#but the next day one guy was so pissed bc he thought we left him off on purpose

[knee-stockings]

so do you ever find yourself being so careful around someone to spare their feelings even tho it’s not your responsibility and also they’re a whole adult

[ray-winters]

we just wanna hear any hcs you have for our boy misch

Alright, y’all asked for it, buckle up:

Mischa makes most of his money from an apprenticeship he has at the only tattoo parlor in Uranium City. He gets paid a bit, and on top of that he gets free tattoos (which is where he got all of his from). Plus it keeps him out of the house and also pisses his very traditionally valued adoptive parents off. Win win.

My Mischa only has tattoos on his right arm bc I am left handed so HE is left handed- he does his own tattoos mostly. He was going to start a sleeve on his left arm after he got home from the fall fair.

Speaking of his tattoos; the first tattoo he gave himself was one that says “Bad Egg” w/devil horns and a devil tail. “Bad Egg” was something his adoptive dad would frequently call him, so it was his way of reclaiming the name for himself, and pissing off his adoptive parents bc they were viciously anti-tattoo

He has another tattoo of a crescent moon with a “ - T” next to it bc he asked Talia to draw him something to put on his body. She drew the moon because of the time difference between Kyiv & Uranium, any time she sees the moon she knows she’s going to hear from Mischa soon. So she began to associate Mischa with the moon.

My personal fav tattoo I gave Mischa is that stereotypical “S” where you draw 6 lines and connect them. This is brand fucking new to Mischa, he had never seen it before, and he thought it was dope af, so he tattooed it on himself immediately.

He has a tattoo of a pot leaf, but it’s not very good so everyone always thinks it’s a Canadian maple leaf. Which drives him up the wall.

Mischa has taken in a small black cat that would hang around the tattoo parlor and would occasionally follow him home. It lives with him in the basement, it comes and goes, and it is a well kept hidden secret.

Mischa hangs at Noel’s house…a lot. Noel’s mom lets him stay the night often bc she knows about his home life and thinks it’s disgraceful, so she takes care of him.

Mischa was class clown and relatively popular at his high school in Ukraine- which is the polar opposite of how he’s received at St. Cassian’s. People either are afraid of him, or they try to make fun of him, so either way he has found himself alone most of the time.

He’d never admit it, but Mischa does actually enjoy hanging with the kids in the choir. He gets to hang with his bestie, Noel. He admires Constance’s patience and kindness, he thinks she’s probably the best person in Uranium. While he and Ocean get on each other’s nerves, there’s a small part of him that secretly looks forward to their fights. But only a little bit. He doesn’t notice Ricky is there until after the accident, and then spends a large chunk of his time trying to rectify that by getting to know/encourage Ricky.

He and Noel became friends bc some of the boys who were trying to bully Mischa were also bullying Noel. When Mischa was about to start defending Noel, Noel ended up proving he can defend himself with his quick wit rather than fists. This is a trait that Mischa admires a lot, so they pretty much joined forces that day and they’ve been the dynamic duo of Uranium City ever since.

Mischa has pretty severe abandonment issues and it prone to panic attacks because of it. He’s more of a “suffer in silence” kind of guy, so it takes someone with patience and kindness like Constance to give him some tips on how to calm himself down. I.E. remembering a calming situation like “climbing back into your bed in the morning and feeling the heat left over from your body.”

Mischa had been kicked out of a few schools in Uranium, and his adoptive figures (they’re not really parents, barely guardians) gave him one last chance at St. Cassian’s. When he was caught stealing the communion wine, Father Marcus told him he HAD to join the choir and that he HAD to at the very least sing at the competition. Which is why he doesn’t do any choreo during the opening number.

Addendum- he does ONE move during the opening number. The finger wag on “oh no no” because Noel came up with that move, and after Ocean tried to cut it, Mischa said it was the only move he’d do even if it was cut. So he forced her to keep the move in via malicious compliance.

Over the course of the musical, there isn’t really a moment where he thinks he’s gonna win. His life wasn’t fair, why should his death be any different.

He thinks Jane is THE coolest and THE most metal thing he’s ever seen. After she finishes her number, his heart is effectively broken for her.

When Constance punches Ocean, Mischa doesn’t have the “FUCK YEAH” reaction that you’d expect. It’s actually met with some sadness. He’s always encouraging Constance to stick up for herself, and to not take Ocean’s shit. But, he respects that she has patience and kindness. When Constance punches Ocean, he almost sees it as a failure on his part.

The reason in my head why Mischa and Ocean feud so much is because they remind each other of one another’s parents. Ocean is the poster child of excellence in Uranium, Mischa’s adoptive parents have said more than once that they wish he could “be like that Ocean girl” - on the contrary, Ocean has caught Mischa smoking weed before. His incredibly radically liberal world view reminds her of her hippy parents. They get that anger out at them on each other. But at the end of the show, they both have a deeper respect for one another. Ocean for Mischa because she sees the real him, who is gentle & compassionate. Mischa for Ocean because she does the most selfless thing she could possibly do, which he respects infinitely.

I’m sure I have more but these are the HC’s that immediately came to mind. This is what makes Majestic Rep’s Mischa, Mischa.

[keigokoutarou]

“Do you like my hips?” Pt. 1.5

Simon “Ghost” Riley x AFAB!Reader

Pt. 1.5 bc I love cliffhangers *smooches*

Find Pt. 1 here! | Pt. 2

Warnings: welcome to my tit talk (literally that’s all that’s here) Suggestive content

Oh you were writhing. Shaking. Beaming with excitement in your seat as you looked at yourself in the review mirror. The ride to base had never felt so fucking long. This 20 minutes used to feel like bliss before you had to deal with the guys but today? You were sure the speed you traveled was considered reckless.

Pulling up to the gate, you stopped for the MP to check your I.D.

“No camos today again sergeant?” The MP asked, trying so hard not to eye your chest.

“Another maintenance day.” You shrugged. “Gotta get the buggies in good shape before our next mission.”

“Yes ma’am.” He smiled. “Have a good one, Sergeant.”

Oh, I will. You thought to yourself as you waved him off and headed toward the yard as you and soap called it.

Pulling in, you noticed a few other cars and began counting them out.

Price’s Raptor, Gaz’s AMG and Soap’s old FJ. You groaned in annoyance.

“If he doesn’t show today, I’m going to lose it.” You grumbled, pulling your keys and sliding out of your rebuilt rx-7 before shutting and locking the door behind you.

You almost stomped your way through the yard to the last set of buggies that needed attention.

“Swear I could hear you coming down the highway in that thing.” Soap laughed, rubbing his hands on a greasy towel.

“Funny, I didn’t think she was loud enough.” You smirked, following Soap back to the one he was working on.

“We’re about done, just need to do two more oil changes.” He sighed, rubbing his forehead to clear the beads of sweat.

“I can start on one then.” You nodded your head.

“I laid everything out already but um, don’t want to like cover up first?” He raised an eyebrow, lifting his hands up to his chest. “Lieutenant seemed pissed on Tuesday about it.”

“Oh did he?” You quirked an eyebrow. “What makes you say that?”

“Heard him bitching to himself about you ‘flaunting’ all over base after you left.” Soap shrugged.

“Seems like he just needs to get over himself.” You giggled.

“Or he needs to get laid.” Soap chuckled along side you.

“Is he even coming today?” You threw in, silently thanking Soap for leaving the opening.

“He’ll be in shortly. Said he was meeting with Alejandro, the guy we have our new mission with.”

“Ah.” You nodded. “I’ll get started then. Wouldn’t want lieutenant pouty to have my ass.”

“I dunno, he might want to.” Soap winked, turning his back to you and returning to his work.

“Oh you have no idea.” You mumbled to yourself before heading toward the truck.

Time had flown by since you laid on the creeper and rolled yourself up under the buggy with tools in hand.

“Ah, fuck.” You groaned as the bolt to the oil pan fell straight into the drip pan with oil spouting out over top of it. Rolling your eyes, you huffed and dropped your wrench and socket beside you before leaning over to look for the bolt.

“Little shit.” You hissed at the little metal knob for falling instead of staying in the socket. You leaned the opposite way, dropping into a random pan you had found to hold anything important and prevent them from rolling away.

Laying back on the creeper again with a huff, you looked at the engine oil staining your hand and like a light bulb switched, you were filled with a genius idea.

“Whoops.” You giggled to yourself as you wiped the oil on the front of your shirt and purposely made sure a smear or two landed on the tops of your breasts. “Wonder how that got there.”

Evil it was and evil you were. Maybe you had started this deadly war, you thought to yourself as you waited for the oil to drain, but Simon made his move and it would be wrong not to engage in such a fun game of chess.

You were impatient as time passed, closing up the oil pan as it finished draining. On the last turn to tighten it with all your might, you heard your favorite sound.

“She should be around here somewhere.” You heard a deep voice break the every day noise of the base.

It was your beckoned fucking call. You smiled, checking your cleavage to make sure it was ample in its beauty before looking to the sides of you to spot Simon’s signature walk.

To your left, you noticed him approaching from the direction Soap was in. Beside him you noticed another set of legs and you realized that it must have been Alejandro. Your smile turned from excited to devious in seconds. This was going to be fun.

You waited until the got closer, assuming Simon had seen you since he called out your name.

You pushed yourself off the suspension and slid out from under the buggy on the creeper. You held your hand out to shield your eyes from the sun and to catch a clean look at your Lieutenants face.

He held his hand out to you, offering help to get you up so you could properly greet. You smiled, meeting his eyes with a knowing smirk as he not so shamelessly eyed your chest. This time, he wasn’t subtle. His hand gripped yours tighter than ever and in that instant, you wondered what it would feel like grabbing at the inside of your thighs.

“Sergeant.” Simon sounded so annoyed. You were glad.

“Lieutenant Riley.” You were absolutely beaming.

“I’d like you to meet Colonel Alejandro Rojas.” He gritted his teeth, trying so hard to maintain an even tone.

You narrowed your eyes slightly in a playful way before turning your attention to the man beside him.

“Sergeant F/N L/N.” You smiled, extending your hand for a handshake. “Nice to meet you.”

“Pleasure is all mine.” He might have smiled a little to hard but you knew Simon caught it and that’s all you cared about.

“I’m excited to get a chance to work with you. Captain Price says you’re great with a Lachmann.” You ignored the tall angry man beside you, fully engaging with Alejandro.

“He speaks too highly of me.” Alejandro chuckled.

“I doubt that.” You waved off his comment. “You’ll have to show me sometime.”

Alejandro nodded, fully unaware of the part he played as pawn. Sure it was a cheap move but it was too easy. Too easy to dig the hypothetical knife just a little deeper into Simon’s side.

“Price wanted to go over some finer details with you before tonight’s big debrief.” Simon interrupted. “He’s in the large building over there, I’ll catch up with you.”

Alejandro nodded, bidding you one more small smile before walking off and leaving you with Ghost.

You crossed your arms, being sure to push your chest out just a little more as you turned to fully face him in a challenge as you looked up at your lieutenant.

“Playing dirty now, aren’t we?” His tone was shifting, dare you say to a more angry one.

“Was I?” You played innocent, almost batting your lashes at the man.

His eyes seemed to flash with excitement at the realization that you wanted to play. Not just submit to him because that would be too easy. You wanted to draw out this game with him as long as possible.

“You little minx.” He shook his head, crossing his arms to match your stance.

“Lieutenant Riley, I’m not sure that’s how you should speak to your peers.” You tilted your head to the side. “It wouldn’t be great for team morale.”

He looked at you, eyes darting between each of yours and then squaring with your chest.

“This is a dangerous game you’re playing at, Sergeant.” His voice was even now, smooth and coated in lust.

“Is it now?” You stepped closer to him, looking up through your eyelashes. “If I recall, you’re the one who started this little game of ours.” Your smirk was wicked and he loved it. “I thought about just giving into you because I’m sure you’d just love that… but giving up this soon would be a waste.”

“You look tough now.” His hands fell to his side, making a step to match yours and close the gap. His index finger found its way under your chin, tilting your face up toward him and making your lips part slightly. “I bet I can wipe that cocky smirk right off.”

“Is that so?” You were trying. So. Fucking. Hard. You almost felt like you were shaking with excitement.

“Give me one chance.” When had his face gotten so close? You could almost feel the puffs of air coming through his mask.

He was being blatant now and that earned him a sweet little gasp from your lips.

“I’ll take that as a yes.” His words were now close to your ear, breaking every rule in the book by playing this game with you out in the open. “My quarters tonight. 9 P.M.”

He stepped back, allowing you to breathe. You took an extra step at the snap back into reality.

“I didn’t take you as a beggar, Simon.” You smiled. “We’ll see about tonight.” You waved, turning on your heels in an unknown direction to put distance between you and Simon.

“Fucking hell.” He released a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding as he watched you walk away and out of sight.

[writing-whump]

I need Matthew's lighthearted teasing-grumpyness back. He seems so off recenty, poor guy. I don't know, maybe put him in the box with Hector and shake it a little, or something. Maybe some barking will help release some tension. 👀

(and i can't see the story progressing with Matt in current state, i know he is dealing with the situation as he can, but... We know what's coming 🥺)

A.

Well, people have been screaming at me bc of Matthew, so here you go. Your wish heard loud and clear :D

Hitting the limit

Matthew was exhausted.

He had been keeping up his routine the whole week as always. Except it was maxed up to two times its normal amount.

When he woke up, he took a protein shake and went for a run. After 10 kilometers he went to the gym and worked out. Ran the way back to their apartment gym and did the boxing routine with punching and jumping with the sail. Then weight lifting. Then another punching round. Then a session with his shadow.

When his legs turned to jelly and thoughts died down to bright lights and louds noises, he allowed himself to follow the scent to their apartment.

Isaiah found him on the couch and forced him to drink and eat. Then he passed out.

So went the days for the whole week Rip was almost healed up and the first week after the kids moved away.

To an apartment next door.

Matt understood he would have to get used to it. To the proximity, to the scents, to the shadows.

Heck, Dylan showed up not a day into them moving out and crashed on their couch for the whole day like it meant nothing.

Matthew was very very proud of himself for being so exhausted he couldn't hold a coherent conversation.

He hated himself for being so weak and a burden. For his shadow being hungry and curious about Dylan's presence. In a way the boy felt like a threat, his jealousy almost his own perfume. It irked the possessive part of Matthew's shadow.

Isaiah and Seline were his. And now there were those two kids, Rip and Dylan, drawing each of them away in different ways.

Away from Matthew.

It was stupid and childish and he was so emberassed he couldn't even formulate the thought out loud.

So he kept running. Running and running and running, so he wouldn't have to look any deeper why his shadow was a mess and why his core was shaking in fear he would be left behind, cause look, Seline had a family and Isaiah could connect with anyone and there was nothing special about Matt without them, nothing where he could go...

It wasn't hot, the weather switching between quick rains and puffy greyness. That was good, he didn't have to worry about heat exhaustion.

At some point he did get a bit of blackness over his eyes and his legs got a bit shaky. He would sit down in a second. That couldn't hurt, right?

Maybe he had decided that too late, cause his vision went from black to nothing.

"Oi. Oi. You dead?"

Someone's feet next to his ear. His ear? What?

Matthew blinked himself awake. He was lying in a ditch by the sidewalk that led to the economy university campus.

It was a rather calm side of the road, now that the holidays kept the complex of buildings empty.

"Oi. Go pass out on someone else's turf, you hear?"

The gruff and annoyed voice sounded familiar.

Matthew felt too tired to move, only lifting his gaze. And sure enough, Hector's spiky hair and bushy eyebrows came into view as the wolf leaned over him with an angry scowl.

"Hmmm?" He said intelligently.

"Are you gonna be lying there for a long time?"

"Maybe we should call an ambulance." Another voice. Girlish, one that Matthew didn't recognize.

"Nah, that's fine," Hector waved his hand dismissively. "He is fine, just being lazy. Matt, get up or you're gonna seriously piss me off."

"You don't need me for that," Matthew said in a scratchy voice. He had to cough to clear it, but his throat still felt dry and painful.

He dragged himself up into a sitting position on a second, nope, third time, blinking like a madman as the sun came into view and his surroundings got back their colour.

Hector was still standing there, looking terribly smug. Beside him was a girl, small in statute with a heart-shaped face, round puffy cheeks and short black hair. Her eyes were wide and smoky, looking at Matthew with worry.

She kept glancing at Hector as her reference point, so she was probably crazy.

Matthew let his shoulders slump. Where was he going? His digital watch was out of battery and he had no idea how much running he had left for the day.

When Hector opened his mouth to say something again, Matthew quickly interrupted: "What do you mean, 'your turf'?" This was the biggest university campus in Vienna, no way someone could just come and claim it as part of their pack's territory.

Hector shrugged. "You heard me."

Matthew shook his head, the notion amusing him, despite himself. He braced himself against his knees, trying to work up the energy to stand up. "You can't claim fucking Praterstern, man. It's a whole subway stop, school and lunapark, are you crazy?"

Hector huffed at him, insulted, before a hand suddenly appeared in front of Matthew's face.

Matthew stared at it a bit longer than he should have, almost spacing out again. Then he took it.

Hector got him upright in a smooth motion, without a single catch in his breath. "Am not. It was nobody's, so now it will be somebody's. Mine."

Matthew steadied himself, then lost his balance again.

Hector scoffed, grabbing him by the elbow. "Olive, Matthew. Matthew, Olive." He maneuvered him to the nearest bench. Ah. It was so close, he should have noticed.

A noise of paper hitting pavement caught his attention. The girl let go of the pile of notebooks in her hands, rumpaging frantically through her backpack.

"Here." Olive offered him water in a cute black and pink thermo bottle with shaking fingers, cheeks red with embarrassment. "What do you mean, 'claim turf'?" she said, turning to Hector.

Hector put his hands on his hips, glaring at Matthew like the question was his fault. "Why are you here, anyway? The buildings are closed during summer break."

The black-haired girl gave him a miffed look. "The Messe is right behind you, genius. There is a manga expo as we speak."

Matthew looked vaguely in that direction. Yes, there was the giant Messe building, where all big expositions took place. This was a very frequented district. It didn't belong to no-one because all kinds of wolves and humans passed through it.

Claiming it was inviting trouble.

It was kind of funny. Everyone was moving on with their lives, having hobbies and interests and people. Matthew couldn't deal with any of his problems, while Hector was actively looking for some.

How much more behind could he get?

Matthew took a swing of the water. It was nice and cool, soothing his throat.

"You can't expect me to know what manva means, Olive."

"Manga, it's manga!"

Hector laughed. "You mean the comics for children?"

"They are graphic novels, you jerk, and it's a highly artistic and deeply expressive medium!"

"Oh, another artistic cr- I mean, I see, it fits you very well."

Olive gave him a pouty look. "Anyway. Your friend doesn't look well."

Hector rolled his eyes. "That's not my friend. He is just a pain in the ass sec-I mean, friend of my brother. He is an annoying, good-for-nothing, muscle head with a scary look, nothing more."

Matthew leaned back against the bench, staring at the ground sullenly. That was typical Hector. Nothing surprising.

But it was one hit too much while he was feeling this sorry for himself. He couldn't muster up a retort, tears burning at hearing what he had been thinking the past weeks out loud.

An uncomfortable silence stretched between them. Matthew closed his eyes, all hunched over himself. Hopefully, they would both leave him alone soon.

"Olive, could you get him a coke from the vending machine over there?" Hector pushed his credit card into the chubby girl's hands. "Take one for yourself too. I'm buying. Sorry, I'm doing it wrong."

"No, that's fine," she shot a timid look towards Matthew. "I'll be right back." She hurried away.

The bench dipped under Hector's weight. "Hey. You are acting weird today."

"Nah, not really," Matthew said, sniffling a little. The water must have gotten into his nose. "Just amazed you are picking up problems left and right. Do you want some of mine?"

Hector's scowl deepened, looking positively scary. "Isaiah?"

Matthew shook his head. That was the only important thing, wasn't it? For Hector for sure.

"Do you want me to call him?" Hector's voice dipped a little, like he wanted to whisper but never tried before, so it came out as normal instead of a shout.

"No. Though you might-" Matthew took a shuddering breath, covering half of his face with his hand. "-you might wanna keep that girl away from me."

"Bad day, eh?" Hector said lazily, one leg coming up on the bench.

Matthew clenched his jaw. "If the voices could stop for a second..." He felt raw and exposed without his shadow, but when it was exhausted, at least it wasn't so loud, screaming at him to tear, to fight, to be angry.

"It'd be like that sometimes." Hector leaned back, hands coming behind his head.

Matthew lifted his head at the nonchalant voice, peeking through his fingers. He just told Hector his shadow was messed up and upset, that he could be dangerous to the girl the other wolf obviously wanted to keep out of the shadow stuff — and Hector didn't react at all. Instead of defending her, ushering her away, getting angry....

Was he that confident he could handle Matthew if something went wrong? Or did he believe in Matthew's exhaustion keeping the shadow at bay?

Matthew couldn't imagine Hector understanding, of coming anywhere close to a state like this one.

And yet the blond wasn't alarmed, choosing the most non-fighting position possible.

Something about the sheer calmness of the scene, the mundanity, the sun coming down on the horizon painting everything in orange, while Hector wasn't making a fuss, trying to solve this or control it...felt comforting.

Olive returned with three cokes, panting for breath from how much she was hurrying. She offered one bottle to Matthew. Hector snatched it and opened it for him, for some weird reason, only then handed it over.

It might have been the right move, because Matt's hands were shaking as he took a sip. The sugar exploded on his tongue wonderfully, though.

Hector clicked his bottle with Olive's, draining half of it in one go. Olive watched him in disbelief.

"What? You wanted to be drawing something? Your sunset is going out."

Olive exclaimed, throwing herself to the ground to grab the right notebook so suddenly Matthew jumped in his seat. "Where did I- ah yes, this one..." She took a thick notebook and colorful chalk, sketching the sunset right there, still on her knees.

"There is nothing weirder than drawing," Hector said thoughtfully. His hand came to rest on the backrest behind Matthew.

The red-haired wolf watched with narrowed eyes as the human fought to save the light from being swallowed by shadows, mind going blissfully blank.

[puckpocketed]

get ready for avs essays, babeyyyyyyy!!! 

so i’m actually completely fine with it if you don’t find nate compelling but since you bring him up, i will start with him. 

the thing about fortnite gamergirl nathan mackinnon is that he is like. very talented and reasonably conventionally attractive and also soooooooo cringefail. he’s the league mvp and a stanley cup champion and he has a gorgeous fiancée and he’s rich and he’s smashing through joe sakic’s franchise records left and right.... and he’s succchhhhhh a loser (affectionate). he’s uncomfortable all the time. he doesn’t know how to act. he’s pretty private but also he’ll just Say Things that are way too personal with the exact same tone he’d use to. i dunno. tell you what brand of sneakers he wears. he’ll also reveal things about the most private man in sports, squidney crocsby, that are way too personal—and sid apparently is fine with this because he continues to be boybestfriends and next door neighbors with the guy.

everyone thinks he is soooooo serious alllll the time (in spite of the fact that he is goofy and silly when he’s out with the boys) but it’s just a combination of a) his face just looks like that b) he’s just intense in general. he’s equally unchill about how much he fucking loves the boys and how much he loves his tiny dog. and c) mostly we see him when he is at his fucking job? and when he’s at work it’s All Business. don’t make him do dumb social media shit or ask him stupid questions about whether or not he thinks preseason is too long, he’s! busy! come back when it’s puppy day. 

he’s so focused on being working harder and being better and improving everything about his game and yet!!! he cannot win a faceoff 💖 he trains with squidney all summer! every year!! you would think he could learn something from the guy. but no, he doesn’t even seem to try to win faceoffs sometimes. he’s also. not ? defensively responsible? i do not exactly expect him to play like kopitar, here. i don’t even think he should waste all his energy backchecking; like, that’s not the thing we need him for. but idk from a guy who is sooooo fucking smart about hockey, a little more situational awareness would be nice. just a thought! like, if he wanted to be better at things, maybe he could get better at the things he’s terrible at? (but whatever, this gives me more of an excuse to push my ondřej pavel -> big boys’ club agenda). like. nate is an elite 1C—except that he doesn’t forecheck and doesn’t defend and one of his wingers (jonathan drouin) is actually the playmaker and the other winger (mikko rantanen) has to take all his faceoffs for him 🥰 

his one and only love language is trying to convince the boys to come play with him (jo, jack eichel, mitch marner, jo again). he doesn’t like late games, because he doesn’t nap. and he doesn’t nap because he can’t sleep during the day. and he can’t sleep during the day because he drinks too much water, so he has to piss too much. babygirl, why would you volunteer this information 💕 he tells people to call him “the dogg” and then they do. he says awkward sentences that rewire my brain. he should be cool, but he isn’t!!!!! he extremely fucking isn’t.

this is my natemac thesis, you can take it or leave it (said with love!!!!! there are other players i am significantly more invested in getting people on board with). i think many other people can speak more eloquently than i can about everything impressive he does on the ice. but he’s one of my special little guys bc of everything else

i have no idea what to do with all this <3 I'm here because he just bonked my ducks into oblivion - im hoping this cures his dogboy depression (it was becoming so wretched that it had started leaking into my curated feeds) - and it made me think of this ask which i've been marinating. hello!!

fortnite legend natemack is the exact age to have grown up in the heyday of COD xbox lobbies, do u ever think about that . i think about that now. do u think natedogg is his gamertag. rpf people are you writing gamergirl natemack AUs yet? has that happened yet? (sorry i don't. i don't have any clue what tropes are popular. im just throwing stuff at the wall <3)

nate is an elite 1C—except that he doesn’t forecheck and doesn’t defend and one of his wingers (jonathan drouin) is actually the playmaker and the other winger (mikko rantanen) has to take all his faceoffs for him 🥰

^craziest description of a 1C i've ever heard AND the most compelling he has ever been.

also thank u for not makin some kind of eating disorder joke amongst all this. it IS that serious (to ME) and people do this so much and i think they're not as funny as they think they are <3 (<- WHO SAID THAT!!!)

MYE two cents looking thru a writer/narrative lens: just, like, skimming whatever the hell comes up about him, he strikes me as someone who is very sincere. i get that everyone calls it "intensity" but i think sincerity has its own power. idk. i think he's very brave for wanting what he wants so transparently and wholly. <3 fortnite legend nathan mackinnon you are in my crosshairs......

[arxxq]

𝐒𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒

| in which the world has a specific thing in order to find their soulmate, there's the classic red string, can't see colour and so on...and you got 7 things you or your soulmate hate which allows your soulmate and you choose things you hate for the other to see |

Haitani Rindou X reader

Enemies to lovers?

(no smut I don't write those, my first time writing TR and I had to start with Rindou might be ooc bcs this is my first time. I should probably stick to blue lock, also some of these might not be things you hate or rindou hates but for the sake of the plot pls accept it...)

(this is supposed to be gender neutral but i ended writing it as female... Sorry)

"Yeah I'll take the (favourite drink) thank you-" you said to the waiter that is until you looked up to see (F/d) at the top of your head. And now your mood is ruined..

"on second thought nevermind I'll just take a (different drink).."

You were planning to have a peaceful day until you remembered that today was the day you get to see your soulmate's 7 hated things.

"jeez what's got you pissed now," your Friend asked. "the first thing my soulmate didn't like was my favourite drink....can you believe it?"

"okay but I'm sure he didn't know that right..." She says in a way to reassure you. Just as she said that another thing popped up above you. It was your h/c...

"You've got to be kidding me..." You said in annoyance. "okay okay calm down let's just get to school," you then walked to school with her.

A few hours later.

You were in class when another thing popped up above your head. E/c

Now you were very pissed. It was as if your soulmate is targeting you. Your friend noticed the same annoyance plastered on your face.

"Okay now I have a feeling I've been targeted!"

"I swear, is this another thing about you as well?"

"Yes yes it is...what next? My favourite colour?" And you jinxed it because then your favourite colour popped up as the 4th thing.

"Okay I'm not saying another thing because this is really pissing me off,"

•

It was the end of school. Your soulmate has finished his 7 list of things.

F/d, e/c, h/c, f/c, mean girls, bad temper, f/f

And now you are really pissed.

"what's gotten you pissed off?" You looked behind you to see the most insufferable person you knew. Haitani Rindou.

"Shut up, hearing your voice is just making me even more pissed,"

"Jeez princess.you really should stop being bitchy and maybe people would like you," he teased.

"oh please, people do like me. And what's wrong with your hair? Does it just get even uglier?"

"my hair is beautiful actually you're just a bitch who hates it,"

"okay whatever, at least dye your hair better? I mean blonde and blue are hideous,"

"oh at least I'm not a brat who has a bad temper," okay that was the last straw.

"Why you-!" You were about to slap him when your friend yelled at you. "(Name), cmon we gotta go,"

You stopped and calmed down for a bit.

And yes you left without saying anything which made his smile as if he won...which I guess you can say he did.

"I swear I already hate my soulmate..."

"It's okay...at least you can finally choose your seven things tomorrow!"

"yeah you're right...and i already know what to put in it,"

"For real, you weren't kidding when you said you really were prepared!" You smiled at her "I definitely did not,"

The next day...

You were forced to sit next to rindou when you heard a long ass complaint for his mouth. I mean he was whispering it but you wonder what got him so pissed.

"what's wrong with you," you asked rolling your eyes. "Well my fucking soulmate decided to piss me off today,"

"oh? What did she or he do?" You asked while letting out a chuckle. "okay I thought you were the only one who hates blondes but maybe I was wrong, she also hates gangs and guys with glasses...I swear I feel targeted,"

The moment he said that you froze. Those were 3 of the things you had chosen for your 7 things.

"You okay? You spaced out there," and when he said that you snapped out of your trance...

"yeah I'm fine it's just that my soulmate hates (h/c) and (f/d)..."

"oh? Well your soulmate has taste," he said a proud smirk. "Yeah and now that you say that...I'm starting to think my soulmate is you, jerk face," you glared at him.

He laughed and smirked at you with the same smirk you've always hated....or did you? "Oh princess I already knew that, I just chose those as my seven things to see if I was right and I was,"

Bonus:

"I also chose those as my seven things to piss you off which I think worked successfully," he said with a proud smile.

"yeah I hate you," you scoffed.

"you will learn to love me soon princess,"

Yeah I'm leaving it like that

-Arxx 14/10/23

[ablupen]

I Completed Lessons 1-10. Here's what happened, and the ending I got.

Alright! After about 15 hr 23 min total of F2P playing, I've completed all 10 lessons with all main stories/episodes watched. Granted, anything past lesson 4 isn't full S completed anymore, and I am very broke, but eh.

Anyways, here's some pictures of how it's going:

And now some more thoughts and summaries, including stuff I didn't say in my last post.

The boss levels are basically beating up the boys... Well, uh, if you're mad at one of the seven, go play their boss level, ig?

Solomon's cooking is so bad it caused Henry 1.0 to rapidly polymorph temporarily into random things

Henry 1.0 was originally huge. Levi befriended the snake when both of them were hiding from Satan

Henry 1.0 became regular snake sized bc Sol shrank him 😐 This means the shrink spell wore off, apparently.

The building that you and Sol share is called Cocytus Hall. I wonder where this building would be present day..? Did it get recycled?

Newly-demon brothers are being discriminated

Cerberus was obtained bc of a rumor that anyone who tames it becomes Ruler of the Underworld.

Mammon rallies everyone behind Luci's back to find and tame Cerberus

On the way there, we discover that we can still summon the brothers (We summon Beel to eat a magically growing pile of apples)

Apprehension attempt on Cerberus did not succeed. Luci saves everyone and tames Cerberus. Someone leaks these news and this is how the seven brothers become the seven rulers.

We become one of the three core founding members of RAD lmao

Somehow we get caught in a dream(?) with Levi in the TSL world. Levi does not know TSL at this point in time. Anyways, he summons Lotan at the end of it, who apparently actually appeared in real life, flooded the room, and then left.

Fuck i forgot when this happened so I'll just leave it here, but: Satan turned everyone except you and Lucifer into Chihuahuas. Including himself. Thankfully, the spell had a limit so it didn't last long

Angels enter the scene! For RAD consultation.

Apparently at some point the bottom of Asmo's bathtub becomes a portal.

Solomon is a fucking bastard and pushes everyone into the bathtub. You choose if you go in by your own will or if he also pushes you.

It leads to the Celestial Realm??? No lol jk, it's actually inside a very familiar looking labyrinth and y'all are being chased by a giant spider, fuck.

Solomon remakes pact with Asmo to distract spider.

Solomon then summons Barbatos

Unfortunately at some point he pissed Barbs off so he's ticked off by this summon. Barbs teleports the spider away and Sol uses his pact to force him to make a portal back home, but Barbs gets mad and later TELEPORTS HIM TO A DRAGON'S DEN LMAO

dw he's alright! He returns next lesson with a dragon egg.

Bad news! Diavolo and Barbatos realize you're human and not a demon after... What/when is this? 6-7 lessons? Yeah. Anyways, Dia tells you that you should pack up bc he's sending you back to the human world. You're another distraction, so to eliminate some stress, you're being deported, sorry. This is not a good thing.

Mammon and crew - except Luci obviously take on a ghost hunting job at the tome place idk I forgot the spelling

Mammon gets fucking possessed by a human ghost named Adam after you read his name off of a tomestone bc it was written in a human language.

Adam says that a demon killed him with consent many years ago bc Adam was trying to look for his lover but their dead

In case it wasn't obvious, that you.

Also, the demon knew you'd have the Ring of Light on you still. Anyways, Adam tells you that the demon's name/alias was Nightbringer. Guys, it's a fucking name drop!!!

You manage to open the gates for Adam by slurping up some of the brothers' powers and by the powers of the ring

Next day, you get a letter telling you to meet Dia concerning your expulsion, which Sol comes with you to try and change Dia's mind.

Suddenly, Belphegor basically kicks open the doors to demand that Beel be released. Apparently, he's been jailed. Shit, isn't that a parallel or what, huh?

Apparently, he suddenly got out of control and rampaged. Dia manages to pin him down and get him into a cell with sheer strength alone, but later escapes in the next lesson after you confront Luci and Belphegor who had a spat.

You, Luci, and Belphie get blamed for causing all of this 🥴 Especially by Barbs. Anyways, using your magic siphoning ability from your future pacts and the Ring of Light, you knock Beel out. Lesson 10 ends with you revealing that you're human and Dia and everyone wondering who tf you are to have this kind of power.

That was a lie. The very last scene was actually Satan and Simeon watching a cat that you introduced to Satan before you left with Luci and Belphie and discover the rampaging Beel. "Do you think MC will come back before the cat wakes up?" "I hope so."

Context for the quotes on the Nightbringer site:

Lucifer; "My pride hurt my brothers": I actually don't remember this one. I don't even know if my choices led up to this one. Will maybe revisit everything tomorrow or sum

Mammon; "We chose to follow Lucifer here. We all had reasons for doin' what we did.": This is from when Mammon is trying to convince the other brothers to join him in his search for Cerberus. He's tired of being discriminated, and doesn't regret his choice.

Leviathan; "I never wanted to come to this awful place, to begin with!": When Diavolo meets with the brothers concerning plans for RAD and about possibly making an announcement to show the brothers'presence, Levi is against this. He doesn't want the attention.

Satan; "I can barely stand being around them. It's torture.": Obviously, "them" are his "brothers". I can assume when he says this, but I think I can guess when it is. It was probably after he stormed off once the others discuss what the Celestial Realm was like. He's never seen that place, and he can't relate to the other brothers.

Asmodeus; "I want to return to the Celestial Realm...! I want to be an angel again! The way I used to be... White wings and all!": This is during the weird portal in the bathtub scene. He had tried to move on from the fall, but Simeon's appearance reminds him of what he lost again. He's scared of the fact that he's getting used to his demon self and that he's forgetting what it was like to be an angel.

Beelzebub; "I have a big secret that I've never been able to tell... Not even to Belphie.": I've actually never encountered this one bc I didn't get close to Beel. Has anyone seen this one?

Belphegor; "Who deserves to be punished the most?": After Lucifer temporarily admits defeat and doesn't stand up to Diavolo to let Beel go, Belphegor gets angry. He's scared that he'll lose another sibling. After telling you about Lilith and how stubborn she was, he admits that he doesn't know who to blame: Lilith for breaking the rules, the angels for directly killing her (or was this second one the other brothers for not doing more? I forgot damn), or himself for not protecting Lilith.

Anyways, that's all I can think of rn. Do note though that in Nightbringer, choices apparently actually matter so you may have gotten different results!

[aleksa-sims]

RL Simself Story ⛈️

We had just arrived at Damien’s Mom's house. The thunderstorm continued, so Nico and I had to spend the night there. As I wanted to call my Mom, to tell her not to worry, Ana also called me, to tell me Daniel was back home. I was confused!?... I couldn’t believe it and I was annoyed by some things Ana did. Why was she at our place to talk to D.? Why is Ana meddling in my affairs? I mean, I get it! She was worried about him, she loved Daniel, just like my whole family did. But why did she have to mention that.... Lexi- shit? And why does she always think Alex is responsible for D.'s & my probs? Anyway, it pissed me off. And Nico was sitting right next to me while I was on the phone with Ana & my Mom. So he knew it too now, that D. was back. 😞

Me (to N.): I’m so sorry.... But trust me, it doesn’t change anything. I promise.... Uhm... I'll step out for a sec. I-...I have to call Ana back.

Nico: It's raining buckets!! Where you going? It's crazy out there.

Me: I-.... I just have to get out. Don't worry N., it's-... it's all fine. ok?

Nico: I'm going with you. 😟

Me: No! Please, don't. I just need to be by myself for a while. 😞

I'm so stupid!!! No one was out in the fucking weather, expect me, fool!... I had some questions for Ana. She said Daniel seemed high to her. I wanted to know why? Why did she think that? Well, Ana meant D. smoked, when she saw him. Actually, she was right. Daniel only smoked when he was high, or when we tried to get off that damn durg. I was worried about him, but at the same time, also mad. By now I knew, that Daniel saw Irena, just before he left 4 months ago. He was in her apartment. I didn’t know why he was there, at Irenas and his former place? Irena didn't want to tell me more.

Ana: Where are you anyway? Are you out there alone?

Me: Ah... yea, I'm alone.... Agh, Ana? Um... shit. The reception here's poor. Wait, I’m going in a different direction. Maybe it's better there?.... I think I’m gonna call Daniel.

Ana: You should go back to the house, to N. Just text Daniel. Tell him you'll be back home soon. But you don't have to call him, now A.!

Me: I’m afraid to tell him, Ana... And I feel so shitty about N., too. I'm so horrible. 😞

Ana: Yea. I get you. But Nico knew what he was getting into.

Me: Still, he also has feelings. N. is not an ass, as you all think. And I love him.

Me: Ana?.... Hello?... Ana!... Ugh, shit. 😨

Perfect timing. My phone died. 🤦‍♀️I was so absorbed in talking to my sister, that I got lost! I had no reception near Damien’s house, so I went in a completely different direction, but now, I did not know where I was? I decided to go back the way I went. Couldn't be so difficult, I thought....🧐

I was wrong! I got a.... little mental breakdown?... I wandered blind through an unknown area. Because of the heavy rain I could hardly open my eyes. I started to panic. I couldn’t use my phone to call N. He’ll think I left him, to rush home to Daniel. I was so worried about that. Nico told me himslef, just a few days ago, that he doesn’t trust me anymore. He's gonna hate me! 😨 And my Baby won’t have a Dad or a family bcs of me. 😭... I tried not to think about it, but about the tips my therapist taught me, to better deal with my panic attacks. And yea, I calmed down. I looked around again. I tried to concentrate to keep my eyes open. I saw two houses in the street where I was. I made my way towards the houses, to ask someone for help. But then I changed my mind. Somehow I didn’t feel good about ringing at strangers. I was afraid a psycho could lure me into his house. 😬 Yup, that's from watching so many horror movies, Ik!

Besides, I noticed that the road I was on, was a sign pointing to a bar and some shops, that should be just around the corner. I decided to try this first, before... well, I get killed by a sicko. Believe me, I have often run into some sick guys in my life. That’s why I was so insecure.

Meanwhile the others were starting to worry about me. Nico couldn’t find me outside and my phone was off too. He asked Damien to help him look for me. Oh, and the electricity was cut.  Allegedly, an important power pole was damaged by lightning. 🤷‍♀️

As you can see, I did not end up in a bar, but went to a shop that was open. I was so relieved when I saw other people there. They were surprised by the thunderstorm. Now they’ve been stuck in that small twon for two hours. They couldn’t get home. The streets were closed due to flooding and some other probs. Anyway, I was looking for the shop assistant to ask if I could use their phone. I just wanted to call N. to tell him where I was. Finally I found a young woman standing behind the counter, admiring herself in the mirror and taking selfies. I think she was about to go home? She grabbed her bag and hung it over her shoulder....

Me: Hi!... Um, excuse me?... Sorry, I don’t want to disturb you. Um, may I short use the phone here somewhere? I’m not from this area, just visiting, but I got lost. I just want to call my boyfriend so he doesn’t worry about me.

Girl: Oh, hi!... Sorry, but we are having technical probs with our phone connection atm. But, you know what? You can use my phone for a second. I hope it works. I just got off the phone with my brother and my mom. Let's try.

Me: Omg, I know you! (😡) Is your brother Damien?

Yes, I met Diana. Damien's Twin Sister. Let’s see if she remembers me? 😒... Oh, and btw, I didn’t really get lost. I just have a terrible sense of direction! Damien’s house was only 2 blocks away!!! So I went in the right direction, but.... somehow I didn’t recognize the surroundings. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

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[kiankiwi]

ok but imagine if after a long day E won't slip and it's clearly noticeable that he NEEDS TO bc he's clumsy, kinda stutters, is whiny and cranky, and refuses everything but for some reason he just doesn't want to regress - because he doesn't want to bother us- until he's at a small party with us and the memphis guys and we're like "ok guys e is fighting his regression so we need to be careful" and at the party e is just sitting beside us and what makes him regress is a loud firework that causes baby to slip and he ends up crying and we just go to change him into some comfy clothes to try and calm him down.

and when we come from the room everyone just looks at e and they're like "hi baby!" and baby has a bottle in his hands and we're like "e wants one of you guys to feed him" and the boys just start to fight for who gets to give e his bottle and baby's just giggling while clinging to us. if jerry wins baby won't doubt in starting to get rough with him and just play with his shirt

I love this and I am SO SORRY it took so long to answer it!

"Hey baby, what do you wanna do for dinner?" You asked, looking through the cupboards, wanting to make dinner before the guys came over to hang out.

"I don't care." He grumbled. "You don't? Baby, come on, you always give me options at least! How about lasagna?" Elvis just grumbled at you. "Pasta?" "Nooooo!" Elvis said, a hint of a whine at the end of the word. "Elvis... you gotta eat something baby..." You said as you glanced at him, suspecting he was teetering into headspace.

"I don't want to!" He yelled, slamming his fist on the table. "I'm a grown ass man and I can refuse to eat if I don't want to."

You sighed, pinching the bridge of your nose in frustration. After taking a few breaths, you turned and came to the table, facing Elvis as you spoke. "Elvis, how old are you right now?" Elvis growled and rubbed his hand down his face. "I'm fine, YN! I just don't want to eat right now and you can't make me!" 'Make me' that was another little flag for you.

"okay baby that's fine. You can just grab a snack from the ones I'm making for the guys then." Elvis once again shrugged and walked for the living room but tripped over his feet and bumped into the entryway to the kitchen.

Embarrassed a bit, he glanced back to see if you saw his mishap. You were looking right at him, shit! "You okay baby?" You asked. Elvis looked a little shocked and scared for a split second but went right back to looking pissed. "Ugh! I'm fine!" He yelled as he walked away.

Thirty minutes later, the guys started arriving as Elvis was stewing in his grumpiness in the living room. "Hey E, how you doing?" Jerry asked, "Uh, I-I-I'm o-okay J-Jer." Jerry eyed Elvis for a second, concerned that his stutter was back but left it alone and went to greet you.

"Hi, YN... i-is El okay?" You shook your head. "To be honest, I think he's fighting his regression right now. He's grumpy, his stutter is more prominent, he's clumsy, he's saying no to everything. I mean we can't force him to slip but I mean, it's obvious he needs to!" You pointed out. "Hmmmm," Jerry hummed. "Yeah, I think for right now we just leave him alone and wait and see." Jerry nodded. "You're his mama so I listen to you." Jerry said, smiling.

As the rest of the guys showed up, you silently sat next to Elvis, letting him go through his feelings as you sat around and socialized. Suddenly a car backfired outside, making a loud bang noise, spooking Elvis straight down into headspace.

He startled and suddenly he felt all fuzzy. Too fuzzy to ignore this time. He was plummeting straight into headspace. And there was no stopping it this time. Suddenly his lip quivered and he could feel the tears building up behind his eyes. Reflexively, Elvis hid in your lap where he felt safest. "Mama!" He sobbed. You rubbed his back and smiled at Jerry who caught your eye across the room Got him you thought.

"It's alright baby, that was a loud scary noise huh? It's okay honey should we go get you in some jammies? Hmm? Does that sound good?" Elvis nodded as he cuddled into your stomach as he laid against your lap. "Okay baby."

As the rest of the guys talked amongst themselves, you picked up Elvis and brought him upstairs into his nursery. "Alright babes, should we do the strawberry jammies or the cloud ones?" You asked as you gave him options. Elvis sucked on his finger as he decided and finally pointed. You gasped excitedly. "Such a good choice lovey!"

You quickly dressed Elvis and brought him back down to the kitchen to finally make him a dinner bottle.

Bottle in hand you brought Elvis back into the room and his face absolutely lit up when he noticed that you had all the guys over. And he squealed in delight once his eyes landed on his best friend, Jerry. You gasped excitedly, bouncing him on his hip as the other guys laughed at E's reaction to Jerry. "Who is that, baby? Is that your friend? You know who that is!" As soon as you got close enough, Elvis leaned out of your arms and over to Jerry who swiftly took him into his lap and took the bottle, giving it to a very hungry E.

Elvis started chugging the bottle, gobbling it down swiftly. "Ooooh yeah buddy, is that good?" Joe asked as he smiled at the little one and patted his friend's knee. Elvis just continued to eat, looking around the room at all his friends.

"Ope, you're making a mess baby." Jerry chuckled as he put the almost finished bottle on the table and wiped up Elvis' messy face of the milk dribbles. Elvis, ever the impatient baby reached his hand out for the almost empty bottle and squeaked, displeased that the bottle was taken from him before he was done with it. How dare Jerry do that. "Okay, okay you little milk monster! I just needed to clean your face! Here you go, you only got a little left."

Five minutes later, the milk was gone and Jerry was gently patting his friends back. Embarrassed to burp in front of his friend and not wanting to see gross, Elvis whined and hid in his best friends chest. "It's okay buddy, everyone does it okay, you're okay keep going buddy." Jerry kept patting him and slowly but surely got a tiny burp out of him.

"Good boy baby! Good job!" Elvis sighed happily and snuggled into his friend, sleepy and full.

"Oh yeah, your belly's full and now you're gonna take a nice long nap huh?" Jerry smiled as he rubbed Elvis's back as Elvis snuggled into his shoulder.

Coming back into the room, you smiled when you saw Jerry had gotten E to sleep. "Thank god, he needs a nap." You said as you sat down finally able to relax for a bit.

***

Again, I'm so sorry this took so long!

This was one of my favorites to write because I love to write fics involving the guys taking care of E I hope you like it!

Happy reading!

@elvisthesillygoose @mooodyblue @arianatheangel-girl @bellanotchewrites

[intheholler]

I’m so sorry I’m so late

Tw for church and sa and some god hate

My parents are divorced and that’s important for this. One day, on summer holidays, (I think I was twelve, maybe thirteen, I don’t know, my brain is wants me to forgot) I was spending holiday’s at my father house. I borrowed my mum’s phone for the holiday because she didn’t use it anymore and had cool games there.

But one day somone called the phone. And I picked up. It was old man, like my parents, maybe a bit older. He said that he’s friend with my parents and if I’m the little Ellie that he used to carry. I’m saying that I’m sorry that I don’t know him. My father overheard and took the phone and started talking with him. Yes, he was really my parents friend and I was the little Ellie he used to carry when I was a newborn.

And yes, he thought he was gonna call my mother because for some twisted reason he remembered that she existed. Long story short, at the end of the summer my mum and him were dating.

He had two daughters, first a year older and the second seven years younger than me.

And that’s when things went downhill. We stared living with them in the blink of an eye in my brain but I’m pretty sure that it took some time.

He was a religious man. We knew about that. But we didn’t know how he used to beat and manipulate his ex wifes ‘in the name of god’

Soon I was brought to church because as he said, I was uncontrollable and a brat. And he already manipulated my mum so it was very easy for him to do so. He genuinely believed that if he asks a god for forgiveness that god will forgive him. He was praying every night like ‘Father look at this wild child, so rebellious, she never listens to anyone and forgive for saying this, but she’s a brat, please give me the strength to handle her.’

I mean he’s right, I’m a little fight starter and I like to piss people off and I’m autistic so god doesn’t make sense to me and I was thirteen so I was literally like a Young Sheldon and his fact checking. I was questing the Bible just to make them mad and also bcs those things they were saying were in contrary with the Bible to me.

So I was called a Satan child for questioning the Bible, I was walking the wrong path and I was eaten by the darkness.

Once his youngest daughter accidentally misspelled some world and she ended saying that she has a girlfriend instead of boyfriend. They laughed it off but said to not ever be gay. So I said ‘What’s wrong with it?’. It was followed by screaming, even my mum’s, and he screamed the Bible out for me. Dragged me to church the next day and I had to listen to made up stories about how homosexuality is a sin and that I’m old enough to understand it. Then they all prayed for me so I would find my way back to light and god.

Maybe that’s the reason why he told me that I need his hands on my body, to cleanse me from sins and darkness. (I hope y’all know what this means) No, he never used a god to be a bad guy, he’s fucking crazy, has a god complex and does believe that he has some sort of power. I remember how he threw the Tv out of the window because it was the devil’s work.

Or maybe that’s something I want to believe.

It ended up with them breaking up because he said I’m way too much eaten by devil that prayers can’t save me. He used my mum, manipulated her, took her money and brain away and then left us on a street.

I’m wondering if he realises what he did. If he really uses a god to apologize his sins manipulative behavior and if he’s like all aware of it or if he really has a god complex and some psychosis and doesn’t realise any of it.

But he says that he’s a good person because he’s only following God’s words.

Anyway; since that I found the whole Christianity stupid. Because why this kid at church, maybe 4, cried to us that if he’s gonna pray maybe god will forgive him his sins? He’s a kid! Four years old! What kind of sins a kid can have?! And what kind of kind and lovely god is this shit man if he’s letting some assholes like them doing this a kid and make kids believe that they’re bad humans?

I still don’t understand what kind of gaslighting abusive faith is this but maybe im way too autistic to understand it.

Please don’t try to explain the god to me or tell me how Christianity is good, anyone who feels like they need to explain it to me, I don’t give a shit anymore and I hope y’all understand why. Also im very much stubborn and once I make my opinion you can’t change it.

Also once we left I outed myself to my mum, she almost dragged me back to church, she didn’t, but that didn’t stop her from telling me how sinful I am for MONTHS like mf never got tired of running her mouth

The religious lesbian

(anon: i'm so glad you popped back up. i just saw your question, and i wanted to assure you it was absolutely nothing you did wrong. i hope i didn't lead you to think that.

i overthink everything and it was incredibly personal, so i wasn't terribly sure if you wanted it posted publicly or not, as my invitation to share your story came with the assurance that it could remain private if you wanted.

i still have it sitting in my asks actually because i didn't know how to reach you to double check for your permission to share it!)

thank you for sharing such an intimate and difficult part of yourself. presenting without comment as not to overshadow your story <3 but i do want to say, at the very least, you deserve so much more than you got.

[aitian]

Wed 8/1/24 1:32 am

meant to write last week but i have been procrastinating. its making me feel rly bad. i have some stuff i need to send to professors weeks ago & its feeling rly burdensome.

anyway.

fucked a dude two weeks ago. he had a big dick & it was cute to feel the wet spot he made on his underwear from kissing me. thinking recently that im so greedy for intimacy.. not just from someone im fucking but from everyone who interacts with me. even with acquaintances, i want to understand each other deeply & care for one another. it's stupid. makes me feel dumb & strange. other ppl r just existing according to environmental circumstances, but im always rejecting that & digging out intense ways to give & receive.

i flew back from visiting emmy in nj on sunday evening, 7/14. got to the airport 2 hrs early & got so nervous waiting & waiting. the boarding time kept getting pushed back every half hour. i got anxious bc it meant that i would miss the last bus from denver to boulder. ended up arguing w united staff & getting on the standby list for another flight. i was 6th & after boarding all the passnegers, they called 5 ppl to go board the plane. pissed. then they came out & called whoever was next, & i knew it was me but this older couple indidted that they were next. the lady was behind me when i went to the counter & she knew it too, she argued that we were there at the same time (bullshit.). there was only one seat left anyway.. her husband wanted to get on without her, and she stopped him, insisting that they get on the same flight. anyway i board, & they can't figure out which is the last empty seat. after holding me by the door for 10 mins, they tell me 10B (nice, close to the front). when i get on i see the most annoying & rude guy from my flight sitting into the seat, & a flight attendant yelling that seat 36E is open. i knew he was seated in 36E but was taking my seat instead. whatever. i walk to the back of the plane & sit down.

when i sit down, i call mom & tell her i finally got on a plane, & complain abt the seat i got in the back of the plane next to the toilet & someone who smells bad. the annoying gate staff come back to find me after 10 more mins & ask why im not in 10B, i say someone else was sitting there & they leave. finally, we take off.

a chinese dude is next to me in the window seat, & he starts chatting me up. says he's going to boulder for work, & he also had a terrible day of delayed flights that ended up moving him to this flight. rly weird fate to end up sitting together. he works in biotech & lives in boston. i ask how he's getting to boulder, & he says he has a rental car. he seems like an honest dude, so i go ahead & ask him for a ride.

we end up talking for the whole flight. we talk abt school & work.. he grew up in queens, studied chemistry for his phd & works in pharmaceuticals. i tell him abt my work, abt lion dancing, & mention my partner. he tells me he's bi, & his gf is too. & that im cute, by the way. tells me that he has an open relationship, & wants to fool around if im free this week. i tell him i'll think about it. i ask him a lot of stuff abt his relationship bc im curious how these two queer chinese immigrant millenials operate. sounds like his gf is just open-minded & likes femme dudes, & he enjoys dl hookups. i think he's kinda cute in the low glow on the plane. i like that he's nerdy & extroverted, & very direct about his thoughts & feelings. our arms r touching for the whole flight bc the armrest was up, & the guy in the aisle seat is huge. it's a bit sweaty & disorienting, but in the low light we r both loosened up to chat.

on the drive back, i ask him abt the logistics. he says he's clean, & he wants me to suck him off. i can tell he's excited to hook up.. he asks me if i want to go to his hotel with him, we don't have to do anything sexual. i refuse bc it's almost 2am & i have work in the morning. i tell him i wont do anything until after i talk with emmy.

i walk to his place the next evening. there's a park between my apartment building & the residence inn. the park is so close but i hadn't walked in that direction before. the sun was setting, & i felt a bit displeased that i was walking 20 mins instead getting picked up via a 2 minute drive. it's just what happens for hookups i guess, especially with repressed, closeted dudes. he didn't want his colleagues noticing.

when i got there, he immediately starts kissing me, & pulls me toward the bed. the sex was okay. i liked how he smelled & felt, but there wasn't anything romantic about it. i also liked that he was rly big & leaked a lot of precum.

afterward, we start chatting a bit & he starts scrolling on ig. a lot of stupif american political propaganda.. biden this, trump that. i ask him to lay with me. i turn into a baby koala. its nice to lay on his chest & feel him all over. sigh.. neither him nor emmy r good at holding me close. he starts to fall asleep, & says i should just sleep over. i tell him he needs to send me home.. i'll sleep over tomorrow.

the next day, i walk over (it's a pleasant walk this time) & we spend the night chatting. he's rly nosy & asks me to show him pictures of everyone in my life. i don't want to though. i think he was a bit nervous to make conversation. i make him answer all his prying questions too. we exchange instagrams, & he confesses that he's actually married. i also tell him honestly that it was fun to hook up, but i like chatting as friends more.

one interesting story he told me was abt the first time he had an orgasm. he said his family was rly poor when he was little & they wouldn't bathe much. he went to a city once & stayed at a place with a good shower, & the pressure running down the front of his dick felt so good. he learned by replicating that sensation. i told him that i touch myself differently than guys do, by pressing down at the base. we didn't do anything sexual, just a bit of squishing, & sometime after midnight we went to bed.

i woke up an hour or two later & started touching him. he woke up too & started rubbing my taint like a pussy. his big hands felt really good, & i thought i was going to cum a few times but i didn't. he came pretty quickly, so i asked him to stroke me instead so i could finish too.

the next morning i left after a hug & a kiss. he sent me a message later in the day telling me that im sweet, and he hopes we'll meet again.

i think im too vulnerable & giving. he is a nice and honest guy, and even he had completely self-serving actions. i don't think i want to change how i behave. i should protect myself, but it's futile to try controlling what happens in life. i think we did genuinely touch each other's hearts, & had the bravery to go for it because of strange circumstances.

today too, im craving intimacy, connection, & discovery. part of me feels ambivalent toward becoming a bottomless pit for pleasurable experiences, and the other part wants to insist that life is simply the sum of my experiences. i should make myself open to positive experiences like intimacy, connection, & discovery. this time things fell right into my lap.. maybe i shouldn't be scared to broaden my reach. undecided..

[otgwbgyu]

ig i should start doing full entries again esp bc school’s starting and ill probably being feeling way worse

in chicago like THE big city today. and for the next couple of days. trying to enjoy vacation but summer reading haunts me everywhere i go. it’s so unfair that we have to do school work during the summer. like i’m not gonna become illiterate over the summer…. chill…. but it’s just something i can’t shake and will always worry abt. like during the game i started listening to the audiobook bc i got so anxious over it 💀 ik it’s kinda on me for not reading earlier but like…. the books r mid NOBODY actually wants to read a how-to on reading 😕😕 i do get random bursts of motivation tho when i fantasize abt being a productive, straight-a honors student with a national merit scholarship like my dad, and i also kinda get competitive with my friends. bad for r relationship but good for my grades and sanity for sure

i kinda snapped yesterday too lmao. like i joined call w sarah and she was being so uninterested and unresponsive while begging others to join call and the minute ava joins she’s all happy and conversing. like damn ok?? u can be closer w others but presenting it like that hurts lmfaoo. after 5 min I left bc i just wasn’t having it tbh. it rlly stung and pissed me off

o yeah i finally finished catcher in the rye OMGG… i honestly dunno how to feel about that book. like i get holden but at the same time i dont?? i can be angsty like him but he’s like my angst on steroids. that guy cant find any enjoyment anywhere he goes and it pisses me off. i may seem grouchy and miserable on here but im more friendly irl. remember this is primarily a VENT acc where all my dark thoughts go, the main ones aka the happy ones stay in my head or get shared with others. and hes so pessimistic, not like MY type of pessimistic where i think everything’s gonna fail or go wrong, pessimistic as in everything sucks and theres nothing to enjoy in life. like omg aren’t u just a bundle of sunshine!

i feel bad bc he is just a kid and has trauma, but that doesn’t give him the right to make others miserable. like humanity sucks yeah but u gotta learn to deal w it man. ur not gonna like everyone and not everyone’s gonna like u, it’s just something u gotta live through bc at the end of the day there’s a good bunch of ppl who do care abt u, and that love, even divided, should matter more to u than the hate others feel towards u. bc why r u concerned abt strangers’ hatred and not your own family and friends’ love? but he’s a teen whose mind is clouded by depression and angst, so i can’t be too harsh. and even i catch myself acting like him so it’d be kinda hypocritical. still think he was an asshole sometimes tho, nothing’s changing that

biden dropped out the race in the middle of a baseball game (minor league) mom and i BOLTED and did r research. the democrats r in flamesss 😓😓 republicans next 🤞🤞 glad biden is out, hated his ass, kamala surely will redeem us 🙏🙏🙏 she’s no saint ofc, she’s a politician, but compared to trump she’s jesus the messiah himself. i’d vote her if i could 🥥🥥🥥

[midnightbedroom]

left out

hmm...

i knew i had a feeling about this haha but its okay i kinda did to myself.

do you guys know that feeling when you kinda invited yourself to an event? or something where you thought you were invited and then you just showed up to everyone's surprise when you showed up?

yeah its one of those time but i really thought that it was over that thought.

i feel like that this trip was kinda a waste of time for me.

recap:

wayyy before the trip, i was invited by two people, my boyfriend and his friend. a couple weeks before the trip, i was told i wasn't invited or they just didn't want me there in the first place because it's a "boys' trip" or whatever that means. i was just left confused and pissed at the fact that these "friends" of my boyfriend don't even respect me as a girlfriend WHICH REALLY PISSES ME OFF SOOO BAD. like, how bad is it to show common decency and respect to your friend's significant other????????

anyways, when the trip came, everyone was goodie goodie. they said their formalities and started the trip as planned. one night in, they bought a card game, "truth or drink." obv we know how that ended. but not in the obvious way you think.

firstly, they excluded me from their conversations starting the time we got to the hotel after we bought the card games. afterwards, they ask me to get room service for the cups AND told me to tip the housekeeping. to top that off, when they started the game, they told me to put headphones on and sit in the corner of the room so they can talk to themselves. never in my life have i been ostracized that badly. i feel so fucking disrespected and awful to be put in that situation.

after the whole card game, they acted like it was nothing. they acted normal and one of his friends asked me if i wanted to go on a hunt to find one of their friends who had gone roaming around the resort. that friend has been the most genuine person i have talked to since i arrived on the island. i started to get ready to leave, but this one friend, lets call him M, said in the most disgusting and disrespectful way ever "what, you're actually coming?" i will be talking about M for the most part, just saying. M pisses me the fuck off and honestly ruined the entire trip for me. but anyways, I said "oh am i going?" then the genuine friend said "yeah you are, come on lets go" so we left feeling some sort of invitation at least from one of them. honestly, i think it was out of sympathy because he knew i felt deserted and left out. the worst part about it, my boyfriend didn't even make me feel better after the whole game.

moving on, we left for the beach because that's where the other friend roamed away. he was talking to his ex bc he was drunk obv. lol. left the guys to swim around in the beach and walked to the edge of the park to just breathe and be free from them since i highk needed it. sang smule ykno the vibes. then the boys eventually found me. they thought security was gonna kick us out but they were just talking to our friends.

thats night 2.

night 3 is when it gets interesting.

we got back to the hotel from the beach, and my boyfriend was in the bathroom doing his business. the other boys booked 3 cars to drive around the island without letting bf know. and ofc, we checked out the next day from the resort, bf got mad because they were making plans without him. and me being me, had an "i told you so" face the entire time. he was mad ofc, but i can't blame him bc i would be too. this mans proceed to book his own car so we can drive around as well.

moving on, we got settled in our second hotel. and ofc, the boys were like "let's go to a bar!!" so we went. they told me to make friends. but HOLD UP, not just "friends" but the "skinny asian friends" the ones that they can hang out and can "do." how fucking disgusting is that. ofc i made friends, but not the ones they would like. i really thought that they don't have standards bc they're 30 or almost 30 and just wants "girls" but ofc they got standards because they don't like F a g s. aksjfdhakjdfhakjfh I CANT BELIEVE THEY EVEN SAID THAT ABOUT THEM. the most genuine and nicest people i have met for a night that truly brought up my mood just called them "fat asian girls" when in fact they were polynesian!!!!!!! like dude, how fucking DISGUSTING ARE YOU!!! GUESS WHO HAD THE AUDACITY TO CALL THEM THAT?? YOU GUESSED IT. M. the guy who doesn't even look like a 5. who in the world are you to call nice and PRETTY girls that way? you are a disgusting pig idc if you're my bf's friend.

as the night ended, we ended up getting dennys with one of the friends and my bf. got home and knocked out.

that's night 3.

night 4 oooooooooo

i woke up the next day and saw no one was in the room. they all left to return their cars.

stuck in the hotel with no key card and no guarantee when they'll be back. so i sulked, got pissed, AND WAS HANGRY. what the fuck????? leaving me in the corner of the room to drink and to not listen is wayyy better than leaving me in a room with no FOOD and having no hotel key to come back and take out food.

thats so fucking foul. disrespectful. disgusting.

eventually, they made it back to the hotel. with food.

ofc i was mad. lol. why would i be?

his friends were teasing me and asking me if I'm mad. tf i am. M starts berating me saying i made friends with the wrong girls. calling them the f a. g s. disgusting. kept that on the entire day i swear.

day goes by and we went shopping around the area, got gucci water, got LV perfume, and a kith hoodie.

getting ready for the club, bf stayed to get ready while the friends went out to get micky d's before the club to get carbed up. they come back with chicken nuggets for myself and bf, then guess what?? they got 2 fat meals for themselves to share... when they could've gotten 3 rice meals for us too?? where is the thought?? where is the sensitivity?? what kind of friends are they???

bf sensed my pissy mood and obv he caught on too. shared his thoughts on how unfair it was and ranted on how he's gonna get food too before the club. he even reFUSED to take a bite of whatever they're having bc apparently we're not worth the meal.

eventually, it was time to leave for the club.

we shared an uber and left. met up with two of their friends there.

then this is when the night gets interesting.

6 shots in and we got everyone dancing. this is also when a random girl starts dancing on the pole next to us. ofc the girl caught my bf's attention first. he said he's doing it for his friends and I'm like ok. so the girl brings the rest of her friends in. 3 other girls. and ooooooooooooooooooooo, guess what? M comes up to me and says, "hey THIS is the type of girls we want not those f a ag as. s" a complete eyeroll. yes, the girls were hot. i mean fuck everyone in the club was. now the boys got all their attention on them. one of them, D, the girl dancing onto each table was throwing herself onto one of our married friends AND my bf which i totally pushed her off of. others' is A, Ma, and L. M and L will be the most talked of. these girls are super nice and very mature. they were all in a nice state the entire time. M was putting himself into L most of the night while Ma caught the other two boys' attention. but eventually they were kicked out bc D blacked out.

after the club, we all went back to the hotel. M and two other guys went to pick up the girls to hangout bc they want THAT. my bf and the two other taken guys were chilling with me until my bf said he wants to follow them "to make sure they're alright." which in my opinion is one of the stupidest ideas ever. if they want to make bad decisions then just left them.

eventually i fell asleep.

the next day, they told me all about it.

bf said that they were scootering around the island and picked up M because he got "pissed" at one of his friends. the other guy eventually ubered back.

and ofc, M REMINDS ME that these are the girls i should befriend in the club. SIDE EYE.

this day was just a relaxing day. we just got brunch in the most expensive place ever (which is actually worth the price). i got a ride from one of the friend's auntie and took a nap.

we got ready to meet with their car group that's located in the island and ate Mexican dinner at this expensive ass taco place. but its chill. we got food and drank a lot. met like 4 titos that i didn't even know if they were being fr or joking for the most part but i kinda miss those vibes from the PH.

we finished eating and got a ride from two of them back to the hotel. ended the night.

last day for me and bf.

i woke up and got kona's bc ofc i need to stop by there every island visit. went to ABC to get my dad stuff and my friend some chocolates. went on a solo date at marugame then went back.

we left to shop again at the malls and got myself a matching set in kith. we made a video for our friend's bday then yeah that's ab it.

we packed up and left for our flight.

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but do you see what i mean???

this whole trip was a whole ass MESS. not even just for me but i think for my bf too.

everyone is talking shit amongst themselves, and even this time, i bet they're still talking about me.

on top of that, M posted a recap post about the trip and had the audacity to post L and not even me when he spent 6 whole ass days with me.

i think this concludes my friendship with M if ever had one. i cannot accumulate more patience with this guy. its so fucking toxic and disgusting. i can't believe my bf is friends with him.

just because he got money and he has a good paying job does not mean SHIT. he literally will not help me in anyway if i asked him to. disgusting rat.

ruined the entire trip for me.

well, thats it. thats my entire rant. if i had the chance to turn back time, i would have not been nice to this guy at all. he deserve to eat my shit.

[sinsandsweetness]

ok so yk how my ex friend got w my toxic ex(who apologized to me and were friends now but that’s as far as it’s gonna go cause i’m not stupid)

well they broke up and then me and her started being cordial with each other and she was telling me all types of stuff

well i have another friend and we will call her A

A has been with this guy for like a year or so and they were going good and then all the sudden BAM my ex friend tells me that her and him were talking. obviously i was confused but she said that A and the guy broke up and now they were talking.. blah blah blah.

turns out they weren’t broken up and he was also talking to another girl FROM THE SAME COLLEGE. THREE GIRLS FROM THE SAME UNI.

well obviously i didn’t talk to A ab it cause i thought it was a touchy subject and A is one of those girls who will be fine one second and then you say something wrong and she’s on top of you beating your head in the next.

i would like to keep my hair so i said no thank you and just didn’t talk to her about it.

well halloween night comes around and i’m taking my little sister trick or treating and i see my ex friend w the guy and they’re doing couples costumes and then i saw the other girl he was talking to. she came up and asked where he was and i said with (ex friend) and she kinda stormed off and my ass wasn’t fixing to follow her cause i ain’t gonna try and pull them off of each other w my kid sister there.

i had known ab the other girl beforehand and my ex friend added her on snap and was threatening to curb stomp her and all types of shit and i just didn’t even bother entertaining any of it that night cause i was already pissed that day and was just not into getting myself into more drama.

well my ex friend and the guy go into an alleyway and she GAVE HIM HEAD. ON OUR MAIN STREET. WITH KIDS RUNNING AROUND. she told either the night it happened or the day after i don’t remember. and i just kept it to myself for a few days.

well on Nov 1st, the next day, our uni has like a free day where we all just sat outside and played games and stuff(yes i know it sounds childish but we have a dean who used to be a elementary school principal so he does fun stuff like that)

me, my ex, A, and a bunch of our other friends were sitting in the bleachers on the football field huddling together cause it was cold asf. everyone was kinda taking turns putting our hands in each others shirts to stay warm. sounds weird i know but we’ve all been friends since elementary school so we’re all very close. well my ex pops off and says something about my ex friend and the guy. A turns around and is like wait what. and my ex tells her that my ex friend and the guy have been dating for a few weeks now and tells her ab what happened the night before(halloween night) and she pulls her phone out and starts blowing up on him. she asks why no one told her and we all told her what we heard, that they had broken up and none of us felt like being punched in the face for asking her ab it.

also turns out the guy and the other girl have been dating for TWO MONTHS now. yes. two months. without anyone knowing.

it all kinda steams over for a few days with few words being said ab it. we all kinda just left A alone and didn’t bring up the subject. atp obviously sides had been taken. the guy cries(yes. cries. sobbing. he’s depressed for a few days for being caught) to A and begs her to stay with him and sadly, she does. they’re still together to this day. she’s only with him now to remind him everyday what he did.

well turns out, halloween night, a bunch of the athletes were riding around drunk and saw my ex friend with the guy and RECORDED THEM. yes. recorded them.

we thought it might’ve been all done bc no one said anything about it besides a few times in passing without A around bc obviously, we all want to keep our limbs attached to us.

shit starts up again but at this point the guy had blocked my ex friend and we thought it blew over.

obviously it didn’t. bc why would it? we’re no better than high school students.

well my ex friend blocks me on snap and doesn’t talk to me. i thought it might’ve been over.

it wasn’t.

she texts my number and goes off on me ab why “i told everyone what happened halloween night” and she “trusted me” and was “glad we weren’t friends anymore”

like bitch. we ain’t been cool since you got with my ex boyfriend.

i go off on her for blaming me and told her that my ex was the one to tell A about it because he heard it around the campus. she blames me and then i told her not to blame me and she tries to backtrack and say she wasn’t blaming me but she literally was. i tell her to lose my number and don’t talk to me on this bullshit again. this was a few days ago now.

well my other friend, we’ll call her C. C is in the group chat with my ex friend and a few other people from different years who all go to my school and my ex friend starts lying about some new boy she met. there’s this girl in there, we’ll call her S. S goes off on my ex friend and is calling her a hoe and a liar and calling her fat and shit. i was on facetime with C while this was happening and she was screen sharing as the messages were coming in.

i wanna say i don’t condone any type of bodyshaming at all, to no extent. but i admit i thought it was hilarious what S was saying to my ex friend. i was happy in a really really mean way that my ex friend was finally being called out on all her lies and toxicity.

like when i say lies i don’t mean a few, i mean a lot. the girl was basically lying about her whole life to everyone and i was just happy that someone was FINALLY FINALLY calming her out on her bullshit. she had lied in the past about sexual relations she had with people who are very important and part of many important clubs and groups and on multiple sports teams. lying about what she’s done with them could absolutely ruin their careers. it may not seem like so but it will. most of them are on strict no relationships for their careers. sexual relationships are a big no no for most of them.

the whole group chat thing happened a week ago and S told ex friend that if she caught her, she was gonna beat her ass. S came back from a family vacation tuesday and when my ex friend saw her she literally RAN the other way. and when i say i ran i mean RAN. like the fourty yard dash and a whole u turn.

so obviously she can talk shit about curb stomping people but when she gets threatened she can’t even show her face out of cowardliness. like girl stand by what you say.

i know this is all out of order but i’m typing it as i think of it, so bear with me. i know it’s a lot.

well ex friend has now lost ALL of her friends. and when i say all i mean ALL. no one will talk to her except this really bitchy girl who has a reputation for twisting everyone’s words and exaggerating things.

well ex friend and this girl, we’ll call her D. ex friend and D had a girls weekend the weekend before last with just them too and my name got brought into it(obviously cause no one can let the dust settle) and when D left ex friends house she texted A and told her that i had been talking shit about her. obviously i haven’t. so i texted ex friend and told her i didn’t appreciate her and D bringing my name into stuff that had nothing to do with me anymore. i had literally took myself out of the situation by that point because my focus shouldn’t be on who’s fucking who and who’s cheating on who. it’s ridiculous. i’m obviously right smack down in the middle of it now cause i don’t appreciate my name being lied on and being told off to about stuff i didn’t say. and i’m not gonna let my friends be hounded on without me there with them.

so obviously, since we wanna be petty let’s be petty! me, ex boyfriend, A, C and other friends made a group chat and had a group facetime this week to talk about all of this. so you wanna run MY name through the mud, than let’s air this out bitch. i put all of her secrets out that i had kept for her out of respect. i know i’m petty but if you wanna talk shit let’s talk shit! i’m the best of the best at this game. it was like five or six of us on facetime and i aired her business out. i had shit on her dating back to last year and she has nothing on me! i have nothing to lose here.

i know i’m petty and i should’ve been the adult in this situation but my mouth got the best of me and i regret absolutely nothing.

so now ex friend is trying to make new friends, who are already starting drama again and we ain’t even done with the old bullshit! none of us can be the adults we need to be but you know what? since we wanna act like this is high school still then let’s act like this is high school. wanna drag my name through the mud and threaten to jump my friends? then i will air. everything. out. i will hang you up to dry. i’m not a scary or intimidating person at all but i can be a bitch just like everyone else. let’s be petty then. i grew up fighting grown men the last thing i’m scared of is some petty dog ass bitch who can’t win a fight on her own or let anything settle. she’s always gotta have an army behind her(new friends are also ALREADY talking ab her behind her back) to try and intimidate someone. just bc you’re build like a fucking fire truck don’t mean anyone scared of you. i will drag your ass across that campus and beat your face bloody. men don’t scare me, you think some 5’5 scary bitch gonna frighten me? or my friends? literally no one is scared of her. she tries and talk to everyone’s boyfriends and frankly, everyone is after her atp. she was caught before talking to someone’s boyfriend and the girl let it slide but now everyone is literally after her lol

lots of drama i know. and i know i should’ve been the bigger person but atp i don’t care to. i’m tired of her trying to run over everyone. she always has to be center of attention and it’s absolutely ridiculous

bby anon😂

Damn. lol. I am so glad I don’t have a big friend group. And also that I live in a big city 😭 there’s virtually no drama at my university because it’s too big. No one knows anyone hahah.

I hear you though. There are always those kinds of people and eventually, all the shit they’ve been handing out comes right back to bite them back😇

[hannie-dul-set]

GOING THROUGH MY PAST MESSAGES AND I JUST LIVED THROUGH THIS VERY INSANE JAEMIN DREAM I DREAMT LAST APRIL TWENTY EIGHT TWENTY TWENTY ONE.

[strxwberrylemonxde]

BNHA Boys w/ a S/O Who's Scared of the Future

Featuring: Deku, Bakugou, Todoroki, Kirishima, and Mirio

Genre: Comfort

Warning: Bad writing 💀 I did this late at night

Word Count: 1.27k

A/N - This was very very self-indulgent… School starts again in two days and I'm already sad 😭 Also, I'm so sorry that there's such large gaps between writing, I've been having very low serotonin boosts lately 💀 Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy! Also also, I've been thinking about writing for Demon Slayer~

Being scared of the future is valid

And Izuku is going to remind you of that

Thinking about life after high school was something that made you anxious

Were you ready to face something new?

I get the feeling Izuku gets uneasy about the future at times as well

With everything that's happened in his life so far, he’s definitely aware that the future can change very drastically, for better or for worse, and he knows well enough how scary it can be to face the future

But he keeps pushing forward with a smile on his face

And he would encourage you to do the same thing

He’ll sit you down with him one day and list all the things he wants to do in the future with you

He wants to put your mind at ease, and by doing so, he wants to have you think about all the good things to look forward to in the future

A future with him would be filled with love and happiness, and that’s what he wants to fill your mind with

“Hey, we don’t have to think of all the scary stuff yet, we still have time dear. Instead, think about the future in terms of us! What kind of house would you like? Would you like kids? Pets? Haha, how about a wedding?”

Life after high school could wait for now bc now, you’ll have much more to look forward to now than you did before

You hated how quickly time seemed to move

It only felt like yesterday you were still a child, dreaming about your life in the future, coming up with careers you want and the type of house you’d buy

At that age, you wanted to grow up fast, to experience independence outside of the little bubble of your childhood

But now, it seemed that that future you were so desperate to see was coming a little too quickly

You felt silly really, wanting so frantically to go out into the world and live your life the way you want to

But the thing about humans is that we often dislike change

Some of us don’t want to abandon the things we’ve grown accustomed to

And Katsuki was quick to notice that

He could practically feel your tension, and every time he tried to bring it up, he hated how much it affected you

There was a little part in him that wanted to put those fears to rest

“Idiot, the future is gonna happen whether you like it or not. It’s better to just face it now than to sit and wait until it’s already here. You’re the only one who can build your future the way you want it, and the way I see it, I think you’re gonna create a damn amazing future for yourself. So stop worrying, okay?”

He knows you have the guts to grab the future by the throat, so what’s stopping you from doing just that

Sometimes thinking about the future made your heart drop into the pit of your stomach

As you approached the end of your high school career, left and right, there was always something or someone there to remind you to start thinking about future

What you want to be, what kind of hero you want to be, how to get there, it was all buzzing in your head at once, and sometimes you thought it best to just avoid it

Avoid it and face it until you were ready

But, would you ever be ready?

All these questions filled the back of your mind

What would happen after you graduated?

Would you be able to live the life you want to live?

What happens next?

Shoto knew the feeling

Pressures from his father about his future always seemed to piss him off

He would rather think about that stuff at his own pace, and he wanted to remind you to do the same

“Hmm, well I believe you don’t have to think about all of it now. Try taking things at your pace. By the time the future is here, I think you’ll be ready, so don’t worry about it too much, okay? I’ll be here to remind you of it because no one can pressure you into thinking about it too soon.”

Kiri knew exactly how you felt

As excited as he is to become a hero like Crimson Riot, there’s still this part of him that still likes to latch onto the idea that he’s still making his way through his teen years

As he starts to progress through high school, he’s come to realize how close graduation is coming and no matter how hyped he tries to be, there’s still this twinge of sadness in his chest about having to leave behind the memories he’s made at U.A.

He knows you feel the same way, and he’s gonna take the time to cuddle with you and express your feelings about the future with each other

He wants to remind you that no matter how sad you get about moving forward, that he’s happy he got to spend his high school life with you and all the friends you’ve made

He probably uses that as a way to convince himself not to be sad as well

“Look at me sunshine, we’re gonna be exploring our future together, alright! And we’re gonna do it with a smile on our faces because no matter how sad it is knowing we have to say goodbye to everything we’ve built here, I’m just so happy that it happened, and that it happened with you. I love you so much!”

There’s such a reassuring presence to Kirishima when he’s there to comfort you about your fears

He shines a light in your mind and heart, and he always manages to make you feel that everything is going to be just fine

“And besides, thinking about my future now seems less scary when I know you’re gonna be in it! I hope I’ll be in yours too, sunshine!

New Years had just come and gone

And now, it wasn’t long until your 18th birthday

And with it, graduation

You were, quite literally, on the cusp of a breakdown

Maybe it was the uncertainty of the future that scared you or the fear of having to say goodbye to your teen years, not really ready to grow up quite yet

Whatever it is that’s making you so uneasy about the future, you know Mirio would be there to guide you through it

He’s the type that looks at life with a smile on his face

Nothing ever seems to bring him down, and he’s going to do his hardest to spread that positivity over to you

He’s going to remind you that the future is going to be scary, but there will always be people beside you, walking with you every step of the way

And he’s going to remind you that the future is going to be what you make of it

“Sunshine, as scary as it may be, the future is going to be what you make of it, and I think that you’re gonna make it the most beautiful life you’ve ever lived”

He’s gonna grab your face with both hands, look you in the eyes, and kiss your nose, telling you:

“And whatever you make of it is bound to be good, because I’ll be right here beside you to see it”