#but then i remembered that i was the asshole of the 2014 fandom so like whatever

[golbrocklovely]

I miss when SNC would interact with us :(

i feel you, anon.

but i kinda understand why they don't, in some regard.

first and foremost, them interacting with us was a "luxury" so to speak. basically, we aren't owed interactions just bc we buy merch or watch their content. i think social media and being an influencer has really warped ppl's minds into thinking they are owed 24 hour access to someone at all times about everything they are doing. it is not part of their job description to reply back to a tweet or like an edit about them on insta or TikTok. those are added bonuses that we used to get (and only somewhat get now). obviously, interacting with fans is a great way to keep them engaged in your content, but it's also a lot of time spent to do. especially when you have a fandom like this that loves to say certain fans don't deserve notices or certain ppl get more than others. in the end, snc look like assholes to those that want to hate on them.

but mostly, i think the reason snc don't interact with us anymore is bc the hate has gotten to them. it's hard to want to interact with a fandom that does constantly judge every move you make, or comment on everything you do. and then to add to the list, make fun of someone you love and are currently in a relationship with. snc, as so many hater have pointed out, are almost 30 years old. who the fuck at that big of an age wants to be yelled at by sometimes minors/mostly adults that their gf, the one those fans know nothing about, is a hoebag and unworthy of dating them and instead you should be dating someone else that we've all shipped you with for years even tho you said countless times you weren't dating them??? who wants to also be told that "hey don't grow your facial hair, change your hair to this, you should get back into shape again like before, joke about your missing testicle here" but then be yelled at for not interacting with the same ppl that are saying all of that???

yeah i wouldn't give those fuckers the time of day either. i'd have your asses blocked so fast lol

and while yes, a good majority of the fandom isn't like that, it's good to remember that maybe when one person is saying something mean, it's just an offhanded comment that you can maybe ignore. but when you have 100s of ppl saying the same thing, liking comments like those, it's not gonna feel like a singular comment. it's gonna feel like harassment. not only that, snc have been doing this for 10ish years. they started in late 2014/early 2015 and for years were in direct contact with fans all that time. the amount of shit they have been told over the years…. and they're still standing?? i'm surprised.

while i would love for them to come back and interact with us like the old times, it's not gonna happen. not with the atmosphere this fandom has currently. maybe if things really do quiet down, i can see them coming back somewhat. but i don't expect it.

[mahoutoons]

i really do not get all the hatred sonamy fans get in the sonic fandom.

"but they're so toxic!!"

so are all other ship fandoms. i've had experience with toxic shippers of other ships. but you won’t see me generalizing the ship's fandom over them. every ship has its fair share of toxic fans. so why is it that only sonamy fans get all the heat for being toxic? i'm not denying that there are bad eggs in our fandom but i don't think its fair yo act like we're a special breed of toxic. i've seen fans of other ships with r*pe on amy yet people don't use them to generalize the whole ship's fandom.

"they think their ship is canon!!"

in the 2000s-2010s, maybe we did have a lot of fans who thoight that way. but nowadays whenever sonamy fans claim its canon, its always done in a joking way. its what fans lf literally every other ship do. i've seen people jokingly say "x ship is canon" because character a looked at character b funny. but no one ever attacks them for it. so why is it that only we get attacked when a lot of the time we aren't even serious?? we KNOW our ship will never actually be canon. we KNOW sega has no intention of changing their dynamic as of now. we're just having fun with the moments we're given. especially in recent media. why do y'all froth at the mouth over that. don't like it? just ignore and block.

and to be honest? as sonamy is now, it can be considered semi canon. like, give me a platonic explanation of the "amy, i should've made up my mind sooner" line in frontiers. IF sega decides to make them a couple, their dynamic still won't change. it'll still be very subtle except they're actually a couple now and you won't even notice it. and even then no one's stopping you from liking other ships. and if they are, well the block button exists for a reason.

"but the fanfics-"

i have my beef with old sonamy fanfics. but i have a feeling the people who made them were young kids and teenagers. i'll bet a lot of them have grown up now and have better things to do in life. now i hardly see any sonamy fanfic that villainizes sally or makes sonic an asshole for the sake of angst. the more extreme shippers from the 2000s-early 2010s should not be used to judge shippers today.

imagine if i used the sonadow shippers i encountered in 2014 deviantart, who were mostly allocishet girls who shipped them because they fetishized gay men, made both of them extremely ooc (anyone remember the terms seme and uke?), and of course hated amy for getting in the way of their ship, to judge the sonadow shippers of today who are now mostly mellow and enjoy their ship in peace, it wouldn't be fair now would it?

"the age gap is problematic!!"

most of the ages in sonic make no sense! there's a line in sonic forces where infinite claims sonic has defeated eggman for decades, and sonic's only supposed to be 15. granted using sonic forces may not be the best example but it shows how little sega cares about the ages. and now they've even been renoved from sonic channel. AND even ian flynn himself has said not to worry about pairings like sonamy and knuxouge because there's nothing wrong with them.

and i KNOW people are gonna take this to mean "so shipping things like s0nt@ils is okay now??" no, because tails is still coded as a little kid. sonic and most of the cast are coded as teenagers.

there's people who ship tails and fiona, and that's an actual toxic ship with an actual problematic age gap. but they don't get half the heat that sonamy shippers get.

"sonamy is a ship for the cishets"

really now? i guess my lgbt cars has expired guys. maybe that's a good thing because i was born and raised in a country where its illegal to be lgbt and my parents are kinda religious. and even the country where i'm originally from is pretty homophobic despite gay marriage being decriminalized. who knew all it took to solve those problems was to ship sonamy?? thanks guys.

do you see how stupid that logic is? a fucking ship doesn't determine your sexuality. i don't want to kiss women any less because i ship sonamy.

[justahumblememefarmer]

Teen Wolf The Movie thoughts

The timeline is WACK. The show ran from 2011-2017. It took 6 years of real world time for 3 years in the show to pass. So in the show it either went from 2011-2014 or 2014-2017. This is set 15 years after Alison's death, which at the earliest is like... 2012, which would make this set in 2027.

Derek has a son. The mother is never mentioned, however the son is explicitly stated to be 15 years old, which means that he was born shortly before or after Allison's death, while Derek was still fully apart of the show. So either he had a baby with Jennifer Blake completely off-screen, or with some rando woman. And then either he didn't know, and just... randomly got full custody later in his life, or knew and never mentioned it.

They picked up dirt from where Alison died, but... didn't she die right outside of Eichen House or something? I thought maybe it was the ruined site based off the gate that was there. I forget what happened to Eichen House at the end of the show. But then at the end, I guess Eichen is still in operation?

The cursing was wild. It was like everybody got a free F bomb.

The nudity was even more insane. My friend and I were SCREAMING when Malia randomly jumped Parrish and they both stripped. Such an insane couple. He should stop going after girls he met when they were in high school and he was an adult.

Why was Liam in Japan? Never explained. Why was he in charge of the Nogitsune? Why was he friends with a random Kitsune?

Why the FUCK wasn't Kira there? Instead they just introduced Not Kira Hikari and she served exactly the same role. It's like they wrote the script with Kira in mind and then when Arden Cho didn't come back they just find & replaced her name with Hikari

How did she telepathically transfer her fox spirit to Scott. I noticed when they made random eye contact, but that was an out of the blue thing

I SCREAMED when the Science teacher came out of the blue. My friend didn't even remember who he was. We were theorizing either Gerard or Kate. His... motivations were a little unclear, and of all the flashbacks I kind of wished they had done one to explain who he was. I remembered he was the asshole science teacher, but that's it

Jackson was... useless. He almost always asked stupid questions that didn't really move stuff along. He's missed so much of the show that he was out of the loop on everything. The only useful things he did was stab the teacher

The special effects were... noticeably not that great at some points. The fire effects. The CGI cliff top. The greenscreen replacing the lacrosse field with the Nogitsune realm

They had several humans there who could break a mountain ash line. Alison. Melissa. Argent.

The lacrosse field was crazy. How the hell did they get 10,000 people watching a lacrosse game?

Most of the characters did not have much to do in the movie. It was like, they had everybody back, but it was too many people to give them all a plotline, so they just needed to make sure some of them were tied up for most of it. Liam didn't even join the final werewolf fight alongside Derek, Scott, and Eli

THE STEREK METAPHOR. I've never been a big Sterek shipper and I wasn't in the fandom at the time of "We're on a ship", but come on. Derek keeping Stiles old jeep to fix up and his son constantly stealing it and being obsessed with it, and then after Derek's death, Stilinski giving the car to Eli and saying that Derek "always had mixed feelings about the car, but it meant a lot to him". Like, what the fuck? That's such shipping language.

The ending definitely made it seem like they were leaving it open to another movie/show. Which makes my confusion that Wolf Pack is not a sequel series starring Eli even more bizarre

So that was all of the stuff I hated. I did enjoy a few things

I thought the fight scenes were really well choreographed

I wasn't sure how they were going to bring Allison back, but I thought that it made sense, and she had a decent storyline

I hate Parrish, but I did like seeing his butt

The Nogitsune was a good villain to bring back. Season 3 had arguably the best plotline. It does suck that the two characters most important to the Nogitsune storyline (Kira and Stiles) weren't there though

[its-a-swift-kloss]

I'm sorry but Kaylor Tumblr is an echo chamber right now, and dumb echo chamber at that.

Everyone including Swifties have been bored of the pap walks Taylor has been doing with her friends since after the first two or three she's done after dumping Toe, nobody wants to see Taylor do the same boring pap walks with the same boring people at the same boring restraunts while the vast majority of people think that her current street style looks like complete crap.

Swifties were so bored of all this boring shit that Taylor's doing for the 1989 TV rollout that a lot of them were coming up with wild theories about how there is going to be a secret B-side to 1989 TV that has vault tracks with titles that don't sound boring as shit and collabs with actually cool and interesting celebrities. The excitement Taylor drummed up for Swifties with the Google vault puzzle didn't even last that long, the excitement all died off within two hours of Taylor announcing the vault track names and Swifties went back to coming up with "theories" to try and make 1989 TV and everything around it less boring.

Taylor bearding with this football dude was actually a good move for her to make because now Swifties aren't bored to death over how lackluster the rollout for 1989 TV is anymore and now she's got the attention of people who wouldn't be interested in her without this dude as potential new consumers of her products and the only downside of her doing this was pissing off a miniscule section of her fandom, Gaylors, who have a major issue with too many of them acting like awful over-entitled brats because she's her own person who handles her closet exactly the way she wants to instead of coming out of the closest for the benefits of others even thought Taylor's indicated in her most recent album Midnights that coming out of the closet just so others can benefit is something she has zero interest or intention of doing.

Hello, anon. So, let me see if I got it right. You think everyone was bored and that's why Taylor had to get a beard? That he'll solve all the problems by keeping swifties occupied and boosting her sales? I don't even- lol first, if your fanbase is so thirsty for news or entertainment that they can't sit still for a few weeks, something is wrong in the way you handle them. She's either sending the wrong signals, spoiling them with too much content to the point that when one thing happens (like the vault to solve), they're already antsy for the next thing. Did they forget about the year she spent away?? Maybe they need reminding. If you kept up with her during 2014-2015, you'll remember what it was like the 1989 era - she did promote that album a lot. It worked and she didn't need a guy for it, how crazy. What I think most ppl around me are saying, is that she's the Taylor Swift. She doesn't need a man to boost her numbers. Sure, she's reaching a new territory and a new audience with this stunt, but she doesn't need it to make big bucks. She's at the top of her game, she's reaching a new high every day. Just check the charts or how her concerts are sold out. Not to mention that 1989 is an era based on her being single and happy, her preaching all around about having fun with her friends and enjoying life without a relationship. That seems to have been thrown out of the window now. She could do better promo if she wanted to, bc we've seen it before. Now it seems like even if she just dumped her last beard in the first semester, she can't go more than a few months without a guy. What message does it send, anon? Ppl have every right to be annoyed, even if we do understand she's doing it for even bigger numbers and to have a wider audience. Most of us have been here for years keeping up with her story. As far as I've seen, no one is being an asshole demanding her to come out or whatever. They're just wondering why this same old story again. You're allowed your feelings and opinions, anon, but remember, so are we.

[toxicnorn]

i didn't really do this for the sake of nostalgia but i was looking through some past blogs and internet IDs of mine

i'm a very different person from who i was when i originally joined tumblr. i approach writing in a very different way. my opinions on a lot of things have changed a lot. i really cannot give two shits about most discourse nowadays that i used to have opinions on.

when it comes to creative work, i had a lot more energy and confidence, but this was a double-edged sword because for a long period of time, i was single-handedly focused on rp as a distraction from some real heavy shit irl and my fandom stuff wasn't necessarily healthy for me. this is something i've struggled with on and off over the years because i tend to latch really hard to fiction and characters when things are bad. i wrote some really good sentences though and some good characters. i keep trying to recreate the same feelings by recycling characters, but they're different each time because nostalgia's a false thing and you can't just make the same thing twice but different and expect it to be the same.

my latest attempts at fic and rp are trying to come from a different source, which i think is healthier in the long run.

i was like super depressed from 2014-2018 and then the election pummeled me into a different funk for two years, which was better in some ways but worse in others. around 2019, i was finally able to move out of my parents' house for some time. it wasn't very far but it did help me clear my head a bit.

then 2020 happened. i moved back in with my parents for a few months and it was kind of awful, but then i moved back and things were actually better on my end for a bit, but i was still very weird and squirrelish.

2021 happened somewhere along those lines and i don't remember most of 2021 because it was a hell year of going to doctor's appointments until the very end of it. i moved across the country in 2022 to be with my gf (hey bb love you very much if you are reading this) and for the first time maybe ever, i feel like i'm in a pretty good place. i know that there is a still a lot of work ahead of me to figure out How to Be A Person 101 and get over my hangups but i'm really happy.

anyway, when your creative output has been based entirely on distracting yourself from blue moods up until now, it's a bit wild trying to readjust your brain to go "hey, actually, it's okay to like things just to like them, you can fuel yourself with other emotions, having characters that live in your head is not cringe or something." i'm having fun though, even if i can't manage the output that i'd like to.

this isn't me gloomyposting btw. i think if anything, it's the opposite because things are pretty okay. i might have issues that creatively frustrate me and i might have flaws i'm trying to work on and of course learning How To Social is always an ongoing effort and we aren't even getting into the ongoing saga of Getting My Bran To Work On Medication (on one hand, it's been great because i have the least amount of anxiety than i have ever had in my life; on the other hand, my brain feels like it's two feet out of reach more days than i'd like it to and i'm really frustrated by the fact that i cannot make the connections between thoughts and actions, like my brain just stutters before comprehending that ii should do very basic actions), but all in all, things are great and i'm excited for the future.

there are a lot of people i've lost track of that vanished off tumblr after 2018. i realized a small handful of people were assholes. some of the people i used to know seem to have fallen off the fact of the internet entirely and i doubt i'll ever learn what happened to them. at least one of my very early internet friends died, klim. i don't really know what happened to most of the people i knew in those days when i was on gaia online but i hope that they're doing well. i was a very different person when i was on that site but i was also 16, so of course i was.

anyway, i talk different now. i communicate differently. my internet voice has changed. i used to use random caps for everything. i don't capitalize shit anymore and you can't make me.

i don't really want to get back into the mindsets of me of years prior, but i do want to be able to tap into that well of creative potential because it seemed like i had so much energy for writing, for talking about writing, for sharing and brainstorming and thinking. i know that i am a person capable of writing a novella in the same of a few weeks so i want to regain that.

but i want to have more fun with it this time. i want it to belong to me and not belong to various plagues and maladies. i think deep down, there is a part of me that misses being nine and thinking i had invented fanfiction and talking about my zelda fic with all my friends without a hint of self-consciousness, but, like, with less 1999 going on because the 90s normalized a lot of shit that's not great.

anyway i don't really know where i'm going with this, so i am going to rotate characters in my mind before i go to bed

[putuksstuff]

hey I remember you from like 2014? 2015? when you were being an asshole to people in the mlp fandom about which characters were better. that was fucking weird of you I hope you’re normal now

This dude anonymously raggin' on me for shit from nearly 10 years ago.

I'll say this tho; tumblr is the only website I ever get hate mail. I don't really mind, it's always anonymous people anyway, so it doesn't feel really personal, and it's always over mundane shit that don't matter.

[ffsmnrk1989]

A POST ON BETRAYAL

Originally posted on Reddit, QuoteV, and deviantArt.

(I had wanted to put this as part of a larger overall post over at FB, but after several discoveries early April, and the fact that I’ve become an absolute Lazy Susan from what happened to me last year, I’ve chosen to go ahead and put it now.)

You say you remember me? That’s fine, because I remember you. But first, how do you remember me? Oh, no, wait, lemme take a guess: as the “fren” you knifed in the back when he did one little slip-up by liking a status from a person he himself doesn’t really like? While he was begging for your help? The same “fren” you left to rot while his account got hacked, then deactivated? Because that's what I remember you doing.

You couldn’t even forgive me for liking that post? And yet I'm the fake Buddhist? When I tried to reassure you with the truth (and that was that myself and Conor weren’t friends just because I like one of his posts which I actually agreed with), you went ballistic on me and attacked me for doing so, and then hypocritically compared that to me “flipping out” for you talking with that psycho of a woman Joyce Ann Sobeck.

I find those comments, quite frankly, disingenuous in light of the fact that I ALWAYS forgave your slip-ups (as befits a real Buddhist), and that we had the longer friendship.... or so I thought until now.

And you have the balls to say I saw what Conor was doing, and did nothing about it?! OK, let me remind you of a few things. First off, I didn’t meet you until September-October 2013, when I was already getting back to the HA! fandom, and even then I MET YOU THROUGH CONOR; never you first, then Conor. Second, I only found out after you were forced to delete your account back in March 2014, remember that? And by the time we found out, I could do nothing about it, because I was mainly busy (apart from my attempts at going back to college) with the taking back of the original OpRuth group, a situation caused by your Secret Lover Joyce and her 8 goons. Only from October 2014 could I finally do something, and I strived to keep both you and Conor apart because I got flashes of his assholery in January that year; and yet it was you who asked me to bring you two back, against my better judgement and even my outspoken refusal to do so. So don’t fucking tell me I let you get hurt by him, when the truth is the complete OPPOSITE.

You know, I’m beginning to get a horrifying picture, which I had hope it isn’t true, but with each passing day especially after seeing something a friend of mine showed me, I’m finally starting to believe it might be true: both you and Joyce are responsible for my account getting hacked. I guess your Secret Lover figured since she couldn’t take me down the easy way, by undermining my rights to speak about what happened to me, she decided to hack my account and disable it. For WHAT -- for $200 fucking dollars?! How fucking greedy can you be for that? I’ve since managed to regain some control of it, but now I’ve begun to realise a horrible truth. To borrow a movie quote: one of the people I cared about the most in this world, and needed the most in my darkest hour, only wants my ruin.

You left me to rot, while my account was hacked and disabled; and then, when you conveniently appeared, you complain about giving my like to a post I happened to agree with.

Do you know I tried to off myself because of my account being hacked?! My mom had to stop me from committing that ultimate folly from which I was driven to by both that action and my uncle’s words, which didn’t help either. What had been done to me was like killing a child you loved! That FB account was/is like a child to me: I spent over 14 years getting that account to what it was/is to the present day. Only for some ASSHOLE to take my joy from me. If I find out that indeed it was you and Joyce who destroyed my account.... How do you sleep at night, knowing you’ve taken one of my biggest joys in my life?

Both of you ruined my life. Because it was through you, kiddo, that I got hitched with a psychopath; and it was through said psycho that I probably have a lot of trust issues and probably PTSD.

You, former bestfren, ruined my life.

You’re like that song by Héroes del Silencio, “Entre Dos Tierras”, which I’ve taken to quote recently, in light of you putting me in a bad spot, while, again, I was begging for help. For you to refuse to help me and leave me to rot shows that you’re not loyal.

Time and again, I forgave you because it was the Buddhist thing to do, thus proving (and I’m not being narcissistic here, far from it) I’m more Buddhist than you ever were. You claim to supposedly follow the Buddhist teachings, yet, again, you couldn’t find it in your heart to forgive one little slip-up, while I forgave your countless ones? Can someone say “hypocrite”?

This begs the question: what did I ever do to you? What did I ever do to you? Never before had I been treated so lousily as you two have; what the hell did I do to deserve not just my account being hacked by you, but your horrible treatment of me in general? Exist? I’m not gonna stop existing just because you and Joyce don’t want me to.

What makes this even infinitely worse is that I VOUCHED for your sorry ass time and time again! When other people said you weren’t worth it, I vouched for you! And then you went and knifed me! How you gonna punk me like that, huh?

I’m beyond disgusted, kiddo. Disgust doesn’t even begin to cover what I feel right now. You sold me out to someone you knew I despised, knowing full well what she had done to me and others. And yet you still had the balls to put me in convos (except for the one for TJM, which I joined, ‘cause hey, it’s TJM, what we fought so hard for since 2013!) knowing I didn’t wanna talk (and rightfully so!) with someone who betrayed me, who did a lot of damage to me. And still you let her verbally and mentally abuse me. No, Adrian Michael Pridemore, disgust doesn’t cover the bases of how I feel; it’s an emotion which we Buddhists shouldn’t have, but I can’t help but feel towards you now: HATRED.

Hatred because you let her verbally and mentally abuse me, and yet you did nothing to stop it. Hatred because you still put me in convos with her, knowing full well how she treated me until June 26, 2015. Hatred because you, apparently, conspired with her to try to destroy not just my spirit, but my body as well -- that attempt to off myself I blame on not just my uncle, but on you, because I needed your help, and I was cast at sea.

You have no soul, no heart, no conscience. Neither you, nor Joyce.

I find it hard to keep thinking about things I’d like to say, so let’s sum it up: You’ve got ZERO right to attack me for one slip-up and not forgiving me for that (since you claim to be a Buddhist, even worse), while I was always the better man forgiving you for your slip-ups and giving you many chances to do right by me as I’d do right by you. And if, and I mean if, it turns out you did, alongside Joyce, the absolute worst thing to me (hacking into my main FB account and disabling it) because you couldn’t stand me telling the truth about Joyce.... Hoo boy, I hope you have a good lawyer to help you beat the rap!

To tidy matters up: remember I told you back last year that this was your last chance to be a good person? Guess what? By going 'round my back, attacking me by mocking my attempts at asking for forgiveness, you’ve proven that not only are you still allied with Joyce, but you also treated me like a fucking jerk. I see now I never meant anything to you but a sucker. You saw me as a sucker back in 2014, by tying me with someone who could never be trusted.

Never again will I forgive you.

Never again will I give you another chance.

You’ve blown your chances with me, burnt the bridges.

And now, you’re just like the song: now you’re just somebody that I used to know.

Frens NO MORE.

FRANCO FERRER-SAN MIGUEL Started 4/21/2022 Finished 6/2 the same year.

Namu Butsu, namu Hô, namu Sôgya. (I take Refuge in the Buddha; I take Refuge in the Dharma; I take Refuge in the Sangha.)

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[etihw000]

You, Boun, Ninja and Taxi were my inspo for doing character designs, though I have to ask, what was the logic of the fashion you gave when interpreting the skins back at like 2013/2014? I could never figure out how to get that 2010s mcyt aesthetic of designs.

i’m gonna put this here for future reference: i do not want to answer asks that mention taxey. so if anyone else had sent in an ask involving her i probably deleted it and will continue to delete them, sorry.

but you tickled a bit of my rambling bones because i do like to talk, and she is part of what happened (i will hereby refer to her as T); so here we go.

i think you can separate my designs into two eras: before-T and after-T. before T came around, my designs interpreted the skins pretty literally. here’s bodil, here’s sky/ty/mitch/jerome, here’s bashur, and here’s jason.

my explanation on this: i was 13 and didn’t really like challenging myself. i’m pretty sure i took jason’s design from dopier, for example. so i took the easy way route out on a lot of things! 

but most notably, i didn’t want to draw complicated designs like sky’s. so the answer was very simple and clear: obviously, put it onto a sweater! i’m sure it was originally meant to be armor, but i didn’t want to draw armor. that’s too much thinking, too much highlighting, and i just wanted to pump out fanart for what i liked.

i didn’t like drawing checkerboards, so i switched them to lines.

i didn’t want to draw an anthro, so i just made it into a bear hat ala michael (i’m pretty sure this bear-type hat was more prominent in 2014, but it seems to have been simplified into just a hoodie with bear ears?).

i didn’t want to draw a humanoid watermelon nor did i even know where to begin with that, so i just drew bashur’s skin as a human and mirrored the design onto his hair and everything else was kept similarly.

it’s what happened with jason’s design - remember his astronaut-y outfit? yeah, i changed it to a hoodie shortly afterwards with an astronaut-y print. hated drawing that shit, challenging yourself is dead.

so in early 2014 (i came to the realization that i actually didn’t draw mcyt in 2013; i started drawing it in 2014), honestly just look at the skins you want to interpret and go with the simplest possible outcome. the end.

however, if you’re talking a bit later with the more unique designs - there was one notable thing that happened that caused it.

T.

see, i was a cranky little 14 year old child who got way too much attention. and with that attention came people copying my art - and one of them was T. 

i was highly uncomfortable at the time because, well, when you’re 14 you want to be unique as possible; you wanna stand out. and i was the only one who drew mcyt in this vaguely anime style way (because it wasn’t minecraft). and because we were all fucking weebs i assume people just started copying my art style wholesale.

see, people would mistake me for T. and vice-versa. i was extremely unhappy with this bullshit. “why are people mistaking me for this person,” i thought very unhappily to myself. and because i didn’t want to change my bloody art style, i decided designs were the way to go. so i went a bit crazy with it.

started out pretty simple. i cut ty’s shirt slightly differently (it still plagues his fanart to this day, i’m sorry ty). i gave bodil a beanie. everything was fine.

and then i still didn’t fucking want to draw checkerboards, so i just made a unique design for mitch. it followed with zek (the jacket on the right with the blue), who also had a checkerboard print. 

i did not want anyone replicating what i did, because it pissed me the fuck off something fierce. and i don’t know nor do i remember this clearly, but i’m pretty sure T started doing the same damn thing anyway. and i’m pretty sure it’s only T, because when I talked with swift and jasie they didn’t remember doing this shit. it was literally the two of us and whoever happened to be watching us do it.

it wasn’t meant to be easy to replicate. 

it was meant to be a bitch to replicate.

(i did it with rage too. the man didn’t even have a checkerboard skin. the long hair also plagues his fanart to this day, too. sorry rage.)

the other designs (ragegaming-era) were in 2015. and i was still the same angry 14-year old kid, especially since the T situation hadn’t gotten any better. we were still being mistaken for each other. people were genuinely confused about which of us were who and i don’t know how to explain to you how much anger was packed into my tiny 14 year old unsocialized body. 

i genuinely still don’t understand it now because our art styles were fundamentally different.

so i pitch you this question: what happens if simple skins meet this anger at being copied when even the simpler prints intended to be a bitch to replicate end up being mimicked, especially when the person you didn’t want copying you followed you into a wholeass new fandom? (we were more divided than now; TC and Crew were two completely different fandoms lol; we didn’t generally unite ourselves under ‘mcyt’)

you end up with other weird attempts. strangely asymmetrical cuts. even more complicated patterns. i apparently hid these but it was hell, i tell you. 

but i can assure you that the patterns on my designs were almost always symmetrical, albeit colored differently from the other side. the asymmetrical parts were different - a cut, a rolled up pant leg. something that you could do with a regular article of clothing. i know that in my circle there were some people that would have different length in shoes. i never did that. i would literally never write words on a shirt, too. i wasn’t one of those graphic tee people.

then i guess in late 2015 i got tired of it all and went back to the simple times of just not wanting to draw difficult designs before quitting altogether.

so you want to know what defined 2014 designs? 

it was a 14 year old’s absolute anger at being copied to fucking death and having to be mistaken for other people.

i hope this helped and i am now going to choose to forget that i ever decided to answer this ask. not because it was a bad ask, but because i don’t like thinking about T in particular. 

thank you for indulging my rambling bones. here’s a tl;dr for you:

Before-T designs (simpler)

the interpretations are literal.

if you can’t tell what’s going on, just make it a sweater and copy the patterns on the skin 1:1.

if there’s a different head (jason’s astronaut helmet, jerome’s bacca head) just make it a hood or a hat.

After-T designs (more difficult)

you still don’t wanna draw things out of your comfort zone, so stay out of the armor/anthro business.

give every design two layers - three at most. 

you love hoodies :)

if the skin is simple, use slightly different shades to add patterns (i believe he had a plain blue hoodie and plain black pants).

want to be even MORE unique than before? add something asymmetrical. remove a sleeve, roll up a pant leg, or something, but never shoes or gloves. they are sacred and you shouldn’t do that to them.

idk someone pointed out that i was apparently allergic to necks because i kept giving designs chokers or scarves or whatever. they’re usually solid in color

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First of all, thanks for all the work you've been doing. You're truly a heaven sent gift to this fandom ♡

I was around 20 when I first discovered the DL franchise in 2014. I remember stumbling upon some of Satoi's DL artwork and was so mesmerized by it that I researched it and actually found the game(s) before the anime. But the otome-game-scene was new to me so I watched the anime first because it was a medium I was familiar with. I went into the anime knowing it was a "summary" or portrayal of all the possible game routes. And even though the anime isn't that great and can't rewatch it without cringing at some scenes and lines, I fell for it hard lmao that's when I started researching the games a bit more and read some translations and oh boy.

Oddly enough, I wasn't that shocked or disturbed by what the boys did to Yui, maybe because I always had some sort of taste for more intense male leads and was happy to find a darker vampire universe that aligned with my vampire kinks because of it's violence aspects lmao. Don't get me wrong their treatment towards Yui was horrible but since it was advertised as "sadistic vampire" stuff I kind of expected it and wasn't hoping for some soft Twilight-type of romance but what really disturbed me was the boys' backstory. I remember reading all the info open mouthed because it was so so much darker than the anime and I wasn't expecting so much tragedy. Especially Laito's past was so disturbing.

At first I thought the DL boys were just assholes with a difficult relationship with their mothers but boy was that an understatement. I can't really describe the feeling but I'm both in love and disturbed with the franchise because it's so tragic. I'm glad it exists because it's allowing people to enjoy that type of romance in a "safe", isolated environment, i.e. not in real life but it's definetely a franchise that should only be consumed if one is able to seperate reality and fiction. If you ever find a guy like one of the DL boys in real life, don't try to heal him and don't wait for him to change for you. Run fast and run far.

Ayy, we actually have pretty similar experiences then! I was also around 20-21 years old when I played HDB (more specifically Ayato's and part of Laito's route) for the first time and Satoi's beautiful artwork played a huge role in my decision to pick it up over any other otome game out there. :p

Personally, it was the tokuten drama CDs which won me over completely. I'm a sucker for comedy and while you may be thinking now: 'girl you got into the wrong fandom' but have y'all listened to some of those bonus CDs? Some of these scenario's literally have me IN TEARS from laughing so hard. 10/10 would recommend.

[anomura]

it sucks but i cant even pretend to like a solangelo friendship. and i was even kind of open to them at the end of boo (i wrote solangelo fanfiction on wattpad in 2014 can you believe it) so its funny to me when people say he gets better in toa, because that was what SOLIDIFIED my dislike hatred of him. i think if solangelo was going to be done in a tactful way he’d need a complete rewrite, starting with the fact he’s a healer and so on. its just so hard to look past the weird obsessive + fetishy glorification the fandom has bestowed upon him :/

ahhhh i'm honestly the same!! i feel like even if they were to be friends, their relationship started in a weird way :/ like i cannot get past him invalidating nico and being fucking rude??? i know people make mistakes and he's not the only one who hasn't been the nicest to nico but it just makes my blood boil every time i remember it, so that would Definitely need to change if they were to be friends and ofc boyfriends lol also the whole nico being ooc at the end of boo bothers me So Much i genuinely don't believe the nico we knew up until that point would ever stand for will being a pushy asshole??? like. hello???? anyway.

i can't speak a lot about their relationship or will in toa bc i haven't read it but i've heard people saying he's a pain in the ass LMAO it's so sad bc he really wasn't a bad character before riordan decided to pair him with nico :/ and yeah the whole healer thing irks me too. i already hated canon solangelo bc of how out of Nowhere and forced it was but oh my god the fandom made it so much worse i can barely stand the shippers rip i know not everyone is awful, i have a few friends who ship them and are great but overall i try to keep my distance and forget that the relationship is canon bc i fucking hate it so much.

it was so so so poorly done and what makes me even madder is people arguing that it's representation and that nico deserves to be happy like Yeah. ofc he fucking does and that's exactly why i hate solangelo? he deserves BETTER than a forced weird relationship ??? if you care about him so much, if you care about lgbtq+ representation so much, shouldn't you want him to be in a well developed, not forced, good relationship? are we supposed to just accept it because "it's a gay couple!! and at least he's not alone!!!"?? literally fuck off lmao first things first he deserves friends, a good support network and therapy. a boyfriend won't solve his problems. rick literally got rid of everyone who cared about him other than hazel and now he basically just has will ?? how is that healthy ????

if i'm being honest i can't even see solangelo lasting like nico would stay with him for 2 years tops and then he'd realize will is annoying and he can do better and dump him LOL that's what happens in my head at least .

anyway sorry for the long ass rant i'm just always mad abt solangelo and down to talk shit about it<3

[redjaybathood]

What's your opinion on the fanfic Option C where Jason sues the Joker/Gotha, to kill Joker?

I do hope that the writer never sees this bc everything that i wanted to say to them directly is already said in comments. And mostly, it had been, despite everything else what I am going to say here, is "thank you for writing this".

So. The first time I discovered that fic and started reading this, I was like. Omg! What an idea? I went to my favourite discord server at the time being all like: guys, guys! Are you reading this? You should be reading this! I can't wait to read more! Because come on. Jason Todd vs Joker legal drama. It's not just a funny premise, it's filling a lacuna. There's a Jason Todd versus People, a very dark take on Jason in juvie, and that's basically it. I do have something going on with "hey judas" that's about "what if Jason went down for Felipe Garzonas's death?" but it's not really on the same level, the focus is slightly off.

(if anyone knows other courtroom-related drama in DC fandom, please share)

So yeah. Jason suing the Joker? I would read at least a dozen more fics like this.

And then Batman is like: no, this is bad, this is wrong. And I was like - oh wow Bruce is an asshole here. Which I'm all for! Bruce could be an asshole. And it's so unreasonable here. Okay, you don't want to personally kill anyone, that's valid, but death penalty is something that is legal, and it being as something of last resort, and it's being against Joker... I understand that death penalty irl is bad. I do not agree with Bruce in this fic being all like "It's a slippery slope for every other Arkham-bound criminal". More than that. There had been death penalty in Gotham, in canon. Anyone remember Cassandra Cain trying to save a murderer? And despite her "Nobody dies tonight" and "I don't kill... but I don't lose either" (which is from different issue, but) somebody still dies, and she does lose. But it doesn't mean that the justice system failed, that the victim's family lost.

So yeah, Bruce is an asshole here, and I rooted against him!

But the farther I read, the more I had a feeling that the author, for all they play with showing all sides, with Dick refusing to help Bruce eventually, they're more like... Pro-Bruce. Anti-letting Joker die legally.

It becomes basically obvious, imo, when Jason is revealed to be in league with Talia and Lex Luthor (even if he's using him, it doesn't matter much), and manipulating citizens of Gotham for a full-blown riot. And I won't lie, the imagery of all of Gotham, basically, united in their collective "enough is enough"! Power move. And yet, again, it's treated as "foolish crowd". Which is, okay. Crowds are easy to manipulate. Doesn't mean they are wrong, though.

So the issue I am having with "evil masterminds using the citizen's (un)righteous anger to society's detriment" might be traced back to the events of 2013-2014 in my country, or even in 2011-2012 in a bordering country, or what happened last year in yet another bordering country, or what happened basically a month or so in a country that doesn't border with mine but still close enough for us to be watching in horror as people were killed, or beaten, arrested, tortured, and it was supposed to be a good thing, because they were a crowd of uneducated gullible masses that were manipulated into rioting (which is not a narrative pushed by my local media, but theirs and the bordering countries, just to be clear). And if you recognize your country from this description, I'm honestly sorry. I know your issues are more complicated than what I can put into an imperfect metaphor in a post that is dedicated to another topic entirely.

But yeah. Basically. I have an issue and a bone to pick, here.

And then it devolves in Bruce anticipating the riot and hiding Joker, and Jason reacts to that by taking Bruce hostage and threatening to kill him and strong-arming Superman, eventually, into a mockery of the democratic process. Citizens of Gotham vote if Joker should die. They do. Joker dies. It's a happy end.

And all the tags for this fic indicate that author is Jason's fan. "This is me trying to get Jason some justice" and "Bruce fucked up" and all that. But. Jason honestly is a villain here. Bruce is an asshole, but, Jason is the villain. He gets his. It might not even have the disastrous consequences that Bruce predicts - though I honestly think the author hints that there will be. And all I can think is...

No.

See, this fic is good. It's good writing, it keeps the tension, racks up the stakes, it's decent in making characters fully-fleshed, not one-dimensional. There's a real conflict and there's something that keeps you at the edge of the seat.

But boy do I hate what becomes of Jason. And I'm confused. Am I supposed to?

[roundedloaf]

Murderbot: The Winter Soldier, An Analysis

In the text of the Marvel Cinematic Universe the Winter Soldier is a terrifying killing machine. ‘The Asset’ and not a person. Allowed enough leeway to follow orders to assassinate most efficiently but nothing else. His body modified and his brain overruled to turn him into a weapon, memory wipes any time his personality starts leaking out.

In the text of the Murderbot Diaires, SecUnits are considered terrifying killing machines. They’re assets on a balance sheet and not people. Allowed some leeway to make decisions to follow out their orders but punished by their governor module if they do anything else. Their bodies are built and programmed with weapons in their arms, and memory wipes anytime their past gets too inconvenient.

Neither character has the chance to see themselves as people, or be allowed to care about others.

Bucky Barnes gets to return to personhood because his friend remembered him. Murderbot never started with a personhood, so has to build that for itself. It’s a person not because other people care about it, but because it’s a person, a snarky depressed asshole who loves media.

Released in 2014, Captain America: The Winter Soldier, spawned a significant amount of fan activity.  Between the release of CA:TWS and CA:CW over twenty thousand works were placed on the Archive of Our Own tagged with both ‘James “Bucky” Barnes’ and ‘Marvel Cinematic Universe’. One of the popular genres of fics at this time was Recovering!Bucky, a fairly long form fic genre showing where Bucky slowly recovers from being the Winter Soldier, often driven by his love, romantic or otherwise, for characters like Steve Rogers.

@presumenothing prompted me to look a bit more deeply at this idea by mentioning the similarities between Murderbot and Owlet’s ‘This, You Protect’ Winter Soldier fanfic. Owlet’s fic is the most popular in the Recovering!Bucky genre on Ao3, and contains a number of very clear parallels to Murderbot. Owlet’s Winter Soldier cares a lot about security, and uses surveillance equipment to check in on Captain America without having to interact. This insistence on protection is part of Murderbot’s core as a SecUnit, and it’s preferred way of interacting with people through it’s drones is also quite similar.

The writers of my personal favorite Winter Soldier fic, All Things You Pray For, @marywhal and @anonymousalchemist have also made a post talking about the similarities between Murderbot and their Winter Soldier. Their fic was written roughly co-currently or after Murderbot and is actually a Winter Soldier AU of popular podcast The Adventure Zone, where it pulled some of it’s setting and plot from Winter Soldier fanon. The similarities aren’t about Bucky Barnes but fandom interpretations of the Winter Soldier story.

As the popularty of fanfic has increased, it has had a more direct influence on popular science fiction literature. Martha Wells wrote fanfic before she was a professional writer, and around this era mentioned that she was still at least passively involved in reading fanfic. source  It’s fairly likely she read Winter Soldier fanfic and probably even Owlet’s‘This, You Protect’.

The Murderbot Diaries contains subversions of a large number of tropes, the evil AI, the evil robot, the good robot who wants to be human and an AI’s personhood being proven by romantic love. Murderbot is actively aware and actively rejects these tropes. “I don’t want to be human” it says in Network Effect. It gets annoyed by media representation of constructs and robots falling in love with their human guardians. It refers to ART as having a ‘villain of a long running mythic adventure serial’ voice.

Martha Wells has talked about Murderbot as a character coming out from her own ‘own anger and frustration and social anxiety’ (source), it’s experiences are driven by her experiences being not neurotypical. (source) At the ends of both All Systems Red and Network Effect, Murderbot walks away from Preservation Aux – the humans that helped save it. It’s personhood isn’t contingent on being cared about by others.

Murderbot subverts the Winter Soldier idea of the person being completely unaware of the horrors they are involved in. Murderbot was aware of it’s situation, and some of the horrors of it, well before hacking it’s governor module. The way Preservation Aux helps it isn’t by showing it how to be a person, but by giving it the option to do that by itself. In Exit Strategy it remarks“Mensah said I could learn to do anything I wanted. I learned to leave.”

Transplanting the Winter Soldier trope of ‘sarcastic person who is uncomfortable with being called a person, is really good at murder, and will murder but would rather be doing Something Else’ as @marywhal put it into a setting built for around this character allows for a deeper look at why people become ‘less than’. Why Bucky Barnes became the Winter Soldier is standard superhero fare. The Murderbot Diaries is about dehumanisation under capitalism, a theme expanded on and also applied to human characters.

Both recovering!Bucky fic and Murderbot are a fantasy outside of a lot of mainstream media. Bucky Barnes gets to come back to being a person slowly, gets to have his personhood respected even when he can’t function ‘normally’. Murderbot takes that idea further and rejects that it ever needs to conform to human standards.

[platonicdekusimp]

(This post contains manga spoilers so fair warning!)

I hate to make another ranty/ramble post, but this fandom makes me several levels of angry it's hard not to.

So, I really don't want to tell people who they can or cannot like when it comes to MHA, and I'm not going to, but to a certain point your dislike for a character is just...lack of basic reading comprehension.

This is concerning Bakugou, which I can completely understand why some don't like him, but a lot of these statements that people parade around as legitimate reasons to hate him are just, not true. Or stupid. Which to be fair, you can hate a character for stupid or petty reasons, but I'm also allowed to call you out on it.

Sorry for that tangent but, these people acted like Bakugou kicked a puppy, or murdered a baby. He's worst offense is literally being a middle school bully and an asshole in high-school. That's it. He's not going to get the Zuko level redemption arc people expect him to get.

My man's literally got impaled for Deku, I don't know what you all want from him. He apologized. He calls Deku Izuku now, he admits if you're extremely arrogant all the time it gets you nowhere. Again you can hate him for any reason, it's just...weird to me.

The argument he got no character development always makes me laugh, because in my honest opinion (and I will admit kind of pretentious,) it seems like a lack of critical thinking skills. He's changed in so many ways, but since his core character is the same (what makes Bakugou BAKUGOU,) people try to pretend he hasn't changed at all. It's like if these people aren't spoon fed his entire arc, to them it just doesn't exist. And in some cases it IS spoon fed to them. Literally admits he was rude and not a good person. Read between the lines! Think for 2 seconds!

Not to mention I found out some people think he's irredeemable because when he was 14 he said a shitty comment. A comment so irrelevant if you took it out, it wouldn't change the plot. Izuku didn't even have a reaction. He just shrugged it off and basically called Bakugou an idiot. You all have to remember, the manga was first made in 2014. So Hori probably just added it for shock value. Let's stop pretending it was as big of a deal as the fandom makes it out to be.

Ok, now I'm done. If anyone wants to add anything, feel free. I will admit this was just a rant, but I can't be the only one frustrated about this!

[cuntylouis]

Harry is a great example of how having a fanbase and a reach beyond social media is really important. Everyone who meets him loves him, the industry loves him, the people who work with him have nothing but good things to say, the queer baiting shit is not real criticism, fake rumors are not real criticism, they can’t come for him for being an asshole so they have to overcompensate by saying all this other stuff that outside of twitter and Reddit or whatever other website, doesn’t affect his career.

It’s also a lot of pretentious film buffs that genuinely don’t think he deserves to be in movies or whatever or attend film festivals bc he’s a pop star and like fine he answered some questions in a bit of a silly way but it’s not that serious. He is absolutely more popular than ever and outside of the bubble that is the internet and chronically online people, he’s thriving tbh.

Exactly. Social media, especially fandom spaces, are super insular and almost nevel reflect what general population thinks. Going by twitter and tumblr you'd have thought taylor swift was the most hated woman alive in 2014-2016, but i remember there was a big poll around that time asking people's opinions on celebrities, and she was actually one of the most well-liked celebs, and that was during the peak 'snake discourse'. Imagine Dragons and Nickelback are constantly mocked online but are actually massively popular. Tumblr makes it seem like everyone is watching my favorite show Succession, but its ratings have actually been pretty modest and meanwhile shows like NCIS nobody ever talks about online pull huge numbers. I bet 95 % of people haven't even heard about the drama surrounding DWD and as long as the movie is entertaining to watch it'll probably do okay at box office. Harry is going to be fine. Even terminally online people will move on to another target soon when they'll get bored or when harry is out of the public eye for a while, or switch into stanning him if he says or does something they like

[straighttohellbuddy]

me? thinking too much abt the worldbuilding for the fic and the in-universe fandom? MAYHAPS. anyways im worried that im posting too many snippets but the first part is done at 7k *unedited* and im starting part 2 first thing tomorrow. im getting back in the groove!!

ANYWAYS establishing the reader in their own right is always fun, i like writing a reader with an established and independent life, yanno?? at least for some of my fics. sometimes you just want short comfort, sometimes you want an epic semi-realistic wish fulfilment fic with decent worldbuilding. 

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ID: A Twitter thread consisting of ten Tweets from @y/ns_perfect_larynx.

@y/ns_perfect_larynx: i think the thing that gets me abt seeing y/n streaming again is that theyre the extreme example of a 'they're just like us' celebrity. like other celebrities on yt are kind of clueless abt fandoms, or they're just promoing their latest stuff /1 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: and don't get me wrong i love and adore and am proud of ytbers who make it big and dip, like troye, but you can't deny that his content isn't the same as it was 5 years ago. even so he knows his yt origins and respects them and we stan, ofc /2 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: BUT THIS MOTHERFUCKER, Y/N COMES ALONG like the minute the world shuts down from rona their camera starts up like its 2015, except half the people they wanna collab with for videos are just...... other famous musicians who theyre genuine friends w?? but you can tell that there's a weird disconnect /3 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: even for y/n, like when they were brainstorming video ideas at the end of their apartment tour - btw everyone saying they should have a bigger apartment cos they're successful, Shut Up You Don't Know Them - and they were saying how they could only do certain videos with /4 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: other yt folks because They Get It. idk its fascinating. also i LOVE that theyre unashamedly making videos for old trends that they liked but couldn't at the time because they were on tour or busy, they seem like they're having So Much Fun!! /5 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: everyone who knows them only for their music must be So Confused by half the fandom who Knows abt them from yt. but also, 14 yr old me didn't eagerly wait in the middle school library surrounded by my 14 yr old friends for their latest video to drop every tuesday at lunch /6 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: for a bunch of tiktok tweens to act like they were discovered in 2020 for their music alone. like YES sometimes i forget 2014's Y/N 'if i bleached my asshole for charity id do it tastefully' L/N and 2020's Y/N 'Multi-Grammy Award Nominated Artist' L/N are the same person /7 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: like their music is SO GOOD and if i could replace my soul with it i would, and that's what so many people know them for, but then they act all casual abt fanfic where most celebs are SO awkward and uncomfy, and i just remember that q&a vid where they talk abt writing fanfic /8 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: not for other ytbers, obviously, but the idea of a ytber  even Writing Fanfiction Just Like Us was so novel, and now each time I remember a Grammy Nominated Musician writes fanfics Just Like Us and tbh im a little winded. its a nightmare and a dream. /9 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: y/n if youve read anything of mine im sorry. i was 14. i love u. everyone else if youve made it this far in the thread, stream HOW THE LIGHT GETS IN on spotify /10

[radramblog]

What happened to Dirk in Homestuck^2?

Why am I doing this to myself.

I memed a little yesterday when I was posting that article around social medias about Homestuck jokes, because once again we are in lockdown and I am therefore Stuck at Home. Canned laughter goes here. But there’s a topic related to the comic- or more specifically, its aborted sequel, Homestuck^2, that I’m interested in delving into a little bit. I’m going to avoid talking about spoilers as much as possible, but considering said comic takes place not only after the events of the massive sprawl that is Homestuck but also the more linear but still messy Epilogues, some amount of sus shit is inevitable.

Anyway. Much maligned is what the Epilogues and 2 did to everyone’s favourite decapitation target, Dirk Strider, and I have a theory as to why it happened this way.

To begin with, let’s summarise what and who Dirk is through the course of the comics. Fair warning from me, though, it’s been a while since I read through this.

Dirk Strider is a teenager who grew up in a post-apocalyptic future Earth, completely devoid of physical contact with other people and only really ever gets to talk to 3 other people, only one of whom is in anything remotely resembling a relatable situation. He struggles with self-identity, having created numerous robots including an artificial intelligence based on his own brain, aka Lil’ Hal. He’s somewhat of a control freak, and a bit of a cold aloof asshole, but means well, and is pretty gay. NBD. The kinda guy to set up a plan meticulously and thoroughly, not informing any of the moving parts even if said parts are his friends, and often involving some form of self-sacrifice.

Throughout the comic he further reckons with self-identity problems and his own self-loathing including entering a relationship with Jake which doesn’t go well and he eventually breaks off since he knows his overbearing and manipulative behaviour is Not Cool and Pretty Toxic but doesn’t know how to shut it off. Eventually he reaches the God Tier as a Prince of Heart, gaining the power to literally annihilate souls, which he never actually uses since he gets yeeted into deep (Paradox) space and then everything goes to shit. Except none of that happens because of the Retcon (aside from the God Tier bit) and we don’t actually see how that shit progressed in the canon timeline. I think. Dirk’s arc, as it were, doesn’t really come full circle- while he does assist in Dave’s character…growth? he really isn’t the focus of that conversation. This immediately precedes the action climax and there isn’t literally any dialogue after that so that’s what we’re left with.

I like Dirk in Homestuck a lot. It’s hard not to, considering the flashes heavily featuring him (Unite/Synchronise and Prince of Heart: Rise Up) are genuinely excellent, along with many of his music themes being absolute bangers. He gets to interact with Caliborn a lot, with a pretty great banter, there, and the whole splintered personality thing is a really interesting hook for a character. I think he’s my favourite of the Alpha kids, a controversial pick considering I know everyone loves Roxy so much. I think, I’m not as in tune with the fandom as that statement implies I am.

And then the Epilogues/Homestuck 2 came.

Now I read the Meat half of the epilogues first, but that’s more interesting, so we’ll tackle Candy first (this is going to get real confusing for those who haven’t read this comic, huh).

In Candy, Dirk almost immediately kills himself, citing the irrelevance of the timeline as cause, an act considered by whatever mechanism governs God Tier deaths to be Just because he hates himself (and also bc of things we’ll get into), so it actually sticks. This isn’t super relevant for the discussion, but that’s just kinda so unbelievably fucked up? Entirely? I’d imagine if you read Candy first you might get entirely turned off by this, which I’m sure a lot of people did.

Meat is where the, well, meat of post-canon Dirk is. You see, a concept very quickly introduced in the tail end of the original comic is the Ultimate Self, an idea where you somehow encompass every different timeline iteration or alternate version of yourself. This was pretty clearly tacked on to make it so characters whose arcs all happened in the retcon timeline could have their not getting an actual arc explained away, but it didn’t land then and it sure doesn’t land for me now. Anyway, in Meat, Dirk becomes his ultimate self, making him near-omniscient and able to control the fabric of the story himself- for much of this story, he is the narrator. And he uses this power to fuck with all his friends really distressingly without their knowledge (or consent), including breaking up a marriage, in order to further his own goals which largely appear to be just keep the story going so to not fade out of relevance. It’s a plot that makes no sense with his previous characterisation, but I guess now that he’s the Ultimate Self he’s a different person? But I liked old Dirk, and I don’t like New Dirk. He’s a villain now, but he made a much better anti-hero.

But this would be fine if he (or the epilogues, or Homestuck^2) were written well. But they aren’t. Dirk’s dialogue is long, painfully drawn out, with tangents that tend to amount to pure wank, misused literary references and pointless metaphors that go on and on, filling the screen with a bright orange screed that hurts to look at as much as it does to comprehend. It’s not fun. And we’ve seen Dirk communicate before, obviously, the story of Homestuck is built around chatlogs, but it wasn’t like this. He was sarcastic, dryly witty, blunt at times. Even when he was literally talking to a different version of himself it didn’t get that masturbatory.

I was so confused about what the hell happened to Dirk, because I had no idea what the hell someone writing this character was thinking when they turned him into this. And then, the 21st page of Homestuck^2 dropped.

And it all came together.

What Ultimate Dirk and Terezi are referring to is Pony Pals: Detective Pony, a children’s book about some girls who hang out with ponies and solve a mystery. It’s a real book, buy it for your 5-year-old.

Except they’re not referring to that, they’re referring to the Homestuck Canon version of Detective Pony- a birthday gift from Dirk to Jane, heavily edited and to be much more obscene and eventually developing into it’s own story, stated to be “tough, emotionally draining, but cathartic in all the worst ways possible”.

Except the quote “Remember Longcat, Jane?” and references to philosophy, dead languages, and ancient earth culture aren’t referring to the three pages of the Dirk-edited Detective Pony we see in the actual comic itself. That quote doesn’t appear there.

That image is from Detective Pony, by Sonnetstuck- the 40,000 word fanfiction from 2014 that serves as a completed version of Jane’s copy of the book. An expansion of what we see in canon. And it’s a tough, emotionally draining read, but cathartic in all the worst ways possible.

It’s a very good fanfiction.

In the later bits of Detective Pony, we can start to see the origins of what would become Ultimate Dirk’s signature style of writing. Long blocks of rambling text, orange dripping down the page, references to philosophy and history and language that go on and on. And it probably does look familiar to those who read the Epilogues and ^2. 

But there are a couple of key differences here. First of all, it’s just better written? The way these rambles circle back on themselves is so excellent, the absolute absurdity of this being written on top of a pony book for little girls, the humour (beyond some of the more immature stuff), it’s just a really well-written piece of fiction. Hell, you don’t even need to be familiar with the character of Dirk to enjoy it. It’s a harrowing piece, but it’s also self-aware- because it’s not supposed to be tough, draining, cathartic etc. just for Jane- it’s clearly that for Dirk himself.

The second part is, of course, that this is a fanfiction. It’s not canon, it’s not official, this is by someone who really likes Dirk for people who really like Dirk. It doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things, so if you bounce off it (and I’m sure a lot did), then you don’t have to keep reading it, it’s fine, thanks for playing. As much as Homestuck^2 tried to doll itself up as “dubiously canon” it’s still the official continuation of the story, and that means if it’s as difficult to get into as Detective Pony, that’s going to be a problem for a lot of people.

The other part of it is that Detective Pony’s exploration of Dirk’s character is, well, in character. When the man himself steps in as a character in his own book, the explorations of what he is as an author, who he is as a person, make perfect sense for what we see of him at the start of the comic. He is that manipulative, blunt person, and he is aware of his faults. He’s the kind of person to hide a lamentation on his own failings inside an impenetrable maze of a story layered on top of a book about fucking ponies. Ultimate Dirk does not act like Dirk, outside of the “manipulator” angle, something that Dirk was aware of and trying to improve in the comic. But I guess people don’t have arcs, right?

It’s so interesting to see the seeds of Homestuck^2 laden within Detective Pony- because the meta angle that and the epilogues take is also represented in said fanfiction. While the nature of canon is a facet of the work, the idea of authors and narrators fighting for control of a story, different ideas in mind for the characters, one being more personally connected to them than the other, it’s all there. When I wrote about Fallout 4 in the past, I mentioned being worried that Bethesda took the wrong lessons from Skyrim- seeing something successful and trying to recapture that lightning in a bottle. I think Homestuck^2 is an extreme example of this- the writers of the comic saw Sonnetstuck’s masterwork and thought, yeah that’s great, we can do that. But they just can’t. And with the comic crashed and burning, the probably won’t ever get a chance to. Dirk is forever stuck as this amalgamation of himself that looks nothing like any individual version of him ever did.

At least we will still have Detective Pony, and many other excellent fanworks, for actually good Dirk content. I admittedly haven’t looked into much fanfic written during/post-epilogues, and I’m kind of afraid of what I’ll see- I can only hope the fanbase didn’t take the same wrong lessons as the official team did.