#but that shit pisses me off way more than it should

[lilithschosen]

"#she could spit on me and i'd thank her and ask for more" you can't write those tags and then not do anything with it.... 👀👉👈

the WAY my brainworms got this and went "oh fuck yes we got this" holy shit. ok ok ok

Agatha fucking hated, and still hates, when Rio wears her badge. It doesn't mean anything now since she is no longer a federal agent, but she wears it from time to time to put pressure on suspects. It makes sense, but it feels like Rio is pulling rank on her.

Seeing that chain around her neck with that black leather holder against her chest all day made her want to rip it off and throw it into the woods.

Rio pushes the door open with her foot, hands full with case files and her bag. Agatha follows in a bit behind her, an unamused look on her face as she shuts and locks the door behind her.

"That kid nearly spilled I can feel it," Rio begins, irritated. "I know he did it too. He's shifty, there's no reason to be in the graveyard after dusk when you have literally no one buried in there."

Agatha grumbles under her breath, nothing loud enough that Rio makes out. She offloads the files into the coffee table and sets her bag down by the door before turning to Agatha.

"Okay, talk."

Agatha sneers, kneeling down to untie her boots. "About what?"

Rio rolls her eyes, hand on her hip. "You've been mad all day. What's your problem?"

"That fucking badge is my problem."

Rio pinches the bridge of her nose, breathing in slowly as she thinks over her word choice carefully. Agatha stares up at her as she tugs off her first boot and starts working on the other.

"You're telling me," she begins, "Your entire shitty behaviour today, your quick and snappy responses, and the cold shoulder during lunch, is all because of my old badge?"

"Yup."

Rio recoils at the enunciated plosive, running her tongue against the back of her teeth. She walks over to Agatha and stands above her, leaning so the badge hovers just above her face.

"You're fucking joking."

Rio shakes her head.

"This badge?" She picks it up, flipping the black leather flap open to show the shiny metal underneath. "Is solely to intimidate dickheads that think they're above the law. It has never been, and will never be, me telling you I'm better than you."

Agatha hesitates as she goes to pull her other boot off. Rio rarely gets this pissed off, Agatha learned rather quickly that Rio developed emotional regulation where she did not. She tugs the boot off slowly and lines it with the other next to her.

Rio sees the demeanour change, how Agatha doesn't sit up fully while knelt in front of her. She moves forward and grabs Agatha by her ponytail, tilting her head back with one hand while holding her badge in the other.

"You and I are equals," Rio's voice is low, serious. Agatha tries to fight the urge to meet her eyes but fails. "Your feelings of being subservient, while they're valid and I understand what you're coming from, are not realistic. This metal has no hold on you."

Rio jerks her head back further and Agatha's mouth opens, lips curling as she hisses from the pain. She sees it, the spark of arousal in Agatha's darkening eyes.

Rio drops the badge and grips Agatha's chin, forcing her mouth open further as she leans in more over her. She holds her tongue down in her mouth, gathering saliva before pushing it out past her lips. The long strand of spit descends before snapping and dropping into Agatha's mouth.

Rio taps Agatha's chin up, indicating she should close it.

"Swallow it."

Agatha doesn't blink, doesn't falter, doesn't move anything other than her jaw up to close her mouth as she swallows Rio's spit.

"Good girl."

Her mouth opens again, now in surprise. The power dynamic, the explanation. She wasn't using her badge to remind Agatha she's lesser, but was using the moment to twist it into something beneficial for the both of them.

"I-," Agatha stutters. Rio's hand darts out, wrapping around her throat as she squeezes just enough for Agatha to feel it. "More."

Rio raises an eyebrow, head turning slightly as she smirks. "Thank me first."

"Thank you, Rio," Agatha rasps, her mouth suddenly drier than ever before. "More, please."

[sleepyhouse2art]

i fucking hate the term "outsider artist". daniel johnston was an ARTIST. wild man fischer was an ARTIST, and made way cooler stuff than zappas exploitative ass ever did! just because i have schizophrenia, that means i cant be a regular person and a regular artist? i have to be an "outsider"?

i also think it's a way for normal people to feel cool for knowing about someone "obscure", even though any kind of cultural currency from knowing "obscure media" should have died when we all got little computers in our pockets. you're not cool for knowing "weird" stuff. you're not special. fuck you. anybody could know what you know.

i think people simultaneously fetishize mental illness and also condescend to the actual real people who have severe mental illness. they treat us like we're babies who can't do anything right, or like being crazy makes us lesser than them. i already get treated like a baby by almost everyone i know irl. drawing is really the only thing that makes me feel good anymore and one of my only remaining interests. i usually draw upwards of 8 hours a day. i don't like being regarded as weird because i try so hard to be normal and it's so hard for me to do the things most people do automatically. i feel like they know something about life that i don't. before my first break and my diagnosis i was so much more capable and now i can't even do most of my adls anymore because i keep having them and having them and my brain is so different now. im in and out of the hospital so much. people keep an eye on me. my husband gets frustrated with at me for acting like a baby. i hate it and it sucks.

but having schiz shouldn't mean im dumber than other people or less than other people even though that's how i feel most times. i wish people wouldn't be so rude. people are so rude to me sometimes just because i have a problem with my brain. i went outside for the second time in a year this week and a man laughed at me in the store. i couldn't remember how to swipe a card and the lady got frustrated and took it from me. i felt awful.

im sorry this is so long. im sorry to complain. i think this shit really pisses me off!!! i really resent the way people treated daniel johnston and wild man fischer. fuck everybody who made fun of their great art and acted like they were just a stupid joke, or felt cool for knowing about them. they deserved so much better.

[eltanin0]

completely unrelated to everything, but i despise cheaters in games. i'm still annoyed that i encountered one last night playing tf2, and everyone defended that rat. it was obvious garbage, but everyone took his side because he said i was just bad. i have 3 separate clips of the piece of shit toggling aim, and it's unbelievably obvious. i am easily pissed off when cheaters get rewarded

[risingsunresistance]

sorry him saying he has no idea where the misogyny thing comes from when ludwig just talked about how he sent him a big apology for calling his friend a whore when it was about THE WRONG WOMAN is funny as fuck

i dont think he realizes that the reason no one gives a shit about his apologies and honestly just straight up ignores them is because EVEN IN THE EVENT THAT THEY ARE TRUE he's been proven to lie soooooo many times to the point where you really cant believe a word that comes out of his mouth. he says something and im like "damn maybe i was wrong about that one... i'll look into it" and you get more info and go "oh. he just made that part up. and misworded that. and lied about that part... oh it was actually WORSE than i initially thought!"

[pinkyjulien]

Feeling sad over a game I did not even plan on playing myself, but deadass Concord's design and characters are legit so fun and refreshing I'm ghfh sad it's flopping 😭😭

I don't know y'all but I'm ROOTING for you 🙏😔

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Honestly, I was a bit surprised at how much the fandom seems to actively despise Ging because to me he's just kind of a funny little man

[lyril]

lumpus is a fascinating specimen glad theres other people also fond of him

HE SURE IS i will be honest i almost like him a Little Too Much because i Also live in my fantasy world of make believe where camp lazlo is a little more than a 6.4/10 show (I STILL LOVE YOU SWEETHEART!) and instead also includes all my insane 20k spiels of backstory stringing and talks about character writing but

(also. i do think it's funny how popular slinkman is in comparison, i love him just as much, but i actually see people mention really liking slinkman pretty frequently if someone happens to posts about camp lazlo which is GOOD because he DESERVES IT MAJORLY but the lumpus bug has Also caught me something awful even though i hate him and he sucks so i'm alone adrift in the world out here...)

edited this just for him

[faksyan]

Have you ever looked at the list of autism traits and very confidently said well I don't have that one only to notice years later you are doing the fun leg movements from a show you just watched in your kitchen at six in the morning and you suddenly Get what they meant by copying body movements and stuff and surprise you've been doing it all that time actually and now you are Aware of it so your body feels weird but you also still want to do it so your brain just bluescreens. or is that too specific.

[sp4ceboo]

rant but im a bit scared im going to get attacked

[tardis--dreams]

Me panicking because i have 9 missed calls and 5 emails talking about my absence and how "a colleague could take over for me" vs. Me knowing it's really not that important no matter how pushy a client is and that on top of it I'm underpaid and have way to much overtime so i shouldn't even care

[phantaloon]

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[camgoloud]

i simply feel that if you burn shit in your roommate’s skillet you should then feel the obligation to be the one who scrapes it out and cleans up

[tehmhachi]

is it bad that i don't hate TIFs, even when they're being homophobic or trying to larp as gay males? idk i just can't bring myself to hate them, they're so harmless imo

Nah, I don't think so. It's like, product of oppression and all that. Plus they go out of their way to come across as the most harmless even when they're aggro-ing someone... "im going to tie your shoelaces together in school!! I hope all your socks are wet for the rest of your life!!" and shit like that. Very rarely do we have a fuckin Lou Sullivan situation where they're actively going out and sexually assaulting gay men.

[girl-bateman]

it sounds so obvious now, but im pretty sure my physical problems rn can all be traced back to the fact that my brain and body has been in a constant hypervigilance and cortisol overload for 3 months straight. the dizziness, the blackouts, the acne, the constant nausea, the giant eyebags and sudden crows feet ?? Like yeah, no shit thats what happens when ur every waking hour is the equivalent of that camille preaker crying gif

[jackass-jones]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

[smellyprincetm]

FUCKING HELL