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[friendlyneighbourhoodelf]

force sensitive cody, he only begins to realise when his brothers start dying. until that point he’d assumed the way he felt was normal, perhaps didn’t even consider that a clone could be force sensitive. then the galaxy starts getting darker

[thegingeralien]

Thought I might share my “doing homework with adhd” tips in case the might help even just one person (because that would make me feel happy).

Who am I to be giving you advice? Good point! I am still terrible at studying and I’m 26 and at University for the millionth time. But I have studied A LOT in my 22 years of schooling with varying degrees of success.

I see a lot of people, especially teenagers or first year university/college students, with ADHD asking for tips on how to study. But if you do a google search most of the websites and advice that comes up can be extremely ableist. So I hope I can help someone!

TIPS TO HELP YOU STUDY WHEN YOU HAVE AN ADHD GREMLIN BRAIN!:

1. Chewing gum!

- This might come across as a weird one, but it has actually really helped me. I use it as a form of stimming to help keep me focused and concentrating. Other forms of stimming can potentially end up being more of a distraction when you actually need to be reading or writing - but they can help if you just need to be listening. Try not to get a bubble gum or fun flavoured one though - as they can end up making your mouth feel dry, lose flavour quickly, and just give your brain way too many sensory things to become distracted with.

2. Buying colour coded stationary!

- New stationary can make me really excited to start studying, but that excitement never lasts long and the act of buying stationary can sometimes become it’s own hobby. That’s not what we are going for here. I really recommend, especially if you are a visual learner like me, to buy colour coded stationary. This means removable page markers, different coloured post it notes, highlighters, sometimes even pens. This way if your mind jumps from one topic to the other, it doesn’t matter. Go with the flow. Forcing your ADHD gremlin brain to focus can be extremely counter intuitive. So pick a colour for each topic, and stick to that system to find organisation among your own chaos!

3. Buy a really cheap, boring year diary with hardly any writing inside.

- Not sure if your school/university has their own diary but they can be perfect for what I am on about. Generally you can find them for really cheap, soft cover, no writing or designs within the dates. Just dates, days, weeks and lines where you can write your homework. This helped me a lot in High School. I wish I had kept doing it in University, but I am good with giving advice, and not so much with taking it. I used to decorate the outside of it however I wanted. Some years I would redecorate the same diary every semester. In the public holidays or holiday days I would colour those lines in with different highlighters to make it look like a rainbow. But every assignment due date, homework, draft, rewrite, form I had to bring back, library book due date, school activity days, ANYTHING to do with school I would write in there with reminds and check lists. Important due dates would be highlighted, general homework and daily to do lists t(o help me not leave my assignments to the last minute) would have a tick box beside them (because ticking tick boxes is free dopamine). Try to not put birthdays or fun things in it. This is a small way to stay on track so it helps you actually stay on track with the big things when you’re home.

4. Big whiteboards stuck on the wall where you can’t avoid it.

- This is not something I had in school, but I so wish I did. I have been using this recently to keep on top of house work (as maintaining your own house is tiring) and my small business or other things I really can’t avoid. If I physically write it down (not just in my phone) it psychologically does help you commit it to memory. Again, physically putting a line through a task you just completed is a hecking great rush of dopamine. But the biggest reason I love my white board, I can’t ignore it. It is stuck to the wall and is never out of sight, out of mind. I can’t put my phone or diary down and then refuse to look at it until I’m past the due date. Again, I’m not a perfect person, there are days where I don’t do anything I have written on the white board. But the great thing is, I don’t have to continuously feel like I failure, as I can wipe it all off the next morning or week and start fresh. I also put important things I have to remember that I’m doing during the week so I don’t forget them.

5. Icky Medication.

- I know not everyone wants to be on medication, and I understand. I am not forcing you to. No matter what your opinions are, you lovely gremlin who is still reading this post, regarding medication, you are valid and I respect you. My personal experience with medication has not been the best. I have been misdiagnosed for a severe chunk of my academic life which has seen me trying to focus and maintain school work under some even worse states then I am unmedicated! However, since receiving my diagnosis and finding the right ADHD medication for me, I have the ability to get so much work done without having to unnecessarily struggle. It’s unfortunately not magic, it will not turn me into a robot that makes me do work and turn out incredible, noble peace prize winning assignments (as much as I wish that were possible). I still have the ability to be a lump, doom scrolling through tumblr, forgetting to eat, and ignoring responsibilities. But it really helps me when I sit down and start that thing that isn’t fun. Yesterday it helped me hyperfocus on cleaning my office which was a terrifying room to be in. So it’s pretty close to magic in my opinion!

6. Accessing Disability Support at your place of learning.

- Not all of you taking the time to read this will have either a) an offical diagnosis or b) a good disability support available to you wherever you are completing your studies. And that is okay. This dot point just won’t be for you right now. But keep it in mind for a time when it might apply to you, as it’s something I never thought I would need, but will never take for granted ever again.

- If you have an offical diagnosis and Disability Support, make an appointment with the disability support adviser. DO IT NOW! Get your psychiatrist to write a diagnosis letter outlining that you have <enter superpower that makes you hilarious here> and that you are receiving <enter x,y,z treatment here> and that you would benefit from receiving <enter what you have always wished you had on the days you can’t make your ADHD gremlin brain do the thing here>. Now these benefits can be, but not limit to: automatic extensions on ALL assignments, extra time on exams, extra breaks to walk around while taking exams, special consideration when marking assignments, my university allows me to take exams in a separate room with only the other students in my subject who also have disability support (occasionally I have taken an exam alone with only a tutor present) so I don’t get distracted, permission to take fidget items into class or exam (I have the option to wear headphones, as long as I can display that they are not connected to anything). Maybe you can come up with some great ones for you with your disability advisor or your psychiatrist.

- The disability advisor will often go through your course outline with you at the start of each semester or year. This is annoying and a great time for disassociating, but can be useful in hindsight because you are made aware of everything that will come up during your class so you are not surprised. Because lets be honest, it is unlikely you are going to look at the course calendar too often.

- Side Note: I make an appointment every semester with my disability support officer for my area of study to make sure I have my special considerations for the year. Now I may go through the whole year without ever using my considerations. However, the fact that I know they are there takes an insane amount of pressure off of myself. If I’m having an insanely screwy loony tune mental health moment, I can email my coordinator my disability plan and say I need an extension due to personal reasons, and WHOOP, there it izzzzz.

7. Dedicated one thing or a few things that have nothing to do with food/alcohol/other substances to reward yourself with for doing the thing!

- This may not work for everyone. It doesn’t always work for me. I used to reward myself with food, but that only reinforced my stimming with overeating and my already bad relationship with food. And I feel as though that would be the same with any other substance that can be linked with addiction. (Addiction is a tough word, cause what aren’t I addicted to, I have ADHD, but hopefully you get what I mean!).

-Now, boring try and not choose this aside, lets think of somethings that work really well as rewards!

- My partner likes to come give me a kiss and a hug when ever they have written and reread a paragraph, you might buy a book when you get a really good mark, you might want to go make a cup of tea and watch an episode of your hyperfixation after studying for <enter a good period of time here>, you might allow yourself to partake in an activity you usually do while procrastinating (but at least this time you know you aren’t putting something off), talk to someone who you know will tell you they are proud of you as they understand the mental struggle you go through to concentrate (if you can’t think of anyone, it is 110% okay if that person are the amazing people on tumblr or the adhd tumblr chats. We will freaking pop a bottle of champagne for you cause we get it!).

- Try and make what ever you choose be something in a different room or away from your working space. Getting out can really calm you down.

8. Don’t be afraid to ask for assistance.

- This is true for anything, but I don’t mean just asking your teacher to give you extra help understanding the task and marking rubric. Many people online, tutors, librarians at your school, past or present students offer assistance rereading and making small edits (they won’t make it magical unfortunately) to your assignments. If you are like me and once you have written or completed the dreaded thing, you can not imagine or force your gremlin brain reread or edit the thing. So it can help to just delegate this to someone else, who hasn’t read it before, so they won’t disassociate or skim read it. They will often notice things you never would have even if you were neurotypical as that is just what happens when you have been working on something for so long.

9. Repetitive music.

- It generally helps if this has no lyrics. Lo-fi is amazing. Classical is alright too if it works for you, but both my partner and I agree that it can really assist you to keep up pace and focus when the beat is a high and repetitive (almost meditative) tempo.

10. Limit your screen space.

- This is a tip completely from my partner @dr-adhd who also has ADHD, is an avid PC gamer and is consistently in a battle with their gremlin brain to focus on completing their PhD. They have discovered that it really helps them to limit their screen space - simply put, work on one screen only. They have done more work more easily when they have their one screen on their laptop to focus on. Whereas their office has multiple screens so they could be playing runescape, watching YouTube, listening to lo-fi and doing work - which never worked (shocking right hahaha).

11. At the risk of sounding like a Mum... Put your phone and other electronics other than the assignment necessary one, away.

- I am a Mum, but to a fluffy puppy dog, so I hate to sound like my Mum when I was in high school, but she was right. Mobiles are the single easiest and biggest distraction in ADHD history. I often, even at coffee shops, have to turn my phone over so that I am not consistently looking at it every time the screen lights up to say the pizza place has sent me a coupon, or a carpet place that has been having a sale since I was born is... still having a sale, or a friend from school wants you to watch this TikTok. Even though you might not want to ignore your friends, because people pleasing, difficulting making/keeping friends and RSD are hecking real things, but they can all wait. Trust me, none of them are urgent. That TikTok will still be funny in an hour or two. And I’m probably completely right when I say that whomever just messaged you, never replies as quickly as you want them too. So I doubt they are going to think twice if you are MIA to finish your thing.

My partner or I might add to this later, but at the moment I already know that I probably wouldn’t read this wall of words if I was the one reading it, so if you are still with me, THANK YOU and I really hope I might have helped you. Sorry for the mound of words, but maybe you can reblog, screen shot, or save this and read a dot point at a time or refer to it when you need. Don’t be afraid to ask questions, I promise what ever it is, I’ve asked the same thing once in my life or something MUCH stupider.

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↳ 烏野高校 — karasuno high. presenting: sugawara kōshi, sawamura daichi, azumane asahi. i’m sorry these are coming a little late, exam pressure lmao.

credits for image @ roarzoro on twitter.

sugawara kōshi

kōshi loves you with all of his heart. he knows it, and he's known it for a long time. his heart is always looking for you. he's watching you talk about your favorite volleyball anime, or he goes to the temple with you to watch you pray, as he wishes to the lords before him that by some miracle, you fall in love with him. 

and you do. but he doesn't know that. 

kōshi's looking at you, but he doesn't realize that you're looking at him when he's not noticing. he's talking about the crazy quick attack the first years have, and you notice the small spark in his eyes as you admire him from afar. 

during the weekends, the two of you always go on walks. it's calming—the small morning breeze passing through the two of you as you chat while feeding the fishes by the bridge. then, you'd get coffee by the small shop near the school. sometimes, the two of you would even have lunch together. you'd insist that he get the spicy mapo tofu because it's his absolute favorite, and that would make him fall deeper into the pit called love. 

so, as you two graduate from school, your heart burns as you watch him wave at you from afar.

+

"[y/n]!!" he yells out, "i'll see you this weekend at the park, okay?"

you don't want to say anything, because right now, all you can feel is that nostalgic feeling fading away. the high-school years are gone. kōshi and you have just graduated from high school, and he's being pulled by the sleeve by daichi to their families as you stand here, alone, looking at them.

but then, daichi stops. he stands there, whispering something to sugawara as you raise your eyebrow in confusion. the setter immediately places a hand over his face to hide his blush, turning away from the former volleyball team captain.

you sigh, walking back. you feel stares boring through the back of your skull, but you ignore them. and suddenly, the grey-haired boy is next to you, pulling your hood back as you bump into him. he sheds a toothy grin with a thumbs-up, asking, "where do you think you're going?"

you look away, annoyed, as you say, "go flirt with daichi or something, dumbass. i'm tired and i'm going home."

"wait, what?" he asks, stopping as he tilts your chin to look up at him, "did you just—you think i like daichi?"

"i-i..." you sigh, not finding the words you wanted to say. you look away in embarrassment when he says, "are you dumb?"

"okay, that's it. i'm going now," you huff, freeing your hands from his grasp as you begin walking away.

he chuckles out, the soft pink petals of the cherry trees falling as he yells out, "for the record, i love someone very much."

"okay, and?" you yell back, turning on your heel. you feel the rejection almost ghosting over your figure as he says, "they're standing in front of me thinking i like my best friend."

looking back, kōshi always manages to tease you about that day. he'd chuckle in the middle of a movie, or before going to bed asking, "hey, remember the day i told you i loved you?"

"and remember the time you thought i liked daichi?"

what a way to live a happy married life.

sawamura daichi

you're just a friend, daichi would remind himself. you're talking to him about how cool his receive was, and you're giving him a lucky charm, but he's not listening. because right now, all that matters is you. 

but you're not just a friend, are you? you're someone sawamura daichi holds so close to his heart, that it scares him. it's obvious to everyone, even the teachers—except you. 

because daichi and you have created that stupid bubble of friendship, that it's sort of adorable to see you interact. the soft touchings of your hands when you're passing something to the other, or the light chuckles when you're communicating through your eyes in the classroom, or how he always walks you home(then comes running back for volleyball practice). 

it's adorable, but at the same time, it's draining. because sawamura can't just tell you he's in love. he has to show it with his actions.

yet, even when he does, every single time, you mistake it as friendship. it makes him question his own existence, really, because he's trying so hard not to just burst in front of you. he's scared to say those words that might backfire at him. 

even sugawara has told him countless times, that you do, indeed, love him back. his anxiety is just always getting in the way. he’s always procrastinating—telling himself he’d do it soon, but he never does.

but today? he feels no anxiety whatsoever.

+

"so, why'd you decide you want to go to the temple all of a sudden?" he asks, walking up the stairs as you breathed out a long visible sigh in the crisp winter morning. he's looking at you, his hands stuffed into his jacket as you say, "i just... haven't come here in a long time. i thought it's time i pay the gods a visit. just because."

"you're supposed to continue that sentence," he retorts. you chuckle at him, finally reaching the top of the long-awaited temple, as you say, "i wanted to wish for something."

"so you're taking advantage of the gods now?" he mumbles. you slap his arm softly, making him giggle as you say, "no, it's just that i need a little confidence boost, okay? stop stepping on my belief here!"

"okay, okay, i won't! come on now, let's ring the bell," he gestures toward the shinto temple in front of you. you smile lightly, gripping a finger of his as you drag him along. he's mumbling about how you're supposed to go alone, and you say, "not many people are here anyway. i don't think it matters all that much."

after the two of you finish up and are going back down the stairs, daichi asks, "so... what'd you wish for?"

"can't tell you," you immediately say. his elbow brushes against yours as you turn into a beet red. he lets out a dry chuckle as he says, "let me guess. did you wish for the same thing i did?"

he's internally yelling at himself, asking his own heart why in god's name would he say those words. because for a fact, he knows that your wish probably wasn't the same as his. he's praying that it was, yet as his anxiety builds up into a tower taller than the skytree in tokyo, he regrets every word.

"i don't know what you wished for, dummy," you murmur, giving him an eye-roll as you rub your gloved hands together.

"you."

you blink twice. then you blink again as you turn around and yell out, "huh?"

"i wished for you," he looks down at his shoes, his brown eyes looking away with pure guilt as you yell, "wait, so we did wish for almost the same things!"

he looks up, asking, "there was more?"

"yeah, i wished for you too. but also good grades, i've been failing that stupid physics class that miss nari takes."

"oh god."

azumane asahi

asahi hates storms more than anything. his brain just always panics when thunder roars or lightning strikes, and he craves to be by someone whom he holds very dear to his heart. 

so, as you two walk back home from school today, he hears it. it's faint but he hears it. suddenly, a small bead of sweat is falling down his forehead. and his eyes are wide. his brain is racking up so many possible problems that can occur.

you're talking, but he's drowned you out. he can't break down in front of you—he likes you a lot, and he can't just show you his vulnerable side yet. what if you think he's too childish and distance yourself?

asahi remembers the time his mom told him to take deep breaths. he's doing exactly that, but why does he feel his heart beat faster? he's doing that, but he's still in a state of fright. 

why can't he stop panicking?

+

"asahi?" you ask, your eyebrows furrowing as you look at the boy's shaking hands. his eyes are shut tightly as thunder strikes again. you begin talking, but you don't think he can hear you.

"it's about to rain, azumane. come in, and wait it out before you go home," you gesture to your house. you were just about to enter, but asahi suddenly stopped.

you thought for a bit—the way he flinched while hearing the crack of the thunder, or the way his hands shake as it begins to slightly drizzle. then it hit you.

azumane asahi was scared of storms.

you grab his hand in haste, pulling him inside your home as you run towards your room. he was right behind you as you closed the door, still breathing a little too fast as you closed the curtains and turned on the lights.

"asahi," you say as he begins mumbling out incomprehensible words, "i'm here, don't worry."

he's still shaking as you sit him down on the bed, wrapping a blanket around him as you hold his hand in yours and say words of encouragement. you're rubbing his back, tracing small circular patterns.

"please don't leave me. i love you so so much, just please, don't leave," he mumbles into your ear as you hug him close. his body is shaking terribly when you stop rubbing his back.

a smile makes its way onto your face as you hum indulgently, "i'm never leaving your side, asahi. don't worry."

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[astralwaifu]

heyy, congrats on 50 followers !! i wanted a match up for jjk just cause i wonder who others would personally ship me with. thanks for doing this btw <3

zodiac: pisces, mbti: isfp, enneagram: 9

kins: i can only think of armin cuz i rlly don’t know 💀

personally: i’m introverted for sure, like i can make friends but its gonna take quite some time and ur gonna have to talk a bit more (at first anyway, depends how close i am with this person). i think i’m nice, but i may seem rude cause i tease or joke quite often. i’m honest so if you ask me something i’ll say it but try to be as nice as i can. people also consider me supportive, fairly smart, responsible, and funny

likes/hobbies: love jjk (literally an unhealthy obsession), anime and manga in general, i write here on tumblr and wattpad, reading ff’s, and listening to music

dislikes/things that annoy me: schoolwork, presenting in class ew, people who chew loudly, messy people, i got trypophobia too 🧍🏻‍♀️

looking for in relationships: honestly, i’m not all that picky ig. we gotta get along and you can’t be a cheating scumbag ass, the basics yk.

love language: words of affirmation

thanks again, love <33

hi! sorry you had to wait sm, i justin finished my exams and got some free time (finally) i hope you’ll like it <3

I match you up with…

Kugisaki Nobara!

Hc:

- Just by the vibes alone, i know you’d be a good match - chaotic lovers kind of trope.

- It all starts with a lot of teasing from the both sides, which soon evolves into a deep friendship and then, of course into something more.

- She loves that you have similar opinions and that you somehow always understand her and the meaning behind her words. Even if she appears mean and ruthless, you sort of see beyond that mask and can spot her caring and loving side.

- Is a fan of aggressive love. Also she’s a tsundere, but will never see how much you make her blush.

- You two sort of get bored easily, but either one always find an activity - either shopping (mostly shopping) or having a night in, watching anime and writing together. You can’t tell me she didn’t have either Tumblr or Wattpad and didn’t try to write on it. She kinda gets pouty when your works get more popular and appreciated than hers. She supports you either way.

- When you find someone annoying, she will literally shoo them away from you and even pull out the hammer. You have to calm her down then, but how can she control that reaction, when her love is being disturbed by others?….

- Smacked Yuji with the hammer bc he once chewed with his mouth open around you.

- Holds pinkies. Always.

bonus song that reminds me of you two: telepatía - Kali Uchis

[faerielleart]

in a few weeks it’s gonna be this blog’s first anniversary so i would like to ramble a little, feel free to ignore this post, just putting my thoughts out here

i’ve been drawing ever since i can remember and my first introduction to the concept of fandoms and creating content was hetalia, along with aot. i used to draw hetalia fanart and post it on forums, then i posted every once in a while sketches of aot characters on my old tumblr blog, which i’ve had for like 8 years but haven’t used in a long time. i remember drawing constantly until i started high school, and high school for me was the worst years of my life. i became depressed and i wasn’t drawing anymore, i still struggle with depression but i’ve gotten better thankfully. the only thing that made me happy, was listening to my precious boys, BTS. they still make me the happiest nowadays and i wouldn’t be who i am today without them and i owe them a lot. my high school experience was fucked up on all sides. i’m not gonna go into detail, but it was the root of most of the problems i have today with interacting with other people.

why am i saying this? i thought a little backstory was needed here. so, as i said, i stopped drawing almost completely until last year. around maybe february 2020 i started sporadically posting some art on my personal twitter, then i made the big decision, which i pondered over for A LOT of time, of making an art account; i wasn’t sure if i’d be able to keep up the commitment, but i wanted to try anyway. things were okay for a while, but then they spiraled down when my grandma had to be hospitalized for a severe brain hemorrhage in march 2020. my will to do anything completely stopped and i couldn’t do anything, for weeks i said fuck off with my uni work, which caused me to fall a year behind with all my exams and i still struggle with first year programs now that i���m in my second year, with all things i enjoyed doing, all i could think about was how terrified i was for my grandma’s health. i didn’t see her for three months. just days after she got sick, italy was put on a strict lockdown which lasted until june. we couldn’t see her, we couldn’t call the hospital bc the system was collapsing and no one bothered giving us answers, letting us talk to her, no one even took care of her. she was confined to a hospital bed, alone, for 3 months, with no one checking up on her, interacting with her, absolutely nothing. every day i prayed they’d let us bring her home to us, every day i was disappointed. then, on 25th may 2020, we got the call. she had passed away in her sleep. they didn’t even bother to check her temperature and give us an approximate time, nothing. it was the worst moment of my life and i was completely out of it for a month. i turned off my phone for a month, didn’t talk to anyone for a month, didn’t do anything for a month. my grandma has always lived with us and we slept in the same room, in the same bed, until the very last day i saw her. she was my everything and i couldn’t even give her one last hug or tell her one last time that i love her. needless to say, i had 0 motivation to even wake up in the morning.

now, making this blog was like therapy to me. i already had my twitter, but tumblr was another story, it’s much more personal and i was kind of intimidated even as i was contemplating even making an art account in the first place, which is why i went with twitter first.

after a month of not-quite-living, one day i randomly picked up my ipad again and started drawing again. it was an ugly sketch of a person walking with a dog. it felt kind of nice, after a month of feeling completely numb. the more i drew, the more i started feeling better. i was re-reading the latest chapters, and i drew 126 fanart. and i made up my mind, i wanted to try and make a tumblr blog, i wanted to try and interact with a fandom i had followed silently for years after being an active part of it when i was younger. so i did it, and i posted my very first levihan fanart on the internet, on this blog, on 1st july 2020.

what’s all this for, you may ask if you’re still reading. yesterday was 25th may, which marks a full year since that happened. and this year has been revolutionary for my self-confidence and my skills. i have never drawn so much ever before in my entire life. in a year i drew everyday, i shared what i made on the internet, i received love and support for what i made from strangers and it’s been fucking amazing so far. things are better now and i can hope they’ll get better and better each day.

this was all to say, thank you to all of you. to all my almost-300 followers, which is such an unbelievable thing to me and i never would’ve expected to go over 10 followers maximum, to everyone who’s ever left a like on my posts, to everyone i’ve ever talked to on here, and even to the annoying anons who gave me a few laughs with their failed attempts at trolling, a big thank you. thank you for unknowningly being part of what helped me get through this year, thank you for enjoying what i create, thank you for supporting me. thanks to this blog, i’ve met and talked to wonderful people and rekindled my love for a fandom i had pretty much given up interacting with, even if i followed it silently at the same time for years. now the story’s finished, but my love for levihan hasn’t and the art will keep coming. it’s become such a big part of me now and it’s such a huge comfort, right up here with my darlings, BTS. thank you so much for the love and support.

much love,

angie 🌺

[reggies-eyeliner]

Rules for Requesting and Asks!

Heyo, you beautiful little bean! Before I start the rules and all that jazz:

(or shoulder pats, if you don’t like them hehe)

So: Rules. Oh boy. I’m not a fan of rules-- rules feel like it’s just “blah blah blah, do this, not that, blah blah” so Imma try to make these as easy as possible for y’all who are excited to ask >:D

1. Soulmate/Normal Matchups (Closed)

What I Ask of You:

You can be as detailed as you want, or you can just make it the bare minimum, do whatever is easiest for you, my dear :D

Just try to include enough about you so that I know which result/outcome would make you the most comfortable

I might be a bit dismissive, so I’ll send you a notif for when I get the ask! Anons are also 1000 percent welcome :]

Yes, I have dedication issues. This is why I’m only in love with fictional characters and not real people xD!

Oh, and I won’t match you with Willie or Alex unless you’re also a dude, but I might match you two has best friends!

Please try to be as respectful as possible in your ask 🥺🥺🥺

I’m not asking for you to worship me or scream at me with thank you’s, but just don’t scream at me for taking too long. Try not to curse every two words because I’m trying to keep my brain *jazz hands* holy

No, jkjk it’s just that there might be younger users reading over these xDD

OKAY SO ANYWAYS

Try to include:

I literally don’t care!! I want you to feel as free as possible while writing yours. Talk about anything you want. I don’t care if you speak of you and your passion for eating raw cookie dough (but same lmao), or if you hate almond milk. Just talk about whatever you want!! I’m here to make people smile and nothing else, sugarcakes! d;

What You Get in Return:

Over 500 words worth in writing per each fandom

Yes, over 500 (it hurts like heck but it’s *throws skittles* okay)

A gif/fanart piece per fandom

You’ll get yours back either: Within 3 days, if you only requested only one fandom and you were very nice hehehehehe , three days if you wre still hecking amazing but I was busy, or it can go to AT MOST, AT MOST I PROMISE around 18 days if I’m having: an exam week, a pinned post, getting a lot of asks, or yours was really complicated and my brain exploded

At times, it may never come if *cough* TUMBLR EATS IT

I will also throw you fifty virtual hugs and skittles

And yes, every ask comes with a thousand hugs, compliments, and shoulder pats!!

A bunch of dating headcanons

If you put in your name, yes, I can customize ;D

What the person I matched you with does when you feel down

How they support you

How you support them

90 percent of it is mainly me rambling about how sweet everyone who asks is, but what can I say? Y’all are precious as heck

Example of Matchup: Hi! Can I please have a matchup for a male character in Julie and the Phantoms (besides willie + alex)? I’m an INFP-T, 5′4″, Aries, and I’m also very annoying haha. I like writing, dance, and singing-- usually, I write a lot of fantasy novels and I want to be an author when I grow up! I also really like baking desserts, particularly brownies, and I also like to make mocktails if I ever get the chance. I love reading, John Green books especially, and I’m usually the funny person in the group to lift everyone’s spirits. Thank you so much :)

2. Band and Song Matchups (Closed)

These are definitely one of the most fun things to do! You can ask for this to be included in your other matchup, but a quick summary of it would be:

Send me your description, but this time add your physical description as well!

A few of the extra-curricular activities you do

Send up to 8 emojis describing your personality and aesthetic (haha it sounds weird but please trust me on this XD)

Your favorite JATP song

Your favorite genre, and/or your fashion style

And wabam, that’s it!

I’ll reply with who I’d see you as in the band, and what song you would be in Julie and the Phantoms. Seems ridiculous, but heyy ya know XD

3. Headcanons, Imagines, Blurbs, Scenarios, Full Stories

PLEASE SEND HOWEVER MANY NUMBER OF THESE LIKE AJAJJAJAJAJAJAJA

I’ll write for any “X READER” that you request

Literally anything

Angst, major character death, if you’re sad, I GOTCHU

Request for as many characters as you want!!

I can write NSFW, BUT I SUCK AT IT SO PLEASE TRY NOT TO REQUEST IT LMFAO

I’ll write everything else

No, like everything else ever

Okay I won’t write like a Reggie x Cowboy bootes but ya know (...that’s actually not a bad idea-)

It doesn’t just have to be a character insert, it can be anything else!! I really don’t mind :]

TRY TO INCLUDE:

What word count you want (or you can write that you’re chill with anything)

Your gender

Which POV you want it in

And I’ll send you what date I can get yours in!

4. Customized Asks:

I have never done this before, so this is kinda new!

IN CUSTOMIZED ASKS:

Put in a lengthy and concise description of yourself-- it should be a lot more detailed than a matchup. Include your personality type, a lot about your personality, anything you want to add, but make it worth it!! Write A LOT about yourself!! Also, be sure to include your name.

Once you have the full thing, private-message me (please make sure you have an account!!) and I’ll send you my Tumblr asks email so you can send your description (or, send it in the submit form or asks, if you’re okay with it being public).

In return, I write you a reader insert with your real name (not y/n hehe) and make it customized just for you. I’ll make it perfect (or try to,) with your personality, your height, your likes, your interests, and your name so that it’s built just for you and no one else!!

The best part??

YOU DON’T HAVE TO PAY ME REAL MONEY HEHEHEHEHHEH

That’s right! A customized ask that goes from 3,000-10,000 words that should come within three weeks! Instead, all I ask is for some support in any way 🥺🥺🥺 It can be through reblogs, (remember: REBLOGS> LIKES d;), a simple follow or shoutout, or even just a thank you. I’m only here to make people happy!! Thank you so much if you do plan on supporting <333</p>

4. Random Asks/Advice

Scream at me. Vent whatever you want to me. Ask me to help with your math homework. Your ELA homework. Ask for love advice. Tell me about what you did this morning. I LOVE, LOVE GETTING THESE ASKS!!

I love it when people come to me not just for asks and such, but just to tell me about their lives or to ask me quetsions!! And I bet a lot of other creators do, as well! So please support them <3</p>

SCREAM AT ME ALL YOU WANT HON, IM HERE TO LISTEN

I’m sorry that this was a bit long, but if you read the full thing, HIGH FIVE >:3

Thank y’all so much!! Stay safe ^U^

[shiro-0197]

God no I'm sorry 😭😭😭 the way Tumblr eats all my drafts, and now your replies. (Someday I'm gonna eat Tumblr grrrr) that must've been so frustrating tho, I'm sorry love.

someday we could go to a country with Highlands together. It'll be super cold and nice. And the views would be really really pretty too!! WE COULD EVEN BE AMONGST THE CLOUDS >//< aww yes I hope you'll be able to try them soon in the future!! I died and had to stay in bed for an hour, (because my spice tolerance is nonexistent <3) but yeah I'm better now! Name is: "대박 ghost pepper noodles" the Korean word 대박 literally translates to "awesome" but— 😭😭

oh I see!! I hope school goes well, it's good that you're excused for a part of the day :D and aww I understand. Replying can be lengthy sometimes, so please please only do it when you're free and comfortable >:(( we're in no rush, after all :D

I was studying earlier too. and I texted my principal about the exams ( because apparently none of my teachers know anything about it, and I was so frustrated with everyone being so clueless ) she just replied with a : "hi Ariana, will let you know on Friday" like excuse me, ma'am. GRRRRR >:( STOP BEING CLUELESS.

awww that's okay!! I'm sure those prep slides were really pretty too :D aww that's sweet of you. some of my online friends sometimes sit in on my Leo events (if it's open to everyone) and it's pretty fun when they do (once, one of them had to talk for like, an activity and my club mates were like "SHE HAS AN ACCENT??". It was hilarious hehe) zoom is great for that reason, and only that. they're just ready-made slides tbh, I use canva :D

Shiro, love, you won't disappoint anyone, I promise you that. I'm sure your mom is more proud than you know, and from the way you talk about her, I can tell that she truly adores you. tho I also understand your worries. If you want to rant or anything, you know I'm here. And I'll just continuously reassure you of how amazing you are :)

that's my boy 🥺🥺 grr, you're so feisty, please imagine me holding a "you go, Shiro" sign everytime you tell someone to fuck themselves :D Laurent is indeed amazing. He's my favourite character for that exact reason >//< there's another character, from a book I read, just like that. His name was uhh, Kieran. And he knew so many different languages, and was just in general; super smart. I remember being so in love with him when I first read it (The title of the book is "genius")

HAHA. ikr. They're all hot, and most importantly; smart. nevermind, when I meet you someday we can cry over them together 😭🤚 pffft no offense, but being evil is hot sometimes 😾 (I mean, Kieran was evil. So's Moriarty :] and I am: a simp for them all)

aww bae that's okay 🥺🥺 your feelings are valid, and it's not wrong to express them whenever you feel like it. Grrr if I ever see your dad, he might be missing a limb >:( sorry, that was violent, but I get especially mad if anyone upsets someone i love )

exactly?? It's been a year?? Where's that blink meme where someone blinks and it's suddenly 2021. Oooh that sounds really nice!! Adding it on my list of things to try in March >.< Honey is really delicious. especially all those desserts which have a lot of them.

glad I made you laugh >////< grr my sense of humour is just so weird tho, so I'm glad you aren't freaked out by it.

KAJDKSJSKS SIR WAIT. There was an explanation for that u but I guess it got cut off in my notes 😾😾 IT WAS MEANT TO BE A Ü (smiley) but I was using my computer and I couldn't add the two dots above, so I typed "imagine the eyes" (but apparently that part got cut off and now it just looks like a random alphabet SKJSKSK IM SORRY 😭😭😭

I understand, the lack of opportunities can really get on one's nerves. But oh yes, Japan and Norway are beautiful countries. Apart from Japan, I've been really into Korea and Switzerland. The Alps 😻

grrr y'all have tough exteriors. But it's so rewarding when you finally get them down, tho I think, you guys have tons of other layers to yourselves. I guess that's just the charm, I find it endearing, because it just means there's a lot more than meets the eye :)

MY FRIEND MAKES FUN OF ME FOR LIKING PINK. HE TEASES ME MERCILESSLY SKSJSKSK (so I published a poem line in the school magazine to get back at him for it, because I'm petty like that)

that's so funny >.< There are two girls, and a girl and a guy, who share the exact same names in my class, and it's so funny because they're opposites of each other xD

he really is precious. The best leader, I would literally die for him, he's wonderful. yeah the book actually started out different, with them just being best friends. Best plot twist 😭😭 AWW

NOOO I'm sure it's cute, in it own way? :P tho that meme tho. LDJCJSBSKS. Don't worry, hehe, the character may be .... Unpleasant to look at?? , but you're not the least bit at all :)

how was your day btw? My day sucked ass and was literally the worst day in the history of uh, days. Yeah. sad. tomorrow will be better.

God, you're so adorable wtf. Marry me rn. AKDJSKSJS I didn't find it lame at all, (tho were you flustered? Because that was cute as hell xD) I love you too 🥺🥺

—☃️

It's okay, it's not your fault. We could storm the Tumblr building together or something..:3

Oh I really hope we can!!! I love cold weather. You can wear sweaters and hoodies and all that💞 and you have an excuse to cancel everything and cuddle up with a blanket or someone else😝

Im so glad you're better now!! Spice sickness or whatever is the worst😔 WBHDJWKX that's hilarious I hope I come across those soon! Let's see who wins😼

Yeah, about that, they started making us do after-class activities, which now leaves less time for the stuff I have to do .... which sucks . But I'm managing, I think, so it's cool xD yeah, I've always been kind of cautious about the timing, it's nice to have a little freedom now, thank you so much <3

Wow😭😭 our teachers usually have the dates set two weeks before the exams, we always recieve a message. Though I've been there, where the teacher have no clue, it's so annoying😭😭

Ohh, that's so cool! I hope I will be able to visit one someday. Though I dont think itll be too soon, but I'm looking forward to when I can😝 also that's funny, whenever I speak people go "he doesnt have an accent???" Even though I so obviously do. They just have no idea 😭

Okay..... that's the best words of encouragement I've ever received, I'm so touched- thank you🥺💘

Bwahah, that's gonna make my day every time 😭 Yeah, hes my favorite too!! He seems like a simple himbo at first, but the more we see of him the better he gets. (That sounds cool!!! I'm gonna check it out when I can!)

Thank you🥺 also, dont worry, I wouldn't mind that. I'd love that, actually, wanna go rip off guys arms together?

MZJXKGJJAKXKAKX IT'S ALRIGHT HAHAH, ITS REALLY FUNNY SO DONT WORRY😭😭

JSNFNMWMDMS IM GONNA MAKE FUN OF HIM FOR MAKING FUN OF YOU how could he . I will eat his eyeballs. Also I 100% agree with the poem and I'm glad you posted it. I hope some people thought about it.

Wow😭😭 its honestly so funny, because they're all so different and yet their names fit them so well either way.

Also, wow I feel so bad it's been almost a week since I responded😐 I'm really sorry. I've been writing snips of this message any time I could and yet it still took me days xD I'm getting free, though, so I'll try to respond faster now. I missed talking to you so much😭 thank you for your patience🤍🤍🤍

How've you been? I'm pretty good, tired but feeling good because I can finally respond😩 I hope your day went well. Love you!♡

[moony-jamie]

Okay long post that may or may not be shorter than expected but here we go. (I just wrote everything and it's pretty long, I think)

This will mostly be about things that happened in the past few weeks that made me emotional? Kinda? Stuff I want to talk about aka screaming it into the void that tumblr is. (Apparently it's mostly about football and my exams)

I'll put it under a keep reading thing, hopefully it works.

Okay where do I start?

I feel like I spend more time being emotional about football than worrying about my finals. Magdeburg was involved most of the time but also football that shares one braincell and the DFB hasn't seen it in a long time.

But let's start at the beginning.

On the 8th of May 46 years ago Magdeburg won the Cup Winners' Cup. Since it looked like the season will be cancelled and Magdeburg could go into a financial crisis, the fans organised a fundraising event in which they sold tickets for an imaginary trip to Rotterdam to win the cup a second time. This started around the 5th of April and went on for a month.

Obviously I got a ticket too and spend a whole week basically camping in front of my mailbox waiting for it. It took five days and I cried when it came.

It's beautiful, I love it a lot, one of my favourite players singed it, I'm in love.

They even managed to show the game in a re-live so that's the story how I screamed and cried after my English exam because we won the cup (again).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2qBL15JPO4g

And well then this video made me cry again and I feel like I spend more time crying over Magdeburg than actually studying for the exams but it's time well spend I guess.

(And no we didn't actually went to Rotterdam it was all imagination but it was great anyway)

During all of this Magdeburg desperately tried to get Milan's attention (for a possible rematch in four years for the 50th anniversary) by tweeting at them in badly translated Italian. Honestly that club is as dumb as I am and I love them a lot.

Apart from that football was all about pain the past weeks, starting with the fact that I can't scream my emotions out during football games? Like idk if it's a good coping mechanism or not but screaming for 90 minutes straight always helped me a lot.

Now I'm really mad that the DFB decided to start Bundesliga behind closed doors because first of all the Bundesliga is nothing without it's fans. Second, ending the season early would be the better option but well I told myself to calm so I will do calm.

BUT THEN they won't stop arguing about the 3. Liga and honestly I'm done with this shit. At least Magdeburg is the club with the braincells and said they want to end the season (I guess I chose the right club to stan).

The thing is Magdeburg isn't legally allowed to train or even play here in Saxony Anhalt but well apparently the DFB doesn't care and is now pressuring the politics into either allowing them to play or they will take away Magdeburg's (and Halle's) license and honestly that is so fucked up I can't believe it's actually happening.

Football, what a fun sport to stan :)

Enough about football tho, lets get into the important stuff. Or well the reason I actually took a break from tumblr.

My exams went surprisingly well despite the fact that I had to stop studying at some point because it just stressed me out.

It all started off with my Chemistry exam which was pretty easy. Besides my business administration exam it was the one that stressed me out a lot because I almost failed the mock exam and I just had a bad feeling overall.

But then I saw the tasks and everything was so easy?? Of course I started stressing again because I was finished with still an hour to go but then my classmate told me that she saw the teacher grading it and I had a lot of points already and?? I was so relieved?? Honestly I could've cried.

My English exam was the next one, two days after Chemistry.

There are two main parts in this one. The first one is the listening comprehension (nightmare of every German student) the second one is the written part.

In my school we have one room that has a very good acoustic in which the listening part wouldn't be a problem but due to Corona they talked about closing it because it might be unfair when it couldn't be used for everyone that wrote the more difficult exam (I not in the mood to explain the whole system right now but if you want to know more about it dm me).

Thursday I wrote my English teacher if she knows how it's planned right now and she confirmed that they will be using this room and that I will be in this room for the listening part. That was the first time I actually cried because of my exams.

Now English wasn't particularly bad but I have a weird feeling about it. We will see once I'll get the results.

My German exam was the next one and just like with the English exam I have a weird feeling but we'll have to see.

I got good results in both of my mocks so hopefully it will be fine.

The last one was my business administration exam and oh boy. I was stressing so much, I couldn't look at my notes without having a breakdown and it was bad, really bad.

I was praying for marketing to be a big part but of course my prayers weren't heard and there wasn't a single sign of it at all.

BUT luckily the main part of the exam was easy. Well not too easy but it was a topic where I didn't think they would make it the main part but they did. It was about loans.

Well we better don't talk about the rest of it but if my calculations are right I should get the required points.

I really don't want to get hopes up but I'm pretty sure I made it.

There is one exam left still but it will be some time around June and hopefully pretty easy so I'm not stressing too much right now.

Now that I finished the hardest part I hate how everyone was stressing me even more. People basically tell you that if you don't start studying months and months in advance you won't make it but?? No, it's not that.

I can't speak for other exams of course because well maybe we had a Corona bonus or whatever but I don't think so.

It really seems to be easy (at least for all the nightmare stories I always heard).

Also wtf F1? I walk out of my German exam and see that Vettel left Ferrari. Got my crying the whole day because well I don't mind him leaving Ferrari as much as I mind should he retire. I really don't want that.

And then I walk out of the business exam and they announce Carlos to Ferrari and Dan to McLaren. As if I wasn't emotional enough, F1 really decided to play with my feelings here huh.

But what else happened except for football and exams?

Well I walked my dog every day and saw all kind of animals during so. I don't know if it was because there were less people outside or just because we have a lot of fields and forests in general but it was pretty cool.

We saw rabbits, foxes, deers and even a snake (I only saw a wild snake once in my life so that's pretty cool)

Also managed to took a (bad) picture of a deer, isn't he cute?

Also a week ago my mom convinced me to buy a bunch of guppies for our tank and ever since we got them my betta got herself a goth girlfriend and I'm??? So soft??? For my gay fish??

They're very shy tho and I didn't manage to get a good picture of them yet but it's really cute. They're always hanging around each other.

Last week I was also able to go to the stable again since Jody isn't actually my horse and they only allowed owners on the property to stop the people from taking riding lessons.

This picture is from today, I wanted to take pictures in this field ever since I missed it last year and most of the flowers stopped blooming back then.

But I was able to go back and can go there again now that I have some free time and I'm just so happy.

Unfortunately now they aren't in full bloom either because we missed it again (thanks Corona 🙃) but the picture is nice enough so I don't mind too much.

By now I can't really think of anything else that happened.

As I said I'm now working on my Fanfiction. In theory I wanted it to be done by the end of May but I don't think I will make it but I'm not stressing myself with it either. Every chapter is more or less plotted so I hope writing will go by a little easier.

I don't know how many people actually read it until this point but if you did, thanks 💙

I'm just happy that I got all of it of my chest now since I wanted to talk about all this but I was getting tired to annoy my mom with it.

[everlarkficexchange]

You Belong with Me - Prompt 10

Written by: @iliveilaughiloveiread on tumblr, colleenegan25 on AO3

Prompt by: Anonymous

Prompt 10: Based on “You Belong With Me” by Taylor Swift music video: Katniss is Lucas Till’s character, she has a relationship with Gale, but she doesn’t really like being with him. Peeta is pining for her, like Taylor Swift’s character, observing them and think he and K belong together. 

AN: This prompt was fun for me because this song was popular when I first began dating my husband. Also I used one of my ex-boyfriends for some of Gale’s annoying traits. Thanks to @butrfac14 for being my beta and turning my ramblings into a coherent story. Also thanks to @everlarkficexchange for running this awesome thing.

Rating: General with some cursing. Douchebag boyfriend warning

Disclaimer: This is a fandom work and I own nothing.  

You Belong With Me

Wednesday

“Hey Kat, how’s your week been?” Peeta smiled as he saw her approach their favorite booth at Sae’s.

“Exhausting. I can’t wait to eat some real food,” Katniss said, plopping her backpack down on the booth. It was a weekly tradition that he and Katniss eat lunch together now that they didn’t live in the dorms and share all their meals.

“Uh Kat I know you’re always hungry and all, but what exactly are you talking about?” Peeta questions his best friend of 3 years.

“Well you know how Gale gets with food. No caffeine, no nitrates, no refined sugars and definitely nothing fried.” she trailed off

“Oh yes I know ‘his body is a temple.’ I mean what kind of a freak doesn’t eat chocolate?! No offense.”

“None taken.”

“But what does that have to do with you?” Peeta was concerned.

“We’ve been cooking together more, and he came to the grocery store with me last week so I only bought stuff that he would eat too. But then I realized that I’m starving all the time because I am not a woman who can sustain herself on vegetables and quinoa.” Katniss let out an exasperated sigh.

“Duh! How, after 2 years, does he not realize that?” Peeta is indignant on her behalf. It’s one thing for someone to put limits on their own diet, but forcing them on someone else was uncalled for. And anyone who knew Katniss knew she needed to eat.

“I think Gale thinks he’s changing me. Maybe he is a little but I just don’t think I can be the matching kale smoothies for breakfast partner he’s envisioning me to be.”

“Well Kat, I can’t imagine why he’d even want you to be one of those girls. Lucky for you I already ordered us some Irish nachos–which should be arriving any minute.”

“You’re the best!” Katniss smiled up at Peeta.

~If you can see I’m the one who understands you~

Second Wednesday

Katniss is waiting for him in their booth. “Peeta I need you”

Peeta coughs at how that sounds, “What do you need?”

“Will you come to pre-bowl after this? I have to miss bowling league tomorrow night because I have an exam. You know Jo will kill me if I mess with our team’s chances of first place this year.“

“Of course, but aren’t you cutting it a little close? Don’t your pre-bowl numbers have to be in at least 24 hours ahead of time?”

“Look at you, Peeta! You already know the bowling league rules without even playing. Yes I am cutting it close but I hate going down there by myself, so I waited until I knew you were free.”

Peeta doesn’t even bother to question why she didn’t ask Gale to go with her. He’s too excited about having some one on one time with her that lasts longer than their weekly lunch dates.

After an hour of bowling, talking, and laughing Peeta was feeling great. Lighter than he has all week.

“Thanks for hanging out with me while I did that! You always make me feel better.” Katniss smiled and gave him a hug before walking back towards her apartment. It’s only once he got home that Peeta began to wonder what was going on that made Katniss need to feel better.

  ~Been here all along so why can’t you see~

Third Wednesday

Katniss happily munches on Sae’s famous buffalo chicken sandwich and fries. “Is there a wrong way to make a bed?” she asks her friend.

“Huh?” Peeta’s mouth is full of fries. He finishes chewing. “What do you mean? You know I always make my bed. My mom drilled that routine into us as children.”

“Right, that’s why I’m asking you. Is there a specific ‘correct,’ (using her fingers to make air quotes) way to make a bed?”

Peeta shakes his head,, “I don’t think so. I think the military has certain routines and so do hotels.  But for most people as long as the sheets and blankets are straightened out they consider that a made bed. Why are we talking about this? Did you start watching HGTV or something?”

“No it’s just… Gale really likes the bed made. And it’s all the same to me to just leave the sheets and blankets in a mess since that’s how they’ll be as soon I go back to bed. I know that’s not his preference, so this morning when he was in the shower I made the bed. Just to be nice, you know? I’m sure that it was a little sloppy but I thought it looked good. Then without saying a word to me Gale walked back into the bedroom and pulled the covers back off before proceeding to make the bed again.” he just undid everything and made it again.”

Peeta just stared at Katniss.

“Seriously? He remade the bed after you already made it? Kat that’s really fucked up. What kind of a person doesn’t acknowledge when something thoughtful has been done for them? Then just corrects it because they think they can do it better?”

“Right? I appreciate your indignation. Gale just shrugged it off and told me I was being too sensitive.” Katniss shakes her head at the memory.

“Well on behalf of all bed makers, let me make it clear that redoing it after someone else has already made the bed is rude and strange.” Peeta thinks to himself I would never take her for granted like that.

Katniss smiles, “Thanks Peet.”

~You belong with me ~

Fourth Wednesday

“How was your weekend Kat? You never made it over to Murphy’s on Saturday.”

“I know sorry. Ugh. Gale dragged me to another Frat party,” Katniss rolls her eyes. “I feel like now that we’re 21 we shouldn’t have to go to them anymore. But Gale insists it’s an important part of his ‘brotherhood.’ How was the band?”

“Really great actually! They did some acoustic songs that you would have loved. They were hauntingly beautiful.” Peeta smiles wistfully.

“So jealous! I was stuck listening to the latest Ariana Grande song on repeat all night. Drinking shitty beer.”

“That sounds awful. Why didn’t you just leave?” asks Peeta.

“I tried! I told Gale I couldn’t handle it anymore when the sister sorority’s new pledge class showed up. Then he told me that I wasn’t being a supportive girlfriend by bailing on him on a Saturday night.”

Bailing?! Peeta shook his head. How could Gale claim she was bailing when she showed up to a party she clearly didn’t want to go to even when she had other plans.

“If you ask me he wasn’t being very supportive of your interests.” Peeta mumbles half under his breath.

“Yeah, we got into a fight and I ended up just sucking it up and staying for a little longer until I could go home and just go to bed,” sighed Katniss. Doesn’t that sound like quality time with your partner.”

“Sorry to hear that. I didn’t mean to bring up any drama.”

“Not your fault, but I promise that I’ll be at the next show with you even if there is a frat party.” Katniss says.

~I’m listening to the kind of music she doesn’t like

And she’ll never know your story like I do’ ~

Fifth Wednesday

Peeta walks in to Sae’s and finds Katniss already waiting at their booth surrounded by books, papers and her laptop.

“Hey, you look busy,” he says as he slides in across from her.

“This semester is really kicking my ass Peet. All my classes are moving at full force and the readings and homework have really been piling up.” Katniss is many things but she is not a procrastinator, so Peeta realizes that she must have a ton of work to do if she’s bringing it with her today.”

“If you’re too busy for lunch it’s okay Katniss, we can take a week off. I don’t want you to get behind on your studies,” Peeta looks genuinely concerned.

“No!” Katniss practically shouts. “This lunch is the only thing saving my sanity. Gale and I have been fighting a lot over anything and everything. This week he’s annoyed at how much homework I’m doing and thinks that I’m using it as a way to avoid him.”

“Seriously? That guy can be a real piece of work,” Peeta shakes his head in disgust. A tiny part of his heart skips a beat knowing that he’s the thing that is saving her sanity.

“Yeah I don’t know if maybe I am trying to avoid him subconsciously. He’s making me feel all nervous and stressed to be around, which I do not need on top of my heavy class load this semester,” Katniss puts her head down on the wood table. “Peet, I just don’t think I can do it anymore.”

Peeta tries not to panic seeing his my friend in such distress. He moves over to her side of the booth and starts rubbing circles on her back.

“Do what?” He asks quietly.

“The fighting with Gale is exhausting. We’re never on the same page about anything. He gets mad about the food I buy and eat, and how I clean the apartment. And now he thinks that I’m doing too much homework?  I can’t keep doing this, it’s too much.”

“Katniss, you should tell Gale all this. I’m sure he’s not intentionally trying to stress you out. Remember relationships are supposed to make you happy and feel supported, not angry and stressed. I know you’ve been dating a long time but you’re not married. You shouldn’t feel obligated to stay with him just because you’ve been with him a long time.” Peeta shocks himself by saying that out loud. He quickly adds, “Sorry if that got a little preachy. I just hate seeing you upset”

Katniss shakes her head and gives a weak smile. “It’s okay. Can we just eat and talk about something else to get my mind off this?”

“I know just the thing! Put your books away, we can go to the library after lunch. Let’s get milkshakes and cheese fries while I tell you all about Rye’s antics last weekend. Spoiler alert - he had to go to the hospital again.”

Katniss laughs at Rye’s ridiculousness while drinking her chocolate milkshake. After they finish she smiles at Peeta and squeezes his hand, “Thank you. That was just what I needed.”

  ~I can’t help thinking this is how it ought to be

Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself hey isn’t this easy~

Sixth Wednesday

Peeta is reading a book in their booth when he sees her walk through the door. Or at least it’s someone who vaguely looks like Katniss. She’s dragging her feet, her backpack looks like it’s weighing her down, her face looks bewildered

“Katniss, are you okay?”

“Well I finally did it.”

“Did what?”

“I broke up with Gale.” Peeta tries to keep his face neutral when his feelings are really swinging from elation to shock to mortification at his elation.

“Okay…how’d that go? How are you feeling?”

“I thought I’d feel relief and I thought he’d see it too. We’d been fighting a lot, and we’d barely spent any time together anymore. And the time that we did spent together we weren’t enjoying each other’s company you know? It just seemed like it was time. He’s a rational, logical person and I thought when I laid it out there like that he would agree that we’d be happier apart.”

“But he didn’t…?” Peeta prompted.

“No! He acted so offended! And shocked. Shocked - Peeta! How in the hell could be shocked that I want to break up when all he does is act frustrated and disappointed with me? He said he had started planning our future together, and that it was selfish of me to want to throw that all away. I told him that I was sorry but I just didn’t think I could be the partner he thought I should be. By the end of my rational explanation for why it seemed obvious we’d be happier apart he was almost in tears.”

“Gale was crying?” Peeta was very comfortable with his emotions but Gale was not. He was much more stoic and often seemed like emotions were a waste of time. Peeta had always thought that’s why the guy became a computer science major. Computers didn’t have feelings.

“I know right! He kept begging me to tell him what to change and was so insistent that we could fix it. But I was just too worn out so I told him the time for that had come and gone.” She sighed, “sorry for all the word vomit but it’s just I’m so tired.”

“It’s okay, Fall break will be here in 2 days. I’m proud of you. While it seems like your breakup conversation was difficult at least it’s over now.” Peeta says reassuringly.

“I wish it was over.”

“What do you mean? I thought you said you broke up.” Peeta looks at Katniss puzzled.

“We did. But Gale basically said he wasn’t accepting that outcome. So now to prove me wrong he’s trying to do all these things to show how much he cares about me and that we should be together. I know he’s trying to kind and romantic, but it’s feeling clingy and like he won’t let go.”

“What’s he doing exactly?”

“Well the day after our breakup he left me a mix cd under the door of my apartment. The next day he left some chocolates with Johanna to give to me.  Then yesterday I found a massage gift certificate in my mailbox with a note that said, ‘I know you’ve been stressed out, take some time to relax.’ I know it’s all coming from a good place, but why did it take a break up for him to realize that he should care about me? Am I a heartless bitch if all these nice gestures just make me more annoyed about the way he acted the past few months.

“No, of course not. Your feelings are valid, if Gale wanted to do some nice romantic things he had plenty of opportunities. If you’re still confused about your feelings that’s okay too. You’re only 21, Katniss. You don’t have to have everything figured out yet.”

“Thanks Peeta, for everything. I don’t know how I would’ve survived this semester so far without you.” Peeta ignores the beat his heart skipped and comforts his friend.

“Kat go home, see Prim, recharge. It’s Fall break next week, so just take some time to be away from all the college drama. I think it’ll really help you relax and prioritize.” Peeta advises.

  ~And you’ve got a smile that could light up this whole town   

I haven’t seen it in a while since she brought you down

You say you’re fine

I know you better then that~

A month later…Tenth Wednesday

Katniss sits in their booth anxiously rolling a flower between her hands.

Peeta is taken aback when he sees her wearing a dress with her hair down and flowing.

“What’s all this?” he asks as he sits down.

“I got my priorities straight.” She hands him the flower and he’s surprised to see that it’s a dandelion. Where did she find one this late in the fall? The better question is why is she giving him a flower?

“And…?” he doesn’t want to get his hopes up.

“I think what I’ve been looking for has been here the whole time. Peeta would you like to go out with me on Saturday night?” Katniss looks hopeful.

“Yes, of course. Of course I would.” Peeta beams at her.

“Great!” She smiles back at him. “Also I already ordered the Irish nachos.”

“And that’s why you’re my favorite person!” Peeta 

  ~I think I know where you belong

I think I know it’s with me

Can’t you see that I’m the one who understands you

Been here all along so why can’t you see

You belong with me~

[heartcravings]

50 Questions Tag!

@jongin-be-my-jagi​ tagged me for this a while ago, but I took my sweet time to answer. Here is my secret intel if you want to know me a little bit more!! Check hers as well, she’s an amazing writer and friend. 1. What takes up too much of your time? Tumblr, my stupid procrastination prone brain and my thesis. 

2. What makes your day better? Friends and loved ones, music and these absolute dorks (Channie especially) 

3. What’s the best thing that happened to you today? I hopped on the mat today in the early hours of the morning, rain on my window and the neighbours cat peeking at me from his window across the street.

4. What fictional place would you like to go to? Wonderland, bacause it’s “curiouser and curiouser!”

'Who are you?' said the Caterpillar.  Alice replied, rather shyly, 'I — I hardly know, sir, just at present — at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'

5. Are you good at giving advice? I think so. Not so good at following my own advice though.  I do always consider where the other is standing and if I don’t know how to proceed then I’ll just be honest and say I can’t help. But i’ll always listen with my heart. 

 6. Do you have any mental illnesses? Not diagnosed. I do think i might be going through something now. 

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? No, but i have a recurring nightmare: the world is made of black and white paper thin layers. I am a paper thin person walking along a street surrounded by paper thin buildings. I walk for a long time, looking up at the white sky. Until the street ends, there is no more building and i fall into the abyss of a blank page.  I have had this dream since the age of 8 or 9 years old. Fear of not being good enough, you say?! Ding, ding, ding!! We got a winner in the back!  8. What musician inspired you the most? I get inspired by music all the time!! One of my all time favourite songs is Spanish Sahara by Foals. Its sublime!

So I’d say I’m mainly inspired by these artists: Queen, Arctic Monkeys, Foals, Radiohead, Bowie, Daughter, Bob Dylan, Beirut, Yeah yeah yeahs, Arcade Fire, The National, Joy Division, Blur, Warpaint, Gorillaz, Sufjan Stevens, Bon Iver, Chet Baker, The Cure, Courtney Barnett, The Maccabees, Car Seat Headrest, Florence + The Machine, Editors, Kasabian, Crystal Fighters, Death Cab for a cutie, The Doors, Efterklang, Explosions in the Sky, Franz Ferdinand, The Horrors, James Blake, José Gonzalez, Los Campesinos!,  Metronomy, Nick Cave, Nina Simone, Patrick Watson,  Phoenix, Sharon Van Etten, The Shins, Simon & Garfunkel, The Smiths, St.Vincent, The Strokes, Toro y Moi, tricot, Tune-Yards, TV on the radio, Unknown Mortal Orchestra, The Vaccines, Vampire Weekend, The Velvet Underground, The War on Drugs, Wild Beasts and Yo La Tengo.

And the electro, pop and hip-hop groves of my heart: EXO, 2NE1, Janelle Monáe, Big Bang, Kris Wu,LCD soundsystem, SBTRKT, Childish Gambino, Frank Ocean, Kendrick Lamar and Daft Punk. 

And special mentions to the portuguese ones (learning from yixing and promoting when i can :P): Capicua, Joana Espadinha, The Legendary Tigerman, Linda Martini, Mayra Andrade, Noiserv, Ornatos Violeta, Paus, Samuel Uria, You Can’t Win Charlie Brown and The Silence 4. I know, tldr right? Sorry folks! 9. Have you ever fallen in love? Yes I have. I have mistaken a crush for love too. But i have definitely been very deeply in love. A wrecked kintsugi heart over here people! 10. What’s your dream date? I don’t think I have one. I’d love to do something unique with that someone special, something special for the two of us. It could be as simple as riding the subway while sharing earphones & listening to our playlist or walking the dogs out! Idk, I’m easy to please. But right now it would have to be with this handsome man :D pretty please?!

11. What do others notice about you? I am very kind and warm hearted, so I think that’s what people first notice when meeting me. Although I maintain good eye contact, I am also timid and will be quieter if there are very energetic people in the group. When alone, I usually take the first step and try to meet people, but only if i really must.  12. What’s an annoying habit you have? It’s really hard for me to ask for help. I also like to tell detailed descriptions of everything... Couldn’t you tell? 13. Do you still talk to your first love? I’ll text him on his birthday and he does the same to me. We met when we were 10 years old and that childhood friendship remains. But regarding my one and truly deep relationship, no we do not talk, unless we randomly meet.

14. How many exes do you have? I have three exes. The first love who was just an idealized crush on my childhood friend: we dated for 2 weeks during summer break xD Then my first real boyfriend, we met in my first year at university, dated for quite some time, he really loved me and made me love myself a little more. Finally the one i loved too much. I mended his wounds and made him love himself as much as I did. I always say all the love we feel makes our hearts grow bigger. I do not regret loving any of them, I am me now due to them and I would not change it if I could. 15. How many songs are in your playlist? I have way too many playlists for each and every mood... But my favourite songs list on spotify has about 1500 songs! uwu!  16. What instruments can you play? Triangles and flute?! I had mandatory music classes in school... so in reality I can’t really play a instrument...

17. Who do you have the most pictures of? Probably my cat, Sushi. With a second close of my doodles and sketches. 

18. Where would you like to go before you die? EVERY WHERE!!! But I really want to go to Japan and Scotland and Iceland and South Korea and New Zealand and i’ll shut up. 19. What’s your zodiac? Capricorn. 20. Do you relate to it? Sort of.

21. What is happiness to you? You know when it’s really cold outside in the winter and you manage to find a sheltered place where no wind can hit you and you still get to feel the warm rays of the winter suns on your skin? You hear the birds outside and you are contempt in that moment, at peace. That is happiness to me.   22. Are you going through anything right now? Yes, I am a bit lost. Trying to finish my thesis and trying to find what I want to do after. It’s liberating but also pretty scary. 23. What’s the worst decision you ever made? It’s a series of small decisions really. It started with going for a phd with the same people i worked in my msc. Should have gone to a different place. Then deciding to come home after a traumatic loss in the family. Should have kept my life going but I stalled it then. (I don’t regret helping my loved ones though).

24. What’s your favourite store? Probably Wishtrend for beauty stuff. Other than that I don’t have any favourite brands/stores. 25. (HALFWAY!) What’s your opinion on abortion? I think everyone is free to decide what they want or need to do. I couldn’t possible judge. If I would it? Probably not.

27. Do you have a favourite album? I don’t think so, I have favourite tunes for different moods and moments in my life. But if threatened with my life, I’d maybe say Total Life Forever from Foals.

28. What do you want for your birthday? It’s such a long time until my birthday comes! But maybe a real EXO ot9 reunion as a goodbye to Minseok?

29. What is most people’s first impression of you? Friendly and easy to open up to, i think.

30. What age do you seem according to most people? In real life, people usually think I am way younger than I am.  31. Where do you keep your phone when you’re sleeping? In the crook of my bed, between the mattress and the bed frame.

32. What word do you say the most? No idea really! 33. What’s the oldest age you’d date? 40s? I don’t think too much about age actually. 

34. What’s the youngest age you’d date? 20s? Again not very important to me. Love is love, whomever, whenever and wherever <3

35. What job / career do most people say would suit you? I don’t know! People always say i don’t totally fit in anything... so there’s that. If you have an idea please let me know! 36. What’s your favourite music genre? Go back to question 8. I listen to everything! :D 37. If you could live in any country in the world where would it be? I’d like to live around the world, every few months a different place and get to know different cultures.

38. What is your current favourite song? I’ve been obsessed with RM’s intro/teaser song, Map of the Soul: Persona. (I’m not even a bts fan, but this music and lyrics just touched me a lot.)

39. How long have you had this blog for? I think for about 6 years? It’s my personal space, where I dump all my obsessions.  

40. What are you excited for? I’m visiting some friends in Granada in a couple of weeks. Yay, tapas!

41. Are you a better talker or listener? Normally I am a better listener. But there are a few people to whom i open like a book. Either words flow right out of me without even thinking or they see throw me. Those truly are my people.

42. What is the last productive thing you did? Prepped meals and cleaned the kitchen. Open the folder and file of my thesis. Read the latest chapter I wrote.  43. What do you want for Christmas? Well, just like for my birthday, there is still such a long time to it! But let’s say i want to have already finish this part of my life and want to find my next adventure.

44. What class do you get the best grades in? No more exams! Ehehe! But I used to have good grades at everything. Physical Education was my lowest mark i think.

45. On a scale of 1-10 how do you feel right now? Right now, a 4? I have a headache.

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years? Smiling? :D I want to be happy in my own skin. To feel contempt in my life, doing something that gives me a sense of purpose and having time to share and enjoy with my friends and family. 47. When did you get your first heartbreak? Oh my kintsugi heart has been broken quiet a lot. By friends and lovers and even by myself. I keep patching it up with gold dreams though.  48. At what age do you wanna be married? I will only want to be married if i find the one. So until then I guess. 

49. What career did you want to have as a child? I wanted to be an astronaut and a ballerina. Preferably both!

50. What do you crave right now? Just sitting somewhere and listening to Yeol play the guitar.

Well i finished it! :D I’ll tag @thedeviousdo @ohsenhun @hongseok and @paepsi. I’d love to read yours! Feel free to dismiss it though, it is quite a lot.  Lots of love everyone!! <3 <3 <3

[0ompa-loompa]

Assignments, final projects, try-outs, mock weeks, finals, college applications, these are what senior year is made of. Naturally, it’s the period of time when you most feel the urge to jump off a cliff. From the first week of school, I could already see the differences senior year brought to my school mates. People were starting to realize that they had to receive great marks, they had to get accepted into good colleges, they had to do this and that as ways to an accomplished future.

Over the years of being a high school student, every time there was a free period, or just any studying-free moment at school, we would watch movies, gossip, or simply be on our phones for hours. Now in every free periods, my classmates would take out these heavy-ass books that can be used comfortably as pillows and actually study. Or re-write their notes. Or revise a subject for next week’s quiz. Anything to keep them working (just curious, do these symptoms apply to all senior year students around the world?).

Since junior year were pretty traumatizing for me (thanks to student government), I had been planning all holiday to give my 110% for senior year. Long story short, I hit it off since day 1 and came out alive six months later. Although it resulted in me spending 3 days sleeping in after end-of-term exams were over, I’m really happy for having been very productive this entire term. I know there’s still 6 months left and the worst parts are yet to come, so I decided to share a few tips exclusively coming from someone *glares at myself* who did remarkably awful the previous year and somehow found a way to crawl back from death

1.       Know Where You’re Going

Getting to the very last year of high school, this is the MOST important part of surviving. Without having your long-term goal, it would be like taking down hundreds of obstacles without having a destination in mind. You don’t know where you’re going, but more monsters keep showing up on your path. Trust me, you’ll eventually get tired and stop trying midway. Losing motivation when you’re in the most vital part of your study can’t be a good thing.

Do research on the degrees you’re interested in taking, from their passing grades to job prospects. Make sure you actually enjoy the subjects needed for those degrees. For example, if you can’t stand Biology, better if you don’t consider attending medical school, and the same goes to other subjects as well.

2.       Maintain Productivity

The amount of school work you’re getting can be overwhelming, that is why you have to do them as soon as possible to prevent them from piling up. You don’t have to finish them all in one day, it’s impossible and careless. At least try to do them bits by bits until the night before due when you can go over what you’ve done and fix a few imperfections or cross-check your answers. Try doing this to multiple assignments instead of focusing on one or two assignments the entire week.

I usually bring unfinished assignments to school so I can get to work when I have free time, usually before after-school extras, or while waiting for an extra course. This way instead of going on Tumblr for hours, I’ll be figuring out math problems and (hopefully) have the homework done by ½ when the course starts.

3.       Gather Motivation

Take a look at that magnificent building, I will build tens of those once I become an architect. Have you seen the latest VSxBalmain collection? I’ll someday be working alongside Olivier Rousting .

It’s very important to keep being productive and use every free time wisely. While you’re at it, make sure to keep your motivate-o-meter at high level. Motivation and inspiration can come from anyone, anywhere and it doesn’t even have to come from anything relevant to your life goals. I usually get a boost of motivation after watching a couple videos of my favorite Youtubers (which has no correlation whatsoever to being an engineer), and I recently  got a huge inspo from reading Crazy Rich Asians. It seriously motivated me to work my ass off and be rich.

4.       Don’t Stop ‘til You’re Proud

Catch up on things you don’t fully understand. If you had a problem with certain subjects or materials, find the answers right away, don’t wait until the day before quizzes or mock tests when you will desperately need answers. Ask teachers, your friends, or our most trusty friend the internet. You can also download several applications to help you study, like Khan Academy and other similar apps. Once you put one problem out of sight, it will become easier for you to put more aside . This is what happened to me last year, I had problems understanding Chem but I refused to actually figure them out, thinking I would learn the materials later. 10 laters later, I got a 7 for end-of-semester test while my classmates received 9s and 8s.

So you have studied for this particular test and still got a bad mark. Shit happens honey, tough it up. Even while I’m writing this, I fully understand that the theory of ‘picking-yourself-up’ is much easier said than done. Give yourself some time to breathe, and start with “okay, where did I go wrong?”. Figure out the errors to make sure you’re not doing them the second time. Consider it this way: the subject has betrayed you and you’re getting a revenge. I planted this idea the very first day of senior year, the thought has driven me to never quit trying. It’s almost like Elle Woods to Warner, but instead it’s me and Physics.

5.       Get A Rest.

Senior year doesn’t mean you lose all hope of going on shopping sprees, watching the latest movies, or taking care of your Tumblr blog. If anything, I’ve watched more movies with my friends this year than I did previous years, simply because we have little time to relax so we made the most of one when we had the chance to. As long as you keep track on your to-do-list, stay discipline on your schedule, a little catch up on KUWTK won’t hurt.

Don’t push yourself to the point of falling down. Read books, paint, dance, even play games (Mobile Legend is the hype these days it’s getting annoying), anything to keep you sane and motivated. Never let the pressure of GPAs and prestigious colleges take positivity away from you.

6.       Don’t Over-Rest.

Yes, hun, I was just telling you to enjoy your senior year and now I’m telling you to not over-relax your way. Maintain a schedule, make agreements with yourself and stick to it. “At 8pm I will start on Math homework, and the rest is for tomorrow”. “I will work my butts off from 8 to 10 am then I can go on Tumblr”. “I will start on my History papers and take a rest after 2 pages”.

I’m not telling you to work 24/7 because that’s not healthy, I’m ALSO not telling you to spend all your weekend in bed and procrastinate because it would defeat the whole purpose of learning to be productive. Once you let yourself procrastinate, It’ll be easier for you to do it for the second, third, and fourth time.  Sometimes you just need to gather your will, get up and face those text books.

Well, there you go. These are all the things I have been doing to not only survive, but to do well in high school. I have been doing all these tips religiously for the past 6 months, it’s almost impossible not to feel tired or even want to just cut it off. But studying routinely makes me feel in control of what’s happening currently, what’s going to happen next, what I want to be doing in the future. So get up and let’s kick asses together.

[ineedastudysavior-blog]

First of all, I would like to congratulate you for making it here. It’s your senior year of high school, and you haven’t gone completely insane. Good start.

I’m making this post as a rising university freshman, recently graduated high school senior in the United States. I know I personally panicked and looked through Tumblr for hours trying to soothe my worries, and if I can help even one scared person out there, then my job is complete. 

APPLYING TO UNIVERSITY

Yeah, this is a big one.

First, breathe. I promise everything will be okay.

Apply to as many colleges as you see fit. The number is different for everyone. I applied to 3, my friend applied to 13. Don’t panic if your friends are applying for more than 10 and you’re applying to less than five, and try to not judge them if it’s reversed.

Pay attention to the deadlines. I know it’s obvious, but they can really slip by you. Don’t forget to check if the financial aid deadline is different from the application deadline.

Don’t hate yourself if you don’t get accepted into your top choice. I know I was in this position last year, so I’m going to say it for you if no one else will. If you applied to an Ivy League or the western equivalent, there is a small chance you will get in, but a larger chance you will not. Statistics are against you. Have a Plan B and a Plan C. Dream big, and don’t let anything stop you from pursuing your dream, but don’t let it completely crush you if you don’t manage to be the 4-6% of students across the world making it into one specific university.

Remember that most universities and colleges require financial aid to be done and turned in alongside the standard application!

SCHOLARSHIPS

Oh dear.

If you haven’t started doing scholarships yet, don’t panic.There are plenty of opportunities for scholarships still. There are some with deadlines in May/June!

Even if it’s only $100-$200, apply for it if you think you can. That can buy a book or two or chip away at a meal plan. Everything counts.

With that, don’t overload yourself. Don’t give yourself 9 essays to write in one night unless you can do your best work under that much pressure and stress.

If you have a military parent/guardian, USE IT. I cannot tell you how many scholarships I found for military dependents. This applies to retired military parents/guardians as well. Even if you’re not planning on doing anything remotely to do with the military, they want to help you.

FAFSA. If you can get money from them, great. If not, let me send my condolences, I know that sucks. Keep looking.

ORGANIZATION

Here we go.

You don’t have to be perfect. Seriously. You don’t have to be trendy and tumblr and cute constantly. Sure, it’s nice for the pictures, but if it’s too much time and effort to keep it up and only stresses you out, drop it. I promise it’ll be okay.

Write stuff down wherever you’ll see it. Be it a sticky note on your mirror or in your planner, if you see it, you’ll remember it.

I know I might get some serious backlash for this, but you don’t need a planner. If that’s not how you work, don’t feel like you need to shell out money for one or spend time making one. Do what works for you.

Folders, binders, accordion folders, use whatever you have that’s in good working condition, or if you have the money, treat yourself (or have your parents treat you) to a new way to file things. Use what works for you. I cannot stress that enough!

There is such a thing as over color-coordinating. As pretty as it may be by the end, your brain likely can’t handle that overload. Stick to one or two different colors and it’ll be a lot easier to decipher.

ACTUAL CLASSES

Yikes...

IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE GOING TO SUFFER IN A COURSE AFTER A MONTH, SWALLOW YOUR PRIDE AND GO DOWN A LEVEL. Trust me, I know it sucks, I really really do, but I took a Calculus course too quick for me, and I suffered so much, as well as lost valedictorian. There’s a difference between challenging yourself and putting yourself through unnecessary stress. It’ll be okay.

Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Again, it’s time to swallow your pride and get whatever you need to succeed.

Your teachers may be exhausted, but most of them are most than happy to help you if you need it, or if you’re confused on the specifics of an assignment. Use office hours or e-mail them. They’re human too!

Always, ALWAYS study for your tests. Whether it’s AP, IB, Honors, or on-level courses, you can always solidify information more. There’s nothing worse than neglecting to study, being confident as you go into the exam, and then experiencing that heart-stopping, stomach-dropping moment when you have no f*cking clue what the questions are asking.

Not everything is about AP/IB. Sure they’re useful, but never NEVER feel like you’re less of a person or less deserving because you take on-level courses.

SOCIAL

Oh jeez...

In case you haven’t thought about it before, some of your friends are moving away. Spend as much time with them as you can before you leave or they leave. You’ll regret it if you don’t.

With that said, if you have toxic friends, DITCH THEM. You are the number 1 priority in your own life. If you don’t feel happy around your friends, then they’re not good friends. It’s not too late to find great people, I promise. I did it in my second semester of senior year, and they’re some of my favorite people that I’ve ever known to exist. Find friends for life, not friends for now.

It is 100,000% normal and fine to not have had your first kiss, first significant other, or first relationship by this point. I promise you. Don’t let stories of people and their 5 boyfriends/girlfriends make you feel insecure. Don’t feel pressured into doing something you’re not ready for. (Also it makes going off to college a lot less stressful if you don’t feel like you’re supposed to tag along with your s/o or have an obligation to see them.)

Surprise! Not everyone is actually having sex! Even some people that say they are aren’t!

Please, learn to love yourself. You were placed on this earth just how you are. Don’t ever feel like you’re worthless, wrong, disgusting, or unloved. You are worth so much, I promise.

Don’t trash talk your younger counterparts. I know they’re annoying, walking into the school and being loud and acting like they own everything, but they’ll learn. Be patient, and try to not talk bad about them. You’ll be a freshman again next year, and you wouldn’t want seniors to be talking about you like that.

Join a club! It isn’t too late!

RANDOM

Etcetera.

So here’s the thing. College and university costs way more than it should. Save money. I know it’s hard and it sucks and it’s annoying as hell, but you’ll thank yourself later. 

Consider getting a journal to document things you do during the year. Paste in movie stubs, concert tickets, pictures, and write a little bit about the experience! Remember to please breathe. You’ll get through it, I swear.

If you’re ever feeling overwhelmed or as if you can’t do it, please seek out someone to talk to. It’s scary and stressful, but it’ll most likely help.

Do things for you. Take a bath. Take a weekend off. Call your best friend. Read a book for fun! Do something that will relax you and make you feel better about your situation.

I promise you can do it. I believe in you, and I hope you believe in yourself.

If I missed anything or you want anything added on or answered, please let me know, and feel free to add on with your own experiences!

xx, Shelby

[h-styles-babes]

No Control | Chapter Thirty

Summary: 

Micky Bennett: college student, loyal friend, aspiring nurse, One Direction fan, Harry Styles enthusiast. Her best friend, Trevor, wins tickets to a show in New Jersey with meet and greet passes. Micky expects a quick photo op with the boys and a great night at the concert with her best friend. What she gets a whole lot more than she bargained for.

To read previous chapters, you can go here.

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CHAPTER THIRTY

Aside from some news outlets reporting on the fact that Harry and I were seen together again in London over the weekend and reported sightings of us together in LA, as well, there’s not a big deal made out of the whole affair. I’m sure the fans are losing their minds online, but I stay well away from that, and I advise Trevor to, as well, even though I know his nosy ass will probably still be hunting on Twitter and Tumblr for some discourse. 

My life returns to normal when Monday comes around. I go to work at my normal time with only a little bit of jet lag to show for it. I manage to get a nap in in one of the on call rooms just after lunch, though, and it makes everything a bit better.  

Harry keeps in contact with me over the week, making sure I don’t need anything and the baby is doing okay. He throws around names every once in a while, too, which I think is kind of cute. He sometimes stumbles upon ones that I take into serious consideration. Trevor is all smiles when I tell him Harry and I are discussing names, so he doesn't have to keep threatening to take the birth certificate forms from me in the hospital. 

The next week, Harry calls me to confirm that he’s going to the appointment with me. I tell him that there’s a back entrance for the doctor’s office, so he doesn’t have to be seen walking into an Ob/Gyn. He thanks me and lets me know that he’s told Jeff, who’s taken it upon himself to take care of all the legal things that come along with a celebrity having a baby with a woman he’s not in a relationship with. Harry says he doesn’t think it’s necessary, but I know that it’ll probably benefit him in the long run if those sorts of things are figured out now. 

A few days later, Trev tells me that he’s having his birthday party at Cafe Habana, a Cuban fusion restaurant in Beverly Hills. Some friends of his have connections, so he’s got a whole section reserved for us to celebrate. He’s having his mum fly out and some of our friends from NYU coming, as well as some of his new friends from USC, so it should be a good time. He tells me to invite Harry, if I’m comfortable with it, and I tell him that I’ll talk to him when I see him in a few days. 

On the day of my appointment, I wake up excited because I’ll get to see my baby again. Little Bean has been pretty active lately, and she keeps me up sometimes, but she usually settles enough towards midnight that I’m able to get enough sleep in order to function like a normal human being while I’m at work. 

Since I don’t have to worry about hiding the bump today, I pull on a pair of jean shorts and a Rolling Stones t-shirt that still miraculously fits me, and I find a white jean jacket to pull over it because it’s always a bit chilly in the doctor’s office. Trev is already gone to class by the time I make it out of my bedroom, and he’s left a note on the fridge reminding me to get extra copies of the sonogram photos to send to mine and Harry’s parents. I make a mental note to also get some to send to Grimmy, since he’s texted me nearly every day the past couple of weeks asking about the baby and making sure I haven’t done something stupid like return the heap of clothes he bought during our trip. When I get to the office, one of the MAs calls my name immediately, a polite smile on her face.

“The father has already arrived,” she tells me, her voice low. I called the office the week before to let them know that Harry was coming today and asked if there was a way he could go straight to an exam room when he got here. They were more than happy to accommodate my request, not unused to having publicly recognizable faces in and out of the office. “He’s in exam room 3.”

“Thanks for this,” I tell her as she shows me back to the room, stopping at the nurse’s station first to take my vitals. “Hope it wasn’t too much trouble.”

She smiles as she places to blood pressure cuff around my arm. “None at all. We do it quite often. Plus, he’s so sweet. Chatted with one of the nurse’s about her own pregnancy for awhile and asked us all how we are.”

“Yeah, he’s a charmer,” I agree with a chuckle as she takes my temperature. “Are you two still together?” she asks. “Up on the scale,” she instructs.

“No, we never really were,” I admit, not knowing how else to explain it to her. I don’t even know how to explain it to myself most of the time. “He’s just a good guy and wants to be present.”

“Sometimes, that’s all we need.” She’s silent as she takes down my weight, and I notice that I’ve only gained a few pounds since the last time I was here. “He seems like he’ll be a good dad.” We smile at each other and she tells me to get down. “Let’s head back to the room. The doctor will be with you in a few minutes.”

Exam room 3 is just down the hall, and the door is closed. She taps lightly three times before opening it up. “Micky’s here,” she tells Harry, who’s sitting in the extra chair in the corner of the room. 

He looks up from his phone as I enter, a smile stretching across his face. “Hey,” he greets, standing to pull me into a hug. “Sorry I was kinda early. I’m nervous.” I laugh and pull back to look up at him. “What are you nervous for? Just gonna get some pictures and take some measurements.”

“All very routine,” the MA nods. “I’ll be out of your hair. Dr. Lorenz will be in soon.” She parts with a smile, closing the door quietly behind her.

“How’re you feeling?” Harry asks, his hands immediately dropping to cradle my belly. Of course, the baby starts to move around just as he does, bringing a wide smile to his face. 

“Fine,” I answer. “We’ve been good.”

“I feel like the bump’s gotten bigger even since the last time I saw you.” I nod. “Definitely has. Little Bean’s gonna start getting big pretty fast now.” “Lunch at mine after this?” he asks. “Jeff wants to meet with you.”

“That doesn’t sound ominous at all,” I huff. 

“Nothing scary, love,” Harry promises. His thumbs are making little circuits where they’re still pressed to my stomach, and it’s actually quite soothing. The couple weeks we spent apart kind of cooled down my attraction to him, but standing here now, looking at his way too pretty face and inhaling his entirely too delicious scent and listening to his way too silky voice, I’m gone. I fucking hate myself for it, too. “Just wants to make sure you’re okay with the legal arrangements he’s made and maybe talk about how we’re gonna let this information out.”

“You’re ready to do that?” I ask. I don’t really care too much at this point about how or when the world finds out Harry Styles is having a child, but it’s more pertinent to Harry’s career and I want to him to be one hundred percent ready.

“We’ve only got ten or less weeks left, Mick,” he sighs. “If I just show up one day with a baby, there’s gonna be a lot more problems than if everyone finds out beforehand. And I’m not gonna hide this. My family comes before my career.”

As I look at him, I can see the sincerity in his face. As much as this whole thing can potentially harm his career, I can clearly see he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if he had to cast of his child as if they meant anything less than the world to him. No matter how suddenly he got thrust into this just a few weeks ago, Harry is here and more than ready to take on the responsibility of being the best father he can be, because family really is the most important thing to him. I take a deep breath and nod. “Alright. If you’re okay with it, Harry.”

“Are you okay with it?” he asks, raising an eyebrow. 

“I’m okay with it,” I assure. “Promise.”

Harry slides his hands so his arms are around my waist and pulls me into him. “It’ll all be okay. We’ll make it work.” His lips press gently to my forehead just as there’s a few taps on the exam room door.

Dr. Lorenz pokes his head in with a smile. “Hope I’m not interrupting anything.” My Ob/Gyn is quite possibly one of the most attractive doctors I have ever personally seen. Grey’s Anatomy aside, this man is just overall really attractive, with his dirty blonde hair and bright blue eyes and broad shoulders. He’s a bit too All-American for me (and I did discover he played football in high school and undergrad during one of my earlier appointments) but I can admit that he’s attractive. He’s not married, as well, which means all the nurses and MAs in the office are quite smitten with him. I’ve never known him to be anything but professional, though.

I shake my head with a smile as Harry and I slowly untangle from each other. “Not at all. Hi, Dr. Lorenz.”

“Good afternoon, Micky.” He comes in and closes the door behind him, my chart in the crook of his arms. If he’s surprised by Harry’s presence, he doesn’t show it. As the MA from earlier said, they deal with celebrities pretty often. 

I slide myself up onto the table with Harry’s assistance, since I’m not exactly the most agile anymore, which is pretty annoying. Once I get situated, I make introductions. 

“Dr. Lorenz, this is the baby’s father, Harry. Harry, this is my Ob/Gyn.” 

The two men shake hands, both with pretty smiles and kind nods of acknowledgment.

“Good to meet you, Harry.”

“You, too,” he reciprocates.  

“Well, have a seat. Micky, I’m gonna have you lay back and pull your shirt up for me and we’ll talk a little bit as I’m taking measurements.” 

Both Harry and I do as instructed, and Dr. Lorenz goes about setting up the sonogram machine. He warns me about the cold gel before applying some to my stomach. I turn my head to see Harry obsessively pulling at his bottom lip, eyes flicking between the monitor and my belly. I reach over and grab at his hand, holding it hostage in mine against my chest so he stops abusing his poor mouth. 

“Stop fidgeting,” I tease as the doctor presses the transducer to my stomach. Nearly immediately, the rhythmic whooshing sound of our baby’s heartbeat fills the room as the grainy black and white image manifests on screen. 

“Nice strong heartbeat still,” Dr. Lorenz comments with a smile, eyes scanning over the image as he moves the wand around. “Quite active, too.”

“Yeah, she’s been pretty nonstop, lately,” I acknowledge. 

“That’s normal,” he assures, eyes flicking to Harry and me. “She’s still got room, so she’s using it to her advantage while she can. In a couple weeks, there won’t be a whole lot of space left in there. You’ll be able to see the movement on the outside of your body when that happens. Fair warning.”

I look back to Harry again and see he’s now got his bottom lip firmly held between his teeth, a soft look in his eyes.

“You okay?” I ask quietly, giving his hand a squeeze to get his attention. 

He startles a bit but looks at me, his lips pulling up into a small smile. “That’s our baby.” He sounds so in awe, his eyes moving back to the screen to watch as different images of her pop up as the doctor moves around. 

I can’t help the smile that pops onto my face. “Yeah, that’s our baby.”

“Everything’s looking good,” Dr. Lorenz comments. “I’ve taken a few photos, so I’ll have the nurse print out however many you guys want. Do you have any questions?”

Harry asks a few that I could have answered for him, but I’m sure he likes hearing it from the professional, so I just sit back as the two men speak. They chat a bit about when it’s safe for the baby to be born and then there’s a discussion of where we plan to have the baby. I break in to say that I’ve already registered to have the baby at the local hospital, but I can see the wheels in Harry’s head turning, making some sort of plans, I’m sure. I’ll have to ask him about it later.

Dr. Lorenz also asks if I’ve looked into any birthing classes, and when I answer in the negative, he strongly suggests that I do that as soon as possible. I fully intend on getting an epidural when it’s time to give birth, but he says that birthing plans are never set in stone, that we all just have to play along to whatever the baby wants, and sometimes they can have plans that don’t line up with ours. Harry assures him that we’ll look into it, and I can already tell that this is going to be something Harry participates in and wants to experience, not that I’m going to deny him the opportunity. 

Harry helps me clean off the gel from my stomach as Dr. Lorenz says goodbye and gives me a reminder to make my next appointment for a month out. Harry’s instantly on his work phone, looking at his schedule to make sure there’s a date at the end of March when he can come with me again. 

“I’m supposed to be flying back that last Wednesday in March, but I can rearrange it for the day before,” he tells me as I slide off the table.

“Where are you going?” I ask casually, pulling my purse over my shoulder. 

“London again,” he says. “Got some…stuff to do.” There’s a weird pause in his speech that I narrow my eyes at.

“What are you doing, Styles?” I question, instantly suspicious. He’s never held back in talking to me about the business side of his life. Hell, I knew about the hiatus back in August. I essentially knew his whole schedule for the rest of 2015 back then. He’s going to hold back on me now?

He groans. “I shouldn’t have said anything. I really can’t say, Mick. Just got some work stuff to deal with. I promise to tell you as soon as I can. You’ll be the first to know.”

I glare at him for a moment longer before relenting. “Fine. I expect full details, though.”

“Promise,” he says with a smile. He throws an arm around my shoulder and pulls me toward the door. “Come on, Jeff’s already at the house.”

Pulling up to Harry’s Beverly Hills home is a little bit of a trip. There’s a ton of windows and all the white is really crisp and bright in the shining sun of the California summer day. There’s a gate a little ways from the house that blocks the street from the driveway, and Harry punches in some numbers at a little panel to get it to open. There’s a couple cars in the driveway, including Harry’s Mercedes and a sleek silver car that I’m sure costs more than the worth of my entire wardrobe. 

“Glenne’s probably here, too,” Harry tells me as he puts the car in park.

“Who’s Glenne?” I ask. I’ve apparently removed myself from the fandom for a little too long now. I’m sure a whole lot of other people know who this Glenne person is.

“Jeff’s girlfriend. Good friend of mine, too,” he tells me. He hops out of the car and hurries around to get my door. He takes my hand and helps me down, keeping a hand around my waist as we walk up to his front door. “Got pizza. Hope you’re okay with that.”

“Sounds great. Trev makes me eat way too healthy all damn the time. Haven’t had pizza in months.” 

Harry chuckles as his hand rubs along my belly, opening the front door.

“Harry?” a male voice calls, very obviously American. 

“Yeah, mate,” Harry answers, kicking his shoes off at the front door. I follow along, not wanting to dirty what looks like freshly polished hardwood floors. “Pizza come yet?”

“Just got here before you did.” There’s a pattering of feet against the floor, getting closer to where Harry’s helping me out of my jacket. A man that I vaguely recognize from photos I’ve seen rounds the corner, a smile popping on his face when he sees me. “You must be Micky.”

“Yeah,” I nod, accepting his outstretched hand. “You must be Jeff.”

“That’s me,” he agrees. “Let’s go eat and we’ll chat about what I’ve got planned. Nothing too intense, alright? I’ve just got Harry’s and the baby’s best interests in mind.”

“Then we’re on the same page.”

I’m introduced to Glenne, who’s sat in the kitchen at a stool that’s perched at the island. She’s very pretty, just as I always knew she was, even when I didn’t know her name. She smiles kindly at me and even coos a little bit over my belly right before complimenting me on the shirt I’m wearing. I like her immediately, just as I can see myself liking Jeff, and I realize why Harry’s kept them around fro so long and made Jeff his manager. 

Harry gets plates out for us and takes drink orders as we serve ourselves. He suggests moving to his kitchen table so we’re not all leaning over each other to speak like we would be at the island. Harry pulls my chair out for me and pushes it in once I sit, and I don’t know why I’m still so astounded by his manners. I should be used to it by now, but no other man in my life has ever done things like open my car door, pull out my chair, or take off my jacket for me. I’m extremely proud that Little Bean will be growing up with Harry as her example of how a man should treat a woman. 

“So, Harry’s told us the basics about you,” Jeff starts after swallowing a bite of is food.

Glenne scoffs. “More like gushed about you every chance he got when he met you.” She shoots Harry a teasing smile, to which he glares back.

“I was gonna leave that part out of it,” Jeff chuckles. “Anyway, you seem lovely, and Harry says he trusts you, so I’m inclined to trust you, as well. All this legal stuff is just to make sure nothing gets messy in the future more than anything else. Parenthood is hard enough as it is; it’s got to be even harder when the parents are no longer together and one has a very public career.”

He goes onto explain that the things he’s done are just to ensure that Harry gets a say in his daughter’s life and that he is her biological father. He says that a paternity test has to be done for any of this to really have meaning, which I agree to once the baby is born, since I’m not getting stuck with a needle right now. Jeff says that as long as Harry and I can decide on custody arrangements between the two of us, nothing has to be taken to court. 

“You’ll also be getting child support from Harry monthly once the baby is born,” Jeff adds casually. “That will just be between you two as well, otherwise it can get messy in court for no reason.”

I shake my head immediately. “I don’t need money from him. That’s the last thing I want, actually.”

“Please, love,” Harry pleads, grabbing my hand with his. “I’m gonna be there as much as I can, but we all know I’m never gonna be Little Bean’s primary parent. I can’t be. I hate that I can’t be, and I’d change it if I could, but it would make me feel better knowing neither one of you ever needed for anything. The hospital pays you well, but babies are expensive.”

The pout in his lip broke me even before his pleas did, so I sigh in resignation and squeeze his hand. “Fine, but nothing crazy, alright. I know child support is usually a percentage of the parent’s income, but that’s ridiculous.”

“We can work on it,” Jeff assures. 

“Alright, no more legal stuff,” Glenne announces. “I want to see those sonogram pictures I know you got today.”

THIRTY-ONE

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What to do when you're stuck with a lazy group? I'm with two guys and we still haven't chosen a topic. We have to present in two weeks. Nobody replies to my messages and both left after class this week. I just wanted to choose a topic and leave!!!! So I booked a study room today and they all made excuses. Ugh. I'm gonna be the one who's doing all the work. This is worth 40% of our grade. Same as the exam. FML

Hi there, thank you for asking, as this is a super common problem in high school, university and the workplace! I’ve never seen this question answered in depth on studyblr, so I’ll give it a go! 

NB. It depends on your personality as to the approach you want to take, so let everyone who’s reading this not pass judgement upon others in such a situation~ Remember in all of this to be polite, understanding and gracious no matter how much you want to flip tables. The following 5 Options go in order of how many bridges you want to burn :’)

Option 0. Wait for a bit longer and try communicating with them again.

I have seen a similar question asked once on tumblr where the studyblr blogger answered “two weeks is plenty of time, you’re probably over-reacting”... Obviously, I’m not going to trivialise your answer by giving you just one option like that - I frankly thought that studyblr was quite rude for answering so shortly to someone who took the time to ask them a question.

How to do it: The way you communicate with them now might not be effective, so make sure that you’re ticking off the following boxes if you choose this option, rather than just letting nothing change: meeting face to face, setting mini-deadlines for each part instead of just allocating once at the beginning, and make sure each member knows what and when they have to complete something.

This option is best suited for people who:

really don’t want to create a commotion and would rather wait a little longer and reduce the time available for them to do the project,

or people who would answer ‘Strongly Disagree’ to “Being organized is more important to you than being adaptable“ and “In a discussion, truth should be more important than people’s sensitivities.” in a personality quiz (a strong prognostic factor for Option 1 tbh),

or people who know they can tackle everything in less than 1 week,

or people who just realised/kind of know they’re actually overreacting,

or have just realised whilst reading this that maybe they didn’t actually try contacting the other group members all that well (i.e. don’t have enough evidence for Option 3).

Pros:

Nobody gets angry at anyone, and it doesn’t reflect badly on you either (because no one finds out if you don’t say anything - people tend to be judgemental if you pick one of the three options below).

Less stressful for some people than confrontation.

You might get eventual cooperation.

Cons:

You might not get eventual cooperation, and end up being stuck with all the work anyway (hence resulting in options below).

More stressful for other people as you feel time is ticking away and nothing is changing.

The time you spend waiting for the others will result in less time for you to tackle all the actual work.

Pro-tip: doing as much individual work as possible sometimes will egg those team members to finally start pulling their weight, or can help you with Option 3 if you do end up going for it.

Option 1. You make all the decisions and do all the work.

Best suited for people who: are academically gifted, like doing work independently, have excellent time management skills.

Pros:

You can ensure the quality of the work will be excellent.

You get to choose what topic to do and direct the overall project turnout.

No one hates you for anything, but NB. your friends and family relationships that suffer as a result of the time you have to sacrifice might not have anything pleasant to say about it all.

Cons:

You need an extraordinary amount of time.

The other people in the group get a free ride and in nastier words, some would say you get taken advantage of for your goodwill.

Lack of group opinion may make the quality of your work suffer.

Other subjects you’re taking may suffer.

Option 2. Badger the other group members until they do some work.

Best suited for people who: don’t want to be stuck with Option 1, but don’t want to escalate to Option 3. Give them an ultimatum about the work, or just decide the topic by yourself if they don’t step up.

Pros:

Very similar to Option 0 in that you wait a bit longer before taking drastic action, so you might get eventual cooperation, and you don’t bother your professor.

Cons:

You stress yourself out badgering other people.

Other group members get annoyed at you, and your classmates that happen to watch you badgering have a not-so-great impression of you.

Option 3. Document a significant amount of evidence that shows your effort to get them to contribute and contact the professor about it.

Best suited for people who: would like to do things independently but just cannot afford the time because of other commitments.

Pros:

Professor can step in and (hopefully) offer some sort of alternative solution.

Your other subjects won’t suffer.

Sometimes you have a really great professor and they end up taking into account that you’ve done the project by yourself and mark super nicely/give a bonus mark, or even penalise the other students.

Cons:

Professor may snuff you and say “the purpose of this project is also to learn about team cooperation”. Had a prof before who told us straight up at the beginning of the project that “you work it out, not me”

Professor may help you out, but in a way that doesn’t really end up helping e.g. he just emails the two members of your group to tell them to start working once and that’s it.

Other group members hate you for life (and I know this bothers some people enough not to go through with it, again pls remember no judgement fellow readers)

How to do it: Email should be along the lines of the following:

Dear Professor _______,

I am a current student undertaking [course code]. I am sorry to contact you in unfortunate circumstances, but I have been having severe difficulty convening with the other members for the remainder of the _____ project. While I am aware that group projects have a dual purpose to both educate us on the academic topic as well as to improve our cooperation and communication skills, I have tried [insert whatever means you attempted to contact them by, attaching evidence is up to you]. I have already completed the intro/background research/other individual task, however I cannot complete the ______ by myself/without group input.

I would appreciate any guidance you could offer/I would greatly appreciate your help/If it is possible, could you please [insert action depending on how desperate you are - don’t ask for anything unreasonable!]?

I apologise for having to inconvenience you, and thank you for your understanding on the matter.

Kind regards,

[Name and student number]

Option 4. You do all the work and then leave their names off the work.

Best suited for people who: work independently, don’t mind burning a few bridges. I won’t actually recommend this option, but I’ve seen this happen in real life.

Pros:

Sense of self-satisfaction for some people when the lazy members don’t get a free ride.

Again, you make sure the project quality is exactly what you want.

Cons:

Similar to Option 1 minus the free ride bit.

Not only do the other group members hate you, but their friends in your cohort will too. At least in Option 3, those guys can’t try and gossip behind your backs because whoever they tell will realise that they didn’t do the right thing either.

Do this at your own risk, as it can backfire depending on the professor - if anyone’s watched Cheese in the Trap - the main character does all the work but the professor managed to suss out that the other group members didn’t do anything, and as a result penalised her with a D grade for failing to make it “group” work despite the fact she would’ve gotten an A. Some profs are really... they just don’t see it your way :/

Hopefully things don’t have to escalate to Option 4, but whatever you choose to take, I’ll wish you the best! I’ve given quite detailed instructions and written comprehensively, but feel free to contact me any time if you need any more help :)

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Covered eyes - chap 3

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“What kind of teacher gives a test on the first day of school?!” Ohm grunted. Although the small study session he had with Luke and another guy named Delirious yesterday helped a lot, it just doesn’t seem alright. Bryce laughed at his misery. His voice like music to his ears. The siren effect, ohm thought.

“That teacher does apparently.” Bryce said.

“Yep, that teacher is an asshole.” Ohm said, while his mind was drifting to this morning how he awkwardly ran away from Luke, and let out a small sigh.

“Hey, what’s wrong? I’m pretty sure you would pass the test well. I on the other hand, well, it's not important.” Ohm looked at the blonde and contemplated the idea of telling him about what happened yesterday, and in the end thought it wouldn’t be a bad idea.

“Let’s get to someplace with lesser people to talk about it, alright?” Ohm suggested, the amount of people in the school hall was making him uncomfortable.

“Alright.”

“Well, is he handsome?” They were sitting on a bench on the outside of the school when Bryce asked that question. It made Ohm choke on his water, he was not expecting that.

“Ahem. He was kind enough to let me sleep in his bed and…Okay, okay, he is handsome alright.” Ohm said, thinking about how close they were last night and it made his face heat up.

“You are already smitten, Ohmie.” Bryce stated.

“How would you know that?” Ohm asked, not believing that he would like someone who he just met. Love in first sight isn’t real, he thought.

“Look at you, you have that face of adoration on your face just by thinking about him, you never had that face when thinking about me.” He pouted.

I used to do that though, Ohm thought. He compared the similarities of his feelings when he was crushing on Bryce before and thinking about Luke right now.

Heart beats much quicker, sweaty palms, light headed, face heating slightly. Fuck.

“See~ Love is an open door~” Bryce burst into a song about love. Although most will get dazzled by his song, Ohm was only annoyed.

“You know I can’t be in a relationship with anyone, until I can control my powers.” He looked at his cloth in his hands with loathe. He took them down because there were only himself and Bryce here, and the blonde wouldn’t be affected. They were best friends ever since they knew they won’t get affected by each other’s powers, Bryce could sing freely and Ohm could get free from the cloth or the occasional mask with each other.

“Yeah, I know about that. That’s why we all came to this school right?” Bryce stopped singing. “Though, I just have to not sing, while you can’t let anyone look at you in the eyes. You will have a much bigger problem in the future if you can’t control it well.”

“Like I don’t know that.” Ohm sighed. It wasn’t easy and he could barely control it even after 2 years in the school of specials. Bryce only came last year and he could almost master it.

“That doesn’t mean you can’t give it a try. I mean, get to know the guy first, be friends with him. I think I have seen him around before, and he doesn’t seem like a bad person from what I have seen and what you have said. A relationship can wait, and you will have time to learn controlling it in the meantime.”

“Maybe. A relationship isn’t a priority though.” Ohm said. Learning to control his powers however is the highest priority. He can only think of having a relationship if he could control his powers, because he would like to let his lover look at him in the eye and not get influenced by his powers. Yep, he’s a romantic at heart.

“What was his name again? The guy you are crushing on.” Bryce inquired.

“Luke Patterson, and I’m not crushing on him. It’s impossible anyway. I also kinda made things much more awkward than they should be. He might not even be into guys and my power only made him uncomfortable.” Ohm sighed again, he might have blew a potential friendship with his awkwardness.

“Ohm?” A sound came from behind. He turned around to see Luke, looking as handsome as ever, and he was dumbfounded.

Bryce however, whispered “Is that him?”, and ohm could only nod.

“I remember I have something important to do, see you later Ohm!” Bryce announced, he winked at him and left. Leaving Ohm thinking how he’s gonna pay back on him for abandoning him like that, when he realized he wasn’t wearing his cover, and Luke was looking at him right in the eyes again.

Ohm hurried to tie them up, when a pair of hands held his tightly and stopped him from doing so. Only then he saw how close they were, and he felt his face heating up again.

“Why do you have to cover your eyes around me?” Luke asked, inching closer towards him, while he backed away slowly to keep the distance between them. His heart was beating so hard that he was afraid it would burst out from his chest.

“B...Because people won’t be themselves when they l...look at it.” He stuttered, taking note on how he backed away to a wall and was trapped. He tried to control his powers but his mind was a jumble and he couldn’t focus.

Suddenly, as if out of a trance, Luke broke the eye contact and backed away from Ohm. Ohm took the chance to suck in a breath of relief.

“Sorry, i don’t know what got into me.” Luke said, rubbing the side of his neck. “I was supposed to apologize for yesterday, and I did the same thing again, sorry.” It took Ohm some moments to register what he was saying, did he assumed it was his fault?

“No, it was my fault actually, I’m sorry for making things awkward.”

“No, I was my fault I was the one who took the initiative both times, and you were the one being uncomfortable. Heck, I don’t even know if you swing that way.” Ohm was startled, did it mean Luke wasn’t uncomfortable and is gay?

“Erm...I’m bi actually.” Ohm said.

“Oh…”

A moment of awkward silence between them. Then Ohm remembered to tie up his cloth around his eyes again, and missed Luke’s look of disappointment.

“So...do you want to go get something to drink?” Luke asked.

“Er...sure why not?” Ohm replied, he was surely gonna ask Bryce for advice for not making things awkward.

Note: Ayee i have exams later so i might not be able to update for over two weeks T^T. It was again rushed so there might be mistakes, thanks for reading!. :) Exams are scary. ;(

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I was tagged by @fourteenacross! Here goes:

1. 5 things you will find in my bag/backpack - My gigantic sunglasses. They are the only sunglasses that have ever looked at all good on me, and I carry them everywhere because I am That Pasty Person who wears sunglasses on cloudy days 'because there's a glare.'

- Three sets of keys: keys for work, keys for my fellowship, and my house keys. I OPEN ALL THE DOORS.

- My pass case! I've got my own monthly MBTA fare card, of course, but I also keep fare cards from places I've been in there. At last count I have cards from NYC, DC, Dublin, and two from Japan (both Suica and Pasmo!)

- A bunch of tea bags that I keep forgetting to take out. (Actually, by typing that, I just shamed myself into taking them out.)

- My phone charging cable. I spend my commute reading fic/Tumblr and listening to podcasts, so I'm always running down my battery.

2. 5 things you will find in my bedroom

- A map of old Boston.

- Various things I collect: phone charms, hats, lipsticks, old letters and cards. I try to limit any given collection to one box/shelf/rack so it doesn't get out of hand.

- My old CBT notebooks. I don't need them as much anymore, but I like having them close by.

- Two Night Vale posters.

- At least three cups I need to take to the kitchen.

3. 5 things I've always wanted to do in life

- Publish a book. I have planned out my book launch the way I think most people plan out their weddings?

- Own a house.

- On a related note, have enough space that I can actually put real thought into decorating.

- Have a serious romantic relationship.

- I just want to go eat tapas in Barcelona. Like in general , but also right now, I'm hungry.

4. 5 things on my to-do list

- Go to the gym tonight (and I have a new Alice Isn't Dead to motivate me!)

- Call my grandma to tell her about my trip.

- Put in some fellowship hours on my manuscript.

- Finish this Roger scene for episode 12 of @thebridgepodcast.

- Actually spin one of these thousands of YoI snippets into a proper fic!

5. 5 things people may not know about me

- I worked for the Japanese foreign affairs ministry for 2 years and at a think tank for 1. I thought about taking the foreign service exam, but then I decided I loved my free time too much. And now I would like to thank God and also Jesus that I ran out of DC screaming.

- I have an anxiety disorder that I'm currently taking medication for. I think some of you have gathered that, though I don't put it in so many words a lot, but saying it more often helps move it from the TERRIBLE SECRET category into the Normal and Accepted Part of My Life category.

- Under this mild-mannered exterior I am actually too competitive to live. One time someone told me to 'relax' and 'enjoy myself' during a game of ping-pong and honestly I'm still annoyed about it.

- My first fandom was X-Men. And if I wrote self-insert fanfic in which I was a sassy martial artist who controlled water and romanced Gambit, y'all will never find it.

- I always thought I was really Embarrassingly Extra About My Feelings until fairly recently, when it was brought to my attention that 90% of the time I have a really pleasant/cheerful poker face. Which... actually explains a lot about various interactions with people when I thought I was losing the entirety of my shit. (Recently at a concert I got my foot stuck in a chair for several minutes, and at least three people stopped by to make polite conversation, ask for directions, etc without acknowledging the situation. Did they notice? Did it just look like I was fine with my foot being there? I didn't ask.) And I tag, if they're so inclined: @alextriestousetheinternet, @alienpodcast, @biomechatronic, @sayellesay, and @kevystel