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Adeptus Neuvillette au, wherein Rex Lapis finds a wild 500 yr old little man in Liyue's waters (700 yrs before the current time) and he drags him back to the mountains where the other adepti take him in, and he and Rex Lapis make a deal that will surely benefit Neuvi except it turns into a situationship and isn't resolved til Rex Lapis kicks the bucket and he gets to meet Zhongli the "mortal" who is actually much happier
Yeah he's only 1200 because I say so
#genshin impact#neuvili#this will become neuvichili#neuvillette#zhongli#i like him aged#but still considered young lol#i wanted him yae miko aged but whatver#adeptus neuvillette au
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now and again i remember the first time i knowingly met another trans person.. i was a preteen at summer camp, and on the first day we were all sitting around and one of the camp counselors said something about how theres x number of boys and girls, and i was like "no, theres (one more) boys" and pointed out each of the boys. i was then told one of the people id picked out was actually a girl, and i was terribly embarrassed but he just laughed and said it was ok. he was presenting in a very masculine way both in style and behavior and i kept "messing up" and gendering him as a boy and then profusely apologizing, and hed just say "its fine, i actually prefer that". eventually one night he told me and a few other kids that he wanted to be a boy and he was gonna get surgery for it one day. then i just kept on gendering him as a boy. he never used the word transgender or really got into the details of it so it didnt really click to me that this was a thing you could do (that i could do?) and it wouldnt really until i later stumbled onto transgender blogs and articles online, but looking back now its a sweet memory. i hope it made that kid really happy that i couldnt help but gender him properly multiple times before he ever actually clarified his identity lol
#97#considered using they/them bc we were young kids and i dont wanna assume he still goes by he/him#but then i thought that i wouldnt use they/them when talking about a cis kid i used to know#even though any of them may be trans now. so nah#i was Notably Bad at gendering people correctly for an embarrassingly long time#like even as an older teen when i myself ided as trans i would often misgender other trans people accidentally#bc none of us passed and i rly struggled with that#(was not yet at the 'anyone of any gender can look like anything' stage)#(wasnt malicious or on purpose i just. had yet to really internalize a lotta shit about appearance)#and ofc i always felt shitty about it whenever that happened though everyone was very courteous about that issue#anyway this is the one time that that problem actually worked out for everyone lol
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This was supposed to be for today's @wolfstarmicrofic prompt: candles, but it's now 1,801 words, so I'm just going to post it as a oneshot and upload it to ao3 instead (because it's absolutely NOT micro lmao)
Just to establish this now: this is a Talk to Me AU
Remus Lupin offers to go first.
"I'll do it."
Sirius hasn't met the bloke in his life, having tagged along with Lily, but he's not complaining. Anyone with the balls to try out the hand is fine in his books.
The hand is already stationed at the small coffee table, Remus walking calmly over to the seat pulled up in front of it and dropping down onto it. Sirius smiles for a moment, rooting through his bag and pulling out one of his white candles. He drops it on his desk and lets Peter light it.
"Candles?" Remus asks disbelievingly, Peter just nodding.
"Light the candle to open the door, blow it out to close it."
"Lift your arms," he says when he sees James behind Remus, belt in hand. Remus obeys quickly, glancing up as James lowers the belt around him and the chair, tightening it around his waist.
"Mm, kinky," Remus mutters under his breath, and Sirius snorts, entertained. Something is telling him this possession is going to be great. James yanks the belt tighter, making Remus flinch. "Fucking hell, mate."
"It has to be tight," James explains, taking a step back. Sirius moves to sit with him. James sits on the sofa, Sirius sitting on the floor in front of him. "Trust me."
"Right, once we've started the clock, it can't run for more than ninety seconds," Sirius calls to the room, the same spiel he says every time.
"Why? What happens after ninety seconds?" Lily, Remus' friend, pipes up. Sirius meets Lily's eyes with what he hopes appears as a menacing smile.
"They'll want to stay." As he explains, he lets his eyes land on Remus', maybe rattle him up a little before he starts. Remus meets his eyes unblinkingly, throwing Sirius a little bit. Nobody has been this... blase before.
"And if you die while they're in you," James interjects at the realisation that Sirius is too busy watching this man, "then they'll have you forever."
The rest of the party start muttering, gossiping. Remus rolls his eyes, and Sirius decides it's time to stop fucking around and just get on with it. Time to freak this bloody kid out, stop him from seeming so mysterious.
"Okay, enough stalling, let's go!" Sirius claps once, commanding the attention of the room. Everyone falls silent as a few people start pulling out their phones to film. "You ready Lupin?" Remus nods. "Alright. Put your hand on it. Like, holding it." Remus complies, reaching out and fitting his hand to the white ceramic mould. For a moment, Sirius observes his hand in the embalmed one, his thumb cutting through some of the scribbled writing.
He's not even shaking.
"Now," he continues quickly. He won't be so relaxed in a second. "Say 'talk to me'." Remus chuckles a little disbelievingly, eyes not breaking contact with Sirius' as he speaks.
"Talk to me." Ignoring the tug in his stomach, he watches as Remus turns his head and he jumps a mile.
Fucking finally.
His hand immediately flies backwards, his whole body rejecting whatever he's just seen. Sirius starts laughing before he can think, enjoying the first time reaction and recalling his own. Honestly? He was shitting himself too, but nobody needs to know that.
"Oh my god," Remus says, voice suddenly shaky and eyes darting everywhere. "Who the fuck- who the fuck was that?" He turns to Sirius, as if expecting an answer. Sirius is a little busy laughing, hitting James' leg once. "Who the hell was that?!" Remus asks again, louder, finally compelling Sirius to answer. He shrugs first.
"No clue, it's different every time." He dissolves into further laughter, dropping his head for a moment, before pushing on. Yeah, Remus is freaked out, but Sirius knows he isn't going to stop there, he can feel it. "You didn't do everything, though. You need to say 'I let you in', otherwise this is all pointless," he says pointedly, forcing himself to swallow his entertainment and get through the end of the prep.
Remus can do it. He knows he can.
"Hold on, wait, I'm-"
"Just do it!" James exclaims. "Do it, do it, do it..."
Fuck yes. Sirius joins into the chant immediately, watching as everyone around him joins in. Well, everyone apart from Lily, who looks like she wants to go and drag Remus from the party. Remus glances at everybody watching him, before turning and looking straight at Sirius. Something in him seems to shift, turning back to the hand, pressing his lips into a thin line and slowly reaching out.
Ah, there's the shaking.
He clasps the hand, taking a deep breath.
"Alright, alright!" He shouts, eyes screwing shut. "Okay, fine. Okay." Sirius starts willing him to do it in his head.
Go on, you've got this.
Talk to me.
"Talk to me." He opens his eyes and immediately glances away. Sirius bites back another laugh, checking to see that he hasn't broken contact with the hand.
If anything, he's just gripping it tighter.
"Go on, say the next part." Sirius inches himself slightly closer, pulling out and unlocking his phone, ready to time it.
"I- I can't look at it!" Remus is still looking away, Sirius praying for him to just say it.
"You don't have to look at it, okay? Just say it. 'I let you in'."
"I- I can't-"
"Say it!" Sirius shouts, watching him carefully. He can do it. He needs to do it.
Come on, Remus.
After taking a deep, stabilising breath, Sirius starting to think that he's going to give up, his eyes focus on a space.
Staring the spirit down.
He's such a fucking badass.
"I let you in."
Remus is immediately thrown backwards, neck flying back until his head is facing the ceiling. He exhales once and James stands, tapping Sirius' shoulder once before he moves forwards.
"Timer?" He asks, before walking over to Remus.
"I've got it," he answers, starting it as Remus' pupils dilate, eyes suddenly an inky black, no white visible.
James clicks twice, drawing the newly possessed Remus Lupin from his haze. They blink, eyes flicking to James and head starting to tilt down. Sirius smiles to himself. His face is flushed, neck covered in red lines.
Okay, strangled.
A laugh bubbles out of Remus' body, Sirius glancing down at the timer.
75 seconds left.
Sirius smiles as he watches the others at the party laughing along with the spirit. The laugh grows more maniacal by the second, until it stops abruptly, Remus' body pulling back as they choke slightly, breath stopping in their throat. He loves these ones, they're always the most interesting.
Remus' head whips straight to Sirius, tilting to the side once.
"Someone's following you," their voice is croaky, fried, and Sirius doesn't flinch.
"Really? They hot?" He asks casually. James snorts, the spirit turning and swinging for him with their free hand. Sirius cackles at that, enjoying watching his brother leap backwards with a swear. "Oh, not your biggest fan, 'ey?"
Remus' body coughs once, the spirit turning their attention elsewhere. God, this one doesn't have the best attention span, does it? He glances quickly at his phone to make sure they're making good time, before enjoying the show. The spirit leans forward and makes a biting action at Hestia, who's eyebrows raise, nervousness leaking onto her face. It doesn't last too long, though, as they make their way to Lily.
"She doesn't like you." Their eyes flick just above Lily's shoulder, behind her, and Lily looks behind her for a moment, concerned. The moment she does, every drawer and cupboard on James and Sirius' cabinet opens and slams shut, the whole cabinet yanked forward.
Holy fucking shit, this is amazing.
Sirius looks back at the phone.
"83 seconds, James, take the hand back!" Sirius calls confidently, as Lily turns back to Remus, her anxiety clear, as the spirit keep drawling about something to do with death.
"Right, come on, you've had enough time here." He reaches out to take the hand. However, the moment he goes to pull it away, Remus' free hand flies out and snatches the embalmed hand back, sending shock rippling through Sirius.
That's never happened before.
It doesn't matter, they still has five seconds. It'll be fine.
James reaches back, grabs the embalmed hand with both of his own and yanks it. The spirit just won't let go, though, their grip somehow overwhelming James'.
"Bollocks. James?!" Sirius hisses, watching the clock run as the spirit starts a chant of its own.
"Run, run, run, run," they keep going, eyes wide and burning into Lily's as the light above them flickers and bursts. Sirius covers his eyes as Peter joins James in trying to free Remus of the hand. Nothing's working, the clock just keeps going.
"James, ninety seconds, fucking get on with it!" Sirius shouts, ignoring the clamouring from everyone else and focusing on Remus. He's still shouting 'run', the lights are off, and it's been 96 fucking seconds.
"I know, okay?! I fucking know!" He groans as he and Peter try to wrestle the hand away.
Fuck it, something needs to be done.
Sirius abandons the phone, ignoring the shards from the light bulb as he surges forward and over to Remus' arm. Without thinking, he shoves his own hand between Remus' palm and the embalmed hand's palm, gripping the fingers of the embalmed hand and wrenching it away from Remus. A scream escapes him as the hand finally falls, tumbling across the carpeted floor. Peter moves quickly, dropping down to the coffee table and blowing out the candle to shut the door.
It might not make a fucking difference though, they've never done this before.
Sirius has fallen in his aggressiveness in pulling the hand away. He runs an anxious hand through his hair and immediately pushing himself up and over to Remus.
Remus has fallen forward, breathing heavily, and Sirius needs to know he's okay.
"Hey, Remus? You alright?" He murmurs gently. One of his hands goes to Remus' lower arm, the other pushing his hair back as he realises that Remus is sweating from the exertion. "We went a bit over. Remus?" Remus glances up, eyes meeting Sirius'.
Okay, he's definitely conscious.
"That was..." he looks away for a moment, Sirius pulling his hand away from Remus' head as he does that, eyebrows knitting together as he tries to figure out what Remus is going to say. "Amazing."
A relieved, overjoyed smile immediately finds its way onto Sirius' face, applauding as he stands.
"Fuck yeah! That was the best one yet!" He calls happily, turning and clapping Remus' shoulder, who's laughing along with him as James takes the belt off.
Remus Lupin.
How the hell had Sirius never heard of Remus Lupin?
#i considered writing a full talk to me au fic#i might still do it#i love this film#but it'll be after the ends of the earth is finished lol#wolfstar#sirius black#wolfstar oneshot#marauders#remus x sirius#remus lupin#moony x padfoot#young marauders#atyd marauders#marauders oneshot
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sam is absolutely the type of queer kid who spent WAY too much time engaging in queer discourse on the internet and therefore has some the worst opinions abt gender/sexuality but is under the false impression that they have all the correct™ takes
#basically anything sam has to say in regards to queerness and/or identity politics esp @ the beginning of highschool#is awful lol (short sighted ignorant and ultimately misguided)#but i get it he's young and trust he definitely will grow out of it and will learn what nuance is and to be more open minded#esp towards other ppl's perspective while he may not personally agree w everything#is still worth listening and/or considering#robi hcs#robi rambles
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Hello! I saw you mentioned in your tags that you read a Sutherland interview in which he discusses Snow's love for Katniss as specifically not sexual, which accords with what else I've heard from him on the subject, but I didn't immediately recognise which interview you were referring to from your description. Do you know which one this was? I'm keen to read it if it's new to me!
hi! so, a few days ago i simply googled "donald sutherland interview snow relationship with katniss", because i was so curious, and it was like, the first i found on page 1. that's the link, and that's a screenshot of this part in particular (but the whole thing is very interesting in itself):
obviously, since snow is a 80+ year old man and katniss is like 17, he probably didn't want to be misunderstood. i see it as an Enemy Mine bordering on some kind of twisted affection, obsession, and fascination for his part. also, this is of course the actor's interpretation and the way he played the character - i doubt it was suzanne collins' intention lmao. though "he recognizes in her everything he could have been" certainly rings differently after tbosas, with the similarities/polar differences between the two protagonists of respectively the main series and the prequel stand-alone novel, and their relationship with peeta and lucy gray.
idk, i find it all very interesting; i am a sucker for villain/hero dynamics, even when they're only platonic (and especially if they involve a female character, because i love my girl blorbos).
#asks#btw i think i've lost at least a follower over this snow/katniss business ejfhhfhf#i need to make clear that i do NOT ship her with his 80 year old crusty ass#(no offense to mr sutherland who still looks dignified and handsome at that age)#but i *would* read a time travel/whatever fic about katniss and the young snow in my pfp#and well if you didn't already figured that i would be into something like that considering my#(quite obvious; it's not like i make a special effort to hide them lol)#fictional tastes.... well what were you doing following me in the first place? shdhsj
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If you have any kind of chest pain you need to see a doctor it is not someone communicating with you omg
swear to god it feels magical like I'm more in tune with something, just can't figure out what that something is. it's like I'm carrying someone else's emotions or words and it isn't coming from me.
#🤖#ask#anonymous#also like the art was just very evocative and reminded me of my rib pain earlier today#+ im gonna see a chiropractor pretty soon dw lol#i say evocative and im really unsure why it was considering how simple it was. and frankly how trite#im young enough that commonly explored concepts in art still hold new meanings for me i guess
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ok so we've established that its likely that kirby is a type of void, just made out of purely positive energy as opposed to rancid vibes. but it's also been hinted throughout the years that meta knight is the same species as kirby, so where does that leave him?
#ramblings#kirby#meta knight#if anyone has an actual explanation they'd like to share i'm all ears. i never hear people talk about mk in the whole void discussion#so far my explanations are that#a) kirby took the form of whatever meta knight may bc.... imprinting. i have no idea. maybe some sort of physical osmosis#b) they're both a type void. meta knight is just not purely positive or negative energy but a secret third thing#c) meta knight is an older type of void and kirby is so different from him bc they're still young and meta knight has like.#fully stabilized. which is why he cant (or doesnt) use copy abilities. kirby is young and easily changed by whatever they inhale#or e) meta knight and kirby look alike for no reason/it was an abandoned lore thing#which is why he doesnt have his cheek markings in the forgotten land :((((#theory a makes zero sense bc they obviously didn't meet until the second game#but i have no idea how much theory c holds up with the actual canon. what is canon even amiright#anyway. we'll prolly never get an actual answer to this considering its never been brought up that they look alike in canon lol
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trying to figure out Lomion's relationships for the reverse gondolin au - so far I have Rog as his mentor instead of Eol and Celegorm as his "uncle". he's not particularly close with Idril, but Turgon helps him with the politics/statecraft stuff. anyways I can't figure out a marriage candidate for him for heir-identification purposes so
#silm#silmarillion#reverse gondolin au#not art#lomion#i dont really have any ship/sexuality headcanons for lomion#so idk who to stick him with#but he is the high king after all and does need somewhere for the crown to go in the case of his likely demise#maedhros can get away with zero children because he has plenty of brothers & cousins#but sadly lomion is an only child (or at least the only surviving child...?)#and by his reign most of his family has been wiped out#idril still sails in the au so she cant inherit#i think celebrimbor is the only close friend/family he has living after the destruction of gondolin??#celebrimbor def would not *want* to be king but i could see him taking the crown in an emergency#so that sauron/morgoth/whoever would focus on him and give his family/people time to escape#the lomion/tyelpe idea actually happened bc i was thinking about if he should be obsessed with the opposite cousin the au#since idril is like 300some years younger than him and they didn't meet until much later#and anyways they're even more cousins-removed than russingon so it should be fine right? lol#the other main marriage option im considering is giving one of the other Lords a kid#maybe egalmoth can have a random daughter somewhere in there?#i don't want to make it too much of a 'random person + random heir kid' situation#so maybe he can just adopt a kid? but then if he dies early the kid is too young#(bc he doesnt have a kid when idril arrives)#also gil galad is younger here to make the timelines work#anyways and if he dies early and his kid is too young but he's also not married and has no siblings then idk who would be regent#bc by the end of the FA i'm aiming to have turgon & aredhel dead; elwing & earendil dead/departed; tuor dead; and idril sailed#and then that leaves like nobody alive family wise#aaagh help me i have no idea who inherits after him#like. does celebrimbor have to be king for a few hundred years? he probably would sooner dissolve the formal kingship than deal with that#or do i throw it back at gil galad? how does gil even get to gondolin?? where does he come from
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sometimes i think of the shit i got up to on the internet when i was younger and just have to laugh like it doesn’t even feel like part of my current reality… like that was someone else!
#like thank god it wad nothing Bad Bad Bad#just funny like what do you mean i met up with someone i only knew online when they randomly flew to my city#like we had facetimed before but still 😭#they were like from switzerland or something#i was so young and so trustworthy#they ended up being really nice and it was overall very fun :’))) just crazy to think about lol#i wonder if they even remember me probably not#and another online friend admitting they had a crush on me so i said we could be ‘in a (long distance) relationship’#but getting so anxious 8 hours later i ‘broke up with them’#quotation marks because it was all just so unserious and no one would consider it a real relationship SKSKKSKS
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Scott pilgrim anime was SO good. Might make some art. Also ramble on tags
#i love young neil#ive actually been a young neil fan since i first read the book bc of my awful taste in men LOL#im glad theyve dumbed him down#tbh thats what happened w a lot of characters#theyre dumbed down a bit which makes their assholishness more charming#i do think its funny how they tried to take out some of the biphobia inherent to roxie and ramona#not all of it but like. you cant do that w their situation and ramona being like she is character wise#but then they were like. well we have no biphobia here lets add it somewhere else and#inexplicably made the only evil ex that is explícitly a cheater in the comic bisexual. or at least carry the biphobic storyline of.#leave girlfriend for guy#and made a joke out of it#and i proceeded to sit and enjoy all of it#todd was always the ex i thought was the hottest when i read the comic and watching the anime i was there crossing my arms like#am i bothered enough by this#and the answer was not. but i still wasnt able to enjoy it to my fullest#i also rlly liked matthew and gideon#gideon def is the character that benefited the most from being dumbed down LMAO considering how. Gross he is in the comics#i know this sounds like i hated it but#this is wjat i do with the media i love#lottie rambles
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i fucking love bowling
#abc shut it#i stopped doing the local league once i hit like middle school#but i started doing it at a VERY young age#it one of the few sports i still do every now and again tho i’m not as good lol#bowling is considered a sport right?
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Lol
#i walked out of the theater right infront of 2 guys#i think they were on a date#and they were talking about how they had seen Oppenheimer and barbie back to back#so im sure they were cool dudes#but they were walking wayyyy too close behind me 😭#and we ended up being parked right next to each other lol#but like. we walked out at the same time we walked down the same side of the theater to get out#i held the door open for them to leave and they were still right behind me in the parking lot!!#so i got in my car real fast and locked it real fast of course#and waited for them to leave first#but again im sure they were cool dudes i just find it a little funny#that they were walking out of Barbie#and obviously were not considering how a young woman walking to her car at 11pm alone might feel with 2 men walking very close behind her
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i really want to write a song one day
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#my inspiration to write poetry came back today... or rather yesterday now#but i've been searching up the meanings behind lyrics of songs lately a lot more than i usually do (though i do like my own interpretation#i also want to see the actual meaning in mind and kind of do prefer that i think) songs not from video games btw!#bcs if it's from video games. you can bet i already searched up immediately lol <3#but uhm. yeah. i love writing and i know i have a creative mind ever since i was really young and i love music!#i remember in the car when i was really young i liked to imagine song lyrics alongside melodies? but i want to do that someday#in a proper way. yk. idk how people make songs tbh but i love music so very much i do want to make my own one day.#just casually though GBHJSEBGJH i am very ambitious but i doubt and also don't want to get big in the music scene. but also#it's not as if i'll ever really know! and i'm not sure to what extent i want to be involved with making music. considering i want a#career relating to computer science or psychology/psychiatry or law so... yeah. and i want to go overseas. and explore. and travel.#and i want to make my own video game and write my own book. or multiple of them. so. yeah.#i've always been very ambitious but it was paired with my mind that for some reason never thought i'd have a future but now it's#getting. really there. and it's scary but also it's exciting and still scarier but also. yeah. it's nice. so i'll actually work towards my#dreams! tbh for a long time? i wasn't sure what dreams and hopes i had... like. idk. i just couldn't remember. but now i do.#so i'll try my best and try to be kinder to myself. and uh idk if anyone read this oops i'm rambling at almost 1 am. but yeah! <3#don't forget to treat yourself well. you deserve happiness and success. love yourself. don't give up. you'll achieve your dreams. <33
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im the kinda guy who effortlessly managed to avoid a lot of the internet shock horror pieces back in the day but looked them up puposefully anyway to see what the hype was all about
#mine.txt#actually what was wrong with me lmao#what is Still wrong with me tbh#im still the type to do it tbh if i didnt become so aware of my schizospecness and became cautious over what could trigger me#i was so desensitized at such a young age it was honestly a lil concerning considering technically speaking i had absolutely no reason to b#and i knew i shouldnt be reacting the way i did (or the lack thereof i suppose) which was probably how i became so recursive lol#didnt care about gore; violence; sex; etc on an emotional level and felt basically nothing when i saw them#didnt care that ppl said it was wrong either just that *i* thought it was#built my morality from (almost) the ground up; everything was logic and principle and ethics baybee
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Me actually posting a chapter tonight?
It's more likely than you think
#i brave thing to say considering im not actually done with it#lol#but we'll see#the night is still young
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sorry for ryan pete posting to main they make me sick what was their deal
#ryan was eighteen when they first met he was!!!!!! a BABY!!!!!!! my sweet summer child. ... . ..#truly truly insane how young the members of panic were when they shot to fame and how. I get the impression at least. the label/scene they#were a part of was NOT the healthiest coming-of-age environment. Not to mention insane teenage fanbases#hell. hell!!!! but they were young no doubt vulnerable + impressionable what other choice did they have.!#again i know technically they were legal adults but in the grand scheme of life (and as someone whos currently 19 LOL) getting soo famous s#fast even at 17/18/19 i would still consider at least somewhat on par w the hell child stars go thru...obv being a legal adult gave them#a bit of freedom to do what they wanted instead of having their career decided by their parents/adults. but its still so young and to have#the Whole World (or at least thousands of teenagers) keeping their eyes on you seems so. 😟#like let me be a messy young adult in seclusion thankyou#oh this rambling veered SO far from tge main post LOL#whatev#i havemany thoughts & opinions#cowboy posts
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