#but yeah i am glad that it was the issue lmfao

[causeimcrayzeebee]

have you seen the kamimura lore drop and what are your thoughts?

ohbmy god this could’ve been so embarrassing cause i hadn’t seen it yet and was so confused as to what you meant so I was planning on just yapping about kamimura in general but then I saw it LMAO UM I WAS SO HAPPY CAUSE KAMIMURA CONTENT!!!!! KAMIMURA LORE!!! AND THEN SO FUCKING INCREDIBLY SAD FROM IT LIKE....THAT'S GORE... THAT'S GORE OF MY COMFORT CHARACTER.... um yeah I have work for law to do but I got too into reading the lore drop so lets talk about it! (I will get to my work after trust) spoiler warning for chapters 1-3 and tetro typical trigger warnings!!! take care of yourself!!

I am not going to cover the ableism portion or too much of the diagnosis/hospital parts because I am not personally disabled and would like to let other disabled people talk about it, so i'll leave the rest of the conversation to others in the community!

also i took notes while reading it to organize my thoughts like usual (im so bad at putting words together well). some of these are kinda funny so here are some highlights lmfao

alright, now lets actually be serious.

firstly, I'm so glad that kamimura at least had a good childhood. I think it really shows in the way he interacts with the tetro pink cast that he was a sociable and happy kid! my mom actually teaches preschool so shes taught me a lot about early childhood psychology (shout out to my mother guys!!!!!). one of the biggest takeaways I've had from her is that the first five years of one's life are the most important in development! that's what Montessori programs keep in mind and throughout preschool and early kinder, they take time to establish learning through play; a lot of people have the misconception that letting kids play at school is just letting them mess around, but it's crucial in building their skills! kids learn to socialize with others and to problem solve; that foundation is very important for everything else moving forward in life! I could rant about how preschools need to utilize this more, esp in the American education system, but I digress. my main point goes to something I (and a couple other people I'm not original in this LMAO) have mentioned before about how it makes more sense out of hasegawa and kamimura, that they'd kill off kamimura because he had other people. kamimura, despite having further and further cut himself off from the world right till the end (until the kg at least), still managed to make meaningful connections, like tamba and hayashi, even if they weren't like ideal. the way he approaches tamba is very caring in a way that can seem like it's not, yk? likely it stems from his trust issues, it's scary to put your genuine real feelings out there, so hiding them with some snide remarks is easier. luckily, tamba has a similar approach so hey. shout out tamba n kamimura you will always be special to me.

anyways, its both so amazing and so heartbreaking that his parents were so loving and supportive, but died too soon. I do wonder about the role of attachment in this case; like specifically in babies/toddlers, they get attached to their parents usually because that's the first person they see, the first to take care of them. kamimura was able to get that love and support from his parents, even when it got so much harder and the days in the hospitals got longer. so having it all be taken away when you're NINE? that's obviously gonna destroy you, and that leads to his trust issues and isolation. he was able to thrive still as a young child because he had his parents to support him! so when that's all gone, how else are you supposed to cope?

yeah fuck you family friend, that was brutal. I cant even imagine coming home from school to find your parents absolutely desecrated. the day of his parents death beginning the routine of staying locked in his room.... oh my god like what if I cried (I did). that probably changed the way he thought about his room; his room was an escape from the horrors of the outside world. if he just stayed in the room, he wouldn't have to experience the fucked up world. it became a habit. EUGAHHD I'm in shambles.

after the murder of his parents, it's understandable that it shook kamimura and his aunt to their core. that was a violent murder (by a man who was literally just rejected romantically.... its so fucking upsetting that that is a common crime). his aunt wasn't even ready to have kids so having the responsibility of taking in kamimura must've been a lot. In regards to homesick, despite the very clear distance in their relationship, kamimura really seems to appreciate her being there, even if it was very distanced; she was still an important part of his grieving process and his whole life honestly.

oh boy here we go. isao when I catch you istg..... sorry that's an exaggeration, likely this was from a societal disgust, yk just homophobia from the world, so I cant really blame this kid too much.... but we still have beef. god, this was one of those actually crushing crushes, hm. it's so fucked up; someone who was starting to get kamimura a bit out of the dark space that was his life, giving him something to enjoy and be happy about! and all of that was just thrown away because kamimura was vulnerable and shared his feelings. not having your feelings returned can already be devastating, but this? the spread of rumors, the bullying, the losing his one friend? it's like the world wants to torture him omfg. here the trust issues become worse; those who loved him leave, those who he loved leave. everyone just leaves, so what's the point?

this explains his relationship with hasegawa, and the issue after trial 1. it had to have felt way too familiar; telling someone he was fond of vulnerable information, only for it to be told to a bunch of people he never wanted in his fucking business. however, I think the reason why they made up rather quickly in clean up crew (which btw I watched w my friend earlier today bc I got them into tetro........ god I love that episode) is hasegawa's response. hasegawa, unlike isao, is remorseful, he CARES. hasegawa even shares something personal to him, about his own loss.

I think this also changes the scene of hasegawa coming out a bit. before, he was rejected by isao because he was a homophobic douchebag. but in the student spotlight, hasegawa casually says he's not into girls. while its funny thinking that kamimura was having some gay panic then lmao, I think actually it was probably processing that in a confused comfort, not exactly because his feelings could be reciprocated, but for this; hasegawa was so comfortable with coming out as gay, so comfortable with the concept, unlike isao. if kamimura confessed his feelings to hasegawa, and were (somehow) not reciprocated, he likely still wouldn't have ran away. of course, with kamimura's trust issues, he probably wasn't confident in that assumption, but hasegawa is not the kind of person to drop someone because they confessed to them. he would've kept the person that had become so important to him. and because of that maybe, just maybe, kamimura would've said what he really wanted to say if the interview had happened before woodshop.

once he's on his own and moves out, he no longer has someone reminding him to do things, so with no motivation to simply live, he ends up staying locked in his house like we've seen before. what's the point in anything? when that kind of spiral hits you, and you don't have other people present in your life to keep doing, how would you ever stay motivated?? I know it was a really informal post, so I might be going insane trying to add this to the analysis, but the repetition of 'but life goes on' I think really solidifies the importance of a support system. when things are difficult, the world never just stops, it keeps going despite your struggle. but having people who care about you around you can help make each day easier, they can help 'slow down time' if you will. kamimura has gone through an amount of stress no one should have to face, but people around him could have made it easier on him by being there. that's the tragedy of tetro.

it's especially tragic that at the very end, right before the kg, he was taking his own life.

(plot wise, I need to know what y'all theorists think of this bc I have ideas but i need to finish the staffside logs before I can even actually consider my thoughts lmfao.)

sorry to be captain obvious on a majority of this post lol but gosh wow. I really loved that we got this, it was so much information I am kinda stoked despite basically all of it being depressing as hell. tetro has really become an inspiration for me and writing, I am constantly so impressed by von's writing and it's given me perspective on how to approach writing as a whole. i feel as though this gave me so much perspective on kamimura himself as a character. some of this just confirmed my ideas already, but it strikes me as something so human just learning all of this. when I, or anyone really, first meet people, I only know surface level things, yk cause I don't know them. but then I start talking to them, and I learn about different things that have happened to them, how they feel about certain issues or what they're doing on a day to day basis. you can never know everything of course, but when you discover new parts of someone, it makes them more complex and they don't fit the idea you had of them before because people are complex!! and that's the beauty of writing, capturing humanity! the impact of each character, esp kamimura, has been so beautifully done, I'm just constantly moved as the story progresses.

thank y'all sm for reading my excuse to talk about kamimura, this was A LOT of blabbing I'm so so sorry but I hope you enjoyed haha! :)

[bandzboy]

okay abt the scratch disk situation i deleted some files and it worked! it wasn’t an overall clean of files but i feel like once i delete more stuff it will be better

[qoldenskies]

I think your canary continuity works so brilliantly because at his core Donnie has chronic "I'm better than everyone else but also there is something so so wrong with me" disease--for lack of a better term because I'm also autistic and I see so much of myself in him, there's a part of him that's like. Yeah, autism isn't the ONLY part of my personality and it's not like it's really a thing to HATE about myself and there are parts of it that I get STOKED about, but it's REALLY fucking inconvenient sometimes and what if I'm genuinely nothing beyond that and what if I'm just a huge burden to everyone around me by FORCING them to change their ways of doing things for me.

And something that would prey on that niggling feeling that he has deep down, the constant fear of not being good enough, the kind of looking over your shoulder and wondering when the big thing that makes people finally get SICK of you is going to happen--I relate to that so much as an autistic person, so holy hell, canary continuity hit hard AND extremely close to home for me.

Love when Donnie whump uses autistic experiences to make it more authentic [gnaws on drywall] I'm so normal about it you guys [rips out my own hair] I'm normal I'm normal

thank you!!! <333

to my knowledge i personally am not autistic, but i have adhd that disabled me pretty severely due to being comorbid with some other issues + i was not treated until i had to drop out of school due to having panic attacks every time i walked into the building (they were legit uncontrollable it was so nasty), so i was definitely trying to really capture that neurodivergent experience, wondering when the other shoe is going to drop, feeling like it's always a matter of time before they get fed up, wondering when they're going to get tired of telling you you're not a burden.... yeagh

^^^ extremely relatable to me as someone he grew up with high emotional needs and overcorrected and closed myself off LMFAO

seeing people say CC hit so close to home/was so effective with them and their experiences is super important to me, and it makes me so glad i wrote it. like i wasnt ever expecting to hit this close emotionally with other people, but it's been kind of amazing :) i hope you can find my work cathartic!!

[parabiota]

just saw your posts about kaijuno and it’s so interesting because i was following her for YEARS and the monthly “i have an eviction hearing” posts immediately raised my alarm bells and made me unfollow. i’m glad you chose to make everyone else aware that she’s probably scamming.

her current favorite is “my blood sugar is [very low number]” like how are you checking that exactly… why would someone be checking that regularly enough times share it on tumblr while asking for money??? as far as i am aware she hasn’t said anything about diabetes

just weird energy all around.

Yeah I don’t know enough about diabetes to talk about her blood sugar stuff but it seems rly fishy. The diabetics I know irl have insulin pumps that I think takes care of that stuff for them?

Welcome to my hater safe space tho Lmfao. It’s not in the long post but she recently got exposed for stealing another active tumblr users poem and then getting really mad + issuing DMCA takedowns against other people who reposted the poem (even tho she stole it in the first place)

[theodoraflowerday]

young royals s3e3 episode reaction

episode 3 is where everything always turns to shit so I'm super not looking forward to this lmfao

ohoho the queen of sweden is having a nervous breakdown. so relatable of her.

I'm lowkey also having a breakdown over wille immediately going into prince mode just bc his mom isn't doing well.

"why do you think I didn't tell you anything? because you wouldn't be able to handle it" NNNNNOOOOOOOO

oh my god that one hit WAY too hard. I can't deal with the mommy issues today.

ugh deeply agreeing with wille. simon needs to lock his social media and throw his phone away. he's starting to stress me the fuck out.

"both for me and the people around me" oh that's... quite the sentence. I know simon just got sucker punched by the fact that it's always gonna be like this

"all I want is to be with you" well you can't!

bro I hate teenagers so fuckin much lmfao

NOT BORIS WANTING TO PSYCHOANALYZE AUGUST

that was psychic warfare from wille idc

"he's decided that I'm evil" lmao you are

"I don't see the point in being nice if he's never gonna forgive me" "well, sometimes being nice to others can make you feel very good" JDKFJDLFJDKFJDKFDJKDOGIDL BORIS LOVE OF MY LIFE

THAT IS SO SHADYYYYYY LMFAO

I genuinely cannot stand vincent. if there's anyone in that school who's legit evil it's gotta be vincent.

oh. yeah. I'm feeling murderous.

fuck you country of sweden you know what you did.

FREDRIKA TYING UP HER HAIR TOO WHEN THE HOUSEMASTER CALLS FELICE OUT OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOD

god. teenage girls make the world go round.

NOT WITH THE SCHOOL INSPECTORS PRESEEEEENTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

NOOOOO SKRKSJRLSKFLSKFLSKDLSKDLD

YOU TWO KEEP REHEARSING

NOT PLAYING A SINGLE KEY AND HUMMING SIFKDLFKSLFKSLFKSLFKDLFKDLFF

oh my god my baby boys

it's the fact that them being so public means that not one (1) person in that room believed they were "rehearsing" jdkfjdlfjdlfjdl

the crown prince alone in a soundproof room with his boyfriend? sure.

god that was HILARIOUS

"I just wish I could get a single moment with you without getting interrupted" [get interrupted]

cinema

of course vincent is going to LA. my bro is going to be an oscar winner in no time, given all the dramatics.

oh

oh sweet jesus

simon, this is NOT the time or place to die on the labor movement hill

oh god

man being a teenager was so exhausting I'm so glad I don't have to do anything like that again

when they eat the rich I hope vincent is first in the grill

I hope felice singlehandedly closed the school lmao

I don't wanna like the whole sara and micke thing I really don't but UGH it's so sweet.

oh

OH

oh he's not is he

IS HE FUCKING

BROOOOOOOOOOO THERE'S NO FUCKING WAY

"he seems nice" oh august you are so clueless

this isn't happening skfkdkgkdkflf

oh my god what is it with royal boys and going "you're the only one I can talk to" y'all can afford a therapist can't you

NOT THE BAKING OHHHHH MY BABIES

"you may have inherited my diagnoses, sara, but you're not me" oh fuck

bro I am like. super into sara and micke hashing shit out, neurodivergently

I can't take wille seriously in the chorus. I cannot. he's so funny

oh god sara is coming back

oh fuck me up I love it when they're all sun kissed and beautiful and have nice lil conversations in front of everyone bc they're boyfriends publicly ohohoho

oh

oh my god

oh is that gonna be the hallway scene

not august waving at sara??? bro get up????

omg the looks from stella and fredrika were SCATHING

not them skipping and swinging their hands together you guys I'm losing my whole damn mind it's getting bad it's getting so bad

WHOOOOOOOREEEEESSSSSSS

OOHHH MY GOD

holy fuck that was....... quite the scene huh

um

let me rewind just now for a lil bit

for science

my brothers in christ you are sluts.

something abt them getting to have slutty slutty sex and finishing off with an I love you heals something in me that has been broken since 2021 ngl

like look at them! they're my boys!!! they're in love and they get to have somewhat public (bc like, a hallway? really?) sex bc they're together and everyone knows!!! they love each other and they can express that in a physical form!!!!! my little strumpets!!!!!!!

ah. fucking figures, huh

of course, thanks micke

oh they're in the literal and metaphorical afterglow!!!!! I love this for them

oh that's not a great train of thought to have after sex now is it

"you can trust me" wille, my love my darling, I love you, truly, from the bottom of my heart, but can he? can he really?

oh that's an actually genius move to show both sides of the coin

I do think simon probably should not be there. son's gonna get too much attention

oh I just remembered the episode description a hahahahahahahaahahahahahaha ha oh I don't want to watch

that was precious but I swear to god simon think with your brain for once aaaaaaaaaa FUCK

great now she just posted his location. and he also fully reposted it didn't he

is he genuinely that dumb like at this point even if you're not famous by proxy you still should know not to post your live location?????? Simon. please.

oh right I forgot the monarchy can't be seen involved with that...... I was more worried abt his safety ldjfldjfldkf

oh

oh no

I was right to worry about his safety

FUUUUUUCK

ugh

[uglyduckling339]

KY'S LIFE IS STRANGE DOUBLE EXPOSURE NONSENSE LIVEBLOG: The Tutorial

(spoilers under cut) (do not take this seriously lmfao this is me basically talking to myself) (this will make ZERO sense without playing the game or watching it btw)

um.. where do i start

firstly that fucking qr code is rhe genuine bane of my existance. i spent 7 minutes tryna get it to work for basically nothing.

also !! the settings menu was hella fucking confusing and i got lost tryna change the captions (skill issue on my part ngl)

anyways so intro to the game: music was ass and i was confused why the door was being shook so gently until Max Fucking Caulfield wandered in😭 10/10 shock value worked tho cuz i didnt think that she was breaking into a broken room until her face appeared on screen

Safi is very cutesy in both a physical manner and a personality manner but her jokes are so hit or miss lmao

Max caulfield stealing that toy and joking abt stealing stuff??? talk abt character growth

i fucking HATE THE NEW CAMERA ARGGGGGGGG i keep fucking up my pics

Hot take i think safi and max are equally sexy in this new game GOD DAMNN

nvm maybe not equal. i'd let safi hit so fast tbh ("boss"??)

ALSO !! HER REWIND GETTING REMOVED POST-STORM IS CANON !!!! *

i've been saying this since the trailers but max's voice sounds so fucking weird in this (and yeah ik its not THAT diff from the og voice, but something abt it is irking me and idk what) (no hate to hannah telle)

nobody:

this game: fun fact !! safi's mom is the principal of the school! her mom! safi's mother! mom! mother! safi's ! principal !

god shut the fuck up i get it bro

FLASHBACK SCENEE

Ik its not just me who thinks this but istg they musta refilmed these scenes cuz chloe and max both sound hella odd (maybe i am trippin tho)

CHLOE! HAUNTING! THE! NARRATIVE!

smooth cut between chloe and safi's voice 10/10

i know the fandom is gonna be in fucking shambles over those choices so i'm holding my opinions off until i form a bigger analysis on it

I don't hate Amanda but i do hate rhat the game is pushing her on us so hard **

Also reminder to check yalls texts!! theres no journal but half of the shit i've seen complanted abt is referenced in the texts/posts

Chloe and Max having issues long before rhe breakup is so nice to see tbh. i'm glad it wasn't just a one comment plot choice.

also the issues primarily stemming from Max's trauma and her need to run is so good i can't wait to yap abt it

god off topic i am fucking DREADING the fandom. im so worried abt us tbh

okay back to the game, I think Amanda is really nice but I'm not gonna romance her day one cuz idk how to feel abt her yet

okay theory time! i think if chloe was actually IN the game, she'd be with a band in the Turtle bar. seen in the pink twitter, chloe "performs". i think she'd totes pull up at perform at the bar (once again im not saying if i think its very likely or nah but its a cool idea at least)

ALSO VICTORIA CHASE IS ALIVE :DDD AND BESTIES WITH CHLOE???

i'm only using pink twitter to watch Chloe and Vic ngl idgaf abt nun u other hoes

did u all a HUGE favor and tested rhe other option w rhe bottle cap.

on that note do the candy not the bag

shit like ts makes me miss rewind :(

animal symbolism my beloved

i think thats all? OH WAIT okay so i actually love safi. she's so weird and cringe but in a subsitute teacher way. it's a vibe and i would romance her w Max if i was given a choice (im gonna get hate mail again for rhat comment arent i 💀😭)

so far i really don't hate rhe game. it's glitchy in ways rhat for 80$ it shouldn't be but so far i've only had one actual issue so i'm not too pressed abt it. (for me, Safi keeps jumping between visible and invisible during cut scenes.)

I think the in game music is fire, but the actual "songs" aren't allthat good. tbh tho thats a personal opinion lmfao

[fappellmoan]

great glad i could be part of the problem for once. let’s wrap it up gang. in all reality i refuse to do a full rant and waste my time on such a stupid fucking issue but like i am tired. is anyone else tired. i and the people you’re pretty directly talking to (online lesbians, unless i’m really misunderstanding the target audience here, but regardless now i am just gonna rant abt the current online culture lmfao) never said u should be ashamed. i’m sure there are assholes u run into that try to gatekeep pride (maybe? lmfao but seems less and less likely given the majority of the community is bi) but can we talk abt how online bisexuals have created this idea that gay people (and again it’s usually lesbians that bear the brunt of these accusations) are like oppressing them when they engage with their hetero attraction (don’t start with me. i am not saying what some people are dying to say i am and it’s a stupid pedantic argument) when that simply isn’t the case. yeah your dyke friends might be honest with you if your boyfriend is acting like an asshole but that doesn’t mean we think your attraction to men is like aw no invalid yucky gross. and if a young lesbian is saying that stuff like i’m sorry but it’s probably on account of she’s like 15 and trying to work past years of comphet and that’s not about you. and more often than not. as in roughly 100% of the time. it’s bi girls that have gone Ohhhh ew ugh sorry i wish i was just attracted to women women r so hot omg i want them to step on me etc. and i’m just like. Girl ok… now keep swiping on ur entirely guy filled tinder like whatever… and i swear it’s just the presence of a lesbian that brings that on like i can swear i try to be a good sport when y’all r going on about dating men im not incapable of like doing that. now on here yeah im a hater bitch bc it’s my little safe space and i don’t feel like talking about men most of the time. but genuinely. GENUINELY. i am shaking you by the fucking shoulders rn. do you think this is the most important issue re gender that we’re facing rn? i don’t think we’ll ever move forward with progressing trans rights and just like feminism 101 womens rights if you people insist we constantly talk about your feelings about your attraction. go to therapy and get a fucking grip

[toxycodone]

My favorite Weezer album (also objectively the worst, DO NOT FUCKING LISTEN TO IT PLEASE /srs I will bite you with malicious intent) is the Pinkerton Album, it's misogynistic and pathetic and fetishistic, rivers cuomo made the rawest sounding incel music ever. The whole album is just rivers screaming and pouting about how horrible his life is because women don't love him, my favorite song by the foxing is also rory if that makes it any worse for you LMFAO

my top 3 Pinkerton songs are "I Just Threw Out The Love Of My Dreams", "Butterfly - Alternate Take", and a tie between "El Scorcho" and "Pink Triangle" because pink triangle is so funny to me, rivers is complaining about the girl he liked being a lesbian, get cucked loser. If u decide to listen to the album, only listen to IJTOTLOMD (acronym for the first song I mentioned, I'm not writing that shit out) and Pink Triangle, they are the least egregious out of the entire album, and IJTOTLOMD doesnt even have rivers singing ITS THE BEST SONG WITHOUT THE ACTUAL LEAD SINGER in it this shows you how bad Weezer is, I'm old Weezer's biggest fan and number one hater I will always make fun of weezer

ALSO OMG THANK U ?? u got me smiling and shit. lol I don't want to get into it but my last partner (online dating) pressured me into being xir dominant and guilt tripped me into doing sexual things for xem ... it just was a bad experience overall. And then bro had the gall to break up with me on my birthday after we were together for over a year and showed me xir new boyfriend the day after like...It was fucked. But I'm better now!! And Im not using the word loser in a demeaning way for myself, I'm like, Hmmm... I have that pathetic sopping wet dog rizz yk? Pathetic Loser ™ is my base state of being, my younger siblings bully me about it but its all in good fun I love them lol. (One of them admitted that I was actually cool so heeheehee)

But thank you I feel special, you have a grown man doing this -> ☺️👉🏼👈🏼 and kicking his feet and shit. I'll give you a little kiss on the cheek as a token of my thanks. Mwah 💋

- the same anon who is still scared of admitting who he is lol

okay you know those guys that like. Seethe because terrible men give bad bitches trust issues??? That’s me rn.

anon you have no fucking idea how mad this makes me 😭 like?? Be so so so fucking fr. YALL HAVE TO STOP FUMBLING BADDIES. GIVE THEM TO PEOPLE WHO DESERVE THEM (ME!!! I WILL CHERISH THEM!!!)

okay as someone who also got burned by online dating (long ass story. which I won’t tell unless asked). I’m genuinely so sorry that happened to you. People online can be such a fucking hit or miss (usually a miss). But your ex’s behavior makes me think your ex is jealous LOOOOL. No one flexes anything if they’re truly happy and content—trust.

I’m still doing this to your ex tho bc I’m petty.

AND YESSS YOU GET IT. Like. When I say loser I don’t mean that in a bad way. Like, more in a colloquial sense. Because really I like nerdy guys bc they’re people who are open and proud of their interests even tho they may seem weird. And they’re just honest about who they are and their abilities. It’s actually really brave. And I love that about them. So. Yeah.

ty for the cheek kiss tho hehe I am glad I was able to make u feel good.

[autobot-ratchet]

Lost Light 19-21

Lost Light 19

omg I forgot that Swerve and Misfire do a dual recap at the beginning of this issue lmAO truly a match made in heaven. So to speak lmfAO

Brainstorm trying to get through to sparkeater-Perceptor...

and now the whole gang's here, thanks for the infodump fellas lmAO

hell yeah, good on Rodimus for not letting Getaway bait him into flying off the handle

“I don't care about Getaway. I care about you.” that's fucken RIIIIIIIIGHT!!!!!!!! He's RIGHT and he should SAY IT

honestly Anode is so valid to be terrified of scraplets, my house is unfortunately dealing with a flea outbreak and it's fucking awful lmAO and scraplets are basically if fleas could eat your flesh so yeah, valid, fuck that noise

cannot wait for Cyclonus and Roddy to kill all three of these fools

Lost Light 20

gdjfdk Nickel saying “fuck the organics” and mashing go on the experimental medicine button

Rodimus really said “Even if Cyberutopia had been real, you'll always be cringe” to Getaway and he's right

I still love that the scraplets from the holiday special are not only relevant once again but also they remember and love Whirl

it's also still unbelievably funny how quick Cyclonus kills Star Saber. “I want this to last,” he says, fucking LOL get bisected idiot

I will always be grateful that Rodimus got to call Getaway a son of a bitch, LOVE that Roddy got to bypass the censors just this once, he deserves it

“I used to think I was special! But I'm not, am I? I'm not anything, I'm just... I'm just an M.T.O. with ideas above his station.” worlds smallest violin.mp3

“He really thought we were about to kill him.” “Weren't you?” weren't YOU??? both of y'all got beef and want his ass dead, what's this “you” business this is a "we" situation lmAO

there's my boy, there's my boy with his proper colors, doing the right thing, not letting Getaway be right about him, I'm still so fuckign proud :') that's my BOY

“I'm not like him.” THAT'S FUCKING RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT HRAGHFDGHSH HOOTS AND HOLLERS AND GENERALLY MAKES A SPECTACLE OF MYSELF

so Cyclonus knows what tumblr is but he doesn't know what fan fiction is, noted lmAO he went on tumblr one time, saw a single shitpost, and decided fuck this whole website and you know what he's right

get skeletonized, idiot. Like genuinely though, after all the people he fed to these exact scraplets, getting devoured by them after they tricked him into thinking they were Primus come to save him is absolutely some form of divine justice lmAO especially after immediately squandering the second chance Rodimus gave him

ooh here we go, it's endgame time

Lost Light 21

aww I'm glad (most of) the mutineers are okay again, they didn't know all this fuck shit would happen, they didn't sign up for it, they just wanted Megatron off their ship

oh it is good to be back on the Lost Light lmfAO I missed my house

Anode and Swerve just on the ground eating dirt

“This has to unfold as foreseen.” interesting choice of words. I figured the Grand Architect was the driving force behind this plot because he made the plot himself, but this makes it sound like he is also receiving future visions much like Drift is. I'll be real I do not remember much of anything about how and why exactly this final altercation comes to pass lmAO I just remember the end result and the big reveals so I'm really trying to pay attention this time around

hell yeah Roddy, fuck their stupid made up rules, we don't gotta adhere to nothing

I'll admit I feel next to nothing about Sunder but it is very funny how he's gone from genuinely terrifying boogeyman to just some fuckin weirdo now that he can't do mnemosurgery anymore

so the Black Block Consortia is actually made up of mechs disguised as organics, meaning that Nickel's racism toward organics is completely invalidated lmfAO granted Froid isn't saying WHEN the Grand Architect took over the Black Block Consortia so maybe they killed all of Nickel's people before that. Fingers crossed that that's not the case because I think it would be really funny for her to get owned lmAO

oh so the Grand Architect physically WENT to the future instead of simply having visions about it

“In preparing to confront the future, you made it come to pass!” fuckin. Prepare, confront, repel, I get it lmfAO

lol get chainsawed idiot. Honestly I am so happy to see Pharma, even if it isn't really Pharma

I'm also happy to see Megatron again, now the whole gang truly IS here

[auraxins]

hsr 2.2 live react utc (spoilers!)

oh my fuckng god the quest overview ARE WE MEETING HIM ALREADY?!?!

BOOTHILL UR SO HOT IDEC THAT U HAVE A GUN TO DH RN

his voice oh my god ,,,,,,,

fuck the live reacts this is now 2 hrs of boothill screaming condensed into one post /hj

I NEED TO EAT HIM

MUDDLE FUDGER I'M CRYING

I'm so obsessed w the fact that they've been able to make him sooooo vulgar just bc they can censor the words via his filter LOL

son of a nice lady NDBDJDBDMDB

yes I will be giggling over every single one of these

BOOOOO SCENE CHANGE /j

it's okay it's acheron <3

is she abt to get yoinked by the harmony :o

OHHHH THE BIRDDDDD

"by the sounds of it it seems you're asking me to leave penacony" baby what the fuck ELSE are they doing /j

ROBINS POV?!

she's trying to mitigate collateral and stop ppl freaking out aw :(

loving her music playing in the bg

OF COURSE ITS SPARKLE SMFH GET THAT BUTTON OUTTA HERE

WAH TRAILBLAZER POV :(

oooo stuff abt the script again

aw firefly i forgive u i think

THE DIALOGUE "I completely understand!" or "I'm completely confused!" SENT MEBDJDBDJDB

picked confused btw LOL

BLADE ?!?!

IN A CAR !??!

IN A SUIT !?!??!?!?!?!?!

ik I'm supposed to be paying attention to the story here but HOWWWW am I supposed to when hyv is FEEDING ME

blade being nice :((((((( naw why did that make me cry LMFAO

oh the setting design of this place is SOOO good

MISHA

"GALLAGHER'S BEEN TAKING CARE OF IT" ??????????

YAY MARCH !!!

REAL ROBIN YAYAYAYAYAYY !!!!!

SUNDAY!!!!

"here she is" THATS FIREFLY PLSSSS

the trailblazer lore :((

CHICKEN WING SIBLING REUNION WAAAAAAAA

ah so here's the stellaron's involvement okay

the stellaron is the theater :o I like it

AVENTURINEEEEE

bro if he shows up I will BAWL

special gift for the nameless omg,,,,

CUTSCENE CUTSCENE

OOOOOOOOOO

WHOAAAAA WHEN U LOOK UP U CAN SEE BUILDINGS :O

the dream bubble is empty??? nihility ????

BOOTHILL POV!!!!!!

FUCK YEAH BABY WE'RE SO BACK

STAWPPPP HES PRETENDING TO BE POMPOM IM CRYING

HIS PHONE IS SO CUTE R U KIDDING MEEEEEEE the bullet hole JDNDMDN fuck i love him sm

Robin ur so cute but I need ur banner to GO I want my HUSBAND

what if I simply never play hsr again now, that way he's mine forever <3

he swears so much he's just like me fr

Well I'll be forked LOL

STREET SMARTS

no dan heng dynamite barbecue with rocket fuel isn't something humans enjoy, boothill is a fucking weirdo /aff

BOOTHILL U CANT JUST TAKE HOSTAGES MY GUY

he has memory issues too ,,, perfect

ACHERON

shirtbag djdndjdbd

God I love his cunty little shooting stance

ACHERON BACKSTORY!??!

damn back to robins pov

Well. Actually Robins Pov now LOL

Sunday <3

THE CONFESSIONAL??? ough

omg welts gonna meet the dream master :o iont trust sunday putting his hand behind his back tho LOL

Robin on Robin violence let's GO

canon yandere sunday is so fun I'm so glad he's a lil fucked up

trailblazer pov !!!

of course we have to take part in a pageant to get into the theater early of COURSE WE DO (<- one of his fav media tropes)

the pulsating tvs are SO fun

also this music fucks so hard icl

ew I need to charge my phone so I'm gonna nyoom thru these battles whilst that happens I'll be back

I'M BACK AND OH MY FUCKING GOD ARGENTI

so argenthill is feasible considering they very much could cross paths in penacony huh

i can't wait to see who the other arena boss is tbh but I'm sure I'll find out some other time LOL (if someone wants to tell me that would be very cool)

I RECOGNISE THAT VOICE

oh it's only sunday sigh

wait a minute why is sunday here

OH???

God ik we probably won't get it but a Sunday boss fight would be so fun

omg yay we get to see the dreammaster meeting finally

YEAAAA BAD GUY SUNDAY LETS FUCKING GO

I LOVE that they're not actually part of the harmony that's SUCH a good twist

OUCH ROBIN

of course I'd still support Robin smh u gotta be free to choose ur own path and if that's what she wants then so be it

sunday stop yapping and get on with it

an infinite precession of sundays,,, funnily enough i don't think ppl would enjoy that /j

all of this forsaking reality shit is giving persona 5 third semester vibes and idk abt yall but that did not end well for the guy trying to tout it /j

trailblazer should be allowed to tell sunday to go fuck himself as a treat tbh

o shit misha has a connection to the empty dream bubble

oh my GOD IS MISHA THE WATCHMAKER

.....'s grandson okay yeah im into it

OH YEAH I FUCKING CALLED IT I KNEW IT I KNEWWWWWWW IT WAS HIM !!!!

WAAAAA ALL THE MISHA BACKSTORY ITS SO GOOD

this is making me CRYYYYYYYYY

THIS CUTSCENE IS SO GOOD FUCK ME

XIPEEEEEEEEE

SUNDAY BOSS FIGHT IS GOING TO BE REAL I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES

HARMONY TRAILBLAZER UNLOCKED FUCK YES

I'm so fucking obsessed w their design for this for real

SUPER BREAK !!!

CUTSCENE AGAIN WAAAAAAAAAAA FIREFLY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

acheron flashback ,,,,,

HOLY FORKERONI I've missed u bbg

Holy wubbaboo,,,

YEAAAAAAA GET JING YUAN OVER HERE LETS GOOOOOO

"my companions are also once in a lifetime treasures" dan heng I will kiss u if u keep this shit up

oh shits about to get FUNKY

the music is so discordant it fits the vibes SO well

I will say I'm v impressed w how many 20-jade chests we've been given thru this act 2 sequence ty hyv for feeding my boothill funds

fuck me yeah this quest so far alone has given like 9 whole passes (including partial exploration of the new areas I should add)

I need to see art of Sunday w these puppets like asap

oughhhh not being able to change the emotions at the end is so good

CUTSCENE CUTSCENE !!!!!!

OHHH THE STAGE LOOKS SO COOL

SHOW ME THE SUNDAY FIGHT CMONNNNNNN

THE MUSICCCCCCC

YEAH U TELL HIM HIMEKO AND MARCH FUCK HIM UP !

CUTSCENE AGAINNNN!!!!!! YEAAAAAAA

sooooo lame that it isn't actually sunday we're fighting smh

OHHHHHHH DOMINICUS IS VERY COOL

dear God I ended up passing that fight by a HAIR

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

DHIL AND JY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! disappointing that that moment was literally what was shown in the trailer and that's all but !!!!!! STILL COOL!!

yay more boothill :3

"fork, huh? I myself prefer spooning" well u KNOW I have to choose that option now

everyone forgot abt acheron????

YAY JING YUAN !!!

omg we can watch the trial how fun

my presence has been insisted??? :o

plsplsplspls tell me the ipc rep isn't topaz (not bc i dislike her bc I actually rly do enjoy her she just isn't the ipc member i want 2 see rn)

FUCK YES AVENTURINEEEEEEEEEE

YK HOW I SAID I WOULD CRY IF WE SAW HIM?? I AM BAWLING NOW

black swan and boothill as temporary express members FUCK YES

let me guess we're not gonna end up jumping to where we've decided to huh

END CREDITS SCENE??? did this happen at the end of the luofu story too I genuinely don't rmb

WHAT

what's happening rn

WE'RE STILL FUCKING STUCK IN THE DREAMSCAPE BECAUSE OF MISHA?!?

ACHERON!?

don't tell me I have to do the boss fight again ...

to be fair this does make sense considering we still have loose ends wrt sparkle but my god

YEAAAA DAN HENG AND BOOTHILL wait omg how did he get into the dreamscape

oh bc of black swan DUH

damn so jy appearance technically isn't canon? /j

i am very glad Robin and boothill are playing a larger role in the actual resolution of this tbf

GODDAMNIT THAT MEANS AVENTURINES STATUS IS STILL UNKNOWN FUCK SHIT FUCKING DAMMIT

yes I'm ready please oh god get this quest over with I've been here for FIVE HOURS

oughhhh the hands getting nearer to the black hole that's such a good little detail

WAAAAAA ITS BEEN TIERNAN THAT ACHERON HAS BEEN TALKING TO ???

God I fucking love the trailblazer sm

RAIDEN MEI !!!!!! CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

BRO I'M LOSING MY MINDDDDD

WAAAAAAAAA ROBIN :((((((

THE POWER OF MUSIC IS SAVING US :((((

I'm crying so fucking hard rn it's hard to see to fight properly LOL

yk I was so content w that other ending being the real end and then hyv rly went yeah no fuck u we're just getting started LMFAO

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA BC SOMEDAY WE WILL WAKE FROM OUR DREAMS :((((

ROBIN AND SUNDAY :(((( BAWLING AGAIN

I RECOGNISE THAT VOICE,,,,,,

THE END FOR REAL :((((((

I do fucking love the end credits reflecting that everything is a part of Elios scripts

WAHHHH THE IN LOVING MEMORY :((((

crying again

AVENTURINEEEEEE BABYGIRL I'M SO GLAD TO SEE YOU

ARGENTI HELPED HIM?????

"I'll bet my life, ma'am" STOPPPPPPP

BOOTHILL?!

screwwubbaboo NDNJDNSKS I love him I need him so badly

I have a better question. WHO is Oswaldo Schneider?

NAWT THE TO BE CONTINUED UGH

that was so fucking good

wish it wasn't 5 and a half hours long but what can ya do ig

Big fan, def my fav hyv storyline to date

if by any godforsaken reason any of u read this thru to the end im giving u a lil forehead smoochie ily

[applesandbannas747]

same anon as before but thank u for the interesting response! and i’m sorry in advance for this long venting lol, but honestly i’m just really frustrated because i think fence could be as popular and mainstream as projects like check please or heartstopper if 1) there was good marketing for it, 2) if the releasing of the issues wasn’t so puzzling, and 3) if the storyline was progressing in a natural way.

rise makes no sense in context of the novels at all and im just? if they were going to have tie-in novels they should have been used to progress character and relationship development, not create an alternate world that’s never going to be addressed. even putting aside gross mischaracterization the novels literally cannot be canon so they’re just published for? no good reason i can see? they could have prequels (seiji and jesse or harvard and aiden pre-series) or been about the team bonding/getting better at fencing, or focused on side characters that won’t get as much focus in the comics (eugene! if he’s mostly being side-lined in the comics the novels could have been his time to shine instead of him being even more sidelined. or even bobby and dante or kally and tanner). there’s definitely a lot of characters in the comics and if it was getting overwhelming the novels could have picked up that slack but they didn’t so their purpose mystifies me — there was also clearly no reason to have nicholas and seiji as pov characters in those books because srb (and i do adore all srb’s other work so this is hard for me to say) was terrible at writing them. when she was good she was good (which makes me think if there had been more editing the novels could have been better) but when she was bad she was very very bad. since she was even worse at writing eugene i guess i should be glad eugene didn’t have a pov. but seriously if the novels were mainly just haiden it could have just been haiden pov.

idk i just used to love fence so much and always noticed there was never a huge following for it, which is okay because the small fence fandom is great!! but i’ve always thought it could have had a bigger audience. there is so much promise in the first issues of fence — kings row competing against exton, the revelation of the truth about nicholas, the reactions and results from that, character development for all the main characters, relationship development for nichoji & haiden, the team actually Becoming a team & the idea of seiji nicholas and eugene being the fencing team after aiden and harvard graduate. but i feel like we’re never going to see any of that. page time is spent on things that aren’t as important instead, and then it takes ages for the next issue/volume and like you said it doesn’t feel coherent or connected to the other issues anymore. it confuses me that all the edges in fence r being sanded down and that the interesting promises in it are constantly being put off.

i’m sorry for talking about this sm i have not been successful in getting anyone into fence irl 😭 i hadn’t read rise or the novels until this month and i reread vol 1-4 before i read the new stuff and it made me very nostalgic

Hi again! lmfao dude no need to ever apologize to me for vents about Fence because I am forever pontificating about it. I agree that Fence has (or, rather, had) the potential to be really popular to a wide audience and I think you hit the nail on the head. And so much of it is just such easy fixes--like putting any effort into marketing lol or when releasing the compiled issues as volumes, giving them all distinct covers and names would have been SO helpful. Reusing the issue covers for the volumes was a mistake (and again, that's something marketing should have been all over!!). and the storyline. oh man. yeah. that ship has sailed and I've had mental breakdowns about it--but if we'd stayed true to the original concept of Fence and BOOM and Pacat put more effort into reaching a wider audience, it could have been big. Another consideration here, of course, is the content-to-hiatus ratio, which loses a ton of fans, but I maintain that if BOOM had their shit together, they could have fixed that problem too! and it's so frustrating

GOD RIGHT??? The novels came in, ruined Fence, and then aren't even actually canon because they don't actually fit in the universe??? My theory is that since Pacat is a SRB superfan, he kind of let her go overboard and realized after the novels were published and he had to move his story forward post-Disarmed that he'd fucked up giving so much freedom to her. Because they called it canon--and he still says it's '80% canon' but it couldn't have happened. So the point of the novels was basically for Pacat to read fanfiction from his favorite author of his OCs--it did nothing positive for the story, the characters, the franchise, or the fans. and LITERALLY!!! I've always thought doing a prequel for the tie-ins made more sense. Like following the fencing team with Harvard, Aiden, Kally, and Tanner would have been so fun, or focusing on Kally and Tanner or Bobby and Dante would have been fun and would have left room for actual plot progression!! It was pure selfishness on the authors' part to do the novels how they did them. And if Pacat would father fangirl over SRB than write a meaningful story, that's his right, but it still bugs me that there was clearly no thought given to the consequences of the novels. So instead of dealing with them, we ignore them and pretend that they're still '80% canon' to make ourselves feel better for our oopsie. hahaaa I have nothing nice to say about SRB or her writing. I don't think she got anything right in Fence--except for hinting Eugesse, which you know she only did because she knew it was popular in the fandom and she wanted the hype and baited us with it lmfao But! I've always had issues with her even before she touched Fence--her blatant sexism in In Other Lands was disturbing to me when I read it (shaming and looking down on feminine traits isn't Woke or Revolutionary just because you assigned those traits to men in your "badass feminist society" and had all the women be grossly sexist and predatory) so it's not just me being an asshole because she ruined my favorite thing in the world <3 But I know she's very beloved among her fans and I'm sorry that she failed you in Fence when you love her other works so much. If there was one mercy from the novels, it was the lack of a Eugene POV even if it further proves he's not really part of the team/a main character...unfortunately that's a fair trade jkdfah

I always thought Fence deserved a bigger following than it ever got--and maybe having a bigger fanbase and more money being thrown at it would have helped BOOM commit to buying enough ahead to let Pacat and Jo actually work on it consistently and put out content more regularly. It really was setting itself up to be so fun and full of tropes the gays LOVE. i mean, sports 'manga' that's actually queer? All the fun tropes with rivals and 'becoming a team'? The classic character archetypes used smartly and effectively? I genuinely think it would have appealed to all the people who love Check Please and Heartstopper and Yuri on Ice. And it still does, I guess, but I feel like if Fence gets popular now, I'd be a bit sad to see all that love centered around a version of Fence I don't like (but that is pure selfishness lmfao I fully admit it). I just so love/d all the edges and conflicts in Fence and it's sad to see them sanded down in canon and resolved of screen.

LMFAO my dude I am sorry for rambling so much at you twice in a row now! Anyway, I'm always here to talk Fence uwu even though i can be harsh and unpleasant about things i don't like jskdfha

[pocketsedition]

just for you to know i looked through your blog for a solid 10 minutes just to be sure you're the right person and i'm still not sure lmfao

a n y w a y

just wanted to thank you for one (technically two) of your jjk fics, from the series lovely., and wow, i'm not really a comment-person, so here i am on tumblr and just an anon

but, yeah, boys. (and yours., but boys. is so.). long story short, i suffer from depression and i'm not here for any empathy for that, the fic just slapped me in the face with a "you can have depression and still live" and it worked so much better than any person i've ever talked to about that (i love everything my therapist tries, but it's not the same as reading it)

so yeah, thank you for writing this fic, because even if i had to take a break to cry before continuing the fic, it makes me believe so much that i can and will live

it's been weeks i read it, and i still think about it regularly, and it helps me go through daily life a bit easier

with the hope that i did not send an ask to the wrong guy,

have a great whatever-current-time-it-is-in-your-timezone o/

IT IS ME it is me you found the right person this is the demons. ill do my best to respond but also im currently at the most boring shift of my life ever after wakign up at 6am 😔😔 so if it's all gibberish apologies.

im. SO glad you like boys. so much. bro the insanity that went into writing that (like three too many snow days that school year LMAO). yeah the depression was !! yeah!! i was like "hm i struggle with these issues, what shall i do 🤔🤔🤔" and write what i know ended up being the answer

this is just.. oh this is so sweet bro 😭😭 thank you so much im so glad it touched someone else and im glad it helps knowing you can get through it like HDHDJEN it really started out as a joke idea i tossed around but (obviously) it ended up being something so much longer and like the people that have said that they loved it 🫶🫶 you guys are on my mind every day. all the time. thank you so much 🫂🫂

[lazypanartist]

UwU ✨ glad you liked the new ficlet! I am working on the Mystery Box fic, and just a heads up its like Not connected to any of the mini series.

Also, just like, Idk if you ever watched the 2012 series but i read a few of those "Rise reader gets transported to 2012 universe" and i thought about how it would go with the different readers meeting the Alternate Boys and was like "Ohhh well starsick and mikey would get along n be cute, Leo would be like 'Oh so we're...dating? no? oh okay if you say so' and Raph and Origami would be like Tense and probably have some issues but they could get along"

...and then I got to 2012 donnie and cracked up at the idea of Donnie being like "Oh man i bet im dating April, that would be so great-" and then Night Eyes just. Towers behind him like "You are not my dearheart. （Φ ﻌ Φ）i bet you cant even dance." like rip Donatello sorry youre about to need a chiropractor for the whiplash you're gonna get.

-📝 nonnie

I was going through old requests and found this 💀 I'm so sorry I didn't come back to this Nonnie!!

But yeah! The turtles crop up, everyone's met their alternate selves, and then it's just. Feral babes lmfao

"Oh man, I home Alternate Me™ actually got with April, that'd be so cool for him!"

"..why do I hear boss music?"

[mildew-mop]

#i hope its not weird but it was very interesting learning about your sight#i have to wear glasses#and sometimes i see spots and stuff and its annoying#those fake fix classes bullshit are such bullshit#i remember a while ago my grandma tried explaining to me that i needed to want to be able to see properly to not need glasses#i can barely make out anything more than 3 feet away from me#thats not on purpose#my grandma literally told me to eat more carrots so i didn't have to wear glasses#i cant#ableism Not weird at all! I'm glad it was interesting to read! I always say that joke from that one old contacts commercial "I have special eyes." lol my retired optometrist lOVED when i came in because my eyes are def a unique case and he told me based on my history of prescription lenses, I can detect quarter axis changes in my astigmatism. most people dont detect it usually unless it has changed at least half, if not all the way on the axis. so the fact i notice quarter changes meant that I had to get prescriptions every 6 months, but since then it seems my eyes have slowed down and i am able to retain my glasses for a year before needing new ones. I am actually due for new glasses bc my left lens' coating got messed up so there's like, splotches on the lens but i can barely see out of that eye anyway! so it hasnt been a pressing issue. i have heard the carrot thing as well many times. And YEAH SEE like some people truly believe that you have to make the decision to see, or like your grandmother, you have to WANT to see. and they will tell you even if you say youve tried everything, these coaches will basically gaslight you into thinking you just aren't trying hard enough, even if you are trying your best.

it just isnt possible lmfao I hope one of these Dumb asses actually has a vision problem one day, i wouldn't wish blindness on anyone but when their eyes start to deteriorate due to aging and suddenly they need reading glasses, what are they going to do, say no? Say that they have the willpower to see? If so, the migraines are on their part and no one else's. God forbid one of these idiots has a kid one day who needs glasses but they refuse to get them glasses because they want to try to take some sort of holistic approach to vision??? tell their own child they just have to believe to see. And force them to go through a lifetime of never having their vision checked. What if one of these people has a totally blind kid? you gonna tell them they just need to believe to see, do you know how heart wrenching it is to think that it could be that easy LOL because my eyes have had the max amount of physical surgery on my eyes and I am still half blind. The only case I have ever heard of where someone miraculously gained sight was someone who was blind due to psychosomatic reasons, but once the trauma was dealt with, they had vision again. but even in that case, if you are psychosomatically blind or deaf (hell you can be psychosomatically diabetic) it is just as real as actually being blind or deaf and cannot be controlled. Diabetic alters will actually be diabetic and may need to take insulin to maintain the body's health when other alters do not have the diabetes.

(the truth is in that case, the body is diabetic but it is psychosomatically sectioned to one alter who has to take care of it.) It only goes away if it is being caused by a particular part, or parts who work their stuff out and stop sending out psychosomatic stressors. Even then, it may not improve. Belief and willpower have absolutely NOTHING to do with the eyes and i wish these people to step off of a cliff. ... into something soft but like still.

There's a lot of people who probably shouldn't be parents.

[hangozoe]

Second session of In Stars and Time

Okay, time to fight the King. Part 2

I'm missing The Secret Ingredient to make the bomb and I'm assuming we need to actually do that.

The battle theme is such a bop.

I wonder if the King will notice me zoning out lmfao

I kinda hope the narrator tells me when to use the shield

The King's battle theme is also a bop

Oh, I knew I couldn't zone out for battle stuff, but I'm glad they added it here

NO WAIT I DIDN'T USE THE SHIELD YET-- DAMMIT!

Okay take 3

I bet we can't land a final blow without the bomb

NO I DIDN'T HAVE THE SHIELD UP IN TIME

Okay, so don't use the shield unless I HAVE to.

Dammit, I just died from not being strong enough

Why am I Siffrin in these loops...

I can't NOT pick malanga fritters.

Why do I remember it with spicy peppers...?

BOMB TIME

I BEAT THE KING

Woah, the castle is so much brighter.

Lmfao the Change God being a lazy deity being common knowledge is hilarious

Okay, the Head Housemaiden using the phrase "stinking cute" feels unexpected lmao

Boy I sure hope I confide in someone about the trauma of being in a time loop!

BONNIE KING OF RUINING MOMENTS

Isabeau is a disaster

I'M. UM. OH NO.

SHE SAID THE T WORD

That was the most obvious way of trying to let me get my guard down and I still did it :c

My time loop is broken?!

I HAVE SO MANY POSSIBILITIES TO TELL LOOP

None of them are true probably.

MY PARENTS?!

AM I FROM THE COUNTRY THAT GOT MEMORY-WIPED

I JUST GAVE THE FLOWER TO THE KING

THIS WAS WORTH IT!!!!!!!

Isa got cucked again :(

We smell like burnt sugar, like the Sadness that we defeat for Star Crests that get rid of the frozen tears 🤔

The Head Housemaiden said the EXACT same thing...

Oh no. The Fishing One is catching on to me...

Oh. The ecosystem is dying slowly.

THE BATTLE MUSIC IS PLAYING WHEN I ASKED MIRABELLE ABOUT HER ISSUE

My leading theory is just that the loop has to do with your bonds with your party members. And that's It.

MIRABELLE BEING CIS REALLY IS MINORITY REPRESENTATiON

IT'S NOT JUST A JOKE

A WORLD WHERE TRANSGENDER PEOPLE ARE THE NORM AND BEING CIS ISN'T

We're anti-sex. Hell yeah

I like that being LGBTQ is baked into lore. Like, it's not incidentally part of the fantasy world. It's the lore. In a world of time loops (things not changing) vs a god of change, being transgender is a natural consequence. It makes perfect sense here.

I like that everyone picked up on that I don't like being touched. I wish that was real

I got it. I keep being time looped because I didn't max my relationship with all of my party members and the player of this RPG is a completionist.

Okay, first time I'm crying, and it's because of the Bonnie and Siffrin event

SIFFRIN IS LITERALLY ME

"That's life-ending, even. Asking for someone's touch." OKAY WOW LITERALLY ME

Caved in and quickly found a guide to find the craftonomy book because I forgot what floor it was on

Also looked up Bonnie's 3rd favourite food because I was too busy eating my favourite snack for like the 5th time

MIRABELLE IF YOU REFERENCE CHILDREN'S HOSPITAL I S2G--

WAIT THE FACT WE FORGOT COLOUR IS WORLD-RELEVANT???

Odile is catching on to how we know too much.........

Do we have to kill her now

ABORT TIMELINE

Theory: Loop and the other Stars are fighting a war on the astral plane we can't even comprehend. They're interfering with us mortals

Third time's the charm

I can't picture how Odile is going to cuck Isabeau but we'll see

GOD DAMMIT

Head Housemaiden is immune to changes in time loops and is eternal, Siffrin changes each time loop, and the King stops time. Hmmmmmm....

Loop 45 is the charm baby

I didn't get a chance to give her a flower :(

I realized this earlier but the books with titles that are hard to read likely have to do with the memory hole'd country

Time to hang out with Odile

TELLING A PUN WAS THE CORRECT ANSWER?!

I HATE THIS GAME

I love kids

ISABEAU IS GOING TO BE SO JEALOUS

Wait. What

What--

Oh my god

This is a good allegory for 2nd gen immigrants

OH. WE WORSHIP THE STARS. DUH. THEY'RE HERE BECAUSE THEIR WORSHIPPERS GOT REMOVED FROM TIME.

I still miss my cheeky grin

I like how there's altered dialogue for EVERYTHING. And altered cutscene art.

"Is it fun to go back here? To keep torturing yourself?" WOW OKAY GAME. THANKS FOR CALLING ME OUT.

I'm glad the game accounts for me helping everyone before asking Isabeau for his help.

Four-pointed leaf... I wonder if that's a star.

I wonder why Isabeau has to be last.

Oh hey. Stargazing! We have to save the star lore for last.

Oh, Isabeau is down BAD for us.

Cute dinner scene pt. 2

Okay, I'm gonna have to do some extra loops before I commit to this. So not saving this

[blackvahana]

Glad this post came out of queue on the day I was discussing fat bodies and nose rings + chains with him, second being specifically about me wanting to wear one as a symbol of marriage with him

I don't know what exactly happened to make Vahana form go from thick and tall to... almost abtractly proportioned very thin and feminine. Something just changed. You can still tell that I'm the same person, it's the same root humanoid expression... But it just. changed one day

There's definitely something to miss about it. I've always said that the Day Sky is big, I'm... What. 250 pounds now on the physical plane, this body echoes the heaviness and presence of the Day Sky because... Well, there's a lot to be said about disability and binge disordered eating issues which are. my business, but there's something about this body that just... I need this much space. It's hard to talk about what I want to talk about because I look inside myself and hi, all those little parasite things lmfao, but getting past that there's a sense that I need so much space to exist in as the Sky itself

The reason the parasite things are hard to look past is because they fractalise in on themselves making space hard to quantify lmfao but anyway

I just... Lev was around a lot when I was... like how I was before, bigger in the astral. I used to say I was the same weight just different height, no lmfao body dysmorphia I would've been way heavier in the astral w all that muscle and bone in the extra height but... Point is. Embodiment for me involves fatness, there's presence that's needed in order for me to exist as myself. I expand, spill, into multiple bodies, I try to keep myself reigned in and do so obsessively but like... I'm not meant for that

Anyway. Lev was around a lot. That train of thought. Huge bodies (in terms of length, in terms of dwarfing planets), devouring, claiming substance of reality itself as our own... Heavy presence, filled atmosphere, the Day Sky is not empty it is grave with devoured scattering light... He's telling me to get back on track but I don't know if there is a track irt this train of thought. I follow him, I embody him acting as a body for him, something about that spills into fat and muscle and bone. Oh yeah, I have thoughts I want to write on him and veils and using animal parts like consciousness uses meat, and... I've been coaxing him further and deeper into manifested reality bit by bit...

Earlier, I was... I wont say working with the sky, I'm not going to belittle and minimise myself. I was just being the sky, and my body as the wind was hard to be around, immense energy, whatever. Hard to be around as in it was full, the space was basically taken up by my energy, the experience was trying to press into a crowd of bodies, no space, no pushing will get you in.

I guess being the multiple people I am, I'm always going to swing between states that feel right... I cant say the way i was before during DKB years - heavier, more outwardly "masculine" but still NB - isn't feeling... uh... Hmm.