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Me, taking vacation time that I’ve been given: what if they kill me for this?
#I feel so GUILTY#like. I shouldn’t#but I gave my supervisor one weeks notice (better than most people I work with) (it was literally all the notice I had)#for a day#and then the other two days are in two and three weeks#so like. it’s FINE and my coworkers all told me to take the days off bc if I don’t then I lose them#and don’t get paid for them yknow#so like. I should take them off#I just feel BAD abt it#but I have six days off in the next month and only one vacay day left to take#and I’ll probably let that one go honestly#but yeah. what if they kill me#em rambles
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I think one of the biggest tragedies of Laios & Falin and their relationship is how much his actions impact her life. But like. Specifically how much they WOULDN’T impact her life as much if they weren’t both stuck in such a shitty abusive situation.
This part of the Falin-tries-makeup daydream hour comic is what got me thinking about it again because truly it just... it seems like such a like an offhand comment that I'm sure Laios didn't mean to be cruel or anything. That's just like. A little kid not thinking about what they are saying. ESPECIALLY when the kid in question is Laios.
But man they depended on each other SO much as kids. Too much. It really feels like they didn't have any other source of positive reinforcement, or anyone else to share themselves with. So of course an offhand comment like that has a huge impact on Falin.
Or this little bit from one of the flashbacks:
This tears me apart. Do you think it tears him apart to think about? I think it does. I think Laios holds every small failure to care for Falin against himself.
And then there's the Bigger stuff. The way that him coping with his own trauma ended up impacting her.
Like his interest in monsters. Like him going to find a ghost, and accidentally revealing Falin's magic to the whole village in the process.
Like him needing to leave. And leaving her behind.
He shaped her life so much, and he carries so much guilt for it. And again, there should have been other people there to help. The same things that made Laios need to leave home are the things that made his leaving so hard on Falin. She ate alone after that. She shouldn't have had to eat alone just because Laios wasn't there.
She was 9 when he left for school, and he was 11.
Nine. And Laios feels like he failed her because he didn't stand by her through this better. As an eleven year old.
Both of these kids deserved so much better from the world.
#dunmeshi analysis#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#falin touden#laios touden#dungeon meshi spoilers#AND this isn't even getting into her leaving the academy & how much it seems like that was directly tied to how poorly he was doing#there's a comic in the adventurer's bible where marcille is like 'yeah she had a job lined up and everything'#and like. do you think he feels bad for that too#like he wrecked her life by leaving#and wrecked her life by showing up#what do you even do at that point. if you feel like a failed protector when you are away & and a burden when you return#unable to make yourself accept. unable to make yourself resist#Laios strongest moment is when he lets himself accept that. the contradiction of his life & his relationship with Falin#that he has to kill her to save her#as a small note this came out a little more focused on Laios' POV with this stuff but Falin's experience of it is v important to me too#didn't mean to sideline her but her feelings about stuff are more speculative and probably need a post of their own
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crisis of disbelief
#one piece#trafalgar law#zoro#luffy#‘what ship is this’ sure#lulaw? luzo? law…zo? or is it zolaw. none of these sound like words anymore#well i guess bc they aren’t. they aren’t real words#‘law and zoro never really saw gear 5’ yeah. law saw his giant head in the roof and zoro was basically dead#they felt That tho#and finally#‘i thought you were taking a much needed rest break after weekly comics’#yeah well. i need a new brush bc my old one kills my wrist and there is a STEEP learning curve for me ://#it’ll get easier right. it’ll look better right. RIGHT?!
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She will (and he'll let her)
#zutara#atla#zuko#avatar the last airbender#katara#atla fanart#prince zuko#zutara au#atla art#zutara fanart#zutara art#zuko x katara#katara x zuko#atla zuko#katara art#katara fanart#katara of the southern water tribe#the western air temple#This was inspired by THAT Trigun Stampede scene (if you're a Vashwood fan you'll know which one)#The “I'll kill you” *heart eyes* dynamic is SO Western-Air-Temple-ZK coded it's insane#Also Zuko loves girls who can kick his ass and that's canon. Like. The fact that they can and WILL plummet him to the ground is a big yes#I just know it#And yeah my boy was pretty crestfallen during that scene (too sad and defeated for someone who didn't have *ahem* at least a crush on her)#(In my very much not humble opinion)#But some (hidden) part of him was like “kissherkissherkissher” and you cannot convince me otherwise#I think about his dorky hopeful smile when he saw her literally all the time#And then the kicked turtleduck face that screamed “no smooches? 🥺”#Like what's up with that Zuko?#Why would you keep silent because you know you deserve this treatment for her but that didn't stop you from wishing otherwise?#Just WHY
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a tribute to celebrate the finale of the manga that has meant so much to me these past few years
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#nanami kento#ryomen sukuna#toji fushiguro#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk 271#i would tag everyone but ik the most frequented tags in this fandom smh ghsdhfgdfjs#THSI KILLED ME#3 DAYS#IM DEAD DECEASED IN THE GROUND#i knew the minute i drafted the sketch that i would hate myself for it and yeah i was right#but honestly it was worth it it was worth every single hour#i got . lowkey highkey emotional wrapping this up bc like. what a RIDE it's been#ive grown so much since starting drawing fr this series i owe it a lot im so grateful to the things its taught me abt how i like to create#im so grateful fr the people its let me meet#ik it's not over-over and ill be around while the anime catches up but still something abt the manga ending#i'm sentimental u kno?#so i hope that i was able to convey those feelings#to jjk and to every1 who has engaged with my art for it: thank u <3
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Criminal Minds 1.19 'Machismo'
#ok 3 things. 1 why are his hands so massive. I mean genuinely God that is unnecessary. how do u expect people not to sin and then do that#2. why did he say 'what like you could do bettah' and like. there was ZERO joking inflection in his voice#he just randomly was like yeah i'll work in an accent here#3. the change from the lighthearted face to the :| is KILLING me#*mine#criminal minds#criminalmindsedit#cmedit#aaron hotchner#thomas gibson#tvedit#userstream#tvandfilm
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Thanks for the reassurance?
#dialogue like this is what convinces me that crows still do all the horrible shit but just appear friendly because you're 'one of them'#'yeah we kill traitors like pigs but hey we feel really sad doing it'#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#veilguard#da rook#de riva#rook de riva#neri de acutis#viago de riva#antivan crows#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#veilguard spoilers#dav spoilers
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Maybe it's the eternally distrustful loveless child in me but idk something about the way DC has been writing familial relationships in recent years rings so false to me. There's no room for the complex, nuanced, unnamed relationships Batman and Nightwing used to have, nothing like the warped mother-daughter-sister thing Barbara Gordon and Cass Cain had, nothing like Superboy's weird obsessive hero worship/bone-deep dread of his clone fathers or Max Mercury's weary undefined protectiveness of Bart or Wonder Woman's dogged loyalty to her little "sisters". Cause — for me, at least, I know I actively seek little moments of connection in stories; when I write or when I read it is to seek comfort. I think that's why DC has made this shift. Readers like me gravitated to those little warm moments, and DC noticed that we did without stopping to think about why.
But there's a point at which I notice diminishing returns of comfort from fluffy writing — it ceases to register as real. It's too good, too saccharine, too empty of any of the pain and frustration it takes to express genuine love for the other person. It's all hand-holding and no sweaty palms. It's so easy for someone to say they love you. It's so easy to see when it's all just words. And part of this is, yeah, bad writing; all that stuff about show not tell. They're trying to tell us these characters care about each other without giving us any real proof. but. idk. I need my love to be real. I need to feel the bones behind each embrace. I can't accept affection without struggling my way into it. Honestly I'd rather get a grim gritty Batman who forgets he HAS kids until they throw themselves into the line of fire than a milquetoast helicopter Batdad who tells his kids exactly what they mean to him without actively being in a state of bleeding out.
#idk don't listen to me i haven't read any comics closely since they killed alfred#but what i see in screenshots makes me. incredibly dissatisfied#maybe love is all about the striving!!!! maybe it's about the blood under your nails as you claw your way back to your beloved!!!!!#maybe it's hugging your dad and all you can think about is how stiff and unwieldy it is around the body armor and utility belts#y'know#and i DO enjoy wayne family adventures. it can be nice. but yeah i can tell that i would not endure it if that was all i had to read#dc#oli rambles
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YOU LIE AND I STAY, AGAIN AND AGAIN.
1. letters of sylvia plath | 2. i know im not the only one, sam smith | 3. cut, caitlyn siehl | 4. ask polly: help, im the loneliest person in the world!, heather havrilesky | 5. cool about it, boygenius | 6. driving east (2002), helen frankenthaler | 7. motion sickness, phoebe bridgers | 8. wishbone, richard siken | 9. bicho 87/9 (1987), gego | 10. gilded lily, cults
#what do you do when you’re not allowed to be angry?#I CANT BELIEVE I MISSED LINGER BY THE CRANBERRIES#warning: the homoerotic girlbestfriendship can and will kill you#yeah sure everything is fine I forgive you <- resentment is killing them from the inside out#im truly lesbianisms weakest soldier#save me venezuelan art…#<- about gego!!!#mine#on lying#on heartbreak#poetry#web weaving#web weave#phoebe bridgers#boygenius
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call out my name when you need me again
if you know who I am, why won’t you call my name?
#shaking u and telling u a soul w no king is an ideal reality song…#YES this is self indulgent and I would draw a whole lot more but I’m lazy!!! Somebody do it for me#p5r#akechi goro#ok… joker is implied#persona 5 protagonist#so… shuake is implied…#shuake#telling uuuuu it’s so ideal reality coded#”but if this is what you want why speak of right and wrong you still go in for the kill you speak of the devil like he’s not your friend”#R U SEEING IT#the joker trying to justify the ideal ending#trying to pretend#Yeah this if definitely not the meaning of the song but cmon. Cmon.#my art#doodle#doodles
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Took me three hours to find a fanfic where the main character has any other emotion outside of bone-crushing fear for the other characters to sympathize over
#spiteful musings#heavy on the spite this morning#this is about Detroit become human actually#and how Connor for some reason is an uwu baby instead of a killing machine#OUGH it makes me so annoyed#but you know what? this also extends to malevolent#what do you mean Arthur Lester is going to whine and pout and be kidnapped every seven seconds and not fight back#fanfic#fanfiction#ao3#malevolent#dbh#Detroit become human#TMA#the Magnus archives#avengers#marvel#yeah I’m tagging the worse offenders right now
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just some ivy league kids trying to figure out necromancy
#the overall plot is pretty cool i just hate the characters now. they're cute though hi#they need sooo much revamping. or maybe i just explode this universe and move on to the next we'll see#anyway yeah the fourth pic that's evelyn she's dead and she was super obsessed w the occult and she's very manipulative and bad#that's her twin sister hazel in pic 5 they hated each other. she did not murder her. but should she have been allowed to i mean who's to sa#also HIIII LIAM MY VERY BELOVED (he's the first one <33 my oldest oc <33)#he basically grew up with me. my friend once said he's like my imaginary friend now that's what i call him djskfljds#while now i'm more like let's try to make characters that look like real people not barbie dolls#i do appreciate 13 yr old me just saying yeah liam's just like a hot sexy supermodel with zero imperfections. he's 6 foot 7#the others are evelyn’s friends liam just transferred here though. but HE’S trying to do necromancy for his cousin ppl think he killed#ffkldjflkdfds#ts4#ts4 cas#the sims 4
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Why Zuko didn’t tell the Gaang about his scar
There’s been wide speculation for years about why Zuko didn’t tell the Gaang about how he got his scar in the series. The consensus is that they didn’t have time, which is strange because the answer is rather obvious.
If Katara found out, she’d go out of her way to kill Ozai herself, and her next field trip with Zuko would be to the Fire Nation castle on a full moon to crush Ozai’s heart in his chest with her bloodbending.
But that would completely negate the need for Aang to restore balance and learn energy bending in the finale to avoid killing Ozai.
#Katara: we have to defeat the Fire lord. he’s the worst#Zuko: yeah. when he burned me-#Katara: I’m sorry. he did what?#the speed in which Katara would yip yip to caldera would be expeditious#Katara is the head of the team kill Ozai fan club.#I was personally team kill that bitch Ozai#also it would probably lead to Zutara#so the creators wouldn’t let that happen#zuko#katara#avatar the last airbender
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This is how Shido's bossfight went down, trust me
#saw this on twt and had to make it them#there's a very specific trope i enjoy in fics#where post-canon shuake visit shido in prison for whatever reason and have the most awkward family reunion ever#“yeah the guy you told me to kill and put you in prison is now my husband. anyway i still hate you. whats up”#i just think joker would have the funniest your-son-calls-me-daddy-too energy#shuake#persona 5#persona 5 royal#p5r#p5#my post#p5r memes#akira kurusu#goro akechi#shido masayoshi#masayoshi shido#p5r akira#p5r akechi#p5r shido
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The transgender contrast of loving your parents but also for Trust Reasons longing for an additional external authority figure you can count on more unconditionally to support or protect you that totally doesn’t risk becoming a kink
#my stuff#haha yeah i’m so loyal and trusting and will serve you unto death#this in no way is derived from the agony of being misgendered by my parents all my life#which is ongoing btw bc ‘there’s nobody we know that i trust to talk about your transition with’#LIKE HM MAYBE YOU SHOULD THINK ABT WHY THAT IS#MAYBE ITS BC THOSE PPL ARE IGNORANT CUNTS THEN#anyway haha what if you were my superior officer and i killed for you like a dog#what if you were my god and i followed your compulsion to kill and eat until you were satisfied#what if you kept me to yourself and looked after me in private as i do you in public#what if my loyalty was rewarded#what if i had no obligation but duty to you#what if you made it all ok
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CONCEPT DOODLES for an AU I dabbled in with a few friends after the winter king episode but kinda forgot about after the Fionna and Cake finale... I decided to revisit it and explore a little more after coming to terms with everything LOL... So, it's another "Winter King doesn't die immediately after his crown gets nuked" AU, but THIS TIME he's just dying really slowly (like Simon in the Betty episode) and ALSO joins Fionna, Cake, and Simon on their search for magic crowns. There's no logic behind this tbh, we just wanted to put him through The Horrors. And make them all friends. But mostly The Horrors. :) (he only gets to live as a treat, because I think he's funny).
Bonus (old screenshot), because this is still funny to me:
#adventure time#atimers#fionna and cake#winter king#simon petrikov#fionna campbell#cake the cat#shared custody au#winter stowaway au#fan art#digital art#flat color#2023#this is my blog so whatevers man... ima just post what I want now... and what I want rn is silly simon AUs LOL...#so expect more of me releasing my stash tomorrow#this AU makes the story like 500x more messy but it's fine it's funny that's the point don't think too hard about it#this is their fault for killing him now I gotta make up scenarios where he is alive#his design is inspired by some doodles my friend crayon did#ALSO I wanted to keep some of his features different from default simon so they're easier to tell apart...#like YEAH they're the same character... but also I just think it'd be fun... if they had subtle differences... because alternate universes#ALSO HE'S PALE BECAUSE HE'S DYING. JUST MAKING THAT DISCLAIMER... HIS SKIN TONE IS KINDA CLOSE TO DYING SIMON IN THE BETTY EP#BUT IN NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCES HE'D BE CLOSER TO SIMON'S COLORS
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