#but that's a good thing!!! maybe i'll actually sleep

[rocketbirdie]

THAT'S A WRAP

GOOD EVENING (or whatever time it is where you are) AND THANK YOU!!! Today I got almost A HUNDRED doodle requests and I was able to complete ~35 of them! Holy moly!!!!

I'll be closing my ask box for the time being until I catch up on all the requests. To avoid getting burnt out, my plan is to fulfill around 5 requests a day, which means it should take about a week and a half to get through the remaining asks. They'll all be under the "doomsday doodle" tag as usual. I'm doing them mostly in order from when they were submitted— except for a handful that I skipped so that I can come back and dedicate more time to them later. 👀

I can't thank everyone enough for today. Without all of your silly ideas, I'd probably have been stewing in anxiety over the election all day long. I hope that I was able to bring some joy to my tumblr neighbors on such a nerve-wracking night.

[SHAMELESS SELF PROMOTION INCOMING] Psst by the way.... If you're ever interested in something more than just a doodle, here's a reminder that my commissions are always open! Here's the link to my commission info!

OK that's all! Back to your regularly scheduled doomed by the narrative gay pining and monster hunting.

[byanyan]

okay!!! got a couple short replies to tiny starters crammed into my (still paused) queue... it's not much, but it's something. tomorrow i'll try to get a bit more done, maybe restart the queue, etc. etc., but. yeah. baby steps.

[icewindandboringhorror]

finally finished all of one character's entire quests/optional dialogue/questions/etc.... 100,000 words... .... aughhh

[softdreamlesssleep]

God, "I missed you" sex is the best

[tomfrogisblue]

I have finally finished O Segredo Na Floresta.

I have cried more than I thought possible.

And I fear I shall never be the same.

[koka-mi]

hehdheud I love sleepingggggfff

[medicinemane]

Should make a pain killer that actually kills (or even touches) pain

[sinnettini]

successfully worried my mum as well despite trying not to. lmao. lmfao even

[katabay]

I'm going to be honest finding your account has sent me down a rabbit hole I did not expect to find myself in, yesterday I spent six hours, looking at all of your stuff and I'm absolutely amazed, I have no words. Your art and everything you talk about I'm absolutely fascinated in a very normal way I don't mean to sound weird. I was wondering if you had any thoughts to share with someone who's hating everything they draw and have lost the fun and passion when creating, I want to snap out of it.

I've been holding onto this ask for a minute because a few years back I went through a phase (I call it a phase, I fully intended never to pick up art again) where I also hated everything I was making

ultimately, what got me out of it was mostly doing other stuff. not even in a 'get a new hobby,' kind of way, I hated drawing in my sketchbook, so I started cutting out washi tape as clothes over old sketches and filling in the negative space between scribbles with highlighter and pen colors I thought looked nice. I went out to daiso, bought $10 worth of stickers, and started putting them where I thought it would look nice when I got the urge to do something but still couldn't bring myself to actually pick up a pencil.

if there's something that you know for sure you don't like about art, it can help to confront it and then go in the other direction. there were a lot of things I used to draw because I felt like it was expected, only I was unhappy all the time, and once I realized I was unhappy because I wasn't actually exploring what I thought was interesting about the subject holding my attention, it was sometimes easier to see what I DID want to do, I just had to acknowledge what I DIDNT want first.

that said, I still have an on-off again antagonism with myself and art, it's messy and it's always going to be that way for me, but whenever I feel stuck, I do try to change things up, or head off to a space that I feel has absolutely no expectations from me whatsoever. like. whenever I get really annoyed on my history blog, I actually turn to watching 2PM's vlogs on youtube. I have enough 2PM art in my sketchbooks I almost thought about making a dedicated HOTTEST twitter account lmao.

probably my last thought on this might be: try keeping two sketchbooks. nothing expensive. one can be something more serious, but keep a space just for yourself to fuck around in. don't draw in it unless you want to. put stickers in it, press flowers that you think look neat. buy some cheap water colors and see if you like the blues that you get out of it. it's okay to feel antagonistic towards art, but if you aren't ready to break up with it (and art will always be there if you want to go back, that's an important thing), I've found the straightforwardness of 'I like these stickers, so I'm going to put them on top of this square of blue I liked,' to be akin to leaving messages for someone you aren't ready to talk to face to face just yet, but maybe someday.

[orcelito]

FANTASTIC NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i finished & posted the ITNL 14 re-edits, WHICH MEANS!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm officially done with my re-edits project!!!!!!!!!! :D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive been thinking a lot today about my plans for ITNL 15, AND i have tomorrow off, so if all goes well i'll be able to start writing again. TOMORROW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and if the chapter grips me like i expect it will then... hehehehehe

could be an update in as little as a few days, depending. i'll keep u guys updated

[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent misc pictures

[starpros-sunshine]

We <3 hearing things

[catboydan]

fiance got me a kindle for my birthday <3

[copia]

once again dreamt through the entire logistics of attending one of my sleep token shows. what is wrong with me

[roxannepolice]

Sleep deprivation activated the asshole part of my brain that's genuinely proud of Simm!Master for falling where he stood not less than Twelve - standing right in the spot of his utilitarian selfishness, as they always did. Do you want to strip the earth of all trees and living things just because of your fantasy of enjoying naked light? You’re stupid. You go, asshole.

[averagecatdoodlesenjoyer]

My Ukranian friend told me that she supports israel because she thinks that it's in a similar situation to Ukraine. Like Palestinians are these evil terrorists like russia who attacked first and poor little israel is just defending itself like Ukraine. Am I insane. Am I going insane. Am I actually fucking insane.