#but the stream is already gone

[asternightingale]

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Um, sure.

I named myself specifically after a dead character in Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World.

I've never broken a bone or had braces, but I have a nearly lifelong pain in my left ankle.

I took voice lessons for 4 years, and I've only used it to sound uncannily like Amy Rose when amateur VAing the murder of sonic the hedgehog with some friends, traumatize my best friend of 3 years with the uwu copy pasta, and sound like a hentai girl for a different visual novel with friends.

Uh...I don't really want to bother people with this, so whoever wants to add to this can! I'd love to know more about friends.

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

sorry I will drop this after today but I think it's so interesting that when I make writing posts/content geared toward helping writers feel better about their processes, helping writers feel less isolated/overwhelmed in the vast ecosystem of writing advice that exists online now, etc, the assumption is then that you can't do that AND also critically engage with writing craft. that is very revealing.

anyway my whole thing is centering joy in the process because that's not an easy thing to do in a capitalist context where it's assumed all artistic endeavours MUST monetarily meet the public eye because moneyyyyyy. & how I centre joy is by doing what I wanttttttt. my instinct will never be to commodify a craft I love.

[cyberdragoninfinity]

question for my yugioh likers: if you had to make another duel monster/spell/trap card your URL which would you pick? tell me in the tags :3c

[cake-chad]

Richie cut off his glorious locks and I am le sad 😔

[sulettacore64]

o7 💛 not goodbye, but see you later to the world's #1 detective

[bilestat]

insane how quickly something small can tank my mood

[ahalliance]

etoiles vod (that didn’t get posted to the vod channel) i was going to download literally just expired from twitch today gonna kms

[zeb-z]

even Pac, head in hands ‘I don’t want to play anymore’, this is MISERABLE man there’s no way their children survive this

[mostesteemedgingeroverlord]

It’s about to be my birthday and I just keep thinking about how *much* the last year has been.

I lost my darling grandfather, but I’m slowly getting my dad back. Or maybe just truly having him for the first time. But that’s also mostly happening be he’s been sick for months, which is making him reevaluate a lot.

My parents are closer and healthier than ever, but they’re also barely scraping by because Dad can’t work.

My aunt who I have been very close to as an adult said some really hurtful things to me when Granddad was dying and now there’s a weird distance between us that I don’t know how to breach. But as I was crying about that my mom called me and told me how proud she was of me and how much it meant to her that I was there taking care of Granddad when she couldn’t.

My oldest brother is growing ever distant and into someone I’m afraid won’t be a kind and gentle man. But my younger brothers and sisters are growing kinder and wiser and, God, I am more hopeful for them than I have been in years.

My friend who I went to college with and have traveled the world started fighting with other friends and pulling away from us. But my friend who moved away last summer has become closer than when she was here and now we’re going to travel together (provided my finances become less bottom up lol).

I’ve given up on the idea of best friends (I was never too keen on it to begin with) and I’m trying to ride the waves of closeness as they come, bc very few of my close friends have remained the same for the last year. Even fewer the last five. I could certainly count them on one hand. But that’s okay! You can’t always love a lot of people and love them all equally well. At the end of the day, we’re finite and we most affect and are most affected by the people in our lives day to day.

My roommates both moved out (for separate reasons) right as several (more) things on the house went wrong and now I am back to paying for the mortgage by myself with a savings that has been wiped out by weddings and family problems as well as house problems over the last year.

My faith, as always, walks a razors edge, as I wrestle not let truth fall prey to opinion and desire. Trying to understand the things that bewilder me, to be faithful to God, to know and love Him, is slowly becoming easier. Setting down my burden, learning truly to be weak—oh I so hate to be weak— is healing me. In a lancing the wound, cutting out the gangrene, pouring alcohol on the cut kind of way. But in my core, in my heart of hearts, I believe and know (despite all the religious corruption I grew up in), that this Jesus was who he said he was and that truth must decide my life.

I once hiked a trail that I was not in the best shape for. But I had trained for it and was in better shape than I had thought. I got so hungry, but there were enough snacks. I was so thirsty, but we had plenty of water. I got winded, but there was enough time for me to take breaks. My legs were burning, but finally we started to go downhill. My brother got cold, but I had an extra jacket. We got frustrated, but we started to be silly and soon were laughing. I got disheartened, but my brother ran ahead to tell me there was a sign (parking lot one kilometer ahead).

I would not have been strong enough to do that hike unequipped and alone. But I was equipped and I wasn’t alone. Just as I have not been unequipped and alone the past year or the past twenty-five. And I won’t be for whatever’s left.

[the-crimson]

(Tw gore)

I’ve been thinking of what psychological torture bbh has been inflicting on the worker (because I’m obsessed with him) and I remembered a scene from 1984 where the protagonist is tortured in a similar fashion. A cage with hungry rats is attached to his face and he spends hours and hours with rats centimeters from his face trying desperately and threatening to eat him.

I think bbh did this to the worker with the soul vultures.

I think twice bbh started stream with the sound of soul vultures and showed his screen as he used the elevator back to his house, suggesting he’d let the vultures out in the basement. We also know he has a bunch of soul vultures in cages down there.

My theory - idk if it’s an actual theory or just straight up cannon at this point - is that while bbh was running around on the server, he let the soul vultures loose in the basement so they would try to kill the worker but were in able to due to the cage/cell. So the worker was just spending days with these vicious monsters reaching through the bars trying to tear it apart.

Imagine how fucked up that would make you. Alone in the dark and all you can hear are the screams of these birds and their claws raking on the stone and bars. The only light illuminating the chamber coming from their burning hearts. All it would take is one bar giving and it’d be all over.

Then bbh releases one in the cell with you because imagining these monsters tearing you apart 24/7 isn’t enough.

Oh he’s so evil I’m in love with him XD

[deus-ex-mona]

even the thumbnail for the off-vocal is adorable~~~

[todayisafridaynight]

going to ebisu if im not back in three hours assume i got lost looking at sanrio items

[cerubean]

hi! just wondering when you were going live again?

hey!! i was planning on going live this friday and saturday since i had a long weekend but it turned out to be a total disaster with my power going out which made my computer start acting funny (it's fine now!) and dealing w/ bad cramps so ;-; im very sad abt that!

my goal is to go live next week and if i don't i'll make sure to let you guys know!

[ratatatastic]

THEY ARE ALIVE

[yakam0z]

finally have the build i'm going to project onto my elden ring oc. str/dex is hopefully carrying me through at least some bosses & maybe even all of them 😍

it does stagger the first great enemy A LOT! now i only need to #gitgud because i am so rusty and generally bad i guess 😌

[candied-cae]

I’m gonna be so real, babes, when I saw that storm looking so ROUGH at the end of episode 2, I was real worried The Revenge was going to capsize and completely break to splinters and just sink to the bottom of the ocean. And I was DEVASTATED!

I was legitimately about to cry for that big ol’ boat bc she’s home and she's a part of their journey, and she can’t rest until her captains have been reunited! She deserves to see it happen on her deck, or so help me-