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navree Ā· 4 months ago
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Incorrect, the fact that Biden has dropped out and a candidate with history of supporting medicare for all and being more receptive to a ceasefire in the I/P conflict has made me go from "I cannot morally support the Democratic nominee" to "I am voting for the Democratic nominee despite the fact she isn't perfect in every respect." I'm really happy this played out. The Dems for the most part abandoned the old Obama platform and it feels like its possible an actual progressive agenda could come to pass in my lifetime.
Kamala 2024!
If you weren't going to vote Democratic in this election before Biden dropped out you're a dorkass loser who does not care about any of the issues you're yammering about here and also a fundamentally bad person, and I hope you get run over by a bus.
But you got one thing right in all of this gibberish, Kamala 2024.
#personal#answered#anonymous#i mean let's be clear here no president is gonna attempt to be progressive ever again within my lifetime#because joe biden tried to do like 25% of that and got ZERO fucking credit#he did so much on healthcare on reform on loans on so many social issues and for all his litany of failings on i/p#he has been distinctly harsher on netanyahu than a good chunk of dems and certainly the entire republican party#for the first time since i was four we are not involved in any wars as americans and that is thanks to joe biden#but the thing is that he gets no credit for any of it!#him pulling out of afghanistan caused his approvals to tank in a way that never recovered#and leftists gave him FUCK ALL for it#they gave him nothing they just continued whining that even tho he cancelled a bajillion in student loans#he didn't actually cancel a QUADRILLION dollars so both parties are the same and voting is the most arduous task known to man#no democrat who is running is going to forget that catering to leftist/progressive policies gets them zero leeway with those supporters#that it not only tanks numbers but you still get constant haranguing about it anyway#so they're not gonna do it#we are gonna get fuckall for at least a good fifty years#and anything we get will be utterly in SPITE of people like you anon it will happen in spite of everything you've done#mostly because of people like me and mine who understand that voting is the bare minimum#and that for the democratic process to work the way you want it to you need to participate and not pitch a fucking fit#like a four year old who was told they can't go to disney this weekend#like i know you ratfuckers are happy this played out because this is all a game to you and you don't actually care#but that's why i've got zero faith in you people and why i'm glad it's my kind of folks#actual die hard democrats who have always been hardliners for supporting democrats in every possible election#who are picking up the slack and donating to harris and supporting her agenda#which is the exact same as biden's because she's his vice president and they share they same platform#because that's what they were both running on! twice!#anyway fuck you please feel free to find a necktie and test how tall your doorframe is
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bondagebimbo Ā· 29 days ago
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LOVE when the pharmacy decides to fucking dick around with my meds so badly that now Iā€™m off my mood stabilizer, my pain meds, and my fucking birth control (in a few days) because theyā€™re insisting I should have extra fucking bottles of each one and I DONT because they donā€™t let me pick up more than a one month supply of narcotics at a fucking time so do explain where these extra bottles are, hmm ????? and they didnā€™t have enough caplyta ordered last time to even give me my usual 3 months supply of that so ā€¦ ???? get your fucking heads out of your asses and give me the fucking meds you owe me ??? like ??? but Iā€™m in a nasty headspace right now so if I call the pharmacy this morning, Iā€™m going to be that cunt ass customer they bitch about all day because this isnā€™t the first time theyā€™ve done this. in fact, the first time, they straight up committed insurance fraud by marking one of my scripts as filled and picked up WHEN, IN REALITY, THEY FUCKING LOST THE SCRIPT AND HAD NO RECORD OF IT BEING FILLED OR PICKED UP IN THEIR SYSTEM, BUT YET, MARKED IT AS SUCH AND CHARGED MY INSURANCE AN ALMOST 8 GRAND FOR THE FUCKING 3 MONTHS OF MY MOOD STABILIZER THAT I. NEVER. RECEIVED. Iā€™m genuinely about to report this entire pharmacy to the pharmacy board because Iā€™m so fucking done with this place. it needs to be shut the fuck down because youā€™re telling me, out of an entire pharmacy, yā€™all share the same IQ point AND dead brain cell, collectively ??? then donā€™t fucking work in healthcare where people rely on you to know your shit and keep track of their fucking meds because youā€™re just constantly making shit worse on people since you canā€™t seem to not fuck around with these meds and not ā€˜loseā€™ scripts. fuck out of here.
and Iā€™m pretty much out of weed, which is usually my back up pain management method, without the money to afford a delivery order by their cut off time to order in 3 hours because I just paid my fucking bills and have SOME to go towards it, but not enough for delivery to be free, and Iā€™d still have to walk my ass to one of the ATMā€™s nearby because they donā€™t accept my bank as a prepaid method OR any of the cards I have on my person. šŸ« 
I can literally feel my back spasming and seizing on and off while Iā€™m laying on my fucking side, Iā€™ve had a migraine with a stupid ass aura for almost a week now because chronic migraines fucking suck and i was REALLY hoping this one would be over by now, my muscle inflammations that my pain meds are supposed to limit are already beginning to start their itching deep in my muscles so soon theyā€™ll blossom into a whole fibromyalgia fucking episode and become entirely inflamed, my joints in my hands fucking hurt because of the dreary weather so I really need to get into a rheumatologist at some point soon as well and get that shit figured out, Iā€™m nauseas as fuck from all the pain, and Iā€™m moody, hormonal, and just feel like fucking death physically.
Iā€™m just. I give up.
this shit is exhausting and painful and so mentally fucking taxing to constantly deal with and I just want a fucking break from all this fucking shit. I wish I could just ā€¦ not exist ā€¦ for even just a little while with how fucking painful existing actually feels right now šŸ« šŸ˜­
#i hate that CT weed is so fucking expensive#half a fucking ounce shouldnā€™t cost me $250 ā€¦ā€¦.. not when I can go to MA and get an ounce for $108 after tax ā€¦ā€¦..#but I donā€™t have a way to MA because my fucking best friend. who made plans with me OVER THE WEEKEND. HER. SHE INITIATED THEM.#canceled on me last second even though I texted her early the night before when I know she would see it šŸ« #nope instead she waited from the text I sent at 6:30pm until noon the next day to cancel because her period is kicking her ass#NOT FOR FUCKING NOTHING BUT SO THE HELL IS MINE ???? AND IM ANEMIC ??? AND DEALING WITH ALL THIS EXTRA PAIN ON TOP OF IT ????#and I know Iā€™m being irrational and insensitive because pain tolerance is a sliding scale for everyone#but like fucking come on you do this 3 out of 4 times YOU make the plans to hang out and Iā€™m fucking over it.#plus Iā€™m the one that always pays for everything and does she ever even OFFER to hit me back for the COUNTLESS ounces of weed Iā€™ve got her#all because she couldnā€™t afford it so I said Iā€™d cover it and she never paid me back. Iā€™ve bought her at least a grandā€™s worth of weed#just over the last couple months and sheā€™s never ONCE offered to pay me back for a single one#like ā€¦ā€¦ā€¦ I donā€™t expect it. I give if I have it. but you canā€™t even just offer ??? like the invitation to pay me back would be enough to no#leave m ragingly pissed off and feeling used as an atm again for yet another ā€˜friendā€™ because they donā€™t even OFFER to be considerate#of course Iā€™d say not to worry about it but it doesnā€™t even cross your fucking head to ask if I want anything towards it#like the next time you get paid ??? when you go and spend your own money on weed that day but canā€™t reimburse me for anything IVE paid for#oh and I always have to give her gas money if I even simply just want to hang out because sheā€™s always fucking broke somehow#and she works in healthcare like bitch I know what you make and you canā€™t play that you donā€™t have enough to get by or throw me 50 bucks#towards YOUR weed that Iā€™m buying every once in a fucking while when Iā€™m already paying for everything fucking else#Iā€™m so angry and I know Iā€™m being irrational and bitchy but this is what happens when youā€™re tripped off your meds cold turkey#and one of them is a mood stabilizer that makes it so you DONT feel this way about people and arenā€™t so bitter when youā€™re let down šŸ« šŸ« šŸ« #because now my rejection sensitive dysphoria is going to be triggered even easier than usual and Iā€™m just.#I actually fucking give up. I donā€™t even know what to do here. the pain going through my body is so fucking intense#I keep losing my train of thought because everything hurts and then every once in a while a DIFFERENT pain acts up and throws itself in too#I just. I just canā€™t fucking win.#I hate fucking struggling with my mental state like this when Iā€™m off my meds.#and because I have to be a month without my stabilizer/pain management/birth control itā€™s going to take me ANOTHER month to get readjusted#to those in my body so I wonā€™t feel normal again until nearly fucking mid to end January the earliest#and thatā€™s fucking bullshit. Iā€™m going to fucking **** myself by the time I get back on these fucking meds since itā€™ll take that long#fucking hell I just. I give up. I give in. Iā€™m self isolating and cutting myself off from everyone because itā€™ll be in THEIR best interest#for me to do so when I canā€™t control my mind like this. Iā€™m so tired of feeling so fucking shitty and Iā€™ve only been off them for two days
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coldshrugs Ā· 5 months ago
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gpose dump #4: estinio. again.
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seonghwasblr Ā· 4 months ago
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SVT coming to Europe for the first time ever in 9 years (not counting Gastonbury, cause that was sold out a year before they were announced, so carats didn't get a chance to go) and it's not even going to be ot13 should be a crime.. AND IT'S BECAUSE OF A SCHEDULE?!
#maja talks#i'm so upset for real#like i'm happy for jun and all but really?#you announced lollapalooza long ago and now suddenly he's got something else?#i'm not even going but got fuck you hybe i hate you so so so much#i will never not be angry about hybe ruining my chances to see svt live#like fuck you so much#(but maja covid was the reason for the 2020 cancelations yeah but hybe is the reason they never got rescheduled!!!)#i saw one of my mutuals from like 2015 make a post a couple of years ago about how she got to see svt as 13 four times in one year#and here i am as a european being shit on for 9 years straight#i hate it here so much and i'm so upset and i probably shouldn't be this upset but i am#fuck hybe and fuck bang shihyuk and fuck everyone that made that fuckass company so powerful#i hate it so much#i knew they were never going to take coming to europe seriously after joining that fuckass company#and yet i can't help but be so damn disappointed#it's been 9 years...#i remember where i was when the 2020 europe dates were announced#i was sitting in a train and i was so happy i was shaking so hard#i got a ticket with a great seat for the Berlin concert and i was so happy#i've never been so excited and happy#and then covid happened and everything got cancelled and they never even addressed it#they only ever said ā€œwe were sad the tour ended earlier than expectedā€ in their yt documentary and that was the only mention of it#then the japan dome tour had to be pushed forward (not even really cancelled if i remember correctly) and they made wholeass apology videos#saying how sad they were and blah blah blah still no mention of europe at all#then like the day after europe got cancelled they uploaded a video of hoshi dancing with fans at one of the us stops#and it really just felt like they stepped on my heart and threw it in a trashcan lol#then they joined hybe and hybe got obsessed with dynamic pricing and ruined everything#ruined all chance of us seeing them as ot13#(maybe they'll finally acknowledge us for real when they get back from enlistment in maybe 6 years but who knows)#i for real shouldn't be this affected
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thedreadvampy Ā· 5 months ago
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it's been a strange arc so far
when I was 19-21 and having an extremely imbalanced relationship with someone in their mid 30s I was like 'we are both adults so the fact that this is fucking me up is my fault'
when I hit my late 20s and saw how young people in their late teens and early 20s seem now I was like 'oh wait I was so fucking young I didn't know shit about my own limits or about managing relationships and I don't know why someone in their mid to late 30s would be into that except for nefarious purposes'
the weird bit is now I'm into my 30s - not even that far into my 30s - and while I still wholeheartedly believe that last thing about how young (and self destructive) 20 year olds are, I'm also kind of like 'huh, actually nobody I know that age has their shit remotely together and frankly the reason this fucked me up is because NEITHER of us knew what the fuck we were doing it how to cope, for different reasons and at different life stages, and there probably wasn't any malice or intent to control as much as there was Blind Flailing.'
#red said#this is about one specific relationship btw.#wanted to clarify that because there have been several men over 30 who fucked me up between the ages of 16 and 21#and i adamently do NOT want to keep pretending that was incompetence. that was predation. sometimes incompetent predation.#but with the person I'm thinking of? she really hurt me and the age gap and difference in life stage was a not insubstantial factor#but mostly she was just spiralling out really badly and i offered her something to hold and she did try to keep things balanced and safe#but she was very off balance at the time. so the fucking up was more that than it was about power or control#we were just both very stupid and very sensible at the same time which is a great way to dig yourselves deeper#and idk I'm like 2 or 3? years younger than she was when we met iirc#and the closer i get to her age the more I'm like yeah you know that's a human reaction. i can see how that happens.#and i kind of feel bad for the amount of bitterness I've held and malice I've ascribed because ultimately#i think it was just two people having different crises trying and failing to figure out boundaries around them#but this has come on really suddenly and it's kind of fucking me up as well#cause I'm frightened of falling back into patterns of oh it's never anyone else's fault that i got hurt#but i don't. thiiiiink so? bc it's really only this one thing. i am not making these excuses for other people.#idk. sometimes people just fuck each other up.#I'm not even sure i think it was a bad thing that it happened. a lot of bad happened but we also catalyzed a lot of change in each other.#i feel like the reason i keep picking at this is that it's complicated. it was not good. it was good.#she really fucked me up and she was a terrible friend to me at times. but she was also the first person to really look after me.#and she kind of helped me start to learn how to need other people. which was good.#when my grandma died she wrapped me in a blanket and cancelled her plans to watch TV on the couch with me#even though she barely knew me at that point#and she was one of the first people to consistently ask for consent and check in. and she did genuinely care about me.#but she also truly fucked me over a couple of times.#but mostly that was just because she was buried in a pit of despair and self loathing.#she seems a lot happier now. i hope she is. i don't know if i want to know her particularly but i think if she's happy she'd be nice to know
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drawfee-quot3s Ā· 1 year ago
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i'm gettin the scary sillies
- jacob
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choking-on-roses Ā· 1 month ago
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I am so used to being an afterthought in everyone's lives that if someone came along who put genuine effort into spending time with me, like truly just wanted to hang out with me and made time to do it, I would probably 1) break down sobbing and 2) immediately fall in love with them
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redbootsindoriath Ā· 1 year ago
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Whichever anon sent me this today, thank you. There's no way you could have known, but a couple of days ago I suddenly and without warning lost a cat that I raised from the day he was born. When I saw this in my inbox I was confused at first, because what...checkmark...huh...but then I realized that it meant somebody had sent me something--out of the blue, just because--at a time that I really could use something good in my life, even something silly and fun. So, really, thank you. And green is my favorite "real" color, so having one of the checkmarks be green is pretty neat.
I've not really been able to draw anything worth anything lately, believe it or not, so here's the last picture I have of my Night Furry. He loved drives and walks, so earlier this summer on a road trip I took him to the top of the continental divide for a little hike.
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(Yes, he's wearing a harness. He had an adventurous and independent temperament, so there was always a risk of him running off to explore someplace where he shouldn't go alone. I didn't just make him wear it because I'm a cruel and stifling cat butler.)
#yo somebody talked to me#/end classification tags#his name is toothless by the way#after the dragon in how to train your dragon of course#ALSO by the way#i would NORMALLY give myself time to actually process this sort of thing and recover because i'm pretty sure i'm in psychological shock#but i'm moving halfway across the continent in like two days (less than a week after he got sick) so there was no way to just#cancel that or delay it or something#so i'm having to just get over it or whatever#šŸ‘#the car ride is going to be lonely but at least i have one more cat to keep me as good of company as she can#even if we've never been as close as toothless and i were#a VERY IMPORTANT note to all of the pet owners who follow me: PLEASE check your yards for poisonous plants#regularly and repeatedly even if there wasn't anything dangerous there before#even if you're only staying in the area for a little while#even if you only let your pets out under close supervision#even if you trust your landlord/landlady (if you rent)#because i was all of those and this still happened#check every single plant out there and be 100% sure you KNOW what each one is#did you know that silverleaf nightshade looks nothing like other kinds of nightshade?#neither did i because i never lived in this area before#anyway sorry for the dump y'all#i don't generally like to share a lot of details about my personal life but i think i'm not quite myself right now#poor little guy hadn't even lived half his expected lifespan so i wasn't ready for this to happen for years#i've been kicking myself over it for days even though i know the blame doesn't TECHNICALLY lie with me and it's messing with my psyche#he was a very special cat#in korean the term is ź°œģ–‘ģ“ and google says the english is puppycat#a cat that is friendly and acts like a dog#i will likely never get a cat anything like him again and that's an awful thing to realize#i would go broke and risk my future to have him back which is stupid i know but he was really something else
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barley-st-band Ā· 30 days ago
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anyone else getting a little tired of the unending horror
#she speaks#truly cannot keep living like this gang!#burned out and stressed constantly to a level that i keep thinking will plateau#only for it to keep somehow getting worse#idk if yā€™all know this but being a teacher in america is truly a completely unsustainable job#it verges on deliberate cruelty the shit weā€™re just supposed to handle and be ok with every day#and the expectations weā€™re supposed to be able to meet#with very little time to plan or prepare let alone rest#tomorrow i literally have no planning time#so i wonā€™t get a single break outside of like 20 minutes for lunch if iā€™m lucky#and then we have a grade level meeting after school that i didnā€™t know about until literally today#bc we need to have report card comments done by tomorrow.#which youā€™ll never guess!! we also didnā€™t know about/werenā€™t reminded of until today!!#and maybe thatā€™s on me but admin normally puts out so much stuff about it ahead of time#and this time we got literally nothing#and now iā€™ve had to cancel my therapy appointment right when i probably need it the most#and since itā€™s less than 24 hours i might get charged for it šŸ™ƒ#i havenā€™t vacuumed in months and my car inspection is 3 months overdue#i wake up exhausted every single day and come home so overwhelmed i can barely talk#and yet things keep fucking happening every single day#and it all just keeps compounding#and i have no other option but to keep pushing through and hope it doesnā€™t literally kill me#this canā€™t be all there is. it canā€™t keep feeling like this forever. when does it get better i cant keep doing this
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strangersynth Ā· 1 year ago
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reducing mike and el's love for each other to something that'll make their relationship stumble and fall if not evaporate when they break up will never not be like emptying a room and then walking in and wondering why its empty.
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iwatcheditbegin Ā· 3 months ago
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I think it was already clear that was the reason why she said nothing. Iā€™m more frustrated that some ā€˜fansā€™ continue to immediately attack and assume the worst about her 18 years in, when sheā€™s never given a reason for this.
ā€‹sheā€™s human. Sheā€™s allowed to be scared or traumatized, expecting her to brush that off (and put others in harm) to validate you is so out of touch
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widevibratobitch Ā· 4 months ago
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christ i know its her birthday but i just have too much to do i cant manage that i really cant. but the paralysing fucking dread of having to tell her that sure is something lol
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hightowres Ā· 10 months ago
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just sent a voicenote to a close friend i havenā€™t spoken to in nearly 2 months agahsjfklf
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pepprs Ā· 1 year ago
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itā€™s 4:15am rn on the first day of the semester (šŸ˜) and im in about an 8-9 on the pain scale rn and the heating pad isnā€™t helping. my leg hurts so bad it literally woke me up LMFAO. household without pain killers moment
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princesscedar Ā· 11 months ago
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Trying to tell mom "hey maybe don't call j ewish people rats even unintentionally" event leaves 10 dead thousands injured
#INCREDIBLE how any time i address mom's casual antis emitism she goes into a tirade like 'oh THEY get to be treated special' like#literally me n the 19 yr old give receipts and she always flies off the handle lol lmao haha#she was referring to the tunnel thing in new york and said 'an orthodox j ewish man climbed out the sewer like a rat'#and me n 19 yr old both šŸ˜¬šŸ˜¬ and casually lightheartedly say 'hey you probably shouldn't say that abt j ewish ppl' and she took it personal#like we said she said it w/ malice and not the same tone as 'hey don't call a black person a monkey even if you didn't mean it offensively'#and 2 hours later she STILL is on her 'well i think it's an agenda some ppl just try and SAY things are offensive and they're not' mom.#u r LITERALLY black. WHY is this hard for u to understand#she did the same when i said a o t was fascist anti semitic nationalist but she's like 'i read it and i didn't see any of that so ĀÆ\_(惄)_/ĀÆ#'if you didn't read it you can't say anything's wrong with it'#same w/ that Witches remake a few years ago and i pointed out the witches were coded as j ewish caricatures in the book#and hopefully it wouldn't happen in the new movie#and she thought it was an agenda to cancel it because the main characters were black now#somehow transferred into talkin abt cops and th3 m ilitary and me saying both should be abolished and now she's like#and how i think it's kinda unnecessary to include blatant mil itary propaganda in a show for 6 yr olds lol#and she's like 'are you saying every cop and military person is bad and evil? should kids w/ parents in those forces never be represented?'#no i literally didn't say every individual is but the organizations need to end at least 90% in my lifetime <33 and no i also don't think#a kid w a soldier dad is the same as a kid with a black dad so no mili tary n cop rep is not the same as poc rep lol she literally said that#and mad that i didn't have THEE solution to replace them like i need to know the exact plan to fix it to point out that they shouldn't exist#anywhooooooo she raises my blood pressure lol <33333#sentext
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zayadriancas Ā· 2 years ago
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