#but the lack of discipline and lack of support from management makes it a very hostile work environment

[unforseenkiss]

tbh people who work in group homes are braver than any us marine, the amount of fucking crap from our clients that we have to put up with is unimaginable and we're not allowed to press charges against them even if it's warranted otherwise we lose our jobs so we literally just have to sit there and take the abuse hurled at us for less than 20$/hour and zero benefits. And then management wonders why we have such a high turnover rate, like duh no one wants to stay when they're treated like shit by the company and the clients

[daportalpractitioner]

taurus degrees in the natal chart (2°, 14°, 26°)

2° = really connected to your physical senses, strong + stubborn preferences, naturally gifted + can easily attract money, gets money but doesn't necessarily know how to sustain it, self worth is connected to what the planet represents, hoarder, consumes without much discernment, creativity comes easy, attractive, gluttonous, strong innate connection to the earth, strong values instilled from childhood, usually traditional, stubborn attitude it comes to your missions on earth, don't let the world rush your process, naive, here for a good time + a long time, strong libido, sexually immature, make sure your taste grows as you continue to grow, naturally clairaudient

14° = strong attachments, hard to move on, here to develop your self-worth, changes in values that are more authentic to you, loyal to a fault, need to learn how to manage utilize sexual energy to your advantage, blocked throat chakra, stand on your values, hedonist, struggles with poor diet, people usually see your worth + potential before you do, tendency to overwork self, earth witch, struggles with stagnancy, strong sacral energy, values strong foundation, establish strong boundaries, too practical + too little faith, being gaslit for strong boundaries, craves peace, young mom vibes, lack of patience, enjoy the journey, great taste but pockets need to match that, promiscuous, stubborn + picky eater, affirm yourself: i deserve this!

26° = overcome poverty mindset, self-sustenance is a big theme in life, money savvy, empress energy, strong values, the marriage type, strong fertility, oshun archetype, meant to be wealthy, generational wealth, disciplined + dedicated, the stronger the self-worth/values the more money you accumulate, alchemize with the elements, knowing what's best for you + standing on that, very bougie, can manifest with ease using womb/sacral energy, emotionally grounded, use sex to create your dream life, sugar daddy/mommy vibes, family looks at you for financial support (set boundaries), findom, your creativity supports your lifestyle

[rederiswrites]

I wrote this out for FB and then thought I might as well share it here as well. So if you have ADHD, are a late-diagnosed adult with ADHD, and most particular if you are a person with a uterus and/or have children, this one might be for you.

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Last couple of days have been a little...weird. Let's start at the beginning. Buckle up and learn something.

As many of you already know, I have ADHD. It's a condition with a PR problem--a lot of people, often even medical professionals, have a very distorted idea of what it does, and a very limited one. For starters, it's not about parenting, or lead paint, or lack of discipline. It's genetic, *highly* heritable, starts in childhood and persists throughout life, and is a sufficiently severe disability that it comes with a decrease in life expectancy of up to 13 years. It is a visible difference that can be perceived in brain scans. These are all, at this point, well established and thoroughly attested in the scientific literature. ADHD affects up to 5% of the population and appears across cultures. It is very common.

It's not just about lack of attention--in fact, plenty of medical professionals think the name should be changed, as in fact the problem isn't the volume of attention but the way we struggle to direct it. We are motivated by interest, and struggle to properly weight future goals and consequences, specifically because they are in the future. If the robin outside the window is more immediately rewarding to our brain, we will watch that, and not the teacher. Our ability to properly weigh the consequences of that choice is negatively impacted by our own biochemistry.

We struggle with many of what are termed the "executive functions", the self management systems of the brain. Degree and presentation varies from person to person, but initiating tasks, completing tasks, staying ON task, restraining impulses, emotional regulation, and working memory are among the things impacted. My working memory is notoriously horrible. When they send you those activation codes on your phone? I often have to go back and read them out several times to enter a six digit number. I have to stop and remind myself what I'm doing between every step of my morning bathroom routine, or making tacos. Sometimes I take off my glasses to put on my contacts, reset, and reach for my pill bottles while I still can't see. My long-term memory is also affected, with my husband de facto serving as the memory-holder of the family.

Another common symptom I personally experience is "time blindness", which can mean both that you have no "internal clock" that has a clear idea of the passage of time, and that our ability to properly weight the importance of things in the future is impacted. So, for example, I can know intellectually what's coming, but it takes some really complex and exhausting antics to actually focus and work on those things if they're more than a week or sometimes even a couple days away.

Without externally imposed controls, many ADHD people flounder and fail to meet social markers of success. Estimates of how many ADHD people manage to complete college range from 5% to 15%. Again: 5% to 15%! I have failed twice myself. WITH externally imposed controls, ADHD people often have to work far harder to make their brains do what is required, and either fail and develop an image of themselves as failures (usually with plenty of external help), or keep fighting and suffer crippling burnout.

To that point, ADHD is HIGHLY comorbid with a whole range of knock-on conditions, some of which stem from the same brain patterns that give rise to the ADHD itself, and others from the trauma of living with a disability, but they include very high rates of depression, anxiety, fibromyalgia, social isolation, and addiction. I have dealt with depression, anxiety, and fibromyalgia my entire adult life. I have never ended up in the trap of self-medication but let's be real, that's partly about having supports and a healthy social environment. It's not some accomplishment I praise myself for, nor is addiction a sin I shame anyone for.

And anxiety has a very different texture to it when what you're really anxious about is the next time you fail in some catastrophic way. Lock your keys in the car. Completely space on a doctor's appointment. Go to pay for groceries and find that your wallet is next to your computer at home. Because the anxiety is not irrational fear of some generalized bad thing. These things do and will happen, regularly. Sometimes it feels like the only fix is getting good at recovering. Because no matter how many times you manage not to blow it, there's always another chance.

So, the struggle to be a reliable person, to be a consistent parent, to be a dependable life partner, is continuous. And it is so so so hard and it sometimes feels like you're not actually making any progress at all. I have tried therapy. I have tried three (or four??) different non-stimulant medications that sometimes help people. One of them DID help. ALL of them had catastrophic side effects. There were times as I was trialing these medications when I needed to be minded because I wasn't capable of taking care of anything, not even myself. Without Jacob, I don't know where I'd be. Not here. Probably in poverty, which is where he found me.

I have tried probably most organizational tools you know of. I have tried imposing schedules, all of which turned to dust and ash when the next fibromyalgia flareup or the next major life disruption happened. I don't think a new schedule has ever lasted a month before.

I HAVE felt like I'm made progress lately. I learned things that really helped my fibromyalgia, which gave me the space to work on other things--just like getting the borders of a puzzle finished. Enough things were spiraling upwards, and I think I might be cementing some gains. I have felt optimistic.

But in the meantime, I asked my doctor if, now that no less than three cardiologists have insisted my heart is Perfectly Healthy, I could finally try stimulant medications. After decades of use, Adderall, Ritalin, and a couple related stimulant drugs are still the gold standard for ADHD treatment and improve outcomes substantially for many people. And stimulants are in serious international shortage. Have been for many months. The only one she thought she could get me was Adderall. And she didn't dare try anything but the standard 30mg because nonstandard dosages would be even less attainable.

So now I'm taking Adderall. One week on 30mg, which I stopped when it was clear my function was being seriously impaired rather than improved. Reassessed with the doctor, now trying 60mg, because that's two of the pills I've already managed to obtain. It is....too much. And in some ways it fixes problems I wasn't working on, while so far making my executive function, my initiation or even *contemplation* of tasks, virtually nonexistant. Which was, of course, the thing I was trying to fix.

So yeah. When you have the context, I figure you can understand the substance of my frustration yourself. If you have children, I don't think you need my help to imagine what it would be like to know that you are unpredictable, or to see that your children are used to to you undergoing events that make you act strangely and erratically. I think just knowing that often, new medications introduce themselves by giving me a migraine, and I know this is possible when I take that first pill, is fairly self-explanatory. And so I expect you can imagine what it would be like, with all of this as a backdrop, to experience worsening of your symptoms, probably because of age-related hormonal changes. To in desperation try something you'd previously been denied. And to learn that it probably won't help.

In a week, I will either give up on Adderall for now or find a way to make it work. I'll put together the pieces yet again--at this point, possibly my strongest personal skill--and continue that upward climb as far as I can get. I'm incredibly fortunate in that regardless, I will be fed and dry and warm and loved. But right now, I feel justified in some serious dismay.

[elysiansparadise]

Jupiter-Saturn conjunction in the composite chart

The conjunction between Jupiter and Saturn is one of my personal favorites as it is the union of the opportunities, expansion and growth of Jupiter energy with the structure, discipline and stability of Saturn. In a composite chart, it creates a balance between ambition and reality, vision and practicality, favoring the durability of a relationship and its quality [whether friendly or romantic]. It is favorable to build solid foundations while aspiring to sustained growth and something very nice in the long term. This post can also apply to those who have Jupiter and Saturn in the same house regardless of whether there is a conjunction.

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🩶In the 1st house: They both feel a sense of fulfillment with the other, feel more confident and constantly seek to encourage the other to trust themselves. This is a relationship that will lead them to grow, they will live moments that they will treasure and that will positively impact their lives. There is a strong loyalty between them, they see in the other someone with whom they can build a lasting relationship. You are fun with each other and, even if you are fascinated by how your partner helps you relax and have a good time, you value and appreciate that you can take things seriously when it’s needed. They are reliable with each other, and will always seek to give many positive things to their partner, to be a beautiful experience that takes their focus off of what was tense in the past or what overwhelms them in the present.

🩶In the 2nd house: This couple feels a strong need to work on the stability of the relationship, from the economic sphere to everything that can promise them a lasting and loving relationship. They focus on knowing and sharing values ​​together, they place a high priority on honesty, justice, loyalty and companionship. This couple will grow gradually, they will not feel the need to rush or take unnecessary risks in the relationship. They will not pressure the other and can be understanding when it comes to respecting the pace or essence of the other person. Both have a preference for long-term relationships and may prefer something more serious than hook-up culture. They will be certain that the other is what they want and they will always value the other, letting them know. This couple can improve their finances and its management in this relationship.

🩶In the 3rd house: This duo will focus on having open communication with their partner, giving them the freedom to express themselves without fear of being judged as well as heard when things get tense or become too much. They will seek to be clear and patient with each other so as not to give rise to misunderstandings or tensions. They will love talking about their future together and everything they want to do with each other. Both will bring calm and relaxation to your partner's tension or stress, as well as structure and order if they lack a realistic approach. They will be able to talk about things like adults without blaming the other, without belittling or insulting, because the respect they have for the other is bigger. There is a lot of admiration between them and they will seek to spend a lot of time together. 

🩶In the 4th house: Both parts give a lot of importance to the emotional well-being of the other, they seek to know better what they need to feel good in the relationship and together they work to make this union something comfortable that satisfies the emotional needs of the other. They focus on creating a safe environment for each other where they can be vulnerable and rest after the stress of the outside world. Mutual support, reliability and a vision to create a home together both in sensation and in something tangible. They can form a beautiful and loving home where together they are everything they wanted to in terms of relationship and parents. They work hard to have emotional stability, to ensure that the other never doubts their love and to be able to form a beautiful bond.

🩶In the 5th house: Both will experience both sides of love, from the one that is romantic, lighthearted and exciting, but stable and reliable at the same time. They will feel genuine love and a desire to love each other correctly, that is, to make each other feel loved. They will genuinely feel great admiration for each other and will be able to give them that push to believe in their potential and talents. Generous with each other, very affectionate and delighted with the idea of ​​growing together. No matter how busy your lives or schedule are, spending time with each other will always be a priority and you will make space for each other. They will focus on making the other feel validated, loved and adored.

🩶In the 6th house: This couple is interested and focused on fulfilling their role in the relationship, that is, acting in honor of the title of couple. They have a strong need to do the right thing, to care about each other's well-being, and to support each other. This couple will choose to help the other in practical and useful ways, seeking to contribute solutions to the other's problems. They want to create a relationship together in which both know without the need for words that they can count on the other. This relationship will feel like taking weight off your shoulders, as you will teach each other that it is okay to rely on each other and that as long as you are together, you will not have to deal with everything alone. Strong support and a genuine desire to care and look out for each other.

🩶In the 7th house: Both have a high level of dedication towards the relationship, they constantly work hard to have a fair relationship in which both receive what they give and feel loved, supported and safe by the other. Loyalty and understanding stand out a lot in this couple, who strive to be equals, without toxic roles of domination or desires for control. A mix between the seriousness of commitment and the joy and enthusiasm of living a passionate and fulfilling romance with the other. Both feel a deep dedication to the other, they will never want to fail the other and they can feel the desire to be there for the other no matter what. They feel fulfilled, satisfied and delighted to have this relationship, not only with someone they deeply adore but someone who is just what they want. They work to maintain harmony and to be united regardless of adversity.

🩶In the 8th house: They may feel that the arrival of the other brought with it an endless number of positive things, not only the company of someone stable and dedicated to the relationship, but opportunities to grow [at work or as a person] or even a transformation in their vision of life. This couple can change the other person's way of thinking, perceiving and approaching life. Both put a focus on creating a safe spot where they can work on all areas of intimacy, which they will always seek to improve. They care about knowing each other deeply and being truly there, next to each other when things get tense.  They will begin to leave behind things that no longer bring them positive things. The trust in this relationship is huge and they will always give each other reasons to trust and love each other. 

🩶In the 9th house: They focus a lot on experiencing many things alongside each other, from traveling and visiting new places, to exploring feelings or moments they never experienced in previous relationships. They put a lot of focus on getting to know each other deeply and working together for the happiness of both, without this being at the expense of the other’s. Deep mutual respect, admiration. They want to grow and achieve their dreams and for the other person to be there to enjoy by their side. Both encourage each other and push the other to go after what they consider only a dream, no matter how far away it may seem. They are people who have always looked for deep meanings, and that is precisely why they connect so well in a relationship whose connection is as deep.

🩶In the 10th house: This couple is oriented towards making the relationship a success, making it long-lasting, healthy and based on everything they consider crucial  or needed in order to have the relationship they want. They focus a lot on making their plans together come true and making the future together something possible and desirable. Both can have improvements at the work level after starting the relationship, a feeling of personal fulfillment and improvements in self-esteem. They will help each other recognize their potential, skills and opportunities for growth. Their support for each other is unconditional, they want to see the other's success and celebrate it as their own. Their goals fit well with each other's, which makes them feel on the same page.

🩶In the 11th house: They have many long-term aspirations and desires in common, similar priorities, and a strong value on quality over quantity when it comes to relationships of any kind. They may feel lucky to have connected with each other, since they share many things in common, such as the inclination to ensure unity in their relationship without forgetting their individuality. They can obtain promotions or salary increases after starting their relationship, as well as a lot of success in their work environment. They can form more lasting and real connections too, this being one of them. The comfort, freedom and happiness they feel with each other are factors that they experience from the beginning of the relationship and what makes them feel safe in maintaining this relationship.

🩶In the 12th house: There is a deep emotional connection between them, both know the other's burdens, their fears, desires and core, and they do not flee from it but rather seek to go hand in hand with the other, supporting each other in the process. There is a desire to deeply understand the other without judging them, but wanting to be the support and companion they hug after a tense day. They are not looking for a superficial relationship, they are looking for this to be as meaningful for the other as it is for them. They want to be a balance, in which one part brings joy to the other in case of sadness, or calm in case of chaos, alternating roles and adapting to the other. They both want the relationship to be a sanctuary where they don't have to have their walls up or constantly fear.

[sayuricorner]

Transformers G1 AU idea: Neglected Decepticons's heir AU

Warning: English is not my first language so sorry if it's a bit confusing! ^^'

Here's an idea for a Transformers G1 AU in which Megatron had a son.

If you had any question regarding the AU don't hesitate to ask! ^^

And if you want to use this AU go ahead, just don't forget to tag and credite me please! ^^

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Plot:

At the start of the war, Megatron created an heir to succed him to secure his lineage and leadership of the Decepticons.

His creation is a young sparkling he named Ironshard.

However, despite having created him to become his heir, Megatron was so obsessed with the war that he took no part in Ironshard's upbringing, Starscream and Soundwave were the ones who raised Ironshard and educated while Megatron focused on the war.

This bring Ironshard to grow up into a young mech with a sharp mind and fine strategist thanks to Soundwave's and Starscream's mentorship.

Since he was a Sparkling, Ironshard craved for his father's approval and worked hard, especially in combat and strategy, to prove himself worthy, however Megatron's cold and distant demeanor and neglect toward Ironshard never changed.

This made Ironshard grown from wanting to do his best to had his father's validation and love to become delusioned with Megatron and seeing Soundwave and Starscream as his true creator figures which create a rift between Ironshard and Megatron.

However, things took a new turns when the Autobots and Decepticons found themselves on a planet named "Earth".

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Ironshard:

-Is Megatron's son

-Alt form: Tank

-Armor colors: Black and purple

-Optics: Red

-Personnality:

-Having been raised by Starscream and Soundwave, Ironshard have been shaped into a formidable strategist and tactician: stoic, smart, cunning and logical with a tactical mind. His logical and disciplined nature make him a valuable asset to the Decepticon's cause.

Ironshard is very loyal to the Decepticon's cause but not very much to Megatron whose increasingly reckless and destructive actions from his obsession to destroy Optimus Prime and the Autobots through the war made Ironshard question Megatron's ability as a leader.

However, his stoicism and lack of true social relationships, outside of his creator figures, while growing up made Ironshard to be socially awkward. He does had a good side but he show it in a very discreet and subtile way.

He is also known to be a workaholic due to his dedication to the Decepticon cause to the point Starscream, his trine and Soundwave had to fight tooth and nail to make him to get a decent time of recharge as like Megatron, even if Ironshard tend to deny it, Ironshard can be very stubborn.

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Relationships with some of the characters:

→Megatron: Megatron and Ironshard had a very difficult father-son relationship, one which is completely inexistant emotionaly speaking. Megatron had created Ironshard to be his heir but quickly end up neglected him to focus on the war. Once upon a time Ironshard wanted to make Megatron proud of him and get his validation but Megatron's coldness and detachment to ward him made Ironshard grow delusioned, creating a rift between father and son.

→Starscream: Having raised Ironshard alongside Soundwave, Starscream initialy saw this as an opportunity: his plan was to raised and mold Ironshard into a Decepticon who embodies his own vision of the Decepticon cause and Starscream planned that once he finally managed to overthrow he will make Ironshard HIS heir to secure his legacy. However as time pass, Starscream developped a genuine care and affection for Ironshard, to which he always try to deny.

→Soundwave: Having raised Ironshard alongside Starscream, Soundwave had always been an unwavering support to Ironshard which have been another source of strength to the young mech. If Soundwave is very loyal to Megatron, the latter's neglected toward Ironshard, his own son, the heir, the future of the Decepticon cause, created a little bit of resentment toward the Decepticon leader.

→The Stunticons: When the Stunticons, who unlike Ironshard have been created directly in adult cybertronians frames, were created by Megatron, Megatron quickly neglected them, like he had done with Ironshard, Megatron seeing them only as weapons. Motormaster who want to had Megatron's validation, had a deep jealousy and envy toward Ironshard as the latter is Megatron's oldest creation and "official son" and Motormaster often try to provoke him to prove that he is "the most worthy of Megatron", creating a very one-sided rivalry. Ironshard just ignore Motormaster's provocations most of the time, seeing them as childish and ultimately pountles, however, while annoyed by Motormaster's provocations, Ironshard understands his yearning for Megatron's approval. He sees a younger version of himself in Motormaster, someone who hasn't yet grasped Megatron's true nature, who don't understand that Megatron is way too selfish to see the actual worth of those around him, especially his own creations. Despite all this and the Stunticons's brutish and rowdy nature, Ironshard recognizes the Stunticons' potential as a strategic asset. He saw their raw power and rebellious nature as very valuable in certain situations and want to "influence them" to develop this potential and for Motormaster to develop his potential as a leader of his team.

→The humans: Unlike most of the Decepticons, Ironshard doesn't had any disgust toward humans or organics in general, in fact he is Neutral about humans, he doesn't really care about them. He also saw attacking the humans as bad strategies 'cause this lead to more unecessaries battles with the Autobots, leading to more use and waste of ressources which to him only made things difficult for the Decepticons cause's goal: win the war to change Cybertron from its oppressive former society.

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The AU can take two different depending if whoever who use the AU want to stay in G1 or if they want to go in the Earthspark continuity.

If it's follow the G1 continuity:

When in 2005 Megatron was turned into Galvatron by Unicron and the dead Decepticons were turned into soldiers for Galvatron, the latter made his "comeback" to the Deceptions with the attention to "upgrading" every Decepticon into a soldier who fight on the name of Unicron, resulting into a big battle between the Decepticons and Galvatron and his soldiers.

-Unlike the canon Starscream didn't die but have been severly damaged and ended up crippled and unable to fly making him unable to lead the Decepticons until he is repaired.

-Unlike the canon Soundwave didn't join Galvatron, to him Megatron was dead and Galvatron was just a puppet of Unicron using Megatron's frame. Soundwave ended up very damaged to the point he ended up in a coma.

-With both the SIC and the TIC being unable to lead the Decepticons, the duty falls on the heir: Ironshard.

-Despite his relationship with Megatron being non existent, Ironshard was still affected by his father's fate as deep down even if he grown up delusioned with his father a tiny part of him still hoped that they could had a better relationship one day but now it will never happen and the current state of his two creator figures made his mental state worst.

-Now Ironshard had to take the duties of leading the Decepticons, the war having drastically changed and was no more a matter of "Autobots VS Decepticons" but a matter of "Cybertronians VS Unicron and his spawns".

If it's follow the Earthspark continuity:

In 2005 an important event made Megatron had an epiphany regarding the war and switched sides to join forces with the Autobots, leaving a lot of Decepticons angry and feeling deeply betrayed by their now former leader.

Ironshard was among the ones who felt betrayed the most, he already bottled up resetment toward Megartron for not having be a father toward him as he should had and also for also having neglected the Stunticons just like he did with Ironshard and also for having let his obsession with destroying Optimus Prime and the Autobots nearly jeopardize the Decepticons more than one time.

But turning his back on his own faction and the convictions Megatron defended after everything? After all the sacrefices made? After all those millenials of a war HE started? This made all the resentment Ironshard had toward his father explode in anger.

-After the final battle of the Cybertronian war Ironshard became the leader of the Decepticons with Starscream still being the SIC and Soundwave the TIC.

-The three made a strategy of having Starscream posing as the leader of the Decepticons so G.H.O.S.T wouldn't find out about Ironshard's existence while Ironshard is the leader in the shadows.

-The Decepticons had etablished a new base nested in the arms of the Himalayas.

-In this base, outside of Ironshard,are a bunch other Decepticons like the rest of the Stunticons, the Constructicons, Blitzwing and Astrotrain, the Coneheads ect...

-Officially, Thundercracker is a neutral after the war but because of the potential threat of G.H.O.S.T, he is for now staying in the base with Bustier a little organic dog he had adopted one years ago.

-Megatron deeply regret how he had treated Ironshard in the past and through "Earthspark" when he is not with the Maltos, Megatron is moving heaven and Earth around the world to find Ironshard in hope to reconsile with his son.

-The Decepticons's goal:-S1: free the Decepticons emprisoned by G.H.O.S.T.

-S2(In this AU, the season 2's events are differents, the Chaos Terrans are still present though): rassembling the Ember Stone's shards, rebuilding a Spacebridge, using the shards to make the Spacebridge work in hope to go back to Cybertron, find the Allspark and rebuild Cybertron.

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Additional headcanons:

-In the past Jazz often infiltrated the Decepticons disguised as a Decepticon named Ricochet to steal intel from the Decepticons and spy them, however one day Jazz, under his Ricochet disguise, while infiltrating the Decepticon base run into a, back then, very young Ironshard and when Ironshard asked him who he was and Jazz tried his "I'm Ricochet, I'm a new recruit!" charade, Ironshard had looked at him whith a stare which mean "You think I'm stupid or what?" before suddenly contacting Soundwave to alert that an Autobot disguised as a Decepticon had infiltrated the base and Jazz was forced to flee and menaged to escape before he could get captured by the Decepticons, ever since Jazz never used again the Ricochet disguise.   

-Ironshard managed to bust Jazz because since Ironshard is with Soundwave and Starscream most of the time he knew almost everyone in the Decepticon army and know whenever there's a new recruit and as far as Ironshard knew there is no Ricochet registed in the Decepticon army.

-This day Starscream and Soundwave have been panicked when they realized that Ironshard have been alone with Jazz because since Jazz is Optimus Prime's right man hand and the head of the Autobots's Special Operations Jazz had a bit of a "boogeyman reputation" among the Decepticons.

-Whenever Megatron is about to become very violent toward Starscream, Ironshard often intervene to deviate Megatron's attention to something else and calming Megatron down in the process. 

-While Jazz, like most of the Autobots, knows that Megatron had a son, he didn't realize right away that the little sparkling standing before him, aka Ironshard, was Megatron's son.

-Because Megatron haven't been very much involved in Ironshard's education and raising, despite being Ironshard's father/creator, Ironshard see more Starscream and Soundwave as his creators which Starscream see as a little victory against Megatron by not only raised Megatron's son to not become a "foolish brute" like his father but also to become to Ironshard a father figure he never had, even if Starscream didn't planned this outcome, since Megatron neglected his duties as Ironshard's creator.

-Despite himself, Starscream developped a genuine affection for Ironshard, but he doesn't want to show it nor admit it to which Skywarp and Thundercracker aren't stupid because as Starscream's trinemates they know him very well and knows that deep down Starscream genuinely cares about Ironshard and is protective toward him.

-Despite his stoicism Soundwave cares for Ironshard.

-Whenever Megatron and Starscream had arguments about Megatron's plans and/or leadership, Starscream like to taunt Megatron about his "inabilities and failures as leader but also as a father in the raising of his own heir" much to Megatron's anger, frustration and jealousy.

-Skywarp often tease Starscream about the fact Starscream genuinely care about Ironshard, since Starscream and Soundwave had pratically raised him since he was a Sparkling, despite Starscream always trying to deny it.

-Ironshard is more reasonable than Megatron, for example, if a dangerous situation happen which will cause kill everyone, Autobots and Decepticons alike, and that this will call for a temporary truce between the Autobots and the Decepticons to defeat the threat, Ironshard will agree that an alliance in those circonstances is the most logical thing to do to survive and would subtly say to Megatron things like "but how can you expect leading Cybertron if everyone and the planet are destroyed?" to convince him to accept the alliance.

[sgt-tombstone]

remembered your "The 141's (and co.) reactions to The Wobble" post and now i'm curious about how they would react to this:

www. tumblr. com/in-mutual-weirdness/727545670822690816

link, ohhh my god I love that video, it’s one of my favorite improv dance videos

genuinely and realistically, I don’t think any of the 141 would touch anything like that with a twenty-foot pole because toxic masculinity and its associated rigidity is so embedded in military culture

BUT, because we like to have fun here, it reminds me of an au I wanted to write a while ago but never got around to (what else is new lmao) where Ghost was raised in a very strict dancing discipline (think ballet or traditional ballroom dance) where he had to always be in control and within rigid guidelines, but he got hurt in his mid-20s and had to give it up. He has a lot of trauma regarding dance, especially bc his father and dance instructor were horrifically abusive, teaching him to place all of his self-worth on his body and dancing ability, so having to stop is full of mixed emotions.

Then Price, the owner of a dance studio and one of the only people in the dance community that Ghost still trusts, reaches out about an improv dance class he’s holding. The purpose, he tells Ghost, is to spontaneously create movement, to free the body from habitual patterns. Ghost is… skeptical, to say the least. He attends, because Price asked him to, but he’s awful at it. He’s stiff and unyielding, body not used to the freedom that improv dance requires, and he’s constantly stepping on toes or running into his dance partners because they do something unexpected, something outside of the rule set that Ghost had grown up with.

Price convinces him to keep coming back—it’s something that needs practice and perseverance, he argues, but Ghost doesn’t really get better.

And then Soap joins the class.

He’s wild and reckless, full of endless, manic energy, and he’s a riot to dance with. Everyone loves to partner with him because he reacts so effortlessly, his movements fluid and dynamic. He’s a great leader, but he also knows when to be a support for his dance partner. Ghost watches him from the sidelines and hopes that he never gets picked to dance with him.

He does, of course, because the pairings are random and it was bound to happen eventually, and as soon as they meet on the studio floor, Ghost knows it’s going to be a disaster. Their styles are just too different; he’s too rigid, Soap is too fluid; he’s too slow, Soap is too fast; he’s too damaged, Soap is too innocent. It will never work.

But it does, somehow. Ghost sticks to what he knows, the strict regimented dance steps that he’d been taught, that had been drilled into his mind, and Soap… dances around him. He’s always exactly where Ghost needs him to be, adding in a flair between steps, keeping the improv fresh and spontaneous while also consistently returning to Ghost’s side, to his pace, making sure they stay in step the whole time. It’s breath-taking and awe-inspiring and the most terrifying thing that Ghost has ever seen. He’s addicted to it immediately.

Over the course of months, Soap manages to draw Ghost out of his shell, to drag Simon to the surface, and with it comes small measures of freedom. Simon starts deviating slightly, almost self-consciously, tiny little additions that would’ve ended in verbal or physical reprimands in the pst but now only earn blinding grins from Soap. They learn each other’s language without ever speaking, though they start talking a lot too. Soap hangs off of Simon like a burr, constantly chatting on the sidelines as they watch the other dancers, mindless, inane babble that Simon never really pays attention to; he loves the sound of Soap’s voice, and Soap doesn’t mind Simon’s lack of response.

They grow closer and closer, until their dances are so thick with tension that Price genuinely starts to hesitate pairing them together for dances. But he always relents because he knows what Simon has been through, had seen it happen and had been powerless to stop it, and seeing him open up like this is a gift worth all the brain bleaching in the world.

He changes his mind when he catches them in the studio’s supply closet, clothes hanging haphazardly, Simon’s broad back hiding Soap mostly from view but doing nothing to cover his own bare arse, and Price bans them from stepping foot in the studio for a week. They take it like the blessing in disguise it really is and scamper off like embarrassed teenagers, and secretly, after they’ve disappeared, Price can only smile fondly

[tea-earl-grey]

Voyager character dnd classes

see the other series here!

Janeway: paladin. literally no question she literally made an oath to get her crew home, she is a prototypical paladin. i started this series of posts because i realized how much of a paladin Janeway is.

Chakotay: paladin. i struggled a bit with Chakotay but he is obviously someone very dedicated to truth and justice and was willing to go off on his own path to fulfill that dream of justice when he joined the Maquis and that's very paladin of him.

Tuvok: monk. i think a lot of Vulcans have big monk energy due to their intense almost monastical studies and devotion to logic and Tuvok is a prime example who is highly trained in both physical and mental discipline and sought to help others (Kes, Suder) exercise that same discipline.

Torres: sorcerer. Torres very much lacks the formal training that a usual Starfleet engineer (or wizard) would have but (in my opinion) has even more natural talent for ambitious engineering and manages to be a miracle worker not through some pact or intelligence but just through sheer force of will.

Kim: wizard. look in the show, Torres and Kim were kind of presented as opposites (the Maquis vs Starfleet) with the personality differences to match despite having a vaguely similar set of skills and capabilities. so it really makes sense that if Torres is a sorcerer, Kim would be a wizard with all the traditional by the book learning that entails.

Paris: fighter. Tom Paris is a fighter and i don't have much of an argument other than ~vibes~ and the fact that only a fighter would think he could tank the damage from going warp 10 and then start turning into a salamander.

EMH: cleric/bard multiclass. look the EMH was literally designed to be a doctor. when he was first activated that was his entire purpose and nothing else so i don't think i can really argue that he isn't a cleric. but as he started to exist for longer, he consistently wanted to be something more (specifically a singer, see Virtuoso). i need to emphasize. he's not a good bard. he doesn't provide inspiration or support to anyone. but the fact is that he needs to prove he can be something more.

Neelix: bard. do i have to explain myself? Neelix is very much a jack of all trades master of none kind of character. he dabbles in pretty much everything and 90% of his scenes exist to give support and encouragement to other characters.

Seven: warlock. even in-universe, the Borg (when they're at they're best) are portrayed as this eerie eldritch entity so i think it would make sense that in dnd mechanics, even though Seven broke away from the Borg, she maintained that pact with them in order to keep performing sorts of magical acts (like her increased strength and like. bringing people back from the dead). but she also very much has that same darkness and melancholy that a warlock has from a pact with an ambiguously evil being.

Kes: druid. no question about this one. she has an affinity for plants and vague but powerful supernatural abilities drawn from the literal energy of the universe.

please feel free to reply with your own headcanons! i'd love to read them.

[solarbird]

The thing about spending eight years cheering, supporting, and encouraging political violence and welcoming people dedicated to political change through violence to your movement is that…

well…

…okay, sure, you can build up a mean little coalition of paramilitaries that way. If you’re disciplined and careful.

Or, if you lack that discipline and those organisational skills, you can instead build up a motley little coalition of people more than happy to listen to your calls for stochastic terrorism.

And the problem with that latter route is they might not always aim where you want them to.

The other problem with that is if they decide you’ve abandoned or betrayed them – and if you’re coaching them and constantly encouraging them in conspiracy theory thinking and bullshit, that gets a lot more likely, for any reason and none – they might even aim at you.

Elon Musk earlier today wanted to know why people weren’t trying to assassinate Kamala Harris and finds it very suspicious that they aren’t. (He since deleted the tweet.)

The New Hampshire Libertarian Party said anyone who did it would be an American hero. (Screenshot, also since deleted.) Whoever is in charge of that account is gonna have a looooooot to talk about with the US Secret Service tonight.

In short, the usual crew of fash are trying real hard to aim this shit. But so far, well – it’s not working out as they’d planned.

Nonetheless, they will continue to do this just as they have. They will continue to ramp up white nationalist violence against immigrants in particular but not just, and tell their base that brutality and violence will be necessary and just, just as the OG Nazis said, and the crisis will escalate through – and almost certainly after – the election.

The more they realise they’re going to lose, the more they’re going to ramp it up going into the election. Harris is at +5 points today. Polls are difficult at best in this environment, but they listen to them just the same, and their actions say it’s worse for them even than it seems.

However, the more by which they do lose, the more it’s going to ramp back down after. I’ve talked about this before. The bigger the loss, the fewer people will be willing to take action to overturn it.

This is now the latest reason we need to deliver the biggest, most absolutely crushing defeat that can be managed. They need to be deflated, depressed, and done in. It needs to be a definitive statement that this will not gain you power.

The win needs to be so clear, so obvious, that any attempt they launch will attract the fewest number of people, and so, cannot succeed. Roberts and the corrupted SCOTUS are, sure, firmly in their camp, but they’re not stupid; they want to hold onto power even in the event of a GOP loss everywhere else, and that puts hard limits on how far they’ll go to overturn an election.

They absolutely will not further endanger their own power. They want to be around to rule from the bench for decades, if they can.

So. This year has been doomed to be violent for a long time now. But we can make it the least violent it can be with an absolute electoral blowout.

There will be more of this, going forward. Expect it, but do not be discouraged by it; in fact, be heartened, because the more they lash out, the more it clearly it shows that they know they’re about to lose.

Stay on target, team.

49 days remain.

[offsidekineticist]

This one is unusually short, but it feels the right length.

CW: estrangement, ableism, chronic pain, lack of access to medication, very negative self-talk.

Without Results

Qweck has always reminded you of your brother. Her eyes–those bright, golden eyes–were so much like your brother's eyes. Her intensity could easily match your brother's at his most obsessed. Neither were the type to stand aside if there was something out in the world that needed fixing. Qweck was barely 13 when you were struck by the sobering realization that she would leave Brastlewark just as your brother did. At first you were so afraid you would lose her the same way you lost him, lashing out in pain when she left you forever, so you resolved that this time would be different. You had decades to come to terms with her place being beyond Brastlewark, to teach her that her path was hers to tread, and you would love her wherever it led her. And it worked–when she left, you accompanied Qweck to Ostenso, supported her as she petitioned to be accepted into the monastery, and then, when she was accepted, you said your goodbyes and returned home. She didn't write as often as you'd hoped, but you understood: she had her own life now, and you were relieved–and proud–to realize you didn't resent her for it as you had resented your brother. Qweck had left, but she wasn't lost. She still visited you. Still wrote to you. Still loved you.

And now you've gone and fucked it up.

“Pathetic. No self control, no discipline.”

He is not like he was when he left Brastlewark. Like you, he has lost much of the expressiveness of your youth, and what was once a frenetic energy demanding expression through fidgeting and pacing now appears as a coiled spring, carefully controlled but ready to explode at a moment's notice. But his voice is the same. His cadence is the same.

“I'm sorry,” you choke out, and it’s such a pathetic fraction of what you should tell him after what you said all those years ago, but it’s all you can manage when just the sight of him makes your hands hurt and your heart pound and your ears ring.

Your brother sneers at you. “‘Sorry’ means nothing without results. You’ve already proven you can’t change. You just hid behind the bleaching and pretended you had.”

He’s right. He knows he’s right, and so do you. It’s why you never bothered apologizing for your outbursts–how can you say you’re sorry for something you know you won’t stop doing? But you can’t accept that. You’re too broken to accept that, so you feel the rage rise up in you and take control and–

“And you hid behind your armor and your ‘duty’ and just abandoned your people to build a world where we can’t live!” you hiss through grit teeth. “When exactly did you decide you hated yourself so much that anyone like you didn’t deserve to live?”

But your brother is not who he was when he left Brastlewark. Your words don’t pierce him as they did then. He doesn’t fear your disapproval anymore. He doesn’t love you anymore.

“We both know,” he says, rolling his eyes, “that you are wildly extrapolating from your scant knowledge of Axis to justify why my leaving upset you. Why don’t you tell the truth for once, Theoven? Admit what it is that really frightens you?”

A coldness grips your heart, but still you barrel forward, hearing yourself repeat your worst mistakes. “Nothing frightens me anymore! I am a bleachling–the worst thing I could imagine has happened to me, and I’m still here. What do you think you could possibly do to me that would be worse?!”

“‘The worst thing you could imagine?’ Really?” He arches a brow sardonically. “The bleaching was never your worst fear. Your worst fear is one you have, by some miracle, avoided all these years: chasing away everyone who might have been willing to tolerate you. But even miracles must end. You’ve lost Brastlewark, and now you’ve lost Cleric Varnaj in the same way you lost me. How long until you’ve chased the halfling away, I wonder?”

You would clench your fists if they weren’t splinted. “Shut up,” you growl.

“You act like he’s beneath you,” your brother continues. “The fact that he hasn’t left you for that alone is a miracle. Given your reaction to his declaration of love, he likely holds even less affection for you than I do. Most likely he is held here by some guilt over his lies, or some obligation to care for you when you have nobody else. But how long do you think he will last now that he has to tolerate you alone?”

“I said shut up!”

“He’s going to realize soon that he can do better for himself. That he doesn’t have to stay and be treated this way. And when that happens, he will leave. You will be all alone, helpless, worthless, useless. Do you know what I think of that, Theoven?” A shark-like grin spreads across your brother’s face. “I think you’ll deserve it.”

The rage is too much. You need to get it out, but your body isn’t strong enough–it never was before the bleaching, either. That doesn’t mean you won’t try. You spring forward from your bed, reaching for your brother's neck to grab and squeeze until that disgusting smile slips from his face and he realizes what a mistake he’s made becoming your enemy.

You are awake. Arms are wrapped around you as you squirm, what was intended to be a howl of rage instead only a whisper.

“Hey, hey, it’s ok! You’re ok, Thay. You’re ok. It’s just me.”

“Regill?” you whisper.

“It’s me, Thay. It's Gilly.” You relax. Another nightmare, that’s all. You should have realized–words always became too heavy to speak when you saw him in Rivad, of course it was only a nightmare. You’ve already begun to forget what it was about, beyond the fact that your brother was there. You’re safe. Gilly is here, so you’re safe.

Gilly holds your head to his chest, one hand carding through your hair with the other on your shoulder, holding you close. “You’re alright. You’re alright,” he whispers softly, over and over, and you melt into his arms. You’re safe. Gilly is here, so you’re safe.

And then you remember why that should make you feel bad.

During the time apart, you had hoped that in time your feelings would fade. You don’t know if it’s because of everything that’s happened or if you are just innately weak, but you’re even more attached now than you were before. Even beyond the fact that he dresses you and feeds you and assists you in everything including basic bodily functions, you can barely bring yourself to sleep without him. When he goes out to buy food or takes a job, you spend the whole time on the edge of panic, curled up in a fetal position on the bed, wondering if he will come back. So far he always has.

You can’t be like this. You need to be stronger. Someday–someday soon–it’s going to be time for him to ‘pay rent,’ and he will damn another innocent to hell. You refuse to be party to that. You need to be strong enough to tell him no. You need to be strong enough to do the right thing. You need to be strong enough to send him away.

There’s a sudden, painful spasm in your right hand. It’s so intense, even compared to the usual ache, that you can’t help the half strangled moan that comes out of your mouth.

Giliys freezes. “Hands?” he asks. You nod into his chest.

“Hurts,” you whimper, disgusted with your weakness. “Medicine.”

He sighs. “I’m sorry, Thay. I can’t give you more.” You growl at that–actually growl, like an animal. You know why he says this–you don’t have access to medicinal flayleaf, so he’s dosing out an illegal recreational drug for you as a substitute. If the dosage ever goes too high, the drug will start working as intended and cause hallucinations. And given what you tend to see when you hallucinate, it’s probably better to endure the pain. But your hands don’t understand that, and neither does whatever takes over when you get like this.

“Then what use are you?” you watch yourself snap. Giliys starts carding his hand through your hair again, but you’re not having it. You push him away and settle on your side with your back to him, wincing at another throb of pain from your hands.

You hear a quiet sigh. “I’m sorry,” Giliys repeats quietly, almost defeatedly.

“‘Sorry’ means nothing without results,” you say, a faint sense of deja vu washing over you. “Now shut up and let me sleep.” There’s a long pause.

“Okay,” Giliys finally says. “Sleep well, Thay.”

You take a deep breath before closing your eyes. You will sleep through this pain. You will sleep through this anger. You will sleep without his comfort. You will learn to live like this. You will learn to live without him. You have to, or you’ll die.

[aeionastrologyandtarot]

A Fine Buck: Buck Supermoon Full Moon in Capricorn

A Fine Buck: Buck Supermoon Full Moon in Capricorn

Sunday, July 21rd is the Buck Full Moon or the Full Moon in Capricorn. The Buck Moon (also known as the Hay Moon or Thunder Moon) derives its name from season when the young Male deer or “bucks” grow antlers, a time of adulthood and maturation. True to Capricorn’s ruling planet, Saturn, which governs authority, time and maturity, The Buck Full Moon is a time of transition from youth spring to mature summer. First of this year's SuperMoons,it will be unusally luminous and bright . A Supermoon is when the moon is at closest point in its orbit to the Earth. This phenomenon is known as an extreme perigee, lending to the Moon a larger appearance than the normal Full Moon. This will be largest Supermoon( Next one will be in August). Capricorn, cardinal Earth sign, is concerned with personal ambition, rules, boundaries and limits. At its best it can be highly ethical, self-directed, disciplined and industrious. At the worst, it can be callous, selfish, materialistic and abrasive. The Moon is the planet responsible for needs. Nurturing, feeding, emotional security and one’s maternal experiences are governed the Moon. The Moon represents how you pursue, receive and maintain those needs. The Full Moons increases our demands for those needs, urging us to acquire them in the most direct way.

Together, the Full Moon in Capricorn may draw your attention to needs and feelings in an effort to fulfill them. As a hunter/gather what are you lacking for? What is it you’re hungering for? How best to examine your needs and requirements?

Full Moons are times for completions, bringing projects and endeavors to their conclusions or redirecting existing energies to new efforts and enterprises. Full Moons nourish and feed our actions, providing the energy and support to help them develop and grow.

The sign that governs the Moon is Cancer. This management or “Rulership” provides the characteristics we associate with that sign. Because Capricorn is the sign opposite of the sign of Cancer, the Moon, when it travels through Capricorn is at its weakest state or what we in astrology call its ‘detriment”. This means that you can expect greater challenges and demands from this moon during this transit i.e. not getting sufficient nutrition, rest and so forth.

Capricorn, you should view the next three days as a time to take stock of how you feel and what you need. Consider it a time of preparation for your larger aims and ambitions by securing and maintaining that which helps you feel strong and stable

Cancer, examine some of the needs you’ve overlooked or neglected. Your ruling planet in its detriment may make this somewhat challenging but the extra scrutiny and care you take during this transit may make such efforts productive and affirming

Aries and Libra, you may have to review how you’ve dealt with some particular needs in the past to see how you can better address it in the future. You may be inclined to disregard the matter but during the next three days if you devote yourself attending to that need it may prove to be to your profit

The Buck full Moon ushers in a time where we can seek to fulfill our needs with authority and certainty. While it may require dedication and commitment, the Capricorn Full Moon may very well help you acquire that which you need most.

Aeion is a professional astrologer and tarot card reader with 25+ years of experience. His approach is based in the belief that divination should be in employed to enhance ones' life experiences, not to predetermine them. Let Astrology and Tarot be your tools for better living.

[mugunghwc]

        name: gong hyun

        birthday: november 10th ( 32 years old ), scorpio

        height: 179 cm ( 5'10 ½ ft )

        spoken languages: korean & japanese

        likes: hard liquor, hostess bars, history, some bdsm practices, tidiness, obedience, control, darker clothing.

      dislikes: insubordination, lack of manners, gossip / spreading rumours.

       small summary: he was raised by his grandmother after his parents’ death when he was just a child. his grandfather was a veteran that he never met, while his grandmother lived day by day, doing various works to get by. he was taught some japanese without ever questioning how or with what purpose his grandmother knew the language. helped her with various jobs to make money, turning him into a responsible individual at an early age. he barely managed to get an education due to their financial situation, but his grandmother tried her best to provide a decent life for him. he was encouraged to do his military service as soon as he became of age, due to being unable to sustain the two of them financially, to which he agreed—losing all contact for nearly two years, only to return to a house being searched by men he had seen in the past as a teenager. loan sharks. she wasn’t dead for long & they were already looking for valuables to take ; not even giving him time to mourn her death. they made comments regarding his grandmother’s past, calling her a traitor to the nation, a joseon whore, among other things. he found out that she had been a comfort woman in her youth, taken by japanese soldiers. her body was marked underneath all those clothes. that experience was how she had picked on the language.

    his grandmother hadn’t died of natural causes like he believed at first, but the stress & stigma surrounding her past had driven her to the point of taking her own life as soon as he was out of the picture. he became resentful & vindictive. soon, rumours regarding her & his late parents began to spread throughout town. they called her all sorts of names, & claimed that the death of her daughter & son-in-law were her punishment for her sins. gong ended up killing all three of the men, & would’ve continued to kill those who spread the rumours, if he hadn’t been taken by the jingweon mafia. the murder of those loan sharks, attracted their attention. he was pursued to be punished, beaten into submission, but he held his head high. he showed potential from the very beginning due to his determination & mental strength. gong was taken in at the age of twenty. due to his upbringing, he already had the discipline that any subordinate should have, making him rank up rather quick among others like him. in a sense, he was saved from living a life of poverty & devoid of any social support ; making him extremely grateful for the opportunity he was given. a loyal dog to the jingweon mafia located in south korea.

[toastedpancakess-blog]

11/4/24

it’s been so long since I’ve last updated.

I have been painfully struggling lately.

My father recently has been through intensive surgery that causes him to be out of work, which leaves the stress of financials onto my mom. His job only paying him pennies to manage a house, a wife, a dog, and two kids. It’s caused so much stress on my family, so many emotions and feelings have been swirling throughout our house. It feels stuffy. I love my family so much, but the urge to move out and live on my own, if financials allowed it, seems so much more glorious. However, since the change, it means my family has been able to really and truly talk about what is going on. I have been able to really see all the good and bad that my family struggles and thrives in. It’s been hard managing through a household that you love so undeniably much, but for the betterment of yourself you need to grow up. It’s a constant push and pull, one that I stress myself about and so does my family. They know the importance of letting me go, but the pain swarms and festers inside and leaves a lot more broken than intended. It’s hard to go into specifically without plastering your entire wounds on the internet. I think the context isn’t as important as to what is being felt. I feel so mentally strewn out, these being my one of many, many stressors. In short stressor #1, family: I love my family so much. This being so, I feel like I need to stay. Is that okay? Is that something that is necessary? I know there isn’t a right way to go about this, but the layers of hurt, anger, sadness, regret, fear, and so much more is so draining that I struggle with even making the steps to do so. As much as I am told one thing, I feel as if I cannot do it. Is there a way that you can live peacefully with being partial to yourself and family and extra affairs?

Let’s talk about school: Horrible. To the point where I have considered, which I HATE doing, self-diagnosing myself with ADHD. There is nothing wrong with ADHD, however self-diagnosing can lead to a very slippery slope. But right now I’m so unenthusiastic and stressed, stressed to the point where my hair in thinning. Even when I am in the subjects in which I, at the start, was so excited about starting, I feel that waking up to go to school and TRY is painful. If this makes any sense, mind-wise? Going to class feels like everything goes through one ear and out the other. I’m failing, horrifically, an upper-level class, and I just feel so gross about myself. I don’t necessarily feel stupid, it’s just my lack of motivation and discipline makes me have such discomfort in my skin. Because this isn’t me. I can’t seem to just be present, I can’t seem to understand the content or even try to care about it. This isn’t me, I loved school. I love learning, but I just can’t seem to find the want in me anymore to try. All I want to do is just cry, lie in my bed, and be just a goop. The disgust in myself from this makes the school days harder, not only am I snowballing school-wise but mentally too. A constant cycle of, if I do go to school then I’ll feel X, but if I dont go to school then I feel Y. Which X and Y are both equally bad options. I don’t like this. I know I can’t go back in time, but I wish, I really do wish I could. I really wish I could have been there to tell myself that I can do this. I know I have my partner and family to support me, but if I don’t support myself then they can only do so much. I just wish I had the strength to do so. I just want the strength, the belief, the confidence that I can believe in myself.

Faith. I haven’t spoken about this, but I am admitting that I have been struggling with my faith. I battle with it. I don’t think a day has gone by without me thinking about my inactivity for the past year or so. Which is exactly what God, doesn’t do. But, with everything else spiraling, it is hard to see that God is there. I see God within my family and in my friends. But to see God in myself, is something that I can’t. I logically know that God is within me, but every other part of me that is not a physical thing or tangible around me just isn’t God. I don’t struggle with faith like this, I usually struggle with my peers or other followers, but having such a palpable disconnection has taken another toll on my mental well-being, probably physical too. I don’t know what to do, and to be quite honest, talking to my family is almost humiliating about it. Talking to my friends, who aren’t religious, or believe in my own beliefs, is pointless too. I feel yet again as if I’m in another limbo that feels impossible to be broken out of.

Friendships: really shitty???? Something that I have noticed recently, mainly in the last—6months or so, they have been very off. I feel as if I have been put on the back burner. I know this is because everyone is in a new part of life, but it’s been really so incredibly difficult lately. Planning to be around them, or to be given the chance to talk to them is like talking these people for the first time ever. It’s not what it used to be, and maybe it’s because I’m not trying enough or I’m doing too much. That is what it feels like, and I’m not saying to sound like I am an “ol’ faithful being who graciously gives me very body to everyone”. It is rather more of a, “I feel as useful as a crushed can of Sprite.” I know I am selfish, envious, entitled, privileged, and so many more unkind qualities that can make people think less of me. However, it has felt that my friends only see that side of me. I feel as if I am being a target for their anger, I feel as if I always do too much, as if I don’t know when to be quiet or to read a room. I make the situation worse and then embarrass those around me because of it. How do I even address these feelings to people who, and with a lot of love, don’t have much emotional intelligence?? “Hey you guys, I feel like utter garbage and every time you guys have something to say about it, I feel like a forethought!!!” There really isn’t much I want to hear. I don’t want to hear them apologize or anything like that, I just want them to say that they love me and won’t leave me even when I’m being neurotic. And recently, the only person who I can 100% trust is my family, and when it comes to my partner I still have baseless doubts.

Which brings me to my fourth point, my partner: In a little over two months, my partner and I will mark our 3-year anniversary. Which, in all honesty, I feel like I have known them since we were just middle schoolers who have really been together for really 8-years. It is uncanny how amazing my life has been since they have entered my life. However, I feel like I don’t add up to all of what they are for me. No matter the reassurance I get, a small part of me tells me two things: 1. Leave before they hurt you & 2. You aren’t good enough. I sometimes wonder why I feel as though I can’t be enough. It’s not the money I possess, but the look and energy that I feel like my partner deserves. My partner deserves someone that people find stunning, people are welcome and excited to be in their presence. These anxieties I have relayed to them time and time again, but when it comes to the reassurance that my friends and strangers lack, I get self-conscious. I get it, it is funny. It’s non-sensical, but you see it everywhere, the person that joy radiates from. Right now I feel like all I radiate to people is bad-breath and low self-esteem. Fortunately, this isn’t something that I struggle with everyday (more like every other). But I do lack the confidence I have in myself which leeches onto my partner. It’s something that I must work on, but right now, this season of life feels unbearable. I just want to make them happy, I just love then so much.

[jpknineacademy]

Obedience Unleashed: Why Training Classes Are Essential for Every Dog

Each canine proprietor wishes to have a polite and cheerful canine buddy, but getting there requires effort. Training sessions how more than simply obedience; they lay the foundation for a deep bond between you and your dog. How about we see the reason why training sessions are necessary for all dogs and how they might make your (and your dog's) life simpler and more fun?

1. Building Better Communication with Your Dog

Dogs don't communicate in human language, but they do communicate in their own manner. Training sessions teach you how to figure out your dog's body communication and signs. They also help your dog understand what you maintain that they should do. Your dog will figure out how to answer orders like "sit," "stay," and "come" with repetition and positive prize. Clear communication develops a more grounded connection among you and your animal friend.

2. Socialization Skills: A Key to Confidence

Dogs, similar to people, require social interactions to flourish. Training programs offer a secure, structured environment for dogs to interact with different dogs and people. This exposure reduces fear, anxiety, and hostility in novel situations. A very much socialized dog is more confident and relaxed in public, making outings to the park, doctor, or groomer easier.

3. Preventing Unwanted Behaviors

Does your dog jump on guests, bark excessively, or bite on furnishings? Training programs start by Training to these continuous behavioral difficulties. Trainers employ strategies, for example, redirection and positive feedback to rectify undesirable ways of behaving while at the same time encouraging favorable ones. By instructing your dog proper other options, you can hold negative habits back from growing long-term difficulties.

4. Strengthening the Bond Between You and Your Dog

Training is something other than discipline; it's about connecting. Investing meaningful time with your dog in a training class deepens your bond. Your dog will come to see you as a leader they can trust and depend on. When your dog pays attention to you, obeys your directions, and depends on you for advice, your bond becomes unbreakable.

Discover more insights by checking out “How to Choose the Right Dog Obedience Classes for Your Pet”

5. Mental Stimulation: Keeping Your Dog Sharp

Training isn't just physical; it is also a cerebral exercise for your dog. Learning new commands, problem-thinking, and following directions stimulate your dog's intellect, preventing boredom. A cognitively stimulated dog is less prone to enjoy unsafe ways of behaving, like digging or chewing, which are commonly caused by a lack of stimulation.

6. Boosting Your Dog’s Confidence

Dogs, like humans, can experience self-confidence issues, especially if they are normally bashful or shy. Training programs provide a well disposed climate in which dogs can  gain confidence while learning. Your dog fills in confidence as he learns new orders. A confident dog is more joyful, more loyal, and less inclined to respond to stressful events.

7. It’s Never Too Late to Start

Training sessions are great for all dogs, whether they are pups or senior dogs. Young doggies can learn simple commands early on, but older dogs might expect to be prepared to break undesirable behaviors of behaving or conform to new circumstances. It's a confusion that you can't teach an elderly dog new tricks; given the right oversight, any dog can learn.

8. Expert Guidance and Support

Professional trainers have worked with dogs of each and every variety and disposition. In a training class, you gain access to their knowledge, which is important while managing complex conduct issues. They may provide individualised help, guaranteeing that both you and your dog capitalise on the training process.

9. Safety First: Teaching Crucial Commands

Training is more than showing exciting tricks; it is also about ensuring safety. Orders like "stay" and "leave it" can hold your dog back from getting into  risky situations, for example, chasing cars or eating something harmful. A well-trained dog is more secure in everyday situations because it responds quickly and consistently when it counts the most.

10. Creating a Well-Mannered Member of Society

A well-trained dog is a joy to be near — not just for you, but for everyone they experience. A well-mannered dog makes a long-term connection, whether you're strolling around the area or inviting guests into your home. Training illustrations help your dog develop into a calm, friendly, and respected companion.

Enlisting your dog in training lessons is one of the most gainful investments you can make for their future pleasure and well-being. It is more than teaching obedience; it is about improving the quality of life for both you and your dog. Training fosters trust, improves behavior, and guarantees that your dog is a blissful and polite piece of your family and community.

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Fiinovation Top CSR Company in India : To Delivering Social Sustainability

The concept of Corporate Social Responsibility became the talk of the town when it became a fashion to promote ethical capitalism or the benign side of capitalism or popularly known in some circles as 'Capitalism now with care.'

It became a widely known phenomenon among the Industrialists to incorporate the CSR practices in their respective firms. Now, CSR attracts a lot of supportive provisions from the regulatory bodies and the respective governments.

Popularity and necessity of CSR have grown to such an extent. It has taken a shape of an Industry. Various new firms are coming into the picture as advisors and consulting the big firms on Corporate's responsibility towards society and the environment.

Innovative Financial Advisors Pvt. Ltd. (Fiinovation) is such a research-based global consulting firm operating in multiple disciplines of social development sector with emphasis on Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR) and Sustainability.

Fiinovation offers end-to-end CSR consulting services that help Corporations channelize their resources for the upliftment of community on societal, economic and ecological aspects in accordance to their CSR charter.

Since 2008, Fiinovation has grown phenomenally and has made a benchmark in the sector through its quality service.

It has been able to bridge the gap between businesses and communities through value-based CSR programmes in association with credible civil society organizations on Pan India basis in the field of health, environment, education, and livelihood.

The firm's unique in-house "Proposal Research & Design Laboratory" gives it a competitive edge which emphasis on scientific and rational research, tools for developing more effective and result-oriented initiatives which are being conceived and implemented by organizations.

Fiinovation provides assistance in the identification of credible & programme-specific implementing partners with its organized and professional outlook towards the project.

True to its nature, the organization provides innovative programme concepts and reporting presentations.

What Makes them Stand Apart?

The firm's team with its expertise on the ground across India helps in identifying "real" needs and develop programs and manages them. They had developed an indicator matrix that recommends sustainability mapping, which is followed by a well-drafted Impact Assessment Report.

Fiinovation considers money spent under CSR as an investment and not an expenditure. CSR was incorporated as a mandate very recently under the new Companies Act.

Hence, there still exists a hesitance and ambiguity in defining CSR policies and integrating it into core operations. This is where Fiinovation comes into the picture. Proposal Research Laboratory which is complemented by a robust Monitoring & Evaluation Division enables the firm to make a remarkable difference in project implementation.

Indian psychology works majorly on short-term gains and lacks farsightedness, but ideally, the country needs to focus on achieving a sustainable development.

With a change in the socio-political scenario, new amendments constantly come to the fore. Most of them have vested interests, either of the state or the center, which in turn gives a new direction to corporates.

In order to cope with the modifications, corporates have to change their strategy time and again, leaving CSR initiatives and programs less impactful.

CSR activities are carried in three stages, Literature review and secondary research, primary research, which involves the collection of data, and then Analysis.

CSR Policy Design devising and formulating the righteous CSR policy and guidelines are the key elements for the businesses to consider the holistic and inclusive growth of the organization

Initiative Design & Management for Corporations : Fiinovation offers an exclusive practice in the form of CSR Policy design & Project Management for corporations in designing the requisite programme and its management

Initiative Design & Management for SME's : Owning to the different sets of requirements in the SME sector, Fiinovation, has customized its practices of CSR Policy Design & Implementation for approaching the socio-economic growth and sustainable development through the SMEs as per the need of the community wherein the businesses are operational

Monitoring & Evaluation-Need, Baseline, Mid-line & Impact Assessment: Fiinovation offers assistance to the regulators, donors, policy makers, implementers, and other stakeholders to sustain and enhance the Shared Value through customized Result Based Management (RBM) framework for their programmes and analyze the effect of their initiatives that they have conducted

Partnership management caters to the interest of both, the Corporation and Civil Society Organizations (CSOs)

Dr. Soumitro Chakraborty is driven by the need to bring about constructive and significant social change, he meticulously strategized and implemented several noteworthy CSR and Sustainability programmes across India in partnership with diverse corporations and NGOs.

Over the years, he proved his determination by converting challenges into opportunities and delivering quality, effective and strategic solutions to organizations for social initiatives at a grass root level, aiming at inclusive growth.

Backed by a rich sectoral experience, Dr. Soumitro serves on the board of several organizations as an advisor on sustainable development, CSR and environmental management.

Additionally, he serves as a visiting faculty to premier institutions and counsels the CII series on "CSR and Affirmative Action" and Institute of Directors – "Masterclass for Directors" on 'Sustainability – Corporate, Social and Environmental Responsibility.'

His profound command in the subject has earned him the honor of being an influential keynote speaker at various national and international conferences while penning articles for leading national publications.

Dr. Soumitro has recently been conferred with the 'Most Admired Leader Award in CSR & Sustainability' in Mumbai and been acknowledged with numerous accolades for his dynamic leadership.

He is an active Committee Member of the CII Northern Regional Committee for Affirmative Action and CSR & Gender Equality. He is also the Chairperson – Centre for CSR & Sustainability Excellence and Director to VAC Technologies Pvt. Ltd.

Company's Chronoscope

Awards and recognition

S. Chakraborty was recognized with the Most Admired Leaders Award 2017 for CSR & Sustainability in Mumbai

He is recipient of the ABP News Presents CSR Leadership Award – 'CSR Leadership' at the World CSR Congress in Mumbai on 17th Feb 2017

Honoured with the 'International Socrates Award "Queen Victoria" for 'commitment, dedication and achievements in innovative social initiatives in CSR & Sustainability' to Dr. Soumitro Chakraborty, CEO – Fiinovation by the Europe Business Assembly at Oxford, United Kingdom in March 2016

S. Chakraborty was conferred with the 'CSR Team of the Year' – Global CSR Excellence & Leadership Awards 2015 and 'Caring Company Award' at the World CSR Congress on 18th February in Mumbai

He was bestowed with the medal of 'Manager of the Year' & 'Best Enterprise of the Year – in the field of Health, Education, Environment and Livelihood with a focus on CSR & Sustainability' by the European Business Assembly, the Socrates Award Ceremony at the Summit of Leaders 2014 in Oxford, United Kingdom.

Recipient of the 'Best Innovation: Product or Service' award at the Social Innovation Awards, 2014 at the World CSR Day, Mumbai.

Source Url : Fiinovation CSR Awarded Company

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Why Choose UPSC Coaching in Indore Over Self-Study

The UPSC exam is one of the toughest exams in India, requiring thorough preparation and understanding of many subjects. While some people do well with self-study, many find that UPSC coaching in Indore offers better support and structure to succeed in this challenging exam. This article explains why opting for UPSC coaching in Indore can be a smart choice.

Challenges of Self-Study

Self-study can be effective, but it comes with some challenges:

Creating a Study Plan: Making a good study plan is hard without expert help. The UPSC syllabus is huge, and figuring out how to cover everything can be confusing.

Navigating the Syllabus: Without guidance, it’s easy to get lost in the material, missing important topics and wasting time.

Finding Quality Materials: Finding the right books and resources is tough. The exam content changes, so it’s important to use the most current materials, which can be hard to find on your own.

Material Overload: There are many resources available, which can be overwhelming and make it hard to choose the best ones.

Maintaining Motivation: Studying for a long time can be tiring and demotivating. Without a set schedule or support from others, it’s easy to lose focus.

Accountability Issues: Without regular tests or feedback, it’s difficult to know if you’re making progress or missing important areas.

Understanding Complex Concepts: It’s challenging to grasp difficult topics and get answers to questions without a teacher’s help.

Application of Knowledge: Applying what you’ve learned to practice questions is important, but self-study often lacks the feedback needed to improve.

Advantages of UPSC Coaching in Indore

UPSC coaching in Indore can help overcome these challenges with several benefits:

Expert Guidance: Experienced teachers at coaching centers provide valuable tips, strategies, and a clear study plan to follow. The best UPSC coaching in Indore ensures you get the guidance you need.

Structured Approach: Coaching centers offer a systematic study plan that breaks the syllabus into manageable parts and includes regular tests to track progress. This structured approach is crucial for effective UPSC preparation in Indore.

Resource Accessibility: They provide updated study materials and practice papers, saving you the trouble of finding the right resources. This is especially beneficial if you are looking for the best online coaching for UPSC CSE.

Regular Assessments: Mock tests and quizzes help you practice and gauge your understanding, preparing you for the real exam. Regular assessments are a key feature of UPSC coaching in Indore.

Doubt Resolution: You can ask questions and get help with difficult topics right away, improving your understanding.

Motivation and Discipline: Being part of a coaching center keeps you motivated and disciplined, as you study alongside other aspirants and follow a set schedule.

Why Choose K3IAS Coaching in Indore 

K3IAS Coaching is a well-known institute in Indore that stands out for its quality UPSC preparation in Indore:

Reputation and Experience: K3IAS has a strong reputation and experienced teachers who offer excellent guidance, making it one of the best UPSC institutes in Indore.

Personalized Attention: Smaller class sizes at K3IAS ensure you get more personal help and attention.

Success Stories: Many students from K3IAS have passed the UPSC exam successfully, showing its effectiveness.

Additional Services: Besides teaching, K3IAS provides mentoring and career advice to help with your future plans.

Making the Right Choice

Choosing between self-study and UPSC coaching in Indore depends on your needs:

If you need a structured plan, expert advice, and good resources, coaching could be a better choice. Researching different coaching centers, like the best UPSC coaching in Indore and UPSC institutes in Indore, and reading reviews can help you decide.

If you are very disciplined and comfortable managing your study materials, self-study might work for you.

Consider your learning style, available time, and budget before deciding. For those seeking UPSC coaching online best, finding the best online coaching for public administration or best online coaching for UPSC CSE could also be beneficial.

Conclusion

In conclusion, preparing for the UPSC exam is a challenging endeavor that requires effective resources and support. UPSC coaching in Indore offers numerous benefits, including expert guidance, a structured study approach, and access to valuable materials. With affordable options like K3IAS, Indore stands out as a practical and cost-effective choice compared to other major cities. Additionally, the supportive community of aspirants in Indore provides valuable peer learning and motivation.

To enhance your preparation and improve your chances of success, consider enrolling in a reputable coaching institute like K3IAS. Visit our website https://www.k3ias.com/  or reach out to them today to find out how our expert guidance can help you achieve your UPSC goals. Choosing UPSC coaching in Indore can provide you with the tools and support needed to excel in this competitive exam.

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haven't been on psych meds all week due to liver failure and emergency intervention to reverse the effects of the damage from trying to replace covid meds with tylenol (even those also give you liver damage apparently and my tylenol levels didn't even appear to be that high in the end? tf?)

have already been on the brink of tears a few times, namely when chris didn't pull my show and said he knew my ability to bounce back in time. i can't even talk about it i will start sobbing it's like the most moving thing anyone has said to me in so long.

was also considering going down on these meds already and wanted to taper off to see how i manage. i have been on a steady combo of anxiety and depression meds since i was 22. i was very exhausted from being the funny girl in every setting to the point where every coworker at whole foods would want to know what was wrong the second i stopped smiling or goofing off. the expectation of me and the sad jester complex that came along with it for years got to be too much. i also felt like i had turned it into a full time job making everyone else around me comfortable which somehow evolved into being an emotional dumping ground for everyone to lay their own issues out onto, whether we knew each other or not. i genuinely care for people but there is a fine line between being nonconsensually assigned at random to become someone's free therapist and being this hardened bitch for setting boundaries and not engaging in the people-pleasing techniques of culturally fetishized support group mentality. or something idk how to explain it but i decided at some point it was much safer to just be seen as a bitch than a free vent box for other people who refuse to get on their own meds or proper treatment plans with licensed professionals etc. people tend to see that you have been through a lot and therefore you have all the answers to get them through their stuff, but it took a lot or work and therapy and is an ongoing process. it's actually really insulting and extremely lacking in self-awareness to make your problems everyone else's around you and being the only somewhat healed person in a room makes you a magnet to people who want to feel better too without doing the work. people don't deserve to be victim to your emotional outbursts or of your vampiric tendencies.

that being said, not to be anye-kay but i was a much more prolific writer and a lot of my best art has been created from the depths of hellish experiences and times in my life. suppressing my feelings about the world and not pouring it into my art is not very cash money of me. also tho the best art is made during the winter and the worst time to go off meds is also during this time, generally for the same reasons. also i think it's generally a lame excuse to say you can't make art with or without drugs. it may be easier one way or the other, but it's likely a discipline or skill issue. like maybe you're just a shitty artist and drugs is an easy way to avoid taking that accountability.

the mental health system is so fucked the regular health system is so fucked the living wage is fucked all of our money is being funneled directly into war and genocide and i just feel like numbing myself any further in this moment of revolutionary history is not the way to exist right now.

THAT being said i fucking HATE how people act off their meds, how they unleash their shit onto you with such audacious entitlement, and ultimately this world is designed to make you feel crazy, so if you can control your emotions in an act of survival then why wouldn't you? but also i am an artist, doggg.

i know how i get when i go off them for too long, how unsavory comments become, even when they are people i know disguising themselves as randos, and fortunately i have had enough experience to know how cruel and demented people get in groups on line (or in general) and have learned to genuinely not go looking for it after years or exposure tharapy alone. the second i get the slightest inkling we are not on the same team, you're out. no questions asked. like i could truly give a fuck what your excuse for your behavior you will or won't admit to, i have enough weirdo fucking stalkers online as it is and have for decades now. if you even have one of those people within six degrees or your social circle you're already on thin ice to begin with. i did not spend nearly forty years surviving this insane fucking life to go backwards. i don't attach myself to people with shitty karma, even if it's just by proxy of their friends of friends. if you want to survive cut-throat environments, you have to be willing to be called the bitch and the crazy one and whatever else will be thrown at you for refusing to adhere to a mold of low vibe mediocrity. you have to treat your social circle like an ongoing audition process that is never fully locked into place and be totally fine with whether or not people will get it (they won't, esp as a woman you will get thrown all those demonic labels and then some) it feels weird in the early days but eventually living in truth and integrity becomes second nature, and the revolving door of people who do and do not make it back for the following seasons of both your community environment of choice or your life in its most personal form always speaks for itself.

people play with fire expecting not to get burnt, play stupid games to win stupid prizes, despite how it ends the same each time etc etc etc.

say it with me: slow and steady wins the race. that falls on deaf ears attached to people trying to be the loudest in the room, but people only like fast food for so long and everyone agrees what quality is at the end of the day. you don't just get that overnight through overexertion and speed racing your way into a burnout. not everyone is meant to play this game according to the arbitrary set of rules on a constantly evolving and everchanging landscape.

this post was mostly for me btw. everything i do in this world is generally just for me. another great example of gaining a following by going against all the made up rules to a made up game that we are all just making up as we go along. [fiona apple 1997 vma voice] this world is bullshit just go with yourself