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r0b0t1me · 2 years ago

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mikeys on casey watch duty today

#my art #rottmnt #rottmnt movie #bad future #need to draw their artificial gardens....#i think they have vegetables and things. just not very many. and not for too long #but were not worrying abt that right now #wonder why mikey cooking is on my mind. how could this be (stares at andy)

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starheirxero · 4 days ago

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[rez]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Anyway

Hope Castor can help Lunar.

Or atleast point him in the right direction.

I think Lunar is finally facing himself really.

And I understand wanting him out of the house but like- why are they surprised he ran away?

Thats like what Lunar does? He ran for months after he died, him running away is par for the course. And he was gone for three days because he was in jail? They didn't even accept that, they just got mad at him for running. As if Monty hadn't actually decided he was gonna kill Lulu.

Like Lunar would probably be dead if he'd stayed, or atleast injured.

'We do still love you and youre still our little brother'

-They say as they irepibly damage any and all trust Lunar had in them at the moment and in the future.

Moon I understand you want him to actually face consequences but there's no going back from this!

Lunar will never trust you, or anyone else in this family, again.

Castor pleasepleaseplease be the one who finds him.

Ohhh how I want to see more Pollux and Castor interactions bc as I said in another ask that idk if you received Cas almost seems to be avoiding talking to her specifically about Lulu.

That or Lunar gets kidnapped again.

More specifically by the creator so gem (or even just Cas) have to save him

But with Gemini separate there's also the possibility rez or someone else targets one of the twins while the other is away so thatd be neat.

ALL OF THIS NODNODNOD!!!!!!

I think Castor choosing to help Lunar while Pollux doesn't would be really interesting from a Gemini perspective. They're the twins, they make up one astral, one constellation together. If they truly become divided over this, I would be deeply fascinated to see where it goes from there since we got so used to seeing them as Gemini—a collective entity—rather than themselves.

And YEAH LIKE. Listen. I know that to the family, because they don't actually have the full picture, it looks like Lunar is just a loose canon that attacked Earth in a fit and then dipped. But also LUNAR TRIED TO EXPLAIN THAT THEY WERE IN LITERALLY INCAPABLE OF RETURNING SOONER BC THEY WERE JAILED AND THEN REZ PUT THEM ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE GLOBE. AND MOON JUST WENT "I DON'T CARE." LIKE CMON 😭 "why were you gone for 3 days" "i was jailed and then left in russia" "whatever i dont care" MOON WHEN I GET YOU.......

THE "I LOVE YOUS" BETWEEN IT ALL YEAH.

I'm sorry but no amount of "you are family and we love you" is going to lessen the blow of "you have basically been squatting in my house (that i invited you into and you've been paying rent for) and you're a danger to this entire family so I want you to never speak or get near any of us until you sort yourself out." ESPECIALLY WHEN MOON SAID "YOU'RE LUCKY I EVEN STILL CONSIDER YOU FAMILY" LIKE I'M SORRY BUT THAT'S WILD. Again, I understand Moon in this situation. That does not mean I don't think he wasn't insanely rude LMAO 😭

Exactly like you said, Moon cannot undo this. Lunar has always looked up to old Moon and so I cannot imagine how much more it hurts coming from him. I honestly can't imagine a clear future where Lunar is going to feel safe amongst their own family again, knowing that they all viewed them as dangerous enough to be kicked out. Honestly, I'm half expecting this to end up as "Lunar lives independently and then realizes they actually feel better not living around their family and that they were kinda awful for them on accident" HDKSHDJS

YEA MORE CASTOR N POLLUX INTERACTIONS WOULD BE GREAT...... Yesyes I have received ur other ask and I'm actually gunna answer it after this one but GHOD yeah. Seeing them disagree abt smth is so interesting and I need more of it....... If one twin is hurt tho,,,,,,, ouhg. The Angst........

#asks #anon #rez anon #i have my fingers crossed on this arc so bad bc I am /really/ into it so far #but I am so nervous there may be nonsense just around the corner HSJABSJSN #Especially w/ Lunar living alone rn. I'm worried they're gunna end up found or kidnapped before anything actually comes outta that #bc like #i was talking abt this all with my friend on call last night and xe made a rlly good pount that at their last apartment... they didn't—#—/actually/ rlly live independently #earth came over a lot and cleaned their place and jack was introduced so they were always being watched #which felt like 'you may have ur own apt but the family is always Right There ^_^'#which means they. probably didn't actually feel any freedom from it HDJSHJD #NOT THAT..... THIS WILL FEEL MUCH FREER. BC THIS IS UNDER TERRIBLE CIRCUMSTANCES #but now they are /actually/ alone. and while yes i wish they didn't have to learn like this #there's still the opportunity nonetheless yk #lunar and earth show #the lunar and earth show #tlaes #laes #tlaes spoilers #laes spoilers #long post

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diabolicjoy · 2 years ago

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mittens !!!! pattern X - i modified a bit because my yarn was a bit more thick, so i shortned a few rows of the colorwork & added the burnt orange details instead :)

#remember when i posted almost a month ago about a friend that commissioned some mittens #?#so yeah the one i was making initially turned out fine i suppose #i even posted the picture here #but the i noticed the sizing wasn’t right & the yarn i was using was sooo annoying to work it i just couldn’t get it right... it was also #like dyed like ombré? & the colors were a bit off. like each mitt had a different color like the weren’t even a pair...#but i was insisting too much like i undid & knitting that thing like +10 times #knitted*#so i decided so grab some yarn that i like for my mittens & that i’m already familiar with & found this pretty pattern & so!! ta-da!!#it’s so much nicer than the other one. also my friend wasn’t that specific & gave me a lot of liberty do to whatever #she gave me a general idea of the colors she liked so these are perfect #also the inspo pics she sent me all had this kinda fair isle design but at first i was a little intimidated so i barely did it on that one #first mitten that i had posted. so i’m glad i tried a diff pattern a managed to make these!!!!#anyway that’s basically what my month was all about lol worrying abt the mitts then finally finding a solution #also i got a commission from a instagram mutual to crochet a bag with that little sleepy snoopy design on it!! i’ve seen it on tumblr a few #times now & i’m excited to finish this project & finally get to it!! already bought the yarn & it’s so pretty #SO MANY TYPOS SORRY #girl knits world #knitting

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b4kuch1n · 8 months ago

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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

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carcarrot · 1 month ago

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its important to go see a low stakes concert sometimes

#as in seeing someone in concert youre not an absolute nutbag about (as i have done this year and last year)#but last night me n my dad went and saw renaissance on their farewell tour #running on like 4 hours of sleep and seething to be at work right now #or rather i would be seething if i weren't so tired #new anger management hack: just get less sleep so your senses are dulled! anyway #funniest part of the night was the multiples times when my dad who is old was like 'everyone here is so old :/'#he was literally like 'if i ever get like these people just shoot me' LMAO #the concert was good i wouldn't call it like great or fantastic but such is the beauty of a low stakes concert #youre not living and dying on every song youre not singing along to everything youre just. enjoyin the show normally which is crazy #again as someone who has seen two bands (both bands two separate times and is seeing one of those bands a THIRD TIME soon) im crazy over #that experience is fun its bonkers and you definitely gotta do it for the bands youre crazy over. you gotta #but it was nice to just. have a regular time at a show #as far as the show itself there were a few little moments where things didnt go as smooth but that may have been bc it was the first show #and save for a few moments in some songs annie haslam knocked it out of the park she can still sing as insanely good as she used to #again some parts of songs were in a lower key? but most seemed to be the same and she was still hitting those bonkers high notes #so good for her. the band was pretty good but i felt they really only like all worked together well on a few songs #if that makes sense. but overall pretty good #and my anxieties about getting there and back were unfounded bc somehow it all worked. yay #our car service trip home was in a tesla i felt like i was gonna die the entire ride home lol #i am NEVER getting in one of those stupid cars again. big ass ipad as your dashboard this is insane???? im so scared???#anywho. old musicians are forever as ive been saying lately. and they really are #oh also we were at the town hall which is a nice small theater i was worried abt bein too far away but it's laid out really well #in that you're sure to get a pretty good view of the stage #it seems like half the size roughly of the beacon for whatever thats worth #OH i did see one dude somewhere in the audience with a sparks shirt so. hashtag represent #yet another concert report. yayyyyy #(im so tired)

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curiosity-killed · 2 months ago

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i love my sister and for the most part, we are very close and genuinely like each other a lot but the one place where i'd just really, really, really like to see inside her brain is the part where she is still incredibly comfortable and cheerful—and even thinks it's really funny—talking about how much she didn't like me as a child while I'm like. yes. I am and was aware. and it sucked so so so much

#we had a really wild moment over dinner last week where she actually acknowledged #EXPLICITLY with her OWN WORDS #that things like our brother dying right when i was going into my senior yr of high school #and covid lockdown starting right when i'd graduated college + moved to a new city where i knew no one except her + was applying/auditionin #for jobs #were harder on me than one her in some unique ways #and i was literally like . is. is this a test? am i supposed to deny it?#bc like when our brother died she told me i was a selfish brat (for not grieving the way she did)#and during covid she told me (right after i got laid off) that she had ''way more reasons to be depressed'' than i did #personal #anyway she was laughing so much as she said this (abt not liking me) and i was just staring at her nodding slightly like #yeah. i know. i know you didn't like me #do YOU know how much it sucks to know that your older sister--whom you idolize--who you *desperately* want to like you--#not only doesn't like you at all #but even up into high school/college #would talk about how she couldn't wait till our LITTLE (five year old) cousins were old enough to hang because they'd be so much fun #and know that she had absolutely never thought or said that about you #do you perhaps! think that might still have ramifications on our relationship to this day #if your little sister spent 20+ years knowing that your love was conditional on them being the person you wanted her to be #like. do u???#(the answer is no of course but #i remain boggled by the fact that this eludes her considering she is! in fact! a really smart person!)#it's also like when i was first offered my current job #and our now bosses asked both of us like ''are you worried at all about working with your sister?''#and she laughed like lol no of course not?#while i was like ''honestly yes.'' adskjfglkjasds #very different perspectives sometimes

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koka-mi · 4 months ago

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I had a dream about me being in a collab cover with some guy from good omens and two other ppl xD we sang overmaster from idolmaster and I was pretty young (around the time I started covers sooo 11-12??)

Weird tho idk anything about good omens I've never watched the show nor do I plan to—at least the cover got popular bcz the guy from good omens was in it BAHAHEJA

#also in the dream it's completely unrelated but one of my friends online were super nice to me!#we have this server together (not in the dream like irl)#and in the dream I was apologizing for not talking in it as much and they were all like #“it's completely fine don't worry about it!! your covers are super amazing and I understand you're busy!! ^^”#IT WAS SOO SWEET I WANTED TO CRYYYY #oh yea also in the dream there was this video about the cover that came out abt good omens guy being hashtag EXPOSED for some stuff #so ahem #but I was cool tho <3 (probably because I was.yk a child)#kinda odd thing is right when I woke up one of my tumblr mutuals dmed me about a collab another one of my mutuals were doing #and I'm ngl I thought I was still in the dream for a minute but NOPE this is real life!#it's not a cover collab it's an art collab but I still thought it was funny and cool #ANYWAYZ no more beddy bye for me!! I'm staying awake!!!!#*goes honk shoo 10 secs later*#alr I'm probably gonna listen to overmaster on repeat now that song has been stuck in my head since I woke up..for obvious reasons xD

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dbphantom · 10 months ago

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Listen if you're gonna send me an ask about why I shouldn't interact with a person, can you at least do it off anon so I can request actual proof privately? I'm not replying to these since the only way to respond to them is publicly and I don't want to contribute to an unsubstantiated rumor about someone. That's not fair.

#Also I checked and I don't even follow them! So don't worry about me not interacting I've been doing a bang up job already #Maybe I did in the past because there were only like 4 of us in the Tr/ig/un tags at any given time #But I don't now so I have no clue how or why you dmed me about this random person I don't even follow #The only mention of them I can find on my blog via search (granted it's a gamble cuz search sucks but) is a tag on a gifset from 2014 #I mean if you're browsing posts from 2014 on my blog all the more power to you I had good taste #But also I don't really know this person. I vaguely recognize the username but again. Only 4 of us at any given time for years #It just feels Weird.#If ur going thru the trouble of sending asks abt this person then put your own reputation on the line since you're trying to tank theirs #Like if you believe these accusations enough that ur willing to send asks to randos then u should be comfy putting your name behind them #I'm giving u the benefit of the doubt here anon #I want to believe ur heart is in the right place and u think ur helping #But being on anon with 0 proof is not helping your case at all #Cruddy rambles #Ask

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brainrotzora · 2 months ago

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these things are always happening to the ones i like :////////

anyways the lighting in this dungeon is so nice

didn't get any good pics bc i was too busy dungeoning but so pretty...best dungeon music so far goes to snowcloak though btw

#ffxivposting #i knew it was coming bc i tried to use the google search bar as a spellcheck for his name (LOL) like a DUMBASS because in the suggestions..#i was like no!! no!! but he's so funny!!!!!! and the second he showed up in game again i started taking screenshots of me n the bestieee #it wouldnt be accurate to say that i am Emotional about this but i am like aw man...but he was so funny...insert montage of All The Memorie #was crazy seeing her looking so distressed in a cutscene. girl me too! he was so funny </3 #the loud ass screenshot sound effects throughout the cutscene were funny though.this is who i am #altogether i have like 150+ screenshots of this game thus far.serious shit #IN OTHER NEWS:#- i cant stop laughing at finding out that a.lphinaud is in fact 16 years old. like i was guessing he was 17 or so but man it checks out #so hard. smart fella or not of course the sixteen year old boy naively founded a private army. it checks out so hard. hes cute :)#- since the tail end of arr patch quests ive been checking npc dialogue of relevant characters and thats a bit of a goldmine sometimes #- the first time aymeric(?) (not double checking via google ive learned my lesson) showed up i joked that he was going to be an akc type #and well no. he's really not. but i did cackle when it was revealed that he was a bastard child. clocked him on accident #- addicted to dalamud red dye. was funny when estinien started rocking his blood red armor like omg now we're Extra twinsies!#funny to me when they acknowledge the whole drg class stuff. like ah yes the Other azure drg. sorry estinien this feels like stolen valor #this is just what happens when u play f.fiv multiple times when u are r like 6. and also just think lances are sexy.#- can't wait to find out where tf the rest of the scions went. hi guys. you wont Believe what happened while you were AFK!#that's right! dragons! and then theyre like I Haven't Seen The Light Of The Sun For An Ambiguous Amount Of Time...cowabummer!#i keep joking abt needing to do a wellness check on urianger but honestly hes fine hes living it up in the sand. hes doing fine #- anyway can someone do a wellness check on ysayle(?).#- i've unlocked flight in a couple zones! thankkk god. some of these places are ROUGH to navigate without it sometimes.#- my keybinds are rough. also i have a gauge now. havent gotten to use it bc of level sync but anyway this feels like school #dont worry chat i only do duties with other real players when i Literally Have To Because They Make Me #- anyway. very ? about what theyre going to do with the rest of this story. intrigued. and quite sleepy i must say.

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zemnarihah · 4 months ago

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my relationship is stable again 👍🏼

#basically for those who may be nosy. also bc i feel like oversharing #there was a bit where he was a little quiet and distant. and i pressed him on why and he basically said that he was worried abt us being #long distance for potentially 2 more years and he basically said he wasn't sure if he could do that #and so we were like. maybe going to break up. and i was distraught ofc bc i love him etc. anyway i think we were at a generally weird spot #in our relationship bc he was out of the country right before for like 2 weeks and we could barely even talk on the phone and he just #started this new job and was rlly busy and stuff and we were even more distant than we had been already #but now he's here for the rest of the summer and we've been spending more time together and stuff and i think it's given a lot of clarity #abt our relationship and i brought it up again and he was like yeah i feel better abt it now i think we're steady. sooo :) that's good

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velvetineblue · 9 months ago

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I just want to share an OOC update with you all because it is funny and that is that I have officially Fractured My Ass. i cannot believe this..........................

#i tripped going down my parents wooden stairs and thusly broke my tailbone...#I HATE THis STUPID BAKA EARTH THAT ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME AJKDHJKHJK #i went to watch kung fu panda with family yesterday and my god............... the agony of sitting through an entire movie........#and then sitting through a car ride there and back.....#it's a pain you cannot understand until you Too break your ass.#u ____________ u #thank fuck for standing desks!!!!#and pls be careful with baggy pants on stairwells: YOUR SWAG ISN'T WORTH HAVING A BROKEN ASS !!!!#( the old ppl were right all along oh god..... they warned us of the danger of baggy pants and we never listened...................... )#( ThEIR PROPHECY HAS BEEN FULFILLED ................... )#( but also this fall happened abt a week ago so no worries i am fINE now i'm just still healing from it LMAO )

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dandyshucks · 9 months ago

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i think im going to be less afraid of being annoying here maybe. perhaps. i say this or think it to myself like once every couple of weeks and then continue to be so scared of coming across as "obnoxious" or smth. sigh. crawls into a hole.

#someone is co-fronting right now and i can't tell who but its making us act so silly JFDJKL #i always feel a little worried abt my typing style or speaking style being possibly inconsistent but its the DID 😭#idk if it is even noticeably different for yall though LOL #WE WRITE NOTICEABLY DIFFERENTLY THOUGH I FOUND OUT RECENTLY. Chase wrote a DL passage a couple months ago and i (juno) read it after #and it was ... clunky HFDGJKL it wasn't BAD but it did not have the usual flow that my stuff has #and i showed it to my friend and they were like ''.... did you write this? this doesn't sound like your writing'' so that was. wild. LMAO #ANYWAYS. im going to try to be a little less scared of being silly and sharing random f/o thoughts on here perhaps LOL #dandy.cmd

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#theres this feeling i get sometimes. i find it very hard to articulate. its part despair and part awe. dispair at how beautiful the world is #all those intricate little process coming together to organize the chaos. i dont kno y i feel it so deeply or y it hurts so much #because its just. no matters what horrible things r going on in the world. ur body is this miraculous collection of chemicals and reactions #mobile containers of water with a history that spirals back billions of years. and you can hear and see and experience and reflect #and when you die the world goes on spinning without you. if we as humans destroyed this planet past the part of our ability to inhabit it #it wouldnt even matter. there would be continued life past humanity. cosmically we r tiny and insignificant and we dont matter #but were beautiful and wonderful and infinity complex and knowing that leaves me in agony. because i want to kno everything right now but #mind is too small and i walk around with the disorientation of someone whos just been hit in thr face ans i cant focus enough to read #cant make the words make sense and i cant justify the time it would take to try. so i sit on my deck. in the sun. crying as i think about #how the light hit the grass in my front yard the last time i was home. how the cliffs in the backyard are ringed with red lines of iron #separated out as the water leached through the sandstone. how every avaliable surface is stained green as organisms reach upward toward #the sun. and its beautiful and i dont kno y im crying. maybe its bc i cant just throw everything aside and chase that feeling. im not #allowed to feel it. im not allowed to talk abt it in the way i want. bc im afraid no one cares as much as me in the same way. bc when i #talk abt what i study its obscure and academic and so far from what most ppl think abt that they get intimidated and dont try to understand #so i just try not to talk abt it. or maybe im just afraid. bc i have my 1st TA meeting tomorrow and i meet with my new advisor friday #and im worried and im afraid i wont b able to do this in a way that doesnt make me feel like im dying. bc i like to b busy and i like having #a strict schedule but if u throw me that knife im going to stab myself with it bc i dont kno how wield it as a tool without hurting myself #sure ill get the job done. but at what cost? whatever. ill try to b better this time. try to hold tight to the wonder. but that feels like #reaching out into forever. knowing ill never make contact. not knowing what im reaching for.#the closest approximation to the feeling i can find is that scene in the terror. where go0dsir is asking if god is there. any god. and it #doesnt matter bc he can see god in the landscape. in an environment that's so harsh and barren that its killing him slowly in the worst of #ways and its beautiful. its still beautiful to him. there is wonder here. and im wasting my time laying in a dark room crying bc i put #myself into a container so constrictive that the surface snaps and i come spilling out as an angry liquid. smearing away into nothing #unrelated

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bittwitchy · 7 months ago

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cw anti st*ggy and st*cky joke:

its funny how much i hate st*ggy considering i also dont like st*cky romantically

#but funnily enough i AM a steve/sam and b*cky/sam girl #but thats the one poly i wont approve of #for me u do u friends #how many tags do i have to do before it no longer shows up in tags brw #bc the fandoms for both of those ships are vile #esp when u admit to preferring sam w both of them they just get plain r*cist sometimes #i know its 20 to stay out of the tags but #will 20 also stop the flaggings from picking it up bc i dont wanna do that either #i wanna make sure your tag blocks work yknow #wtf even is sam and b/uckys pairing name #like im a b/uckyn/at aka w/interwi/dow girlie as well and they have both #is it like… w/interfa/lcon????#why is b/uckys name first it should be sams #honestly that fandom is wild if you talk abt ships nnur ships arent the popular ones like #i woll dully admit i ship wild stuff too #not rly wild if m*rv*l cared enough to actually build the rels peoperly but like #as a comic reader im a st*ron fan and im forever mad at how they #royally fucked up sh/arons story just bc they wanted to fuck w h/ayley a/twell a known woman hater posing as a f/eminist #i do like st*ny but only when done right bc lbr… they couldnt even do theirn #friendship right enough to make cw actually impactful #and i dont understand why ‘literally was earning almost a billion per movie at the time even before they all were’ m*rv*l #chose to fuck w what cap 3 was to ‘compete w b/atman v s/uperman’ like #they had zero to worry abt ppl wont even pay attention to zacks films and pick apart anything to hate they can #ppl hate subtle storytelling which is how he storytells he hates shoving the plot in your face he wants you to overthink it #and they were launching the universe then like it was NEVER going to be a competition they just freaked tf out for no reason #losers #ima tag them now hopefully i dont end up int he tags if u have those antis blacklisted lmk if it works #anti steggy #anti stucky

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graevs666 · 7 months ago

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had a convo w my friend abt weed and addictions bc they r sober from alcohol (and yes they’re both diff) but they convinced me to delete / block my dealers numbers and tell my other friends

So I just sent voice messages asking them not to smoke around me bc im tryna detox

#Ngl im anxious and already regretting it lol but also know im doing this for myself and it’s gonna be hard #I just worry im going to be worse without weed and tht my friends aren’t gonna have as much fun or not wanna hang w me as much bc #they wont be able to smoke around me bc im impulsive so I can’t say no #I feel bad asking them not to smoke around me but I just know it’s gonna make me have that craving and wanna smoke #I was also meant to be hanging out w guy on Saturday and we were gonna smoke so im worried abt tht now #like im probs gonna smoke w them but I deleted my dealers number so I defo can’t buy any or ask for a number from my friends #ugh this shit is gonna be so hard idk why im doing this right now but I needed to make this step at some point #journal #edit/ so I ended up deleting the messages I sent them #im just gonna see how this week goes first #I’ll tell them eventually

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mainfaggot · 8 months ago

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i just had cute small talk w a white gay barista but im afraid i came off as arrogant

#they looked lesbian asf idk #they asked how my day was so far and i decided to say something other than fine thanks for once #so i was like “i just had a morning class and now I'm pretty tired haha”#and they were like oh? what class? so i responded 'spanish :]'#basically they asked if i was any good and i was like umm. uh well i have to take a certification exam to prove fluency in the next year #so i hope so! :P #and they were super stoked and then they asked about other languages i speak so i talked abt that briefly #basically they kept seeming interested and praising me and i felt really awkward so i was like omg u draw or paint right #and they were like ??? howd u know #and i was like haha i got a vibe ^_^#and they were like... :D that's a good thing right? and i said well yeah ofc that's so cool! and then they told me theyre an art his major #and i was like woaah sick #but basically it was sweet and i felt like i was getting way too many compliments at 10:15 am like way too early for this #im just so worried i came off as self centred or like overly self assured about my intellect #but also why do i gaf. why. some white ass barista who i see every so often is not going to give me a job or be the love of my life #also THEY ASKED!!! i just answered. i also tried my best to ask abt them as much as possible...#agh i hate talking next time ill jsut politely smile and say good thanks ☺️👍🏻#like i always do..#z.post

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