#but yeah! i love being multifandom and following many people and seeing so many things from them!

[enkitramedy]

There’s something so different about wandering through an old fandom… the fanbase has mostly moved or changed, except for those few dedicated fans and new souls coming in a little (lot) late to the party. It’s got years worth of content to dig through, plenty of history, and a lot of passion put into both of those things.

And all you can see are the remnants of then.

It’s peaceful, if a little sad.

But it’s yours.

I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

[artistic-izzy-multifandom]

Izzy's Heavily Improvised Essay on Bambi 2

(to folks who follow me for other stuff, I apologize right ahead of time, just doing my "multifandom" name justice XD)

Okay y’all, bear with me, this was written in the heat of the moment and therefore I might go around in tangents. I’ve been dying to write this essay thingy for months actually, but I kept chickening out when I went to try and just do it. And it was also inspired by Wreckham’s own Bambi post that I saw a while ago, so uh... Yeah.

(also this mainly features my opinions, don't take them as facts >_<)

So, starting things off with this:

It shall be no secret that I’m an avid fan of the Bambi movies (more the second than the first, but we’ll get to that in a bit). 

It’s no surprise that visually speaking, Bambi is a spectacle from beginning to end, on top of having a beautiful soundtrack and a fascinating way of being the closest thing to an animated documentary with its environments.

However, it comes with the price of... Well, lacking a concrete plot. And by that I mean outside of just showcasing Bambi’s life from birth to adulthood. Not to say there’s no value in that, but I reckon it’s not the kind of movie lots of people nowadays would just want to watch multiple times in a row.

(plus considering how much of the novel’s plot they cut out when adapting it to the screens… That’s a can of worms for another day)

Yes, even I, the avid fan, will admit this flaw in the storytelling. And it’s a big reason why I maintain my statement on loving the second movie more than the first.

And oh where do I begin?

Namely how its plot is basically about the time that happened between Bambi’s Mother’s death and the scene with all those cheery singing birds — in other words, the period in which Bambi was raised by his father, the Great Prince of the Forest.

While animation’s changed significantly (given that, y’know, 64 years apart) and also different voice actors were hired for the characters (again, 64 years), I will come here and say that visually the movie did the original justice, and did it in spades!

Plot-wise? On one hand, there’s more dialogue and the humor is a bit more targeted for younger audiences, which in fairness will put off some who are more inclined towards the original.

On the other hand, the movie is also not afraid to explore some darker subjects, some indirectly (like the whole aspect of grief both for Bambi and his father and their respective ways of dealing with it), and some directly (such as the entire Deer Call scene).

And the fact that unlike the first movie, the characters here are more fleshed out, the main highlight of that is none other than the Great Prince himself; in the first movie he... Didn’t have nearly enough screentime or lines to justify his status as protector of the Forest, at best he was a minor character given too much importance, and at worst he was a living prop.

In the second? He’s the second main focus of the story, with a whole character development arc on how to be a father to Bambi despite his belief in tradition (aka the whole “the does care for the young” thing). In fact, I think I should dedicate this part of the essay on his character, shall we? Because years of rewatching the movie made me think a lot of things regarding him (which I don’t see many or even anyone talk enough about):

If we’re gonna think about it, we never really get to know the Great Prince too deeply prior to his mate’s death. Everything we do know about him personality-wise came afterwards, at a time when he had to look after Bambi while also looking after the Forest as a whole.

It’s incredibly easy to label him as a jerk and a deadbeat father when one fails to consider a few things:

1- His mate died, and given the timeframe, the Prince was unable to reach both her and Bambi in time before Man shot her; made worse when you remember that in the first movie he was able to save them both from Man. Literally, at the beginning of the second movie, one of the first expressions we see from him is sadness. Wouldn’t you think he was feeling not just grief, but guilt too?

2- He was left to raise his son alone, at one of the harshest points of wintertime, and only asked Friend Owl to find a doe because the owl offered some help in the first place; recalling the tradition thing, the Prince had no experience with children whatsoever, can you blame him for being baffled at the idea of him raising his son at first?

3- He’s the protector of a whole forest. That’s like, hundreds and hundreds of lives he’s dedicated to keep safe from Man at all times every single day, hundreds and hundreds of animals depending on him to not get shot. Even if he’s experienced at what he does, that’s still a huge pressure onto a single individual, and the fact that he can’t always save everyone every time Man is in the woods.

And a bonus: forget his status as the Great Prince of the Forest for a moment, and what do you have? A stag who lost his mate (whom he genuinely loved) and is left to raise their son entirely on his own.

If I were to guess, I’d say the Great Prince was far more serene prior to the tragedy; still a recluse, what with being the protector of the woods and then some, but less stern in general.

Everything we see of him before the completion of his character development, is him trying to make do with something that was out of his control and dealing with its consequences. (there’s a reason why ‘Parents as People’ is a trope, y’know)

Hell, it was all but stated that even before he became more open towards Bambi and embraced his role as a parent, he already cared about his son in his own way. I’m under the belief that he’s always been capable of raising him, all he needed was some time (and a bit of a nudge from Bambi himself at points).

Plus he was already regretting the whole “new mother to Bambi” plan and intending on calling it off by the time Friend Owl brought Mena, he only went through with it anyway because he thought he screwed things up with Bambi for good - btw I do not blame Bambi for being mad, poor guy’s spent most of the movie trying to impress his dad and taking every lesson to heart, only to find out about the arrangement at the worst time possible.

On another tangent, I feel like one aspect that’s often overlooked is how both Bambi and his father reacted to going through with the arrangement:

By the time Bambi was going to leave with Mena, he wasn’t even mad anymore, just downtrodden and upset that he wouldn’t get to see his friends as often, but otherwise resigned and accepting that it’s what he should be doing. Putting up a brave facade all the while, much like the Great Prince himself.

Same for the latter, he was trying to keep his regal facade up as well and insisting that “a Prince does sacrifices” - he was mostly talking about himself, having to give his son up so he’s raised by someone better than the Prince.

And let’s get one fact clear before heading to a main point in this essay: although Bambi did get mad at his father (down to even wishing his mother was there instead of him), he was far more upset at being separated from him and not getting to see him as often, and it’s made obvious he regretted yelling those words at his father.

Otherwise, Bambi wouldn’t have rushed back to nuzzle him goodbye, wouldn’t have thought of retaliating against Ronno when the latter taunted him about being “given away” due to his father “being ashamed of him”. And he certainly wouldn’t have run to another cliff to meet his dad after defeating the last of Man’s dogs.

In fact I more than believe that they would’ve reconciled on the spot as soon as they saw each other again, which was what likely gonna happen after Bambi saved Mena and got rid of all the dogs.

But then the cliff scene happened.

(aka one of my favorite scenes in the whole movie, and yes I will defend it right now)

Now, I can see why a good bunch of people hate that scene (namely the whole Disney Death thing), but allow me to say that it’s in the movie for a reason, and it’s not to trick the audience into thinking Bambi did die from the fall.

It’s to showcase the Great Prince’s character arc coming to fruition.

Remember when I said that the Prince did love Bambi in his own way despite not knowing anything about raising children? This is the scene where he finally realized just how much he did care all along, shedding away his “prince does/does not” mentality for good. Realizing that Bambi needed him as a father

There's so much that goes unsaid in the scene.

How the Prince’s voice nearly breaks when urging Bambi to get up, him saying “A Prince does not...” but never finishing it. What was he going to say? We don’t know, and that’s the point. Maybe even he didn’t know, maybe it was said out of reflex.

How he gets down and looks at his (seemingly) dead son before nuzzling him, keeping him as close as he could, and crying.

This all makes it more meaningful when Bambi does wake up and calls him Dad for the first time, showcasing how far their bond has gone and developed.

I believe, among other things, that the scene (and perhaps counting the dog chase as well) was also meant to be a mirror/parallel to the dream sequence from earlier in the movie. But that’s perhaps an essay for another day!

So, in conclusion… I swear I’m 100% normal about this movie, I totally did not spend days on end trying to make this improv essay as cohesive as possible-

[essay ends here, roll credits]

[sallufix]

Tell me more about Envicto and Clivicto!! I love them sm

I THOUGHT NO ONE WOULD EVER ASK. Semi-long post coming time to dump the fucking mountain of government info

As i have said the story is mainly called Oblivious Prison. The basic plot is that prisoners from 20-or-so years in the future are the inhabitants of the prison.

The prisoners are mainly the suspects from Layton Brothers Mystery Room! After they got sent to court and arrested blah blah blah they went to the very same prison as 20 years ago, but could somehow interact with CliVicto.

It is unkown how, but Envicto has all the files of each criminal INCLUDING the ones from the future. It's all hidden inside the mechanical backpack where his robot arms come out.

What's even weirder is that items can break or be broken both from the past or the future. Both people can see eachother and interact.

The prisoners from the future only appear once Envicto is near, where an anomaly follows him everywhere of reality kind of glitching out.

To talk more about CliVicto though, is that Felis (who is still a Constable at this time) keeps an eye out for them. The government trusts Envicto with watching over Clive but they also know that sometimes he can be reckless or plain mad. So Felis sometimes watches them and sees GAY SHIT but he's too nervous to actually report that info

That and also because Felis is scared of this anomaly thing going on with Envicto and that he can beat his ass like any day

Clive literally just like. Does not know what's going on but since they hired Envicto to follow him around everywhere he just kind of accepts this (plus its better to have company in isolation he's happy with anyone at this point)

The more Clive and Envicto hang out the more they form a dynamic where Envicto is always in the most weird situations like oh I don't know almost blowing up the whole prison with his new invention? Maybe activating the fire alarm because he tripped and fell? He kind of just brings chaos to wherever he goes and Clive has to deal with his shit

Though, Clive also has immense respect for Envicto because of his inventions and creative or imaginative thinking. Both of them would stare at a painting for too long but with the most opposite intentions (Clive enjoying the art and the abstract intelligence of it VS. Envicto thinking he can make something better or steal it which the explanation are in the next paragraphs)

SO. You're probably wondering, do Clive and Envicto even have anything in common? Why would a queerplatonic relationship of them work? Ohoho well. Envicto is actually a multifandom oc, a term which i feel like only i have used?? BUT BASICALLY i insert him to any fixation that has anything to do with a 1900s aesthetic or timeline.

First one being Ramshackle! In there, he is 18 and is living in an alleyway. His story here isn't as fleshed out as the one i made for PL but basically, he sells art to strangers in hopes he could fund going to college, except the art isn't his.

He does this throughout the entirety of summer break but things don't work out. Luckily for his brilliance, he's been crafting something behind the scenes if he ever wanted the final option! A giant robot!! Wow!! Who could've seen that coming!!

It's a neat parallel though since Clive bought an entire mobile fortress to destroy all of london, but Envicto made a giant robot to take all of ramshackles gold supply. I also wrote his ramshackle story waay before i found out about pl

But yeah basically he ransacks the town but the government and ramshackle cast stop him (?) But the government actually DOESN'T arrest him and instead funds his college fees with the intent of him permanently working under their supervision! They thought his intellect was useful for military weapons and whatnot so erm yeah he gets to go to Gressenheller!!

Nah maybe Gressenheller will change if i ever get fixated on a thing based on college in the 1900s.

Yeah now he's got several degrees many jobs, one of which is being a scientist. And as you know, Clive kidnapped some scientists. So Envicto got to work on the fortress for a while until Clive went to prison and stuff and since the government still has Envicto under their wing, they hire him to watch over Clive in prison! Boom!

Now back to Oblivious Prison present, Clive thinks the whole prisoners-from-20-years-in-the-future thing really stressful because it just reminds him of time, and therefore the time machine.

He goes along with Envicto for the mystery in hopes that they'd be able to solve it and that weight from his shoulder would be lifted.

That is with him being unknowing that his death penalty will be in a WEEK FROM NOW (3 years after unwound future, CliVicto has built a good bond this time around) so with Envicto being anxious about all this, he seeks the professor for help

Anyways thats all for now, everything else has either a plot hole, or is a big spoiler to the mystery. The comic will probably reveal much more but until then, have this long infodump. (If you guys have any more questions DO NOT BE AFRAID i will strangle you to get the questions out if i have to)

[acourtcfmuses]

SHIPPING INFO : ANSWER THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR MUSE(S) SO PEOPLE KNOW HOW SHIPPING WORKS ON YOUR BLOG.

WHAT IS YOUR OTP FOR YOUR CHARACTER(S)? 

Honestly I have SO MANY muses and as a result I have so many OTP's that go along with that, both canon, crossover, crack and OC OTP's

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE? 

This is gonna sound weird, but it depends on the species of the muses. If it's two human muses I probably wouldn't want to go maybe more than 20 years? And that's assuming the youngest muse is at least 21. The exception in regards to species is vampires and fae, any species with longevity spanning centuries and beyond. some of the age gaps with those muses can get excessive, but I would still say that physically in appearance they'd have to be within the around 20 years (if that makes sense). Of course ALL if this is with the assumption that all muses are over the age of 18. We ain't out here imprinting on babies. I'm side-eyeing Twilight hard at this one.

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY ARE CONSIDERED NSFW?  

Uhm, likely clothes are coming off and touching is starting to happen.

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?  

Somewhat! I love the build up in a ship. And when it comes to my male muses, if you completely ignore my girls, I won't ship my male muses. I have seen it far to many times where people completely ignore someone's female muses and solely write with the male muses while constantly hinting at shippy things in the thread. It gets demotivating, so please don't ignore my female muses who would love even platonic interactions, or enemy interactions in favour or trying to force ships with my guys.

WHO ARE OTHER CHARACTERS YOU SHIP YOUR CHARACTER WITH? 

I will legit ship anything. I do have a spreadsheet (yes I'm that extra) with all my muses, their sexualities, their preferences and potential canon ships, who I won't ship them with and if shipping with them is open. You can find that here.

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?  

Generally as a rule of thumb, yeah, please talk to me about it. I'm very conscious in myself about trying to not force ships on people / making them feel like the have to ship with my muses. So I likely won't realise you want to ship otherwise; and honestly it will give me a chance to suggest more of a build up to a ship if I don't quite feel it yet myself.

ARE YOU SHIP OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS? 

I would love more ships, but I don't actively go out my way unless it's plotted with someone? Like if it happens, it happens?

ARE YOU MULTISHIP? 

We live for the multi's in this house - multifandom, multiverse, multimuse, multiship. I only have one muse, out of 249 that is a single ship and that's my Descendants OC Julia Darling and that's because she is completely and utterly besotted with @dreamingonthedaily's Paxton Pan

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?

Well my current hyperfixations are The Witcher and Fear Street. I have a few in each honestly. The Witcher: Geralt/Yen, Geralt/Jaskier, Ciri/Happiness Fear Street: Ziggy/Nick (sue me), Sam/Deena, Cindy/Alice, Cindy/Tommy, Simon/Kate, Kurt/Joan

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?

Talk to me? It's that simple honestly. I don't mind shippy meme's being sent my way if we don't have established ships as icebreakers, but I would prefer to go back and build them up once we see if they mesh. Even if it's solely in headcanons we talk about OOC. I have far to many ships that the bulk of them are headcanons.

tagged by: @fierceheartstagging: @reiignonme, @childrenofslumber, @isdeathlystill, @managedxmischief, @ofblackskies, @cursedvixens, @lcveblossomed, @cahroline, @bccksmarts, & whoever wants too!

[killerandhealerqueen]

Introduction

Since I have so many followers now, I should probably introduce myself. 

Hi, I’m Sass. You can call me Sass or you can call me honestly whatever you like.  A few friends of mine call me “Master Sass” because I’m currently getting my masters in Forensic Investigative Science so I have a lot of knowledge when it comes to forensics (my undergraduate degree was Forensic Biology).  If you’re younger than me, you can call me “Sass Jiejie” or, like I said, if you have another nickname you wish to call me, go for it.  I like collecting/hoarding things, like nicknames. It’s the dragon in me, can’t help it.

While this blog is a multifandom blog (I mainly just reblog whatever captures my fancy), I do tend to…main Killer and Healer (hence the username).  Hell, I practically run the Killer and Healer fandom here on tumblr, but you’ll find other things on this blog, like The Devil Judge, Beyond Evil, Master Wait a Moment, The Sleuth of Ming Dynasty, S.C.I., just to name a few.

 I do also liveblog a lot of the dramas that I watch, so if you like watching me scream and lose my fucking mind in posts, then this is definitely the blog for you.  Also, whenever I finish dramas, I always give my opinions of them at the end so you’ll know if the drama is worth watching (it’s how I’ve gotten a lot of my friends to watch shit is because of my screaming).  Also, all dramas that I’ve finished and enjoyed will be on my “Drama/Movie Masterlist” with links to the dramas so y’all can enjoy them too!

 I am also a writer and do headcanons.  I mainly write for Killer and Healer (most of the fics in the AO3 tag are mine…I’ve written about 61 fics and we’re still going), S.C.I., The Sleuth of Ming Dynasty, The Yin-Yang Master: Dream of Eternity, and Psych-Hunter.  I used to write for The Untamed but I’m no longer an active member of that fandom (content wise) as well as The Devil Judge.  If you see me posting fics or headcanons for them, it’s because I’m currently finishing up prompts that have been sitting in my ask box for a while but I am no longer an active content creator for that fandom (so no fic prompts or headcanon prompts, please).  I’ve done some headcanons for Chimera and Master Wait a Moment (and I’m hoping to write my first fic for that fandom soon).  I am hoping to also start writing for My Roommate Is A Detective but that probably won’t happen until I clean out my ask box a little (but I am open to headcanons and prompts for them).

 My ask box and DMs are always open for fic prompts and headcanons (unless I specifically say that I’m not taking them) as well as ask games, song recs, or to just talk!  My blog is a safe space for everyone and there is no judgement here. HOWEVER, if you’re a TERF, queerphobic, a pedophile, or anything like that, you are not welcome here and I will not hesitate to fucking block your ass; do not try me.  The only time I will ever close my ask box is if I have finals and that’s because I’m in grad school and grades are kind of important there…gotta maintain a certain GPA to keep my scholarships, you know?

 Don’t be afraid to tag me in things or mention me in stuff because I love seeing things and being included (and I will do my best to include you all in things).  It makes my day knowing that people think of me or have included me in things.

 Also, if you see me on tumblr at like…bizarre ass times of the day, it’s because my sleep schedule is fucked (and has been pretty much since freshman year of high school) so I can’t properly sleep until like 1-2 am, which is not really healthy, but oops (don’t let Chen Yuzhi see my sleep schedule, he’ll kill me).  

 But yeah, that’s a little bit about me!  Enjoy my blog, welcome, and thank you for following!

~ Sass

[literaetures]

i was tagged by the always lovely @keiraknightlcygf and i'm tagging: @startingthecase, @jammeke, @brontes, @faslaidir, and anyone who wants to do this tag! 💌

1. Why did you choose your url?

it was years ago when i just switched my major to english in undergrad and i was really excited about it and wanted to get hyped and fall in love with the subject that i cared about on here too and it just stuck ever since! but i'm always thinking about changing it and never taking the plunge....... maybe one day...... one day

2. Any side blogs?

yeah! i have a multifandom blog, a reference blog, and a gradblr and i barely use any of them but they're still there!

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

oof since 2011 and now it's 2021 and i remember making it in like? august? so 10 year anniversary is coming up! and i never thought i'd be in grad school.... still on this site.... but wow the passage of time!

4. Do you have a queue tag?

nope! i tried using my queue a few times but i really just prefer reblogging one or two or a million things at once and then disappearing

5. Why did you start this blog in the first place?

i moved blogs bc a bunch of irl people were following me on my original one and i just didn't feel comfortable reblogging what i wanted to so i moved and i'm always glad i did that!

6. Why did you choose your icon?

it's lizzie bennet from 2005 p&p with the cutest background and i love her your honor i don't think i'll ever change it!

7. Why did you choose your header?

i just reblogged a pretty art piece and i thought "i could make a mobile theme around this color scheme" and then i did which is how my normal thought process for mobile themes goes

8. How many mutuals do you have?

oh no clue— is that something you can track? i know loving mutuals is the Thing now but i just like everyone i follow tbh otherwise i wouldn't follow them

9. How many followers do you have?

more than i'd ever thought would follow me! and i'm eternally grateful and totally shocked every time i look at it! i'm actually about to hit a milestone soon so i'm even more shocked that anyone would want to follow me! thank you all for being here and always being so kind! 💛

10. How many do you follow?

622! i went through and unfollowed a few inactive blogs but i know it's quite a lot lmao i like having a fast dash and i watch a variety of media so i like having new recommendations of things to watch

11. Have you ever made a shitpost?

yeah and none of them are funny but they make me laugh in the moment!

12. How often do you use tumblr a day?

pretty often since it's the only social media i actively go on— any time want to scroll through something i go on here

13. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

i don't think so? i hope not! i really don't like hurting others or being mean or confrontation so i can't think of anything

14. How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

i really dislike them bc usually those comments are from other people and i feel like they either derail or detract from the op's point or just encourage a passive activism that remains in a performative realm rather than actively researching or wanting find out more about a certain topic or issue

15. Do you like tag games?

i do! i like the thought that someone would tag me and i think they're fun but i'm always bad at doing them bc they tend to disappear from my notes or i just get swamped with work and forget fjsnkfdsjnf

17. Which mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?

ooo no clue there might be some but i genuinely don't care bc if i follow you it's bc i like the things you reblog or post and that's what matters not how popular or "tumblr famous" you are which is why i like that you can't see how many followers someone has it takes a lot of the pressure off of you and you can just enjoy the things you reblog instead!

18. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

all of them i adore you all and wish nothing but good things to happen to you!

[sixtiesfangirl]

earlier this week i was tagged by @hofnerviolinbass & @stevielynnicks to answer these questions! thanks darling flowers!! ⚘⚘

today i felt like giving more elaborate answers, so it got a bit long! sorry & here it goes:

Nickname: môni

Gender: female

Star sign: libra sun, sag moon, aqua rising

Height: 171 cm

Time: 7:52 pm

Birthday: oct 16

Favorite bands/groups: the beatles, pink floyd, the who.

Favorite solo artists: paul mccartney, george harrison, jeff buckley, françoise hardy, john lennon, niall horan, sam smith

Song stuck in my head: darling be home soon by the lovin' spoonful

Last movie: seaspiracy (2021)

Last TV show: this is us (can i just say i loved the last episode? i adore nicky's storyline sm u guys...)

When did I created this blog: july 2012. i had another blog before but abandoned it... when i decided to get back on tumblr, i thought a fresh start would be better!

What do I post: classic rock and other music i enjoy, 60s stuff, photography & classic movies...

Last thing I googled: therapists in my city. since i ended up moving cities during this pandemic & can't do online therapy, i gotta find me a new one

Other blogs: @earlysixties, where all the colorful posts (and more multifandom gifsets) go to! my main blog ended up becoming mostly a b&w one and i'm digging it... so yeah! ~ tho i don't really talk much there. the rambling is basically exclusive to this one

Do I get asks: not that often! but sometimes i do get some lovely asks from some mutuals!

Following/followers: following: 348 ~ it should be a bit less but i just can't let go of the abandoned blogs of dear mutuals that left in like 2015 or smth! followers: 19k ~ idk how or why?? my blog is not really popular & it's been years since i actually posted some content! since most of them arrived around 2014 they're likely bots... there are tons of abandoned blogs as well so...

Average hours of sleep: 6h or 7h on weekdays, 9h+ on weekends

Lucky number: i don't have one!

Instruments: when i was 14 i used to play guitar but abandoned it. somehow i still know how to play many chords and could play simple tunes... so i know how to play it, but don't know yk???

What am I wearing: a vintage yellow polaroid tshirt, grey shorts & black socks with little hamburgers and fries in it

Dream job: i wonder that myself! idk what i'd like to do really & the story is: i graduated in psychology in 2018 & was halfway through a postgrad in clinical psychology (& already being certified to work as a therapist) when.... i finally realised that that's not what i want to do with my life 😂😭 so i was studying to get any job & earlier this month i got a job in my city's transit department (working with the driver's license documentation) to gather a bit of money in the meantime. so!! i still gotta figure out what to do next really! it's a mess

Dream trip: egypt & italy

Favorite food: hmm i'll say it's chocolate cake with coconut filling!

Favorite song: hello it's me by todd rundgren or orange skies by love. i can never go wrong with any of them!

Last book I read: i'm currently reading kitchen by banana yoshimoto ~ i'm really enjoying it, i'm basically underlining everything because it is that good!

Three fictional universes I’d like to live in:

1. it would be lovely to be a clay? figurine from pingu. maybe the seal or that bird that laughs at his face as he flies off after pingu saves him from the lobster (as you can see, i still have every episode engraved in brain)

2. the town from kiki's delivery service

3. there was a cartoon when i was a kid that was called "mike, lu and og", it would be nice to live in their island! i also really like the style of animation of it ~ tho sometimes it seems like it was a delusion of mine bc whenever i mention it to people they never seem to know what the hell i'm talking abt!

well that's it! thanks to whoever read it to the end! 😂

i won't be tagging anyone bc idk who has already answered this one, but hey, you can do this if you feel like regardless!

[husberttee]

Choice Tag 🌵 🦋 🍀

Rules: Answer the questions (if you want to skip one, feel free to do that too of course!). Tag 3 people (or more or less, you choose really). Tag your post with #CHOICE_tag so we can find each others’ posts! Have fun!!

I got tagged by @slowlydiving thank you so so much I really wanted to take part in this one!!! <3

I'm tagging ... who? @morganasandhya ? are you a choice!??? I'm sorry I can't think of anybody WHO HASNT ALREADY BEEN TAGGED ADHVJLWDH if anybody following me considers themselves a Choice and has in fact NOT been tagged yet please absoloutely go ahead and say i tagged you.

1. Introduce yourself. You choose how much and how little!

Hello!~ I'm Alexander (or Alex. or Husbert as I use on tumblr) and I go by He/They pronouns.

2. How and when did you become a CHOICE?

Oof... so I actually already liked A.C.E predebut since I found their busking videos on YouTube. Back then I didnt know their names and just thought of them as 'guy with the cute smile' (donghun) or 'guy who's clearly just vibing' (Seyoon) or 'guy who knows he's hot shit' (jun) lmaoo.. so it must've been around 2016 that i discovered them? I only properly started stanning them when they actually had their debut though

3. What is your favourite part of being a CHOICE?

I'm actually not super deep in the fandom (so really thanks a lot for tagging me despite that!!!!) but I think overall we're a pretty civil fun little bunch of people who are generally nice to mope around and just simply stanning a wholesome group like a.c.e who continously put out great stuff is the best!

4. What is your favourite A.C.E song? Do you prefer their title tracks or b-sides more?

5. Who’s your bias? What do you like about them?

Oh god why would you ask me this... they don't have any bad songs nnnnnnghhh. I think recently I've been listening to Take Me Higher the most just simply because it fits the season so well? Underrated summer bop! <3 Also Stand by You. Aaaand the Butterfly Phantasy album is my favourite album of theirs generally that one was on repeat for like two weeks straight. bUT THEIR OLDER STUFF IS SO GOOD TOO LIKE SO SICK OR THE ENTIRE UNDER COVER ALBUM OR- cbwjefbhI SHOULDNT HAVE ATTEMPTED TO ANSWER THIS.

I like both their titles and their b-sides pretty equally.

6. What is your favourite thing about A.C.E?

uuuuhhh im a basic bitch so mr. junhee it is. He's 1. very very pretty (especially his smile bYE) 2. heavenly vocals 3. just the right amount of stoopid. 4. seriously what is he so handsome for.

Originally it was Donghun and I still regularily get wrecked by the rest of the groups so yeah they're just Like That

It's hard to pin point one favourite thing cause there's so many things.. It might sound funny but I like that they're only 5 guys and not 50 lmaoo. I also think they're one of the most well rounded groups out there. The full package of people who are genuinly skilled in vocals, rap and dance. Their concepts are always creative, their choreos are amazing and satisfying to watch and they all have great stage presence. And then they're ALSO funny and generally just. seem really nice and authentic? like they don't seem fake but they know to keep their private lives. well. private. good for them!!

7. Which concept has been your favourite? What kind of concept do you want them to try?

8. Which A.C.E friendship is your favourite? Which one do you want to see more of?

Another difficult one to answer. I like to call them concept kings cause they've really been putting out interesting stuff only from the beginning- Favourite boys definitely was super cool because I always love a traditional note like the hanbok or even in the sound (golden goose!!!) but I'll also never get over the Cactus hotpants. I want them back.

They can probably pull anything off really.... maybe something steam punky would be cool? its not a concept thats been done too often and they would definitely find a way to put an a.c.e spin on it.

I really like JunChan antics. Just a Fool trying to look after another slightly younger Fool. We love to see it. But besides that I can't really think of a dynamic I'm missing? Since they're only 5 they all seem really close :]

9. If you could tell A.C.E one thing what would you tell them?

Look after yourselfs and don't worry too much. Let's stay together for a long time! and Thank You!

10. Which A.C.E member would die first in a horror movie?

yeah uuuuuhhh r.i.p Junhee :/

11. Leave a small message for your fellow CHOICE!

Since I'm very multifandom i've seen my fare share of crazy so I really appreciate how chill and nice this small community is and I'd love to get to know more of you guys~ I hope we can keep this up even as the fandom grows, which for the boys sake I really wish to happen!

[just-a-writing-fan]

Y'all have been so supportive, generally speaking and for my writing and so patient and I love that, thankyou so much. I know I haven't been writing as much as I would like to, and when I have it honestly hasn't met my own standards, I mean I haven't been feeling it. What I have written as of late I felt has been rushed or half assed or genuinely just not too great, in my opinion, and when I've started what I wanted and intended to be series I get a little ways in like barely started and I stop because it isn't working. I have been writing fanfics since highschool so y'know, years, I have some on Wattpad and I've had several tumblrs throughout the years. On Wattpad some of my work has gotten a lot of feedback be it likes or votes over there and comments, but, I haven't written anything there in gracious at least I don't know 8 months? Longer I believe. Here on this Tumblr what I have written has gotten more likes than any other tumblr I've written on in the past.

I don't want to lie, why don't I write more? I'll have to say it's several reasons.

Even though writing is one of my several hobbies and favorite things to do, I don't do it often because I work so much and after work and on days off I'm either too tired or not feeling it

Why "not feeling it"? The best way I can describe it is well I have a lot on my mind, mentally, I don't know, that always seems to happen. Be it writing, or playing games, or reading, or singing, or crafting, or art, I love all those things but I always end up giving up after a while, especially the past several years. It's like I'll start and do it a while then I fall back into feeling depressed. So there is that

Another reason is because like I said, lately I haven't been pleased with my own work.

Then, this one sounds shallow and ungrateful and I am sorry, but, lack of motivation. Like I said my work on this Tumblr has gotten more likes than on any other one I've had and I'm so happy about that but it is hard to keep going, keep writing when noone is commenting or reblogging or anything except hitting like and moving on. I only have 64 followers, it's hard to keep writing when only 5 or 6 of them want to be tagged or give a crap. When even less respond when I try to get feedback like if I ask "hey want to be tagged" "hey anything you want to read?" Etc etc. Then I see all of these other blogs and writers where they have a plethora of followers sending asks, sending requests, reblogging, so on and so forth and the admins are so closed off; in their profile it will say Requests Closed or something similar. I start thinking, what am I doing wrong? It can't be a it takes time thing because I've been trying for years

Lately, I have had a lot on my mind, I won't rant too much into that but I've been dealing with a lot within myself and in my life, be it work or otherwise; lately it's been mostly stemming from work except for like one thing

Final reason is because this is a themed blog, Tom Holland/Arvin Russell/TDATT and I love that theme, thus why I made it, but,there is such limited content. The reason I made a themed account was because my random personal blogs were never successful. Maybe if I could expand just a little and maybe make it multifandom?

So yeah, I'm trying to write and stay on it and I'm trying to get back into my other pleasures as well as I need to start trying to get back to being better myself because I've felt depressed, like a failure,a lot of mixed emotions really, lonely, angry, bitter, anxious, honestly in some moments bipolar. Anxiety I know I have and have been diagnosed, and I can safely self diagnose depression but I'm not going to say I'm bipolar but one minute I can be fine then I can be pissed, yesterday was a rare perfectly nice day at work and I cried out of nowhere all day, if I think I get down, I haven't been able to listen to any kind of music in months without bursting to tears. I'm happy and stable in life and happy in my relationship, that has nothing to do with it; it's been feelings because of people at work and my mom and I've been comparing myself--I'm rambling and ranting, I'm sorry

So yeah, I will do my best, and be back at it when I can.....

Thankyou for the love, support, patience, interest, and time

Also, I know a ton of times I just hit like but I want to reblog so badly, I've just been trying so hard to stick to the theme; and if I enjoy someone's work I at least follow them

Quite honestly, I think I might feel just a smidge better if I got some sexual healing, physical attention like cuddling the way we used to but that won't happen lol (don't take that the wrong way, he truly loves me and has been super sweet and has done nothing but care for me the past five years; believe it or not I was worse before and don't take that wrong because y'know it's life and shit happens and everyone has ups and downs it is never perfect), and if I could stop comparing myself to others and I don't know why I do that. Maybe socializing and having more of a life would help as well but I am "introverted as fuck", his words, so really this is as good as I can do especially when I'm not able to actually go out like most people; being social online has not been easy for me either. I try to be outgoing online and otherwise and sometimes I succeed but after a while those relationships fail for one reason or another; yet some reason I keep trying? I'm at a point where I want to give up thinking/knowing I'll be better off shutting myself off completely from as much of the world as I can and not wanting to quit and hanging onto hope that there may be a way....with a lot of my issues coming from work now, I don't know what good it would do.....

Y'all have seen that I do try because I'm still putting myself out there on the line and talking to yall; I honestly think I am the one that eventually screws up things everytime not knowing how-----no, that's another topic Jess

So yeah

I try to be a people person and I guess I'm not???

So far y'all have been exceedingly wonderful to me, thankyou for that too. I only hope I don't mess up somehow

So yeah, I will work on some things and write when I can (I have made this post so many times on so many blogs but this is as detailed and open as I've been)

[incarnateirony]

You didn't ship Destiel until S13!? That really took me by surprise! In that case, thank you for defending the ship even if you didn't ship it, that's really nice and your meta made it easier to deal with the antis. And welcome to the Destiel side of the force! :)

Yeah, several people -- @dotthings off the top of my head, I really don’t remember who else -- literally witnessed the screaming fall into the dumpster.

Again, I really don’t know if I still consider what I do ~shipping.~ I have no specific demands for how their relationship continues from here, I just acknowledge it within the work. The difference that hit in S13 was welcoming that content instead of guarding myself against it because we got slammed with several consecutive bookends that completed an entire romantic arc and punctuated it with a far more impacting mirror of an endgame that didn’t even have said romantic arc to begin with, in Swan Song, so like??? what am I supposed to do? Just ignore it? Act like I can’t understand what just happened in front of me?

To put some perspective, I’ve been running SPN games for... a while. My most recent one was on a discord server that’s niche, but my prior one was on a giant multifandom server. I covered for Cas to keep his power levels in check to the story balance without like, making the humans irrelevant. My Dean at the time was hardcore shipping trash. His name was Chris, he was a bisexual dude in Chile, psychologist, good dude. But like??? it deadass annoyed me? How up Cas’ ass his writing was? The shippers that came in actually kinda annoyed me with trying to matchmaker them in game??? Like. I saw it, but I guess it’s the old “That’s not what the show is about” (which unlike how fandom whips it around, doesn’t mean it can’t exist at all, it’s the obsessive tunnel visioned focus that pissed me off because it kept railroading scenes)

But despite that, during and before it, I was yeah, defending it. Just because I wasn’t an active ~shipper~ didn’t mean I was cool with people stomping on people for very reasonably seeing the stuff my last post mentioned. I just kinda kept myself from investing because I know this old media song and dance too well and didn’t expect it to break, say, S10 levels. And then 11 happened. And then 12. And then--

Because no matter what this fandom says, Castiel’s alien mystified staring at Dean, while great chemistry in old seasons, does not actually compare to things like frequent lunch dates, need and love yous, mixtapes, Eileen being Sam’s Cas in 15.09 and so on. In the actual, not-head-up-ass-about-old-rewritten-content-meta’ed-15-times-over often fused to really bad hot takes on what people call queer coding. But I could respect that, say, the ramifications of swapping Cas and Anna roles to keep Misha around while Julie was bouncing out and getting uncomfortable naturally landed Cas in the hero’s journey goddess role, ala princess Leia if you will, the distressing warrior nondamsel rebelling against the empire and whatnot. But that doesn’t start or end at star wars, that’s thousands of years of human writing.

So while yes, the show heavily stripped the actual content that would have traditionally structured it romantic, people like seeing that x their chemistry early on-- not crazy.

And I defended it for years /to my wife/ despite my server vexations. On this giant dozens-of-thousands-of-users multifandom server not connected to any core fandom spaces and hosting innumerable fandoms and walks of life, I was the oddball out -- me. As a nonshipper annoyed by the crowd, often having 20-30 people logged into my channel at a time playing everything from early Cain to Benny to TFW to Wayward to *throws dart at board* whatever, of the hundreds of names that drifted through the game in sum (including player rotations, OCs and audience that just came to watch/read like a fic), you know how many antis we had?

Three.

One was my wife. so removing her, two.

Do you know how many shippers there were? 

Yeah neither do I, just, “pretty much all of them.” a few hung in “see it, don’t care, moderately annoyed” like I did. But this idea that the GA is a bunch of het-guzzling bozos that can’t do the same basic math all of you fucking did before you got here, just because some other dead-ass irrelevant ship composed entirely on leftfield interpretations to validate niche fandom ships -- that shit’s so far fucking divorced from goddamn reality.

As for my wife, yes. She was an anti. In fact long before I wandered into fandom social media (I think I actually jumped in around S12 bc I saw Dabb taking over and Bobo getting promoted and was interested in Yockey-- Yockey was the first person I tweeted at), I was on these servers, running these games, having these ARGUMENTS with my wife to be quite honest, because like, look, I get it, Destiel fandom can be weird and needy and over the top but they’re not crazy for what they see out of it. By Carver era it was classic subtext.

But she had followed Winbros for years not realizing it’s literally run by the real world becky and her BFFs that have tasteful POVs like “Misha Collins is cancer” “Dabb is a disease” and whatever else on their personals that proxy through their posts and motivations. She attended it on Facebook, which is THE goddamn conservative magafarm asshole platform and yeah, read a lot of shitty arguments. Yes, she picked up sayings like “it ruins the show”. Yes, she hated it. No, that didn’t mean I felt anyone deserved more than mild frustration for their behaviors at the time just because they were stuck in fanfic-shipping-fiction-over-romanticised-land and not canon-divergent-show-genre-complex-interpersonal-relationships fiction. 

She, too, cracked about the same time I did. I was more receptive sure, I saw it more sure, but after a mix of addressing some personal problems, making an OC that completely changed how her perception filtered Dean and Castiel working together, whatever-- and yes, 12.19->13.5. The night of 13.5, the final shot, as the screen went dark, she stared over her phone and, with tonal distaste, said “Oh. So they’re going there.”

Yes, it’s that fucking obvious. No, she didn’t admit that’s what did her in. Not until the end of the season, when she admitted she had been bullshitting arguments since early season 13 because, literally, and I quote, “otherwise Min wins.” -- which, if that comes by way of my own wife, I can only stare into the fandom camera at other people that have turned this show into a decade long money sink and have been divorced from the actual canon path for like minimum 3 years, maybe 6, yelling about it being wrong all the time, etc. Because on the internet, people convince themselves they have ownership and power, that their opinion of what the piece should be overrides even the creators, et cetera. Yeah. There’s a lot of disingenuous horse shit.

TLDR my wife fell into the dumpster and, as the flag of the end of our weird spats, and a birthday present, I made her this, since she IDs as Dean (OLD vid, has hiccup issues newer ones don’t)

So, yup, dat me.

To this day I still don’t read fanfics or browse fanart or any of that. I’ve never cared about that face of the fandom. I’ve never cared about making up rando ships, I’ve never cared about exactly how any given relationship plays itself out, I just enjoy the ride and address it as it does indeed play out. Most shipping culture still pisses me the fuck off with its dialogue, as I’ve made very clear. But because I’m acknowledging the text instead of denying what keeps happening more centrally and critically every year on screen, I’d be called a shipper. Because I’m tired of watching people spew logic even most children could pick apart in an endless roundabout of negativity, because I have no tolerance for absolute horse shit and fandom whining so I just lay out counters to bad talking points, I’d be called a shipper.

But 13.5ish is when I finally let myself start emotionally receiving the content rather than barring it off in a distant wall of exhausted old gay that knows their media too well. Why? Because it already completed and went above and beyond every element of the original way they painted the original goddamn endgame and I guess because I won’t set unfair bars against queer relationships and set them at Extra Hard Difficulty, I’m a shipper. IDK. This fandom fucking exhausts me. Fandom culture in general exhausts me.

[elcorhamletlive]

I can finally post this!

fandom: MCU (Post- Avengers 2012) tags: Fluff and Humour, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, Idiots in Love, POV Tony Stark, Stony Loves Steve 2019

summary: Tony is thrilled about his new relationship with Steve. He's on cloud nine, in fact. It's so amazing he can believe it's real.

He just wishes they could... Uh. Touch a little. Just a little.

Ok, so, here’s the thing: Tony never, in a million years, thought Steve would say “yes”.

Not because of some exacerbated insecurity or anything. As anyone who knows him can attest, Tony is far from oblivious to his appeal. He knows he’s an attractive man, and that he could charm his way out of nearly anything, if he wanted to.

He also knows he’s good at flirting. He knows how to be seductive without being inconvenient, how to be flattering without exaggerating, how to be suggestive without pushing any boundaries. He has mastered his technique over years, practicing with many different people. He never had any trouble getting a date, and, to be completely honest, he doesn’t think he ever will.

But.

There is a huge difference between dating, in its usual simple, casual meaning, and the utterly other-worldly, mind blowing, frankly almost terrifying concept of dating Steve Rogers. Dating is easy, but dating Steve – going out for a movie with Steve, holding his hand, kissing him after the night is over, asking if he wants to come up to the penthouse… If you ask Tony, there’s an entire universe of distance between these two ideas. They’re barely in the same astral plane.

And Tony—Tony doesn’t even know what possessed him to ask. It had been an insane impulse to rival every single one of his most self-destructive habits. There he was, in the kitchen, filling himself with coffee, when Steve walked in with a book in his hand, sitting on a stool. He was wearing his grandpa clothes, his brow was furrowed and his blond bangs were falling a little on his forehead.

Tony watched him, and at one point he closed his book and fished out the tiniest notepad from his pocket. He wrote something down, tongue sticking out from the corner of his mouth, deep concentration as his fingers brushed his bangs to the side, and Tony had thought: Oh. Oh, I wish I could have him.

That hadn’t been a new thought – actually, it bordered on repetitive at that point, echoing in his head anytime he watched Steve do basically anything - but it apparently resonated with something in Tony’s sleep-deprived brain, because the next thing he knew, he was rambling about reservations that he had made for him and Pepper, and how Pepper had cancelled, and how he missed eating steak, and if Steve wanted to have dinner with him.

And Steve said yes.

And that—well, to say it caught Tony off guard would be an understatement. He had just stared at Steve for a moment in silence when FRIDAY helpfully jumped in to inform him of the reservation's time. Steve had smiled, and Tony had gaped at him like a fish, and, just like that, he had a date with Steve Rogers.

The hours that followed were some of the slowest of Tony’s life. He had been a pile of nerves in a way he didn’t remember ever being before a date. He found himself trying on the suit he used to meet the president and finding it incredibly ill-fitting.

Then, at 6:38, he was ready, exactly twenty-two minutes too early. Fortunately, Steve, being who he was, had also shown up to meet him in the living room early, so Tony didn’t have to wait for long.

Dinner was… surprisingly great. Granted, Tony was almost vibrating off his chair, but Steve didn’t seem to mind. He had been outraged by the prices, which Tony found both exasperating and adorable, and after a moment of initial awkwardness, they fell into an easy, natural banter. Steve was a great listener, Tony found. He heard everything Tony said with the utmost attention, but he wasn’t always quiet either – he’d interject with a blunt wit that made Tony grin a little ridiculously at times, and he’d nod at Tony’s rambling as if it were worth listening to.

The restaurant worked, too. It was a discreet bistro not too far away from the Tower. The food tasted delicious, and Steve cleaned up his plate with such voracity that Tony simply had to convince him to order dessert. Steve complained a little, saying it wasn’t fair to let Tony pay for everything, but Tony won the argument, promising he’d let Steve pay next time (Steve didn’t even blink at the suggestion that there would be a next time, which, really, made Tony feel like floating off his seat).

All in all, it was a great choice, even though it was far from the place Tony would have picked to take Steve on a first date – though, to be fair, Tony wouldn’t have been able to rent out the Louvre on such little notice anyway.

By the time they got home, though, Tony’s anxiety had resurfaced again. Even as he grinned at Steve and continued to talk normally, his hands twitched hopelessly in the pockets of his jacket. He wondered if Steve’s occasional lingering gaze was enough of a hint of what his reaction would be if Tony tried to close the evening with a goodnight kiss.

When they got to Steve’s floor, Steve turned towards him and smiled – a large, sincere smile that knocked Tony’s breath right out of his lungs.

“Thank you, Tony. I… To be honest, I don’t remember the last time I had that much fun, in this time.” And he looked a little embarrassed, a little awkward, but still… almost giddy with happiness, as if he had truly forgotten how it felt to be this way. “Thank you.”

And then the elevator doors opened, and Steve got out, and there was no kiss but really, that had been even better. The doors closed, and Tony rested his head on the wall and smiled like an idiot at the ceiling.

That had been date number one. Date number two happened almost a week later, after Rhodey managed to convince Tony Steve wouldn’t want to drop everything and go to Paris with him just because Tony thought anything New York had to offer simply wasn’t good enough. Tony then finally caved and, rambling about how Pepper had talked up the MET’s latest exhibit at the office, asked if Steve would like to go see it on Friday. The way Steve’s face lit up at the suggestion made Tony mentally promise Rhodey a dozen new upgrades for his suit.

“Dude,” Rhodey had laughed when Tony informed him of it that night, “You are so screwed.”

Tony had rolled his eyes and ignored him.

By the time Friday arrived, he was already regretting following Rhodey’s suggestion – what was so great about the MET, anyway? And even if Steve liked it, Tony couldn’t stand art museums, not even the Louvre, so wasn’t this proof of the unavoidable truth that they were ultimately incompatible? It had to be, right? Really, he should just cancel the whole thing and spare them the inevitable misery.

Except then Steve showed up, with a button up shirt and a leather jacket and a bright smile, and Tony’s brain promptly melted and leaked right out of his ears, so. They ended up going.

As the hours went by, walking with Steve through the MET’s hallways, watching the way he frowned thoughtfully at a few pieces and stopped to analyze every detail, Tony’s thoughts changed. Museums could be fun, he realized. Museums could be… witty, and smart, and sweet. Really, museums were so, so…

Rhodey is right, Tony thought, watching Steve struggle with his phone settings to attempt to take a selfie with a painting and having to fight back an honest to god sigh. I’m completely screwed.

The following dates only consolidated that reality. He and Steve went to the Natural History Museum, to Coney Island, to the Brooklyn Bridge. The city Tony knew since his childhood seemed to gain new life when he was exploring it through Steve’s eyes. Steve had so many stories, and so many interesting insights about how things had or hadn’t changed, that it made Tony feel that New York was, suddenly, the most interesting place in the world. He started to spend most of his time at the Tower, only going to Malibu when Pepper really, really demanded his presence.

And Steve. Through these adventures, Tony found out so much about him – little things like his favorite ice cream flavor (rocky road), the kind of movies he liked (mostly sci-fi and fantasy, but he was also fond of animations), the fact that he liked buying the newspaper to do the crosswords. He learned things about Steve that Steve himself couldn’t tell, like the way he walked, the way his eyes crinkled when he laughed, the way he brushed his bangs off his forehead when he was nervous or embarrassed. Things a person could only learn by spending time with him, which Tony was doing in ever-growing levels – and yet, worryingly, it never seemed to be enough.

And, yeah, it was a little… weird, at times. Tony had never dated – or hell, even been attracted to someone for so long without moving things to the physical side of the equation. With Steve, though, that side didn’t seem to exist at all. Two months after their first date, they were going out at least once a week, and they still hadn’t kissed, or, shit, even held hands.

Tony had thought about it (by God, had he thought about it) but anytime he thought he could take the initiative, something on Steve’s demeanor would seem to stiff, too skittish, and then it wouldn’t seem like a very good idea.

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[virginbutstillahoe]

Positive 20 Questions Tag Game

i made a tag game again.  i’m bored, procrastinating, and certain we all need some more positivity right now. hell yeah.

1.) Name 4 fictional characters who showcase your personality the best, with explanations if you want.

- dean winchester (supernatural): i never shut up about his but dean is me y’all.  we both be out here, acting like we’re tough when we’re just jelly filled dorks, being nurturing as hell, making jokes to cheer people up, with a constant chip on our shoulders, and secretly just wanting someone to love us and love someone back.  

- maria vontrapp (sound of music): i know she’s not technically a fictional character since that’s based on a true story but whatever.  you know what i could name everything about her, but i won’t bc who has time for that.  basically just fucking listen to the song “maria” from that movie where all the nuns roast her and you’ve basically got my personality wrapped in a bow for you.  just an innocent ass train wreck that just wants to love everyone but doesn’t realize that manners are a thing.  that song is so me that my family used to sing it at me when i was little and they still do.  also when she blows the whistle obnoxiously at the captain and is just like “lol sorry captain didn’t know how i was supposed to address you :)))” super passive aggressively, me.

- tracy samantha lorde (the philadelphia story): okay she’s definitely classier and fancier than me but, the real vulnerable shit underneath all of her grace and beauty is samesies.  she basically is so intolerant of people being anything less than perfect because she’s so afraid of people getting close to her and seeing her flaws....cough cough.  she keeps everyone at a distance because she doesn’t want to get hurt. lmao.

- lilo (lilo and stitch): another fictional character that my family needed to point out was me at every turn.  my older sister and i actually used to say ohana to each other before bed because she was so similar to nani and i’m so similar to lilo and we fight EXACTLY like them.  lilo is just a little outcast who, once again, just loves everyone and wants to be seen and loved for who she is, but has such a hard time connecting to people because they don’t understand her and her aggressive way of showing her intense emotions.  my mama still calls me lilo sometimes.  i have a lilo plushie on my bed and a lilo sticker on my laptop bc i love her and she gets me.  

2.) Aesthetic?

-  bright colors, ocean waves, dirty and torn clothing, and wildflowers.

3.) Favorite musical/play? (If you’ve never seen a musical or play, one you’d be interested in seeing?

- into the woods.  it was phantom of the opera for most of my childhood and teenage years, but into the woods really just goes after the life metaphors and really makes  you think about the difference between right, wrong, and gray areas. like there’s a song about how adventure changes you and makes you view the world differently.  there’s another about how somewhere between mundane and perfect is where the best parts of life lie.  there’s another all about how important children are and how vital it is that you are careful what you say and do around them.  it just goes the fuck off. 

4.) What is the best compliment you’ve ever received?

- “you think about the world in ways i never thought were possible”

5.) How many times have you been in love?

- kind of 1? i’ve been into the same person my whole life but i’m constantly debating myself on if unrequited love can count as being in love with someone you’re actually with, if that makes sense?

6.) Embarrassing story or fact about yourself that makes you laugh now?

- when i was little, i secretly wanted to be an actress on broadway, so when i was home alone and would watch movies, i would pick a character in the movie and act out their parts as i watched like a crazy person lol.

7.) Favorite Disney/Pixar movie?

- favorite disney movie is lilo and stitch for reasons mostly mentioned in the first question, but the family doesn’t get left behind or forgotten and the outcast is not unloveable they’re just misunderstood messages just send me and really helped baby molly.  how obvious is it that i’m a giant sucker for an interesting message?

8.) Favorite flower or plant?

- black eyed susans.  they’re a wild flower with a similar beauty to daisies, but with a little bit of darkness in them.  

9.) What’s your favorite holiday?

- christmas biiiiiiitch.  it’s the one time of year i’m not worried that my house is haunted and i get to sing all the time and people don’t find it weird or annoying.  the snow is not the best but everything else makes up for it.

10.) Name three things that made you laugh or smile this past week.

- when i was laying in the grass today, a little tiny robin hopped over to me and whistled at me and it was a magical experience

- i realized i only have 3 more weeks of school until this hell semester is over

- my mom made my bed on top of me and if you’ve never had someone do that to you before, did you have a childhood? are you okay? also find someone to do it to you right now.

11.) What song would you play to introduce yourself to someone?

- either "thank you for the music” by abba or from mamma mia depending on the kind of person you are, or i guess the song “maria” that i mentioned before lmao

12.) Name something that truly makes you feel peaceful even at your most stressed moments.

- laying down in the grass on a nice sunny day and just listening the sounds of birds, bugs, and other surrounding noises.

13.) What do you, did you, or would you study at college?

- i am currently working on my masters degree in special education for elementary school ages.  i will probably go back and get a second masters in school counseling to help students with special needs who are in traumatic situations or are mistreated at home.  

14.) This is kind of a weird one, but which outfit of yours makes you feel most like yourself?

- my emotional support outfit as my friends call it is my toy story pajama pants with my guiness sweatshirt from ireland 

15.) What is a quote you live by?

- be fiercely and ferociously yourself.

i have also recently started to follow “you’ve got to lighten up, it’s just life.”

16.) Name the funniest playlist name you have.

- “the chocolate ganache” and i called it that because it’s full of songs that represent my soul and personality and chocolate ganache is what i like to think my filling would be if i was a cake.

17.) Make a reference to an inside joke you have with someone you love with zero context.

- bob hope and bing crosby

18.) What is a message you would give your younger self if given the chance?

- if someone doesn’t like you for who you are, tell them to fuck directly off.

19.) Who is your favorite family member? (If you have no good blood family members, feel free to mention someone in your found family) 

- my late grandfather.  i called him papa and he was basically my father.  he was smart, cuddly, serious, fiercy loving, and kind of dorky, but he was the best and i miss him every day.

20.) What’s a secret dream of yours?

- my childhood dream mentioned above still kinda lingers around in my brain from time to time, but i know it’s not possible for me.

tagging my friends (or at least i’d like to think we’re friends lmao) @navajolovesdestiel @victorian-sexstache @missjojo96 @multifandom-fanatic @day-fire @baby-in-a-trenchcoat7 @green-eyes-and-classic-rock, and @thetiredstuff and literally anyone else who wants to play.  for real.

if i didn’t tag you and you play, please tag me! i’d love to read through yours!

if i did tag you and you’re intimidated by the size of this and have decided, “fuck that noise” i respect you and i get it no hard feelings (:

[jandjsalmon]

Not to shade you or anything, but ask yourself whether do you REALLY care about Sprousehart or Riverdale. Or do you just follow them because they have more contents. I have been following you and unfollowing you for quite a while because I do not see any love. You seem more keen on Dylan which is fine but I have an impression that deep down you are irritated by the fandom and SH in general. I may be wrong but that is my impression. I am not keen on fan fic tho. So maybe my dash is different.

Like I said earlier, I’m in a FOUL mood today - so I’m going to take your criticisms one by one and address them instead of ignoring them (as I do with most messages from people who don’t own their opinions and send cowardly unkind anons). You can thank the headache later.

…ask yourself whether do you REALLY care about Sprousehart or Riverdale. Or do you just follow them because they have more contents. 

Do I really care about Sprousehart or Riverdale? Yes. Yes I do. Thank you for suggesting the self evaluation. 

I’m invested in Bughead, Sprousehart, and Riverdale (as an actual fan who still watches and doesn’t continually moan about how “much better season one was” - how’s that for being a super special unicorn in this fandom?) - and maybe my interest is not illustrated on my blog in a way that makes YOU satisfied, Grayface - but it is in a way that makes me happy. This is not a blog dedicated solely to any of those few things. It’s a multifandom blog… you know, like those fun posts that point out that not everyone has a sideblog for every interest? Yeah, like that.

Do I really care about those things? Yeah. I just don’t need to track the locations of two actual real people and moan about whether maybe one might be cheating or whether one is too good for the other, or whether their relationship is just PR, or whether their lesbian friends are really not lesbians at all because they MUST be wanting the magical peen that can’t be controlled. I don’t NEED that kind of drama in my life - so I have filtered that garbage out of my fandom experience because those parts of their lives are NONE of my business and because I’m here to enjoy my free time.

AND what does it even mean “do I just follow them because they have more contents”? I’m at a loss, dude. First “follow” who? Are you asking if I’m just pretending to enjoy thing things that I say I enjoy? Like the hyperfixation is my identity or something? Are you implying that my value in the world matters only by what I reblog here? Look, I’ve had this blog since 2012. I still have followers from 2012. I have gone through MANY a fandom and gained MANY a follower from the various hyperfixations - but it is Riverdale that I have fricking POURED my heart into. If you honestly believe I’m NOT invested in this fandom and that I don’t care about these things - then I wish you would tell my family that, because they would argue that with the hours and hours of time I spend beta reading Bughead fanfiction, finding LOST Bughead stories for people on a blog I created over two years ago and have run almost exclusively on my own (I’m so appreciative to K and MM but both have taken huge hiatuses over the past two years and I was left quite literally to run the blog alone) - they would argue that I spend more time with everyone here than I do with them. So tell me how that’s just sticking with a fandom because it has more “contents”? O.o

I have been following you and unfollowing you for quite a while because I do not see any love. 

I apologize for not showing you all the love that you think a true fan should effuse. I wonder what the magic number is. What does the right amount of love look like? Is there a quota for how much content must just be Cole and Lili or Bughead? Because #bughead is my number one tag and I tag almost everything so what exactly am I not doing enough to show you that I actually LOVE them? How can I prove to you that I actually like them? What will satisfy you?

And honestly - why are you following me at all, Grayface? You don’t need to keep following and and unfollowing. As evidenced by the fact that instead of sending a message as a friend - or even just signing your name in an Ask and owning your opinion - you clearly don’t want me to know who you are - and that means you probably don’t mean all that much to me either. You honestly don’t need to keep refollowing. I won’t even notice you’re gone. 

You seem more keen on Dylan which is fine but I have an impression that deep down you are irritated by the fandom and SH in general. 

This is actually the most laughable bit of your rant. I am keen on Dylan. I really am. I like him a lot. It’s not a secret. I’ve had many a mean anonymous message about it actually. While I liked Bughead and Cole first, it’s true - I also like Dylan. But here’s the thing - I’m allowed. I am also super keen on Matthew Sprouse. In fact, if there was more “content” about him, I would probably happily curate my blog and dedicate it just to him and to Magnus (who is actually my favourite Sprouse). Do you also go to the people who post a lot about The 100 or Olicity or Star Wars or Brooklyn 99 and tell them they don’t love SH and Bughead enough too? 

Am I irritated with the fandom and SH in general? I’m not irritated with Sprousehart. They are two beautiful people in love and I LOVE their love. Their love makes me SO happy for them. I appreciate every single thing they choose to share with us on social media whilst respecting that it is a TINY portion of their life. I love them as individuals - I’ve grown to care about their families and their friends. I love that they come together and share those moments together (whether they show them to us or not). I love the fun of speculating things like “will Lili wear wedge heels to Duan’s wedding so she doesn’t get stuck in the grass?” - but I do not feel the need to reblog every movement - every like on Instagram. This is not a dedicated sprousehart blog. There are other blogs that will do that - and that’s super and hopefully brings them joy (you should follow them) - but that’s not the point of the jandjsalmon blog that has been here since 2012. I do not need to track the social media movements of two people whom I will never meet and whom would not remember me in fifteen minutes if I DID meet them. One thing people who get overly invested forget is that while SH means a LOT to us we mean literally nothing (as individuals) to them. They appreciate their fans and they are touched when people are kind and supportive. But we literally are not their friends. We don’t matter - no matter how often you pay the exorbitant amount of money to have a photo with them at a convention or how often you have a fan photo with them on the street or how often you send them flowers or presents on set. The faves do not think about any of us individually when they lay their heads on their pillows at night. I love seeing their beautiful faces and their beautiful clothes and I support them 100% in their endevours - whether it’s in Riverdale or their other projects - but their life is not my life. And though I’ve not always been this way - I have enough wherewithal now to be able to take a step back from obsession and move into “passive fandom enjoyment.” It’s a good feeling.

So I’m not irritated with SH. But who I AM irritated with are people who think that a friendship with King Princess must mean Cole is cheating on his girlfriend with her. It’s offensive to both Cole and KP even if she wasn’t out and proud, but it’s extra gross with how it’s ignoring her sexual identity. I AM irritated with people who I can only assume are insecure adults who’ve never been in a healthy relationship or are adolescents who think relationships must be codependent and unhealthy or they aren’t “twu love” and must be “on the rocks.” I’m irritated with people who on one hand say they’re Lili supporters and “only want the best for her” because “she deserves better” but then go on to think that she is a stupid child who can’t possibly have a mind of her own because her boyfriend is totally abusing her and she’s just letting it happen. That annoys and irritates me because it takes away her agency and infantilizes her - at the same time as it criticises and hurts the person she loves “with her whole heart” (thank you Mama Reinhart for that quote). SO if you’re one of those SH bloggers who say and do that? Then yes - YOU irritate me. 

But the whole community? Heck no. There are some amazing people here who love SH and are just here for the fun! Really kind and funny people. Really loving and sweet people who just love to get excited about stuff. I LOVE those people. I want to be around more of those people - but I gotta tell you, having mass panic on my dashboard was not good for my mental health. It’s not good for anyone’s mental health to panic about things they have absolutely no control over. So maybe I unfollowed you a while ago and you’re salty about it. I’m sorry - but I’m not sorry. I gotta curate my dash to make myself happy. 

I may be wrong but that is my impression. I am not keen on fan fic tho. So maybe my dash is different. 

Perhaps your dash is different, Grayface. You must not follow a lot of the same people I follow - or maybe my original post wasn’t for you? If that’s the case - then maybe you didn’t need to be so unkind in an Anonymous message. I dunno. This whole thing maybe could have been avoided. Honestly - if you feel my blog doesn’t have enough of the content you like - then you shouldn’t follow me. You should follow blogs that DO make you happy. No one tied you to the bed frame and made you follow (and then unfollow and then refollow) me. 

It’s no secret - I’m here for the fic. I love fanfiction. I particularly love Bughead fanfiction. (interestingly enough - I love paperlesscrown’s Sprousehart fanfiction too… heck - I even beta read it). But my dash isn’t just fanfiction- it just so happens that I’ve met and made friends with a lot of fic writers and lovers over the last three years and we all follow each other and therefore there are going to be days where we all reblog the same stuff. My post this morning was exasperation because the same fanfic was literally reblogged on my dash 18 times within about a half hour from when I woke up this morning. So I lashed out inappropriately. I said “holy cow we look like we all only follow each other - clearly we all need new friends” - and it would have been a non-issue when I took a breather from tumblr, had a cookie, and checked back. I probably would have even laughed about it - or at the very least, deleted the post.

But then you (and the Anon before) had to go and send a message like this. 

How incredibly unkind of you, Grayface. Honestly - if you DO follow me, please stop. I’m clearly not the blog for you. You don’t want to be my friend. And I kinda don’t want to be yours either. I don’t want to have friends who send anonymous messages to other people to tell them all the things that you feel is wrong with them. That’s not my brand. Find your fun somewhere else. Better yet, block me and then you never have to see my lack of support and ill-quality as a Bughead, Riverdale, or Sprousehart fangirl ever again.

[krreader]

my fault - the aftermath.

pairing: jeon jeongguk x reader ; surprise (: x reader fandom: bts warnings: language genre: angst ; fluff previous: x

summary: you were desperately looking to put an end to yours and jeongguk’s relationship, since your break-up didn’t exactly give you closure. but where there’s an ending, there’s a beginning as well.

a/n: I honestly don’t know how many of you have requested a part 2 for my fault, but here it finally is haha. hope you like it ♥

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No calls, no texts, no visits..

..it's really as if he didn't care. As if he never cared..

That was probably the worst part of the break-up, thinking that not only had he wasted two years of his life with you, but you did as well. You spent two years of your life with somebody that you thought loved you, but clearly didn't, or he would have taken at least a bit of effort to win you back. A bit of effort to make you understand you were important to him.

But you tried to push through, tried to tell yourself that you were worth more than what he had made you feel these past months.

And just when you felt like you were finally at a point that you could at least breathe again and go a day without crying over this man you once called the love of your life, he was standing in front of your door, still looking as handsome as you remembered him.

“Please don't close the door,” he said when he saw your expression change. He felt like you would shove the door into his face again. For a good reason, “I.. I just want to say something.”

“A little late.. it's been three months..”

Three months. And yet it still felt like yesterday.

Getting over somebody you loved was hard, but getting over somebody you thought you’d spend your life with was harder. 

You had thought you and Jeongguk would marry each other one day, would have children and life happily ever after.

And you still clung to that. Still hoped it was all a bad dream, especially now that he was standing in front of you.

But you had to remind yourself what he did.

You couldn’t give in anymore, even if you wanted to.

“I told my members about you..”

“What?” at that you started laughing. Earnestly, “So you hid me for two years and now that we broke up you tell them about me?”

“I know I should have done it a long time ago, I realize that now, but.. I would like you to meet them now. I don't think you'll ever forgive me, but they told me they all wanted to get to know you. I'm just here to tell you that and ask you if you wanted to get to know them too..”

Was he serious? Two whole years you tried to get to know his band members and two whole years he refused. You begged him to at least let you go to a concert to meet them, but he always refused.

And now he wanted you to get to know them? Now after it was over?

What fucked up game was he playing here?

“Why did you tell them about me in the first place? Why bother now?”

“They saw I wasn't well and kept asking me about it,” he fidgeted with his hands, “I don't know.. I just couldn't lie anymore, I guess. And it felt so good telling them about you. Made me realize I should have done it a long time ago.. especially when they were so interested in you and asked all sorts of questions about you. It.. made me happy.”

You weren't sure what to feel. Confusion because he showed up so suddenly? Empathy, because from the looks of it, he really regretted his actions? No, definitely not that one.

He had made his decision on not fighting for you and you wouldn't fall into that trap of forgiving him again.

You're worth more than that, (Y/N). Show him you're better. Prove to him that he lost an amazing woman. And show his band members that their perfect little maknae had fucked up by letting you go.

“Alright,” you nodded, “I'll meet them.”

Let them see what a great person you are. Let them see that you weren’t a desperate fan waiting down in the entrance hall of their apartment complex, but a girl that had loved her boyfriend so unconditionally, that she let herself be treated like shit for months.

Let them see how they all missed out.

“R..- Really?”

“But don't think you and me are going to have a happy ending. I'm only coming because I've always liked your music and want to meet them,” which was actually incredibly true. You had always been a fan of theirs.

The fact that you were coming was a lot more than he had expected, to be honest. He had thought you would refuse right away, so he would take whatever he could get, for whatever reason.

And maybe, just maybe, he could show you that he wanted you back.

Show you how much he really loved you and how much he regretted his decision every single day.

“(Y/N)?” Namjoon smiled at you.

“Yeah,” you extended your hand, “Nice to finally meet you.”

“Likewise. Jeongguk.. told us a lot.”

“Well.. at least he's doing that after our break-up,” you followed Namjoon into the apartment.

“I'm really sorry for everything that happened between you two. I'm sure he didn't tell us the whole story, but..- you deserved better,” Namjoon loved Jeongguk, but treating someone you love like he had treated you was a big no-go and he wouldn’t defend him in this.

He couldn’t.

“I know,” you nodded, a small smile on your face, “Took me a while to realize it, but.. I know.”

Namjoon matched your smile and walked you into the living room, introducing you to all the other members.

While you chatted with them, Jeongguk stood at the back and just.. watched you all. Watched how easily you interacted with them, how much they seemed to like you and laugh at everything you said. He watched you smile happily, with genuine happiness. And for a split second he imagined you visiting for a different reason.

Because he finally introduced you as his girlfriend.

..not his ex-girlfriend.

But he’s had two years to do that. And he missed his opportunity.

“How long were you together?” Taehyung asked over dinner, “Jeongguk was really vague.”

“Two years,” you nodded, thinking about your next words very carefully, but feeling like you had to say it, “That's how much time he wasted on me.”

“Stop,” your ex shook his head, “That's not true,” he said instantly.

“Isn't it?” you put down the spoon and leaned back, narrowing your eyes at him, “Tell me, how many of you would hide your girlfriend from each other and your loved ones for so long?” you looked around, all of their heads dropping, because the answer was none.

Jeongguk, however, stared right back into your eyes and was hurt by the lack of emotions in them.

You used to look at him with so much love and adoration.

But that love must have died the day he left you. Like a lot of things that had died that day.

Instead of saying something snarky, or something that might hurt you, he just whispered: “I'm sorry, (Y/N). Truly,” because he was.

If he could turn back time and undo what he did, he would. He would introduce you to his loved ones and would tell them how much he loved you. He would take you out to dates and would show you how much he appreciated you every single day, would make sure you knew how much you were loved.

But that was impossible now.

Now, he had to deal with the fact that he had lost you. A girl that he couldn’t help but think was the love of his life.

And while his heart was breaking more and more, you were somehow feeling better by the second.

All those months, you had tried to find an ending to your story. You tried to move on, but something had always held you back.

Now, hearing him apologize to you..-

Maybe this was it.

It was only when you were on the balcony after dinner and he joined you, that you asked:

“You said you were sorry before. What are you sorry for?”

He stood at the door, watching your hair blow in the wind and thinking how stupid he had been for not seeing what he was seeing now.

“For not treating you right. For not loving you right. For not being the man you deserved,” he whispered.

Yeah.. yeah, this felt a lot like the end.

The end you had been so desperately looking for. The end that would help you fully move on and continue with your life.

Live happily again.. laugh again..

“I forgive you,” you smiled, “I told you that we won't have our happy ending. But maybe we were never supposed to,” you turned your head to look at him.

“Yeah,” he nodded, quickly wiping away the tear that escaped his eyes, hoping you hadn’t seen it, “Maybe some people just aren't meant to be together.”

But hearing these words come out of his mouth hurt him so much.

Because now he was finally feeling what you had been feeling all this time.

He finally understood.

You put your hand on his arm and squeezed gently, “Do me a favor, though. Treat the next girl right. And don't hurt her like you've hurt me.”

Jeongguk didn't reply, he simply wrapped his arms around you and pulled you towards him, “I'll always love you,” he whispered into your hair, knowing it wouldn’t change anything, but needing you to hear it anyways.

“I know.”

And you would probably always love him too.

But sometimes being with the person you loved the most hurt the most. And when that was the case, you had to take a step back and look out for yourself.

You now knew to never let yourself be treated this way again.

An important lesson that you would never forget.

“And I hope the next man will treat you like you deserve to be treated,” he leaned back, his hands on either side of your face and for a second you thought he might want to kiss you, but then he pressed his lips against your forehead, “Like I should have treated you.”

You finally felt free when stepping out of the apartment complex.

All that weight was finally lifted off of your chest and you felt like you were ready to take the world by storm again.

So yeah, this night definitely went a lot better than expected.

And would become even better, apparently.

“(Y/N)!” you turned around, surprised when you saw..-

“Hoseok? Did I forget something?”

“No, no,” he laughed happily, “I just wanted to take you home.”

“What? Why?” you furrowed your eyebrows.

“Because it's dark and I don't like the idea of you walking home at this time of night alone,” he put his hand in the pocket of his coat and held out his arm for you to take it, “Here.”

You looked at his arm first, then up into his beautiful eyes, a smile spreading on your lips.

Where there's an ending, there's a beginning somewhere just waiting for you to be explored.

And so you hooked your arm with his, saying, “Thank you very much, then..”

“My pleasure.”

And from the balcony, Jeongguk watched you two leave with both a crying and a laughing eye, knowing that Hoseok would treat you much better than he ever could have.

And if he trusted anyone with you, it was him.

“Where did Hobi-hyung go?” Jimin asked as he joined Jeongguk on the balcony.

“I asked him to take (Y/N) home,” he smiled as he turned around, “He uh.. seemed to like her a lot.”

[clarkgriffon]

tagged by @supernovablake @montygreen :D

rules: Pick 5 shows, then answer the following questions. don’t cheat. tag 10 (or however many) peeps.

my shows:

1. the 100

2. the good place

3. cloak and dagger

4. OUAT

5. stranger things

questions:

1. who is your favorite character in 2?

— chidi!! eleanor is a close second, but everything about chidi is such a mood. eleanor is a mood in a different way- like who i wish and aspire to be, chidi is the mood of the eternally anxious.

2. who is your least favorite character in 1?

— i mean, e/cho, we been knew.

3. what is your favorite episode of 4?

— OOF. Favorite episode of Cloak and Dagger? maybe B sides. It was ridiculously good, and we got to see ty and tandy live so many lives. B sides or (and I’m blanking on the name) the one very soon before the S2 finale where Tandy fights her dad and Ty fights himself and they switch partners? Iconic.

4. what is your favorite season of 5?

— definitely S1. it’s just incomparable to 2 and 3. 2 and 3 are good, especially 3 I enjoyed, but S1 is just on another level for ST.

5. who is your favorite couple in 3?

— TYRONDY TYRONDY TYRONDY

6. who is your favorite couple in 2?

— Cheleanor, but second favorite is Janet x Jason.

7. what is your favorite episode in 1?

— probably I Am Become Death (1x10). It’s just a classic and Season 1 is my favorite season. S6 has been so good, though, that I’d say 6x09 is edging it’s way into second place.

8. what is your favorite episode of 5?

— i don’t remember episodes well off the top of my head for this show because i binge it but the one where el saves mike from falling off the cliff is a good one. the s3 finale was great too.

9. what is your favorite season of 2?

— season 1 probably. like i said, i’m a ho for an origin story. s2 is not as good, s3 is really good again, but s1 is my fave.

10. how long have you watched 1?

— since the hiatus between s4 and 5. i started RIGHT when s4 ended.

11. how did you become interested in 3?

— being in the t100 fandom and following a bunch of multifandom blogs, i saw a lot of bellarkes freaking out about tyrondy and decided, what the hay, i’ll give it a try. glad i did.

12. who is your favorite actor in 4?

— Jennifer Morrison. jmo has a hold on my heart, but i loooove josh, ginny, and colin too.

13. which do you prefer, 1, 2, or 5?

—though i wish i didn’t, i gotta with 1. it has a death grip on me and won’t let go. i wish i could like TGP or ST better, but man, the 100 is 3/4 of my personality at this point.

14. which show have you seen more episodes of, 1 or 3?

— 1, just out of sheer episode count.

15. if you could be anyone from 4, who would you be?

— i was going to say emma swan because light magic fuck yeah, but she’s lived kind of a hard life. you know what, how about david. he grew up on a farm being a shepherd, then got to be a royal, then found true love. sounds like a pretty charmed life to me.

16. would a crossover between 3 and 4 work?

— oof? okay. well C&D is part of the MCU, right? So, in the MCU, there’s the town of storybrooke, originated from the fairytales we read about. nick fury stumbles upon storybrooke somehow and needs someone to tackle the problem/get a read on the situation. ty and tandy have just left new orleans for their “make the world better” mission at the end of S2, and this is their first assignment, checking out storybrooke. we follow the misadventure of Tyrondy trying to figure out what storybrooke’s deal is while the storybrooke citizens desperately try to hide their magic and go “what the fuck are these random teens doing here???” just realized this said would it work not HOW would it work oh well im not changing it

17. pair two characters in 1 that would make an unlikely but strangely okay couple

— i’ve always thought a good one would be monty and clarke. they’re very like-minded people (which is perhaps why that can’t work) in terms of their morals, their level-headedness, and their brains. they both make up two of my OTPs (marper and bellarke), so i could never actively ship it, but like... they’d be good together.

18. overall, which story has the better storyline, 3 or 5?

— i think cloak and dagger? it has a clear purpose, clear villains, it knows where it’s going. ST I think stalled out a little after S1- they didn’t know where to go or how to expand on being a retro horror show.

19. which has the better theme music, 2 or 4?

—gotta go with OUAT on this. I love the musical cues in TGP, but OUAT has one of my favorite soundtracks of all time.

tagging @talistheintrovert @fen-ha-fuck-you @clarkegriffinlovebot @hostagetakerandhistraitor @nvermindiseeyou to  do this if they want to <3

[robertdowneyjjr]

any mcu (Tony centric) fic recs? xoxo

I wasn’t too sure if you were looking for any specific pairing or time period within the MCU, so I’ve sorted this list out into a few different pairings, and for stevetony’s case, uhhh several different ~eras~

This is mostly stevetony though. With some pepperony, irondad spiderson, and various other pairings sprinkled in. Under the cut, because this got ridiculously long.

Steve/Tony – CACW // IW

almeno tu nell'universo by @silkspectred50/50 Steve/Tony POV, but very much Tony-centric as it’s set in Italy, where Tony goes to discover some things about his mother’s past that he never knew about. Steve goes along with him in hopes of winning Tony’s forgiveness.

shelter from the storm by @silkspectredTony adopts a baby. Guess who’s Majorly Fucked Up™ about it.

A New Way For Us by ann2who (@stark-spangled-lovers)(Time travel) They fight Thanos—and they’re losing. And before Tony knows what’s happening, he’s standing with Doctor Strange in front of the Eye of Agamotto and gets send back in time. Can he find a way to fix things this time around, or are they doomed to fall apart all over again?

System ID: J.A.R.V.I.S. by @cptxrogersAfter Civil War, Tony is struggling with heading up the team and dealing with the emotional fallout of being betrayed by those closest to him. Luckily, an old friend is back to help protect Tony and ensure he comes to no harm. A Jarvis lives AU.

Leaving Promises Against Your Skin by @nostalgicatsea(Soulmates AU) “Someday, someone will choose you, Tony,” his mother had said, her hands back to cupping his. “And no one, not your father, not anyone, can ever take that from you.” (second in series but can be read as a standalone fic)

(Un)stuck by @navaanwritesHe finds himself in different places, living different lives. And yet it all comes back to Steve.

Things We Learned at the End of the World by JenTheSweetie1. Even the apocalypse can’t keep people away from Olive Garden2. Smoothies do not replace conversations3. Tony has really obvious sex hair4. Home might be a little different, but that doesn’t mean you can’t go back

between dust and despair (series) by @rudderless-in-an-ocean-of-starsIn the aftermath of the apocalypse, Tony Stark does the one thing he knows how to do better than anything else.He builds.

Steve/Tony – AOU // post-AOU

Language by @sailorchibiThis is how Tony fixed the team and the damage he’d done, and in the process learned how to start fixing himself. Well, maybe the latter might take a little help from Steve.

Fixer-Upper by @imafriendlydalekTony leads the way up the steps to the house, and as the door swings open with a long creaking sound - note to self: oil door hinges - Steve’s eyes widen. He steps inside, turns slowly on his own axis as he looks around.“Tony, this place, it’s…” There’s a sense of wonder in his voice. Tony smiles inwardly. It is just the kind of thing Steve would like. Steve, who has a keen appreciation for fine aesthetics, who has a healthy - okay, sometimes more than healthy - sense of history and an acute desire to preserve things he deems worthy.“This place is a dump.”Well, so much for that, then. Tony shifts his weight to one leg as he takes an appraising look. “It’s a bit of a fixer-upper, yeah, I’ll give you that, but it’s not past saving. Just needs some TLC.”Steve uncrosses his arms and shoves his hands in the pockets of his pants. “Well listen, you ever want an extra set of hands with some of the work, just give me a call.”

Caesura by @ylixiaTony’s gotten maybe twelve hours of sleep in the past four days, and he’s been carrying the deaths of everyone that matters to him like a rock in his gut.

The Path I Started by JayEz (@multifandom-madnesss)Tony rebuilds, modifies. Takes fragments and gives them new order. He does not create. He can’t, not anymore. Not after this. Or: After the events of Ultron, Tony rebuilds the tower by himself and shuts everything out to the point that Pepper takes desperate measures and asks Steve to come and help.

Steve/Tony – post-Avengers // canon divergence // pre-AOU

Master of Communication by somanyfeels (@aceofultron)Tony didn’t like being touched, on the rare occasions he wanted physical contact he would initiate it. It was how things were, how it had always been, and he was fine with it. His new team didn’t know, they just kept touching and Tony wasn’t quite sure how to ask them to stop.

Untitled Playlist Number 5 by dapperyklutzThe many times Tony Stark plays BAMF-ing music while the team fights their Baddie of the Week. And somehow, along the way, between sleepless nights, game nights, movie nights and saving the world every other week — plus looking out for his wayward protégé whom he cares for very deeply -— he falls head over heels in love for a certain super soldier.

Who’s Your Caterer? by Bandearg_Rois(Mainly Steve POV) After moving into the Tower, the group starts taking meals together. This is a story about food, and about love, not necessarily together. Also contains physics and old movies, not at the same time.

Run Program: {x} (series) by Amuly (@everybodyilovedies)Taking care of Tony is a lot of work. Especially when you’ve only got one arm. And your code dates back to the 1980s.

Best Kept Secret by @alchemyaliceIn which there is a secret friendship, and Tony can’t deal with feelings, so Natasha has to do it for him. These two features may or may not be related.

honey, you’re keeping me afloat by mmotionEvery so often, on evenings with nobody else, Tony and Natasha drink some wine together and talk about everything and anything.

five times tony stark was kissed by a teammate (and one time he kissed a teammate) by colourexplosionin which people kiss tony a lot and he doesn’t get it

grey and other colours by @theappleppielifestyle(Demisexual and Demiromatic Tony) Distantly, Tony hears Clint say something like, “No, I definitely heard he was an equal opportunist. Like, equal-equal, no preference. Hey Tones, who are you attracted to more, dudes or chicks?” He calls the last part out to Tony, who runs the words over in his mind and unthinkingly says, “I’ve actually never been attracted to anyone, it’s really worrying.”

Reasons Why (Whether They’re Real Or Not) by infinite_wonders (@thetwowriters)Tony is slow, has very little self-worth, and thinks that the universe hates him as much as he hates himself. Everyone else is long-suffering, especially Steve, because disproving that notion could take a while.

Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful Boy by mybrotherharry (@baffledkingcomposinghallelujah)The first time Jarvis holds little Anthony in his arms, he is overwhelmed by emotion that is surprising in its intensity. When little Anthony’s palm curves around his finger, Jarvis ducks his head to keep the others from seeing the wetness in his eyes. “Hello Master Anthony,” he whispers into the little ear, tugging the bundle of blankets closer to his heart.

Pepper/Tony and/or Iron Dad & Spider Son

call every girl we ever met maria by irnan“You’re telling me,” Rhodey said, gleeful, “you’re telling me that you’ve been shot, stabbed, sewn up, been riddled with shrapnel, had a magnet implanted in your chest, spent two years poisoning yourself with palladium, spent twenty years as a functioning alcoholic and had a vasectomy and you still managed to knock Pepper up?”

with arms wide open by @parkrstarkTony and Pepper are expecting a baby and Peter may be the one most excited…just maybe…

yet turning stay by irnan“Tony - you’re all I’ve got too, you know.”

The Right Thing in the Wrong Way by igrockspockPeople don’t ask why Pepper sticks by Tony as often as they should, and if they did, she probably wouldn’t tell them the truth:  that he’s never left her alone on the one day she actually needs him.

Twist of Fate by nikki_ofshadows (@karenninaaa)A single picture triggered Tony Stark to suspect that Peter Parker was his son, biologically.

i’m the satellite (and you’re the sky) by CamelotQueen (@missmgann)When Tony went to the Parker household to recruit Spider-Man, he had no idea what he was signing up for. AU where Tony is Peter’s biological father and neither of them know.

Welcome to the Family by FriendLey (@peppertoyourtony)Peter Parker spends time with Tony’s family. Happy is annoyed, Rhodey is amused, Pepper gets an assistant, and Tony feels betrayed.

The Publicity Verse by @xmypandabear A main of SpiderSon and IronDad with a side of social media and the internet (and healthy puddings of Pepper, Rhodey, Happy, Vision, FRIDAY, May, Ned and MJ) 

Exploding Head Syndrome by foolscapper(Mainly Peter) Everyone comes back, when the snap is undone. Or, well — almost everyone.

Gen + other relationships/pairings

Twenty-Five Years by @notfknapplicable(Tony/Rhodey) Nobody knows how long this has actually been going on. (Tony Stark has pretty much been in a monogamous relationship since he was 18 years old.)

The Years In Between by @notfknapplicable(Tony/Rhodey) A follow-up to Twenty-Five Years (best to read that one first). All the years we missed.This is it, okay? This is forever, you and me.

Sound of Madness by martianwahtney(Post-CACW, Tony/Rhodey) After the fight in Siberia, Steve takes Bucky and vanishes, leaving Tony to pick up the pieces. Tony does everything in his power to bring the Rogues home, and still, somehow, things go to shit.

Helpless in Love by Avengerz(Tony/Rhodey) Rhodey and Tony being together since their MIT years. They married as soon as they could, and are still hopelessly in love after ~30 years. One of these perfect, almost sickeningly sweet couples.

First Choice by @sailorchibi(StarkQuill) Two years ago, Tony’s heart was broken when Steve picked Bucky over him. Now, he was certain that the past was repeating itself with Peter and Gamora.He was wrong.

Placeholder by @sailorchibi(StarkQuill) In the days leading up to his birthday, all Tony could think about was last year. Last year, when he and the Avengers celebrated together. Last year, when he had a family. He’s not as alone as he thinks he is.

Paths Are Made by Walking by @potrix-the-queerschlaeger(WinterIron) The road to recovery is long, winding and a different one for every person walking it. Bucky chooses to help himself the only way he knows how; by doing what he does best. Or, alternatively; the one in which Tony is a mess and accidentally kick-starts Bucky’s protective mother hen instincts.

Scars by @arvensis5(WinterIron) When Tony tried to urge the homeless guy sleeping on the steps of the Tower’s loading dock to move, he never expected that he’d found Hydra’s pet assassin—James “Bucky” Barnes. Now, after months of keeping his presence a secret from the Avengers and helping Barnes learn to cope with both his returning memories and the modern world, Hydra is back for their favorite toy and Tony must call in old friends to save the life of the man he just might have come to care for a little too much.

potato guns and repulsers by gossamernotes (@brooklynboystosupersoldiers)(Tony & Harley) The story wherein Harley Keener thinks over his life and watches where it goes after he meets the one and only, Tony Stark. It doesn’t really go the way he planned.

Amend by ancalime8301(Post-CACW, Tony & team) Negotiating the Accords, dealing with Ross, the end of his relationship with Pepper, Steve’s faction coming back to the Avengers compound … the stress finally catches up with Tony in dramatic fashion. The team has to decide to step up and handle things while Tony can’t. Tony has to decide if he’ll let them.

That’s it for now! Let me know if you’d like more recs later :)