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remainseatedatalltimes · 1 year ago

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2023: Bow Down To Barbenheimer

Oh 2023. You came and went in a flicker. And so will the memory of your cinema releases.

Okay, okay. It wasn’t that bad. But in many ways, 2023 felt like a complete repeat of 2022 with the release of a series of decent, entertaining enough films to help moviegoers like myself enjoy a cinematic escape from the real world.

Now don’t get me wrong, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. In fact, it’s precisely what my overactive brain yearns for. And it’s a large reason why so many of the movies I review tend to sit squarely in the 3-to-4-star category. I’m so grateful for that escape that I genuinely do like most movies. But essentially, a movie needs to make me FEEL something that compels me to want to talk about it to get above or below that range. To keep that escape going beyond the boundaries of the cineplex. Good, bad or otherwise (we all love to share horror stories of the appalling film we had to endure…remember Cats?). So whilst I thoroughly enjoyed my cinematic escapes in 2023, very few films kept me thinking and talking extensively about them beyond the boundaries of the cinema. With a few exceptions…

But first, let’s talk about the three movies that DID make an impact in 2023 with most cinemagoers: Barbie, Oppenheimer, and The Super Mario Bros. Movie. All 3 were big successes that certainly lit up the interweb. And whilst Barbie certainly drew lots of well-deserved praise, unfortunately for me, most of the sequences with Will Ferrell and the Mattel leaders – who clearly had to be larger than life caricatures so to not offend the real-world company banking the film – just completely ruined the overall tone and impact. Which is a shame, because if these characters had in fact represented the real-world business leaders, it would have elevated this already joyous and clever film to greater heights.

Meanwhile, The Super Mario Bros. Movie did great fan service with a fun and fast-paced film that finally gave the biggest names in gaming the cinematic star-status they deserve. Even if Nintendo clearly didn’t read the Disney rulebook on merchandising by failing to release a new gaming title in line with the film…go figure.

But it was the final film in the 2023 trifecta that transcended the crowd to take the crown of my number 1 film of the year. That film, Christopher Nolan’s dark, anxious and ambitious study of guilt, in the biopic, Oppenheimer.

To be honest, this movie probably does deserve a higher ranking than I’ve awarded it. It is pretty close to cinema perfection. A stellar cast, a stunning soundscape, a captivating story, and some of the best scene composition I’ve seen in years. But I review from my heart, and I still left Oppenheimer stunned, but slightly hollow. Which arguably is the entire point of the film. I think we’d all have been very confused if this had been a musical retelling (don’t laugh, it’s actually a thing - Google Australian musical Atomic). But when I look at other films I’ve awarded higher scores to, I stand by my score based on my personal taste. I am quite thrilled it still managed to take out the no. 1 spot, however. And hey, this is my list, so I can do what I want 😉

Interestingly, my second favourite film dealt with very similar themes – depression, grief, isolation – but in a VERY different way. Quirky, brilliantly acted, and at times both heartbreaking and hilarious, The Banshees of Inisherin did find its way to my heart, and captivated me for 2 joyous hours of intrigue, laughs, tears, and WTF is happening musings. Not to mention the haunting, yet stunning landscape sitting at the films core. I lied. I did mention it.

Rounding out my top 3 was another Barry Keoghan star vehicle, and one of 2023’s most controversial movies. Whilst not quite as sublime as Emerald Fennell’s spectacular 2021 film, Promising Young Woman, her recent take on wealth, privilege, desire, and greed was impossible to look away from (even though I kind of wanted to in several instances). But that is precisely the point of this film. Reminiscent to me of one of my favourite films of all time, the underrated The Talented Mr. Ripley, this cynical, shocking, and brutal film was intentionally wicked and wonderful to behold. Even if it may not be for everyone.

Similarly to 2022, I ended up awarding 12 films this year with 4-star ratings. So there were plenty of other very good films released this year that you should catch up on if you haven’t already. These ranged from the wonderfully optimistic and sentimental, Wonka – which, despite the director’s claims to the contrary, is the very definition of a MUSICAL; to the brilliant and most original film of the year, Poor Things – which very nearly pipped Saltburn for my 3rd place. Emma Stone can literally do no wrong. I also thoroughly enjoyed the animated gems ranging from the best superhero film of the year – Spiderman: Across the Universe; to Pixar’s romantic comedy, Elemental; to Disney’s latest animated musical, Wish – a charming, somewhat clever tribute to the 100th anniversary of the studio. I also clearly have a thing for seeing the upper echelons suffer, because the disturbing, yet brilliantly funny Triangle of Sadness also wet my whistle. And rounding out the top 12 were three bigger blockbuster style films that shot well above their weight: The best game adaptation of a movie to date (no, it’s not the one you’re thinking), Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves; the Nike origin story (is that a thing?), Air; and the hilarious, Joyride which accelerated nicely, but took out a few orange safety cones on the way to the finish line.

Thankfully this year was very firmly tipped in favour of the positives, with only 2 films falling below the 3-star level (although several such as the over-rated critical darling Tár, and the underwhelming slew of Marvel 2023 releases including The Marvels and Guardians of the Galaxy: Volume 3, did teeter precariously close to that edge.

Instead, it was another Marvel film, the over CGI’d and yet rather dull, Ant Man sequel, Ant-Man and the Wasp: Quantamania that unfortunately became my first Marvel Cinematic Universe film to drop below the 3-star level. Mostly because it felt pointless, hollow, and somewhat dull. The sooner Marvel realises the solution to their box-office woes right now is less about super-hero fatigue, and more about the fact they’ve lost their human elements – and in doing so – their emotional core, the better. The solution: Ditch trying to go “bigger”, and bring the action back to Earth, in a setting we all find familiar, to make the action more personal. In other words, bring in the moral quarry that the X-Men present. There is no better time than now to tell the mutation story. So they should hurry up and re-tell it the way only Marvel Studios can.

And finally, rounding out my list in last place was the incredibly oddly executed black comedy – Allelujah. I say black comedy because that’s my best guess as to the genre this film was aiming for. But unfortunately, not even the talented cast could save this film from delivering a storyline that has been done numerous times before (and better) on television, in a way that felt both shallow and frankly insulting, all at the same time.

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anosci · 1 year ago

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(347-362 albums etc that I’ve listened to this year, copied from twitter) (now with art. [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] [13] [14] [15] [16] [17] [18] [19] [20] [21] [22] [23] [24] [25])

names and thoughts below cut

347/ (all music compos at Deadline 2023) the bangers are in the tracked music compo "lost_in_brutalism" prolly my fav but also! i do like the feel that "mind control" manages to add to dnb

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348/ anosci - visions from dsp 23 (2023) ive decided to put my own releases in here too :) i made drums. i rapidly alternate between loving and hating this but i am infatuated with the results from these techniques

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349/ Dario Zenker - Reflection (2023) dubby??? beats??? this is pretty much the ideal soundtrack for driving at night listen to "Jah True" and try to NOT see the streetlights passing by. also "Round Ritmo" hits some kinda nostalgic bone, the way it mangles that housish texture.

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350/ VA - Funk it UP (2017) this is kinda funny because "funk" is a very broad umbrella term and the entries here touch every corner. what is "Luxurious"? idk. still slaps tho. most funky funk: "funky boy"? "Quicksand Telescope"? "Bep Bop" has a very tito trackery feel

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351/ easyFun - ACOUSTIC (2023) not as much my tea as ELECTRIC. definitely feels like it'd appear on a radio wait a second… "Damaged III" goes hard in a non-accoustic way! ive been lied to! this rules but yea, fav tune actually "They’re So Smart" i think. fun one.

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352/ VA - The Sound of SceneSat Volume 7 (2023) huge bag etc naming a few hilights: Infamous kicking ass here esp with "Chaos Theory"! "Strolling in Okinawa" what in tarnation! this rules! "Bright Velvet" :O!!!! loving the hifi rendition of "Good Thing"! "2050 Or 2051" hits hard

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353/ ZULI - Numbers (2017) delightfully mangled. "What You Do" highlight maybe? massive.

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354/ Appo Sound Project – Digital Trip Dirty Pair Synthesizer Fantasy (1985) lol why is this "Lovely Mugi" arrange 20000x better than the ost version "Silent Inspiration" too but not by as much it kinda tapers after that, to my taste. glad to have given this a spin on a whim tho

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355/ greenhouse - arc,regn (2023) ok this may sound silly but: in the 90s, necros (among others) were making some rad tracker music with a very very specific synth sound and overall vibe that i simply havent heard since. this hits that for me. it's sleek and clean and beautiful

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356/ The Black Dog - My Brutal Life (2023) some of these pass me by entirely. some of these grab me: "Hey Serry", "It's Not Enough"

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357/ Howler - Initio (2023) this one just doesnt quite hit me. it's clean but. idk. "Fagin It" kinda vibes tho that and the wobbling filters of "Oh Yeah" became the only tracks i kept

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358/ VA - Winter Chip XII (2017) all over the place ofc standouts / thoughts: "ILLOGIC" The Good Stuff :D possibly fav? "Beneath The Ice" is a worthy winner tho. v banger "Sega Channel" is a hell of a bop "SMStep" idk how "old" this gets, i love the wob. on old systems too!

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359/ Patricia Taxxon - TECHDOG 1 (2023) the wild textures of ae threeJay etc, but with beautiful tones. feels like a fresh fun take on "chaotic beats over a sine synth" oldschool idm. it hits good!! t7 feels like a clean tigerbeat6 thing :O favs? t3, 5, 2, 8… lots to digest.

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360/ Sinjin Hawke & Zora Jones - Vicious Circles (2018) lots of rly cool textures in here, grounded by trap(?) beats. the title track esp. i think "Lurk 101" is my fav of the bunch tho

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361/ Patricia Taxxon - TECHDOG 2 (2023) t2 goin off tho t4 maybe [representative] highlight? t6 oh holy shit, what a texture. tigerbeat6 TWO t10 wild mix of textures. md flashback very funny to end a highly harmonic album with the abstracted beats of t11

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taylamillsdesignresearch2 · 1 year ago

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POSTER PAGE 2 - finalised writing for each object (1831 words)

MIRROR

This mirror was gifted to me on my birthday by my Aunty a few years ago. It is a makeup mirror with outer lighting that was gifted to me due to my passion for makeup artistry. My aunty has a lot of experience in the makeup artistry field, making this mirror very special as we would often bond over our love for makeup artistry and creativity. I have used this mirror everyday since it was gifted to me, and therefore is a huge part of my identity.

HEADPHONES

These are apple headphones that I use almost every day due to my love of music. I find that I often like to have music playing in the background in any situation and would much rather prefer it over silence. I listen to all different kinds of music depending on my mood, and I find that I can really express myself through my music taste. I take these headphones wherever I go, making them a big part of who I am.

PEN AND PAPER

Throughout my entire life I have always had pens and paper with me, as I am a very creative person. As soon as I was old enough to hold a pen I would draw and doodle for hours almost every day. My love of art and drawing allows me to be expressive through my work. It allows me to use as much creativity as possible whilst also allowing me to explore new ideas. My love for drawing is what got me into graphic design, making it a very significant part of my life.

CANDLE

I own around 20 different candles, but the specific one pictured was gifted to me from my mother when I first moved into my current apartment. I love lighting candles in my room to create a calming environment whilst also making it smell nice. Lighting a candle is very helpful when I am under high pressure as it creates a soothing environment and helps me to focus on my work. Lighting a candle has a huge impact on my overall calmness, making them a significant part of my life.

VASE OF FLOWERS

I find that I quite often have a vase of flowers sitting on my vanity, and whenever I get gifted them I make sure to put them on display and take good care of them in order to show my appreciation. Having flowers in my room creates a happy environment, and they serve as a reminder that I am loved. The current flowers that I have were gifted to me from a friend and are pink, meaning that they pair nicely with my feminine, girly personal style

PAW PRINT PICTURE

This element is one of the most significant out of all of the objects in the poster.

I have this picture hanging up on my wall so that I feel as though she is always with me. It makes me feel more at home when looking at my wall, however, it is still very hard to look at and it often makes me upset. This object is a huge part of my identity as I had my dog throughout my entire childhood, and it inspires me to do well to show how far ive come through the years.

SHOULDER BAG

I bought this bag from a thrift store a few years ago because it was vintage and pink, going well with my personal style. I love shopping and I like to place my bags on display along with my collections of accessories, representing my love for fashion. I love to buy second hand rather than supporting fast fashion, and I believe this has had an impact on my creative process when it comes to supporting recycling. It also makes me think more about what materials I use when designing physical aspects.

BAILEYS BOTTLE

The bottle of baileys liquor was given to me as a gift on my eighteenth birthday. It represents the important milestone of turning eighteen, representing how far I've come in life. It acts as a reminder to keep going when things get tough, so after finishing the bottle, I washed it and put it on display in my room. It was a limited edition pink bottle so it matches my personal style perfectly, which therefore has an impact on my creativity.

FRANK OCEAN POSTER

I have multiple posters on my wall that I have designed and printed myself. This particular poster is an album recreation design that I created using pink colours to match my room. It is of one of my favourite musicians, Frank Ocean, who I always listen to when working and designing. This element is significant as my mother also listens to his music so we are both able to bond over our love for him. The poster represents my love for music and its impact that it has had on me creatively.

PLAYING CARDS

Playing cards are a consistent element found in every one of my extended families homes. They are significant as whenever I spend time with family we like to play card games together, and my grandad also uses them to do magic tricks. These cards represent family time, as family is the most important thing to me so I value every second that we spend together. My family has always supported me with my passion for design, and they are constantly making positive impacts on my creativity and inspiring me.

WALLPAPER

This wallpaper was on the walls of my childhood bedroom from ages two till seven. This element is very significant as it was connected to the place where I made so many good memories. The wallpaper was floral and feminine, much like my own personal style today, and I feel as though this wallpaper heavily influenced my style today. Although this wallpaper is not in my life anymore, I like to look back on my childhood and I often associate with good memories and use it as a way to see how far i've come in life.

MAKEUP BRUSHES

Although I have many different brands of makeup brushes, all of them are pink and they sit in a pink makeup pot. I use these brushes almost every day, making them a part of my daily routine. My favourite part of the morning has always been sitting down at my vanity and doing my makeup. It is one of the parts of being a girl that I love the most as I am able to express my femininity. They represent my love for makeup artistry and overall creativity.

FLIP PHONE

This flip phone is a very significant item as my grandad has had it for around twenty years and he brings it wherever he goes. I have a special bond with my grandad and it is his way of contacting me, and we often joke about how his phone is older than me. This phone reminds me of my grandad and all of our happy memories, which represents my love for my family. My family is a big inspiration in my life and have had a huge impact on my design.

LIGHTER

I bought this lighter myself, and it was originally grey coloured but I rhinestone it with pink gems to match my personal style more. This lighter is special as I use it to light my candles, which I have placed all around my room to create a warm, calming environment. Lighting candles have a huge impact on my mood as they keep me calm and at peace. The lighter represents the action of taking my stress away when lighting a candle, which impacts my design process as it keeps my mind at ease.

LOCKET NECKLACE

I made this locket necklace myself using an old, vintage locket and a light pink ribbon. This necklace is significant as it portrays my love for fashion and accessorising, whilst also looking very feminine, pairing with my personal style. I haven’t put a photo in it yet but I would like to put a photo of my dog in it so that I will always have her with me. This locket represents the idea of keeping my memories close with me, as they are an important part of my identity.

HAIRBRUSH

I use this hairbrush every single day so it is a part of my daily routine. Getting ready is often my favourite part of the day, and this hairbrush is an object that has stayed consistent for my entire life. It represents girlhood and the fun of getting ready in the morning. I enjoy sitting at my vanity and treating it as my creative space where I can explore different styles in terms of makeup, hair, accessorising, and more.

RING

I have a very big jewellery collection, however this ring is one of the most significant out of all of them. It is a matching promise ring set that I got for my friend and myself when she was going through a hard time. We both have a very special bond and have both been through very hard times, so this ring symbolises a promise that we will always be there for eachother no matter what. The ring symbolises how much I value my friendships, and how my friends are a big part of my identity.

LOCKETS

I have a few different lockets sitting in my trinket tray, all from different sources. Some of them were gifted and some were bought from vintage stores. Lockets are significant to me as I love the look of them and they represent my personal style. They represent my love for jewellery and vintage items, but also represent the keeping of memories. I often use my personal memories as design inspiration so these lockets have had a big impact on my creative style as well as my identity.

BOWS

When looking around my room you will find bows everywhere. I make them myself with light pink ribbon that I buy from craft stores. They are often attached to my accessories or clothing items, or just pinned to the wall and treated as art. I use these bows as personalisation to make my belongings more my style. I treat bows as the symbol of my personal style, as they are one of my favourite objects and they represent my femininity.

DESK

The desk was a gift from my parents on my eighth birthday. It was gifted to me due to my love of drawing and painting, so this desk acted as my creative space. It is significant as I have used it almost everyday since I was eight, with its purpose changing over the years. I started to use the desk as a vanity when I started to become passionate about makeup. However, I now use it for design work as well. This desk has had a major impact on my design work as it is the place that I can go to escape and just explore my creativity.

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googledocsdyke · 4 years ago

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thank u @caswlw for tagging me! the rules are to put your favourite playlist on shuffle and post the first 10 songs, no skipping, then tag 10 people 🎶💕

1. venice bitch - lana del rey

2. headache - rigby

3. graceless - the national

4. sad day - fka twigs

5. 60 & punk - death cab for cutie

6. 26 - paramore

7. saw you in a dream - the japanese house

8. cheap queen - king princess

9. presumably dead arm - sidney gish

10. never bloom again - waterparks

completely no-pressure tagging @samdyke @crying-trashcan @sunboyfriend @dykecas @deanification @virginalbehemoth @lesbianyuugi @gettingin2knives @dykerightsmp3 @dogg-parkk

#was gonna do my 4-hour destiel playlist but i remembered that i contain multitudes #this playlist is not entirely representative of my music taste overall but it does bring me great complex joy #also sorry for listening to king princess i am not immune to mediocre self-obsessed lesbians :~(#tag games #it's been a HOT MINUTE since i did one of these

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leolo404 · 4 years ago

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🦊Astrology Observations Pt.2🦊

Hello everyone! Am back with my second astrology observations post. I hope you enjoy it🧡 Also I recommend checking out the blog of @venusfun , her blog is really fun and informative. She's also my mentor in doing these astro notes🧡

⚠️Sidenote⚠️: Please take this with a grain of salt for not all of my personal observations will resonate you entirely.

GIF: NCT 🧡 Taeyong

🦊A well aspected Jupiter/Jupiter dominant can make someone look cute and chubby 💗

🦊While a well aspected Saturn/Saturn dominant tend to look tall and have mature features.

🦊I noticed that most Aquarius moons or risings are INTPs or ISTPs base on personality types (MBTI)

🦊Venus in the 9th House/Venus aspecting Jupiter or Uranus/Venus in Sagittarius/Venus in Aquarius can indicate someone who likes to try listening to other genres of music (Example: You always listen to pop music but you are curious about listening to heavy metal or jazz so you try them out and see if it fits your taste.)

🦊And they tend to enjoy listening to foreign music as well. (I have one of those placements and I love listening to Kpop lol and same goes for my friend who likes listening to Japanese/anime music)

🦊Your midheaven not only shows your public life, social standing, and destined career but also your representation which is why if your ascendant is how you see the world, your midheaven is how the world sees you.

🦊Gemini and Virgo moons are the most argumentive moon signs and they tend to love debating

🦊Speaking of Gemini and Virgo moons, they also are pretty much the most anxious or neurotic moon signs, maybe because of the mercury influence

🦊The degrees really play an important role to your natal charts, they can really influence you and affect your overall personality. (Example: I have my Scorpio sun in 5° and as we all know, Scorpios are known to be reserved, secretive, and mysterious but with that 5°(Leo degree) this makes me more open, sociable, and extraverted)

🦊Scorpio and Pisces risings have the most alluring and magnetic eyes

🦊12th house stellium(especially if it's in personal planets) in a composite chart can show that there are hidden agendas or issues in a relationship. There can be many problems with decision making where one wants something while the other is hiding their feelings of disagreement. This can indicate of having a lack of stating their true feelings because both partners are uncomfortable with it.

🦊Leo/Cancer/Pisces moons can go to the heights of self love to the depths of self hate. It's either they can go from being very confident and optimistic or very insecure and pessimistic. No in between 🙅‍♀️🙅‍♂️

🦊Aries moons are more sensitive than Cancer moons because cancer moons are more secured and protective with their emotions while Aries moons tend to be very expressive about it.

🦊Base on my experience, the two sister signs that don't always get along are Aquarius x Leo and Virgo x Pisces. Both Aquarius and Leos have very different values, Leo wants authority and rulership but Aquarius is against it due to them being humanistic and have this savior complex? While Virgo is the most human sign and is very down-to-earth which clashes Pisces' tendencies for living in another realm or feeling the outside world, more like fantasy vs reality.

🦊Air placements are so good at technology and networking.

🦊Air Sun/Moon 🤝 spamming in their group chats with random lyrics, foreign languages, or emojis when bored

🦊Geminis and Sagittarius can just be as indecisive as Libras, it's hard for them to choose and prefer to have their options open for more opportunity.

🦊We are under the age of Aquarius and you can really notice that this era consists of progressions, inventions, humanity, technological improvements, science, and rebellion against authority. (This is base on research only)

🦊Taurus/2nd House placements are really great at handling their finances. They are always careful with their money and can be really practical with it so they won't be wasting an amount of money with unecessary things, they have a strategy on how to balance it.

🦊But Neptune in the 2nd house may struggle when it comes to handling their financial terms. Please learn to prioritize your needs and wants so you won't be struggling 😭

🦊Venus in 2nd house do attract money easily and have no problems when it comes to financial issues but they have a tendency to overspend it. This can also resonate to both Libra and Leo Venusians.

🦊People who have their Pluto in the 1st house may experience hopelessness and confusion with themselves. They tend to be struggling with their inner self and personality. I have this placement 😔

🦊Scorpio is probably the only sign who experiences death and rebirth and tends to experience transformation constantly. This is the reason why Scorpio's final stage represents the Phoenix, we self-destruct and destroy ourselves then rise again stronger and better. (Applies to Scorpio Sun, Sun in 8H, Scorpio Moon, Moon in 8H, Scorpio Rising, Pluto in 1H, 8H and Scorpio Stellium)

🦊Having Aquarius in the 4th house can indicate that you are most likely the black sheep in your family.

🦊Virgo and Scorpio mercuries are very observant and speculative, they are like detectives. They know how to pick up clues and are good at researching🕵️‍♀️🕵️

🦊When provoked, Taurus/Capricorn Mars can go physical and it's very hard for them to be angered so when they are infuriated it's very unusual and frightening to see them like that. Virgo Mars are scary as well when they are vexed, but instead of going physical they are more prone to verbal fighting.

Btw my astro notes may include some relations to personality types, random zodiac theories, and some Kpop gifs for promotion and aesthetics lol but not always. This is my way of balancing all my interests out for good💃💃 Also thank you guys so much for the 100 followers, 🧡 I don't even know if I deserve this 😭

#astrology #astro notes #astrology observations #astrology post #zodiac signs #horoscope #aries #taurus #gemini #cancer #leo #virgo #libra #scorpio #sagittarius #capricorn #aquarius #pisces #personal observations and notes

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armoricaroyalty · 2 years ago

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What is one thing you've done in your story so far* that you feel most proud of? (could be a scene, plotline, piece of dialogue, screenshot, etc)

*so far = something you've already posted, not something you've got coming up 😎

Honestly? Most of it!

There’s a natural tendency to look back at your old work and cringe, and while I haven’t entirely freed myself of that impulse (I remain unsatisfied with lots of parts of chapter 1) but I’m very satisfied with most of my recent work on this story, particularly beginning with Chapter 2, Part 1.

A few specific things I am proud of include:

Chapter 2, Part 1. Beginning with Ch 2 Part 1, I decided to try telling more-constrained stories with fewer characters. There are bits and pieces I might handle a little differently now, but overall, I’m still extremely happy with this chapter overall. It’s a very contained story, and I’m still satisfied with the quality of my screenshots, the banter, and the way this part develops Rosalind and Mary and their relationship.

My most recent story post. This post represents a bit of a turn for the dark and dramatic. I think it’s natural to be a bit self-conscious about really dramatic developments in the story -- is it out of character? does it fit within the setting and the established relationships, or does it feel unearned? do my readers expect different things from me and my story, or will they welcome this development? I feel like I did a good job threading the needle with this update, and I also really like the way I lit and blocked this scene. My story is very cinematic in my own head, and this is one post that just matches up with the way it existed in my own head.

Kelly’s playlist. I love this just because I worked on it for over a year and it just came together really well. My mean older brothers used to tease me about my favorite bands/albums (leaving me permanently insecure about my musical taste, rip) and I’ve also got various brain weirdnesses that mean that the way I engage with music is very different than the way most people engage with music. (It’s complicated to explain, but I’ve got some auditory processing issues that mean I can’t fully hear/process pitch and rhythm but I also have sound/color synesthesia.) I really like this playlist and it was SO validating to have people say nice things about it to me. Thank you all for validating me, lol.

Thank you for the question and the excuse to brag :)

#ardeney-sims #armorica asks

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moved-to-void-kissed · 2 years ago

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🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

Oh!! Thank you for this, Ruby! It means a lot to me that you'd count me as one of your favourite followers - thank you so much!!

..This was an absolute nightmare to narrow down to five songs, if I'm being completely honest, because I am almost entirely incapable of picking favourites when it comes to anything, let alone something as varied as songs. So, the way I picked was by reading more into "songs you like to listen to" and then picked five songs I know I have looped over and over again for a long sustained period of time. This might skew the overall vibes, but hopefully it's fine - it's just asking for "songs I like to listen to", not "songs that represent my music taste". (Also most of them are not in English, as a heads-up, though lyric translations are usually present on VOCALOID Lyrics Wiki.)

Last Resort, by Ayase. I like a number of Ayase's songs actually - Happy Ender, Cynical Night Plan, Yokubari, etc. - but this is my absolute favourite out of all those (well, maybe tied with Happy Ender). I kind of have a mini-PV running in my head for what's going on in the song when I'm listening to it, and it's generally just a good song to have going on as background music.

Shinkai City Underground, by TanakaB. Its lyrics are nonsensical in every translation of them I know, but the song itself sounds super catchy, and I also link it to one of my self-inserts (Lamia, specifically), so it ticks a lot of boxes! I like a lot of covers of it, moreso than the original Rin version actually (though that's probably because this song is from 2011..), so let's also pick this Meiko V3 one, if you wanted to have a listen to that.

MONSTER, by KIRA. I was torn between picking this or B.B.F, as both are extremely great and iconic songs (as are a number of KIRA's songs, honestly), but the next song on the list kind of fills a similar sort of niche to my ear as B.B.F, so I went with MONSTER. Another one that functions as a self-insert song, actually - this time for my Kingdom Hearts self-insert, Aria. This is the only one that's actually in English, oops.

SNOBBISM, by Neru and z'5. It's just fun. I associate it a lot with Splatoon, without any real reason (I'd say ROKI sounds more like it fits or is from that game, to be honest) other than assigning it to a team of OCs that I made back in Year 10. Oh, and I used Bizu (the demon character featured in the PV) as my icon during the final Splatfest, since I was part of Team Chaos and I felt he represented that aptly.

ROKI, by mikitoP. Again, it's just fun. And I think it's a neat touch that, in the original version of the song, the producer who wrote it is actually singing alongside Rin! ..That said, I do also like the version used at Magical Mirai, which has Len sing those parts instead (just as a warning, the video here is a concert recording, so it might have some strobe effects).

There are many other songs I could have put here (this doesn't even cover some of what I would say are my most listened-to producers, like Ferry or Hachi), but hopefully these are alright? It's kind of late for me, so I hope that all of this makes sense ;w;

Thank you very much again for sending this to me!! I hope that you're having a great day, 'cause you deserve it ^-^

#a call from the void #not strictly about selfshipping #but also three of the songs here are ones I associate with some of my self-inserts so.. does that count?#self‑insert: abyssal curiosity (lamia)#for shinkai city underground (another example of a song with similarish vibes that I associate with lamia is BABYLON by tohma)#self‑insert: darkness' champion (aria)#for MONSTER (which used to full-on be what I called her character song. aria's the only self-insert i have a playlist for actually)#self‑insert: apathetic agent (cat)#my splatoon self-insert! since it's her turf war team that SNOBBISM is the song for. her own ''personal song'' is sand planet by hachi #I wanted to put a SOLARIA song in here but none of them really fit the logic i was following except maybe aura by GHOST #it's late i'm tired i recommend people go look up the lyrics to all these before going to watch them if you're worried about the contents #out of the inbox #ruby tag!#chain mail #because of the whole ''when you get this send it on'' aspect. again i can't pick favourites so I don't know if I will pass it on to anyone #especially since i know a lot of people don't like receiving that sort of ask format (as in one where you ''have'' to then send it on)#but regardless it means a lot to me that you sent this my way and I enjoyed seeing your answer to your own ask so thank you once again ruby #long post #ask to tag #I should *really* sleep now

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sigynpenniman · 3 years ago

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Julian Bashir Playlist Time!!

Apple Music playlist (if you're a heathen and subscribe to apple music like me) here

I know that there's plenty of people making playlists, but I really feel like this is an under-utilized brand of fan content. Instead of attempting to create a list of songs that Julian would listen to, or a playlist of songs which were all lyrically directly applicable (though there certainly some of those in here) regardless of genre, I tried to create something which captured, above all, his vibes instead, by choosing songs that balance at least somewhat relevant lyrical content with the energy or feel that I associate with the character. What it means matters, but not as much as how it makes you feel. That said, I signed up for apple music and read a TON of those overwrought iTunes store album review descriptions while I was making this, so I have a whole lot to say about all my choices here. In depth explanation of my symbolism and methodology behind each song under the keep reading. (I love tumblr. I want to write 1,000 words of analysis about why I picked songs to represent Julian Bashir and some of you are gonna read it. This is where I get to pretend to be one of those iTunes music writers. I feel joy.)

Good Morning - Two Door Cinema Club TDCC's Gameshow is high on my favorite albums of all time list for nebulous reasons I myself don't really understand. It was this album, though not this song (but one that will pop up later) that actually inspired me to make this playlist to begin with, as for some reason, from the color scheme of the album cover, to the overall vibe, to the ever-present references to illness, injury, surgery and healers in the lyrics, the whole thing feels inescapably Julian to me. And with an opening like I'm a sinner/I'm the victim/I'm an alien when I'm myself/I'm a healer/I'm a fixer/I'm a present danger to my health/I'm so strong/Doing what I'm supposed to do/ There's something wrong/With somebody like me, it's hard NOT to think about Julian when you hear this song, and I can't think of a better way to start this off.

Sweater Weather - The Neighbourhood I think there's a joke somewhere about bisexual people all liking Sweater Weather, and yeah, I resemble that remark. Sweater Weather is just good. You'll notice there's a sort of chill-indie-alt-electronic thing going here, and that is very much the vibe I'm sticking with. Sweater Weather slots in beautifully, both sonically and thematically. As the singer looks to warm and protect the person he's with from the cold, you can't help but feel a loving coziness coming off of this one. It always makes me feel cozy, at least, so it's here.

Gooey - Glass Animals I have nothing to analyze here because the artists themselves have said that the lyrics of this song have no meaning, they're just meant to capture a vibe, and capture it they do. Close your eyes and ride the vibes of this one. The energy is right, I love it, it belongs here.

Blue - Mika I could probably write a couple hundred words on Blue alone, in any context. This might be my beloved Mika's magnum Opus. Opening the song with the inherently counterintuitive lyric Blue is a feminine color, Mika manages to pack it ALL into this 3 minute song: questions about gender; concepts of sadness, joy, and their intersections; of the perception of melancholy as a flaw and loving people despite, or maybe because of, those "flaws" and anything else about them; a powerful first person reassurance that made me start weeping in my car the first time I heard it; just the phrase "why are humans cruel to you." And oh boy, ARE there questions of gender. Why is blue NOT considered a feminine color? Is that a good thing, a bad thing? In 3 minutes of artful poetry, Mika manages to wrap up sadness, love, joy, pain, the feminine that exists within the masculine and the masculine that exists within the feminine, in the simple color of blue and then, in one lyric, validates it all. And on a much simpler and more obvious note, this is in fact all a philosophic musing on the symbolic meaning of the color we see Julian wearing almost all the time (when he's not in uniform, almost all his civvies are also shades of blue.) I feel like this is one of those songs that's hard to analyze because it does what music and poetry does best - communicate something that cannot be communicated any other way. With these broad themes of loving others around the things they can't love about themselves, you can decide for yourself if this one is coming FROM Julian or directed AT him, either works. I find myself struggling for exactly the words to explain this one, but listen to it; you'll understand.

Little Dark Age - MGMT Another choice with no obvious lyrical relevance, but the tonal fit was just too good to pass up. The vibes pass.

The City - The 1975 This song is one of several present because it leans on medical symbolism to get its point across, though I would be lying if I said I fully understood what that point was. But the entire second verse, apparently about the song's subject suffering from some kind of illness and reassuring him that the next one's the M.D./You'll be feeling just fine, seems somehow to transmit the discomfort of illness directly to the listener. I don't know how or why, but the effectiveness of the empathy the second half of this song elicits, in me at least, puts it squarely in the "odd medical vibes" category.

Surgery - Two Door Cinema Club THIS is the song that inspired this whole playlist, mostly because of its title and general vibe. Another example (of many) of medical/anatomical references in this album (another of the songs is called Fever, etc), this song just feels like Julian to me.

The Other Side Of Paradise - Glass Animals I really like Glass Animals. That is probably becoming obvious. Aside from its delightfully cohesive vibes, this song opens with what's simultaneously the slyest and most brazen gay lyric I have heard on the radio recently, as the male singer says When I was young and stupid my love left to be a rock and roll star/HE told me... The song seems to be about a man whose male lover left him in pursuit of fame and fortune, and eventually ends up with a woman, leaving the singer behind. It's got simultaneously subtle and obvious gay themes, it's got confused love affairs, it's got so much bisexual energy. I cannot think of anything that could be more Julian.

Sit Next To Me - Foster The People Kind of like Sweater Weather, this whole song is built around a rather cute and sweet "sit next to me," and you can't help but feel a bit warm and cozy when you listen to it. I think it pairs with sweater weather well, and slides in with the rest of the picks very nicely.

Nothing Better - The Postal Service (the original band of the lead singer of Death Cab For Cutie) Another example of heavy surgical symbolism, the very first lyric of this song is Will someone please call a surgeon. This is actually a duet, and the singers speak of their real hearts to represent their emotional ones. Something about Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures always gets me and always will. And it vibes good. It vibes so, so good.

&Run - Sir Sly Sir Sly's &Run is my favorite song for driving too fast. It does an amazing job of musical onomatopoeia, talking about running while making you want to run. It's a song about running out of plans and running as far as you can instead, which is all very "I'm illegal by definition so I went to the farthest possible reaches of space." And like everything else here, it just feels good. It's also one of the only highlights here that I can actually see Julian listening to.

Cosmic Love - Florence and the Machine It's no coincidence that it seems like most of us who are invested in Julian Bashir are some flavor of genderqueer, be it trans, nonbinary, questioning, or something else entirely - the man's got a Gender with a capital G, and there's a whole lot going on in there. Between the words that were written for him on the page, and the words that were actually spoken, and the way he carries himself, Julian always seems caught between the white, western, and frequently toxic masculinity that the writers often seemed to want to imbue him with, and the very different, racially and culturally distinct masculinity Sid actually brought. But there's an undeniable element of the feminine in Julian too, at least by a traditional definition. The presence of this part of him at all, much less the fact that, in-universe, it's the more traditionally "feminine" parts of himself - the caregiving and nurturing aspects - that Julian seems proudest of or to like most about himself, is a large part of what makes his character so interesting, at least to me. So there was no way I was getting out of this without acknowledging that somehow, and I can't think of a better way to acknowledge a complicated relationship with the feminine side of one's own gender than with this world's own Celtic divine feminine, Florence Welch. I can't think of any better artist, at least that I know of, to represent femininity as a nonspecific ethereal goddess-concept. I basically spun the wheel of Florence here, as anything would have worked, but Cosmic Love felt very appropriate for a character who does in fact live in space. There could even be some Garashir in here, I think.

Dream Sweet In Sea Major - ミラクルミュージカル, or Miracle Musical, a sister act made up of members of Tally Hall I also couldn't leave off without acknowledging Julian's affection for classic lounge music, especially since it's the only thing about his taste in music that we actually know. But instead of tacking on some rat pack, instead I'm polishing this off with the incredibly chaotic and somehow also perfectly cohesive and calm Dream Sweet in Sea Major. It's got all of the vibes of a lounge singer but gone completely off the rails, which just seems perfect somehow. And it's also a very nice feeling to be left with, so it seems only right to put it at the end.

and if you've read all of this, I love you. Y'all didn't know I was this into music did you. but I am. oh boy. I AM.

#julian bashir #playlists #Spotify

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youarejesting · 4 years ago

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Mania.6

[MASTER LIST] [Mania Master list]

Beta: N/A Rating: Mature 18+ Pairing: BTS OT7 Genre: Fantasy, Romance, Comedy, Omegaverse Words: 1.8k Blood types: Namjoon, Jhope, Jungkook, Yoongi (A) Taehyung (AB) Jin, Jimin and Yoongi (O) (Jimin in real life is an A blood type)

Summary: At eighteen everyone takes a blood test to find out their blood types. A, B, or O. Each blood type represents the person’s secondary gender Alpha, Beta or Omega and can be Dominant (+) or Recessive (-).

When small thin Yoongi receives his letter he doesn’t expect A+. There was no way he was an Alpha especially not a dominant. But as time passes he shows no Alpha nor Omega tendencies and frankly he doesn’t care. Working in his father’s electrical business helps pay the bills but Yoongi’s real passion is music.

One very hot day in the roof space of a luxury apartment that Yoongi is rewiring an intoxicatingly pleasant smell churns his insides and he finds himself in need of something to quench his thirst.

Warning: polybts, orgy, dirty talk, degradation, dom&sub, begging, knotting, heats, slight mentions of Auto-erotic asphyxiation, breeding kink, cum

This entire chapter is smutty I do not encourage those underage to read this content. You can skip this chapter (if full smut is not your scene) and it will not affect the story.

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Jungkook chuckled darkly from where he was teasing Jimin alongside Taehyung. The two pulled away at Namjoon’s orders and all the alphas moved across the room and out of reach. Namjoon pushed Seokjin onto the bed beside Yoongi and walked away ignoring Seokjin’s whimpers opting to sit atop the large wooden desk.

Namjoon’s shoulders were not as wide as Seokjin’s but his whole form just poured dominant alpha pheromones which were so strong it even made the other alphas aware of his presence.

“What do you say to that?” Namjoon referred to Hoseok’s earlier question about wanting to be bred. All eyes were on Yoongi who was now squirming in a full-blown heat desperate for their help

“He did, he begged for three days, he wanted somebody to breed him.” Jungkook mocked, Yoongi's already hazy head spun with embarrassment, “You want that don’t you?”

“Of course he does,” Namjoon smirked almost evilly but his eyes were searching for any sign that Yoongi was uncomfortable or unwilling. But he saw none. “If you want us you have to beg for it?”

The three omegas doubled over assuming a position of submission on their hands and knees., the apex of their thighs becoming damp. Earlier Jimin had unbuttoned the front of Yoongi’s Jumpsuit, the older male becoming desperate to undress.

“Please,” Jin’s voice was weakened and he had completely removed his clothes in an effort to cool his heated form. Yoongi was desperate, groaning his hands traveling into the open front of his jumpsuit, plunging into the waistband of his underwear, and wrapping around his cock trying to find relief.

“Don’t touch yourself.” Hoseok’s voice wasn’t raised but it was full of power.

Yoongi was so lost in the haze of the alpha’s scent it was heavy on his limbs and chest. His cool long fingers had never felt so good around his shaft, unable to stop. He couldn’t suppress the moan that bubbled from his throat. He heard a growl from across the room and his eyes met Hoseok’s disappointed glare, he was disobeying his orders.

Hoseok’s strides ate through the rug between them as his hand clasped around both of Yoongi’s wrists and restrained them above his head. Yoongi was sitting back on his knees squirming as Hoseok took his chin tilting his head up. Yoongi tried to avert his eyes from Hoseoks knowing his cheeks were dusted bright pink, but he found himself unable to look away.

“What do you Omega’s want?” Namjoon asked them to vocalize their desires

“I want you koo,” Jimin whined and with a nod from Namjoon Jungkook crossed the room to his lover.

“I would like to come,” Seokjin swallowed thickly, at the raise of Namjoon’s eyebrow, “please sir.”

“Taehyung,” Namjoon nodded in Seokjin’s direction and the young man bounded across the room, his erection equally excited. Yoongi could hear the two omegas being satisfied but couldn’t turn his head from Hoseok’s firm grasp.

“Please touch me?” Yoongi mumbled his cheeks flushed and eyes falling to his lap, he was giving in to the sensations and his true desires. Hoseok seemed stunned for a second before he fulfilled Yoongi’s request, touching his chest and kissing him sensually. The omega whined against Hoseok and was quick to deepen the kiss, the two gettings heated breathing each other in, as their tongues mingled.

Hoseok already knew he felt something more than lust for Yoongi, he was so sweet and soft and beautiful. Hoseok tried his best to make him feel sexy, and honestly, the way he whined made him want to watch all the other alphas to help breed him, he wanted Yoongi.

The way Yoongi was pulling Hoseok closer, he wanted him just the same. Hoseok undressed Yoongi fully from his work overalls and as he peeled off his underwear he saw how the omega had soaked them in anticipation.

“I want you,” Yoongi said to Hoseok, whining as he pulled him against him. Hoseok had been with a few omega’s but this was the first time he had ever been nervous. He cared for this omega, more than he should, they were barely acquaintances, and here he was imagining more than just sex.

Hoseok’s hand twitched at the sight of Yoongi's collarbones and long neck, visions of piercing the flesh with his teeth and marking the helpless omega as his. Hoseok saw the Omega’s cock was thin and long, just like his finger and they were very pretty fingers at that. They pulled at his hair elegantly, they would wear a ring beautifully.

Shaking the thoughts from his head, Hoseok’s big hands wrapped around Yoongi’s dick. Stepping forward to press his against Yoongi’s both fitting securely in Hoseok’s hand. He wanted Yoongi so bad but he tried his best to hold back, he wanted Yoongi to feel good before anything else.

Hoseok knew this Omega was new and untouched, he didn’t want Yoongi to feel even an ounce of fear, doubt, or pain. He prioritized his pleasure, kissing him. Eventually laying Yoongi back on the bed between the two other omega’s. Jimin was lying on his back legs bent around Jungkook’s hips while Seokjin was on his hands and knees braced for the quick pistoning of Taehyung’s hips.

Hoseok turned to grab some oils and lubricants to give him a sensual full body massage. However, Hoseok was surprised when he turned back to see Yoongi’s hand clasped with Jimin's, their fingers intertwined. It would have been cute if Seokjin wasn’t leaning over his omega kissing him passionately.

Hoseok had to take a small calming breath, the two omegas in the band often would help each other in heats and during the group's amorous sexcapades. It just felt like he wanted Yoongi all to himself. Starting with a chest massage Hoseok massaged the oil into Yoongi’s skin and down his soft yet small tummy. He was letting his pheromones work overtime, having them encase Yoongi.

“They are so cute,” Taehyung smiled at the Omegas and Namjoon watched his mate getting pleasured. Namjoon had certain tastes and Hoseok wasn’t one to judge.

“Hoseok, I don’t want your fingers, I need more,” Yoongi huffed, he tried to turn onto his hands and knees the natural submissive pose but Hoseok held him still. He didn’t trust himself with Yoongi’s exposed neck, he might accidentally mark him without his consent.

“Stay still,” Hoseok commanded and Yoongi’s squirming came to an end and he scooped up the omega and carried him from the room.

“Did you like letting Taehyung fuck you?” Namjoon growled

“No, I only like it when it’s you,” Jin’s cry filled the hall.

Hoseok walked Yoongi to his room and laid him on the bed, Yoongi buried his face in the pillows making the Alpha hum appreciatively at the sight.

“You like my scent pretty Omega,” Hoseok smiled

Yoongi squirmed whining,“..‘m not pretty,” Hoseok grabbed a stray belt from the floor and crawled up his body wanting to protest the omega’s words.

“I brought you here so that I can concentrate on you and make sure you are okay, whatever you do, don’t take this off. He wrapped the belt around Yoongi’s neck and tightened it so his neck was covered.

Yoongi’s eyes glistened back arching from the bed, “Please”

Yoongi was in ecstasy, he felt full and the pleasure was tingling deep inside him was almost maddening. He watched Hoseok’s muscles ripple the way his biceps were strained and the roll of his hips was quick, precise, and rhythmic like a dancer. Yoongi only knew Hoseok and his body begged for more, his hands clasping the alpha and bringing him closer, his neck extending to the side.

Hoseok pinned Yoongi’s hands down leaving him a whining mess. Yoongi didn’t have much time to think as Hoseok's hand grabbed the belt and pulled not hard but enough to notice a difference in his breathing. Yoongi gasped “Hoseok please,”

Yoongi was so close and something about the look in Hoseok’s eye made his body tighten. Hoseok’s face contorted teeth bared as his hips stuttered, the belt loosened as Hoseok’s body shook and something warm. No, Hot. Something very hot, filled Yoongi, it was stretching him and pressing against him. Yoongi wondered if Hoseok had somehow grown inside him, that wasn’t possible.

“Hoseok?” he called

“Fuck Yoongi, I am so sorry, I tried to stop it but I got carried away,” Hoseok scooped up Yoongi and pressed him to his chest turning to sit with Yoongi on top. Taking off the belt, Hoseok hugged the Omega and allowed him to sleep against him. “It’s midnight sleep.”

Yoongi woke the only light coming from the small alarm clock reading one-thirty. He tried to move but felt stuck in place. Something was inside him, something big, he felt awfully full and there were strong arms wrapped around holding him in place. He tried to move and felt a hand gently rub his lower back.

“Try not to move, we are going to be stuck for a while…” Hoseok muttered sleepily, “until it goes away”

“What goes away?” Yoongi looked between them squinting

“The knot,” Hoseok pulled Yoongi’s head back onto his shoulder, I accidentally knotted inside you”

“Oh,” Yoongi mumbled, nuzzling a little more against Hoseok’s shoulder. Watching the time pass literally, Yoongi was thankful when the knot disappeared and he lifted himself off of Hoseok only to let out a deep cry. Hoseok turned on the bedside light confused.

“What's wrong?” Hoseok called alert. Yoongi was staring between his thighs as a warm sticky liquid started to run down his legs. “Oh, um, follow me to the shower,”

Hoseok started the shower and Yoongi stepped in but was surprised when Hoseok stepped in the shower with him drawing the curtain. The two cleaned themselves under separate shower heads and Yoongi faced the stream of water trying to clean the oil from his chest

He gently touched Yoongi’s neck and Yoongi felt his heart race turning to Hoseok. “What are you doing?”

“You have no idea how much I want to mark you as mine,” Hoseok muttered frantically, turning the water on his side of the shower to freezing, dunking his head under the stream. “Do you feel any pain or aches anywhere, I can get you painkillers?” Hoseok said, turning off his shower and stepping out, and wrapping himself in a towel.

“My legs feel like jelly but otherwise I don’t feel bad,” Yoongi said, realizing he didn’t thank the Alpha for taking care of him. “Thank you, for taking care of me, for making sure I didn’t hurt,”

“Come on little omega time to dry and go back to bed,” Hoseok held out a towel and Yoongi stepped out letting him wrap him in a towel. The two went back to Hoseok’s room and Yoongi blushed, smelling their mixed scents in the air and even more so on the sheets.

“Put this on,” Hoseok gave Yoongi a baggy sweater and the sleeves covered his hands, and smelt so spicy and warm like Hoseok. He took a deep sniff of the collar and Hoseok chuckled softly. Before Yoongi curled up against him and fell asleep to Hoseok's steady breathing.

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𝒟𝒶𝓃𝒸𝓮 𝒪𝒻 𝒯𝒽𝓮 𝒟𝒶𝓂𝓃𝓮𝒹 (𝓓𝓮𝓶𝓸𝓷!𝒮𝒶𝓃) 𝓡𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓭

𝑃𝑎𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔: 𝐷𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑛! 𝐶ℎ𝑜𝑖 𝑆𝑎𝑛 (𝐴𝑡𝑒𝑒𝑧)/ 𝑅𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟 (𝐹𝑒𝑚𝑎𝑙𝑒)

𝐺𝑒𝑛𝑟𝑒: 𝑆𝑚𝑢𝑡, 𝐴𝑛𝑔𝑠𝑡, 𝐹𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑠𝑦/𝐷𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑛 𝐴𝑈

"𝑯𝒊𝒔 𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚 𝒂 𝒉𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒂𝒔𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒅𝒆...

𝑫𝒆𝒇𝒚 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕’𝒔 𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒚, 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒌𝒆𝒓𝒔

𝑫𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒗𝒊𝒍’𝒔 𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒓𝒔.."

-𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑴𝒂𝒄𝒂𝒃𝒓𝒆 𝑴𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒑𝒊𝒆𝒄𝒆: 𝑷𝒐𝒆𝒎𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝑯𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑮𝒐𝒓𝒆

𝑹𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝑴𝒖𝒔𝒊𝒄

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The young raven haired man strolled through the crowds of other guests, taking a glance or two whenever something seemed to catch his eyes. But those glances were only fleeting. There seemed to be nothing particularly interesting in any of them.

He took in the scene before him: long, glittering ball gowns spun around, either in tune to the orchestra playing or in a presumptuous effort to be shown off to others. The male specimen differed no greater than their female counterparts, often standing up straighter or running a hand down their expensive and delicately tailored suits, except they were willing to take it a step further and actually discuss how much they paid for it.

Foolish mortals

He scoffed as he studied each one of them. It was truly sickening to him how much humanity had reached its lowest point. More frequently than not, he noticed how humans more than ever were vain, prideful, arrogant, egotistic and disdainful of anything or anyone who wasn't them.

It wasn't entertaining anymore. He recalls a time many centuries ago when he would get a thrill out of corrupting the innocent, driving the wisest of beings into insanity, destroying picture perfect marriages and making the purest of souls fall into an abyss of sin and darkness.

What was the point of trying to do all that now when some of them are destined for destruction since the moment of their birth? It truly irritated him.

Sighing he picked up a glass of wine from one of the trays carried around by the many butlers, poor useless souls as he liked to refer to them. He sipped on the crimson liquid, it's alcoholic venom doing nothing to him even though it was probably his 13th one already.

13? Was it?

He lost count. He shrugged it off though. He could drink it as if it were pure water, his kind were immune to this substance unlike humanity.

He snorted when he'd look at certain people's masks. While most went all fancy and elegant, others decided to have fun and make sure their attire stood out, in the form of red or black masks, adorned with either fangs, horns and overall rather gruesome or grotesque visages. Clearly they were meant to represent none other than his fellow kindred. He scoffed at their personification of him.

"Damnable bastards. If only you knew we are some of the most beautiful creatures to walk next to you....."

Perhaps that's the main reason why they all, man or woman, no matter their age, education or social status, end up ensnared by them. They were irresistible.

He was about to walk out of the hall, bored out of his non-existent soul, when a small titter caught his ears. Turning his face towards the sound, his breath was caught at the sight of an ethereal looking woman. His eyes scanned her from head to toe. She was absolutely perfect: from her luscious (enter color) hair, to her satin smooth skin, all the way down the her tempting figure. Her scarlet colored dress was impeccably on her, the deep plunge in the chest decorated with sequins and rhinestones daring men to not gaze at her cleavage. The waistline was fitted and then fanned out to accentuate her captivating body. Anyone would think this lady was sin itself, she certainly looked the part.

But San knew better. He could see and feel the aura around her. She was wholly pure, absolutely nothing to signify that she'd been stained or deemed unclean. She was simply an overly sheltered girl who no doubt wanted to fit in, be regarded as a mundane person like the rest of them.

Absolutely perfect if you asked him.

He sauntered in her direction, his devilish smirk plastered on his face. Sensing a pair of eyes, she tilted her head and made contact with the demon, now unable to look away from his alluring gaze. Even through the mask covering half of his face, she knew he was the most handsome man she'd ever see, albeit she'd never seen a lot of men in her life anyway.

Inexperienced and naive as she was, she let him stand next to her and take her hand. Lifting it up to his lips, he introduced himself:

"Choi San. Pleased to make your acquaintance my fair lady."

Delicately, he placed a kiss to her fingers, before releasing them from his hold. His touch was cold, but it sent a burning sensation up her entire arm and she found herself longing for his touch again almost instantly.

"L/N Y/N..." She replied in a voice that was merely above a whisper.

"A truly befitting name for such an angelic lady."

He chuckled to himself at his use of the word. If he was successful, which he always was, by the end of the night, there'd be nothing angelic left about her.

He extended his arm out towards her.

"May I have the pleasure of requesting the next dance?"

He made it a point to flash his dimples, knowing they only added to his charm and rendered women unable to refuse him. She stood up and linked her arm in his. He felt a shiver when she touched him, a feeling he only felt when his kind were in the proximity of a pure soul. It was precisely what he'd been craving for who knows how long. Definitely more than a hundred years since the last time he felt such a presence.

He guided her to the dance floor, the other couples already in position. If there was anything San prided himself on, it was his dancing. He's had years of experience to learn almost every dance that had been created, not only because it added to his attractiveness, but because it truly was one of the few mundane things he thoroughly enjoyed.

He especially loved the waltz they were currently playing. Waltzes were so elegant, refined, polished and were perfect when seducing someone. Intense eye contact, hands intertwined and his arm pulling her close to him, he could see a glimpse of the light blush peeking out underneath her ebony mask. She was flustered, exactly how he wanted her. They were practically gliding across the dance floor, perfectly in tune with the music playing.

"Did you come alone?" San decided it was time to strike up a conversation before going for the kill.

Y/N simply nodded, looking down somewhat ashamed. Instantly he knew she was probably not supposed to be here in the first place.

Interesting detail.

"Tired of sitting at home all bored?" He raised an eyebrow at her, but already knowing the answer.

"Can you tell?" She asked, wondering if he could read her mind.

"Well..... I can tell a lot of things about you..."

Releasing his hold on her waist, he lifted his hand to spin her around before bringing her back into his embrace, now closer than before.

"Things like what?" She wanted him to elaborate.

He hummed along to the music, making her impatient for his answer.

"Like..... how you want something exciting to happen tonight. Your eyes are practically for something, anything, that contrasts the dull life you've lived so far..."

She widened her eyes when he spoke those words. Was she that easy to read? That a mere stranger could notice that about her?

"And your countenance only serves to confirm my theory." He finished.

She sighed softly and loosened her grip on him, wanting to walk away, but he only tightened his hold on her. He smirked at her and leaned in, whispering dangerously close to her lips:

"Why don't you let me open up a new world for you?"

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The girl fluttered her eyes open, soft blissful pants escaping her lips. It had been a while since they left the mansion, where San took her to what she assumed was his place. Ruby red walls with matching velvet carpet, umber brown furniture, candles in every corner being the only illuminating feature in the dark room. The only exception was the bed. It was a pitch black color with white sheets and blanket.

Her dress had long been discarded in one of the chairs in the room, the only article clothing her at the moment being her cream colored garter belt with matching thigh high stockings. San thought they looked absolutely adorable on her. The visual only heightened his need to claim her, to corrupt her, to stain her forever with his unholy mark.

He was currently in between her legs, his mouth attached to her heat. Purple blotches were already decorating her inner thighs, courtesy of his teeth. He swirled his tongue around her clit before sucking down on it. He moaned and that action alone made her thighs tremble and close around his head. But he was having none of that. His hands pushed her thighs apart again, nails digging into her petal soft skin as he continued to ravish and feast on her succulent taste.

"S-San...wait...feels f-funny...." She stuttered out after a few minutes.

He knew exactly what she was referring to: she had about to have an orgasm. As much as he'd love to see her come undone on his tongue alone, he made an effort to pull himself back before the feeling got too intense. She let out a whine of frustration and looked at him with a puzzled look, unsure of what was happening.

San ran his thumb across her lip.

"Don't worry darling. I told you I'll open up a new world for you..

And I always keep my promises."

Unzipping his pants, he pushed them down his legs and threw them onto the floor. He smirked as he took in Y/N's astonishment as she gaped at his nude form, or more specifically, at his thick and long length. She seemed to hesitate for a minute, no doubt intimidated by his size, wondering how was that supposed to fit in her.

Climbing on top of her, he placed a reassuring kiss to her temple.

"I'll take good care of you darling...trust me."

His lips captured hers in a hungry kiss. His tongue slipped inside and danced around her mouth, almost like the waltz from hours before. His hands went to the back of her thighs, lifting them up and wrapping them around his waist. He lifted his hips up slowly, the tip of his cock pressing against her folds. He began slipping inside her, going inch by inch so she could get adjusted to the feeling, not wanting to scare her.

Although it took a lot in him to not just pound into her as he wished to.

She wrapped her thighs tighter around his waist, the foreign and stinging feeling of his intrusion causing her to hiss and cry out a little. San peppered kisses across her jaw and neck in an effort to soothe the pain, while his hands drew circles around her thighs. He stayed still until he felt her relax under him. She looked back at him, her face asking what to do now.

"I'm going to start moving now ok? Just relax and let yourself go."

He pulled out of her in a speed that was torturous to him. Then he slowly pushed himself back in, watching as she took deep breaths and looked down at where their bodies connected. The more she looked at him pushing in and out, the more it helped to relax and put her at ease. San knew it too. Her at first raspy breathing turned to soft, melodious moaning.

His hips snapped up and began rolling at a faster pace, causing his cock to hit the perfect angle in her. Her breath hitched and she gasped when the overwhelming feeling in her stomach started to return, building up inside her, threatening to be released any second now.

The demon could feel it too. He's had years of experience to know what her body was doing. He watched as her face contorted, trying to figure out what was happening.

"Sa-San..." She called out, trying to warn him.

He smirked at her.

"I know, I can feel you clenching around me. You feel so good. I can't wait to feel you cum on my immense cock."

His dirty talking only served to have her whine underneath him. His hand reached down and began toying with her nipple.

"So come on babygirl, let me feel you burst. I know you can do it.....

Give it to me."

He commanded those last words to her and just like he knew would happen, she shuddered under his body, her first orgasm in her entire life taking over her, a soft pathetic whimper being the only noise she could muster. It wasn't anything too loud or over the top, as San pretty much expected. It was her first time.

Besides.....there was plenty of time to have her scream his name.

He kissed her nose and smiled.

"You did so well darling. I'm so proud of you."

She blushed at his compliments. San pulled out of her, a proud evil grin plastered on his face as he noticed the sticky trail that dripped out of her onto the sheets: a few droplets of blood signifying he had deflowered her.

Now to corrupt her even more.

He picked her body up and spun her around, making her get down on all fours as he gripped her hips once again.

"Now it's my turn to have a little fun."

She let out a loud moan when he entered her for the second time, her body still sensitive from her first orgasm. San didn't bother to go slow anymore, he knew she could take it. He thrusted in and out of her at an inhuman speed, low moans and hisses coming out of his mouth.

"Fuck! I can feel you getting close again beautiful, your pussy is so fucking tight, it's practically swallowing my cock."

He chuckled when he felt her clench even tighter around him.

"Oh you like that don't you? You like being told you're nothing but a cockslut?"

She hid her face in the pillow in front of her, trying to hide the groan that just past through her throat. San however grabbed her by the hair and pulled her face back up.

"Answer me you little whore."

She yelped when his hand landed a harsh smack to her ass.

"Y-yes San!"

He smacked her once again before pulling her even more roughly and pressing her back to his chest.

"Right now it's Master. Got it you filthy slut?" He growled into her ear.

"Yes Master!" She cried out.

"Good little whore." He praised her.

He continued his merciless pounding, one of his hands trailing down her abdomen to rub her now swollen and pink clit. Y/N now had a few tears rolling down her cheeks from the overstimulation and she hung her head low.

"Uh uh little slut. None of that."

His free hand wrapped around her neck, forcing her to look up. He tilted her slightly to the right so she could see their sinful reflection in the mirror by the wall.

"Look at you. You look so fucking desperate, wanting to cum again on my cock. Is that what you want? To cum on master's cock? Then beg for it."

Y/N let out a series of whimpers, collecting all the strength she could to cry out:

"Please master! I want to cum, let me cum on your cock!"

San was loving this. It had been so long since he had such an innocent thing begging for him.

"How bad do you want it darling? Does Master's cock make you feel that good?" He teased her.

"Please Master I want it so bad! It feels so good, please don't stop!" Her words were barely incoherent now from how overwhelmed with pleasure she was.

Having being satisfied by her answer, he squeezed her throat, causing her to gasp and writhe her body as her second orgasm took over, far more intense than the first. He never slowed down his pace therefore making her convulse even more violently and shriek out a chant of his name, further heightening his pride and ego.

Very soon after, he cursed loudly as he reached his own climax, his cock spurting out his cum inside her, filling her up with his sinful load. She collapsed on the bed, worn out by the physical intimacy that just took place. San chucked darkly when not even a minute later she was completely passed out. That always happened. Humans couldn't handle having intercourse with a demon, they were practically insatiable and always passed out after a night with them.

Pulling the blanket to cover her, San ran his fingers through her hair. He admired her features for a few minutes. She was really beautiful, an ethereal beauty that only came once every century. Even in her now corrupted and tainted state, she was still the most alluring person he'd ever seen, and he's seen even angels themselves.

Now he knew he wanted her all to himself, completely for him and for no one else to own. He wasn't going to allow anyone to take her from him. He didn't have to worry about celestial beings claiming her, they wouldn't want her now. But other demons might want her.....

Getting up he opened a drawer and took out something he'd never imagine using in any lifetime. But there was always a first time for everything. He held up the gold contraption in his hand before letting it set over one of the flames from the various candles in the room. Once he made sure it was hot enough, he approached Y/N quietly.

It's a good thing she wouldn't wake up for a couple hours....

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Y/N squinted, trying to let her eyes adjust to the lighting. She felt a dull aching in her lower abdomen and legs, reminding her of the events that took place last night. She looked around, seeing that she was still at San's place, but he was nowhere to be found. She sat up and rubbed her shoulder, feeling some sort of burning and stinging pain.

She paused when she looked at the mirror and noticed something on the back of her shoulder. Getting up and trying her hardest to walk with her limp, she went to the mirror and turned slightly to the left. She froze when there was a bright red mark on her upper back in the shape of a pentagram with the letter 'S' in the middle of it.

She started freaking out. Was this some kind of joke? Where was San?

"Well good morning my dear."

Speaking of the devil, he appeared right behind her, making her whip around and face him.

"Did you do this?" She asked, pointing to the mark.

"I did. I think it really suits you." He smiled proudly.

"Why? Why would you do this?"

"Why you ask? It's simple."

He took a few steps forward. Leaning in, he gripped her chin.

"Because you're mine now and I own you."

She scoffed at his words, repulsed that he could do this.

"You're insane." She spat out.

"I've been called worse." He sat up straight again.

Y/N marched over to the chair on the other side and began grabbing her clothes.

"And just where do you think you're doing?" San crossed his arms in front of him.

"What does it look like I'm doing? I'm leaving."

He let out a hearty laugh at that.

"Leaving? Oh no sweetheart. You're not leaving. You can't leave me." He told her.

"Yeah? Watch me."

She pushed him out of her way and headed for the door, but before she could reach for the handle, San appeared right in front of her out of thin air, causing her to step back in fear.

"What the-" She exclaimed.

"Let me repeat myself darling..."

San began to take steps towards her as she began to slowly retreat from him.

"I own you. You can't leave because you're mine now. I marked you so no one else takes you from me, in other words..."

He slammed his hand against the wall behind her when they reached it. She watched in horror as his dark orbs shifted into a fiery red color that burned deep in her soul.

"You're bound to me for all eternity...... and now you're a part of my world....and there's no turning back..."

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