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supnerds · 4 months ago

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Yu Ijin: I've only had my sister for a day and a half but if anything happened to her I will destroy everyone in this school and then myself. Fantastic in just the first few chapters, thanks for the recommendation!

oh it’s so good!!! I’m glad you’re enjoying it!!

I need to reread that one again, I binged the whole thing over a few days ago month or so ago and I wanna see ijin and his sister again I love them

#I just took my licensing exams last week so until I hear if I passed or not I’m gonna hopefully start catching up on things #unfortunately I have not made any lists so I have no idea what I wanted to read/watch #got home from my exam and just laid on my bed for a while then watched like three pilot episodes to random things that popped up on Netflix #in the meantime I’m rewatching fruits basket yet again #twas the first anime I ever saw so it’s sentimental #also I love tohru she’s so kind I wanted to be like her when I was younger first watching #anyway this is very much off track from the original post sorry #it is late and I have zero filters when sleep deprived #but yes #I’m glad you enjoy it!!#long story short I think I’ll reread teenage mercenary sometime soon #haven’t used my tag for a while so let’s throw it on just for fun #sup nerds #sometimes I wish I came up with something more clever #but that’s a ramble for another day I need to sleep #congrats if you made it this far down the tag ramble #I hope you have a great day/night/weekend/life!

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catliker49 · 6 months ago

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I am hoping I'll finish this tomorrow!! I'll be a day late for Clown's birthday, but it's currently 2:30AM! I must get my beauty sleep! Here is some of the Line art so far if you are interested! Howdy and Barnaby! Yay!!! Ooh I also drew Sally.. I love how I drew her.. I'm holding myself back from showing too much of the drawing, but AAHH! (Also I am so Angry - not really! haha! - every time I try to make my text fancy.. the last letter, full stop, comma or bracket is always white rather than the Colour I chose! Evil I say!)

#rambling!#welcome home #art WIP #my art #I keep forgetting to use that tag!!!#AAH!#Uff I need some sleep #I hope you are all alright!#I might take another break after this #I just wanted to make something for Clowns birthday :o)#Sleep tight all!#Or have a wonderful Day!

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dailyloweffortpace · 3 months ago

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Day 20: aaauughfgsgxgvnnfgjnd

#rambled in these tags sorry its been a long day #toontown corporate clash #pacesetter #graham ness payser #ok i said in my last post that todays was gonna be another prompt but i do not have the mental energy for that rn #like i stayed up all night even though i knew i had somewhere to be (i tried to sleep it didnt work my sleep cycle was fucked)#then i took a two or something hour nap cus i knew i would be out all day and then i was out and social for EIGHT HOURS #so yeah my brain is pretty fried from that #my shoes were really uncomfortable too and i was standing for most of it so uh oww #im doing alright btw this drawing is more of an exaggerated projection but i think i needed it right now #also fun fact most of the drawings on this account do have sketches made for them. this isn't one of them i wanted it to be a bit more jank #i need to sleep now bye jgsdkajgjk

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dnangelic · 8 months ago

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pissed because I can’t word things right or concisely whatsoever and it’s keeping me up rn but like- I know dark mostly gives off a negative impression (both ooc and ic between himself and other muses) in regards to his relationship with daisuke, cause not only is he an unreliable narrator but he’s also one intent on making himself seem worse than he actually is 99% of the time. he’s guilty of existing the way he does but he literally has no other choice. his birth is something he acknowledges as a mistake and his existence is one he heavy heartedly accepts as a curse against the niwa, who he doesn’t want to hurt at all, he just longs for; wants to become one with. that’s why it’s sooooo cute to me that daisuke has that LN 2 monologue where he admits he was afraid of dark taking over his life at very first, but now they share everything- ‘we share one body, experience the same feelings, and get along even if we fight.’ coexistence is a big theme within dnangel but when you pick it apart for dai and dark specifically isn’t it kind of crazy that the thieves and their own metaphorical and literal thieving punishment still learn to get along and SHARE rather than only rob and extort from each other 😭

#mobile.#dai is too ashamed to ever bring it up but fr if anybody shows disgust or disdain towards dark #he Does get rlly anxious and hurt #hell this happening with riku is like straight up the entire base plot for dai bdbdbdbnsna #but hurting dai in this way hurts dark too #the ones daisuke loves- he also can’t help but love them too #so be denied in one way or another just ends up hurting them both #heuebbdjjdhd anyways I need to SLEEP!!#proof of insanity is me showing up just to ramble about this then leave #I GOT A HELLA BUSY DAY TMMW THOUGH PRAY I SURVIVE JT

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welcometogrouchland · 11 months ago

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they shouldn't let me stay up past midnight bc then I start identifying every single problem I've ever had. No solutions found. Net zero personal progress and 0.5 hours of sleep are achieved

#ramblings of a lunatic #ignore me I'm having a moment #actually wait that's one of the problems we (the brain council) identified. is my need to not have problems where ppl can see #oh very problematic of my brain. not a fan #look i just got out on christmas break for college the term is catching up to me #i didn't make any real friends and it's not that I'm surprised..but yeah I'm surprised. i forgot about My Whole Deal somehow #like girl do the math. 7 yrs to make A FRIEND. SINGULAR. came pre packaged w/ 2 friends but took you 4 more years to make another one-#-independtly. straight up did not understand friendship and human relationships until you were at least 16 #did we honestly think we were gonna knock it out of the park in terms of socialising this first term???? did we????#wishful thinking ig #oughh. college...bad. or not bad but. strange. and lonely. and yeah kinda bad #existentially horrifying in ways i didn't even realise were possible. i get why so many tma fans were college students/grads now #college just irl cosmic horror #anyway. i think i should try and sleep now lest the brain demons get the better of me #but also I've gotten like. 4 hours of sleep total over the last 6 days- not for lack of trying mind you #so like. I'm anticipating a struggle.

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trash-bin-ary · 2 months ago

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I can go on that ramble about the future and housing and aromanticism though now. It’s like man, the future is already something that is so inconceivable to me. To then have the sexuality that does not allow me to slot in the cookie cutter you find a romantic partner that you end up moving in with is terrible. And like In this economy I sure can’t live alone, and I know at least when I’m sick I desperately want someone to be there. And then there’s I’m likely to move around a bunch how do you deal with that housing, other than the work having paid housing. like constantly having to find somewhere that’s looking for roommates and it isn’t terrible? And then long term, when I find a job I stay at for a while (that’s remote so I’d love to live in a remote place) is it like I find a place to stay and then I’m stuck there forever and I just have to hope that I make good friends at this new place. (Friends that don’t want to live exclusively with a romantic partner no less.) I want to live with close friends so bad and I’m not sure if that’s a feasible thing for my future. I’m a person that has so much hope so I have to assume that yes it will work out, I do believe that. But man just hearing someone mention it, sparks that hope.

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wolpatinga · 3 months ago

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#*beep* oh. hey. guess you're sleeping? maybe you're at work. or out with friends. i hope wherever you are it's good #or that it's getting better. i really do #i'm not good. but you knew that already. otherwise why would i be leaving this message?#sorry. i just need to talk for a bit i guess #cause it's like. every day i write a hundred posts and every day i delete most if not all of them #and i could not tell you why #this is my blog after all. my words and thoughts go here #but also. this is my third place. and i can't lose that #isn't that crazy? i can't lose the handful of notes from reblogging other people's posts #the idea that somehow i'm constructing myself in the cut and paste instead of doing something myself #and i do try to make posts of my own. but nothing's ever worth posting. i don't even let it rot in the drafts. it's just gone #and i try to think about what would stop me from doing this #which inevitably brought me here - what would i be doing if it were fifty years ago #and i think the answer is i'd be calling someone who used to care and blowing up their answering machine #and i think about old answering machines. the ones that need a tape to record the message #does dora just re-record over the tapes that harry fills?#does she trash them? i'm guessing she doesn't listen to them #i won't tell you what to do with this message. i'll spare you a call to action #it's not like a diary would fix this. i have a diary. i've been keeping one regularly for months now #i think i want to be perceived but i refuse to speak unless spoken to and i will not reach out on here unless i'm being a kindly anon #and when i talk irl it's all broken disjointed subjects without predicates #it takes such effort for me to talk that people stop asking me out of kindness. but there's still thoughts i haven't said #thoughts that don't need to be said. we don't *need* another person rambling on about whatever random fandom topic or half-assed scribbles #i tried making serious art and meta posts for like four years across different fandoms #it's all gone now. as is most of my poetry. lotta things i don't know or care to know #and i can't bring myself to do that again. esp if that's not why you're here. so like. it's easier just to remain quiet?#because. i know people *can* understand. but it takes effort #and i can't guarantee a return on investment. i don't know if the cost of teaching me how to talk again is worth it #god i want to infodump but that was beaten out of me. the need is still there but i can't. it hurts #idk. things are good and then things are bad and on the whole they're good and getting better

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xxcapybaragamingepic1337xx · 9 months ago

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If they didn't want people sleeping during the day they wouldn't have made beds so comfortable

#hi I just woke up and my blankets are so soft and it's the perfect temperature as well and I have so much work that needs to be done #it's a cruel world #I've also lost all concept of time and barely know what day it is but whatever #maybe.... another 20 minutes... what's the worst that could happen #sorry for rambling just woke up with very strong feelings about how comfortable I'm feeling rn #also unrelated to anything I think modern oil paintings are really interesting especially ones that are more realistic and focus on everyda #scenes or still lives #personally I always associate oil painting with very classical art and that comparison brings a whole new layer of appreciation to the #piece like yea you've painted your McDonald's happy meal and hundreds of years ago somebody painted this bowl of fruit #and the medium in which you did it stayed the same the whole time #it's similar to how I feel about (modern) art in museums in that because it's placed in museums it gives it the feeling of an important #art piece and something that you should study intently #love modern art btw don't think it has only value if it's placed in an museum I just think it's interesting how much impact the surrounding #have on what we consider art #which is a fun thing to try out like for example if I say my IKEA chair is art that gives it a different value #making me study it more closely and in the process I'll realise yes it is art to me the way the pieces fit together #how the form was designed etc and it works for everything and makes your day much more fun #ramble over if someone's still reading this here's a fun little guy: 🐕 and sorry for taking up so much space on the dashboard #I'm going to go back to sleep now (bed is still veryyyy comfortable)#delete later

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#just an observation bc im avoiding working on stuff but i draw a lot and post basically everything i draw thst gets finished #and its v funny to me how u can tell how out of focus i was based on the quality of the drawing #or like when i post something and its like ok some of that was good but u def gave up halfway thru one of those lol #inconsistency i funny like that. its also funny to me that now a days i get comments like COLORS!!!#which is funny bc i notoriously haaaaaate coloring. like i will sit around whining and complaining when im home with my parents bc i dont #wanna color. its just so easy to fuck things up when u draw traditionally and it takes a million years so its a big ask lol #but i guess i dont hate is so much right now bc i kinda just slap whatever colors i want together like fuck it we ball #and thats kinda fun. reckless i suppose #its agony when u wanna try to do shadows and lights tho. like finding references ugh #or wanting to draw big ideas but then its like oh god its gonna take so long and if i dont do it all in one sitting i might die #im a lil better abt thst now bc it would b impossible but in my head i still hate it #ugh. all i wanna do is draw. theres another universe where i went to art school. or just like took art classes. and i wanna say id b happier #but thats def a lie XD i like learning too much and i dont have the attention span to hardcore learn genetics outside an academic #environment. and i got way too excited abt exploring the genetic traits of my cyano species #like i can make genetics trees for traits and look for. fuck. i forgot the word. how tf did i forget the word. oh god. horizontal gene #transfer. jesus christ its like theres a hole in my brain. well. i guess i did get only like 4hrs sleep. ugh im rambling.#i need to finish getting ready for Monday so i dont have to tomorrow and ill have time to draw. prob wont stop me feeling nauseous abt #teaching tho. OH FUCK. i just remembered i have a new office space now to decorate. fuck i need to hang up pictures and stuff #what would b the funniest way to put narut0 on my deskspace? idk ill have to think abt it. oh god im not ready #my head is like a handbell. one of the big ones when u ring it and it hits soft and u can feel the vibrations. someones wrung my head lol #unrelated

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arlo-venn · 2 years ago

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Worried about how ill I’ve been, too afraid to be shrugged off by my doctor so I haven’t mentioned, it’s been weeks now. Complaining here instead

#I think it’s just a huge gastroparesis flare #which I convinced myself I didn’t have #and I kept cancelling the gastric emptying test bc I’m never well enough when the day comes to #be out and about in a hospital for that many hours with POTS #so I had Tyrell reschedule it (it’s been almost a year) and ask for accommodations #but it’s not til the 16th of May and I’m dying n o w .#think I need a feeding tube that surpasses my stomach #afraid to put anything in so I keep passing out from blood sugar or lack of food or pots being mad about it all #little worried about my gallbladder which is another thing I’ve put off the tests for #.I do have a thyroid ultrasound this week #that better be normalish I stg #i think I’m on too many medications as well #dunno what to do about it #I’m rambling bc I’m trying to distract myself from my suffering #I am at my most ill when I wake up after sleeping and I’ve just woken up #ahhhh

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aceofstars16 · 10 months ago

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I am going to bed and it’s already the second, but…seeing as it’s not exactly a resolution it doesn’t really matter that much lol…but!

This year, I am *hoping* to actually work on an original book, *maybe* even finish a rough draft for one? Partly because I kind of have a goal of trying to finish a book (not sure if that involves publishing or not yet) by 30 (it’s getting closer than like to think about lol)

I’m not being super strict on myself because I want it to be fun, not just a chore (though some days I know it will be), but I don’t know, thought I’d make a note of it here to remind myself of it or something? Who knows, it’s late and I need to sleep 😂

#another goal is to GET BACK ON A BETTER SLEEP SCHEDULE #the last week I have been soooo bad and I’m feeling it oof #also I might open up redbubble…I have an account but I need to like…tweak it before I advertise or anything lol #and if my book stuff goes well maybe one day I’ll open up my Patreon again #though I’d have to clean it out cause….don’t want that old stuff in there 🫠#aceo rambles #okay I need to SLEEP now 😴

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cubot · 11 months ago

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Ate my first meal in over 30+ hours (leftover ramen from a restaurant as the previous meal + a persimmon) since I got into a stupid argument with my dad yesterday night and then tried to bring it up hours later and he replied pettily instead of actually wanting to work it out (work it ALL out).

So I gave up on him. I'm being picked up by my mom in about seven hours for Christmas at my grandma's. I'm coming back with my sister and my brother's family ONLY because we got my brother's baby big gifts and I want to see her play with them. Sleeping over here. And then my friend is picking me up the 26th as early as she can. (I didn't want to bother my friends at all because it's the fucking holidays).

Not leaving this room beyond bathroom breaks (got my fucking period for the third time in three weeks and this time it's the worst) was vastly preferable than passing by him.

I told him I'm never coming back and he said it was emotional manipulation. Maybe. Maybe because I wanted to actually have a conversation with you to fix both of us so neither of us are uncomfortable. But I'm 27 years old and I am sick with my stupid ass parents and their emotional instability.

#ramblings #i wasn't even hungry but when i stood up at 1 AM to go up since he went to bed an hour previous #i got faint and buzzing in my ears so i guess it was a good idea to get some food in me.#drinking a monster but that will put me to sleep (mostly to help with preventing a caffeine headache tomorrow) along with my meds #hoping to get four hours of sleep because i slept all day and don't really need it but want to pass the time.#.... but if my meds don't make me sleepy maybe i'll pull out pokemon and just pull another all nighter

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floatingwithlaura · 11 months ago

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i take about 8 pills every 4 hours as a like Staying Alive and Functioning routine. but it always pisses me off when i have to take even ONE more. why!!!!! i basically rattle as i walk as it is.

#reason for taking another: almost shit myself bc my pain is squeezing my stomach #loose bowel movements the bane of my existence #god why #jaz rambles #chronic illness sucks btw #endometriosis #this doesn’t include my other Daily Pills like my antidepressants and when needed sleeping pills #like bro #no wonder im never hungry #i eat about 35 pills a day (on a bad day)

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izzy-b-hands · 9 months ago

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Trying to make my brain do anything today has just been case after case of 'well, half-assed is better than nothing I guess.'

#text post #idk why i have such bad post-survey mental dips every time but I always do #literally last night before end of my shift was like okay brain. it's ok that we aren't working after this. this is fine.#there's another survey in two weeks (for ONCE they told us in advance) and in the in between other things I can do to keep making some mone #and I felt really confident abt that at that point! wish that confidence hadn't been so misplaced bc I did in fact spiral #was actually exhausted enough to just eat shower and sleep after work but the shower was just a big spiral w/crying and scrubbing lmao #whatever. did a mini vid in the new outfit i have for the side job and will do dishes tonight #plus I'll get my shot done bc that's a day late now too #prolific and cloud i got a bit done too and i'll keep checking those thru the night #i actually wanna play gta for a bit & try it with the controller but i feel guilty every time i so much as look at steam so. we'll see #i just need to do something else useful today bc tomorrow will be a full filming day most likely so. gotta make today useful too #I know it must sound like im not really trying to work with my brain on this but i shit u not #this is my brain when im actively employing coping skills and other things to try and counteract the 'work or die' mindset #i dont know how to make it any better and at this point I don't think I can #this was baked into me as a kid lmao bc even playing needed to have a point/story/some goal to achieve #or why the fuck was i playing with my barbies or metal toy cars or dinosaur and horse figurines to begin with #im rambling to put off doing the dishes ignore me lmao

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whatevers-inconvenient · 2 years ago

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i wonder if i’ll ever learn to recognise the signs that are so blatantly OBVIOUS 🩸🩸🩸

#just some PMDD rambles scroll scroll scroll i just need to scream a little #it would help if my periods were regular and not ‘hmm not this month... maybe 3 weeks later?’#or ‘oh it’s only been 3 weeks? here we go again time is a construct’#but still. one week prior i go more insane than usual. few days before i can't sleep and think of death. EVERY TIMe. but no. i don't connec #the dots because there is no set timing #and i am an insane girl and there is always something external i can attribute it to #anyway i only started noticing this not that long ago which makes me wonder #did i always have this or is it another gift from long covid?#should i bother trying to get a diagnosis? or will it only make doctors more likely to 'it's just anxiety' me? hmm #for now i would love to have less pain thanksbye #//

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southislandwren · 1 year ago

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I deeply love the freshman but she just called twice to ask if could jump her car at a location 30 minute drive away, I am pajama’d and blind in bed . No I cannot dedicate over an hour of time when it’s already my bedtime because surprise, I wake up at fuckin 4:25 am 🙃

NO FUCKING WAY was I awake typing this godforsaken post and my other friend called me for 30 MINUTES!!!!! You fuckheads I work on a farm do not contact me after 7:30!!!! Arggghhhhhh okay goodnight and anyone else who calls me is NOT getting an answer I am asleep GOODNIGHT !!!!

#and last night I got like 5 hours of sleep and I didn’t take a nap today. I shouldn’t be fucking driving anyway because I’m SLEEPY sleepy #I was like give me 30-40 minutes and she was like uhhh I will call some other people… yeah do that .#like if I do go for a drive this weekend I’ll still invite her but I’m getting a little sick of her antics #diary post #ugh. anyway if you find this E I do deeply love you fr but I told you I wasn’t going to be a good friend this summer #and I didn’t mean like teehee I can only hang out on Saturdays #I meant the likelihood I text back or see you in person more than twice a month is VERY low #and yeah this is on me for picking a stupid fucking job but like. I need to be sick of farming before I head to a city for 5+ years #I am exhausted down to my core. I relapsed in my bad habit on Saturday. I am barely functioning.#I don’t think I’ve eaten anything that’s not fruit or dairy products in the past 3 days. I am desperately waiting for an incident at work.#begging to the universe to let me get kicked in the head or something so I can have a few fucking days off PLEASE #anyway goodnight. now im all wound up and I’ll get another 5 hours of sleep #also ironic the second friend who called me was gossiping abt this guy at work that should just shut up sometimes #and im sitting there on the other side of the phone YAWNING after picking up and answering I am already in bed #and my friend is still rambling on about stupid inane work bullshit that I do not care about.#okay goodnight for real. I hate everything

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