#cam and kate

[duckit7]

Online Dating Can Be Hard 18

Whelp. It's Friday. We made it another week. To start the weekend off on a high note how about a chapter and maybe a joke.

How do you know when a joke becomes a dad joke?

When it becomes a parent.

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Maybe a little corny but there you go. Now the chapter I promised!

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Sending Kate that text was probably the hardest thing I have done in my adult life. I texted her in the morning and we agreed to meet at her place around noon. The second hardest thing I have done in my adult life was actually going over to her place.

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My nerves were eating me alive as the clock inched closer and closer to noon. I cleaned my house as best as I could. I took a shower and put on nice fresh clothes. And then proceeded to pace my apartment for what seemed like eons. How was this going to go? Was Cam still mad at me? Will he listen to me? Will he tell me to fuck off and never bother him again? No matter what I knew I had to tell him how I felt. Even if he told me to fuck off… If we are on our way out then I’m at least going to go out with a bang.

As I completed my 349th lap around the house my doorbell rang. I let out a long sigh. Now or never. The 10 steps it took to walk down the hall didn’t seem long enough. I filled my lungs with a deep breath to collect myself before opening the door. Cam stood there in his usual git up except this time he had on a backpack with a daisy peeking out the top. My heart skipped a beat. Did he bring that for me?

I looked at him dumbfound for a second before I shook off my stupor and invited him in. Cam nodded with a sad smile. Fuck… Sad right from the start…

“I ah… brought you this flower as an olive branch.” He said after I closed the door behind him. He pulled it from his pack as he lifted it up to me.

“Thank you.” I said with a warm smile as I plucked it from his tiny hands.

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We were silent as Kate rummaged for something to put the flower in. Cam you are so pathetic for only bringing one flower! Most other human men would have brought a bouquet. But you are too fucking small to bring more than just one… The negative self-talk ran rampant in my mind.

Before I could go any further into self-deprecation Kate rounded the corner. I stood there expecting her to pick me up to go to the couch, but we did no such thing. Instead, Kate laid on the ground about a foot from me. Was she trying to make me feel more comfortable? Kate gave me a soft, warm smile as she rested her chin on her folded arms. Her presence was slightly overwhelming to say the least. I didn’t know what to say. With both the proximity and the curveball of laying down, Kate had me at a loss for words.

“Cam…” She began before she looked away. I could tell she was just as uneasy as I was.

“Kate I’m sorry.” I blurted out without even thinking. My abruptness caused Kate to turn toward me. Confusion plastered all over her face.

“Don’t be Cam.” She said with a sad smile. “It was my fault… I never meant to hurt you…”

I nodded and started to rub the back of my arm for comfort. “I was hurt Kate. I was really hurt. And in all honesty, it was because I really care about you. Like really really care about you… Like… I… Love… You…” The words escaped faster than my brain could stop them. I felt both bile and tears starting to pool. I can’t believe I just confessed.

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Did Cam just say he loved me? I felt weightless as I stared at the little man in shock. Does he really love me?! Has this thing just been a stupid misunderstanding? I couldn’t hold back the laughter that bubbled up from within me. As much as I tried, I couldn’t contain myself. This whole thing just us being two fools.

Cam didn’t take my laughing well. Immediately he started to bristle. Cam set his jaw as he stared at me with daggers before turning on his heel and storming off. I couldn’t let him go. Now that I knew that he loved me I decided to be a little bold. Reaching forward I gently wrap my fingers around his small body. Almost instantly I was met with resistance as Cam kicked and punched at anything he could get in contact with.

Part of me felt bad for holding him against his will. The other part of me knew it was going to be worth it. Slowly I pulled my irate little man back towards me.

“LET ME THE FUCK GO KATE.” Cam roared. He was about to scream more profanity but was cut short when my lips pressed softly into his back. All the fight in him evaporated in seconds. I pulled my lips barely off of him as I whispered. “Cam Chaudhry. I am madly in love with you. That’s why I was stupid jealous of Sara.” My breath tussling both his hair and clothes.

Cam whipped around in my hand with shock and awe on his face. “No… You are lying…” he said in disbelief.

I shook my head. “I swear to God I’m telling the truth. I would never lie to you Cam. I really did bring her over because I thought it would be nice. But low key I wanted to toss her out the window when she started flirting with you. Didn’t you notice me getting really quiet?”

“I thought you were getting quiet because you didn’t want to interrupt her!” Cam exclaimed.

I just laughed. “Nah. I wanted nothing more than to pluck you out of her grasp and hold you close to me. I thought you couldn’t see past me being a human so it pissed me off even more when a parvus was doing everything I wanted to do to you.”

Cam couldn’t hold back his laughing this time. “Well I feel like an absolute dick now…”

I smiled warmly at him as he rubbed his tiny hands down the bridge of my nose that hovered millimeters above him. “Don’t be… we both were just clueless fools I guess.”

“You can say that again…” Cam said before motioning for her to come closer. “Come ‘er big girl. It’s my turn to give you a kiss.” How could I say no to such a man. I leaned forward this time letting my lips engulf basically all of Cam’s face. I hoped he loved the feeling as much as I did..

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The kiss was everything that I had imagined. Her soft lips engulfed all of my senses. The only thing I could hear, smell, see, taste, touch or even think was her. The feeling was pure ecstasy. Kate loved me! I just wanted to scream it at the top of my lungs.

[ninoochat]

Come over here with that sweet lovin' mouth

[stellaepluviae]

please......

[saintsavsfan]

Why am I just now seeing this Cam and Kate hug? 🥹🫶 #Braidtwins

[leilanihours]

the cam-kate hug from my perspective last week ☺️

saw someone post abt it and needed to review my vids from when i watched

[cokedupblonde]

lyfeeee

[world-of-wales]

The Princess of Wales and Queen Camilla take part in the Trooping the Colour procession || 17 JUNE 2023

[swiftfootedachilles]

"cis woman shut up and let men explain shit to you" and is that man in the room with us right now? i didn't think females roleplaying as gay men were the spokespeople on fictional gay ships lol

you want me to fuck you with the strap sooo bad

[katescig]

cute, silly and going a lil insane :3

[duckit7]

Online Dating Can Be Hard 16

I hope you all are having a great day! Enjoy! And as always my work contains strong language.

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Cam didn’t text me all week. Probably because he was talking with Sara. I thought about texting him a couple times but voted against it. I didn’t want to be overbearing. My heart ached. I would wake up everyday hoping to see a text from him. All day I would be on edge waiting, but as night would roll around, I accepted that he wouldn’t text… I was just the old toy he got bored of playing with.

The friend group chat was as active as usual, but I didn’t even give it a glance. I didn’t want to see what Cam was saying and frankly I didn’t want to see anyone period. I just wanted to be left alone to wallow in my sorrow. I didn’t truly understand how deeply I wanted Cam in my life until now. Until he moved so far out of reach.

As I laid on my couch staring at my ceiling fan with Lilith on my chest I tried to will my heart to stop loving him. No matter what, though, I couldn’t get him off my mind. I traced my fingers where he placed his tiny hands the night we danced. The night I almost kissed him. When I should have told him I loved him. Would things be different now if I would have had the courage back then?

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The walk with Sara after game night was quiet. She tried to make small talk but I just wasn’t in the mood. When we finally reached her hotel room she ran her hands over my chest and asked if I wanted to come up. I told her that it was late and I had to wake up early for work so I was going to pass. She badgered me to give her my phone so she could give me her number. She then texted herself my number so she had it. I didn’t want her to have my number, but I was so emotionally numb that I didn’t care anymore.

She texted me consistently throughout the week. At first I would text her back, but by the middle of the week I told her that I was too busy and didn’t want to keep texting her. I wished her good luck with her life and deleted her number. She didn’t text me after that. Heidi noticed my low mood at work and was kind enough not to prod. Every night I went home to a quiet apartment where the only sound was the humming of the appliances. Our group chat continued on like usual, but I didn’t even look at it. I couldn’t bring myself to even see Kate’s name.

I trudged home from work at the end of the week in the first snow of the season. My head down, lost in the dark thoughts that consumed my mind. About a ¼ mile from my home I heard someone call my name. My brain didn’t register the voice till they called again. Kate. I sped up my steps. I knew it was futile, but I didn’t want to see her. I couldn’t turn around and face the elephant in the room just yet. So I let my tiny legs fast walk as far as they could before a dark shadow cast over me. I knew the gig was up then as I came to a stop. I still couldn’t bring myself to turn around. I could feel Kate gently lower herself to the ground but still I remained facing straight forward.

“Cam…” I could feel Kate reaching for me as she spoke. I put my hand up to stop her before turning to face her. Her touch was unwelcomed at the moment and it was best to get this over as fast as possible. “Cam can we talk?�� she said. Her voice was level and caring.

Anger started to bubble up from deep within me. “It’s not like I can run away from someone 10 times my size so I guess so.” I snapped.

Kate was taken back.

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Cam’s comment made me sick to my stomach. Never once did I want to make Cam feel trapped because of my size and yet here we were. Part of me wanted to just walk away and give him space, but I knew I wasn’t going to get an opportunity like this again. So, I pressed on.

“Cam, I’m not trying to corner you or anything. I just wanted to see how you were doing and stuff. I haven’t heard from you all week so I figured you were with Sara. I thought about texting but I didn’t want to bother you…” I said, trying to keep my tone even to deescalate the situation.

Cam fired back at me, “Oh now you care about me. After you pushed Sara on me. I don’t even like her! Do you really think I am that pathetic that you have to play matchmaker. And don’t play dumb. I have heard you say to others that you don’t know how I am single. But guess what Kate. I can find my own fucking partner. You don’t have to go meddling with your giant ass fingers in my love life.”

I looked at him with shock and said “I didn’t push anyone on you! I wasn’t trying to play match maker! I only invited her because I thought I was being nice! Then you two seemed to like each other from the start so I figured you liked her.”

Cam glared at me “She liked me off the bat! I didn’t care for her whatsoever. I just was trying to be cordial and nice!”

“I was just trying to be nice too! That’s why I invited her over!” I exclaimed.

Cam waved a dismal hand, “Yeah whatever you say. You just so happened to bring a girl over who seemed to know all about me and immediately fell in love with me just because you were ‘trying to it would be nice.’ Whatever you have to say to yourself to sleep at night Kate.”

 Cam then turned to walk away but was stopped when a hand came to rest softly in his way.

 “Cam stop… Please… I’m really not lying. If I knew she would upset you so much I would have never invited her. I care too much about you and our friendship to do something to jeopardize it.” I said softly.

Cam whipped around with tears welling in his eyes. “Don’t say that!” His voice cracked with emotion. “Don’t say such things haphazardly. You don’t know what your words do to me…”

I held my breath as I looked down at the tiny man who was now shaking in front of me. Parvuses and humans alike were looking at us as they passed, but I didn’t care. “Cam…” I said as I pulled a hand closer to him, but he just pushed it away.

“Stop Kate!” He screamed. “I hate you Kate!” His voice dripped with venom. He continued, “I hate you. I hate that you are so nice but clueless. I hate that you care. I hate how you toy with me! I hate it Kate and I’m done! I can’t take any more!”

I let a deep breath out as I fought back my own tears. “Cam I’m not trying to toy with you and I’m sorry I am clueless… please… just tell me what I can do to make this better…”

Cam scoffed, “Leave. That will make this better.”

I opened my mouth to protest but closed it again. Cam didn’t want me there so I should respect his wishes. I stood and left. I didn’t look back once as I walked home.

[dacuslucy]

this is not okay wtf. not kate

[song89320]

https://shffls.com/shuffles/5388039071098531222/?sender_id=613826761620371386

[the-djarin-clan]

First official image of the new adaptation of Fallen. is expected to premiere in 2023 on Globoplay

Zeus, am I deluding myself again?

[reviliooscarr]

Made a playlist in honor of one of my favorite book series getting a tv show

[persephone-uwu]

So going on another Fallen rant, and psychological dive of Cam. Severe TW

If you’ve never read the book, and don’t know who Cam is, or it’s been awhile, Cam is the bad boy, second love interest in Fallen who turns out to be a demon that just wants to sway Luce. He’s known for his explosive temper, and beautiful good looks; but in his, badly written book, we also find out just how much he avoids love; going as far as to ditch a girl on a rooftop because he was scared of getting too close, or even when Roland hugs him after not seeing him for so long, Cam doesn’t hug him back and tells him, “take it easy,” even though he doesn’t pull away. It’s not the first time he seems to flinch away from physical contact. In Fallen in Love, he literally flinches away from Roland: Roland wiped his face and pulled himself to his feet. He reached for Cam, but the demon flinched away.

Cam is a victim of abuse. His story had the opportunity to be about a victim healing, and learning to love again, and be in a healthy relationship; but that’s not what we got. Cam goes back into another unhealthy, and abusive relationship, which is why I hate Unforgiven completely and don’t consider it canon. Not only do we not get any backstory on Cam, or his relationship with his siblings, or stories of his time on Earth, but he doesn’t heal. He doesn’t overcome his trauma.

Now stay with me.

“How is he an abuse victim?” You may ask

Cam went through toxic relationship, into toxic relationship, into toxic relationship.

First, he’s kicked out of heaven by his father, whom he was loyal to, and even remained an angel afterwards until his breakup with Lilith. He didn’t get a say in it whatsoever, his choice was taken from him, all because sky daddy was mad at Lucifer, so he kicked all of them out, because he “lost patience” with his angel host. So because his father is a narcissist and threw a tantrum, he was kicked out of his home. Which was a traumatic experience. One he even gets angry at Shelby about when she makes a joke about it.

“Yeah, about that… how’s that possible?” Shelby said. “You’d think that kind of thing would leave an impression on the old memorizer.”

Cam’s face reddened. “You try falling for nine days through multiple dimensions and trillions of miles, landing on your face, breaking your wings, rolling around concussed for who knows how long, wandering the dessert for decades looking for any clues as to who or what or where you are—and then talk to me about the old memorizer.”

And then he meets Lilith, who he is described as having a toxic relationship with. Daniel describes their relationship in Passion, “Both of them had their volatile sides, and when they argued, the whole tribe heard about it.”

During this moment, she gets so angry that he won’t marry her in a church (because he can’t) that she begins to physically assault him. Despite the power imbalance, he lets her. He doesn’t fight back. He lets her hit him, pin him down, belittle him. Why? Because he is so clearly an abuse victim. Their entire relationship is toxic, and the fact that he doesn’t fight back in this moment, and that her first reaction is to assault him physically, tells me this isn’t the first time. The fact that Unforgiven disregards this, and gaslights him into thinking he made it up, even though this is told through Daniel’s perspective, who says he remembers this. This was Lauren’s opportunity to write a deep story with a beautiful message, something abuse victim could be inspired by. Instead, she does the lazy thing, and pretends what happened in Passion was Cam’s imagination. Even though Lilith in Unforgiven is the exact same Lilith in Passion. They fight so much though it’s only 15 days. They fight almost every chapter. That’s not healthy. That’s Cam constantly going back to toxic relationships, because that’s all he knows.

After she leaves in Passion, Cam tells Daniel that he’s “lonely,” as in present tense. As in, even with Lilith, he was lonely. But Daniel is toxic to Cam too. In that moment, Daniel could’ve been there for his brother, who clearly adores him, but chooses to throw Lucinda in his face, and how she’s all that he needs.

Cam lashes out at that point. Which seems to be the source of Cam’s anger. The only time we see his infamous temper is in response to someone else’s behavior: which is what reactive abuse is.

Another example of this is when Daniel and Cam are fighting in Rapture, Daniel is stonewalling, with his arms crossed over his chest, being dismissive and not acknowledging Cam’s feelings. Cam is angry, red faced as he’s yelling at Daniel. As a victim of abuse, I can’t stand when I’m being ignored, or dismissed. It ignites a rage within you, because you don’t feel heard. This also seems to be a reoccurring issue because everyone, including Luce, doesn’t get involved. This is clearly normal behavior for them.

Daniel seems to downplay Cam’s feelings, and never take them into account. He doesn’t support him, or comfort him during his first breakup, that leaves him so devastated, that he switches sides, and even self-harms. His wings are badly scarred from self-harm.

That can be extremely frustrating for victims of abuse.

So then after all of this, he finds himself back with Lilith. No healthy relationships for him. No healing. Nothing.

This could’ve been such an inspirational story for victims of abuse. Watching Cam heal, and learn to accept love again, and not just romantic love! But familial love, like Roland and Arriane. Two who love him, but we never get to see Cam make amends with them, to become close again, to heal. I wanted a book about him that tells us more about his time in heaven, his adventures on Earth, more of his powers and charm, seeing the comedy and love between those three goofballs. There’s so much depth to Cam, and we don’t get to see any of it in Unforgiven. It’s more of Lilith’s story than his.

It could’ve still be a story about second chances, but not theirs. Cam’s. His second chance at love, but a healthy relationship, while also healing his relationship with Arriane and Roland. Unforgiven let me down, and I will never ever like it, or accept it as canon.

Also this should’ve been Cam

[puckgoss]

dixie is going to stagecoach according to that blurrydamelios acc on insta

ahahahah i love this for us (gossip and drama enjoyers)