#but thats lore for another day

[cousticks]

i don't have a wildly thought out with in-text-citations post to make about it rn

but mafia era dazai isn't nearly as blank or emotionlessly cruel as some make him out to be and i stand by that. like i know im not the first person to say it or whatever but i still stand by it.

beast!dazai, on the other hand- [gets tackled offscreen]

[boowhumps]

|WHUMPRIL 2023|

|Day 2 ~ Insomnia|

(@whumpril)

⚠TW⚠

- Swearing

- Mentions of Death

- Mentions of Suicide

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I found myself walking down the corridor once again, the stress I was facing enough to keep sleep from coming.

It had now been at least 50 hours since I last slept. You would think that "dead" people don't need sleep, but since I'm still alive in the overworld my needs are different.

I find myself at the last door at end of the corridor. I push against the large doors and enter the silent library. I subconsciously walk over to the nearest bookshelf and retrieve the brown book I left there.

I flip open the pages and quickly scan over them.

'Memory #1 - You are Amnesia. You are not fully alive nor fully dead. You work for Selyna.'

'Memory #6 - You were betrayed. Back stabbed. They never loved you.'

'Memory #13 - Watch out for Brendan. He's always watching you.'

'Memory #21 - Briar is planning something. Don't let her get away with it.'

'Memory #25 - Zaaron is good. Kairo is good. [CENSORED] is good. Silas is good. Lua is good. Selyna is good. Protect them.'

"Up late again, huh?"

I jump and shut the book closed as I whip around to find Silas leaning on the doorway.

"GOD- Can you not do that!?" I hiss but he shushes me.

"Quiet, don't wake anyone up. And I didn't mean to scare you.. I just was wondering why you're awake in the dead of night?"

I take a deep breath and put the book gently back on the shelf. I turn back around and walk past Silas who quickly turns to follow me.

"Don't worry about why I'm up." I say as I walk down the corridor once again.

Silas walks fast beside me. "Sorry it's just.. you look dead."

I stare at him. "Way to rub it in."

He quickly shakes his hands. "Oh shit, no, that's not what I meant-! I mean you look dead as in you look like you haven't slept- god I'm sorry that was really insensitive-"

I grab him by the shoulders. "I was joking."

He looks at me confused, then sighs. "Right.. I forgot how.. expressionless you are.."

I huff. "Yeah, you lose the ability to express yourself after your second attempt at dying."

Silas stares at me concerned.

I groan. "Fuck Silas, I was joking again."

He laughs awkwardly. "Yeah, I definitely knew that.!"

There's a few seconds of silence before Silas speaks again.

"Sooo.. Insomnia?"

I stare at him. "What.?"

"You know.. That thing where you have trouble sleeping-"

"I know what insomnia is, idiot. But why did you bring that up?"

"I thought that's why you were up this late."

"Well, I guess a bit of that mixed along with some nightmares and stress is why I'm up, but what about you?"

He smiles awkwardly. "I guess I just wanted to talk to you some more. We haven't really spoken since.. You got here."

I sigh in response. "Right.. Thanks by the way.. For helping me when I arrived."

Silas smiles at me. "No problem Amne.. Say.. Can I show you something? I think you'll like it."

I think for a moment. "Why not, I don't think I'll be sleeping anytime soon."

His smile grows. "Great! C'mon!" He says and reaches out for my hand. I place my hand in his and he drags me outside.

The sky is dark and helps contrast the snowflakes that fall as Silas leads me away. I wrap my cloak around myself with my free hand as the slight wind picks up.

Soon we arrive at a large tree in the garden outside the castle. Silas plops down oto the ground and pats the ground nex to himself, signaling me to sit. I oblige and he points up at the sky.

"Look up, this is the best place for stargazing."

I tilt my head up and I immediately stare in awe at the beauty of the stars. Each little constellation is bright against the dark sky. A few shooting stars pass by and I find myself wishing up in them.

I look away for a second to find Silas staring at me.

I glance at him. "What are you-"

He laughs, genuinely. "I've never seen you so happy."

I feel my face go a bit red, and I'm grateful that the hood of my clock helps cover it.

Silas eyes go back to looking at the stars. "I always come here when things get hard. It's.. really pretty here. Even if I know things won't get better right away.. at least I can enjoy happy things like this."

I stare at him for a second. The way his ruby eyes gleam as he gazes at the stars.. The way his shoulders ease.. The way he seems so.. peaceful. His calm makes me feel calm.

I go back to gazing at the stars.

Silas was right. Even if things didn't get better. At least you could find happy moments like these.

They won't last forever however. But it's nice to enjoy them while they are there.

The stars glisten throughout the whole night, and at some point I think I finally managed to fall asleep.

All I know is the next morning I awoke in my room, lying under the soft covers.

And if the following days I find myself in the blonde boys presence. I'll know why.

I'll enjoy my time with him while we train together. While we travel to the overworld. While we tease Lua. While we gaze at the stars.

Silas is my star, and I hope he'll last forever.

[puppppppppy]

act 4 :(

@chipper-smol and i came to a realization

[premamelody]

[skeletoninthemelonland]

So, Graveleaper, he tries to set souls to rest How would he feel about or deal with vengeful spirits like Cassidy who refuse him like they did Old Man Consequences?

You could say it's part of Graveleaper's job to ensure that these spirits will never leave the limbo they're found in.

Some spirits decide not to go, so they can watch over a loved one. Other spirits are simply too afraid of entering this state of "non-existence". Then there are those angry spirits that refuse to die.

If a vengeful spirit isn't ready to move on, Graveleaper can't do much but wait for them to decide on themselves, even if it takes years until that happens. He can try and talk to them, but never actively intervene.

Some spirits learn to circumvent the rules and manifest into the world of the living, a.k.a. possession.

[thedrotter]

not-yet-dead-person

silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww

(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)

i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!

the head circles are there for emotional support

very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.

(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)

usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.

according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it

the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!

Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.

background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!

for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway

that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it

[ya-boi-haru]

If I can revive the SMTO fandom for a moment...

I got bored and was thinking about it again, and thought a playlist would be funny, cause the vibe would be: Trauma, but also sexy so .... here...

Enjoy?

[petorahs]

as a longtime zelda fan im subscribing to the theory that skyward sword's ending caused another timeline split where:

a) ss!link dueled demise and sealed him in the master sword, subsequently putting fi into "a sleep without end". this is where every other game takes place

b) ss!link used the goddess statue to kill the imprisoned demise like it was supposed to happen before ghirahim messed everything up. this is where totk and botw take place.

it explains why botw/totk!zelda can still hear fi in the master sword despite no other hero after ss!link ever interacting with her (cause shes asleep), why there are two (2) imprisoning wars (pre-ALttP, and Totk's) and why the latest two games are so far removed from everything.

it also explains why totk!ganondorf became the second coming of the demon king, because demise was never truly killed in that timeline. link wished for the complete eradication of demise, not his hatred. the triforce makes no distinction between good and evil, after all.

in a), hyrule is founded by hylians from ss!zelda and link's time, in b) the zonai descended and rauru founded hyrule instead

the only debunk of this theory i see is b) timeline not having a fully forged master sword since ss!link took it with him to kill demise. a) timeline still having the mother goddess statue brought down to the surface also has could be contested but i think that can be explained by skyward sword needing to end in a closed timeloop, and the triforce's power doing its thing. thoughts?

[dogsrotten]

“what am i to you that you always feel like you have to prove something ?”

[skitskatdacat63]

This is my personal crossover event of the century

[vancalox]

genuinely easier to cope w the looming prospects of datv when it was 70 days away than it is now that we're currently sitting at 22.

[tsarjozinzbazin]

Hiiiii do you have any angsty thing about your dwarves? :3c

idk if it counts as angsty but I hc Driller was once left on hoxxes after an unsuccessful mission and had to consume the bodies for his fellow fallen co-workers to survive before being found by the 3 dwarves from the space rig 17 by a complete accident on a salvage mission :]

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have a big google doc thing where I keep track of media and stuff (putting everything in loosely ranked categories), which is mostly just for my own reference so I know what tv shows I've already seen before, etc. and I never really look back through it, typically just a quick "okay, watched two movie in the past 8 months, need to quickly slap them somewhere in the lists. okay. done. save document. exit". But today I was actually reading through some of the old notes and there are like... MULTIPLE places where my comment is basically "It would have been good if it were about elves" or "I wish there was a fantasy show made in this same style" or "It's well made, but I just keep thinking about how I would like it more if everyone was an elf or was in old 1700s costumes" or etc like...... lol.... Most biased media ranking system on earth blatantly made by someone with an extremely hyperspecific range of narrow interests. It'd be like if a food reviewer only had 5 foods they actually liked, so they'd just go to a pizza place and be like "eh, the pizza was okay, but I just think it would be better if it was cereal instead. :/ ...2 out of 10"

[grease-weasel]

[n0bluev]

Somehow, im inspired to write that 'revision fic'. === (EDIT : u can skip but heres another snippet for u (3 separate bits that fit together nicely, actually haha) cuz hihi. THE AU: As i said, its a failed "3"rd regression context, where yjh is now in his "4"th round. The last memory he has of kdj is him dying, and to make things worse "In this round, that guy doesn't exist." is a thing, so yjh freaks out a bit but hes totally normal about this whole ordeal & the fact that he doesnt even remembers kdj's face now. Wdym! Hes fiiiiiine!

sorry lol back to the actual post : (,hope u enjoyed that little treat tho^^)) ===

!!THAT [Somehow, im inspired to write [...]] HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE!!. I always like. do an outline for the overall story and vibe, then flesh out the start or something and cook up a little 500 (probably unsatisfying) words for fun kind of as a bonus. Keep it mostly for my private enjoyment and move on before the story comes to life. And that's okay... Yes, it would be cooler to actually write the AU ideas i get in novel or comic form instead of having them stay at just the 'sketch' & 'idea/brainstorm' phase before i get another idea and leave them to dust up in the pile,,

But yeah, its okay.

In the few years since ive started getting ideas for more elaborate aus/fics, ive noticed that my ideas improved with time. (no shit, i know, but it makes me happy! i grew up!!! i can see it.) My planning methods are better too. So all of that unfinished or abandoned stuff is not at all useless work in my eyes. And who knows, maybe one day i'll bring them back.

--> as a plus, all my fandom brainrot experiences even get transferred into my OC stuff, and frl whenever i read my notes these days (or listen to my voice memos lol) and im just like "HOW DID I THINK OF THIS WOW" or "WHEN DID I PUT THIS LIKE THIS? IT WORKS!" (not to brag or anything but my oc lore goes hard ☝️)

BUT. NOW THIS IS UNEXPECTED.

I DID NO PLANNING. I just started writing for orv and its. Lowkey, good ???? Dont get me wrong i only have 1.5k right now and there are clear holes i have to fill and stuff but... CLEAR HOLES! CLEAR HOLES. Sure Im used to being like "something of the sort should go there..." BUT THIS TIME ITS "THIS SHOULD GO THERE, ILL WRITE IT LATER BUT THE IMAGE IS IN MY MIND, CLEAR AS WATER, AND ONCE I START PUTTING IT ON THE PAGE ISTG THOSE WORDS WILL STREAM OUT OF MY FINGERS AS IF IT WAS A NORMAL OCCURENCE FOR ME" ,,- !??? Yo!

Anyways. Point is that somehow theres interesting stuff going on in my gg doc and the more i write the more i know where i want to go, so that's cool, i feel all powerfull for once

idk if that ease is going to stay once im done with the first scenes (ughh!!! theres so much potential!!!!!!!!) but hopefully yes. either way ill probably post it so im not baiting yall with a "um actually im writing smt rn --- *never shares with the class*" --- either 1) things go well and i write a "real fic" (!? wtf that wasnt my plan!) --- or 2) i only post the finished version of what i have now (expect around 5k? (i have no idea actually)) and we wait together to see if i pick up the idea again haha. (i do wish to write it tho! im not a 'writer' writer but i want to be one, u get me?)

! thank u see u byebye

[brrdhouse]

once again not dead, just working on wipss, the magical girl ford au has entranced me