#but work has been pretty draining
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Hikaru no Go - Qi Hun Part 6/?
#qi hun#hikaru no go#shi guang#chu ying#yu liang#fang xu#guangliang#hng text post#text post meme#i did several of these like two years ago#always planned to do more#but work has been pretty draining#hope it won't take as long to do the next one#my posts
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*hands you an ace attorney sketch dump*
#artists on tumblr#ace attorney#my art#my creativity has been pretty drained by my senior year thesis and my job this semester#so it's been fun to use aa characters to goof off and play with stylization#ok i gotta go work on my research report now. argh#sketchbook#image id in alt text
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I just want some recognition for having good tits and a big heart 🖤
#sorry this line has been stuck in my head all day#me#my face#selfie#pretty girl#this week might actually be the death of me#i’m working 60 hours this week and i already wanna die#my social battery is completely drained and idk how im gonna make it through the rest of this week#so hype your girl up
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// ... the day of American reckoning.
Bright side is that my 7 day vacation starts tomorrow. Part of it will be spent at Sonic Expo in Dallas, but majority of it will be spent rotting in my hotel room, gorging on take out. I'm hoping to be very productive here during that time.
#(( ima be honest chat. it has not been a good week. i had a full blown meltdown the other night.#and I've not really been responding to messages cuz I've just been in my bubble trying to keep it from popping.#but these days off will be needed. work being consistently busy combined with IRL drama of the very unkind and toxic variety#... i have been very not myself and very drained. it's time for a break. and I'm so happy that break starts tomorrow.#ima go buy my lil shadow the hedgehog goodies and then enjoy my own company in my hotel room.#i hope y'all are well. thank you for being patient and delicate with me. hope to be back to myself soon. ❤️#and for my fellow 'muricans... take some time for yourself today okay? buy yourself a nice pastry.#a pretty beverage. something you've been eyeing. we all deserve it if only to confirm a bit of happiness on this day of uncertainty.#that's all i have to say on the matter. ))#;; oh jeeze what now? ( ooc )#;; tbd
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Okay, not to undermine just how bad the teenage years were but the 20s are a different kind of torment…
#d0 stuff#like ugh#I have to read these things and reply to them and it won’t be pretty but#ugh#yeah I’m seeing that work + family have been draining my confrontation reserves#so now when it comes to uni I’m like. ugh. can I just ignore this problem until it (grows into sth bigger 🤡)#negative#just yeah. clown behaviour#but I’m so tired I don’t want to ✨ Unpack Shit ✨#tbh I think the pace of my character development has been already too fast so yah#leave me alone 🙏
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I’ve been spending less and less time on this stupid ass website recently and honestly….. good
#idk I just don’t find it as? enjoyable as I once did?#which is sad in a way cuz I’ve used tumblr YEARS now and I DO enjoy the way the platform functions#and I for the most part enjoy the space I’ve created#but idk#it’s getting harder and harder to find ppl I actually want to follow and interact with#not many ppl post about my interests in a way I like#and while I once had a pretty active and good chunk of ppl I followed#more and more of them are starting to be inactive#on top of that I’ve been fighting the urge to just drop off of social media entirely recently anyways#like idk….. something about it all of a sudden has started to feel very draining and not fun#not that I have a lot of social media accounts to begin with…..#but I have been seriously debating just deleting most of them#I think part of it is not wanting old ppl in my life having a method of contacting me haha#but also it’s not like I use or enjoy them that much anyways#idk I have some mutuals on here I still enjoy interacting and seeing their posts and such obviously#but idk…. just not been feeling it lately#which in a lot of ways is a good thing! the amount of time I spend on my phone has dropped A LOT#I mostly just use it on breaks at work now and for a little bit before bed#other than? I’ve been actually engaging in hobbies and not mindlessly scrolling#mostly gaming writing and cooking and idk it’s been nice#I doubt I’d ever actually delete this blog#I’ll be here until this website goes down#I am starting to feel like my activity might be slowing down a lot from what it once was tho#kaz rambles
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medical websites love to be like “how to stop having physical stress symptoms: 1. be in less stressful situations 2. don’t be stressed”
#oliver.mp3#girl for one i have anxiety for two stressful things continue to happen#sorry but taking deep breaths and going for walks will not fix my moms broken leg or get me another job#or get me back the $6000 i just spent on my cat’s er vet bill#meditation doesn’t pay the rent#i still haven’t done anything creative since the year started pretty much#bc i feel like i shouldn’t be focusing on anything but how to fix my situation#time spent drawing is time i could be spending applying for jobs. why would i spend time writing when it’s not making me money#i’m sick of living like this like truly it has been the last whole fucking year and it just keeps getting worse#what did i do to deserve this like truly why me#why do these events feel so specifically calculated and timed to drain our bank accounts and stress me out further#i think abt that phrase it has to get worse before it gets better. so every time something happens i’m like ok it’s gonna get better now#but somehow it continues to get worse#i feel like i’m watching my entire life crumble away right before my eyes everything me and my mom have worked for is just dwindling#and i’m only fucking 20
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I’m really glad to find your blog, your formline art reminds me of my home area when I can’t get out of the house that much, and for lack of better words makes me feel cozier when I’m scrolling through my dash, to see a bit of home (not native but PNW-er) 💜💜💜💜
Misiyh/thank you so much!! I’m glad my art brings you comfort, it’s nice to hear <3
#ask box#telekitnetic's silly mind box#it’s nice to hear feedback/support via the ask box and tags#all the little thoughts ppl add to their reblogs brighten my day whenever I read em :>#especially nowadays cause I feel like a lot of my passion and love for a lot of my interests and art has been drained pretty badly#mainly because of uni work/dealing w fluctuating wrist and back pain/other things that I can’t really predict.#so it does help to read ppl’s thoughts on my art it makes me feel better about the slump I sometimes find myself in
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I do find it so funny that I will graduate college days away from my birthday. Like my birthday is literally in between the end of the semester ("graduation") and commencement
It really will be like a joint graduation & birthday party for me lmao
#speculation nation#i dont really do birthday parties anymore. havent in a long time. mostly just go out and do smth fun around my bday. ya kno#also have cake but like not in a party way. just like. here's cake lol#but im probably only gonna graduate from college once. which means i might as well live it up and all.#invite all sorts of extended family and people who have known me. etc etc.#actually it just kinda sunk in that i am. Computer and Information Technology (Systems Analysis and Design focus) w a minor in Communication#like those are words. it's a lot of words but actually it really is pretty accurate?? like that's indeed what ive been studying.#now how much i *remember* is another question. considering how long ive taken to get thru school lol#but that's what people will see on my degree. that's my Thing. graduated in Computer Systems and Talking.#idk it's just weird to have spent so much of my life on this and like That's the culmination. it took so much work.#even beyond a normal 4 years. i switched my major *twice*. switched my minor too.#first year engineering to undecided liberal arts (as a temp major trying to switch to computer science bc i couldnt stay in FYE)#but then computer science sucked so i switched to trying to get into computer & info tech. which is different. and better.#and ive been in it long enough now that ive kinda forgotten but it did take some fuckin work to switch into it.#like i had to take certain classes first & i couldnt take them during the semesters that in-major students would take them#and i had to have my gpa up to a certain level etc etc. so many hoops to jump thru. i think it took me at least a year. or more. idr#but i made it in and thats my major. thats my thing. computers and information systems and communication.#doesnt FEEL like im an almost-graduate. but then i think about all the things ive taken and learned.#and maybe i dont remember a lot of the more specific things from these classes. but i took core lessons away from each one.#wont be able to recite the theories but i can live them. and thats the point of an education i guess.#anyways im gonna have to start job searching before too long and eughhbb. need to get my license first tho probably.#which i will... i will.... i have so many things to deal with... my life will be So Different in a year...#it will require me to put in the work now. but i can do it. and then a year from now. i'll hopefully be in a better spot.#living somewhere else. graduated from college. with a license and a car. maybe even an IT job of some kind.#kind of scared of trying to find a Big Boy Job. aka a job that requires a degree and networking and all that shit.#rather than just showing up and being like Hi i can do this job. i am not a total drain of a person. hire me please 👍#hfkahfks so many things to think about. and through it all i am still dealing with DEADLINES...!!!!#but yeah this is why my writing has largely been put on hold. idk i have a lot of things im dealing with rn.
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on one hand it sucks cause it sucks to see her like this and for her to have to go through it in general and also its literally so much cancer and like at least???? at LEAST 2 different types???? so they don't know what to do about it and any further treatment would literally just be Seeing What Happens. and it sucks for this to be like. it. and to have to remember This after
but on the other it's also. like. all of this happening has kinda crystallized more in my mind that i don't have a hell of a lot of nice things to say about my mom in the end. which feels awful. but also at the same time i can't really like.. tolerate. giving credit to someone who Loves me who like.. saw it as an obligation? and would and probably will right now if given the opportunity hold it over my head? the fact that she raised me and all. i brought you into this world ill take you out etc. i don't know how you can say that shit to a kid ever and think you're right. i just can't. for all that she's always said she loves me she sure. doesn't act like it much. i don't think keeping all my baby blankets and my kindergarten schoolwork counts for much when your actual emotional support of me has never been great and is half of why im Like This. like it doesn't really feel like she's ever made much of an effort to understand me. lord knows I'll never understand her at this point aside from just. kinda always been too self centered for parenting i think. my mother has never been particularly selfless.
all of this feels horrendous to say out loud in any regard
#crow.txt#like idk it could be my specific grief but its. just kinda amplified in my brain the bad things far more than the good#which isnt to say theres No good. idk id argue theres probably logically More good. but the bad is pretty bad#it could be worse. but it was also still bad. neither of my parents shouldve ever had children. full stop#i should not be here. i should not have had to grow up like this. neither of you were prepared or emotionally stable enough for kids#i really should be trying to sleep. idk if i can work tomorrow#like idk pardon my autism but i dont feel many strong familial bonds. i dont think i ever really have. its always been a big thing for mom#not me so much. wonder why that might be Anwyay#just because we're family absolutely does not mean i should just let you treat me however#and i wont in fact#all of this feels like a very long very draining awful dream. its so surreal. it happened so fast#ive honestly not cried over it as much as i feel like i should have bc it kinda just felt inevitable#this has been an anxiety rumination point for years#she was taking it a lot better than i expected for a while but the nastiness and loudness and just like. cruelty. kinda knew that was comin#just surprised its taken this long
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Hngngng my ADP apointment isn't thorough another fortnight but I just realised what a FANTATSIC birthday present thst getting sorted would be bc the first payout would be backdated *months*
#im not entirely sure how its calculated tho so idk how much ill hypothetically get#it seems to be based entirely on perdonal response and description of difficulties#which is SO refreshing but makes me question how much they'll actually offer even for the most debilitating of disabilities#when theoretically anyone could just go in and say oh nah yeah i can never do anything without assitence#perhaps having the interviews to verify documents is a part of that? idk#im autistic and desperately scrabbling at the poverty line man getting any additional funding would be a gamechanger#im. gradually coming around to the reality that we pretty much depend on fast food in order to est consistently#and thats okay. its a lil difficult for me to accept bc i was raised on takeout being a treat#but. like. this month has been easier in part bc we *can* afford takeout a couple times a week#even if its just grabbing breakfast from greggs or something#like sure we can both cook but. adhd time blindness#keeping the kitchen clean enough#having the fucking energy to prepare a meal after work??#i manage sometimes but its a major drain and alfie basically cant#so yeah no havint extra money to buy meals means we're actually eating every day lmao#a bag of chips is better than nothing
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>Just a man, not a hero >Just a boy who had to sing this song >He cares very much >The world will never take his heart or break him >He will carry on
#ordinary courage — makoto#work has been in a word: exhausting. i'm on my feet this past week so much i'm drained as hell once i get back home and i just play vidya..#but i've been listening to welcome to the black parade and!! it still is absolutely a makoto song!!#except the 'i don't care' part Makoto CARES and he cares VERY MUCH and this is his whole thing!! he cares a lot about others!!#if your muse is makoto's friend i hope that they know they are extremely important to him!!#we'll see what i can get to today though. i don't think there's any heavy lifting going on for a bit so i hopefully won't be so exhausted#all the time. optimism!!#makoto IS a hero btw he's just not a hero in the sense that he's a great man he is a hero in that he is a BRAVE man!!!!#(and also Makoto will always see himself as just an ordinary person and tends to be pretty self-deprecating)#i love the difference between eiyuu (英雄/great man) and yuusha (勇者/brave man) in Japanese guys it's so cool#I LOVE LANGUAGE SO MUCH
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A great reply to anyone creeping on you or sexualizing you without your consent! Which is, of course, something Illyana’s unfortunately familiar with.
Source: Doctor Strange (2015) #7, by Jason Aaron (writer); Chris Bachalo (pencils and colors); Tim Townsend, Al Vey, Mark Irwin, John Livesay, Victor Olabaza, and Jaime Mendoza (inks); and Cory Petit (lettering)
#illyana rasputin#illyana rasputina#magik#marvel comics#jason aaron#chris bachalo#cory petit#I’ve got mixed feelings about how Aaron writes Illyana here#this bit is very on point#but like#he literally forgot that her mutant power is teleportation#which should work even when the magic of the world has been drained#which really would have made pretty much everything in the Last Days of Magic storyline SO much easier#I mean dude#literally#she accidentally teleported herself into a hell dimension as a kid#that’s how she got the magic in the first place#and no editor pointed it out?
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It's cool because I'm no longer really depressed. Not exactly, I think.
However, I still have this problem I've never been able to get rid of. I have the idea of doing a thing but then my brain goes blank and I don't do the thing. If it's a mandatory thing I will at some point do it but like with guilt, anxiety, stress and quickly and badly. But the worse part is for hobbies. I do have ideas, desire but still I don't do the things. It absolutely make zero fucking sense. It's like my brain is lacking a connection between the thought and the execution of it. It's draining all of my energy. I don't know what to do with it.
Honestly as much as I don't like working, it's kind of a good thing that I have a job, obviously for money, but also to have a somewhat healthy pattern. It's not that healthy because I go to bed later than I should be and so I'm always tired. What I mean is that I have to cook, shower etc. And I do this because of work. I know this because every weekend everything fall apart from Friday to Sunday 18:00 when the guilt finally kick in. Like, I do enjoy cooking but somehow it's easier for me to cook for work than the weekend when I barely eat anything and at weird hours. So yes I perfectly know that if I didn't have a job I would be a total mess. And that's why unlike some of my colleagues I can't quit and give myself two months of rest before actively applying for a new job, I know it won't happen (also obviously money and even though I saved some I suffer from what I call "ex poor syndrome" so even though I know I could technically survive a few months without a salary my anxiety will never ever allow me to quit without having something to bring me money at the end of the month). So yes the plan is to apply to stuff till I have a the certainty to have a new job, then quit and take all my vacation days and maybe a few extra days. Problem is the energy needed to search for a new job. Similarly I kinda think about trying once again to do something about my driving licence, because I know I will have more chances to find a job, I could go live more in a suburb less expensive area and also the reality of adulthood since my grandpa hit me that I will need to be able to drive to take care of my parents someday. But then again my brain don't want to hear anything about it. So obviously I'm like, well then let's chill and let's do something we like. Writing about the books I finally read, collages, gif making, writing, I don't know literally drawing ugly doodles in a notebook? But even for this my brain shut down. It's exhausting I really don't know what to do with it anymore.
My brain literally lack the "click" thing that activates the whole process.
#genuinely have been thinking for months about doing a adhd diagnosis but yeah... this too i can't do it#first of all i don't even know how these diagnosis are made and by who#second of all I'm pretty sure it's just me being lazy and not wanting to take responsibility for it#but i have a friend who is now under a medicine#and like she has pills that make her do things?????#like not antidepressants#antidepressants never made me do things either they just stopped me from killing myself which is you know great#they were doing their job I wasn't crying no more#but like i still was a blob in my bed when i was not at work....#i want to do things now....#like i want to deep clean my apartment because im tired of it#but it requires way too much energy#i want to start looking for a new job but again energy#i want to maybe find a healthy activity like book club or hell even sports to do outside of work so i ca' see people and all#but the thought of it... it's draining my brain#i want to do collages but again no energy#and then my friend is like 'yeah the other day i came back home there were dishes to wash and i washed them' and I'm like#WHAT ?????#there is a pill for this????#how can i have this? sounds like magic#i just can't imagine doing a thing the second i think about it#all my family relatives like to say this is about self discipline#and to an extent i agree#i mean everybody at some point push back something even normal people#problem is i do this with EVERYTHING#it's not a one day laziness#it's an eternal laziness#and anyway I really wants to know where in my brain this comes from#and how to get rid of it#you'd notice that for someone with now energy I ramble A LOT and that's because in this aspect i have no filters and that too is exhausting
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could this be...........the final form................of the final boss.....................
might this game actually end? have i made it? HOW LONG HAS IT TAKEN OMG
#personal#da#dal#wait for it to have a 4th form even though ive been through the files and im pretty sure it doesnt#god this last section has taken so long. i actually have to work to win the fights#tbf i could bring more companions..but then also i'd burn through my potions faster which would be rough#should have set hawke up with mana drain or something idk#if i ever decide to play this again i'll go through and make all the companions better
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my body is rebelling and i feel like dookdook.
i don't think i'll get things done here, but maybe??
feel free to dm me though! i always love talking about stuff and it's a lot easier to start a thread if we talk about it. uwu;
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