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walkingtalkingsomething · 1 year ago

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✨Taylor Swift Makes Everything Better Lyric Prompts✨

It's exactly what the title says. I find song lyrics in general very inspiring and have a notebook of ones that strike me for one reason or another but don't have the 'whatever' that's needed to write them. And I unapologetically stan the hell out of Ms. Swift and am so often struck by her word choices. So this is my collection of the TS lyrics that conjure up the most thoughts - minus a ton of sad ones because I am just too soft to be putting that much angst into the world 😊

Taylor Swift

•He's the song in the car I keep singin', Don't know why I do - Teardrops on My Guitar

•He's the time taken up but there's never enough and he's all that I need to fall into - Teardrops on My Guitar

•I'm taking pictures in my mind so I can save them for a rainy day - Stay Beautiful

•It's hard to make a conversation when he's taking my breath away - Stay Beautiful

•Take me back to the creek beds, We turned up 2am darlin' in your truck and all I need is you next to me - Mary's Song (my My My)

•Friday night beneath the stars in a field behind your yard, You and I are painting pictures in the sky, And sometimes we don't say a thing, Just listen to the crickets sing, Everything I need is right here by my side - I'm Only Me When I'm With You

Fearless (TV)

•And as we walked we were talking and I didn't say half the things I wanted to - Hey Stephen

•The way you walk, Way you talk, Way you say my name, It's beautiful, Wonderful, Don't you ever change - Hey Stephen

•They're dimming the street lights, You're perfect for me, Why aren't you here tonight? I'm waiting alone now so come on and come out - Hey Stephen

•Have you ever thought just maybe you belong with me? - You Belong With Me

•Never wanted this, Never wanna see you hurt, Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve - Breathe

•And you were wild and crazy, Just so frustrating, Intoxicating, Complicated, Got away by some mistake and now... - The Way I Loved You

•Don't know how long it's going to take to feel ok, But I know I had the best day with you today - The Best Day

•I like the way I can't keep my focus, I watch you talk, You didn't notice, I hear the words but all I can think is we should be together - Jump Then Fall

•Well I like the way your hair falls in your face, You got the keys to me, I love each freckle on your face, I've never been so wrapped up, Honey I like the way you're everything I ever wanted - Jump Then Fall

•I had time to think it over and all I can say is come closer, Take a deep breath and jump then fall into me - Jump Then Fall

•The time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cry but I'll hold you through the night until you smile - Jump Then Fall

•Untouchable, Burning brighter than the sun, And when you're close I feel like coming undone - Untouchable

•In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream it's like a million little stars spelling out your name/In the middle of the night waking from this dream, I wanna feel you by my side standing next to me - Untouchable

•I'll leave my window open because I'm too tired at night to call your name, Just know I'm right here hoping that you'll come in with the rain - Come In With the Rain

•I said, 'Leave,' but all I really want is you to stand outside my window throwin' pebbles, Screamin', 'I'm in love with you,' - The Other Side of the Door

Speak Now (TV)

•And you stood there in front of me just close enough to touch, Close enough to hope you couldn't see what I was thinking of - Sparks Fly

•Drop everything now, Meet me in the pouring rain, Kiss me on the sidewalk, Take away the pain 'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile - Sparks Fly

•Get me with those green eyes baby as the lights go down, Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around - Sparks Fly

•And lead me up the staircase, Won't you whisper soft and slow, 'I'm captivated by you, baby, like a firework show' - Sparks Fly

•Maybe this is wishful thinkin', Probably mindless dreamin', But if we loved again I swear I'd love you right - Back to December

•I'm scared to see the ending, Why are we pretending this is nothing? I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how, I've never heard silence quite this loud - The Story of Us

•This is looking like a contest of who can act like they care less, But I liked it better when you were on my side - The Story of Us

•This night is sparkling, Don't you let it go, I'm wonderstruck, Blushing all the way home/This night is flawless, Don't you let it go, I'm wonderstruck, Dancing 'round all alone - Enchanted

•Please don't be in love with someone else, Please don't have somebody waiting on you - Enchanted

•Your hands are tough but they are where mine belong - Ours

•Got a feeling your electric touch could light this ghost town up with life - Electric Touch

•When Emma falls in love it's all on her face, Hangs in the air like stars in outer space - When Emma Falls in Love

•Emma met a boy with eyes like a man, Turns out her heart fits right in the palm of his hand, Now he'll be her shelter when it rains, Little does he know his whole world's about to change - When Emma Falls in Love

•Pass me a note saying, 'Meet me tonight', Then we kiss and you know I won't ever tell, And I can see you being my addiction, You can see me as your secret mission, Hide away and I will start behaving myself - I Can See You

Red (TV)

•You come around and the armor falls, Pierce the room like a cannonball, Now all we know is don't let go - State of Grace

•We are alone just you and me, Up in your room and our slates are clean - State of Grace

•These are the hands of fate, You're my Achilles heel, This is the golden age of something good and right and real - State of Grace

•Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you, Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song - Red

•Put your lips close to mine as long as they don't touch, Out of focus, Eye to eye, 'Til the gravity's too much - Treacherous

•And I'll do anything you say if you say it with your hands - Treacherous

•I can't decide if it's a choice getting swept away, I hear the sound of my own voice asking you to stay - Treacherous

•Two headlights shine through the sleepless night and I will get you alone, Your name has echoed through my mind and I just think you should know that nothing safe is worth the drive and I would follow you home - Treacherous

•'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night, We're dancing 'round the kitchen in the refrigerator light - All Too Well

•You took the time to memorize me, My fears, My hopes and dreams, I just like hanging out with you all the time, All those times that you didn't leave it's been occurring to me I'd like to hang out with you for my whole life - Stay Stay Stay

•Find myself at your door just like all those times before, I'm not sure how I got there, All roads, They lead me here - The Last Time

•I imagine you are home in your room all alone, And you open your eyes into mine and everything feels better - The Last Time

•In dreams I meet you in warm conversations - Sad Beautiful Tragic

•'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello", And your eyes look like comin' home, All I know is a simple name and everything has changed - Everything Has Changed

•Come back and tell me why I'm feelin' like I've missed you all this time, And meet me there tonight and let me know that it's not all in my mind - Everything Has Changed

•The delicate beginning rush, The feeling you can know so much without knowing anything at all, And now that I can put this down, If I had known what I know now I never would've played so nonchalant - Come Back...Be Here

•If I was standin' there in your apartment I'd take that bomb in your head and disarm it, I'd say I love you even at your darkest and please don't go - Forever Winter

•There's a chain 'round your throat, Piece of paper where I wrote, "I'll wait for you", There's a key on the chain, There's a picture in a frame, Take it with you/And the note from the locket, You keep it in your pocket since I gave it to you, There's a heart on your sleeve, I'll take it when I leave and hold it for you - Run

1989 (TV)

•And I wish you knew that I miss you too much to be mad anymore - I Wish You Would

•He's so tall and handsome as hell, He's so bad but he does it so well - Wildest Dreams

•I said, 'No one has to know what we do,' His hands are in my hair, His clothes are in my room, And his voice is a familiar sound - Wildest Dreams

•You'll see me in hindsight, Tangled up with you all night, Burning it down - Wildest Dreams

•Say you'll see me again even if it's just pretend - Wildest Dreams

•Broke your heart, I'll put it back together, I would wait forever and ever - How You Get The Girl

•Lantern burning, Flickered in the night for only you - This Love

•In losing grips on sinking ships, You showed up just in time - This Love

•This love left a permanent mark, This love is glowing in the dark - This Love

•You're still all over me like a wine stained dress I can't wear anymore - Clean

•Didn't it all seem new and exciting? I felt your arms twisting around me - Wonderland

•One look, Dark room, Meant just for you, Time moved too fast, You play it back - You Are In Love

•No proof, Not much, But you saw enough/No proof, One touch, But you felt enough - You Are In Love

•You keep his shirt, He keeps his word - You Are In Love

•One night he wakes, Strange look on his face, Pauses then says, 'You're my best friend.' - You Are In Love

•Got love-struck, Went straight to my head, Got lovesick all over my bed, Love to think you'll never forget - Slut!

•Adorned with smoke on my clothes, Lovelorn and nobody knows, Love thorns all over this rose - Slut!

•And I break down, Then he's pulling me in, In a world of boys he's a gentleman - Slut!

•When you hold me it holds me together and you kiss me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever - Suburban Legends

•"Come here," I whispered in your ear in your dream as you passed out - Is It Over Now?

•Only rumors 'bout my hips and thighs and my whispered sighs - Is It Over Now?

•Oh Lord, I think about jumping off of very tall somethings just to see you come running and say the one thing I've been wanting - Is It Over Now?

Reputation

•And I can't let you go, Your hand prints on my soul, It's like your eyes are liquor, It's like your body is gold - End Game

•My name is whatever you decide and I'm just gonna call you 'Mine' - Don't Blame Me

•Echos of your name inside my mind, Halo hiding my obsession, I once was poison ivy but now I'm your daisy - Don't Blame Me

•And baby for you I would fall from grace just to touch your face, If you walk away I'd beg you on my knees to stay - Don't Blame Me

•I get so high everytime you're loving me, Trip of my life everytime you're touching me - Don't Blame Me

•Long night with your hands up in my hair, Echos of your footsteps on the stairs, Stay here honey I don't wanna share - Delicate

•Sometimes when I look into your eyes I pretend you're mine all the damn time - Delicate

•Salute to me, I'm your American queen and you move to me like I'm a Motown beat and we rule the kingdom inside my room - King of My Heart

•And all at once you are the one I have been waiting for - King of My Heart

•Is this the end of all the endings? My broken bones are mending with all these nights we're spending up on the roof with a schoolgirl crush, Drinking beer out of plastic cups, Say you fancy me not fancy stuff - King of My Heart

•There is an indentation in the shape of you, Made your mark on me, A golden tattoo - Dress

•All of this silence and patience, Pining and anticipation, My hands are shaking from holding back from you - Dress

•Say my name and everything just stops, I don't want you like a best friend - Dress

•Inescapable, I'm not even gonna try, And if I get burned at least we were electrified - Dress

•I'm spilling wine in the bathtub, You kiss my face and we're both drunk - Dress

•And I woke up just in time, Now I wake up by your side, My one and only, My lifeline - Dress

•All my flowers grew back as thorns, Windows boarded up after the storm, He built a fire just to keep me warm - Call It What You Want

•I'm laughing with my lover, Making forts under covers, Trust him like a brother, Yeah, You know I did one thing right, Starry eyes sparking up my darkest night - Call It What You Want

•I recall late November, Holding my breath, Slowly I said, 'You don't need to save me, but would you run away with me?' - Call It What You Want

•Please don't ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere - New Year's Day

Part. 2

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bunnymallowo · 1 year ago

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When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! then, send to your last ten people in your notifs (anonymously). you never know who might benefit from spreading positivity <3

Okay! Tsym for this, umm let me think..

Books

Books make me so happy, I really love just being able to sit down and read, its on of my favorite things to do, besides writing. Its so nice just to be able to get lost in another world, where you don't have to be yourself. And you don't have all the responsibilities of the real world

2. The outdoors

I love love LOVE being outside, especially in the spring and fall. All of the colors and smells of the different plants and flowers, brings me so much joy. Sometimes I go and just sit in the woods by my house. And i'll just sit there and watch and listen to whats going on around me.

3. Nighttime

The cool, gentle breeze at night time is like nothing else i've ever experienced. Everything is so calm, and laying in the cool damp grass, looking at the stars; nothing could be better. Its so quiet, and when the night is clear and there's just a sky full of start, there's nothing more perfect than that (Except you😉 haha). And the darkness is so calming. Like, you don't have to pretend to be someone you aren't, you don't have to be anything. You can just let yourself get enveloped and comforted by the shadows of night. And the darkness of night, mixed with the cold. I don't feel like I have to try to be good enough for everyone. I don't need to always pretend to be fine, and happy. I can just simply exist, and feel comforted. The night feels like a safe, protected place. Because even though I'm awake, the rest of the world (sorts) is "sleeping" and I can be alone, somewhere that makes me happy.

4. My friends

I really do love my friends, (most of them) are usually always there for me, and they're people I can have fun with. Sure we do stupid shit sometimes, but everyone does. I love them to bits, and one of my friends got me a bracelet that says "Friends are the family you choose", and I really do believe that's true. No matter what kind of home life you've come from, you can always find friends that'll be there for you

5. winter

Winter and snow make me really happy. Because it means i get to go skiing again. As well as it gives me an excuse to make and drink hot chocolate. Plus the holiday season is during winter, so I get another reason to buy people gifts. Its so fun to see their reactions to the gifts, even if they aren't the most expensive. Winter is also great, because I love watching the snow fall. Especially when its the really big, fluffy snowflakes. I love looking at the individual snowflake crystals, and seeing hoe different they are. Rolling around and playing in the snow is really fun too.

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A/N:

Out of this list, I think Nighttime and winter make me the happiest, there are other things, but these are the top 5

Don't forget to stay safe and rink water<3

Please eat something today if you haven't already

#happiness #nighttime #ask me #ask me anything #sendits #send it #this was amazing #loved this #love you all #comment “Shadow” if you read this #friends #friendship #books #books and reading #fantasy #snow #winter #skiing

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look-at-the-soul · 1 year ago

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Hi! It's gossip girl❤️ omg I'm so sorry this is only getting sent now' I wrote most of it the day after I sent the last one and then the anxiety hit and's now I finally have time to finish it! But I hope you're doing well today❤️❤️

And awe!! The puppy🥲🥲🥲 I think all dogs just deserve the biggest hugs🥰🥰 🥰🥰

And lol 😂😂 You do sound like a mom but like it's totally correct😂 Moms have the best advice (usually)😂 School is very expensive and it doesn't stink when people aren't able to make it though! I have a few friends who've done that and it's not fun!😭 and Omg! That's crazy about the engineer!

And ohh that's great about part 4 of The Runway!! I a saw it on my dash today but haven't had time to read it yet!! I did see that it's a bit of a cross over though 🤭🤭🤭🥰🥰 Baby Lenny Desreves all the hugs too😂

And omg the snippets😂😂 I think I have like 10 individual ones right now that I have bits and pieces of😂 Just the other day I wrote like 2k words but for about four different stories😂😅Omg you're totally right! We are worse than lawyers😂😂

🥰🥰🥰 I think you are definitely a safe spot!❤️❤️ And OMG NO! I promise you taking time to reply doesn't trigger my anxiety at all! You are absolutely perfect! I can't really explain why my anxiety happens on here very well🥲 I know here it happens like I'll post something and be excited to post it and then I'll see a lot of other people will be active at the same time and that'll kinda pysch me out and I'll hide for a few days😅 Or I'll have time to get on and see a lot of stuff on my dashboard and then I'll start feeling bad like if I don't interact with every single post and say something people will thing I don't like them or don't care what they've work hard on. I do it's just sometimes the idea of saying something is scary😅😂 and that's really not a good explanation if it at but it's the general gist!

Oh no! I'm sorry people tired to pressure you in high school/college about that stuff! I'm the same way right now about drinking (nothing against it, it's just not super my thing) But I am lucky enough that the friends I do hangout with more often don't pressure me into doing anything I don't want to! Like the friends I'm closest with now we have a good number of similar interest but on the stuff I'm really into (like Peaky Blinders and Reading and stuff like on here) I haven't met many people offline to talk to about it. So even when I do have the fiends I have, it don't have anyone who I could tell everything too. Also honestly most of the activities I enjoy that aren't like writing fics aren't sports but are like woodwork or building so it's a bit harder to find people around me that are into it under forty😂😂😅😅 Plus being as introverted as I am it can be harder to get out and meet new people to do stuff😅 Buts it's pretty good! I have the friends offline I have and they really are great, and my family is great, and Everyone here (like you🥰) is great too! So even if I'm not super close with one specific person I'm happy knowing everyone I do know🥰🥰

And yes! You have absolutely helped!🥰 interacting off anon has become much easier, even if I still go through spurts of it! And for somethings like requesting I still do use anon and like I'll let the person know how much I liked it on anon, but I'll also try to say something about it off anon too now😂😅 Which may sound weird, but I guess it's a way for my to let the person who I requested it from know I saw it and liked it without having to tell them I'm the one so did it (because for some reason that makes me nervous too) And then I can let them know I liked it off anon too so I'm a little less 👻 like😅

And yes! I have been on a bit of an inspiration spree! But a at the same time I'm having a hard time finish things now😂😂 I'll jump from idea to idea and have a bunch of little collections now. So I guess I have a bunch of mini back up stories😂

And you're totally right! Alfie is an absolutely gem! Tom Hardy did a great job! The world needs more Alfie content of all kinds and Cyril!! 🥰🥰I like to imagine he lived happily ever after and got all the treats he deserves! SK give us the truth!!😂😂!!And thank you! I'm glad you liked that little idea! Alfie's so fun to write! He's honestly the biggest idea kick I've had recently! 😂😂 And OMG yes!! Alfie would absolutely read it aloud and and explain things to Cyril!! He'd probably ask the pup for opinions on what to write back! AND OMG! He'd make Cyril "sign" his paw print at the end of each letter!!🥰🥰 That may be an idea I have to hold on to!

And oh I don't know! I haven't seen the movie with Ripner yet (it's Red Eye) right? Though I've seen like the gifs! But I really can't imagine someone being more coocoo than Crane😅😅 Once you got past that man's iron clad shell he'd definitely be into some kinky stuff (and that's totally ignoring his glaringly obvious fear kink😂😅) But his is definitely funny at times! He's got that dry humor that just pops out at times😂 But he definitely like changed between those two scenes! I love those gifs😂 And I did see that request and loved it🥰🥰🥰 It was such a good fic!!

OMG OMG OMG!! STEVEN MCGARRETT MY DARLING LOVE😍😍😍 Tell me more😂😂🥰🥰 I actually have had a few fix ideas for that series too, but Hawaii Five O is definitely another one id my comfort shows (Along with NCIS) but I get what you mean about Scott Cann (Danny, Who's also the son of the Dad in Elf?) being in other stuff and Alex O'Loughlin (Steve, who's apparently Australian?😂) not being in much! I think Alex was a producer of Hawaii Five O though so I thing he's done more of that stuff recently! But omg I absolutely adore that show! I feel like Danny and Steve have a similar friendship to Alfie (Steve) and Danny (Tommy) if that makes sense😂😂

And yes! The mail stamping videos make it look so easy!! And lol I've done that before😂 And I agree that the bigger stamps can be easier, even with the polish it can be hard to get some of the super small designs!

I hope your concert went well (I think you said it was at the end of May?) And OHH YES YES YES! Luke Bryan all the way!! I think one of the first songs I was able to fully memorize was "Play it Again" 🥰🥰 I love his work! And Jason Aldean and Brad Preasly too🥰🥰

Thanks for the chat! And I'm so so sorry it took me so long to get this back to you😅😅 I promise I'll be quicker next time🥰🥰

I hope you have a great week🥰🥰 XoXo GG🥰🥰

Hello darling!! Please don’t apologize specially if it’s because you went through an anxiety episode, how are you doing now? ❤️‍🩹 I’m doing alright thanks! Well not so well got an ear infection and the meds are making me feel terrible but I’m hoping to get out soon!

Right? 🐾 they have so much love to give us and that’s all they ask in return ♥️♥️

Hahahah now I don’t know to take it as a compliment or feeling old 👵🏻 🤣 just kidding! I’ve always been like that, worrying about people around me thinking of 1,000 they will mess up and me trying to prevent it LOL but I do hope something in my advices works for you ☺️ yeah unfortunately and to think it’s so hard to get a job and make enough money to monthly payments (but don’t you worry about it yet! You have to focus on school ☺️ and that’s enough for now). Right? But I also know people who are very successful in fields completely different to what they originally studied and that’s amazing!

Oh yes!! 🤭 I had the idea to make a crossover between The Runway and The Photoshoot did you read it afterwards? Should I do it again? 📸 aww I love Lenny!!! Need to start working on part 6 tho and I’m thinking about maybe finish it in part 8 to continue working in something else… a new Emmett or Robert Fischer story 🤔🤐🤫

WOW!!! You have a lot of WIP 🚧 love it!!! Have you been able to write some more? -how’s the summer job going btw?- 📖 will the wip list ever end?? (Deep down I don’t want it to end, I just want to write, write, write..) 👏🏻👏🏻 that’s amazing!! It means you let the ideas flow freely 🥰

🥹 this is the best thing I could’ve read! ❤️‍🩹 thank you for that *jumps on the screen and gives you a tight hug*

Don’t worry about it, really (I know it’s easier said than done..), but the thing is tumblr is kind of messed up somehow, one day I logged in and all I could see it was posts from like a week ago, and I refreshed like 5 times, sometimes I don’t see a story being posted right away, but a day or two later and thanks to a reblog (reblogs are magic btw)… other days the tags won’t work 🤷🏻‍♀️ a lot of things can happen in between, but I totally understand how you feel, when I hit the post button I get so nervous and sometimes there are interactions, sometimes there are not, but I think well the story/part is there in my masterlist for anyone who wants to read.

Something I’ve learn is no matter what you do, you will never get it back, but do it anyways. I’m always sharing and reblogging stories because I know how important it is, I’ve noticed it doesn’t work in both ways, but a few days ago I saw a post about if it’s only for one single person that likes your work, keep doing it for that person, or if you only have like 30 people, imagine 30 people in your home right now, that’s a lot! 🥰😍 do what you feel comfortable with, start little by little, a small comment, a thought, whatever makes you feel good, just know it’s natural that you feel that way, but who knows? Maybe your small comments ignites something in the writer and you end up finding a nice friendship? 💖

It’s alright, it’s part of growing up and growing out of people too… keep those friends close! Your close group has a huge impact in the person you become, oh I feel ya! Non of my friends like PB either 🥺 too bad.. and frankly Im terrified of speaking about tumblr in the real world, what if the people I know read what I write?! I’d die from embarrassment 😅 Can you imagine? I haven’t told my best friend scared what she’d think of me, so we better keep company each others on here, we can be anonymous bff 👯‍♂️ … ohhh what kind of woodwork?!

I’d looove to be more DIY, I have my Pinterest invaded with bedroom and living room projects, library, the outdoors decor but I don’t do it 😂 perhaps that’s why I love to add it to my character Yael in the Photoshoot 📸 hahah no but maybe you can find people! The other day I found a woman presenting her work as carpenter 🪑 the pieces I saw were amazing!! Can we make an introverts club please? Noisy people make me feel uncomfortable and when I go to the office I come back home with no energy left 😔 which made me remember I found a book for introverts, I will read it and tell you more about it, maybe you find it interesting, that’s lovely! And so true everyone is amazing with their characteristics 🥰

I started just like that, as anon sending small messages to a couple of writers on here until I was brave enough to say hey it’s me! 😁 and it’s been a lovely community ever since! Oh you’re so right! From the requests I’ve post, I always wonder if the person who sent it actually saw it (because sometimes it takes me so long to write it), so it’s nice if you go back to give a little comment off anon and let the person know 😍 hahah and then you’re no longer a ghost 🤣

Hope you have been using that inspiration spree to the max! I love to read the little snippets you send me, haha but that’s good your mind is working at speed! ☺️ have you been able to finish any of them in the mean time? That’s nice well, at least to me I’ve a few like that so if I feel frustrated at a story I turn around and there are another four little ones screaming at me -I feel like a mom of triplets or something if one starts crying the rest of them as well - 😂😂🤣 the same goes for writing or is it just me?

I simply cannot imagine someone else playing Alfie’s part, his mannerisms are very particular and he’s really funny (Idk if that was SK intention) but he nailed it! Aww yes! Loads of treats for Cyril! (I wonder what happened to him in real life) I try to include him whenever I can in a story, and recently I’ve been reading a couple of Alfie stories. Have you been writing for him? OMG that’s the best idea ever! I can totally picture it 🤩🤩 bet he’d ask Cyril for advice too, but the big question is are you writing it?

Yes it’s Red Eye ( can be confusing with Red Lights too!) 😅😂 you’re so funny but yes Crane is a bit coocoo 🤭 but Ripner wins the award, so creepy that he had been watching the girl and knew all about her… oh my 😈 do you think so? 🤭 but now that you mention it… yes I bet there’s a kinky side to Jonathan 😏 I think my favorite side of him would be his sarcasm god I think all of his answers are oh no this idiot is talking again… *rolls eyes-* haha aww I enjoyed writing for him!

Would you believe me if I say I googled Alex a bit ? 🙈 guilty! Turns out he was so stressed and into his character he had to go to rehab for it for a while, I think he’s missing from half a season or something like that… and he actually lives in Hawaii ♥️ oh I used to watch that show too! Dinozzo made me laugh so hard! And the girl at the lab Abbi was hilarious! What? Scott is related to Elf? Really? *shocked* oh wow!! Guess being a producer is something common then, since Cillian also became a producer of PB and I just heard Margot Robbie was also a producer for Barbie (I guess I should have become a producer instead of my real life job!) definitely!!! That combo sounds similar to Tommy and Alfie! 😂 how great is that you also like them!?!

Side note: I gave up the stamping 😂😂 I wasn’t made for that lol guess I will have to find a new hobby now… there’s a show I used to see “Justified” with Timothy Olyphant (guess the last name is wrong), he was sarcastic as hell and I loved it!! But they took it from the channel and now is back on Hulu (which I don’t have) :(

Oh yes! The show was unbelievably great! It was packed, loads of people from all places but we got some good places, standing, I had the time of my life, I’m planning to go and see them (Westlife) in Boston or Chicago next year, I need more 🍀🇮🇪💚 I’ve been listening to their music and their new album took me by surprise, it has an awesome electric sound, so different from all the previous albums… yeah! Almost, end of June ☺️

Have you been to any concert lately? Oh “play it again” is a great song! Love it! I wanted to see Luke in Las Vegas (he had a residency), but the dates wouldn’t work… those 3 are my favorites for country music, haven’t heard them in a while tho..

And I finished this one! I’m still missing one you sent a while ago I will try to finish that one before you reply to this (sorry about that)

Oh before I go! Have you seen Oppenheimer yet? Did you went to see Barbie too?

And I will leave the answer to your previous message here because I’ve been reblogging a lot of stuff 🤭

Loved this chat so so much! 💖 like always it’s a pleasure to hear from you GG, I hope you’ve been doing fine! And looking forward to hear from you! ♥️🥰

Take care, enjoy your summer! Write some more, have a blast you’re so young, and whatever you do, do it from the heart ♥️ ✨

Talk to you soon, xoxoGG 😘

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hillvalleyhuh · 3 years ago

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WHERE YOU SHOW FAVORITISM DIFFERENTLY

aka you bully people to show love<3

just thought i would start something fun for the rebrand of this blog lmao and lately, sagau (this au has turned into a pretty broad term lemme know if i should tag it as smth else) has been ROTTING my brain i love the concept behind it

this is me being self indulgent because this is EXACTLY how i would act in genshin–im not a very nice person but i show my love differently

if you guys want more characters or want to request something else, feel free to send me an ask!

includes: gender-neutral reader w/ the main bois aka albedo, childe, diluc, kaeya, and zhongli!

want other characters? take a look

Albedo

at first he doesn’t even know you’re teasing him!!!! honestly he’s just glad you want to be around him at all

you probably call him “chalk boy” just to rile him up but he doesn't even care he's like uwu a nickname? for moi? like binch i'm trying to piss u off stop looking cute!!!!!

at most you're like a cat who tries to get his attention you're semi aware you're being an inconvenience but why won't he pay attention?? (he is but this is too fun) WHAT DID YOU DO???

you think he’s paying too much attention to his experiments? boom knock over a flask!!! he’s writing something down while you’re talking to him? my pencil now heheheh that'll show him!! whatever you say

your grace.,...,.,.,just ask him to talk to you

(no he can't know!!! my pride my dignity!!!!!!)

he thinks it’s cute–he probably even does it purpose because he’s a smart lil f*cker smh if you think you're so smart why aren't you looking at me?? HUH??? stupid head*ss go back to ur chem set binch

you probably say that more times than you can count like who does he think he is??? a GENIUS??!!! your grace...,,yes

be careful though! he isn’t afraid to tease back even if you are the creator! most people think of him as apathetic with no feelings but you see right through him

“Oh? Does their Grace believe my worship is not enough? I thought you liked it when I experiment. Then what else are you here for? Hm? You couldn't have come all the way up the mountain just to stare at me...right All-Creator?"

Childe

he loves it he wants all your attention!!! he doesn't care if it's "mean"!!!! <3

"their grace wants to tease...me?"

YES U HOMICIDAL MANIAC KEEP UP

if you like banter he's your harbinger!!!!!!!!!!!!

"damn ajax you didn't die today? :/"

"well your grace tomorrow is a new day :))"

if you fight you would banter during it and he probably is like probably *heart eyes*

if you aren't however

you, an all-powerful god: no ajax I'm not gonna fight you...

childe: coward smh didn't know the creator was such a loser :/

you: *glowing eyes of DEATH*

there is SO MUCH you can bully about this man

"ajax please.,.,.,that isn't how you hold a bow"

very much high school rivals who are secretly into each other vibe

he truly loves how fun you are which makes him worship you even more if that's possible

however if you team up with scaramouche he gets SO pissy it's insane like the both of you are UNSTOPPABLE it really is scary

and obviously the more he pouts the more you bully him like c'mon babe don't give me more ammo

"Your Grace! Please don't tell Scaramouche how I fell into the lake that one time! Oh? You did? Your Grace whatever shall I do with you? Fine, fine it is a funny story. However, would you like me to tell him how you warmed me up afterward?"

also consider:

you and him are interchangeable in this exchange it depends on the time of day lmao

Diluc

ohohohooh

he is SO fun to tease

at first he would just let it happen with just an odd look on his face...can't upset the creator now can he?

for the first couple of times he probably truly thinks you don't like :/ he's used to hearing people call him grumpy

but after a while and the years he's spent with kaeya he finally realizes you mean no harm

"damn master diluc who made you so grumpy today? did someone tell you that your hair looks really messy today? :/ i mean it does but they didn't have to tell you to your face...how rude"

he just rolls his eyes and continues making drinks and then checks the mirror in the backroom when you're not looking does his hair look weird DOES IT???

honestly the patrons at angel's share have never seen diluc so calm and it's when the creator is bullying teasing him?? you really are the creator!

and oh boy when he realized you do it out of FAVORITISM?? he turns red whenever you tease him it's so cute

you could tease him how stupid his superhero name is or smth when he's doing his nightly duties and he'd act like you just gave him the biggest compliment ever

you: diluc you are so lucky that most of the knights are dumb as rocks because YOU are so stupid how has nobody figured out you're batman the darknight hero?? you barely even change your appearance? i bet you change your voice to seem lower to look cooler stars above i hate you

diluc, turning into a strawberry: im in love with u

after a while he'll tease you right back, we all know that man is a bundle of dry humor wrapped up in a coat and it'll leave you flustered every time

"Thank you, your Grace I'll take your suggestions of my after-dark identity into consideration. I consider myself blessed to have such a thoughtful and amenable God watching out for me. Are you this considerate to all of your loyal subjects or do you just give me your special attention? Should I get down on my knees and thank you properly?"

Kaeya

oh lord what a menace

right off the bat he sees right through he KNOWS you tease him because he likes you because he's exactly the same

you know "how 'bout it boss" line? yeah he probably calls you boss instead of something appropriate like your actual titles he wouldn't dare call you by your actual name though that is a privilege he does not deserve

honestly the two of you probably get into fake fights on purpose just for the drama of it all

"what kind of person let alone GOD forgets to blow out a candle? you could have burned the city down? i cannot believe our "all-loving" creator hates us so that they would do this"

"maybe if you stopped drinking and put away your tits this wouldn't have happened...were you so drunk last night that you couldn't have done it yourself?"

he would probably joke that your "old world" didnt want you and spat you out to teyvat and you're like "you know what? you're probably right lmao"

he'd laugh it off and so would you but on the inside he's like did i offend them?? oh my god kaeya what the F*CK??? was that too far??? what is wrong with you????????

the knights would be MORTIFIED by the way he speaks to you

one day however a knight tries to tease you and kaeya goes OFF absolutely bonkers

he can tease you but no one else he's a bit jealous/protective

you tease him more if you find out

"Hm? Of course, I defended your honor, Boss. We can't have people thinking they can go about slandering our good creator's name. Why, yes, I do tease you from time to time but that is only in good nature and a form of worship. If you want, however, I can show you a different way I worship you."

Zhongli

now i don't want to be stereotypical with mr zhongli here, but honestly you two look like an old married couple bickering

you know those ones at restaurants that are like "i hope i die soon so i dont have see your ugly face anymore" and the other one is like "yes yes go to hell honey anyways we'll share the soup <3"

yeah that's how it goes

people are still like "wow how cute" so like who cares lmao

he thinks it's very amusing whenever you're mean to him because most of the time it only happens around other people

like once you guys are alone it's sappy as hell and he wouldn't want it any other way except nobody believes him when he says how kind you and how you even cook for him from time to time

flame his *ss for never having mora while you're paying for everything he wants ok sugar baby zhongli

you and hu tao are absolutely the worst though please do not team up against him

he counters this though by pretending how honored he is that the all-creator picked him, a lowly humble man

he is VERY grateful and shows it but cmon..."lowly humble man"? stfu morax you used to eat gods for breakfast

zhongli: everyday i thank rex lapis for allowing this union between the creator and i. i do not know what i did to deserve his praise or their grace's...rex lapis truly is amazing

you: are you f*cking kidding me

all in all though it is very cute he would be saying how pretty you look today and kisses your hand and meanwhile you're blushing super badly and you're like "you're ugly and i hate you"

he responds with a smug lil smile every time that makes you want to punch him

"Well, your grace, as much as I enjoy your teasing and vice versa, just know that I mean every word when I say how grateful I am for you to bless me with your companionship. I will gladly be the brunt of every scathing joke you make if it means I can hear your lovely voice."

#genshin #genshin impact #sagau #zhongli x reader #diluc x reader #kaeya x reader #albedo x reader #childe x reader #tartaglia x reader #lady writes #genshin impact headcanons #self aware au #self aware genshin

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t0shii · 4 years ago

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% comforting them when they're upset

.! oikawa, tsukishima, matsukawa (sep) x gn!r

.! angst + fluff/ breakdowns, crying, etc. lightly proofread bc im lazy so sorry for any mistakes.

.! im so sorry if this is absolute word vomit or horse shit 😭 i tried my best though 😌 uhhh sorry for not posting yesterday i got my daith pierced and i was in a lot of pain after that so i didnt feel like writing anywho enjoy this 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 p.s. i was originally gonna write for mad dog but i was struggling so i went with mattsun instead sorry. also idk why matsuns ended up being so short i didnt do him justice i apologize 😩

oikawa

— always gets discouraged when his knee bothers him. today was one of those days. his coach had made him sit out of practice because he had been limping a bit. he came home distraught and you noticed right away.

"what's the matter toru?" you asked opening your arms for a hug, which he accepted, wrapping his arms around your middle quite tightly. "my knee is bothering me again 'n coach made me sit out. it's just not fair." he mumbled into your shoulder. you could feel his tears soak through your shirt. you nodded and responded, "baby, he just doesn't want you to hurt yourself. i know it's not fair but-", "but i wanna play volleyball, i wanna get better and practice." he said, aggravated that you weren't exactly on his side, still he held you tighter.

"toru, baby, look at me." he does as told, and you bring your hands up to wipe his tear stained cheeks,"toru, you can't strain your knee anymore than you already do, you know this. i know you only want to play volleyball, baby i know, but you have to be patient." he nods in agreement and you do the same, then guiding his head back to your shoulder, "i know it's frustrating toru, but you can't force it, y'know? he wouldn't make you sit out if it wasn't for your best interest. you know that, deep down."

the two of you had been cuddling on the couch, his back against your chest when you heard him sniffling again, "toru, what's wrong?" you ask softly, sitting up slightly. "i'm so useless, my own knee can't even work right. the team deserves someone better and so d-do you" he hiccuped, hiding is face in his hands. you felt guilty for not comforting him more earlier. "toru, that's not true at all." you stated, forcing his hands into yours, "take it back right now." he looked at you confused. "toru oikawa i said take it back right this instant." you said a little sterner than before.

"no." he managed to get out through sobs, and you knew the stern method wasn't going to work this time around. "toru, please. you're not useless at all, not to anyone, not to the team, and especially not to me. you're the best teammate, friend and boyfriend anyone could ever ask for and your knee just needs a break sometimes, you just need a break sometimes and thats okay. needing a break doesn't make you useless or weak, toru." you say softly, guiding him to a sitting position, hugging him closely and tracing small, comforting shapes on his back.

"you're so so strong toru, and you're an amazing person, an amazing boyfriend, you're such an amazing volleyball player and i'm so proud of how far you've come since highschool." you say, kissing the crown of his head. "you mean it?" he asks leaning back to look at you, "i always do, toru. i love you more than anything, and i'm so so fucking proud of you, but you have to know, it's okay to need a break sometimes and it doesn't change who you are as a person and it definitely doesn't make you weak or useless. he nods in response, burrying his head into the crook of your neck. you both stay like that, you whispering words of affirmations, him listening fondly until he feels better a little while later.

tsukishima

— he usually didn't let the stress of professional volleyball get to him like this, but he couldn't help it he would be lying if he said he wasn't overwhelmed, from interviews, to extra practice to prepare for the overseas games he had coming up, he was exhausted, to add onto it all he had been neglecting you and he felt horrible for it.

you knew practice was going to be running late since your boyfriend had told you in advance, so you weren't initially worried as to why kei had been coming home late at night. this night in particular was the fourth night in a row kei been home late and you starting to grow concerned. you hadn't seen him hardly at all that week, which was unusual because he always made time for you no matter what. worried, you decided to stay awake and wait for him to get home.

when the time finally comes, your heart dropped at his appearance, he looked absolutely horrible, as if he hadn't slept right in weeks. "why are you up?" he mumbled, taking his shoes off rather sloppily, uncharacteristic of him. you made your way closer to yoir exhausted boyfriend, "kei, i'm worried about you. i know you don't like me meddling with your career, and please don't misunderstand my concern for that. i'm just worried you aren't getting enough rest and i've barely seen you at all this week." you said, crossing your arms over your chest.

you knew something was wrong when you saw the tear swell in his eyes, but he just stood there awkwardly, you walked closer toward him, "kei, what's wrong?" you ask, extending your arms toward him, which he basically fell into, he started sobbing immediately, shocking you initially. "i'm s-sorry for neglecting you this week, i didn't mean to i-i just-", "kei, i'm not worried about that, i'm worried that you aren't taking care of yourself properly." you mumble, patting his back comfortingly. to which he shakes his head no."work has been too much recently, i can't sleep and i barely have time to even think. its just practice, interviews, practice, interviews i-i can't handle it all anymore, y/n." he sobbed into your shoulder, you were speechless at his vulnerability.

"kei,-", "but i can't stop now because that'll make me a failure and i don't want to let you down and the team too, i just want to make everyone proud but i think i'm falling behind." he cried, fiddling with the hem of your shirt. "kei, you could never let me down. actually, i think i've been letting you down recently, i don't tell you this enough but, i'm so so proud of you kei, so proud you don't even understand, i'm sorry for not expressing that enough to you. i understand that you feel as if you're falling behind but overworking and stressing yourself out isn't going to help you improve, kei, and i know you also know that."

"you're working yourself sick, kei and i can't stand here and continue to let that happen so you're taking a day off whether you like it or not. tomorrow will be a me and you day, how does that sound? i'll call your coach in the morning." honestly, you wouldn't have let him say no anyways, and he knew that so he just nodded his head. "look at me kei, you have to tell me when you're feeling overwhelmed. it's not good to keep things in like this, it's just like you tell me." he nods his head, but avoids eye contact, "and i'm not disappointed or upset at you, you know. but i can't read your mind, so please just tell me when things start to feel like they're crashing down on you 'kay? i'll help you just like you help me." you smile, he looks at you and nods, hugs you closer and whispers an "i love you" into your ear, which you return.

matsuwaka

— you knew his work was stressful and emotionally and mentally exhausting, so there were always worries in the back of your mind that he would become too overwhelmed, well today your worries became reality.

"welcome home issei." you called from the kitchen as your boyfriend walked through the door, though he offered you no response, which made you frown. "issei?-" you gasped when you felt a pair of strong arms sneak their way around your waist, "jesus, issei, you scared me!" you giggle placing your hands atop of his own, but you realized he was not laughing with you. "issei, baby?" concern laced in your tone as you maneuvered your way around to face him, "what's wrong baby?" you ask, taking his face in your hands to wipe at escaping tears.

"work was rough today." was all he said as he melted at the feeling of your thumbs running back and forth on his cheeks. "oh issei, i'm sorry." you mumbled, kissing the tip of his nose lightly, "is there anything i can do to help?" he didn't know why but something inside of him snapped when you asked him that, and sobs escaped his lips, he could only hide his face in the space between your neck and shoulder because for some reason he felt... ashamed to be crying in front of you like this. "please just hold me." he cried, so you did just that, shushimg him when his sobs got violent, rubbing your hand up and down his back soothingly.

the both of you stood there for a good 15 minutes before you spoke up after he had calmed down a bit, "is there anything you need to get off your chest? you don't have to tell me now or even at all but i want you to know that whatever is bothering you, you can tell me, anything at all. i know your job is mentally exhausting and honestly i dont even know how you do it but i dont want you thinking you have to carry the burden of it alone, okay? i'm so proud of you, so so so proud of you issei, i just wanted you to know that."

you felt him nod in the crook of your neck, a soft, "thank you." sounding shortly after, "of course." you responded, kissing his shoulder a few time.he wasn't sure when he would feel completely ready to get things off his chest but he felt loved knowing that you would always be there to comfort him, and for that he was forever grateful.

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grailfinders · 3 years ago

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Fate and Phantasms #198

Happy New Year! (If it is not new years, please disregard.) Today we're crossing into the 2020 servants; hopefully this build makes that clear.

Today we're building Katsushika Hokusai, the daughter/fatheroctopus painter duo, most famous for... waves? And also making a deal with Cthulhu. We're grabbing some levels in Creation Bard for the former, and Hexblade Warlock for the latter. Don't worry, it'll make sense as we go.

Check out their build breakdown below the cut, or their character sheet over here!

Next up:

Race and Background

Oui is a Human. Her dad's an octopus, which is weird, but we'll deal with that later. Also, we're making her a variant human for cool stuff. She gets +1 Wisdom and Charisma, as well as Animal Handling proficiency to get along with her parents and the Magic Initiate feat, which uses her Wisdom to cast druid spells. Since magical paintbrushes aren't an official weapon in D&D 5e, we'll call it a quarterstaff instead, which means you can use Shillelagh to make it fancy and magical for the duration. It also turns the damage die into a d8, deals magical damage, and uses your wisdom instead of strength to hit things and deal damage. You also get Frostbite to splash cold water on people, and Protection from Evil and Good. You can cast that last one once a day for free, and it'll protect you against aberrations (plus celestials, elementals, fey, fiends, and undead) for ten minutes with concentration. They'll have disadvantage to hit you, and they cant' charm, frighten, or possess you, and any existing effects of that ilk you can shake off with advantage. No spoilers, but that'll come in handy soon enough.

You also get the Guild Artisan background, because you paint for money. That gives you Insight and Persuasion proficiency.

Ability Scores

Make your Charisma as high as possible. You paint good, and you have the mental fortitude to keep an elder god from yeeting your soul from your body. Good job. Second highest is Dexterity, painting lifesized waves in the air around you doesn't actually need all the backflips, you just like to show off. Your Wisdom is also pretty good, it's hard to paint things you can't see well, and again that whole "mental fortitude" thing. Your Constitution is pretty good, you handle all-nighters pretty well. That means your Strength isn't great, but we're dumping Intelligence. You're kind of a hick, after all. Plus, really? Swordbeauties?

Class Levels

Bard 1: You weren't born with the squid powers, so we'll grab those up a bit later. Right now you're just a plucky young artist with a dream. As a bard, you get proficiency with Dexterity and Charisma saves, as well as three skills of your choice. Performance and Nature will help you paint nature, and Arcana will help you find the squid guy in the first place. You get Bardic Inspiration, Charisma Modifier d6s per long rest, and you can give one to your allies to boost one attack, check, or save by however much they roll. Nothing like some tasteful nudes to get the spirits up. You also get Spells that you can cast using your Charisma. Friends makes it easier to pass charisma checks against a creature for a minute, but they'll know you magicked them afterwards. Thankfully, getting paid doesn't take that long. Minor Illusion helps you bring your paintings to life, but just a little bit. It'll create a still object or sound that lasts for up to a minute. Creatures can tell it's an illusion with an investigation check, or by touching it. You also get Animal Friendship- your dad can be hard to get along with. Color Spray weaponizes your paints to blind creatures in the area, and Illusory Script lets you write one thing, but really write another. I'm sure you can argue this should count for paintings as well. Oh, you also get Dissonant Whispers. You're a Foreigner, you can be a little creepy if ya wanna.

Bard 2: Second level bards become a Jack of All Trades, adding half their proficiency to skill checks they aren't proficient in. You're an anime character, it's an unwritten rule you should be good at everything. You also get a Song of Rest, adding a d6 to healing your party does over a short rest. On top of that, your bardic inspiration becomes Magical Inspiration, letting your allies add it to the damage or healing of a spell. Finally, grab the spell Silent Image for moving images, so now you can paint birds and/or waves and have them look just like the real thing. Now, third level of bard is where things start getting funky, so before we can do that, let's make a deal.

Warlock 1: Bouncing over to warlock lets you become a Hexblade, which sounds kind of weird, but there's a reason for that. You don't do weird mind stuff like the GOOlocks, and you don't really use Tentacles like the Fathomlocks. What you do need though, is a fancy magic brush, and a fancy magic octopus. There isn't a familiar-based subclass yet, so we had to go with the weapon-based one, and we'll pick up your dad later. Anyways, starting off as a Hexblade lets you invoke a Hexblade's Curse as a bonus action, dealing your proficiency in extra damage to the cursed creature, crit on 19s, and heal yourself when the cursed creature dies. The curse lasts 1 minute, and you can use this once per short rest. Hokusai also become a Hex Warrior, turning one non-two-handed weapon into a special weapon at the end of a long rest. Now your brush uses your Charisma to attack, nice. Unfortunately, this doesn't include magical damage, but you can stack this with Shillelagh if you really need to. You also get another set of spells with your Pact Magic. These slots recharge on short rests, and it means your multiclassing doesn't mix slots like most spellcasting classes would. You can still use one kind of slot to cast the other kind of spells though. Speaking of spells, grab Eldritch Blast for some paint splashes, and Mage Hand for a pseudo-octopus that'll grab things for you. Cause Fear lets you paint a really creepy thing one target can see, forcing a wisdom save and scaring them if they fail. Arms of Hadar will give you a little bit of tentacles, as a treat. They'll force a strength save on creatures near you, dealing necrotic damage and making them too gooey to take reactions.

Warlock 2: Second level warlocks get Eldritch Invocations, mini-feats to help you cope with only having two spell slots. Grab Armor of Shadows for free Mage Armor on yourself at will. Your family is your armor, and I mean that literally. Stop wearing your dad, it's creepy. You also get a second one, but we're saving that for the next level. Don't not take one now though, I'm just saying it won't matter in the long run.

Bard 3: Now that your pact is sealed, we can get the real living paintings going. If you're thinking 'bout an inking feel free to shuffle levels around, I just want to hit Font of Inspiration quickly. As a Creation bard, Hokusai gets an Inkling of Potential, adding extra effects to her bardic inspiration. Ability checks let the user roll twice, attack rolls deal extra thunder damage, and saving throws add temporary HP to the user. She can also enact the Performance of Creation, creating a nonmagical item nearby. Currently it must cost less than 20 times your bard level, and it has to be medium or smaller. You can do this once per long rest, or by spending a 2nd level slot, but doing so destroys the first object if it still exists. Right now this only makes medium objects, but a 5' wave of water is nothing to sneeze at. You also get Expertise in two skills, doubling your proficiency them. Pick up Insight and Performance for the ultimate style-copying skills. Finally, you get second level spells. We can't focus too much on non-charisma abilities, but this'll give you a leg up on seeing the true nature of things. It gives you advantage on any one kind of ability check for up to a minute.

Bard 4: Use your first Ability Score Improvement to bump up your Charisma. Now you have more inspiration, better spells, and a bigger brush. Charisma's good, you'll like charisma. You can also paint Dancing Lights and a Phantasmal Force now. The former lights up an area, the latter creates a phantasmal creature or object that only one creature can see for up to a minute. It can break the illusion with an Investigation check, but until then it treats the thing as completely real, rationalizing away inconsistencies. It also can take a bit of psychic damage if the illusion would cause harm within 5' of itself.

Bard 5: Fifth level bards become a Font of Inspiration like we talked about earlier, giving you inspiration recharges on short rests instead of long ones. Your inspiration also jumps to d8s. Finally, grab Major Image for more major illusions than minor image. It creates an object up to 20' on each side, and includes effects like sound, smell, and temperature, as long as they wouldn't deal damage. You can also move the illusion using your action. Same rules apply to breaking it though- investigation check or just touching it.

Warlock 3: Finally back in warlock, you get your pact boon, and the Pact of the Chain gives you Find Familiar as a ritual, and you can skip your own attack to attack with your familiar. Wildly enough, Octopus is already a rules as written option for Find Familiar. Awkward point; octopi can only be out of water for 30 minutes. Good luck with that! On top of that, Mirror Image lets you paint duplicates of yourself, making it harder to hit you. Boom, evade skill achieved. You get three extra copies, and every time you get hit, there's only a 25% chance of actually hitting the real one. If an illusion gets hit, it's destroyed, so the odds go up to 33%, then 50%. You also put in the Investment of the Chain Master, giving your dad a flying speed, the ability to attack as a bonus action, magical weapons, your DC for saves, and you can react to give the little bugger resistance to one instance of damage. Literally everyone else's dad is dead already, try not to add one more to the pile. Except for Romani's, but that's sad in its own way.

Warlock 4: Another ASI, max out your Charisma. It's good, you use it for literally everything. For spells, Mind Sliver deals psychic damage an makes the target's next save a bit harder to make. You also get a Crown of Madness, which gives you control over a creature's attack action. Just because you're less spooky than Abby doesn't mean you're not spooky.

Warlock 5: Fifth level warlocks get a new invocation and third level spell. Summon Shadowspawn lets you paint one of three kinds of shadowspawn, creepy little things that can scare people by screaming at them. They'll obey your commands, and it'll last up to an hour, until they hit 0 HP, or you drop concentration. Your last invocation is the Gift of the Depths, letting you breathe underwater and swim as fast as you can walk. Now it's slightly less awkward to carry your dad around, yay. You can also cast Water Breathing for free once per long rest.

Bard 6: Finally back in bard now, sixth level creation bards can put on an Animating Performance, turning a large or smaller item into a Dancing Item with its own stats and everything. You have to use your bonus action to command it in battle, but you can inspire people at the same time. I'm not sure how well animating water would work, but it's something to look into. You also learn how to Countercharm, spending your action to give creatures near you advantage on saves against being charmed or frightened. For something better, grab Intellect Fortress. For up to an hour, you'll resist psychic damage, and you get advantage on all Int, Wis, and Chr saves.

Bard 7: Seventh level bards get fourth level spells, like Hallucinatory Terrain! Now you can paint a landscape- literally! It's only 150' in range, but that's still plenty of space to mess with people. It doesn't really change anything, but forcing people to look at non-euclidean geometry is its own reward.

Bard 8: Another ASI. Bump up your Dex now so you're less likely to get hit, then grab Phantasmal Killer to paint a scary creature that will follow the target around and beat them up. It's a shame only one creature gets to see it.

Bard 9: Ninth level bards get a better song of rest, but more importantly you get fifth level spells. Legend Lore will help you see the true meaning of things more easily, and the more you already know about something the more you'll learn. That's why your Arcana and Nature skills are so high. Oh, wait, sorry, one sec...

Bard 10: And that's why your Arcana and Nature skills are so high... starting now, with another round of Expertise. Your inspiration also jumps to d10s, and you learn Magical Secrets, two spells from any spell list you can cast. On top of that, you get Prestidigitation to paint up small objects. For your secrets, Conjure Animals lets you paint up some real animals that'll attack enemies for you. Alternatively, you can Control Water to make those waves we've been trying to do with way less fuss than a Song of Creation or Animating Performance. It does come with the limit of using existing water, though you can also Part Water, cause a Whirlpool, or Redirect Flow with this one.

Bard 11: Eleventh level bards get a sixth level spell, and True Seeing will help you see All Things in Nature, letting you see through illusions, invisibility and the like.

Bard 12: One last ASI; bump up your Constitution for better concentration and more HP.

Bard 13: Your Song of Rest is a d10 now, and you get a seventh level spell. Prismatic Spray is the return of Color Spray, but it's taken steroids. Now it deals plenty of damage of a random type to each creature in its area, or it has a chance to shove them into another dimension or petrify them.

Bard 14: Your last goody from the college of creation is a Creative Crescendo, allowing you to paint up to your Charisma Modifier in items when you use a Performance of Creation. Only one can be a biggun, the rest have to be small or tiny. Also, your max size is Huge now, and a 15' cube of water will make a pretty big splash. You also get another round of Magical Secrets, grabbing you Conjure Elemental for a more symbolic approach to flooding people, and Wrath of Nature to paint a landscape that'll really fuck with someone. The grass turns land into difficult terrain, the trees will slash at enemies nearby, Roots and vines restrain enemies, and Rocks will throw themselves at enemies, knocking them prone on a failed strength save. It's not mind melting geometries, but it's still mess with people's heads.

Bard 15: Your ultimate level gives you a d12 inspiration die. You also get one last spell, of the eighth level. Feeblemind will handle all the mind melting the last level failed to live up to, forcing an intelligence save and dealing damage regardless. On a failed save, the creature's Intelligence and Charisma drop to 1, and it can't cast spells, use magic items, talk, or understand people. The only ways to fix this are with another Intelligence saving throw (every 30 days) or using Greater Restoration, Heal, or Wish.

Pros and Cons

Pros:

Like the regular Hokusai, this build has a great deal of flexibility, with pretty good AC, HP, and physical attack options to get up close and personal, as well as ways to buff allies and attack with spells at a distance.

Speaking of spells, they give you a lot of crowd control options. You can create extra allies with summoning spells and Animating Performance, blow them away with waves from Control Water or Performance of Creation, or keep them tied up with various illusions.

You're also really good at fighting other spellcasters. Spells like Protection from Evil and Good and Intellect Fortress will shore up most of your saves against fancier spells, and you can use Feeblemind to completely shut down anyone who isn't a wizard or artificer.

So piss off your patron and kick the ass of their flunkies, easy! Wait, there's still cons.

Cons:

Okay, so there are some problems with throwing waves all over the place: they're hard to control where exactly they end up. Also, your best wave requires real water, which won't always be available.

On a similar note, you specialize in summons and illusions, both of which tend to require Concentration saves. Yours aren't that great, and on top of that it means you can only have one up at a time. Unless you're cool with an elemental running around willy nilly, but that fits into Con #1.

Your Familiar can only stay on dry land for 30 minutes at a time. If you're going to play this in a landlocked campaign, switch the octopus and last invocation for something else, it'll be a pain otherwise.

Okay, she isn't perfect, just make sure you carry an aquarium with you, problem solved, right?

#fate grand order #fgo #D&D 5e #dnd #Katsushika Hokusai #Warlock #Bard

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petrifact · 2 years ago

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Write Your Own Adventure Lesson 9: Research for Your RuneQuest Adventure

This lesson discussed what research might need to be done for an RPG adventure, both of the fictional setting and of relevant details taken from the real world, and asked participants to write down what research they would have to for their particular adventure. Here's what I wrote:

I've already been doing some research about Glorantha to write my adventure. In particular, I wanted to find out as much as I could about the Lismelder Tribe and the Upland Marsh. There's not that much about either in seventh edition materials (though the Gamemaster Adventure book does have some information on the Lismelder tribe), but there was more in earlier editions, in Tales of the Reaching Moon #19 and Wyrm's Footprints #15, so I skimmed through those sources for anything that looked relevant or useful. (I also asked questions on the Chaosium forums and got very helpful responses from the posters there.)

Again, it turns out I missed some important material about Ten Spear, so I apparently didn't research it as well as I thought. Oh well. Moving on...

As for some real-world topics of research, well, the RuneQuest Roleplaying in Glorantha core book mentions that the lismelder Tribe "are famous for their great beer", so I figured maybe Ten Spear could have a brewery. But I really don't know anything about how beer was brewed in the Bronze Age (heck, I don't know anything about how beer is brewed today), so that's something to research.

Oh, yes, and (at least) one more thing. I wanted the spirit in the shard to be the spirit of a long-dead Beast Man of an extinct species… but I hadn't decided on what that species was. With the exception of the ducks, the established kinds of Beast Man of Dragon Pass are all based on creatures from classical mythology and/or medieval beliefs, so I wanted to find some other suitable part-human mythical creature that hadn't been used, but I hadn't settled on what yet. (I can think of a few—the onocentaur, the cynocephalus, the sphinx—but I'm sure there are others I'm forgetting or don't know about.) Oh, hey, and I just found one that I think would work perfectly: the draconcopedes. A snake with a human head mentioned in some medieval bestiaries. That'll do. At least, assuming it checks out when I verify the sources and make sure it's not something made up by some Wikipedia editor.

Hm, wait, on second thought, maybe not. Glorantha isn't a medieval world, after all; it's a Bronze Age world, and while the manticore, for instance, may have been best known from medieval bestiaries, its roots go back to ancient Persia. The earliest references to the draconcopedes seem to be from the Middle Ages, so it's not really old enough. I'll keep looking.

Oh, there's the lammasu, of course. Eh, maybe, but it's not really grabbing me. The buraq… hm.

Hm, here's a part-human part-goat creature, but that may be too close to the broo: https://www.eranshahr.com/myths/ghara-gharnagh

There's also this turtle-person from the same site: https://www.eranshahr.com/myths/ab-laku

Wait, aren't there those ancient cave paintings of antelope-man "therianthrope" figures? Oh, yeah, here's what I was thinking of: https://www.labrujulaverde.com/en/2020/06/the-strange-and-controversial-prehistoric-sorcerer-of-the-cave-of-the-trois-freres

Though apparently it's more controversial than I realized. Still, I'm just looking for an ancient myth to use for inspiration; I guess it doesn't matter too much if it's completely authentic. If I'm going for an extinct type of Beast Man, that might be a good fit. Of course, there isn't really an established name for this figure (aside from the clearly unusable "Sorcerer")… but I guess I could just call them "antelope men", and that would be fine. I'll tentatively go with that for now, though I'll keep my eye out for something I like better. (Hm, interesting, there are also cave paintings of bison-headed figures, apparently: https://www.faculty.umb.edu/gary_zabel/Courses/Phil%20281/Philosophy%20of%20Magic/My%20Documents/Therianthropes.htm Well, I think I'll stick with the antelope for now.)

As for the Bronze Age brewing, I found a few sites with some interesting information on that, including the "oldest known beer recipe" https://www.realmofhistory.com/2017/09/22/oldest-beer-recipe-mesopotamia-ninkasi/ , a description of discovered ruins of an ancient Green brewery https://www.livescience.com/61590-oldest-beer-in-greece.html and an article about Bronze Age beer-brewing in Ireland https://www.irishtimes.com/culture/unearthing-bronze-age-brewing-1.953684. Oh, and this could be useful: a video of a reconstruction of brewing techniques from a 3800 recipe https://ne-np.facebook.com/BeoirFestonline/videos/recreating-a-bronze-age-beer-for-the-modern-world/708828930137367/ Okay, I think there's enough here I can get a sufficient idea of what a Bronze Age beer brewery may have been like.

Oh, yes, one more thing. I was going to have beekeeping as one of the village's more significant industries, so… I guess that's another thing to research. Though this page looks like a promising start: https://www.agriculturalmuseums.org/2020/04/16/how-has-beekeeping-changed-over-time-an-archaeobeekeeper-and-an-archaeological-open-air-museum-in-germany-showcase-pre-and-proto-historic-beekeeping-methods/ Oh, and here are a few more documents I can look at: https://www.evacranetrust.org/uploads/document/2949b8a5ef604548975b4b0eb7d9e738cd654435.pdf https://www.apicultural.co.uk/tears-of-re-beekeeping-in-ancient-egypt

(Okay, yeah, I could make those links clickable in this Tumblr post but, eh, it's taking me long enough to make all these posts as it is, and I need to spend time actually working on the adventure. You can always copy and paste the links if you really want to see where they go.)

#RPG #RPGs #ttrpg #Write Your First Adventure #Chaosium #RuneQuest #Glorantha #tabletop rpg

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azurevi · 4 years ago

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enstars charas with an overworked s/o

First time writing enstars🤡 this took kinda long becz exams but i hope its good ^^ also kinda self indulgent hhh

Characters : natsume, ibara, leo, tatsumi, arashi, keito

Natsume

Natsume watches from the doorway as your head bobs about, hands tapping unrhythmically on the keyboard. You're already falling asleep, yet you still refuse to go to bed.

Normally he won't interfere with your work, knowing that you're fully capable of making the right decisions, but it's a pain seeing you pushing yourself so hard.

"Still working?" he steps in, holding a steaming drink in his hands.

Your head snaps up at his voice, and you nod. It's a project that you've put off for far too long, and of course, you have to suffer the consequences.

"The deadline is two days later, if I don't finish this section today I probably won't make it in time,"

He sets the mug beside your hand, observing your wandering gaze and disheveled hair which you must've been running your hand through. "I don't think you can finish it, though. You already look worn out."

You raise the mug to your lips and take a sip of whatever it holds. The drink tastes sweet and refreshing in your mouth, and almost instantly your muscles relax. "You aren't any better, you know,"

That's true. Being a nightowl himself, Natsume's words don't really seem all that persuasive. At first you would lecture him about how little he rested, but you gave up eventually. You suppose he's built differently, seeing as he can still perform well after only three hours of sleep.

"Pretty sure I'm in better condition," he says, pulling a chair beside you and popping down. The wood scraps against the floor, creaking slightly. It's usually a sound that you find unbearable, but you seem to have missed it as you try to continue your work.

"Come here, love," he stretches his arms out, wiggling his fingers expectantly. You raise a brow, contemplating whether you should give in. It won't be a surprise if you fall asleep right away in his arms.

"But work…" you sigh, tearing your eyes from him. His shoulders drop immediately, a frown forming from the rejection. "You're just gonna leave me hanging? How cruel…"

You know he's just messing with you when he let out a dramatic huff, but somehow his defeated look still tucks at your heartstrings.

"Fine, fine…" you sigh, sneaking your arms around his torso and burying your head into his neck. His chest hums with satisfaction as he digs his fingers into your messy hair, soothing out knots he finds along the way gently. With every stroke you're getting drowsier and drowsier, and you know that you're supposed to be working, but the feeling of his hand running through your locks and the steady rise of his chest convince you to stay.

You fall asleep almost immediately after you close your eyes. Natsume calls out to you and smiles when he hears your slight snoring instead. It's probably the best to get you to the bed and tug you in, but he decides to stay in his spot for a moment longer and relish your presence.

Ibara

Ibara knows from experience just how hard it can be to sway you when you’ve made up your mind. That’s why he doesn’t try to sweet talk you or lecture you into sleeping.

No, if he really wants to get you to listen, he will have to trick you into it.

Almost like a hunter watching his prey, Ibara leans against the doorway as he tries to come up with a flawless plan for his mission. Several empty cans are littered around the desk and he can already smell the aroma of coffee from so far away. You had your fist in your hair, and every once in a while you had to stretch your muscles awkwardly from the lack of movement.

“Don’t you think you deserve a break?” he walks towards you, peeking over your shoulder at the work you’re struggling with. It’s yet another project for the other units, and you seem to be stuck in a dilemma.

“I don’t feel like sleeping without finishing this,” you say.

“Right, but I think you added an extra 0 here,” he points at the paper you're working on, where the value had been increased tenfold because of your negligence.

“Oh goodness,” you sigh deeply, immediately erasing the zero. “How amateurish of me,”

Ibara watches as you rub the space between your eyes, trying to soothe the looming headache that was making your work even harder. “It feels like all the muscles in my body died,”

“You’ve been sitting for hours after all,” Ibara suddenly smiles, his eyes diminishing into thin slits. You don’t need to hear anything to know that he’s plotting something behind the smile. “What if I give you a short massage?”

Well… that is unexpected.

“A massage,” you repeat.

“That’s right,”

Now that is interesting. You’ve heard from Hiyori about how good Ibara’s massages are for more times than you can count, and it’s something you’ve always wanted to try. It just keeps slipping your mind. A massage sounds just as appealing as a five star meal right now considering how tired your limbs feel.

“Come on, I promise it’ll be worth it,”

“Fine,”

His smile widens even more. “Alright then! Please get onto the bed,”

“You wanna do it on the bed?” you frown. “I’ll fall asleep,”

“It’s not gonna be long,”

This sounds way too risky especially with the amount of work that’s still unfinished, but his grin is unwavering, as if he already knows what your answer will be.

“God, alright,” you admit defeat and throw yourself onto the bed face first. There is a moment of quiet shuffling before Ibara settles himself behind you, making sure he isn't crushing you under his weight. His hands find their way to your back, and start working their magic.

"Normally I would get massage oils, but that'll be for next time," Ibara says in a low voice, as if trying to lull you to sleep. Hiyori was right about his skills -- you don't think you've ever had a massage so satisfying before. Somehow, he just knows where to knead and how much pressure to put. With every passing minute your muscles are getting looser, as is your mind. You almost feel bad experiencing this for free.

You're about to fall asleep when something suddenly jolted your consciousness, like a big slap to your face. You have no idea how long you've been laying down in that hazy state, but you've still got work to do.

"That was the most incredible massage ever but I have to work now…" is what you're trying to say, but the words come out too jumbled and incoherent to be understood. When you try to get up, Ibara presses you back down, insisting that he's not done with the massage yet.

"I'm going to fall asleep for real," you argue weakly as your body slumps back into the mattress. Ibara watches as your words cease and your face loosens up, mouth slightly ajar as you finally indulge yourself to sleep. Maybe you'll be mad at you in the morning, but seeing you rest makes everything worth it.

Leo

This is so, so ridiculous.

You've been telling Leo to go to bed for the past two hours, but did he listen? Evidently not, seeing as he's clinging to your arm with half-lidded eyes that are failing him every two seconds.

"Just go to sleep first, kay? I still have tons of stuff to do," you flip the pile of complicated documents around, not wanting to spare them another glance. Alas, there isn't much time left before your work is due, and the only way you can think of to tackle this is to keep pushing through no matter how worn out your body feels.

Your head is throbbing and somehow your sight just won't focus. You're pretty sure you're starving too, but you feel no incentive to leave your seat and grab snacks. No, you have to finish your work as soon as possible.

This might've been a lot easier if not for Leo. In the middle of your working he suddenly jolted awake and whined about wanting to cuddle with you. It's no surprise though, considering how often the two of you cling to each other during your sleep, but tonight just doesn't work out.

"Aren't you tired too? I can't sleep without you…" Leo mumbles.

"Pretty sure you're falling asleep as you speak," you say, even though you shouldn't be the one talking right now, not when you're also getting groggy just from his warmth and presence.

When you turn to look at him, his face is squished against your arm, mouth slightly ajar as he snores. To prevent him from waking up again, you decide to tuck him in.

Which is a big mistake, because just the sight of the bed is enough to knock you out. Also because Leo's not letting go of your arm even in his sleep.

"Come to rest, please…" he mumbles quietly and you sigh. Trying to work when your body is screaming isn't going to do much anyway, you suppose, and you flop yourself onto the mattress with the boy. Leo may be childish at times, but everything he does comes from wishing for your wellbeing.

Tatsumi

Lying to Tatsumi feels like committing the worst crime ever, but the guilt of going to sleep with your work still unfinished is even greater.

That explains why you're here under the dim light of the desk lamp against Tatsumi's advice, trying to fight the sleepiness getting to your head as you type away on the keyboard. Just a few more pages and you will go to sleep, you decide, but 'a few more pages' is looking a lot like five essays right now.

You lean back against the chair, throwing your head back. You dare not close your eyes, because you're sure a second longer than an usual blink and you'll be a goner.

"Come on, come on…" you return to the original position, shoulders slumped and eyes squinting as you try to string sentences together. What is usually an easy task has become an impossible mission, and the voice at the back of your head suggesting you to give up isn't any help.

Absorbed in your work, you fail to notice the ruffling of the blanket and the shuffling of slippers behind you. When Tatsumi sets his hands on the back of your chair and calls you, you flinch dramatically.

"Oh," you sigh after calming down. "Did I wake you up?"

"Not really," he says. "I thought you agreed to go to sleep,"

You grimace at his words that remind you how you made a false promise with him when all he wanted was for you to take care of yourself. "I know I did, but I couldn't really fall asleep thinking of all this stuff," you gesture vaguely at the screen.

"I don't think you're doing well though,"

As if trying to prove his point, a yawn escaped your lips and tears blurred your vision. "I suppose not,"

He sits back onto the bed, reaching out so that he can hold your hands in his. "It's no use trying to work in your current state, you know? I know that you're feeling stressed out from all the work piling up, but rest is important for your productivity too. And I'd hate to see you overworking yourself," he pressed a kiss to your knuckles. "Let's go to bed first, and we'll tackle whatever's on your plate tomorrow, alright?"

He doesn't have to say much to sway you. It's one of his charms anyways -- being able to persuade you without even trying.

Arashi

Arashi glances at the clock. 1am. You've been working at your desk since 8, and she can see that you're already starting to fall asleep.

"Sweetheart? You should go rest," she says softly, resting her arms on your shoulders from behind. This brings your mind back to the present, and you sigh realizing that you've zoned out once again.

"Is this due soon?" Arashi asks.

"Not quite, but I don't want to pile everything up. I'm supposed to finish this part today but so many things happened that hindered my plans," you rub you the corners of your eyes. "And I'm already feeling tired,"

"Then you should probably sleep, right? Lack of sleep can mess your face up easily," she turns to cup your face, professionally observing your skin and missing the blush on your face. "You still look cute, but I'd be really sad if you became a victim of sleep deprivation~"

Her voice sounds light and casual, but you can tell that she's genuinely worried about your health. You pull her into a hug, burying your head in her clothes. She always gives the best hugs, hugs that understands you without having to exchange words, hugs that reassure you and rid you of anything on your mind, that remind you even if the world turned its back on you, you'd still have a home to come to.

"Let's go to bed," you suggest, voice woozy.

"Sure, but let's do some skincare routine first!"

You always enjoy doing routines with her even though you're never one to pay much attention to yourself. But something about her being close and taking care of your face makes you feel at ease, and with her soft hands working on your cheeks, you quickly fall asleep.

Noticing your dropping head, Arashi lets out a sigh before carrying you in her arms, planting a light kiss on your forehead

"Sweet dreams, my love,"

Keito

When you started dating Keito, Kuro was quite delighted. One because he never believed someone could actually put up with the man, and two because someone can finally keep an eye on his atrocious working schedule.

What he didn't expect though, is that you're just as much of a hard worker as Keito.

As the night passes, the two of you are still working incessantly. Except from the occasional small talks, there's only the sound of paper and keyboard in the room. The tea he brewed a while ago has already been emptied. You turn to look at the green-haired man, and although you can only see his back, he doesn't seem to be too affected by all this work. Perhaps his monstrous workload back in Yumenosaki Academy has turned him into a machine who doesn't feel tired.

But that can't be true. Surely, overworking a lot doesn't make you immune to it. Keito may not be vocal about how he feels, but he's still a human, and he's bound to feel tired,

The tapping sound on his end pauses abruptly as he turns to you, only to meet your observing eyes. This startles him a bit, and you let out a small chuckle.

"You should go rest-" he glances at the clock on the wall and frowns. "-it's already so late,"

"You're one to talk," you retort.

"I can still function without sleeping, but you shouldn't push yourself too hard,"

There it is again. He never seems to acknowledge his own weaknesses, only paying attention to others as he hides his feelings inside the myriad of work thrown at him each day.

"No one can 'function without sleeping', Keito. You're not a superman,"

"..."

Keito's shoulders are still tense, but he seems to be deep in thought as he isn't working on the computer either. After a moment of silence, he shakes his head and resumes typing. Perhaps he's reminded of his responsibilities, of the various roles that he plays, and how he can't afford to let anyone down.

As always, it's hard to move Keito. You brush it off and turn back to your work.

It isn't until Keito stands up to get himself a new mug of tea that he realizes how drained you look. Your eyelids are drooping and even from far away he can notice errors on the computer screen. Your figure is slouched, leaning towards the table like you just want to fall asleep right there but can't.

"You should really go to bed," Keito walks to you, hand resting on the chair's rail.

"Are you going to come with me?"

"What?"

"Are you going to come to bed with me?" you repeat.

"I still have work,"

"Then I'm not gonna rest yet,"

Keito raises his brows. "Are you threatening me with your own health?"

"If this is what I need to do for you to rest, then so be it,"

Silence fills the room. He watches as you tap away on the keyboard, re-typing every once in a while because your fingers just can't seem to find the keys. It's almost painful to watch.

"How incorrigible," Keito sighs. "Alright. Let's go,"

You jump to your feet immediately, dragging him to the bedroom. "No sneaking out after I fall asleep, okay? You have to rest for real,"

"Fine," Keito grunts.

The moment his head falls onto the pillow, he swears he can slip into dreamland right away. You throw your arm across his torso and he instinctively rests his head atop yours, listening as your breathing becomes more and more calm.

The both of you may be hopeless cases, but you always find a way to hold each other up.

#enstars x reader #ensemble stars #enstars #natsume sakasaki #ibara saegusa #leo tsukinaga #arashi narukami #tatsumi kazehaya #keito hasumi #sie writes

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toujoursmiraculous · 4 years ago

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Thoughts and Reaction to Gang of Secrets!

I'm very late today at writing this because life ;-; You know it's a bigger episode when they start off with a problem. Ladybug doesn't want to detransform so she's desperate to find reasons to remain Ladybug. I love how the entire time, Chat Noir knows something's wrong and wants to get her to talk about what it is, but she just tries to pretend she's fine. If anything, Chat Noir would probably be the best person to talk to considering everything he's dealt with too both with Kagami and his responsibility as Chat! She could mention that she was seeing someone but they broke up because of her secret, and she could tell him how much being the Guardian's having an affect on her. All perfectly well and good without exposing any identities or things like that with questions for details asked. Instead she puts up a front with him and pretends she's okay in front of him and it's just so sad. :/ I understand why she doesn't, probably because she doesn't want him to know how much she's struggling. But ugh my heart hurts for her. Chat: I know where we can go where we won't have to talk! Ladybug: Yes, take me there Chat! *in the theater* Ladybug: You lead me into a trap. I MEAN HE'S NOT WRONG THOUGH! Not many places you can go where it's okay or encouraged to not talk without there being an awkward silence. But that cracked me UP. Also that casual attempt to wrap his arm around her lolol still hasn't give up, I see. I also find it simultaneously hilarious and extremely depressing that Ladybug's ranting like that in the theater because of a romance movie. When your heart is broken, that's probably the last thing you want to be doing. And Chat Noir yanking her down asking that she be quiet 😂 Literally just rants her entire love life out for everyone including Chat to hear in that theater. CHAT NOIR, YOU BETTER BE LISTENING BECAUSE SHE'S TALKING ABOUT ADRIEN HERE "She takes a long time to tell him and stutters and blah blah blah" lol sound familiar, sunshine? If anything please have him recall this later and be like, wait, didn't Ladybug say girls stutter around a guy when she likes him? BAM. Then he's off on his path towards Marinette. I can dream. Ladybug: And how do you know if he loves her? IMPOSSIBLE. Adrien: No, Marinette couldn't possibly be in love with me. *eyetwitch* But at the end of the day. This is Marinette ranting to Adrien about how she had to give up on Adrien and then couldn't make things work with Luka because of her secret. Ooof. And poor Chat having to apologize for everyone because Ladybug's disturbing them XDD THE GIRL SAVES EVERYBODY'S LIVES PRACTICALLY EVERY DAY AND THEY'RE PISSED SHE'S RUINING A MOVIE THEY CAN JUST REWATCH? 😂 She's clearly having a hard time right now, c'mon people! Chat can tell she has a broken heart. This boy is so sweet. He wants her to at least admit that and talk about it so she can feel better but you know, Ladybug's stubborn. I WANT TO GO SWIMMING LET'S GO SWIMMING CHAT, WOO HOOOOOO! Ladybug acting like Chat to hide her pain just like how Chat acts like Chat to hide his pain. YOU KNOW WHAT, IT'S FINE. :') It doesn't matter how much pain she's dealing with, those pictures mean too much to her to remove them. x3 Thanks Juleka for showing us how sad Luka is now, that's very helpful. Marinette's been going into the bathroom at school to cry, and then had planned stupid looking glasses to hide her tears so people wouldn't have to know she's cried because wearing a ridiculous pair of glasses that's embarrassing is better than being asked what's wrong. Because the pain I feel for her wasn't already enough. Ugh I adore Trixx. Trixx being the voice of reason when Tikki's not there, trying to help and letting her know that Tikki may need to rest too when she's so upset it doesn't cross her mind. And the tears in her eyes when she apologizes to Tikki for not thinking of her like she should. ;-; SO MUCH PAIN. OH DANG Alya was literally a second away from seeing a detransforming Marinette lol But she did say DETRANSFORMATION or well in the English dub it'll be "Spots

off" I love Rose, she's really sweet. and considerate But she also shouldn't be touching things in others rooms like that. I never liked it when my friends went around my room touching stuff. Also didn't help that a couple of them stole from me... but it's just not a cool thing to do. Would've probably ended up much better had she not had to desperately hide an exposed Miracle Box. But then we wouldn't have had what happens so it's all good c: Marinette saying she doesn't want to be friends with the girls anymore

It hit Alya deep. Everyone else is like *le gasp* but her eyes all shrunken like that, you can tell it really got to her hard.

This entire exchange right here. Alya's glance at her in the first picture is piercing, like I can feel that OOF feeling in my chest when I see it. The new music dramatizes it so well that a lot of people probably didn't pay attention to it the first time around. Can we just appreciate how these animators got all these emotions so right and did such a good job animating everything for us? And those that work on the music too? Everything's so spot on. Marinette's red-rimmed eyes is so well done. "No, it can't end like this!" Awww Alix getting super upset too x3 I honestly think Alix could be the next one.... you know what I mean BUT I'll wait until the end to talk about it. Trixx pulling a Plagg and rescuing Marinette! x3 I seriously love Trixx, I really do. I know the other Kwami's got mad, but if he hadn't done that it would've been disaster, probably. And the episode wouldn't have ended how it did! And Plagg knowing it was Trixx who caused the Eiffel Tower to be all weird xD Why do I get the feeling the relationship between Trixx and Plagg would be like that of Chat Noir and Rena Rouge? And I want to point out, we got 7 whole seconds of Adrien again! Aren't we lucky? The last time we got so little of Adrien in an episode was when we had his parallel episode Lies. I don't think that'll happen this time but I do hope it means more Adrien later on. Ladybug: They're after Marinette Dupain-Cheng. Chat Noir: Okay but remember everybody likes her (so don't go thinking she's a bad person for causing their akumatizations) Yes, I read between the lines. Ladybug being able to get through to Lady Wifi and have her deakumatize herself was absolutely amazing! I know Chloe was the first to fight off being akumatized but once you're akumatized it's obviously extremely hard to break. That says a lot about Alya. "Because you're an incredible friend, Ladybug." One, AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW Two, did you notice the little jerk of her head, gesturing to Ladybug like that when she said it?? It's the little details guys that make this so good. 😍 "Chat Noir, nooooo!" Guys, we got our tiny little Marichat scene! It's not actually real, but still! (okay but why do I also get this really weird feeling like something like this may end up being real later?) Alya giving Ladybug that hug 😭 Marinette has such good, supportive friends. I love them all. x.x YES THANK YOU. Alya's finally realizing there are more things going on with her than just boys. One of the things that's always irked me since Chameleon is that any issue Marinette has, be it with Lila or otherwise, she always assumes it has to do with Adrien. Of course, at the time she didn't know she was Ladybug but she should've still listened and realized there's something else up. But now she finally is noticing and I love how she was going to respect her regardless and not push. Pushing has always been one of Alya's characteristics, but she knew whatever it was was something too big and serious to push her on. "Marinette, I'm your best friend, and I always will be." 😭😭😭 This episode brought me so close to tears so many times. Marinette admitting she's keeping secrets, lying to everyone. Admitting that that's why she draws a line between her and Adrien, and why her and Luka didn't work out. Alya saying however heavy it is, they'll carry it together (MY HEART) And then Marinette saying "If I tell you, things between us will never be the same. It's going to destroy everything, change it all." It sounds like this girl is thinking about Chat Blanc and oop there's the sound of my heart breaking again. So much paaaain. "Je suis Ladybug." YESSSSSSS Why they had to leave it off on a cliffhanger But YESSSSSSS First, the expressions she had flash on her face, the gasp 😮, then the expression like she's trying to get her mind to process. Then if you notice, Marinette gives a little nod, as if letting her know that it's true. Then the way her eyebrows furrow and pulls her into the hug as she understands all that she has on her shoulders as that music plays. I'm getting

emotional just writing this. 😭 This episode is just so amazingly good in so many ways, I don't think I can actually cover it all. I'm very impressed. I've loved nearly every episode this show has put out, even those that a lot of people seem to hate. But this one, I don't see how this could actually be hated if you're trying to think of everything that happened from Marinette's point of view, her thoughts, feelings, struggles, depression. I will say, personally I hoped Chat Noir would learn who Ladybug is first. He's been such a good partner, very thoughtful, always putting his life on the line. He's also been dealing with a lot of the same struggles. I felt like he deserved to know first. However, this isn't about who deserves what, it's about what Marinette needs. It's not that she doesn't want to tell him who she is! Don't misunderstand. There are many times throughout the past 3 seasons where she wants to or regrets not being able to. But now, Chat Blanc's in her mind. She knows what could happen if she tells him with Hawk Moth still there, so she can't do it. So instead, she tries to pretend in front of him that she's fine even though talking to him about everything would help and fix so much. In her mind, that's not an option. I just hope that when he finds out she told someone else first, he doesn't think that she doesn't trust him enough to tell him. Next I thought maybe Alix. That way it'd be more understandable to Chat that she'd know, after all future Bunnyx clearly knows and said to Ladybug that she chose her because she's capable of keeping secrets (notice how Alya said that to Ladybug in the alley? I bet Alix will find out in the near future. Maybe not this season, but she'll find out.) But that's for another time. But now Alya knows! Her best friend, the one to have her back and will no doubt have it even more so now! Watch out, Lila. Alya doesn't hold back so I can imagine how vicious she could be to her (and I can't wait). And that brings up a very interesting thought. Alya will realize Adrien has been the only one to have her back in Lila situations. Why would he do that, hmm? When everyone else was so sure Lila's an angel and Marinette must be bad for saying anything negative about her. Journalist Alya, incoming! There's also the matters of Alya bringing up Marinette's feelings for Chat Noir because duh, everybody can see how much she loves him! There are even photos of them kissing, one of which happened in front of Alya's own eyes! Though affected by an akuma, they all know that kiss didn't happen because of it. And of course, Alya has brought up twice in the show so far that Adrien and Chat Noir could be the same person. And last time Alya said that neither of them could be Ladybug and Chat Noir. Except, she's now found out that Marinette is Ladybug. So maybe Adrien could after all be Chat Noir. I look forward to seeing how their new dynamic is. I wonder how this affects their relationship with the other girls. And I'm most curious about how Nino and Adrien may react to this change. I thought during Truth and Lies both that their best friends were going to find out about their breakups. Gang of Secrets was Alya finding out. Even though I feel like another parallel episode is just wishful thinking, I can't help but think it may be a possibility. Nino and the boys are going to wonder what's up with Adrien too. They're going to wonder why he's not with Kagami anymore so suddenly. So what if i the end, Chat Noir ends up telling Nino? I could see it, if this takes place shortly after Gang of Secrets, where she tells Chat that she's confided her identity in a very close friend and somehow they agree that he can tell someone too that he trusts to make it fair. It'd be an amazing way to exercise Ladybug's trust in Chat Noir too. Then we'd have both Alya and Nino in on it, keeping their best friend's secrets for them without knowing about the other one. Oh that'd be so beautiful! And also let them keep their Miraculouses too after the charms are given to them and Alya has the ability to break

free after being akumatized. I adore Rena and Carapace so much I'd be ecstatic if they kept them. 😭 Anyway, so much potential can come out of this episode and I honestly cannot wait until episode 4!!

#ml #miraculous ladybug #miraculous tales of ladybug and chat noir #ml spoilers #ml season 4 spoilers #ml spoilers season 4 #gang of secrets spoilers #I wrote this late because I've been in a ton of pain today but I hope you enjoy it anyway!#alya cesaire #marinette dupain-cheng #ladybug #rena rouge

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novelistash · 4 years ago

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Wattpad & Twitch?

I saw the term Writeblr. Am I a Writeblr? Is Writeblr a page or a person? Well, this Jon Snow has been dipping their toe into the wide world of Wattpad. Any other writers on there? Drop your links! I've been reading stories live on Twitch, and it's been a lot of fun! There's a lot of lost talent there, as with all writing spaces, but it definitely needs some help finding air to breathe.

Why did I decide to read Wattpad stories live on Twitch? Read more. (I hope I'm using this feature right.)

About two and a half years back, I decided that it was time to stop dragging my feet and get traditionally published. (Well I try to get trad pubbed.) I knew that Twitter would be the place to promote and Wattpad would generally be the place to share, but I also knew those places would be full of competition. November was coming up so I thought, "why don't I live stream Nano? That'll be fun." It wasn't.

As much as people don't want to read, they definitely don't want to read while an author is writing. Twitter had a very small writing community then and I haven't seen it get any more popular. Which isn't to say it couldn't get popular, but I don't think it works as a way to GET an audience. I could talk about those who've found moderate success, but if I'm going to do that I'd like to talk to them and maybe interview them. Something I've considered putting on my ghost town of a YT channel.

Regardless, I was on Twitch for about a month. I never gained any kind of following and every viewer I saw on those channels were people like me, those who were trying to promote their own writing. So, yes, I could gain followers of other writers, but I couldn't build a brand that way. I had too much experience with similar platforms to think otherwise. If I wanted to get readers, I needed to be on the platform that readers were using.

That lead me to more or less wasting two years on Twitter. I mean, I met some cool people while on there and had good interactions. But was it good for my brand? Did it help me find readers? I'd say a resounding "no" on both parts. The funny thing about Twitter is that it's great at making you think that people care about you. Shit post about a bad day? Hundreds of replies. Link to a blog going into detail about that bad day? Now you're starting to see how little people actually care. At some point I can go into the nuances of my time in the trenches of Twitter, but the point is that it didn't help my writing career.

For me, the biggest problem with Twitter was the same problem with all writer-centric spaces: we are sellers without customers. I like to describe these spaces as towns of vendors. We each have our vendor stall set up, and see lots of people walking. This is great! That means there are customers! Except all of those people walking on the street are also vendors. They're only there to sell their own wares. Yes, there's mutual inflation and reciprocal commerce, but writers make a poor basis for a readership. If someone is selling eggs, they want to sell to bakers, cooks, and the common man, not their fellow ranchers.

Regardless of fame and fortune, I want a readership. I write for myself, yes, but once those words are on the page, I want someone to read those words. I've been writing for over twenty years by this point and during that time my perspective has almost always been, how do I get readers? It's a natural question to ask, but it's driven by selfish desires at its core. I think for the writers of today, the bigger question might need to be, "how do I get people to read?"

The larger problem with readers, is that there aren't that many of them. If there are ten billion eggs in a town of a hundred, most of those eggs are going to rot. And even though most everyone knows that the general public doesn't habitually read, there seems to be this stigma against talking about it. Ever since I started writing, the talking point has always been "people thought comics would destroy the novel, but it didn't."

Okay, so, there are still readers, but could you say that a majority of the people read? Comic books, television, movies, and video games all offer more senses than the written word. They offer experiences that books never can, so why would anyone choose to read a book when they could instead watch that same story play out on screen?

Well, the written word can actually offer things that other media can't. In general, novels are closer to the emotional landscape of the story. Books invite the reader to be a part of the creation process, rather than a passive observer. The lack of a spoken word or portrait lets the reader construct whatever voice or face they desire. Beyond all of that, readers tend to spend more time with a book than any other media. (I'll hold off on a thorough debate of the narrative quality of iterative gameplay loops in video games for the time being, but I'd be hard pressed to find someone who enjoyed Preston Garvey's procedurally generated missions more than any of the designed quests in Fallout 4.) The point is that the written word is not without value, simply that its qualities are losing appreciation.

That's where the idea of reading stories came about, not as a way to increase my visibility, but as a way to increase the number of readers in the world. Opera single handedly created a boom in book sales by doing little more than talking about books. I think that modern entertainment can take interest in reading farther. Podcasts and Twitch streams are filled with content that is actually dead air, but people will tune in and listen. They connect with the player, the streamer, the speaker, and they are content to be apart of somebody else's discovery. A big part of what makes Twitch successful is simply watching these personalities react.

Wattpad is literally an endless supply of new stories that are available for free online. For some, anything that isn't traditionally published is a book not worth anyone's time. But there are hundreds of thousands of people submitting entire novels to literary agents every single year. Statistics alone supports the idea that great books are not going to get the representation they deserve. What are those thousands of unpublished authors supposed to do with their novels, wait patiently for exterior validation?

I don't think there's any shame in self publishing a novel and Wattpad and platforms like it are a perfectly reasonable way of putting out that content. Is there under edited content on Wattpad? Of course, but can anyone in good faith say the same isn't true of all published works? Yes, some writers are just starting out, and they dump their content onto Wattpad, but I don't understand why that's immediately a reason to balk. The writers liked the idea enough to bring it to life. Sure, finding a way to manifest those ideas is complex and difficult, but I honestly believe that a first body of work can still have an unironic entertainment in them.

I've been streaming on Wednesdays from 10am-noon pacific time. I might change that moving forward, but right now it's looking like I'm only going to be adding more time. If you're interested in joining me for story time, check me out on Twitch.

https://www.twitch.tv/ashnovelist

#writeblr #writing #twitch #explanations no on asked for #wattpad #seriously share your stories and I will read them

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punkscowardschampions · 5 years ago

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Zelda & Zach

ihatemyguts: [Ready for a flimsy excuse to talk lmao] ihatemyguts: Question, would Lauren actually be 👍 or 👎 if I turn up to her stream? ihatemyguts: Couldn't tell inandout: ecstatic inandout: her 👚👕👖🧦 could come off inandout: it's hard to tell if she's joking ihatemyguts: I will 🏃 to 🧼 my 👀 ihatemyguts: and time my tip really well before that potential eventuality inandout: smart move inandout: people pleasing ihatemyguts: She was nice, funny ihatemyguts: no 💩 nosing but yeah, I'm not in a position to be picky inandout: she's good at the "older sister away at uni partying but still there for you" role ihatemyguts: do you have a real one? inandout: I've got a brother, he's older than her and less of a party animal ihatemyguts: Mine too ihatemyguts: he's not as old as her but first date @ 18 isn't far off the vibe inandout: Robbie would call that hella awkward inandout: but I don't think mine has had one yet at 21 inandout: unless it's with a 🤖 he created ihatemyguts: that would be as impressive as it is 😢 inandout: he only likes to flex academically impressive muscles inandout: and believes no girls are interested in that inandout: despite being at uni ihatemyguts: 💔 ihatemyguts: Bless inandout: Lauren would knock his head together with every dream girl of his he's surrounded by until it fell off inandout: I'm a pacifist though ihatemyguts: Brothers are stupid ihatemyguts: his 💭👸 might be the stereotype of a cheerleader that doesn't even exist ihatemyguts: just ⏳⌛️ inandout: wouldn't leave me shooketh to find out you're onto something inandout: he does watch Love Island ihatemyguts: 🧠 representation, man ihatemyguts: you do not always get the girl at the end and if you do, you'll have so little in common you should just put her back inandout: I had a mental image of him just forcing a girl back up onto these high shelves we have in our kitchen inandout: not today, honey ihatemyguts: 😂 ihatemyguts: if only people were shelvable ihatemyguts: keep 'em in storage 'til you're feeling 💯 inandout: + if I'm heroically expected to get her down, the stumbling block is that the 🍪🍬🍭 are kept up there ihatemyguts: she'll have to eat it all to save you right back inandout: a love story inandout: we need to pitch it to Netflix ihatemyguts: I have done so much research for this ihatemyguts: Robyn can write it ihatemyguts: Rich can DEMAND actually disabled actors, and Rosie can ask nicely inandout: you have to be the lead, then the viewers will be on edge of their seats when you eat the 🍪🍬🍭 ihatemyguts: Lauren might 👊 me for it inandout: the spotlight would give her a seizure ihatemyguts: Awh ihatemyguts: lucky teen dramas are so moodily lit ihatemyguts: think twilight not spring breakers inandout: so dark that everyone has to squint and give themselves a headache inandout: dizzying camera angles inandout: getting our own back one symptom at a time ihatemyguts: may have to 🔪🔪 someone to make 'em shit their pants ihatemyguts: but you can nominate your brother, that's cool inandout: let him come back as a 🤖 at the end ihatemyguts: how's his Arnie? inandout: hmmm inandout: borderline racist? inandout: but we're Jewish and he's Austrian, I don't think he'll come for us ihatemyguts: not gonna go zombie for that ihatemyguts: definitely free pass for life on all the racial jokes @ their expense inandout: the shortened life span will help make up for it too ihatemyguts: no 🤖 ending? ihatemyguts: 👎 inandout: abrupt fade to black inandout: hopefully ihatemyguts: Iconic ihatemyguts: see your vision inandout: much as lingering death rattle would be an epic punk band or album name ihatemyguts: 🤔 ihatemyguts: you're a frontman, right? inandout: self nominated ihatemyguts: I see it inandout: you're drums ihatemyguts: only if I get to be on a dramatic raised platform above you all at the back inandout: if you swear not to 🚿 us with 💩 ihatemyguts: it would bring the horror ihatemyguts: very Carrie ihatemyguts: but 🤞 inandout: very Slipknot ihatemyguts: I'm down for a mask situation inandout: I'm not 🥵 ihatemyguts: Valid ihatemyguts: but you're cute, people will wanna see you inandout: cute is 🐕🐩🐈 or 🐖🐑🐐🐄 inandout: we can't start an animal band unless you can talk to them and ask if they really want inandout: ...some kind of rockstar life ihatemyguts: True, Ozzy was NOT asking those 🦇 if they were about the fame inandout: and they became another casualty of inandout: sickening ihatemyguts: is that the deal ihatemyguts: my bowel has decided not to work so I get to speak to animals? ihatemyguts: 🤙 inandout: that's a 10 episode series pitch ihatemyguts: god knows there has to be a redeeming feature of a sick kid ihatemyguts: can't be an arsehole who's suffering, not relatable and not enjoyable -10/10 inandout: you can only be an arsehole if yours works inandout: hooray for me ihatemyguts: lucky ihatemyguts: don't wanna flex on you by sparking up, really inandout: can you drink? It's a no for me ihatemyguts: it's iffy ihatemyguts: like it's not great ihatemyguts: but if I don't get big sister at Uni levels, technically inandout: technically same, but who wouldn't wanna get to that level inandout: who's doing it for the taste? ihatemyguts: I personally LOVE the taste of rotting fruit inandout: I have no sense of smell and barely any of taste and even I know wine and beer are both bad inandout: maybe the first sip of spirits will change my life ihatemyguts: that's a dangerous game ihatemyguts: it's already supposedly scentless a lot of the time ihatemyguts: you'd get wasted real fast inandout: not a date then ihatemyguts: not for long ihatemyguts: 🏥 is a fave haunt obviously but not ideal, even for a 2nd date inandout: 3rd? ihatemyguts: s'one way to end up in bed ihatemyguts: sure inandout: kids at my school do keep asking me if I've ever hooked up in hospital inandout: that being my number 1 priority each time ihatemyguts: 🙄 ihatemyguts: like it's some cringy show mums would watch ihatemyguts: with the staff or with all the random hottie in their prime that are just roaming the corridors, yeah, alright inandout: + 🏥 = PICC in case there weren't a high enough risk of getting caught or mild peril ihatemyguts: the thrill of it all ihatemyguts: worth being sick for all the steamy romance, honestly inandout: don't forget the nurses inandout: another fave topic of everyone in class ihatemyguts: yeah, the stress eating and shift work makes 'em 🔥🔥🔥 inandout: no 💐 allowed to keep the atmosphere romantic either ihatemyguts: 💔💔💔 ihatemyguts: sure your class is not concerned about the vibe inandout: well read inandout: they just wanna touch a boob inandout: which is a good song title ihatemyguts: with potential to make a b-side literally about 🍑 ihatemyguts: high🖐 inandout: hi-hat, drummer girl ihatemyguts: badumtss inandout: 🎤 drop ihatemyguts: 🙇👏 inandout: Lauren swears she'll keep her clothes on to play Breath of the Wild ihatemyguts: I'm honoured ihatemyguts: and not at all disappointed ihatemyguts: 😉 inandout: her wardrobe of onesies are incredible inandout: they'll cheer you back up inandout: 👽🤖🐛🐲🦕🦑 + more animals than you'd have time to chinwag with ihatemyguts: obviously, I need to see this to believe 🖖 inandout: like a 🦄 she has one of those too ihatemyguts: thanks for the inside scoop ihatemyguts: can pretend I'm fully psychic now ihatemyguts: get all those oddly specific requests out inandout: that'll spook her inandout: I'm for it ihatemyguts: 🔮🗣🐒 ihatemyguts: not trying too hard to compensate, AT ALL inandout: I hadn't seen the others before today inandout: that was cool ihatemyguts: For real? ihatemyguts: It seems like you all hang like all the time, from the outside creepin' in inandout: you heard the commander, we're not supposed to post pics or personal stuff ihatemyguts: still a weird rule ihatemyguts: like, I get it, online predators, poor defenseless baby disableds, not ideal ihatemyguts: if it was an IRL group, we wouldn't be going by quippy puns on our name badges inandout: [gives her his socials and Lauren is of course in his friends so she can add her too] inandout: I was gonna suggest a meet up but didn't wanna get shot down inandout: the point is, some of us can't get out and about inandout: hasn't passed me by ihatemyguts: that's true ihatemyguts: there has to be a way we can include everybody though, everybody that would possibly want to ihatemyguts: Christ, if we as a group can't think of accessibility solutions ihatemyguts: but my point is, drop you a 💬 if I have any 💡 inandout: @ Rich inandout: he'd figure it out ihatemyguts: right? ihatemyguts: not that I'm desperate for company but frankly ihatemyguts: no, it could be cool inandout: and she won't say, despite what I said about trading on her fame, but Lauren's anniversary is coming up inandout: she'll want company for that ihatemyguts: I don't know if I should know, and I know I'm not gonna ask her ihatemyguts: but it can't be a fun anniversary, anything we could do to make it less of a shit time ihatemyguts: why not inandout: you're in inandout: cool ihatemyguts: 👍 ihatemyguts: the social engagements I won't need to turn down for this ihatemyguts: busy 🐝 I ain't inandout: I wanna ask if you had loads of friends before inandout: it seems like you would ihatemyguts: Kinda ihatemyguts: and not everyone turned into total cunts either, not trying to be that tragic heroine ihatemyguts: awkward adjustment, mainly for me, I know but ihatemyguts: wish I had a cool illness, you know ihatemyguts: can't make 💩 work for me inandout: what's a cool one? ihatemyguts: there's no cool one to have, I know that, like, intelligently, I get it ihatemyguts: but at least if you've got a decent story or you aren't essentially shitting yourself to death as your quirky symptom, people are more into it ihatemyguts: it's stupid but inandout: something that makes you faint dramatically inandout: that'd be netflix worthy inandout: the harder the name is to pronounce, the better ihatemyguts: exactly, providing I do it gracefully and look pretty whilst doing it ihatemyguts: 'cos what's the point in this pain if I can't peddle it to the masses inandout: you could look pretty doing it ihatemyguts: oh yeah ihatemyguts: the glamour would be unreal 😂 inandout: 🍃 ihatemyguts: 📽 ihatemyguts: cinematic inandout: American Beauty and you're the plastic bag ihatemyguts: that's the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me ihatemyguts: okay, Katy Perry inandout: leave Robbie to do the 🐯 roar ihatemyguts: she's cute ihatemyguts: no offense to you but inandout: how many dates are you two going on? ihatemyguts: do her parents let her out of her house, legit ihatemyguts: 'cos that will change the answer a lot inandout: only for 🏥 inandout: but she'll wanna come to the meet up ihatemyguts: then, we'll have to go on loads of dates ihatemyguts: so I can convince them I'm very respectable and not at all contagious inandout: I know JRA sucks but they'd put her in a bubble if they could ihatemyguts: I get it but also ihatemyguts: stop ihatemyguts: actual case of how it's being dealt with making it worse, when I was in hospital, the first time ihatemyguts: there was this tiny kid, and his ma was like...just insane, which is understandable but, it weren't helping her or him inandout: she could outgrow it when she's 16, that'll shake them up ihatemyguts: serious? ihatemyguts: damn inandout: it happens inandout: that's the J inandout: for being a kid ihatemyguts: I had no idea ihatemyguts: like you stop growing and it stops fucking with you, basically? ihatemyguts: that's cool ihatemyguts: if it happens ihatemyguts: worst fucking false hope if it doesn't inandout: yep inandout: sweet or bittersweet 16 ihatemyguts: like 5 months, she said? inandout: I'm gonna go to the party inandout: you should come ihatemyguts: Yeah? ihatemyguts: you think she meant it ihatemyguts: you can tell me if it was just politeness 'cos she is inandout: loneliness inandout: but she likes us too ihatemyguts: how long have you been in the group? inandout: they gave me the info when I was 12 inandout: I didn't wanna use it then though inandout: last summer I decided to ihatemyguts: I feel you ihatemyguts: like, what should we have in common ihatemyguts: but that's actually like any friendship, you got sat next to them one day in class or they shared with you at break ihatemyguts: I was just being a dick about it inandout: there are those inandout: like fibro inandout: but the core group are cool ihatemyguts: Everyone was decent ihatemyguts: if you're a dick you just are, regardless of our shared experiences ihatemyguts: but that is more than I've got with some of my old friends, that's just facts, whether you wanna accept it or nah, you know inandout: yep, me and my 🤖 brother have nothing shared inandout: his DNA is fine ihatemyguts: how was that ihatemyguts: like, was he mad guilty and did you wanna stomp on his lungs a 🤏 bit inandout: some days inandout: but Lauren says I'm better looking than him so what else matters ihatemyguts: 😂 inandout: how's your brother doing with your 💩 life? ihatemyguts: He doesn't say a whole lot ihatemyguts: that was a thing pre 💩 life too so ihatemyguts: guess he gets to keep being mysterious and my illness feels the least invisible when I'm the only kid let out to the 🚽 multiple times a lesson ihatemyguts: 🤷 inandout: you could suggest home school inandout: Robbie's an expert, she'd do you a pro slideshow ihatemyguts: I already miss people inandout: okay, okay, we'll bring the first date forward inandout: I'll escort you to the party ihatemyguts: what's the dresscode? this is vital and I know she's already said inandout: 👑💎 ihatemyguts: Oh good, you'll look extra adorable ihatemyguts: it'll be the usual trial picking which tiara to wear but think I'll survive inandout: Maybe you can take her shopping for your first date ihatemyguts: 💡 idea I'll have to claim as my own inandout: 🙇 ihatemyguts: do any of you go to the same schools ihatemyguts: or are you meant to not know that, either inandout: I don't know where either R goes inandout: and I'd remember Lauren or Rich if they'd been at my school, I think ihatemyguts: I reckon ihatemyguts: shame ihatemyguts: not that I reckoned there'd be an underground network of secret disabled kids at mine but oh well inandout: there could be inandout: you didn't need to find out before ihatemyguts: True ihatemyguts: ⭐ not being the one though ihatemyguts: have to do some more subtle digging inandout: my school has some invisible and visibles besides me ihatemyguts: statistically, there's no chance I'm the only one inandout: most of the ones in our camp have mental health stuff though inandout: or dyslexia, ADHD etc ihatemyguts: hadn't even considered those kinds ihatemyguts: got a lot of studying to do ihatemyguts: that's how it feels ihatemyguts: I barely get what I've got, never mind the endless possibilities of how a human can be slightly fucked inandout: they tend to have their own forums anyway inandout: not that Rosie wouldn't welcome them with a sleepy hug ihatemyguts: ☺️ inandout: it's less 🏥💉🩸 I guess? inandout: sort of 💊 and 🗪 ihatemyguts: Definite crossovers but not fully the same deal ihatemyguts: I see my pharmacist so often we're on date ... ihatemyguts: dread to think inandout: people don't wanna feel like others don't understand them somewhere where they're going for solidarity inandout: or that they can't get a sentence in over all the rest that are being typed ihatemyguts: it is pretty nervewracking ihatemyguts: even if yours is decent inandout: I used to be a big lurker inandout: some days I still am inandout: Lauren will always fill up the gaps ihatemyguts: you need all types, I reckon inandout: same ihatemyguts: like families ihatemyguts: even the creepy uncle inandout: if I don't have one does that mean I'm destined to become him? ihatemyguts: only if your brother finds a cheerleader ihatemyguts: you're probably alright inandout: he could adopt Robbie and let her live cage free ihatemyguts: that was a bit creepy ihatemyguts: oh my god, it's started ihatemyguts: 👹 inandout: damn inandout: much to think about inandout: a life to reassess ihatemyguts: if you're actually going ihatemyguts: thanks ihatemyguts: for being cool inandout: you were cool first inandout: I didn't lead a revolution ihatemyguts: you had to be cool enough not to shoot it down inandout: I'm so cool I've fallen at the creepy uncle fashion hurdle inandout: can't get a 🧢 on without a haircut inandout: it's all about the 🧦 now ihatemyguts: you know how to paint a picture ihatemyguts: even though I can now stalk your socials in my own time inandout: easier to explain you than Lauren inandout: my friends at school were shook by her ihatemyguts: I can imagine ihatemyguts: she'd be happy with that though 😏 inandout: she was inandout: [posts a selfie with his best attempt at a creepy uncle aesthetic because I doubt I'm finding a gem like that from Finn] ihatemyguts: oh my god ihatemyguts: 👏 ihatemyguts: that would be fully #triggering, top marks inandout: ♟ your move inandout: wine mum or vodka aunt ihatemyguts: Oh, I have perfect wine mum clothes ihatemyguts: had very bad taste a few years back and the 👻 are hanging about ihatemyguts: hold on inandout: I can't make the baited breath comment twice in a day, that's too much inandout: and I know I did in group ihatemyguts: 💔 I'm not special enough inandout: come back tomorrow for new puns ihatemyguts: [selfie in Amma's weird little girl/suburban mom clothing 'cos was not a mood] ihatemyguts: are you sure? inandout: damn inandout: come back tomorrow for a new photo challenge ihatemyguts: alright ihatemyguts: you're on inandout: cool

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sirsparklepants · 5 years ago

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Guess what, y'all, this is now a full-fledged fic with endgame Harringrove, and since my friends aren't into that, y'all get snippets as I write! Have one of Steve and Billy bonding. (comes after this bit)

"Your mom's a trip," he said to Steve. "Did she give us wine in actual glasses while we're working on a car?"

"Yeah," Steve said, smiling wryly. "She wouldn't be a good hostess if she didn't pour us a glass while she's having one, and I think she'd rather have a root canal than serve wine in anything but the right glasses."

"Jesus." Billy shook his head. Rich people were weird. "Doesn't she care she's gonna have to scrub engine grease off of 'em later?"

Steve laughed and took a sip of his own wine. "Ah, no. She doesn't do the dishes. That'll be me scrubbing the fingerprints off tonight. Price of still living at home, I guess."

"Better than me," Billy found himself saying. "I help with the chores, too, but I think I just stuck myself with balancing the checkbook and shit on top of it today."

Steve polished off his wine and held out his hand for Billy's glass, also empty, looking interested. "Yeah? How'd you manage that? My mom would never let me, she says we'd go broke in a month and that's why I can't live on my own yet."

Billy followed Steve as they went into the kitchen and tried not to stare. This was the first time he'd been properly inside the Harrington house, and it was a lot. "Got bored, did a budget," he said, watching Steve's hands on the corkscrew instead of his face. "...might have gotten myself caught with my hand in Susan's purse."

Steve paused. "You're kidding," he said.

"Nope," Billy said. "I was just gonna balance her checkbook, she's always like ten dollars off every week, I hear her bitching about it all the time. Sure was awkward, though." He didn't think about the lurching, gut-deep certainty that had hit him for just a moment that Susan was going to tell his dad - never mind that she'd kicked him out months ago.

Steve laughed, though, and poured them both more wine. "Can't believe the keg king does math for fun," he said, leading them back out into the garage and handing Billy his glass back. It wasn't quite mean, but it could have been, if Steve said it right. Billy's stomach twisted in a way that could have been unpleasant, but wasn't.

"You'd go stir crazy enough to do math too, in the house all day with nothing to do but read and watch TV," Billy said. "Can't drive anywhere with no car."

"Well, we'll fix that," Steve said. "Now come on, it's been more than half an hour since you've told me about some piece of your girl that makes her better than mine and I think you might cry if you go much longer without it."

"Just cause you can't see the beauty of an American make -" Billy started, and that was it, they were off again.

I’m really in my feelings tonight about both Stranger Things and physical disability so in grand fandom tradition I smacked out a fic about it. I make no promises about accuracy to either Billy’s injuries on screen or actual rehabilitative medicine in the 80s; this is based on my own experience entirely.

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The chest wound wasn’t the worst of it, really. Probably would have been if he’d been awake for it, but the first six weeks after Billy almost died, he spent in a medicated haze somewhere so classified he never knew the name of the facility or the faces of any of its staff while they worked out if that thing was still in there somewhere, hiding. By the time he was transferred to somewhere a little less secure, he was mostly knitted up there, if shockingly weak.

No, the worst of it had come a few days into week seven, when a surprising number of tearful reunions had been gotten out of the way (he blamed getting weaned off the morphine). A nice woman with a sweet voice had come in to explain to him exactly what the extent of his injuries were. Turned out humans just weren’t meant to hold a demonic force from another dimension. It, him, the Mindflayer, he didn’t know what Billy was capable of, really. It made him go longer, work harder, than his body could take - that and the strain of fighting it, of breaking through enough to save Karen Wheeler, to rev the engine, to turn on him at last, had… damaged him. The woman used words like “cortisol” and “parasympathetic nervous system” and “pervasive joint weakness”, and Billy stared at her blankly. When he finally understood what she was getting at, he squeezed the rails of his bed until his knuckles turned white.

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punkscowardschampions · 5 years ago

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Ava & James

Ava: It's probably a lost cause Ava: but I lost my bracelet when we went out Ava: I remember having it in the first club but not after that Ava: If you're in the 2nd again, could you ask? Ava: No doubt it's long gone but James: I'll ring, I know the owner James: but I'll need a description, I don't remember what it looks like Ava: Thanks Ava: [sends picture like oh hey remember this face] James: [a long enough pause for him to have been trying to find this bracelet everywhere and she probably thinks he's fucked off] James: sorry, no joy Ava: Oh, no worries Ava: Cheers anyway, like James: did you go anywhere after? James: you could've had it on longer than you think Ava: I've already rang Kings, in case I left it in the dorm or something but no luck there either James: none with uber either James: kept me on hold for ages to let me know they don't have it Ava: Ugh, sorry Ava: Don't worry any more on it, it isn't sentimental or anything like that James: it was kind of a helping hand honestly, youngest liked the music they played, a very impromptu lullaby from an unexpected source Ava: Well, who knew hold music was good for anything but rage quits Ava: Unless they're now having a really angry nap James: 😂 James: that'll more likely be me later Ava: If you're lucky, yeah? James: if it hasn't run out Ava: Surely not James: they've both got some kind of hangover detector James: I'm sure you can imagine Ava: I've spent enough time with my nephew to know Ava: No sympathy from a toddler James: indeed Ava: Look, I don't know if I should even bring it back up but I'm sorry for how things went down that night James: I don't get caught up in regrets, remember Ava: I remember Ava: But I didn't Ava: I don't have bad intentions or anything, that's not me James: you've not struck me as someone who does Ava: How do I strike you? James: It was agreed I'd need longer than an evening to answer that Ava: I suppose Ava: First impressions can still be a thing James: it was a good first impression Ava: I'm glad James: but you're also sorry? Ava: I can't be both? James: you can Ava: So, you aren't sorry Ava: but are you glad? James: I can't be Ava: Yeah Ava: that's why I can't not be sorry James: It's me who should be sorry Ava: That's up to you Ava: if you don't do regrets you don't James: my actions don't only affect me Ava: I know Ava: Well, you won't get any trouble from me, like I said, not about that James: there's a line drawn under it James: you won't get any from me either James: [lies because you know he's bought her a replacement bracelet so she'll literally get that like the next day, boy we see you okay] Ava: Okay James: it was fun while it lasted, don't beat yourself up any harder James: the big glasses were cute but you shouldn't have to keep them on indefinitely Ava: Jesus Ava: Don't you know you're meant to pretend you didn't see that James: but walking around with your eyes & mouth closed all the time is very exhausting & I haven't had my nap yet Ava: I also have no sympathy for you, idiot James: I think you have some, but I don't blame you for not wanting to give it to me Ava: Nope, none Ava: I promise Ava: no space in my head James: oh Ava James: you have my sympathies, in that case Ava: Don't James: you don't want them? Ava: Let's say I don't do sympathies James: understood James: they are easy to get weighed down in Ava: and so rarely sincere James: it's reminiscent of wearing wet clothes, people only really want you to take them off in order to spare themselves the puddles James: they ask you if you're cold but they care about their floors Ava: Exactly Ava: and floors are more important 'round here Ava: and anything resembling sincerity is as unsightly as a damp mark on your new carpet James: the content I'll require for my English degree is writing itself Ava: Is that what you want to do, really? James: it's a question that'll get answered as often as it's asked Ava: How often do you get told what you want then James: daily at least Ava: How often does it come close James: it has yet to Ava: Oh James James: you don't do sympathies James: please never change on my account Ava: It could be empathy James: but is it? Ava: We'd need another night James: how many more bracelets have you got to lose? Ava: 😂 Ava: What kind of Chelsea girl do you take me for? James: you heard me say it was a good first impression Ava: 😏 I'd take a bow but can't risk losing any more jewels today James: we'll pretend you really did Ava: If that's what you're into, II James: what kind of Kensington boy do you take me for? Ava: Won't be the first to have a #scandal James: no trouble, need I remind you Ava: Just hypothetical, obviously James: you just hypothetically wanna know what I'm into? Ava: I just hypothetically hit the nail on the head James: if that's what you think, Ava Ava: Go on then Ava: Are you even gonna hypothetically tell the truth though? James: where's a hypothetical lie getting me? Ava: Away from hypothetical shame if it's weird shit Ava: I'm not one for hypothetical judgment though James: I'm not one for hypothetical shame Ava: Soooo Ava: 👀 James: I don't know, truthfully James: I'd need a whole hypothetical life, I suppose Ava: Fair Ava: It's a pretty bait question anyway James: you have an answer though, I can tell Ava: Singular? Ava: How rude James: 😂 James: because one leads to another not because you're hypothetically uninteresting Ava: Yeah, that's right Ava: about to be so hypothetically fuming James: you can have as many hypothetical apologies as you have interests, okay? Ava: No need to change on my behalf, however hypothetical James: what makes you think a personality change would be required Ava: Apologies are awful close to regret James: I'm not saying them to myself Ava: Try it out then Ava: See if I'm into it James: I'm really sorry I had to leave Ava: Me too Ava: but I don't think I'm about it, so you don't need to mention it again James: if you don't want me to, I won't Ava: I figure you owe enough sorries to more important people Ava: I'm good, honest James: I'm happy to hear it James: & not looking to mess anything up for you, hypothetically or actually Ava: I know Ava: You haven't Ava: it isn't my business so you know, no obligation to answer Ava: but why did you get married so young? James: because I had a baby to raise that young Ava: Yeah James: I wanted to do something that would actually help, at least shut up our parents because there was no silencing all the horrible things everyone else was saying James: It wasn't fair to treat her suddenly like public enemy number 1, not for that Ava: That makes sense Ava: I can see the logic James: It was a mistake we both made, I couldn't just leave her to it James: but I don't know, maybe we'd have both been better off if we'd approached it differently James: as parents but not a couple Ava: Well, it isn't permanent Ava: You can still do that Ava: Co-parent, that's not leaving her to it James: She won't let that happen Ava: It won't be easy Ava: It's weighing up if the now is worse than how invariably shit divorce is James: every time I try to leave I'm not allowed to see or speak to them until I go back James: she gets everyone on her side, including my parents Ava: If you go through official avenues, she won't just be able to do that Ava: She can't say you're unfit because you're not Ava: That's so shit and Ava: not right James: but she'll get my daughter to say that she hates me & doesn't wanna see me by telling her that's what I'm saying, I know she'll turn them both against me long before anything gets officially sorted out James: last time I walked out she told Jay so many things that aren't true Ava: She'd say that to a kid? Ava: Her kid? Ava: what's wrong with her James: I've given up trying to figure out everything that is Ava: You can't do this forever Ava: You deserve better Ava: you don't get to fuck someone over because you have a kid with them, imagine it reversed, how much of a bad guy you'd be then, it's no different just because she's the mum James: I'll send them both away to school when they're older, but for now I have to do this Ava: How do you do it Ava: How have you lasted this long, never mind how long that will be James: I see my children every day, it makes everything else bearable James: & I know they need that Ava: Yeah Ava: They're the most important thing Ava: but you matter as well, you can't Ava: I don't know James: for better or worse, right? Ava: You don't get to pick one each though, like James: I made my bed, Ava James: everyone told me not to marry her but I did Ava: 'cos you thought it was the right thing Ava: it shouldn't function as a lifelong punishment James: I never thought it was right James: I just wanted to be a better dad than I've got James: & that was the only way she'd let me Ava: That's a good reason Ava: even if it turned out not to be the best idea James: bad ideas have been around longer than she has James: I can't remember when I last had a good one James: I'd have been younger than you Ava: It's hard to make them when you have to commit to the worst, like Ava: you've gotta do something for you Ava: just 'cos you wanna Ava: or you'll lose it James: I will if you'll meet me for coffee James: I wanna see you again Ava: Okay Ava: I'd like to see you too James: tomorrow? Ava: I can do that Ava: What time, I have lunch at 1 or I can do after 5 James: lunch works Ava: Cool Ava: Looking forward to it James: I am too Ava: 😊 James: [when you're gonna have to go so far away for your date so you don't get spotted lol] Ava: [honestly should defs say its a school day so you ain't getting back for afternoon classes but that's not so wild anyone is like hello??? but start the sneaking as you mean to go on] James: [literally gonna spend half her lunch break on-route in the car cos London so we gotta but at least we can say it's an uber mood again so he's not driving] Ava: [I'll do some before 'cos like is he gonna show nerves] Ava: We still on for lunch time? James: nothing else has come up Ava: 👍 Ava: I'll book my ride James: I'll pick you up Ava: Are you sure? James: sure that we don't need 2 separate ubers going to the same place? yes Ava: fair point Ava: but I'll definitely get the coffees then James: no you won't Ava: The post came before I left this morning Ava: you really didn't have to do that Ava: but you did, so I can definitely get you a latte or whatever your particular shade of coffee is James: I didn't want leave you bracelet-less & me close to having a regret James: so I kind of did have to Ava: Well, when you put it like that Ava: thank you, it was one of my favourites actually Ava: didn't wanna push for that regret too hard though James: now you won't have to Ava: The coffee being bitter over the company definitely sounds like a better plan James: you don't have to order coffee, you know Ava: I'll probably get an iced drink of some description Ava: ☀🥵 James: too much sunbathing between classes? Ava: 😏 Ava: I'm sure the dons would say any is too much Ava: but I'm still pretty pale James: I'm correcting that to still pretty Ava: Gonna look like a 🍅 now James: who doesn't like 🍅? James: bloody marys are fantastic for one Ava: Now I know you have good taste James: in drinks at least Ava: and 🍅s thank you James: potentially everything but wives & uni courses Ava: Don't make me laugh because it's definitely not funny James: but hypothetically how smitten would I be if you did laugh? Ava: Oh, head over heels, of course Ava: like 👼s singing James: I thought so Ava: Don't wanna hypothetically disappoint James: it's not even hypothetically possible Ava: Your level of hypothetical trust is cute James: your level of hypothetical modesty is unnecessary Ava: Fine, but it's your fault when I don't fit my hypothetical hat James: I'll buy you a bigger one James: hypothetically Ava: You going to hypothetically redress me piece by piece? James: I'm not falling into the trap of you thinking I'm saying I need to James: there's nothing wrong with how you dress Ava: I'm not even hypothetically that sly Ava: Straightforward and to the point, yeah? James: it's what I like about you Ava: You're pretty good at it yourself James: game playing has never got me anywhere I want to be Ava: Games rely too much on chance and luck for my liking Ava: someone has to lose James: precisely James: as much as I'd potentially hate losing to you less than I would to lots of other people, it's still better as a hypothetical Ava: No games, I promise James: I'm taking that to also mean no more pool at the vault & you can't stop me Ava: 😱 Ava: You're really going to make me enroll just to get back in that VIP venue? Ava: Rude James: 😂 James: seeing you every day would be fun but putting fun ahead of all things academic gets you where I currently am in life James: I can't do that to you, even hypothetically Ava: You can hypothetically follow me for your next course Ava: I'm a great study buddy James: unless you're going abroad somewhere to study Ava: Unless you count SE as abroad Ava: lord knows many of our peers do 🙄 James: in that case, following you sounds close to a good idea Ava: 🤏 Ava: I'll find a way to hypothetically swing it Ava: the world needs your writing, II James: I've never been more devastated to have a job waiting for me that isn't strictly hypothetical Ava: I's doing, I suppose Ava: What are you going do instead of write your great novel about me? James: you'll have to look out for my self published works written by night under an obvious pseudonym Ava: I will Ava: Will you sign my copy? James: of course James: under your printed dedication Ava: I'll have to think of an excellent pseudonym myself James: can you do 1 other, simpler thing for me before then? Ava: I'm sure I can? James: order for me something you like James: I don't know what I want Ava: I like a challenge Ava: Okay James: do you want me to tell you if I don't share the liking of it or not? Ava: 'Course Ava: 'cos I need to find you something you do like James: if time doesn't run out Ava: We can have more lunches too Ava: as well as evenings James: that'd be good James: I'd hate to only see you in the dark Ava: That's mutual James: if I wrote us meeting exclusively at night everyone would assume I'd decided on a vampire novel James: so I'm happy to hear it Ava: I think its making a comeback Ava: and I'd definitely buy you as an Edward Cullen type James: I have no clue if I should be flattered or offended Ava: A potentially complex issue, a complex character beyond the sparkles Ava: I just meant you'd be eligible for dreamboat status James: you're saying I should make a detour to buy the book or download the film to my phone right now or I shouldn't? Ava: Will we have time to watch it together is the real question Ava: Because I have to pop your 🍒 James: is it a 90 minutes is all you need kind of film or 3 hours of lingering close ups? Ava: 126 James: I can do that Ava: Yeah? James: skipping a lecture I have no desire to be in to further my hypothetical masterpiece of a novel in the early stages of its development, that's a fantastic idea Ava: 💡 Ava: Was bound to have one eventually Ava: Let's do it then James: you're claiming not to have had any before now? Ava: In my life, obviously Ava: but with you? 'close to a good idea' is as close as I've got so far James: I won't deny you the opportunity to get closer then Ava: Thank you Ava: You can find out if it's only hypothetical that I'm unable to disappoint James: I feel like I already know that Ava: You've had a taste Ava: but you can have more Ava: if you want it James: I do Ava: Okay Ava: Good James: but it's never going to be as simple as words like okay or good Ava: It could be Ava: I'm not saying all the time Ava: or even that we can always give 126 minutes to it Ava: but whatever we can James: you can't say all the time because I can't ever give you all the time James: I can't give you any more gifts or regular dates or even selfies Ava: I know that Ava: I'm not asking for any of that James: but you should James: because you're free to do whatever you want with whoever you want Ava: Exactly James: why this? Ava: because you need somebody Ava: and I like you James: oh Ava Ava: It is as simple as that James: I'll try that out, see if I can believe it Ava: I know nothing else is but Ava: why not Ava: I want to and you don't need to buy that or promise time you haven't got James: for as long as you want to then Ava: for as long as you need me then James: no because James: my life isn't going to change Ava: James James: you don't know what she's like but I know everything she's ever done or is likely to do Ava: People like that don't stop, I know that Ava: they have to be stopped James: there's no stopping her Ava: Well there's no stopping me either and I'm on your side James: you don't need this Ava: I told you, I like you Ava: I won't just turn my back on you James: I can have this car turned around, you don't have to do anything Ava: Of course I don't have to Ava: and neither do you, not with me Ava: you don't owe me anything, I'm just telling you how it is for me Ava: and I want to see you James: I want to see you too, more than when I originally said it Ava: Good Ava: Then don't turn around, yeah? James: I always do the wrong thing, I don't want to, to you James: so if you don't want me to turn around, I won't Ava: I want you to do what you want, that's all Ava: even if that was turning around, which, undeniably, would be shit but I'd survive Ava: but you wanna come, I'm almost 100% James: understood Ava: Okay Ava: I've got a great urge to tell you I'm not insane but that makes me sound more so so I'll just Ava: 😶 James: you haven't once struck me as being & I have some experience, as it were Ava: That's alright then Ava: It's a comparison I don't need, you either, I'm sure James: just don't insist I marry you & it won't ever need to be made Ava: Easy Ava: Got my word James: if only I had your skill at losing jewellery Ava: It is a talent, definitely; but unteachable? Nah James: now you've got a great urge to teach me something James: okay Ava: So many whims, only so much time Ava: Lucky I'm an excellent teacher James: very novel protagonist-esque, honestly James: you're earning your page space Ava: If fictional me gets slated as dull I'll have to change my pseudonym and run away James: you couldn't be hypothetically dull if you actually tried James: never mind close to anything else Ava: You always know just what to say yet I still believe it sincere James: it is sincere James: from the kings head shaving horror stories until now Ava: I'm confident believing it, and you Ava: because boys who always know what to say always say the wrong things James: maybe 126 minutes later I will have Ava: That's okay Ava: a mix of right and wrong Ava: that's real Ava: anything other and you're definitely up to something Ava: 😇 or 😈 either way James: I gave you a real tour the moment you asked for it, that's 😇 Ava: It felt it James: I'm not going to leave in the middle this time James: strictly end credits Ava: Don't promise Ava: that's practically begging fate James: well that's the last thing I want, my lips are sealed Ava: Your lips are Ava: 😈 James: if that means yours have to be described as 😇 I'm fine with it Ava: See? Ava: You're too good with words James: they're a very prominent feature, I couldn't help but notice Ava: I like that you notice Ava: Do it some more James: because I'm not sure I could stop if you didn't like it, it's a relief that you do Ava: Don't stop Ava: then I don't have to either James: very fair Ava: 😇 James: how far can we push that angelic streak to one side because I'm here early James: can you leave? Ava: Lessons are barely real at this point in the summer term and it isn't as if I've been paying any attention all day so Ava: Give me 10 to 'fake' needing to go lie down James: I'm not having any PTSD symptoms from being here quite yet James: take as long as you require Ava: Honestly Ava: Least it is undeniably too hot for the blazer so I won't trigger you into leaving without me James: I'm undeniably sure the way you wear it wouldn't make me wanna leave Ava: God, you are so distracting and fully aware what you're doing to me right now James: in 10 minutes, or preferably less, you'll have a car to lie down in should you suddenly really need to James: meaning I regret nothing Ava: Bad man Ava: The blush is admittedly helping my case here James: I'm not gonna lie & say if you aren't still wearing that I'll go without you but James: I do want to see it Ava: I'd say there's 0% chance of you not seeing it and a full 100% of me being unable to hide it James: 🍅 right, of course Ava: The dangers of being pale Ava: why I need this tan Ava: obviously James: how far does it go? is 😳 going to colour in your tan lines like a modern art piece James: if so that's a must for my book cover Ava: Well now we have to see how inspiring you find it Ava: even if you can't take any 📸 James: physically no, but mentally I'll take so many Ava: You're too pretty for photographs anyway Ava: you don't even look real in person James: how can you say that about another person when you look like you belong on a chapel ceiling or somewhere equally beautifully crafted? Ava: I Ava: I'm just Ava: on my way James: you can't miss me, the engine's on & the song choices are questionable James: it's very low profile Ava: Got to get the driver onboard, for future 126s James: I'll ask him if he has any knowledge of the Twilight soundtrack Ava: 😂 Ava: It goes hard, FYI James: he looked at me like he's a believer about that James: absolute Ava: Then we won't have to invite him to our viewing party Ava: Thank God James: it'd be taking politeness to new heights James: he is going to play it for us though Ava: I'm gonna tip him so hard James: It's taken care of by me James: you've agreed to hypothetically buy out everything in this coffee place in search of something I'll enjoy so Ava: Okay Ava: so if you're being polite then can I be slightly 😒 at his presence 'cos I really need to be alone with you right now? James: it's a reasonable request James: more so than the one I'd like to ask of you Ava: Go on Ava: There's clearly room and time for the unreasonable James: Ava, I hear how much you don't want to waste any of the borrowed time we're basically forced to be on, but can you please walk slowly for my mental picture gallery Ava: [Does, obviously] James: [😍 clearly as the twilight soundtrack begins to blast from this vehicle so casually] Ava: [and what a mental image that is, doing a mini run at the end 'cos excitement and nerves] James: [it's fine cos we all know he'd have to resist the urge to lowkey drag her into the car despite what he said, looking like you're getting snatched from the school gates lol] Ava: [thank God your teachers are useless and we can but hope there's no window some kid is staring that hard out] James: [just staring at her taking all those mental 📷s again though as soon as she's in] Ava: [the blush is so real and she knows it] James: [if she's blushing already wait until the kiss he initiates because obvs it'd be as hardcore as their first one but like it'd be so much more intense not only cos he wants her more but also because he wants more time to do this now. Everything would be so slow and deliberate like he's gotta savour every possible way he can kiss her and every possible tiny reaction each thing he does has] Ava: [well enjoy boy because she will be dying in all the ways like there's no hiding from the casual anticipation that has built up here] James: [they both just die there and then #plot twist] Ava: [or this driver reports you 'cos you've just picked up someone from school and started getting it on lmao, luckily you not being paid to think so shh] James: [oh my god imagine, please just drive and groove to the epic bops thank you sir] Ava: [she's 17 now we're so fine lollol] James: [he does not know that but I hope James does] Ava: [he's done a stalk, her bday wasn't that long ago in the feed] James: [true, I hope you had an epic bday babe] Ava: [no doubt baby, so we've got a pretty good plan of their afternoon plans, is there anything else we wanna say went down?] James: [good question, realistically they'd probably run out of time but also I am highkey so I'm like give them forever lol] Ava: [I assume he usually picks Jay up from School 'cos unless Chloe wanna turnt up at the gates why would she, so that'd be 3.30 say so they've got from 1ish, Chloe would still have the baby and thinks he's in class so we do have a fair whack of time] James: [not gonna let you waste all of that trying everything on a coffee shop menu, don't worry guys] Ava: [although a moment you need all the moments] James: [gotta find him something he genuinely likes cos his missus be ordering for him everywhere they go] Ava: [oat milk flat white] James: [chin chin gals] Ava: [But yeah I don't think we need a Chloe interruption this time 'cos he'll have a time he has to go anyway so suck it bitch] James: [there will be plenty of opportunities to do more of them anyway] Ava: [when your wife is controlling and crazy] Ava: [I was thinking for when we get the whole 'I don't think Jay is his' moment rolling, maybe if she finds out he's cheating again or whatever she does the typical 'she ain't even yours!' and maybe she's done it before so James just thinks she's bullshitting 'cos she's crazy but Ava is like hmm shall we like explore that though 'cos it's not 'neither of them are yours' it's always just Jay] James: [that is actually perfect though] Ava: ['cos it can escalate when she inevitably finds out it's Ava 'cos sleuthing or maybe at some point they wanna be out 'cos fuck it and she's taking it way more personal than any other girl and it's like why though so then the Buster link can come out even if she accidentally drops it 'cos so mad] James: [we all know Chloe is that bitch 100%] Ava: [🙌] James: [do we wanna do any more convo like once he had to leave or shall we post it and move on] Ava: [I'll do a lil bit 'cos straightforward, highkey and cute tbh] James: [allowing it] Ava: I hope I didn't make you late at all Ava: and that your girls like the Twilight soundtrack James: if they don't they've inherited their mother's bad taste & they've got bigger problems ahead than me being a few minutes late Ava: Obviously Ava: but I'm just saying, don't be too disappointed, no one can like it as much as you 😏 James: I don't believe that you don't like it as much as me Ava: It is more than just a hypothetical that I enjoyed myself Ava: soundtrack included but not my favourite part James: I couldn't possibly be disappointed by anything else knowing that Ava: Disappointment is not in my vocabulary right now James: you won't need to add it back in on my behalf Ava: I believe that James: when can I see you again? Ava: You tell me Ava: There are four more films James: 4? Ava: They split the last book into two, such a gimmick but you know James: I promise not to do that when I write yours Ava: Well, if I get to play myself maybe I won't mind the exposure 🤔 James: I'm not sure that I want to play myself James: in which case I would mind the increased screentime you'd then have with whoever does Ava: There's no finding anyone else with eyes as blue as yours Ava: Gonna blow the special effects budget James: 😂 Ava: I'm so serious Ava: and jealous James: I'll describe your eyes as bluer & your skin as more tan, if you like Ava: I like your candor, remember Ava: More than I'd like to be remembered as tanned and having the bluest eyes James: I'd like to remember you exactly as you are Ava: Don't say we have to leave it that long to see each other again James: not quite Ava: My parents have a 4-day business trip Fri-Mon, you could come over at some point then? James: the weekend is not going to happen but I can make Monday work James: Friday possibly Ava: Okay Ava: Not quite coffee shop level but we've got all sorts for you to try out James: you sounded like your brother then, almost James: not that he's ever propositioned me in exactly the same way Ava: Awkward Ava: I'll try and avoid that then😬😂 James: awkward will be if your parents haven't decorated since I was last there Ava: Thankfully they have Ava: and I haven't insisted on taking his room James: or your sister's? Ava: Spent loads of time in there too? Ava: no, I've got my own room James: not with her, obviously James: but you know how parties tend to overspill into every room Ava: 'Course James: are you going to have one? Ava: Undecided Ava: I'll have some people over at the weekend but it might be pretty chill James: is Teddy included in the some people? Ava: I don't know Ava: Would you like him not to be or? James: I don't know Ava: I get that it could be weird Ava: It's strange thinking how close you used to be with Buster James: but that was basically another life James: for me & for him Ava: Yeah Ava: well, I don't have to invite him, like I said, I don't even know what I fancy doing yet James: it's up to you Ava: I know Ava: It's James: it's not my business, Ava James: I shouldn't have asked Ava: No Ava: It's not not Ava: I know things are complex but I don't feel bad for her, you know Ava: I don't feel bad for doing it James: me either but not only because of the no regrets thing Ava: So it just feels weird to feel like guilty or something around your brother when I'm not Ava: He doesn't need to know and won't but it doesn't need to be any weirder than it would be if I dated any of my friend's siblings under more 'normal' circumstances James: understood Ava: Yeah? Ava: It's hard to explain James: I'm following it Ava: Not saying we are dating or Ava: you know James: I can't have a girlfriend, but if I could Ava: Really James: you'd be a good choice Ava: but I ain't James: why not? Ava: I don't know Ava: never mind James: Ava Ava: Ignore me, I don't know what I mean Ava: It's not important James: I don't want to ignore you Ava: Okay Ava: but we can talk about other things James: any topic you want Ava: Hmm Ava: Tempting but vague James: I assumed you'd prefer it over boring & specific Ava: A fair assumption Ava: What are you doing tonight though, ell me about your boring and specific James: I can't pinpoint specific dad duties as such, not with these two James: I could be gluing a doll house back together or walking an imaginary dog Ava: A handyman and a dogwalker Ava: either way, never a dull moment James: & that's without factoring in the possibility I could be dragged to a dinner party or subjected to guests arriving expecting champagne & nibbles with no prior knowledge or warning James: on any night James: how are you spending yours? Ava: Of course Ava: Expect no less from this town's leading socialite Ava: I've been summoned to a catch-up and 'homework' sesh as I didn't get back for last period Ava: the amount of messages, assumedly missed the second coming 🤷 James: I'm surprised you're not assumed to be too 'sick' to go James: maybe you shouldn't play yourself in my film either Ava: 😧 Ava: Um rude Ava: Maybe you need to try harder to make me 🍅 James: starting Friday or starting now? James: because how I would in person is not what I'm going to be able to do here Ava: Admittedly both sound intriguing James: so let's do both James: [sends her some kind of 💣🔥 sext because words are all they have as we all know what'll happen if you start sending pics, then she will and it's a whole dangerous thing] Ava: Oh Ava: and I was trying to avoid the cliche of telling you I missed you already James: there's no need to dismiss every cliche off hand James: some of them are good Ava: Some of them are very good Ava: remember when you write your book James: you'll remind me, right? James: I think we can assume too that writer's block isn't one of the enjoyable cliches Ava: I'll do my best Ava: Some protagonist I'd be otherwise James: very fair James: I'll do mine, in turn Ava: I have every faith in your way with words Ava: You've not gone wrong there yet James: [sends her another text because why not obvs, not like you're a busy man with a fam having an affair or anything] Ava: [God bless the multitask] Ava: James James: yes? Ava: It's going to be a really hard wait 'til Monday James: I'll fit you in Friday James: even if it's only an hour Ava: If you're gonna make it sound like a dentist appointment 😏 James: not the most original excuse but it'd still get you out of school Ava: Cheek 😂 Ava: My excuses are A* James: I don't doubt it James: but I don't want to find out by having you use any on me Ava: Just for you James: okay James: there's no excuses needed to keep posting selfies, is there? so I'll see you every day until Friday actually Ava: Of course Ava: Be dead suspect if I didn't tbh Ava: Can you post one? Ava: Even if you're in the background fulfilling whatever role is required at that precise moment James: for you, I will Ava: 😊 James: look out for it Ava: No.1 fan right here James: you're joking but you're not wrong Ava: Am I? 👀🤔 James: aren't you? Ava: I'll never tell Ava: Got to keep some mystery or who's gonna want to turn the page James: oh you want a mystery at the heart of this James: I see Ava: Does that not gel with your plan for the plot? James: I'll incorporate it after a quick brainstorm Ava: Hot James: 😈 Ava: Mhmm James: you're hot, I'm just lucky Ava: How so? James: to get to spend any time with you Ava: Oh please Ava: You're very good company James: most people are capable of being for a few hours Ava: Who do you know? Ava: Have to introduce me 😏 James: 😂 do you mind if I don't? Ava: I think I'll manage James: I'm happy to hear it Ava: For now, I need to be filled in on the gossip Ava: tell you if any of it is story-worthy James: do your work too please James: I'd like to follow you to a good uni Ava: Are you telling me what to do now? Ava: Don't hate that James: it's a nicely worded suggestion for now Ava: Noted 😇 James: you're going to be good then? Ava: I promised I'd be no trouble James: I know you did Ava: And I'll try really, really hard to keep that promise Ava: even if you make that difficult James: I'm trying really hard not to get in the car & come find you James: I don't think I have to tell you how difficult that is Ava: Damn responsibilities Ava: We can have all Monday though Ava: think about that when it gets tough Ava: I will James: I am Ava: 💙

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Janis & Jimmy

Janis: 💕 Jimmy: afternoon Janis: you wish Jimmy: Hang on, I love to serve ☕ what have you heard? Janis: oh soz Janis: obvs it's your passion and calling Jimmy: that's better tah Janis: got time to chat to me or you too busy being in love with the work Jimmy: you saying I can't do both? bit rude Jimmy: 🥇 me Janis: 😏 Janis: then tell me something I don't know Jimmy: you're planning the 2nd date Jimmy: so crack on Janis: but you did such a 🥇 job Janis: plus that means you get the 3rd and everyone knows thats the best one Jimmy: If you ain't up to the challenge, babe Janis: did I say that Jimmy: said it for you 💕 Janis: very rude Janis: 😒 Jimmy: you gonna prove me wrong then or what? Janis: keen Janis: but alright, it's a yet to be determined date Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: any chance I can tell you something you do know now? Janis: I'll allow it Jimmy: Alright Jimmy: I miss you Janis: I miss you too Janis: even if this beds more comfy without you Jimmy: actually 💔 Jimmy: I ain't gonna hurry back then, smoothie in hand Janis: didn't say I liked it Janis: 😞 Janis: don't be mean Jimmy: Oi who's 💔 who here Janis: me Jimmy: Baby Janis: when are you back, actually Jimmy: not for a bit Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻 Janis: least you've got the orchestra keeping you company Janis: what about me Jimmy: you've got the 🐕 Janis: you don't even like the dog, not fair Janis: send Pete, you're being selfish Jimmy: I don't like classic FM either Jimmy: & Pete ain't in yet Jimmy: got any more 🎯 you wanna take or what? Janis: ugh, can this day get any worse Janis: new girl in? Jimmy: gets 1st dibs on every shift going her Jimmy: what do you reckon? Janis: poor baby Janis: remember when you were the favourite Jimmy: Piss off, it's your fault I ain't Janis: Oi, don't Jimmy: I never said it mattered to any dickhead but my manager Janis: well Janis: mia too, obvs Jimmy: she posted owt yet? Janis: not that I've seen Janis: not looked that hard, like Jimmy: 🤞 she's 💀💀💀 from her 💔 Janis: or she needs a new 👃 Jimmy: Can Gracie even 👊 that hard? Janis: probably not Janis: but her bones are brittle Jimmy: that solves that she's turned to dust Jimmy: one bit crumbled and there was nowt to stop the rest from going an' all Janis: meh, she's like voldemort Janis: do a little human sacrifice with the remaining and she'll be back stronger than ever Jimmy: looks like him, yeah Janis: what's that make gracie Jimmy: the one with all the hair and insanity Janis: 😂 Janis: checks out Janis: she was in 💘 with him Jimmy: there you go then Janis: she wishes her tits were that big Jimmy: might have given her the time of day if they were Janis: you or voldemort Jimmy: both probably Janis: 🙄 Janis: shut up Jimmy: what you doing today other than wishing my bed was bigger an' all Janis: size don't matter, babe Jimmy: 😱😱😱 Jimmy: why you trying to make me cry? Janis: gotta have a hobby Janis: seeing as I've fuck all else to do Jimmy: well I were gonna ask you what I'd have to do for you to get you to do my 🍀 homework Jimmy: but now I don't trust you not to let the 🐕 eat it Janis: a lot Janis: don't do homework 🤓 Jimmy: go on Jimmy: name it Janis: let me think Jimmy: 👌 Jimmy: keep in mind I ain't done a single piece since I got here Janis: then why bother Janis: pointless subject Jimmy: don't want them giving my dad a bell Janis: don't expect to pass Jimmy: they said I had the hols to crack on and 'show willing' nowt's been said about 🥇 Janis: write with my right hand Janis: 👍 Jimmy: Alright, super spy, calm down Janis: hardly Janis: you're northern, needs to be illegible Jimmy: what do you want then? Janis: do it for free Janis: as it's my fault you aren't favourite anymore Jimmy: must be 💕 Janis: you know I don't like being in debt Jimmy: you know I don't give a shit about no employee of the month 🏆 Jimmy: I'd take being 🥇 with you on that counter over owt else Janis: you don't regret it Jimmy: that you saying you do? Janis: no Janis: was asking Jimmy: did you think I did? Janis: maybe Janis: idk Jimmy: come here and I'll show you how I really feel Janis: if you're going to throw coffee on me, I'd rather we skip the audience Jimmy: if that's a kink of yours I can get you a job Jimmy: happens near every shift that Janis: not sure I want you training me Jimmy: 💔 Jimmy: so mean today you Janis: 🤷 Jimmy: roll over and get out the other side of my bed tah Janis: what's it to ya Jimmy: no 😭😭😭 in front of or on the customers Jimmy: bit of a rule Janis: no need to cry, boy Janis: I'll stay away Jimmy: 👍 Janis: I am taking your dog though Janis: will bring it back Jimmy: keep it Jimmy: 🤷 Janis: more trouble than she's worth Jimmy: tell me something I don't know Janis: bark is almost scary if you don't know her Jimmy: 😂 to who? Jimmy: 🙀 you, babe Janis: 😒 Janis: better than nothing, thank you Jimmy: is it? Janis: 🤞 Jimmy: keep telling you to just leave her in the park Jimmy: too nice you Janis: if she don't pull her weight then I will Janis: sell her instead Jimmy: nowt she can do so crack on Janis: I'm giving her a last chance Janis: nothing if not fair Jimmy: nowt if not 😍 Jimmy: 🐕💕 Janis: don't be jealous Janis: not going nowhere fun Jimmy: don't have to be to beat what I'm up to Janis: where the 🎻 got to? Jimmy: every dickhead's due a break Janis: just don't let the 🎺 smoke Janis: ruin their livelihood Jimmy: be a bit rude if I were the one to stop them Jimmy: 😎🚬 Janis: gotta be tough, babe Jimmy: that'll be why I need you Janis: don't make me soft Jimmy: why would I do that? Janis: you always do and I Jimmy: You want me to stop? Janis: no Janis: I just need to be tough right now Jimmy: Alright Janis: just gotta do something Janis: if it goes smoothly, maybe I'll catch you on your break? Jimmy: 👌 Jimmy: in a bit then Janis: Actually? Janis: or are you just mad Jimmy: what have I got to be 😒 about? Janis: if you're not then good Jimmy: 👍 Janis: 🙌🎊 Jimmy: aint you got something on? Janis: en-route Janis: but alright Jimmy: won't be alright when the 🐕 pulls you into the road and to your 💀💀💀 Janis: okay dad Janis: capable of walking and dog walking, as it goes Jimmy: stop pissing about Jimmy: and leave it out Janis: how am I Jimmy: 🙄 Janis: 😑 Jimmy: why are you being weird? Janis: Don't call me weird Jimmy: that's not an answer Janis: You don't want one Janis: we wanna move on from all that shit Janis: not bring more up Jimmy: if you're gonna be off with me then yeah, I do Janis: Just Jimmy: What? Janis: I don't know what I want Janis: I don't wanna talk about it but I still wanna talk to you Janis: bu then I can't 'cos I've got nothing else on my brain 'cept Jimmy: I'll sort it for you and stop talking to you for a bit Janis: 👌👌 Janis: great Jimmy: I ain't gonna force to you say owt you don't wanna so there's nowt else I can do Jimmy: is there? Janis: Whatever Janis: helped me make up my mind Janis: won't bother you anymore Jimmy: Don't be a dickhead Jimmy: you know where I am if you wanna see me Jimmy: we don't have to talk Janis: You Jimmy: you Janis: This is ridiculous Jimmy: leave it out then Janis: why can't you, dickhead Jimmy: I love you Jimmy: tell me what to fucking do Janis: I'm sorry Janis: I didn't mean to do this Jimmy: What are you trying to do? Janis: the other night Janis: when I went Janis: I did something stupid Janis: I'm trying to fix it, do something good Jimmy: You're alright though Jimmy: whatever happened Jimmy: you're alright Janis: Yeah Janis: but I still need to undo something Jimmy: I'll give you a hand Janis: you're too nice Janis: people are dicks Janis: me especially Jimmy: You're nice Jimmy: and we're a team Janis: I'm shit at this Janis: actually shit Jimmy: Bollocks Jimmy: you're so good Jimmy: 🥇 girlfriend Janis: I've caused so much needless stress today alone, like Jimmy: no Jimmy: it ain't your fault that in my head I always reckon I've done something wrong Janis: a lot of this was though Janis: I can own it Janis: and do better Jimmy: Me an' all Jimmy: sorry Janis: don't be sorry for being nice Janis: I love you Jimmy: don't make up your mind to dump me Janis: I'm not stupid Janis: I need you Janis: well more than you need me Jimmy: no dickhead needs owt more than I need you Jimmy: I'm not having that Janis: so you're saying I don't need to do more to make it worth your while? okay, like Jimmy: I'm saying you don't need to do owt to keep me here Jimmy: I'm staying Jimmy: you can't do owt to stop me Janis: alright Janis: hot Jimmy: you Janis: I miss you Jimmy: you don't have to Janis: I could come in and pretend I'm busy 💻 Janis: got Irish homework to do, like Jimmy: so come on Janis: I will Janis: I've got to try and get rid of this thing first Janis: but 🤞 this bloke will take it Jimmy: bit rude to chat about the 🐕 like that when she's so 💕 for you Janis: she's the muscle Janis: which you rudely 😂 at Jimmy: yeah so 🏆💪 her Jimmy: just don't 💀💀💀 Jimmy: alright? Janis: I won't Janis: I'm fast Janis: and that's providing it goes wrong anyway, which it won't Jimmy: such an athlete I ain't forgotten Janis: If I tell you, you won't tell my nan Janis: actual love of your life Janis: yeah? Jimmy: 🤐 me Jimmy: that's how she likes it Janis: you're so gross Janis: I just got some gear when I ran off Janis: but I don't need it now so I'm getting rid Jimmy: who to? Janis: idk Janis: it ain't like weed or pills so I couldn't just fob it off on any random cunt from school Jimmy: how did you find him then? Janis: just put it on socials Janis: not mine, obvs Janis: right people find it Jimmy: but he can't find you Janis: nah, I'm meeting him in big park Janis: people about but not enough I'll get caught or nothing Jimmy: when? Janis: now Janis: told you I was en-route Janis: just want rid, tbh Jimmy: you could've told me when I had chance of getting there Janis: you know why I didn't Janis: like you said, Twix 💕 me, she'll protect me Jimmy: 😒 Jimmy: you know why you should've Jimmy: I'll protect you Janis: It'll just be a harmless old junkie Janis: and then I'll come and see you and it'll all be alright Jimmy: you don't know that Jimmy: shit happens in a second Janis: I promise Janis: he's more nervous sounding than I am, gonna throw the cash at me lowkey Jimmy: just Janis: I didn't wanna worry you Janis: I swear, it'll be all good Jimmy: next time, worry me Janis: I'm not planning on doing it again Jimmy: works for owt else too Janis: Alright Janis: I'll try to remember Jimmy: Alright Jimmy: I love you Janis: I love you more Jimmy: Oi Janis: oi oi Janis: ? Jimmy: I love you more, shut up Janis: you cannot silence me Jimmy: challenge accepted Jimmy: [sends a 🔥 sext to try and stun her into silence] Janis: not saying that was my master plan but Janis: 🤤 Janis: fuck me Jimmy: [more because trying to make her speechless as here for everything she just said as he would really be lol] Janis: idk if this is the mood Janis: maybe if I show up turned on it'll freak him out Janis: 🤔 Jimmy: 😒 Janis: don't be mad Janis: only make it worse Janis: 😩 here baby Jimmy: you challenged me, it's your own fault Janis: just can't stop being hot, you 😏 Jimmy: 🥇 or nowt baby Jimmy: you were warned Janis: nothing could of prepared me for you 💘 Jimmy: even if you're taking the piss that's how I feel about you still Janis: 😳 actually Janis: well done Janis: and I meant it too, even if I covered it with an impenetrable layer of sarcasm Jimmy: stop 😳 he'll think you're 😰 Janis: might think it's good shit Janis: I'm a great bullshitter, can't deny that Jimmy: about as good as you are an actress Jimmy: but he don't know you so crack on Janis: 😒 excuse you Jimmy: no Jimmy: I don't want you to be able to bullshit me Janis: I'm not gonna Janis: bit late for that now Jimmy: is it? Janis: yeah Janis: you know things Janis: like the mafia Jimmy: Alright Janis: is it? Jimmy: I just Jimmy: it weren't like I expected my mum to turn round and do a massive bunk one day so Jimmy: I can't get my head round getting to keep you about Janis: nah Janis: I get that Janis: like, I don't fully, obvs but Jimmy: I don't always get it myself Jimmy: it's alright Janis: that's understandable Janis: don't reckon anyone or anything prepares you for that either Janis: reckon first pets are meant to but hamster don't = sister, let alone ma Jimmy: I probably should've seen it coming living with Ian as long as she did do earned her a 🏆 Janis: not ever a barrel of laughs Janis: I believe it Jimmy: I can't remember the two of them ever not having a go at each other Jimmy: could be 🎄 or 🎂 Jimmy: they'd still crack on Janis: s'shit Janis: fairplay for putting a stop to that nonsense but could've left a forwarding address Janis: jesus Jimmy: a ditch ain't got one in fairness to her Jimmy: not enough for post at least Janis: you think Jimmy: I have done Janis: could be Janis: anywhere Janis: that's the worst Jimmy: or nowhere Janis: yeah Janis: do you reckon Ian knows more than you lot or is he as in the dark Jimmy: Depends Jimmy: sometimes I reckon he knows everything but other times nowt Janis: and even if he did fancy a chat Janis: yeah Jimmy: and if he did her in, ain't gonna admit it Jimmy: to me or the proper 👮🚔 Janis: you thought that too Janis: how could you not Janis: think every which way when you've got nothing to go on Jimmy: got form Jimmy: only have to give her a smack, she hits her head or whatever Jimmy: happens Janis: not impossible Jimmy: she didn't leave a note Jimmy: he'd have probably faked that Jimmy: unless he really is illiterate Janis: right Janis: Not picturing him as a mastermind Janis: if that had happened, you'd know by now Jimmy: I dunno Janis: 'course you don't Janis: that's why it's the worst Jimmy: I probably just wanna blame him, don't I Jimmy: instead of her Jimmy: get him out of my way that Janis: can't blame you Janis: not winning dad of the year just by default of still being about Jimmy: could've, it wouldn't take much Jimmy: only gotta show willing but like me and my 🍀 that ain't gonna happen Janis: seriously Janis: prime opportunity to be 🥇💪 Jimmy: but the prime opportunity to get pity fucked by his co-workers HAD to win out Janis: Oh Ian Janis: 💔 Jimmy: only he could make 🎻🎻 into that kind of playlist Janis: 😬 Janis: oh god Janis: well consider me turned firmly back off Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: my plan so you don't cheat on me with this druggie bloke obvs Jimmy: tah Ian Janis: because that was mine Janis: fuck tinder Janis: find all the hotties this way Jimmy: what are you gonna do if he don't show? Jimmy: other than be stuck with me as a boyfriend like Janis: slam it all myself Janis: cope with that news Jimmy: very on brand, Jules Jimmy: 💀💀💀 and 💔 Janis: I try Janis: nah, idk, plenty of junkies about Janis: had loads of people wanting it so Jimmy: lucky you're used to being so in demand then Janis: Ikr? Janis: don't be jealous, babe 😘 Jimmy: don't sound like me that Janis: Nah? Janis: put my boyfriend on please Janis: whoever you are Jimmy: well funny you Jimmy: how long are you gonna wait for him and make me wait for you Jimmy: bit rude honestly Janis: missed opportunity to ask who I was then but alright Janis: you miss me, I understand Janis: giving him 5 more than we agreed on otherwise I'm putting it back up for sale Jimmy: yeah I do Jimmy: I really want you here Jimmy: now Janis: Baby Janis: I swear Janis: 5 minutes and I'm over it Jimmy: ⏲ Janis: You can time me Janis: IOU however long it takes Janis: whatever you want Jimmy: fuck Jimmy: I'm trying to be 😇 and not distract you mid deal but Janis: You're not the only one who wants me to be there right now, like Jimmy: I get it Janis: Don't reckon you do Janis: but I'll show you so it's all good Jimmy: You're so Janis: for you Jimmy: being mine is gonna be good Jimmy: I'll show you Janis: [long enough to do her deal] Janis: Literally all yours now so Janis: I'm ready Jimmy: tah for not running away with the druggie bloke Jimmy: 💕 Janis: it was tempting but Janis: see what you got first, like Jimmy: I get it, he weren't a 🐕 person Jimmy: she ain't everyone's cuppa her Janis: 😱 Janis: where are you planning to put her when you're showing me how good its gonna be though Janis: 💔 Jimmy: tie her up out front and someone'll think she's a daily special Jimmy: have her away Jimmy: nowt to worry about Janis: heartless you Janis: poor pup Jimmy: 💔 now an' all Janis: @ the kids when we lose their dog Jimmy: they'll live Jimmy: me on the other hand if you don't start being nice Janis: I'm running Janis: I can't be any nicer than that 'til I'm with you Jimmy: save some energy Jimmy: til you can drink it in a bit like Janis: so much to offer a girl, you 💕 Jimmy: 😘 Janis: mr drug addict who? 😍 Jimmy: 😂 that is what I'll say if it comes up with any other dickhead Janis: who you chatting to, kathy Janis: keep it 🤐 Jimmy: just like your nan you 😍 Janis: you are not funny and I don't like you 😑 Jimmy: Baby please Jimmy: let's be mates again Janis: fine Janis: FWB and nothing more Jimmy: 👌 Janis: no 😡 not ok Jimmy: make up your mind, Juliet Janis: have the common decency to pretend to be 💔 Jimmy: not faking nowt Jimmy: I'm 💔💔💔 Jimmy: 😭😭😭 Janis: such a bad actor Janis: can't bear it Jimmy: wouldn't wanna make you feel bad about how crap you are Jimmy: like you too much Janis: Obvs Janis: can't hide your 😍 for shit Jimmy: piss off I can 😎 Janis: 😏 Janis: okay babe Jimmy: such a pisstake you 💕 Janis: only a bit Jimmy: 🤏 Janis: if you hear barking Janis: it's not me Jimmy: It's alright, not a kink I've got Janis: Thanks for getting that out now Janis: don't wanna get down the line and find out I've gotta purchase a tail Jimmy: 😂 Janis: not gotta spill all your secrets but some warning be nice Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: keep that in mind, my dear Janis: considerate and cute 💕 Jimmy: 🤫🤫 Janis: Will if you come out Jimmy: [does and there's the most intense hug because she didn't get killed by a junkie and he's so relieved as am I] Janis: [a look like 'what was that for' but obvs not mad about it] Jimmy: [a look back like 😍] Janis: ['we missed you too' 'cos better love that dog too she'll be wilding] Jimmy: [🙄 at Twix but he still gives her some kind of food he's snuck out of the CG to bribe her to chill] Janis: [😏 'see, you love her really'] Jimmy: [kisses because 1. that smirk off her face 2. shut up and 3. love you more] Janis: [you've both earnt it like] Jimmy: [make the most of this break lads] Janis: [I always like to think of everyone in the CG/walking by are always like these two again] Jimmy: [literally same because they are always so extra with their makeouts and we know it] Janis: [stopping to be like 'I should take her back' but torn 'cos you don't wanna go yet but then you can actually stay lmao] Jimmy: [he'd likewise be so conflicted cos sooner she leaves sooner she can come back and also Twix is distracting but most importantly you never wanna stop ever so you nod but you're giving her such a look and staring at her lips until you just have to give in and kiss her again like oops] Janis: [going in on it like excuse me Twix please wait] Jimmy: [keeping this going til the last possible moment of your break so you can go back in before she goes back and you don't have to watch her leave even though she's coming right back] Janis: I get why people in relationships are so annoying now Jimmy: Oi Janis: don't need to get personally offended Janis: especially when I'm trying to be nice Jimmy: no need to call me annoying Jimmy: especially when I've just been well nice to you Janis: Well I was going to say I DO miss you already, it's not just bullshit Janis: but now I'm not sure Jimmy: go on Jimmy: please Janis: oh Janis: as you're trying to kill me Janis: it feels like it hurts or some shit Janis: not being with you, being able to feel you Jimmy: you didn't even try to kill me, eh? Jimmy: just went straight in with no warning Jimmy: 💀💀💀 Janis: if you were 👻 you could be with me but no Janis: stay alive Jimmy: you brought me to life and then did me in all in the space of one break Jimmy: bit rude Jimmy: don't know if I'm coming or going Janis: it's the most work I've done all day though so Janis: headfucky doesn't have to be bad Janis: prefer this ?! to how it was before Jimmy: drugs sell themselves, rich girl, what can you do? Jimmy: yeah but I don't want owt to hurt you even how much you like me Janis: it's Janis: every way I try to say it sounds like a line from a fucking bad romcom Janis: but it feels better than all the not hurting I've had Jimmy: 1. you loved last night's romcom Jimmy: 2. you're the only decent thing that's happened to me so I get it Janis: 1. if you wanna do your own performance down, yeah, couldn't take my eyes off it Janis: 2. shut up, dog will be well confused if I turn around now Jimmy: what's it gonna take for you to just ditch her? Jimmy: meant to be able to find her own way Janis: is she? Janis: not a homing pidgeon Janis: just be thankful she don't need go go back to my gaff Jimmy: there's been loads of bad films about that bollocks Jimmy: and I'm feeling too much other shit to put thankful at the top Janis: tell me Jimmy: I just Jimmy: I'd gotten used to not breathing til you're about but now it's Jimmy: like everything goes when you do Jimmy: there's no sound or colour Jimmy: no taste to the daily special 😱💔😱 Jimmy: it's jarring when you've only just gone cos when you're with me, the opposite's true obvs Jimmy: 🥇 muse with no need to do owt Janis: It's really indecent how good you are with words Janis: I wish I was better so I didn't feel like all I gave you back was a #same but Janis: I am fucking glad you feel it too or I'd feel like I was going insane Janis: well, do a bit but if you are too, it's alright Jimmy: you heard, you give me everything Jimmy: I don't wanna be stuck in a bad black and white film tah Jimmy: I'll take the romcom Janis: it's a deal Janis: take any and every cliche you wanna throw at me Jimmy: Good 'cause I'm ready to spend the rest of this shift staring at you Jimmy: don't get any more cliched than that around here Janis: I'm ready to pretend I don't notice Janis: that's a blatant lie I'm not ready at all but I'll try Janis: 😇 not getting you in any more trouble Jimmy: I'll clean your table well thoroughly and not 'cause I'm 😇 Janis: That should be the most unappealing offer Janis: and yet 😏 Jimmy: full of cliches and excuses to hang around you, me Janis: good Janis: not that you need 'em anywhere but CG Jimmy: We don't need them there Jimmy: I'll get in trouble for you Jimmy: 😎🚬 Janis: I know you would Janis: don't break my resolve and embarrass me with how easy it is Jimmy: what if I promise that ain't gonna be how you feel Janis: You're Janis: ugh Jimmy: not an answer, that Janis: what can I say to that, like Jimmy: what do you wanna say? Janis: big question Janis: loads I wanna say to you Jimmy: so go on Janis: how many dates you been on? Janis: need to think of something you ain't done for #2 Jimmy: loads but they were all up north so wouldn't be hard to top Janis: alright casanova Janis: no need to show off, not helpful to my cause Jimmy: it's Romeo to you, girl Jimmy: and if I were showing off I'd say they were all top not easy to Janis: 🙄 alright Jimmy: why are you jealous, you know I had a girlfriend for ages Janis: Not jealous, idiot Janis: they don't count Jimmy: ? Janis: obvs you go out with someone you go out with Janis: and she was your mate Janis: I meant the awkward kind with strangers we're tryna replicate Jimmy: then I've not Janis: back to the drawing board Jimmy: 👍 Janis: don't reckon anyone's done this since the 50s Janis: can't take you for a walk 'round the park, you ain't 🐶 Jimmy: if you ain't up to it, I'll do another one Janis: behave Jimmy: Alright Jimmy: but only til you get back Janis: such a 😈 Janis: no saving you Jimmy: that your plan were it? Janis: save your soul Janis: obvs Janis: how the church does it Jimmy: leave out doing my 🍀 homework and we're back on course for that catholic school Jimmy: job done Janis: you maybe but what about me Janis: rude Jimmy: Jesus loves you, girl Jimmy: you're always hyping him up Janis: Catholic girls are hoes Janis: you can't go alone Jimmy: 💔 Jimmy: but you've really sold it there Janis: 😒 Janis: fine Janis: see if I care Janis: 🖕 you and your soul Jimmy: 😍😍🤤🤤🤤 Janis: you're not allowed to be 😍🤤 Janis: leaving me here to 💀 Jimmy: I told you, I ain't leaving you Janis: are too Janis: for jesus and hoes Janis: but mainly hoes Jimmy: no Janis: promise Jimmy: I do Jimmy: you're mine, no need for nowt else Janis: you're important Jimmy: you Janis: do you reckon school will be weird Jimmy: usually is Jimmy: but why do you reckon it'll be weird? Janis: 'cos you're distracting Jimmy: you've been distracting me since I first turned up Janis: no I ain't Jimmy: bollocks Jimmy: you have Janis: nah Janis: just tryna be 👑 charming Jimmy: 1. I don't need to try at being #goals Jimmy: 2. you can't tell me I'm wrong about how I feel or felt Jimmy: 3. take the compliment Janis: not saying you're wrong just saying I'm not entirely sure I believe you Janis: but that's alright Jimmy: why? Janis: dunno Janis: just don't seem like the distractable type Janis: 😒 <-- you at school, from what I remember Jimmy: Alright, I'll prove it Jimmy: you at my house? Janis: yep Janis: just feeding her Jimmy: [tells her where to go to find the picture he drew of her in class way back when which we can say is dated because] Janis: [here for it] Jimmy: believe me now, dickhead? Janis: yes Janis: you're so lovely Jimmy: 💕 Janis: and you wonder why everyone was 😍 at you Janis: can't tone it down a bit, no Jimmy: I don't wonder Jimmy: I know what I've got to offer but I weren't offering them owt Janis: okay hot Janis: I'm 😍 now too, promise Jimmy: might believe you when I see them 😏 Janis: damn, shoulda knicked some 😎 Jimmy: got a pair here you can borrow Janis: you wanna believe me or nah babe Jimmy: I dunno you might suit 😎 Janis: can't steal your look Jimmy: I said borrow Jimmy: but you can keep the first piece of 🎨 you inspired if you want Janis: yeah? Jimmy: do you want it? Janis: of course I do Janis: why wouldn't I Jimmy: it's got whatever maths bollocks we were meant to be doing on it Jimmy: you hate maths Janis: I love you Jimmy: Come here then Jimmy: I need to see you Janis: So close Jimmy: Piss off, you phrased it like that deliberately Jimmy: like I said, so distracting you Janis: not my fault I'd much rather you were coming home Jimmy: I'll have a word with the new girl see if I can interest her in a work based accident Janis: you promised me intense looks from across the room Janis: we'll start there, like Jimmy: don't get more intense than 😱😱😱 babe Jimmy: you want us to go home or what? Janis: don't want no trouble, boy Jimmy: 🤏 Janis: you said you'd be good 'til I got there Janis: still a street or two to go Jimmy: 💔 Jimmy: Alright Janis: don't be sad Jimmy: don't be 2 streets away Janis: easy Janis: [runs that last bit like yo] Jimmy: [is 😍 af] Janis: [when you kiss him hello but gotta keep it not extra 'cos you inside and you nearly die, go sit like 💀] Jimmy: [he'd be suddenly concentrating so hard on smoothie making and deciding what food to get her because likewise dying as hard, it's not a concentration face it's a shameless lip bite guys] Janis: Probably should've ordered Janis: good thinking Jimmy: if I dunno what you want by now Jimmy: what kind of boyfriend Janis: [such a meaningful LOOk like you know] Jimmy: [giving her such a look back of course] Janis: how do you do this all day Jimmy: I don't make a habit of this with all the customers, dunno what you've heard Janis: from your mouth Janis: 👴👵💕 Jimmy: that your way of telling me you're heading over to the tip jar, rich girl? Janis: not as easy as Shelia, obvs Janis: least give me my drink Jimmy: [obvs does bring her the drink as a shameless excuse to come over and have a cliche hand touching moment] Janis: Thanks Janis: defs worth starting your homework at least Janis: [whack that out so you ain't just 😍] Jimmy: [brings her the food as a separate trip we all know why, just leaning over her like he cares so much about his homework all of a sudden not at all about the close proximity oh no] Janis: [just being like oh one sec like you're actually tryna help him with his Irish pronounciation and it's not just shameless] Jimmy: [we're taking that excuse to stare at her mouth and running with it] Janis: [hope some of the customers can speak it 'cos blatantly not explaining the homework, oh the horror] Jimmy: [where the old people at? LOL] Janis: [choking on their tea like excuse me] Jimmy: [we should also do signing across the cafe for the lols] Janis: [defs] Jimmy: [but for now whisper something saucy in her ear and get back to work boy] Janis: [😳] Janis: dickhead Jimmy: 💕 Janis: such a tease Jimmy: only if I weren't gonna do it Janis: hmm Jimmy: 😘 Janis: [blows IRL kiss] Jimmy: [😏 to hide that he's 💀] Janis: [do we want anyone to come in potentially?] Jimmy: [when you go from 😏 to 😒 so quick] Janis: need to stop posting your shifts with the specials, like Jimmy: put that in the suggestion box tah Janis: there must be however many asking for your home address so Janis: do my best Jimmy: [just imagine how much like spoiled rich girls they'd be talking to him cos Grace ain't there to tell them to chill he'd be loving life] Janis: [just 😣 trying to hold your tongue 'cos you know the manager would side with them 'cos no one gives a shit about their employees] Jimmy: [when you come over like you're cleaning up but really just wanna touch her like it's okay] Janis: [look like 'it ain't though' but giving his hand a squeeze] Jimmy: go if you want Janis: no Janis: fuck that Jimmy: they're gonna be here for ages Janis: me too Jimmy: I really like you Janis: I know Janis: should go out, after Janis: treat you with my drug money Jimmy: when you put it like that Jimmy: be rude to refuse Janis: and can be as rude as you want when you ain't on the payroll Jimmy: depends Jimmy: where are we going? Janis: where do you wanna go Jimmy: where do you wanna go? Janis: anywhere I can be with you Janis: I don't mind Jimmy: Hang on, I nearly forgot with all today's bollocks Jimmy: [comes over and slides her a 🔑 he got cut so she doesn't have to hope the spare is there cos we know Cass loses keys always] Janis: [when it's such a moment you have to have one yourself like] Jimmy: you can be with me whenever you want now Janis: [blatantly gonna come up and give him another kiss fuck all of y'all but then goes out like brb] Jimmy: [not being too extra with it but not being as chill as your manager would like either because emotions] Janis: give me the 3rd date Janis: I need time to cash in favours Jimmy: if you don't do any other drug deals in the park, you can have it Janis: 🤞 neither your sister or mine requires that much bribing Jimmy: I don't reckon sugar bear hair is the new crack Janis: 😂 Janis: arguably as effective to getting healthy skin and hair though 💔 Jimmy: have you seen the length of my sister's, don't reckon she needs a hand Janis: won't let Gracie come at her ✄ Jimmy: neither would she Jimmy: knock her out like Janis: think she's had enough 'fights' for a lifetime and Mia can't even hit back so Jimmy: 🎻💔🎻 Janis: gutted she's not got a blackeye Jimmy: take her outside, babe Janis: I want you Janis: 🎻💔🎻 Jimmy: Baby Janis: It's okay Janis: think of all the time owed now Jimmy: thinking of all sorts me Jimmy: nowt my manager or fave customers can do Janis: good Janis: think about me 'til you can be with me Janis: that's what I do Janis: all the time Jimmy: don't do owt else while I'm awake Jimmy: and you're in my head even more if I get to sleep Janis: I'll make sure you can sleep tonight, babe Janis: not just so you dream of me but you know Janis: not mad about it Jimmy: me either Jimmy: I used to dream really 🎻🎻 shit Jimmy: so you have saved me a bit Janis: gotta return the favour, like Jimmy: have a 🚬 for us that's a start Jimmy: got ages til the next break Janis: I will do Janis: give your lungs one Janis: 🛍 rn Jimmy: buy us some poison to chuck in 💀👑 and the rest of the squad's cups then Jimmy: call it even Janis: You've got some Janis: it's called FULL FAT MILK 😱😱😱 Jimmy: 😂 Janis: is there anything you need whilst I'm getting you what you want though Jimmy: we do need milk since you mentioned it Jimmy: I reckon Bob's putting it all in the 🐕 Janis: awh Janis: she's 😻 Jimmy: she'll be 😿 since you left, her Janis: don't 💔 and don't project Janis: be right back, baby Jimmy: don't sound like me, that Jimmy: never 😭😭 I don't Janis: and you wonder why she's my favourite Jimmy: is she? Janis: not saying you don't have a chance to win it back Janis: you know what to do Jimmy: Easy Janis: don't spread it about Janis: but yeah Jimmy: 👌 Janis: considering you ain't 🐶 you're pretty fucking cute Jimmy: you backhanded that compliment so far you've impressed me Jimmy: I'll take it Janis: 🏏💪 Janis: great arm, me Jimmy: I know Jimmy: 😏 Janis: corrupted me, you Jimmy: 😈 you Jimmy: how are you gonna put that on a poor northern lad? Janis: it's true Janis: pure 😇 'til I met you, mate Jimmy: that's the fakest thing you've ever said, mate Janis: 😣 so rude Jimmy: we sorted we ain't going to catholic school, no need to be 😇 Janis: not now Janis: every need before though Janis: what I'm saying Jimmy: I get it, no dickhead round here is worth risking your soul for Janis: or reputation Jimmy: or all your riches, girl Janis: just not shagging 'em Janis: but no, not gonna 🎁💎💰 'em either Jimmy: she says on a 🛍 spree Jimmy: feel well 💕 me Janis: Babe, you know you're well special Jimmy: shh you'll make me well up 😭 Janis: don't take much Jimmy: Alright, calm down Jimmy: I'm a poet and that so Janis: Sensitive type, I know Jimmy: won't be doing no dodgy deals in the park or owt Jimmy: leave them to you Janis: 'scuse me for being productive Jimmy: that what we're calling it then? Jimmy: 👍 Janis: what would you like to call it Jimmy: you just put a name to it, I don't have to Janis: Me either Janis: not a big deal Jimmy: it's nowt to do with me but that's bollocks Janis: no it ain't Jimmy: any other day for you, yeah? Jimmy: like I said, bollocks Janis: obviously not but it don't need to be a drama Jimmy: never said it were Janis: what are you saying then Jimmy: nowt Janis: alright Jimmy: what do you want to hear off me? Janis: fuck off Janis: only what you think, nothing more Jimmy: just seems like you're waiting for something Janis: nah Janis: I ain't Jimmy: 👌 Janis: 👍 Jimmy: you coming back here in a bit? Janis: yeah, can do Jimmy: 🤞 they'll be gone and you'll have brought some enthusiasm from the shop then Janis: 🙄 Janis: leave it out Jimmy: what? Janis: what do you expect Jimmy: you to wanna see me obvs but alright, don't Janis: I mean, how enthusiastic can I get about 👌 Janis: it's obvious that you have something you ain't saying but whatever Jimmy: I've said what I wanted to say Jimmy: if owt's obvious it's that you want me to say something else Jimmy: so what is it? Janis: if that's all you've got to say then what is the point in coming Janis: why was this even brought up Jimmy: if you don't see any point coming then don't Janis: no there is no point if we've got fuck all to talk about Jimmy: how have we got fuck all to talk about? Janis: don't we Jimmy: 'cause I know when to leave out something you're being a dickhead about that means we don't? Jimmy: Alright Janis: so we talk about shit as and when you do or don't wanna Janis: I don't think so Jimmy: that's what you wanna make something out of here? Jimmy: fuck's sake Jimmy: know how to pick your dramas, you Jimmy: not that you bought gear off a scary twat and sold it to another scary twat, why would that be? Jimmy: I'm just the dickhead overreacting for giving a shit what happens to you Jimmy: keep taking the piss Janis: I'm not trying to take the piss Janis: in any sense Janis: it was a fucked night Janis: everything was Jimmy: I get that and why you don't wanna tell me owt about it Jimmy: you don't have to Jimmy: just don't act like it's nowt Janis: It is to me Janis: that's the problem Jimmy: Bollocks Janis: ? Jimmy: you heard Janis: I don't know what you mean though Jimmy: you ain't that good of an actress, girl Janis: If you think I care about myself, then I'm a fucking great one Jimmy: Alright Jimmy: have it that way Janis: yeah like that's how I want it Janis: not a choice Jimmy: if you didn't give a shit you'd have taken it Jimmy: that were a choice Janis: not about me Jimmy: that don't work 'cause if you were thinking about anyone else you wouldn't have bought it Janis: I was thinking of someone else Jimmy: no one you know would want you to do that shit Janis: no one you know I know Jimmy: 🙄 Janis: my sister alright Janis: the dead one Jimmy: and what before she left she was like you know what you'd fucking love, some drugs Jimmy: crack on Janis: yeah and what Janis: was her ex Janis: dealer, boyfriend, whatever Janis: basically came recommended Jimmy: no it didn't Janis: you didn't know her Jimmy: I don't have to know her to know when you're being a dickhead Jimmy: shit matters and if you can't get your head round that then Janis: you know fuck all Jimmy: I know I've got enough on my plate without you scaring the shit out of me Janis: I apologized for that Janis: over and over Jimmy: your drug deal happened a bit ago and you're already over it Jimmy: you ain't that sorry Janis: there it is Jimmy: we're not in this together if I'm the only dickhead who's still gonna be standing at the end Janis: You want me to lie and say I care about myself Janis: you said you don't want me to bullshit you Jimmy: care about me then Jimmy: you might as well call me a cry baby and have done Jimmy: 'cause it's just nowt and I just need to put it out of my head Janis: I said I didn't do it because I care about you Jimmy: and what? that's meant to make me feel better Jimmy: safer Jimmy: or owt else Janis: For fuck sake Jimmy: you stop caring about me and then what? Jimmy: nowt Jimmy: but it won't be nowt, will it Janis: I'm not going to Janis: even though you're Janis: and I've got no idea what I'm doing half the time Jimmy: you have to care about yourself a bit Jimmy: like I do 'cause the kids need me Jimmy: enough to keep on Janis: I didn't take it, did I Jimmy: you can't leave me now Janis: I'm not Janis: I won't Jimmy: Alright Jimmy: then I'll leave it out Janis: I am sorry Janis: you know I am Janis: what do you want me to do Jimmy: I was being a dickhead Jimmy: I do know Janis: like you said I can't just leave you alone now Janis: but I can't promise or even say I ain't gonna bring hassle Janis: 'cos I will, even if I try not to, I still will Jimmy: and I can't promise I'll handle it 🥇 Jimmy: but I'll handle it somehow Janis: I don't want to be something to handle Jimmy: me either but I've got shit an' all Jimmy: nowt we can do about it, is there? Janis: It's bullshit Jimmy: you could have a go at pretending my family don't exist, crack on like my ex Jimmy: worked for a bit Jimmy: and you reckon your acting is up to it Janis: could do a better job than you Janis: but not braggable really, or your fault Jimmy: 💔 Janis: yeah Jimmy: just come back Janis: I can't get this shit right Jimmy: bollocks Jimmy: this is the only thing going right Janis: don't let me ruin it Janis: remember Jimmy: I won't Jimmy: so don't let me either Janis: like you said Janis: you ain't trading meth Jimmy: don't do it again and neither are you Janis: why would I Jimmy: you wouldn't Jimmy: we can just leave it now Janis: works for me Janis: long as you mean it this time Jimmy: I'm sorry Janis: Me too Janis: but I'm coming back Jimmy: I don't wanna be here if you're not Janis: I'm not going anywhere Janis: stay with me too Jimmy: I promise Janis: it's just a different kind of difficult Janis: it must be tough, your siblings needing you Janis: but it's tough when no one does, just for different reasons Jimmy: I need you, you don't have to feel like that again Janis: I like it Janis: it makes me feel Janis: just feel fullstop Janis: I need to get used to it, that's all Jimmy: I get it, I thought I was used to giving a shit 'cause I've had to look after them for ages Jimmy: but nowt's the same with you Jimmy: needing someone too, having something I could lose Jimmy: I don't want them to stay with me forever Jimmy: they're meant to fuck off if I've done a decent enough job Janis: you have Janis: you do Jimmy: 🤞 Janis: Seriously Janis: not just saying it because I love you Jimmy: might all be for nowt if we don't 💀💀💀 Ian Jimmy: how much do you love me? Jimmy: 💕🔪? Janis: Wouldn't even need to 💘 you that much Janis: that much of a dickhead, him, like Janis: but obvs enough anyway Jimmy: romance ain't dying with him then Jimmy: 👍 Janis: not that lucky, boy Jimmy: wouldn't be very lucky that Jimmy: need it for my 🎨 Janis: the 💔 years though, baby Jimmy: take that as your excuse like Jimmy: when you 💔 me Jimmy: a 🥇 muse has gotta do what she's gotta do Janis: no one 💸 to hear a muse's side of the story Janis: you'll have exclusive rights, like Jimmy: If I write it, every dickhead'll read it Jimmy: way with words, me Janis: Don't need to tell me Jimmy: take the reminder though Janis: tell me something pretty then Jimmy: put me on the spot Jimmy: [but a voice memo being cute cos never does any work obvs and I hope Mia saw him do it, deal with that hoe] Janis: 😊 Janis: oh you Jimmy: you Janis: Nearly swooned into oncoming traffic Janis: 💘💀👑 Jimmy: Shakespeare'll be spinning in his �� Janis: Poor Bill Jimmy: I'll turn classic FM on for him Jimmy: with any luck he'll be a happy 👻 and 💀👑 will piss off Janis: some 🤓 you are Janis: you'll 🤯 with that space-age music and then 🌍💥 Jimmy: come sing for us instead then 🤓 girl Jimmy: that's that sorted Janis: not unless Pete has also shown up Janis: got to be audition ready Jimmy: he has Jimmy: you can crack on Janis: damn Jimmy: 🥇 or nowt baby Jimmy: don't show me up tah Janis: 🏃 Janis: byeeee Jimmy: 🎣 Janis: 😏 Janis: okay, you mighta appeased 🖋📜👻 Janis: can be 🤓 together Jimmy: me and him, me and you or you and him? Janis: can ask him how he feels about thirding if you wanna but Jimmy: only so much 👻💕 you can hack? Janis: only so much sharing I'm interested in Janis: which is none Jimmy: 😍😍😍 Janis: shh Jimmy: I'll meet you outside so there's no need to share with Pete Janis: alright Janis: [show up bitch] Jimmy: [when you come out as soon as you see her, excuse him everyone cos he's gonna be extra with the hello as per] Janis: [the 😍😍😍 are so real]

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