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I am going to be. So normal about this
#I swear to god I keep getting hot flashes about it#I keep falling into the ‘he knows you’re a bad person now’ spirals#they all do#and they should but god it’s so terrifying#that everyone knows that I’m manipulative now#and it doesn’t matter that I don’t want to be because I am#and it doesn’t matter that I don’t want to hurt people because I do#I’m *so* fucking scared to be alone#but the more time I spend with myself#the more I realize I don’t think I should be around anybody else#at least not until I can figure out how to get my act together#and I don’t even know if that’s possible but I have to believe that it is#otherwise I’m stuck like this forever#and I don’t want this#questioning npd#potential npd#npd safe
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Cotl Textposts
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#i have two more one is suggestive and the other is kind of a trod au one. idk if I just wanna wait till I make more or post them now#and if I do post them now do I post them together or separately??? hmmm#anyways. ignore how the sprites almost all have a white box w them. I asked for transparent ones but I was not given them#and I didn’t wanna spend time making them transparent myself#cult of the lamb#cotl textposts#cotl#cotl shitpost#narilamb#leshycat#leshy x yellow cat#yellow cat x leshy#lamb x narinder#narinder x lamb#white bg
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If Rotbtd was a classic RPG game (Part 2)
I really love to play around with pixels, so this time I created some fake screens based on my RotBTD series. You can tell I was heavily inspired by KH:CoM's beautiful pixel graphics :'3 [Characters by me, bgs from FF Pixel Remasters]
#rotbtd#the big four#rise of the brave tangled dragons#rotbtd edits#the guardians#other edits#sprite art#hiccup#rapunzel#jack#merida#pitch#don't mind me entertaining myself lmao#i could direct all this energy into being a productive member of society#but nah i find spending my time with these random useless projects more fun~
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failed invis
#my art#ethoslab#trafficblr#secret life#messy as hell so in case u can’t tell: this is when he went red; he’s standing in a river#only let myself spend about an hour on this because anything more would’ve hurt my brain#(i know he just couldn’t unequip his shield in time shhh artistic liberty X))#you ever get an image so strong you have to get it out of your head somehow. yeah
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#photo#water#ocean#california coast#all taken of the same patch of water more or less over less than a minute#also. i don't by habit do postprocessing of images besides cropping so no exposure adjustment#it's aN aRtIsTic cHoIcE#or. laziness.#or: a challenge to myself to get the shot right in the moment and learn the camera#or: i don't enjoy it in itself#whereas I do enjoy the act of taking pictures#and i don't have to spend time on what i don't enjoy!#so here have my over and underexposed images that reflect that i was captivated in the moment by the swell of the waves and not thinking -#of the metering. imperfection a reflection of joy in a transient thing and also lack of skill
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It was Maid Day today yesterday a week ago so I got struck by inspiration to draw the worsties, and it ran away from me into a whole AU where they’re coworkers at a maid cafe. She’s a med student & this is just a part time job, and this is his depression job while he gets his life back together. He needs something he can be workaholic about to forget what it’s like having a personal life and personal issues. He’s actually the accountant, but the new hire janitor (Izutsumi) doesn’t show up for half her shifts and is a sloppy worker, so he gets the extra work of doing her job on top of his because he’s undervalued and overworked. Of course, janitors also have an uniform to keep the aesthetic cohesion as they go about cleaning the place, of course.
Senshi’s the part time cook you only see slivers off, he’s kind and warm when you do see him and have a chat but most shifts he’s in and out the kitchen without a trace. Laios and Falin are regulars because Falin and Marcille are besties & in the same med school, Laios accompanies Falin as she visits her friend at work and gets hooked on the food. Chilchuck has to remind Marcille to work instead of chatting with Falin for an hour, and next thing he knows she’s distracting him from work too. That’s it that’s the AU. Inspired by this idol AU fanart a bit <3
This was not meant to be birthday gift but well…… Happy bday Chil!!!
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#Dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#Chilchuck tims#marcille donato#spoilers#dunmeshi au#Maid cafe au#Marchil#Workwife marchil save me. Kabuholm in the background bc i said so lmao#i think people forget marci n chil are coworker worsties first and foremost. Ppl should capitalize on it more#The orange hair swag that makes him look like a marketable idol more#You can tell idk how to draw maid outfits. I hate those hats sm I will miku miku beam them out of existence#Marcille does change her hairstyle everyday btw#they don’t get back together btw she goes you haven’t talked to me in 4 years and he immediately goes YOU haven’t talked to ME in 4–#i mean ehem i’m sorry haha… while Marcille is like 4 years?! 4 years…#Mei only did it bc Fler has been getting jittery again kept sighing#I wanted to draw Chil with a car key at his belt but it wasn’t meant to be#idk if marchil ever gets together in this one it’s an eternal summer coworker with tension situationship au#romance is when you slowly deteriorate his work ethics so he starts skipping on his worktime to spend it at the front messing around w you#once he’s blessedly in the office and he hears this huge crash and the Marci just goes ‘…… Chiiiiiil?’ cue sigh and having to repair#the coffee machine. So many lil comics i couldn’t indulge myself to draw save me#shoutout to the time as a cashier in training at a convenience store I was left by my coworker who was supposed to wash the greasy chicken#oven but didn’t so I had to clean it for the first time myself while I was alone in the store and was also supposed to man the front#Shoutout to my convenience store’s accountant helping us with cashier duties often when there was less job to do ty ty#Understaffed struggles are so real#People also call Chil a manager because the boss is most often away so he just does everything#There’s no union but maybe one day he’ll get to overthrow the boss idk#The pay IS good at least#Modern au
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Red dead redemption fucks you up man.
You literally can't do anything the same anymore after playing, I'm sitting in work thinking about my horses and wondering which one I'll ride to die with Arthur - I love them all so much that I wish I could save them all.
I even randomly think about the thimble Jack wants, I have no idea where to find it but nobody at hanging dog ranch has had it in all the times I've raided it.
I think about the sun and the stars, the dusty plains of West Elizabeth and the grasslands of New Hanover, I think about Tall Trees and the canyons of New Austin, the mountains, the snow, the peaceful times camping under the night sky.
And you find yourself yearning for it, despite how awful, unforgiving and unfair the time period was.
You can't go back to those days, it's definitely for the best, you'll lose yourself if you focus so much on wanting something from so far in the past.
Whatever you're yearning for, look for it in your future, your present time, find it and run with it. Life is too short to live in the past, live in the time you have now and thrive.
#reminder for me when I catch myself thinking too much about wanting to be a vaquero#no michael you can't#living free in the plains of mexico will not fix you#you have people to look after and bills to pay#but spending more time in nature and around animals will help#<- note to myself#but that aside#live as free as you can#mwah#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#mick squeaks#mick thinks#arthur morgan#red dead redemption 2 spoilers#red dead redemption community
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It all starts with this...
#sonic 3#sonic movie#sonic movie 3#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#dont look at this too closely i did this in an hour but i HAD to slap some color and shapes together to get it out of my system#THE TRAILER#IM INSANE#I WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME DRAWING BUT AAAAAAA#i have classes ALL day tomorrow and a presentation i gotta be working on tonight for an 8am class tomorrow#and its a GROUP work so i cant even slack off i did this while i excused myself to go have dinner and now i gotta#show my face to them again#AAA#my art#pls gwt the reference i hope its obvious enough
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tim in outfits i vaguely remember preppy boys in my high school wearing
(edit: drew more headband tim)
#tim drake#dc#sart#i was gonna draw more femme tim but instead y'all get this lmao#messy but i wasnt gonna spend more time on preppy tim#gave myself psychic damage dredging these memories up but was forcibly reminded that tim is preppyTM#at least in some aspects of his life#anyway salmon pink on men is ruined for me unfortunately
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Sword PHIGHTING! period cramps moodboard
Gods mightiest warrior…….
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ANYWAYS EXTRA BITS!!!! So. Yeah. I wasted exactly 27 hours and 29 minutes of my life making this over a period of like. ~a week and a half LMAO????? I THINK IT WAS LONGER?? Yeah all of these are completely redrawn from the Og “panels”, replicating the dungeon meshi style is. MISERABLE I don’t know why I did this to myself holy fucking shit, all of you blame @squiffer-salad for this monstrosity she’s the reason why this exists in the first place /silly
anyways, I highly recommend looking at the panels individually because I put a lot of fun extra bits in them and just. A LOT of effort in general, any likes, reblog’s, or comments are insanely appreciated since this did take such a long time :’DDD, everything in these minus the backgrounds are completely redrawn/shaded/and colored by hand, this includes mid/screen tones as I used specific layers for those! anyways thank you for coming to my period cramp projection ted-talk I’m going back into my Everglade hole.
#JESUS FICKING CHRIST#WHEN I SAY#27+ HOURS#DUDE…….#FOR A SHIT POST….. THIS IS INSANE…… WHY DID I DO TJIS TO MYSELF#ANYWAYS now that I’m free from this fucking BEAST of a project I’m going to be working on a lot more comms/personal bits since I have much#More free time on my hands!#School is still kicking my ass but at least I’ve been doing well :3#Scored a 10/10 on a AP world test today! Probably gonna end up failing my math unit exam but oh well wouldn’t be the first /silly#Anyways for some smaller extra comments#I honestly don’t really know how I managed to commit to this if I’m gonna be real#This honestly was more of a test of endurance if anything and I think it came out really well especially since I’m not used#To spending THIS much time on a single piece#It taught me a lot too#Specifically more about midtone layers and different types of line art and such#Anyways yeah I am. So horrendously tired#More art soon though! I got stuff in the oven for reals!!!#art#phighting!#phighting#phighting fanart#digital art#phighting roblox#artists on tumblr#phighting art#roblox phighting#roblox#roblox art#roblox fanart#roblox game
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My comic is so pretty...
The hiatus is letting me take a little extra time on these episodes, and I'm definitely putting it to good use!!!
#almost done with my 8th episode... which will give me. two weeks. of buffer...#id really like at LEAST a month... but to be more comfortable id like two#which means 2-6 more episodes before I come back!#I've got about 7 weeks so its possible. but i do still have to finish book 4#so much to do ..........#I decided for my next comic im doing 3 updates a month.#having 10 days instead of 7 to make an episode is such a huge huge huge difference...#difference in quality and in my health!#anyways the comic is really pretty im really happy with the work im doing rn#the environments especially. im getting to spend a nice amount of time on them and theyre turning out so nicely#its nice to be able to write with a lot of different environments and not have to redo panels when I get to them cause of time#cause every time theres a wild angle? you need a new background...#so sometimes. often actually. there just isnt the time to make the backgrounds for those and i have to make them more flat...#which is fine. it doesnt really affect anything narratively. but. idk. it's kinda sad right?#anyways yeah! 10 days will be much better.#36 episodes a year is about what ive been uploading with my hiatuses on the weekly schedule anyways!#so might as well cut out that super stressful middleman and just commit to that#52 a year is just such a huge difference and i have to accept its not possible to me#i will hurt myself trying to do that. and i want to make comics my whole life!#so i cant push myself that hard now and sacrifice my future. we're gonna go slower after this...#anyways yeah cant wait to come back but also time. if I could get an extra week like a secret one just for me#where theres no chores no nothin just me and my work#thatd be great! so go ahead and do what you gotta do to give me a little pocket dimension#me: ugh i want to return right now...#the more logical me: NO we need the time to finish everything!!!!!! NOT right now!!!!#time and time again#ttawebcomic#comic panels#hiatus stuff#adam and steve
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Thank you all for voting in the poll to decide who was going to be the leader of the band! It turned out to be such a close race!
#poorly drawn mdzs#better drawn mdzs#mdzs#madam lan#A-qing#Band AU#(Reminder that Madam Lan's design inspiration goes to Qourmet!)#Madam Lan may have been the winner per vote count but there were so many strong advocates for A-Qing!#I played around with a few versions of what the 'poll winner' art was going to be and ultimately decided I wanted them both.#As any good theater love knows though - The battle for leadership was a ruse. They *all* get a chance to be featured.#Cooperation was the real end goal! However I do think these two have the best frontman energy of the group.#Or at least 'crowd favourite' energy. I also really loved hearing what people thought their vocal styles would be like!#This was probably one of my favourite polls to do and I love drawing these characters a lot B*)#I'd love to spend a bit more time in this AU so count on me bringing it back.#One thing I keep feeling like I need to redeem myself on is Madam Lan's Translucent skirt. I have *not* done the concept justice yet.#It is such a crack-platonic ship but I want to think Madam Lan and A-Qing would enjoy each other's company.#Possibly also with JYL as well. They can be like mutually beneficial therapy dogs to each other.#Madam Lan never got to see her kids grow up into teenagers after all. She only had sons. Never daughters.#Even if she saw her kids once a month we do know she treated them with so much love and kindness.#She would bite the shit out of YZY for yelling at JYL. What a sight to see. A-Qing would also start biting (for fun).
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yet again, chat noir has gotten me out of art block, and become my default for when i don't know what character to draw,,,,, HE'S JUST STANDING THERE! BEING PRETTY!!! IDK MAN
#another one of those drawings that took an ungodly amount of time for some reason#(i spend too much time making my lines clean)#anyway#I REALLY LIKE THIS ONE? IDK WHAT DRUGS I WAS TAKING TO MAKE ME DRAW THE ANATOMY THIS WELL BUT I'LL TAKE IT#this is super refreshing cause i feel like my art has been really lacking lately and i haven't been drawing as much as i want to#and then i did this cause the iPad is very convenient and i really like it!!! :D#(((((debating whether i want to get an iPad for myself or not)))))#ml#mlb#miraculous#miraculous ladybug#chat noir#my art#ml leak free#i made him more soft beef than the usual skinny lanky that i do and it was fun :)#also yeah i did the shading by hand idk how to download procreate brushes
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And there he lies, dripped in pearls...
full piece on my twitter
#i just thought hed look lovely in a pearl necklace idk what to tell you#trying to dedicate myself to spending more time on lighting and backgrounds cause im usually soooo lazy about it#virgil acheron#modern au#oc art#ocs#original character#bg3#baldur's gate 3#durge#durgedurge#acherye#and a little virgildarin...#my boy contains multitudes#my art#hope this posts okay#praying
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its been a while since i showed any sketchbook stuff on here! spoilers its mostly trees
#slinky’s sketches#i LOVE drawing trees this is what i spend a good chunk of time doing#slightly doxxing myself via flora shrug#there’s probably a lot more i coukd show but i draw in like five different sketchbooks at once.. sob…
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‘AIGHT here we go! We know the drill, send a character and an expression through the inbox and I’ll get to what I can today! I’ll put fandoms for ideas in the tags bc this blog has no focus anymore lamo
(Also the way I couldn’t find the original poster of this so if you know let me know please and I’ll add the link here! Or if I find it on my own)
#norse mythology#stardew valley#dandadan#dungeon meshi#one piece#hxh#hetalia#I know my roots dammit#statetalia#capitalia#distraction expression challenge#I think I’m gonna give myself a time limit for how long I spend on each request#want to keep things moving and to make this more of a challenge#persica’s ocs
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