#but tbh i would love to throw caution to the wind and get high with dabi JUST ONCE

[inkykeiji]

pours a lil mountain of cocaine onto my tongue then uses my tongue to rub it into dabi’s gums slow and hard and thorough <33 grinding the substance into his tissues and teeth until it’s entirely absorbed, consumed, seeping into the tangle of tiny capillaries and shooting through his blood, leaving his face tingling with little pinpricks of sweat and his pupils gaping with rapid exhilaration, veins cracking with white electricity <3

[1ddiscourseoftheday]

Thurs 18 March ‘21

The Zayn/ Zach Sang interview is happening, for real this time (fingers crossed)! It’s scheduled for tomorrow!! Zach promises to ask lots of NIL questions. And I really believe it’ll happen this time, Zayn OUT THERE doing promo-- he did multiple radio spots yesterday and answered every question thrown his way however stupid, even throwing caution to the wind and taking on the one they’re all always trying to avoid (though not so far to the wind as to choose any of the other options each of which would be a scandal in a different way- you can take the boy out of the media training but...)- “I’ll tell you what,” he said, “Niall is my favorite. How about that? There you go. Niall makes the best music. Yeah I will say that he makes better music than me. Yeah, I’m a Niall fan." About the grammys he said, “It's nothing to do with my own personal gain because even if they nominated me at this stage, I wouldn't even go and accept the award because it doesn't mean anything to me.”

Zayn talked about how he just wanted to do a song with Ingrid, he didn’t know what, “I didn’t expect it to be anything less than great but it was better than that… it hit the nail on the head” and “the fact that it’s an important message in the song makes it better.” He also said that he listens to a lot of country music and would really like to collab with Chris Stapleton. OKAY! TBH I can hear how that makes sense- amazing, I am manifesting this, come on universe! He also said that he will have new music this year in an old school R&B style though and that he would like to do live shows after the pandemic!! If I didn’t think he was just saying things I would be LOSING MY MIND right now but omg WHAT IF?? He said Khai is an easy baby, a good sleeper and eater, that he likes singing to her, and that Gigi is a “wicked mom” and “a big help,” LMAO (RIP Zayn, strangled by his baby mama). RCA posted a couple more gorgeous new Zayn pics, and Ingrid raves about how Zayn’s fans are “the sweetest most supportive people” and she feels “like I’ve been hugged by a million stars today.” Am I to understand that it’s possible for stans to treat a woman working with their fave with kindness?? My mind is REELING!

Hopefully Harry has had enough time to process having achieved a great industry honor, because yesterday brought another- he was on Beyonce’s insta! She included a picture of the two of them talking backstage in her big grammys wrap up post (plus he’s visible behind her in a shot of her winning- say what you will about the orange jacket it’s great for visibility!) And Lil NasX, perfect as always, has something to say about Harry too- he says “stop using me as a bait against harry styles. I love harry, if y’all fw what I wear say it without mentioning him,” and posts a couple examples of the types of tweets he means such as “we have GOT to stop acting like Harry Styles is a male fashion icon when lil nas x is right there.” Stop pitting girls against each other2k21! Nas gets it, bless him. Oh yeah and an old pap video from DWD set of Harry going into Olivia’s trailer posted which I ignored because it was so completely uninteresting but apparently that’s a BIG DEAL to some people. My bad! You’re so right, the only reason someone would possibly go into a room with a coworker is obviously that they’re fucking! They probably had sex right there while the paps were outside! I mean there were a bunch of other people visibly in the trailer too but whatever. Oh and as long as we’re doing nonsense catch up- he was seen with a FEMALE in Malibu the other night omgggg they’re clearly dating. Oh but actually it might have been Mitch! LMAO, but that’s okay we can have discourse about how they’re obviously fucking anyway cause like… dinner! TOGETHER!! The scandal.

Anyway Louis has a message for us, can you guess what it is? Yes that’s right-- “Hope everyone's doing alright!!” No matter how many times he says it, I still love the hello, thanks love (even if it was an afterthought and he was actually there to follow a crypto currency trading account). A bunch of old videos of him were posted today, including one from 2019 where Louis says about acting in his music videos “I wasn’t acting it’s who I am hahahaha” (ahhhhh I miss that laugh) and he’s on the wall of a THIRD MUSEUM! Louis is Art pt lll-- A Doncaster history timeline at the local museum has a big entry for Doncaster’s finest export, labeled “Louis Tomlinson Achieves Super Stardom”! Earlier entries were his face (hung up high) in the National Portrait Gallery and the science museum employee who saw their chance and took it by crediting a mushroom joke to him, a deep Video Diaries reference in the year of 2019; whoever that unknown louie is I hope they are having a very nice day every day, what a hero.

And a photodump from Zayn’s favorite member of OT4! Labeled DUMP (charming thank you) Niall posts an assortment of selfies (that sunglasses one! Ashe agrees, commenting “photo number four thank you very much”) and aesthetic pics and one tiny snippet of a piano tune, and speaking of photodumps from favorites of Zayn’s, a BUNCH of outtakes from Liam’s Grinder Tetu photoshoot just got posted and if I were a gay man I’m pretty sure I would have just had a heart attack, view with care they should probably be PG13.

[utterlyinevitable]

Please can you continue the angst and do Bryce and MC breaking up after OHSY?

OK but... why would anyone break up with Bryce Lahela????? 

Bryce and MC (Becca) OHSY/OH3 Breakup 

Bryce and Becca’s relationship has always been easy. Everything flowed - their bodies fit together divinely. It was natural. 

So natural that they didn’t need to verbally define anything. They didn’t need to. 

Now that Keiki was at boarding school Becca could stay over more freely and more often. Nothing could have been better than evenings curled up on his couch with the duvet and a bucket of kettle popcorn.

As soon as they got the official letter that Edenbrook would not be operating any longer, Bryce put in for a transfer at Mass Kenmore. He’d applied to other places but Boston is where he needed to be. He has his apartment and needed to be close to Keiki. 

He was happy and a weight lifted off his shoulders when he got his acceptance letter. 

He kept the news mostly to himself, only casually dropping the info one night when he was grilled about his plans by the gang. 

He was attacked with a hug. Everyone was so happy for him. They celebrated with shots and then the afterparty in Becca’s room was slow and sweet. Savoring. 

For purely selfish reasons Becca would not apply to MK. She did not fit in with the likes of Tobias, June and Landry and really couldn’t trust a hospital that did. The idea of working beside them made her skin crawl.

But she didn’t want to be too far away from the life she built in Boston. 

So she applied everywhere within a 3-hour drive.

Nothing. 

No responses from anywhere, or bland rejections to try again next term. 

So she threw caution to the wind and applied to other cities: LA, Miami, Dallas, San Fran, Phoenix, New York.

Still, she hadn’t heard back from a single one.

In the office one night, while reassigning paperwork, she spoke of the issues with Ethan. 

He considered things and offered to reach out to Chief Fredricks at Weill in NYC.

She wasn’t thrilled about moving back home, but she accepted the gesture nonetheless.

The next week, she had a truly competitive offer from Weill.

The salary package and benefits were astounding. She couldn’t believe it. This opportunity was too good to be true.

She called Bryce immediately. “No way! That’s awesome, Becks!” “I know! And it’s not too far either, we can still spend long weekends together” “Totally. Look at us getting our lives together!”

Then, unexpectedly, Edenbrook was saved and Ethan offered her her position back.

She wanted to accept. Oh, man, did she want to stay. But the Weill gig was too good. Edenbrook could never match that. She’d be a fool to throw this opportunity away.

She declined and Ethan told her the position will still be available whenever she wants it. “You’re one hell of a doctor, Lao. When you’re ready, we’ll be here.” 

She thanked him and promised to revert back after her final year. “We’ll be on the same level then, you ready for that?” “No,” he huffed with a smirk. “You’ll always be a rookie in comparison.”

Later that evening, Bryce was waiting for Becca at her apartment. Every staff member at Edenbrook got the same email about their jobs being reinstated should they want them back. 

He was miffed she didn’t take the Edenbrook job. 

He understands her issue with the MK internal team but... her old job was safe. Nothing has to change for her.

That was the start of the longest goodbye.

They still made the best of their moments together.

He packed up all her things and they took a road trip down to move her in. She stayed in a family-owned apartment in Brooklyn and was lucky enough to save money that way.

It was a cute one bedroom. They christened it immediately.

As they settled further into their residencies and the weeks turned into months. The weekend meetings became less and less. 

Becca made a whole new group of friends and even ran into a few from her youth. She had a new local bar and 24/7 eatery. New parks and food trucks and cocky colleagues to help her destress after an egregious shift. 

Bryce couldn’t stand some of the MK doctors - they were arrogant and cocky, and not in the wholesome way he is. He tried to see the gang as much as possible. But Donahue’s was a bit farther now.

He spent most nights commuting home and leaving Becca video messages about his day when she’s unable to pick up his call.

Bryce never really noticed how lonely he was before Becca and Keiki made his apartment a home.

They’ve spent 4 weekends together before the distancing feelings started settling in. 

They were growing apart.

For their 5th weekend, Becca had to cut it short one day because of a case and then two hours before leaving Bryce was called into emergency surgery. Besides Tanaka, he was the only one available that knew the procedure forwards and backwards. 

Instead, they had a video chat date. They got in their pajamas and snuggled on their respective beds with a snack, some beer and started watching Deadpool 2 together.  

“I was thinking of coming back to Edenbrook next year,” she said randomly during the movie. That week was one of the toughest she’s ever had and all she wanted was the comfort she found in Boston. “That’s the best news I’ve heard in months!” “Better than when that hair product company sent you a free gift basket?” “100%. Without a doubt. I can’t cuddle my hair gel every night and leave kisses all over it’s body. I mean... I could but it’d be weird as hell.”

They talked about what that would be like and how fun living together for real would be.

Everything seemed good. 

They seemed happy. 

They seemed like they were planning a forever. 

Well, one of them was. 

Three months later Bryce finally made it down to see her. Their last few trips had been rescheduled again and again and again and it was finally here. 

He ran out of MK so fast no one dared to stop him. 

Becca planned a very lowkey date night for them in Williamsburg. They had Tacos at a pop up and drinks at an improv studio. Nothing seemed to be different. They held hands over the table at dinner, she rested her head in the crook of his neck perfectly carved to fit her. They joked and laughed as they walked arm in arm back to her place. 

Then why did they feel so distance? 

Why was she having trouble look him in the eye? 

Why did the edges of her lips curl down when she smiled now? 

He held her in his arms, folded her around him as they snuggled on her couch. 

That’s when she told him. A mumble into the heat of his skin. 

“I thought you were coming to Boston when you’re done?” Bryce was stunned. 

He thought they had settled on a plan weeks ago that she’d be back in Boston and they’d share his apartment and they’d start their lives together. 

“I was. But they offered me an opportunity of a lifetime, B. And it’s kinda nice being close to my family... I didn’t realize how much I was missing out on..”

He said the next words so quickly and full of honest intentions: “Do you want me to move?” 

She didn’t expect him to offer that. He knows how important his career is to him. 

“I couldn’t ask you to do that.” “Sure you could. I still have three years left of residency. Could transfer nearby.” “Another transfer? Don’t you think that’ll put you behind?” “I’m the top resident at MK and was at Edenbrook. Didn’t you know?” 

He tried to joke but the way she wouldn’t look him in eye has his chest constricting.

“Do.. do you not want me to move?”

Tbh she hadn’t given much thought to her relationship or goals in months. It was all just wishful thinking when she spoke of things with Bryce. 

She had her eyes on the prize and that was becoming the best doctor of her generation. She’d been much too busy fabricating her new life.

“I don’t know.”

Bryce sat back. He thought she was the one. “What are we doing, Rebecca?”

She gave a confused furrow of her brows.

“Are we end game?” he clarified, trying to keep his calm. 

Her jaw opened and closed, trying and failing to find all the words she needed him to hear; “I don’t know.” “Okay. I’ll tell you what I DO know. I love you and want to spend the rest of my life making you snort and smile. I can transfer residency and move here for you. All I’m asking, is if you feel the same way.”

There was a wall of silence between them towering so high. 

“I love you so much, Bryce.” 

It was said so softly he might’ve missed it if he kept talking.

The sadness etched on her face and the light reflecting off the glistening in her eyes told him she wasn’t ready to commit.

She wasn’t going to commit. 

Bryce grabbed his bag, snatched his keys and wallet from the table, and walked out the door.

[thesvenqueen]

With All My Love

Rating: M

Pairing: Kristanna (as if it would be anything else)

Also on AO3

Previous Chapters

Note: not the best chapter tbh but yeah. 

{Chapter 13}

Morning seems to come too quickly, the sound of chirping birds bringing Anna out of her restless slumber. 

Thankfully, Kristoff has yet to move. He still lies beneath her, his chest rising and falling under her but she knows he is awake. It’s confirmed as such when she feels a hand come and begin to stroke her head, his finger moving through her hair. 

Seems she is not the only one being selfish this morning, wanting the sun to rise slower or not at all. 

Too soon, a few rays of sun begin to peak through the windows, bringing a glow around the cabin. 

Anna wraps her arms around her chest tightly, burying her face against him, hoping it may be enough to convince him to stay. 

It’s not. 

She feels him sigh, placing his hand on the back of her head but she can’t bring herself to look at him. She can’t. 

“I have to.”

Anna can’t help the small whimper that escapes, a lump forming in her throat. His other hand moves to her arm, pulling gently to bring her up and up to him. 

Finally, regretfully, she looks to him, seeing the same look of sadness and fear reflected in his eyes. 

He brings her close, stealing a kiss from her, his lips moving slow and easy against her own. He is savoring the moment as much as she is. It’s then she understands, realizes that he is of course just as terrified, just as worried as she is. 

The risk is high, he knows this and accepts it, but the idea of never seeing each other again shakes them both. 

It’s almost a comfort, to know she is not alone in her worry, but knowing her mountain of a man was just as terrified as she was made the dred sit heavy within her. 

Too soon Kristoff pulls back, ending their kiss, resting his head back against the pillow. Anna looks down at him, now propping herself on her elbows. 

It’s a view she wants to see again and again, one she can not fathom being taken from her now after finally making it here.

There is something Kristoff wants to say, can see it in his eyes but he stays silent as he slowly moves to stand, leaving Anna sitting in their bed. 

She watches as he prepares, knees drawn close to her chest at the site. When he is done, he still moves to prepare her a small breakfast. 

He sits the small plate of toast and jam beside her. It’s surprising to hear her stomach growl as her stomach is in complete knots. 

He sits beside her, wrapping both his arms around her. She leans against him, closing her eyes to take in what could be their final moment. 

“I promise to be back before sundown.”

His whisper makes the tears come fast and heavy, falling down her cheeks as he pulls away. 

He kisses her once more, the lopsided grin sits uneasily on his face. It’s fake, not reaching his eyes and Anna suspects it’s hurting him too having to leave her. 

Finally, sadly, he moves to the door and with one final smile he looks to her. “I love you.” He calls, and the sun gives away the tears that are forming in his own eyes.

“I love you too.” Anna says, trying to smile in return. It’s wobbly, as fake as his own, and with the click of the door he is gone. 

It’s then she falls back into the bed and sobs. 

~.~

Anna awakens a while later, nose stuffy and eyes red from tears. She is slow to move, taking her time to get ready for the day. 

It’s eerie doing it alone, to not have the familiar banter she is used to now echoing throughout the cabin, to not have the feel of a large, steadying hand spanning her back, working to tie her dress. Now, it’s silent, empty. 

The toast he left for her is now cold, but she makes herself eat. He’d want her to, would want her to take care of herself and she will do the best she can till he returns. 

It takes a little more time to tidy the cabin than usual. The shelves he can usually reach are too tall for her, having to stand on top the chair to reach them to dust. She removes the ash and brings in more firewood for the fire for tonight, needing three trips instead of his usual one. 

The sun is bright, warm on her cheeks as she comes to the barn. She feeds the chickens, Grump surprisingly calm this morning. She has half a mind to wonder if they know, that today is not an easy one for her. 

Sven’s absence is also glaring, the large reindeer usually so quick to come up to her and nuzzle against her. 

Too quickly she tends to the garden, nothing much needed. There are no clothes needed to be washed and as much as Anna wants to try, she simply stares at the chicken fence in progress and decides against working on it to help Kristoff. 

With that, she has a whole day left to do whatever she wants. The river isn’t far, she could easily go down and wade within the shallows if she wanted. There are two books in her things she could read, bask in the sun on the front porch of the cabin. 

Instead, she just sits, staring off into the forest and at the worn path that leads away from her. 

Kristoff was no doubt already in the village. 

Had he been stopped at the edge of town? Searched and questioned about what he potentially knew about the Princess’s disappearance?

Would they wait for him to make his delivery to the castle, question his timely absence during the same time as her departure? 

Would a soldier do it, or would Elsa make an appearance and do it herself? Trying to show true worry over the unknown of where he sister is, hiding the fact her newly set deal was falling apart now?

It’s a bit of gratification, knowing that Elsa’s scheme had completely fallen apart now. Anna wasn’t a bit sorry, happy that such a selfish idea imploded on her sister. What she gets for not even thinking of the lives it would effect, what the true cost would be. 

She imagines that the entire staff would be questioned on what they knew, Gerda being the first. Anna knew full well Gerda wouldn’t bend, standing tall against any and all questioning. No doubt she’d get the harshest round of questions as she was the closest to the princess. 

Anna could see it now, Gerda standing smugly against her sister, denying up and down that she knew anything at all. 

Bless her, if there was anyone she missed within that castle it was her. 

Still, there was the possible chance someone knew something. Saw her sneak away, saw a letter she wrote, a villager seeing them escape through the night not realizing the significance till news broke of her disappearance. 

Then again, would news have broken out? The idea again came across Anna’s mind that potentially, her sister had decided to keep the news quiet. Hiding the fact that the crown Princess had gone missing, disappearing into the night. Last thing she needed was word to get out of such, for it to get back to the Southern Isles.

Even if that was the case, Kristoff would no doubt be questioned as he was a usual visitor to the castle. 

With a groan, Anna throws her face in her hands, hating that her mind was allowing her to think of all the worst case scenarios. 

It’s no surprise when the tears come, Anna completely overwhelmed by it all: the loneliness, the emptiness, the fear.

She sobs, shoulders shaking, her cries echoing into the forest for no one but the birds to hear. 

~.~

She’s making bread, distracting her thoughts as best she can by focusing on the directions Kristoff had told her before. 

It’s not hard to remember, but still she makes herself focus on every task, every ingredient, every movement to think about anything other than him. 

She’s so focused, so pulled into kneading the dough that she nearly misses it. Just out of the corner of her eye she catches it, movement coming through the trees.

Anna doesn’t hesitate, pulling as much dough off her fingers and not willing to wait to see the familiar sled come into view to run outside. 

She wipes her hand on her apron, running quickly to the door but her hand pauses on the doorknob.

The thought of it potentially not being Kristoff comes to mind.

If they were searching the village, no doubt they would search nearby areas too. What if it was a soldier? A group of soldiers scoping the area for her?

Her hand shakes now at the thought, of opening the door to be face to face with a familiar green uniformed man. 

It’s not till she hears it, his voice calling her name that she throws caution to the wind and barrels out the door. 

There he stands beside his wagon, chest heaving as though he ran up the path himself, disregarding the wagon entirely and barreling towards his home. 

Their home. 

Anna stands for a moment, smiling so big her cheeks burn as she takes in the site of him. 

Him, Kristoff, back and smiling at her with so much love that it makes her heart swell. 

She runs, leaping into his arms as he spins her around and he holds her close, both laughing in complete and utter relief.

[delifreshvibez]

yoooo it’s pris again! ( i also play @aimeesgao​ ) this time with the boi jay de leon, or just deli, bc he’s dumb n says it’s short for delicious. definitely a simp. if u wanna read more about this dumpster fire of a man that i’ve based off of all the pinoy boys i know slkfjds pls read below ! and as always, message me or like this post so we can plot and do all that fun stuff yee 

( manny jacinto, cis male, he/him ) have you heard about JAY DE LEON? they’re a TWENTY EIGHT year old TEAM LEAD in the PHOTOGRAPHY team. i don’t know what their last job was, all i know is that they’re originally from LOS ANGELES, CA. carol in hr said that they’re kinda HEDONISTIC and MISCHIEVOUS but jessica in marketing insists that they are JOVIAL and CHARISMATIC. at the end of the day, no one is worthy of the instant hype here. i just hope they get achieve their dream of being A TRAVEL PHOTOGRAPHER one day. According to the latest Vibez quiz, their Disney soulmate is Li Shang. ( pris, she/her, 23, pst ) 

BIO

deli is an la native all the way, literally grew up right in historic filipinotown and knows this city by heart

his family, which consisted of him, his two older bros, a little sis and a dog, were lower middle class, so they didn’t have a ton of free spending money but were able to get by. both his parents emigrated from the ph before he was born

school was never really his strong suit, at least when he was younger. he had other things he was interested in that didn’t involve studying and while his parents disciplined it was never really enough to change his behavior

what he does love? dance. while studying did indeed suck, he was able to at least keep his gpa up enough to stay on the dance team in high school

it was no question that he’d go to community college first to figure things out after graduating high school, because higher education was on the map..... it was just that he got sidetracked by other things 

things took a turning point, however, toward the end of his senior year when his father lost his job during the recession. both he and his dad sought out minimum wage jobs after that, & deli juggled his two part time jobs with school

his goal then was to transfer to a 4 year university, which he eventually did 3 years later and entered ucla as a transfer student

there, he resumed his passion for dance in various teams and was active in cultural orgs. it was also when he really started becoming a raver and never looked back. he had always been into photography, then capturing events really helped him grow in his craft 

as a result of his portfolio, he was invited to apply to vibez as intern for the summer after he graduated college

there was a part of him that was hesitant though, as his degree was unrelated (communications major, asian am minor) and he hoped to have a set job instead of an internship. but if you know deli, you know the guy is king of throwing caution to the wind

what started out as an internship to add some experience to his resume, soon became a permanent job on the photography team

he’s stayed put for the past 4 years, excited at actually being able to turn his passion into a career

besides that, the job was just fun. eventually, he worked his way up to lead and has been sitting in the position for nearly a year

a lot of people say he doesn’t take his job seriously, but deli would say that there’s nothing wrong with laughing and being a riot as long as you meet the deadlines

work hard, party harder amirite? soft fuckbois have rights. deli is ceo of the company

the change in leadership has kind of thrown deli off tbh -- he hates the faster turnaround and the idea of quantity over quality but who is he to say anything?

STATS

sexuality: pan / queer

sun sign: sagittarius

ascendant: gemini

moon: sagittarius

MBTI: enfp

moral alignment: chaotic good

enneagram: 7w6

hogwarts house: gryffindor

vibes: peter pan, lil papi evangelista, klaus hargreeves

WANTED CONNECTIONS

platonic

RIDE OR DIE: charli xcx / vroom vroom - pax.

PARTY BUDDIES: other ravers, drinkers, parties that are down to hang

BAD INFLUENCER: *enables u*-  brady.

PLUG: his yelp reviews are 5 stars

PRANKSTERZ: the prank wars at vibez between them refuses to let up,,, it just gets more n more ridiculous,, pls stop them - sutton.

WORK WIFE/HUSBAND(S): it can be a poly work marriage he doesnt discriminate - hunter.

conflicts

HATER: for some reason, deli really grinds their gears so they can’t stand him - vanessa.

FRENEMIES: self explanatory

FORMER FRIEND: self explanatory

romantic ( open to m/f/enby )

FUCK BUDDIES: it’s just. fun. booty calls! are! valid!

FWB: we love to see it

RAVE BAE: u aint down

FLAMES: so it’s getting spicy spicy eh?

repeats the msg: if u made it all the way down here, ily ty! again, feel free to dm me or like this post and i will come bother u <333 also technically i’m at work rn oop so if i’m late to responding im so sorry lskfjls

[eloqvents]

♡  ◟ °  ›   lucy boynton, female, she/her, twenty three   ⋯   ❛   thank you for applying to SEX AND THE TITTY, ELODIE MONET ! before we start this job interview, i would just like to go over a few questions. you said your best attribute was DEBONAIR, right ? well, word around town is that some people find you to be a bit more GUARDED… but, nevermind that. i’m actually more curious about whether you were actually caught DRUNKENLY SERENADING OUTSIDE OF YOUR EX’S HOUSE AT 3 AM last year ? oh, you were ? that’s unfortunate. on the bright side, i heard that you excel at COOKING …. so that’s cool ! now, one more question … your last manager said that you’re hiding THAT YOU PRETENDED TO GO TO REHAB TWO YEARS AGO BECAUSE YOU WERE PREGNANT, is that true ? — haha , just kidding ! they didn’t say that, i just read that about you online . anyway , you got the job ! ❜ 】 eri, pst, she/her. 

hello all ! it’s eri once again with another muse bc we just can’t get enough. anyway, please excuse how shitty this intro is going to be bc i am lacking sleep.

ok to start off, her parents are loaded so she’s very wealthy. original from la, her father was a well-known producer and her mother a stay at home mom. long story short, their marriage was a far cry from a happily ever after. growing up watching their parents fall apart, elodie and her brother latched onto each other and he remained her wall. it was painfully obvious however that their father favored the other, whether it be because he was the only son, or how musically and theatrically inclined he was... and she found herself thrown off to the side much like her mother, except a lot stricter rules set in place that she found herself easily breaking. curfew? forget it. no boys? she was sneaking them in all too often.... but even more easily having her girl “friends” over for sleepovers with no questions asked. she began resenting her father early on and it only grew the more rules, until finally she threw all caution to the wind and fell off the expected monet route.

by 15 she was known as the party girl. she did her school work most of the time, kept good enough grades to keep her parents off at least that aspect of her life. going out every weekend, never coming home on time or just refusing to answer her phone. she was a hellion, with no cares in the world, and she simply lived with no worries and absolutely no care or respect toward her parent's wishes. they virtually gave up on controlling their daughter by the time she was 17, clearly making her own choices and took no bother in chastising her as they knew their efforts would get them nowhere.

despite the dysfunction of the family, they did vacation to stone harbor every summer which had become some of elodie’s favorite memories of her younger years ( i would love any plot referencing her coming back every year and what not ok )

at 18 she had a choice. college, or follow her heart. new york was calling, as much fun as she had in la... it just wasn’t quite it. and new york was so exciting. the following summer she found herself back in stone harbor, unable to resist the tradition but instead opting to stay the summer..... except she never left. with all the fond memories she held in the place, and finally being far away from her family, she felt like she’d found herself. or at least the closest to home she’d ever had.

we gonna skip ahead to her getting pregnant three years ago, which is something she told no one (not even the potential father). the day she found out she was packing her bags and leaving stone harbor with no word, instead of leaving a note for her roommate ( plot wanted ) at the time, and sending out a group text explaining she had decided to go to rehab. it seemed like a good excuse, not a complete lie considering she did not touch any alcohol or substance during her pregnancy. she instead went and stayed with her aunt and uncle in london.

she went back and forth on what she wanted to do, spending her days swaying back and forth between keeping the baby and starting a fresh life or putting it up for adoption. but after a particularly painful depressive episode, she decided for the safety of both of them she had to give her baby girl up. this is when her aunt and uncle said they would take the baby in, not wanting to separate family, and it is a secret she’s kept in to this day.

coming back from rehab, she had changed. at first cold, extremely depressed, and she wanted to stay away from her prior addictions but within a few weeks she was right back into it. drinking nearly daily, taking whatever pills or drugs were offered, although she was much more cautious when it came to sex. becoming quite a bit pickier when it comes to men, however her love for women only seemed to grow.. likely due to the fact she could not get pregnant that way.

she’s had her ups and downs, about six months ago she came back from a few months at rehab once again after an especially harsh bender that landed her in the hospital. sobriety has continuously and still continues to be a struggle for her. she swore up and down that she wanted the help after begging her parents to pay ( not wanting to dip into her own hefty inheritance ) for her to go back, although within a month she found herself dabbling in other substances, occasionally taking a little too many of her medications at once, and having a drink, or two, or three....

while she was staying with her aunt in france, she spent a lot of time cooking with the elder woman and it became the most therapeutic thing to her... at least without getting high.. it’s become one of the only things that can genuinely distract her, although she does become a master chef when you add a little pot to the mix, but she hardly counts that against sobriety anyway.

personality-wise elodie doesn’t really hold back her opinion, and although she won’t go out of her way to avoid stepping on toes, she will try to make things as least confrontational as possible. in her opinion, life has shoved her around enough and she prefers to not allow anyone the excuse to do it too. but........ in those cases she will probably show her temper and make sure people know she isn’t going to be walked all over. she’s very upbeat, tries her hardest to be excited for life each day ( or pops an extra xanny if it’s a particularly hard day ). however.. her bad days are bad. if she’s down enough its nearly impossible to get her out of bed for anything other than a shower. some are harder than others, especially nearing the birthdate of her daughter delaney ( 2 currently ). 

a few more facts bc this is long uh: she writes a letter every day to her daughter and saves it in a special box kept secret in her room. she dabbles in poems and other types of prose, and has a goal of one day writing and illustrating her own childrens book in dedication to her daughter. she has a lot of money and could technically afford to not work, however she took a bartending job at sex and the titty for side cash and to send a monthly check to help support her daughter. and laaaaastly, she is kind of a hopeless romantic and loves romcoms way too much. she is 100% the type that believes very strongly in love but just ... sucks at it. she’s scared to commit herself but she’s also not afraid to shout from the rooftops ??? rn she’s trying to work on herself so 

oh and here is a playlist and pinterest for her even tho she wasn’t here for the task:)))

connection ideas ( plots page currently in progress )

an ex who she serenaded drunk at 3 am bc that rumor is definitely real

possible baby daddy

her old roommate that she bailed on, can be positive or negative

a best friend, like the blair and serena type ( minus all the fighting ... or not ) that can tell each other and count on the other for anything

exes in general, good, bad, ugly, any and all.

slow burn ??? or the one that got away ??? or maybe they just keep missing each other ???

maybe an enemy or someone she had a falling out with in the past

ANYONE SHE USD TO HANG OUT WITH IN THE SUMMER BEFORE ACTUALLY LIVING THERE. gimme them long term friendships / relationships

a good influence // the person who tries to help her not keep fucking her life up

alternatively .. the bad influence that encourages and participates in a lot of not so good activities with her

tbh i just want anything and everything so throw any ideas at me bc i’ll probably be in

listen i know i forgot like 239523852 things and rambled on too much but i just love her and could go on forever. 

[gem-quest]

[ E N T H R O N E D . . . ]

“i will not be another flower picked for my beauty and left to die. i will be wild, difficult to find, and impossible to forget.” -erin van vuren

real name: selah dufay-paoli

age: twenty

f/c: (young) natalia vodianova

species & class: sylph + rider

guild: moonstone

description of in-game powers: sylphs are the game’s air-type fairies (not to be confused with water nixies or fairies of the courts). sylphs have the ability to utilise magic, but almost exclusively “elemental” magic. therefore, while neddy has the imbued ability to wield wind, she has also been able to learn the ability of murmuritium. however, some darker, tougher mage-type spells/abilities give her some difficulty. generally, sylphs (fairy-kinds) are considered on the weaker side of all the game species- they do have standard fairy abilities like flight (has to be learned but neddy has a dragon for that so she doesn’t feel the need to expend her time with it), “light of foot” (which is essentially the ability to balletically levi-glide through the air), persuasion (all fairies have sky-high charisma points), and sufficient-level light melee.

as a rider, neddy’s able to more easily command animals in the game, and her chosen “mount” is a fully-grown dragon- officially, jack, but she’s more likely to call him “cha-cha” (even she doesn’t know- it sort of grew out of baby-talk.. which she realises she uses to an annoying extent with a mammoth beast that spouts poisonous gas from it’s maw). jack’s abilities are in his weight (though decidedly willowy), his noxious-floral breath, and his wings. other than that, he’s an overgrown puppy (very often relegated to lap-dog status when neddy shrinks him down with drink-me potion).

place of birth: sartène (corsica)

appearance: sylph skin in the game is usually somewhat translucent or pearly, but neddy forewent that option. her only sylph-y features are pointed ears and pale lilac-toned hair. she does have wings that appear sort of glassy when visible, but for the most part she keeps them folded away since she doesn’t use them for flight. neddy also likes wearing dangly, jeweled earrings and silvery collars and circlets. most likely to wear some sort of tits-out, diaphanous number (see: john galliano rtw autumn 2oo9).

"you are like the snow only purer fleeter, like the rain only sweeter frailer you…”

-e. e. cummings

places most likely to be found in-game: 100% on level 10, the gardens of finvarra is her home-base. it’s where she picked up jack (her dragon mount) after she was dropped from her ex-boyfriend’s party. finvarra is flirty and annoying but he really just likes a good time. (no, they have not slept together- he’s an npc and.. neddy is mostly certain it’s not possible.. . not that she’s thought it over or anything.. ) she does like to hang around and help the odd moonstone player out of the prince’s clutches- if that’s what they want.

otherwise, she’s likely hanging around in the midwinter level since it never ceases to bring her joy- and jack loves the snow. or she’s pushing through to clear levels. she’s not yet been on the frontline, but she’s nearing them.

current inventory:

dragon balm x 5

dragon pep potion x 2

medi-elixir x 3

basic light throwing axe x 2

black pearls x 3

blue pearls x 2

madame bellio’s char truffles x 9

ventium scroll

murmurationium scroll

summoner scroll (learning)

drink me x 2

armoured helmet

songbook: dragon chants

songbook: dragon lullabies

rosy shell panpipes

dragon-shaped sugar cubes from the tearoom x 4

apricot tartlets x 2

fig wine

strongest character trait: diplomatic

strengths: caution and understanding are her personal strengths. observing and listening first have rarely ever backfired on her. a desire to make peace around herself and exist in beautiful environments are the only things keeping her sane at the moment. in game, jack is her greatest strength. neddy knows that, on her onesie, she would be gobblin fodder in a fight. however, her ability to talk her way into and out of situations benefits her /greatly.

weaknesses: she’s a textbook over-thinker which hinders her ability to progress through levels in a timely manner. as well, she doesn’t handle being alone very well- she feels she might be too attached to jack who doesn’t even really exist. in game, both her species type and only moderate ability with weapons are really her two weakest points.

player stats: (on a scale of 1-10, 1 being the weakest, 10 being the strongest. try to balance it out!)

STRENGTH: 2 (8 w/ jack)

DEFENCE: 3 (8 w/ jack)

CHARISMA: 9

PSYCHE: 4

WILLPOWER: 8

CAUTIOUSNESS: 7

AGILITY: 9

ENDURANCE: 5

INTELLIGENCE: 7

LUCK: 3

personality: libra .

biography: selah’s parents divorced the year following her birth, and as a result, her mother took her from corsica back to her lenox hill childhood home in manhattan to live. there, selah was raised by her mother, aline, and grandmother, vanessa, who each nurtured her desire to be a singer- more specifically an opera performer. but by the age of fourteen, selah had developed a new interest in dance, having hung around at her friend’s mother’s dance studio for a few months in the summer.

at eighteen, due to family tension revolving around selah’s new boyfriend, selah left home to move in with her boyfriend, callum, and his roommate in a shitty flat in brooklyn while she awaited admission to barnard college to pursue dance. since callum and his roommate played gq from its inception (and had taken to staying in the helmet for hours and hours), selah was interested in joining him on adventures so that they could spend more time together. so, she bought her own vr helmet and instantly fell in love with gq world. in particular, she loved that she and callum could stay together and bond through whimsical quests and battles with other players and monsters. it was like living together in a dream.

until, a few months later, callum (username: plagueis) announced that selah would have to leave their party as he and another mage-knight in their party- a girl called bloodbriars - were “involved”, whatever that was supposed to mean. they’d never met in person, and selah /lived with him, so it was very hard to understand the situation. and by this time, the word about everyone being trapped in the game had come down, leaving selah no means of escaping the awful situation. callum and bloodbriars disappeared with the rest of the party shortly thereafter and selah has not seen them since. she was suddenly trapped and alone.

selah took to camping in finvarra’s gardens to deal with her emotions, and there, she met jack- a then-untamed queen of poisons-like dragon with sleek violet-black scales, willowy limbs, ears like aconite, and inky venom eyes. she liked him instantly, but for him, it took a little more effort- lots more dragon-shaped sugar cubes from the tearoom level than any one player could stomach. after a few days of coaxing, she was able to secure him as a mount, and the new duo was born.

since then, selah’s rededicated herself to clearing levels and locating callum, aka plagueis, at the same time- whether to kill or not, that remains to be seen.

“artemis knew better than all of them. her only love affair was with the moon. my heart understood this. profoundly.”

-lola ridge

**note: selah’s heard a rumour that plagueis and bloodbriars have the supernova scroll in their possession. 

relationships: (OPTIONAL, fill out whenever you want to)

PLAGUEIS . aka callum king, neddy’s live-in boyfriend and former party member. recently booted neddy from their party to- neddy supposes- lessen the awkwardness of having left her for another party member (that he’s never even met in person). callum and the party disappeared weeks ago and neddy hasn’t seen or heard from him since. however, she ends up hearing a rumour that he might be in possession of a supernova scroll- which, given his mounting instability since becoming imprisoned in the game, is troubling to neddy, to say the least. f/c: charles melton

BLOODBRIARS . real name unknown, plagueis’ new girlfriend and neddy’s former party member. all neddy knows about her is that she’s a moonstone guild member and a mage-knight. f/c: unia pakhomova 

INFERNA . nana o. to neddy’s nana k. neddy met her on ten amid a feast of steaming mystery meats with sweet wild berry sauces and fluffy raspberry rose cakelets- which inferna might have eaten had neddy not had the knee-jerk reaction of batting the red-headed girl’s fingers away from the fairy food. she and neddy got along right away despite being from opposing guilds- after all, neddy was very isolated at the time and she needed a person to interact with (outside of finvarra and his tittering harem, of course). inferna and jack took a shine to one another, but as inferna’s one to keep moving, neddy hasn’t seen her since that day. she does, however, think of her often.   

MORNINGSTAR . 

TSESAREVNA . fellow moonstone,

playlist:

the magic place by julianna barwick

winter circle by balmorhea

rodeo by lil nas x, ft. cardi b (in regards to being dumped for another girl- but also i kind of just can’t get this song out of my head so.)

white rabbit by emilíana torrini

violence by grimes, ft. i_o

fairytale by enya

var det du by ensemble galilei (which i just imagine as gq “menu” music tbh)

alone by halsey

overture ii by sleeping at last (sappy but: aka the song in neddy’s head when she gets to be on the midwinter level and watch jack play in the snow~)

favriel by grimes

pinterest: { oc. ENTHRONED } 

[cowandcalf]

Was talking to my father about Steve and Danny's friendship on the show and he listened for a minute and then went, "So what you're telling me is that McGarrett and Williams are gay?" Lmaoooo

Same anon. My father’s not that far off…I mean the writers are just too cowardly to make it canon tbh. But if my father who is so frickin old fashioned in his beliefs can see that McDanno is canon, I say it’s high time CBS make it xD

Hi, anon!

I have only one thing to add: Preach it, babe!

I tell you what…I tell you what I’m secretly dreaming about concerning Lenkov and H50.

Kay. That’s my vision: Lenkov messes with all of us. He gives us a red herring what could be a possible outcome at the end of the show, scaring us to death with the nasty details of Danny’s and Rachel’s reunion. But secretly he has other plans…

At the Paleyfest 2019, he has mentioned the eight pages long script, Alex has written, full of dialog - eight damn pages - full of dialog written by Alex amazing o’Loughlin.

So, he’s going to use this script to end season 9 because Alex has sat down and has punched out an end scene with Steve and Danny. And it goes like this (I’m sure it’s way more profound and layered but anyway I need some McDanno moments like this full-blown monstrously kind of Mcdanno):

Steve and Danny argue and they shout, there is so much tension and both are upset to no end - Steve tries to get his point across why Danny shouldn’t leave Hawaii to start over in New Jersey with his ex-wife. It didn’t go well the first time and it definitely wouldn’t go well the second time. Danny fumes with anger and can’t believe Steve doesn’t believe in him, that he actually has the nerve to express his worries and that he torpedoes Danny’s luck with bad energy by just mentioning that it won’t work. And Steve starts to yell and Danny shouts obnoxiously loud, too, until Steve can’t take it anymore and caves under Danny’s verbal attack of the ‘why do you say this? WHY CAN’T YOU BE HAPPY FOR US?’ And Steve yells back ‘BECAUSE I’M FUCKING IN LOVE WITH YOU, YOU STUPID, STUBBORN ASS!’ And Danny stares wide-eyed at Steve and flails with his arms and knows immediately that Steve has dug deep to open up because the panic shows clearly in Steve’s eyes and Steve wipes with the back of his hand over his lips and repeats with a small voice ‘because I’m so fucking in love with you, Danny Williams’ and after that Steve throws all caution to the wind and eats up the distance between them, grabs Danny by the neck to yank him over and dives in for a desperate, hungry kiss. And Danny fists his shirt and whimpers into his mouth and Steve tucks him to his chest and slides his hand up over his strained shoulders and fans all fingers right through Danny’s hair and he has no fucking idea what would come next. Steve’s world spins out of control when Danny’s tongue glides into his mouth and the way Danny rolls his hips against his own made Steve freak out because fuck, now he’s hard and he hugs the fucking daylight out of Danny and Danny is eagerly responding to this attack of his lips and he lets Steve just take over. Nothing else matters anymore.

‘What about Rachel now…?’ Steve mutters against Danny’s lips and boom - that’s the end of the scene and that’s the cliffhanger for the end of season 9. And I would be so dead!

And Lenkov also announces after this season that Alex takes over and that he is the new head of everything behind the camera and that Alex will be responsible for the right shooting of season 10. Alex will do a great, damn awesomesauce job and McDanno is good to go and this love comes to life and it is a breathing living, damn handsome, hot thing throughout the whole season 10!

That’s my vision! Hahahaha! Because I have to make their love real at least for myself and even if this is only one big, stupid fangirl fantasy. We’ll see and Life sometimes is full of surprises, isn’t it?

Thanks for your messages, anon, and your dad rocks! Everyone who feels the love between Steve and Danny rocks big time because come on, it’s so obvious and so fucking there. McDanno forever! Mahalo for dropping by, my friend.

[incenseitivity]

@dandeliondeer messaged me asking for answers to ALL of the questions for my previous post (i skipped like 3 bc i didn't have good answers/didn't feel comfortable with my answers)

here i go

flower crown: when was the last time you sang to yourself? like an hour ago! i was listening to beyoncé

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about one thing, what would you want to know? probably something really petty tbh… I wouldn’t want to know anything too great or important

daisies: whats your greatest accomplishment? I don’t really know… I’m working on a project rn though and if it works that’ll be it though.

1975: whats the first happy memory that comes to mind? Me, an hour ago, dancing and singing along to Partition, dysphoria free and feeling great

matte: if you knew you were going to die in a year, what would you do? I would get out of my current living situation- throw caution to the wind

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things? 1: get famous 2: transition 3: be happy

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? yikes no

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? um… 3 months ago? before that it was over a year

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them. nobody! i think stargazing is best alone

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them? I love doing that! its so freeing and relaxing

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? probably my friend shae

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? “lol at least i was prettier than you” @ everyone

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes? ???????? couldn’t care less what your eye color is lol

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. “Your skin is gasoline- learn how to light it" I've always struggled w/ self image and this quote has taught me a lot. it has taught me to embrace the body i am in and change for myself- that I can burn any way I damn well please

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? Gore-geous: the story of a spooky bitch

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? buy a lot of cute clothing, get out of my current living situation, transition, and give some to charity i guess

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way? I'm NOT forgiving at all and I love it.

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? punk as hell, that pastel shit bores me

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain. LOVE EM!!!!!! I have 2 tattoos and unfortunately only my ears pierced currently- but I have huge plans for the future!

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not? I love makeup- it makes me feel like a whole new person.

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. oh gosh, um, all of Ryan Ross' & Marina Diamandis' work? They mean so much to me and I wouldn't be who I am without them. ALSO I always listen to Florence and the Machine during spellwork

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them. you are not alone

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel. I've actually never been to a concert oops

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say? my biggest musical inspiration is ryan ross- I would love to just have a letter from him talking about his work and like tips for writing and creating

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? I have a desk but it is SUCH a mess yikes! I usually just write in bed

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine? Face washing, teeth brushing, contact lense care, and then maybe some journalling/grimoire work

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know? my parents know absolutely nothing about me- and I say that very literally

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? I'm a natural redhead, so i'd never dye my hair, but i think I would look nice with super long hair

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do? My 3 best friends, Ryan Ross, and Marina Diamandis. we would probably just go up on a hill and talk about life

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high? yikes um a lot of things… idk its quite the list

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars? literally nothing. I'm such a money whore

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why? only one person- i can see them, I don't half to talk to them ;). I'm super independent and I love music too much

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love. Its the worst thing in the world. You feel like your bones are being carved into and your lungs don't work. You feel like you're freefalling into a roaring river and your heart is in your ears. your brain stops working and your eyes can only see them and I'm never doing it again

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair? :) im :) genderqueer :) and :) this :) question :) is :) terrible :)

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone? a venti double chocolate chip frappachino with 2 espresso shots- I'd trust most people not to mess it up.

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? myself

[fabulouslyfrank]

So Long 2017, Hello 2018

2017 is coming to end, and I wanted to take time to reflect on 2017. 2017 is the year, I feel like I grew the most as a person. I had some of my highest high and some of my lowest lows but its the year where I grew the most. For that, thank you 2017. 

2017 was when I really tapped into my creative side more. It was the year where I said I was no longer going to say no to projects I wanted to start. It was the year where I decided to throw caution to wind and just went and did things. I put a lot of work into my creative projects and they gave it right back to me.  At the beginning of the year, I gave myself 2 goal (and I call them goals and not resolutions because I feel like resolutions tend to fall off) and that was to write more and get out of my creative funk i felt i had in 2016. I feel like I have accomplished those goals. 

Coming out of 2016, I felt like I was in a real creative funk and most of it was just do the things I was dealing with in my personal life. 2016 was the roughest year of my life and I was looking for a bounceback. So to change things up, I auditioned and got put into a house troupe, Watermelon. Watermelon has provided some of the best laughs of 2017 for me and most of them where off stage. They were a great group to join and exactly what I needed. We have spent most of the year grinding and working on our craft and never once has it felt like work. I’m excited to see where we continue to go from here. So thank you Kaspars, Adam, Austin, Sara, Caroline, Heather, Jame (sorry idk how to add an accent e on a keyboard) and Jesse for being apart of what makes that special. Also to David for coaching us the whole way and being just as invested in this as we are. 

Later on in May I started working on the show that eventually became Frisky Business. Probably my highest of highs of 2017. We went put so much into that show and it gave right back to us with nights of packed houses and laughs, and also giving us Dallas Observers Readers Choice Award for Best Play. It will take a lot to dethrone this as one of my creative highs. Like the Friday Night of our revival weekend is up there for best nights of my life. This was one of the shows where my confidence as a performer went real high. Big Thank you to Todd, Megan, Jay, Brent, Chad, Kim, Cody, Jonda for making this the success it was. 

Then in June, I auditioned and made one of the DCH house sketch teams, Walker Sky. It has been a blast to be able to write a full 30 minute sketch show ever month. Great to work with some awesome talented people and be able to test my writing. Thanks to Brian, Collin, Olivia, Kim and Nick for being apart great team to work with

Then in July, I got to something I have always wanted to do which was coach an improv troupe. I had the pleasure of working with Ah Ok on their show and they went on won King of The Year, which was great because I got to witness first hand the amount of work they put into that show, so I was happy that they got what they deserved. Thank you to Adam and Heather for taking a chance on me as a coach and trusting me.

Then in November I started  writing movie reviews for my movie review website: Lonelymoviereview.com and this has been a fun thing to do. I get to do 2 things I love, watch movies and write. It is so much fun and honestly never feels like work when I am doing this. I am excited to see where this project goes in 2018. Thank you to everyone who has read so far. 

Last but not least, I started this blog this year and tbh its my favorite project that I work on. I don’t write on this often or get many readers but everytime I write on this I always feel the best. I had people reach out to me on some of my posts (specifically my mental health one and the one about losing my good friend) to let me know how much it affected them, when in reality them sending that message had a big affect on me. This blog started as a journal and I tend to get real vulnerable on here so I did know how people were going to respond on this. Their are many times when I would tear while writing these blogs and writing were always not the easiest thing but you all sending me those messages about how much it may have helped you meant so much to me (Also I’m tearing right now at work writing that last sentence).  Like I said this, year I also had some of my lowest lows but this blog helped me get through it. It helped put my thoughts that usually lead to toxic thoughts for me down on paper and come at ease with them. So thank you to everyone who reads this blog. 

So we’re off to 2018 and the projects that come along with it. I am excited to see where they go. 

Till next time, 

Frank Buttafarro 

[disneydreamlights]

Nicole (4, 6, 19, 20, 22, 24) Sky (2, 6, 10, 11, 16, 17) Annalee (3, 15, 22, 23, 24, 25) Marina, totally didn't only come to mind because i'm listening to marina and the diamonds. nnnnope. (3, 5, 8, 10, 12, 20) Landon (4, 5, 16, 10, 12, 24)

Nicole: 

4: their insecurities

Well for one let’s start with her ears, she’s super insecure about those and never really will be comfortable about them. Her overprotective tendencies can also be cause for her to believe she might be too overbearing to friends, especially since she can get extremely angry with them to a point that terrifies her a bit.

6: how they deal with grief

What’s dealing with grief well? Nicole literally shuts down. She blames herself, even if it seems like she’s shifted that blame to somebody else, and then she throws caution to the wind and becomes insanely violent for no reason other than to try to get herself hurt. Like she won’t break her moral code, but she’ll take incredibly stupid risks in hopes that she’ll get really hurt in some kind of revenge driven plot, which gets worse when there really is nobody to blame.

19: their reaction to betrayal

Distrust and anger, but beyond that I actually also think she’s one of my ocs that handles this stuff better. Of course she’s hurt and angry at the betrayer, or outright distrusting if they come back to the team, but unlike several of my other ocs she’ll also still try to manage the situation and try to focus on helping the people who were hurt by the betrayal more than she will on her own recovery, so outside of avoiding the person, she doesn’t actually go murder happy on the traitor so long as nobody was hurt.

20: their reaction to a mystery love letter

Immediate reaction is to try to find who wrote it, but the longer she goes the less interested she becomes. Nicole’s interest in romance is honestly not very high, and in any universe she can count the amount of crushes she’s had on one hand. Unless the person meant a lot to her, she probably would turn them down anyways after learning who wrote it, so after her initial “Holy shit love letter!?” reaction she just eventually stops caring.

22: what they're like on two hours of sleep

Nicole is dead on less than two hours of sleep, she doesn’t know how to function on so little sleep unfortunately. 

24: what motivates them

Her love for her friends, and her willingness to do anything for them. Even before presenting a positive icon for Faunus, her first and foremost stuff comes from being there to support the people she cares about.

Sky:

2: their smile

Sky has one of those nice truly happy big smiles you see on people, like it reaches her eyes and when she’s smiling you just know she’s actually and I just imagine Sky has a really nice smile. 

6: how they deal with grief

Flat out denial. If she can’t deny she at first feels kinda numb until the loss actually sets in and then she literally falls apart into a broken sobbing mess who can’t even really function on her own, so when she loses somebody she loves and there’s even a small chance they survived, she refuses to acknowledge it as even a possibility. It’d take seeing the body for herself to truly break down and lose it.

10: their fashion sense

Casual and comfortable. She doesn’t go out of her way for anything special, she just dresses in what’s easiest for her to fight in most days, and on the rare days where she has no missions and there are no Heartless popping up, she won’t wear anything more dressy than jeans and a t-shirt. It’d honestly take Sera’s wedding or something to make her do more than that.

11: their family life

Sky doesn’t visit home a lot due to the frequency of her missions and how long she spends training. That being said, Sera tends to come in to visit a lot, so she sees her sister a lot anyways. Despite never being home, her relationship with her family is pretty good. They love her, she loves them, and tries to keep in touch whenever possible.

16: their dreams

Sky dreams to be the greatest Keyblade Master and to protect the worlds at all costs. She knows it’s a difficult goal, but she wants to do the best she can for friends and family.

17: their ambitions

Her greatest ambition was to get through her training. After all the shit that happened to Landon she kinda struggled with believing that she’d be able to for a while, but her goals pulled through. Besides that, she just wants to keep the people she loves safe. Watching Sera go blind in one eye and struggle through the consequences was something she never wanted to do again.

Annalee

3: their greatest achievement

This is such a weird thing to say, but to Annalee her opinion of her greatest achievement was just making a friend. She’s painfully awkward and to find somebody who could tolerate her awkwardness and not even mind was one of the things that made her happiest.

15: how they react to a brainfreeze

She literally immediately puts her hand to the top of her head in hopes of getting it to stop hurting and her face scrunches up. Depending on how hungry she is, she might drop the ice cream almost immediately.

22: what they're like on two hours of sleep

Not a lot different from how she normally acts tbh, Annalee has her own way of replenishing her own energy that allows her to function when she’s got no sleep...and I hate that she has this.

23: how they act when they're sick

Oh my god she’s probably working so hard on not letting onto the fact that she’s sick even though she’s dying inside so Andrew and Emmett basically have to tie her to the bed so she’ll rest and get better from whatever she has. Like she could be running a 105 degree fever and the flu and she’d still be trying to beat up some Heartless.

24: what motivates them

She’s motivated by wanting to do her dad proud. She wants to prove that birth isn’t everything and that just because she’s not entirely human doesn’t mean she can’t fight for the light and do what she’s supposed to do.

25: why you enjoy them

Annalee was honestly part experiment, part theory, part Vaniqua trash, and the fact that she still managed to to be a surprisingly good oc in spite of that makes me love her, not to mention rping her interacting with Emmett is always a good time. XD

Marina:

3: their greatest achievement

You’d think it’d be being a Keyblade Master, but the truth is Marina has this one painting she did back when she was first learning to channel her anger into her art, and it’s a picture of her, Sky, and Landon and she’s so proud of the fact that she managed to keep them all still enough to draw a picture of the three of them without them being pains and moving a ton.

5: their shortcomings

We joke about Nicole having a hair trigger temper but honestly that’s Marina’s biggest short coming, she will literally fly off the handle for literally no good reason, like somebody could just breathe on her and she might blow up in their face.

8: what they like to eat

Lots of junk food, specifically salty stuff, while most of my ocs have sweet tooths, Marina would much rather have a bag of chips and munch on them for a few hours rather than a tub of ice cream.

10: their fashion sense

Marina is about as casual as Sky in terms of “You’ll never find her getting dressed up ever” but when hanging out with friends, she tends to dress down moreso than Sky does, and it’s common for her to head out in sweats or leggings or whatever comfortable things she can find floating around.

12: their romantic life

Absolutely awful. As in she’s only ever had one sided crushes and any crush that might’ve been returned has fallen for somebody else first. I think the one she’s most embarrassed about falling for somebody else is Sky, and that’s because Sky fell in love with Yuuya of all people in at least one verse, and well...as much as I love Yuuya I don’t think I need to elaborate. XD

20: their reaction to a mystery love letter

“Somebody actually likes me for once, what the fuck?” Marina is actually confused by this letter coming in because she’s never been a recipient, then she looks for the letter’s sender and hopes for the best.

Landon:

4: their insecurities

You know how he accidentally murdered his Keyblade Master when he lost control of his darkness one time??? Anything to do with that instance is an incredibly, incredibly sore spot after everything that happened.

5: their shortcomings

A lot of them come from fear. Fear of himself, fear of causing people’s death, fear in general. It causes him to hesitate in a lot of decisions, and of course when that hesitation causes things to get worse he blames himself. So basically self doubt and being indecisive are pretty good shortcomings.

10: their fashion sense

He’s the only one of my keybearers who actually bothers to try to be less casual than jeans and t-shirts when not training, and by that I mean he’s that asshole who’s always in a jacket and you can’t figure out how they’re not dying. When training or on a mission he’s always in more combat oriented gear so he can fight well.

12: their romantic life

Also unsuccessful, but it doesn’t help that at best he pushed away any and all childhood crushes and most friends for a good three or four years, and at worst he actually dies so I mean...

16: their dreams

He’d like to rid himself of his darkness and find some way to move on from it, and of course bring his Keyblade Master back from the dead, that’d be a really nice goal for him if he could have it. It’s not exactly likely, but that’s besides the point.

24: what motivates them

Landon is motivated by a desire to keep others safe from darkness and prevent what happened to him from happening ever again. He’s really good at trying to help out other Keybearers with darkness issues to the point that when they start to seem powerful he does whatever he can to help So I guess in a twisted way he’s motivated by his own darkness to not be what it wants, even if for a while it doesn’t work out.