#canonmate problems

[newfrontiers-memory-log]

[sonictheghost]

Hey!

So I pretty much just got here yesterday and I wish to introduce myself. I'm Sonic, Sonic the Hedgehog! I'm still learning about my identity and myself through this so I hope I'm cool with you all. So anyway, as for what I'll post here, I'm not quite sure yet but I'll probably post about the canon I come from, along with other kinds of personal ramblings and things of that sort. Maybe also a few memes and jokes, because end of the day I just want to hang around and talk, and maybe laugh a little.

I actually came across my canonmate, Tails (he is @majintails to be clear), the same day and we were conversing - he's helping me figure stuff out and encouraged me to make this blog. Very happy to see him! Especially since I've always wondered where he went. We appear to be from a Mobius that's from an AU, where compared to how it's depicted in SEGA's games and whatnot, it is more esoteric and darker (it may not be obvious from Tails' blog). Outside of just the original Sonic continuities, no real sources for it either unless you count his efforts.

I don't really have a DNI since I'm not sure there's a point or effectiveness in making one, but I guess buzz off if you' have a problem with 'kin, fictives, therians, basically anyone at all involved in alterhumanity or plurality, etc - I don't even know how or why you're here if you don't like them. And from what Tails told me and the general sound of it, also go away if you're proship / anti-anti or whatever, fuck you too. Otherwise just don't be evil or a asshole in general.

Call me "Sonic" or "Ghost" by the way. Either is fine, especially if you need to distinguish me from the other Hedgehogs here or just prefer one over the other.

[the-fictive-haven]

Seeing as we just had someone new arrive from another Circus yet again, I think it's finally time to do a - drumroll please - ... ✨sourcemate search!✨

We are looking for fictives/introjects from The Amazing Digital Circus to chat and hopefully become friends with host Yami and our own Circus gang! EVERYONE Circus related is welcome! Doubles? No problem. Traumagenic system? Great. Endo or self made? Awesome. You are or feel you're the same as the original? Cool! You're canon divergent or from an alternate world? Come on in! This is a safe space for all fictives and their sysmates.

Finding sourcemates would be awesome, but canonmates even more so! We'll give a quick description of everyone so you can get a better idea of who they are and if you'd like to get to know them, or if you may already know them!

Meet the cast;

>This group are all from the same timeline, which is very similar to the original one, but with some different events. All of them have memory of these same canon divergent happenings, or if not, have at the very least accepted the others as their canonmates.

(OG) Pomni - the first Circus introject to show up here. Nervous, breaks under pressure, prone to small outbursts, but a sweet girl and a good friend nonetheless.

(OG) Jax - has a bit of a softer side (don't tell him I said that) and more teasing and annoying than an outright violent jerk. Makes fun of me any chance he gets.

(OG) Ragatha - yeah she's the same personality-wise as the original canon, actually. One of the system "moms" and caretakers. Fuckin love her. So gay for this bitch.

(OG) Gangle - also the same. Clings to me like glue half the time because apparently I'm her security blanket or something, not that I mind. I have gotten the Jaxes to stop bullying her, though, even if only because I'm basically god here and they don't want to get put in time-out out of bounds (lol)

(OG) Zooble - we don't know a lot about her, actually. She doesn't bother to interact with anyone much and most of the time we have no idea where TF she is.

(OG) Caine - ... Caine.

>Everyone hereafter hails from an alternate reality! All of these divergent worlds are given codenames that'll be used when referencing these headmates to make distinguishing them easier.

The Darkside timeline: DS!Pomni - a more jaded and done-with-this-shit Pomni from a world where basically, everyone fucking died (abstracted). Her colour scheme is black, dark purple, and silver/grey. She usually appears glitched in our headspace, the abnormalities growing worse when she's distressed.

The Chain timeline: Chain!Jax - a more quiet Jax who keeps to himself and quite frankly doesn't give a damn. Dresses differently (sassy leather and jewelry type shit) and smokes for some odd reason, I don't even know where he's getting cigs from. The name of this timeline doesn't have much actual significance, it just needed to be named something.

The Ura timeline: Ura!Gangle - her default is comedy and she refuses to return to tragedy, literally destroying the mask and not looking back. While she may feel happier, the lack of balance has essentially made it turn into full-on mania and she'll carry on how she wants with no regard or notice of how it affects others. Also she has no sense of personal space. Her memories show that her world's Jax had grown low-key scared of her, she may have even bullied him back. Ribbons are blue instead of red.

That's everyone for now! But more are bound to keep coming in so we'll update this post as needed. Feel free to send asks, reply, repost, or message us!

[fictionkinfessions]

It really sucks to have issues with a character that canonically in your source is a good or at least decent person but in your personal canon was the absolute and utter *worst*

Like no I can't explain what my issue is with them without wanting to vomit. No there's nothing in source that's fucked. It's just me and my canonmate's problem because of course we have to be canon divergent in a horrible way

x

[lxvelycxmplex]

: ̗̀➛ ABOUT ME / INTRODUCTION .

nice 2 meet u, u can call me by any of my kin names, but especially claudia, rachel, chloe, jinx, cait or jodie! :3

im an 18 yr old girl with a huuuuge kinlist. i am a past life fictionkin!! im not new to kinblr at ALLLLL, just new acc-wise!! im always on the lookout for canonmates, sourcemates, and just plain old friends, so dont be afraid to dm- i dont bite!!

i have had an insane life- paranormal experiences, growing up in a haunted house, abilities, dimensional problems, and plenty more to tell u about. maybe no one will believe me, but it wont change anything for me. this is just my life. i hope i can feel less alone on this acc!!

my kinlist / sourcelist extends wayyy longer than my carrd allows, but to give you an idea, the umbrella academy, interview with the vampire, yellowjackets, life is strange, arcane, looking for alaska, beyond two souls, the last of us, tell me why, sally face, black butler, last night in soho, jennifers body, lisa frankenstein, i am not okay with this, the end of the fucking world, wayne, dinner in america, and stranger things are some starters.

my strongest kins, having the most memories and importance to my current life, are currently amma crellin, claudia de lioncourt, jinx, caitlyn kiramman, rachel amber, chloe price, ellie williams, jodie holmes and viktor/vanya hargreeves. honorable mentions are alaska young, nat scatorccio, and lottie matthews.

dm me or comment if u wanna talk mems, paranormal experiences, or just be friends! <3

[kincalling]

hello, i'm Orpheus DeRoss, from Identity V (IDV). i've recently gotten back into the game full-force and have finally come to terms with how horribly i am- well, Orpheus.

i'd love to talk to any other sourcemates. i kin spiritually, if that's an issue. doubles are not preferred, though i have no problem with them reaching out ("nightmare" does not fall under this label).

canonmates wise, i admit my memories are few and far between. i remember perhaps multiple timelines (it's complicated, and rather blurry) but i do somewhat remember my physical appearance, at the least. that being, moles, slightly longer hair, and a myriad of scars- the most notable being the music score along my arms.

you can reach me at @orphnort, or like this post and i'll do my best to reach out. i suppose i should warn that i am not the most extroverted, and i apologize for any awkwardness in advance. i'd prefer you be 18+ if interacting. i do also enjoy the darker and more horror-leaning aspects of my source, and enjoy discussing them, if that's important to you either way.

🐛

[confessions-official]

I kinda relate to that one confession about wishing to be a system. And I 100% know all the negatives!!! I've got a really close friend who's a system and I've spoken to others before!!

But the real reason that sometimes, in the dead of night, I wish that I wasn't just me, is because I'm fictionkin. I lived several past lives, and what I would give to potentially have a better chance at meeting a canonmate and always having them close. I wake up from nightmares about my sources and I can't tell anybody. I'm struck with such deep longing for people I will never see again that it physically hurts some days. Even if it's not a canonmate, just somebody from those sources I could almost always go to if I really needed.

I know that it's wrong to wish this. I know it and that is why I never say it out loud. But, there are several days where I just wish I could let somebody else take over for a bit, so I don't have to have wake up to the feeling of crushing anxiety every morning, so i don't have to listen to my parents yelling at my siblings every night, so i don't have to be a single somebody burdened with far too much for their age. To have a reason why I remember things happening but the memory is blurry, as if seen from a different person. To never be alone, even if it causes problems, because then I won't be abandoned again.

It's a silly wish, one that is probably hurtful to systems. and so I'm putting it here, and then it will become my secret once again.

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[mahou-shojo-anonymous]

About the Mod

I'm Aya, and I'm the moderator of Mahou Shojo Anonymous.

Adult (22 years old)

She/they AFAB genderfae

Aroace fictorose lesbian

I recently became interested in the kin community as a friend of mine was posting about kin related experiences. I started to explore on my own and discovered my kintypes along the way.

During this time I got into divination via pendulum readings and oracle cards. I performed readings on myself that led me to discovering I was kin with Aya Asagiri from Magical Girl Site. I was eager to find my sourcemates.

But there was a problem. Because I wasn't canon. In fact there were details in my readings that reflected my path had differed so wildly from canon that I had never even met other major characters.

Not only this, but to my dismay the blogs I found dedicated to magical girls were all years old and completely inactive. I had no hope of finding others like me through them.

So I decided to take matters into my own hands and begin a "Magical Girl Site" of my very own. A blog that caters to magical girls and helps them find their canonmates, kintypes, posts confessions, creates moodboards and aesthetics, etc.

My mission is to give magical girls like myself a comfortable community to exist in online! Feel free to ask me anything!

[lifeintheworldtocome]

[insert that one img thats like "oh nice i get to explain this to you. youre going to regret this"]

SO ok well we r blurry rn but one of our headmates is ctechnoblade (av is unable to specify if its kin or fictive and says its neither) and theres this one timeline thats basically a modern/urban fantasy au. theres a lot going on in this timeline so i will try to be brief (1/187)

so basically schlatt is the single father of the manberg cabinet so tubbo, quackity, and fundy, q and fund are adopted but tubbo is biological, also schlatt was transmasc. oh and minx was transfem. so yknow, tubbo was the schlinx mpreg baby (none of these words are in the bible)

anyway theres a couple other prominent families, theres the minecrafts where philza minecraft is the divorced father of techno wilbur and tommy (techno and wilbur are twins and bio, tommy is technically the nephew/cousin whose bio dad is jordan captainsparklez but anyway)

and there was also the wastakens! which had badboyhalo and skeppy (last names unknown????) with their also mpreg baby sapnap (skeppy was transmasc) and they were all demons. HOWEVER the wastakens (drista, dream, and XD) also lived with them because their parents (mamacita and mexican dream) were dead or something

regardless thats not important, anyway the kids are all older around young adult and stuff mostly except for crumb (also child of jordan captainsparklez) who was a couple years younger than tommy (i could be wrong about the timing it mightve been after she got kicked out when she turned 18)

anyway turns out someone from schlatt's highschool/college days is in town again (aka callmecarson) and hes pissed about it because carson was still a creep

however it turns out he and bbh went out for brunch sometimes when schedules allowed, anyway schlatt was venting to bbh about the carson situation and bbh was like "huh! thats interesting. say, youre well off, right? well, yknow how money makes the world go 'round? i bet like 10-20 grand could makw that problem disappear real quick" so schlatt gives him the money and then carson turns up dead in a river a couple days later! for context bbh was a hitman

anyway following bbh telling the canonmate gc about this memory he realized he and schlatt had gay sex on the regular and schlatt bottomed.

[kendallroysmethpipe]

One of my exes from when I was 13 is still popular on kinblr and it’s honestly a little scary because they used to lie about me being some monster and made our breakup like super public and we both have each other mutually blocked and it’s like.. ummm, yikes. They were one of those people who like, supported kin memories and encouraged “past lives” and I was multiple of their “canonmates.” We’ve both had each other blocked since the breakup which has been over 5 years now …… They know exactly where I am and vice versa. I’ve tried to DM them about it before but they just shut me down with a “I don’t want to talk about it” … so now when I see them on my dash I’m just like 😶

THAT'S SO... 😬😬😬 I was so scared of kinblr people they're so intense and everyone on here has the like mindset that they have to air out all their personal problems with ppl and turn everyone against the people they have falling outs with idk... it's so much easier to keep that shit between u and the person involved 😭 kinstagram wasn't any better though the people on there were insane too

[mxtxkinfessions]

To the recent Xiao Xingchen: I am (unfortunately!!) most likely not your Xue Yang, BUT. I know how you feel, and I really hope you find them too. I found Song Lan and A-Qing, and even if it turns out we aren't canonmates or whatever, we're very close and care for each other a lot. We feel like a family unit now, at least from where I'm standing. But we're one short! And I know we all miss you for our own reasons, even though I battle with myself on the daily over how everything went down. All this to say, you and I are on opposite ends of the same problem, so I'm sending you my best wishes and assuring you that, wherever they are, they miss you just as much.

🍬

[enbyhyena]

(this ask game was answered by owl! - 💚)

owl/ink/healer - undertale multiverse/the fic "for the forgotten ones" by im_sorry_buddy on ao3! ^^

i'm a fictive!

i'm very strongly connected, especially compared to most other fictives in our system. however, i do still have a few key differences.

i have a lot of exomemories! i think my favorite memory was when i saw the color green for the first time. it was grass. it was very hard to convince me to stop rolling in it!

the fandom overall or my little microcosm within the fandom? either way i suppose i think it's very creative! the greater source has mutated in lots of unique and fascinating ways you don't see in many other fandoms. and i think that's pretty special!

yes! of the greater source, i have over 100! of my little niche, as of writing this there are several others. :]

yes! we're married to another system who also shares our greater source, and dating another. and a third system we're friends with has people in it that share my specific microsource. there's way more than these three, but they're the most relevant examples.

we have sent sourcecalls, but they usually either go unread or result in pain. so we don't really do that anymore. it's easier to let the other systems find us organically.

i have a black scarf instead of a brown one, and am missing my left leg instead of my right. also, unlike my source self, i'm also a system! i have a subsystem from within the main system. characters who were just "aliases" in my source are actually median facets for me. ^^

i'm pretty source compliant, so i don't mind questions or having comparisons drawn. however, i prefer to avoid discussing my traumatic experiences with anyone i don't know/trust, and even then there are things i will only discuss with my canonmates.

(referring to my microsource) i love how unique and creative it is! ^^ i think it's on par with underverse in how brilliantly executed it is; at least from an objective/creative standpoint. my experiences sucked, but i'm still happy to exist and know that i couldn't without it.

(referring to my microsource) on the other hand, my least favorite thing about my source would probably have to be how little downtime i got between calamities. my origin story is lots of hurt with very little comfort. and i'm afraid i just didn't get to spend as much screen time with my loved ones once i found them as i would have liked.

there were plenty of times when killer would rope me into his pranks on the others living in the castle. those times were always fun. :]

see question 9!

i'm a soulbond first and a helper second. i'm a healer, so if anyone ever gets injured in headspace i'm one of the first people to get called. i also have an extremely high pain tolerance threshold, so if we need to get something done but our disabled body is struggling, sometimes i can help (with a cost; just because i don't experience pain doesn't mean it's not there and that we won't still be left to deal with the consequences later).

kind of a tough question. i had a really hard start to my life back home. but at the same time, i had just barely achieved peace there and wasn't really able to enjoy it before being pulled here. and i don't have the abilities here that i did there to solve all of my problems. so i'm kind of afraid of how powerless i am here? but most of the people i love did eventually find their way here (over 6 months after i myself arrived), so at least i don't have to go it alone. and even if this world does have a lot of problems, and we struggle with many things, none are so immediately lifethreatening as the sorts of scenarios i was forced to endure back home. so...i'll take it.

oh yeah in so many ways for sure. you don't have magic or monsters. that alone makes this place entirely different. but you also don't have code! well, outside of electronics at least. this world isn't made of code the way mine was. or at least if it is i don't have access to manipulate them. it's very disconcerting for me.

a scarf that i made myself entirely by hand! it took hours and hours, but it's so soft and very long. i actually plan to make it even longer once i can get the materials together. :]

sort of, but not really. not of my specific niche at least. but of other aus, sure! we have some idol dream/idolverse merch and lots of redbubble stickers.

i get homesick a lot. it was worse before my family found and came here with me very recently. i'm still missing a few people though, so while i'm doing a lot better, i still get sad sometimes. i mostly handle it with distractions.

Peaches by grandson and K.Flay (sorry if it doesn't fit well, i thought really long and hard but couldn't come up with much)

i like to play minecraft with a skin representing myself on. especially with my canonmates! then it feels like we're going on adventures in our home multiverse together. i'm not really sure about things that specifically make me think of source though because a lot of my hobbies/specialties can't be replicated here.

yes i do. though there are some things i try to avoid, for the most part i'm happy to interact with my source. ^^

me specifically, no not yet, though i have been considering it. on the larger scale, our collective has made a bunch of stuff over the years. from fics to artworks to cosplays!

i don't mind doubles! very few if any of us in the system care. if anything, it's a great basis for a new friendship with someone who understands you better than most.

if anyone sees this post and wants to know more, be it about me specifically or our system as a whole, feel free to send in an ask! i love interacting with people in good faith. it doesn't happen often but we get really excited when it does.

Introject Ask Game!

We've seen a lot of these, but never one directed specifically at introjects (fictives, factives, fcktives, etc), so we decided to make one!

1. What's your name and source?

2. What type of introject are you? (Fictive, factive, etc.)

3. How connected do you feel to your source?

4. Do you have any exomemories? What's your favourite one?

5. What do you think of your source's fandom?

6. Do you have any sourcemates in your system?

7. Have you ever met any sourcemates outside your system?

8. Have you ever posted/sent a sourcecall anywhere? Did it help you find sourcemates?

9. What do you think are your biggest differences from/similarities to your source?

10. Do you like being compared to your source?

11. What's your favourite thing about your source?

12. What's your least favourite thing about your source?

13. Any funny exomemories?

14. Does your appearance differ from your source's appearance?

15. What other role, if any, do you have in the system?

16. If you could go back to the life you had in your exomemories/source, would you?

17. Does this universe differ at all from the one in your exomemories/source?

18. What's your favourite clothing item/accessory that the system owns?

19. Do you have any merch of your source?

20. Do you ever get homesick? If yes, what do you do to deal with it?

21. What songs remind you of your source?

22. What activities/things remind you of your source?

23. Do you like engaging with your source/content about it?

24. Have you ever created content related to your source? (Art, fanfiction, etc.)

25. How do you feel about doubles?

26. Talk about anything you want, relevant to rhe rest of the questions or not!

⚠️ This post is inclusive of all system origins ⚠️

[fictionkinfessions]

I've become one of those people who questions kin constantly, literally every time I'm fixated on something (I have a very weak sense of identity and it's a Problem), and now it's almost impossible for me to tell what are real kins or passing phases anymore. I think it's because my mental health has gotten a lot worse, and having a new kintype is exciting, and comforting, and just something new, and I need any happiness and change I can get in this kind of empty existence of mine.

I guess it's just like, I have a lot of fictionflickers? Which is fine, I just wish I could tell them from kintypes. I've probably sent dozens of "kinfessions" about "my kintypes" that just turned out to be me liking a character a little Too Much, feeling more like I WISHED I was that character, and getting confused. I feel bad for wasting the time of the mod and anyone who read them. And I feel like I should never be open about any of my kins, because if I keep accidentally claiming ones I don't have and needing to explain that I was wrong later, people will just assume I'm always lying and it's always on purpose. I never want to look for canonmates, for fear I'll get someone's hopes up for nothing.

Ugh, I don't even think this made any sense, I'm just whining incoherently, I think. Sorry, I had to get it off my chest. I never talk about this stuff openly because I feel so weird and stupid for it.

x

[gothamcircus]

funny you mention tim, I actually think I was wrong about my description of him on my blog.

to be honest? he’s the person I have the least amount of memories about… aside from him sitting in the walk-in fridge at the manor (long story short, we had it removed for a lot of reasons)

I’m glad you find me familiar tho! I was just about to give up on finding canonmates. feel free to message me, I’m free all day.

LOL alright! I remember the walk-in fridge. I think Alfred was pushing to get rid of it way before problems - like Tim messing with it - started happening. Sorta funny. I'll message you tomorrow; it's really late where I am.

[mcytkinconfessions]

The thing is when I see a life series guy outside of my allies in 3rd Life my brain will immediately go on the defensive.

Gotta be nice though. None of these people are my canonmates, they didn't hurt me or mine, and even if by some twist of fate I was talking to a canonmate... They still wouldn't deserve me holding grudges from however many lifetimes ago.

My inability to drop grudges is my problem not theirs. So I will be nice because I want to be nice.

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[tentacledtherapist]

Lisa,

Sorry for the delay in writing, every day I fully intended to but never got around to it, and every day my instinct was to check for a response despite knowing there wouldn't be one because it was my turn to write. (What a silly problem to have!) I suppose I might have been a little flustered by your compliments, I didn't know what to say.

I really appreciate your encouragement on my writing. I never thought of it as very evocative before, so I am glad you've found reading my thoughts on these topics to be illuminating. I've also missed writing to you, in both ways. It's like reaching across time and space to reconnect. And writing it in letters makes it feel even more.... not canonical, but real? Like every message I send has a little seal and is down on paper and is tangible, despite all being sent digitally.

Perhaps the human need to want and experience what we can't have is relatable through kinning too. That we see ourselves in others and others having bits of ourselves. That reach across the aisle to touch a world that by all means we can't have, that we don't have, but is ours anyway, in their infinitesimal variations like millions of dimensions of cracked and shattered mirrors, all the same but different. I have never met a sourcemate before, or at least one that has shared a canon, so there has always been that little touch of disconnect. The feeling of "Oh you're [name] but you're not *my* [name]." The same, but different. Like meeting an alternate version of your best friend. They're your best friend still, but something feels off no matter what you do.

But I don't feel that way with you. I don't presume to be canonmates, perhaps I don't want to get my hopes up should we disagree down the line, but I do feel like it's the closest I've ever been to finding one. I appreciate it. I appreciate you! And I look forward to your letters.

I like to talk about horror, and human nature, and source and kin and the nature of kin. I love to talk about history and its effects on everything around us, including media and the way it twists over time to change our meanings and how we relate to one another. What one era might consider, another might take the opposite, and why and how it does so is just as thrilling and important as the now and how we view it. Cracked mirrors and all.

-Your Creature

creature,

sorry if i made you flustered! you don’t have to apologize for delays in writing. again, i don’t own your time. i has just assumed your messenger pigeon got lost on the wind

i get what you mean. i feel the same way. i guess if we really wanted to, we could share more of what we remember and scrutinize each memory for similarities and differences to tell if we really are canonmates, but… i don’t think it really matters? nor do i really care at this point? i like talking to you. i feel comfortable talking to you and i like it when you share things with me. for all intents and purposes, i consider you my creature, and i’d like it if you considered me your lisa too. regardless of if we actually share a canon

i mean, we already sign our letters off that way?

- Your Lisa