawing on pen on paper so you cant erase. that sort of thing. perfectionism is hard to get over but youll never get over it if you keep feeding it

[sukitaro]

Unseen Machinations

Nearest the hour of true midnight, Suki silently trekked her way along the main Mists roadway, flanked on her left by a darkened ocean horizon. The rhythmic crashing of gentle waves against shoreline rock faces did it’s part in keeping her footsteps casually slow. In her mind, there were few natural melodies sweeter to her senses. Her eyelids lowered just a tad, only to lift up once again as she had arrived at her destination - her beloved Onsen estate.

She silently opened the main door to the interior izakaya, dutifully removing her boots and leaving them off to the side before making her way for the hallway to lead to the Onsen ‘dorms’. Much had unfolded in the previous few weeks in way of development and drastic alterations to her daily way of life. Even with the looming apprehension of rehearsing for the Onsen’s much beloved seasonal Street Faire, her focus was elsewhere. A fresh environment with the widest array of technological wonders and tools of war a rather superstitious girl could imagine. She favored her beasts - be in domestic or far too massive for a household setting - but spent what free time she was afforded learning of such convoluted mechanical theories and tricks. It was of benefit to learn the basics in any given field. Difficulties inevitable, she was hardly alone in her attempt to understand.

Her assistance came in the form of cat ears, a love for chocobos and an unending zeal for the exciting things in life, be it Blitzball or Magitek inventions.

He was a man known to her for the better portion of a year. Their time spent getting to know one another had been woefully cut short time and time again. Still, time and time again he solidified himself as a stalwart protector. It wasn’t until the conclusion of the return of the accursed Kisaragi that she learned a rather unfortunate truth. He was…

She halted as she neared her room. She settled her gaze upon her front door, opened as wide as the hinges would allow for. The Raen knitted her brows together, casting a wary look over her shoulder down the long pass of the hallway. Having returned from her exploration of the wider Coerthas and Dravanian area that week, she began to wonder if she -had- forgotten to shut her door before embarking. Perhaps.

Inhaling, Suki reached for a hoodie pocket, pulling free a diminutive Kunai blade. She crept for the interior of her room, as low to the ground as she could bend. The Raen stood in the center of her relatively empty abode, feet shoulder width apart. She let the sound of silence hang for the moment before pivoting on a heel, shutting her room door with a gentle ‘click’.

“Took your time, did you?”

A silhouette stood, leaned lazily against the wall to her left with arms folded. Decked out in an impressive show of odd armor, littered with metallic plate and small sections of artificially glowing light with a neon red tint. He was a Midlander of taller-than-average stature, any defining features were masked by black metallic leathers and a masked hood, two slits of gleaming red to allow for adequate sight. He stared off to the opposite side of the small room, seeming generally disinterested in however the Auri would take to his presence.

Suki whipped about, jamming the tip of her wielded Kunai blade towards the unexpected guest. She was hardly equipped for a confrontation. A white hoodie, black jeans and grey faux fur boots were all she had on her person. <”What exactly do you think you’re doing?”> Her tone was sharp, tail swiping at the air in a clear show of aggression. <”Are you lost?”>

The stranger drummed his digits along his biceps. “I dare not speak your savage tongue.” Continuing in Eorzean Common as she spoke in native Hingan. “I was feeling a bit lonely. We are social creatures.” He droned on, pushing himself from the wall and sauntering towards the shoji screen leading to the nightly futon. As he slid it open with a finger, he casted a look over his shoulder. “Never quite understood your deplorable cultural fascinations with everything paper and fragile.”

“I have not the time or willpower to explain to an intruder. Get. Out.” Suki tightened her grip on her Kunai, taking a footstep forth. “You wish for company? Pester one of your own. You reek of Magitek. I am not fooled easily when dealing with your kind.”

“My own?” He mused, slowly pivoting on a heel to face her head-on. Still a yalm in distance from her readied blade. “They are convenient at best, aimless at worse. After all...yours’ is a face I have committed to memory. How long? Two winters?” He regarded the Auri with a canted head, arms at his sides. Cool, confident, and plainly sure she would do no harm. “Torvath had always proven himself little more than a screeching meathead unfit to lead a band of infants, let alone a squadron to call his own.” The stranger fell silent, a transparent and complicated ring of an unknown pattern manifesting before his left eye. Floating and analyzing, as if he had activated something amidst the monologue. “Did you think us gone?”

Knitting her brows, Suki listened with an increasingly puzzled expression. “Ralis quo Torvath? His squadron? I had hoped you lot would have found better ways to go about your day. Regardless, you are of little worry to me. Just another name to be forgotten in a winter’s time!” She charged, Kunai poised for the throat in a stabbing motion.

The Midlander’s recently produced ‘red ring’ sparked in intensity, sending a pressurized pulse to burst from the center point.

The Auri’s Kunai fell to splinter the tatami flooring, hands flying up to grip at her horns as she collapsed to her knees a few yalms away. Her knuckles were white. Tail curled upwards in a sharp display of discomfort. Lowering her forehead to the tatami, veins popped along her throat and forehead, her limbs following suit - even if covered with loose fabric. Feeble attempts to speak were muted, as if she feared an open mouth would subject her interior to the same agony. The pressurized pulse continued to radiate in waves, rattling her teeth.

“What a situation. You wish to discuss ‘better ways to go about my day’?” He approached the downed Raen, standing over her form and leaning down. “Magitek mastery. Allagan enhancements. The knowledge of the VIIth Legion is hardly lost to me.” With his closer proximity, the waves of pressurized pulses savagely spiked in severity.

Suki tore her elongated canines into the tatami flooring, splintering the material as small cracks formed within her horns and sections of her tail. After some time more, a tail spine detached entirely, falling to the tatami in a shattered heap of fragments. Blood welled up from her palms, grip on her horns reaching a critical high. Still, no words came out.

The stranger, after another few moments of maintaining his produced pulse, abruptly cut it off. The ring hovering before his left eye dissipated, sending the Auri onto her stomach in panicked heaves. He watched her silently, pivoting on a heel and heading for the front door. “Perhaps in another scenario, you will remember this day. Choose your battles wisely.”

Suki carefully watched him leave, just in time to see him open up her door. He slowly faded into nothing, and after another moment, all was quiet. Letting her head drop again, she caught her breath. Mind racing.

It was a doomed second encounter waiting to happen.