#but sua gets jealous anyway

[whizzinpast]

I have a special preference for a jealous Till that lashes out without understanding why.

In my little hypothetical scenarios, Till is not aware of how Ivan became a source of stability until he slowly starts slipping away, and it pulls the rug out from under his feet. Regardless of how he feels about him (be it romantic, platonic or something third), he is used to Ivan being in close vicinity. He is so used to his devotion he doesn’t even notice it. One does not love breathing etc.

Cue Ivan getting attention and engaging with his peers. Maybe he’s getting flirty with people if you want to get spicy. Either way, Till notices, but he doesn’t process it as ‘envying others’ he processes it as ‘envying Ivan.’ He gets moody, but he takes it out on mundane things. He doesn’t know that he needs reassurance from Ivan about how their bond won’t disappear just because he started connecting to more people.

I like to imagine Till’s feelings towards him are complicated, but regardless of what they are, if Ivan was gone Till would be left with a massive gap that he’d never be prepared for because he never made him worry.

[enha-sua]

( 𝓓rabble ) unrequited-ish love ̨ ! ୨୧ 一 수훈 version ՞

⸃ ⸰ ⌁ sunghoon knew he liked you , that's why he teases you , but how can he confess when you already like heeseung  ヾ

time ・ sometime in 2022 p. sua ・ sunghoon ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ g ・ angst , fluff ‎ ‎ ‎ cw ・ none ‎, sunghoon struggles with his emotions ‎ wc ・ ‎0.5k ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎| ‎ how they both confessed

「 ୨୧ authors note 」 now we got how both of them fell for her; the next part will be how they both confessed ...

「 heesuhoon's love story masterlist 𖹭 」

“shut up.” sua rolled her eyes at the boy teasing; a small smile slipping as she was called for makeup , getting up to go sit in the makeup chair. the boy watched her smiling. “hyung , you don't even try to hide it.”

jungwon sat next to him, his phone in hand , coffee in the other. “everyone can see it.” he turned to the boy. “yeah , like everyone saw you.” the boy nodded. “yeah , but it's worse than me , and i got over it , how long has it been for you?”

sunghoon wanted to say only a few months; but he knew he wasn't dumb it was longer than that — maybe he's always has a small crush on her , he just never really paid attention to it. “we've been a group for 2 years now , and how many videos are there of you staring at her or teasing her? our fans aren't dumb hyung.”

“she likes heeseung.” he pointed over to where the girl was sitting , the eldest member standing in front of her leaning on the table; the smile on her face, cheeks red , sunghoon was jealous. “look at them , i wouldn't be surprised if they aren't already dating,” he said. “we live together , we see each other 24 hours a day 7 days a week we'd know if they were together.” the younger boy said. “well she at least liked him , look at her smile.” he couldn't help but smile watching her laugh at the boy in front of her , he must've been telling her a joke.

“i never seen you so not confident in something.” the boy stood up. “it's scary.” he said before he walked away , leaving the boy alone.

sua eventually got finished with her makeup ; skipping over to sunghoon. “i'm back.” she plopped back down. “yeah? come to annoy me again?” she mocked him , he reached up to ruffle her hair , laughing as she gasped. “did you not just see me get it done?” he smiled as she tried to flatten it. “unnie is gonna be mad at me , will you take responsibility for this?” he nodded. “yeah tell her i did it , i’ll tell her it was me.”

“good , you'll get the scolding.” she huffed , he reached up once more ; only this time he was moving a piece of hair from her cheek. “your hair still looks nice anyway.” she smiled cheekily , he loved when she did that , it made his heart swoon. “thank you hoonie.” she pinched his cheek. “sua come here!”

heeseung called the girl over. “i want to show you something.” and there it was again, his moment with her; short lived and stolen by his best friend. “you coming?” he shook his head no. “make up.” she nodded. “okay.” she grabbed his hands kissing his knuckles , something she did to all of the boys , but it meant something different to him , not like she knew that though. “come over when you're done.”

he sat at the chair , watching her through the mirror as the makeup artist applied his makeup ; the girl sitting close to heeseung as he showed her something on the phone , she looked up at him , smiling at him before going back to looking at the mirror… that's when it hit him , it wasn't two years ago , or even 2 months ago he fell for sua , it's every single day.

every single day he falls for the girl more and more…

©ENHA-SUA

[voidspiraling]

What do you think about the Red pupils in alien stage? Because when I first see them I think it’s just an Ivan trait, but in a few shots, Till has them too. Specifically when it’s related to Ivan. I would think it’s stress because of the fact he was stressed when Luka was manipulating him, but there’s also the Metor shower scene where he’s the happiest we’ve seen him at. Also! Thoughts on the comic where Till says “Because of you Mizi won’t play with me anymore?” And Ivan says that it wasn’t Mizi playing with him it was him? Like, what do you think that comic could mean on both their relationship + how Till loves Mizi? Cuz I think it’s interesting that he’s in love with her because of her smile and her presence but mistakes Ivan for her

Hiiii Srry for the late reply I had finals weeks and was dying. Thank you so much for your ask I’m happy to talk abt red pupils and the comic!

Red eyes are super interesting in IvanTill.

This is the first shot from R3 we get of baby Ivan, and his eyes naturally have the red dot in them. Usually they’re a darker color so his eyes look black most of the time.

So I disagree with the theory that the aliens experimented on Ivan’s eyes to turn them red. His eyes have always been red, you just don’t notice it unless you boost the saturation and contrast. Or have super strong eyes ig. HOWEVER.

Ivan’s eyes get redder when he feels strong emotions. This is the comic showing his final thoughts, here he is likely feeling jealous that Sua was able to be in a mutually requited love with Mizi. It’s almost like his entire world is turned upside down. What do you mean the girl who is so similar to me is able to find happiness? Why couldn’t I? Why is she so happy and I’m so miserable when we’re both the same? So we can associate bright red eyes with intense feelings. Just like how the color bright red can mean intense love but also extreme danger. Now let’s talk about when Till’s eyes are red.

The first time in canon is the infamous meteor shower scene. It’s one of the happiest times we see him. In this moment I think the red pupils represent the happiness and love he feels for Ivan. I’ve talked abt the red sky before but I’ll briefly say that this bright sky is a pivotal moment in both of their lives. It’s where their love was almost fully realized (in my delusional eyes) before being ripped to pieces. Remember red means love but it also means danger. So when Till’s eyes are red it means he’s feeling an intense emotion related to Ivan, bc Ivan naturally has red eyes. In this scene it’s probably love that he is feeling intensely.

Now let’s look at R6 Till, his eyes are red here too but it’s not out of happiness but of heartbreak. I wanted to talk abt this later so I’ll keep this short. But isn’t it strange that Till was so defeated after Mizi disappeared. She wasn’t even confirmed dead but he was already at his lowest. I think the real reason he stopped singing wasn’t just bc he was sad abt Mizi, but bc he didn’t want to win against Ivan. Losing his idol made him realize that the only person he has left is Ivan. It’s like a reality check for him. (Honestly if Mizi somehow won R5 I feel like he’d still throw the match but I’ll explain my delusions separately.) Anyways in this moment right before Ivan kisses him, he is probably shocked at seeing Ivan. Remember Till doesn’t realize that Ivan loves him, he probably attributes Ivan’s weirdness around him as something he does out of hate rather than him trying to get the attention of his crush. So seeing him also throw the mic away and stand so close to him was surprising but also comforting in a sense. At least the last face he sees will be Ivan.

Now onto R7, this is I think the brightest red we see in Till’s eyes. I think this is bc his world just ended hours ago (however long the time between rounds is idk rlly all I know is that R6 and R7 happened the same day.) All the ppl he grew up with died, he doesn’t know what happened to Mizi, and he’s up against the Ruler of the Stage. But here his eyes are red when Luka impersonates Ivan. Again his red eyes likely represent the deep heartbreak and sadness he feels about Ivan. After Ivan’s sacrifice and kiss Till has to re-contextualize everything Ivan has done. I think also it forced him to confront the red sky that haunted him (ie: missed chance at freedom, finding happiness with Ivan) there was a lot of red scenes and red lights during R7 that reinforces this idea.

Overall red eyes are Ivan’s signature, but it’s easy to miss bc it blends with the black of his eyes. Ivan also wears a lot of black you can barely see any red on him. But Till who cares a lot more abt Ivan than he’s willing to admit, notices the red in his eyes. So when Till’s eyes turn red it means what he’s feeling is connected is related to Ivan. We don’t see Till’s turn red when thinking abt Mizi.

There is one exception however.

It’s in R2. Now this could just be thematic, Till just killed an alien living in his guitar. HOWEVER let’s pretend it’s more than that. Red eyes represent Ivan bc he naturally has red pupils. BUT the color red represents Till. He’s got bright red pants, dark red gloves, blood red on his pants and he’s seen cherishing and holding red flowers.

Methinks Red is Till’s signature color bc Till likes the color of Ivan’s eyes. (And if you think abt it pink is just a lighter shade of red hehehe…)

To answer your question red eyes are an Ivan thing bc he was born with red eyes. But red eyes on Till means he’s looking at Ivan meaningfully, acknowledging his own feelings for Ivan it could be positive feelings or negative feelings. But considering that Till’s eyes turned red from being depressed over Ivan, I think Till has mostly positive feelings for Ivan.

Now part 2!

This comic is basically Till threatening (failing to threaten rlly I mean look at Ivan’s face XD) to punch Ivan in the bathroom bc he believes Ivan was somehow the reason Mizi wouldn’t play with him. You can find the translation on Twitter by @WhataFruit.

Ivan’s response was basically what the hell are you on Mizi never played with you in the first place. Then the small text is him saying I was the one who played with you.

On Till’s side the real reason Mizi doesn’t play with Till, is bc she thinks Till doesn’t like her. She likes how artistic he is, and thinks his piercings suit him. But she sees him awkward and uncomfortable around her and assumes it’s bc he doesn’t like her. She wants to be friends with Till but due to Till’s avoidant tendencies they’re not close.

He blames Ivan for this bc he doesn’t have anyone else to blame. He’s May not even be aware that he’s avoiding ppl like this. Ivan was just a jerk to him anyways so it’s easy to blame him if something he doesn’t like happens to him. This is the kid that steals his pencils it wouldn’t be too surprising if Ivan said something weird abt Till to Mizi.

Another thing is that he talks abt Ivan wanting revenge for hitting them when they were younger. This could be bc Till likely feels guilty abt hitting Ivan. When they grow older, yeah Till still gets pissed at Ivan, but he doesn’t hit him anymore. In fact he tries to ignore him like in the R6 flashback when Ivan pulls at his wound on his cheek. It’s like when you tell a little girl to stop reacting when a boy is mean to her bc he likes her (not that it ever stops the boy from being abusive but whatever). So I think this is how Till sees Ivan’s feelings towards him. He’s doing weird stuff cuz he’s mad at me/hates me for hitting him when we were younger. It could also be he feels guilty for throwing away his only chance at freedom with Ivan. Cuz it wasn’t just his freedom he gave up it was also Ivan’s freedom that was lost. It wasn’t Till’s responsibility or anything I’m not blaming him for Ivan’s choices. But as a result of Till’s actions both him and Ivan are trapped as pets again. Till blaming himself for Ivan coming back could be why he thinks Ivan only has negative feelings for him. And why he doesn’t attack Ivan after Ivan provoked him, he probably thinks he deserves Ivan tormenting him.

Now let’s talk abt Ivan’s response. He’s blunt as always with no tact when he says Mizi never played with you in the first place. But the smaller text is him saying I’m the one who plays with you.

From this the smaller text makes me think abt how Ivan is only truly honest when Till isn’t awake or looking at him.

In R6 Ivan is showing comfort and care to Till after he had been forced to sing for the aliens (idk if that scene has actual SA or if they just drugged him and hit him but regardless Till is suffering here). There is no way to misconstrue Ivan’s action as anything but care here. He unlocks Till’s collar and nuzzles his gently the way Till nuzzles flowers. He could’ve kissed Till here, could’ve unbuttoned his shirt or pinch his face etc. But the only thing he does is gently comfort Till.

I think this shows how Ivan wants to be kind and cherish Till. But something holds him back from doing it when Till can receive that care properly. It doesn’t matter how much you love give someone if the other person never receives it in a way they understand. It’s probably bc for Ivan who has been treated as a product/investment he doesn’t have a lot of self-worth. He’s so used to just fulfilling everyone’s expectations of him that he lost his individuality. Loving Till doesn’t fit inside everyone’s expectations of him, not even Till’s. So he only does what he wants when no one is aware of it, when he’s by himself. In the student interview he allots a lot of time for “private time” this could be bc that’s the only reprieve he gets from constantly acting like the perfect pet for the aliens. And with the low self worth and calling his feelings “shallow” he like Till also believes he’s not worthy of affection.

He acts like a jerk to Till partly out of immaturity, anger at Till for not leaving with him and bc if he acts like this he can maximize the time he spent with Till. If he acted like Mizi, gentle and kind, he assumes Till would run away like he does with Mizi. Remember Till grew up being taken away from his mom and being abused by Urak. As a defense mechanism he assumes that violence is normal and avoids the unknown kindness others have for him. As an avoidant person myself, when you’re not used to ppl being unconditional kind, it is VERY uncomfortable. Uncomfortable enough that we shy away from it. So that’s why Ivan fulfills Till’s expectation of him being a jerk when he’s awake. But when Till isn’t looking at him or when Ivan’s abt to die he shows pure love towards Till.

Look at the face, that’s the look of someone in love. And one of the few times we see him wearing a collar. It’s bright green when looking at Till, Ivan you have so much affection how can you call it shallow 🥲 How many ppl could give up their chance at freedom just for the person they love? (This is why I can’t get behind ppl who think Ivan would cage Till or trap him by his side. Ivan literally respected Till’s choice not to leave their hell and even stayed with him and loved him the entire time they were together ;-;)

Also abt the last part I’m unclear where exactly Till mistook Ivan for Mizi? From my understanding I see Till loving Mizi as a performance and I think Vivinos said Till saw Mizi as an idol. Like how most ppl love idols, we only love the fantasy version we come up with of them. Very rarely do we see the messy human side to them. And even tho we may obsess over them and feel intense love for our fav idol. Eventually we turn off the screen and go through with our day. That’s how I see Till loving Mizi.

I mean whenever Ivan is watching Till, Till is mostly drawing, practicing/composing music or just by himself. There’s not really a scene of Ivan watching Till look at Mizi. It could just be that bc it’s Ivan’s pov we only see Till and no one else. But we also know that Ivan has spent a lot of time with Till in the garden, he’s our only insight into what Till is actually like. So I think Till loves Mizi from afar bc he unconsciously doesn’t want to actually get to know her and ruin his image of her. Even after seeing her attack Luka in R5 he still hallucinates her as a gentle almost angelic figure.

I mean I think Till has always loved Ivan but that’s just bc I’m delusional lol.

Anyways thank you so much for the ask! Sorry for the lateness and the nonsensical yapping. My brain is kinda fried rn from all the tests but I might come back and re-analyze the comic.

[redrandomposts]

Sorry this is out of the blue but ur au’s are always so good and I NEED ur thoughts on an ivantill abo concept that has been haunting me-

Pls consider:

Till is a traveling musician and Ivan is a model who has a brief stint in music, (which is how the main two meet) Till alpha and is the rebellious type and completely against settling down with an Omega and having a normal white picket fence life. He frequently complains about this with his close friend Ivan, and one day asks Ivan if he would be chill having a no commitment hook up to blow off steam. Ivan (who is obviously In love with him but till isn’t paying attention) says yes very enthusiastically. they hook up, and then till like a week later leaves for his tour. When till comes back he finds that Ivan is like heavily pregnant- (and is maybe a little jealous of whoever caused that) and is like hey who’s the dad are u in a relationship. (It is obviously a result of the hookup since that’s just how things go) And Ivan not wanting to tie till down and make him “take responsibility “ (he doesn’t want to be an obligation to till but a choice) lies and says he knows who the dad is but they abandoned him so he’s going the single parent route.

And Till being a good friend is like “dam sounds like a shithead- lemme like help u out while I’m still in town” and proceededs to start taking care of Ivan (all the while pissed as hell at the “random guy” who would do this to Ivan and leave him all alone) and he steps into a pseudo partner role while doing so. (And they constantly get mistaken for a couple) So till is accidentally taking care of and supporting his own kid- and hyjinx ensue until the kid is born and things obviously get revealed.

how to tell till hes a father without telling him he's a father:

LMAOO this is insanely funny (and heartbreaking for ivan) and i 100% agree with this. i love this prompt!!

till constantly hounding ivan to get an abortion and sue the father? i think so.

ivan being featured in pregnancy magazines and whatnot? front cover, nonetheless? absolutely.

anyway, i think till would be insanely jealous, especially as he acts as ivan's mate, and unwittingly he spends way too much time imagining that he was the father and they'd settle down (kind of) together raising the child.

when till finds out, they figure their shit out and get married in about a week. a grand ceremony for the fams and a smaller one for friends and family. (yall cannot convince me ivan did not have the weddings planned over the course of his pregnancy (and before that, too)).

other people's reactions: luka is also pregnant. idk man, its all the rage these days (i cannot step a single inch without seeing him pregnant, guys. you can decide if it's a random guy, hyuna, or hyunwoo(?)). ivan and luka gossip, and this only intensifies once they give birth.

mizi kindly tells till to make up for the months he were gone and the months he leaves ivan without a bond. sua... is not so kind. the shovel talk, except its a bulldozer yell.

ty for bringing this concept to my attention!!

[shakingparadigm]

When lvan removes the collar from Till,in that room where he was left alone (that to me looks like a *cough cough* shady club in a red light district. Poor Till) it reminded me of little lvan rebelling for the first time,entering in Till's cell (in Black Sorrow's flashbacks) and freeing him to escape with him. The parallelism is insane...they couldn't escape anymore,forever trapped until the round's outcome. Instead of a meteor shower,we were showered with rain. Good choice,vivinos. I really liked the grey sky.

One more thing,l think lvan was pretending to choke Till.At the end he doesn't gasp for air and doesn't have red marks. It's completely different from Mizi and Luka. Luka eyes were about to pop out. Till abandons himself and gladly accept what Ivan is doing because he was already dead.He is shocked when he feels that lvan has loosened the grip. He opens the eyes just to see him fall and smile. I also think that Ivan's intention was not to be remembered by Till with that kiss. It's obvious he'll remember everything about the round anyway,like his traumatic past. Present. The aliens were so disgusted by the kiss that,from being on the same level,Till surpassed the score. The love and hype for Ivan became anger: he interrupted their show,he acted in an improper way.

The last peck he gives him,the one showed in full frame,is the real deal. It was a ''goodbye'' and not a tactic to make the aliens frown and displeased anymore. He got to kiss him,something he always wanted to do,so it's not really a tactic.

''It was a good way to die.'' (cit probably Ivan)

''HELLO THE ALIENS ARE HOMOPHOBIC THEY DON'T WANT TO SEE A GAY ASS KISS ANOTHER MAN.THEY WANT TO BE ENTERTAINED? I WILL DO IT MY WAY. WITH PLEASURE.'' (cit. Ivan again)

Ivan waited for a reaction from Till,before and while chocking him. At some point his gaze trembles,he can't stand to see him drained from all his determination.He feels lost,but not because he wanted to see the old Till,who acted like his pillar.Not to feel contented,but because he thought that Till really LOST himself.He ponders about what to do next. ''This kiss will not make him misunderstand''. ''What to do next now that I'm choking him.Are we both doomed''. It is true that Ivan is obsessed with Till beyond the concept of devotion,at the point to make his life revolve around him. Till was what made him dream. He wasn't just something that awakened his vitality (and something else) in the emptiness. Ivan was like a puppet you move with strings,apathic,waiting to die. He didn't realize he could react and reapproach to his identity. Still,I don't think he wanted Till to die with him.

In this round,the one who always fight give up .The one who was inspired and obedient, rebels once again because of the glim of that ''star''. His black sorrow.

Rather than "I love you" it was like he was screaming "You have to live. Live on". He never had his love. For the trauma thing he discussed with Sua..well maybe he thought he didn't meant that much for Till,he was describing what Sua had the chance to get and,in his perspective,would have not cherished with her sacrifice.I don't think he was jealous of her. He says ''I feel relieved. The fact I'm not the only one who's messed up in the head'' . He didn't seem to hate Mizi too.

And the lyrics "Even if your cold words carve scars beneath my eyes , may they linger on your tongue. You can break me apart". This says a lot about lvan self-destructive nature. It doesn't surprise me he was ready to risk it all. He let the pain engulf him,going in the monster's mouth. He worshipped everything about Till. He touched Till's scar and then put the fingers on his lips.He wanted to feel his blood. Like if he could get closer to Till in this gesture,to compensate for the emptiness of the love he would have liked to receive from him.

If I were to say something to lvan: my buddy,your dedication truly amazed me. You were shoot three times and didn't even flinch. I'll call you IVANilla. Cause I like vanilla. I'm sorry,you're not only dead but now you have this name.

Till VS Luka.

Hyuna bleeding. If they ever get captured,they'll be killed or be imprisoned? Till will get up alone or with the certainty of Mizi's life? For Ivan's sacrifice?

Luka,that guy,I know he laughed after watching round 6.

Like someone else said,WE HAVE TO BEAT HELLERS YOU ALL. YOU ALL!!!!!

AND DON'T FORGET: CHEER UP! :)

First of all, I am so sorry it took me so long to get to this ask (and a bunch of other asks as well). There's just been a lot to think about lately which makes things a little overwhelming. This is a pretty long mesage, so I wanted to find time to answer it as best as I can. Thank you for sending such a long ask, I appreciate that you take time out of your day to share all these thoughts with me :)

The constant theme of Ivan saving Till is so tragic, but also it's really interesting how Ivan is able to deactivate collars and restraints so easily? He's incredibly observant, intelligent, and a trusted pet, so he could've picked up the technique from watching the aliens. It's honestly crazy how much power Ivan has? I mean, he's not on par with aliens by any means, but he could've been such an asset in the rebellion. There seems to be a lot that Ivan knew about, a lot of places he could access that other humans couldn't. Anyways, the parallel... Ivan freeing Till as a child and running away with him, contrasting with Ivan as an adult freeing Till yet remaining stationary. As children they had hope, as adults they know they're chained to their circumstances. All Ivan does this time is press his face to Till's, a small, soft comfort before their inevitable doom.

This is a thought I've always had about Ivan even before ROUND 6, but he always seemed like Till's protector in a way. Some call him a "guardian angel" of sorts (it's quite literal now. unfortunately). Despite Ivan's strange and offputting behavior, he always came back to help Till in one way or another. A lot of things that he did seemed to be an attempt to service Till in some way, even if they were done in roundabout manner. Even the childish act of stealing Till's things just to give them back to him is a (albeit fabricated) situation wherein Till needs something and only Ivan has what it takes to provide it to him. Ivan knows how to unlock the collars. Ivan knows where the restricted area is. Ivan knows where Till's things are. Ivan knows where Till is taken when he is hurt. Ivan knows how to escape. Every ounce of knowledge Ivan has is used for Till's sake. This is an insane amount devotion. Protecting and aiding Till by any means possible.

The meteor shower turning out to be rain messed me up actually. There was so much hope for the meteors to make a reappearance, especially since they became Ivan's signature and are associated with the infamous Meteor Scene. It's fitting, though, for us to expect blazing stars and instead be met with rainfall. There is no fiery passion, no bombastic jailbreak, no escape for the both of them. Cure is honestly so tragic because everything that we'd hoped for just... didn't happen (unless you prayed that Ivan would die! congratulations if you did). All we get is the depressing downfall of water. Extinguished flames, their cold and heavy circumstances drowning out hope and passion, emotions that so closely tied themselves to their beloved meteors now dissipating like smoke. Most of all, Till's lyric "Until these falling stars are buried in the blur of time".

After some deliberation, yeah, I agree that Ivan didn't perform the act to necessarily be "remembered". It wasn't his main motivation, at least. Many of my perspectives on certain aspects of ROUND 6 have changed since I first saw it through tear-blurred eyes (still in absolute shock to this day). The Confession comic further hammered down on this fact, as Ivan's states that his act of sacrifice wasn't as cruel as Sua's because he believed that Till didn't care about him enough to crumble for him like Mizi did for Sua. However, I don't think the aliens were disgusted by the kiss. We only see the scores changing once Ivan wraps his hands around Till's neck. They were definitely shocked by it, yeah, some maybe even against it, but I don't think it contributed to his score lowering as much as the "attempted murder" did. Luka tossed Mizi around and stepped into her space a lot (uncomfortably so) during ROUND 5, Till smashed open an alien on stage, so I don't think the aliens are unfamiliar with more... unique acts during performances. What they definitely won't let slide, however, is attacking the opponent. I do agree that the public's love for Ivan quickly soured into something else, at least for certain groups of aliens. His fanbase is now probably divided between the new haters and the diehard fans who are fighting for their lives.

THE ALIENS ARE HOMOPHOBIC 😭 HELP LMAO. I think they'd just be Tillphobic tbh

I also believe Ivan wasn't actually choking Till, he just needed it to look like he was. Till didn't show any signs of struggle except for that first instance of shock. My best friend pointed it out at first, too. She mentioned that Till's body didn't react to the "choking" in any way, in fact, his expression seemed almost peaceful. Till assumed that Ivan intended on choking him and gave up, even when he wasn't actually restricting his air yet. "Abandoning himself" is a pretty great way to word it. I think even Ivan was rattled at how lifeless Till was in that moment.

Ivan's face is contorted in this frame, and it could be because of the gunshots, yes (he's honestly holding it together very well for someone who got shot THRICE), but Ivan was shot as well before this frame and he still maintained a stoic expression. To me, Ivan's stress in this scene stems from the realization that Till is not fighting back. Even with the sound of gunshots piercing skin and the weight of hands around his neck, Till remains unresponsive. Of course it was obvious that Till was giving up right from the moment ROUND 6 started, but to see him so readily accept death no matter the method... his star has truly burned out. He was waiting for a reaction that would never come at this point. The paragraph you wrote about this is honestly beautiful.

Ivan and Till essentially "switching" for this round is one of the things that I hoped for ever since they announced production, so I'm really happy (and devastated) to see it come to life. Ivan taking the biggest and last risk of his life in order to save his star, who spurred on all these feelings in the first place. I agree that his act wasn't an "I love you", though. I was a bit wrong in one of my previous posts. I don't think he cared for his own feelings in that moment. He prioritized Till first and foremost, performing the final act with the belief that Till, even up to this point, didn't care about him.

I never thought Ivan genuinely hated Sua, but I do still think that he was envious of her. It's confirmed now in the Confession comic, too. Seeing how Mizi and Sua loved each other, it gave him an "indescribable" feeling, one that made his brows furrow, his face dropping into a complicated expression. I also think that he never hated Mizi, either. After all, why would he? Just because Till loves her? He knows all too well that people can't control who they love. It's no fault of hers.

Thank you so much for bringing up Ivan's tendency for self-destruction. Even in his own personal relationships he tends to sabotage himself. Much of Ivan's character is centered around a "lack" of some kind. Lack of emotion, lack of love, lack of anyone close to him that could understand him (It's kind of ironic to think about since out of the whole cast he's probably the most well-provided for aside from Luka). Due to this lack, he desperately attaches himself to any feeling that could make up for the emptiness. The Patreon posts state that Ivan is deeply fascinated by anyone who possesses qualities that he lacks, which is why he developed such strong and obssessive feelings for Till, who seemed to be his opposite.

Ivan tanking 3 shots with a straight face was so insane actually. His expression didn't even budge. Really hammers in how much "normal" emotional responses he lacked. He only ever focused on Till, his source of feeling. Also Ivanilla is so cute actually 😭 fits since he's fond of sweets.

If Hyuna and Mizi are found, I have a feeling they'd be killed on the spot. What they've done is basically unforgivable to the aliens, and Mizi was supposed to be shot dead at the end of ROUND 5 anyway. It's either immediate death or unimaginable torture. I'm not sure how soon Till will be able to "get up", but I feel like if he caught just a glimpse of Mizi he'd regain some of his strength back. He'd have to carry on for Ivan, too.

Luka is definitely going to have one hell of a time during ROUND 7.

CHEER UP! once again sorry it took me so long to get to this. My brain was really disorganized and trying to piece together my thoughts on this was a challenge that had to be put off for a while due to some life issues. Sorry if it's not entirely cohesive! Thank you so much for the ask :)

[ikeuverse]

DUAL LIFE, let’s go! ✨ I had to come here and read before you saw my message and started your whole monologue about getting anxious about me reading your stuff, so I hurried (genuinely, hurried) before you could convince me otherwise as always ☝️🏻 ANYWAY! How could you deliver this story without providing this Jake in my real life as well? Like, excuse me?! I need him?! I love how protective he was towards the reader — even being capable of forcing himself (and suffering) to keep his distance so she would be safe from his well, dual life.

I also loved the mafia elements. I am a sucker for fics that have those scenes where the enhypen members reunite to speak and the main couple suddenly turns the topic. I just love it. And I love how they were ready to protect Jake and not let the mafia life prevent him from being happy with the reader.

OK, AND! “You’re not going to this dinner” EU GUSPI A DROGA DO MEU MATCHA! DESCULPA MUDAR PARA O PORTUGUÊS ASSIM, MAS EU FIQUEI MUITO CHOCADA! E ISSO VINDO LOGO ANTES DO— DO— VOCÊ SABE. MORRI E NÃO PASSO BEM. Um bom dia a todos

Enfim Babi, foi incrível ✨♥️ eu amei tudinho e mal posso esperar o que você tem para a segunda parte! Como sugestão que você pediu ali em um dos posts, eu adoraria ver mais da máfia, sabe? Principalmente considerando o jeito que acabou!

the beginning of this ask being clearly the event of the wpp conversations (i sent you a message this morning freaking out that you'd read it) so... i'll start by answering this and saying that i still can't believe you read i'm dizzy, okay? 🥺

let's move on to the part where i wanted a totally different jake than the one i've read before. i tried to think of a personality that i've rarely seen written about him (the mafioso and the careful one, the guy who can be ruthless too... wait for it in part 2). and i tried to add the world's biggest jealous in one man and... tcharam! WE NEED THIS JAKE!

e mesclando nosso inglês com português, de praxe: não cuspa seu matcha!!! É UMA BEBIDA PRECIOSA! obrigada por todas as palavras, sis. vindo de você é uma honra porque sabe o quanto admiro sua escrita e amo suas histórias, então aquece meu coração ler esse tipo de coisa. obrigada mesmo 💜 e saiba que suas considerações serão validadas, espere mais elementos da máfia e o nosso querido jake em ação!

[eviltiddyproductions]

Crash Course in Romance : Episode 6

Other teacher is it THAT serious. like you’re really on a blog posting shit about our man??? for what 😭

oh my god now I get why that teacher is mad and angry everytime he breathes this is INSANE. 😭😭😭

i mean could it be the missing brother? he’s the only one who would want to shoot Chiyeol although why?! he literally understood what Chiyeol meant for his sister.

Sua got some nerve trying to snoop on Hae’s material after getting her kicked out

Now she’ll take this from her too I’m so tired. I’m actually so tired of her.

the boys are fighting 💀

oh the mom and sua always stressing me out with their shenanigans I’m so tired 😭😭😭

SunJae covering for her again as I knew he would. Sua is so!!??? she’s going to rat him out and make his life a living hell nooooo

oh now I know, the jealous teacher who keeps trying to drag Chiyeol down is from Bokjoo 💀😭 he’s the main lead’s bff

one thing about Chiyeol, he’s going to quietly walk and hear everything

oh he’s just shooting anybody with metal balls like what did the cat do !?!!!

LMAOOO I thought they’d end up inviting him. he’s actually already there. this is destiny 😭

aww they have such nice sinks to clean everything

my sister knew had to text but she’s texting the group chat 🤣

my man gets 0 seconds of peace he was about to text back and now his family is at it again

poor bean :(

‘is it your hobby to cross boundaries’ 😭

‘anyway’ 🥰💗

these two need to stay away from water sources omg 💀

he’s giving dad just sitting and fishing as his family camps

she’s already dozing and look how happy he is 😭✋

my The Pride babies having a pitch battle was not on my card lmao

oh is Sunjae about to confess his feelings. why did I think she was in a hospital for that scene lmao this restaurant lighting is depressing 😭

not only did he not ask for an explanation, he said tell me when you’re ready and took her for Karaoke

my sunjae incoming when?

sunjae let her breathe but sua will not 😍

wait does the elder brother just feed cats idk? maybe he’s just like me. depressed, walking around, feeding animals

the younger brother walking past and coming back to introduce haeee to his older brother. real sibling behaviour. for a second I was like I get it if you walk by idk but I was so happy when he turned around in 3 seconds 😭

Oh she told him she’s being tutored. lol

everyone’s gonna know at this rate the way they just keep telling people 💀

she’s still listening to that song 😭😭😭

I feel like he’s super charming but super single because of the work lmaooo Mr Ji supremacy

you can date too bestie. y’all would just rather do maths 😭

sua, sincerely from the bottom of my heart fuck off. it is really not that deep. you’ll be fighting for your life in the exam with every student, not just haeee so why are you still after her??? like you even got her kicked out of class this is not #normal 😭😭 WHAT MORE

oh lord they’re gonna find the tutor thing too. #ilost

nooo are they going to follow him

BE SERIOUS FOR ONCE

do I favour Chiyeol’s career or SunJae’s sanity. like who loses this time. don’t let it be both omg 😟

oh no I think it’s both. sunjae is going down at least NOOOOO

[bexsua]

“damn. two left feet or something?” sua snorts. “makes sense. it’s for like…idol companies, right? that seems pretty important. kinda weird to expect a band guy to know.” she guesses anything could be taught, but. right from scratch? seems like being set up for failure, to sua. “well, at least now you know you have a nice voice. or a likable one if the hardass went out of their way.” little victories, she supposes. “exposure would be cool though.”

sua holds up her hands in a what can you do? sort of manner. “built different.” she says simply, though she freezes in place at the follow up question. stares at him to see if he’s pranking her with the question– because well, yeah. she did! and sua knows if she chances a glance around the room there’s bound to be zelda memorabilia somewhere. “no.” she says suddenly, maybe defensively. but then she huffs, shoulders drooping. “okay, yeah. i am.” sua trails off in a mumble. “i wanted to learn how to play some of my favorites and now it’s just– kinda comforting to play when i feel like it.”

piano is another thing. sua wants to learn so bad– but it requires so much of her time. since she’s stopped taking classes and lessons and since eunae’s been busy, she hasn’t had a moment to actually try on a piano. or even a keyboard. the closest she gets is to an app on her phone that scratches the itch when it comes. “i’m jealous.” she confesses at joomi’s explanation. “i started learning like a year or so ago and i was getting the basics down, but then i stopped having time for like, serious learning. and now i can play like, baby beginner stuff. kinda. i think i miss a key or two every time i play.” controlling her hands doing different things is a little difficult; it’s the same with games that she needs to do complicated joystick work for. 

she thinks having boundaries and rules when you live together is important. every one is different– and in the situation of being literal strangers, it’s even more important. sua also won’t be able to live comfortably if she has to walk on eggshells because she doesn’t know what’s right or wrong. so she listens, scratches at the table idly as she does. okay. those are– relatively easy to work around. kinda bare bones, if she had to say something about it– but then he continues, a frown crossing her features at the mention of an asshole roommate. 

“ew.” she grumbles. “that’s…ugh. annoying. sorry you had to live with someone like that.” sua doesn’t know how joomi would have put up with that. sua might have thrown hands, or at the very least give a tongue lashing. maybe something petty like pouring all the beer down the sink because she bought it. “i don’t like owing people, so trust me when i say you don’t have to worry about me asking you for things. and i’m not much of a tv person, so…” she usually just games anyway. if she’s watching something she’ll watch it on her phone or her computer– headphones included.

sua straightens up a bit, pops her back as she gives a little sigh. “i’m kinda lax, honestly. i like to keep the kitchen and the bathrooms clean out of all the rooms, but i think that’s not weird to ask. i don’t mind a little mess anywhere else, though. i clean under stress sometimes, so if you see me acting like a psycho with a broom, just let me do my thing.” sua snorts, cracking a smile. her eyes flicker around the apartment, thinking. honestly, her last roommates had a lot more structure and boundaries, especially due to being a couple; they made most of the rules and negotiated the ones that sua had issues with easily. “what else…i’m kinda grumpy after i just wake up. so don’t…take offense if i’m snappy or anything. you probably didn’t do anything. i’m usually just upset i have to work or something. usually once i have my morning coffee i stop being a bitch, so…”

her phone vibrates, and as she thinks, she checks it– just in case it’s their food. “i work one job– two if you count streaming, i guess. and i like to go out on the weekends. sorry in advance if i’m too loud coming back, though. i’ll try not to be.” sua directs her attention back to joomi, and shrugs. “i don’t really ask for much, honestly. pay bills on time. respect space and personal boundaries. you can have people over, i don’t mind. just give me a heads up if you can.”

“damn. two left feet or something?” sua snorts. “makes sense. it’s for like…idol companies, right? that seems pretty important. kinda weird to expect a band guy to know.” she guesses anything could be taught, but. right from scratch? seems like being set up for failure, to sua. “well, at least now you know you have a nice voice. or a likable one if the hardass went out of their way.” little victories, she supposes. “exposure would be cool though.”

sua holds up her hands in a what can you do? sort of manner. “built different.” she says simply, though she freezes in place at the follow up question. stares at him to see if he’s pranking her with the question– because well, yeah. she did! and sua knows if she chances a glance around the room there’s bound to be zelda memorabilia somewhere. “no.” she says suddenly, maybe defensively. but then she huffs, shoulders drooping. “okay, yeah. i am.” sua trails off in a mumble. “i wanted to learn how to play some of my favorites and now it’s just– kinda comforting to play when i feel like it.”

piano is another thing. sua wants to learn so bad– but it requires so much of her time. since she’s stopped taking classes and lessons and since eunae’s been busy, she hasn’t had a moment to actually try on a piano. or even a keyboard. the closest she gets is to an app on her phone that scratches the itch when it comes. “i’m jealous.” she confesses at joomi’s explanation. “i started learning like a year or so ago and i was getting the basics down, but then i stopped having time for like, serious learning. and now i can play like, baby beginner stuff. kinda. i think i miss a key or two every time i play.” controlling her hands doing different things is a little difficult; it’s the same with games that she needs to do complicated joystick work for. 

she thinks having boundaries and rules when you live together is important. every one is different– and in the situation of being literal strangers, it’s even more important. sua also won’t be able to live comfortably if she has to walk on eggshells because she doesn’t know what’s right or wrong. so she listens, scratches at the table idly as she does. okay. those are– relatively easy to work around. kinda bare bones, if she had to say something about it– but then he continues, a frown crossing her features at the mention of an asshole roommate. 

“ew.” she grumbles. “that’s…ugh. annoying. sorry you had to live with someone like that.” sua doesn’t know how joomi would have put up with that. sua might have thrown hands, or at the very least give a tongue lashing. maybe something petty like pouring all the beer down the sink because she bought it. “i don’t like owing people, so trust me when i say you don’t have to worry about me asking you for things. and i’m not much of a tv person, so…” she usually just games anyway. if she’s watching something she’ll watch it on her phone or her computer– headphones included.

sua straightens up a bit, pops her back as she gives a little sigh. “i’m kinda lax, honestly. i like to keep the kitchen and the bathrooms clean out of all the rooms, but i think that’s not weird to ask. i don’t mind a little mess anywhere else, though. i clean under stress sometimes, so if you see me acting like a psycho with a broom, just let me do my thing.” sua snorts, cracking a smile. her eyes flicker around the apartment, thinking. honestly, her last roommates had a lot more structure and boundaries, especially due to being a couple; they made most of the rules and negotiated the ones that sua had issues with easily. “what else…i’m kinda grumpy after i just wake up. so don’t…take offense if i’m snappy or anything. you probably didn’t do anything. i’m usually just upset i have to work or something. usually once i have my morning coffee i stop being a bitch, so…”

her phone vibrates, and as she thinks, she checks it– just in case it’s their food. “i work one job– two if you count streaming, i guess. and i like to go out on the weekends. sorry in advance if i’m too loud coming back, though. i’ll try not to be.” sua directs her attention back to joomi, and shrugs. “i don’t really ask for much, honestly. pay bills on time. respect space and personal boundaries. you can have people over, i don’t mind. just give me a heads up if you can.”

[flooffybits]

Favoritism

Idol: Kim Minji, Kim Yoohyeon (Dreamcatcher)

Anon: - i wanna start by saying thank u for taking the time to read this and that reading ur works is such a stress reliever amidst all the deadlines i have ☺️ craving some fluff rn so can i request a scenario with poly reader, jiu and yoohyeon? jiyoo wants their s/o’s attention but s/o is busy with pie and cherry who seem to favor s/o a lot more than their own owners. (can u add sua being whiny bc pie keeps running away by going to the reader? i find it cute everytime i see a scared pie with her 😂)

A/n: this is just such a cute and funny idea that i was excited to write it. I’ve been itching for more Dreamcatcher requests so thank you for this

☕buy me a coffee☕

Your girlfriends always loved it when you were able to spend time together despite your busy schedules. With them being idols and you at your own job, it was understandable that the time you had together wasn’t exactly a lot. But whenever you were around, it made the whole thing more meaningful.

Gone were Jiu and Yoohyeon from Dreamcatcher and the only people left were your girlfriends, Minji and Yoohyeon. Whenever the three of you were together, they lived their lives in such a domestic manner even with the mention of InSomnias and having the rest of the group around every now and then.

While they loved when you were at the dorm, right now, they were sat to the side, watching with envy when your attention would not shift away from the twos pups that were happily wiggling on your lap and trying to catch your hands.

“You’re so cute! If I knew you were here, I would have brought something for you.” You coo while scratching under their chins before they decided to stand on their hind legs in an attempt to lick your face, but due to both being so small, they could barely even reach your neck.

But their attempts were just so cute, and the way they would not stop trying to lick you ended up tickling you and forcing you to fall back from your sitting position. Seeing their opportunity, the two dogs waste no time in attacking your face with kisses, drawing more giggles from your lips as you squirmed on the floor.

It would have been such an adorable sight to the two owners, but seeing as it’s been more than thirty minutes of you ignoring the pair that’s caused them to dislike their adorable little fur babies at that very moment.

“Cherry, come here!” The leader tried after another five minutes, but the white puppy refused to budge from your chest, the same with Pie when Yoohyeon tried calling for her. “Pie, Y/n is tired, see?” But she simply turned her head away when you started to pet the two.

Minji looked at you with a huff, pouting when you wouldn’t even look in their direction. “I get the feeling that you’re only with us for our dogs.” She claims, but even then you refuse to look while smiling at the two. “Well, they were the ones asking for my attention. It’s kinda hard not to give it to them.” You chuckle lightly before slowly sitting up, setting the two on your lap but keeping one hand on each of them as they finally calmed down.

“You said you were visiting us, not Pie and Cherry! And they won’t even come to us.” Yoohyeon complained with a pout of her own when she stood to try and take her pet away, but Pie had only tried to wriggle out of her arms before she was making her way back to you.

“In my defense, I had no clue they were here.” You smile before putting the two on the floor to stand up and tend to your sulking girlfriends, which caused them to finally smile at getting your attention, but the tugging of your pants had caused you to pause, looking down to find Cherry biting on it just so you would pay more attention to her.

Seeing this, Minji’s eyes narrowed before she looked around for the pup’s toy and then reaching for it. “Cherry, look! It’s your favorite toy.” She called out, and while she felt triumphant when she looked, Cherry was quick to dismiss it as she barked and attempted to have you pick her up once more.

Their antics had caused you to laugh before reaching down to pick both Cherry and Pie up, seeing as the latter was staring at you to do so. Walking over to the bed, you sat down next to Minji, Yoohyeon taking the opposite side as you set the two dogs on their respective owners’ laps.

But before they could even properly hold them, the two hopped off their laps and back on yours, earning a groan from the pair and another bout of laughter from you. “Jesus, why are they so clingy?” You ask, your voice going a pitch higher when you, once again, began to shower them with affection.

"For heaven's sake..." Minji tried to get Cherry off of you, only to have her bark back and shift away from her hands. "Yah! Kim Cherry!"

"Pie loves mommy, right? Come to mommy." Yoohyeon had attempted to lure Pie back to herself, only to have said dog turn its head to you and pressed her small body against your stomach.

Seeing as there was no chance of their pets leaving your side, Yoohyeon groaned dramatically before she was laying down on the bed. “Unnie! Our babies are stealing Y/n!” She whined in a high pitched tone as Minji pouted while you continued to play with the two said babies.

“You’re being so dramatic. They just missed me just like you did.”

“We still miss you because we only got at least five minutes until Pie and Cherry took you away.”

Lightly rolling your eyes, you then move to set the two pups on the floor and then turn to the pair who were looking at you with a pout on their faces. If it were possible, Yoohyeon would even cry with how much you refused to give them any form of attention.

“Come here. They can’t get on the bed.”

At that, your two girlfriends finally perked up before you were pulled down on the bed and into their eager arms, kisses being pressed to your cheeks before Yoohyeon rested her head against your shoulder and Minji pressed a chaste kiss to your lips, sighing in content as they were finally able to enjoy your company without a problem.

“I can’t believe you were being jealous over dogs.” You chuckled when the three of you just ended up cuddling on the bed, kisses exchanged in between and whispered compliments slipping every now and then.

Minji scoffed as she glanced to the floor where the two were, patiently waiting with their tails wagging, and then back to you. “We’re your girlfriends.”

“They’re your babies.”

“Stop ruining the moment.”

You ended up laughing at the small whine that came from the silver haired woman and kissed her forehead before doing the same to Minji, who relaxed in your hold and allowed her eyes to close.

“I’m always gonna love the both of you. Cherry and Pie are your kids, so of course I’m going to love them, too.” You tell them as Yoohyeon hums. “But you should love us more.”

“There’s no one else to love more.”

..

Later in the evening, everyone’s gathered in the living room, you and Minji in the kitchen, preparing dinner, while Gahyeon decided to help out and wanting to learn as well.

The rest of the girls were just waiting, playing with the two dogs since their attention seemed to always flit to the pair whenever one of them was brought along for the group to meet.

“Unnie, stop!” You could hear Yoohyeon’s voice amidst the chaos while continuing to stir the pot, the girls’ laughter meeting your ears after. “Be careful!” Siyeon had called out and the three of you wonder what was happening until two fluffy puppies came pawing at your legs.

Handong had to laugh as Bora ran after them. Currently, Yubin was laughing on the couch with Siyeon beside her and the main vocalist had her phone out whilst Yoohyeon had gotten up to run after the two as well.

When you look down at the two, Bora was already whining. “Why do they keep going to Y/n?” The volume of her voice seemed to frighten the pups and you smile before gently picking them up, your older girlfriend shaking her head as she went back to finishing your food while Gahyeon did her best to distance herself from you and the dogs in your arms.

“They really love Y/n. Cherry even barked at me when I tried to take her away.” Minji explained as you walked to the living room to set the pups down. Yubin reached out after calming from her laughing fit and smiled when Pie licked at her hand while Handong gently started to pet Cherry’s head.

“It would have been easy if Y/n’s surname was Kim, too. But if ever, are you going to rename them as Cherry and Pie L/n or just keep them as is?” Siyeon asked curiously.

“I’m offended that you think I’ll let Y/n completely steal my baby, unnie.” Yoohyeon piped up as she picked Pie up into her arms and rubbed her stomach. “Ohhh. Rejected.” Handong teases but you just smile and shake your head. “Even if they don’t have my name, I can still love them, anyway.”

“Y/n is such a sweet talker, no wonder Cherry and Pie prefer them over us.” Minji stated as she and Gahyeon finally came back with the food and placed them on the table. “Well, to be fair, Y/n is a really lovable person.” Gahyeon piped up, earning a smack on the arm from a cackling Bora.

“I can’t argue with that, but I still refuse to leave Y/n with Cherry and/or Pie anymore. I feel like if we do that, they’ll go home with Y/n instead.”

“Hey, I’ll take good care of them.” You defend and Yubin nods her head. “With how you take care of Jiu unnie and Yoohyeon, there’s no doubt about it.”

“No, I’d rather Y/n just takes care of us and we’ll handle the dogs.” Yoohyeon huffs and her fellow maknae seemed surprise whilst Siyeon poked her arm. “Are you being jealous? Of your own dog?”

“No.”

“Yes.”

Minji and Yoohyeon send you a glare while you winked at them. “They’ve been like this the whole day.” You explain, earning another round of laughter from the group, minus your two lovely girlfriends.

“You’re lucky we love you.”

“Love you, too.”

[haneybun123]

everything and more- sugar mommy!SuA x f.r

masterlist

3.6K words. angst to fluff.

warnings: arguing, use of mommy and sugar mommy/sugar baby dynamics, uncertain relationship status, shaming/bullying by others. 

a/n: thank you anon for the request! hope you enjoy! I really loved using all of the obnoxious and self-engrossed adjectives I had to learn for my English a level again :)) this is also my longest fic by far rn, which I think says something.

tonight was the most important night of the economic quarter- Boras Influential Businesses Dinner. trimonthly, Bora will invite the most inspiring, affluent, and rising people of Korean business and economics to the Seoul Dance Hall for networking, trading, advertising, and to simply have an enjoyable evening. her family were renowned for running some of the most impactful business empires across Korea so being allowed to attend was no small feat. as Boras partner and sugar baby, it was important you look your best tonight to represent the Kim family properly. besides, she always puts incredible effort into making the hall look as lavish as possible and hiring only the most highly acclaimed chefs to cater- it would be a disservice to her if you didn’t. 

her card burned a hole in your pocket as you exited the car, politely thanking Boras driver for bringing you. eyes drew to you like always as you entered- not for your appearance, you were dressed as on trend as ever, but because your relationship with Bora was the gossip amongst the rich. Bora was a desirable bachelorette: she was young, of old money, making new money, and was a stunning women. some were annoyed that you got her and they didn’t, even if she was only your sugar mommy (but even that is debatable. the terms of your relationship were murky at best).

you walked by designer store after designer store, modern neon signs glaring at you as you passed. you thought of what she told you as you looked down at the black plastic: “I want you to spoil yourself like you deserve, y/n. show them you’re more than what they say you are.” with her advice, you brushed their looks off and made your way to your favourite store: Gucci. to you, they made the prettiest dresses no matter the season. even if others at the party thought it was tacky you didn’t care- you weren’t going to let stereotypes hold you back in your newfound affluence and, well, Bora liked it. that’s what mattered to you. no one was expecting niche brands from a sugar baby anyway. 

your eyes were drawn to the “new arrivals” rail as your familiar friend and employee of the store- Seungyeon excitedly greeted you. she brung you over to the rack you were staring at as she immediately began to ramble about Boras party. “ah I'm so jealous of you, y/n. everyone is always talking about how fantastic Bora is.” Seungyeon lamented, leaning on the wall besides you. your eyes scanned the dresses, flicking through them with an intense gaze. red, pink, yellow: it seemed that warm colours were in season. 

“she truly is. I truly am lucky..” you sighed dreamily, beginning to think back on all of the beautiful dinners she’s taken you on and all the wonderful things you’ve been gifted. you honestly meant what you said: you were lucky. your rumination was cut short though when your eyes fell on the perfect dress. a blush coloured satin adorned with delicate, tiny flowers, a sweetheart neckline, a high leg slit.. it was just the statement you needed. Seungyeon gasped as you pulled it off of the rack, clapping as she bounced on her heels, “y/n, it’ll suits you so well! try it on!! try it on!!” 

you rushed to the dressing room, squealing excitedly with your friend despite onlookers, changing as quickly as possible. you could hear Seungyeon chatting to her co-workers in excited whispers- they were probably gossiping about the party, hoping you’ll get them somebodies number. but, as you looked in the mirror, you couldn’t care less. you knew already that Bora would call you a princess because that’s- well, that’s just how Bora saw you. taking a deep breath you called Seungyeon over. as you began to push the curtain open Seungyeon began to squeal in excitement, hitting her much calmer but just as enthusiastic co-worker. she jumped up and down as she shouted, “Bora is going to love it, y/n! she’s gonna love it!” 

you decided to explore a couple more stores before you left. you didn't have any specific aims to your “exploration”, it was just out of pure curiosity. but, in your endeavours, you found yourself stood starstruck in front of a pair of heels: rose gold, subtly sparkles, and a interesting toe cut out. though rose gold may be out of style in the mainstream, it’s always been a favourite of Boras when it comes to fashion. you bought it without hesitation- even going as far as to get the shop workers to wrap it for you. 

after this you decided to go home. the driver was quick to bring you to the home of your lovely sugar mommy, clearly understanding the urgency of you getting ready. the house she lived in- and you both occasionally shared- was the most incredible building you’d ever laid eyes on. 3 floors of white walls with wood and brick accents, filled with luxury furniture and stylish decor, a pool and indoor cinema, even a dance studio: anything you could ever think of. while some may find it sterile and not homey in the slightest it screamed of Bora to you and you loved it. your rushing footsteps echoed through the open space as you called for her- possibly too excitedly- to show her your finds. not just the shoes but also your dress. blush pink was one of her favourite colours on you- she loved to be cheesy and say it “reminds me of how you blush whenever you see me.”

Bora ran to the landing, phone to her ear, glaring as she shushed you. you stopped in your tracks, a wave of sadness overtaking you, as she began to talk again, “sorry about that interruption, what were you saying, Mr Yang?” her voice was smooth, stable, almost bossy as she debated and compromised. you quietly shuffled to the hallway wardrobe that belonged to your gifts. previously, it was a guest bedroom but as your relationship blossomed and became more serious she decided it was best to convert a space for you. you unpacked what you bought in silence, slipped the wrapped shoebox under the ottoman and sat down, waiting for Bora to finish her phone call.

she came in some time afterwards, frustration evident on her face, “y/n. you know today is important. I have a lot of things to organise right now. I'm glad you enjoyed your shopping but please think about when you come in shouting.” she turned away at the end of her sentence, hair feathering behind her as she walked. you became lost in thought immediately: “she didn’t even ask about the dress. why did she trust me with her money if she didn’t care about what I bought? what about the heels I got her? am I that obnoxious? does she feel that all the time?” 

you sat for some time ruminating with tears slowly working their way down your face. you don’t know if it’s the pressure of being with Bora or the judgement of her peers that has made you so sensitive to her words but when she’s serious her words truly do sting. it took you a while to collect yourself- reminding yourself that you spoke to Miss Kim, not Bora, when you came home and that she wouldn’t be like this all night. besides, it was just one phone call: what was tonight for if everything was decided in one phone call? it was only Mr Yang, they work together! spirits lifted, you got yourself up to get ready and set off to the shower.

you decided on your standard look: voluminous hair, smokey eye, and a light pink lip to go with your white dress. as you blow dried your hair, focusing on your reflection and not Bora in the other room calling someone else, you heard your phone vibrate. looking down you met the caller ID: Siyeon. she was an old flame of yours- someone you were speaking to before you met Bora. she was of similar social standing as Bora, meaning just as rich and popular, so it wasn’t uncommon that you 3 would be at the same parties, even if she always makes Bora a bit jealous...

usually, you avoid trying to make your sugar mommy jealous. why would you? it’s childish and you’ve always been able to talk out your arguments after some time apart. but, she’d been blatantly ignoring you since you spoke in the wardrobe and you were getting sick and tired of it. if she was going to be so immature why shouldn’t you? so, you turned the blowdryer off and opened iMessages. 

Siyeon: you going to Boras party tonight? 

you: yea, you?

Siyeon: I’ll be there baby. you wanna dance or be Boras shadow?

that was one problem with talking to Siyeon- one reason you understood Siyeon jealousy. she was convinced she could treat you better. she doesn’t understand that you love how your relationship with Bora is. in public, you are her token, her shadow as Siyeon put it, but you liked it. you liked the simplicity of it. you’re her support- you stay with her and keep her confident. then, you go home and cuddle, and you go out the next day to shop as a reward and give her what she wants in return: sex, hugs, or even just your company. it isn’t as one toned as most sugar mommy/sugar baby relationships are or as it appears to be. that is one thing Siyeon never understood about the dynamic. the thing you couldn’t agree on. the reason you broke things off with her, even if she is still in your DMs. 

you: I'm not her shadow. not usually, anyway. maybe tonight. she’s a bit mad :(

Siyeon: never with me

baited like a goldfish. you’ve always been able to read Siyeon like a book. you knew she wouldn’t be able to resist a possible chase, like many men and women before her.

you: I’ll see you there.

Bora called from the door, “the cars here!” you heard it shut behind her. usually she would hold it open for you. she was still mad. you were stunned.

you took your time making your way to the car, leaving her shoes under the ottoman.

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the car was silent. you could hear a breath if breathing wasn’t so difficult. the air was too tense for it. you felt like you’d shatter under it at any moment, you felt suffocated. a quick, daring glance towards Bora showed that she was staring out the window, streetlights glittering in her eyes like stars. even when she was cold she was beautiful to you- you couldn’t argue it no matter how angry you became. she was wearing a classic, black satin dress. formal in the sense that it was down to her knees and the neckline wasn’t too risqué but undercut by the long leg slit, just a little too close to her panties, and a sensual back cut. Bora always demands the eyes of the room to go to her- even those that are critical of her. 

then, shattering the silence like a sledgehammer, Siyeon messaged. you opened it immediately despite Boras piercing glare on your fingers. you know that, despite how much she adores you, she has a lot of voices in her ears talking about how unreliable and money-hungry sugar babies are; how you’ll leave her as soon as more money is handed to you. you would never do that and she knows as much but moments like this are when it begins to eat away at her. Siyeons name on the screen and the reminder of your history didn’t help that. 

“who is that?” her voice is unfeeling as it rings through the car- the question cold despite her knowing the answer. you keep your voice as nonchalant as you can as you respond, “Siyeon. she wanted to know if I was gonna be with you tonight-” her scoff said everything you needed to hear. you began to doubt yourself but your own selfish, bratty needs spoke over it. she still hasn’t asked about your day, commented on anything about your appearance, offered any apology for her rash behaviour. you don’t want to embarrass her but Siyeon is your friend, at the end of the day. her feelings cannot control your behaviour. 

the car remained silent as you drove up to the entryway of the dance hall. you were in complete awe. the building was preserved- it’s original features were still intact: shimmering stained glass windows, ornate wooden doors, a creeping staircase covered with a red carpet and lined with twinkling fairy lights. despite your previously grumpy mood and Siyeons you arrived yet? text nagging at your thoughts you couldn’t hide your wonder. your driver opened your door as you stepped out to the flashing lights of the paparazzi. you stepped out together- not reaching for each other like usual but you walked together, smiling and waving politely. to be honest, you couldn’t hide a grin at this beautiful building no matter how frustrated you were with her.

as soon as your feet cross the threshold you separated. Bora saw her business affiliates and didn’t even consider saying goodbye before leaving you. you were stranded at the entrance- pretending to admire the admittedly beautiful interior until you saw Bora. she approached the table and was greeted politely by her fellow business people, warm smiles spread across all their faces. she smiled too.. unlike with you. maybe you were too different: she was driven, you weren’t; she was social and capable of debate but you flounder. it shows the most at these dinners. the decoration was decadent like your tastes but you’ve never felt as lost as you do here. 

“trouble in paradise, huh?” Siyeon startled you out of your thoughts. you should’ve heard her heels- she was infamous for her standard, 5 inch white pumps. you looked over at her: the heels you expected paired with a slightly glittering red dress. no matter what the meeting she never dressed formal. Siyeon was always bold, Bora turned it down when she felt like she should. it was one thing you’ve always had in common with Siyeon: you’ve never been able to turn your boisterous nature down. 

the laugh you let out is bitter as she guided you to the drinks, arm around you, “tell me about it, Siyeon. she can’t even look at me. I know she’s stressed but.. her cold shoulder has never been this harsh.” you grabbed a drink at random, something in a champagne flute, and downed it like a shot. Siyeon handed you something darker and undoubtedly stronger as she gave the waiter a gesture, probably presuming you wouldn’t see. her look screamed of compassion and pity as she gave you a small smile, “Bora may be a big softy to you but she is a business-women. you’re seeing boardroom Bora, not your girlfriend or whatever she is. she’ll be back to herself brighter than ever! trust me, I've seen it plenty of times. I'm a business-women too, believe it or not.”

you couldn’t help but giggle as you walked towards your typical table: not too far from Bora but far enough that you couldn’t feel any glares. you tended to sit more with the affiliates than the CEOs at these parties- people more like you. you’re here to have fun, not to network, “I know you’re a business-women, Siyeon. you’re just more fun than most. that goddamn Mr Yang is such a buzzkill.” you laughed together over your drinks- even if you’re sure that she doesn’t know Mr Yang- as your conversation flowed like usual. whenever you spoke to Siyeon it always felt like old friends meeting again. soon, your argument felt like old news.  

you sat with Siyeon for a long time, drinking more together than you responsibly should’ve. you became louder along with the rest of the affiliates that Siyeon invited over: Jackson, Minji, and Ryujin. they joined into the conversation so naturally you could’ve sworn they’d been there the whole time. miraculously you found yourself having fun- way more than you were expecting from the morning you had had. time flew by and soon the tables are being moved. music swelled through the halls as the acoustics of the architecture really began to shine- if you hadn’t helped make the playlist you could've sworn they had began to play live when you weren’t looking. Jackson rushed you up to the floor before you could argue.  

you had a decent view of Boras table on the dance floor. it allowed you to see the conversation grow increasingly tense. usually you’d presume it’s probably down to you and walk over, much more sober than who you were talking to, beginning to hold decent conversation with her table. in that moment, though. you just didn’t care. you danced like you weren’t wearing high heels, moved closer than Bora usually liked to Siyeon as you got lost in the music. you drank more as the stronger drinks were handed out and more people joined the dance floor. Boras table never budged.

Bora watched you from her peripherals, getting more and more frustrated as the alcohol reduced your shame to ashes. the party that was once sophisticated was hardly above a nightclub by now- a standard of her parties. you felt Siyeons hands gently graze over your hips to pull you closer to her, her shame at the same level as yours. you moved with her, swaying your hips from side to side along with hers. Mr Yang saw, forever hypercritical of you, and lent over to Bora, “should she be doing that? isn’t she yours?” as inflammatory as ever.

she finally gathered the strength to look at you fully and her expression fell. anger bubbled up in her stomach, her fists balling under the cover of the table- all of her composure gone in a second. the table fell silent as she roughly pushed her chair out but she gave it no mind. she couldn’t. she was lost to her anger. even as she heard the table whisper amongst themselves: “what was she expecting?”, “she’s a sugarbaby. they know no loyalty.”, “shameless.” all statements she’d defended you from again and again suddenly felt like a snap back to reality. she never should have left you with Siyeon even if she was angry at you. especially if she was angry with you. she should know better from business women- she is one. you heard her heels click behind you but, spitefully, you didn’t move away or acknowledge her- much like she had to you before.

“y/n? can we speak? alone?” she spoke coldly as her hand removed Siyeons from your waist. you refused to look at her but you left anyway, despite your friends protests. she led you through the crowd of dancers to a spot far away from prying eyes. as you walked further away from the crowd and your friends you allowed your sadness get the better of you. you hated when you both got angry at each other- especially when she shut down into anger- and you’d pushed that away in favour of spite. when Bora looked back at you and saw this she couldn’t help but let her anger melt away. 

“what’s wrong?” her voice was soft as she reached out to you, gently taking hold of your arms. you let your words spill as you spoke about the day: how heartbroken you were when you came home and she didn’t acknowledge you, how you wanted to give her the gift you got her but she wouldn’t give you the opportunity. with a soft touch she pulled you to her, scolding herself mentally for what she unknowingly had done to you. she let you speak until you couldn’t hold back your tears any longer. your intense crying broke her to the point that she let out a couple tears of her own but she chose to pull you closer instead of acknowledging them. you both stayed this way for a while: holding each other as you both cried in a staff corridor.

it took some time but once your sobbing subsided Bora began to ramble, “baby I’m sorry, I’m so, so sorry. you have no idea. I was so focused on this deal that I didn’t think- I didn’t think about what really matters..” you pulled away to look at her in a rare, distressed state. you couldn’t help but soften up at the sight, “you. now you’re here, I’m here, we’re okay. it’s okay. it’s okay- I promise.” she began to wipe away your tears and smudged mascara, still holding your waist with her free hand.

thanks to Boras soothing gestures you soon managed to calm yourself down. grinning, you stood back from her, to her short-lived dismay, as you spun to finally show off your new dress. “do you like it? I didn’t get to hear your opinion earlier.” Bora couldn’t help but give you a small kiss before she commented, a bright grin finally formed on her face, “I love it, baby. how about we go home so I can show you just how much I do?” you couldn’t help but smile as the women you fell in love with- the childish millionaire with irresistible charms- returned. 

you left the party hand in hand, smiling at each other as you realised nobody at this party could ever shake what you two shared. you may be a sugar baby to most but to her you’re her princess, her other half, her everything and more. 

[aloy97]

How do you immagine lance in the new season?

SUB ENG:

Trusting but not even much, in the character coherence of the characters(beemoov’s writing mostly), I imagine a person very reserved, tormented by the past, frank but with a strong desire for improvement and personal growth..

character: I certainly don’t expect a sweet guy but not even calm like his brother, as Lance  likes,  for his frankness, arrogance and desire to tease as ezarel.. Basically therefore I think that exaggerating may have given a calm with regard to racial extermination but basically I imagine it still a very cool guy, detached, with a disproportionate pride , sense of protection without borders and dedicated to war.. I hope they don’t ruin Lance, even if I don’t care and I’ll play with him anyway...

In love I imagine him , compared to his brother, who was a false shy but very enterprising in bed, shy, that shyness that leads you to play dumb and respond badly at the same time ... In the real passionate act yes but not with the intent to hurt you... I think Valkyon’s death has speared a lot to show that sweetness he hides, for fear of being judged.. So not a passion similar to that of nevra, which has always been a mixture of being wild and blatant in statements but that passion very apt to drive you crazy, which focuses on the pleasure not so much of himself but of the woman...

Or, second version: I imagine a lot of command and that provokes a lot erika, telling her that maybe he is not able to do a certain thing and then teases her... In summary, if in the SE1 he was bossing around, even in bed he likes to behave like this ...

relational level also here I have two theories about

- Considering the successes, I would certainly think, very secretive, not one that, say, kisses you in front of everyone or praises the sexual performance of the night before.. Compared to nevra to say " I love you" or "I am in love with you" he  thinks maybe 400 times, before to say  them.He  prefer the facts , instead the  words, those for him are not very honorable.I do not consider it extremely affectionate or stifling, gives you the right attention in private, He prefers more cuddling in bed, with the fire crackling and a good book... He walks alone, as well as isolated workouts and intimate chatter without anyone being around.. Trust for him is sacred, in fact he would never forgive erika, in case of betrayal but at the same time not even one who easily outputs what he feels or if he is jealous.

-second version: basically the opposite I said .. I imagine a very annoying, always ready joke, has fun just to annoy the guardian... Jealousy has no problem showing it, very protective but nevertheless it is not one that tells you clearly what it feels.. He goes to the facts and in private as an outlet to all his passionate side.

For now this is what I guess, I can’t tell you if it will be so, I could get it right, as beautifully  instead not to get it at all.we’ll see.Regardless of what it will be, I’ll play the same SUB ITA:

Confidando ma nemmeno più di tanto, nella coerenza caratteriale dei personaggi, mi immagino una persona molto sulle sue, tormentata dal passato, schietta ma con un forte desiderio di miglioramento e accrescimento personale.. carattere: Non mi aspetto di certo un ragazzo dolce ma nemmeno calmo come suo fratello, poichè Lance se piace, piace proprio per la sua schiettezza, arroganza e voglia di prendere in giro come ezarel..DI fondo perciò penso che  esagerando potrebbe essersi dato una calmata per quanto riguarda gli stermini razziali ma di fondo lo immagino comunque un ragazzo molto freddo, distaccato, con un orgoglio smisurato , senso di protezione   senza confini e dedito alla guerra..Spero perciò non rovinino lance, anche se me ne fregherei e ci giocherei comunque... In amore lo immagino , rispetto  a suo fratello , il quale era un falso timido ma molto intraprendente a  letto, timido, quella timidezza che ti porta a fare il finto tonto e rispondere male al tempo stesso ...Nell’atto vero e proprio passionale sì ma non con l’intento di  ferirti...Penso che la morte di valkyon abbia spornato lance parecchio a  mostrare quella dolcezza che nasconde , per paura di essere giudicato..Quindi non  una passione simile a quella di nevra, la quale è sempre stata un misto tra l’essere selvaggi  e plateali nelle dichiarazioni ma  quella passione molto atta a far impazzire, che si sofferma molto sul piacere non tanto di se stesso ma della donna... Oppure, seconda  versione: lo immagino uno parecchio da comando e che provoca moltissimo erika, dicendole che magari non è in grado di fare una determinata cosa  e quindi la stuzzica...In sintesi se nella SE1 comandava  a bacchetta, anche a letto gli piace comportarsi così ... a livello relazionale anche qui  ho due teorie a riguardo - considerando i fatti successi, di sicuro mi verrebbe naturale pensare, sia molto riservato , non uno che , per dire, ti  bacia davanti a tutti o  decanta la performance sessuale della sera prima..Rispetto a nevra per dirti “ ti amo” o “ti voglio bene” ci pensa magari 400 volte, preferisce diciamo i fatti alle parole, quelle per lui non sono molto onorevoli.Non lo reputo estremamente affettuoso o soffocante, ti da le giuste attenzioni in privato, preferisce più le coccole a letto, con il fuoco che scoppietta  e un buon libro...Le passeggiata da soli, così come gli allenamenti isolati e le chiacchiere intime senza che nessuno sia nei paraggi..La fiducia per lui è sacra , difatti non perdonerebbe mai erika, in caso  di tradimento ma al tempo stesso nemmeno uno che esterna facilmente ciò che prova o se è geloso. -seconda  versione: in pratica l’opposto che ho detto ..Me lo immagino uno molto rompi scatole, battuta sempre pronta, si diverte proprio  a infastidire la guardiana...La gelosia  non ha problemi a mostrarla, molto protettivo ma tuttavia non è uno che ti dice chiaramente ciò che prova..Passa  ai fatti e nel privato da sfogo a tutto il suo lato passionale. Per ora questo è  quello che Ipotizzo, Non so dirti se  sarà così, potrei azzeccarci, come bellamente invece non azzeccarci per nulla.Vedremo.Indipendentemente da come sarà, giocherò lo stesso

[soonhoonsol]

TRUE BEAUTY KDRAMA SPOILERS

ep 10 of true beauty hit different when you went through exactly what suho and jugyeong did. like the boyfriend being jealous of a guy friend when they’re basically doing the same thing but you don’t mind at all. so i’m honestly even more on seojun’s team after what happened in this episode. like yes, seojun has feelings for jugyeong but he clearly won’t go after her after hearing that you two are dating. plus, you should be able to trust jugyeong enough that nothing will happen between her and seojun. and what if jugyeong’s jealous of suho and soojin’s friendship too? like suho, you didn’t even tell her that soojin came over when you said you wanted jugyeong to tell you where she goes and stuff.

what i’m really trying to say is why does suho get jealous of seojun and jugyeong’s relationship when the same thing is happening to him and soojin.

idk i think the thing that really hurt me in this episode was suho telling jugyeong not to hang out with seojun because he doesn’t like it. like i’ve been in jugyeong’s shoes before and i completely hated how he treated me. so if jugyeong does end up dropping seojun, then uh uh. i’m rioting!! 😤

ah i hope this doesn’t come off super like anti-suho! don’t get me wrong. i love suho and all he’s done for jugyeong. but he seemed really possessive and controlling this episode. idk... well anyways stan the sooah and taehoon relationship 😙😌 - seojun anon❣️

(i did not realize how long this got)

oh and during the seojun and jugyeong photoshoot scene... I WAS NOT OKAY OH MY GOSH! I WAS FREAKING SQUEALING THE WHOLE TIME 😂😂 -seojun anon❣️

aww anon I'm sorry you had to go through that jealous boyfriend behavior :'( and yeah I agree with you that Suho seemed a taddd bit controlling this episode. I'm just giving him the benefit of the doubt since he's never done this before... maybe he's still learning? Idk

I have a pretty long rant so I'm sorry for all you have to read. This might get analytical...

Firstly, thank you for teaching me how to do this 'read more' thing you are a lifesaver ❣️

Secondly, I loved Ep 9 because Suho and Jugyeong seemed really excited to be in a relationship and honestly, it was quite wholesome to watch. Ep 10 just felt like a switch got flipped and everything just sorta spiralled out of control and it's just... So much to unpack

Suho's always been possessive. We can see that when he tracked down that bully to make him apologize. And when that baseball player asked Jugyeong out and he got all jealous... I honestly thought that was fine, you know? Your crush got asked out, why wouldn't you be jealous? It just seemed so... human.

And tbh I get where he's coming from with the "why are you fine when people think you're dating Seojun" but I don't think it excuses his behavior. I've never been in a relationship before so I might be wrong but I don't think the couple gets to decide who their partner is friends with or not. So yeah, I wanna slap Suho for this. But for everything else he's done for Jugyeong, maybe he gets a pass.

but another point you brought up about him not telling her about Soojin!! YEAH! WHAT GIVES? why is he berating Jugyeong for hanging out with Seojun (even though they're not hanging out they're just working together) when he won't even tell her Soojin was at his house?? 😭😭😭 Suho whyyy

but speaking of Soojin... I wish to slap her. the scheming, evil webtoon Soojin is coming out and I don't like it. purposely telling Jugyeong "oh I like Suho" when she KNOWS they're dating...like girl...why? why would you mentally torture your "best friend" so that you can get the guy you like?? What kind of best friend is that?? 😡

am I not understanding this romance thing properly like does this kind of blackmail happen irl?

and the #SeojunProtectionSquad has to be started asap... the boy has suffered too much and YET is still the sweetest dude ever... if Jugyeong drops him I will join you in the rioting 💪🏼

ah well I'm so sorry for this long ass rant but I have so many feelings right now...so many i-wanna-protect-but-also-slap-suho and seojun-deserves-better feelings... sua x taehoon best couple 10/10 😏

Let's not end things on a negative note. I was laughing so hard when Suho and Seojun fought and Jugyeong's mum made them do that toenail therapy thing it was hilarious 😂😂😂

[girlgrouptrash101]

Dreamcatcher Reaction to Their S/O Being an ‘00 Liner

Request: “Hi! Can u do a dreamcatcher reaction to her gf being an 00liner, looking more young but it's also so mature?? so at the first time they didnt think she had was that age”

A/N: god damn am i tired

- C

Jiu:

Jiu is someone who often takes care of people anyway, and the fact that you were a bit younger than her only amplified this side of her. She would make sure that you were taking care of yourself properly and treating yourself well, and she’d always put your needs in front of her own. Jiu would always remind her how the age difference didn’t change anything between you, and that she loved you for you, and that was that.

Sua:

I don’t think that the age difference would be a huge deal for Sua, she wouldn’t really mind it at all. She would only really notice it when you were still getting stressed over schoolwork or other little things that you learn to deal with properly as you mature. During times like these Sua would always be a shoulder to lean on, and she’d help you out with whatever you needed. As long as Sua knew you were alright, then she would be too.

Siyeon:

Siyeon had no idea of your age when she first met you, and she didn’t expect it either. When she found out, she thought it was the cutest thing in the world, and she fawned over you every waking second that you were together. No matter your personality, she would call you her little teddy bear and kiss and cuddle you whenever she could. She thought you were the cutest thing in the world, and she told everyone she met about how much she loved you.

Handong:

Though Handong was a little surprised when you told her how old you were, she wouldn’t really mind too much. She wouldn’t talk about the age difference too much, but she acted upon it more often than anything. By that I mean she would be protective of you, always making you her first priority, whether her actions were subtly or not. DongDong really loved you and she wanted you to feel that love - no matter the age difference - even if she was a bit shy to tell you.

Yoohyeon:

There isn’t much of an age difference, but it is still there. Yoohyeon however, probably wouldn’t even notice and would have so much fun with you no matter what age you were. She would love finding out about the things you love, trying a lot of new stuff with you. She would love the nights where you stayed up playing video games, laughing at funny jokes and just feeling like little kids again. Yoohyeon loved how you could make her feel so happy, but still act mature when you needed to.

Dami:

Dami would be pretty laid back about the whole thing. It would only really come up in conversation if someone said something about it, and if they did, she would defend your relationship to no end. Dami would also get a little jealous when she saw you hanging around with people your age and doing whatever you wanted. Sometimes she felt like she was holding you back with her schedules, but you always reminded her of how much you loved her, and how none of that was true.

Gahyeon:

There is only a year in age difference, so Gahyeon just treated it like a normal relationship. Gahyeon would always make sure you guys were having lots of fun and taking care of yourself. Gahyeon would always help you with any homework you needed help with because she is so smart and always knows the answer. Gahyeon would also be super duper cuddly with you, her lips always managing to find yours no matter where you were.

[ourotakuparadise]

Relationship headcanon with Aphrodite, Luffy, Rosalia, Sanji & Zoro

I’m glad there are people interested in my OCs!😭💜

OCs quoted: Aphrodite Passionrouge & Dracule Rosalia 

……..♦……..

Afrodite

Estar em um relacionamento com ela é uma benção (assim como milagre);

Ela seria o tipo de amante estoica, séria e aparentemente distante;

Algumas vezes parece que ela não se importa com você…

Se enganou completamente;

Embora ela não demostre abertamente seu afeto ela sabe ser carinhosa mesmo que não demonstre;

Algumas vezes ela deixa pequenos bilhetes citando o que ela mais ama em você e ainda com justificativas;

Se por acaso você conseguir ver um dos raros momentos em que ela sorri…

Considere-se no paraíso;

Sobre coisas que vocês podem fazer juntos não espere extravagâncias;

Ela prefere coisas simples, mas que tenha um significado especial para ambos;

Embora não pareça ela pode ser ciumenta facilmente;

Afrodite nunca demonstraria porque é muito orgulhosa e não quer causar uma cena;

Você precisa de um olhar afiado para perceber e quando você a confronta sobre ela estar com ciúmes ela nega até a morte o que é terrivelmente adorável;

Enfim, tenha um pouco de paciência com ela.

Luffy

Esse menino totalmente alheio a romance e todo esse tipo de coisas;

Noção nível zero nesse quesito;

Todos os “encontros” são programados por você embora no fim acabe se tornando uma festa com toda tripulação;

Como ele descobriu que você seria algo muito mais especial (não apenas um outro nakama) é um mistério;

Espere que ele te leve para muitas (encrencas) aventuras;

Se acostume com ele envolvendo seus membros de borracha ao redor de todo seu corpo;

Sempre carregue um capacete para se proteger quando ele te arremessa durante uma fuga quando vocês estão encrencados;

Treine seus sentidos ou ficará sem comida nas refeições;

Ele não é ciumento (acho que ele pensa que ciúmes é comida), mas sabe quando precisa te proteger;

Claramente você consegue até ouvir a voz dele gritando em sua mente ao imaginar se alguém tenta te ferir e ele já prepara algum de seus “Gomu Gomu no…” ataques.

Rosalia

Você encontrou um anjo;

Rosalia é simplesmente adorável!

Extremamente atenciosa, carinhosa e romântica!

Totalmente em PDA;

Ao mesmo tempo ela fica com ciúmes facilmente;

Pode ser fofo quando ela faz beicinho quando está com ciúmes, mas por favor não faça isso intencionalmente pois isso a machuca muito (e você vai ter que enfrentar um sermão de irmãos e um pai furiosos);

Gosta de poder aproveitar o máximo de tempo que vocês podem ter juntos (afinal já esqueceu sobre toda tripulação de Barba Branca?);

Sempre que estão em uma ilha ela quer aproveitar algum tempo apenas entre você e ela;

Em alto mar ela ama os momentos de afago;

Se você gosta de ler sinta-se honrado em compartilhar os momentos de leitura com ela!

Fora que você é privilegiado em poder ler os manuscritos dos livros de autoria dela!

Se estar em um relacionamento com um anjo como ela, considere-se no paraíso.

Sanji

Outro anjo aqui…

Carinhoso, atencioso e seu guardião pessoal;

Puxando cadeiras para você se sentar, abrindo a porta para você;

Sinceramente esse homem é um perfeito cavalheiro e um guerreiro que irá lhe servir e proteger;

Teve um dia ruim e precisa de carinho e conforto? Ele está lá ao seu lado em segundos.

Precisa de ajuda para carregar seus pertences? Ele carregará o mundo para você!

Está estressado? As mãos dele são habilidosas além de cozinhar e ele lhe oferecerá uma massagem;

Está com fome? Ele desempenhará seu papel na tripulação e fará algo especial para você!

Ele está aqui para te amar e proteger;

Ao mesmo tempo é bastante ciumento e super protetor;

Se algo te ameaçar espere que suas pernas estejam mais quentes que o habitual antes de atingir seu agressor que será carbonizado além de ossos quebrados;

Você precisa apenas se acostumar e aproveitar estar em um relacionamento com ele.

Zoro

Zoro ficaria desconfortável no começo já que ele antes apenas se focava no seu treinamento e nada além;

Mas então você apareceu;

Esqueça o PDA;

Ele é ligeiramente um tsundere pois não sabe lidar com esse tipo de sentimento;

Levaria um tempo considerável para que se sinta confortável;

Ele prefere manter os momentos de afeto em privado;

Zoro também gosta de poder sentir seu calor contra ele pois isso o acalma;

Sobre romance ele não é dos melhores, mas se esforça;

120% protetor de você;

Embora não seja do ponto de vista 100% romântico ele ainda sim te protegeria;

Quem lhe ferir será feito em pedaços com o estilo santoryuu;

Ele também é um problemático de ciúmes: Ele é e ao mesmo tempo não é ciumento;

Ele não é muito ciumento em relação a outros homens;

Mas se isso envolve o cozinheiro ele se torna muito ciumento e possessivo sempre mantendo um braço ao seu redor;

Algumas vezes se não é o cozinheiro e alguém está te deixando desconfortável ele é uma fera;

Sempre manterá você a menos de um braço de distância para te manter em segurança.

……..♦……..

Aphrodite

Being in a relationship with her is a blessing (as well as a miracle);

She would be the kind of stoic lover, serious and seemingly distant;

Sometimes it seems like she doesn’t care about you …

You was completely mistaken;

Although she does not openly show her affection, she knows how to be affectionate even if she does not show it;

Sometimes she leaves little notes quoting what she loves most about you and with justifications;

If you happen to see one of the rare moments when she smiles …

Consider yourself in paradise;

About things you can do together don’t expect extravagance;

She prefers simple things, but one that has special meaning for both of you;

Though it may not seem she can be jealous easily;

Aphrodite would never show bc she is so proud and doesn’t want to cause a scene;

You need a sharp look to realize and when you confront her about her being jealous she denies to death what is terribly adorable;

Anyway, have a little patience with her.

Luffy

This boy totally oblivious to romance and all that kind of stuff;

Notion level zero in this regard;

All “dates” are programmed by you although in the end it becomes a party with the whole crew;

How he discovered that you would be something much more special (not just another nakama) is a mystery;

Expect it to take you on many (trouble) adventures;

Get used to him by wrapping his rubbery limbs around your entire body;

Always carry a helmet to protect yourself when it throws you during an escape when you are in trouble;

Train your senses or you will be without food at meals;

He’s not jealous (I think he thinks jealousy is food), but he knows when he needs to protect you;

Clearly you can even hear his voice screaming in your mind as you wonder if anyone tries to hurt you and he is already preparing some of his “Gomu Gomu no …” attacks.

Rosalia

You have found an angel;

Rosalia is simply adorable!

Extremely helpful, caring and romantic!

Fully in PDA;

At the same time she gets jealous easily;

It can be cute when she poutes when she’s jealous, but please don’t do it intentionally as it hurts her a lot (and you’ll have to face a sermon from angry brothers and father);

She likes to be able to enjoy as much time as you can have together (have you forgotten about all Whitebeard crew?);

Whenever they are on an island she wants to enjoy some time just between you and her;

At sea she loves the moments of cuddling;

If you enjoy reading feel honored to share the reading moments with her!

Otherwise you are privileged to be able to read the manuscripts of her own books!

If you are in a relationship with an angel like her, consider yourself in paradise.

Sanji

Another angel here …

Affectionate, considerate and your personal guardian;

Pulling chairs for you to sit, opening the door for you;

Honestly this man is a perfect gentleman and a warrior who will serve and protect you;

Have a bad day and need affection and comfort? He is there by your side in seconds.

Need help loading your belongings? He will carry the world for you!

You are stressed? His hands are skilled beyond cooking and he will offer you a massage;

Are you hungry? He will play his part in the crew and do something special for you!

He is here to love and protect you;

At the same time it is quite jealous and overprotective;

If something threatens you, expect your legs to be warmer than usual before hitting your attacker who will be charred beyond broken bones;

You just need to get used to and enjoy being in a relationship with him.

Zoro

Zoro would be uncomfortable at first since he only focused on his training before and nothing more;

But then you appeared;

Forget the PDA;

He is slightly tsundere because he can’t handle this kind of feeling;

It would take considerable time to make you feel comfortable;

He prefers to keep moments of affection private;

Zoro also likes being able to feel her warmth against him as it soothes him;

About romance he is not the best, but strives;

120% protector of you;

Although not 100% romantic, it would still protect you;

Anyone who hurts him will be torn to pieces with the santoryuu style;

He is also a jealous problematic: He is and at the same time not jealous;

He is not very jealous of other men;

But if it involves the cook he becomes very jealous and possessive always keeping an arm around him;

Sometimes if you are not the cook and someone is making you uncomfortable he is a beast;

It will always keep you less than an arm’s length away to keep you safe.

……..♦……..

Afrodita

Estar en una relación con ella es una bendición (y también un milagro);

Sería el tipo de amante estoico, serio y aparentemente distante;

A veces parece que a ella no le importas …

Estaba completamente equivocado;

Aunque no muestra abiertamente su afecto, sabe cómo ser afectuosa incluso si no lo muestra;

A veces deja pequeñas notas citando lo que más ama de ti y con justificaciones;

Si ves uno de los raros momentos en que ella sonríe …

Considérate en el paraíso;

Sobre las cosas que pueden hacer juntos no esperen extravagancia;

Ella prefiere las cosas simples, pero una que tiene un significado especial para ambos;

Aunque parezca que no puede ser celosa fácilmente;

Afrodita nunca mostraría por qué está tan orgullosa y no quiere causar una escena;

Necesitas una mirada aguda para darte cuenta y cuando te enfrentas a ella por estar celosa, ella niega a muerte lo que es terriblemente adorable;

De todos modos, ten un poco de paciencia con ella.

Luffy

Este chico totalmente ajeno al romance y todo ese tipo de cosas;

Noción de nivel cero en este sentido;

Todas las “fechas” son programadas por ti, aunque al final se convierte en una fiesta con toda la tripulación;

Cómo descubrió que serías algo mucho más especial (no solo otra nakama) es un misterio;

Espera que te lleve a muchas (problemas) aventuras;

Acostúmbrate a él envolviendo sus miembros elásticos alrededor de todo su cuerpo;

Siempre lleve un casco para protegerse cuando lo arroje durante un escape cuando esté en problemas;

Entrena tus sentidos o estarás sin comida en las comidas;

No está celoso (creo que piensa que los celos son comida), pero sabe cuándo necesita protegerte;

Claramente, incluso puedes escuchar su voz gritando en su mente mientras se pregunta si alguien intenta lastimarte y ya está preparando algunos de sus ataques “Gomu Gomu no …”.

Rosalía

Has encontrado un ángel;

Rosalía es simplemente adorable!

Extremadamente servicial, atento y romántico!

Completamente en PDA;

Al mismo tiempo ella se pone celosa fácilmente;

Puede ser lindo cuando hace pucheros cuando está celosa, pero por favor no lo hagas intencionalmente ya que le duele mucho (y tendrás que enfrentarte a un sermón de hermanos y padres enojados);

A ella le gusta poder disfrutar todo el tiempo que pueden pasar juntos (¿te has olvidado de todo el equipo de Barba Blanca?);

Cada vez que están en una isla, ella quiere disfrutar algún tiempo entre tú y ella;

En el mar ella ama los momentos de caricias;

¡Si te gusta leer, siéntete honrado de compartir los momentos de lectura con ella!

De lo contrario, ¡tiene el privilegio de poder leer los manuscritos de sus propios libros!

Si estás en una relación con un ángel como ella, considérate en el paraíso.

Sanji

Otro ángel aquí …

Cariñoso, considerado y tu tutor personal;

Tirando de las sillas para que te sientes, abriéndote la puerta;

Honestamente, este hombre es un perfecto caballero y un guerrero que te servirá y protegerá;

¿Tienes un mal día y necesitas afecto y consuelo? Él está allí a tu lado en segundos.

¿Necesitas ayuda para cargar tus pertenencias? ¡Él llevará el mundo por ti!

¿Estás estresado? Sus manos son hábiles más allá de cocinar y te ofrecerá un masaje;

¿Esta con hambre? ¡Él hará su parte en el equipo y hará algo especial para ti!

Él está aquí para amarte y protegerte;

Al mismo tiempo es bastante celoso y sobreprotector;

Si algo te amenaza, espera que tus piernas estén más calientes de lo normal antes de golpear a tu atacante, que estará carbonizado más allá de los huesos rotos;

Solo necesitas acostumbrarte y disfrutar de estar en una relación con él.

Zoro

Zoro se sentiría incómodo al principio ya que solo se enfocó en su entrenamiento antes y nada más;

Pero entonces apareciste;

Olvídate de la PDA;

Es un poco tsundere porque no puede manejar este tipo de sentimiento;

Tomaría un tiempo considerable para que te sientas cómodo;

Prefiere mantener en privado los momentos de afecto;

A Zoro también le gusta poder sentir su calor contra él mientras lo calma;

Sobre el romance no es el mejor, pero se esfuerza;

120% de protector de ti;

Aunque no es 100% romántico, todavía te protegería;

Cualquiera que lo lastime será despedazado con el estilo santoryuu;

También es una problemática celosa: Él es y al mismo tiempo no es celoso;

Él no es muy celoso de otros hombres;

Pero si se trata del cocinero, se vuelve muy celoso y posesivo, siempre manteniendo un brazo alrededor de usted;

A veces, si no eres el cocinero y alguien te incomoda, es una bestia;

Siempre te mantendrá a menos de un brazo de distancia para mantenerte seguro.

[rinsessa]

This is a letter to my first love, because I know she will never read this </3

We were at high school, when I realized I’m in love with you. I did have a crush on you before that, but that’s not the point.

You were that shy, little awkward girl. I was always jealous of your style. You looked so hot and cool and didn’t give a fuck about what other people might think. You had your long, dark hair. There was always something in your eyes, especially when you were looking at me. Your smile was the thing for me, weak spot. I love your smile, I always has. You also had jewelery, mostly rings and bracelets. You were smart. Believe me.

We were best friends. I could always count on you. We had fun together but we also trusted each other a lot. We knew each others secrets and damn we had some good times. Having deep conversations, watching movies, playing games, drinking. Studying together, smoking on our breaks. Drinking coffee, that was our thing lol.

We fell in love at a wrong time. We had our little fairytale but everything got fucked up. But that little fairytale was something to live for, for me. I lived for it for so many years, thinking it will come true eventually if I believe in it. My therapist called me insane. I didn’t care. I was at a very dark place at that time but you gave me a reason to keep fighting. I wanted a future with you.

And guess what? I got it. I’m like in tears right now thinking about it. I was happy, in love and I felt loved. That’s what love is about. That’s what my dream life is. That’s what I waited for so many years. That’s the thing I lived for. Us and our life together.

But I’m not a normal person. I’m sick. I’m bipolar and I felt like you accepted me. But I didn’t know how to get along with my demons and that’s what caused a lot of problems between us.

I was struggling because I hurted you by the way I act, but it was because of my disorder. I didn’t want to hurt you. But for you I was a ghost from the past, not real and not the same person.

I needed my own time and space cus I wanted to learn how to get along with my demons. I wanted to take control of my disorder to be better for you. I wanted to be able to love you even through my bad times of the disorder.

I had to push you away, because I’m weak. If I kept you too close to me, I would have come back to you too soon and then it would happen all over again - happiness - bad time - problems - misery.

I got help for this journey. I found someone I feel comfortable with. He helped me a lot because I could test my disorder and depression on him, kinda. And I helped him to accept himself, but you will understand that later. He’s not ready to tell other people and that’s okay. Anyway…

Little did I know, you already moved on. It really hurt a lot. A fucking lot. That made me realize something I didn’t want to accept.

When we were young, you probably loved me for real. I was your first love and with me you came out to everyone. I get that, I was special at the time.

But last year, all I was for you was a band-aid. Honestly, that’s what I think. It was easy for you to jump into that fairytale with your first love from your teenage years, but it was never real for you.

How can I say that? Because I don’t think you fall in love with someone else that quickly. It’s either you don’t love them for real or you never loved me. And in this case, I’m pretty sure you didn’t love me the way I loved you. You love her. You chose her. It was always about her and never about me. You were supposed to meet her because I was never the one for you. But it’s okay honey. I accept that.

That’s why I had to take some time to myself again. I needed to make my peace with that. I honestly thought I can just come back to your door and ask you to marry me. I wanted to start over with you. I knew it was not gonna be easy, but I thought it will be worth it. I just needed to get along with my disorder so I could be the wife you deserve.

It’s hard to handle all of this, my first love. There is no one that compares to you. I know I will always love you. I wish our story didn’t have to end up like this. Sure it will not! In this life or the next one we will be happily together till the end. Because you and I are meant to be together, even if we won’t be in this life. Somewhere else, at other time, in another universe, we will.

When I die, all I’m gonna see is your face. I know it, I’ve been close to death twice now and it happened twice. Your face was all I saw. But I know why. It’s because I love you. Mä rakastan sua. Oon aina rakastanu ja tulen aina rakastamaan. Sä oot mun ensirakkaus, mun ainoo todellinen rakkaus.

I wish I could keep you close to me. I will just shut my feelings down and make my peace with the fact that you never felt the same way and now you hopefully found your true love. Idk. I don’t want to lose you for good so I wish we could get along, be friends or some shit. We’ll see how it goes

But thank you for everything. I know what love is now and I’ll always remember you and remember us. I will not settle for anything less because I deserve that. I deserve to be as happy as I was. I dance with my demons now and my disorder is no longer a problem, so I deserve the love I felt. I deserve nothing less than you. No one compares. Ever.

I love you.

Forever yours

-E

[astrofireworks]

Across the sea, in a faraway place, you are there No matter how many times I saw you, I missed you Now I can’t see you and I’m sad

ayO i’m back and i apologise in advance

The next time Eunwoo meets Bin Bin is 6 and Eunwoo is 7 and eunwoo's bead is a deep green

Bin: "let's crab-race" 

Eunwoo: "ok wtf is a crab race" because he's literally never heard of that shit in his life 

And so when Binnie crouched down and sets down a crab smaller than his baby palm on the wooden boardwalk, Eunwoo just gapes

What, so he has to race this tiny crab?? 

Find another crab to race this one?? 

Bin, what??????? 

Until the crab decides to cheerfully ignore both Bin and Eunwoo and just runs off the side of the boardwalk to splash back in the ocean 

Eunwoo doesn't stop laughing for the next five minutes at Bin pouting 

But Bin eventually laughs because look at this boy, with his eyes crinkled up and his laugh as bright as sunlight glinting off the waves in diamonds 

And when Eunwoo slots his hand into Bin’s and tugs him off for lunch, Bin lets himself get dragged along, looking at Eunwoo like he hung all the stars in Binnie’s sky

He may be Moon Bin, but he will always be the tides pulled back by Eunwoo, crashing back and back again on the shore

The next time Eunwoo meets Bin, Bin is 7 and Eunwoo is 8 and Eunwoo's bead is a pale moonlight purple 

Bin's mum pressing kisses to both their heads as she drops bowls of ramyeon onto the table 

Bin hungrily digging in and talking with a mouthful of noodle at Eunwoo

Bin's mum asking what they did today as she chops SuA's noodles up 

Bin turning to his mum and telling his mum about how they went to the CD store today through a mouthful of dumpling 

Eunwoo laughing and swatting Bin's hand because don't talk with your mouth full, silly, everything's going to spray everywhere

Bin flushing and swallowing before continuing 

Bin's mum proudly ruffling Eunwoo's hair and telling him that he'd be a great dad 

Bin indignantly saying that he'd be a great dad too

SuA snorting and poking Bin and telling him that if he thinks he'd be that great a dad, raise a child with Eunwoo and see what happens 

Eunwoo opening his mouth to say that he doesn't think it's biologically possible but Bin beats him to it 

Bin, looking over at Eunwoo: "yeah okay sure watch us with our kid in like thirty years then" 

Eunwoo looking half-exasperated but mostly fondly at Bin

Eunwoo thinks about this sometimes and can't control his laughter

The next time Eunwoo meets Bin Bin is 8 and Eunwoo is 9 and Eunwoo's bead is a sky blue 

Eunwoo and Bin tossing around a soccer ball 

Eunwoo's in his school soccer club and he's convinced it's the best sport ever invented 

Bin trying to learn all the rules from Eunwoo's mile-a-minute talking 

Eunwoo and Bin running up and down the road outside Bin's mum's shop with the soccer ball, laughing and screaming 

Eunwoo sending a fast ball over to Bin and Bin stretching, stretching, stretching because he knows he can reach it in time, he can 

Bin toppling over and scraping both his knees 

And wow it really, really hurts 

Tears welling up in Bin's eyes 

Eunwoo running over and crashing next to Bin and checking his knees and his fingers coming away bloody 

And Eunwoo looks up, prepared to comfort Bin and to wipe his tears away the same way his dad wiped his away when he fell for the first time too 

But he only sees tears shining in Bin's eyes and Bin biting his lip 

Bin just staring at Eunwoo with an almost fierce expression because he isn't going to cry in front of Eunwoo, he can't, he won't 

Because if he cries and Eunwoo finds him too childish and whisks back off to the city and never appears again, where will he be? 

Where will he be without his Eunwoo? 

But his thoughts disappear when Eunwoo hauls Bin up and into his mum's shop and talks him through the pain of his mum bandaging the wounds

And as he grips Eunwoo's hand and grits his teeth, a few tears slip out from the pain and Bin nearly starts bawling then and there 

But Eunwoo's there, hands soft and gentle and murmuring in a voice moonlight-clear 

And when Eunwoo bends down to press a kiss to the bandage, Bin thinks that maybe it's alright to fall down and cry sometimes, as long as Eunwoo's there at the end of it, holding his hand and ready to kiss him better

The next time Eunwoo meets Bin Bin is 9 and Eunwoo is 10 and Eunwoo's bead is the colour of deep sea 

Eunwoo pressing polaroids of his room and the tree on the road outside his building and of other random places into Binnie's hands

Bin: ? 

Eunwoo, voice muffled from where he's hiding his face in a pillow: "pdtyiuohsjs thsasasdfys rasdasmshdjshs yogifasmdnasduf" 

Bin: ??????? 

Eunwoo, turning his head to the right: "went out one day with a Polaroid and took pictures of places in the city that reminded me of you" 

Bin blinking 

Bin looking once more at the photos 

An ice cream shop with fake sand and seashells in the window 

Eunwoo's window, backlit so that only a small shadow in the vague shape of a vial shows up 

Eunwoo's room again, this time in the opposite direction showing rainbows lazily fanned out along the floor and his wall and Eunwoo's finger slightly in frame 

A barbecued meat skewer food truck

A tree with a small crescent moon carved into the trunk 

Bin keeps these small snapshots of Eunwoo's life tacked onto his wall, so that when he misses Eunwoo all he has to do is touch his fingertips to a photo and pretend he's right there with him 

The next time Eunwoo meets Bin Bin is 10 and Eunwoo is 11 and Eunwoo's bead is stop-sign red 

Bin and Eunwoo having a sleepover 

Bin talking nonstop about the friends he met at school and the things he does in dance class 

Eunwoo nodding along and listening intently 

Eunwoo burrowing his feet deep into their shared blanket and his cold feet touching Bin's warm leg

Bin shrieking and squirming 

Eunwoo laughing and sticking his cold fingers under Bin's shirt and tickling him 

Bin's mum cracking open the door and warning them not to wake SuA up 

Binu mumbling apologies in between giggles 

Binu settling back into bed, Eunwoo curled up with his pillow and lying down and facing Bin’s animated face as he recounts yet another story

Bin continuing his story about Hwiyoung and another girl in his class and how she left him a confession note in his textbook but he didn't notice and the teacher opened Hwiyoung's book and found it and-

Eunwoo trying to suppress his giggles and failing because poor girl!!! 

Also poor Hwiyoung !!!!!

Bin giggling and asking Eunwoo if he's ever gotten confession notes 

Eunwoo, thinking about the six or so pink letters pushed to the back of his locker and to the back of his mind: "None that matter" 

Bin, humming: "yeah, me too" 

A small, angry heaviness in Eunwoo's chest remarking that yeah, Bin better not 

Bin, stretching and snuggling closer to Eunwoo's warmth: "anyways who needs girls when you can have a best friend like me?" 

Eunwoo laughing a little and agreeing 

The small, angry heaviness in Eunwoo's chest: alright, but how long before he changes his mind? 

How long until you just become his holiday friend, to be thrown away at the end of each break? 

How long before you become just another person he knows and how long before he's forced to spend time with you out of social obligation so as to not appear rude? 

How long before he doesn't want you around anymore and you don't notice?

And right when Bin is about to doze off, Eunwoo whispers, "Do you think..." 

Bin struggling to keep awake and rubbing his eyes 

Bin: ? 

Eunwoo, whispering: "Do you ever wonder if we'll ever not be best friends?" 

Bin cracking open an eye and peering at Eunwoo's small, concerned worried face

Bin sliding his hand over Eunwoo’s

Bin: "nah" 

Eunwoo watching Bin relax into sleep as the small heaviness pings around his chest until he too, succumbs to sleep 

Bin is 11 and Eunwoo is 12 and Eunwoo doesn't have a bead

Because for the very first time, Bin isn't there to pick out a bead for him 

Eunwoo springing out of the car and pushing open the doors of Bin's family shop and searching around for his best friend 

Only for Bin's mum to wince and tell Eunwoo that "Bin's gone on holiday with a couple of his best friends to a neighbouring town" 

Eunwoo dumbly nodding back ("best friends") and waving to SuA and then staring into an unpolished mirror blankly until his mother is ready to leave the shop 

Eunwoo's mum rubbing Eunwoo's head and pocketing the bead she chose for him 

Eunwoo sitting on the wooden boardwalk and swinging his legs and watching the tips of his flip flops skim the surface of the water 

It feels strange to spend time alone on the boardwalk 

He's always sat here, feet dangling above the water and hands gripping an ice cream cone from the store a little ways away, laughing and talking with Bin 

The small ball of anxiety is back, pinging wildly around Eunwoo's stomach and Eunwoo wants to wrench it out and toss it back into the ocean so, so badly 

It's just a trip with other friends, it's nothing Eunwoo should be jealous over 

It's not as if Eunwoo doesn't have other friends, it's not as if Bin isn't allowed to have other (best) friends too 

And these are Bin’s real friends, not some guy that pops in every year just to spend a month with Bin 

And so for the first time in seven years, Eunwoo spends most of his month-long holiday curled up indoors with a stack of books and watching dramas, waiting for his sun to come back out to shine

Bin is 12 and Eunwoo is 13 and Eunwoo doesn't have a bead

Eunwoo excitedly clambering onto the bus with MJ 

It’s his first time participating in a science fair and he’s really, really hyped!!!! 

He’s spent ages with MJ working on their mini-model of the universe (not so mini when you consider the fact that it’s taller than Eunwoo and is as wide and as long as a 16-year-old MJ is tall and that their version of Earth’s moon is the size of Eunwoo’s fingernail) and they’ve spent the last two months rehearsing their presentation and wearing down Eunwoo’s small, hard ball of social anxiety

Sure, he had to spend a bit of his school holiday working on it and going to the science fair now but it’s worth it!!!!

He wasn’t sure at first if it was really worth his mother being disappointed at him having to miss the trip down to the seaside to visit family but 

It’s okay, Eunwoo tells himself, he isn’t missing much anyway

It’s just a toss-up between Bin playing with his real friends and Eunwoo watching dramas indoors by the sea and Bin playing with his real friends and Eunwoo watching dramas indoors in the city 

Eunwoo swallowing a faint bitter taste, silver chain suddenly cold and heavy around his neck

He’s really excited because he really thinks his project can win a prize!!

The judges strolling around their model and asking Eunwoo and MJ questions 

“how long did it take to build this??”

“did you research each and every planet?”

“wow is this moon a marshmallo- nO PROFESSOR I SWEAR I WASN’T GOING TO EAT IT OW”

MJ isn’t sure that last guy is a judge but 

"so which moon is your favourite?”

Eunwoo about to answer when 

He realises he’s really not thinking of Callisto or Oberon or Europa

He’s thinking of cat eyes and squishy cheeks 

He’s thinking of wide eyes and hide and seek and reaching a finger out to a non-reflection 

He’s thinking of crabs and scraped knees, of polaroids and confession notes, of shops and gardens and boardwalks and 

He’s thinking of a sun, a sun with a smile so bright Eunwoo sees it in the back of his eyelids when he blinks and he’s thinking of the boy who promised friendship 

Eunwoo’s hand creeping up to make sure his bead is still resting against his chest, small moon carved on the back of 12 warm against his heart

But MJ’s spilling an answer out, something about how Titan has a really thick atmosphere of nitrogen, and if you were to strap cardboard wings to your arms, you could flap them and fly-

Eunwoo forcing a smile on his face and nodding along with MJ 

And that day when Eunwoo and MJ board the bus back to their school, golden trophies in hand and MJ talking a mile a minute about the judges’ reactions and other participants’ science projects, Eunwoo nods and smiles and laughs at all the right places 

Eunwoo going home to an empty apartment and setting his trophy down on a shelf and going straight to his window to a small vial half-filled with sand and half-filled with seawater and fully filled with memories of a salt breeze and the snick-snack of flip-flops on a wooden boardwalk and the sticky sweet feel of ice cream melting on his tongue and Bin’s arm pressing against his own 

When Bin was 10 and Eunwoo was 11

Eunwoo kicking the air and watching his ice cream melt slowly in the sun 

Eunwoo asking Bin what would happen if they suddenly stopped talking and stopped being friends 

Bin, snorting and bumping Eunwoo’s shoulder with his own: “We won’t!”

Eunwoo insisting, what if? what if we get separated for some dumb reason?

Bin leaning back and squinting at Eunwoo because wow he’s being weird but 

“Then I’ll swim to you.”