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so, it's 2025...long time no see.
I'll skip they hi, how are yous and get down to the real meat and potatoes of what I'm here to say. TLDR: Larkin is still being worked on (screenshots + such below) and it's always going to remain a free game, but it's under heavy construction atm. thanks for checking in 🫡
for the two people who want to hear the long sob story that usually comes with these type of posts from online creators: I fucked up my back majorly and was out of work for a long time. I went back to work pre-maturely and! I've fucked it up again. the stress of this, lack of income and the fact that i've been taking a lot of meds to help the injuries (but mess with my ability to stay coherent) has made it really difficult to consistently focus on larkin, writing, social media in general, but it is still getting worked on in bits and pieces.
that said, some back story: I started working on larkin in 2019/2020 and it was really really fun! loved it. had a great time. but then i started posting about it and showed it to other people (and to my surprise they??????? liked it????) which made me put a very large amount of pressure on myself that made it not so fun any more. over time i would go through cycles of it's fun! to it's not fun! and so on and so forth. throughout this time I also had pressure from a lot of people around me (irl) to somehow like. strictly monetize larkin somehow, and as someone who was like VERY INSECURE and obsessed with people like mishka making like insane funds off of her game of the same type?/genre? i gave in to that pressure (if you could not tell by all my occasional dirty deletes of shade towards twc. truly pathetic and if any of yall saw. apologies and thanks for ignoring it.) addressing that: i liked twc when it came out, it was fun for what it was and larkin would not exist without it. so thanks for that miss jenkins and i will probably still passively engage with it on my own time.
but, back to larkin. anyways, the looming pressure of this need to monetize made me hate everything that i was doing and constantly feel like i needed to re-evolve and rework and just, overall not have a fun time with it. throughout the months of november, december and january when i was really missing the days of larkin's existence as an idea when me and my sister would just like walk around our neighborhood and i would just infodump to her about my cowboy vampire ocs. so i found my old larkin notebook and the stickies i made planning plot stuff and avoiding tumblr i just. had fun working on my little cowboy vampire game. like not really thinking about other stuff. and that's essentially it.
so I came to a conclusion: larkin is something i love, and i want to continue loving it. so essentially, i won't be monetizing the game itself. episodes/chapters whatever they end up being in the end will always be free. yay. if you want extra content/want to support me in some way monetarily, feel free to join the patreon, however, I won't really be active on it until i have something substantial to show you game wise. that being said, you can still subscribe for access to the backlog of short stories and art etc. I'm turning off charges each month until i have like a real game for you to play that doesn't make me sick to my stomach to look at or think about. another note: pc players are going to be priority until it's finished. I will have a mobile version but i can't promise you she will be all that pretty.
another note, because larkin is free i can't promise quick turnarounds on anything but what i'll be offering on patreon when i start charging again and additionally: i'm back to making larkin a game for me. i really lost a lot of enjoyment for doing this stuff when i thought about that pressure i put on myself like i mentioned above but also, when i started writing it for other people in mind. first and foremost i am making larkin because i like cowboys, i like vampires, i like horror and religious trauma themes. i'm writing this for me: kc, so i can go on my computer and teehee at all the kissing scenes and make a cool cowboy character with fights. i'm going to make it gay and self-indulgent and basically just have fun with it because it's my game and i am making it and i said so.
all that said here are some of the major things i've done with larkin over this past little while:
updated the website so that it is now useable :)
done a lot of work on the ui:


and i have been rewriting a lot of stuff because I FEEL like it was not good and was not fun for me. THE DEMO FROM LAST JUNE ESPECIALLY. it hurts my stomach to look at.
visually, dan (@tapeworrmart ) has been on his fucking a-game with the art even through my crisis. here's the male ace portrait he put together for me last fall and the art for the main menu:
we also have some more art in the works that i am very excited for because they are in pursuit of new fun features :D
all that said. thanks for the continued support if you're still reading this, appreciate any interest you have in my game.
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-ˋˏ Birthday ˎˊ
warnings: angst ig, not completely proofread!!
a/n: i did this bc my birthday is in a few days and i was thinking about Sevika, sorry yall, btw english is not my first language, so sorry abt any mistakes, hope you enjoy



You and Sevika were dating for a few months now, you knew her since you were teens and surprisingly, she always found you oddly tolerable to be around, even though she doesn't like anyone she always liked you.
She loves you. Of course she does. She just doesn't know how to show it. And it's not usual for her to be home since Silco is always telling Sevika to go clean up the mess one of his henchmen made, so she can't actually show it so often even if she wants to.
It's pretty tough being the right hand man to the man who rules Zaun.
Sometimes, when Sevika's home, she takes her stress out on you, snapping or causing a pointless discussion. She regrets it after seeing the tears forming in your eyes, but she's a hard woman who's not used to apologizing, so she never does.
Today is your birthday and she promised she'd be home. You prepared everything, tidied up the dining room, set the table, made a small cake for you, even put candles on the cake, hoping she'd actually show up. But she didn't.
9PM.
10PM..
11PM...
And nothing.
You decided to go to The Last Drop, normally she was there, talking to Silco's 'clients' or just drinking. You know the streets aren't so safe at this time, they never were.
Fortunately, you managed to get there safely, but unfortunately you saw something that you didn't want to see.
Sevika. With a woman leaning against her.
You felt like crying, but you didn't. You just left and went back home. Once you closed the door, you leaned against it and slipped to the floor before hugging your knees to your chest. You started crying like you never did before. Even when Sevika screamed at you, you didn't cry that much. But it's understandable, you just saw your girlfriend cheating on you. On your own birthday.
After a few hours of crying, she still wasn't back, she definitely forgot about your birthday.
She was really a bitch, how can she do something like that? You thought she would be loyal to you like she is to Silco. Wrong thinking. She never liked you and never will. She was definitely lying when she said 'I love you' for the first time. Lying when she always makes it up to you after screaming. Lying she said everything she did was thinking of you. Lying.
You were cleaning everything up. You decided you'd leave. You threw the cake away, not taking a bite of it.
When you were about to leave her, without saying anything, the front door was opened and she was there. Looking at you with confusion and regret in her eyes and you were looking at her with tears in your eyes.
She walked over you and opened her arms, but before she could reach out to you, you took a step back. A tear running down your eyes, you felt so stupid for crying.
"Don't go away. Talk." Sevika said in her usual harsh tone, she never used it with you without reasons.
You looked down, staring at your feet, trying to hold your tears.
"Talk? Talk, Sevika?! You should talk. If you don't like me, why did you start dating me?" You asked, the confusion in her face just grew.
"What are you talking about?" She crossed her arms over her chest before looking at the kitchen, she saw the candles in the sink. "You really think I don't like you because I didn't show up? I was busy. Silco-"
You didn't let her finish. You were so angry and she was lying again.
"Stop with the Silco bullshit! I saw you with that woman today. And luckily I only saw you today, because I bet you were hooking up with her before. I'm so stupid for believing you. All that time, I was stupid." Your voice started cracking more and more as you talked. Sevika looked at you. She was starting to get riled up. She hated when someone accused her about something she didn't do.
"What the fuck are you talking about?! I wasn't with a woman!" She snapped at you before realizing. "You saw me with Alyssa. She's one of Silco's workers. I have nothing with her."
"And you expect me to believe that? Please, Sevika, spare me." You snapped back, not holding back anymore.
She was amused. Amused at how you didn't believe her. Everything she did was for you and only you. Amused at how you accused her of something she didn't do. She loved you. Hell, she always did. She just never knew how to show it.
"I'm leaving, Sevika. I don't wanna deal with you anymore."
The only thing she did was take a step to the side and let you leave. She had no idea how to stop you without grabbing your arm and tying you to the chair.
You left her there, alone again. Alone like she deserved.
#sevika#sevika arcane#lesbian#arcane#angst#? i guess#arcane season 2#arcane season 1#idk what else to tag
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THE POST
This post might get updated in the future.
This post is about my Pokémon related oc’s , and my AUs.
TW : abuse , lgbtphobia , ableism , violence ,SH , death and loss.
MAIN AU
MY OCS
Pedro :
Tags : #oc : pedro CHAOTIC EVIL
Pedro is a 30~ years old trainer who joined Team Plasma at 17 y.o , before the organisation becoming very vocal.
Pedro is born n Dendemille Town , Kalos , from a Kalosian mother and Paldean father , and got to meet his older half-brother of 15 years , Atmet.
Pedro's mother left the household when he was around 10 , due to the violence of his father , and did not come back to take him with her , he grew up with his brother as his parental figure and was finally freed from his father abuse at 12 when Atment left the region illegally with Pedro after saving enough money to move in Unova.
While in Unova , his brother spent half of his time working , and studying to meet their needs , and Pedro quickly felt alone and bored. He knew he wasn't in physical danger no more , but somehow felt an emptiness in his heart that couldn't be filled by anything but violence , toward himself or the other.
Despite all the effort of Atmet to find time to be emotionally avalaible , it didn't worked out and Pedro fell into the promises of Team Plasma.
Here , he would have a roof without the fear of not having to eat for the next 24 hour and he wouldn't feel like a burden. Even more , he would have a purpose , and a good one at that.
He tried to make Atmet follow him , so they could still be together , but his older brother knew it was fishy and tried to force him to get away , but it only made Pedro wanting to leave even more.
At first he enjoyed seeing Atmet struggling to get him back and felt like he was finally valuable , but he slowly started to fell for the brainwashing and to think that his brother was wrong to not fight from the same ideas and basically cut all contact when he was 17.
He was quickly seen as one of the most troublesome grunt in the Team , but somehow managed to be efficient enough not to be kicked out or broken further more.
His pokemon team for the first years only consisted in one singular Joltik that his brother caught for him to keep him company when they moved in Unova. He managed to train him to be a valuable asset for the team , despite his unevolved form.
When years laters , Plasma was getting more and more on the front of the news , Atmet tried to reach out again , only to get his letters back , and to get ignored.
Pedro grew pretty close to Ghetsis , despite not talking to him much during the first years as he was just a simple grunt , he was asked to follow the sages around , and mostly bonded with Zinzolin as a result since they were both from Kalos.
At the fall of Team Plasma , Pedro was already giving his life to Ghetsis and refused to follow Rood.
His goal wasn't liberating pokemon anymore , but just to stay wherever Ghetsis needed him to be , and to do whatever he wanted him to do. And what Ghetsis asked him to do was to spy on the Team Flare. He somehow knew something big might happen but couldn't know what exactly , and Pedro was the perfect person to infiltrate a ginger kalosian group. Pedro stayed for a few month before being kicked out for simping over Ghetsis in front of Lysandre.
During the events of BW2 , he grew very fond of Zinzolin , they finally got together , making Ghetsis pretty happy to not be stalked by a weird ginger kalosian man any time he was out of his office.
When Ghetsis lost his final battle against Nate and left , Pedro felt like his whole world collapsed. Despite Zinzolin trying to get his head out of the water , Pedro couldn't think about anything else than finding Ghetsis again.
He left , travelling across regions , with Zinzolin to find his former Lord , despite all the effort of his partner to stop him.
Facts:
-He can't swim
-He likes to trauma-dump on people just to make them uneasy
-He likes knitting
-He is auDHD and his special interest is moss
-He can't sleep alone and really misses the grunt dorms now that Team Plasma is gone
-He likes to do trendy dances around Ghetsis to piss him off , and forced Ghetsis to learn the apple dance. (Ghetsis accepted after weeks of Pedro whining)
-He has a notebook where he reports all his injuries , and another one where he reports all the weirdest thing he ate
-He make up new stories about how he lost his eyelid everytime someone ask.
-He misses croissant break in Team Flare so bad.
-He calls Ghetsis "Ghetsis le beau gosse" and told him it was a title of nobility in Kalossian. Zinzolin is dying from the inside everytime Ghetsis looks happy to hear his nickname.
Relations :
Natural : While I think N is too kind to feel hatred , Pedro isn't. He hates N solely because Ghetsis does too. N however doesn't really know Pedro as he wasn't one of the grunt asked to follow him around during his mission as the King of Plasma.
Anthea : Anthea does not like Pedro , as she saw him multiple time praising Ghetsis behavior despite his cruelty. She believes in people being able to change , but struggles to think Pedro or any Neo-plasma member can be good one day.
Concordia : She would fist fight Pedro and win at any moment. She hates him because she feels like she has to protect her sister and her brother and that if they don't hate neo-plasma grunt , then she have to hate them even harder to make up for it.
Shadow Triad : As @williceunleashed once said : they are basically seen as furniture in Team plasma , so Pedro didn't get really close to them , but he do like their loyalty to Ghetsis and that's about it.
Zinzolin : They are in love , and their relation is a love-"hate" one. They jokingly bully and tease each other all the time , and they are both toxic so they are meant to be together. Zinzolin is a bit more romantic and concerned about Pedro mental health than the opposite , however Pedro could beat up someone if they dared to harm Zinzolin.
Atmet : Pedro feels very conflicted , part of him is hating him . Hating him because he didn't join Plasma when Pedro asked , and hating him because he tried to "save him from the cult" even years after. But at the same time , another part of him misses his brother and wishes to be reunited , however his ego and his pride are huge and he cannot even think about apologizing yet.
Braxton : They were once friends in the grunt dorm , but slowly Pedro noticed that Braxton actually believed more in the cause than in Ghetsis and when Team Plasma broke in two , Pedro lost all appreciation for his former friend.
Ramzi : Beside Zinzolin and Ghetsis , Ramzi would be Pedro's favorite person. Pedro was actually sad to leave Team flare just because it meant leaving Ramzi behind. They haven't talked or written to each other since Pedro got back into Team Neo-Plasma.
Colress : Pedro hates him solely on the basis that Colress betrayed Ghetsis , and Colress dislikes Pedro for his character and his behavior against his brother.
Ghetsis : Pedro loves Ghetsis , and everyone knows that. He would do anything to just be seen as the best grunt he ever had. They actually are what could be considered friends , but the power imbalance is way too important for them to be "normal friends". Ghetsis actually used Pedro's blind loyalty against him multiple time.
Atmet :
Tags : #oc : atmet CHAOTIC NEUTRAL
Atmet is 45~years old scientist.
He was born in Medali , Paldea , and grew up here for 15 years before leaving with his father to Kalos .
He met his stepmother here and wasn't yet able to communicate with her. He slowly had to learn Kalosian when Pedro was born because his stepmother talked to him solely in Kalosian and his father barely bothered teaching him words.
He was quickly parentified and had to take care of his brother , even more so when his stepmother left when he was 25.
Since his 18 years old , Atmet started to work , to save up money. He almost was kicked out of the house when his father learned about his transidentity , but managed to stay by being the one bringing the money home.
He endured for almost a decade until he had enough saving to leave for Unova , taking his younger brother with him.
He choose Unova not only because of the distance , but because he always wanted to study here , and that he was interested in some pokemon found here. He quickly started working to put food on their plates.
He struggled balancing work , classes and being emotionally available enough for his brother. He brushed off some of the signs that Pedro wasn't doing well and was going to leave , and one day was surprised by Pedro gathering what he could to leave for Team Plasma.
Atmet tried to change his mind , but Pedro was almost an adult , and Atmet was not legally his parent or his caretaker and therefore couldn't ask for help from the justice without exposing himself.
(Despite Pedro agreeing , what Atmet did would be deemed as kidnapping by the justice . Even if it was to save him from violent parental abuse)
Atmet had to leave Unova to avoid jail time after being almost caught for fraud , data theft , stealing documents...
Atmet started his long period of travelling regions to regions , to try to finance his research , to find something that mattered.
He even joigned Team Magma , with the goal of getting his project financed by Maxie , by trying to get him on his side. Maxie didn't appreciated being used and told him to fuck off basically.
He was in Kalos when he heard about Plasma on the news for the first time (BW1 events ) , and he tried to reach out again to Pedro , now that he could finally do it , only to be rejected.
It destroyed him utterly but he kept trying , even hoping that the downfall of Team Plasma would bring back Pedro to reality , only for him to join Neo-Plasma right away.
Atmet tried again to get him back , but Pedro tried to order his Joltik to kill him , sealing the fact that they will never be brothers ever again.
Atmet ultimately left , defeated , and only heard about team plasma again after moving to Alola.
There , he met Colress , and they grew fond of each other , sharing interest.
One of the first pokemon he caught on Alola was a Minior , that ultimately died from being exposed to the world. Struck by grief , Atmet decided that he would create something capable to keep Minior alive, even out of the pokeball.
He bought transparent poke balls , and luxury balls to study their functionement , only to be able to mix them together so he could keep his Minior in a safe space until he found a way to keep them alive freely.
He also associated himself with the Aether Fundation , and like Wicke , wasn't aware of Lusamine plan.
Facts :
-When he is in Kalos , he always makes a little detour to Mt Moon so his clefairy can vibe.
-He choose his name by contracting Atmosphere and Meteor and that's dramatic.
-He ugly cries very easily
-He hates honey more than anything
-Everyone knows he is autistic but him.
-He stills buys alolan magnet in tourist shop despite living here for years
-He really wants to go into an Ultra Wormhole
-He caught a Gothita to study its whole evolutionary line and was flabbergasted to see how bad the legs of Gothitelle looked.
-His glasses are often used as a way to watch the sky , and the stars while being on the beach without getting his eyes assaulted by sand.
-He likes to mock Faba about him being retrograded to an intern by showing him his pass.
-Someone once compared his glasses to Faba's and he got so mad he broke a piece of his teeth by clenching his jaws.
Relations :
Ghetsis : One sided hatred since Ghetsis doesn't know Atmet.
Faba : It's just a basic love-hate relationship , they tend to tease each other and to be mad at each other a lot but somehow still appreciate the other.
Colress : They love to infodump on each other all the time and a serial yappers. They care for each other alot , despite their unconventional morals . They both are chaotic neutral at the end of the day. Colress once gave a shiny Minior to Atmet as a birthday gift , Atmet cried so much he forgot to breath.
Molayne : They don't see each other every day , but Atmet often spends week at the Hokulani Observatory and they like to just discuss about new discoveries or about their thoughts.
Maxie : Maxie is still mad at Atmet , Atmet still feels guilty to have used him for money.
Pedro : Atmet loves his brother , and he misses him a lot , and often thinks about it and still sends him letters without knowing if he get them or not. But at the same time , since the day Pedro ordered Joltik to electroctue him , Atmet is afraid , he fears that his brother might actually want him dead
Sophocles : Atmet finds Sophocles adorable and somehow he reminds him of his brother. He likes to spend time with Sophocles too when he visits Molayne and to show him his sky pictures.
Lusamine : Atmet somehow despises her , after learning what she did to her kids , but haven't told her. They only see each other at random time in the Aether Foundation and Atmet would much rather be able to go the lab than to stir up drama with someone capable to do what Lusamine did.
Wicke : She is a nice person and Atmet appreciate talking to her. She reminds him of the smell of orange juice and buttered bread somehow and he appreciates that.
Braxton :
Tags : #oc : braxton LAWFUL GOOD
Braxton is a 30~ year old worker. He was born in Motostoke , Galar and left to Unova when he was around 18.
He has little contact with his family , out of shame of leaving without listening to their warning and falling for a cult. At the end of the day , it's not his fault but his brain can't comprehend that.
He joined Team Plasma at 20 after falling from terrible height seeing that life wouldn't be as good as he imagined when he left for Unova , he wasn't able to keep a job , to get anything he wanted done and just felt like leaving a new life as his new self was a failure.
After finding a goal in Team plasma , he thought his life would have a meaning , only for his goal to shatter at the end of the BW1 events.
He stayed some time in the safehouse in driftveil city , eaten up by guilt. He was afraid to hurt someone again , to a bad choice , to be mistaken again.
He only got a job in Clay's mine to be able to eat and have a place to live by himself as the safehouse reminded him too much of the failure that was Team Plasma. Rood understood and let him go.
After some month of working , he realized that it wasn't even enough to take his mind off of what happened , that's when Clay told him he needed therapy , like yesterday.
Braxton followed through , and was slowly getting better , despite knowing he will never be back to his old self.
Clay told him to take a year off , to do some gyms , to travel a bit before going back to work and it helped him greatly. It was in this period that he saw in Clay more than his boss , but started to see him as a friend.
That's also when he realized that Clay slowly , subtly helped him getting a social circle by giving him weird "work " mission to do , such as bringing worthless rock to be estimated by Lenora , bringing supplies to Burgh , getting a training session with Brycen so Braxton could help in the Gym...
While he still struggled with guilt , fear and intrusives thought , Braxton managed to find the stability he hoped for.
He spent a lot of time hanging around the gym and got very close to some of them.
Facts :
-His favorite pokemon ever is snom. He wanted to have one but feels guilty about bringing non-native pokemon in Unova. Clay however did not and gifted him one
-He has OCD , his themes being mostly harm OCD and moral/scrupulosity OCD
-He feels so overly guilty about having hurt people in the past by stealing their pokemons.
-He rarely battles
-Despite helping Rood from time to time, he refuses to get to close , fearing that he might be lying like Ghetsis
-He always says Galarian Gym have a better public than Unovian but really love the concept of themed Gym
-He evolved his liepard by letting him train by itself, since he avoids battle when he can. He prefers to cuddle it.
-He is deeply afraid of snake-like Pokémon because he was bitten by a Silicobra.
-He likes to exercise a lot.
-He does dye his hair but no one know which of the two color is the natural one.
-He eats snow
-He tried many instruments in his life , but was never good at music
-He is REALLY good at cooking
Relations :
Ghetsis : It's pretty much nightmare fuel for Braxton and he tries to erase Ghetsis from his life to no avail , it felt like this period his burned on his back.
Natural : He is a bit afraid of the King of Team Plasma , but he hopes that N is doing well and that he is healing and thriving.
Brycen : On the advices of Clay and Alder , Braxton took some battle lessons from Brycen to help himself understand his pokémon better and to be a more fitting trainer for his newly acquired snom. He admires Brycan a lot , and Brycen finds him kind.
Lenora : They both like each other , but Braxton is still a bit too shy to ask her verbally if they could be considered friend , as he fears it might look childish.
Clay : They are very close , and while they only started as boss and employee , they have now a deep connection.
Looker : Looker appreciate Braxton honesty while they were trying to find the hidden sage , but Braxton feels neutral about Looker , because he does think it is a bit too late to catch them as the harm is already done. But he is still glad Looker took time to listening to him , he just struggle to give his trust easily.
Pedro : A former friend , that now terrifies him. He wishes to never see him again because he can't comprehend how someone could become like that , and how someone could still follow Ghetsis after all that. It's terrifying to him because he is a afraid he could have done the same as Pedro .
Alder : He finds him supportive and nice and Alder is pretty much very chill.
Burgh (I headcanon him as 27 btw , not as the beta age ) : They met up during Braxton year-off. He tried to take on the gym only to fail , but Burgh was still nice to him after that and they talked , and Braxton somehow felt like he really wanted this specific badge and got back to the gym multiple time.
Zinzolin : Braxton is terrified of a man that would follow another man like Ghetsis just to see " what happens if he wins". Zinzolin dislikes a traitor.
Rood : While Braxton likes Rood , he can't help but fearing getting to close. He feels guilty about it but "what if Rood is lying too?" is a thought that keep spinning in his mind.
Ramzi :
Tags : #oc : ramzi TRUE NEUTRAL
Ramzi is a 32~years old Team Flare member . He was born iniKiloude City , Kalos , but moved in Lumiose when he was very young with his family.
He comes from a relatively wealthy background and pretty much had anything material set up for him as he grew up , but he lacked genuine connection with his family and always felt like the black sheep and wasn't good at school either.
Growing up , he started to disagree more and more with his family values and how they were looking at the middle class and worker class with disdain. It was only natural for him when he heard about Lysandre , a philanthropist rich guy , to agree with him in every way.
He heard around the Lysandre Cafe about Team Flare , part of their goal and who was the one to direct it. He quickly decided to join , stealing part of his parents money to buy his admission in the group.
By doing so , he burnt any link he had left with his family.
After quite some time hanging around Lysandre and the scientist , Ramzi grew close to his boss , and the feeling was mutual.
He also realized something as the month got by , that Lysandre was loosing his mind slowly but surely and that he had to something to avoid his partner irrational thoughts to become a reality.
When Serena and Pia managed to infiltrate the HQ and to battle Xerosic , Ramzi was absolutely flabbergasted to hear that the scientist disobeyed Lysandre and opened the Weapon anyway.
He felt like something snapped in his partner and had to fight him to stop him from doing something irreparable.
After what felt like hours , Lysandre reluctently agreed to be arrested , so did Ramzi.
Lysandre was likely judged criminally insane and had to go through therapy and probably for life.
Month goes by , and Ramzi and Lysandre heard about Xerosic messing up stuff , and they met Looker and Emma , willing to help to aleviate their own guilt.
The whole ordeal took a toll on their mental health , especially Lysandre that tried so hard to rewire his brain into thinking humans were ultimately worth of being helped.
They saw Xerosic taking advantage of a young girl with barely any knowledge about life outside the street , they saw the father figure of this same girl leaving once his work was done and they both almost felt like Team Flare was right all along and that human were rotten to the core.
They both agreed to take care of Emma , worried she might grew up to hate humans too.
Two years later , they reformed Team Flare , with other members and another respectable goal : Helping what they swore to destroy years priors.
Facts :
-Ramzi loves red and orange , and only choose his pokemon based on that.
-He is a big fan of drag shows and loves to see creative people.
-His favorite berries are Roseli Berries.
-Despite not having lived in the south of Kalos for too long , he still passionately defend the word "Chocolatine" over "Pain au Chocolat" and it's a source of funny arguments between him and Lysandre
-His natural hair color is a mystery and he hates taking off his glasses.
Relations :
Bryony : While Bryony do not care about Ramzi , Ramzi appreciate her style and her work ethics. He wished her and Celosia would just kiss already.
Aliana : Aliana dislikes his proximity to Lysandre and Ramzi just doesn't mind her that much
Sycamore : While Sycamore likes Ramzi for getting Lysandre back to his "former self" or at least close to it , Ramzi feels a bit uneasy around him , first of all because Sycamore is clearly simping of HIS partner , and also because he wonders how could Sycamore could have just let Lysandre get this far if he had known him for so long.
Malva : Malva genuinely appreciate the effort of Ramzi into helping Team Flare and Lysandre , and his effort to make the name not a shameful thing only. Ramzi likes her loyalty to Lysandre , but also is scared of her because she would probably kill someone if she wanted to.
Lysandre : While their relationship was complicated , they both need each other to thrive and to grow , but they almost become co dependant. Ramzi is often worried about Lysandre , and tend to follow him everywhere. Lysandre doesn't mind it as he fears being alone with his thoughts ever again. They both need therapy.
Pia : Ramzi is a big fan of Pia's art , and he thinks she is so cool and interesting despite her trying to kick his ass in the Flare HQ. Pia thinks Ramzi is dumb , lame , and that his hair looks stupid.
Pedro : Pedro was a flare grunt for a short time , but they both grew close. While Pedro still cherish his friendship with all his heart , Ramzi doesn't feel great calling him a friend as he heard about the news about Plasma wrongdoing. However he can't help having some affection left from his time with Team Flare. He doesn't want to reconnect with Pedro to avoid messing up his memories , and Pedro is only focused on Ghetsis at the end of BW2.
Emma : That's his daughter and if someone dares to hurt her then someone must DIE. Emma sees him more as a older brother than a father.
Looker : While Looker appreciate the honesty of Ramzi and his will to take care of Emma , Ramzi berates him for leaving.
Xerosic : Ramzi once loved Xerosic , found him funny and interesting , but now he only despises and fears him. He is very glad that he got arrested but he can't even comprehend how could someone do what Xerosic as done.
Celosia : Celosia is hard working and also she got some sass and Ramzi really find her cool. They spent time together in the HQ , trying to see who was lame or not in the team. (spoiler : they both were)
Mable : She hates the fact that Ramzi might get more praised than her , and she got some ego. Ramzi finds her immature but not enough to care.
(I use the scientists from the manga and the game for the girlies because we literally barely have any content for them in the game and it's so annoying :( )
Pia :
Tags : # oc : pia CHAOTIC GOOD
Pia is a 23 y.o artist , born in Cyllage City , Kalos.
She grew up with a family that was pretty much overwhelmed with her needs as a disabled kid. She had a tendency to run away a lot and that's how she met her Spritzee when she was 12. It helped her out of meltdown and her parents agreed to keep it , despite it refusing to get inside a pokeball.
She only used unown-writing as a communication tool as a child , forcing her parents to learn it , but it helped greatly with creating bond and made their familial dynamic better. When she was 10 , her aunt decided to take her to Ruins of Alph for their vacations in Johto and that's how Pia decided her aunt was the greatest person in the world.
She grew up watching art show , reading , performing and spending her summers at her wine aunt place in Lumiose city. When she was 20 , she moved in with her aunt , and started an apprenticeship to be a furfrou groomer. It didn't worked out well but she adopted a furfrou near this time and she loves him dearly.
She decided to take on the league challenge , and met all kind of people , but also helped greatly in taking down the Team Flare , making her even more famous. She already got some fame from being a well appreciated performer , but now it was pretty much through the roof.
She even grew closer to the journalist that was following her around from time to time.
Facts :
-The letters she chose for her Unowns have a signification
-She groom her furfrou now and then , but always try to invent new haircuts.
-She got into fist fight multiple time. She is pretty good until she get touched. (she has 0 defense)
-She refuse to elaborate on her haircut.
-She has advanced knowledge on unowns and thinks they are neat.
-She can't wear nail polish or she'll cry and roll on the floor screaming in horror.
-Her favorite place to visite outside of Kalos is Johto , that's also where her grandmother lives.
-Her aunt is a wine aunt and Pia aspire to be like her when she reaches her fortys.
-She caught all the unown form and is searching for shinies when she travels.
-She only use honor ball just because they are cool looking.
-She is pretty savage.
-She is often scared that Spritzee might leave some day , but she can't catch it since it refuses to get inside the pokeball. Pia thinks the pokemon probably got a bad memory about getting caught.
-She thinks Team flare's outfit are a crime against humanity.
-Fluvetin is Spritzee in french , and she added a possible "e" when they were feeling like it.
-She got a lot of Pokemon themed objects and fidget toys , and she is always chewing on gums.
-She thinks Tulip makes the best makeup in the world.
-She is non-verbal and her main unown are "ftg" which is " stfu" in french basically.
Relations :
Siebold : She likes him and she likes him specifically for the huge buffet he prepared when they won against Team Flare.
Drasna : She never saw a grandma slaying so hard and Pia wishes to look like her. Drasna is adorable and like anyone that is slightly nice.
Xerosic : Pia thinks he should die. Xerosic thinks Pia is an obstacle in his life.
Diantha : While Pia feels intimated by how pretty , intelligent , nice and perfect Diantha is , they are still very close and Pia is glad to have fought against her in the league , despite loosing. They even teamed up to take down Team Flare and Pia will never forget that.
Viola : They love each other , and Viola is basically her best friend and her step-sister. They just love to talk about their special interest for hour while Alexa is standing there , waiting.
Alexa : Alexa loves Pia , Pia loves Alexa , and they both are meant for each other. They both help each other , and take care of each other. Alexa loves to teach Pia stuff about journalism , and talk about what she learned , and Pia loves to show her unown images.
Lysandre : Lysandre is thankfull that Pia stopped him before it was too late and fought against his ideas. Pia thinks he still should be in jail and she is terrified he might do something like that again.
Serena : Pia considers her like a heroic baby and she is VERY proud of her for joining the fight against Team flare. Serena doesn't have the same amount of affection for Pia as she rarely sees her , but she admires her.
Malva : Malva hates Pia with all her might because she didn't tried to save Lysandre , but tried to take him down. Pia never interacted much with Malva but she clearly isn't fond of her.
Ramzi : Ramzi is a big fan of Pia's art and he thinks she is cool. Pia thinks he is a stupid idiot that owns only one brain cell and that it's not even a working one.
Wikstorm : That's Pia's babygirl. Pia loves him very much and dearly , they are best friends at this point. Pia loves to hear him yap about history and she thinks his haircut is outrageous but wouldn't tell him because she couldn't handle him looking even slightly sad.
Ships :
CrepusculeShipping : Lysandre x Ramzi
OrangeSorbetShipping : Zinzolin x Pedro
Redcarpetshipping : Alexa x Pia
NONAME : Burgh x Braxton
(no art yet)
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Important event change in the AU:
Ending of Team Flare :
While all the events about Team Flare where the same as in the game , the ending is different.
In my headcanon , Lysandre is not evil by definition as he doesn't mean to hurt for the pleasure of hurting or to gain something for himself only. In my opinion , he suffers from a violent mental crisis and is ill.
Unlike Cyrus who has a similar goal , Lysandre is REALLY persuaded that it's for the greater good and is willing to die to achieve it , while Cyrus knows he is manipulating his team and just want the world to himself as *he* wants it to be.
While both are clearly suffering , I would say Cyrus is fully conscious about what he is going to do and almost see it as a revenge against a world that hurted him.
Lysandre however does not seem conscious about how irrational he is and how HE is the impending doom he is so scared off.
-he is willing to die for his ideas-
Lysandre makes me think of those people killing because they hallucinated something or someone telling them to do it to save the world , which is something that put someone in the case "criminally insane" as their ultimate goal was not the murder but to avoid a tragedy that their mind made up itself , and I totally think Lysandre would be classified as criminally insane too.
You see him during the game getting more and more delusional and even scared and distressed about what he is about to do. He even gives you the option to not fire the weapon to avoid having the doom fall of the world on his shoulders , only to be betrayed by Xerosic.
And what happens when Xerosic betrays him ? His mind snap , he has to do it he can't go back it's a sign he HAS to do it. He even is willing to kill himself to save a world he GENUINELY thinks is in danger. You can see how in the span of hours he just became a mess , and all his ideas collapses and merge and even him doesn't understand what he is doing.
He genuinely believes that this is the only solution , the ultimate good choice to save the world from the doom his mind made up.
And that is the only way I can even imagine the writing of Pokemon XY being somewhat "logical".
Onto my AU :
Ramzi realizes that Lysandre isn't going well ,that something in his brain is ultimately going wrong and he doesn't care about the cause or the "why" , all he cares about is saving Lysandre from himself and saving the world at the same time.
He knows that Lysandre is probably as terrified as he is , and alongs Pia , Serena and Diantha , they manages to stop his team and Lysandre himself altogether.
Team Flare is ultimately broken up when Lysandre agrees to follow Looker , and Ramzi never leaves his side.
Lysandre is judged to be criminally insane , and is obligated to be in therapy and to be evaluated every now and then to avoid him getting that delusional and irrational and out of reality again.
Ramzi actually stood by his side and assured that he could heal properly and get back to a more stable state than the one he was in when he decided to save the world from impending doom by BEING the impending doom itself.
Ramzi didn't wanted to break Team Flare down suddenly but asked Lysandre if he could take the lead for a moment to try to undo all the wrongs they had done. Lysandre accepts , and make Ramzi the new leader of Team Flare.
They both still suffer from huge amount of guilt about the past actions of Team Flare and Lysandre often is scared of letting himself get that intense and irrational about something
Xerosic on the other hand is taken responsible for activating the weapon and feeding Lysandre delusion to achieve his own morbid goals. He is quickly arrested after the Emma's events.
Ultimately , Lysandre and Ramziu slowly get back into society , Lysandre looses owner ship over his cafe , the holo cast and pretty much any sponsors he had and fell into some depressive state.
Ramzi tries his best to get him to feel better , and thinks it's a good thing for Lysandre to not have that much responsibility over anyone.
Obviously it is not a perfect good ending , Lysandre is still despised by most people , Ramzi too by definition.
ULTIMATE HARMONIA AU
After acknowledging the real intentions of his former-father Ghetsis , N was thrown out of the castle while Ghetsis would try to groom another person to find the remaining stone for him to use.
N , lost , with barely any time to process what just happened to him , his ideal , stumbled upon a man who swore with passion to get rid of the filth in the present world.
Seeking what he always knew was the truth , he decided to learn more about Lysandre , his stance about humans , and Pokémon alike.
Sure enough , since the timeline in BW2 is similar to the one in X/Y , Lysandre obviously heard about Team Plasma , probably even believed in their cause in the beginning : at the end of the day , he does hate the idea of Pokemon remaining mere tools for humans to use as they wish.
He heard about the downfall , about how Ghetsis lied to everyone before vanishing , letting all his puppets behind and also his son.
He despised the man , but actually praised his ideas.
When N and Lysandre finally interacted , when Lysandre understood where N was coming from , it was only logical for them to unite and share their mutual thoughts.
""I'm sure you understand that Pokémon are not tools for humans to fight each other with."
"And that people who do think that Pokémon are tools are beyond saving, no matter how hard you try." (Lysandre in game (master ex ) quotes)
N wouldn't accept Lysandre ideas of removing Pokemon from the world and letting only a few humans alive to avoid the Pokemon abuse , and wouldn't take much for him to make Lysandre change his mind as well :
N is saying the truth : the only problem is the story are the trainers , not the Pokémon.
They would become allies , joining their ideals , and get lost former-Plasma grunt on their side.
The Ultimate Weapon would be used , but they would have to find a way to make it work as they wanted it too : to eradicate only the very thing that threaten both of their ideals : Humans.
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Pokemon party lore here !
#oc : pedro#oc : pia#oc : atmet#oc : braxton#oc : ramzi#crepusculeshipping#redcarpetshipping#orangesorbetshipping#ultimateharmoniaau#voltaicau#pokemon au#pokemon oc#team flare#team plasma#kalos#unova#pokemon bw#pokemon xy#pokemon art#oc lore#oc reference#digital art#oc x canon#tw : violence#tw : abuse#tw : sh#tw : ableism
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the only reason I don't really enjoy chubby 007n7 (just to clarify, no hate is intended in this, I just wanna yap) is like. I LOVE poor 007 hc. it's canon he always tried to pay to repair the damage c00lkidd caused, and I LOVEEE the interpretation of "he never even had enough". he'd make these promises, and then could just... never keep them.
c00lkidd remembers about a month of his life when he was around seven years old, spent in a care home because his dad was put into detainment. he had been trying to repay elliot for the damages again, and an admin thought he was trying to bribe elliot (and with 007's already bad record, who wouldn't suspect that?). and as they took him, elliot didn't say anything, because even as forgiving as he was, he couldn't forgive 007.
after that, 007 was living on the streets. his apartment had been taken, and c00lkidd saw him one time and ran up to him, ditching the home he had to be with his dad again.
007 eventually claws his way back up, but can never manage to prioritise himself. any bit of care goes to his son, and he barely keeps himself alive. he ends up trying to move away from the place, to a cheaper spot several towns over, trying to start again, but he can barely manage it before he finds himself in forsaken.
and even there, he still can't take care of himself well. a lot of the times he falls asleep during rounds after spending several sleepless nights (which gets him yelled at by the others, for sure), he bucks over during a chase from pain, and a lot of the time he only stays alive in the cabin from the resets after he dies.
.....anyway this is long and very far from the original point. sorry I like to yap about my traumatised little blorbos
🌙🧭 (im fine staying as this btw, just didn't know which would be easier for ya)
That's a valid way of seeing it.
#forsaken headcanons#forsaken#forsaken roblox#roblox forsaken#🌙🧭 anon#007n7 forsaken#c00lkidd forsaken
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it's insane how much i've been writing recently. i'm slowly clawing my way back.
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Hello everyone! While ignoring something I wrote all day today and I'm proud to announce that the first draft of the prologue is officially done! I'm going to send it to the beta readers, do a solid amount of edits, and then I should be able to post it!
#I'm very nervous#Not giving any official dates but stay tuned!#and thank you all for sticking around! Sorry it took so long just for this prologue#The reason I can't really say anything is because there's just a lot to go through and edits take time#but I'm confident you'll hear from me very soon and I'm extremely hopeful that this will be released this month#but no promises.
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Last Line Challenge
Rules: Rules: in a new post, show the last line you wrote (or drew) and tag as many people as there are words (or as many as you feel like).
Got tagged by the indomitable @laurabwrites, and a flare-up has kept me up long past my normal bedtime, so... what better time?
He hears a huff of laughter before Helix rises to his feet. “Drink your hot chocolate, kid,” he says, not unkindly. “Needle’s recipe. Get some calories in you. We’ll talk after about how we can stop that from happening again.” “Okay,” Ben agrees. Exhaustion is creeping up like ivy. “You should check Needle’s arm, though.” His vision is blurry enough that he can’t make out Helix’s expression, but the sudden stillness tells enough. Next to him, he feels Needle sigh, and pokes him. “You carried me.” “And I’d do it again, you horrible little gremlin,” Needle grumbles, and Ben turns his head to the side and smiles into Needle’s shirt. “Just you wait until you’re better. I’ll teach you hand-to-hand and then flatten you into the mat.” “You could try.”
Tagging @themonopolyhat, @drauthor, @shadow-pixelle, @aquaticflames, @foreverchangingfandomsao3, and... an open tag to anyone who wants the motivation! Best of luck!
#this draft has hit 105 pages#i think the chapter proper is like....55 so far? not counting crossed-out snippets and reworkings and the like?#but i have a pathological fear of deleting anything#i just strike it all out#jfc i can't keep mentioning things in the end notes that'll happen next chapter#if i hadn't promised cody and ben meeting i would've posted this chapter three months ago#most of this chapter is grown-up obi-wan and cody#and then i come back to ben and whoops i slip and write an extra 4000 words#shoulder the sky
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i'm super super low motivation for social stuff lately, so if you see me posting & i'm not answering dms from you. i just want to say: i'm sorry. i'm not intentionally ignoring anyone. i'm just a little overwhelmed with messages at the moment & it feels exhausting to talk to people at the moment. i really don't mean to come off as an asshole or like i'm ignoring anyone. i just have been having a tough time with my mental health the past week - it's never intentionally ignoring anyone to make them feel bad - i PROMISE.
#ℕ𝕆 𝕆ℕ𝔼 𝕄𝔸𝕂𝔼𝕊 𝕀𝕋 𝕆𝕌𝕋 𝔸𝕃𝕀𝕍𝔼 / out of character.#my spoons for answering DMs at the moment is like zero & i just can't figure out why#i felt so good for like a few months & now i'm hitting a weird low point#so i'm really sorry to everyone i am slacking off with ;A; but i still promise i want to be friends with everyone#and i'm not intending to be an asshole or anything of that sort#i'm just really really tired as of lately & it has NOTHING to do with the people who are talking to me - it's me not you guys !!!#personal post tw#negative tw
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Time was at a standstill. Vegas was holding his breath without noticing, and continued to hold it when he did - he was afraid of what would happen if he exhaled loudly enough to draw attention to himself. His gaze was shifting between Pete and the man who was standing before them in the doorway, blocking their entrance. Vegas had never seen him before, but even so, he recognized Pete in him enough to know who he was. A dangerous aura surrounded him. There was an edge to his presence that Vegas would only come across people of certain circles. He was a fighter. A muay khao. Pete's father. Shame coursed through Vegas' body, smearing his skin, settling in his lungs, rendering him speechless. I thought he was dead, he wanted to tell Pete if he could. He wanted to scream at him, I thought you killed him. Pete was the one who broke the stillness. As if awakened by something, he took a half-step back and made a motion with his arms, almost raising them to his chest, but not quite. In an instant, Pete reverted into the pet Vegas had been keeping at the safehouse, bound by handcuffs and afraid of his belt hitting flesh and drawing blood. A lump formed in Vegas' throat. "Have you stopped practicing? Your form is off." The uncanny similarities between Pete and his father appearance-wise didn't mean a thing when it came to their voices. Vegas shivered. Was this what Pete would sound like in a few decades? (Were these the condescending words he'd choose to spew? Was Pete going to embody his father? Was Vegas embodying his?) "What are you doing here?" Pete whispered. "They let me out for a few days, so I came here to collect some money. Imagine my surprise when I found out my offspring left the job someone found him worthy enough of doing to... do what exactly? Yaai didn't want to tell me." He crossed his arms, waiting for an answer. Vegas didn't know what he was allowed to say. If he was allowed to say anything at all. "It's none of your business." "I'd say it very much is my business, as well as yaai's business who was dependent on the money you were making being some rich asshole's human shield." A choked sound scratched Vegas' throat. He didn't like getting reminded of Pete being the main family's bodyguard, even though he stopped being one mere months ago. Especially like this. That was the first time Pete's father stopped looking at his son and turned his head to look at Vegas. For a moment, there seemed to be recognition in his eyes. Did he know who Vegas was? Did he care? A snort came out of his mouth. He leaned on the door. "Oh, I see how it is." He laughed, scratched his neck. "I never expected you to whore yourself out for money. Tell me, is it preferable to the path I carved out for you?" Vegas could sense the disgust in his voice. He could also see it on Pete's face. He was too astonished to share it, but not enough to be unable to speak. "Khun, there has been some misunderstanding-" "Don't bother. I can recognize a faggot when I see one." Pete's movements were too fast for Vegas to stop him. A direct jab to the nose; his father fell like a pack of cards, groaning like a wounded animal. Surprisingly, no blood - Pete held back. Vegas didn't know what to think about that. "That was a pathetic attack, even for you." "Get up." "We're not in the ring, son." Pete growled. Vegas could see his hands trembling as he was keeping them in the air, maintaining an offensive stance. "That never stopped you before." "You were too young to understand what I was doing back then. What I was preparing you for." Pete was silent. "The world isn't kind. It'll fuck you over one way or another." He got up, spat on the ground. "You still haven't learned a thing. You're too old to afford being naive." He turned around, and without sparing a look at Pete again, said: "Now get the fuck out of my house." (For @musictooth, whose posts about Pete's father have reignited my passion for this specific concept and for @wretchedamaranth, whose comments on my writing are always lovely and precious ❤️)
#tw slur#vegaspete#pete saengtham#snippet#yu is writing#I started writing this today while waiting for my bus to arrive and wrote most of it on public transport <33#(hopefully it doesn't show lol)#there's a lot of context missing here but basically: VP visit yaai and a wild father appears#I didn't have space to include her unfortunately but just imagine her in the background with a sad look on her face#which is mostly fixed on Vegas :))#for no reason at all :))#due to a certain someone who I won't name (😤) I mayyy turn this into a fic? Maybe?#because 1. I did have a similar idea a year or so ago but never did anything with it and 2. this concept NEEDS to be explored more come on#because in my mind Vegas and Pete can't go to yaai's house until/unless Pete's father leaves#all their stuff is in her house#and they only have Vegas' car with which they traveled there#and Bangkok is too far away to go back now in the middle of the night (yes this happens at night time)#so basically what I'm saying is: VP will spend their night in the car :)#I'm sure the combination of an agitated Pete and a tired Vegas who's also equating Pete with his father due to their external similarities#will be a delightful experience for them both#I'm vibrating out of my skin just thinking about it#can I promise I'll write it and put it out there? Hell no#can I still get excited by the prospect of it happening? Hell yes#sorry I'm rambling a little too much over here#I just haven't felt this good writing in MONTHS#thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed it <3333
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Comms for Those in the Realm of Discord 💚
#my art#commission#object oc#Back with another lovely set of commissions!!#I'm incredibly proud of these two OMGA#These two comms in particular play into two I love doing in my MS paint works:#Adding lots of fun miscellaneous details for the first and each panel adding onto a narrative in the second#The first piece help me find out what exactly I need to *learn* about it graffiti is truly capture it's carefree nature#I have tons to learn but looking at references studying certain styles of letter was just SO much!!#That and I got a bit carried away given how much I could really fit into the canvas without making up the overall compostion hehe#I added a few OSC jokes here and there so I hope you have fun if you spot them!!#As for the second; Star truly gives me a lot to work with when its comes to Star's OCs#There's so much fun narrative bits and details I can weave into a piece if I truly wanted to and I do my best express that as I go along#That and Star's designs are just so fun!! Hehe#Also - Can't say I promise anything - but I'd love to get around to having public comms this month!!#So if you wish keep your eyes peeled in case I finally gain that confidence :}
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Trying really hard to simplify my art style because attempting realism was destroying my motivation
#mash#mashblr#my art#traditional art#trapper john mcintyre#hawkeye pierce#francis mulcahy#father mulcahy#I just drew these really fast because although I know I shouldn't feel guilty for not posting#It's been over a month since I've posted a drawing and I was starting to feel bad#I haven't watched mash since February though since I got to the episode where radar leaves and I had to take a break#I've been rewatching psych as well as wander over yonder both of which I watched years ago#If anyone's interested i can post my woy doodles. I'm holding off for now because I know that's a completely different fandom#But anyway i'll try to draw more frequently though I can't promise anything#and I'll also try to draw more star trek for those who follow me for that#The inability to use commas in the tags is maddening
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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Please please please tell me you're going to be writing more Bucktommy over the hiatus?! Love your work! ❤
Hi anon! Thank you so much! 💜 I definitely plan to keep writing them. I have a few things in my docs for them, but I'm always open to prompts if anyone has any 😊
#anon#answered asks#bucktommy#can't promise anything will be out super soon since I'm back seeing some of my friends and family for the first time in years#but i also told myself I'd complete NaNoWriMo and have 20k to go by the end of the month#so 😅
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oh no somebody I do not want to know about my online presence might have found this account luckily I didn't find anything suspicious in my follower list but oh my god
#nana talks#its literally my dad too I'm not gonna get into the whole lore of why I genuinely don't like him but he's an awful person#I hope nobody has to deal with somebody like that ever not even my worst enemy I'm not kidding#so like I'm hoping he's not stalking this blog#like literally what can he do not like its gonna drive me off of the platform I literally don't care about his opinion of me#but its still unsettling if he is trying to keep track of his adult daughter like this#anyways I don't know if I should reach out to tumblr support because like they probably can't do anything#literally up until I was like 15 he had stuff installed that would let him see everything I do online#eventually that app or something of his shut down and I was free hehe#like this man did and said the most horrendous things under the sun and he's like omg why does nana not want to spend time with him#I don't even care if he's reading this he knows that I don't like him#best thing you can do if you have someone like this in your life is just do whatever you want don't let them bother you that much#eventually they'll realise they can't bother you anymore#like literally for the longest while I thought he would never shut up with the insults directed towards me#but like a couple of months of not caring about it and not talking to him later and he left me alone#so like if anyone reading this can relate I am proof that it does get better my dad is the most stubborn and mean case too#so I promise you it will be okay
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picrews of my descendants oc because i teased her existence a little bit ago
her name is navia and she's the daughter of tiana and naveen
(her name could probably start with a 't' if i really thought of one but when i created her, i decided to just blend tiana and naveen's names together. however i really like navia for her so it's sticking idc)
here are some things that i just threw together to show her vibe (outfits and colors on the left and sample hairstyles on the right)


link to the picrews: 1, 2, 3, 4
#reposting since it's not showing up when i go through the tags#she has glasses in every picrew because i based her off of me and i have glasses if that wasn't clear#i'm trying to not let the fact that only one of them is standing bother me#hoping the pictures speak for themselves but in case anything is lost#her main colors are green and yellow#<- specifically natury (not a word bestie) foresty greens pastel greens and yellowy greens#<- and then specifically pastel yellow and golden yellow#her most common patterns are floral and leafy patterns (specially lilies and lilypads) and her most common textures are lace and satin#<- that one i definitely had to put here in the tags bc i couldn't find exactly what i was looking for when it came to the outfits#i might make my friend's descendants character might not idk#open to answering questions about navia (as in like her lore) if anyone has any :)))#can't promise that she's fully fleshed out but i definitely have some backstory and personality already :))#omg i just realized the post i originally mentioned her was exactly one month ago hehe (NOT ANYMORE SINCE I HAD TO REPOST IT AHH)#descendants#descendants oc#disney descendants#princess and the frog#princess tiana#prince naveen#the princess and the frog
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i'm back with the fics, y'all
#can't promise anything good considering i wrote this a few months back BUT#it's the thought that counts <3#hetalia#2p!hetalia#aph italy#2ptalia#2p!italy#aph#hws#hws veneziano#aph veneziano#hws italy#aph germany#hws germany#2p!germany#noel in ao3 📕
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