#can anyone verify this because i am going insane

[foxstens]

what do you mean riko is younger than kevin

[unohanadaydreams]

five comfort characters, five tags

I was tagged by @srtruth here and @bleachbleachbleach here. (Linked so you can go read their answers!!!)

Thank you both! I'm historically bad at remembering to do these, so I appreciate you even tagging me lol.

To me, a comfort character is one I can fall back on when I want to write or read or see something familiar and do so consistently with that character. What Would Blorbo Do? I know exactly what they'd do and so it's easy to include them in things I write. In general, Blorbo Soup for the Soul, I guess lmao.

Mayuri Kurotsuchi. My favorite blorbo. His terrarium is costly, expansive, and in view at all times. He's so theatrical & contradictory, yet at his core there's this simplicity of what he wants to be and how he views himself. And I just don't get tired of it! Definitely a beetle undergoing reconstructive surgery to better fit it's aesthetics of evolution and choosing the life of a caterpillar instead. Dug his way out of the dirt and said 'that's not who I am, actually, I'll never be that again.'

Kenpachi Zaraki. Probably the oldest blorbo of this list, tbh. A verified onion. Huge angst potential, let alone the angst fulfilled in canon. He's like if Icarus made it and laughed the whole way there, even as the Sun started to do irreparable damage to his foresight and burned everyone who made it with him to ash. He's like if the Minotaur knew the way out the whole time but continued to wander because he was so, so scared to find out the sun and stars and the sea breeze wouldn't be everything he dreamed they'd be and if they were, that they'd disappear just as he was starting to realize how wonderful it all felt.

Retsu Unohana. Second oldest blorbo after Zaraki. I just really love that you can FEEL how much she wants to live as simply as Zaraki, but she genuinely can't. She's dedicated herself towards too much. She can't ever go back. She slammed that fridge door on herself with zero hesitation. Queen of being a two-faced bitch telling herself she's one missed meditation away from going back to hunting down worthwhile fights in the middle of nowhere, but really she's just going to make the 4th division a nightmare hospital visit for anyone who pisses her off too much that day.

Giselle Gewelle. One of the newest blorbos! I love that she's a simple character with such complicated baggage. What does she want? To live! How does she want to live? With her bffs! How is she going to do that? By turning everyone into hyper-dependent undead puppets who are forced into a symbiotic relationship with her the moment they cease to live, forced to feel the same pain of stagnation as her, forced to realize that their life was a gift and her being content to let them live was a gift, that she can bleed so easily and that she didn't for so long was a Gift. You know! Just girly things. <3

A tie between Akon & Nanao Ise. Newer blorbos, for sure. Fellow workaholics who can stay sane under insane conditions & highly unreasonable employers. The hyper competent duo whose squads are being held up by their ability to maintain a straight face toward their captains when most would quit in less than a week. Definitely average less than 10 days of PTO used a year. Not just blorbos, but comrades.

Tagging with peace and love and no pressure: @wing-ed-thing @stupid-sloot-headcanons @tuliharja @a-libra-writes @j-u-u-z-o

[writtenbyplato]

taking some friendly advice i recieved and removing anon asks soon i fear, if anyone wants to throw in reqs on anon go ahead neow. blocked the hatemail anons for rn. yap response below???,??,

the craziest part of all of this is i have drawn One Suggestive piece where dirk is depicted two years younger than me because the scenario (age and all) is relevant to that time for me & indeed trauma related (anyone who personally knows me would be aware of how 15-17 went. i will not drop it in detail to be validated, do not try n fuckin fact-check me on what i handled), although brushed up to be ship content ofc because that makes it digestible for me, that helps me. aand the people who consume my stuff are not pedophiles ! i can verify this because i engage with my fans. i don't want minors on my page not because "i draw porn of them", i objectively do not, i simply do not want them exposed to Adult Content. this is a page w Adult Content, and i don't feel comfortable having kids on it or this sort of content. this is My safespace. didn't know that one made me a freak ! but the true bottom line is that you guys don't actually gaf about kids anyway. you aren't doing Anything to protect or help Real Living Breathing kids, you already did not like me, and are now up my ass about me drawing My personal experiences, whether that is what you see in my art or not. it likely isn't what you see because you haven't been there. it's also all Fictional, i would never involve real people. and what an insane thing to say, "i don't care about the incest half as much as the 'cp'", if fiction is apparently Real Shit now. go hold murder in media and allat to the same degree then, go cancel the director of terrifier 2, etc etc. stuff can be made critically, and consumed critically, you cannot tell me what i am doing or what i am, because again, you do not know me. i am some freshly 18 yr old coping by hand-drawing bs that you have Never had to endure, and hopefully never will have to. that is the last i am going to say on it, i will be blatantly ignoring everything besides the people i care about. please get on w your lives regardless of your opinion. thanks !

[productofaritual]

(INTRO BEGINS UNDER THE DIVIDER) Tumblr doesn't let u pin multiple posts, so here's some posts I would pin too if I could :D

Watch me go insane in real time

Crazy? I was crazy once

More about asks

More about me but in the form of a bad joke

Art (and not just art) resources

Intro? Intro. I've decided to actually engage with OTHER HUMAN BEINGS. Sometimes. Occasionally. To talk about my silly little thoughts and silly little writing.

Agender, any pronouns/terms (neutral preferred), Aroace

I'm working on an original book called "Bound By Name". It has its own tag and if you want to know about it, be sure to check out #Bound By Name (intro post about it here) (I don't post much about it but I am in the process of writing!)

Author/fanfic writer

Bilingual (English/Czech)

My ao3

Askbox always open! Speak to me! Also if you have fic prompts or ideas you think I'd like/want me to write, throw them in there too!

DMs always open but say what you want right in the first message because I might not answer or panic block

Spam liking/reblogging/commenting is A-OK. I love to see people enjoying my silly little posts

Moot = can interact anytime all the time as much as they like I literally can't say how much I appreciate all of them

I mainly write SBI and beeduo (yes, in 2024) and talk about random stuff

All of my fics are strictly about the characters! All of them! Every single one!

Way more WIPs than completed works

Expect me talking about discontinued works, unfinished works, or those on hiatus, but I'll only be posting the finished ones on ao3! That's why they're taking so long

I only write for the DSMP fandom but some of my other interests include: Dead Boy Detectives, D&D, Detroit: Become Human, EPIC: The Musical, Project SEKAI, Wuthering Waves, Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss, The Magnus Archives and maybe getting into the life series

CRINGE IS FUCKING DEAD DO WHAT YOU WANT

DNI: Basic DNI, just don't be weirdchamp and we'll probably get along. I really don't think I mind anyone with basic human decency. If I dislike something you do I'll just block

Not siding with anyone on any cc drama ever. All I'll say is do your research and base your opinions on concrete proof and verified facts. I might have my own opinion, but I will not be voicing it.

Blinkies and tag sorting under cut!

Tag sorting (started 22.05.2024 so anything earlier isn't gonna have them. Also I just forget to add them sometimes)

#textpost.bzzt - generic post that I made. Includes asks because I don't get enough of them to justify making a separate tag

#rbees.bzzt - reblogs. Can you tell I'm proud of that pun?

#artbees.bzzt - specifically art reblogs. Can you tell I'm even more proud of that pun? (I tend to reblog art multiple times, only one will be tagged)

#fandom.bzzt - fandom related posts. Can be any fandom. Reblogs won't have it, mainly because I'm lazy

#mootsies.bzzt - anything related to my mutuals

#personal.bzzt - stuff that might be a bit more personal/talking about my personal life. No I'm not doxxing myself, just talking about my pets or experiences or whatever

#writing.bzzt - anything writing related

#onceinafullmoonramble.bzzt - my once in a full moon rambles. They're longer than my usual posts and can be about literally anything

#horizonverse.bzzt - anything related to the fanfic series "Event Horizon" by Hellenite on ao3. Will not be tagged with fandom or fic tags most of the time because I don't wanna spam them. I didn't have any part in the creation of it, it's just my special interest

#genshin dsmp fusion - a random au I post about that features the DSMP as a new genshin region and the members as playable characters! It's not a fic and I don't plan on writing it into one, I'm just rambling about my ideas for it. Also mind this when reading about it!

(Made w https://blinkies.cafe, divider by cafekitsune)

[emma-d-klutz]

I actually think the bean soup thing makes sense, because the girl didn't just say, "I am going to show you how to make bean soup." She said, "I am going to teach you a recipe that helps relieve period pain." So I'm sure in the minds of all of those commenters, they weren't asking, "How do I make beanless bean soup?" but "Does anyone here know of an alternative that will give the same benefits?"

If someone with celiac asked if there's a good substitute to make a cake recipe gluten free, I wouldn't think that's insane. I'd think that's a perfectly normal question to ask, especially in a comment section - a place where you can ask loads of people discussing the same topic at once. Maybe someone knows!

The bean soup thing has been turned into an emblem of people on the internet needing everything to be all about them all the time, which is definitely a thing, but I don't think this deserves to be a symbol of it. I think that's just having follow-up questions. And if the answer is, "Sorry, I don't know another way," that's always fair, too.

That said:

Bean soup can help period symptoms because of the iron. Here are some other dishes with a lot of iron (with recipes I got from search results and cannot personally verify the tastiness of)

Tuscan chicken

Sautéed Spinach

Dried chanterelles (you can just add em to stuff or snack on them as is or grill them or whatevs)

Mapo tofu

Pan-seared qunioa and chickpeas

Dried dates (a friend of mine swears by it)

[jade-of-mourning]

hey. I’m back. you probably didn’t miss me LOL, but I saw your response to my ask and I got really excited 😭

okay so I actually sent the ask about posting to ao3 with the avatar mako concept in mind cuz I love making my non-avatar faves the avatar,,, and then I noticed you said asks about hcs and stuff are welcome so⁉️⁉️

I would love to hear more about the avatar mako au if you’re willing (that summary has me SO pumped btw)

and if it’s not too much of a bother, would you mind an ask about a little blurb idea I had but don’t really know how to write? I appreciate the word vomit response btw it makes me feel appreciated!! as you can probably tell I do a little word vomit when I get excited so. lol. love when my insanity is reciprocated :]

-🐌

welcome back anon! it's lovely to hear from you again <3

ah yes i too am a fan of reading non-avatar!avatar aus; they're so fun! also ty for enabling to talk about my au gfsjhjbhkfsdgjh i'll word vomit beneath the cut lol

and finally, yes! feel free to send it in :) i'd be happy to help if i can, though no guarantees </3

the au starts about four years prior to when book 1 takes place in lok, so mako, bolin, and asami are all aged down four years while the equalist revolution is not yet on the horizon — though i'm keeping the aid kids roughly the same age as they were, just because i want to play off their dynamic :P

in the context of Why No Avatar Korra, aang's temporary death during the crossroads of destiny led the avatar spirit to pass onto a water tribe child — until aang promptly un-died and raava returned, with a small part of her spirit left in the other to sustain their survival. (kind of playing off the avatar!yue theory and some of those theories floating around from book 1's airing lol.) so basically when aang died 54 years later, raava was unable to move on to the next avatar immediately, so she waited in a sort of suspended stasis until the not-avatar passed and the cycle returned at earth. i'm not sure how much i'll actually explore this in the fic, if at all, but yeah here's the explanation.

so mako is technically the earth avatar, but his firebending visibly pulled up first so he was just assumed to be a firebender. fast forward, dead parents & pre-canon sort of plays out as i tend to headcanon it, including lots of casual Bad Things and Horrible Trauma-Inducing Circumstances. however, as mako gets older he starts to realize that there might be a slight issue in that he can bend both fire and earth.

okayyy… okay this is fine. it's probably because his parents are from both nations. (he breaks into the library to verify that no, dual benders do not exist even in mixed families.) he doesn't know what the triple threats would do to him if they found out — would they exploit him further, or would they straight up kill him? he keeps it a secret from everyone, including bolin, because for all that he loves bolin considerably more than he loves life itself, bolin is also largely terrible at keeping secrets and this isn't something anyone can ever know. he doesn't practice any of the other elements, sticking to firebending exclusively, so aside from this added weight of such a heavy secret on his shoulders, up to fourteen it all goes the same.

(some casual Bad Things include, but are not limited to: the horrors of industrial age 1920s child homelessness, recruitment into the gang, lightningbending, and being trained specifically by zolt for intimidation factor and potential takeover. there's an unfortunate amount of child abuse and exploitation going on there.)

and then he's at a transaction with the triple threats when they get busted by the police, including lin beifong herself. mako is very much a fighter and very good at it, in that despite having not been trained properly, he's still vicious and entirely desperate due to his determination to stick around for bolin. he will bite your head off if he feels backed into a corner and will do whatever it takes to come out on the other side. his rage at the world has yet to subside after six years on the streets at age fourteen. he has zero chill and has no slowly coming sense of stability that he's on the cusp of gaining around his introduction in canon. he is both way worse and way better at repressing his feelings here than he is at eighteen, but that'll probably get explored in the fic, so i'll leave it here. anyway this is where lightning-happy mako slips up and accidentally earthbends directly at the Chief; and where most officers would've probably just let it slide under the assumption that they were going crazy, lin beifong does not do crazy.

so this is where the fic starts, as you probably read from the first draft snippet. a lot of set up that will probably never come up, at least not so explicitly like this, but it'll probably write itself in somehow. going on, we've got some air island arrival shenanigans, where mako first tries denial, realizes that it's not going to work, and outwardly verbally acquiesces with the whole fine-you-caught-me-i'll-be-the-avatar bullshit. internally, he is calculating the price of the artifacts in the room and the chances of him grabbing bolin from headquarters and the two of them bailing it out of the city with the sold-artifacts' profit.

so the question is, why would mako run when he's being offered the opportunity to have some semblance of safety and comfort for the first time in his life?

because mako, disbeliever of pacifism, is convinced that tenzin is going to kill him once he realizes that it isn't worth the effort trying to domesticate this violent street kid who's experienced an unbelievable amount of trauma and has a learned, deep-set cynicism for the world — if it's even possible at all. that tenzin will quickly come to deem that the world may as well wait another decade-plus for a better avatar. mako's selfish and even if he knows that his death would enable an actually competent avatar that would acutally help the world to be reborn, he refuses to leave bolin alone (even if a small part of him knows that if it weren't for bolin, him being so very tired so very often probably would've just allowed this path to happen). that's a major-minor plot point.

i'll leave it at that for now before i just write out my entire outline in this post :P but yeah, it'll feature mako learning to care for the world again, plus some quality mako & jinora friendship, bolin acquiring a mother figure in pema, and a peculiar mako & asami relationship after events in which, and i quote from my outline chapter summary, "Mako discovers that trying to steal from Rich Girl Asami Sato is a bad idea."

[taylor]

If the following situation happened to you, how would you feel? Because I’m really hurt and pissed but maybe I’m missing something obvious?

- Last Tuesday, my friend Jordyn invited me and another friend to a bar this weekend on Saturday (last night).

- Saturday morning (yesterday) she texts the group chat and verifies we’re still down for the night - the plan at this point is meet at Jordyn’s house at 7 to leave together to the bar.

- It’s 6:30 PM and I’ve been cleaning the house and realize I’m going to be late, so I call Jordyn to let her know I’ll just meet her at the bar. She doesn’t answer, so I check my texts and see that I missed where she said at 3:40 PM in the group text: “Change of plans no bar tonight the vibe is weird”. I reply back asking about the vibe being weird and she texts me one on one saying she’ll call me in 10 minutes and I’m like sweet cool that’s fine - that’s at 6:30 PM. (for context, she was at a friend’s graduation, and had to see a girl she’s been in a semi-fight and big misunderstanding with, so my assumption is the “vibe” being off was due to this other girl and her boyfriend, who Jordyn had been somewhat involved with at some point.)

- I’m not the kind of person who thinks 10 minutes HAS to always mean 10 minutes, so I continue cleaning and an hour and 20 minutes go by and I decide to text her like bestie what’s the tea i’m so curious (this is at like 7:50 PM i think?) and right after i send it I open my find my friends app and I see Jordyn literally pull up at the bar, like the timing was insane to actually see her pull up like that.

- So she’s at the bar, that she said earlier tonight wasn’t happening anymore. I’m pissed because I feel like somewhere along the line she lied to me and I don’t understand why. Either she lied about me being invited to the bar in the first place, which doesn’t make sense, or she lied about it being cancelled, or just lied by omission. I ended up checking her location like 4 hours later and she was still at the bar (she’s home now so she didn’t leave her phone there like she’s done before lol).

…would y’all feel the same anger/resentment/sadness/etc that I feel? Because Jordyn and I recently got into a huge argument where I told her I felt she didn’t value our friendship because she kept cancelling plans last minute and I just wanted to hang out with her and it felt like I didn’t matter enough to her for her to always come up with an excuse for why today wouldn’t work - to her credit, though, when we finally talked things through 2 weeks later, she apologized for always cancelling or changing plans and said she’d try to be better about it (which is all anyone can ask for, for someone to TRY, and the result is MORE time with my bestie, which I always want). Then this happens not even a week after we reconciled over her CANCELLING AND CHANGING PLANS ALL THE TIME? like maybe i’m just an idiot but it seems to me like maybe not ideal to cancel plans with someone only to keep those same plans actually and just lol never reply to them?

Also, I texted her a few minutes later after I saw her get to the bar and I suggested seeing a movie or going to the bar anyway - I didn’t wanna be the weirdo who’s like I SEE YOURE AT THE BAR WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT but honestly i was hoping she’d just say “omg come on by, the plans are back on!!” bc i was literally ready to go out and have fun, and i wanted to even try to give her an “out” where she could see i was still trying to make something happen, but wasn’t calling her out (even tho i probably rightfully could have). so anyway, i did text her at 8 pm with that idea and then at like 12:45 she’s still at the fucking bar and has yet to text me back, which will probably happen tomorrow but until then i’m just left to sit here and wonder what the fuck just happened and maybe she just doesn’t want me around? am i oblivious to this and maybe i’ve been recently annoying her and she felt like she had no option but to not re-invite me? or had no option but to lie? she’s like my best friend irl and so i don’t want to lose her but i don’t like this icky feeling i’ve got going on

[batsarebetterthanpeople]

The problem with the new Sokka actor isn't that he's white, it's that he faked being indigenous to qualify for the role

well first of all the person that I saw on twitter talking about it was in fact accusing him of being white, you see generally when people go on twitter and then come on here to complain about what they saw on twitter there is a specific ass thing that they're complaining about.

But from reading over the daily dot article on the subject (which I have not done much effort to verify the journalistic integrity of because I'm a busy man and there's nothing I can do one way or the other) It appears to me that there is a campaign to dig into the personal history of a young actor of color by a bunch of tiktokers who don't know him, which is something I'm against on principle. But it also appears that there is some issue with these tiktokers calling into question the authenticity of a tribe of the Cherokee nation which seems a bit yikes to me. Like the claim is that he has membership in a "fake tribe". But he's got membership in the Southern Cherokee Nation of Kentucky. According to the Twitter fact check the tribe is not recognized by the US government but I don't think we should measure the validity of indigenous tribes by the stick of the government who is still attempting to carry out their genocide. More than 200 tribes in the US are not federally recognized. It is not your place to tell them that they're fake natives, nor is it the place of any twitter user.

And again, the claims that he's not indigenous seem to come from Tiktok. I'm not gonna jump on a trend to take the role of a lifetime away from an actor who auditioned and got the part based on the claims of some people on the no time for nuance say the most dramatic thing you can think and lie for attention app. If these claims turn out to have merit (it seems like they're looking into it) then they should recast him, but getting #removewhitesokka trending about a guy who is probably indigenous and definitely not white is fucking insane.

I'm not making any statements on Ian Ousley's heritage because unlike the tiktokers I know that this is way out of my fucking lane. If you think that they should have cast an Inuit actor I think that that argument has some merit. But I just want you to imagine for a second how this looks if he is native, which, again, the evidence that he isn't doesn't seem very firm at this juncture.

The Daily Dot article I read for anyone curious

TL;DR: You made an assumption about my post that was incorrect. I am terrible at research. I don't like reading articles and I don't like googling things. It took me 5 minutes to amass the information I've laid out for you here. All of this information points to this being far more complicated than "Sokka Actor not indigenous." To me it kinda looks like a mixed Cherokee man is being forced to prove he's native enough to the same people who accused Amber Heard of being an abuser, but I'll be honest, I don't know that that's what's going on, because I don't know Ian Ousley and I am not affiliated in any way with the Southern Cherokee Nation of Kentucky. It is reasonable of me to make a post about how much twitter sucks that includes me being subjected to a tweet that says an actor who isn't even vaguely white passing is white as evidence of twitter sucking. Google is free.

What can i say but 🤡🤡🤡

[iknowyouliedbane]

The Story & Legend of Lord Banegrivm aka Rogueknight

Banegrivm's Discord is Banegrivm#3328 or banegrivm#3328

The Fist is his guild.Say you met him on WOW Emerald Dreams, say you noticed his lovely his armour or something. This bloke won't know what hit em.

Here kitty kitty Pumpkin where are you little mans...I heard him say in over voice chat once a long time ago. Must have cats working his magic for him.

He has been attacking me through the ether. Nothing he has stated online or otherwise, has been made a secret. He habitually blasts his personal business in chat on Emerald Dreams on a regular basis, if you are in his guild. Which I am. I am right here within his ranks. Ive seen people come, ive seen people go. Ive heard about all the victims he ruined mentally/emotionally/ etc and never gets justice served to him for his crimes. He thinks he is s leader, but he is more like the police. He is not good at being the leader is this guild, and here on discord, I have seen it all.

He vapes weed out the side dorr of his place in Mechanicsburg, PA, upper floor, he is behind 2 security doors. He sleeps during the day like a vampire. I know this because ive been stalking him for years. Im in Wisconsin but sometimes go to Pennsylvania for skiing at the family cabin, so yeah I made a pass to verify that he lives there, even though way out the way! But anyways, just to see if what I found lonline as public information, was true, which he does live there. But I dont care, I just forgot the address and moved on, but I know that he is in hiding and has no income, makes everyone here in the guild pay his way, pay for the game subscription, his stuff is all charity for him, he is not on disablility not going there, but anyways he has no income becasue he begs ofr help from me and others, and im sick of it. Now that I know that truth, i feel bad for him. Kind of, but not really, he could get a job and leave his abusvie mom who looks over his shoulder the whole time, he even made her a moderator and its creepy, sometimes I think he is living vicariously through her, like she isnt doing it, she isnt emailing harrassing emails to his rejectors, (all me again), fake accounts) and I think he is living in insanity. He doesnt have an identity anymore, he lost that when he 'lost face" with society, and now an outcast, so he lives in issolation. He dreams of taking us all to court, he said to us, that all the people who stalked him online should pay, yet, he was the only one abusing anyone. Im wise enough to know that, yet here I am, a part of his dark sick twisted circus. He has no idea he added me as a member to The Fist, and then he met Vinnchzzk or " whoever the hell that is".., after "she" left the guild I realized he had no idea that "she" was a HE. He thinks Vinn is the first version of "her" he has met. Vinn is a guy!!!!! Its a big fat joke on him!!!!! He fell for it, she isnt even a real person. April had the charactor online from a guild in another state, and her photos were used but its not actually her, she has nothing to do with the discord, guild, cuild chat, WOW, EverQuest, etc etc etc. She only was in a couple of our D&D sessions, and that whole youtube thing went nowhere fast, The Dept of Dread on youtube playing a Ravenloft campaign in 2021ish?)

He thinks he met the real girl on social media, but "she" met him from EverQuest, a long ass time ago children. Im in my 40s, so that is telling you something, I was just a kid, Ive known his ways for years now. Banegrivm, whoever this charctor is, also goes by Reverend Bob on the Ravenloft game, he narrates and does a fine job and everything, but make another person do the DMing, and he takes all the credit, we are all talking about that, and I have a lot of respect for Bane but I wont say that everything he has done is okay, its just not cool to be honest. I wont usehis real name here so i can avoid defamtion lawsuit, he is waiting for someone to do so. But I can vent myself about a fictional charactor, from a guild that im a part of, but have had not official introduction to any of these people if known for 20 years, im not even sure they are who they are anymore.

I met him online years ago, before WOW. Ive been following this for years, and he will keep yelling at him mom and threatening her if she doesnt cast spells on the women who reject him online. I think he gives her sexual favors to read tarot and give him answers. I dont actually know but that is what another tarot reader told me about them. But I have made fake accounts for him to fall victim too, like the hunter becomes the hunted, he fell victim to my collosal web, spun with love and hate, just for him. Nothing more powerful can come about than that which comes from the heart, and the heart of an earth angel is what he tried to crush with his corrupted roots of rotting hatred and scorn. He is the bane to everything that could be magical or beautiful, or innocent. He is a corruption that is is hiding with his mother, the author of the book the Throne of Piddle, he proclaimed this. Ever since the Circle of Corriander or whatever the fuck it was called, he has made me SICK.

There is an existing post from someone who knew him from the same place and they mentioned barfing or something, so < im not alone. Plus I have heard and seen the screenshots of countless professions of love then turn around and hex the same person to dust. He is a real warlock. He attacks you with his mind and searches you with the email you use for things, dud. He is not that smart. He thinks he duped his victims and the protectors of his victims, by lying about someone making a title of Banegrivm and posing as him doing illegal shit then saying Oh! That wasnt me - they made a fake handle or whatever he would say with his lack of tact. I have nothing against him personally but the fact that he constantly lies in his various online functions pisses me off to no end. Yeah, he definitely was guilty of that long convo witht he person posing as a teen, even though he fell for that bait...He tried to say online that he was innocent and has a problem even being around children because he is afraid of being a monster in other people's eyes, avoiding judgement either way if he is guilty of child-grooming or not, he is still in hiding and hiding his drug habit from his own mother, she is his narcissistic supply, and between her and his grandmother who he claimed raised him, he publically says he is special, and this si how these women raised him to think of himself, as better than other, since his father and soon thereafter stepfather abandoned his mother, (gee I wonder why that would be, maybe she was crazy and couldnt get away from her mother, generations of insanity and narcissism)

Im the kind that keeps freaks monsters and the like up on my wall. Sure I had to add him, to get in his circle, but its all part of the hunt. The hunt for the truth.

So yeah its not great looking for whoever wants to judge me go ahead but i know that as long as he keeps looking up these tumblr pages with his name, he will know that we know ;)

[hersheythecure]

I almost lost today.

988

Called them and they sent a live counselor out to me. I went to a pace I feel safe and that's a Cafe. They met me there.

It was so hard. Getting to that point. I haven't had suicidal ideations In a while. But this is the season that they show up. Especially with everything we have going on.

I was so scared. I have to fight Frantic who's tye trauma holder for everyone. She feels like all the trauma in our nervous system and each separate part is an extension of her. The visual is insane in my mind. They're all hurting. But one thing for sure when she sends me that it's because we need help that is nowhere in our vicinity. It's when my brain realizes if we don't reach out we're going to take our life. She's combating the trauma alters who's adolescent outlet is death.

We literally have Noone. Lmaooo

All the questions. Were. No. Who can change your tire or take you somewhere? No one.

Who can you call? No one

Who can you ask for money from ? No one

Is there anyone here that you can ask for help? Nope

Any relatives? 2.5 hrs away so nope

I literally said roadside assistance is who I'd have rk call. Atleast I can afford that right?

If I was broke I'd be dead as fuck. Thank you brain for securing our Financials.

It's sad that if you're broke youre just dead. Buttttt 988. Please no matter how broke you are reach out. It's free. Verify. If you need them to email you that it's free have them do that. They sent two ladies out to meet me. Get my history and provide support as well as resources. Ones the VA doesn't even have or give. Smh.

I explained my symptoms and what I need. What is happening in my life. And where the stressor are.

My mom is not the person to call when I'm suicidal due to the inexperience with mental illnesses and disorders. But she's the only one that answered which I'm still so fortunate that she did. Almost took me out though. She made me feel like everything I did was wrong in relation to coparenting. Even when my social worker said otherwise. It sucks I can't count on my family for the advice i need because they don't have the info to respond In a supportive way. It suckssssss. I realized that my family was causing conflict in my mind. They have such a power over my mind because they are my ONLY support. The pull is strong. On my parts. But something the counselor said helped. Isolating yourself and cutting yourself off like Caribbean and black people encourage is actually the opposite and causes more harm. You cannot heal in isolation. And now I have to just he by myself mentally. I can only get support on a level I don't need it. I can't be myself or explain my pain because I can't pray this away. Wtffff. I just want healthy balck and Caribbean people who've dealt with their mental health and can give me advice. Damn. But that's not many per what? White supremacy.

And I'm glad the white counselor stated the disparities between black communities and mental health.

I am so exhausted. So exhausted. But so glad they sent someone to help me. Too much emotional stress. And no support. Online is nice when I'm not in distress. But like a bitch need a hug and I git no one. I remember when I was religious and I'd beg God to come down and hug me. To take this pain away and you know what, he didn't. And here I am feeling the same without believing in any God. Definitely shows me it's all just fluff. Words.

I am alive.

I am hoping to get some emdr. It'll help manage the symptom that is dissociation.

Im not dying.

I always go and check myself in if it feels like my body is being hijacked to suicide. It's happened before. But I'm better at detecting since having my son. He really saved my life.

[flying-potato2]

2fa is more secure than regular passwords and stuff ill say but also its so helplessly and infuriatingly reliant on constant access to a functional phone (at least in the case of google) that it becomes more of a hindrance to the account owner than anyone else. My phone broke recently and I just tried to sign into some google services on my new one, including gmail. I go to sign in, and it says to tap the notification on my broken phone. my broken phone which very specifically does not have a functional touchscreen. It says to send a code to my phone number. which is not my phone number. Its an old number which no longer belongs to me. It says to send an email code. to my email. which I am trying to sign in to. which I do not have access to. It says wait 24 hours for us to "verify" your account. then it will send a code. to my email. which I am trying to sign in to. It says we can send a code to your backup email, which I do have access to and I can very easily check. It will take 3 to 5 business days to "verify" the login attempt. It was easier in the end to fucking plug in my fire hazard of a broken phone, let it charge, and use a usb otg cable and mouse to turn off 2fa from that phone which was still logged in to google. In part my difficulties were just because I never added many alternative emails and phone numbers but also like. Google is the largest internet corporation on the planet. they have insane amounts of infrastructure and a massive workforce. I refuse to believe that it genuinely takes them 5 days to review a login attempt that happens to use an email that was already added as a backup email by the account owner i mean they have the time and resources to painstakingly analyze every single action by every single user of every single service it provides in order to serve them ridiculously targeted ads it cannot be that hard to verify my login

[dragon-communion]

While I’m at it I want to analyze the opening scene Tarnished for dating potential.

Horah Loux, Goldmask, Fia, Dung Eater, and Sir Gideon Ofnir. And what the hell, let’s throw my player character in for giggles. Let’s go.

Horah Loux seems like a really cool guy, but fairly intimidating. The whole muscles and beard and ripping bears apart with your bare hands thing is pretty much the opposite of my type, but maybe we could be friends.

Goldmask is one of those people I’d love to listen to in a lecture hall, but he’s very focused on his studies and if I’m wooing someone I need a bit of attention. So. Interesting, but no.

I would get the worst and most confusing crush on Fia because she’s Nice and gives Free Hugs. I could see getting together with her, maybe, but I’m pretty sure she’s in love with Godwyn and not really looking for a third, or at the very least so intent on being a Deathbed Companion that she’s never really considered romance. A solid maybe. To be fair, I would also date Godwyn given the option. I like what he’s got going on.

Dung Eater. I haven’t done his quest line, I just know about it, so this will take some... serious consideration. I can appreciate drive and even being fucked up- as I stated in another post, the main reason I wouldn’t go for Rykard is the racism, not the murder dungeon- but I think Dung Eater is verifiably insane and possibly animated by pure rage. I’m not here to fix anyone, so the only way I could see it working is if I was an Omen. Maybe. Even then, I’m not sure if he’d have the presence of mind to care about who I am as a person. Overall, pass.

Sir Gideon Ofnir.... honestly, I could see both a yes and a no here. For one, he’s lucid, which is important for things like dating and consent. For two, he’s smart, and I definitely like smart. Methodical, thoughtful, meticulous, a good combination of both manners and self-respect. We’re hitting all the baselines here. Problem is, I think he’s more likely to use a person than bond with them. Even Fia, who definitely uses you, shows some emotional investment in you by the end. This guy? Not so much. I feel like he’d be that one guy at work you date for a couple weeks before realizing he’s just incredibly disappointing. At best.

And to round it all off for the hell of it, let’s throw in my first Tarnished- Seren Syrthiokin. We’re already off to a bad start because he’s got a beard, but! He’s a silly sort of guy who’s trying his best, with a decent sense of humor. No wealth, no home, in desperate need of a new set of clothes, but! Sensibly cautious about getting stabbed despite being functionally immortal, and actually has hobbies. Like hiking, and boar hunting. Definitely friend material.

Looks like Fia wins, but is anyone really surprised?

[deathly-sick-flowers]

No Sugar Part Two

got a notification on snapchat someone trying to add me. “bro it’s 3am go to bed why are you adding me” i joke to myself. some Melissa276 maybe a robot idk but you picked the right time to chat melissa. i accept and message ‘hey’. they are up and replying asking if i want to swap pics. what a joke, it’s free and i love cheap thrills. fuck it i have nothing to lose so i whip out my cock and try to get it hard. it ain’t happening. all the blood is in my brain with the coke and the beer doesn’t help. no blood and no stimulus means i ain’t getting it up. now i’m all bummed out so i do a bump and play some music. i start wondering if i could just add anyone on snap too maybe i could just talk to random fucking people. i type Hotgirl96 and laugh at the search results. does someone think this would actually work? well i’m a fucking loser so i’m going down this rabbit hole maybe i’ll land on someone real. it’s like this for hours it’s no use. i’m so wired i can’t sleep until real people wake up so i try those sketchy ads on porn sites looking for alleged Hot Singles In My Area. “fuck it” i beam alone. i got no job and no car or house payment. besides recycling cans i also get money from selling shit i find in my dad’s house or doing uber late at night when i’m jacked up on cocaine. after signing up with a credit card i start browsing through pictures of whores thinking “i just want some company”. i haven’t eaten in three days and some of those empty bottles on the table have piss in them cause i’m too lazy to get up. i don’t think they’ll mind but maybe for the smell i’ll finally dump them. i find some dark skinned asian girl and i just “good enough” out loud so i send a message. that turns into some chatting and pricing and a facetime to verify we’re real people. i got the funds so i send a few payments for pictures and eventually she brings up a threesome. she’s got a friend or coworker idk how whores live, but yeah sure fuck it i’ve never had one so i send another payment. i ask her if she does drugs she says she doesn’t even smoke weed. tells me they both like white wine so now i’m itching to make a store run. we settle for tomorrow night meet and fuck all night and i feel some sick sense of happiness. i have completely lost myself in my insanity and i don’t remember who i am. i’m going forward with this because i’m 36 and i don’t know what i’m doing with my life. two strangers in my house what could go wrong. does it make me feel like a gentleman that i took out the trash and poured out my piss bottles? i don’t want to ruin my streak so i decide to stay up another day without food. just gonna order the wine i don’t feel stable enough to kill someone on the road while trying to buy market wine for whores i chat with on my laptop. i’ve spent $700 on the Whore Package as i call it so, im in this. “i just want some company” i say out loud to myself in an empty home, bottle in my hand and a stench from my throat.

[welcome-to-the-neotheater]

Genius.com: A full fledged angry rant

I made one of those iceberg memes for AJR – @welcome-to-the-neotheater on Tumblr

As I mentioned multiple times in my AJR iceberg post, I strongly dislike genius.com

How do I hate thee? Let me count the ways

ADS/Annoying pop-ups

I understand that companies have to make money in other ways when they are offering a free product. HOWEVER, this feels a little extreme.

I am going to open 1 genius.com lyric page, let's count the ads together.

These are all DIFFERENT ADS on the SAME PAGE

And I got this annoying pop-up

Don't believe me? Go to https://genius.com/Ajr-bang-lyrics right now (or the lyric page for any song) and turn your ad blocker off.

Its insane

There are more ADS than there are LYRICS

Wrong Lyrics

Genius.com lyrics are often incorrect

Take this lyric from Buy You A Rose AJR – Buy You a Rose Lyrics | Genius Lyrics

I'm pretty sure the correct lyric is "cities pass like candy stores"

I am POSITIVE that the correct lyric is NOT "cities pass like kidney stones"

A website that's supposed to be built around having accurate information that anyone can fix or update shouldn't have this as an issue when there were 16 GOD DAMN CONTRIBUTERS TO THIS PAGE

This isn't an isolated example either

Let's look at what Genius.com has for Living Room's Overture AJR – Overture (Living Room) Lyrics | Genius Lyrics

Okay, who the fuck typed these

There are so many typos on this page

This can't even be argued as a case of misheard lyrics when you CANT EVEN FIGURE OUT HOW TO SPELL THE WORD "PART"

Can we please all teach ourselves how to use spell check I promise it will not kill you.

Wrong/Unverifiable annotations

To Genius's credit, sometimes their annotations can be helpful

For example, this annotation for I'm Not Famous did actually provide me with helpful context for this lyric in the song.

However, this is one of the best examples of Genius.com annotations working properly

I'm not going to throw out disses at people's annotations with specific examples for obvious reasons but they tend to be extremely surface level and restate the lyric instead of providing any actual fucking insight into the meaning

They can also just be unverifiable at times

Wikipedia, similar to Genius.com works by allowing anyone to update available information. Since, technically, anything can be added to Wikipedia, this is why many look down upon Wikipedia as a source.

However, at least Wikipedia makes you cite shit.

Any Wikipedia article will have a list of sources at the end of it for people to use to verify what is written in the article.

Genius.com doesn't work like that

I want to make it extremely clear that I don't think that this person/annotation specifically is lying, especially because from what I can tell, all of this is true (except I'm Not Famous came out March 24th not 25th) I'm just using this as an example of an annotation made on Genius.com

AJR - What Everyone’s Thinking Lyrics and Tracklist | Genius

Notice how there is no actual source in this entire annotation, because Genius.com doesn't require sources to be added.

This is a problem, because while this specific annotation isn't spreading any misinformation, this shows that it's so easy for someone who wanted to, either maliciously or obliviously, lie about the songs because it doesn't require a source. Wikipedia requires sources, Genius does not. Wikipedia has (citation needed) next to sentences without sources to be like a "hey! take this with a grain of salt!" Thats why Wikipedia works and Genius doesn't.

Additionally, if someone went on there to say something that's actually a true fact about the music mentioned by the band in an interview, since Genius.com doesn't require you to add a source for your annotations, someone might see the true annotation, think it's interesting, but would be unable to actually cite it for anything because it doesn't link to a more trustworthy source and Genius.com annotations alone aren't trustworthy.

Kinda takes the fun out of music

This is a lot more based on my own opinion, but a lot of the fun in music is coming up with your own interpretations for the lyrics. For cases that aren't direct allusions, like the Harry Styles example earlier, where song lyrics are more open to interpretation, it kinda makes it less enjoyable for Genius.com to only show 1 interpretation of it when you click on lyrics. When you click on an annotated lyric in Genius.com it shows you an annotation for it, and while you can suggest an edit be made to that annotation, you can't actually add a second annotation or something showing an alternative interpretation of the lyric.

Lyrics that are intentionally vague and fun to wonder what they mean get kinda destroyed when you go to Genius and it just says "This is what this means, this is the only interpretation of this lyric"

All right I yapped for like an hour on this, so if anyone was wondering why I kept shitting on Genius.com in my iceberg post, that's why 👍

THAT IS NOT THE LYRIC, GENIUS

AJR – Buy You a Rose Lyrics | Genius Lyrics

One of the many things I dislike about Genius.com, I will probably post a full ass rant soon.

[spectrum-color]

The fun thing about spending way too much time thinking about RotE over the past several months is that I can think of so many what ifs that would have changed the series. For better, for worse, or just for different varies, but there were a lot of things that could have gone in another direction in the Fitz books alone. Some I would find interesting:

Chivalry chooses to stay on as heir and let the scandal blow over (this would go very differently based on if he did or did not acknowledge Fitz)

Burrich was not beaten as a child for having the Wit, so he has a more balanced view of the Old Blood and tries to help Fitz handle it

The Piebald Prince was never overthrown in a coup so the “beast magic” taboo doesn’t exist

Verity takes Regals assassination of Kettrickens brother and attempt on his own life much more seriously (tbh it is insane that this was swept under the rug in canon)

Fitz never knocks up Molly (this has implications for him, Molly, and Burrich)

The Skill coteries attacks on Shrewd are discovered before they kill him

Desire dies before she can get Chivalry killed, and he outlived Regal. (Would he want to meet Fitz? More up in the air, would Fitz want to meet him after 15 years of knowing he existed but keeping his distance?)

Fitz remembers Chades lessons and does not take Rosemarys presence for granted, only speaking to Kettricken about their plans when he can verify that they’re alone or with the Fool or only communicating it in Kettrickens native language

Fitz makes the connection sooner about exactly what kind of interest the Fool has in him (crying and saying “when I remember how beautiful you were” and KISSING HIM ON THE MOUTH just goes right over his head)

Fitz doesn’t give his memories of Molly, his birth mother, and the dungeons to Girl on a Dragon, allowing him to process them in a more healthy way and not spending 17 years partially Forged

When Fitz and Nighteyes are traveling the world, they end up in Bingtown at the same time as Amber and join up with Team Paragon

The Six Duchies has a more neutral attitude toward homosexuality (before anyone thinks that’s just boring wish fulfillment, I think Fitzs deep rooted attachment issues are at the real root of his difficulty accepting the Fools love and are a much more interesting character trait than his internalized homophobia)

During the infamous confrontation over the Fools feelings, the two of them are not sick. Alternatively, they have been drinking

When the Fool tells Fitz to leave it and they can just keep going like they always have, Fitz agrees (tbh I think if he didn’t have a Skill hangover he would have given how he prefers to pretend sensitive topics don’t exist)

The Fool chooses not to tell Fitz about his impending death because he fears it will break the fragile peace between them

Fitz undoes Burrichs Skill block and is able to save him (still mad about this; HUGE implications and potential for drama with Fitz, Burrich, the Fool, Molly, and Nettle)

The Fool refuses Prilkops offer to return to Clerres due to his trauma and goes back to Buckkeep instead

The Fool refuses Prilkops offer to return to Clerres and asks Fitz to go to the Rain Wilds with him to continue to track the progress of the dragons

The Fool lets Fitz go with him and Prilkop to Clerres and Fitz becomes the Destroyer as well as the Unexpected Son

Fitz gets the Fools message on Winterfest and goes on a rescue mission, bringing him back in time for Bee to come into the picture

The Fool makes his way to Withywoods before the incident at the market

Lant actually is killed during the attack on Withywoods (how does Chade respond to this?)

Bee kills Vindeliar at the same time as Dwalia, meaning that Fitz is never injected with the Traitors Death

The Fool figures out how to use his Silvered fingers to free Fitz from the pillar. Though this is really only noticeably different if his worm infestation is discovered and destroyed early on by a Skill healing (I am especially curious how Bee would react to the Fools attempts to teach her if Fitz was still alive)

[hypokeimena]

Drop the book titles, please!! Also, do you have a goodreads or storygraph?

i do have a goodreads but id rather not share it - i don't write reviews so you're not missing anything lol. my goodreads is purely for my own memory and i think im going to switch to hard copy or back to my notes app bc all i ever do there is read badly written reviews about books and get mad about how wrong everyone else is.

anyway here's my 5 most recent reads, scholomance out of the running, the only reason im not on a third reread instead of writing this post is that someone else is using the same copy on a shared library account lol it can't count or ill go insane

ed: this paragraph came after i started writing little blurbs - i remember why i don't write reviews *as pitches*; i feel like i rail often enough against reviews that list off diversity metrics like it's bingo rather than telling me if the book is actually tastes good that i shouldn't do that but i guess we can all assume everything i am recommending tastes good

the verifiers - jane pek. enjoyable, well assembled little mystery-thriller about an aimless millennial who ends up working adjacent to one of the big matchmaking conglomerates and stumbles into what she, a big mystery fan, is convinced can't JUST be the suicide of a client. manages to avoid being as twee as that description makes it sound. does a good job balancing the various subplots such that they feed into and reinforce each other. some fun Themes going on. nice little 2 hour read.

the hallowed hunt - bujold. i love chalion but i hadn't read this one; i think i would probably not recommend it if you have not read the other chalion books (which i STRONGLY recommend). it's set in the world's past and in a different country, and you could probably get through it without context, but a lot of it is about how DIFFERENT that setting is from chalion itself so you're not going to get to enjoy the interest or contrast without having read the others first. the first one in the series is the curse of chalion, which is set in a world where the gods are real and anyone who knows that first hand has cause to regret it.

a lady for a duke - alexis hall. was written as a historical romance with a trans lady protag where being trans isn't the actual driver of the plot. i think being trans was very much a driver of the plot but in an understandable, forgivable (?) and believable way, and it was a well done little romance. i didn't like the sex but i never do and i did like the romance quite a lot.

the unspoken name AND the thousand eyes - ak larkwood. so good. i can't think how to pitch this one but it's on the sci-fi to fantasy dividing line and it's another one with gods who are around and you'll wish they weren't (i have consistent tastes). finally read hallowed hunt because unspoken name had put me in the mood for chalion again. anyway this one is well done and i really enjoyed the sequel. it's a duology which is now complete.

my fine fellow - forgot about this one because it was bad. lots of diversity set in an alternate history, if you like that sort of thing, but not much else to recommend it. one of the less palatable 'someone is secretly jewish' plotlines i've recently read.