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i-am-the-unicorn-triumphant · 3 years ago

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trying to explain it and get it out of my head in the least fatphobic way possible but i feel so gross after gaining so much weight but like in a sensory way not in i hate my body, fat is evil way bc. having skin touch skin is quite literally the worst feeling on planet earth and the fact that my boobs, stomach, and butt hang make me want to vomit. i cant walk normally i just want to wear shorts or a dress or skirt without bike shorts but my thighs touch *too much* because like i can’t remember a time where they didn’t touch and i dont care about having a thigh gap but it feels like my skin is pressing too much together and gets caught itself and i wanna kms

#my post #lmao #and i still have doubts about having autism #nuerodivergency amirite #god i hate myself #dont know how to tag this #tw body mention #tw body negativity #tw body image #nuerodivergent #nuerodiversity #im going on a cruise in literally 2 days and im having q fucking aneurism tryonh yo figure out what to pack #bc 1 nothijg fits because ive gained weight #2 clothes that i have bought for me so weird now because i have a lot of fat i never had before #and #3 its with my family so anything im comfortable in is too revealing #i have worked so hard to bw okay with my body these sensory things fucking suck #and my both of my fucking parents and my grandmother wont shut up about the diets thwy are on and its so triggering #and thwy just dont listen when i ask to not talk about it around me #bwcause they know i want to loose weight #my moms thw biggest offender because she literally has had a *dietian* okay her to be on essentially a long term crash diet #and she keepta trying to almost force me i to doibg the same thing #moving out has been huge but everytime i visit she always comments on my weight and body and tries to get me to diet with her

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