#cant believe i saw him again
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
if trc was a visual medium and I was a tiktoker i would go insane talking about quiet luxury and how Declan and Adam both fall into this position of people with OBJECTIVELY less money compared to their peers and how both of them are trying to replicate luxury (ie: clothing=persona/identity) to varying levels of success. adam wears old gifts from the ganseys and declan is very clearly called out by other characters to be overcompensating. neither are fully seamless and even though thats not an overt plot point it is DEFINITELY very significant since plenty of their story beats echo each other down to their relationship with ronan, who is a different fashion debate (eg. how punk can you get off of a bank account you dont need to look at and a shaved head which needs to be constantly maintained and a BMW you stole w no repurcussion). again I DO think stief implies fascinating plot points that she doesn't focus on but her display of class and economic variation is very very cool & obviously people w more context of specific USAmerican culture can have this debate better than I can
editing to link the video that finally helped me put this thought into words
#since we don't have a visual representation yet & i refuse to acknowledge stief's art I'm just gonna mention some hcs#i think all of us are pretty set on what gansey looks/wears#my interest comes from declan. i dont believe his suits are made to fit. theyre tailored MAYBE but not made for him#and visually putting him in these political spaces where the suit has such value is. Gahhh#[gestures vaguely at succession] look how they did it!!#this gorg author i saw said that the working class cant attain quiet luxury bc we dont have the Breeding for it#and declan exists as a first generation very new money individual as compared to gansey or even henry#(on that note gansey and henry have different kinds of wealth but frankly i believe there IS a millions/billions differential there)#but again. not enough information to yap#but. Very cool#trc
211 notes
·
View notes
Text
Why do people keep saying they want Agatha to adopt Billy or that Billy is a motherless child or that Agatha is Billy's new mom.... Y'all he says Rebecca is his mom, canonically in the show. Agatha isn't his mom.
#agatha all along#agatha harkness#william kaplan#rebecca kaplan#billy maximoff#Agatha isnt his mome hes has enough moms hes got Rebecca and maybe Wanda in the future. for THREE YEARS Rebecca was his mom#put some respect on her name#i cant believe i have to keep saying this#agatha isnt his mom. billy isnt a replacement nicky. agatha cares for billy yes but why does that have to be she his mom now?#i love my nieces ans nephews are they my children? no. im their aunt. id still help them need be. agatha has no parental power over billy#i see her as more aunt figure or mentor. why does she have to be his mom? he has enough moms? i thought we settled on Fun Aunt Agatha?#a coven is a non traditional family unit why do we have to put them in traditional family boxes?#hell the whole kaplan-maximoff-shepherd dynamic isnt traditional its messy and complicated. why would you want to water it down?#...........#i saw someone on tiktok say they want Agatha to Adopt Billy....how. would that work? he has two. perfectly alive and loving parents at home?#he loves them? he talks about them? he calls them his mom and dad? he spent 3 years with them? they're not abusive or horrible people!#why would he leave them? again HE LOVES THEM! Did you miss the part where he hugges them and looks at them fondly and they love him?#you want the twin with shit parents that would leave them and never look back? THATS TOMMY!
38 notes
·
View notes
Note
hi evie !! how have you been ? :33 i hope you dont mind me borrowing you and moze for something ehehe <3
#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 nick!#彡 inbox.#evie.ss#omg good morning nick! my stomach literally twisted and flipped seeing this /pos /POS /the most positive gut wrenching feeling in existence#NICK AND THE REASON WAS ? WHY DO U NOT HAVE A KOFI LINK WHERE IS IT …. THIS ISNT OK I NEED TO FIND IT???? U CANNOT BE … BE …. BE UM … YOU K#I NEED TO 😭😭😭 I NEED ….. IS IT OBVIOUSLY IM CRYING WRITING THINSSJSJSN /pos /ULTRA POS THIS IS SO CUTE UR ART IS SOOOO AWESME IM SO IN AWE😭#typos: obvious* <- & barrier* -> amazing work evie#i broke the sound banner with the screech i made seeing this …. YOU … YOU DREW ME … THE EXACT WAY ….. I .. ITS SO SPOT ON I ????? I … IM#FLABBERGASTED . SHELL SHOCKED . GOBSMACKED IM SO OBSESSED WITH HOW U DID MY HAIR …. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I DO MY HAID … AND THE CURLS ARE LI#LIKE THAT… IM SO OBSESSED WITH UR STYLE JSJSJJD HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID IT???? UR STYLE IS MMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!! 1000/1000!!!!!! in specif#the colors … the colors are gorgeous and sooo nice to gaze at … the little wings … HOW DID YOU KNOW I LIKE- IM SO . (hugs knees and cries#YOU DREW THAT DRESS AWESOME-LY …. IM GENUINELY LOSING MY MIND AND I HAVENG EVEN .. looked at *him* ….. nick …. im complimenting it and i#can’t even see rn HEJSJCKCNITS BLURRY 😭😭 my head hurts so bad from sobbing but ive never been happier /pos IM SO ???? I LOVE HOW U DREW ME#i went to go triple check for the kofilink and found myself browsing through puppetgear tag once again u^u JENDNDKXJ oh my god . PLEASEEEEE#ok…. moze … he’s … so tiny .. he’s so cute … he looks so grumpy :’) /pos AND YOU .. u captured his squishable look omg….. he’s so teeny he’#literally as big as a fingernail on my phone im :’) HES POCKET SIZED I CANT BELIEVE U DID THIS /pos /ETERNALLY GRATEFUL#WHY 😭😭😭😭😭 YOURE SO KIND IM SO . IM SITTING ON THE FLOOR OF MY ROOM SNIFFLING AND HICCUPING AHENDNJXKC AND STARING AT THIS OF COUESE#i just saw the ask 😭 i definitely don’t mind im literally on my hands and knees to thank you and it’s still not enough JSNSNDNMC i have to#dig a dent in the hole and bow inside the hole …… it’s not enough … i genuinely love every square inch of this JSNDNXN i just adore … how u#did me … how u did moze (so— everything) even the circle in the background is a color that i adore 😞😞 sniffle …..#what a treat to see moze in ur style 😭😭 what a HUGE . Nice . AMAZING. TREAT . he looks so good in ur style UGH I WANNA FLOAT AWAY#the physical reaction i had in my stomach & head is unmatched /pos …. it’s vaguely similar to when u get called on in class while nervous .#and ur stomach flips .. but in a positive / EVSTATIC / insanely happy way … thank you so much omfg (link?) (please?) you are so kind ….#i don’t even know how to convey my gratefulness so im resorting to crying-staring-crying-staring-crying#(cries)#oh i never answered ur question haha :’) yea im great! :’) and you? :’)#im gonna put this in queue >/////< URK IM SO …. THANK U NICK ))))))):::: (link perhap?)#edit: OHHHH I SEE HOW U DID MY HAIR COLOR!!!!! that is so cool hello? it’s black- but not? and it fits so perfectly!!!! THAT IS SOO COOL WJ#NO WONDER I WAS ADMIRING THE COLORS EARLIER THIS IS SUCH A COOL THING (nonartist tries to explain how neat something is) NSNDNXKK
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
I think the most baffling thing about the Tulpar as a vessel to me is the fact that the ship really did only have a one way communication system.
I know it was cheap but even the most basic of vessels regarding major transport would have some way, shape or form for outside communication. Not only that but there was absolutely no form of innate emergency signal to show they may have been offline or in trouble despite clearly having a system to dock credits if they went off course. It's another factor that really shows that bad situations are made to get worse by design. One person who is required to relay all information to the crew and make all the choices without feedback. No way to update or call for help in case of a dire situation. No way to inform of inner personal conflicts and acquire procedures accordingly.
It really is like they are all in some sort of fucked up solitary confinement. They have their own world with strict roles that are meaningless in the end, as long as the cargo makes it, it doesn't matter what happens on that ship to the company. They don't want to hear anything and will come to conclusions on what happened based on how much pay they can withhold from the workers. Even what they do send is short, sterile and corporate to the extent it was likely written and sent out with a command by some random unmanned computer in an office.
There's something to be said about how unfair it is to force absolute power and control onto one person when you as an entity could do so much more to offload it but I've said it many times before so I won't again.
#its just like idk i dont think Curly was a bad captain because we only have this scenerio and I certainly dont think a man like Swansea#would like him or have very little issues with him specifically if he was incompentent or too lienent in the past but I do think the stress#was making him worse and worse as being a present leader as it dawned on him how much he actually had to handle like I really think he#just wanted to do yknow normal captain pilot stuff and fly the ship and yknow the little stuff like make sure things run right and over tim#the constant stress and strain of having to make every major choice started to grate on him and freak him out cause they cant even fucking#eat unless he pulls out the scanner and starts cooking like he has to choose the meal likely or have a vote and i make that part of the#reason he seems so indecisive and inactive is the fact he has to make the choice all the time and he's hoping he can at least make the crew#feel a little more in control of themselves as people by staying out of affairs like the game or disputes because god he literally has to#choose for them all the time like thats a lot of responsibility monitering their sleep their breaks food consumption thats all on him like#it really should be another persons job entirely as thats almost like absoulte contrl over the lives of everyone else that PE forces onto#that title and its also crazy how everyone accepts it even if they dont like it like they broke the food machine open rather than get the#scanner they all waited two months before Jimmy appointed himself leader its so scary how conditioned they all are to the environemnt#cause that sort of mindset is sadly real where people just wait everyone just waited until it was getting real dire and then they still#followed Jimmy without too many complaints like i saw a fic or post where Anya acknowledges they all kinda just let Jimmy do what they want#because he became the captain and it was stupid on all their parts cause they could clearly see how bad he was and yet he was captain so#they just fell in line to their roles and thats a bigger point towards how PE treated them and the complacency capitalism brings to you#just like something that irks me because idk I know Curly is slow to act but he's not as like unopinionated as people make him out to be#like he does try to find solutions but they are still restricted at the end of the day by what PE provides them and I think his biggest c#crime is being in his own head too much and not giving Anya that emotional stability cause like idk man was he supposed to go to Home Depot#himself and install like padlocks? even if the let Anya sleep in medical after she pointed it out she was already pregnant at that point#like we arent seeing the inherent issue that no one not even Anya herself was thinking of the preventative measures because a)there was a#point nothing was happening that necessitated them b) it would've been the responsibility of PE to address them pre and post incident and c#there is only one person on the entire ship given the authority to do anything. You can not make multiple important choices in one instance#in such little time and Curly should not have had that total power like i think the most interesting thing in takes that really blame Curly#is that level of control they give him over the company. Like again i think about the three days we miss between the eval/party and the#convo/crash like i think people switch them around as if those scenes happen in succession when they are broken up and its heavily implied#Curly and Jimmy just havent been talking vs the depiction that she told him and for like three days Curly was just chummy despite the fact#Jimmy and him just had a blow out fight like the next time we assume they talk is during the crash sequence cause he honestly hangs#around Anya more which i think is really important because she trust Curly to defend her himself but not his judgement to give her somethin#to defend herself as she knows he believes her but also knows she's not seeing the danger the same and its heartbreaking and more
19 notes
·
View notes
Text
propaganda under the cut:
alex
aleksa
#for everyone who saw the first poll but not the post leading up to it where i wondered whether i should make it again: im making it again#ididathing#alex apollonov#boy boy#aleksa vulović#i kind of think stating my vote is redundant at this point but yeah ... sighs stinking style ... its alex#i cant believe i included more half naked photos of aleksa than alex but to me the ice dick photo reveals more abt him than any#half naked photo ever could in my humbe opinion#poll
80 notes
·
View notes
Text
i know we all hate tritter but if we think about him as a metaphor instead of a person i think the arc is pretty interesting. especially when we look back at euphoria and note the themes about cops and power there.
the difference between house and a cop (or house and his father or house and god) is that no matter what kind of moralistic view house has (whether it be the deeply flawed one from his dad or his own) house is /always/ up against something taking his agency.
house, especially in the earlier seasons, conflates power with agency. i assume, because that was the case for him growing up: his dad had the power, so he made the decisions about what happens to house's body.
we also see it in the fact society has outcast him, his leg crippled him, his addiction controls him. and perhaps even how his own belief system prevents him from being happy
so when the tritter arc happens and we see this almost comedically evil villain actually able to punish house (unlike the sick cop from euphoria who just like, dies) its not only a representation of the outside forces that conspire against house, but a reflection of the mans own policing system.
a lot of the tritter arc is made for house to confront his own power and how he wields it over others. he outwardly denies any hipocracy or self-destructive behavior, because he believes that his loss of power is loss of agency (because that has been true his whole life). tritter is a bad cop thru and thru but at the end of the day, house does give in, he does apologize to wilson despite having mixed feelings about the whole thing.
in reality we see house reflect a lot of what tritter is saying. in the rehab scene he says nothing matters, that rehab is all fake and cant fix anything. then tritter comes and house gets mad bc tritter wont give him a chance. but tritter says the same thing house does: you cant change, you wont change. house's anger at this could be interpreted as he's pissed hes not getting off, but i think it shows that house really /wishes/ that rehab could work, that people can change. he wishes that his actions to be better made any difference. that he had the power/agency to control his fate
and at the end of court, tritter says the same thing: i hope im wrong about you.
#house md#i think this theme is through a lot of the show#house is quite fatalistic/deterministic at the end of the day#unfortunately its also kind of a self fulfilling prophesy#but even the tritter arc here admits that tritter is wrong#that houses misguided beliefs about power and control are not helpful or justified#again house knows that tritter his father the world is wrong in a lot of ways#but he also feels inherently wrong and does a lot of shitty stuff so he almost believes that those people are justified in their abuse#and if he cant change those people he might as well as be as bad as they think he is bc then he can pretend he deserves it#but deep down he wants to be loved and valued and to change#even if he cant or doesnt think he can#and i wish that we saw more of that from him in a way that wasnt immediately crushed after#season six finale im literally looking at you
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
What if I was your servant and you promised me a better life and I believed you and then you used me and resented me I saw you at your worst and I held the attention of someone you loved despite the fact you treat them like shit and so you took out your anger on me all the cruelty in the world and as I suffered you sat back with a cup of tea and smiled and you killed your beloved in front of me just to prove a point that they belonged to you and all I can do is watch and then when you just can’t stand the sight of me anymore you cry loud enough for the world to hear you that I’m the dangerous one, a wicked seductress, a witch, and I burn and burn and burn and you go home and laugh, relieved of this burden, the world sings your praises yet you are nothing but alone and miserable and I crawl my way in i appear in your mirror I breathe down your neck you bleed all my blood and you drown in it and it’s funny really how for someone who’s supposedly so evil all I have to do to provoke you is stare with honest eyes and that sight just pushes you over the edge and you have the fucking audacity to scream, plead for help, to actually sob about it like you’re the victim like you’ve always been the poor little victim and you tighten your rope and breathe your last breath and I embrace you from behind and drag my teeth across your neck and dig my nails into your chest and you wait for it to fade to black but your eyes refuse to close and I squeeze over your heart and feel it beat faster and faster and we laugh together and we both know I can see how pathetic you really are and I just keep holding you tighter because I don’t want to know what’d happen if I let you go I don’t think I could ever take my eyes off you again and you could’ve apologized to me even once but you never fucking did and you never will and the world will always see you as the beautiful tragic victim, the hero this town needed, and when they think of evil my face will always be the one they see every fucking time and so I refuse to let go and let you go on believing you’re a saint, committing every atrocity imaginable and using my name to do so, you’re going to hell with me and we will burn and burn and burn and we’re literally both girls 😳🙊🙀
#the letter#the letter visual novel#guyssss i just need it to be known. that this game. this game fucks me up#literally no one is doing toxic yuri like takako and lady charlotte#i fucking hate charlotte so much its like kinda really funny how shes like ‘help me so i can die peacefully and go to heaven 🥺’#its like oh honey its really admirable how you honestly think youre getting into heaven aksjks#i refuse to believe it like i know we’re working with a ‘god is fucked up and Catholics are evil’ perspective which i love but#despite this i just cant let this asshole get into heaven man 😩#im just here for takako im playing video games with her and giving her a bunch of cats and jelly babies#she and kylie can play on the playground okaayyyy#also i uh once again must point out the zach/takako parallels and in particular THE EYESSSSS THE EYES#and how they roll under lukes bed right in the middle where he cant reach so theyre just permanently there and theyre positioned to always#be watching him like he can lie his ass off but zach saw him and knows just how disgusting he is#and luke has to live with that forever he cant escape being seen those eyes are gonna be on him for the rest of his life#im so deeply normal
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
I am fighting the primal instinct to ship two rivals with a blue n red colour pallete that parallel each other...again...and they are predictably both guys...and yes this is about atla...yes I know the ship is obvious guys but just don't say it I am trying my hardest here...but the fanfic is making it really, really difficult...feel free to mock me once I stop this fruitless endeavour and free myself when from drowning in the nile (sorry, I am Egyptian, had to make the joke)
#i hate myself for this so much. i promised myself i wouldn't do it. i promised.#it happened with narumistu/wrightworth#it happened with onewaybroadcast (not radiostatic). it happened with too many ships i cant remember atm#i cant believe i am starting to ship zutara but worse (sarcastic chorus' words not mine. him avoiding that ship like the plague in that one#video was so funny to me. and it made me feel called out aswell)#and the problem is#I PREDICTED THIS. I FUCKING PREDICTED IT. I SAW THE FANART BEFORE WATCHINF RHE SHOW. I KNEW I WAS GONNA SHIP THEM BUT I TRIED MY HARDEST NOT#TO. BUT I FUCKING FAILED. AGAIN. I HATE THIS. THIS GODDAMN SHIP MAN. I WONT SAY ITS NAME. I KNOW ITS OBVIOUS BUT I WILL LIVE IN THE NILE#maybe...just maybe...i can bully myself hard enough till i stop. that's what i did with saiouma. yes...perfect....#BUT THE FANFIC IS GOOD I DONT WANNA STOP READING IT 😭😭😭#sobek freakposting
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
time for wild speculation. this is actually bubby
#ac3.txt#hlvrai#hl2vrai#i guess? yeah but the formers my catchall so#anyway we saw kleiner who was based on bubbys scientist model BUT#we saw og coomer#i think bubby n coomer stayed the same#while tommy is now gman#and benrey? i want to believe hes just barney now LMAO#but he could be evil again too ig. cant blame him#also i think the guy getting beat up was forzen. i have no logical reasoning for this#i hope darnold appears hes underrated
35 notes
·
View notes
Text
guys im so excited to see woozi
#i cant believe im gonna see him fr!!!!#saw his haircut and started foaming at the mouth. i have feelings for him#svt#woozi#im talking again
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
considering my brand is bitching about FH all day, sometimes I feel bad at convincing myself wcsmp didn’t end well for scott and milo. Like damn girl leave him with SOMETHING…
#In my defense exactly 0 people were seriously expecting the good ending#i saw people jokingly predict milo wouldn’t give a fuck about the murders or the selling his soul for immortality or the#But then again you need to be able to look past the horrors to date scott i think. the concerning level of attachment was part of the deal#I just. Ohhh I cant look past what he was willing to do for milo. I can’t look past the amount of self destruction#Glad it ended well for him but the canon ending is like. some better alternate reality fantasy for me#Which is crazy because IT IS THE CANON ENDING ITS LITERALLY REAL#but i still catch myself thinking man… I wish everything worked out for him and milo :/#AS IF IT DIDNT????#HES LITERALLY HAPPY AND IN LOVE????#I just cant believe it like there’s no way#What happens when milo dies again. Scott is still a litch with like eight spare souls its very unlikely he dies first#What happens then? Eight consecutive suicides?#Like girl please go to therapy before that happens. Im afraid of what you’ll do to the world or yourself or both#*he* might not have magic anymore but he’d figure out something for sure#bree barks so fucking loud
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
uwaaaa just watched the sm game caterers and it was better than i expected T_T they edited it really well
#loved changmin in this he was so funny with his deadpan phrases and honest bewildered expressions#karina did sooooo welll but i wish she was more confident 😭😭😭😭😭#suho was pissing me off in the music guess game but when it came to the character guess game he shined so well and redeemed himself#wonbin didn't do that well but we could see that from ten miles away. at least he tried#what i found cute was how all seniors were helping him#ALSO THAT SCENE OF KARINA THREATENING HIM WAS SO FUNNYYYYYY karina my beloved#i wish she stood her ground the joke wouldve been 10x funnier but she started apologizing like a madman like chill babe this is a game....#ALSO KANGTAAAAAA he was so good and so funny it has been 10 billion years since hes been in a variety show omg#hyoyeon was very funny too i like how she acts so clueless and shameless#genuinely forgot seulgi was there i dnt think she had her moment....#but it was nice to see her and hyeyeon and karina clinging to each other#doyoung did horribly omg i still cant believe they called him instead of literally any other person.#leeteuk did well but he has 100000 billion years experience in hosting and variety so it'd be weird if he didnt do well#key was the saving grace from this episode but then again. he was the most professional out of all of them. it was to be expected#did i miss anyone...? well#overall i dont think this is re watchable as much as the hybe episode is#and i liked how they brought it up in the end that sm should try to bring their artists together more#and they didnt say it but it was. in between the lines. that after lsm left the company just hasnt been trying at all LOL#also killed me how when they were introducing themselves kangta said well some manager (lsm) casted me when he saw me dancing w friends lol#01
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
crazy how i have no one
#like yes i have my internet friends and i adore them ofc#but i have no fucking one irl#and i mean no one. my mom’s side of the family is all dead and the other side is uber christian and doesnt give a fuck about us#i only have my brother#and i need help and support so horribly bad but i wasnt there for him when he needed me#so why the hell should he be there for me. he shouldnt#im going to have to rely on myself this time and i cant do that#i dont trust or believe in myself whatsoever#i think im fucking horrible and useless and repulsive#and idk how to be nice to myself bc ive never felt that and i dont know how to self soothe#i dont have the energy physically or mentally or emotionally to learn#and idk what to lean on anymore if i want to quit abusing substances#realized recently how much i do that.#and for how long. a decade. ive been acting like a 13 yo this whole time#idk how to move past and grow up. god i absolutely need to see my therapist again. if she’ll have me#i fear ill be rejected tho ive left and came back several times and last time she said ‘ofc ill take you back youre my person’#whatever that means. ive been an anomaly to every therapist/psych ive been to apparently they all mention how weird i am and how they cant#figure me out. like damn me too doc!#i want to email her so bad but i wont be able to see her until my insurance goes thru and i dont want to get free labor out of her if i dump#all the trauma ive sustained since i last saw her on her yw#but i want to get better i dont want to live like this anymore i cant do it#any of it#my coping mechanisms are all self destructive and i want to grow past that#but i need help and i dont have it. not really#whatever i guess. first step call and see wtfs going on w my insurance#i feel like i need help even for that . i feel so utterly incapable of everything snd i always have#i can do it. i can do it
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
When it suddenly hits you like a brick that maybe, maybe your husband of 7 years isnt so bad after all
All it took was dying once and actually talking to each other without pulling out their weapons in microseconds.
#LEO VER LATER#Too sleepy orz#Agnes angry crushing over him is the funniest thing ever#Like “This loathesome blond twink is actually not a stuck up idiot l??!!!"#“Cant believe his jokes are actually funny. Am I dying again?”#“He certainly used some sort of magic. no way i could like this-?!!!!!”#*saw Leo blowing up a castle wall to smithereens nonchalantly and was enchanted all over again*#regressor fam#Agnes van arsdale#Leon Helcaris#doodles#agneo
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/#but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment#i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating#there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2#months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it#not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him#in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to.#until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if#he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone#and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think#there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy#your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you)#and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly#so last night#i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text.#i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart#until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent#that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real#did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart#and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about#and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in#which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever#it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in.#just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the#reason that he went away on me.#im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying#not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me#that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest.#and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs#he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
a compilation of Asbel canonically being an angsty little bitch:
#dolphin plays graces again#asbel lhant#all of these are from today he's currently in his emo era#tbf he did recently lose his dad abandon his dream and get banished from his home#he's trying REALLY hard to be useful to richard and sophie here and has some obvious doubts and insecurities about it#like he's actually more suspicious of pascal than richard is. which of them has trust issues again?#but i think he' wary bc he's trying to protect sophie and richard. he's sort of the leader of the group rn and she's a strange stranger 😅#i dont think i previously saw that skit you can get if you try to go back to lhant. i cant believe mr. power of friendship just said that :#tho it's debatable whether he's tossing away his friends/family/home or if he feels like the one who has been tossed#anyway all of this makes me feel better abt my own writing. see he CAN be petty and jealous and by god that savior complex#i didn't get a picture but he literally thanked richard for relying on him during a skit where he was worried abt failing to help sophie#dude needs to be needed it's the cornerstone of his mental health (which i chip away at regularly in writing 😂)
4 notes
·
View notes