#but the little reblog comments on here make it worth tbh

[tinartss]

sometimes i think about how kaveh was alhaitham’s first friend and collapse a little inside

[recoveringdirectioner]

various playlist names!!! descriptions below the break 🫣

(comment/reblog with yours pls i know some of y’all DEF have some unhinged ones and i need to see them)

descriptions:

banger playlist - GOOD VIBES ONLY. entirely upbeat, think no control/temporary fix/little black dress/another world vibes. this contains 50% of their discography it is category one of two

covers/unreleased - self explanatory i fear

carefully curated elite collection - my sister said i could make a 1D playlist for a road trip but she said i wasn’t allowed to include the entirety of their discography so I was limited to about 3 hours worth of music :(( cruel and unusual punishment tbh

breakdown playlist - anything slow/emotional enough to cry to, think 18/i want to write you a song/home/over again. the other 50% of their music, anything that doesn’t fit into good vibes only goes here. doubles as a frequent sleep playlist

my boys!! - every single one of their solo releases. all of them. vibes be damned it’s just each and every solo release by all five boys

[mylovesstuffs]

2024 recap —

@mylovesstuffs

Hey, I've had my eyes on you...we just met but it's been fun, I wanna know more ~ (_world)

First Post: December 26th, 2024

New Followers (In Just 6 Days!): 65 (crazy, right?!)

I only started writing here a few days ago, and the journey (I shouldn't call it a journey yet) so far has been absolutely wild! Heres a breakdown of my stats and highlights for the last week of 2024 (yes, its that fresh and I'm still doing it so that I can playback again next year):

★ Top Posts (In Just a Few Days!)

Seungcheol is THAT type of boyfriend - 182 notes

After Hours - 133 notes

OT13 reaction to, "When we break up, _____," text prank - 131 notes

OT13 reactions to, "Let's breakup" text prank - 115 notes

Jeonghan is THAT type of boyfriend - 99 notes

(These posts gained so much love in such a short time of 6 days—Im honestly speechless!)

★ Writing Stats

Total Words Written: ±14.03k words

Total Contents Posted:

6 reactions

6 MTLs

4 oneshots

1 series - 3 parts

5 answered asks

★ Personal Favorites

Here are some of my favorites from my first week:

FRI(END)S and More Than Pancakes: These two were so fun to write and made my heart quench and giggle, so I can't really choose just one as my most favourite TT

After Hours: I loved diving into this concept of friends with benefits/coworkers with benefits, it’s a piece that still feels new to me but I still enjoyed writing it regardless

SEVENTEEN is THAT type of boyfriend series: I got so immersed and carried away writing this—it’s so unhinged lmao, but I’m so happy that this series was the first to get the most love and traction since I enjoyed writing it too

★ Fav Bloggers/Writer's (idk the exact term here; these are not in any particular order since I love all of their works.) 💎

@fairyhaos @sleepyparalysisdmon @saythename17scenarios (not active:() @xinganhao @hannieehaee @hoshifighting @okiedokrie

🎯 Goals for 2025

Keep the momentum going and post consistently

Write more diverse contents of BTS and SEVENTEEN

Experiment with drabbles, and maybe even start a fic with parts

Interact more with everyone—Q&A sessions, games, and lots of fun!

Make friends and moots

Hit 1k followers (dream big y'all!) and make 2025 even more creative and fulfilling

💜 Thank You ! 💎

I know, I know—it’s only been a few days since I started this on December 26th, and it might seem like there isn’t much to thank for yet, but hear me out. In just these few short days, I’ve been genuinely amazed by how much love and support I’ve received. The kind of response I’ve gotten feels like something I should be thanking the universe for, considering I’m still in my newbie phase of Tumblr. You all came through, and it honestly blew me away. Even though I didn’t expect anything this early on, you’ve made it feel like I’ve been part of this wonderful community for much longer.

I’ve always believed that when you start something new, no matter how small, it’s the people who make the experience worth it—and you guys have proven that in spades. Whether you’ve followed, liked, reblogged, or just casually checked out my posts, it means more to me than I can express. The fact that 65 (I’ve been on Tumblr for much longer, but I’m counting from the time I started gaining traction, which was after I began writing.) of you have decided to follow along this early on? That’s honestly crazy in the best way possible. It’s a little surreal, tbh, and makes me feel like I’m on the right track.

As someone who’s still figuring things out, your support has made all the difference, whether it’s been through a simple like or dropping a comment that made my day. I’m still getting used to everything, and the fact that you’ve been here for this small but meaningful start is something I will never take for granted.

So again, thank you—seriously, thank you. I’m excited to keep this journey going with all of you, and who knows, maybe I’ll end up embarrassing myself with some more quirky posts along the way. Again, to everyone who followed, liked, reblogged, or even just stopped by my blog in the last few days: thank you for making this start so incredible. Im beyond excited for what 2025 has in store! Let me know your favorite post so far, and feel free to drop requests in my ask box.

—★

I can give you everything you want, down to your darkest sides

[hees-mine]

little reminder to some very specific people that one-shots exist..

you don't have to make a part 2 of everything, people should be greatful of what they get from you despite constantly putting you under pressure ;( -💋

Right like atp it’s in the comments in my asks in my reblogs there’s no getting around it

I should just start charging at this point cause this ain’t worth it tbh

Every story I write is gonna have potential for a part two but that doesn’t mean I’ll make it sometimes I just like to let it sit and see how I feel about it

Last time playtime were not supposed to be series yet here we are

Plus I’m still working on ending destroyed I just posted crush to take a little break in between but at this rate I’ll be working on multiple series at a time

I appreciate the feedback and the want for multiple parts but sometimes it’s just ehh….

[innerchorus]

How do the various adaptations of The Heroic Legend of Arslan compare to each other and the original novels by Yoshiki Tanaka? I'm specifically interested in a general comparison of the manga adaptations by Chisato Nakamura and Hiromu Arakawa.

Oh man, this question probably warrants an essay to answer it properly, and tbh I don't think I'm in the position to do it because 1. I still haven't read Nakamura's version in full and 2. there isn't a translated version of it available either, which makes it a lot harder to compare nuance (I have to run the pages I'm interested through a translator first to try and decipher it).

I used to think that Nakamura's manga was a very straightforward adaptation of the novels, but recently realised that's not the case. I'd apparently only read a little of it before because I think it was back when I was still avoiding spoilers. But I've learned Nakamura wasn't afraid to add scenes if she thought it would benefit the characters in some way (see additional conversations between Isfan and Zaravant, and Hilmes and Irina). I feel as though Nakamura is sensitive to the emotions of the characters and that's what's driving these scenes; she wants to show the connection between them and, in some cases, make them feel better. There's also the incident where Elam and Alfarid encounter Sam, which is presumably used as an opportunity to show that Sam has a good heart even though he's ended up with Team Hilmes.

Both Nakamura and Arakawa will cut or abbreviate stuff at times. So in Nakamura's manga, Isfan's night raid got cut and Guiscard killed the mage instead. Perhaps she thought it best for the pace of the storytelling? It's not a major plot change, but it does get us through that section a bit faster. Arakawa's manga also doesn't adapt every novel scene. For instance, in the novels there's a scene where Hilmes rejoins Zandeh in the final stages of the hunt for Team Arslan as they near Peshawar Fortress. Arakawa didn't include it, opting to show a panel of Hilmes travelling fast, obviously heading back to pursue his prey, and then later he and Zandeh are shown together when they confront Narsus and Alfarid. Why did that scene get cut? Again, pace maybe (the same as the missing Hilmes and Zandeh scene before Hilmes sneaks into Peshawar), or Arakawa didn't like how sarcastic Hilmes is to Zandeh there and decided to omit it on that basis, lmao

As for more major changes, I'm inclined to say Arakawa's manga has more of those, certainly now we're heading towards the conclusion. Nakamura's manga stays closer to the novels than I'm expecting Arakawa's to as far as the ending of Part 1 (Book 7) goes, though the final scene of Book 7 is absent, allowing for it to feel more conclusive. But I think it's obvious at this point that Arakawa's version is already modifying novel events in a bigger way, and is probably aiming to answer some questions and deal with all outstanding plot threads by the end, so I'm excited to see where that goes. Just don't kill off my faves, please.

On the whole, Arakawa's tweaks feel like they have been very carefully considered to stay true to the heart of the novels and preserve the characterisation. I still have to translate the extra Hilmes and Irina scenes from Nakamura's manga, but I am amused that Tanaka directly said 'Hilmes didn't go and talk to Irina at this point in time' and Nakamura said 'yes he did'. Nakamura seems slightly more wilfull about doing what she wants in this respect (but again, she doesn't make big, plot-altering changes... even the added stuff with Sam slots neatly into the novel canon plotline without causing ripples).

You might have seen this post already, but @colleyuriko discussed a specific instance with regards to the tone difference of the Daryun and Narsus relationship in Nakamura and Arakawa's versions, regarding Daryun's comment about Alfarid (my reblog here with some of my thoughts too). I think that's worth a read.

Nakamura's manga takes 13 volumes to reach the end of Book 7, while Arakawa's version will hit 19 next month when the next volume is released and obviously hasn't finished yet. So from that alone I guess Nakamura's treatment of canon is briefer than Arakawa's (even allowing for some of the content added by Arakawa, such as early scenes with Etoile).

Obviously, there are stylistic differences in the art etc, but those are self-evident so I don't think I need to go into them. Hopefully this has at least started to answer your question!

[anniesocsandgeneralstore]

it's been an honor writing with you all (and by you all i mean the 6 moots who are gonna care about this) 🫡

But in all seriousness, I have been thinking about doing this for a while. My time off I've had this past week just really helped me make up my mind about it.

For months it feels like I have not been writing for myself. That I've been writing for everyone else, trying to please everyone and write what people wanna see. In all honesty, I've been writing out of guilt (feeling bad that I have requests sitting in my inbox or that a story hasn't been continued) for months. I've lost my voice somewhere along the way and I need to find her again. It's been...Not fun. At all. It's almost sapped away my love of writing tbh and I can't keep going. I need a break.

So, hiatus.

Not to mention all the stuff with minimal interactions on my creative posts (that's a whole other story that I feel every writer preaches on and I won't get into here. Reblog the stuff you like. Comment. It's why writers keep leaving).

SO, hiatus.

I'm still gonna be on tumblr. Reblogging things and reading things and probably posting things that are way too personal. Just no writing/posting creative works. So if ya ever wanna talk, reach out!

And for those still with me and for those who care, this does mean I will be deleting everything from my inbox. I'm really sorry. But seeing all those requests and prompts sitting in there day after day fills me with such guilt and anxiety. And that would be the ONLY reason I fulfill any of them. Because I feel guilty, not because I feel inspired. I know I asked for most of them through prompt list reblogs, but I feel like my mental health is worth more than a silly little blurb.

I've feared doing this because I don't wanna be forgotten in the grand ether that is the tumblr fanfic world. But I just can't do it anymore.

I hope when I come back to writing I feel refreshed, I feel inspired, and I feel joy in something I've been doing since I was 11 years old.

Until then, happy blogging to you all

[oraclekleo]

Hello Kleo, how are you doing today hun? It has been a while seeing you on here, I hope everything is well 🤍.

I actually would love to participate in your game if it's still open ⭐. Tbh, all of your games are so fun and accurate so I really don't wanna miss on this one.

My name is Sarah S. Gemini sun.

I would like a reading on my career or love (single) whatever calls for you is fine with me

Hello Sarah!

I’m alright most of the time, only slightly overworked but that’s normal at this time of the year. 🙂 I hope you are also feeling well these days and I’m happy you like my little tarot games. I’m always pleased when people enjoy my content.

The game is of course still open and I’m sorry it took me a bit longer to respond this time, I got busy but I’m back. As usual for me now, I include the cards I pull for you in case there was any special hidden meaning in them meant only for you to see. And even if you see none there, all the cards are so beautiful that it can’t do any harm. 

Let’s have a look at your cards now!

Cards: 21. Magickal Manifestation (The Solitary Witch Oracle), 3 of Cups, Queen of Wands, 7 of Wands (Cozy Witch Tarot)

Your magickal or significant number in the upcoming days might be the number 3. You might need to pick one direction out of three possible ones or you might witness three of your dreams coming true when you already thought your manifestations didn’t work that well. You might need to use your energy and effort to get where you want to be but it’s going to be worth it. You might have made mistakes in the past. It’s time for you to say ‘sorry’ now, learn the lesson and move on. While everyone needs to be accountable, there’s literally no reason to bash yourself over mistakes from the past.

If in doubt, surround yourself with your coven (or tribe, soul family). Maybe you felt isolated lately but the cards encourage you to dress for success and go out. Forget about your insecurities, we all have imperfections and the whole magic is simply in your own approach. Will you proudly own the way you are and radiate confidence and happiness or will you keep fighting the windmills in a never ending pursuit of ideal appearance? You are the only one original and that’s what makes you beautiful. As soon as you start loving yourself, you will also attract your Right Person and be able to love them with all their imperfections, too. For now, you might feel the calling to hang out with people dear to you, who will support you and boost your self-esteem in a healthy and fun way.

Your cards are really mostly about unwinding and having fun. Maybe you have been tense these days and before making any important decision about your career, you need to relax. Come again if needed later on as this game will stay open for a while and maybe next time I can see more about your career in the cards.

Thank you so much for requesting the reading!

I'm always grateful for any feedback.

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[mcalhenwrites]

For what it's worth, I want to read your writing! lack of audience can really get to a writer but I feel sometimes one needs to be reminded of why they write? Are you writing for yourself or to please strangers, which I get is obviously important for motivation and as a professional worker but I guess what I'm trying to say is don't be too down about it. I appreciate your hard work and amazing stories.

For what it's worth, I want to read your writing! Thank you, anon, that means a lot to me!

I agree with "write for yourself", because you'll never please other people/have to select who you want to please, and that's never going to end well. You can't please everyone. I used to be in the Tales series fandom, and I'd have mixed feelings about some of the games that contradicted the way others felt. I liked some of the lesser known/older games for the same reasons people hated them. So as a creator, you have to think about what feels right to yourself. It's good advice, but I have seen it taken out of context. (For the record, I don't see that happening here, because you do clarify that it's harder when you're stepping into the profession. I'll get into that in a minute, if that's okay!)

That said, I think there needs to be a distinction between writing and sharing. Writing is a process for myself, but the career aspect is stressful and straining and honestly feels hopeless most days. I hate the idea that every single part of a story needs to be about the plot, because the formulaic ways of the publishing industry don't work for every story, every writer. I think the existence of fanfic is proof enough of that, actually! So many of us love fics that cover what might have happened behind the scenes or just… we'll read fifteen different stories of the same tropes for a single ship. And tbh, I think a lot of writers - including myself - really prefer to have more canon included than the publishing industry has room for.

I'm trying to find a middle balance, personally. I want to share! I'm an avid reader, and if no one had shared, what would I have read growing up? Plus the want of financial stability, which is pressure I sincerely despise. I'd happily share everything for free if I had $100k-$120k a year for the rest of my life so I could have my house, healthcare, 3-5 cats, garden, video games, and home library. xD

Sharing is actually pretty difficult for me. I barely showed anyone my work until I was in my mid-twenties. I started writing stories down at age seven. I'm now in my thirties. But sharing is something I want to do and it doesn't get easier after all this time of trying to spread my work. Past the perfectionism (I am definitely working on this and have already made improvements) and the history of bullying I've had over my writing (of which there's been a lot). Overcoming all of that is tough. Which means I feel a little extra sensitive to the idea that if something of mine isn't getting traction, it's confirmation of all the times someone mocked my writing or vaguetweeted by a BNF to make fun of fics I'd just posted. And while I'm starting to realize that some of that likely comes from jealousy - not necessarily that I'm a great writer that poses a threat, but just that my writing means that I might take attention from them in the fandom (which is not how that works) - it's still so hard to stop thinking, "What if they were right?" when I don't get any or very few likes/reblogs or kudos/comments, etc.

I have worked very hard to be a better writer, thinking I could escape that. Now I'm beginning to recognize that that hard work has paid off, but I was also never as bad as everyone made me feel (including myself). I want to keep working hard, because my standards for myself are high.

My writing makes me so happy, I can't describe how much. So even through all the pain above? I still do it. I just think that maybe there needs to be more separation between writing and the results of that ever reaching the public eye. (Most of my writing doesn't. I write a lot. XD)

Sorry to get a little real there. And so lengthy, ugh! I never can say things briefly.

Thank you for reading out, though, and thank you for reading my writing. There are more people reading my works than I know, but sometimes I fear that I'm the only one who will want what I'm making.

I've had IRL and health issues bringing me down too, which overlapped with stressing out over the editing of the next chapter of the story I've been posting. That chapter wasn't making me happy, so I'm taking a break, ignoring it a few days, and going back with fresh eyes later. So that all was knocking down my mood, and seeing only one person comment on the latest chapter, I was like, "Oh, maybe I'm just making a big old mess of this story"… perhaps because I see the mess in my head? Every possible path I threw out, every scene I want to write but won't fit in the story, every part I feel is lacking, every bit of character and world info, etc. Is that translating into something coherent on the page, I wonder, and… it's a lot to think about.

Sorry for TL;DR on this answer, and again: thank you. ;A;

[gettinshiggywithit]

! Spending Your Birthday With Chuuya Nakahara !

(pt 1)(pt2)(this is part three)

scenario:- how about this year you spend your special day with the love of your life,chuuya nakahara.

pairing:- chuuya x gn!reader

Spending any day out with chuuya means youre gettin treated.

wine,shoppin or just the arcade,you’ll be doin stuff that you both love(or just stuff that u love that he’s managed to convince you that he likes em too :’) he just loves to see u smile mann)

So you can imagine how perfect he’d make your birthdayy

It’d start with your favourite breakfast spread out on the table

And lemme tell you,he didnt miss Anything!

That coffee you’d wanted to get but couldnt cos it was outta stock? Hes made it

that special bagel or breakfast topping ud wanted to try but had decided wasnt worth the price?hes got a bowl of it

This man rly pulled out all the stops

And its not even 12 pm!

Next you guys had a day out on the townnn

Shopping?goin to watch a movie?just walkin?? Ya’ll are doin it

Like i said,anything to make your day the best ever

(Yall even visited that arcade from season two! Buddy thought he’d be great at the games,buttt he’d kinda lost touch.he absolutely Schooled you on the motorcycle sim thoooo)

And after your little outing he led you back to your shared apartment

and waiting for you out on the couch surrounded by candles and petals of ur favourite flowers was that outfit you’d seen once and loved,but hadnt bought because of the price.(SEE I TOLD U HE WAS PULLIN OUT ALL THE STOPS)

(SAY;THANK YOU TACHIHARA AND HIGUCHII(to clarify,its cos they were the ones who set it all up while u were out!))You got dressed in your fancy new outfit,and headed out to see chuuya in a fancy little out fit of his own

A purple button down,with the first two buttons undone,a tie hanging loosely around his collar.

He held out his hand for you to take and escorted you to his bike.

Next,you headed to a fancy-ass restaurant (which had great wine btw!!!) and he once again,treated you to your choice of wines,appetizers and actual mains + desert

Once you were done,you rode back and he led you over to your balcony,you both sat down on the chairs there and you promptly passed out.(I MEAN WHO WOULDNT BE TIRED AFTER A DAY LIKE THATTT)

Afterwards he ,effortlessly,picked you up and carried you to your room

That night you slept in your fancy-wear

And the next day you woke up with a hang over~

But waking up to eachothers faces made everything better<3

What a birthday ey?

please dont repost my work here as your own on any platform all rights belong to me except that of the characters used,their right belong to their respective owners.but these stories? mine.

feedback,likes,reblogs and comments are so very appreciated tbh :’)i hope you enjoyed and ill catch ya next time!

Comments & Reblogs w/ tags >>>>>>>>>>>likes please

Tag list is open for anyone interested!

[malxshrine-a]

I SEE YOU, I CHERISH YOU ♡

INSTRUCTIONS: positivity challenge !! list 6 blogs that have interacted with you in some way, shape, and / or form and show your appreciation !! let’s recognize each other’s efforts !! repost, do not reblog !! in no particular order tbh.

@deathleads — let me just preface this by saying by not following Cosmos and any character she chooses to bring to life that you are missing out tremendously. the passions shown for their oc and their easy nature is just so easy to get to know and like. This is without a doubt the truth. They are so down for everything and come ready to gush at all hours about storylines or what have you. Their oc is superb, very thought out, and you can tell they’ve been with this muse for so long just because of how easy they make it look. I recommend this one here. makes me feel like my writing is garbage. HAAAAAA.

@monstriiss — this is another good oc. draith makes sukuna down bad and we really do sometimes be up at all hours talking about acid blood making sukuna go full crackhead at like 2 in the morning. The muse is a big milf, terrifying and likely to treat you like gator food for any reason at all. and we love this. we love this scary mama. i eat this shit up like candy. another person you really, REALLY need to get to know. It’s so worth it. i try so hard to impress this one. don’t at me.

@thevcssel / @frcstie — This person is, actually, so nice. Jamie is the sweetest of people like so adorable and squish the cheeks. Yuuji is Sukuna’s little meow meow and his son, even when he’s a bit of a meanie. and their multi is gonna be just as good ngl. I love them. They write so well and any character that gets picked up is well-written. Good job, I’m so proud of you, my little meow meow. I can’t wait to interact even further in the future.

@destructivour — no matter what Ainz is such a cool person, so down to earth, so positive, and encouraging. We may not speak every day, but I am always following your feed. always. I consume everything you give. The understanding and voice Ainz has for Grimm is unreal. Ainz is a real one tbh, but I absolutely think everyone knows this. He’s a real positive voice in rp and there is a reason people love this person. If you haven’t just glanced at this blog or any of his others, you need to.

@hortussecretum — Apple is insane. I am convinced and I love it. They have such crazy muses, chaos is their brand, and I am never bored. They really do like to spread and give their attention when you need it, i swear. there are days I feel like not enough, stressed, and it’s like staring at a blank reply for thousands of hours before frustration takes over and Apple comments something that makes you caveman scratch your skull and YOU WHOT? I will never in my life forget the mommy kink tag exists on my blog, because they decided pure, unadulterated chaos was the answer. Unapologetically genuine, really nice, and liable to send you crack shit as soon as you awaken. it is worth it to add them.

@civara / @shometsu — can I just say ... you’ll never find a better duo. like I just ... PB&J been real silent since these two dropped, i swear to the gods. these two are the dynamic and writing you want and aspire to, but then, you realize your attention span is on it’s lowest settings. I just really, truly recommend getting into their stuff and getting into them, too. they’re so talented in terms of editing, drawing, and writing. The way they understand their characters is top tier. LIKE I’LL SCREAM IT AND I’LL KICK SHIT OVER, FOLLOW THEM BOTH. witness greatness.

honorable mention: @slayersaided​ — can I just say this little guy has been with me for so long? anywhere I've gone? I just ? I literally JUST started kny and finished only just this morning. I had no idea who or what character they were, but I really was about their writing and interaction. always with a rather dry sounding quip on dash and I consume their posts en mass. Now, I can actually understand what’s being said and mentioned and I’m about it. I’ve been lurking and I swear it’s time to come at you. 

[fayoftheforest]

I posted 2,276 times in 2022

That's 715 more posts than 2021!

97 posts created (4%)

2,179 posts reblogged (96%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@croissants-andcoffee

@plugnuts

@jmax523

@whatdoessunshinetastelike

@fishtish

I tagged 1,260 of my posts in 2022

Only 45% of my posts had no tags

#south park - 57 posts

#ask - 43 posts

#fave - 27 posts

#ask game - 17 posts

#birthfay 🎂 - 14 posts

#sp kyle - 12 posts

#sp k2 - 11 posts

#writing - 10 posts

#headcanons - 10 posts

#south park fic - 10 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#also just realised the blurb i pasted here was from an old draft where the soulmate tag was on their arm not their chest 😳how embarrassing

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

man, it kind of bums me out how the majority of the time that kyle's jewishness is a focal point in fan content, it's for a negative reason. if kyle's contemplating the fact that he's jewish, it's because he's being bullied or harassed, because he's feeling insecure about his appearance or self worth, because he's feeling lonely and isolated, because he's having a crisis of faith, etc etc. these are all totally valid themes and character arcs to explore, of course! i think many jews like myself may be able to relate to these themes, thanks to living in a society where antisemitism and other shitty behaviour runs rampant. but i think we're really missing a golden opportunity to explore the complex and compelling positives of being jewish. where's his love for his community? where's his excitement for an upcoming holiday? where's the comfort he might take from prayers? where's his curiosity or knowledge about his family history? where's his passion for debating interpretations of the torah? these are also valid, relatable and in-character directions you could take things!

i know that this trend is probably heavily influenced by the presence of this pattern in the show itself, but it's still a bit sad. or maybe gentiles (non-jews) shy away from celebrating his jewishness because they don't feel confident in commenting on a religious experience that they've never had. to those people, I would ask, why is it you feel comfortable speculating on the hardships of being jewish, but not the joys?

that isn't to say that you're not allowed to write about the former if you're not jewish, of course! regardless of religious background, anyone can empathise with his struggles because, at the end of the day, we're all human, and it's our humanity that unites us. but i'd encourage you to push yourself out of your comfort zone, do a little research and have some fun celebrating and supporting his jewishness once and awhile :)

109 notes - Posted October 30, 2022

#4

today I am thinking about... fat tweek! and fat butters! and fat wendy and heidi! maybe throw a lil fat kyle in there too! I'm sick and tired of fatness being equated with immorality when it comes to south park (and the world in general tbh) and it makes me sad that so many people seem afraid of portraying any of the non-cartman characters as plus-sized. 'fat' is a neutral descriptor and not a dirty word, and displaying body diversity amongst the cast is not only realistic, but a wonderful and beautiful thing! so anyway reblog this and put in the tags which character(s) you've always headcanoned to be fat or not skinny :)

113 notes - Posted August 21, 2022

#3

STOP RIGHT THERE 🔫 THIS IS A STICK-UP 🔫 NOBODY SCROLLS ON UNTIL THEYVE WATCHED @roostertuftart 'S GLORIOUS VIDEO THEN REBLOGGED IT 🔫

142 notes - Posted August 29, 2022

#2

I'M ABSOLUTELY BLOODY LOSING IT OVER THESE VINTAGE SOUTH PARK MUGS I FOUND ONLINE

THE CAPTIONS. THEIR EXPRESSIONS. THE FACT THAT STAN IS KNOWN AS "THE CUTE ONE"?? LIKE?? IS HE?? WACK :D ANYWAY SHOULD I BUY THESE YES/NO

256 notes - Posted November 16, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

fucking obsessed with this meme that came up on my pinterest feed

what IS up with gay eople liking south park???

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[painted-piggy-ships-archive]

Hotel California

Wade Wilson x Keaton Clownlord

Word Count: 1153

Tag List: @canongf @ghostlyvenus-selfships @sweettoothselfships @captainscyarika

Summary: X-Force has to stay in a hotel in California for a mission, just some interactions between Wade and my self insert tbh.

Warnings: Killing/torture mentions, suggestive material but nothing incredibly spicy (comments & a make-out scene), bed bugs mention (Not sure if that would count as an unsanitary mention?? There are no actual bed bugs in the fic but Wade checks just in case.)

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Wade inhaled exaggeratedly as the X-Force entered their California hotel, stretching out his arms to take it all in.

“I love the smell of ocean and lotion in the morning,” he grinned under his sunglasses and a baseball cap that simply had the word “Fork” on it in comic sans.

“That makes two of us, hey-oh,” Keaton chimed in, bumping his shoulder against his husband’s.

“Try not to draw too much attention to yourselves, we are here for a reason,” Cable reminded the couple gruffly, “this isn’t some honeymoon suck-and-fuck just for you two.”

“Don’t you think that’ll be a little hard with pizza-face over here?” Keaton responded.

“Hey!”

“I was referring to myself, relax,”

“Awh, babe, your acne’s not that bad…”

Wade touched Keaton’s cheek in a disgustingly tender manner while he continued, “and besides, you take these things far too seriously, surely it’s doing incredulous things for your health. We’re here to free some enslaved mutants and blow some brains, it’s a storyline we’ve played out before, honestly I’m getting tired of it. When do I get to torture some cops for once?!”

Cable rolled his eyes (eye?) but decided it was better not to respond, and was saved from even needing to by Piotr handing everyone their room keys.

“Our bags should already be in our rooms,” he informed the team.

“Good work, shiny.” Wade lightly pat Piotr’s arm before the members went their separate ways. While all the rooms were on the same floor, they opted to spread out to seem less suspicious, though Keaton’s comment wasn’t exactly incorrect; how were they to ever blend in when they had the self-proclaimed sentient tumor and a Big Metal Guy in their entourage?

“How’re you feeling? Jetlag kicking your ass yet?” Wade asked in the elevator, lowering his sunglasses to get a proper look at his husband.

“I’m sure it will. I think it’s having a cockfight with my adrenaline right now, though,” Keaton laughed, “you know how I love to travel.”

Wade nodded, wrapping his arm around his shoulders and kissing his husband’s cheek, though it was more like mostly him smooshing his own cheek and nose against Keaton’s soft and rosy skin.

“That’s what makes this job so good for you.”

“Yeah, probably the only thing. It certainly isn’t good for my heart.”

“You knew that was a risk when you started dating me.”

Keaton sighed, turning to take Wade’s face in his hands. “It’s worth it, for all this.”

Wade smiled shyly, a blush creeping over his craggy skin as he raised his hands to meet his.

When they reached their room, the first thing the couple noticed was the fact it had two beds instead of one.

“Those fuckers are trying to cockblock me!” Wade exclaimed dramatically, making Keaton snort.

“We can just push the beds together but wait,” Keaton grabbed his husband by the belt loops of his khaki cargo shorts to keep him from immediately leaping onto one of the beds like a sugar-high child. “I know this place is high class but we should check for bed bugs.”

“Right, right…”

“Good. You can do that while I check out the view,” Keaton grinned and playfully swatted at his husband’s rear before heading for the balcony.

“No fair, why do I have to do the heavy lifting?!”

“Because you have the muscles!”

“You’re a shapeshifter- oh forget it,” Wade trailed off into a chuckle, setting to checking the sheets and mattresses for signs of unwanted critters while Keaton parted the glass doors to the room’s balcony.

He sighed contentedly as he leaned on the railing, looking out at the sea not far beyond before closing his eyes as a slight breeze caressed his face.

“We are officially bug-free,” Wade announced as he approached, his hat and sunglasses discarded inside.

“Good.”

“Well… what do you think?”

Keaton looked from the horizon to his husband, smirking. “It’s no Oslo, but I can make it work for, well, work.”

“Of course it’s not Oslo, fuck, do you think there’s anywhere in the states that’s as scenic as Oslo??? As the whole of Norway???”

“I like Colorado’s views.”

Wade briefly chewed on his lip, savoring a memory as he responded in a husky tone, “I liked Colorado’s views, too.~”

The two devolved into knowing giggles before Wade took Keaton’s hands to make him face him.

“Kiss kiss,” Wade hummed, puckering his lips.

“Kiss kiss,” Keaton responded before standing on tip-toe to connect his chapped lips with his husband’s. It of course got out of hand quickly, their mouths open and breaths hot and labored, Keaton’s back uncomfortably pressed against the metal railing of the balcony but his mind too focused on Wade to care. Keaton’s fingers found Wade’s wedding ring, tracing it in a memorized manner as Wade moved his mouth down to his neck, drawing soft sounds out of him as lips and teeth collided with pale flesh.

“You left your door open,” Weasel’s familiar voice broke the spell just as Wade bit down hard enough to make his husband groan, eyes closed and head lolling back.

“Weasel, you motherfucker-!” Wade snapped, turning on his heel, “can’t you see we’re trying to have an intimate moment?!”

“We just landed barely an hour and a half ago. Chill out. And nobody wants to see a rotten tomato fucking a marshmallow on a balcony, er, no offense, Keats.”

“Full offense,” Keaton responded, deadpan and not really meaning anything, “just because we’re married doesn’t mean the sexual escapades stop, my dear rodent. Your virgin eyes and ears should just be happy we haven’t tried to join the mile-high club yet.”

The man sighed, trying not to make eye contact with either of his, begrudgingly, friends. “Yeah, whatever…”

“Begone, pervert!” Wade concluded before shooing his friend away from the door and closing it. As soon as the couple made eye contact they burst into more giggling.

“He really should be used to this by now,” Keaton sighed, cheeks flushed.

“I think the only person who has and will ever get used to it is you, pumpkin, Hell, I can’t believe we’ve kept it together this long… I mean, I’ve woken up every day since the wedding, stared at that ring and thought, ‘shit… I’m married to someone who really gets me. I didn’t even think that was possible. A rare score for Wade Wilson.’ Then I usually visualize some confetti, y’know, for added effect. Why’re you looking at me like that?”

“Because I love it when you smile like a doof when you ramble.”

“I’m not smiling! You���re smiling!” Wade attempted to make himself frown but found it nearly impossible, especially when his stomach began to growl. “Sounds like the black hole tank is empty again.”

“Let’s go see what there is to eat around here,” Keaton grabbed his husband’s hat and placed it on his head before kissing his nose, “stud.~”

[lululawrence]

lululawrence’s May 2021 Fic List

Previous Fic Lists / Fic List Podcast Masterpost

May somehow managed to escape my grasp and here we are again! I got a weekend away from the kids this month, which allowed me the chance to finally read for hours on end, and I therefore have quite a few fics to talk about! They were truly amazing, I loved every single one, and I hope you appreciate them too!

If you’d like to hear me share my excitement about these fics verbally and in more detail, you can listen to this month’s podcast here.

As always, be sure to show your love and appreciation for all of the hard work our fandom authors have put into their fics with kudos, nice comments, and (when applicable) reblogging their fic posts!

Just for Tonight (I can be yours) by @sadaveniren / SadaVeniren (42k, E, Harry/Louis, Big Bang fic, A/B/O, Royalty AU, Alpha Louis, Omega Harry, Innocent Harry, Sheltered Harry, Arranged Marriage, Friends to Lovers, Angst with a Happy Ending, but HOW DO THEY GET THERE?? lol, Mpreg, Heat/Rut, Poor as shit sex education lmao, Okay but for real the world building in this was incredible, I can still see the pictures in my mind that I conjured up for certain parts of this fic, It is incredible and the PINING AND ANGST OMG)

reckless serenade by @thepolourryexpress /  thepolourryexpress (4k, E, Harry/Louis, Girl Direction, This one is a bit hard to explain lmao, ....Non-Established Relationship.... relationship, it makes sense in the fic lol, clueless idiots in love, there we go, friends to lovers, humor, fluff, This is beyond sweet and fucking sexy)

a little tenderness by @disgruntledkittenface / disgruntledkittenface (11k, NR, Harry/Niall, 1D A/B/O Fest fic, Alpha Harry, Omega Niall, Touch Deprivation, Nesting, Cuddling, Scenting, Ace Harry, Fluff, Okay listen this fic was so fucking soft I cannot express to you, It was HEALING, I cryyyyyy it was just so beautiful)

What if I'm someone you won't talk about? by @louloubabys1992 / louloubaby92 (58k, M, Harry/Louis, Fine Line Fest fic, Song Fic, Based on Falling, Famous/Non-Famous, Childhood Sweethearts, Exes to Lovers, Kind of but not really at the same time?, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending but there’s fucking angst okay? lol, Hurt/Comfort, Sex Work, Exploitation, References to Rape, PTSD, There’s a lot of dark shit in here, please please please read the tags and keep yourself safe, But if you can handle it then fuck it was an fascinating story for sure!)

When Least Expected by @all-these-larrythings / Rearviewdreamer (22k, M, Harry/Louis, Quarantine Fic, Single Parent Louis, Teacher Harry, Mentions of Depression, Online Dating? Kind of?, Maybe it’s more like Long Distance dating, except they’re in the same city, anyway, Pining, Flirting, Oblivious boys, Soft, This fic was the epitome of soft, It was so incredibly healing to read it, So cathartic and beautiful and lovely, It just made me so happy and at peace reading this fic, and I really didn’t expect that from a quarantine fic tbh)

so c'mon c'mon (and dance with me baby) by @rockstarlouis / theweightofmywords (3k, NR, Harry/Louis, New Year’s Fic, Meet Cute, Louke are together at the beginning but it doesn’t last long, Work Party, but neither Louis or Harry work there lololol, Humor, Drinking, Dancing, This fic was just so short and sweet and fun I loved it)

Pound Cake by @kingsofeverything / kingsofeverything (2k, NR, Harry/Louis, Butthole Series fic, Hurt Louis, Sad Louis, Harry’s birthday, Friends to Lovers, Crack fic lmao, Misunderstandings, This fic was so funny but also somehow sweet, while still being about buttholes, Lauren is a magician what can I say lol)

Get Burned By the Fire by Anonymous (13k, NR, Shawn/Niall, Heartbreak Weather Fest fic, Song Fic, based on Small Talk, Bartender Niall, Mysterious Shawn, Casual Sex, I think that’s how you’d define their arrangement? lol, Pining, Harry and Louis are together and Niall’s besties and coworkers, They’re hilarious through all of this, Even though it’s casual sex or meant to be anyway, It defo is also like... a Breakup Fic, and also Exes to Lovers, Supernatural Elements, It’s all complicated and sooooo fucking gooooood)

The Shooting Star Of Promises And Fears by darkpoets (2k, NR, Harry/Louis, Soulmates, Wishes, This fic is incredibly hard to explain or describe, because the style and feel of it is incredibly unique, It feels almost floaty while you read it, if that makes sense)

Getting a Room by bluespring864 (2k, G, Lewis/Niall, Friends to Lovers, Mutual Pining, Idiots in Love, Banter, Listen this fic is short but packed to the brim with feels, omgggggg SO MANY FEELS, and so so lovely the way it comes together, but also hilarious too?, it’s just very THEM, I could also hear all the lines Lewis says in this fic in his accent, I heard his voice speaking them in my head, and I was trying so hard not to laugh out loud as I sat reading, surrounded by strangers lmao, It was so awkward but worth it)

Caves End by @jacaranda-bloom / jacaranda_bloom (40k, E, Harry/Louis, Big Bang fic, Famous/Non-Famous, Farmer Louis, Rancher Louis is maybe better?, I’ll put both cause Dee said farmer lmao, Footballer Harry, Australia fic, Horseback Riding, Angst, Miscommunication, Dee’s tags about that are hilarious please read them, Hurt/Comfort, This fic is just EVERYTHING, okay, It was so incredibly good)

and all I think about is you and safer by your side (parts 4 and 5 of where the lights are beautiful) by @polkadotlou / twoshipsdrifting (1k each, T, Harry/Louis, Alternate Universe, A/B/O, Alpha Harry, Omega Louis, Established Relationship, Mentions of Heat, Drabbles, Listen this whole series is amazing, and if you haven’t read it then these drabbles won’t have the same power they do otherwise, but they are SO DAMN GOOD OKAY)

Counterculture by @sadaveniren / SadaVeniren (6k, E, Harry/Louis, Omega Harry Fest, A/B/O, Omega Harry, Alpha Louis, Famous/Non-Famous, Underground Clubs, Pack Dynamics, Scenting, Public Sex, Orgies, Pregnancy and Lactation Kink, Like... this fic is FILTHY while still having super cool worldbuilding elements in it, and it’s kinky as shit cause Sada, In other words this is fantastic)

Say Something by @kingsofeverything / kingsofeverything (105k, E, Harry/Louis, Alternate Universe, A/B/O, Alpha Louis, Omega Harry, Older Harry, Age Difference, Heat/Rut Partners, Friends to Lovers, Kind of?, It’s Complicated lol, MPreg, Divorced Harry, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Harry has a lot of shit to work through, It all works out and it’s so fucking good)

The Until Series by @allwaswell16 / allwaswell16 (62k total, Harry/Louis (parts 1 and 3), Niall/Shawn (Part 2), Big Bang fic and Heartbreak Weather Fest fic, Song Fic, Seriously the whole albums is basically the inspiration lol, Cowboy Harry, Child Actor Harry, Cowboy Shawn, Songwriter Louis, Singer Niall, Farm Fic, Enemies to Lovers, Misunderstanding, So good just all of it, Dumb boys in love lol)

That Smile and That Midnight Laugh by @uhoh-but-yeah-alright / yeah_alright (50k, T, Harry/Louis, but also Harry/Nick at the beginning, Big Bang fic, Girl Direction, Based on Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, It’s like an extension and starts where the movie ended, So cool in that way I loved it, Grimmy and Louis are step-siblings, Friends to Lovers, No Cheating if that’s a concern, Sexuality Crisis but it’s more of like a Gay Awakening, Coming of Age story in that way, So freaking soft like omg, I just really freaking loved this fic)

[deepperplexity]

I see that you are hurt by dumb dramatic readers and it honestly makes me so sad because you are so brilliant and amazing and I look forward to everything you do~ ❤

I'm not hurt but pissed off tbh, and it takes a bit before I get there so... And not for myself as much as for others. I just don't understand why it's so difficult to read those 5-50 words that tell you what you need to know...

For myself it's more the audacity of some readers to demand a second part, a new chapter or another book as their first interaction with me - no likes, no comments, no reblogs, nothing at all - and then they come inte my inbox or DMs, or they comment somewhere with "I want a third book" or "Do a second part to this! I need it!" - excuse you?! The audacity of some.

Now, I know my readers, I know some are too shy to comment or interact and I know some devour everything I post while being invisible and that's okay, that's their choice even if it does contribute to creators not creating content anymore, but to not exist and then BOOM come and demand things of me? Um, no. And, to think there will be new content when it's not encouraged from the start or somewhere along the way? Again, no.

We, fandom creators, do everything for free. We labour for hours upon hours and spend extreme amounts of time, though, feelings and energy on our creations and trust me that will not last if there is nothing given back by the consumers - throw in sudden rude demands and creators will absolutely say "goodbye, I've had enough".

I've been close a few times, to just pack it up and not do this anymore. The thing keeping me going are all my loyalists. The ones who always comment, always interact, always takes those extra minutes to give something back almost each and every time. There aren't many as I write for very small fandoms, with a very specific writing style, but my loyalists are AMAZING. Some have even gone so far as to make me fanart for my fics and that still blows my mind. Sometimes I think of that when I feel like it's not worth it.

But, the thing is, I still get people who are demanding things (and I don't mean "Will you make a part two of this? It was so good I absolutely loved it! +Kudos/like +reblog" but the "Make a part two!" from new ppl who haven't shown any previous hints of existing and has done nothing to show they appreciate my work) and it drains me of my creativity. My will and want to create.

We are human. We have thoughts, feelings, wants and needs - that's where all the creative stuff we make comes from in the first place. That needs to be replenished, needs to be cared for and nurtured. That consumers aren't even willing to read the provided information, that is there for their benefit, and then proceed to comment in a way that is hurtful to the creator when the creator has done their job that isn't even an obligation but a courtesy is like expecting a colourful piece of art to take form when all you give the creator to work with is dried up brushes and a bucket of grey paint, if even that. You can't create a colourful rainbow like that...

I guess I'm just angry that some don't even take a second to think about what they are commenting, what they are saying or demanding of another human that works for free for your entertainment... You can't even say "Thank you" or press a button to share the thing you enjoyed? But you can deman them to work more, work harder and give you what you want without consideration for them?

(If you who are reading this feel attacked by this, think about why you feel attacked... Why you feel guilty... Why you are angered about these words... Think about it.)

And Nonny, THANK YOU FOR YOUR CARE DARLING! You are so sweet and I am very grateful to have people like you here. I hope you'll continue to enjoy my work for as long as it's here and as long as I keep producing new stuff ♥️ Thank you so much for your care and I hope this wasn't a far too long reply and I do feel a little silly because this got a little out of hand. I'm just so angry for creators. 😞♥️

[t-lostinworlds]

for the youtube thing can u plese do the mouth to mouth challenge, i really want u to write it cause u r like the best writer ever , way better then me

TH’s YouTube Extras: Mouth to Mouth Challenge

a/n: you are too sweet gosh asdfghjkl thank you angel. i hope you enjoy this lovely! ❤ oh and it’s suggestive in some parts but not much hehe.

☰ youtube channel | recent video

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"Right, mouth to mouth challenge here we go!" Tom rubbed his hands together enthusiastically, gaze set on the camera as a wide grin played on his lips. "We each have to take the opposite sides of the food in our mouths and the first one to do as much as look away, loses the round. The overall loser gets to do a forfeit which will be decided by the boys."

You and Tom were both sitting side by side on the couch and much like before, the camera right in front. Harry was right behind it and this time he was joined by Tuwaine. Harrison was MIA given that he had errands to attend to.

"You seem a bit too excited," you teased.

Tom shrugged, turning to you with that charming grin. "I get to be so close to you and stare into those lovely, beautiful eyes, of course I'm excited."

"As if you don't already do that on a daily," you pointed out, amusement laced in your tone as you shook your head at your man.

"Yeah, I do. But I can never get enough of those gorgeous eyes, darling," he gushed, brown orbs glowing with adoration when it locked with yours, Tom flashing you that bright smile of his you always adore.

You beamed at him with a soft giggle, shaking your head before turning to the camera to shoot it a sympathetic smile. "He's just a walking ball of cheese guys, I apologise," you joked.

"As if she doesn't love it," Tom scoffed with a playful roll of his eyes, giving the camera a look before turning back to you. "Let's get into it shall we?"

"Let's."

Tom held his hand out. "First up," he paused, catching the candy—not so smoothly—that Tuwaine threw and then presenting it towards the camera. "Kit Kat."

"Break it like a sane person, Holland," you warned, Tom's laugh booming soon after your comment.

He knows how to eat a Kit Kat obviously, he does have brain cells. But other times when he feels like being an extra little shit, he breaks the bar the opposite direction on how you're supposed to, leaving you with uneven Kit Kat pieces. It honestly drives you up the wall all the damn time, Tom saying how he finds it so cute how you get riled up by a candy bar, hence why he does it whenever he can. It's one of the many ways he uses to press your buttons, all from love and affection of course.

Placing the tip of Kit Kat between his teeth, Tom leaned back on the couch, arm resting behind you as he shot you a nod. You moved closer, hand rested on his thigh as you took the opposite side. You two moved closer in fits of giggles as you ate the candy little by little, eyes locked securely that it was hard to determine on who would give up first. That until Tom decided to play dirty, literally.

He started groaning and moaning in a hush manner, pretending to enjoy the chocolate a bit too much. But you know what he was trying to do and given the proximity that you two are in, you can hear the sounds he was making very clearly and it was very distracting. It was when he shot you a wink that you pulled away, shaking your head to rid of the heat that coated your face.

Tom ate the rest of the chocolate with a hearty laugh. "I'd win this on a streak," he said smugly.

"Stop making those sounds Thomas," you complained in a whisper, Tom turning his head to look at you, acting all oblivious even though he knows what you meant.

"What sounds?"

You rolled your eyes.

A thought crossed your mind once you saw the next candy that Tuwaine tossed. You hummed to yourself with a nod. If Tom was going to play dirty then, might as well give him a taste of his own medicine.

"Sour belt this time," Tom said, showing the camera the candy over his palm like it's a make-up product. He did the same as before and placed the end of the strip between his lips.

Hand still firmly on his thigh, you started at the bottom since the candy was hanging down Tom's chin, keeping your gaze locked with his. Tom's eyes followed your form as you lowered yourself, orbs looking up at him with that all too familiar gloss. You darted your tongue out to take the candy between your lips before they started to move in a way that made Tom's insides churn. You looked at him through your lashes as you ate the candy inch by inch, giving his thigh a pointed squeeze. Tom choked in a breath at the sight, dropping the belt as he looked away with a low growl before things start to escalate in his head, knowing he can't hide it in his sweatpants.

A cheer erupted out of you as you sat straighter and turned to the camera, candy in mouth with both your hands thrown up in the air. "Point for me!" you laughed once you've eaten all of it.

Tom shook his head, gaze trained on the ground since his cheeks were now coated with a deep shade of red. "Not fair," he grumbled, the hand he had behind you picking at the material of the couch to distract his mind.

"What? I wasn't doing anything wrong," you hummed, tilting your head to the side as you looked at him with a pout.

It was Tom's turn to roll his eyes.

"Okay, last one," Tom said, catching the box of Jaffa cakes easily. He took one out and placed it between his teeth. This time, you had to move even closer to reach him since the length of the cake was much shorter than the previous candies.

As you started to lean in to take the other end, Tom dropped the Jaffa cake at the last minute to give you a loud—and very surprising—peck on your lips. The smack echoed around the room as you stared at him wide-eyed before your brain finally registered what had happened.

"Tom," you whined, dropping your head on his shoulder to hide the embarrassment on your face. Tom lets out a hearty laugh, wrapping his arms around your shoulders with a kiss landing on top of your head.

"She always gets shy whenever I give her random affections in public, or in this case, showing it online," he said towards the camera. "It's so freakin' adorable."

"Such a huge cheeseball," you grumbled before sitting up to meet his eyes. "You dropped the cake so I won. That makes it 2 for 1 so ha! You're doing the forfeit." You stuck your tongue out at him before turning to the camera with a proud glow on your face.

Tom shook his head with an adoring smile as he ogled at you fondly. He loves seeing you win, it's honestly the most endearing thing no matter how little the achievement and it makes him feel like he won himself.

"Totally worth it," Tom chuckled with a shrug.

"Until you see the forfeit," Harry quipped, Tuwaine coming over and handing Tom a glass of a very odd looking liquid.

"Oh no, what's in this?" Tom asked, a sharp grimace coating his face as he took the glass. He gave it a waft, gagging soon after with a look of downright disgust. "Mate, what the fuck is this? You guys trying to kill me or something?"

"It's everything you just ate blended together with a few secret ingredients," Tuwaine laughed.

"Bottoms up, babe," you giggled.

Tom looked at you with a deadpan expression as if to say, "Really?" You only shot him a bright smile, Tom sighing before his gaze landed back on the concoction.

"Can't believe I'm doing this," he muttered, hand coming up to pinch his nose before he threw his head back and took a big gulp. "It's actually not that bad when you get the smell out of the way," he hummed, smacking his lips as he eyed the drink in his hand.

"You are a weirdo," you laughed with a scrunch of your nose.

"I'm your weirdo," he retorted with a smug grin.

"Can we put a cheese counter in the corner of this video?" you joked.

Tom laughed with a shake of his head. "Well, that was very anti-climatic," he paused, showing the camera a peace sign and adding, "See you on the next one guys!"

Harry threw a thumbs-up to signal cut.

Tearing your gaze away from the camera, you turned to your boyfriend just in the nick of time. "Hey!" You snatched the drink away from Tom when he started to bring it up to his lips again. "What on earth are you doing?"

"It's not that bad, love," Tom chuckled.

"Yeah, until you complain about stomach aches and frequent visits to the toilet," you scoffed with a roll of your eyes. Standing up from your seat, you jabbed a finger at Tom. "Brush your teeth. No kisses for you until you do so." You raised a knowing brow at him before making your way to the kitchen to get rid of whatever this liquid is.

"Love you!" Tom called out lovingly, your voice echoing from the kitchen soon after.

"Love you too!"

"Ugh, so much cheese in this house it's starting to smell."

"Harry, you've never sounded more single."

"Fuck off, Tom."

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[pearwaldorf]

If I never see another post from Franzeska aka olderthannetfic here it will be too soon. How dare she answer questions about racism and AO3 like she wasn’t one of the people who helped build it into the very structure of the site? I am quoting this directly from her post (emphasis mine): 

We picked the archive warnings from things that were common on older fic archives. Which, yes, reflects what fandom cared about at the time and is not neutral. (And when I say “we”, I do mean me specifically. I can’t remember how much my committee chose those and how much the Board and others drove the exact selection, but I did a lot of the research into older archives at the time. Including something about racism straight up never occurred to me in 2008.)

And sure, our views can evolve a lot in a decade. But Racefail happened in 2009, and none of the topics discussed at the time are different than those we’re focusing on today, 11 years later. For shits and giggles, here is my archived Livejournal post about the entire mess. If you click through to the other links (synedochic’s in particular), I think you will see this is something that didn’t just pop up with Tumblr and the SJW/anti contingent. (I’m not comfortable with conflating antis/fandom fundies/purity wankers with fans legitimately criticizing racism in fandom, but that is how a lot of it gets lumped together as a dismissive tactic.)

Which brings us to That Piece of Shit Meta in 2016. I am linking to the Fanlore entry for context, because the Actual Piece of Shit Meta is archive-locked (you can access it from Fanlore if you really want to read it, but it’s 16K of garbage).

A selection of commentary about it:

Guys, this was the problem all along. I’m doing fandom wrong by falling in love with the wrong source text. If I’d only understood that this wasn’t my space to enjoy non-white and/or non-male characters, because the majority of characters are white men, imagine how much happier I’d be in my life. (allofthefeelings)

they’ve been spouting yt apologia while fetishizing asian culture for years, this is nothing new. i’m pretty sure i’ve read franzeska saying the same things back when racefail ‘09 was going down. like most of this isn’t surprising bc it is exactly what we saw yt lj fandom peeps spouting in 2007-2010 and i’m personally not shocked that these people learned absolutely nothing. they don’t want to learn and being accountable for their actions. (astro-projection [edited to correct quote attribution and link])

Franzeska goes deep into the history of AO3 to talk about why slash is represented heavily there... But in 16,000 words over 13 chapters, there is not one mention of Racefail ‘09. Not a single reference to the time a popular Harry Potter LJ community used a racial slur as a prompt in 2007. Nothing about the Supernatural RPF Big Bang story that used the 2010 Haiti earthquake as a backdrop for a J2 love story (THAT’S A REAL THING THAT HAPPENED). Nothing about the time in 2006 that comics BNF Te pointed out the marginalization black characters faced on two then-juggernauts of white m/m slash fandom, Angel and Smallville. (snarl-furillo, the entire comment is worth reading so please click through)

This erasure of context and history is violent. Because many of the women of color who originally (and still) critique/d and resist/ed fandom’s normalized racism/misogynoir did so to their own detriment and with not insignificant risk to their personal well-being, safety, and privacy. Women of color were ‘outed’ by other fans for speaking out (doxed). They were attacked and silenced from all sides. They lost friends and community. They had to, with great vulnerability, cut themselves open and drag out their own private, internal experiences to air for all the (white) people who disbelieved them. They often found themselves speaking directly to a fucking wall of over-sensitive whiteness that would just as easily topple right on top of them. If anything in fandom is precious, it’s white feelings. And it always has been. (halfhardtorock)

In 2017 she was part of a Kickstarter to do a film about fangirls and fandom. I asked (you’ll need to hit “show comment” to see it) her to publicly comment about That Piece of Shit Meta, which she did. 

But before she did, Chelsea Woods, the co-creator of the project, emailed me about the comment. I don’t remember what exactly the email said, because it was a really long time ago, but she wanted to talk to me about the meta, perhaps to help formulate a response. Chelsea also reached out to somebody else outspoken about the issue at the time, and this is from a DM exchange I had with them:  

I understand why Chelsea reached out, as the head of the project and probably because she thought I would be more likely to respond instead of Franzeska. But tbh it feels like Franzeska's trying to get somebody else (a woman of color) to do the legwork for her. To the best of my knowledge I don't have F blocked on Twitter or Tumblr, and it's not like my email is hard to figure out.  I don't exactly relish the thought of talking to her, but as the one who fucked up, I feel like it is incumbent upon her to make the gesture...

I basically told Chelsea the same as you, that at this point there is very little she can do to demonstrate she understood what she did was fucked up, and that she has learned anything from the experience.

And when I tried to reblog her response, I found out Franzeska had blocked me, if that gives you any indication of how much she honestly wants to engage in discussion. 

Which brings me to now. I was literally today years old when I learned that Franzeska was head of the Abuse team for A While. (Bess says 2008-2012.) So suddenly a lot of things make sense, especially the lackluster (to put it politely) response about racist nonsense I’ve heard over the years, like in male hockey RPF. [edit: additional context in this post, ty Rukmini]

Certainly Franzeska is not responsible for everything racist about AO3, but she has definitely had a hand in shaping a culture that sacrifices the well-being and comfort of black users (among others) on the altar of “maximum inclusivity of content”. To turn the phrase back on them, who is “our own”? Why is it important to preserve an environment where a racially fetishistic fic that objectifies a black hockey player can stay up but a black fan basically has to go in like Viago checking for sunlight?

There is a balance between draconian content restrictions and letting racism, sexism, transphobia, etc run rampant on the site. I’m not saying it will be possible to find it immediately, or that it won’t change over time. But we have to try, if the AO3 is truly committed to making it a place that includes everybody, and not just the specific group of people who designed the site.