#but yeah. if you're fine knowing this blog is pro endo

[schizospec-culture-is]

not culture, how come the most recent posts are tagged with endo safe when the others aren't ?

^ genuinely asking not tryna start discourse

We're pro endo (though while we are a system, we're not endogenic), and want others to know that this isn't a space that will discriminate, because a lot of blogs even for unrelated disorders tell endos to DNI. Which, yes, we think while people are entitled to their boundaries, it's unfair when things not remotely related to endogenic systems block them out.

To clarify, though, we don't go through notes and block people because of their syscourse stance, this blog has no DNI. We don't go through the notes blocking people at all unless they're harrassing others and such. If you're schizospec, you're welcome here, we don't go digging for things we personally disagree with.

The pro endo tag is simply to let people know, both for the sake of their own DNIs if they wish, and for the sake of endogenic plurals who happen to be schizospec feeling safe here. As long as syscourse isn't started in the notes, we're not going to block anyone from any side or stop them from interacting. At the end of the day, this blog is for schizospecs, so as long as there's no harrassment we don't care who you are--we literally would never have the time to go through and block people who interact even if we wanted to.

[circular-bircular]

hshdgdbd thank you sorry i am Angered and need to. ramble

anyways,,, i hate hate HATE how certain anti endos, especially recently, lump in pro-endos w/ endogenic systems. i saw a cool blog, a cdd help blog right? and i would love resources! i love help! but wouldn't you know it, i look at the dni and it says ENDOS & PRO ENDOS DNI. while this would be fine, if not frustrating, it was the way they worded it... “if you're neutral or just don't want to get involved with syscourse it's okay, as long as you're traumagenic, but endos and supporters dni.” ok first of all "supporters" ?? i do not recall paying the endogenic sysems. but also im still traumagenic??? im still a cdd system??? why are you saying that like these “endo supporters” aren't traumagenic ??? what. just because i dont give 1 (one) shit what endogenic systems do, as long as they don't claim CDDs aren't traumagenic, I'M the bad guy???? i can't get fucking resources??? i'm not traumagenic anymore??? is my childhood trauma gone. i made the decision to not care what people do and to touch grass and suddenly my chronic childhood trauma got deleted is that it. do you realize what you're doing??? “oh but it's ABLEIST but but endos have HURT me” but im not an endogenic system. but i just want resources. but i just want to learn more about my disorder. but im a cdd system just like you. and YEAH. maybe it's entitled of me. to think people's DNIs are stupid. but you're supposedly giving fucking trauma resources, i think anyone should be able to use that shit irregardless, and i think it's fucking INANE to bar anyone from using those. i know this rant lacks nuance (i.e. endogenic systems w/ trauma, multigenic did systems, etc) and i'm sorry but it's hard to think right now i am. Fuming™ at people's idiocracy. Jesus H. Christ.

Ooooough

While I can understand running anti-endo blogs that ask supporters not to interact (hello, I run one), I don’t get withholding *actual resources*. Like. There’s a difference between a userbox blog and sources.

My advice is to break that DNI quietly. I mean. If it’s something like a journal template for alter communication, what the fuck are they going to do, break into your house and confiscate your notebook?

Also it’s a stupid point anyways, because what you described *is* a neutral standpoint. “Who the fuck cares I just want to have my disorder in peace” was why syscourse unaligned got coined in the first place. I should know, since I helped coin it.

Do what you want forever anon. Good luck with everything

[ribbontiedsys]

✨okay fine. quick diy intro post go.✨

hi i'm nomu kid. i'm NOT the host but everyone else left me to make this blog so yeah. (edit the host approves!)

(also nomu made this part at 11 pm so cut em some slack)

host's name: sonnet

body age: 13-15 sys pronouns: he/they has: osdd-1b, adhd, potential autism? traumagenic est ask karl or sans or casp

dms: hell yeah asks: hell yeah

relationship status: fuck that

system of over 50+ :3 (we'll make intros for us all as we start posting)

A DNI list / Stance on endos under the cut

Before we're asked what kind of -genic we are, we should mention where we lie on the endogenic discourse. We are a fully traumagenic system. We know endogenic systems are looked down upon by a fair few people. But here's the catcher for us:

We don't care. We aren't pro or anti endo. In the end, we're all living beings and we're not gonna filter anyone out due to the views that people have on system origins. Don't like endos? Pop off ig. You're an endo? Good on you. Tl;dr, WE DONT GIVE A SHIT.

DNI:

Proship and the adjacent + their supporters

Syscourse blogs

Anti-therian/otherkin

Anti-furry

Homophobic

Transphobic

Racist

Ableist

r/SystemsCringe

And remember. Even if you DON'T fit in any of this, we have a block button for a reason and we'll gladly use it. :3

[anti-endo-help]

Hey, um, wanted to ask/vent?

[long ask, sorry]

Sorry for the awkwardness, btw. We're very anxious, so it's a lot of rambling.

We're pretty sure we're a system based on months of research and stuff. Not exactly out to anyone at all, and even sending an ask on anon feels like a lot. The thing is: we bodily have a brain injury which causes repetitive amnesia every day. It's to the point where we can't tell if we're forgetting something bc of that or if it's a part of being a system. We have a frontstuck main and there's always a few in co-con so things get pretty blurry 90% of the time. For reference, P-DID describes us pretty well, if that helps.

It just feels like we're faking or it's something else or it's not real. There's a lot of denial, admittedly, and we're pretty sure we've got a denial holder that's always up in co-con. Um...yeah, it's a lot. It's just a lot.

We've had dissociation and maladaptive daydreaming problems probably since early childhood and some identity problems too. We know that systems can present covertly sometimes, even to those in the system. We just kinda freak out over questioning being plural bc of everything. We've had panic attacks over it, it gets so bad. It's so confusing and scary. It doesn't help that there's probably a decent amount of us in dormancy and there's these long silent periods. Being frontstuck really sucks during those bc it feels we're actually a singlelet and that just doesn't feel right to us but we're so scared that we're just faking stuff.

We've got a friend system who's so wonderful and have been helping us learn and research things about DID, OSDD, etc. and we really wanna tell him we're a system but we don't wanna be wrong. We don't wanna risk screwing up that friendship bc he's our closest friend, y'know?

Sorry, this is a lot of stuff. It's okay if you discard this one, it's pretty long, lol. Um. Yeah.

Idk what else to say, lmao. Don't know if we'll return here but we appreciate your blog lots! It gets messy trying to listen to genuine experiences and avoid discourse and misinformation. Research is helpful, but sometimes we don't know if it's true or not bc of all the syscourse going on. We even made a system blog once to have a safe place online but we were NOT ready for it and had to delete it bc it caused a panic attack.

Uh, anyway: sorry for laying this on you. Usually don't do this but it felt like this would be only the chance to vent to someone.

Thank you for listening and stuff, even if this doesn't get answered or anything. It's refreshing to see a safe place to listen to systems and avoid misinformation <3

{ 👁️🪻🪽 }

hey there!! i'm so sorry you're experiencing this. it's so hard when you first discover you're a system. there's a lot of denial, fear, and other things that you're going to go through, but guess what?

YOUR EXPERIENCE AS A SYSTEM IS COMPLETELY VALID AND REAL!!! :D

that's right!! no matter how much denial you go through, your experience is valid, real, and okay!! and hell, it's okay to make mistakes!! even if you were wrong about what's going on with you, it's alright to be wrong, that's fine. overall, you're going to be okay!! sure, things are rough right now, but you'll be alright, I promise. :))

BIG HUGS!!!

[ID: STOP! this blog is a strictly anti-endo space! pro-endos and endo neutrals, shoo! shoo shoo!]

[queerautism]

Hey anti-endos... if you like the entire rest of rouke's blog and its radical inclusivity and dislike of gatekeeping but you're against the fact that it's pro-endo, perhaps examine why this is the ONE thing that you think gatekeeping is fine for lmao

Yeah absolutely... Like just think abt it please. Do you actually know any endogenic systems? Are you just going by the idea of them anti endo people have created in your mind? Are you blaming them for things that are actually caused by the structural ableism of the psychiatric system?