#but thats me talking as a 25 yr old so idk

[yonpote]

The age gap discourse happened already what did they say😭

i mean none of it was serious i dont think, just like "yikes if that were me" etc. lol and the whole thing abt their relationship being like Slightly Parasocial or whatever

[ilikeyoshi]

people who have liked veggies all/most of ur lives how do u do it. i had to wait until i was pushing 30 for my body to decide "hey uh maybe the stuff that makes body work is a good idea" like. im glad it's HAPPENING but goddamn!

[bulbabutt]

yooooooo all i do lately is vent vent vent uhhh

itsssss really annoying to feel traumatized over shit that doesnt actually matter at all but you cant feel like a person who functions cuz of it

like. mkay, few years ago i did a stupid thing which was uh. pre coming out but post taking testosterone tell this girl ('girl' she was older than me, im an adult but sos she) i that i was trans. then that i had a crush on her. like a fucking idiot, i was like 'girl pretty girl nice maybe i can finally have something'

and the thing was like. we had this lax fucking job that didnt matter, we were both basically running this shitty lil store nobody came in for the christmas season. and like i had admitted id never done anything, but i should have noticed it was gonna be weird quicker, cuz while she was understanding of like 'ok yeah youre a dude i get that' it was. hmm. it wasnt really like she felt like that, and she didnt notice so much that shit she would say hurt my feelings. like this was so unserious honestly, but uh the thing abt taking t in your mid 20s is youre like... right im... im going through a literal puberty and being stupid as a teenager. im bad with expressing my feelings normally cuz of that.

anyway. it was a fling really. it was stupid and shouldnt have happened, and it probably hurt me more than i thought, but she got like... jealous of one of the employees who id known from a prev job... who to me was like. literally a child (cuz like, id known her since she was) and that made me feel so weird, cuz i was like ?? why the hell would i be thinking about her like that i havent done ANYTHING that would make you think that. and hello i only said i liked you ? but then i guess the age gap was the same in her eyes and so that might have been why she thought that. but like pfft if youre ~25 dating a ~30 yr old its whatever thats normal. going the other way gets weirder ESP if uh. HELLO i was this kids boss?? that was so weird that she felt like that. i guess cuz i was just better at getting along w people younger than me, as someone who isnt a TRUE millennial, someone whos pop culture references lean gen z or whatever. idk i just know kids like my vibe for some reason. there was NEVER anything else going on i was just... being chill? but that was enough to cause jealousy.

but like yeah theres only so many 3 weeks in 'i dont think this is a good idea i think im bad for you' texts you can get before you just go 'yeah you know what i dont wanna do this anymore actually thats fine no hard feelings'

but i tend to be a person who just cant socialize with people for long periods of time, i ghost people a lot, i dont have a history of having friends i dont know how to maintain relationships, but also i really didnt want to at this point. i felt really gross about it and embarrassed for putting myself out there and admitting a secret about myself.

anyway next year rolls around and i see her at the next job season and she tells me she and another coworker found my tiktok page (cuz shit forcibly adding your contacts IS THE DEVIL) and uh. she had to explain to said coworker that i was trans. which. felt like shit. obviously. i was still not out.

anyway THAT person was a piece of shit who talked down to me and acted like i was terrible at my job and brought aLL the personal shit up as if i had ever trusted HER with any of it. like using my new chosen name in texts and shit to call me out for nothing. i had to give her a fucking 'excuse me, you dont get to call me that i never fucking told you that and its WEIRD that you think you get to call me that just cuz you invaded my privacy.'

she literally told both my bosses about all my private shit with this girl. like all that stupid bullshit about how we had dated and it didnt go well, she spread my private shit. and like... it all... ugh. like i got told by said bosses 'hey. none of what she said is important at all dont even worry about it.' and i really appreciated that. but that year was so bad for me, i felt like i was being watched like everything i did was being misconstrued. everything blew up so fast if there was something sma,, and it was 100% that person making it worse.

next year i just came out finally just was like. yeah alright. got a beard now, had my tits removed, might as well. and everyone was chill. personal beef spreading bitch didnt come back (the bosses were glad of that) shit was chill. was on friendly terms with "ex" being normal, never had any beef that year. was very much a 'the beef we had the previous year was this bitch egging her on'. i was partially running store. everything was fine i thought.

next year. as it turns out? was not asked to help run store that year. was very confused, there was a slot to fill that no one else could and i wasnt asked to do it. instead they had this absolute bigot who made everyone and i mean EVERYONE who worked there so uncomfortable, abusive language bigoted talk, wouldnt let people leave if they were sick ass piece of shit.. yeah he got the job. and everyone complained, but hes friends with the boss so whatever.

anyway reached my wits end. quit mid season. was fine, i was moving anyway, it was whatever.

you know why i wasnt asked to have that job? cuz the ex. for some reason without thinking, said 'yeah ill come back but i dont want him to be in charge after last year'. and she... never told me there was any problem. and that hurt me so bad. like talking to other people who were there, it all seemed like... okay, i was good at my job and would just.. act like a boss and not a friend sometimes. like be the guy going 'hey can you like. go do __ i need to count the till i dont have time to hear your funny joke rn'. and she took it personally. like its fine if youre sensitive to stuff, but i was under so much stress a lot and i dont always handle it well.

and that beef she had that she didnt tell me about turned into me losing a job, losing my sanity, feeling utterly betrayed and forcing everyone else who worked there to deal with the biggest pos as a boss with no repercussions. i heard from people post quitting i was being talked shit about by my prev bosses TO the employees. for the crime of... complaining about a bigot. who was misgendering me, being racist to other employees, making the teens feel unsafe to be around. like this was a SCREAMING old man kind of shit.

and all because the ex, initially, made a comment about not wanting me to be in charge. and i just... i really dont even know what i did. it was so underhanded. and when i asked her about it, she just said 'no i didnt say i WOULDNT work under you i just said i HOPED you wouldnt be in charge, and weeks later i asked why you werent in charge' but like??? no. you literally said something that cost me a job. you did. theres no taking that back, you didnt tell me any beef you had with me, you clearly equated job stress with personal stress. you cost me a job! YOU did that you set off a chain of events! and like i cant even begin to explain how much i helped her with shit at jobs. like i kind of took all the responsibility but we were both being paid the same. i would get called every day by her being confused by things while i was at home and help walk her through shit. it was fine, i was stressed but i was fine i never held it against her!

and she like. blew up that entire shit. that whole job i loved got blown up cuz i thought i trusted a person. like was it entirely her fault? obviously not. but that kind of shit.. it just hurt. the idea that i trusted her with my own shit years ago, then time and time again that blew up in my face until i just cant look back at any of it happily anymore makes me so upset. 8 years of a job i loved w a friend, and it all got ruined cuz i said 'hey by the way, im trans' and that spiralled into something stupid.

and i havent had a job since for SOOOOOOME REASON..... i sit at home doing fuck all cuz i cant stand the idea of being around anybody again. i dont trust anybody. i dont feel safe talking to people, being in public, having a job... its so stupid and i hate everything.

also the whole. got clocked and almost punched had my 6 ft brother not been standing near me at the time thing. so now i am uh. just completely agoraphobic.

anyway. sorry i am just in a bad place lately.

[bbyquokka]

Tag game: Get to know me!

tagged by @propertyoftoru ‹3

1. Birthday?

11th august (yes, having the same birthday as binnie is a flex, hehe even if the yrs are diff)

2. Favorite color?

pastel pink or blue. but i also love the colours of the galaxy and sunsets

3. How tall are you?

160cm

4. How many pair of shoes to you own?

not that much tbh. i mainly live in trainers or boots 🤷🏻‍♀️

5. Favorite song?

silent cry for skz, dead by asking alexandria (the whole from death to destiny album is my fave tbh)

6. Favorite movie?

howl's moving castle

7. Who would be your ideal partner?

already have my ideal partner 🖤

8. Do you want children?

not rn but in the future, sure.

9. Have you gotten in trouble with the law?

nope.

10. What color socks are you wearing?

red and white stripy socks.

11. Favorite type of music?

im not that fussed tbh. i can listen to anything as long as it has a good beat and keeps me hooked within the first couple of seconds

12. How many pillows do you sleep with?

2!!

13. What position do you sleep in?

whatever i feel comfortable in. could be in a ball or on my stomach

14. What don’t you like when you’re sleeping?

bright lights or DEAD SILENCE! i have to have something playing to fall asleep or have a window open (its too cold for the window to be open rn so i have to settle with a video playing)

15. Have you tried archery?

nope

16. Favorite fruit?

strawberries, grapes or honeydew melon.

17. Are you a good liar?

when i have to, yeah else i try not to lie because it brings drama and shit

18. What’s your personality type?

INFP-T

19. Innie or outie?

innie

20. Left or right handed?

right

21. Favorite food?

cheesecake!

22. Favorite foreign food?

oh, thats a hard one.... uh 😭

23. Are you clean or messy?

it kinda depends on how im doing mentally,,, im a clean person overall but when i hit that slump, i kinda just let everything pile on top and the apartment suffers....

24. Most used phrase?

but why though

25. How long does it take you to get ready?

depends on where im going and who with really.

26. Do you talk to yourself?

yes. lol

27. Do you sing to yourself?

ofc and i like to think im amazing at it

28. Are you a good singer?

i like to think i am but who knows :)

29. Biggest fear?

heights, closed/small spaces. it feels like im suffocating and i cannot

30. Are you a gossip?

nah. im too old for highschool shit, lmao

31. Long or short hair?

long, even if it does get on my last nerve

32. Favorite school subject?

english

33. Extrovert or introvert?

introverted, ahah,,,

34. What make you nervous?

going out in public, speaking to people idk. groups of people.

35. Who was your first crush?

josh hutcherson. look, he looked really cute in bridge to terabithia

36. How many piercings do you have?

2. nose and tragus. i do want more though, like a lot more

37. How many tattoos do you have?

0 :( again, i do want

38. How fast can you run?

not that fast??

39. What color is your hair?

black. its naturally brown. i need to go to the hairdressers and get the roots done desperately. also debating on getting pink put in as well,,,,

40. What color are your eyes?

brown

41. What makes you angry?

video games. people that think they're right when they're not. people that just assume without listening to opinions, that type of stuff

42. Do you like your name?

its okay. i mean, considering it took my mother and father a week to think of a name for me then

43. Do you want a boy to girl as a child?

im honestly not fussed. IF i had to choose, girl. most of my family is boys so would be nice

44. What are your strengths?

idk, do i have any? lmao

45. What are your weaknesses?

i guess i can be too stubborn

46. What’s the color of your bedspread?

light and dark blue. (ikea bedspread ftw)

47. What’s the color of your room?

just a standard white/creamy colour.

tags: @oshimee , @sstarryoong + whoever wants to join in! ignore if you don't want to/don't feel comfortable doing!

[earlyspringtranscendence]

derek hartigan will be like “it’s not easy being a 22 year old father of four 😤🙏👨‍👦‍👦👊 especially when one of those four is corin fucking cadence 🤦‍♂️🤬💥🚨”

[msookyspooky]

SPOOKY DO YOU LIKE THE ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW CUS I LOVE OT AND THINK STU WOULD TOO

GODBYE SPOOKMEISTER

lolool it grew on me 😂 When I first saw it at 15 I was like "Wtf even is this???" then I went to a live show and loved it!

Funny side story about that: You know how they call on virgins if you haven't seen it? Well I knew there was a chance and prepared. Like, I was ready to put a condom on a banana or to do the balloon thrust popping thing with a partner....Oh no, they called on me, ONLY me, had me get up on stage all eyes on me. And just asked 'are you a virgin then?' Mind you, my mom and family was there. Idc idk doing some stupid gag is one thing in front of my family but I just...BLANKED. I blanked out bc I didn't expect just ME to be up on stage in front of at least one hundred ppl and them asking that. It doesn't help it was a weird old man wrapping his arm around me to ask. So, I was a virgin irl and for the show and should have just said YEAH or something witty like TODAY I AM!

NNOOOOOOOO My stupid ass blanked out when a group of church going elderly women were in the front row staring at me + my mom beside them.

I loudly said "YES I AM A PROUD VIRGIN!"

ahhhgggghhjshkktdxjkkk I wanted to fucking die. The old guy asking me gave me a cringy look, I was beet red and when I was walking back to the seat a bunch of teen boys my age burst out laughing. Like damn I should have just kept walking up the aisle out of there 😭😭😭😭 omg and of course as a teen everything is so much worse. 25 yr old me would probably not have blanked out like that or thought too much about my answer and just stuck my tongue out at the assholes laughing but 15 yr old me was MORTIFIED.

Plus side, the actor that played Frank n Furter complimented my dress and all the actors we got to talk to were great and it was fun but that memory gives me second hand embarrassment to this day.

Yeah Stu seems like the type that makes fun of women and gays and is 'no homo' everyday of his life but uses the excuse of 'a joke' to dress in drag as Frank every chance he gets. Like boy just admit you look cute and you like it. Like this is him every year Randy hosts a Rocky Horror Picture Show screening if they lived and didn't get stabby.

Billy I don't think would like it. I can't see him liking musicals even he laughed a few times. Controversially, I could see Billy getting tired of being the pretty boy and refusing to be Rocky if he was forced to dress up (He's too skinny but wont admit thats why) but still wanting to keep up his image so he'd unironically be Eddy or Riff Raff.

Look at this creep and tell me our creep couldn't play him.

[bladekindeyewear]

HS^2 bloggin’ mainline 2020-12-25

I’m not going to spend time BLOGGING an upd8 on Christmas morning!

...yes I am who the fuck am I kidding.  (Bonus stuff and Hiveswap are still well on hold though.)

So are we gonna follow up on the main ship?  Probably not, right, with that perfect Karkat point to cut away, right?  We’re just going to leave Roxy’s question hanging, as well as makeouts etiquette, and leave while having seen a COUPLE FRAMES of non-possessed canon Jade with only whatever fun fanart was inspired across the internet by the moment to tide us over????

Yeah, probably.

Ugh, more Dirk.  I guess it’s overdue.  :(

> CHAPTER 16. Welcome to my Secret Lair

Oh huh, I guess not?  So... Jane’s, or Rose and Kanaya’s?

Karkat stays for longer than John thought he would. They talk a bit, but mostly they are quiet. Eventually, Karkat gets called away on yet more important war business, leaving John with one final touch on the shoulder. John leans into it in response, though he’s a bit ashamed of chasing down a sliver of physical affection so soon after obliterating Karkat’s evening like he had.

Pretty much, yeah.  Can’t blame either of them.

When Karkat is finally gone, John still doesn’t move. It isn’t as though he has nowhere else to go, since there are quite a few places he might attempt to make himself useful, for better or for worse.

You’re still abandoning the task that was explicitly yours to protect your literal kid and his friends, but, oh well.  Low-point.  Dave dead, house dead, broke news, I get it.

He just doesn’t feel ready for that yet. The remnants of his house are still smoldering, and he can’t stop staring at them. It would make sense, he thinks, to want to root around through the rubble for anything that’s still intact; some half-charred keepsake to claim as the last thing left that’s still his. But he doesn’t want to do it, and he doesn’t want to think about it. And he still can’t move.

Can’t move.  No Breath huh?  What’s going to get him to, then?

> (==>)

Oh boy, that might help.  XD  She’s pretty good at that.

> (==>)

Still with the waistline gap.  And was his phone always yellow like his God-Tier shoes?

ROXY: hey john can u do me a quick solid ROXY: actly idk how quick itll be but its definitely solid ROXY: harry anderson says i just missed u being here but could u skip back on over?

Nice, huh!  No judgment, just a hey-any-chance-you-could-swing-back.  He sort of needs to be needed right now, in a simple, almost everyday non-judgmental way I guess.  (That’s what he NEEDED anyway-- whether he deserved it though is up for debate.)

ROXY: i need help w/smth and yr darling boy is holed up in his room working on some fuckin craft project or other and cant be bothered

YES SEW JOHN A BETTER FITTING FUCKING OUTFIT

ROXY: and now that me and u are freshly on speakin terms again i might as well take advantage of that olive branch and put u to work ROXY: assumin you havent died in an air raid, that is ROXY: which id also be interested in knowin about so if u wld be so kind as to reply instead of leavin me hangin

Heheheh.  Gosh Roxy is always the best.

JOHN: yea yea sorry im here. JOHN: i just had a hard time getting my phone out of these fucking tiny pants.

Hah.

JOHN: and also my house is bombed out so i'm kinda grappling with that. JOHN: but i honestly am not sure how much longer i need to sit around staring at it. trying to align my memories of my youth with whatever is happening right now so JOHN: short version is no i’m not dead, and yeah i can come back over there and help you out. ROXY: oh sweet yr alive and down to do manual labor its a win/win JOHN: see you soon.

Yep!  Pulled away from all the metaphorical, ultra-meaningful bullshit, back to some brass tacks with some easy humor.  Definitely something Roxy can do well.~

> (==>)

EXCUSE ME.  What is that outfit and pose.  Did you--

ROXY: sup ROXY: follow me ROXY: well were just going to my room so i guess technically u know the way JOHN: haha ok.

Did you invite him over for the manual labor of banging you while your son is sewing in the other room

Or maybe the labor is making him a new sibling.  JFC

Is this plan part of why we got the sudden content warning that was mocked or was that mainly for Hiveswap 

John follows, trying to shake the ominous feeling he got from what she’d just said. He’d been in and out of this house a lot in the past few days. Why should this be any different?

I DUNNO JOHN DOES THIS SEEM DIFFERENT TO YOU

> (==>)

Yea this seems like a fucc room.

JOHN: it’s not like i could forget! ROXY: ya i guess u only really saw the living room when you were here the other day but i have changed some stuff up ROXY: done a lil redecoratin here n there

So it’s MORE of a fucc room than previously >__>”

ROXY: may have to do a smidge more if my old bff decides im next on the list for bombing out ROXY: but so far so good

Ah geez.

ROXY: just a coupla exploded cars in the yard from some shenanigans our dear son and his friends were in but u kno it is what it is!!!

Well, that’ll buff out easy.

ROXY: can i get u anything? ROXY: just made some coffee JOHN: no, uh, i’m good.

Of course she has a fancy handled winecoffeeglass  (and the handle does look ridiculous but it’d be too hot to hold otherwise)

Roxy shrugs and swirls her own coffee around in her novelty mug. John looks around. A lot about the room is the same. The family photos, the rug. There’s a lot more cat stuff in there now, though. The bed is new. John feels like he’s about to take a test he hasn’t studied for. He makes himself focus on what she’s saying.

That would be the feeling.

> (==>)

MY GOD.  Roxy is so fucking good at this holy shit

She KNOWS she’s making him squirm and she loves it

JOHN: so uh anyway. JOHN: what was this favor? ROXY: yo why dont u just come rest yr tush for a bit ROXY: take a lil relax next 2 me here JOHN: haha uh. JOHN: roxy i uh. JOHN: im flattered, but i don’t know if that’s really the right step right now. JOHN: don’t get me wrong, everything seems so fucked up right now that when i try to think about what might actually BE the right step, it feels like a huge cartoon question mark might physically manifest over my head. JOHN: but I’m not sure if um rekindling our physical relationship is really the best--

So is Roxy trolling him, about to reveal she wasn’t thinking of sex and was just making things seem sultry?  Or just had “lol jk” as an option-select, maybe.

> (==>)

ROXY: r u kiddin me rn egbert JOHN: i’m not? unless you were, in which case yeah lets say i was also kidding. JOHN: oh my god, i’m sorry, i don’t know why this making me freak out.

OH NOOO NOT THE DISDAAAAIN - CRITICAL HIT D:

ROXY: i remember our past boot knockin with fondness but that is a situation im not interested in revisiting

boot knockin XD

ROXY: look john ROXY: i was trying to be polite about it ROXY: offering u sustenance n rest n all ROXY: but you look like shit ROXY: i just wanted to catch up on the whole heinous war situation were in and maybe check in on e/o before leaping strait to the real n actual nonsexual manual labor favor i have in mind for u JOHN: oh.

Hey, she can’t help looking sexy she’s too good at it.

Is the manual labor moving the crashed cars?  Can’t Roxy pull that off on her own, or... banish the cars to the void or something?  (Oh, but WOULD she want to do it on her own when she can rope in John and bring him down to earth by giving him a useful task?  And admittedly his strength and wallet would make things easier.)

John feels his shoulders unbunch. Of course. Yeah. He’s almost embarrassed by how relieved he feels. So what if his ex wife wanted to hook up? Shouldn’t that be a situation he could navigate? Don’t people like to find solace in human physical connection during dire times? Why did the idea of it make his mind white out in panic more than, say, any number of the traumas he just experienced?

Probably some gender stuff mixed up in there too, June.

He doesn’t know, but he believes Roxy that he must look pretty haggard. He probably feels haggard? Maybe sitting down will feel better.

Just put your feet up yeah

> (==>)

WHAT A CUTE IMAGE

JOHN: sorry. like i said, my "how to react to stuff" meter is completely fucked right now. ROXY: thats fair bud

she’s used to being patient with you don’t worry otherwise you never would’ve gotten this far

ROXY: real fast i do need to do a quick takeback of all that shit i said last time we talked about janey not being literally the most evil person we knew or whatever ROXY: i guess i was hopped up on arguin or somethin since that was before we hit our conversational vibe bc of course u were right and i shoulda listened

Ouch.  Yeah, we saw just lately just how far off the deep end she was.  (Where was that funny upd8 reaction art summarizing the bit where Kanaya was holding Tavros hostage and Jane was transparently debating “hmm do I let my son die?” and Kanaya and Tavros were just looking at each-other flat-mouthed nervous?  I REALLY wanted to share that but I don’t usually want to reblog or put most stuff HS^2 not under a read-more, for spoiler purposes, usually.)

ROXY: im just glad ur ok ROXY: or like alive JOHN: yeah, jury's still out on "ok" but, you know. ROXY: ya ROXY: u said ur house is gone?? JOHN: yep. JOHN: completely. ROXY: jeez ROXY: i would ask how ur feelin but like the answer 2 that has got 2b "prtty bad"

Talk it ouuuut~~  get those feels out there and articulated john

JOHN: yeah. JOHN: i mean. JOHN: no? JOHN: it’s weird. JOHN: it feels like it should be a bigger deal, I guess? JOHN: like it’s my HOUSE. JOHN: but mostly it always felt like my dad’s house? JOHN: and when i started living there after i moved out of here, it was like i crammed myself back into whatever was left of my kid self? JOHN: and it didn’t feel good, but it at least was familiar, you know? JOHN: like living there let me feel closer to my dad, trying to be like the way i remember him, or like how i remember him wanting me to be, or something? JOHN: and i didn’t realize how much i hated doing that until i saw it all go up in flames. JOHN: so i guess i could have used my powers to stop the fire and save whatever was left of the place, but i couldn’t bring myself to do it. JOHN: like some fucked up part of me was glad i got there too late? JOHN: so i just sat there, watching, trying to figure out why watching my house burn down felt like i was being released from prison. JOHN: and even now i keep trying to explain it away, as though it’s because of how fucked up everything else is that it made me feel good. JOHN: but that’s just bullshit. JOHN: it DID feel good. JOHN: i DO feel free. JOHN: sorry.

I was kind of saying some Breath/Blood stuff at the time of him losing his last tie to his stubborn sticking-to-his-kid-self bit?  Except now we’re mixing it in with June Egbert and his gender-identity questions too.

ROXY: no need 2 apologize ROXY: we just delved in2 my whole gender thing last time so it seems fine for u to have a turn JOHN: i didn’t say it was a gender thing.

Oh shit

ROXY: well no i just meant like i did some sharing ROXY: like referrin 2 the topic i brought up when we chatted last ROXY: but like now that u mention it ROXY: *meaningful pause* JOHN: … JOHN: i JOHN: ROXY: lol well we can move on 2 the favor part if youd rather ROXY: stick a lil pin in that topic n come back 2 it when u have had sleep

Are you just INCREDIBLY incisive Roxy or have you and John talked about this before?

ROXY: like i said the other day its not like this shits figureoutable in 1 sitting anyways JOHN: yeah... ROXY: sooooooo ROXY: movin on

It’s just fine for Roxy to slow-roll this yeah, if she’s going to pry open that door a little

ROXY: dont be mad but theres a part of the house u didnt know abt the whole time u lived here JOHN: what? ROXY: yea ROXY: i got a secret lair ROXY: for my sciences

OH FUCK YES SCIENCE LAB, of COURSE Roxy would want a cool science lab basement because she always wants a cool science lab basement

ROXY: and i get to it via a transportalizer underneath our bed ROXY: which is 2 heavy 2 move by my lonesome so i just needed to borrow some o your aforementioned powers of wind

Okay no.  Wait.  What the fuck?

First of all, as funny and MSPaintAdventures-y as furniture being in the way of things is, why would you block it with a bed too heavy to move, but,

Second of all, more importantly, how is a GOD-TIER ROXY not strong enough to lift a heavy bed?!?!?!?  Either she’s lying to get John involved in things or this is a gendered cop-out because these characters are superheroes at the TOP of their echeladders, given obnoxiously powerful video-game strength and athletics only to then have ascended into DEITIES.  God-Tier Roxy could probably have lifted a bed like that when she was SEVENTEEN!  And now she’s an ADULT, out-of-shape or otherwise!  If this were a whole CAR I might be willing to handwave it, but just a heavy BED?!?  And none of the GUYS are going to have this much trouble lifting a bed like this, are they??  This just feels like following classic cartoony gender tropes in the complete absence of these characters’ super powers, what the fuck, and also Roxy if you didn’t make it Transportalizer-only access you could have given it an entrance you could phase through with your fancy powers to get to.  FUCK.

This feels stupid.

ROXY: so if u dont mind woosh away JOHN: uh ok, well... JOHN: a secret science lair, sure, i can deal with that. JOHN: why not! JOHN: it doesn’t work out great when i do the windy thing indoors, though. ROXY: aight then no wind bending just use your mangrit

Roxy flexes, the corner of her mouth pulled up into a familiar grin. John feels his guts, so recently calmed, twist up into knots again. Her eyebrows shoot up and the smile loosens. He must have shown something on his face.

You’re already THIS sensitive about gendertalk?

ROXY: ok or just like push when i push ROXY: we both got sick muscles ROXY: no other adjectives necessary JOHN: yeah ok. ROXY: on 3?

Please, please reinforce the idea that they both have sick strength, because they fucking do and the idea that Roxy actually a hundred percent NEEDED John to do this is BS.

> (==>)

JOHN: holy shit? ROXY: sorry to lop yet another huge scoop onto ur lil brains ice cream revelation sundae JOHN: so wait, if this thing's always been under the bed, how’d you get down here before without me? ROXY: well thats neither here nor there john JOHN: i mean it is kinda. Here. ROXY: fine ok checkmate ROXY: i dont ACTUALLY need ur nerdgrit for this escapade ROXY: like im sorry but i said it ROXY: i mostly just wanted to see you and show u wats down here

THANK FUCKING CHRIST.

If that wasn’t actually just a lie to get him involved I was going to stay SO mad.  Of COURSE Roxy can move a fucking BED no matter how heavy it is.  OF COURSE.

ROXY: and also uve been ~sent for~ JOHN: ok but like ROXY: john i am inviting u 2 my inner sanctum ROXY: i am literally bringing out the word "sanctum" in case u werent already clued in 2 how cool this is ROXY: so do u wanna go into my secret lair or wat JOHN: yeah!? JOHN: yes? i guess? ROXY: aight good

Yes John of course you want to stop fighting it

ROXY: then as they told me in the hospital before lil h a was born ROXY: just push

eyeroll, but yeah, of course

> (==>)

Oh cool, sprite form version of her loungewear.

> (==>)

Sorry for my compulsion to post every full-frame image of Roxy in this awesome outfi-WERE YOU KEEPING CALLIOPE UNDER YOUR BED THIS WHOLE TIME?!?????

That’s like... almost a fucking metaphor isn’t it????  For the relationship you preferred in the other timeline and possibly THIS one TOO or

ROXY: hey callieee i got him ROXY: o damn john sorry i shoulda also told u callies here weve been hangin out again ROXY: 1 more freak for ur bean

Oh huh, so this isn’t an always thing.  And these two can get close in more than one timeline where it would’ve worked out nicely.  :)

JOHN: oh it's ok, my bean feels pretty well adjusted to freakage at this point so keep them coming if you like! ROXY: k cool i will JOHN: do i get to know what that big thing under the sheet is? ROXY: hmmmmmm no JOHN: oh ok. JOHN: are you sure? i mean, it seems like a pretty prominent feature of the room. JOHN: space. JOHN: wherever we are. ROXY: and a totally mysterious n COMPLETELY inconspicuous feature it will have to remain for now ROXY: we r kinda in a hurry here fyi ROXY: and by that i mean ROXY: we are in precisely the amount of hurry that means im excused from having to a that specific q rn JOHN: right, sorry. JOHN: i will pay no attention to the object behind the curtain. ROXY: u catch on fast egbert ROXY: anyway theres more cool info coming so just follow me

I don’t have any big theories.  Is it just the Hiveswap device or something?  If Calliope helped with it it’d help explain the Cherubic theme.

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JOHN: so... this is all downstairs? JOHN: it seems like you had a lot of work done. ROXY: well no not x actly ROXY: were in the old meteor JOHN: under the house??? ROXY: ok so ROXY: in hindsight it may have been a bit misleading 2 say like ROXY: "downstairs" ROXY: in reference to a place which is hells of buried underground and may not actually be literally under the house ROXY: but there is no time to explain all that rn john so instead im going to refer u to my adorable little green friend here CALLIOPE: #U_U# ROXY: (hehe) CALLIOPE: *AHEM* CALLIOPE: hi john! CALLIOPE: long time no see. ^u^

Cherubs just really like dark cavelike places full of weird tech don’t they.

> (==>)

THEY’RE SO CUTE

JOHN: oh, uh. hey callie! JOHN: it sure has been a while huh. JOHN: now that i think about it, the last time the three of us hung out like this... CALLIOPE: was when i was aggressively third wheeling yoUr prenUptial coUrtship? CALLIOPE: if yoU dont mind, john, i'd rather not rehash that period of oUr lives. CALLIOPE: it was more than a little painfUl for me. JOHN: oh. JOHN: god, jeez, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to-- CALLIOPE: hee hee john i am only pUlling yoUr leg, don't worry. CALLIOPE: if anything i was personally a little thrilled with how things shook oUt in that respect. CALLIOPE: imagine, if yoU will, a yoUng cherUb raised in solitUde, whose only solace was the convolUted and tUmUltUoUs romantic schemata she projected onto her only friends from another Universe. CALLIOPE: and then fUrther imagine that this yoUng cherUb, throUgh varioUs even *more* convolUted contrivances, ended Up in the company of those selfsafe friends as an eqUal participant in their sphere of social discoUrse! CALLIOPE: it is a joy the like of which yoU possibly cannot fathom. u_u

Reinforcing that things turning out this way was in fact the FANTASY that Calliope was writing over in the Canon timeline.  Just, heavily, HEAVILY implied that the Candy timeline is -- or at least originated as -- Calliope’s fanfiction as a Muse of Space, and its competition for audience interest with canon is the essential conflict between alt!Calliope and Dirk (or Dirk and Andrew Hussie).

CALLIOPE: so to pUt it simply, getting to experience sUch emotional drama myself was an impossibly enriching experience. CALLIOPE: possibly a first for my species! CALLIOPE: it's actUally qUite interesting, if yoU ROXY: *nudge* CALLIOPE: oh, right. yes. i'm getting a little carried away, haha. CALLIOPE: argh, i'm sorry, this is not how i planned to begin this vital conversation.

Vital conversation?  What sorta truth-bombs are coming?

CALLIOPE: but to sUmmarise, what i was trying to say is: CALLIOPE: don't beat yourself Up aboUt it john. CALLIOPE: besides, hUman divorces are even more fascinating than i had ever imagined, and being able to witness yoUrs in motion was an honoUr. CALLIOPE: so i consider Us aboUt even at this point. JOHN: hahaha!!! JOHN: okay, well that's good to know! CALLIOPE: ^u^

Holy SHIT that was savage!  And we’ll NEVER know whether or not she really intended it so savagely, either.~

JOHN: so um... JOHN: i hear that there's this big secret thing you wanna tell me about? CALLIOPE: oh right, yes of course! CALLIOPE: let me jUst say first of all how thrilled i am that yoU're on board. CALLIOPE: i wasn't sUre if yoUr natUral inclinations woUld have preclUded yoUr coming to such a place as this, and yet here yoU are. CALLIOPE: this whole endeavoUr will be *so* mUch easier with yoUr help.

Uh oh.

Hopefully babies aren’t involved.

JOHN: oh! well, shucks. JOHN: not really sure what that means but i'm just glad to be of use somewhere, haha. JOHN: which, speaking of somewhere, CALLIOPE: ah right, right. yoU're probably a little cUrioUs as to where the dickens we are. CALLIOPE: how much do yoU know aboUt black holes? JOHN: um... like, the big space things? CALLIOPE: they aren't always big actUally, and in fact their relative smallness is practically their defining qUality. JOHN: oh. CALLIOPE: bUt okay i think we are on the same page. CALLIOPE: so, what if i told yoU that we are inside of a black hole right now.

Oh dear, we’re getting into the canon/noncanon divide?

JOHN: um... JOHN: like, HERE? JOHN: we just transportalized into a black hole? CALLIOPE: no, i mean, what if oUr whole WORLD was inside a black hole. JOHN: ok.

Yeah, that’s gonna be John’s reaction.  “ok.”  Pretty much inevitable.

CALLIOPE: earth c, or at least oUr version of it, has, from the moment we crossed the victory threshold, been inside a black hole. JOHN: ok. CALLIOPE: and not just any black hole, bUt the very black hole in which the green sUn Ultimately met its demise, allowing oUr victory in the first instance! JOHN: huh! ROXY: ("huh!") ROXY: (rofl my fucking ao egbert) JOHN: (shhhh!)

And Roxy enjoys his non-reaction reactions as much as we do, hehe.

CALLIOPE: bUt, paradoxically, the critical moment which determined its capture within the black hole happened *after* that point. CALLIOPE: i refer of coUrse to yoUr decision not to retUrn to the mediUm and fight my brother. JOHN: wait, wait. JOHN: you mean, the meat and candy thing? JOHN: oh my god. JOHN: you mean i actually DID make a mistake that day. CALLIOPE: well, that's not exactly what that-- JOHN: ugh, i fucking KNEW it! JOHN: i'm so sorry. JOHN: i'm so sorry that i put the earth inside a black hole everyone. ): ROXY: john ROXY: listen ROXY: u have got to get out of this mindset i am begging you JOHN: ):

Yeah shake him out of this shit.

ROXY: your choice literally didnt matter ROXY: the whole thing was symbolic in the first place ROXY: literally symbolic in the case of the picnic i mean come on ROXY: it was just some steak and a plate of candy suckers JOHN: oh. CALLIOPE: i mean, i wouldn't go so far as to say that the meal we shared was unimportant, given the sacred significance of the two options i presented. CALLIOPE: but yes, yoUr choice of snack was infinitely less important than the choice which it presaged. CALLIOPE: and even then, calling it a choice woUld be sorely misleading. CALLIOPE: think of it like a coin flip. CALLIOPE: the series of events that led to Us being trapped beyond the event horizon of an Ubermassive black hole could be considered "tails", while the events which would have occUrred otherwise could be considered "heads". CALLIOPE: since both were possible, and paradox space is the way it is, they actUally both happened. and we jUst "happened" (hee hee) to get tails instead of heads. JOHN: you mean we ended up with the bad possibility. CALLIOPE: not at all! since both possibilities depend on one another's existence, it really doesn't make sense to call them "right" or "wrong". they both just "are". JOHN: o...kay... CALLIOPE: u_u

Yeah, it’s going to take a bit more than that to convince him he didn’t make the “wrong decision”.

CALLIOPE: i realise that this may be a lot to process. CALLIOPE: it's easy to forget that this wasn't obvioUs to everyone from the beginning. CALLIOPE: anyway, the reason i went on this tangent in the first place was to explain that the space we are standing in right now has a special significance, in that it is the location which corresponds to the black hole's singUlarity. JOHN: oh, wow. JOHN: um. JOHN: ok so, sorry if this is a dumb question to ask suddenly, but what does being inside of a black hole actually... mean for us? JOHN: is that bad? JOHN: is it like in movie, um, JOHN: shoot. JOHN: roxy what was that matthew mcconaughey movie from your earth that we watched? ROXY: u mean interstellar JOHN: RIGHT. JOHN: the one with the organ. JOHN: man. i cried at that movie so much. ROXY: lol u can say that again ROXY: iirc at least part of y u got so weepy was the fact that u couldnt believe a version of earth existed where ppl got 2 watch more mcconaughey films than you JOHN: listen. JOHN: i simply don't think you all appreciated the gift you were given. CALLIOPE: i don't believe i'm familiar with this particular film ^u^;; ROXY: oh dont worry cal you didnt miss much JOHN: (gasp)

This is all gold

ROXY: but the important point is that no its not really an interstellar type situation here egbert ROXY: ur not gonna enter a weird time vortex and change the trajectory of a little girls life with the power of love JOHN: aw.

Dammit, now we have to be on the lookout for that possibility.  Or it did sort of already happen more than once to John.  ...Whatever.

CALLIOPE: to go back to your original question, john. CALLIOPE: it's not strictly speaking "bad" for Us to be inside of a black hole, mUch thoUgh that contradicts most of what anyone knows about them. CALLIOPE: of coUrse, if we had fallen into it, that woUld be a whole other kettle of fish. CALLIOPE: the tidal forces woUld have stretched Us all into spaghetti and then ripped us apart! CALLIOPE: bUt the natUre of oUr arrival was more akin to simply "being" here, sUddenly. one moment we were not, and the next moment we were, and somehow always had been. CALLIOPE: in everyday, practical terms, being inside of a black hole has very little bearing on Us. CALLIOPE: i mean, the natUre of space and time is a little finicky in here, bUt for the most part it doesn't seem to be anything too oUt of the ordinary. CALLIOPE: bUt beyond that, it means that we are sealed away from the rest of existence. CALLIOPE: oUr sphere of inflUence is limited to the sphere of the black hole's bounding horizon. CALLIOPE: as far as everyone else is concerned, we might as well not even exist! JOHN: is there no way we could let anyone know that we're in here...? CALLIOPE: almost certainly not!

No?  So this doesn’t have to do with the divide?

CALLIOPE: there are very few ways for anything to escape the kind of predicament that we are in right now. one of them is to be an all-powerfUl being with control over the very fabric of space, with the energy of two Universes at yoUr disposal. CALLIOPE: in which case, escape woUld become rather trivial, if a little Unscientific. JOHN: ok. i am going to assume that we can't just do that. CALLIOPE: yoU've hit the nail on the head, UnfortUnately. U_U CALLIOPE: the method i described was the one employed by my alternate self, who yoU may recall crashed through the event horizon in the body that once belonged to jade harley. CALLIOPE: she departed through a pUnctUre she created in the black hole's surface shortly after consUming my brother, a deed which provided her with the necessary "oomph", and which was frankly rather breathtaking to watch. =u= CALLIOPE: bUt Upon her departUre, the rift closed for good. as far as i can see, there's simply no way for Us to commUnicate with the world oUtside the black hole.

What the heck?  Calliope SAW all this?  Is this her Muse powers at work, letting her observe these things, or was she there?  And John certainly did NOT see ANY of what Calliope just said happen.

CALLIOPE: i woUld certainly be very sUrprised to find oUt that anyone had managed sUch a thing!

So we’re going to find that out if we haven’t already.  Maybe something to do with the way Vrissy just conks out narcoleptically?

JOHN: ...right. JOHN: so... let me just get this straight. JOHN: knowing that we're inside of a black hole... does that actually change anything? JOHN: like, can't we just go on living like normal? CALLIOPE: oh absolUtely not. CALLIOPE: i don't know if yoU've noticed john bUt this world is on the brink of a total cataclysm. JOHN: oh.

Um, what?

CALLIOPE: oUr exclUsion from the overarching coUrse of events which governs all reality means that oUr existence here is liable to dramatic and violent Upheaval. CALLIOPE: to pUt it another way, becaUse nothing in here "matters", we are likely to be sUbjected to things which are a bit bats in the belfry, for no reason other than it's totally insignificant to the wider canon of reality. CALLIOPE: and mUch thoUgh i am personally titillated by some of the conseqUences of this predicament, it is a degrading way for Us to live. u_u JOHN: that's... certainly one way to put it, yeah...

No plot-armor for your entire timeline, I guess, yep.  Outside of canon, we can imagine and write about ANYTHING happening to the characters, or just drop their existence entirely, much like a doomed offshoot timeline.  It’s a plot stability that depended heavily on the threat of Lord English and being trapped in a story, and without it things are bound to see a BIT chaotic (or “degrading” if you view it as subjected to the whims of fanfic writers, certainly).

CALLIOPE: at first, i believed that this was simply necessary. Us playing tails to oUr coUnterparts' heads, the black to their white, and so forth. CALLIOPE: bUt over the years i have come to the conclUsion that this is simply not kosher. ROXY: its total bs is what it is CALLIOPE: right, yes. CALLIOPE: a steaming pile of bUllshite. CALLIOPE: and so we have decided that something needs to be done aboUt it.

Ah fuck.  You’re going to regulate non-canon?  “Canonize” it?  Is the fact that you eventually succeed at whatever it is you’re trying to do part of why we have the story presented to us in this bifurcated structure?

ROXY: this is finally where u come in jegbert ROXY: we gots quests for yous CALLIOPE: hee hee, yes. CALLIOPE: or *a* quest, to be specific. JOHN: oh boy! ROXY: (this fkin nerd i s2g)

Roxy and Calliope setting him on this quest as a Rogue of Void and a Muse of Space feels fitting.

JOHN: i'm not sure how i can go about freeing us from a hellish space prison, but i'm up for giving it a try i guess? JOHN: i have... literally nothing better to be doing at this point. except for maybe hanging out with harry anderson. ROXY: nice save lol

YEAH WE’RE STILL GLOSSING OVER HOW YOU LEFT HIM UNPROTECTED, JERK

ROXY: but u dont need to worry abt busting us outta space jail tbh ROXY: thats not ur problem to fix JOHN: oh. JOHN: i'm... not sure i follow, then. ROXY: i mean yeah ur gonna obvs facilitate it in a sense ROXY: but only by going and busting the person who can actually help us outta normal earth jail CALLIOPE: we need yoU to free vriska from the clUtches of oUr misgUided friend jane, and bring her here, to the singUlarity. ROXY: weve been calling it the plot point CALLIOPE: yes, the plot point is a key part of oUr plan. CALLIOPE: as far as we have been able to sUrmise, the only remaining method for escaping oUr grim confinement depends on leveraging the UniqUe properties of this location to create an event of sUch catalcysmic proportions that it simply cannot be contained within the black hole any more. CALLIOPE: something SO dramatic, so hyper-relevant, that it becomes ontologically impossible for anyone to ignore it. CALLIOPE: for that, we need an individUal of sUfficient narrative cloUt, so to speak. CALLIOPE: and to liberate her, who better than the embodiment of the aspect of freedom itself? CALLIOPE: ... CALLIOPE: phew. okay, i'm finished. CALLIOPE: CALLIOPE: sorry, that took longer than i expected to go throUgh.

..............................

OOooooh, kay.

Whatever this is, it’s going to be really weird and PROBABLY infuriating and/or shippy, and I’m probably not going to like it.  Plus it seems like it’s some sort of inverse belated canonization of some other black-hole-rescue theories I went on about at some point.  Although, related to that link, “aspect of freedom” if anyone wasn’t paying attention!  That’s a (sorta-)canon mention of the purpose of it!

They’re going to attention-wh-- attention-hog themselves out of the black hole so that they’re “considered canon” too, or close enough.  Huh.

ROXY: what r u talking about cals that was great ROXY: i could listen 2 u plotsplain for years CALLIOPE: oh you >u< ROXY: fyi this was why i wanted u to get a move on eggbread ROXY: so callie could have more time 2 infodump ROXY: thats love bitchhhhhh JOHN: hahaha. JOHN: ok, well, i think i understood all that?

Love with who? Callie, John, both?

In reality, John isn’t sure what most of this means. But on balance, it feels okay? He’s gone back and forth about a hundred times in the last week about where his place in everything is, so he might as well ride this out. Plus, the last time a Lalonde kind of told him to do something, he thinks that he chose not to, and look where that got him. And it’s not like he has other plans. He may as well do this! It’s at least going to get him involved in things again, if nothing else. He turns to go, and then hears a sound. It’s the sound of feet and knocking on doors, echoed through stone and digital static.

Oh shit.  Is Andrew trapped behind some fourth walls behind the curtains.

> (==>)

Oh RIGHT also that DEVICE is where they want to bring Vriska.  Are they going to overturn part of canon itself with a super-retcon thus making this timeline unbelievably relevant or--?  Maybe make all the PESTERQUESTS canon or something?!  I don’t know.  Maybe they’re INTENTIONALLY starting the game like Vriska wanted to??????

Guh, this is something so big that I don’t WANT to theorize about it, do I.

JOHN: did you hear that? ROXY: wha ROXY: oh yeah uh ROXY: i may have messaged rose and kan and jade to check on them too ROXY: so its prob onea them showin up ROXY: they don’t need to know bout all this tho ROXY: we got time to chat with them b4 u go get vriska

No, even if it’s a knock at the somehow-top-level-house-even-under-buried-- oh, right, maybe it’s covering in part a monitoring system that looks up there.  But still, part of that sound was DOUBTLESS these two hiding something, all standing in front of the curtain like that.

JOHN: i’ll go stall em. ROXY: thx babe ROXY: oh is it 2 soon for that joke or JOHN: no, weirdly enough, that one’s fine. ROXY: oh good ok see u up there soon!

How is calling your significant other “babe” not cool REGARDLESS of gender?!  Like wasn’t that always cool? --Oh wait is it because they’re not together or... but... guh, I don’t know.

Anyway, see y’all after the holidays at least.

[zzoupz]

I decided to answer it all so you can know more bout me maybe

If you’re lazy it’s okay just pass by

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

Closed

2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?

Sometimes eh

3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?

In?

4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

No thats a bad thing <:0

5: Do you like to use post-it notes?

idk

6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?

Yeah, it’s a kind of collection I think

7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?

BE RUNNIN

8: Do you have freckles?

acne. a lot of acne

9: Do you always smile for pictures?

No, I don’t like faking smile :-(

10: What is your biggest pet peeve?

haha let’s don’t talk bout it

11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

Sounds dump but yep

12: Have you ever peed in the woods?

[DATA REDACTED]

13: What about pooped in the woods?

[DATA REDACTED]

14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?

No what kind of psychopath do that

15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?

yes

16: How many people have you slept with this week?

..5-10.. I just goes a camp thing..

17: What size is your bed?

IDK

18: What is your Song of the week?

......Earth...

19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?

Yes, it’s okay for girls to wear blue too so why not >:0

20: Do you still watch cartoons?

A LOT

21: Whats your least favorite movie?

every Thai movie ever

22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

With my mom becuz I’m a good bo i

23: If you’re a girl, bra size? If you’re a guy, pants size?

uh 30??? I dun remember :/

24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?

I don’t

25: What is your favorite food?

I D O N ‘ T W A N N A E A T

26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

Alice in Wonderland....idk why but yeah..

27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?

Now my sis

28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?

girls can join boy scouts in TH too so both :0

29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

[DATA REDACTED]

30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

In a Thai language exam..yknow

31: Can you change the oil on a car?

Uh no

32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?

[DATA REDACTED]

33: Ever ran out of gas?

[DATA REDACTED]

34: Favorite kind of sandwich?

ham n cheese ah

35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?

R I C E

36: What is your usual bedtime?

12.00 pm or even later

37: Are you lazy?

why ask lmao

38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?

“We don’t do that here”

39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?

dog. Just dog.

40: Are you horny?

[DATA REDACTED]

41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

?????????????????

42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs?

L E G O S

43: Are you stubborn?

sometimes

44: Who is better…Leno or Letterman?

Letterman >:0

45: Ever watch soap operas?

maybe

46: Are you afraid of heights?

YESYESYESYESYEYSYESYESYES S

47: Do you sing in the car?

A LOT

48: Do you sing in the shower?

no (or at least do a lip sync)

49: Do you dance in the car?

sometimes

50: Ever used a gun?

is toy gun counts

51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

1-2 years ago

52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?

yes

53: Is Christmas stressful?

.....yes

54: Ever eat a pierogi?

no

55: Favorite type of fruit pie?

A P P L E

56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Teacher, doctors,...etc..

57: Do you believe in ghosts?

I AM THE GHOST

58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

Like a thousands times haha

59: Take a vitamin daily?

Nu

60: Wear slippers?

Everyday, everywhere. (even in a wedding or somethin)

61: Wear a bath robe?

Nu

62: What do you wear to bed?

[DATA REDACTED]

63: First concert?

A free concert in a Songkran festival 

64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

SEVEN - ELEVEN

65: Nike or Adidas?

Nike

66: Cheetos Or Fritos?

CHEETOS

67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Sunflower seeds :)

68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?

Nah

69: Ever take dance lessons?

No

70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

[DATA REDACTED]

71: Can you curl your tongue?

NO

72: Ever won a spelling bee?

Nu :(

73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

No but also yes

74: Own any record albums?

Yes :)

75: Own a record player?

Yes but also no :)

76: Regularly burn incense?

idk

77: Ever been in love?

A LOT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

78: Who would you like to see in concert?

Hatsune Miku would be great 

79: What was the last concert you saw?

A concert of some random singer I don’t know bc I din’t listen to Thai musics

80: Hot tea or cold tea?

Cool pls

81: Tea or coffee?

Choco bleach

82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?

Snickerdoodles mayb

83: Can you swim well?

I ever almost drown to dead so guess what

84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yes but just a bit

85: Are you patient?

up to the situation

86: DJ or band, at a wedding?

DJ 😎😎😎

87: Ever won a contest?

A Chinese hand writing contest.

88: Ever have plastic surgery?

No what kind of 12 yrs old do that

89: Which are better black or green olives?

I don’t eat them idk 

90: Can you knit or crochet?

Eh no

91: Best room for a fireplace?

you better not make a fireplace in a room.... okay maybe a classroom is okay

92: Do you want to get married?

:)

93: If married, how long have you been married?

No I haven’t

94: Who was your HS crush?

Don’t have one :/

95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

that’s.....a yeah

96: Do you have kids?

NO

97: Do you want kids?

NO AND ALSO NO

98: Whats your favorite color?

yello 

99: Do you miss anyone right now?

@ruzz-0v0 😔😔

[clearskiiess]

I actually have the best idea for your "talk about" ask meme. Do 1-40 please 💕💗💞💟❤️💖 Give Us Your Autobiography

1  - talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

already answered !

2 - talk about your first kiss.

damn well that aint happened yet. lol

3 - talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.

hGGGG probably my best friend and crush miriam. god im fucking in love with her omfg gO DODKLHFSHFDJDKHK i wont ramble too much but omffhjfkfjkdhfkjd thnak god shes not on tumblr or id die eeeehggGGGH like we flirt a lot but we’re not dating quite yetaaa ghddgh

4 - talk about the thing you regret most so far.

nothing bitchesssss 😎🤘 i regret not getting into good music earlier maybe.

5 - talk about the best birthday you’ve had.

already answered!

6 - talk about the worst birthday you’ve had.

uhhhghghgh not really a bad one i can remember ! all of them have been good, some better than others ofc but theyre still good even if i dont get prezzies.

7 - talk about your biggest insecurity.

ohufuibfhkbkjbjk probably my art and drumming and writing opps.

8 - talk about the thing you are most proud of.

already answered !

9 - talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

already answered!

10 -  talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.

damn probably me and my mum, we fight kind of often but yeah djldfkjjkdjkdkj those are probably the worst fights i have. or me and my dad

11 - talk about the best dream you’ve ever had.

already answered!

12 - talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had.

damn uh kinda dont wanna answer, too personal sorry eee

13 - talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

idk really, just being with someone i really like or even love and its just super fun and casual, and like just exploring it? yeah

14 - talk about a vacation.

ooo when me n the fam went to europe when i was 10 and we went to paris for 4 days, then germany for 2 weeks and norway i think 1 or 2 weeks? it was bloody awesome omfG it was great !!!! my family is big on travel so we usually use our money on it.

15 - talk about the time you were most content in life.

already answered !

16 - talk about the best party you’ve ever been to.

eh not really? maybe friend’s parties as a child but thats kinda it. dont really go to parties yet eee

17 - talk about someone you want to be friends with.

already answered !

18 - talk about something that happened in elementary school.

uh thats primary right? well, nothing interesting i remember in year 6 i loved warrior cats and me n my friends would roleplay it a lot at school, everyone thot we were weird but i didnt care ahah.

19 - talk about something that happened in middle school.

well thats high school for me so, nothing interesting either. maybe that one time with my old friend domi and maya and it was yr 7, i was 13 i was staying home cause i was sick af. and maya called me up, obviously trying not to laugh. and she was like “domis broken his leg! help help! what do i do” and im like uh. why are you calling me??? call the ambulance or get a teacher to do it for christs sake! i dont even believe you. and she was like yeah look! and sent me a fucking photoshopped pic of him lying at the bottom of the stairs, it made me fucking laugh so hard i was like, bro you expect me to believe you? ok buddy. bye. and hung up it was funny af

20 - talk about something that happened in high school.

^^^ answered above lol.

21 - talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

ggghHHHH ok i had to turn down my friend austin in yr 7  bc domi was pressuring me to go out with him cause i told him about how i used to like him, but for some reason that meant i still liked him to him??? so he kept going on abt it saying ask him out etc so i caved in and did and the date was so shitty i just faked sick and left and we didnt talk for a bit, but thats long gone and we’ve made up now lol, just good friends

22 - talk about your worst fear.

already answered ! 

23 - talk about a time someone turned you down.

hgg not happened yet,,, thank god 

24 - talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

well whenever someone compliments me on anything really or says im their best friend like??? psjksfjkdjkhfsdjlfds ok dead,,, or when they say i love u i jusT DIE

25 - talk about an ex-best friend.

already answered!

26 - talk about things you do when you’re sick.

already answered !

27 - talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body.

uh??? idk hands. i love hands a lot. and collarbones. and lips. and eyes. and eyebrows. and legs, and tummies and - ok ill shuT Up

28 - talk about your fetishes.

dont really have any. maybe hands

29 - talk about what turns you on.

hands. teehee

30 - talk about what turns you off.

i dunno,  any bdsm like at all ahahaha. srry bros

31 - talk about what you think death is like.

i dunno really? sometimes i feel like its nothing, like we’ll just die and stop functioning and just rot and become one with the earth. but sometimes i feel like maybe there is an afterlife, like not what we think but yea? like i dunno.

32 - talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

ohh boy , well one is this river near my house, or creek really. i love it a lot its great, i love going there and watching the birds and hearing the water rush.

33 - talk about what you do when you are sad.

eh, kinda just cry my eyes out and listen to music or watch a good movie and then i feel a bit better.

34 - talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.

uh well as of recently i can remember, was when i got jaw surgery in april this year. now this shit was fucking horrible, for a month and a half my face was puffed like a balloon and bruises everywhere, and i literally could not eat cause i couldnt bloody move my mouth! i was confined to my bed and i lost so much weight bc i could barely eat and i was throwing up old blood and shit during that time and i couldnt fucking sit up without drooling cause i couldnt control it it was so fucking gross man. at least i look better now but it was hell lmfao.

35 - talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

uhhh idk maybe staying up all night n shit, i dont think anything else? maybe avoiding school too. oh , and ofc get rid of my depression hahah

36 - talk about your guilty pleasures.

eeeeeee nothing rlly? i dont feel guilty abt shit, i shouldnt

37 - talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

uhm i guess my ex bf tyler, well gf at the time but yea, i loved him a whole lot dkjfdhdhfhkdj but we were only 12-13 yknow and he lived in the us so it was rlly sucky. but it was a good time, just some experience

38 - talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

damn well, sweet child o mine by gnr reminds me of my friend claudia, she LOVES stuff like gnr and ac/dc, motley crue etc. and for u maxie, killer queen def ! and gold dust woman for me friend mazzy,,,, and in my life omg for miriam sjdjdjdjfkg

39 - talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.

already answered !

40 - talk about the end of something in your life.

already answered !

tYSM BBY MAXIE ILYSM

[b00bconnoisseur]

60 questions for @not-my-brain

1. selfie.......Ugghhhh ok. Imma take one rn

Ok here u go (yes thats a bmth shirt)

2. what would you name your future kids?.....Ooo hmmm well when i was a kid i really liked the names disney, and mesiah. I didn't know at the time that mesiah was another name for god i think lol. I liked it cause of handlers mesiah. I still do. Ooo and maybe Tj too

3. do you miss anyone?......Yeah. My friends on Pinterest from a year ago. My friend lucas. Stan lee. Bob ross. My cousin who died from cancer some years ago. Snape. Sirius. Lupin. Tonks. Dobby. *continues to name every unfortunate death in hp*

4. what are you looking forward to?.......SE-YA next month!! Its the south eastern young adult festival at this college. You can have meet n greets with authors and alot of stuff its the besstttt

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?......DEFINATELY. @dirtysocke @mysisterlooksforthisaccountsobye @cristal-kyd1280 @sammchenry my friend lucas and @septembersbloom. ^^

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?..... What like...romantically? Or like a death? If romantically uhhh idk it took over a couple weeks but im ok now. Ive never had another relationship so idk. If death oof yeah idk maybe. Ig it depends on how much i knew them idk. Like when my nanny (great grandma) died i was sad for days (is that alot?)

7. what was your life like last year?.....Sucky af. Still is. But the highlights of my life last year was getting and making friends on tumblr, going to the tøp concert and going to warped tour, volunteering at the library, going to seya and meeting some of my favorite authors, reading, changing and improving my art, listening to all the bands i listen to now, getting into more fandoms, going to a friends house for the first time

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?.......Yes lol. Some years ago when i couldn't find smtn id be so annoyed and pissed id start crying. I dont now but still lol

9. who did you last see in person?.......Hm ig family doesn't count....? Wait do u mean a friend? If so uhh my friends rebekah, anika, and Judah at a TAB meeting at the library sometime last month.

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?......I think so? Like i mean I can hide whenever i get my....time of the month from my mom (talking abt stuff like that with her makes me uncomfortable) and i hid a breakup. And other p big stuff too. So imma say yeah

11. are you listening to music right now?........*pops on earbuds after reading this* yee im listening to bitch lasagna by pewdiepie xD (do i have the best spotify playlist or what?)

12. what is something you want right now?.......To hug @mysisterlooksforthisaccountsobye but SOMEONE has to live so far away

13. how do you feel right now?........Happy that my earbud still works cause they got washed in the wash yesterday....oops. Its not my fault. I told my dad to remind me to take it out of my jacket pocket before they threw it in but noooooo he forgot

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?.......Uhhhhh fuck idk it was probably from my lil 4 yr old bro sometime last week. Other than him (hes my favorite sibling) i dont let them hug me too much

15. personality description.......Nerdy. Fangirl. "Emo". Tomboy. Hotsause obsessed. Book lover. Music lover. Black. Blue. Harry potter. Introvert. Fall. Sports. Values friendship. Loyal. Uhhhh i cant think of much lol

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?.......*sigh* yes. Yes yes yes. Theres some things abt me, or my life really, that i havent told anyone on here or my irl friends that i sooooo want to so bad but i haven't cause i feel like they'd feel bad and pity me and i don't want that

17. opinion on insecurities........I dont really understand this one. Everyones insecure abt something. Is this askin like if i think its ok or not? I say its ok. Im insecure about literally everything about me. My face. My personality. My socialness. My art. What i do. What i say. Basically my whole body. The things i feel good abt are my books, music taste, and my friends (ily fuckers)

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?.........Hmm this time around a year ago....idk its sorta the same but all the stuff i mentioned abt my year from last year didn't happen yet so nah tho my life sucks rn its better than this time last year

19. have you ever been to New York?........Nooo but i want too soo baddd i wanna visit @septembersbloom !! Im coming for ya soon gramps *does the eye watching thing* my dads been to nyc before tho cause he does construction and he had a concrete job to do there. It was a 23 hr drive for him

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?........Uhhh idk!!! So hard! Maybe.....the whole thats the spirit album by bmth ;)

21. age and birthday?.....15 yrs of age and September 27th 2003 (whats yours brainy? I'll put it on my calendar)

22. description of crush......Its weird idk im not sure if its a genuine crush or not but uh....They like hp :).Thats all u get

23. fear(s).......Losing my best friend @dirtysocke and my other friends. Death. Failure. Momo chasing after me then killing me slowly keeping my eyes open to look her dead in the eyes while i die

24. height......5'6 call me short and I'll fuck u up with THIS *pulls out trusty potato peeler named now steve* dont test me boi

25. role model......Hhhhhhhh so many! But uh gosh one of them is @superraedizzle (youtuberrrr) and vexx and bob ross and da vinci and aaaaaaa so many

26. idol(s)......First person that immediately comes to mind is @sammchenry cause he's super cool and he's really nice and his art's reallyyy good (if u havent seen it w-w-what are u even doin with your life?) And he has a great sense of humor and *continues to ramble about why samms the best*

27. things i hate.......Dabs. Transphobes. Homophobic ppl. Basically any hate on the lgbtq+ community. Bullies. The ship starker. Umbridge. Snape haters

28. i’ll love you if….....U you'll eat pizza, draw, and rp harry potter with mee

29. favourite film(s)......Fantastic beasts. Every hp film. Twilight. The maze runner 1-2. The hunger games. Spiderman homecoming. Kingsman: secret service. Into the spideyverse tho i havent seen it yet

30. favourite tv show(s)......Inkmasterrrrr. B99. The mick. The middle. Uhhh idk mostly ink master xD

31. 3 random facts........Ive never had shrimp. I had a beta fish for over a year once. Im eating pizza crust rn

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?.......G i r l s. I have all girl friends irl and one boy. And on tumblr it seems like i just meet girls? Likei agree with @cristal-kyd1280 its like alot more gals then dudes here. But i do have some guy friends on here too. But mostly girls

33. something you want to learn.......TO DRAW ANATOMY DAMMIT

34. most embarrassing moment........Every moment of my lifes an embarrassing moment. Idk of i can pick a "most" embarrassing one. But one time i i sent my crush (now ex bf) a hey fuckface and like some hearts or whatever for an ask game that meant like "i have a crush on u" "youre adorable" etc and said Hewo but i did it all anonymously. But he confronted me askin if i sent it cause im the only person he knows that actually says hewo lol. Then later on i finally admitted i really liked him and well y'all know the story after i think. Unless you're new

35. favourite subject.......A R TTTT OFC

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?........meet my friends on tumblr. Get into mtsu (college i wanna go to) and study art. And go skydiving

37. favourite actor/actress........favorite actor uhhhhhh probably thomas brodie sangster or tom felton and my favorite actress? Hmmm idk maybe evanna lynch (luna lovegood)

38. favourite comedian(s).......probably kevin hart lol he's p funny

39. favourite sport(s)........basketballllllll and football

40. favourite memory........uhhhhh idk?? One oh my favorite memories was when we went to see tøp in concert

41. relationship status.....single as a pringle

42. favourite book(s)......harry potter and the order of the pheonix. Harry potter and the half blood prince. Simon vs the homo sapiens agenda. Divergent. Maze runner. Twilight. Fangirl. Fallen. Red queen

43. favourite song ever.......TOO HARD DONT MAKE ME CHOOSEEEEEE

44. age you get mistaken for.........16 and 17 sometimes lol

45. how you found out about your idol........i was watching someone on yt and superraedizzle always poped up in my feed and my mom turned on one of her vids cause she always saw her vids too now ive seen most of em i love her. Id heard of vexx but never watched him and i was watching a collab from anthony miller art and shrimpy and i checked out shrimpys channel and was lookin at comments and alot of ppl said his art is like vexxs so i checked out vexx. At first i was like eh ok. Now i cant click fast enough when he posts a vid. And i actually fpund out about bob ross from my grandpa on jan 20 2017 when trump was getting sworn in or whatever. We turned on pbs and my grampa told me to look and bob ross was on and i was IN. I loved it. I even started watching full episodes on YouTube of the joy of painting after that. Wonderful man. My first painting i ever did i think was when i followed one of his tutorials xD (i didnt know it was popular at the time)

46. what my last text message says......."ok your turn"

47. turn ons.....uhh nerds ig idk um book lovers, music lovers, art lovers, potterheads, idk and nice ppl

48. turn offs......jerks. Homophobia. Idk ig whatever i said in things i hate

49. where i want to be right now......uhhhh idk wait didn't i already answer this? Ok this ones different ig so uhh with my friend lucas

50. favourite picture of your idol.....oh shit...favorite? Idk xD i have a fave of vexx but not of rae or bob. But heres pics of them any way

51. starsign......a libraaaaa boiii

52. something i’m talented at......drawing and speed reading. Thats about it lol. Oh and procrastina

53. 5 things that make me happy.......ooooo art, my friends here on tumblr, books, harry potter, and music ^^

54. something thats worrying me at the moment.....if my friend thinks im being annoying

55. tumblr friends......hhhhh so manyyyyyy. @dirtysocke @mysisterlooksforthisaccountsobye @cristal-kyd1280 @chinesewaffles2 @kingantlion @queen-baelin @sammchenry @septembersbloom and more

56. favourite food(s)......green beans, pepperoni pizza, and vanilla madelines

57. favourite animal(s).......basically any reptile. Puppies. Cats. Any animal really but my #1 are snakes

58. description of my best friend.....well she's a tiny bean (5 feet) and she has dark hair, she wears glasses, she doesnt take shit, she's in love with Josh dun, she's awesome, funny, nice (YES youre nice jackie) and shes the best friend ive ever had. Oh. And she has a weird obsession with spaghetti

59. why i joined tumblr.......well i heard abt it on Pinterest over a year ago but didnt want it. Then @mrfastbass-deactivated20181231 on DeviantArt said he got tumblr so i made one then followed him and figured id just post art and that's it cause i thought tumblr was boring as hell when i first got it. Now im p much obsessed with it

60. ask me anything you want.......go ahead brainy shoot. Give me smtn good

[extraordinarilyunexceptional]

ask and you shall receive :)

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

I’d like to believe that i have a good relationship with them but that gets rocky sometimes. I prefer not to talk about my parents on here for personal reasons.

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

I last said “i love you” to my best friend melanie because i love her so much and am so thankful to have her in my life.

03: Do you regret anything?

I regret not eating a big breakfast this morning LOL i dont necessarily believe in regrets because i think that everything happens for a reason and that if those things didnt happen to me i wouldnt be the person i am today.

04: Are you insecure?

Yes. i am insecure about my weight, my body, my appearance, everything.

05: What is your relationship status?

My relationship status is “in love with myself”. Yes indeed i am single. Dont message me for nudes (haha u know who u are) cuz i wont do it.

06: How do you want to die?

Not to be creepy but i actually thought about this and i want to like fall off a cliff as the sun sets and then combust like a star.

07: What did you last eat?

Im eating as i type this actually im eating some pretzels and a turkey sandwich YEET

08: Played any sports?

I used to play basketball but i sucked at it but i really want to play ultimate frisbee

09: Do you bite your nails?

Sometimes yes. Its weird and disgusting but it happens

10: When was your last physical fight?

I don’t fight people because im not a hater im a lover

11: Do you like someone?

Im not sure actually. Come back to me in like two weeks

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Yes. dont do it unless you wanna die

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

No i dont hate people because im a lover not a hater

14: Do you miss someone?

Yes i do.

15: Have any pets?

No but i used to have 3 pets birds and my sister suffocated one with a vacuum hose

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Hungry, stressed, but overall very content with life

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

No thats unsanitary unless its my bathroom then its okay

18: Are you scared of spiders?

I wouldnt say im scared but like as long as they dont try to mess with me im good ya know

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

No because i believe everything happens for a reason and also i wouldnt want to relive all my fuck up moments

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

Not gonna lie i had to look up what this word meant. The last time was at graduation which was on june 1st

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

I have work HAHA and i got lots of hw to do

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

Im not sure yet tbh. But if i do i would like to have as many as possible

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

Im basic i have the normal ear lobe piercings but i want a septum and stud and a helix piercing and bellybutton piercing MAYBE if i have like killer abs or something

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

My best subjects are math and science, particularly bio and chem

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

I miss lots of people

26: What are you craving right now?

Chocolate, wholesome affection, apple juice, swedish fish

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Im not sure

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

Unfortunately yes

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

Yes and im not proud of this at all

30: What’s irritating you right now?

The fact that i have no time to eat in between class bruh a bitch gets hungryyyy

31: Does somebody love you?

Im sure someone does. But i know that i love me

32: What is your favourite color?

Purple, blue, and yellow

33: Do you have trust issues?

Unfortunately yes i do

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

My last dream consisted of me going on a date with a coworker and when i woke up i almost puked

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

My mom YEET

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

Yes bc i’d like to believe that everyone is good and worthy of proving themselves

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Its easier to forgive. Forgetting doesnt solve anything and it doesnt clear ur conscious

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

It sure has been eventful

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

I was a sophomore in high school, 15 yrs old

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

No bc why

51: Favourite food?

potatoes

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Hecky yeah boiiiiiii

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

I read Plato’s Euthyphro and was mind fucked and also was texting some friends

54: Is cheating ever okay?

Nope. never. What kind of question is this

55: Are you mean?

No im kind and honest theres a difference

56: How many people have you fist fought?

Zero omg

57: Do you believe in true love?

Yes i do

58: Favourite weather?

Fall weather

59: Do you like the snow?

yes!

60: Do you wanna get married?

Yes yes yes!

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

Yes my heart melts and i DIE

62: What makes you happy?

Love and sunshine and warm hugs and forehead kisses and rainy days and swedish fish and coffee and FOOOOD

63: Would you change your name?

NO my name is unique

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

Idk man. What kind of question is this LMAO

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Idk do i like them back? If i do i would slide in their dms if i dont i would let them know that i only see them as a friend

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Yes and this is so important!!!

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

My friend zach

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Melanie my bff

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

Yes yes i do

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

Yes there is i would die for myself

(via demonofthelight)

[scottstiles]

tagged by @lydiamartinn ❤︎ thanks babe

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

Tagging: anyone who wants!

last

1. drink - coke (duhh)

2. phone call - mom (yep, it never ends)

3. text message - my hairdresser whom i had to cancel on because of this fufljkdklfjkgding city and its nonsense

4. song you listened to - take me out

5. time you cried - oh god, i like, just finished an hour ago finally, i cried all day

ever

6. dated someone twice? - like... gone on 2 dates? i guess? broke up and got back together no way

7. kissed someone and regretted it - probably

8. been cheated on - no

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed - very funny

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - uch . yes. alcohol is a feisty lady.

fave colours

12. blue

13. red

14. silver (i dont care its a color to me)

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes, but only here

16. fallen out of love - ........... hope so

17. laughed until you cried - not that i can think of but its possible, i do watch a lot of tv

18. found out someone was talking about you - nah nobody cares about me... actually wait. yes. yes i did. damn it tumblr.

19. met someone who changed you - dont think so cuz i still suck

20. found out who your friends are - yes. hell yes i did.

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - no. wtf.

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - hopefully all of them but ask me when the last time was i saw or spoke to any of them....

23. do you have any pets - my baby houdini (not so baby at 15 yrs old but)

24. do you want to change your name - no, its taken 36 years to get used to this shit i hate change

25. what did you do for your last birthday - nothing what birthday

26. what time did you wake up today - 12:30.for NOTHING.

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - same as always. watchin tv and smoking.

28. what is something you can’t wait for - a new fucking life already

30. what are you listening to right now - the sounds of the street

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - yup

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - everything. my nerves are shot.

33. most visited website - this hell

34. hair colour - NOT WHAT I WANT IT TO BE RIGHT NOW THANKS WORLD

35. long or short hair - i wish it was longer always have. i hate my hair.

36. do you have a crush on someone - i dont even remember what thats like

37. what do you like about yourself - not much. i guess i can be a nice person. 

38. want any piercings? i have enough thanks.

39. blood type - no clue

40. nicknames - div

41. relationship status - angry and bitter

42. zodiac - gemini

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows - teen wolf, criminal minds, svu, friends, syttd, house hunters int’l, supernatural, b99

45. tattoos - nope

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery - only on my gums

48. piercings - ears/tongue (it was my tattoo compromise)

49. sport - HAHAHAH

50. vacation - another dimension

51. trainers - what?

more general

52. eating - more than usual lately

53. drinking - coke. always. duh again.

54. i’m about to watch - say yes to the dress so i can unthink

55. waiting for - the apocalypse

56. want - something to live for

57. get married - in my dreams

58. career - writing. editing, i guess. idk whatever its all stupid.

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - hugs

60. lips or eyes - eyes

61. shorter or taller - taller

62. older or younger - younger

63. nice arms or stomach - nice arms

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - troublemaker

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - yup

67. drank hard liquor - of course

68. lost glasses - its... ridiculous

69. turned someone down - i.. think so?

70. sex on first date - yup. but like... not a date? whats a date.

71. broken someones heart - yes. and fuck him tbh.

72. had your heart broken - too many times.

73. been arrested - pffft. theres a few stories nobody listened to.

74. cried when someone died - uh. yes.

75. fallen for a friend - dont; fuking do it im tellin u..

do you believe in

76. yourself - occasionally

77. miracles - yes. i think so.

78. love at first sight - ugh. yes. unfortunately.

79. santa claus - no

80. kiss on a first date - yes of course

81. angels - what kind.

other

82. best friend’s name - nathaniel

83. eye colour - blue

84. fave movie - romeo & juliet and so many fucking others but im too tired

85. fave actor- POSEY. but like. also so many more really good actors. like i guess he’s my fave person lets leave it at that. 

[we-are-the-sickness]

All 60! 60. If you had to choose any food to eat your body weight in, what would be and why?

1. selfiemobile :( ill post one after i post this2. what would you name your future kids?as far as a boi and gorl it would be James and Vienna3. do you miss anyone?definitely 4. what are you looking forward to?uhhh well june definitely and uh OH SHINEDOWN TOUR YEAH thats gonna be good5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?theres a few :)6. is it hard for you to get over someone?it has been but u kno life goes on its get better 7. what was your life like last year?worse than it is right now!8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?o yeah for sure9. who did you last see in person?me mum10. are you good at hiding your feelings?i usually am but past few yrs im too tired to hide things lol 11. are you listening to music right now?for once i am not12. what is something you want right now?mexican food. sm mexican food13. how do you feel right now?rly tired and fibro fluie14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?few days ago15. personality description@ friends reply w what u would say my personality description is16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn't?WHOLE LIFE17. opinion on insecurities.its a natural thing that occures and takes time to work on18. do you miss how thing were a year ago?nope19. have you ever been to New York?nope20. what is your favourite song at the moment?the new apc song 21. age and birthday?18 and my bday is February 17th :^]22. description of crush.smol, loud, lovely, worries me sometimes, home.23. fear(s)nop24. height5'225. role modelrn my top role model is maynard 26. idol(s)ehg27. things i hateknow it alls, people who talk to me like i aint kno a subject, ppl who aren't kind28. i'll love you if...u bring me food and send me memes29. favourite film(s)all the xmen all the time30. favourite tv show(s)agents of shield, grimm, the crown, bloodline, daredevil etc31. 3 random factsi have a scar on my right templeive broken my toenails 4 days in a rowi cant ride a bike32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?both33. something you want to learnfkn everything man34. most embarrassing momentjeez i cant think of any that are still rly uncomfy anymore35. favourite subjectnone tbh lol36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?stable farm life w gfbandmusic school37. favourite actor/actresshi stranger things cast38. favourite comedian(s)JOHN MULANY 39. favourite sport(s)idk40. favourite memoryplaying w my doge outside my old house41. relationship statustaken42. favourite book(s),,maynards43. favourite song everAerosmith livin on the edge44. age you get mistaken formid twenties45. how you found out about your idolradio o i think46. what my last text message says"a good pal"47. turn onspff idk touchin feelin breathy stuff like is this a sex question or48. turn offsbeing inconsiderate 49. where i want to be right noww me pals n gorl 50. favourite picture of your idolinsert screencap of maynard feeding a pigeon from a fork lift51. starsignaquarius 52. something i'm talented atidk im sure theres something 53. 5 things that make me happymusicmy gf and friends lov u hoeswarm thingsthe sunart54. something thats worrying me at the momenta lot55. tumblr friendseveryones me frands!! 56. favourite food(s)mexican food n greek food 57. favourite animal(s)wolves, otters, doges58. description of my best friendI HAVE A FEW I CANT59. why i joined tumblrMy friend at the time said it was a cool website 60. ask me anything you wantTHE ANSWER IS OBVS MEXICAN FOODALL OF IT ALL THE TIME ESPECIALLY RN THANK U!!

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17, 25, 50

17. you can press a button that will make one person explode. who would you blow up? 

dude that is fucking dark i dont know

25. you just found $100! how are you going to spend it?

probably on groceries ahaha im a student so any extra’s go into my bare essentials for the next month

50. what is the most unusual conversation you ever had?

 oh i have to think about this for a while... probably in highschool where we had to do an assignment about the movie ‘the shining’ (a horror classic that one should not be forced to see as a 15 yr old but thats a different convo) and we had to discuss the movie and the way the scare jumps were build and crap but somehow we started talking about scarier was it could/should’ve gone or something?? and idk as someone who passes out from bl*od this was just crazy to me to talk about

65 questions you aren’t used to

[hallelujuh]

thomas sanders discourse

so ive seen some shit lately & i just wanna throw in my opinion 1) accusations of antisemitism: so two years ago, he reblogged two humorous posts that mentioned hitler (one was abt powerpuff girls, & one was an out-of-context gif of a hitler speech). now, im jewish, and i personally have rather lax views on antisemitism bc im so used to it at this point. i only really get heated when someone’s legitimately a neo-nazi. but ive personally reblogged the powerpuff post on my old blog, i remember laughing at it (it made fun of his appearance, not his deplorable actions - saying someone has a hitler ‘stache is very very different than oven/gassing jokes). the other post was parodying hitler, not glorifying him or anything. plus it was 2 yrs ago, and i believe both posts have 100k+ notes. tumblr humor. the trend of people digging up problematic shit from years ago needs to stop. 2) homophobia/transphobia: ok, like, first off, he’s not straight himself, and i know lgbt people can still be homophobic and/or transphobic, but this is thomas sanders we’re talking abt. hes famously supportive of just abt everyone. i cant believe THIS is what ppl are accusing him of? all bc he said he supports asexuals & he thinks that we’re lgbt? as an asexual person, i don’t think we’re lgbt, but knowing him, im not surprised thats his viewpoint and i definitely dont think he meant any harm. supporting one group of people doesnt always mean you hate another group, although tumblr tends to have very black-and-white thinking. 3) hes nearly-30 and appealing to a younger audience: i saw this with dan & phil too, and ive even seen it with 25+ y/o tumblr users. i personally dont see why this is an issue. these people grew up on the internet, and it’s like people expect them to quit once they hit 25. like, what are they supposed to do once they hit that age? start going to local soccer games and reading newspapers?? and it’s always 18-22 y/os with this thinking. like?? what are you doin, @confessionsofatwentysomethingfurry625?? why arent u throwing ur laptop and tablet out the nearest window and deleting ur tumblr app right now & going to the local senior center to mingle w ppl ur age, instead of bitching abt ppl 2 yrs older than u bein too old for the internet?? idk i just dont get that. such twisted thinking. i befriended a 42 y/o mom on here once, a couple years back (on my old blog, before anyone tries to dig around this one to disprove me). she was super nice, and always gave me advice, and never was weird or creepy. one of the nicest ppl i ever encountered on here. now, theres a potentional danger with befriending older bloggers, but theres just as much danger w befriending younger ones?? it’s pretty easy for any shitty person to be abusive online, unfortunately, regardless of their age. a 17 y/o friend of mine was emotionally abused by a 14 y/o person they met online. now, onto a broader topic: internet personalities appealing to the age group thats primarily watching them. all the popular youtubers are 22-30, and their watchers are usually teenagers. they cant help that, but it’s a fact, so theyre gonna try to entertain said age group best they can. it’s their job, after all, and they cant just quit it. a lot of them have been on youtube since they were our age, anyway. this is all they know, and for some of them, it’s how theyve survived for nearly a decade. like?? 4) last thing: the pedophilia thing. alright, so im a minor (turning 17 soon), im a fanfic writer (that strays into smut sometimes, admittedly), but i cant draw, and i notice when my fav celebrities have cute asses. if i could draw, i dont think i’d draw ass pics, but i suppose i could see why ppl would. i saw some of the posts - from what i could see, there wasnt any nudity. it was like, clothed asses. butts arent sexual, unless theyre shown in a sexual context. the posts weren’t nsfw, just maybe a little personal & a lil bit creepy. thomas was tryin to be good-natured abt smth sorta awkward that his fans get a kick out of. imo, nothing wrong w that. he made a post that his minor fans shouldnt post nsfw, but he wasnt doing anything pedophilic by reblogging non-nsfw fanart. accusing ppl of pedophilia is a pretty heavy thing, and people on tumblr like to label people horrible things all willy-nilly. i hope that trend dies, but realistically, its probs wont. in conclusion, i personally don’t think anyones a genuinely good person, but i think ppl should stop trying to find flaws in people who are really trying their best to be good in this world of evil. theres so much more to criticize and protest, and everyone’s energy should be put into things like that rather than some internet guy whos trying his best to be positive and non-controversial. get a life, yall

[aerisse-remade]

so i finally decided to answer this ship question thing i rbed awhile ago just bc i feel like talking abt ships. everything is gonna b under a cut + no ships are going to be tagged so if u find this thru the search function then ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

this is also very long

1. honestly?? probably raven/starfire. ive shipped that since i was like 5 or 6. i cant really say much abt it bc it's never been real important to me, tho i still like it

2. ig 3 important ships throughout my life have been mayutei, negitoro, and kaimei lmao. honestly mayutei is like. my ultimate otp. mostly bc theyre my fave vocaloid/utaus and i tend to ship my faves together but i do think that they're really cute. negitoro was one of the first f/f ships that i loved and still continue to love, esp after that drama that i got into over it a year ago lmfao. also magnet is still one of the best vocaloid songs so. i cant really say why kaimei means so much to me, it just does. kaito and meiko were literally made for each other. not in a ship sense, but like. in a complementary vocals kinda way. crypton literally made kaito to match/blend well with meiko

3. my current otps are mayutei (obviously), negitoro, kaimei, jasprose (from su), and rupphire. there are more that i really like, but nowhere near to the level of these 5. these 5 are like. the holy grail of my ships

4. god i have a lot of notps lmfao. my main one would probably be jaspis bc i hate it with the intensity of a million blazing suns lmao. i also really hate kailen, rinlen, jaspearl, grasper, pretty much any ship involving jasper and a man, pearl and a man, and garnet and a man. bc theyre all lesbians ofc. theyre are a lot of other ships i hate but it would take me like 5 hrs to list them all

5. yeah!! i really love polypearls and polydiamonds. i also like poly cool kids, mayu/rin/oliver, and mayu/rin/tei. theres probably more but i cant think of them

6. idk i guess they can be intriguing if done well nd it involves characters i like. i dont like most of them tho. they tend to be super unnecessary

7. absolutely disgusting and creepy. real people arent fictional characters, stop treating them like it.

8. LMFAO YEA AND I STILL DO

9. yeah i mean. the majority of my ships are vocaloid/utau and they have no canonical relationships (other than some canon siblings)

10. yeah, same as above.

11. i guess rupphire? like... none of my other ships have canonically kissed i think

12. i am super disappointed in canon/modern lapidot. i miss old school lapidot, like before peridot lost her limb enhancers tbh. ig its technically not canon but whatever. im also super tired of seeing it fucking everywhere

13. in canon? no. in fanfics/art/other fan created stuff? yeah

14. frustrating. i dont like it

15. JASPROSE. and rupphire ofc. also polypearls ig

16. mayu/oliver. its like. one of my het vocaloid otps now but i used to hate it bc back when mayu was first announced ppl started shipping her w oliver nd i didnt like that bc i shipped myself with oliver lmfao (i was like 13 at the time)

17. i dont know... im kinda starting to lose interest in modern lapidot. but i still have some hope.

18. earthlings has made me question shipping jasprose. i mean, rose is the entire reason for almost all of jasper's suffering. but at the same time, without rose, jasper would likely never exist since she was made for the rebellion. i still love this ship a lot but now im starting to feel kinda bad abt shipping it...

19. i dont think so? wtf does this even mean

20. MAYU/TEI!!!! also jasprose lmao

21. plenty. like garnet/amethyst, i do actually get why ppl ship them tho. i just dont ship it myself. its good, but i dont ship it. also pretty much every other ship with jasper (except jaspidot. i actually do dislike it)

22. definitely rupphire!!

23. LAPIDOT

24. i do have a lot of canon ships!! (rupphire, gregrose, pearlrose, usamamo, etc) but i wouldnt say that the majority of them are canon

25. pharmercy. i still dont give a shit about overwatch but i love pharmercy

26. the only "pattern" in my ships is that theyre usually f/f. other than that, i dont think so

27. negitoro and kaimei!! mayutei is an old ship of mine, but not as old as these two. oh, and sakuino is also a really old ship of mine lmao. i dont really care abt naruto anymore but i absolutely love sakura and ino's dynamic

28. honestly yeah i think so!! some ships i have to warm up to, but usually i see or think of smth i even slightly like and im just like. hell yeah this shits good

29. mmmm i dont think so? i really like heathers and svtfoe and i dont have any real intense ships for those

30. pokemon

31. i have a headcanon that after mayu and tei meet, tei isnt obsessed with len anymore, nor does she hate every vocaloid (she still hates miku tho). i also hc that tei's obsession with len also extends to rin

32. i only have 1 and that is Next On by Oeuf Trick. its negitoro and its so fuckin good pls read it

33. uhh for rupphire ig my fave would be jen-iii? i dont have any other fave artists for my ships, nor do i really have any fave fanartists in general

34. im not really interested in fanmixes bc i dont like to be forced to listen to music i dont personally like lmfao

35. me B^). bc im the only one who ships mayutei. and for the others i dont really kno bc theyre either too obscure to have fanblogs or theyre just too many. also i dont really follow ship blogs other than two general f/f ships blogs and 1 jasprose blog (which i think is called cheetopetals? lmfao)

36. i only do fanart

37. ...not really

38. some of them yea, others dont have ship names so i come up w them myself (mayutei being one of them. like 4 yrs ago i had another name for them which was yandere yuriloids lmfao)

39. like a relationship that i would like my own to be like? definitely rupphire. ruby and sapphire have the ideal relationship tbh

40. i want actual content for mayutei thats not by me