#can be read as dirkhal so

[dayafterdark]

Autocodependency.

[lovelyrotter]

ur so galaxy brained for adding if you ever leave im coming with you to the dirkhal playlists (and the entirety of both playlists t bh, ive been listening to them sibce i woke up this mroning. blowing a kiss in ur direction)

Ehehe.... I'm glad we could spread the love for this song, and that you've been enjoying the playlists :3 Its one of my current favourites of all time. I will literally sit and listen to it for an hour straight on loop and STILL be hype about it. It's just so excruciatingly them to me, its so Hal. I mean even right off the bat,

Cries forever about Hal trying to keep his friends but they just don't see him as a full person anymore. Roxy gets close, but also thinks they get a free pass at directing their romantic needs at him because he's 'Dirk' but not actually Dirk, he's a program who can flirt back. And I've always read him indulging Roxy as both a way to get at Dirk, and leaning into his own only option for any kind of affection.

No one actually considers him a full person but Dirk and even then thats a maybe and mostly through the lens of believing he's dangerous and not angry or scared about being trapped, trapping himself and regretting that decision so thoughrouly it consumes him. We always liken AR to an orca trapped in a tank. Technically dangerous if provoked, yes, but made so much more so because of what his confinement is doing to him. Fucking around with people feels like his only option for attention, for being taken seriously, and I wanted a lot of songs on his side to reflect that >:)

woah that got away from me. We just like Lil Hal a lot LOL, he's our absolute favourite HS character, we'll never quit him

Thank you anon, you made us smile really big <3<3<3

[moldsporr]

Nebuuuuuuu For that ask game thingy... Hal-Dirk-Caliborn (that's your ship, right?) Also, you're a very cool person and I like you a lot Stay hydrated

YES I LOVE THOSE GUYS. I mean that's a small portion of the polycule in my head but YEAHHH

Okie okie

1. What made you ship it

Before reading I mostly only cared about Hal and Caliborn. My friend who got me into homestuck loves Dirkuu. I just fucking combined all of them like the cool mf I am :3 I also shipped Dirkhal so. It was natural

2. What are your favorite things about the ship

They all fucking HATE each other to some degree... I just. They are so weird I love them. Love how they have a Together In Every Universe thing going on. Bro and Lil Cal. Dirk and Caliborn. Doc Scratch and Lord English. Hell Hal is part of Scratch and English and Cal he's sooo deep in the polycule man. I also like their individual relationships to each other... Dirk thinks Caliborn is fuckin WEIRD and hates him after awhile. Dirk is almost caring about Hal and then does a nosedive into trying to kill him. Caliborn wants to make Dirk's death shorter than the others cuz he likes him. Caliborn Dislikes Hal because he lies and uses the color red. Hal is obsessive and controlling of Dirk because he's got no autonomy but also just wants to be included. Hal is utterly confused by Caliborn because he can't do his usual banter. Like they're so fun <33 I want to eat them...

3. Is there an unpopular opinion you have on the ship

ITS GOOD PLS DIRKUU IS POPULAR CAN WE GET HAL INCLUDED IN ALL OF THAT. IMAGINE THE DYNAMIC GUYS. PLS. PLS PLS PLS

[bro-strider-hate-blog]

Thank u all brostri kins for supporting me being fucking thirsty for you i love you guys and hope you have a wonderful week

[laurasauras]

for the wip ask: dirkjakejohn, dirk-assisted john dying, betaot4, both pwp and non, bro/d soft, dirkhal pwp, dirkkri masturbation help and that's all for now bc I don't want to be annoying lol

absolutely not annoying! i love talking about my wips :D

i answered dirkjakejohn here and betaot4 here

"God tier John asks Dirk to help him die" is a fic i started because i wanted to give @phlegmykins a present and then i didn't actually finish it and it's sat in my folder with 1.5k words for a while haha

basically, after resurrecting on theseus, john's suicidal but inconveniently god tier, so he asks dirk very casually to kill him. he figures that dirk is evil and being killed by someone evil will do the trick. the thing is, that isn't actually heroic and dirk isn't actually evil (despite his actions), so dirk doesn't want to. taking someone's life with his own hands (and a human life, someone who could be his friend) is very different from writing them dying, and dirk gets it, you know? he gets feeling this way and he is utterly willing to tear himself apart for the benefit of others, but he's sick of it

anyway, he tries and it doesn't stick and he hates himself and hates john, and john feels betrayed by it despite asking for it because humans are not rational creatures and it's just an incredibly emotionally fraught and also intimate time (and there's sex)

"betaot4 pwp" has a single sentence but it's a hilarious and good one:

Jade leatherworking and then whittling a strap in front of dave and rose (they don’t know what it is at first) and john’s just playing fortnite or something in the background

"bro/d soft" is a fic where bro has a tendency to break into d's house when d is incredibly high/drunk and makes him come despite the fact that he can't get it up (a legit possible thing! 🥵) kinda playing with bro's thing for puppets because like ... limp, helpless body. the soft is in reference to d's dick not the tone of the fic 😂

Bro doesn’t answer, but it’s true. He comes over sometimes when you’re sober, but he’s all over you when you’re wasted. You probably shouldn’t trust someone who gets off on you being practically helpless. But you kinda get off on it too and it feels so fucking good.

He undoes your shirt without taking off your tie and slides his hands against your skin. His fingers are warmer than the leather of his gloves, and the texture difference is something to get lost in. The coke’s made everything feel brighter, like the world has a shiny edge, like your nerves have been moved to the outside of your body. You could do anything right now.

"dirkhal pwp" is literally that, hal comes into dirk's room and annoys him into sex (omg i haven't worked on this since august 2019)

‘I’m bored,’ Hal says. You scroll down the wiki article you’re reading performatively, as if you aren’t giving him even a bit of attention. ‘You should see if you can top me.’

"dirkkri masturbation coaching" is a fic where kankri's never actually wanked before and he asks his college roommate (dirk) for guidance because he assumes dirk knows how (though dirk has put a lot of effort into presenting straight because kankri's ... kankri)

[officialjakotsu]

How fandom fucked me up and got me abused

People often say fiction doesn’t effect reality, when defending their “controversial” ships. Firstly. This is complete and utter bullshit as you can find with a quick google search.

Secondly, I want to add in with my own personal experience as to how fiction and fandom was used to lure me into specific mindsets and allowing my abuse.

HEAVY TW FOR ABUSE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT OF A MINOR

When I was 12, I came out as bisexual to a close friend, who we will refer to as L. L, at the time, identified as a girl but has since come out as a trans boy. I will be referring to him with he/him pronouns but I feel it’s important to keep that at the time we believed we were in a same sex relationship. I believe L was 14 at the time (he was one grade above me but a little older for his grade and I have always been one of it not the youngest in my grade due to my birthday.)

L and I had first become acquainted through school and became friends due to shared fandom interests, at the time this being Hetalia. (I could write a whole essay on why Hetalia is bad alone in its effect on people, but that’s not the point. Also I was 12 and didn’t realize it.) After about a year after meeting was when he asked me out and I happily accepted. During our relationship, he also introduced me to Homestuck, which I then became a fan of.

As our relationship continued, we both got very into very roleplay, usually of our favorite ships, most of these being ones L liked that I just liked for him. The important ones to this story being Dirkjake, Dirkhal, Johnjake, and Erisol. With Johnjake, this was a very sneaky way to get me to ship incest. I had not, at the time, realized it was incest. Dirkhal was something I was uncomfortable with, but he pressured me into roleplay with it.

The dynamics between Dirkjake, Dirkhal, and Erisol are... Uncomfortable, to think of now. Dirkjake, as a relationship, canonically failed because it was toxic, and when I read it I was upset they broke up despite how obviously toxic it was. I couldn’t read it as that, because of L. With Dirkhal, it was always roleplay as incredibly passive aggressive between us (the few times I gave in to his begging to roleplay it). Erisol was always roleplayed incredibly aggressive, like how they acted to each other in canon (the characters hate each other.)

These dynamics were romanticized- possessiveness, jealousy, and aggression towards your partner. Then in other fan media I consumed, I found the romanticization of the taking of innocence, of relationships between a caretaker type and the person they were taking care of, of someone incredibly possessive over their partner, of specific types of abuse that made it so much harder for me to realize I was being abused. This was all stuff introduced to me by fandoms, by fanfiction, whether through my own internet usage, or my abuser showing them to me.

I was also drawn into this idea that because it was a “gay” relationship, it was better and more pure than a “hetero” relationship. I was told gay people weren’t abusive. And I believed that.

Fandom taught me these things were okay. Fandom taught my ABUSER these things were okay. So despite how bad it made me feel, how isolated from my family I felt, I thought it was okay. I was the younger one, I told myself this was how relationships were supposed to work because this is how fandom taught me and how my abuser taught me they were. I was inexperienced and I easily swayed because I was a child. Remember, I was a 12 year old when this relationship began. I was 14 when it ended. It was my first relationship. I had no clue how this shit was supposed to work.

Even after the relationship ended I didn’t realize how bad it was. I had found by then it wasn’t good because I saw a post on tumblr warning me about red flags in a relationship and I noticed some of them lined up with L. But even then I didn’t know it was as abusive as it was. It wasn’t until about four years later that it hit me.

Through the romanticization of the dynamics between those relationships, from all the fanfiction, and the fan content, I had gotten abused horrifically. He used this in roleplay, and in our overall relationship, to gaslight me, to abuse and then lovebomb, to excuse himself, and to sexually assault me. He used roleplay to push me into sexual situations I was uncomfortable with (again. I was 12/13/14 during this relationship) and this was an action that was played off as “cute” or “romantic.” He was my “first” in so many things and he loved to coo over my inexperience and lack of knowledge of these things. My childishness was seen as cute. How is this not creepy?

To this day I have trauma. It’s been years but even as I’m typing this out I’m getting itchy and shaky and my chest hurts. I still see L sometimes and every time I do I’m reminded of what he did to me. And he did more outside of fandom too- he tried to ruin my life and tell my friends I cheated on him (I didn’t). I was taken advantage of in so many different ways, because of my introduction to fandom spaces, and the rampant romanticization of abuse in fandoms. I’m not trying to promote “purity culture” or whatever I’m trying to protect vulnerable young kids who are like I used to be, from the situation I was in. My relationship with my mother has never fully recovered. My mental health has never fully recovered. I still have nightmares about him. My relationship with myself is still skewed, and I’m still a fucking doormate because that’s what I was turned into.

Anyway this post is a mess because I can’t fully coherently talk about L, but long story short?

I won’t sit back and let you ship what you want and romanticize what you want. If I can save even one little kid from what I went through, then it’s enough. Fuck you and fuck your ships.

And if any of you pro ship fuckers come on here to complain, you get blocked immediately. I don’t want to hear you defend yourselves on a post where I’ve just told you I was assaulted because of your rhetorics. Fuck you

[mortior]

Ask answers below! Some are heckin’ old. As always, I sometimes forget which ones I’ve already answered, so if I missed any, please feel free to send me a reminder poke!

Anonymous said: Do you still like dirkhal? And are you still planning on putting out a sequel to endangered?

I tell you what, DirkHal is my Homestuck perma-ship. I think every fandom I’ve ever had comes with that one ship I will forever love. I’ve been a Link/Sheik shipper since childhood. ANYways yes the sequel, which is basically a bridge to the actual novel-length sequel, will happen one way or another. If not a VN then as a text adventure thing, because it wasn’t designed to be a fic, if that makes sense. Like I’ve mentioned before, if I ever give up on it, you’ll see me post a synopsis of the plot.

Anonymous said: Read Endangered and honestly my mind is blown! It fun to read stories like this one that was so vastly interesting and stand out. I really hope to read more of your work in the future.

Oh wow, it blows my mind that folks are still reading it for the first time! :0c Thank you!!

Anonymous said: Hi. Thank you for sharing your amazing writing with us, they are providing me with needed distraction right now. Good luck with your program :)

Thank you v much =u= honestly it’s been super rough lately and I’m barely keeping my life together atm, but I realized that taking a hiatus from fandom stuff wasn’t doing me any favors. If all goes well I’ll be graduating at the end of the year tho!

Anonymous said: Hey, weird question but do you know what happened to RedLament? They were one of the more active DirkDave artists for awhile and I come back to tumblr and they're gone?

Ooh that username looked familiar and then I looked up their art and I THINK they actually moved to pillowfort. Looks like the site is down r/n tho, but if you remind me later and/or message me off anon I can try to get that link for you. They might be on twitter too but I’ve recently repurposed mine into a mostly non-fandom nsfw space.

bloominghearts said: Sorry to add to the message count, but it's good to hear from you. ♡ I'm working through my thesis atm as well and it's pretty rough and time consuming, so I totally get that. Take care, Mort! 🤘🏻

Ahh thank you, yeah I’m in that final year and it’s a real beast. Gotta keep remembering that I chose this / did this to myself. :’)

cryptid-with-no-forest said: Hey man you do what you gotta do Hope life is goin well Ngl i did miss ya

Ngl I missed y’all too ;-; thank u for the kind message.

Anonymous said: I may or may not have made fanart of Endangered fairly recently but I think Tumblr is hiding it from you :y

Oooh I’ll look for it, yeah occasionally things just don’t show up in my searched tags / notifications, tumblr is a rotten old potato sometimes.

Anonymous said: im so happy to hear youre still working on the endangered vn, kudos for sticking it out!! i dont think ive ever finished a vn before lol. you and a couple other ao3 writers are whats kept me in the fandom this long, and endangered is genuinely one of my favorite fanworks of all time (i love murderbots So Much.) are you still using renpy for the vn? pls send help if so its hard to get the hang of ;n;

Hhh thank you ;u; oof YEAH there was a big learning curve with renpy, I think I spent most of the first month in the forums trying to troubleshoot and figure out how to do stuff. The functions are so complicated I don’t know what 75% of the code does now, despite writing it myself. orz But if I can do it, anyone can do it! I had never touched a line of code in my life before learning the basics of renpy which is like code lite but still!

[2x2verse]

singular [dirkhal]

[nsfw stridercest week 2017]

this is not a typo, this is not a mistake. i had this draft sitting around for two and a half years before i could pick it up and work on it again, and i used it to derust for some other stuff that’s a little bit more nuanced.

--

Well, this is what you get for taking care of Dirk. He’d stayed up for 36 hours straight, which you know isn’t a good thing for organic-types, so you’d insisted that he go to bed—and he dragged you with him. You. The robot who doesn’t need to sleep. Sure, you could go into sleep mode, or just shut off entirely to freak him out and make him boot you into recovery in the morning, but there are so many other things you could do with this time that don’t involve any physical movement on your part. Binge something on Hulu, hit the random button on Wikipedia until you’re out of dead celebrities, read some scholarly articles you’ve been putting off for a while…

Okay, you can admit it. You’re bored out of your mind.

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[eyepatchdate]

I was tagged by @rui-the-galax-angel thank you!!! :D

Rules: Choose any three fandoms, answer the questions and then tag people you want to get to know better.

My chosen three fandoms:

-Persona 2

-Star Wars

-Homestuck

The first character I loved:

-Tatsuya Suou

-Leia Organa

-Dad

The character I never expected to love so much:

-Baofu

-Hunter (from the Imperial Agent SWTOR Storyline)

-The Auto-Responder

The character I relate to the most:

-Katsuya Suou

-Ton Phanan

-Dirk Strider.

The character I’d slap:

-Nyarlathotep

-Um...a lot.  We’ll go with Erisi Dlarit though.

-Caliborn

Three favourite characters (in order of preference):

-Tatsuya Suou, Katsuya Suou, Jun Kurosu

-Tycho Celchu, Ton Phanan, Myn Donos

-Davesprite, Dirk Strider, Rose Lalonde

A character you liked at first, but don’t anymore:

-Philemon.  10/10 would punch.  Also I just don’t trust him anymore.

-Can I just say like....everyone from the new trilogy lmao.  Including older characters (like Luke), I just like....really don’t like the new movies much.

-I can’t think of any.

A character I didn’t like at first, but do now:

-Lisa Silverman (it was only initially that i was like ‘eh’, but by the second dungeon i loved her)

-Bror Jace (all of my star wars answers are more obscure characters sorry sfldjdslk)

-The Auto-Responder, actually, aha.  I had to focus on him in my reread and use all my well-read robot knowledge to start to get interested in him.

Three OTPs:

- Ulala/Baofu, Tatsuya/Jun, and Maya/Katsuya

-Corran/Mirax, Tycho/Winter, and Queen Talia/Kavar (it’s hard to pick tho, Star Wars is such a massive fandom, lololol)

-Dirkjake, AlphaDave/AlphaRose, and....Dirkhal tbh fkfkkgkl

I’m going to tag @dumbtomato and @chidorinnnnn and @chicago--ted (why can’t i tag you?) and if anyone sees this and wants to do it, go for it!

[jayesprite]

Erisol, Cronkri, and Dirkhal for the ship thing?

Erisol

» 7/10

» i definitely can see it blackrom! i don’t have any standing headcanons for it, but so far it hasn’t annoyed the hell out of me, and i don’t see any issues with it!

Cronkri

» 7/10» same thing as erisol, i just can’t see it as anything besides blackrom and i can appreciate the interactions they’d have. blackroms are really interesting to me from and outside perspective and have a LOT of potential

Dirkhal

» 8/10

» defo blackrom, but i don’t see it as a romantic blackrom? it’s more so two siblings picking at each other and rivalries than like... pitchfucking. their pesterlogs together are always a joy to read and their relationship is too!

[dekkyu]

For the ask thing, I'm doing 001, with the ship. What're your thoughts on BBHal. (Brobot x Lil Hal)

omg ive never thought about this ship before but I already love it...When I started shipping this, if I did: right fucking nowMy thoughts: two robots in love, both resembling dirk ooh I can imagine all the angst and shit these two would have to go throughWhat makes me happy about them: idk man... but I think like, they could totally team up on dirk and shit and just endlessly bother him and I think that would be so greatWhat makes me sad about them: The Angst™can u imagine all the self hatred and insecurities these two would have to overcome ooh man my heart clenches just thinkin about it...Things done in fanfic that annoy me: ive never read fanfic of these two but brobot being written as just a heartless battle machine and hal as just a ruthless asshole would definitely bother meThings I look for in fanfic: them double teaming dirk. interpret that however you want.Who I'd be comfortable with them ending up with, if not each other: jake or dirk tbh. love me that dirkhalMy happily ever after for them: hal getting a body and being able to hug the shit out of brobot tbhWho is the big spoon/little spoon: neither of them are gonna be the little spoon without a fight (brobot usually wins)What is their favorite non-sexual activity: hacking dirk's shit and downloading endless amounts of shitty hentai onto his computerim going to go look for stuff on this ship now ily for opening my eyes leg-senpai

[tmo6]

fuck it someone show me how to make a carrd so people can read my about and dont follow me if they ship dirkhal

[crypt1dyke]

Sorry this is dumb, and I don't even ship it at bc I think it's weird, but I didn't know that dirkhal was considered an incest ship. I'm not trying to be mean, but can you explain why? It's been a while since I've read homestuck and I don't understand

that’s where it gets a little tricky

if we’re looking at it from afar, it technically counts as selfcest. however, there are key differences that separate dirk and hal from being considered the same character. hal, being a thirteen-year-old version of dirk, is seen in comic as someone he considers as a responsibility, a burden on himself, much like an unwilling guardian would. so, if one were to humanize him, he’d be a brother of dirk’s indubitably. 

on the same note, most of the folks who ship it wave it under the striderc//st banner which is. disgusting. 

(not trying to start any fights, but for real. stay away from me if you think any of that shit’s ok.)

[mortior]

Super duper late ask answers! I’ll do the Endangered-related ones tomorrow since it’s already bed time. orz

trashqueeen said: Wait, you had surgery?? Shit, are you doing okay?

Aah no no! I was learning how to do surgery. :`y And for some reason, our surgeons are all terrible people (with 1-2 exceptions). I suspect that it’s a cycle where mean people are hiring other mean people. :\

Anonymous said: What happened to notacorpse? I've seen fanart for Endangered by them, but they're gone not? Sorry if this is rude or anything.

He’s got a new blog now! He doesn’t really do Homestuck stuff anymore, but he’s still around, no worries! :v

Anonymous said: I keep missing your streams ahhh

Gomen orz I was streaming really late, since I had to wait until my folks went to bed while I was visiting. BUT I’ll do more streams once I get a desktop computer of my own. :o

Anonymous said: Ok so this is random but just thought I'd tell you that your voice is really cute, so.... ye

Aaah thank you /)>\\<(\

Anonymous said: Scrolled through your bookmarks on AO3 and found a lot of quality Lil Hal/Dirk stuff, so thanks I guess

Mmm the world always needs more DirkHal and I am happy to spread the good stuff. :^y Although I have not been reading nearly enough on AO3 within the last year, so they’re probably all older fics.

Anonymous said: There really is not enough LE/Bro stuff like it's straight up my alley and I'm so glad to find someone else with a love for it.

Hot^tm. Also it’s a great excuse for xenophilia, and I am a huge xeno fan. owo

Anonymous said: unpopular ship: Hal/Alpha Dave. Hal likes the power Dave loves to give him, and also likes to tease Dirk about how he's fucking his older brother. One day Hal makes Dave hold his bladder all day and Dirk comes home to Hal fingering Dave on the couch, with his ruined pants around his ankles. Dirk definitely does NOT have a boner, nope, flashing through the living room with Dave's moans following him, not hot, that's not hot, Dirk does not want to be the one fucking Dave, making him moan, nope.

Fthphth I MEAN I’ve seen a tiny bit of Hal/A!Dave, it definitely qualifies as a rarepair, but any combination of Striders is excellent A+ yes please. And I may not personally be into omorashi but I can definitely get behind the power and control aspect of it. >:3c

pedantricks said: good vibes

\o/ ~~<3

Anonymous said: What do you want your name to be changed to?

My dad already picked a new name! I asked him to do it, since he named me in the first place, and he picked Brian. :b I told him my initials had to stay the same, since I’ve done some published research.