#but still i am mortified!!!!!!!!

[tallymali]

me when i have a panic attack at my friends funeral lol! lmao even!!!!!

[trialsofthedas]

Rook: *sneaking in through their window after a night at the villa*

Viago: *turning in their chair and flicking the light on* You want to tell me where you've been all night?

Rook: I was out with Teia?

Teia: *turning in their chair* Wanna try again?

[nobodybetterlookatme]

Saw asshole earlier today and he sneezed bc it was dusty and my immediate response was "lmao gross" as it always is, but then he fucking goes "some people get off on that, you know" and naturally I was horrified 😭 but he laughed at the face I made probably bc he though I was scandalized, and he doubled down with "yeah some people think sneezing is sexy so you're welcome" LIKE DOES HE KNOW. DOES HE KNOW OR IS HE JUST MAKING FUN OF ME

[fivewholeminutes]

A Series of Small Offerings

PART ONE -8- The Way That You Were

To tear that knife from what once / Would have been dead fingers

I have. Struggled a lot with this one, but I am glad it is done. I've had this idea rotating in my brain for a month and I have tried starting it at least 3 times both traditionally and digitally before I decided to turn it into a cut out, because I feel the most confortable making cut outs, actually.

HUGE, ENORMOUS shotout to @copper-sands / @ancientbygone for being my hand anatomy expert!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Without it this piece would look way worse <3

[sunflowertoonz]

Katana’s gracious fucking chest vs my art style and dignity. Also Prince has more detail than him.

Me struggling on Medkit: Why am I struggling on this guy???

Then I remember.

[koishua]

happy new year everyone buzz cut hyunjin is making me have a writer comeback this ain't normal. back to 2020-21 user vera-liscious stray kids bias hyunjin-jeongin era!!

[uncanny-tranny]

When you grow up, you might feel afraid that you would hate your older self if you met them. It's weird to imagine that you could be so different than who you are now.

I think it's freeing, though, to have grown so much that you would almost be unrecognizable. There are still glimmers of who I was in the mosaic of who I am today, but I have grown and developed in such a way that... I am not just me anymore. I think that's a big aspect of growing. You won't always be this way, and that realization can make it easier to embody everything you want to be because now you aren't chained to the idea that you can only be one way, that you are beholden to everything around you.

[twilight-princess240]

I'm probably going to regret posting this and might delete it at some point, who knows, but I want to get this off my chest. I'll probably regret doing this on a public post on Tumblr later.

Is it weird to miss someone who you've only talked to briefly on here who deactivated their account for a reason or another, and since you don't know if there's any other social media out there they have along with the fact that you still didn't talk to them much, you'll probably never encounter them again?

Because that happened to me. I found an account by chance while perusing Tumblr, and I was interested in what posts were on there despite them being 18+ and NSFW. I honestly liked the content when looking through it and I even sent a message through the ask function admitting as such despite being unusually shy for some reason, maybe because at the time I didn't post anything (until my rant about my girl Alyssa Targaryen not too long ago) and I usually prefer to keep to myself.

I admittedly wasn't sure what the response would be and suddenly I felt like the biggest shrinking violet on the planet at the time. It was probably because it was the first time I had ever sent an ask on anyone's account, not to mention this was probably the first guy I reached out to on my own initiative outside of those I was already comfortable around on Discord. I was so nervous and to a certain extent, scared, because even though I was 22 at the time I never knew I could be so shy. I must have been pretty red in the face from my shyness too.

But he reached out to me about my ask through Tumblr's messages function, and he was honestly really kind. In the first message he sent to me, he thanked me for the kindness in my ask, and I was so surprised that he directly reached out to me that not only did my shyness kick in full force, I admittedly didn't respond to it for a month. When I finally responded, he understood I was shy for reasons I couldn't explain at the time, and surprisingly, despite my shyness still lingering, I felt comfortable around him. He assured me that he didn't feel uncomfortable about the fact that I liked a lot of his posts, which I was feeling really conscious about and had admitted to him. I felt like I could come out of my shell at least a bit, open up a little, at least to the point where I was willing to keep talking to him if we could. There were times where there were bumps in the road, where I wasn't sure if we had gotten off on the wrong foot or something or I was wondering if I was annoying or a load because of a tendency to just run my mouth at times, but overall I honestly enjoyed talking to him and his company even if it was solely through Tumblr's messages function.

However, it wasn't for long. We only talked for a few months, and even then, it was really brief and spread out partially due to different time zones. He was dealing with a lot of hate from anons who knew they could get away with it because they could hide behind screens. It was one of the key reasons if not the key reason why he eventually deactivated his blog, last year actually, and probably hasn't returned. Our final exchange, in October last year, was me wishing him luck since he was deleting his blog and possibly not returning, and he thanked me and wished me the best as well. And we both moved on with our lives.

But here's why I think I'm weird when concerning this topic and for even writing all this. It's because somehow, I miss him and feel a wish to reconnect with him and talk with him again. Aside from us talking very sparsely, I'm not sure if we even really knew each other after our message exchanging. As a result of all that, I feel like I shouldn't miss him. Yet I do, and I feel a strange desire to reconnect with him and talk with him again. I try to quash those feelings because not only will it probably never happen, to an extent I feel like it doesn't feel right to miss him and want to reconnect with him after only exchanging messages with him briefly and it being almost a year since he left.

Oh boy, this was practically an essay. While I do feel a bit better about getting this off my chest, I'm probably going to be cringing at myself for this and considering when to delete it as well. It scares me a bit, the fact that even though I didn't mention the person's name at all, someone might still figure out who I'm talking about and somehow get it to him. Well, it's still up in the air as to whether this is going to be deleted or not, but it all depends on how much I regret posting this and how mortified and conscious I feel at least a bit later over even writing this to begin with.

[slumbz]

if you think abt it doesnt monika from ddlc just. only like us for being real?? doesn't that mean she just doesn't like us for us (and tbh she doesn't really know that much abt us to begin with so i kinda get it?) ?? so then it's like did monika ever really like someone or was it all just infaution? or like feeling an actual genuine connection with someone? i remember her saying smth abt how life felt like it was in black and white and how it was implied how if monika never met us she would.. y'know.. that. yeah.

i should stop getting in so many fucking fandoms sorry guys this will happen again (not really)

[nerdie-faerie]

Just when I think the day's going well, I crash a golf cart

[thylionheart]

Do you know how embarrassingly long it took me to figure out who Dora is in Hades 2

[lerios]

the first 5 seconds of time war 2

narvin voiceover: this is how the world ends 😔

me, leela, the doctor, any non time lord that's ever been to Gallifrey:

[the-amber-raven]

rereading the mortifying ordeal and seeing tommy mentioned like oh isn’t this awkward lmao (honestly who could’ve guessed)

I know right 😭😭

Legit I like basked in the episode and then 10 minutes later was like "....... well shit."

This is what I get for wanting Tommy to come back... I jinxed myself 😅

(Totally worth it though - Buck and Tommy are adorable together and it's not like my story isn't already an AU anyway!)

[fivewholeminutes]

it was supposed to be only in pencil, like the previous eepies, but that paper is terrible for pencils, so i gave up

[squishosaur]

seeing the little "mutuals 👥" thing in my notifs is so scary. like WE ARE?!? since When????

[running-in-the-dark]

seeing my friend tomorrow for the first time since December, so she will ask what's new, and what am I supposed to say to that? 🤔 I mean she already knows the big life stuff (the move and everything), and I haven't done anything else since then... sooo. how do I stop myself from talking about John Larroquette for 30 minutes? 🤔