#but painful

[glitchedcosmos]

I bet those wings are gonna rip themselves right out of his back and I bet it’s gonna hurt like heck and I bet he’s gonna scream it’s gonna end me on the fucking spot

[pinklikeroses]

Moon star au~🌙💕

Realizations

Her:

Wants to be in a relationship but is incredibly anxious and insecure, thinks aside from her appearance and class status no one would ever truly love her. Thinks she’s boring, with her talk of politics, birds and botany

Him:

Desperately wants to be in a romantic relationship but has enemies that won’t hesitate to hurt him and the ones he loves. He doesn’t want to risk falling for someone he could lose so soon

[kavennnn]

told yall we wouldnt be getting year 3 from allegory

[d-buggers-org]

I guess it is what it is

have some angst right before valentines day lol

[mossy-tables]

If I were to say soft pain would you know what I mean?

If I were to ask to read a soft pain story, to live a soft pain story, to exist in a soft pain world, would you know what I mean?

Would you want to? No one likes pain. Soft pain doesn’t sound any better than what we have. What’s the different between pain and soft pain? Is there a hard pain?

Or do you understand what soft pain means? Do you understand the desire, the need to have soft pain? Do you understand the emotions that come with soft pain? When the Haiku bot responds not with an echo but with love? When a friend or ex moves on from you? The way it feels when a characters dies, but dies smiling and in love? Do you know what soft pain feels like? Do you know why I crave it?

Soft pain brings joy and smiles, tears and anguish. But it’s so much more than pain.

Soft pain is being rained on while walking home. Soft pain is missing the train and people watching to past the time. Soft pain is losing an award to your best friend. Soft pain is pain. But it’s so much more.

Soft pain is life. It’s how you live, how you die. It’s all the negatives of life, all the sobs yet all the smiles. Soft pain is not pain, because it’s so much more.

Or do you not understand what I’m saying? Soft pain is knowing that there are people who do not understand why I crave soft pain.

Because the world is so much more beautiful when I see the soft pain.

Because the world is beautiful.

Because the people are beautiful.

Yet I crave soft pain. Because I do not live in a world where the pain is soft.

I crave soft pain, because soft pain is not pain. It is not the pain I’ve lived my life in.

It’s so much more.

[hopeluna]

Guess who's at the hospital rn

[s0fter-sin]

@ my homies with pain disorders, if i described a pain as hollow and feels the way metal tastes, do you know what i mean?

[unsurebazookacore]

i need someone to give me a fucking craniotomy to remove the gremlins smashing pots and pans beneath my skull

[myhusbandsasemni]

Someone should have warned me that outlining was gonna be this intensive. >:(

[chessb0r3d]

What I mean when I do not control the hyperfixation.

[nondivisable]

I need to say something and I need y'all to be calm

if it isn't actively bad or harmful, no representation should be called "too simple" or "too surface level"

I have a whole argument for this about the barbie movie but today I wanna talk about a show called "the babysitters club" on Netflix

(obligatory disclaimer that I watched only two episodes of this show so if it's super problematic I'm sorry) (yes. I know it's based on a book, this is about the show)

this is a silly 8+ show that my 9 year old sister is watching and it manages to tackle so many complex topics in such an easy way. basic premise is these 13 year old girls have a babysitting agency.

in one episode, a girl babysits this transfem kid. the approach is super simple, with the kid saying stuff like "oh no, those are my old boy clothes, these are my girl clothes". they have to go to the doctor and everyone is calling the kid by her dead name and using he/him and this 13 year old snaps at like a group of doctors and they all listen to her. it's pure fantasy and any person versed in trans theory would point out a bunch of mistakes.

but after watching this episode, my little sister started switching to my name instead of my dead name and intercalating he/him pronouns when talking about me.

one of the 13 years old is a diabetic and sometimes her whole personality is taken over by that. but she has this episode where she pushes herself to her limit and passes out and talks about being in a coma for a while because of not recognizing the limits of her disability.

and this allowed my 9 year old sister to understand me better when I say "I really want to play with you but right now my body physically can't do that" (I'm disabled). she has even asked me why I'm pushing myself, why I'm not using my crutches when I complain about pain.

my mom is 50 years old and watching this show with my sister. she said the episode about the diabetic girl helped her understand me and my disability better. she grew up disabled as well, but she was taught to shut up and power through.

yes, silly simple representation can annoy you if you've read thousands of pages about queer liberation or disability radical thought, but sometimes things are not for you.

[wishful-seeker]

I would like to see more people talk about how jobs treat disabled employees.

I used to prep, wash dishes, and cook at mellow mushroom. I had chronic pain that wasn't NEARLY as bad as it is today, but it was still very debilitating. I told my employer "i cannot stand more than 4 to 6 hours. I CANNOT do shifts longer than this due to my illness." And even though i made my boundaries VERY clear, everyday i worked it was 8 hours at the least and 10 or 12 at the most. I would go up to my manager and say "look i really need to leave, my shift is over, my chronic pain is killing me." And he'd say "we really need to here, you HAVE to push through." And so i did, and after one, ONE month of that job my crps got incredibly worse to the point where i could no longer walk my dog around the block which was .5 miles. I quit, and that was FOUR years ago, and ever since that day I HAVE BEEN BEDRIDDEN AND HAVE TO USE A WHEELCHAIR. It is my biggest regret in life.

My best friend who has seen my whole journey has recently developed undiagnosed chronic pain, and she is in the EXACT same scenario i was 4 years ago. Busting her ass at a pizza place with extreme pain that hurts her so much she tells me "im in so much pain i don't even feel like a person." She doesn't feel LUCID. And her manager and coworkers are saying the same thing "if you don't help us you will let us down, we'll be in the shit."

That job thats hurting you isn't fucking worth it. I promise you no money is worth losing all your physical abilities and never getting them back. Your coworkers and boss do not give a shit about you, so don't you dare suffer for them. They will never understand your struggle and they will never try. They truly think being understaffed is worse than whatever pain you experience. They would rather you permanently damage yourself than inconvenience them. FUCK THEM. DON'T FUCKING DO IT!

[i-say-stupid-things]

what is it with able bodied people saying “get well soon” after you say that you’re chronically ill?? like? i am not gonna? and i once literally responded with “i’m not gonna, it’s chronic, as in permanent.” and they went like “oh well, hope you get better!” like bro 💀

[bl0w-m3]

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