#but thats it. a kid crush. not real feelings. just admiration. then she saw him more as a big brother of sorts

[trashno0dle]

luke going “she's my little sister” in reference to annabeth really hope they stick with that and they don't make it weird like in the books later on (the last olympian) let them stick with that family dynamic please i beg

[tea-with-evan-and-me]

" and it's also not love, actual love. you cannot love someone you don't really know at all, in real life"

Yes I know that it is not the same love as to people i know in real life and that in my head i only have image of evan based on what i saw on the internet. But at the same time this image helped me get through the darkest time of my life. When i was in high school and was bullied at school every day and had not a single friend i really wanted to km. And when i was sitting on my bathroom floor with razor blade in my hand only two things were holding me back from doing it. One was image of my grandparents crying next to my grave and second was evan and the fact I want to be there and be able to witness his next projects, him winning oscar one day, having kids, I wanted to see it and keep supporting him. So I will be forever grateful for him and his tv shows which also during that time kept me from crying and hurting myself. So I am a fan of evan for many years and it would be hard for me to stop being his stan and checking what is going on in his life. I am a fangirl type since forever and not only evan but other celebs too. But i just dont understand why my boyfriend is so pressed about it. I just want to watch productions with my favourite actor, thats it. I never really spoke about anything innapropriate, never said anything like omg evan is so hot I would bang him or if I had a chance I would leave you for him. Usually I was just talking about his acting skills or what a nice person he is to his fans or just my opinion about what I just watched with him like a movie or something. So idk what makes him so mad. And I saw on tik tok some people being way worst with their celebrity crushes and their partners didnt have problems. For example during johnny depp trial women were watching it with their husbands and commenting how hot johnny is all the time. Or I have that one friend who is huge fan of harry styles and she has a boyfriend who totally accept that and they going to concerts together, she wears his merch, have a huge ass cardboard figure of harry in their living room and jokes all the time to that boyfriend that she would leave him for harry and he always is like : thats understandable or harry is the only man I accept. Meantime my boyfriend has a problem that i want to watch a tv show with my favourite actor and want to support him and cheer him up for example during watching awards gala when he is nominated 😐

honestly, i don't think anyone should be telling their real life SO they would ''leave them'' for a celebrity. and i don't think anyone should even be thinking in those terms, even to joke. it's just not necessary. we have normalized a lot of abnormal feelings for celebrities because our access to them has caused it to become more common for people to create these parasocial relationships, where they feel deeply emotionally connected to what is essentially a perfect stranger. instead of thinking of them as a celebrity they admire, it is more so like friends who they have connected with. i think you really have to examine what the root cause of this friction is: is it really because your boyfriend just doesn't like you having a celebrity crush, or is it that no matter how you think you're managing it in a normal way, it's obvious to him that this person is taking up a large amount of your mental space and that it's affecting your relationship. either way, you have to determine what is most important to you. for me personally, it would be no biggie at all to never mention nor watch a program with a celebrity crush in the presence of my SO. as much time as i spend on this blog, absolutely no one close to me in ''real life'' knows i am even a fan of evan peters.

[zutaraplatter]

Avatar: The Last Airbender Critique

There are already a million of posts like this one, and I might be saying things that’ve already been said a million times but I’ve recently become reheated about the ATLA ending and wanted to let it out -_- No one asked, this is true, and this may or may not be a way to stall from this final project I still have to complete, but here’s 10 things I didn't like and/or would change about the show that likely shouldn’t need changing because they should have been done in the first place.

1. Katara should have apologized to Sokka after TSR

It should have happened and it didn't. In my canon-avoiding mind, Katara and Sokka have a heartfelt conversation where she apologizes for the awful things she said, Sokka says he forgives her and he's sorry if he wasn't as there for her as much as he should have been, which he follows up with "but I'm happy you listened to Aang and took his advice," leading into my next point

2. Katara should have said that not killing Yon Rha was her choice

And thats why it was the right one. Not because Aang already said it was wrong. No no. It was the right choice because that's what she chose. I love my mom to death and can't imagine losing her in any way, let alone the way Katara did. And I can't say for sure that if I was in her shoes that I know what I would have done f that yes I do I would have killed that motherfucker. But I also know that if Katara decided not to kill him, then that was one of two correct choices because they were Katara's choices to make. Not Aang's or anyone else's and this should have been clarified. I know it's a kids show but I said what I said. Next point.

3. Katara should have said more after telling Aang she was unsure at the Ember Island Players

Katara hasn't had any trouble saying how she feels, especially when it comes to helping others and making them feel better, whether she was right or wrong. But she holds back or overly softens blows and seems to even shrivel up at times when it comes to Aang. And me no likey. I had a boyfriend who I adored and admired and just genuinely looked up to. I'm also a shy and anxious person who hates confrontation, but because I loved him, I never refrained from telling him when he was wrong. I might have been a little shaky about it but I did it tho because when you want to be with someone you walk through the grass and stomp through the mud. And I personally feel like either in that moment or later on in an added scene that Katara should have voiced to Aang how unheard and disrespected she felt about his words before TSR and his actions on the balcony. I hate being uncomfortable and my secondhand embarrassment is toxic but I would love to see a scene of this. I always imagined Katara saying stuff like "But I'm not you Aang, and I'm not an Air Nomad," or "Zuko could understand why I needed to go, and I'd hoped you would too," or...I'm out of ideas but you get the idea. And you know what, I know I'm a hard Zutara shipper, but them having this conversation would honestly make me respect their relationship a whole lot more should it be believably written to end on a good note (I don't see how it could be but hey I'm an open minded person and I did think they were cute together once upon a time). Basically, all I'm saying is that Katara is no small voice and she should have been written that way when with Aang. Boyfriends can make you shy but should never make you weak. Period. Next point.

4. No rock! ONLY GROWTH!!!!!!!!!!!

I still squint my eyes whenever I remember that rock that unblocked Aang's chakra. What even was that? The laziest writing possible in my opinion. That's what. And Aang deserved better. What should have happened should have been that Aang started to lose to Ozai. And then as Ozai's about to deliver the finishing blow, Aang has flashbacks of everyone he's trying to save and honor, ending with a very prominent flashback of Katara with the guru's disembodied voice reminding Aang to let go of his attachments to become all he needs to be...then BOOM! Baby boy is back on his feet, chakra unblocked, he kicks Ozai's ass, I'm crying hysterically on the floor, as are the rest of us, and he wins. Then at the end of the series, instead of a kiss, he gives Katara an apology. She accepts, everyone else comes to join them on the balcony, cinematic group hug, camera pan into the sun. I don't know lol. Basically what I'm saying is that Aang did not deserve some deus ex machina. He deserved to grow and become his best self like everyone else got to.

5. Aang should have heard differently in The Storm

Katara is a very fate-minded person and this is when I saw potential for her to become a toxic character in regards to Aang. When he admits that he ran away from home 100 years ago, Katara tells him that that was basically a good thing because he was meant to be here and now. Like...no? What Aang did, though understandable for someone so young, was still wrong. Yes he would have maybe been killed but I'm like 10000000% sure they had a plan to protect and evacuate the literal avatar. And what was technically "meant to be" was a new avatar. But hey, what's done is done and kicking Aang while he's down is a no-no in this household. But that doesn't change the fact that Aang needed and deserved honesty. Maybe the fisherman could have said this, I don't know, but I feel like Aang should have been told by someone that although running away was wrong, it's a blessing he and Appa were able to survive and be able to help save the world now with his amazing friends found-family. Maybe this is too harsh, and maybe even outright wrong, but I felt like Aang deserved a truer answer here to support and comfort him.

6. MAILEE!!!!

Do I even need to go into detail?

7. Spiritual sigh*

Don't make me go into detail -_- I will say though that although Aang and Katara are both amazing individuals capable of earth shattering things, they were not a healthy fit for one another. This is evident in the original series and especially in their children from LOK. They both deserved the best but better than one another.

8. ZUTARAAAAAAA

This is a Zutara blog you KNEW this was coming, as it should. There's just too much. There's too damn much. I would give a real paragraph to this too, but, I mean, there's already so much proving that this was the pair. Fics, metas, rants, this site. Scroll through my blog or any of the ATLA related blogs I follow and...dude. These two were meant to be together and I'll mourn the narrative brilliance WASTED for no good reason every day for the rest of my life. No reason these two shouldn't be married with three kids. sob. I will take this part to say thank you to the amazing fic writers that gave Katara, Zuko, Mai, and Aang what they deserved that the writers didn't have the guts to give them themselves. Next point tho.

9. AANG AND ONJI

Good God almighty. Why not this? WHY NOT THIS? I'm putting on my bullet proof vest and I'm going to say this; Aanji is cuter than Zutara. Now before you scorn me or whatever, let me explain. Zutara for me is like steak. No. Chicken parmesan. I like chicken parmesan better. The point though is that Zutara is savory. You know? I don't see them as cute, I see them as Obviously. Aanji on the other hand is like a bag of my favorite candy. They are like a brownie. A cookie. Girl Scout Samoas!...I don't know what words are anymore. This post got way out of hand. I guess what I'm saying is that for Zutara, I scream, but for Aanji, I squeal. I hope that makes sense. But here's the main point I want to make. Onji never knew who Aang really was. And Aang was always, at his core, himself. She very obviously had a crush on Aang for his personality and that was crazy cute and frankly preferable to Katara's "I...guess he is." (you know exactly what I'm talking about) Anyway, I kept wanting more of them together. I wish all the time that we'd gotten to see her again, with a more fleshed out character and all. And in the way that I imagine the show should have gone, she could have been the perfect love interest for Aang, during this episode or way later, even in the comics! Another WASTED opportunity for greatness and I will, again, never recover T-T

10. Iroh get your ass back here

Maybe this is a misguided critique but I hated that Iroh just left Zuko alone in the fire nation at the end of the series. Baby was in trouble in every sense of the word and Iroh was just like "See ya! You got this nephew." I'm expected to believe that? I'm expected to accept that? No no no. He should have at least stayed for a few years to help Zuko stay upright and, you know, alive. And by "upright" I don't mean "good." I just mean been there to support him because Lord knows he needed it, at least in the beginning of his reign. It was cute that Iroh was able to settle down with his own teashop after all those years of violence and mourning and running and this and that. I was more than happy for him for being able to have that peace finally. But I still think it could have waited a little while longer so he could support Zuko.

That's it I guess. I know not everything I've said makes the most sense in one way or another, but I enjoyed putting it together all the same. Thank you for reading and have a great day. I'll go finish my final now.

(Edited for a typo)

[snow-whiteandred-rose]

The Crush Crash  Version 2

A/N: Hey, it´s Vanessa. Here is my version how you and Y/B/F could met Jimin and Taehyung. Version 1 here.  Don´t be irritated thats almost the same.. We wrote it separatly but it`s not new that we have the same ideas.

Pairing: Taehyung x reader, Jimin x Best friend world count: 1,3k

“Y/N, do you smell it? Coffee!” Your best friend said. “Awww it smells so good. Perfect timing, my foots hurt so much. I can’t go anymore,” you whined. You and your best friend were on a road trip in South Korea and the first few days you have spent in Seoul. City trips were great but also really exhausting. There was so much to explore but often time was too rare. You both entered the coffeeshop and as usual all heads turned in your direction. You know the game cause Y/B/F light brown hair and your silver blond hair were really eye catching. In the beginning of your holiday it was awkward for you both because you didn’t like it to got everybody’s attention. But now you got used to this and sometimes it was also nice to stand out from the crowd. “Why did I see this coming?” your best friend asked. “Cause it is always the same. Don’t worry. We are handsome as always.” You smiled. Y/B/F sometimes struggled to find her self beautiful and you can’t understand because you found her really pretty. So you always tried your best to improved her self-esteem. She smiled and went to the bar. “Do you also want an iced americano?” She asked you before she ordered two coffee in Korean. You admired her for that because she learned all the basics on her own. Later she taught you Hangul but you weren’t good as her. You were quite happy when you could read and recognized a world. Languages weren’t your cup of tea. So you were happy that she were better in it. It helped you both a lot these vacations. While you waited for your order you looked where you could sat. Luckily you found a small table in the corner so that you were a little bit separated from the rest of the cafe. “I will never walk again,” you said happy as you could rest your foots. “I don’t want to disappoint you but we still have to go to our apartment.” “Don’t remind me of that.” You two laughed. The next half hour you spent on your phone to zap through your holiday pictures and laughed through the memories. You also noticed the views from the side but you didn’t pay attention because you were always a little bit louder than other people when you have fun together. So it was normal that people looked at you. “Before we go back to our apartment, I have to go to the toilet,” you said. “I expected nothing less. I’m waiting here.” It was normal for your best friend that you had to visit the toilet. It was always the same. No matter where you were or what you two did. So you think she would asked you if everything were fine when you wouldn’t need to go to the bathroom. After you've relieved your bladder you looked in the mirror to fresh up and retightened your pink lipstick. You heard your phone vibrating. With your phone in your hand you went out of the bathroom and went to your table again. Confused you read the message from Y/B/F “Don’t flip out. Remain normal!!!” ‘What does that mean? And why is she writing me when I’ll see her again in a few seconds?’ you asked yourself

The next moment everything happened simultaneously. At first you noticed too late the belt of the bag causing you to stumble and fall forward. The stupid thing was that right in front of you a young man with a hood above his head walked with the tray to his table. You saw Y/F/N shocked face before you fall against the young man and the content of his cups spread out on your top. But that wasn’t the worst. The worst was that in the moment you wanted to cursed you looked up and saw in dark eyes you never thought you would ever see them in real life. ‘Why? Why does that happen to me?’ “Everything fine?” A deep voice you knew to well asked you in Korean. Logical you didn’t understand. “What?” “You... ok?” He asked you in English. “I think so,” you answered and recognized that you were still holding his arms which you reached through your fall. Quickly you pulled your arms away. “Y/N!!” You heard your best friend yell. “Are you kidding me?” “I’m so sorry, I should have taken my bag away.” You heard another familiar voice next to you. You really started to felt like you were dreaming. At first you bumped into Taehyung, which by the way looked thousand times better in real life. How was this possible? And logical where a Taehyung there also a Jimin. “It’s my fault I should have looked straight ahead,” you said and weren’t really sure if they understood you. “So I think I owe you a new drink.” Taehyung just looked at you questioningly but your best friend helped you with her Korean basics. “Oh, no. Don’t need to do.” Tae answered in broken English but you just waved it off. You turned around and wanted to go to the counter but you noticed in that moment the stains on your shirt. Through all the excitement you haven’t paid any attention to it. How embarrassing! You felt that you blushed. “Oh, wait. Here is your jacket. Than you can cover it.” Thankfully you took your jacket Y/F/N gave you. “When I wouldn’t know that the stains were coffee stains I would think that they belong to the shirt. It suits you well.” Jimin tried to cheer you up and you smiled carefully. You wanted to turned around but Y/B/F stopped you. “Do you really want to leave me alone?” She whispered. “I believe in you. You can do this,” you smiled and went to the bar. You still haven't processed what happened. While you stood in the queue, closed your eyes and took a deep breath, you suddenly felt somebody stood next to you. You opened your eyes and saw that it was Taehyung. “So.. eh.. where you from?” He asked “I’m from ‘your/home country’. We are on vacation.” You answered and were quite happy that he nodded to make clear that he understood you. “So what kind of drink you both had?” you asked him. “Jimin takes the coffee late and for me one hot cocoa . But I just can say it again... you don’t have to do this.. it’s just a coffee.” “Oh yes, I already feel bad so that’s the least I can do and by the way: Emancipation and something like this,” you winked and smiled. Tae looked like he wanted to say something but in that moment you got your order. You took the tablet and went to the table where Jimin and Y/F/N were sitting. You smiled because Jimin showed her his charming smile and it looked a little bit like he already started flirting with her. Later you had to squeeze her out. “And you both really travel on your own through South Korea?” Jimin asked your best friend visibly admired. “Yeah it’s not the first time we are doing road trips like this,” she answered and you noticed her light pink cheeks. “I think that is yours,” you took both cups and stood them on the table “ and again I’m really sorry.” “Yeah me too. So it was nice to meet you but now we have to go... we still have to go to our apartment,” Y/B/F answered and stood up. “Do you really have to go?” Jimin asked and put on his charmant smile. “If you would like to join us, you are welcome to sit with us,” Taehyung said with his typical boxy smile. You looked to your friend before you answered:”It is our pleasure. Hi, I’m Y/N and that is Y/F/N and that I spilled something was obviously an exception and doesn't happen all the time.“ “Seriously?“ Your best friend asked and all at the table started laugh.

[fangirlwithapen13]

I’m a lonely okay...that still counts

Okay so I had this typed and everything...then it flippin DELETED. IDK HOW! Ughhh so whatever enjoy...this is kinda a story that in a way happened to me...and I guess I think MC would have a similar problem...or hope they would anyway. Also haven’t posted in like foreveerrrr.

Oh yeah and it’s gonna be a multiparter cuz I write too damn long. ;)

Pairing: Jake x MC (also should I use (y/n) or stick with MC? Idk.

Warnings: ehh...a little swearing I guess.

Pov is MC

(^i have no idea what to put for the gif)

Have you ever had an idea that was really really good. And then you act on that idea and it turns out way better than expected? The idea was Raj’s. To bring everyone together in a gathering and force them to have a good time. There was liquor, a karaoke station, dance floor, and a dj station. There were lights and streamers and lanterns. It really looked beautiful.

Raj and I took a step back to admire our handy work and damn....we did such a good job. Raj smiled widely.

“Perfect. Now all we need is everyone here by sunset. That’s how we work together.” He looked to me. “Trust me.”

“You got it bud. Now...name your people.”

“Zahra, Sean, Craig, Lila, and Michelle are a definite yes.”

“Okay cool I’ll get Jake, Estela, Quinn, Diego, and probably Grace and Aleister.” I replied.

“Sweet. So meet back in the pool entry with the dudes at sunset.”

“BREAK!” I shouted. Raj stared at me. “Just...lets go...”

I walked inside looking for my recruitments. When I walked into the diner I saw Grace and Aleister talking at a table. I smiled watching them have a good time.

Reluctantly, I made my way over to their table and kindly waited till Grace realized my presence.

“MC!” Grace smiled widely. Aleister grunted but nodded in my direction. “What’s going on?”

“Nothing much...but I would love it if you guys would do me a favor.”

“What kind of favor?” Aleister asked raising an eyebrow.

“Okay well you know how there’s a lot of tension between basically everyone here? Well Raj and I might have a way to bring everyone together...” The two stared at me. “A party!”

“A party? You must be kidding...that is the most idiotic-“

“A party sounds great!” Grace smiled interrupting Aleister. Aleister glances at her with a confused expression. “We all know that everyone is a little on edge...so why not have something to bring us all to good spirits!”

“Thats the idea!” I smiled. “So can I count on you two to be there?” Aleister sighed and began to no doubt retort about how he wouldn’t be attending the party but not before...

“I’ll be there!” She smiled. Aleister gaped for a moment and then sighed.

“I suppose I’ll observe.” He muttered. I grinned.

“Perfecto! Be at the pool entry by sunset! See you guys then!” I cried as I stood up and skipped out.

Walking around aimlessly, without looking, I knocked into someone.

“WHOAA!” I yelled as I fell back. The person grabbed my arm and pulled me back. I realized that it was Estela.

“Be careful.” She muttered steadying me. She let go of my arm and began to walk away.

“WAIT!” I cried. She turned to face me with a raised eyebrow. “Sooo I know your not really a team player....but...I would really really really like it if you would come to this get together.”

Estela opened her mouth starting to protest.

“I know you don’t want us being nosy in your work and you want to be kept to yourself, but I just would really appreciate you being there. But if not it’s okay...I understand.” I said looking at my feet. She didn’t respond. I sighed and turned around, beginning to walk away. After a couple steps I heard a shout.

“MC! Wait!” I turned to see Estela sigh. “I’ll be there.”

“Really!?” I cried smiling. She chuckled.

“Yeah. Look...I can see this means a lot to you. So I’ll be there. But afterwards I’m out.” I jumped up once.

“Thank you! Thank you! Thanks!” I quickly hugged her before she could say anything and turn and started to run away.

“Wait! Where is it?” She asked. I skidded to a stop.

“Oh yeah right.” I smiled sheepishly. “Pool entry at sunset...see you there!” Then I wandered to Diego’s room.

I knocked on the door and leaned against it.

“Diegooooooo...” I muttered. I heard my best friend laugh from his room.

“MMMMCCCC.” He replied as he opened the door, and let me into his room. I laid on his bed with a smile. “What’s up?” He asked as he laid next to me.

“How would you like....to go to a party that’ll bring everyone together?”

“Eh yeah sure. Why not.” He replied. Wow, that was easier than I thought. I smiled.

“This is why we’re friends.” I declared.

“Why, cuz I’d go into anything headfirst if you were? Even knowing nothing about what I’m going to do? Yeah that screams loalty to me.” He laughed. I joined him and gave him a hug.

“What would I do without you?” I asked.

“Lord only knows.” He replied. “So who else is on your list of people to drag to this thing?”

“I need to talk to Lila, Quinn, and Jake.” At the mention of the pilot’s name, Diego grinned mischievously.

“Ooohhh~ Jake huh?” He asked, facing me. I could feel my face heat up, but I continued to act like it was nothing. After all, he’d never be into me. I mean, I was a girl in college who’d hardly ever got out of the city. Traveled? Sure! But actually live and have survival skills? Ha! No way. I just didn’t think I was his type.

That didn’t stop me from liking him though. Which actually kinda sucked. It had been forever since I had a real crush. A couple of guys on campus I thought were hot, sure. But actually liking someone continuously and seeing them everyday was something that hadn’t happened to me in a while. Even if seeing him everyday actually was trying to survive on this crazy island.

“MC.” Diego called again, waving his hand in front of my face. I blinked, my thoughts disappearing. “You absolutely blanking out after I said the dudes name says it all.” He smiled.

“N-no! Of course not! You know how silly that would be!” I replied standing up and making my way out of his room.

“Mhmm sure. Where you off to now?”

“I’m going to ask people to come to tonight’s party...”

“Jake?”

“NO! I-I mean yeah...I Uh have to....ish...you know what I don’t need to explain myself to you. Be at the pool entrance by sunset.” I recovered as I walked out. Even behind the now closed door of his room I could hear him laughing.

Rolling my eyes I made my way over to Quinn’s room, who was not very far away. I knocked on the door and almost immediately the red head appeared.

“MC! Hey!” She cried as she gave me a huge hug. I laughed as I hugged her back.

“Hey Quinn!” I replied.

“What’s up?” She asked as she pulled away to look at me.

“Well I know you hate all the fighting that’s going on,” I begun.

“It’s really bad...” Quinn said somberly. Her grin faded as the topic became clear.

“But!!! That’s why Raj and I have decided to through a party tonight.” Quinn’s smile returned, her face lighting with excitement. I smiled at her amusement.

“Really?! Oh my gosh! That would totally bring everyone together!” She said.

“That’s the plan.” I replied. “Go to the pool entrance by sunset and we could finally get them on the same page.”

Quinn nodded happily. I really admired her. She was kind to everyone and did whatever she could to make others happy. It was really one of her best qualities.

“Pool entry by sunset. Got it.” She gave me one last hug. “Hey I was going to the lobby right now. You wanna come?”

“I’d love to but, I have one more person to ask to this party.”

~~~~~time skip brought to you by I’m lazy~~~~~~

“Jake?” I asked. The pilot’s head turned, and his blue crystal eyes spotted me. He smirked.

“Heya Princess.” He greeted. I smiled in return.

He was sitting in front of the hotel. Oddly enough it was quiet and empty. No one normally came here since everyone was scared of being alone in a place like this.

Not Jake McKenzie though. No never Jake McKenzie.

I sat beside him on the warm cement, it being heated by the bright sun in the sky. At first we were silent, me not daring to embarrass myself and him probably not knowing what to say.

Finally I worked up the courage.

“You...come down here a lot?” I asked. Which was stupid.

Of course he came down here often. And what was I trying to do? Get him to open up to me? He must’ve noticed my inner frustration, because he chuckled and smirked.

“Every now and then sure. Besides, with Cap on my back, its the only place where I won’t be hassled.” then he glanced at me with a side eye. “You’re not gonna hassle me Princess, are ya?” I chuckled uneasily.

“Actually...” I started, avoiding his eye contact.

“Whatcha got for me?” He asked as he streatched out. I smiled as I turned his way.

“Jake...I know you don’t want to,”

“Great way to start.” He interrupted.

“But Raj and everyone else...” he grunted slightly, “and me, would like you to come to a party Raj and I set up.” Jake looked at me with blank stare. “Look, it’s just a get together to literally get us together. We need to work as a team if we want to get off this island.”

I couldn’t tell if Jake was taking the bait. He just examined me, his eyes seeming to view all of my features.

“So...” he finally started, “you want me to go to this party...to ‘connect’ with everyone, and basically pretend like I’m having a great time.”

“Maybe you will have a great time.” I suggested. He laughed in reply.

“Jeez Princess, you really think I can get along with some college kids?” He asked. I bit my lip nervously and shrugged.

“Maybe if you tried.” He chuckled and rolled his eyes, not looking at me. “Look you don’t have to if you don’t want to. It’s just...we really should patch the relationships. It would help to know that the people we’re stuck on this island with actually like each other. Especially if we don’t...” I stopped not even wanting to think of the possibilities.

Jake then turned back to me, once again studying me. After a couple of seconds he sighed and ran a hand through his hair.

“You really care about this, don’t ya?” he asked. I mirrored his actions, sighing and running a had through my hair.

“I guess I kinda do...” I stopped for a moment. Then I looked back to him. “Look, Jake, you don’t have to-“

“Alright, I’ll go.” He said before I could finsih my sentence. I widened my eyes.

“R-Really?!”

“Yeah...if its really that important to you Princess, I’ll try.” Without knowing what I was doing, or without thinking it through, I hugged him tightly.

“Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!” I cried into his jacket. He was stiff at first, unsure what to do. Then he relaxed slightly, patting me on the back. Realizing what I did, I pulled back. “Uh, ahem, I mean...thanks.” He smiled.

“No problem.”

“Be at the pool entry by sunset.” I replied as I got up. Before I walked away I smiled at him. “See you then, Top Gun.”

“See ya then, Princess.” He replied with a smirk. And with that I walked away, not even trying to hide the skip in my step.

[doyouevenshipbr0]

gruvia drabble

author’s note: i get inspired by the most insignificant little things and i have no idea where im gonna go w this fic but...... juvia is so BEAUTIFUL omfg n i literally just wanna write a fic ab gray appreciating that. that’s it lmao. enjoy my loves!!!<333

**another note: haha oh ok it turned into something kinda rly different! its fine ig! psa im ab to kinda rant so u can skip this if u want!! if u wanna read this part it might be better to do it after u read the fic???? these arent spoilers its just kinda behind the scenes of ig.. ok so i try to think of gruvia in the most realistic sense possible. i incorporated gray having crushes bc simply, i think its true. i think gray had a crush on erza and lucy. i also think gray didnt fall in love w juvia at first sight lmao. i think it took a lot of time for gray to understand what juvia meant to him. also i find it INFURIATING that gray has never commented on juvias looks lmaooo (to my knowledge). like he said lucy and erza were pretty (at least in the anime) and literally all i want is for gray to acknowledge how fuckin BEAUTIFUL juvia is ongogmgogm. ok ok yes he commented "you're mine" and said "ur body is something i care about" and a whole lot of other romantic things but he has never made a comment solely on juvias looks and ik looks dont matter and im sure its hard for gray to even think ab juvias looks considering all the personality she has but literally all i want is a "ur cute". like thats all i need lmao. my girl needs recognition for being the most beautiful person EVER!! so yeah this fic is me trying to process how gray sees juvia, and even tho he doesnt say it, i can at least tell myself this is his thought process lmaooo. ((he also prolly doesn't say shes cute cus it would be way too embarrassing for him considering he has like actual real feelings for her)) ok ignore me literally typing word vomit lol pls enjoy ilysm. (((this rant is longer than the fucking fic. i cri.))))

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Gray always had crushes.

It was normal, but Gray never really reflected on it until now.

First, there was Erza. They were just kids. When she first joined the guild, Gray thought she was weird, but he soon found out she was much more than that. She challenged him. Not only physically, but mentally and emotionally too. He wanted to figure her out. She had a complexity that he never experienced before, and he was intrigued by it. Soon, the curiosity of the pretty girl with the scarlet hair molded into an admiration. He admired her beauty, her ability, and her heart, and the attraction just fizzled away over time.

Then, there was Lucy. This one was far simpler, and didn't hurt Gray's brain as much to try to comprehend. She was cute. She was quirky. She was a fresh face he saw around the guild. He couldn't deny the instant attraction he felt towards her, and he didn't necessarily try to fight it either. The bond was harmless, and Gray never expected anything to come from it, nor did he try to advance it in any way. She was just Lucy. A friend, a guildmate, and a teammate. While a part of him was inclined to make some sort of move, an even larger part of him didn't feel right about it. That small part that inquired for something more seemed to die out as well, and while he wasn't sure why at first, he was finally starting to realize what it was.

Finally, there's Juvia, who he would hardly ever consider a crush. Honestly, at first, nothing really struck him. She was pretty he supposed, but had an odd look. She had a dull personality. She was nothing special. Just another enemy to take out. That was all until their first fight came to an end. A piece of her did stand out to Gray, and it stuck to him. He wasn't sure why, but it did.

Then, time went on. Juvia's personality completely flourished, and it was like she became a whole new person. While Gray at first saw her mostly as an annoyance, it transformed into something completely foreign to him. He never knew how to place this feeling, and even now he still has trouble comprehending Juvia from time to time. While he wasn't sure how to feel about her, he did always know that she was something special. She was there for him like no one else was. She supported, helped, and loved him more than anyone. He was completely overcome by all of her. He was so overwhelmed by her love, it took him a long time to realize just how much he needed and cherished it. He needed that warmth in his cold, seemingly tragic life. While the people in his past died for him, she lived for him. He only recently realized that in some ways, that was much harder, and it was certainly much more meaningful.

She did have her faults though, as all people do. She was completely neurotic, clingy, emotional, short-tempered, dramatic, and just--well-- a weirdo, but...

he loved her.

He loved her strength, her devotion, her kindness, her optimism towards life, her enthusiasm, her humor (even when she didn't mean to be funny), and well- he just loved everything about her. Even the bits mentioned earlier that seemed not so great. He loved it all.

He had a hard time even calling Juvia a crush, truthfully. The way he felt towards her was far stronger than anything he'd felt for anyone else. Erza and Lucy held a place in his heart at one point, but now, Juvia was the whole thing. She owned every last part of it. It was a feat neither of the former girls possessed, and he didn't think anyone other than Juvia ever could.

And as he sat at a table across from the three women he ever had romantic feelings for in his life: Erza, Lucy, and Juvia, and pondered on these thoughts, he decided not only did Juvia have an amazing soul, she was damn beautiful too.

The strange thing was, Juvia was always pretty. But unlike his former crushes, he never really seemed to take the time to admire Juvia's looks. It was her personality that always stuck out to Gray.

But when he did take the time to sit and just look at her... wow. Erza and Lucy couldn't even hold a candle to her.

It was remarkable, honestly. She was nothing like any girl he had ever seen before. She was totally unique. Her hair was the perfect shade of blue that accompanied her perfect waves, making her mane resemble that of a beautiful ocean that he would absolutely love to get lost in. Her bangs fell perfectly over her hooded eyes that were coated in long lashes, and in them held a deep blue escape that were her eyes. Oh god, her eyes. They could tell you a whole story those damned things. Gray never had to ask her what she was feeling, because her eyes always said it all. Natsu was sitting beside him at the time, and said something that caused Juvia to laugh. Her plump, naturally pouted lips turned into a big beautiful grin in an instant. Gray wasn't sure what Natsu said, but it must've been pretty funny, because she then covered her mouth as she began to laugh even louder, and Gray was wishing she didn't hide behind her petite hands. After the laugh fest was over, she regained her composure and tucked an unruly blue lock behind her ear, and closed her mouth as her lips parted into a content grin, and just that small gesture shamefully drove Gray crazy. She was a masterpiece.

He decided he didn't stop to think about how breathtaking she was so much, because then it would turn into this. It became Gray relishing in every little detail Juvia possessed, and every mannerism she did. He never felt the need to look at a girl like that before, with such interest in detail. The feeling that took over when he really looked at Juvia was far too strong for him to comprehend too often. It was a feeling completely unfamiliar to him until he saw her. While his emotions about her were a lot for him to handle sometimes, he was thankful for it.

He was grateful for every last part of her.

"Gray-sama, are you alright?" She tilted her head ever so slightly, causing the tides of her hair to fall in a new, but beautiful way, and her eyes were filling with harmless concern. She must've finally caught him staring.

"U-uh yeah." He stammered. "I'm good."

"You're sure?" Her eyes began to flood with more worry, and she reached her hand across the table, holding onto his. Her soft, milky skin clashed with his rough feel, but they somehow fit perfectly together. He flinched at first, but instead of throwing a fit for his hatred of PDA, he decided he'd let their hands be. He wanted to take every part of her in right now.

"Yeah." He smirked, and slightly squeezed onto her hand, not caring about Natsu, Lucy, Erza, or anyone seeing them at that moment in time. She was all his. Not only was she his, but she was it. She was really the one.

"I'm just fine."

[sanjayyyy-13]

I Should Of Stayed In Bed

Summary: Loki and (Y/N) have had feeling for each other for a long time. But how do they feel when they have been placed on opposing sides of a friendly feud? 

Warnings: Just a lot of bad language. Swearing, cussing, the whole enchilada. 

Prompt: The Avengers have a prank war, (Y/N) and Loki get a little into it.

Pairing: Reader (Female) and Loki Laufeyson

Words: 2321

No this couldn’t be happening. They said it would be safe. You held your breath as you heard the faint footsteps of your enemies. You crouched low and pushed your back against the cool marble kitchen counter. You looked down at your drenched clothes and took a deep breath. You took a glance at the gun in your hands and noticed you were on your last bit of ammo. Your throat was as dry as sandpaper. Thats when you heard a voice…. No two. Shit! I’m so fucked.

-Before-

Everything was going great in the Avengers tower. You were relaxing with a book in hand and a cup of hot chocolate in the other. You basked in the sun that was streaming through the windows and enjoyed the peace. Steve, Tony and Thor had gone for a meeting with some big people leaving the team relaxed. Loki sat across from you, his eyes were focused on his book but every so often he would flicker his eyes up to your face and drink in every detail. He would admire everything, from the curve of your cheek to the (h/c) strands of hair that were framing your face so delicately. He thought you were an exquisite being and the only acceptable human to be in the presence of a god. You looked up from your book and met his gaze. You gave him a smile and took a sip from your cup of chocolate. Little did you know that your powers made the tea steaming hot. Fuck that shit hurted. It burnt your lip and tongue making you spit it back into the cup and yelp in pain. Whelp, there goes being graceful you thought to yourself.

You heard a scoff from Loki and you rolled your eyes. “Thanks for the, are you okay? You want me to get ice?” You say, your voice dripping with sarcasm. “You are fine, because along with those heating powers, you do have cooling powers” he says and gives you a smug smile. Argh, I wish I could smack that stupid grin off his face. You put your book and tea down. I need to change my shirt now you thought as you noticed the sticky stains on your comfy shirt. You got up, and thought about what Loki said. You willed the chill to come to your hands and pressed your fingers on your tongue and lip. “Thuck chu” you say to Loki. “Was that Thank You or fuck you?” Loki says with his brows furrowed and eyes trained on your tea stain. With your remaining hand you give him the middle finger and then bow deeply. “I presume that it is both” he says thoughtfully. You gave him a smile and wink and headed towards your room.

After closing the door you took your fingers out of your mouth. Taking of your shirt and not bothering to put on another you collapse on your bed and ponder.  Your thoughts wandered to the mischievous man that made you want to slap and kiss him at the same time. You had grown close to the Asgardian god. You both teased, flirted and played with each other. You wouldn’t say you had a real bad crush on him, but that smirk makes you wish you can just say something about how you feel and not let your powers act up. Your frustrating powers were the result of a lab experiment. You were a trained assassin, captured by Hydra, turning you into their lab rat. You were gifted with the powers of ice and fire. But the pain you went through to achieve them was terrible. You shuddered thinking of the past and focused on how you ended up in this tower. You smiled when you remembered helping the “mighty” avengers fight Ultron and many other smaller enemies. Ahh, nice trip down memory lane.

Loki P.O.V

He listened to your footsteps receding down the hallway and let out a long breath. He closed his book and proceeded to look out the window, his head resting on the palm of his hand. She was magnificent and wonderful. He wished he could just tell her how he feels and how he wishes to hold her in his arms. Ack when did all of this sickening love stuff happen he thought to himself. Pause. Wait… did I just say I love her? No. She is just more relatable than others. He dragged his hands down his face and took a long breath. He decided to distract himself by completing his book. Unfortunately, thats when two of the loudest men walked into the room. Arguing. Ugh. He needed you to get through this.

-Back to you-

“(Y/N)?” You heard before someone opened the door. “Argh” you screech as you reached for your shirt but found nothing.  Loki eyes widen when he saw you in your state. “What the fuck dude? Can’t you knock?” You shout at the black haired god in front of you. “Oh” Loki says. He eyes your body and smirks. “ You are begging for me to punch you.” You say. “ I can’t stand being alone with those two nimrods arguing” he says as he hands you your shirt that was on the floor. “ The boys are back at it again?” You say as you grab the shirt, slightly burning his hands with your powers. “Ow, you need to control your powers. They are hot as balls“ he says awkwardly with the new terms Peter was teaching him. You chuckle and start to put your shirt back on. He scowled when he heard you laughing. “Don’t scrunch up your face like that, you’ll ruin it” you say with a smirk. He folded his arms and rolled his eyes.“ I’ll be back in a few” you say. “seconds or hours?” he says. “Years” you answer him with a smile. He rolled his eyes and left closing the door behind him.

That was embarrassing. You put a proper shirt on and head back to the common room. There were voices that were loudly coming from them. “I doubt it you jerk off!” You hear someone yell. “Fuck you, everyone knows I was the original best friend!” Another voice yelled. You entered the room that had Sam and Bucky arguing. You noticed Loki in the corner with a look of annoyance in his eyes. You laughed quietly at the cute expression on his face. “Guys, what are you fighting about?” You exclaim. “This dick head thinks that he is the best friend of Steve!” Sam yells.  You tilt your head to Bucky who rolls his eyes. “I know I am” Bucky replies. “Okay, Okay. You guys are both his best friends” you state with your arms outstretched. “Pfft, the only way to tell who’s better is to fight and earn the title” Sam states, getting into a fighting stance. “Fighting? No we are going to see who is mentally fit to be Caps best friend” Bucky says. “Are you proposing a prank war?” Sam says in disbelief. “Hell yes I am. And I get first dibs on my team members. I call (Y/N).” Bucky states as he walks over and puts his arm around you making you groan under it’s weight. You give Loki a silent plead of help. But all he does is shrug his shoulders and smirk. What have I gotten myself into?

-Present-

You thought of the teams, Sam Team: Sam, Clint, Rhodey. Bucky’s Teams: Bucky, Natasha, Peter, (Y/N). Loki had refused to participate in this “petty midgaurdian bullshit”. Even when you begged and pouted your lips.

You had come to the kitchen to make some water balloons for your team. Being an idiot, you didn’t ask anyone for help. You clutched your water gun tightly when you began to hear the opposing teams voices. It was Clint and Rhodey. But they seemed oddly robotic. You had to abort your mission or call in for backup. You gave yourself five seconds to think about it and a plan began to formulate in your mind. You couldn’t risk going back to your base and showing them where it was and couldn’t sacrifice your precious resources a.k.a the water balloons. You quietly opened the cupboard next to you and placed the bucket that held the full water balloons and closed it.  

You pull out your phone and send Natasha a quick SOS and hit record on your phone to capture the conversation between Rhodey and Clint. You strained your ears and tried listening in on the conversation between Rhodes and Clint. “….They will never see it coming and they don’t even know that we know where there base is.” You heard Rhodey say. “Hahah yup, I can’t wait to capture the look on Nat’s face” Clint replies. You sent the recording to Bucky and pop up from your hiding place and squirt them both with water from you water gun. “Surprise bitches!!!” You yell. “What the fuck?” A certain god says. Oh Shit. You see Loki drenched in water but no sign of Clint or Rhodey. You frown, put down your gun and grabbed a towel. You quickly approached him.“I’m so sorry. Shit. I didn’t see you there” You start saying. He glares at you for a second and grabs the towel from you hand. “Im so so sorry” you start mumbling.  He starts to visibly get annoyed and starts wiping his hair.

“It’s okay, just shut up” he snaps. He notices your face change from worry to sadness and immediately feels bad. You furrow your brows and chew your bottom lip nervously. Loki takes notice and tries his best not to let it distract him. He brings his hand up to the side of your face and takes his thumb and removes your bottom lip away from your teeth. “Actually love, you should forgive me.” He replies with a smirk. Love?  You were a little stuck in place because of the new nick name you earned. “Wait why?” You say audibly as he slaps your hand in handcuffs and throws you over his shoulder. “I got her. Sam come and take her. My job is done, now leave me alone” he says. “You little asshole! Let go” You start kicking furiously. “Play nice now, love” he replies. There it was again.”Love”  The familiar feeling of ice comes in your hand. You break out of the knot and flip off of a unsuspecting Loki. “Not today Satan!” You yell. Thats when your team comes rushing in. But unfortunately, so does the opposing team. Peter hands you a water gun and places the water balloon bucket behind you. “Thanks kid” you say. “No problem, (Y/N)” he replies innocently.

“ATTACK” Bucky and Sam yell at the same time. This was when all hell broke loose. You started squirting your gun at Loki who used Clint as his shield and started walking forward towards you. “Let go of me” Clint said as he struggled to get out of Loki’s strong grip. Your eyebrows furrow as you slowly walked backwards. When he got close enough to you he tossed Clint aside like a rag doll and smacked your gun away. You were frozen in place. His hand grazes your cheek and settles on your chin. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!?! “Now love, I suggest you put the water gun down, before someone gets hurt.” He says .You stare in his beautiful blue eyes for a while, and use this opportunity to win. You make your whole body burn and he takes his hands off your face with a jump. “As I said before, NOT TODAY SATAN!” You yell and grab a water balloon from the bucket behind you and smack it in his face. It bursts and the face he makes was priceless. Eyebrows furrowed, mouth spitting out the water and his eyes blinking madly.

“You are gonna pay for this (Y/N)” he shouts. “ooo, I can’t wait” you say with a wink. He smiles and pounces on you knocking you to the ground and you grab a discarded water gun on the floor. His body is now on top of yours. Chest to chest, face to face. There was a small space between you guys, if you leaned up a little bit, you would be able to close the distance between you two. You laughed and tried to will that thought away. You saw his eyes flicker to your lips. “I told you were going to pay for that” he says, panting. You quickly switch positions so you are on top. His hands settle at your hips and you try your best to ignore it. You point the gun to his face and laugh.  “I think the clear winner is me” you state. He laughs and says “if this happens whenever you win” he says gesturing the position you guys are in, “I would challenge you to many more games”. You had a dumb smile on your face, thinking of a response. “I assure you, it will result in something more than just this” you say, trying your best to act flirtatious. He hummed in approval and proceeded to lick his lips. Before either of you could do anything, you heard the elevator bell ping.

“WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON IN MY TOWER?” You hear Tony yell as he enters through the elevator along with Steve and Thor. His brows are raised as he surveyed the damage. There was water, paint and mud everywhere. The furniture was scattered and people were at each other throats. Everyone turns towards the voice. “Um, (Y/N) why are you on top of my brother.” You hear Thor ask. You blush, glance Loki who had a mischievous smirk. You open your mouth to answer but was cut off by Tony.“also… WHAT THE SHIT?”

-END-

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[moodymurda]

think i lost my best friend

as a small child my first first best friend was a boy named omar. we met in daycare when we were two. we were the smallest in the class but had the biggest mouths. we ended up going to the same schools until 4th grade. at our elementary school anytime someone claimed me as a best friend, he would explain that we went way back to diapers and they weren’t my best friend lmao. 

in pre-k i met a boy named hakeem. (our mom’s ended up being friends, they still talk occasionally and sometimes my mom will tell me how hakeem and his siblings are doing. because she know my weird ass cares about that sort of thing). hakeem brought these lemon cookies everyday for snack. i liked them too but in strawberry, so he would have his mom get me some and he brought me those cookies everyday until we changed schools in first grade. we always sat together, did our work together, played together. we had other friends but we mostly did everything together. 

in first grade i had 2 best friends. a boy named franklyn and a girl named melody. melody moved away like 4 months into the school year but to this day i’ve never forgotten her. franklyn, i thought he was so cool. he was a really great artist.. for a 6 year old lol. he was real funny too. he had the funniest facial expressions. and he was real serious which i was entertained by because i’ve always been “silly”. 

in 4th grade i met a girl named shanelle. we were the shortest girls in the class and the smartest. we were really similar in general and we instantly clicked. it was a whole lil group of girls that i’d known since first grade. but shanelle and i ended up in the same class in 4th grade and we clicked idk. that was my mf girl. when i first moved to florida we talked on the phone every saturday for hours. i also met a boy named anias that year. he was one of my best friends too. he was also my first crush lol. unrelated but it’s interesting to look back at how i handled the fact that i liked him, because i still handle liking people that same way.

fifth grade was my first year in florida. it was real hard for me to make friends. the other day, my mom said to me she realized that in new york i never had to make friends. i have bout 5011 cousins, so that's built in friends right there. and they were my friends back then, they're my friends now. then most of the kids i went to daycare with, they went to my elementary school. so again i never had to make a friend really. i knew everyone in my life since i was a literal infant. 

but yea i did end up making friends eventually. got my first white friends ever lol. (one of their dad’s called me a nigger which is still hands down one of the weirdest things i’ve ever experienced.) i started to befriend more girls which was cool because before then i always had way more guy friends than girls. 

in middle school i went to one school for 6th grade, then another for 7th & 8th. in 6th i met my friend nijah. and she was my best friend then. she treated me like i was her little sister and i’m still grateful. she really looked out for my little ass and defended me no matter what. she was present after i got into my first fight lol. and even though i held my own, the girl had scratched my face. that shit set nijah off and she proceeded to beat homegirl’s ass even though i just did.

i struggled to make friends in 7th again. in 6th grade i went to the same school that most of my elementary friends went to, so again i didn’t have to make friends for real. i did make new friends but it was different because it was a group thing. not me alone trying to fit in somewhere. in 7th grade i finally got into a school i applied to in 5th grade but was wait-listed. i was and am very reluctant to speak to those i don’t know for a list of reasons. so i didn’t. i would just observe the people in my class. eventually these two girls named janae and keely who were best friends, kinda let me stick my ass in there with them. then i met bart and this girl dani. i remember marcus and i had ended up befriending one another bc our history teacher sat us next to each other when he was reassigning seats. (i remember every mf thing but marcus was also my second crush so naturally i remember every detail of that shit). so yea those were my friends. at the time janae was my best friend tho. she was the only other black girl in the class that would talk to me and didn’t think i was weird. it was because her ass was weird too lol. i didn’t act like the rest of the black girls and they really only spoke to me to make fun of me. which i knew, but i’ve never been one to entertain shit unless “you got beat my ass about it”. 

in 8th grade janae and i met this group of girls. morgan, dejahnna, atlantis, and jarvayssia. some shit shifted that year and morgan and dejahanna became my best friends. they were the first friends i ever hang out with outside of school. it made me feel so good to be invited to shit and to feel included. to feel like a normal ass 13 yr old felt amazing. 

so in high school there were two schools all the magnet school kids would usually apply to. stanton and paxon. with the exception of keely, bart, and a few other people i didn't mention here. every single person i was close with in middle school, went to paxon. what's crazy is most of my friends were going for stanton because in jax it’s the “better” school as far as ranking goes. i don't even remember why but when i toured paxon, i liked it more than stanton and i wanted to go there. it’s still funny to me that my ass didn’t want to go to stanton but was one of the only ones in my close friend group to get in. 

so yea at stanton is struggled. a lot. personally but also in the friend department. to put it plainly i had none. people didn't really talk to me or acknowledge me really. at first i didn’t mind it. but then having a fucked up home situation and having no friends just made me feel real shitty. there was that thing again, with people talking to me only to make fun of me. some of those same people would turn around senior year and try to be my friend senior year which was hilarious to me at the time. it was like they forgot how they treated my extra depressed ass back then. i met this girl chelsey in 10th grade and she was hella sweet. she basically forced me on her friends and they became my friends.

okay so anyway, in 11th grade i met a girl named ahmani. she was in my chorus class. i remember our first encounter, it was towards the beginning of the school year. stanton was playing paxon and it was the game everyone went to ya know. i wanted to go but my mom couldn't take me. so everyone is talking about it and someone asked if i was coming. i said no and why, ahmani ended up asking me what side of town i lived on. we realized we dead lived like 7 minutes away from each other. she offered to pick me up and bring me to the game w her. i was amazed that she was willing to, i know that dont sound like a big deal but to me it was. people weren’t nice to me bro. like ever. so for her to do that it meant a lot. she ended up being my ride every mf where. she is dead the reason i hung out w people outside of school w my friends. she took me everywhere with her. sometimes we would just sit in the car and talk or listen to music. we had a group of friends, it was 5 of us. but i was the closest with her. 

i admired her. i thought she was so strong and resilient. she's hella awkward but she owns it. she's low-key/highkey anxious sometimes but she works through it. no one i’ve ever met works harder to achieve shit than she is. she sings so beautifully. she is beautiful. she's a caretaker of basically anyone she knows. she is a light, she was my light for so long when i needed it. we’re pretty different but also a lot alike. we just worked. i always told her where i fall short she picks up my slack and vice versa. we might be a bit of a mess separately but our heads working together is unstoppable. we’re kinda a mess together too honestly but it’s us.

in college we didn't spend as much time together. we both stayed home for two years and went to a community college. we would hang out like weekly i think. i’m pretty sure we saw each other once a week at the very least. but then she went to orlando for university and i went to UNF which in jax. we didn’t talk all that much and i understood. i wasn't necessarily too busy, but thats because i just never am that fucking busy lmfao. idk the way i go through life is weird. i only make time for the shit and people i want to make time for. i refuse to do anything i dont want to. and that isn’t necessarily my best trait but I'm working on it. but yea i guess she was busier than i? idk when i don’t speak to people for a while i dont make a big deal. i tell myself it isn’t on purpose and i move on. i often tell myself not to apply more importance to my life than what is necessary. especially when others are involved. again, not my best trait but i’m working on it. 

so yea though our communication got limited i still considered her my best friend. when she would come to the city, if she had time we hung out. i always have time lmfao, always. again i know other people’s lives are more full than mine. well i assume so. anyway. we spoke on the phone. we were there when the other needed i think. i try hard not to need people. like not to call them or burden them with my issues. i try real hard. but when she needed me i was there. not to say i’ve ever needed her and she wasn’t there. because that isn’t the case at all. 

recently we planned to move to chicago together. a whole chain of events happened and now we aren’t. i’m still moving and i’m pretty sure she is too. just not together. the way it happened is really fucking with me. i don’t wanna get into it bc of privacy and shit. but i will say that i am hurt. im really hurt and im confused and im beating myself up over some shit that everyone keeps telling me isn't my fault. feels like my fault though. that feels like the only explanation. i dont know.

i’ve been thiniking a lot. about friends and how i never really had any. i just spoke to people so i wasn't alone or sometimes i just spoke to no one and made myself be okay with it. and now i have this group of friends and we’re like family. everyone that is my friend currently is my family. all of my friends i have currently i made over the internet. and i was bothered by that im not even gonna lie. it felt good to still have ahmani bc i would see her more than i see my other friends. i still have some i didn't meet yet. idk i just.. im the only person in my like personal life with internet friends. like in my family. and i felt like i just fed the fact that my family thinks im not even the least bit “normal”. then i started to feel bad. because it felt like that meant i was ashamed of my friends.and i’m not. i love them. i dont wanna lose any of them any time soon. and i’m realizing i dont need anyone’s approval to make those friendships “real” or valid. because they are real and valid to me. 

but yea i dont think ahmani and i will be friends anymore. or if we do end up being friends again, we probably won't speak for a while. i don’t know what that means. but losing a friend sucks a whole lot and i wouldn’t wish it on anyone. 

[zoldyckangel]

Can we see a list of requests in ur inbox rn if that’s ok? I’m super interested

Yeah sure! Note that some of the requests on the list take longer than the others but they’re being worked on. The list is also out of order. There also might be some duplicates for requests because different people want the same things.  I will put a keep reading line because of the sheer number of requests in my inbox. (Which is over 100 btw 😅) 

1: Can I request an NSFW scenario with Illumi trying to impregnate his S/O?

2: Since you told me you were looking forward to the extra kinky scenario with fei the bae, here it is: make it as kinky as you can fam. (If u don’t feel like it rn just like do it later or smth I don’t mind)

3: What would Illumi do if he had a younger sister , almost his age and he treated/favored like killua, that ran away from home at a young age and tried to go into hiding

4: Hey ! Can I get a uvogin Nsfw scenario . Helping his fem s/o to relieve stress . Doggie, oral , and riding would be great

5: Can you do an illumi NSFW scenario where his s/o is all like, “I don’t love you anymore.” And he gets all possessive?

6: Phinks nsfw scenario with a virgin s/o pleaseeeeee?

7: chrollo trying to get sex but his s/o denies just to piss him off

8: “Shh, stop fussing I’m just braiding your hair” for hisoka, please??

9: “If you steal the blanket, I’ll put my cold feet to you” for Fei��

10: “You’re my new pillow” for hisoka please??

11: “How about a kiss” for Chrollo!

12: You are my new pillow, with Illumi

13: Will you let me rub your back?” + “Ssh. Stop fussing. I’m just braiding your hair.+“I might have slept with your robe when you were gone.” for Chrollo please?

14: Hc of the main four having a tiny s/o (like 5"1 or something) and how they would act around them? Killua and Gon are aged up of course!

15: “You are my new pillow” with Hisoka? ;D Thanks, you’re awesome!!

16: Omg can you do a scenario with feitan refuses to kiss his s/o on New Years so she gets back at him?

17: Can you do “your comfy” and “youre my new pillow” with illumi

18: If you’re still doing requests, please write a scenario for “How about a kiss?” with Kite please! (If the ask box is closed, then just delete this! sorry~)

19: If you’re taking requests, could you do Hisoka with “But I want to hear you sing.”? (Finding this blog made my day-)

20: SCENARIO NSFW KITE

21: I.COULDNT.HELP.IT. “Will you let me rub your back?” AND “Care to give me a back scratch?” WITH KURAPIKA. PLEASE. ILYSM

22: Would you please write 3 short scenario s between my oc and Feitan, Chrollo, and Uvogin? The genre doesn’t really matter. My oc is named Sabine. She is 4'10 and chubby. She’s an pansexual otaku who loves food, cats, and is basically juat a huge dork. Most of the time she’s pretty calm and always happy, but she acts like a child when excited. She has silent anger and can hold a grudge. Generally just a happy person. Thank you!~

23: What would happen if hisoka met a girl who was more powerful than him but refused to fight him? (Done) 

24: Okay, so I saw the ask about Gon and Killua having a weak S/O…what would happen if this S/O suddenly disappeared, without Killua or Gon noticing, and like one day later they discover they were murdered brutally by a killer? How would they feel? How focused would they be on revenge? Also, would they ever regret being with someone so weak, since it ultimately caused them pain?

25: Yooo I’m glad you’re back fam!! I’m sure ur pretty busy with all the requests but if you have time— I just recently read one of ur older nsfw feitan scenarios where you said it was kinky but it could definitely be kinkier, well you know what I’m gonna ask of you my dude. Pls write the kinkiest scenario ever for Fei the bae and I will love you till the day I die

26:  I’m thirsty for a NSFW Hisoka one shot where his crush is brushing off his advances but that just makes him try harder. 😏

27: I know you’ve done something similar but can I get a scenario for Hisoka relentlessly trying to get down with his crush but they’re onto him and brushing off his advances. You can either end it NSFW or have the crush unfazed by his seduction. I’m thirsty for more trash clown.

28:  Could you do a NSFW Shalnark scenario please?

29: Adult trio with shy s/o headcanon? ☺️

30: Kite oral scenarios with s/o plssss ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

31: Could i request headcanons for kurapika having a s/o who is sarcastic af but also a pretty sharp fella with deduction skills of sherlock? And for killua a s/o who loves books and readings and is even a writer themself who has a habit of putting people they know in real life in theur stories? :3 thank you!~

32: I just would like to say, I absolutely love your writing and I was wondering if requests were open. If so, could I request an Adult Gon NSFW scenario? Pretty please with a cherry on top and thank you!

33: may i request a scenario of killua having a crush on fem!reader whos a bit older than he is and hes having a hard time acknowledging his feelings so Gon gives him advice?

34: Turn ons and turn offs for Morel, Pariston, Kite, Knuckle, and Razor!

35: oh my god i loved your response to my request last time so i’ll just ask ONE LAST TIME i promise: can you do HCs for Kura and a fem s/o living as Kurtans? Like if the clan was never massacred and he grew up properly within the clan and got married and had kids and stuff. again, any NSFW is appreciated :3

36: Adult trio and main four kissing headcanons? Thank you!

37: Jealous Hisoka scenario?

38: HC on some things the adult trio finds cute in a person?

39: Hey! I love your work sm, thank you for being active again, it makes my school time less worse tbh My request is how Chrollo would react if he found out, that his s/o used to have something romantically with Kurapika before with him. (NSFW included) :,)

40: HC on how a crush accidentally turns on the adult trio?

41: How would the adultrio and the main four (or just the adultrio if it’s too much ^^) deal with their drunk s/o?

42: Favorite/least favorite music genres for the phantom crew and the adult trio?

43: Can I get headcannons for phinks with a thicc S/O (NSFW is appreciated too) ps LOVE YOUR BLOG ❤️❤️❤️

44: Adult trio with shy s/o HC. ☺️

45: I see you don’t write much about Razor, so how about a HC on Razors turn ons and turn offs?

46: Pariston scenario where he fails at wooing his crush because she realizes what kind of person he is but he isn’t letting up.

47: May I request fluffy head cannons for Older Killua with a soft-spoken, shy fem s/o? Your head cannons are so wonderful and I thank you for taking the time to write them!

48: 💢🔪💍🍼 for Chrollo please?

49: Hey! I really love your blog and i was wondering if i could make a headcanon request?? .////. I was wondering if you guys could write a scenario/headcanon (whichever you feel like ^^ i cant decide ^^;) kurapika having a s/o who’s really sassy and witty(loves self depricating jokes and lame puns XD) but overall a sharp minded person? Thank you!♡

50: tbh i just want like a rough NSFW scenario w Kura. pls and thx k bye

51: Could you pwease write some sfw/nsfw relationship headcanons for razor? (Gender neutral pronouns if thats not too much trouble)

52: I’d the adult trio had a big crush on someone, how far would they go to get them? Like, would they stalk them or constantly flirt with them or break into their apartment or buy them loads of gifts…? Let’s assume their crush is strong just cause I see them trying harder if they’re powerful.

53:  🍼💍💋💘 for Feitan please?

54: Are requests open? If so, I would like to request some headcanons for Colt but I can’t do those emoji thingies…… Great blog by the way!

55: HC on when the main four and adult trio realize they’ve fallen in love 😍 (or caught the feels for someone)

56: Heeelloooo there✨✨✨ I’d like to ask 😈, 💘,💋 and 🍆 for Gon and Killua ohohohohoho ✨💞 Kisses!!!!

57: How does the trouble trio + Chrollo feel if they found out that their female s/o lives together with their best male friend? Due to circumstances and stuff? Not because they cheated on him.

58:  Can I get a headcanon how the adult trio and main four would react if they were separated from their crush for a while? Would they mope, stalk them, distract themselves…?

59: Hello Admin Shy! I was wondering if you could do yandere/possessive HC for the adult trio? Thank you!!

60: Main four with s/o that has trust issues, because she/he has had so many fake friends who have only used her/him to get expensive gifts and good grades. And very bad self esteem, because she/he thinks that she/he isn’t good enough to be their real friend. If you don’t want to write this, you don’t have to. Actually this has happened to me a lot :,).

61: Can I request the reactions of the adult trio to a nuzzling crush? Idk if they’d like it or not.

62: Hello there! Is the ask box open? If so, can I request a fluff scenario for Kalluto and an innocent and cheerful oc who is also a spider??

63: Sfw/Nsfw headcanons for illumi with a yandere s/o??? *wink wink, nudge nudge*

64: I saw you did jealous chrollo HC so can you do some for Illumi and Hisoka to round out the adult trio?

65: Can you do first kiss/kissing headcanons for Morel, Kite, Razor, Pariston, and Knuckle please? Thanks Admin 👩🏻‍💼

66: Heya! Glad to see you posting again. Could the nice people of tumblr request some spicy Chrollo New Year’s headcanons, sfw and nsfw?

67: Hello Admin! Ok so Pariston is a total enigma for me and I wanted your opinion on what this dude looks for in both a worthy opponent and a crush. Like, he obviously admires Ging and respects him the most from anyone I’ve seen but he also loathes him for being a worthy opponent. As for who he is attracted to, could any personality be good for him and any power level as long as they interested him in some fashion? Sorry this is long! 😅

68: Headcanon for kurapika and a sassy af s/o? :3

69: Hey can you do Hisoka headcannons with a s/o that is super fragile and shy in the begining but once she opens up she’s super fun pervy and op she is so strong she can actually beat him and Chrollo~ ty!

70: Jealousy headcanons for Leorio, Hisoka, Pariston, Knuckle, and Gon please! I feel like they’d give a variety of reactions. :)

71: I know it’s still early but do you think you could do same pariston Valentine’s day headcanons (sfw and nsfw)?? And yes I’m the same anon who asked for the new years too lol, I just really like him for some strange reason Thanks I’m advance!

72: How do you think what kind of person would Killua like? Thank you ^^

73: Some Adult trio first time HCs. Like when it happened (age) how it happened who (female or male) what happened

74: Your two hisoka one shots were absolutely AMAZING!!! AaaAAaaahhhhh youre such a good writter!!!!!!! (＞ｙ＜) Could I please request a third one shot? Its ok if you dont feel like writting it, the other two were fantastic, so I bet they took some time. But, for me and others who enjoyed them, could you? ヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ

75: Hello! I apologize if you are busy but may I have Kurapika Valentines Day SFW/NSFW headcanons with his s/o? Thank you and I apologize that it’s two days after Valentines Day.

76: Hey! Can you do a scenario with kikyo and silva fluff !

77: A HXH scenario! Some NSFW scenario with older Killua and his gf ( collar/ pet kink)? Love your work!

78: “this position is.. making me turned on…” said Kurapika softly, completely flustered with his fem s/o sitting on his lap.

79: Kurapika in a normal high school Romance HC n scenario?????

80: Can you write another BDSM scenario with Feitan? Thank you so much :)))

81: Can you please write another Vampire!Feitan scenario? Thank you ;))

82: Ok I got an angsty HC ask: how would the adult trio react to seeing their crush get physically or verbally abused?

83: Can we get general fluffy sfw hcs and nsfw hcs for Chrollo? Tysm! ❤️

84: Can I… Can I have some yandere Chrollo headcannons please :o Your blog is one of my top favorites by the way

85: How would Chrollo act if he knew that Kurapika was in love with his s/o?

86: How would Phinks go about recruiting (my means of seduction) a potential troupe affiliate. Like a spy or an informant or something. (I know it’s specific but I need some inspiration for a fic I have planned.)

87: Type of dates chrollo would take his s/o on? (S/o is a strong nen user and is aware that he is a part of the phantom troupe)

88: Please yandere chrollo scenario

89: Hi! I really like your page and I was just wondering if requests are currently open? It’s not exactly clear, but if they are open; could you please do a fluffy scenario with fem reader x hisoka where they join him in a grassy clearing & he just randomly starts doing handstands & pushups while they’re lying down beneath him & he kisses them each time he goes down; getting more heated each time until they are both playfully rolling around kissing one another? Thnx 4 reading either way! ^^

90: Hey! Love this page! I was wondering how do you think Feitan, Hisoka, Phinks and Shalnark would react to a gentle, surprise kiss from their s/o? Please and thank you!

91: Hey! Could you plz do a fluffy scenario of hisoka, illumi sharing moments with their s/o’s where they make each other giggle and laugh; just something really cute and sweet for each of them but that still suits their personalities? Thank you so much!

92: Spider boi needs more love. How about a scenario for Chrollo meeting his s/o during a PT mission?

93: Hello may I get headcannons of the adult trio with a fem s/o who looks like a bad ass bitch with tattoo and colorful hair but is very calm and sweet when not working. Something like she gives them a safe mental space where they can let their gaurd down when it’s just the two of them please? Sorry if this is too specific ( ^_^U)

94: Ohh how about the crush walking in on the guys halfnaked? 😄 Gif reactions for the adult trio and main four

95: Can you do a nsfw scenary with Adult Killua and fem s/o please?

96: Aaaaahhh the flirting hc were so good thank you so much admin!!! I’d like to request another HC if you don’t mind! What are some turn ons for the adult trio and how do they react when they’re horny? 😜

97: Mun, can you please do a headcanons for the adult trio on things they find cute in their crush? Like their laugh, if they are naive about something, if they pout, play with hair, talk cutesy to animals, etc. I like fluff. ☁️ Thanks a million!

98: Personal thoughts: how would Hisoka react to genuine affection? He’s a creep and no one puts up with his behavior but what if someone has the patience of a saint and was able to actually enjoy his company and care about his well being? What do u think, I’d love to know

99: Is it time for that Yandere chrollo from a few asks back?? 😉😉 if it is, general yandere hcs please! (You can do a continuation of that ask if u want ?)

100: Uvogin NSFW with female reader or s/o

101: Adult trio with shy s/o HC please?

102: Ok so I’m a lover of people who are gluttons for punishment. Naturally, I’d like to request a HC of Hisoka having a crush on one of the most powerful hunters he has ever met but they refuse to fight him. He tries to annoy them but they have the patience of a saint. He tries to flirt with them but they laugh off his advances or tease him before walking off. He begs them for a battle but they are a pacifist when it concerns fighting Hisoka. 😂

103: Hello! May I ask a scenario where Chrollo’s s/o wearing a sexy lingerie and she’s waiting for him? Thank you very much! ^^

104: Can you please do first kiss HC for Hisoka, Knuckle, and Pariston please? Would it be spur of the moment and sexy or planned out and sweet?

105: Scenarios of the adult rio and feitan. When they cheat on there s/o

106: Kurapika’s S/O got pregnant and is reluctant to tell him (he is a busy man) but he found out anyway albeit not from her. How would he feel not knowing it from her? Also, thank you for all these wonderful headcanons ^-^!

107: A bit of angst here: how would Hisoka, Knuckle, and Pariston react to seeing their crush get physically or verbally abused?

108: These are my three favs so I gotta keep asking for them! Can you please do HC on how Hisoka, Knuckle, and Pariston would ask their crush out on a date? Thank you Admin!

109: Who do you HC to actually care about having a virgin as a partner when they first have sex? Which characters would be understanding, feel turned on, honored, don’t care, find it off putting, etc.

110: Headcanons for Chrollo and his s/o who, as he finds out, is one of his favourite authors?

111: Headcanons (possible romance?) for Hisoka meeting someone who used to take care of him as a kid?

112: A scenario for Hisoka being stuck in bed, ill, and his s/o taking care of him? Your pick for SFW/NSFW. (apologies if this gets double posted!)

113: Oh gosh I hope I made it in time. Can I request something with a protective kurapika? Anything is fine. I want this dude to be loved :’)

114: Can I pleeeeease have some headcanons for Chrollo if he had an s/o who had a huge erogenous zone on their ear (they like it when it gets nibbled and such) but they’re super shy about it? Tankee

115: Love your blog! If yiu still do requests quests then I suppose this one should be interesting: one with our lill smol Feitan having a younger teenage sister who’s taller than him (but weaker lol), how would their life be like?

116: Can I have some general sfw and nsfw relationship headcanons for Machi and for Pakunoda?

[thefandomships-imagines]

Ship

hi. ❤️ could i get a avengers, x men and suicide squad ship? 5'9, inverted triangle body shape, brown hair with bangs, heterochromia ( blue eyes, left one’s mixed with hazel ), baby face, dimples. slytherin. isfj. bi-curious. at first, i’m shy, quiet and reserved. usually playful, dirty minded and fun around friends. a perfectionist, control freak, slight clean freak. stubborn, jealous, emotional, punctual, impulsive, selfish, socially awkward. if i’m annoyed or impatient, i can say something mean or witty which later on i may regret. i put on a mask of confidence, but i’m really not due to my body insecurities and the small gap between my front teeth. when i’m hurt, i turn petty and may complain. when i’m nervous, i talk a lot. hate crying in front of people. don’t like to be forced into stuff or being compared to somebody. i don’t like to ask people for help. i can’t fall asleep without music. dislike romance. i stress over little things, like - make a big deal out of nothing. nervous whenever i do something out of my comfort zone. hopefully, one day i’ll find my true calling, but right now i’m thinking about becoming an actress. motherly towards kids. fashion is my passion, as well as reading and role playing on tumblr. after finishing high school, i want to travel the world. overprotective over my mom and lil’ sis, knowing my mom is a single parent. daddy issues. bad at cooking. spontaneous road trips with loud music on is life. prefers tea over coffee. dress to impress. thank you so much!

Note: Gifs or characters are not mine! I just get them off of tumblr or google, if you see one that’s yours and isnt credited, please contact me and i’ll fix that :)

Hello lovely! 

Avengers:

I ship you with Bruce Banner!

You strike me as a person that spends a lot of time in their ‘shell’, and isn’t very comfortably with others very quickly due to your reserved nature and said ‘ mask’ you tend to wear in front of people you don’t know very well.  It takes some time in order to get comfortable with others and that’s okay, and if there’s someone that understands that it’s Bruce, the only one who could see trough the confident banter next to Wanda Maximoff. It’s one of the things that made him interested in you from the moment he met you.  He is not the most extraverted person himself, not really going with playful conversation like the rest of the group tries to do.  It wasn’t until you two had both stayed behin while the rest went out into town that you realised that you had more in common than you thought. You got into conversation and somehow he immediately felt comfortable around you and started opening up to you bit by bit. This encouraged you to, unawarely, do the same. He kind of dragged you out of your shell and you started hanging out together more and more, which your friend Wanda did not take long to notice.  How you got together: Stupidly, Bruce had confided in his friend Tony about talking to you and about how comfortable you made him feel. Big mistake. Because if Tony smells drama, a way to draw his friend out of his comfort zone or both, he loooves to exploit it. One of the things bruce told him was that he did not understand how insecure you felt sometimes. When Tony asked why, the answer was that he found you absolutely breathtaking. You were beautiful, unique and you made him feel accepted and made him laugh. You’re honest, protective and smart. In short : he sounded like a lovesick puppy.  And since Tony knew Wanda was your friend, he went to her. Turned out she shipped it too and together, the unusual duo concocted a plan…… Bruce would NEVER hurt you, or make you feel small in a bad way. He respects you immensly and understands about 9/10 of the time. You’re the only one allowed completely into his mind, and hopes you trust him excactly the same. You’re also the only one allowed to tease him. Ever. 

X-men:

I ship you with Havoc!

Alex seems like a real asshole at first, and he probably was when he was younger. Tough from the moment that Charles and Erik went to fetch him out of jail, he changed completely. When you joined the group, it took time to get used to him . A LOT of time. Actually, he used to think of you as a little rude, and had trouble reading you so he didn’t usually make contact with you. This was the biggest problem in the beginning, not being able to get a read off each other causes a lot of fights and snarky comments, making the rest of the group unhappy with you seeming like enemies more than comrades. He began to feel more like understanding what you were about after spotting you in your free time. The way you were with your little sister, the bond you had reminded him of his own little brother. He saw how protective you were over her, for example when you got in trouble with a couple of jerks and you got them to fuck off. It made him want to be a better person for his own family.

When you got back, he acted completely differently than how he had seen you with your family. Your wall was back up and that was something he did understand. After all, he was the one that tore everything apart, landed in jail, all because he acted differenly, to not be vulnerable. He kept notincing more layers of yours after that. The way you spoke so indifferently and playfully to Raven and Banshee, wheres you were much more considerate of ‘Bozo’ aka Hank. The way ‘the claws’ came out when you were pissed, and the way you sat by yourself, buried in a book pretending to read while half-sulking later.  He started admiring you, though you never picked up on that and just kept doing so until Hank, while annoyed wih Alex,  uncharacteristically told him ‘to stop being a little bitch and do something other than swooning from afar, if he’s so tough’. So thats what he did. At first you really didnt understand why the hell he was interested in you and you actually thought it was a joke. Luckily that didn’t last very long. Alex is now the most attentive and protective guy you could wish for, though you’d never even thought of him being an option. 

Suicide Squad:

I ship you with Rick Flag! 

Rick, after all that happened was broken, lightly said. He didn’t know what to do with himself after the battle. Sure, he’d go home, shower, eat and sleep, but his visions of the world and of right and wrong were twisted up. Almost as if he’d lost his purpose. Good guys had turned out to be bad and a firebreathing-god gangster had sacrificed himself to save the rest, his family he had called it. So he just pretended to have moved on. The baddies went back to jail and he went back to work.

Rick and you hadn’t been on good or bad terms. You just accepted the fact that you co-existed. Sometimes you dares joke with each other. You see, Rick automatically hated criminals and didn’t hate figures associated with the law in a good way. The thing is, you were neither.  Well, you didn’t have a record, though your reputation was…..interesting. Which is why you got in the team, you were granted full immunity for the future. To be honest you would have done it for free, since you kinda do live on this planet and rather not have it detroyed. You weren’t as overpowered as your late friend El Diablo or as crazy as Harley, but damnit if you weren’t a badass.  Knives were your thing, and at your thing, you were the best. Granted, being about 5 times as agile and 3 times as fast as the average human also helped. And all while looking slayin’. Yeah, let’s pass the spandex. So, after the battle you simply returned to your old life as well, occasionally standing by on a A.R.G.U.S. mission, which is, after a couple of months, where you saw Rick again.  When you saw him, you almost flinched. He seemed so lost. Dark bags under his eyes, abviously thinner, paler than ever and he barely opened his mouth. Mr. gruffypants certainly didn’t deserve this.  When Rick saw you after a couple of months, his reaction was more the opposite of yours. He was slowly recovering from all his emotional damage, and now, he felt guilty. Very guilty as he looked at you. He was moving on but he felt wrong looking at another person, and finding that he enjoyed watching the way their outfit hugged their curves. He did not speak to you that night. 

Fastforward three weeks. A group of agents  were chasing an installment of the Triads. Yay, which meant you were called out of your comfy bed again since annoying you was easier that getting Boomerang, who would try to escape….. In the meanwhile, the guilt had been another factor combined in crushing Rick’s mental condition. The chase was going nowehere, well, apart from four killed and two wounded at your side, It was safe to say it was a shitty night.  When your team lost track of said Triads at 3 o’clock in the moring shit hit the fan. You had to call it in to Walker, who was not amused. Ambulances and coroners where called in an you were making sure everyone that needed it got help. You were not that much of a villain. All were accounted for, except your brusque Captain. Damnit.  When you finally did find him, you did not know excacty what to do. He was huddled against the wall of an abandoned building, your silly little superiour.  Slowly, you approached him, sliding against the wall next to him.  You didn’t say anything. Neither did he. 

You awoke to a car honking. Great, you thought. Six in the moring, in an abandoned builing, half asleep with Flags’ head on my lap…. FLAGS’ HEAD ON MY LAP. Shit. He did look cute, relaxed.  After about an hour he started to stir.  ‘I haven’t slept this long since months.’ he smiled.  ‘Great.’ you deadpanned. ‘I’m oficially functional as a plushie.’ 

You might be an odd couple, and you might not have been a ‘good guy’, but you were Captain Rick Flag’s salvation. And now, whichever idiot tries to mess with you  hasn’t just got a knife-wielding superhuman after them, but also a very pissed of Rick Flag.  The rest of the squad loved to tease you guys about it all. And that’s all fun and games until there’s another knife stuck in the wall at A.R.G.U.S. headquarters, which, lightly said, makes Walker, not amused.

Hope ya liked them all :3

WELL THAT WAS ONE HELL OF A RIDE. 1560 WORDS HELP.  Extra elaborate because IM OFICCIALLY BACK *cheers*. Let’s just hope i wont have any forced hiatusus anytime soon again (@.@) Also, thanks for sending me a message and being so sweet! 

I might be a lil rusty so if you find any silly errors made by me please send in something so le me can fix it :D

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do y’all hate me or something smh

1. selfie? i just got back from the gym no2. what would you name your future kids? i rly like gender neutral names so those lmao3. do you miss anyone? yeah4. what are you looking forward to? going to paris i’m so excited ahhhhhh5. is there anyone who can always make you smile? my sister6. is it hard for you to get over someone? depends on how invested i was7. what was your life like last year? y i k e s8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed? all the time it’s so bad i cry rly easily when i’m annoyed/angry9. who did you last see in person? my family10. are you good at hiding your feelings? depends, if i feel like i have a chance then i don’t bother but if not then i’m good11. are you listening to music right now? yeah, a song called Hummingbird by Miss E12. what is something you want right now? my hair to be magically cleaned so i don’t have to deal with washing it13. how do you feel right now? tired nd hungry14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you? idk a couple weeks ago when my brother got back from camp and i let him hug me15. personality description? grumpy and sleepy but good for a laugh and v gay16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t? all the time17. opinion on insecurities. we all got ‘em18. do you miss how things were a year ago? no19. have you ever been to New York? no but i rly wanna go20. what is your favourite song at the moment? bohemian rhapsody tbh21. age and birthday? 18, 20th July 199922. description of crush. i don’t think i reeeally have one atm but i saw the girl i had a crush on last year the other day and goddamn. she’s so pretty. she has long dirty blonde hair, she’s rly skinny, has amazing fashion sense, shorter than me, a big nose but its rly cute lol, and gold/brown eyes. but she’s not my usual type so?? anyway girls r cute23. fear(s)? electric shocks, being stranded in space or in the desert (and yes being stuck in space is a legitimate fear i have and think about often)24. height? 1.68m or 5′5525. role model? Rowan Blanchard tbh which is a bit embarassing bc she’s younger than me, Hannah Shaw26. idol(s)? Emma Watson, Rowan Blanchard, Miles McKenna, The Kitten Lady aka Hannah Shaw27. things i hate? jokes abt disabled people, talking abt people behind their backs, nazis, anti feminists28. i’ll love you if… you love me back and i can trust you, if you make me laugh and make me happy, if you accept me for who i am and don’t make me feel bad, if you praise me a lot29. favourite film(s)? Rock Of Ages, First Girl I Loved, Jurassic World, Star Wars IV, V, VI, Heathers, the Carmilla Movie when it comes out October 26th30. favourite tv show(s)? Stranger Things, Wynonna Earp, Carmilla, BoJack Horseman, New Girl, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, Orphan Black, That 70′s Show31. 3 random facts? i collect stickers for my bullet journal, i got a pack of 40 shot glasses for my birthday and i’ve used one to hold sweets, i have a maths exam this week and i’m freaking out32. are your friends mainly girls or guys? girls33. something you want to learn? norwegian34. most embarrassing moment? y i k e s35. favourite subject? english or art36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill? successfully get my Abitur, become a special education teacher, live abroad for a year37. favourite actor/actress? Natasha Negovanlis38. favourite comedian(s)? Bo Burnham, Russel Howard39. favourite sport(s)? football (real football), netball40. favourite memory? i don’t really have one41. relationship status? single42. favourite book(s)? Harry Potter, All The Bright Places, The Raven Cycle, Battle Royale, The Martian43. favourite song ever? don’t have one44. age you get mistaken for? don’t really get mistaken for an age, maybe 1745. how you found out about your idol? Emma Watson through Harry Potter obvs, Rowan Blanchard through tumblr actually46. what my last text message says? ‘i don’t think i’ll worry about it too much when i’m there tbh’47. turn ons? good style, sharing my political views, praising me48. turn offs? discrimination of any kind, saying that trump/nazis/etc aren’t that bad, making fun of people49. where i want to be right now? in bed or in the shower50. favourite picture of your idol? this one of emma bc holy sHIT???? and for Rowan i don’t have but but i just really admire her as a person

51. starsign? cancer52. something i’m talented at? reading fast53. 5 things that make me happy? music, reading, sleeping, gettin new stationary, friends54. something thats worrying me at the moment? going to paris55. tumblr friends? @bevvie-darling is my best friend but i actually have quite a lot of tumblr friends!56. favourite food(s)? mash, fries, all potato based foods tbh57. favourite animal(s)? cats, otters58. description of my best friend? @bevvie-darling an angel!!!!!59. why i joined tumblr? i’d been seeing the best of tumblr posts for ages and loved them and then one day i was like wait… what if i get tumblr so i did60. ask me anything you want ???

[hirameki-amour]

🌈 My coming out story 🌈

Yeah, I’m gay. A gay cis male. Okay all done. That’s my story. That’s it. Goodbye.

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No but seriously I can explain my actual coming out story. Time to time travel~!

Okay so, when I was like.. how old is a 3rd grader? Fuck it. Anyways, I’ve always liked guys a little more than girls. When I was younger than a 1st grader, I never really like “liked” someone until I hit like 3rd grade. Back then, I was being bullied in 1st grade till 9th grade just because I loved feminine things like bratz, barbie, pink things, unicorns, and hung out with girls more. Most of the kids who bullied me were guys. At the time, I had like crushes on some of them but I was too scared to admit it to myself. Shit, I even had crushes on the guys I didn’t even talk to. I even drew very explicit things. Yeah, it’s a long story. I’ll tell that story another time. ANYWAYS, I kind of always liked guys since then but it was always very quiet and only I knew about it. I was also always oblivious if a girl liked me because y’know, I never saw them that way. I kind of never felt that attraction to girls till this one time in 2nd grade, this very pretty girl was around and I was like WOAH SHE’S SO PRETTY OMG I WANNA BE HER FRIEND. Looking back, I could tell it wasn’t a romantic feeling but a feeling of adoring her. She was so pretty like omfg. Too bad she was a hoe LMAO. Yeah, idk why I thought it was a romantic feeling. I guess it’s similar when straight people have like “crushes” on the same gender aka boy crush/girl crush. This quiet attraction to guys went on for a long ass time. Hell, I even had a giant crush on my neighbor’s older brother. Like, he was hella fucking cute but the only way I felt I could talk to him was if I was a girl. Yeah, I was catfishing at a young age. That’s another story I can tell another time. Okay now for the interesting tea..

Fast forward through all the depressing shit, I got into a new school in 10th grade to get a fresh start. I started crushing on more cute guys and ughh I swear some of them are still fucking cute now. Skimming through 10th grade because friends betraying me, I met a new group a friends in 11th grade who helped me out through the time I was feeling alone. Yes, they were all girls. That’s all who I ever hang out with because if I hung out with guys, I’d eventually get crushes on them. I have no type LMAO. Anyways, these friends of mine helped me come out. Especially my best friend. We were all crushing on guys in our little corners. We all giggled like little girls crushing baby daddies too old for them. That’s when I realized that I definitely wasn’t straight. In the past, I thought I had romantic feelings for the pretty girls in school but it was actually admiration for their beauty. I didn’t want to marry or fuck them. Hell, I didn’t even want to kiss them. Still, I was like still scared to admit it myself so I said I was bisexual. They all supported me but deep inside, I knew I wasn’t being real. Then there was that era in Senior year where I lied a lot because I was feeling lonely and wanted attention. Yeah I was a fucking attention whore and that led to me losing all of my friends. I basically died near the end of graduation. I was done with everyone, I was quiet, I was dealing with all of my friendly neighbor demons, and I was still confused about my sexuality. Only class that kept me sane was choir. I just enjoyed singing songs and singing in general. Hell, I don’t even know how I made it out of elementary and middle school without becoming insane. Eh, I am kind of insane, but the good kind. 

Later on that summer, I fell into a deep depression and shit but met a few Internet friends that helped me out of depression as I helped them out of theirs. They helped me fully come out of the closet and when I came out, I was so fucking happy. I saw rainbows and hot guys everywhere. I came out to the family relatives that I was closest to and eventually my mom. My mom didn’t like it but it’s oh well. I can’t let me dad know or else I’ll get kicked out so I’m just gonna wait till I get enough money to bounce, then I’ll tell him. I bet he already knows though but just doesn't want to admit it. Everyone else I told supported me since half of them were lgbt anyways. A year or two later, my best friend came back to me asking for forgiveness and acknowledged it was her fault but I told her it was my fault. At first I was skeptical but after a few months passed, we reconciled. Now we’re stronger than before and she felt honored that she helped me come out the closet, even if it was halfway at the time. 

That’s my story and a bit of my history. I did date a guy the first few months I finally came out as gay last summer but he was an ass, alcoholic, and he played my feelings. I have moved on though. I still can’t believe next month will be fully one year since I came out. I have felt a lot more confident since I came out. I may have lost a bunch of friends since then but the friend I have now is all I really need. Plus, they didn't leave me because I came out so thats good. Squads are overrated anyways. 

“Fuck out my way when you see me, I’m rolling with the LGBT!” - Cupcakke

[coolkidpuzzlemaker]

I Wish...

Okie dokie...I just saw Infinity War and have been struck with inspiration. Of all things to be my first post, i did not think it would be a Marvel fanfic, but thats what it is... i hope whoever reads this likes this.

Summary: The final events of Avengers: Infinity War as experienced by a background character from Peter Parker's class.

WARNING!!!!!! MAJOR SPOILERS!!!!!!

Peter Parker. A name to match this awkward boys demeanor. He had caught my eye when I went to that party at Flash Thompson's place sophomore year. I felt bad for the guy when Flash started being his usual dick self, starting the “Penis Parker” chant on the mic. My friend, Maddy was drunk and went along with the crowd. The situation made me uncomfortable, so I walked out.

That's what you need to know about me. I don't stand out. I fade into the background characters, going about a life that no one cares enough to wonder about. And that is on purpose. So, I'm not that girl full of gusto who speaks up about every wrong thing I see going down. I fall back, walk away. Sometimes, I'll snitch to some low level authority figure to make my conscience shut up. Life is hell already, why bother making it worse for the rest of it, just so someone else can have a few minutes that are better.

But, Peter Parker isn't like me. That's what I've noticed since that night. I walked away, but Peter faced his bullies. There was no epic showdown, no big fight after school by the dumpster. But he didn't walk away from someone doing wrong. He won't stand up for himself, but he stands up for others. All the little nerds that get picked on, or the less popular people who fade away from the spotlight, he's there for all of them.

That's probably why it wasn't that big of a shock.

A field trip, that was supposed to be the biggest event for me for the day, probably the month. Of course, in this world, nothing is ever that simple. It started when that kid, Ned I think, started screaming about everyone dying. I figured it was BS, just a guy making a scene about a weird traffic crash or something. I paid no attention. Then I saw Peter, standing from his seat. He looked down, I couldn’t tell what he was looking at specifically. Then, he stuck his hand up and something white flew out and pulled open the emergency exit. In a flash, he was out the window and swinging from white string towards the city.

Peter Parker. The righteous, awkward nerd on the science trivia club thing, was Spiderman. It all made sense. It was more surprising that no one else knew. All of the weird absences, his out-of-character athleticism, everything fit together.

As I watched him fly off towards the city, I finally noticed the massive alien space ship hovering above it. Just your average day in the city. It's a wonder why anyone still lived here, since this is the second alien attack in five years. I guess that was just the new normal. My friend Linda tugged at my arm, desperately trying to regain my attention. She told me that the bus was going to take us out of the city, somewhere out of the blast zone I guess.

It took another twenty minutes to pass the city limits, but the space was already gone. Of course, everyone already had all the info. Large damage to the inner city infrastructure, average casualty counts already being calculated. But, for the most part, it was over. However, Iron Man was missing. That was a big blow. Well, that and some unsettling footage.

One video showed some guy in a cape get knocked out and levitated away. Spiderman can be seen briefly swinging after him, while Iron Man gets knocked around by a large alien.

The second video was of the ship leaving. Someone had zoomed in, a small figure with a parachute was falling, then hanging on to the ship as I flew back into space. At first glance, it looked like Iron Man. But why would Iron Man need a parachute? It may be because I had just learned about his real identity, but it looked more like Spiderman to me.

A few hours passed and we were back on the bus heading back to the city. Almost as if the universe knew that our neighborhood super hero was absent, that was when it started. First to go was the bus driver, naturally. Luckily, the bus was stopped in bumper to bumper traffic, so there was no major crash. The students started flipping out, scrambling over each other to get off the bus. I don’t know where they were running to. Whatever was happening, it wasn't going to stop because we got off the bus.

I knew that in my head, but even I had hope that there was somewhere to hide. Then, I heard someone screaming. Linda was clutching onto her boyfriend. His arms were gone, already turned to dust. His face was covered in tears, and Linda was screaming for him to hold on. She sobbed, pleading for someone to help him. And then he was gone, just a pile of dust mixed with the asphalt.

It was funny. For some reason, my mind flashed to Peter Parker. I saw him getting made fun of at the party. I saw him complimenting Samantha Carlisle on her painting after Flash said it had looked like literal shit. I saw him and Ned laughing together at lunch. Why him? Why was I thinking of him?

It made me feel, unfinished. It made me wish I had stepped up more, letting myself be seen. It made me regret not complimenting more people, for not helping others, even in the little ways. Was that it?

I made my way over to Linda, who laid crumpled over her boyfriends ashes, sobbing. I knelt beside her, reaching out the comfort her.

But my hand wasn't there. It had already crumbled up past my elbow. Inside, I wanted to scream and cry and beg for help. I wanted to run away so fast that the crumbling couldn’t keep up.

I wanted to talk to Peter, tell him I saw his kind gestures, and that I admired them. I wished desperately that I had had the time to maybe be friends. Maybe I would have developed a crush. Maybe I could’ve confessed, stepping out of my comfort zone.

I backed away from Linda, away from everyone. I collapsed against the side of the bus, one and a half legs gone. I looked up at the sky, as if maybe I could find him up there, swinging around and ready to save the day. I hope he was OK. Whatever was going on, I hope he survived and went on to kick whoever's ass was responsible.

I closed my eyes, and I heard my name faintly, from some unknown origin, maybe Linda. Sorry Linda, I have to leave you alone. I couldn't comfort you. Sorry...