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Broken - Chapter 1

Pairing: Joel Miller x fem!Reader

Summary: A year has passed since Joel and Ellie have returned to Jackson when he finds you on patrol, half frozen and half burning up. Jackson takes you in and nurses you back to health, welcoming you as the newest member of their community. The more time passes, Joel realizes that you and him have more in common than he likes... Until one day, everything changes and you get a gift that he'll never get.

Word Count: 3964 words

Warnings: Cursing, near death experience, mention of blood, insomnia.

Chapter 1 - A Brush With Death

Joel didn't know there could be so many types of snow. Texas didn't get all that much of it, at least not where he lived. He'd seen his fair share of the white stuff when he lived in Boston, but somehow, snow is different out here in Jackson. It could have been just an illusion, that it had only seemed different because Boston was different, crowded and dirty and falling apart at the seams, whereas Jackson is open, wide and free and clean.

Whatever it is, snow feels different here. Today, the flakes are big and heavy, a lot more like rain but not yet quite like sleet. They're coming down in chunks, flakes stuck together in tiny little icy clumps that fall to the ground in quiet and wet, prickling thumps. It's not as enjoyable as the soft and powdery kind that came down during his patrol yesterday. The shreds of ice prick his skin as they get blown across his face where his bandana doesn't reach. He rubs a gloved hand over the slither of exposed skin, but it remains itchy, irritated by its icy attackers.

Joel grunts and squints through the white flurry. "Can't see a damn thing in this damn weather," he grumbles, but carries on regardless. His horse lazily trots through the snow. Joel can't help but wonder what the animal thinks about this weather. Probably having as much fun as I am, he thinks and runs his glove over his eyes again. Some snowflakes got caught in his eyelashes. He feels the icy flakes melt on his eyeballs as he rubs the glove back and forth and shudders. Not a pleasant sensation.

He trudges through the snow for a few more minutes, but it doesn't let up. If anything, it looks like it's getting worse, more and more flakes fluttering through the air until visibility drops below 20 feet. "Alright, that's enough." His voice comes out in puffs of hot air. Joel flicks his tongue and softly tugs on the left rein. His horse immediately obeys. They do a 180, careful not to slip off the road. There's no point in staying out here in weather like this. Not if I can't goddamn see, he thinks. Once they're turned around, things are a little better. With the wind on his back, the brim of his head provides enough protection from the flakes and they're no longer blowing straight into his eyes.

15 minutes later, he's made it about half-way back to Jackson. The snow is coming down so heavy and quick that his horse's tracks are nearly covered again, the sheet of white almost seeming as undisturbed as before. Joel scans his surroundings as they trot back, peering across the black and white landscape in search of anything out of the ordinary, but he finds nothing. Now that his sight is undisturbed, the scenery is almost hypnotizing. With the wind on his back, the soft falling of the heavy flakes mixes into a soothing background noise. He notices his eye-lids getting heavy, straining to stay open as they run over white and more white, an endless canvas of the same coated trees and bushes.

It's no wonder then that he almost misses the set of tracks that cross his own in the snow, slurry and less precise than his horse's hoofmarks on the ground. It feels like a trick of his eyes at first, but Joel's instincts have had too many years of training. He perks up and flicks his tongue again, softly tugging on the reins so his four-legged companion stills. Joel peers down at the ground, inspecting the tracks. They're fresher than his own; the flakes didn't have enough time to fill the gaps on the snowy surface yet.

He slides the rifle off his shoulder as his eyes follow the tracks to the bushes on his left. Awaiting an attack, his gloved finger has already wandered down to the trigger, but he doesn't shoot right away. "What in the...?" His question hangs in the air along with little clouds of hot breath. What the hell am I lookin' at?

It's hard to make out at first. Animal? It's big and lumpy, but the contortions don't fit anything he's ever seen. Its coat is puffy and bloated and white, blending in it with its surroundings almost too easily. Joel's eyes travel over the unfamiliar creature until he suddenly realizes what he's looking at. "Aw, shit!" The curse comes out in a hiss as he slides off his horse.

What he thought to be an animal at first is nothing less than a human. He approaches the lump on the ground with a raised rifle, pointed at what he now makes out to be the head. This could be a trap, a voice inside him thinks, but something tells him it's not. It's nothing more than a gut feeling, but he still approaches the figure carefully.

"Hey." The person on the ground doesn't respond, doesn't even stir. "Hey," he repeats, this time a little louder. He nudges his foot against what he judges to be a leg, but again, there is no response. His gut and brain discuss for a moment before he leans down. In one swift motion, he's removed one of his gloves and shoved his hand into the fur that encircles the head. Immediately, he can tell that his gut was right. Heat simmers below the person's coat like a hot furnace. His cold fingers run over the naked skin until he finds the spot just below the chin.

A breath of relief leaves him when he feels a pulse softly thrumming against his fingertips, but it's weak. Carefully, he lifts the head and gently turns it so he can look at the face. It belongs to a woman, pale and ashen, tinging on blue. It's the look of someone who has no time to waste. "Alright," he mutters and hoists his rifle again before he places one arm under the woman's torso, his other wrapping around it firmly from above. "C'mere." He grunts as he attempts to lift her body off of the ground. She can't weigh much, but the angle is awkward and his shoes don't have much tract in the snow.

It takes him a couple of tries, but eventually, he manages to heave the limp body across his saddle. Once it stays up, he awkwardly climbs into the settle behind the woman. Her legs are dangling off to one side, her arms and head to the other. It's not ideal, but it'll have to do. "C'mon!" He kicks his horse's sides and they dash off, back towards Jackson, back to where there's doctors and medicine. He just hopes it's not too late.

You come to with a gasp, eyes flying open as your torso shoots upwards. Your first few moments of consciousness are overwhelming, a complete chaos of blurry vision, a dizziness that's threatening to push you over and the drumming of your own pulse in your ears, loud and deafening over the frequent beeping noises in the background. Your fingers dig into the material of the surface beneath you, a frantic search of something familiar, something that'll tell you where you are, something to steady you.

Before you've had any time to adjust, something's touching your shoulder, followed by a pressure that's pushing you backwards. You panic and grasp at the things that are forcing you down before realizing they are hands, but the realization doesn't slow your panic, it only fuels it. You flail, fighting against your attacker with flying limbs, scratching and screaming and putting everything in it that you've got. There's a sharp pull in the crook of your right arm, but you don't relent, determined to fight off your assailant.

Despite your strenuous attempt, you lose the fight and fall backwards. As your head slams backwards, your world suddenly regains focus, as if someone turned up the sharpening setting in one swift go. The dizziness remains, but despite your blood still rushing in your ears, you can also hear a voice.

"It's okay! You're okay! You're safe!"

You blink rapidly a few times. Your eyes are swimming in and out of focus before they settle on the person in front of you. It's a man dressed in faded blue scrubs. The arms that are pinning you down are his arms, but despite the threatening gesture, his face is full of concern, not threat. You slowly take in your surroundings as you catch your breath. You appear to be in a hospital room of sorts. It's got all the equipment that comes with the territory, beeping machines and all, which you realize are the source of the frantic beeping you heard just seconds ago; their rhythm gradually slowing as your breathing becomes more steady.

The man holding you down releases his grip on your shoulders and moves around your bed to your other side. You follow his movements closely and jerk back when he reaches for your right arm. In response, he takes a step back, hands raised.

"I just wanna help. Can I do that?" He points to your arm when you don't respond. Your eyes briefly flit down to follow his finger. There's blood leaking out of the crook of your arm; the bloody needle of an IV dangling on your bed's railing not far off. Must have pulled it out when I was panicking. It's your first coherent thought since coming to.

You give a court nod and he resumes his work immediately, tending to your wound with concentration. While he works, your eyes work over the room again.

"Where am I?" Your voice comes out rusted and croaky. How long has it been since I've been out?, you wonder and try to think back to the last thing you remember, but you come up blank.

"You're safe," the nurse responds. He's wrapped your arm up in a neat bandage - clean, you notice - and moves over to a cabinet where he retrieves a freshly packed IV needle. "Can I?" He nods at your left arm and you hum in agreement. You watch him insert the needle into your skin before you speak again.

"That's not what I asked." He finishes up his work by attaching the lines of your IV bag to your new access point, checking for air bubbles and tangles, then places his hands on your hand railing. His eyes find yours. "Look, you're safe, and that's all that matters right now." You want to interrupt him, but he holds a finger up. "No, just wait. Someone will be by to explain everything shortly. I'm not at liberty to say. But I promise," he leans in closer, putting a gentle hand on your shoulder. "I promise, you're safe here. Okay?"

It takes a moment, but you nod and sink back into your pillow. Safe my ass, you think. When's the last time that anywhere was really safe? But what choice do you have? Your body is in no shape to fight, let alone to flee. Besides, this hospital bed is the most comfortable thing you've laid on in months. Might as well enjoy it while you can. Who knows what's waiting for you.

According to the clock on the wall, half an hour passes before the door to your room opens again. This time, it's not the male nurse but a woman that enters. She carries herself with the confidence of someone who's word counts. You prop yourself up as she approaches you, stopping a few feet away with crossed arms.

Neither of you speak for a moment. You eye each other, seizing the other woman up, a silent first introduction that seems to go well when she drops her arms to her sides and her body language switches from closed off to more open. Still, you're the first one to speak.

"You in charge?"

"One of the people in charge, yes."

"One of them?"

"There's a council, elected by the town's members." She seems to hesitate but then crosses the remaining distance between you two before holding a hand out.

"I'm Maria. It's nice to finally meet you." You can't help but raise an eyebrow, yet shake her hand anyway.

"Finally? You heard of me?"

"Oh, we heard plenty! Can I?" She nods at the open space on your bed in front of you and takes a seat when you gesture for her to sit down. "You were quite the talk of the town, the way you arrived. On the brink of death." She smiles at you and, to your surprise, it looks genuine. "Happy you pulled through."

There's an uncomfortable silence where you don't know what to say. You fiddle with the blanket between your fingers as quiet settles over you two.

When Maria reaches out to lay a hand on yours, you instinctually flinch back, but then allow the touch. You see a hint of sadness fluttering across her face, but she quickly hides it behind a sympathetic smile. "I don't know what you've been through, but it can't have been pretty. We're willing to offer you a place to stay, a new home if you want it, but we got rules."

A place to stay? A home?

What's the cost? you think, but don't say the question out loud. "Most of all, you've got to be willing to put in the work. We all chip in here," Maria says as if she overheard your thoughts. "Do you think that's something for you?" She gives you a moment to think about it. A smile spreads across her face when you finally nod.

"Great. Now relax, regain your strength. We'll figure everything out over the next couple of days. I'll come by and introduce you to some people so we can figure out where to place you, okay?" Maria slides off your bed and heads for the door. You can see her wringing her hands in anticipation, a mixture of concern and gladness on her face when she turns around to you once more. "You're safe here. You don't have to worry anymore."

She gives you one last smile and then she's out the door. Yeah right, you think. We'll see about that.

There's 57 cracks in the ceiling. You know this because you've counted them yourself, every single night since this house was first appointed to you. Despite the comfortable - clean, one might add -bed, the roof over your head, hell, despite the damn blackout-curtains, you can't find any sleep.

Your insomnia isn't new. The last good night's rest you've had was probably 22 years ago, before all hell broke loose and the world turned into the shithole it is today. You don't remember a day since where you didn't go to bed hungry or worried for your safety. To be fair, it was better when you had her. Despite worrying for two, it was better when she was there, her tiny body curled up against yours-

You stop the thought when the familiar hole aches in your chest. You try not to think about it, about her, because it always ends up hurting, the pain chipping away at the sides of the hole and making it larger with every relived memory.

"Fuck." You whisper, but it's almost as loud as a shout in the dead-quiet of the house. An entire house for a single person. It seems bizarre to you after having lived in tight quarters for so long, presumptuous even. It feels wrong. And lonely, a small voice chirps in the back of your head, but you swat it away like a fly.

"Alright, enough." There's no point in staying in bed any longer. Dawn is approaching outside, the faintest whisper of light slowly creeping over the horizon and casting long shadows across your bedroom. You roll out of bed and slip on your shoes, never having taken off yesterday's clothes. They provided you with an entire new wardrobe when they granted you residence, PJ's included and all, but old habits die hard.

You make your way downstairs where you brew yourself a quick cup of coffee. Out of all the amenities your new home comes with, this one just might be your favorite perk. Where your adrenaline betrays you during the day, you finally get to rely on caffeine again instead. It's one of the small pleasures you grant yourself every now and then, when a night has been particularly rough.

You lean against the kitchen counter in the semi-dark as you drink your coffee, savoring every sip. The world doesn't seem quite so bad in these moments, in the morning quiet with a steaming cup between your hands and the warm liquid running down your throat, warming you from the inside out and filling your body with fresh life force.

It's then that you hear two mumbled voices outside. Fuck. You mouth the word, cursing the fact that you left your gun upstairs. Carefully, you set your cup down and then open the top drawer next to you, taking out a large chopping knife.

Knife in hand and slowly, so as not to make any sound, you tip-toe towards your front door while keeping your back against the wall. You hear the voices growing louder through the thick glass panels that frame the entrance of your house.

"Seriously, Tommy, why me? Just 'cause I brought her in? It's not like we got a special connection or somethin'."

"Then you'll make one! It's not that hard."

You manage to peer out of one of the glass panels and realize with some relief that it's Tommy Miller, Maria's husband, and Joel Miller, his brother.

The fuck they want here so early in the morning?

"Look. When you and Ellie got here, you were all fidgety for the first few months, and I don't blame you with what you've been through. Hell, some nights even I don't sleep thinking about all we got to lose here." You watch as Tommy and Joel climb the front steps of your porch. "But you saw what this place is. What it means, what it stands for. We got something good going here, Joel. I know you can see that. I just want you to help her see that too."

There's a moment of silence between the brothers while they're staring each other down. "Fine." Joel sounds exasperated. "But why me?" An expression takes form on Tommy's face that you can only describe as 'knowing'. You don't like it. "Because," he starts and raises a hand to knock on your door. "You and her, you got the same kind of twitchy."

Before he can bring his fist down on the cold wood, you open the door in one swift motion.

"Mornin', boys."

They turn to you with a stunned look on their faces. Tommy in particular looks a bit strained, obviously wondering how much you heard.

"Saw y'all walking up on my porch when I came through the hallway," you offer in explanation and watch in amusement as relief washes over the younger brother's face. "What's got you comin' up here so early in the morning?"

"Ah." Tommy smiles broadly and slaps his older brother on the back. "Jeff got sick and Joel here needs a replacement buddy for his rounds. Thought maybe you could fill in for him, seeing as how we haven't found a job for you yet." He smiles at you expectantly, but his smile wavers a little the longer you let him wait for a response.

"Fine," you eventually say, mimicking Joel's tone from earlier. "Lemme' just get my jacket."

The first few rays of sunshine trickle over the land as you ride out of Jackson. You keep a steady, albeit not hasty pace next to each other. Despite what you overheard, Joel doesn't make any attempts of forming any kind of connection. You just ride together in silence, keeping a lookout for anything out of place. You're a little too proud to admit it, but the fresh, cold air feels really good on your skin. You make a mental note not to thank Tommy for this little set-up. Twitchy my ass, you think. What's it to him anyway?

The first half of your morning patrol passes by uneventfully. Joel leads you to what you can only assume was a camping site back in the day where he wipes some snow off of a picnic table and pours steaming hot coffee out of a thermos flask into two cups; one for him, one for you. Despite your morning coffee, you gladly accept the little tin cup and sip on the hot liquid.

You both drink your coffee in silence. You don't mind it, in fact, you almost embrace it. Everyone else you come across in Jackson is just so happy all the time, so open and welcoming and smiling that it makes you sick. Joel's stoic silence, in comparison, is refreshing.

"So, you don't talk very much, do you." You blow on your coffee as you watch his face. He turns to you and his eyes lock onto yours where they remain for a moment. "Not really, no," he says finally. "You mind that?"

You can't help but scoff. "God, no. It's refreshing, really. Everyone else is just so... chipper, like, all the time. It's maddening." You wrinkle your nose in disgust and hear a deep chuckle coming from Joel's chest. "That they are."

When you've both finished your coffee, you get back on your horses to start on the remaining half of your patrol. It starts snowing softly, a few flakes here and there, and for a moment, you almost feel something resembling peace.

"Aren't you supposed to be bonding with me?" you quickly say before the feeling can take root. Joel looks over at you. "You heard that, hu?" "Sure did." Now it's Joel's turn to scoff. "Then you heard it was Tommy's idea, not mine."

You purse your lips but nod, your pursed lips eventually growing into a smile. "I can work with that." It's the last words you speak while the two of you control the perimeter. Even though you're not looking, you can tell Joel's smiling out of the corner of your eye.

Back at the stables, you help take the saddles off of your horses and brush them down. You're on your way to leave when you hear Joel behind you. "Y'know, this place really is safe." You don't turn around, but have stopped walking, an indicator that you're listening. "Didn't believe it m'self when I got here, but Tommy's right. They got a good thing goin' here."

"They?" You've turned around after all. Your eyes seek out his. "Thought you're a member of Jackson?"

A dry smile plays around Joel's lips. He turns from you to pick up one of his horse's behind legs. "Sure am. 'S just they're better than I am, is all," he says as he scrapes the bottom of the hoof.

You wait for him to elaborate, but he doesn't. The silence stretches between you two and it becomes clear that he's said all there is to say. "Alright." You turn and start your walk home, back to your house that's too big for just one person, but is one of the few places where people will leave you alone. Safe or not safe, it's the only place you've got to go to.

Joel straightens as you leave the stables. He watches as you make your way across the snowy grounds, away from the people and back towards the residential area. He watches and wonders what your story is before returning to the task at hand. None of my business, he tells himself and resumes his work.

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scara-writes · 1 year ago

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Knight! Reader x Y! Prince

(gender neutral for readers)

No proofreads. Forgive me for not answering y'all ask/request! I will do them once I'm done publishing the other ocs! (Y'all wilding for yandere gold digger and omega! Lol) this one is short tbh and has another part but I'm unsure about posting it because it was too long. Let me know if you wanna see it.

Warning: hints of death, yandere, psycopath

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!!!

You woke up groaning. Your throat hurts, confused at yourself. You never had a problems with your throat. Always hydrated before going to sleep, So why the hell that it feels like its dry at the same time it's not?

It's kind of like itchy.

You went down the staircase, hearing the bustling sound of your subordinate roommates.

"Captain! You look pretty tired today. Did you perha—woah! What happened to your neck?" One of your members looked shocked, their eyes looking at the said neck. The other members in the room looks at you in confusion before their face was the same as the person who asked you.

You raised your eyebrow at him. "What about it?"

You let your calloused hands caress your neck, feeling if there was out of ordinary. "Can some of you hand me a mirror? I am confused as to why everyone looked shocked right now."

One of your subordinates quickly ran around to find you a mirror. When they found it, they immediately handed it to you.

You look yourself in the mirror. Just like their reaction, you were shock to witness it.

"What... How...?"

"...It looks like a deep wound from one of our melee weapon, specifically a knife. Captain. No wounds can someone survive that!" The person sitting at the dining table said as he observe it."How did you got that?"

You shook your head,"I don't know.... I only woke up feeling my throat feels dry and fine at the same time. Itchy I would say, it doesn't hurt. It feels irritating."

"I think you should consult a physician or a doctor for that."

You trace the scar on your neck. Thoughtful, of where had you gotten this. "... I might."

You strolled up to the palace, not getting any breakfast—even dinner last night—and skipping your schedule to train as forgetting the fact that you are late to see your master, so you immediately went to the palace of your prince. The one you serve in your whole life.

Maids greeting you a good morning, and you greet them back. One of them offered you a sandwich, it looks pretty neat and delicious to eat. Drooling at the thought chewing on it. You tried to refuse but they insisted on giving it to you, seeing you didn't get a breakfast and dinner, you looked a little dizzy for someone who trained to endure without food for months. You accepted it along with a water, thanking them, feeling a little hungry and quickly gobble up the food making your way from hallway to the kitchen with them before anyone can scold you for eating around the halls. Parch from the food, you drank the water from the glass and put them on the sink before going back to your task to check up on your prince. You bid the maids a good bye.

Once you reach the room of your master. You saw there was no lady in waiting nor a butler on his doorway. So you knock on the wood, announcing yourself, waiting for your master's response to let you in.

"(Y-y/n)?" You heard a whimpering voice behind the room. It sounded like he was crying. You asked him if he was alright, but before you could get any answer from him, you saw the door being pulled opened and then finding yourself engulf by an arm around your shoulders.

"Mmm sorry—shouldn't doubt you!—my own fault!... Was supposed to trust you—love you so mmmh–much!I-I— don't l-leave m-me—hicc!" The prince cried on your shoulder, babbling incoherent words that you didn't understand. You look bewildered at his sudden burst, not expecting for someone who always smiles and befriend anyone regardless of their status. You slowly went to embrace him, comforting him, feeling him wrapping his legs around your hips and you let him, crying on your now wet uniform full of tears and snots continuing to blabber incoherent words.

You tried to let him lay down to his king sized bed but his grip on you wouldn't let you. So here you are awkwardly patting him on the back as you sat yourself on the edge of his bed instead. You were hesitant to touch his hair, it is against the rules that a lowly life like you has the audacity to touch them especially in their hair, it's a sign disrespect and could lead to a treason. But you decided to do it anyway, he needs your comfort right now and that rule doesn't apply to you if the prince needed it anyway—plus you already broke the rules when you hugged him back.

He freezes up when he felt your hands on his head before slowly taking a deep breath, sniffling, calming down from your touch. He buried his nose onto your neck, shuddering before planting a small kisses from you, whimpering.

"sssorry—hic-!ssorryyso-sorry... louvv you too..m..much.. shouldnn't...leea-hic-!leave me..."

You cannot comprehend what he was trying to say but his action made you surprised, but you let him be for now, continuing patting his back awkwardly because this isn't what you expect first thing of the day when you work.

Prince Rylle must have a nightmare for him to act like this.

"... Your highness?"

You heard him whimpered before leaning himself away from your neck, slowly looking at you. His eyes were puffy, some tears were spilling. Prince Rylle was sniffing and hiccuping from his tears.

You looked away from his eyes, indirectly obeying his older brother's words to not look straight at him. You carefully wipe away the water droplets coming out from his orbs, waiting for his nerves to calm down.

He stayed there at your lap for a few minutes, until he recollect himself.

After wiping his tears, one of your hand went to grab a handkerchief from your pocket trying to rid of the snot that was clogging his nose.

But before you can do that, the tanned male squeaks and tried to push himself off on you, falling down from your lap. Head first colliding on the floor. Thankfully, he didn't bleed.

"Your highness! Are you alright?" worriedly you went to assess his head from the impact.

"I-I'm fine!" He quickly got up, wincing from the slight concussion from his head.

"I apologize, it was my mistake for startling you. I shall be careful next time."You got up from the edge of his bed before stroking his head gently.

He looks at you, the way he gaze up to you seems like he had seen a ghost.

"... Are you really..here?" He whispered. You were puzzled by his question. "... I'm here your highness." Quickly bowing down to his level.

He walk up again to you, requesting if he could hug you again. You stood up and saw in your peripheral vision his eyes were starting to become teary again. His snot were starting to clog his nose, but you let him hold you.

You felt his arms around your waist. Hands firmly grip on your sides.

"... God, I t-thought I lost you." He whispered. Whatever nightmare that was. It must have traumatised him. You felt his tears running down again to your clothes.

"... I'm here your highness.."

"... You're really.. h-here." He whispered.

You patted his back. "... I am here."

"Today is 7th of May, Year..890." You uttered before jotting down the notes for your report. The prince was beside you, silent at his own office. He too is jotting down his report or at least he is, but you felt his gaze on you. You weren't used to the prince Infront of you being silent. He would always filled this room with his chattering, sharing his knowledge to you on what he learned from his teachers—since a commoner like you doesn't deserve education—and sometimes he would always complain about the other nobles being rude to their servants and how obnoxious they were.

So you broke the silence filling in the room. It is unusual for your master to be this silent.... And staring at you for quite some time."Is everything alright your highness?"

He didn't answer. He was still gazing at you.

"Your highness?" You repeat.

The prince snapped back to reality.

"O-oh! Yes! Yes I am! I'm-I'm still recollecting m-my thoughts about my nightmares haha!" His fake laughter died down when his gaze stayed to your neck. He frowned. He was contemplating whether or not he should ask. But he did.

"... Where did you get that? The... Scar on your neck."

You cleared your throat before feeling the scars again. Just like earlier, you didn't felt any phantom pain from it.

"... I would have tell you the reason behind it but I have no idea, your highness. I must have slip a knife drag it on my nec—" You wanted to jest about it but you got a sullen look. His face was frowning even more.

"Please, do not do it again."

"...I... Yeah. I am jesting your highness... I had woken up with a scar already imprinted on my neck." You didn't get a response after that, he avoided his look from it.

You look back at your finished report. Organizing them, putting them aside the table, before standing up. "Umm.. As much as I would like to accompany you all day, your highness. I have business to attend to with the crown prince." You didn't particularly give him the detail why you need to leave, you walked away. His brother technically assigned you on something dangerou—

"... Were you going to assassinate the southern duke who was accused of embezzlement of the empire's treasury?"

Your boots stop clacking on the tiled floor of the room, quickly turning your head back to your master. Whose eyes were blank as if he just absentmindedly told you what he said.

"... How... Where did his highness learn this... Information."

You were supposed to make him believe that everything around him is perfect. Is what your master's psychopath family told you to do. He doesn't need to know everything.

He was supposed to be completely utterly away from it and only focusing on the bright side of the kingdom.

The tanned male before you gave you a nervous smile. You realized that today he is acting weird."No! Nothing I-I was just speaking something ill! It was a mere jest, my sweet!" His hands were wavering as a sweat formed down to his cheeks, when he talks.

He was lying.

"Where did you get that information, your highness?" You looked at him, your body turning to him. Repeating your words.

He gulped, one of his hand pulled his collar a little as if he was sweating from his clothes. You noticed how his eyes were looking everywhere except your figure. He mumbled something before turning back to you, stammering."... Forgive me... I ... I overheard your meetings with my older brother that n-night."

You thought about the meeting he was talking about. It was Prince Rylle's birthday that time and he was at the very center of the attention so none of the nobles or slaves have witness you left to the garden when the his older brother, the crown prince commanded you to follow him there. You made sure before you left, the last time you saw him before you had gone to follow his highness, Prince Rylle was dancing with one of the noble ladies.

So it is not possible that he might overhear your conversation when he had to take turns on the ladies that lining up to have a dance with him.

"But you were in the middle of dancing with the lady Rub—"

"N-no! I wanted to-to find you to accompany me by the garden when you were not in your post! I found myself walking alone in the garden and then I saw with my brother! I promise I did not mean to eavesdrop on your conversation with my brother!"

That wasn't the only thing that his brother ordered you to kill someone. You would have refused if it weren't for the fact that your mother's expenses for her health wasn't increasing. But the crown prince promised salvation to your mother as long as you do what he told you. It was tempting deal but you did it, feeling pressured as if refusing that bastard's command would give you penalty of death. Was that even a deal? Plus shedding someone's blood by your own hands wasn't your forte. You are a knight that was supposed to protect Prince Rylle. You can only immobalize your enemy but you cannot bring yourself to kill.

The duke was not the only one who you need to assassinate tonight and you weren't even sure if he really did try to embezzled the treasury. You witness that old man to be strict, intimidating but he took a great care the people who serves under him and the villagers who were residing in his property. All you heard from his rumors was that he was a good leader and a good provider.

"Was that all you heard, your highness?" You were internally panicking. Not wishing to meet your punishment if one of his family heard about this. Prince Rylle needs to be pure from this world is what his family told you. He needs to be away from these secrets.

"Y-yes!"

"... Can I ask you a favor?"

His soft gaze wanders around your lips before slowly nodding. So you asked him a favor to never let his family knows about him finding out about this.

He frowned as if he realized something. The white haired male stood up from his seat and walk towards you, as he softly grabbed your hands to his. Clasping it.

"Now that Gods favored me, this time I will protect you."

" Of course, darling... I will not let them." He unclasps his hand from yours before giving you a hug. You can't quite hear the last sentence he said.

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noobsoconfusing · 1 month ago

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‘twin fantasy’_hamzahthefantastic

summary: just when hamzah thought he finally had a solid situation with you, the overwhelming feelings of being loved for the first time catch you, drown you.

angst, internet situationship au, hamzah being himself, kinda codependency, awkward, avoidant attachment issues.

>_<

if hamzah could describe the feeling of loneliness mixed with whatever the fuck being in love meant in only one word, it would reduce simply to: you.

it was the way your eyes glitched when you blinked in front of your low quality web cam, or maybe how you typed when you were in a hurry, always reminding yourself to maybe, just maybe, type something nicer so he didn’t feel like he was the problem.

so, as he stares directly at his phone screen, his eyes itchy and irritated from waiting to see you online, he decides to quickly type something to catch your attention.

hamzahthefantastic: the other night i cried while thinking of having sex with you

and so he waits. and waits, and waits.

the green dot next to your contact name appears and he cringes at himself for letting out an audible shriek of excitement.

y/n: hamzah!!!!

y/n: fr?

he smiles, shaking his head because yeah, it was for real, but also because he had gotten what he wanted. your attention.

hamzahthefantastic: lol. maybe. yeah. i dunno

hamzahthefantastic: wanna facetime?

y/n: hold on i’ll call you :)

>_<

silence. comforting moments between hazy stares and timid laughter. hamzah enjoyed this.

“your room is messy again, y/n” he mentions, peeking as much as he can from the position your webcam is in.

“yeah, i haven’t really got time to clean up… but yours is messy too!” you point, the camera glitches at your sudden loud voice.

“living alone kinda sucks, you know? at least i had my room clean when i lived with my parents, a warm plate of food too, and even allowance money!” he rolled his eyes, and you nodded.

hamzah and you had been friends ever since he lived with his parents, so you got to see the whole process of him moving to a different city, and you were there for him when he got his first place, and then his first job, and his first pets, and so on..

your heart wrenched when you realised you had lived a whole damn life by his side, however, behind a screen.

“wish i could live with you, hamzah..” you quietly say, hoping he doesn’t catch on, but he does, used to your quiet demeanour.

“me too, y/n.” a glitchy smile appears from his side of the screen, and you copy it.

and god, you love his smile. it’s so weird, so odd how the smile and physical happiness of someone that lives yet so far away from you can infect you with such joy. disgusting feelings arise from your stomach.

stupid fucking love and stupid fucking damned distance!

“for real? like, for ‘for real?” your voice shakes.

he nods with seriousness invading his face. “hell yeah, for real. i’d love to live with you, in fact, i do feel like i live with you even now, you know? we talk ever day, i see your face every- well, not every day, but enough to keep me going for the week!” he smiled, referring to those times you didn’t feel good enough to facetime, so he settled for texting, which made him equally happy.

“oh man…” you mutter. feelings enough, so damn enough. you don’t know what to do with your mind, and you don’t know why it’s racing so fast, imagining billions of scenarios.

he notices your manners. hamzah suddenly becomes self aware. scared he has said something wrong.

“are you-?”

“i love you.” you quickly cut him off, its not your intention though, just the lag delaying your confession.

confession that has already been confessed plenty of times.

“hey! i love you too!” as his soul finds its way back into his body, hamzah admits. joy suddenly running through his body like gasoline and fire consuming a wreck.

silence. you look up to stare at his pixelated frame. and he’s so beautiful. and you think this is all a damn dream.

“but do you like me?” the undertone of your sore voice makes its way throughout your sentence, betraying you.

he tilts his head like a confused puppy. you bite back a tiny smile.

“what do you mean? why are you asking that? do you not think i like you?” hey asks, confused and aching for a quick response.

you think a bit, not even knowing what you meant by that stupid question.

“nevermind, hah! it’s nonsense, really…” you try to sound convincing.

for your misfortune, hamzah knows you way better than you think.

“not nonsense, something is bugging you and i can tell.” he adjusts his headphones as he says that, trying to get a better listen at your reply.

“you.”

hamzah furrows his eyebrows at your quick answer.

“huh?”

“it bugs me that i am always thinking of you, that’s my issue, yeah?” you say, a bit more loose, “i always think about how amazing and how wonderful it wouldve been being your neighbour or your friend from school, but no, i am stuck here a thousand and a million more miles away from you and i can’t do anything to cut the distance short.” you sigh.

hamzah bites his lower lip, and he thinks, oh, how a thought you must have been saving for a long time also affects him in severe ways. he thinks the same.

“you know, y/n? i don’t think it was, you know, the amazing casualties of life that made us end up talking to each other until four in the fucking morning. you know what i think? that you were actually made for me.” he shrugs his shoulders and tries to put on a smile for you, even though he wishes he could just cry…or something.

“right.” you sigh. “hamzah, i just… i feel like my whole life revolves around you, is that weird? like, i wake up and see if you texted me while i was asleep. then i go about my day and still think about you, and then when you text me i just.. drop everything else to spend time with you.” you try to avoid the camera, or his gaze. “do you think that’s weird? am i weird?”

your face drops as he bursts out laughing.

“no! not weird at all, y/n! you see, i- okay, i do the same… you’re so pretty, inside and outside and you’re so thoughtful and so kind and beautiful and just… yourself, that i find myself thinking about you and your antics for hours, if not the whole day!” he lets out a deep sigh of satisfaction, shaking his head with a smile because letting all of his emotions out felt so fucking great.

“you’re so weird, so dumb…” you smile, even if you feel like your eyes are about to shed waterfalls of tears.

“we can be weird.” he adds. “it’s only cool if we’re both weird.” his voice is soft and low just like always. so genuine.

“right, yeah.” you smile too.

hamzah can’t help but secretly take a picture of your face, the dim lighting of your room accentuates your features perfectly and he finds himself more and more invested in you.

“yeah, right..”

>_<

hamzah’s voice fills your ears in a soothing manner.

while you carefully listen, you can’t help but dissociate from reality. your mind occupied in something you can’t really comprehend.

“…a video, like in a youtube channel, do you think that’s a good idea?” his voice slowly becomes more present, and you snap your head to his direction. “are you there…?”

“yeah, sorry, just mind fog, hah!” you reply forcing a smile.

“alright, are you okay? have you eaten today? do you wanna end the call so you can sleep?” hamzah asks and you feel a little bit dizzy from all the questions that come out of his mouth.

“yeah- no! i am fine, what were you saying about a video on youtube?” you quickly try to bring the focus to him again.

hamzah frowns so quickly that you think it’s a glitch. but he smiles right away.

“i was saying, i was thinking about posting something on youtube.” he repeats. “you think that’s a good idea?” you come to realise how hamzah always asks for your opinion, always seeking your approval.

you nod. “yeah, i think it’d be really cool, maybe you’ll get famous one day!”

his laugh fills your heart, and makes you flash a smile too.

“nah, i don’t think so, it’ll be just for fun, just to kill time, i kinda need a distraction from thinking ‘bout you all day, right?” he says.

and what he said, keeps playing in your mind for a while.

distraction. from you.

“yeah, cool!”

and you try your best to keep track of the conversation, but you’ve been so tired.

so tired.

not sleepy, somehow. just so, so fucking tired.

>_<

your surprised face comes up to the screen as this time he is wearing a grey hoodie, different from the black one he always uses.

“cute. you look like… well, something cute!” he says making the screen bigger so he can see you better.

“why?” you laugh, “something?”

“yeah, something. you know, you’re so unique i can’t even describe you or compare you to anything. i love you a lot, y/n…”

stop. please. stop.

you think. the feeling of need inside your chest hurts and burns after every word he says. after every sentence. everything reminds you that he’s so far away, that you are probably never going to touch him. never feel him.

and the screen is so cold and so hard and so lifeless, and you wonder, how can something inanimate hold your biggest desire inside? how can hamzah live inside your device? how can it hold so much meaning inside its metallic shell?

“i love you.” you bluntly say. “i love you so much it hurts and i wish you could make it stop hurting so fucking bad.” a desperate laugh erupts from your throat, one that screams for help.

“oh, baby, i wish i could hold you so close. never gonna let you go once i have you here with me, alright? im gonna glue your body to mine and we will just have to live like that…” an exaggerated version of his deep fantasy came out, but still, he was very much serious.

“sounds good.” you reply.

“fuck yeah it does” he sighs, but not defeated, just full of hope. one of you had to be hopeful, right?

“fuck yeah…” you repeated, mind fog attacking you once again.

>_<

his grey hoodie on again, and you start to think he hasn’t washed it in the full week that has passed.

it’s alright though, you love him that way.

“i keep having these… dreams about you” he says. “odd dreams, not nightmares though, just weird dreams”

“me too.” you say. the guilt of the neediness inside your tummy makes its way to your brain. eating you up.

“what about?” hamzah asks, more invested now that he knows you dream about him too.

“you first.” you deadpan.

“fantasies. really fucking good fantasies, though.”

“about?” you ask again.

“sex and… whatnot.” oh. he’s so serious and so direct and so honest.

you can’t hide your surprise, nor the blush that creeps up to your cheeks.

“oh, i guess… me too.” and your voice shakes because it’s so odd to say this out loud.

“i don’t know. im so used to you, i just imagine whats like to… well, be with you. and touch you and just feel your body against mine.”

“sometimes i feel like i crave a touch i’ve never felt before. how can i yearn for something i have never tasted?” you ask, and he opens his eyes, already wide.

“yeah, i feel the same.”

“need you, though. very badly.” a deep feeling of emptiness swallows you up. how can your bed be so empty yet you’re laying on it? how can hamzah be your twin fantasy yet he’s so far away?

“i wanna be inside you, just feel you and melt over your body and maybe then, i’ll feel complete.” hamzah has a hard time expressing his emotions with coherent thoughts, but this time you understand him completely.

>_<

it’s been minutes. and you are about to freaking win the contest. again. like the last four times.

hamzah’s eyes are red even over the bad quality camera he’s using. “y/n! please just let me win this time!” he begs, his eyes squinting. he struggles to keep them open.

and you’re perfectly fine, nonchalant even. but as you see his struggle, you give in.

“fine!”

you blink. tears fall down your cheeks from how dry your poor eyes were. you laugh.

“finally!” he celebrates. “oh god, thought i was going blind…”

“well, we’ve been on call for like five hours, the screen is gonna make us blind sooner than later” you laugh, and he does too.

“i just like talking to you.” he admits and you swear you can see a slight red tint adorning his face. he’s so adorable.

stupidly adorable. your heart aches.

“i like it too.”

you loved it, actually.

did you?

>_<

that damned grey hoodie again. and you think, it’s the third consecutive time that week.

you, however, just despised the way he looked absolutely fucking stunning in it. as if he knew it did things to you.

“what are we?” you ask, breaking the comfortable silence that surrounded you both.

you tended to do assignments together on call, sometimes he knew things you didn’t and he helped you, and viceversa.

“i am hamzah, you’re y/n and you’re my everything.” he replied, still focusing on his excel sheet.

“but what are we?” a situationship. that was it. hamzah would constantly call you pet names and tell you how much he loves you, and then drop the most horny messages about you.

“we are everything, i just said”

“that’s not an answer, hamzah, what are we? like, are we best friends, friends, lovers, or just people who talk to each other about their deepest secrets and feelings?” you closed your powerpoint and stared at the webcam.

“you’re everything to me, right? all of the above, every option, you are.” he said, still focusing on his work but at the same time on you.

silence again.

you nodded. a smile forming on your face.

“everything, then.”

>_<

your cheeks flushed at his words, you were a second away from turning your camera off from how embarrassed you were.

“you want- hamzah! you wanna what!?” you put a hand over your mouth in a surprised expression.

he laughs.

“i said i wanna fuck you, i just said!” he repeated himself, a smirk plastered on his face.

“why would you say that?” you laughed.

“because you were sad and i wanted to cheer you up!” he held his hands up in defence, his screen lagged at the sudden movement. “i’d rather have you happy than sad!”

“now im sad and flustered…” your hands went up to your cheeks, just to feel the warmth that spread across.

“hey, that’s better than sad alone.”

“you’re so dumb!”

>_<

handling your emotions was something you never knew about. and hamzah seemed to be so down to earth about what he wanted, about what he felt, that you couldn’t help but feel left behind in the emotional management area.

“gonna call it a night, im really tired, hamzah.” you said, a yawn escaping your mouth.

“oww, but- but it’s only been three hours..” his big puppy eyes stare at you, and you beat yourself up when you look at his sad face.

stop. stop!

“sorry…” you apologise. “we’ve been talking all week and i’ve been staying up till late the whole week too, we can chat during the day, though.”

he frowns but nods at the same time.

“fair, love you, have a good night!” he waves, waiting for you to say you love him back.

“good night, hamzah!” you smile, ready to end the call, but before you do so, he quickly yells;

“i said i love you…” his hopeful eyes dance across the screen, darting from your own to the smaller square with his face in it.

you pause for a moment. swallow and blink.

“oh, yeah, me too!” and there it was. your stupid feelings ruining everything.

his face drops, but somehow manages to keep a small smile. “alright, love you more, see you tomorrow?”

“yeah.”

and as if it was a race, you rush to press the ‘end call’ button.

your head spinning had you dizzy, so you throw the phone away and lay on your bed. hamzah is all you can think about.

it was like a self defence thing that was, at the same time, self destructive. you had to run away from him, you had to stop your heart from being broken. though, you didn’t think hamzah could hurt you. it was all so confusing! so dumb!

>_<

early hours of the morning, and you are not even fully awake when your phone starts buzzing from the other side of the room.

you rub your sore eyes and groan. every time you woke up it felt like an accomplishment. it was such a struggle, you just wanted your bed to swallow you.

hamzahthefantastic: good morning :D

hamzahthefantastic: kinda went to sleep with a tiny little concern last night…..

hamzahthefantastic: are you mad at me?

the last thing you wanted was to make him upset, however, there was a certain part of his whole attention and sort of devotion –to you– that made you upset.

y/n: gm!

y/n: im not mad at you

hamzahthefantastic: for real?

hamzahthefantastic: you seemed upset last night, kinda zoned out idk

y/n: just tired ngl

hamzahthefantastic: alr it’s fine dw

hamzahthefantastic: i love you a lot y/n

hamzahthefantastic: have a good day today yeah? get some rest, make sure to eat PROPER food, and also don’t forget that i love you :)

you stared at his texts for a little too long, then locked your phone. then unlocked it again. stared some more and then bit your lip, thinking of a reply.

hamzah. yeah. you loved him! how could you not? you had been fixated on him since you two met. why, then, the feelings of overwhelming love now creeped into your brain like flesh eating amoeba?

y/n: ily too!

you frowned. the text was so dry.

y/n: <3

better.

and the reason?, simple. hamzah’s love felt like it was tearing you apart. suffocating you. nobody had ever loved you, or showed remote interest in you like hamzah did.

was he too much? no. you shook your head, thinking then, maybe, you were not enough.

your phone buzzed, and you knew it was him. but you couldn’t get to check.

>_<

per usual, at the end of the day, your routine of facetiming had to be completed. hamzah took his phone and typed a message for you.

hamzahthefantastic: hey! wanna facetime?

hamzahthefantastic: could use to hear your voice :) been thinking ‘bout u all day

11 minutes passed. no response from you.

hamzahthefantastic: helloooooooo

hamzahthefantastic: :( are you there?

hamzahthefantastic: is it ok if i call you?

hamzahthefantastic: miss you y/n

hamzahthefantastic: did i do anything wrong? please call when u see this alr?

hamzah waited. and waited. and waited some more. almost how he waited for you to reply after sending a weird message. this time though, something inside his gut felt different.

it felt like he had fucked something up. ruined whatever the fuck he had going on with you. a something that meant so much, only so much to him.

he was confused.

>_<

waiting felt like skinning himself alive.

like trying to dissect his own heart while it was still beating. beating hard. beating for you.

he opened his chat with you, the only chat he had pinned. hamzah scrolled through all the unread messages he had sent to you, and they seemed uncountable.

no reply. it’s been days.

he sighed. twin fantasy feeling like a fantasy he was only living by himself all along. were you even real?

hamzah couldn’t get himself to doubt you.

>_<

hamzah’s heart clenched. he stared at his messy room, at how the plates piled up on his night table, at how he had your chat open on his laptop to see if you got online any time soon.

he felt like a loser.

>_<

days became weeks. and weeks became a month. and a month was something so long in hamzah-time.

and he still held on.

however, he decided to type out something for you again. just as he did daily.

hamzahthefantastic: hey y/n, hi. how’s everything going? you know, i miss you a lot. more than i can take. and i miss your voice and your face. and most importantly i miss your company. it’s okay, though. i am hoping one day we can reunite, i secretly know this is one of your plans to make me want you even more -_- …but baby, please just come back, yeah? i feel so weird and out of place if you’re not here. i wonder if you’re lonely and i wish i could touch you so i just touch my screen. does that make me a loser? i love you so much, i hope you know that. hurts when you don’t reply, and hurts more realising you probably never will again. please be okay. i love you a lot. and i am sort of tearing up right now, does that make me a loser too? ily

ps. thank you for being my best friend and my best everything (you’re literally my life though) i’ll wait as long as you need!

ps2. i’ll try tomorrow, maybe you’ll be online by then

ps3. i still fantasise about you!

silly, he thought. a loser, a hopeless romantic living so far away from his muse. just a twin flame dancing on his own, by now.

a twin fantasy lived through the eyes of one, only.

>_<

sorry i took so long and sorry this is proper shit. i wanted an excuse to write something other than fluff or smut. i hope you ppl like dis one! (my shitty take at angst) raise ur hand if this ever happened to u totally not based on a true story

#slushy noobz #slushynoobz #hamzahthefantastic #hamzah fluff #hamzah x y/n #hamzah fic #hamzah x reader #hamzah imagines #hamzahsmut #hamzah angst #slushy virus #hamzah fanfic #thatmartinkid #light angst #angst no comfort #avoidant attachment #yeah so i am a csh fan so what

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rainee-da · 6 months ago

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Hello how's your day!! I wanna request fluff for the Walkis (the six critters) if that's okay... Thank you very much!!!!

URGRHRH I JUST RLLY LIKE YOUR WRITINGS HUEGSGSJAJKAK

🍀 Lay Down in Their Lap [2]

CHARACTER ❥ Lévis Rosequartz 🧲 / Charles Contini 📞 / Galuf Gargaron 👅 / Kenny Clark 🧊 / Malcolm Curtis 🪲 / Lovie Rosequartz ⚡

W A R N I N G ⚠️ R-15 for suggestive themes on some / BIG SPOILER for anime watchers!!!! / might be too OOC for you.

L É V I S R O S E Q U A R T Z 🧲

Scarlet red creeped from his neck up to his face. He stares at you with a bewildered look, unable to comprehend your 'ridiculous' request.

"H-huh?! Y-you want t-to... s-sleep... my l-lap... are you insane?! Stop acting like an idiot!" he shrieked as he scooted back to the edge of the bench.

He tried. He swears to the mightiest God or Goddess up there that he tried his absolute best to stay firm. He tried to kept a stern posture while you're looking at him like a kicked puppy.

After all, laying on people's lap in broad daylight on school ground is too lovey-dovey! too scandalous!

What would everyone think?! What would his FATHER think?!

But his resolution dwindling as rapidly as it could when you asked him again. This time fully utilizing those puppy-eyes to its maximum capacity.

"F-Fine! Just do whatever you want!" he snapped with an angry tone as he finally scooted closer and slumped his back against the bench, grabbing his abandoned book and flipping it to random page.

His mind is gearing at a rapid pace as he tried to calm his nerves, his damaged eyes now started to feel itchy. That's fine though, just act as if you didn't care and all would be fine, right?

The rumble in his mind shatters when he finally felt that soft pressure against thighs. He, embarrassingly, lets out a high-pitched low screech and he almost bang his nape to the bench.

"I-Idiot! Stop moving around so much!" he barked weakly as he squirmed in his seat, while you simply nuzzle onto his thighs. Uncaring of his outward misery.

He swears to God you'll make him die from heart attack one of these days…

He gulped, face scarlet red and teeth gritting as he stares down at your peaceful expression. His brain fixated onto your facial features, silently making it his new fixation.

His hand moves to move the strand that is in the way of your face. And his index finger accidentally brush against your lips...

Why is it moist? Can he try it-

Your face will ended up being littered with a bunch of tiny shred of paper. Because the man above you is apparently too nervous and ending up grinding down on his book with his teeth.

C H A R L E S C O N T I N I 📞

"Y-yes? Sure, sure... of course, Mama... W-what? My voice? O-oh, I'm just cold... It's winter a-after all.. Yes, yes, of course I'm using the b-blank...kkket.... you gave me... Really, I'm fine!"

The one and only Charles Contini is, in fact, not fine. His face is currently match that of a boiling hot kettle.

His body trembles, hand almost dropping his phone as he attempts (but failed) to gave you his meanest death-glare.

But you didn't care. You just swing your head on his thigh mischievously then get your head back inside his shirt, doing whatever you want.

His other hand desperately yanked the fabric of your clothes, teeth gritting and in the break of speaking to his mother on the phone he mouthed to you a word 'please', his lips is now visibly trembling.

You, somehow had managed to make him hate talking to his mother right at this moment.

"Y-yeah yeah... Mama, I reallly think I gotta-Hhhah... Y-yeah really, I'm fine... I swear I'm fine! N-now Igottagobyeeee-" click, finally the torture is over.

He exhales loudly as he plopped his body on the bed. He rolled his body to the side, forcefully ripping you out of his lap. He mumbles, "You're unbelieveable," as he rubbed his face with his palm.

You though, didn't care. You simply take a peek to his face with a smug look on your face, clearly satisfied. Fueling his irritation more.

Out of nowhere though, the tables has turned. He startling you by moving so fast and now you're pinned down on the bed, with him on top of you.

He smirked at you, tilting his head to the side. He looks so menacing... and hot.

"Mama said that I shouldn't play rough with others... but," he purrs quietly as his hand roamed to your sides, and his other hands pick up the strand of your hair and brings it to his mouth, giving it a peck.

His head leans closer, breath brushing againts the skin of your neck and he let out a low chuckle. Your reaction is simply too adorable.

"... I think a punishment is due, don't you think?"

Don't be weird lol he just tickled your sides lmaoooo of course I'm not insinuating anything hahahahhahaa-

G A L U F G A R G A R O N 👅

"I-is this okay? Are you comfortable?" he stutters nervously, both of his hand hovers awkwardly over your relaxes figure on his lap, not knowing where to put it.

On your hair? What if he accidentally yank it? On your stomach? What if he pushed on it too hard? On your chest? Uh-

He snapped out of his turmoil when you mentioned that his shaking hand is currently sweating a river, and it's dripping down on you.

"Huh?! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to please don't hate me-" please guide this poor lad. He never done this with anyone ever before. He's seriously gonna combust into acid mess!

His jitter and stutter earning him a few sore spot in his tongue due to him accidentally biting into it when trying to talk or move. It's a wonder that he managed to NOT bite it off.

His breath hitches when you grabbed his hand gently and guide it to rest flat on your hair, telling him to try playing with it as a start. THIS IS THE START?!

He swears if he accidentally hurt you he'll yank his limb off.

As the time passed by though, he started to calmed down as his mind focused on each strand of your hair. A faint blush tinted his cheek and by the time you realized it, he's in the middle of braiding your hair into a tiny parts. All the time checking your facial expression for any sign of discomfort.

His eyes rounded into what seemed like a doe-eye and his face relaxed, the corner of his mouth is quirked upwards into a small smile. He seems happy... until-

"WHAT'CHA LOOKING AT?!" He suddenly barked with eyes glaring to the side. Panicked, your head follows his direction and you saw his gang standing over there with face full of variation of expression.

Before you managed to speak your mind, your boyfriend's voice boomed across the place as he barked the word "SCRAM", making those group of teens scramble away into obscurity, almost stumbling onto each other.

"They're so noisy, I swear to God..." he mumble quietly, his eyes trailing back to meet your surprised expression. He avert his eyes shyly and he's back to his previous mode, stumbling over his word.

"I-I'm sorry, you must be surprised right?" he stated meekly as his hand silently encouraging you to lay back on his lap. "It's just my friends, they're being noisy as per usual. I hope I didn't scare you..."

Honestly, the duality of this man is mind-boggling.

K E N N Y C L A R K 🧊

"Calm down, no one's gonna now," he said nonchalantly, patting your hair without looking at you as his hand flipped through the pages of his module.

The both of you are in the library right now, and as it should be; nobody should be flirting in the library. Getting caught holding hands in itself will earn the culprit an one-day ban from accessing the library.

But did your boyfriend care? Of course not.

Because if he cares you wouldn't be in this situation right now; head pressed down onto his lap with one hand while he busying himself, studying for finals.

He reasoned that your love is his 'battery', therefore you should be 'charging him'. Whatever that means.

Sometimes he'll look down on his lap to check on you. He'll pinch on your cheek to make you look at him and he'll blow you a kiss. With a face devoid of any emotions.

Though his face seems stoic, he's actually secretly gushing inside his mind. He swears that that your misery flustered face is so adorable! That blushing cheek, wavering eyes... it brings warm to his chest.

All of that gushy-mushy inside his mind, while you're nervously checking around the room. Afraid to find the librarian striding in without any time for you to react.

The both of you have been banned from the library for far too many times. And finals week is not the ideal time for that to happen.

Noticing your distress, he closed his eyes and sighed softly. His hand relaxed and he stopped putting pressure onto your head. Giving you a chance to finally scrambled out of his lap and act normal!

But that's too boring for him.

That's why now he wrapped his hand around your shoulder and pulling you closer. Effectively making you lean on his shoulder.

But that's not enough for him, no! so he uses his hand to tilted your head upwards, making you face him while he leans closer to rubbed the tip of his nose to yours. Enjoying the reaction he earned from you.

"Rest assured, my angel," he mumbled quietly, intentionally breathing through his mouth so it would brush onto your lips. "After all, our love is always stealthy, it will flies under the radar." yikes

You might be hallucinating but you swear that you saw a glimpes of his lips quirked upwards slightly as he leans closer slowly, tilting his head, almost touching your lips...

"MR. CLARK WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING IN MY LIBRARY?!"

On a positive note, if you get a bad grades for final, you're free to blame him now! Yay!

M A L C O L M C U R T I S 🪲

"Are you bored, my dear?" his voice is calm and soothing as he push the strand of hair that is in your face to the side, his other hand is brushing through the back of your hair gently.

He look to the side and stares at his fishing equipment that he put up by the edge of the river. It's been an hour and no fish has taken the bait yet.

He's not surprised though. Fishing is a long, waiting game after all. Especially if one decides to not use a lure. For him though, that's what makes it even more satisfying if he managed to catch one.

You lay on the grass with your head on his lap. Moaning and groaning about 'stupid fish not knowing what a fine cuisine is'. A low chuckles escapes his mouth, muffled by the tube in his mouth.

"Well, it's indeed taking longer than usual for fish to take my bait. I'm experimenting with the new bug after all," and that made you pouted. Something that he adores the most.

He's always hesitant to bring you with him fishing, knowing that you'll not be entertained. But for some reasons you always insisting on coming along, and every time his lap always ended up as your pillow.

Not that he minded though. You seemed relaxed and content as you nuzzle onto his thigh. And that's all he wanted, for you to be comfortable around him.

Not many people can bear to look at his... face. People often stated that 'it's the face that can only be loved by his mother'.

Not you though... you seems to think that his face is ethereal, as if he's one of Michelangelo's masterpiece. He never knew why you seems to think that way... but it warms his heart.

You suddenly shrieked, almost making him jump to defensive position and activate his magic. He frantically look to the side and his eyes widened when his fishing rod had finally started to twitch.

He moves away as you woke up from his lap and quickly keep a hold to the fishing rod, slowly reeling it in and strategically stopped to not startle anything that is currently taking his bait.

Meanwhile his heart thump against his chest, hearing you yelling encouragements to him as if you're a cheerleader.

And... voila! It's a baby catfish.

He stares at the wiggling little fish at the end of of his rod with a deadpanned expression, while you currently laughing your ass off.

He looks towards your direction, and he was stunned in silence as he stares at your amused face. It was simply... beautiful.

He knew his hobby is boring for you. But if it can make you laugh like this... he hopes you'll never get bored coming along with him.

He feels serene, at peace, all because of you.

L O V I E R O S E Q U A R T Z ⚡

"Oh, Hi... sorry, but Lévis is not here" he greets you with a soft voice as you come to his room, closing the book he's been reading and giving you his full attention as you walked to his bed.

His eyes widened in surprised when you, as usual, told him that you're here to hang out with him. A faint blushes painted his cheek as he let out a sweet laugh, "Oh, of course! please, come sit by me. I was starting to get bored myself."

He never gets used to you visiting him for some reasons. Even after a year of him being sick and losing his magic, he never did.

After being bedridden, it's rare for him to met people other than Lévis. His father never even consider him exist anymore, deeming him to be a defective product.

Maybe the last time he met his father was more than half a year ago? when he dragged him to this room?

All of that didn't surprised him though, he was just happy that his brother didn't meet the same fate as him. He believes all of this happen as a karma for never tried to stand up for his brother.

For you to stick around and visiting him every other weekend though, just to hang out with him and nothing else, is never failed to surprised him. I mean, why? he was weak now, everybody leaves, why won't you?

He giggles as he scoots a bit to give you space. As per usual, you'll get on his bed and put your head on his lap. Hugging his thin thigh in a koala grip as if it's your lifeline.

The pressure was a bit too tight, but it was fully welcomed. The extra warmth from your body is radiating and creeping to his heart, warming the negative thoughts away.

"How was school? anything interesting?" he questioned while brushing his hand to your hair, and his sweet smile never fades as he listens to your story. His eyes radiating with adoration as he stares down at you.

For him, your story was always interesting. Even if all you gonna talk in your entire visit is only about the shitty new cafeteria menu you had on school, it was all very interesting for him.

If you mentioned about his smile towards you, he'll giggle and cup your cheeks before giving your lips a small peck, "It's because I love you so much. You're so cute!"

Any reactions you gave him after that will earned you more peck for him. Don't scoot away from his lap though, he'll be sad! and he'll use his entire energy if he should to drag you back to his lap.

In his weakened state, all whom stay by his side other than Lévis is only you. For him, you're the breathe of fresh air in this cramped, lavish space.

Your existence stuck in his mind, and it's what keeps him going through the day as he dealt with the illness in his body.

As he pressed his forehead on top of yours, he mutters a soft 'thank you' before sighing, enjoying your presence by his side.

He'll trade everything in the world, for you to stay by his side... forever.

By the way, Lévis is currently outside of his room the entire time, holding a tray of food, wondering if he should go in and become a cockblock or not.

I'm currently as good as a constipated bull right now And THANK YOUUUUU SM BOO I'M HAPPY THAT YOU LIKE MY WRITING! 😭😭😭 UEEEEEEEEEEEE-

Since you didn't specify what type of scenario you would want me to write, I used this prompt to write for them. If this is not what you mean, feel free to send another request!!!

I put Lovie in as a curve ball because I'm curious on how I myself would interpret a character that only appeared in the few panels. But unexpectedly Malcolm ended up being the hardest one. I paused writing for a day just because of him lol.

Anyway, thank you @doughnuts-eater for your request! Sorry it takes too long for me to write! I hope you and everyone else will enjoy this one too! 🍀

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heavqn · 11 months ago

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coriolanus snow x fem!reader (1.5K words)

it’s easy to get caught up in his trap. if you’re not careful, you’re gonna get snatched right up.

“Coryo! I cannot find my dress. Did you move it?” His eyes rolled. Why on Earth would he touch her dress? It’s not like he was gonna wear it. He replied, “No, I did not. You might consider checking other rooms rather than scavenging through the same one over and over.”

The slight tinge of attitude didn’t go unnoticed by his wife, but she said nothing. She knew it was in their shared closet; she had set it at the front of the rack herself just before bed. His attitude wasn’t the only thing she ignored. She progressed through the rows of clothing hung up on her side, determined to prove him wrong.

She didn’t understand where this sudden urge to be right came from but she pushed that thought back. The interview was in half an hour. She had approximately ten minutes to get her dress found and on before they had to leave. Traffic in the Capitol at this hour was hell, even for the President and his Lady.

Coriolanus was ready to leave. He hated waiting and he also hated having to repeat himself. Two things he was currently enduring. “Have you checked the guest room?” His tone was harsh and lacked any true concern for his wifes current state.

She was clearly distressed and a little help with less criticism from her husband would ease her. “No I did not. I know I put it in here. I’m not daft.” He felt his hands subconsciously curl into a fist by his side. He had never entertained thoughts of harming his wife until now. Her incompetence and lack of common sense infuriated him to no extent.

He saw the mess she had made of their shared closet and felt himself getting closer to that line of violence. That was a space for the both of them and she had destroyed it. Who does she think she is? This was the President’s house. Not some low-life district cabin.

Instead of indulging his oh-so-pleasant thoughts at the moment, he walked to the guest room adjacent to his own. To no surprise, the dress in its lacey, red entirety was hung in the closet. With no other thoughts besides getting the hell out of the house, he snatched the dress from its place and brought it back to his wife.

She sat atop the considerably small pile of clothes she had pulled from the hangers and drawers; mascara running and a hideous brown dress flared out by her sides. She had given up any hope of finding the dress when she saw Coriolanus come in earlier out of the corner of her eye.

She didn’t even want to attend the interview anymore. She looked crazy and the dress didn’t do much to help that. He would agree. The brown wasn’t a pleasing dark color; it was light and slightly irritating to the eyes. He swore at that moment he’d have that dress burned whilst they were out.

She heard him before she saw him. His black, polished shoes clacked against the hardwood flooring of their home as he approached her. “I can’t find it. I looked through the whole closet multiple times.” Her voice was soft in volume but hoarse. Her throat was itchy and she couldn’t shake the feeling that she’d failed at the one thing she was responsible for: getting dressed.

When no response or acknowledgment was returned, she looked back up at him. And there it was. She stood hurriedly, grabbing the dress from his grasp. “Where was it?” “In the guest room.”

“How did it get in there?” “I don’t know.” She gave him a quizzical look, trying to decipher whether or not he was being honest. She decided on the latter. His lack of words tipped her off. Coriolanus wasn’t a talkative man, but in the privacy of their own home, he was never so quick and dismissive with her.

“Why did you move it?” Her question earned a scoff and the shake of his head. “Can you just change so we can–” “No, I will not. Not until you’re honest.” She stayed glued in her spot, arms crossed as she waited for him to speak.

“Why would I move your dress? What possible motive could I have to do so?” He pushed back. His words ran through her head and she found herself shorthanded. Though it was at this moment she had a realization: Coriolanus Snow was never wrong.

“Because you always have to be right!” The sudden boom of her voice startled him but he didn’t show it. Typical. “I can’t even complain about my food without you stepping in to try and reprimand me like a child.”

He laughed. He fucking laughed at her. “I can’t tell whether or not you’re being serious. Are you still upset over the steak?” “Yes, I am! Because it was fucking co–” “It was not–” “It was MY FOOD. I KNOW WHAT WAS WRONG WITH IT.”

The silence that fell over them held a new found awkwardness and tension. He could hear the in and out of her breath, watching as her chest heaved up and down. Coriolanus wasn’t frightened often, but right now he sure as hell was.

They never fought. He was in new territory but he couldn’t let that stop him from standing his ground. He wasn’t lying about the dress. He knows there are times where he can be a bit dismissive of her problems but he’s the President. He has more important things to worry about; however, he wouldn’t dare speak that out loud.

“I didn’t move your dress. I suppose it could’ve been the maid.” He spoke with a sense of genuinity. It was hard to tell what was real and what was fake. Coriolanus was a charming man but he couldn’t twist his way out of this. Not when it's happened so many times, unrecognized.

She huffed. She hadn’t realized she had been holding her breath as she waited for his answer. It must’ve been a habit at this point. “I know my issues may seem insignificant to yours and that’s fine; I’ve come to accept that. But as your wife, you owe me your word. I don’t know what this marriage means to you, what I mean to you, but to me, you mean the whole world. I ask very little of you so I am asking you here and now, did you move the dress?”

“No.” She broke down. Hysterical sobs as she fell to the floor once again. How could he stand there and lie straight to her face? “Do not cry. You have no means to cry. I’m giving you my word; I did not move that dress. Why can’t you believe me?” He got down on his knees, cradling her face in his hands as he moved to wipe her falling tears with his thumbs. “Don’t you trust me?”

She looked up at him. Her eyes were watering but not as much anymore, and her cheeks held the plump redness due to her sudden outburst. She said not a word. The sudden yell for the maid rang heavy in her ears.

When she appeared at the doorway of their closet, she was dismissed as quickly as she had come. “You’re fired.” Coriolanus offered no further explanation as the maid stood there, dumbfounded at the sudden dismissal.

After she was escorted away, Coriolanus resumed his position in front of his wife. “Did that mean anything to you?” He asked her. “You did that to save your own ass. You only care about you. About being on top and in control. So no, Coriolanus, that didn’t mean anything to me.”

“I would sacrifice the whole world if it meant you were happy. I’d take out all of Panem just to make you smile. You are my biggest ‘what if’. Everything I do, I do it with the thought of you. I don’t know how you are so unaware of that.”

His declaration had her heart pounding. Coriolanus rarely even said he loved her. She had lost all feeling besides guilt. Guilt because how was she so naive? He is her husband. He wouldn’t lie to her. How blind must she be that she can’t even realize that?

“I’m sorry.” He smiled gently at her. “Nothing to apologize for. Mistakes happen.” He stroked her hair, twirling it once he got to the end. “It’s so easy to get lost in what we want, so much so that we forget who we’re hurting. I know you didn’t mean to hurt me, did you?” She shook her head, tears welling up in her eyes because of how she had hurt him. She was cruel.

He pulled her into a hug. Her face found comfort in the crevice of his neck as he rocked her back and forth, shushing her like a child. “As long as you are my wife, there is no need to think. I will tend to your every need. You don’t need anything or anyone else besides me,” He pulled her face to level it with his, looking straight into her eyes.

“Okay?” “Okay.”

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heavyeditsnz · 3 months ago

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Wipe(d)out (part 2)

so this one turned out to be way longer than i thought... but here it is! the long awaited second half of this lil' saga! i hope you're all ready for more gay sneezy cephalopod fluff >:3

srsly tho yall have no idea how much fun it is writing these two

tags: M/M, cold sneezes, hurt/comfort-adjacent, a few stifles and holdbacks (and subsequent egging on to not do that)

CWs: there's no egregious mess, but definitely a step up from part 1

word count: 5k

Asahi awoke to find himself alone in a car and parked in front of a pharmacy.

A strained groan of discomfort escaped him as he blinked his bleary eyes open and looked around the tiny space, gingerly stretching out his stiff legs as his fever-addled mind tried to catch up. Just a few minutes ago he was in the lobby with Ren, and now he was… in a car, feeling hot and sweaty and barely able to breathe through his nose.

As he pushed himself up he gave a thick, useless sniffle as he roughly rubbed the sleep from his eyes and sat up in the car’s seat, drowsily thumbing at his chapped nose and cringing as his fingers came back wet. He couldn’t have been asleep for long and yet the congestion had returned in full force; his irritated sinuses nearly compacted with inky snot that still threatened to drip down his chapped upper lip, like both of his nostrils had been sealed off with glue… or wet concrete, Asahi thought bitterly. For now he was stuck taking shallow breaths through his mouth, at least until he could blow his nose.

There was no doubt about it at this point, he was feeling awful. Not only physically, but there was a nagging guilt trying to worm its way into the back of his mind, about having to cancel his plans with Ren today, having him drop everything just to take care of him…

Still exhausted from his short nap, Asahi swiped his chapped nose on his hoodie sleeve, wincing as the rough fabric rubbing against raw skin started to sting. His eyes watered as his nose scrunched and wiggled, the wall of congestion shifting in his head and making him feel heavy and hot and all-around gross.

Where was Ren? Still foggy with delirium, he squinted and tried to peer into the building’s windows and seeing only blurred blobs in front of him, wincing as the dull throbbing in his head grew worse as he tried to look. Maybe… not doing that was a good idea, and he slumped back into the car seat with a rough sigh that immediately turned into a coughing fit that left him wheezing and reeling.

The seats were hot, strangely enough, soothing on his aching body and warm enough to keep him from shivering. He reached up to swipe at his nose, rubbing against his hoodie sleeve as he shuffled around trying to make himself comfortable again. Occasionally he’d glance out of the windows; he didn’t really recognize this area of town… that, or his feverish mind wasn’t allowing him to recognize it. Everything was starting to sway and shift around again and Asahi gripped the door’s handle as he waited for his vision to stop spinning and swirling every which way.

With no one else in the car, the sick Octoling was left alone with only the radio and his fever-addled thoughts. The thumping bass from the sound system sent uncomfortable vibrations through his aching body, even when he leaned to rest his feverish head on the seat belt, even with the volume this low. He’d only laid down for a second before the buzzing from the speakers began to irritate his sinuses, already sensitive and all-around overworked.

The hitching came on fast, though weak and unstable, and Asahi wiggled and scrunched his quivering nose, attempting to dislodge the itchy buildup somehow before it got too annoying. His hands were quivering, unsure of whether to try and catch the inevitable eruption into his hands or the crook of his elbow.

Asahi’s eyes were wet with itchy tears as the buzzing behind his eyelids grew more and more overwhelming, needling across his tortured sinuses and barely moving. His hitching breaths grew more jagged and desperate, and suddenly he reeled back with his shaky hands now awkwardly cupped and braced for impact as his watery eyes finally flickered shut… and just as quickly the teasing itch spiked and suddenly receded, and all that came out was a shaky sigh.

…Asahi slumped against the heated seat. That was… weird.

With another thick sniffle he swiped at his raw nostrils and tried to relax a little, leaning back and letting the heated seat soothe his achy body. This was Yui’s car, wasn’t it? She was the only person he knew with heated seats and a sound system like that. At least he wasn’t somewhere entirely unfamiliar, this bringing a small amount of comfort to the ill Octoling.

Maybe a few extra minutes of shut-eye wouldn’t hurt, Asahi thought to himself as he settled in. His eyelids grew heavy as he laid still, warm and comfortable with something to chase that persistent chill away, and he would have dozed off again if the static behind his eyes hadn’t suddenly alighted with renewed fury.

"—eH'pSSHIEW!!"

The itch behind his eyes spiked and with a shaky gasp Asahi pitched forwards without thinking, hitting the dashboard with a small but noticeable misty spray of saliva. He gave a dizzy groan as he resurfaced, muffling a liquidy sniffle into the wrist of his (now well-used) hoodie sleeve as he struggled to stem the warm, inky gunk threatening to spill out of his cold-ridden nose.

Yikes… that was a little too close for comfort. Asahi had just barely avoided a mess.

He’d snuff the mess back up as best he could, but he could only go without blowing for so long.

Now with his leaky nose buried into his sleeve, a desperate attempt to stem the flow of inky snot threatening to drip down his upper lip, his eyes darted around the car interior in a desperate search for something he could blow into. There had to be a napkin or something laying around… He wished he kept his mask on.

His sniffling increased in frequency as he frantically searched the car, but there wasn’t a single tissue nor paper napkin in sight much to his dismay. “sdrrrk-- Ohh, God…” Asahi muttered to himself as he searched the glove box for anything resembling a napkin or a travel pack, thickly sniffling back another wave of snot threatening to leak out… and wincing as the inky gunk rippling against his overworked and inflamed sinuses sparked another burning itch behind his eyes, deep-seated and spreading agonizingly slow. There had to be something here, anything…

“h’heh–... hehh–!...”

Asahi’s vision went fuzzy as the urge to sneeze crept up on him, and he hurriedly pressed the flat of his tongue to the roof of his mouth, stalling the tickle and buying some more precious time.

God, not now! There was a hefty chance he’d drench himself and Yui’s car if he couldn’t hold back, and Asahi wasn’t sure if the sleeves of his hoodie could take any more damage.

Still, he’d sniffle again and roughly wipe his chapped, leaky nose on his hoodie sleeve and searched in vain for a napkin he could use… too caught up in his desperate search to notice Ren making his way back to the car, too focused on keeping his runny nose under control to hear the car’s doors unlock and then open.

“Oh hey, you’re finally up.” Ren’s voice startled the sick Octoling out of his near trance, visibly flinching in surprise at his return. He probably looked pathetic, with his runny nose buried in his hoodie sleeve while he desperately searched for something to blow into while Ren stepped into the driver’s seat. “You were out the whole ride here. Passed out almost as soon as we left the lobby. Figured you needed some sleep, so I didn’t wanna wake you…”

So that’s why he barely remembered having left the lobby…

“Got you a few things, too.” In Ren’s hands were a few plastic bags, likely filled with all sorts of cold supplies and remedies… and hopefully some tissues. He reached over the seat, about to deposit the grocery bags on the back seat and out of his reach when Asahi finally found his voice.

“R-Ren?” He’d gasp out despite the crack in his tone. “I-I need a tihh-” His voice went shaky as the itch in his nose from before suddenly reignited, and Asahi couldn’t finish his sentence before his eyes squeezed shut and he wrenched forwards with a desperate “hiI’gKSSCHHIIEW!!!” -- into the waiting sleeve of his hoodie, drenching the fabric in a barely contained shower of snot and inky mist.

The damp spot was the first sensation he clocked, then the unmistakable, uncomfortable warmth now oozing out of his nose and onto his upper lip… and Ren’s eyes on him, as Asahi woozily blinked back itchy tears and tried wiping his leaky nostrils on his ruined sleeve, but for all his effort this only managed to spread the mess around… and to add insult to injury, he needed to sneeze again, and before he knew it he was already reeling back, with barely any time to see Ren’s expression before he lurched forwards again into his soiled sleeves, soaking the hoodie in more inky snot. “hI’H-... hE’gKSSHHUHh!!”

One of the first things Asahi was aware of when the haze in his head finally settled were the tips of his ears absolutely burning in shame.

He withered underneath Ren’s stunned stare as hot stinging tears began to well up in his eyes and spill over his cheeks, and before he even realized it he was quietly whimpering, ineffectively sniffling back the deluge of snotty ink oozing out of his nose and soaking into his sleeves.

So much for avoiding a mess.

He wasn’t sure what he was expecting when he finally glanced up at Ren; probably shock or disgust at how snotty and all around miserable he looked as he tried to avoid looking into the Inkling’s eyes… and finding neither of his own expectations.

“H-Hey! What’s wrong?!”

The sudden explosion definitely made Ren jump, of course, but his startled look quickly melted away once he caught sight of the tears bubbling up in Asahi’s eyes, and he quickly reached behind the driver’s seat for one of the plastic bags.

The immediate concern for him caught Asahi off guard; his tear-filled glassy eyes went wide, like a minnow entrapped by an angler fish’s light. And yet the only reply he could muster up was a thick sniffle and a pathetic whimper, slightly flinching as Ren reached over to rub behind one of his rounded ears.

It took a while for Asahi to muster up a response, and at that point the dam caved in.

“I-I feel awful…” he finally admitted, even as he shrunk away from Ren’s touch. “I mb’essed u’b our pla’ds and rui’ded everythi’g a’d… a-a’d I just feel gross!” He eventually choked out a quiet sob, his body shuddering with each shaky inhale, with little hiccups and useless sniffles in between, and Ren sighed softly once he realized how unnecessarily guilty his partner had been feeling… and all over getting sick, no less.

With no other response he then moved his hand to stroke across Asahi’s cheek, delicately wiping away his boyfriend’s tears despite the sniffling and his attempts to pull away. He frowned, almost as if the teary look of shame on his partner’s pale face had him feeling guilty as well-- he had to do something.

“Hey. Look at me.”

With his other hand he took hold of his partner’s chin, gently pulling him close so that he was facing Ren despite his weak attempts at escape. The sudden boldness had the desired effect, stunning Asahi so that he was completely still, and once he had his attention he shifted that hand to rub behind Asahi’s ear. “You are not gross, okay?” he spoke firmly. “Why would I be mad at you for getting sick?”

Asahi sputtered. “B-But…”

“No buts,” Ren quickly silenced his boyfriend’s protests with a kiss to his warm forehead. “You’re not a burden, Asahi. You didn’t ‘ruin’ anything, I promise. So what if we couldn’t practice today? We can always come back when you’re in better shape, yeah?”

And then he pulled him in across the seats for a hug, despite the thick sniffling ringing in Ren’s ears and his arm still held up to his face, and even moved to rub his back- unmoving even as Asahi eventually wrapped his own free arm around him- leaning into his boyfriend’s warmth as the tears in his eyes began to dry, muttering a weak ‘tha’g you’ into his boyfriend’s neck before pulling away.

Now that the tears had stopped, there was something else Ren had to attend to-- namely, that leaky nose of his.

“C’mon, let me see the damage,” he’d prod as he grabbed Asahi’s wrist and gently pulled his arm from underneath his dripping nose. The fabric on his sleeves had definitely taken the brunt of the damage, with a thin line of snot connecting his leaky nostrils to the stain on his wrist.

Ren noted a few smaller, dried stains on that sleeve, and a quick offhand glance revealed similar small streaks on the hoodie’s other sleeve. And all while Asahi continued to avoid eye contact, still looking embarrassed about the mess on his hoodie. Just how long had he been doing this? No wonder his boyfriend’s nose was all raw and chapped if he’d been using his hoodie sleeves as a snot rag for who knows how long.

“Old habits die hard, eh?” Ren joked in an attempt to lift his sick boyfriend’s spirits, only getting an exhausted half-chuckle in reply.

“It’s nothing a pre-soak can’t fix, though,” he would decide as he popped open the box of tissues he just bought and swiped up a few, then pressed the clump around Asahi’s nose— gently lifting his head so that he could gaze into his glassy, unfocused eyes, and stopped for a moment.

At this point he’d known that vacant expression all too well, and reached for another tissue to add to the wad bunched around his quivering nostrils. He held the clump close even as Asahi tried to pull away from his hand between short, breathy gasps and fluttering eyelids. Was he seriously still trying to fight off his symptoms?

Getting an idea, Ren would gently press the flat of his thumb against his nose, lightly rubbing the textured tissues against his flaring ink-rimmed nostrils, and slowly nudging that quivering appendage up and down while applying a small amount of pressure. It was nothing drastic, just a small bit of movement to distract Asahi from trying to hold back.

Or to coax that itch out. Whatever came first.

“R-Re’d—?” Asahi gasped out between tickly gasps, quivering as he still tried to pull away from the Inkling’s hand. “W-What are you-? I-I gotta-hhh-...”

“I know,” Ren replied rather directly. “Stop trying to fight it, ‘kay?”

So despite his protests he held his hand in place, protected by layers of facial tissue, while Asahi hitched and squirmed in his grasp. Ren kept his grip steady even as Asahi stopped pulling away and began to tilt his head back, even as his breaths grew more shallow and desperate as his eyes welled with itchy tears, then flickered shut. “hehh-... HE’gKSSHHYOO!!”

Ren held his hand firm and steady as Asahi finally pitched forwards, remaining unfazed as warmth filled his palm, and he shifted his grip ever so slightly to make sure the tissues completely covered his nose despite the force.

“Yeesh, that sounded rough,” Ren chuckled, using his free hand to flick a stray tear from Asahi’s cheek. This was where he noticed the misty, unfocused look in Asahi’s eyes; his lips slightly parted and his chest heaving again with short, tickly gasps— he wasn’t done, clearly.

“Still itchy?” The dazed, shaky nod was all the confirmation Ren needed, and he pinched the tissue wad around his quivering nose as his flickering eyelids closed again.

“u-uhh’hh‐… hh’tSHHUUHh!!” Ren’s hand grew warmer and heavier as Asahi pitched forwards into the clump of damp tissue… then reeled back again, gasping in a strangled breath. “gh’hehh-... he’PSSCH— -g’KSSCHh— -KSHHUuh!!!”

And he pitched forwards into the squid’s hand with an uncontrolled, rapid triple, drenching the soft paper in stringy, snotty ink as each sneeze ripped through him, but the itching finally backed off afterwards and Asahi slumped into his partner’s hand; groaning in relief, barely aware of Ren reaching out to rub the top of his head. “Bless you. Feel better?”

“Uh-huh…” The sniffle that followed was long and thick, but exhaustion overshadowed any embarrassment Asahi felt, and he couldn’t help smiling a little. “Tha’g you, Re’d.”

He froze.

Tha’g you, Re’d. Those three words brought a surprising heat to the Inkling’s face, the tips of his ears burning with an unknown feeling. He felt weirdly giddy, hearing Asahi trying to thank him while horribly stuffed up. Coupled with that sickly smile on his face…he’s still cute even when he’s this wiped.

“R-Re’d...?”

Another soupy sniffle brought him back to the present.

Ren glanced down to see Asahi staring up at him, his pale cheeks suddenly flush with color. “Y-You’re stari’g…”

“S-Shit, sorry.”

He quickly shook off that weird giddiness.

Right, Asahi was more important right now, he could deal with those weird thoughts later. He gently wiped around his boyfriend’s quivering nose before pulling the ink-stained clump of tissue away. For now, he’d stuff the used tissue into the cup holder as he reached for the box again to pull up a few fresh sheets.

Ren was gentle; tenderly cupping the clean tissues around Asahi’s nose while he gazed into his boyfriend’s glassy eyes. He couldn’t help chuckling to himself watching his boyfriend lean into the tissues without a second thought this time, clearly picking up the relieved sigh that escaped the sick Octoling’s throat. “These feel nd’ice,” Asahi muttered.

“Of course they’re gonna feel better than cafe napkins and cheap toilet paper,” Ren would gently rib as he tried to lighten the mood somewhat. “These have lotion in them, though.”

He pulled his hand away once Asahi reached for the tissues clumped around his nose, effortlessly passing the wad of paper into his hands, only to take a second glance at his sick partner in the passenger’s seat next to him.

His tentacles were still very pale; lethargic and limp as they hung from his usual ponytail, and under the sunlight they appeared to have lost even more color. His skin was no different; clammy and beaded with sweat, save for the inflamed tint around his quivering nose, buried deep in layers of tissues with a thick, gurgling blow that sounded desperately needed.

Most of all, however, Asahi seemed tense— even as he tried to clear his sinuses; straining against the aches and fatigue permeating every inch of his body as he gasped in another exhausted breath and blew as hard as he could with a spluttering honk that quickly lost its strength. He groaned in discomfort before leaning to blow again; this time with more force and less regard for how embarrassing he sounded, but still quickly losing steam.

Ren watched as Asahi carefully crumpled up the sodden tissue so that the mess inside remained inwards, then followed his boyfriend’s lead in stuffing the soiled paper into the cup holder, on top of the tissue from earlier before reaching for the tissue box again.

…At that moment, Ren made another mental note to thoroughly sanitize his sister’s car before returning it to her.

There had to be something he could do to help, Ren thought to himself, reaching over to place one of his hands on Asahi’s shoulders, mostly out of sympathy for his sick partner— and then an idea hit once he clocked just how tense the Octoling’s shoulders were.

A few extra minutes in the parking lot wouldn’t hurt, Ren rationalized, before turning in his seat to place both of his hands on Asahi’s shoulders while he was preoccupied with blowing his nose, startling him out of his focus.

“W-What are you—?”

“Want a shoulder rub?” was Ren’s nonchalant reply. The suggestion seemed out of nowhere, but… in all honesty Asahi was too tired to argue, and the idea definitely sounded nice.

He gave a slow, tired but trusting nod and Ren began to do just that; rubbing and gently applying pressure to the tensest parts of his shoulders. Asahi shuddered underneath the Inkling’s hands as the aching in his body ebbed away, if only for a while, and before long his eyelids fluttered shut and he leaned across the center console into Ren’s hands.

Meanwhile Ren chuckled to himself watching his partner melt in his hands, all tension in his neck and shoulders evaporating almost as soon as he laid hands on him. He seemed on the verge of falling asleep then and there, his movements slow and floaty even without the shoulder rub. And despite the weird posture he had to affect to be able to reach both shoulders, he didn’t mind too much as long as Asahi was at least a little bit comfortable.

“Feels gooood…” Asahi mumbled out, eliciting another laugh and a deeper rub. Time seemed to slow, even though the two had only been like this for maybe five minutes. Though he had to pull away after some time though; this position didn’t really agree with him no matter how flexible and limber Ren assumed he was.

Naturally Asahi began to pout once he pulled away to focus on getting home and cut the shoulder rub short. “I can keep going once we’re home,” he quickly added as a compromise, and Asahi reluctantly agreed.

With his seatbelt on, Ren reached for the gear shift, only stopping to take one last look at Asahi before pulling off, and decided that he should maybe keep that tissue box within his sick boyfriend’s reach. So he unceremoniously plopped the box into his lap, startling him as soon as he was about to doze off, along with another important item he’d bought- a bottle of orange juice, which he’d placed in the only other open cup holder where Asahi could reach it. “Got you some juice, too,” he called out to bring his sick partner’s attention to the drink, then he turned to focus on pulling out of the parking lot for real this time— or he would have, had Asahi not spoken up again.

”T-Thank you…” the sick Octoling muttered. His voice, though clear of congestion now, still came strained and weak. “F-For the tissues, and t-the orange juice, and…”

“Don’t mention it,” Ren replied. “You sound better, too.”

He looked over to notice that Asahi was avoiding his line of sight again, hiding behind the wad of fresh tissues pressed to his nose. There was visible embarrassment in his glassy eyes, and he shrunk in on himself once he caught sight of Ren.

“S-Someone in the lobby bathroom said I sounded like a jammed Nautilus…”

And then Ren snorted; unable to suppress a giggle at that comment; unable to stop giggling despite the pout on Asahi’s face. That was… so out of pocket and Ren would be lying if he claimed he didn’t pity his partner being jabbed at by a stranger in the restroom.

But it was so specific and weirdly blunt that the comparison blindsided him, and he couldn’t help but just laugh. Not to mention the added irony in Asahi’s recent decision (last week) to try and take up the weapon in question. A perfect storm all-in-all.

”It’s not funny…” Asahi gave a weak rasp, and Ren eventually stopped laughing. “S-Sorry dude… that was just so outta pocket.”

Still unconvinced, Asahi continued to pout, and Ren eventually sighed in defeat and reached out to rub behind his ears again. He was surprised to see him resist, weakly pulling away from Ren’s hand as he continued to rub, but he held out for exactly four seconds before the sick Octoling relented, slowly leaning into the embrace as the pout melted from his face. “Knew you’d come around eventually,” Ren chuckled.

”But seriously, it’s no big deal. Just wanted to make sure you were at least a little comfortable.” He pulled away from Asahi’s ear once he began to lean back in his seat, gently patting his cheek before returning to the wheel— for real this time. “I’m no nurse, but I do know how to make a cold less painful. So don’t worry, you’re in good hands.”

…Okay, he may have been a little overconfident in that last statement. But Ren was determined to make sure his sick boyfriend didn’t suffer too much, and it even seemed to alleviate Asahi’s concerns as he began to settle in his seat for the ride home. He kept the tissue box in his lap, of course, as he reached to crack open the bottle of orange juice to take a sip… which turned into the delayed realization that he’d barely had anything to drink all day, if gulping down half the bottle was any indication.

“S-Sorry we still couldn’t do any warm-up rounds, though…” Asahi admitted after a period of silence, staring down into his bottle of juice.

“C’mon, you don’t have to keep beating yourself up over it. We can go back when you’re in better shape.”

That seemed to finally convince him, and Asahi eventually slumped into his seat, carefully re-capping his orange juice before placing it back in the cup holder. He gave a soft, crackling sigh as he got comfortable in the car seat, humming contentedly as he settled in against the soothing heat radiating along his back… Ren chuckled to himself, wondering when Asahi would notice the car’s heated seats. “Feels good, don’t it?”

“Mmhm…” Asahi purred, slowly sinking into the seat’s warmth.

“Alright, let’s get outta here. You wanna get somethin’ to eat before we head home?” Ren asked as he buckled himself in and shifted gears, but got no response… He glanced over to find Asahi asleep in his seat, lightly snoring with his head resting precariously against the seatbelt.

He smiled to himself. “You’re gonna be alright. Swear on it,” Ren reassured again, as he moved to plant a small kiss right in the middle of his warm, sweat-slicked forehead.

It was a small display of affection, sure, but the sleepy smile on the feverish Octoling’s face meant a lot to him.

——

“Yui won’t be back till seven,” the tall Inkling rattled off as he shouldered his sick partner all the way up to the complex doorstep, “so until then we’ve got the place to ourselves.”

Noon had only barely passed when the two made it back to the apartments. At this point Ren was essentially dragging a delirious and clearly sleepy Asahi into the complex he shared with his older sister, held up with his arm braced across his shoulders and matching his uneven, staggering pace, keeping him upright as they hobbled up to the doorstep and Ren dug for his house key.

“We’re almost there, just hang on.” he’d reassure him as he guided him over curbs and low steps that Asahi would have no doubt tripped over in this state.

At this point Ren sounded more like he was trying to reassure himself rather than the one who actually needed it, who seemed barely responsive save for a weak nod and a shuddering, unrepressed cough that caused Ren to wince in sympathy.

There was something needling at the back of his neck… Pity.

It sucked seeing Asahi so ill; so low. He didn’t deserve this, if anything! Someone so sweet and kind and gentle, laid low by the changing seasons… He didn’t deserve this!

“Hang in there, alright?” Ren would try reassuring him as the two hobbled up to the front door. Now he just needed his house key, and he’d be home safe and Asahi could properly rest…

As he retrieved his key and unlocked the apartment door, Ren glanced over at his ill partner, who seemed barely awake while he leaned his full weight onto him for support. His eyelids would frequently flicker between thick, inky sniffling, and he still shivered even underneath the blazing sun.

Asahi suddenly whipped to the side before doubling over, and his grip on Ren’s arm would clench even tighter as more deep, heavy crackling coughs wracked his trembling frame. The force was enough to nearly pull Ren down with him, and he winced in sympathy once the coughing subsided and Asahi was left dizzily wheezing.

He wasted no time in pulling his boyfriend through the front door and into the air-conditioned space before locking the door behind him.

“Chez Takahashi welcomes you,” Ren announced with a goofy flourish once the two were inside, hoping to get a giggle or at least a smile from his sick boyfriend. And it worked, somewhat; his silly little show eliciting a small, tired giggle from Asahi, though it quickly dissolved into another fit of coughs.

Home safe, finally, Ren thought to himself as he guided Asahi to the couch, letting him sit down so that he was finally off of his feet. “Kick off your shoes, make yourself comfortable! Remote’s right there if you wanna watch TV.”

He’d have to run back to the car to grab their backpacks as well as the supplies he bought, as getting his unstable boyfriend inside was his main priority, and once Asahi was seated and stable he ducked back towards the door to grab everything he’d forgotten.

Once outside he’d release a heavy sigh, as the day’s events weighed on him— and it was only just past noon.

He kicked a nearby rock as he went to unlock the car, reaching for Asahi’s backpack first and slinging one of its straps around his shoulder, followed by his own. The grocery bags he could grab with one hand.

“Got the stuff,” Ren called out as he made his way back through the doorway and over to where his boyfriend was seated before depositing the grocery bags onto the couch. Asahi hadn’t moved much from his spot (he hadn’t even kicked off his shoes), groaning and wetly sniffling with his visibly damp hoodie sleeve pressed against his nose, woozily blinking back dizzy tears as he gazed up at Ren… All he could rasp out was a weak, stuttering “sorry” followed by another soupy sniffle.

It didn’t take long for Ren to piece together what happened while he was gone, but he decided not to draw attention to it. At least not yet, anyway.

He searched through the bags for a few choice items, not missing the change in Asahi’s expression once he pulled out the open box of tissues— reddened eyes going wide with a grateful gleam as he reached for the box, then promptly swiped up a few of the soft sheets to bunch around his nose in an attempt to stem the leaking. Ren decided not to comment on the honking, gurgling blow that followed.

While his boyfriend was preoccupied, Ren dug through the bag of supplies again, looking for a few more choice items to help ease Asahi’s symptoms somewhat— cough drops, tea, more tissues (because one box was never enough), cup noodles, an ice pack, vapor rub, and most importantly, nighttime-strength, severe cold medicine. “You have your inhaler, right?”

Asahi gave a weak nod and pointed towards his bag, the one that was just brought in. Which was sitting next to Ren’s backpack on the ground by the door, so that was good.

“You want me to wash that?” he’d question as he gestured down to the snot-stained sleeves, and Asahi shrunk away in embarrassment; this eliciting a small, amused chuckle from Ren. “C’mon, that hoodie’s basically a petri dish. You’re not gonna get any better sulking around in it.”

“B-But I’b cold…”

“We’ve got blankets, yknow.”

Asahi eventually relented, and he shuffled out of his hoodie with assistance from Ren; now he sat in only his undershirt, sniffling and shivering as soon as his exposed skin hit the air-conditioned front room atmosphere. The sudden temperature change definitely wasn’t easy on his tortured sinuses, and he suddenly pitched forwards into the crook of his elbow with an unusually harsh sneeze that left him winded and dizzy. “–hE’tSHHIUUH!! Uughhh…”

There he was, clumsily fumbling for the tissue box a few feet in front of him… nearly dropping it a couple of times as he tried to get a hold of it.

“Still can’t believe you thought you could still play like this,” Ren sighed out without thinking.

He stopped once he noticed Asahi withdrawing in on himself underneath his stare, a faint, embarrassed blush coloring his flushed cheeks.

“Shit, I wasn't thinking straight… Sorry, dude.”

Quickly shaking himself out of his thoughts, Ren slid the tissue box to where Asahi could easily reach it, even plucking up a few sheets himself to help clean him up a bit before folding the soiled hoodie so that its snotty ink stains were inward facing while he blew his nose again. “You wanna take a shower? It’ll warm you up the fastest.”

The idea of a hot shower was tempting to the sick cephalopod, but there was one problem. “S-Shower? B-But I dod’t… ha’be ad’y clothes…”

“So? You can borrow some of mine while I wash yours.”

He’d worn Ren’s clothes before, and in better situations than this.

But even so, Ren’s straightforward suggestion had him blindsided and slightly bashful, but a chill up Asahi’s spine quickly changed his mind and he pushed himself off the couch. “Okay t-the’d…” Besides, the idea of a hot shower definitely sounded appealing to his fever-ridden mind.

He began to sway as soon as he was on his feet and upright, shivering and stumbling while he used the couch’s arm for support, only to double over into a coughing fit— deep, crackling coughs that ripped through his chest and left him stumbling, tumbling over his foot and close to the ground had Ren not swooped in to catch him mid fit.

Asahi gasped in a shaky wheeze once the taller Inkling helped him upright, leaning into his chest for support as Ren eventually steadied him on his feet. He felt heavy. Standing up too quickly made him dizzy, and all of that coughing only made it worse.

“Y’know…” Ren sighed after a short silence as he eased his clearly unsteady partner down the hallway and to the bathroom. “Maybe a bath sounds safer.”

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Playing dangerous - Mother Miranda/reader Warning for explicit content.

Chapter 11: Exes

Summary:

Mia and Philip biting the curb in 4k.

Waking in Miranda's bed is one thing. Waking in Miranda's bed , with Miranda herself in it , is something completely different.

The bed creaks slightly, a soft sound made by the uneven shifting of weight on the mattress. The thin, barely felt blanket disappears from your body, allowing the cold air to run its sharp teeth across your skin, making you shiver. An irritated growl rises in your throat, your hands are impatient, searching for sparks of warmth. A silent apology is whispered close to your ear, and then the blanket is returned to its place.

You've never felt so clingy in your entire life, the newborn emptiness in your embrace forces you to bury your heavy head and lazy hands in the sheets. However, they do not find their desired reward there. This lack almost makes you open your eyes, your brows already furrowed. Almost, because just the light, almost ghostly touch of soft lips on your shoulder - on the exact part of it where your collarbone ends with a slightly swollen hill, calms you down instantly.

A gentle trail of quick, yet sincere, kisses makes its way up your neck. They linger a little longer on your pulse point, as if waiting for a direct response from your heart. You let them have it, enjoying the feeling of a smile spreading across your skin. Thin fingers dig into the roots of your hair, short nails deliciously scratch your scalp. The moan that slips between your lips is practically inevitable.

"Mmm...Mira..." - you don't have to bother opening your eyes. You already picture the blonde woman hoovering over you, lips now brushing against yours, warm palm cupping your cheeks. If you could change your current positions, you would pull her back under the covers, into your arms, where her beautiful skin can kiss your body for as long as it desires. For as long as you desire, because you feel the need to be glued to her like a strong magnet.

"Release me, darling." - you'll never understand how she manages to keep her voice so low and enchanting, yet convenient and demanding. Soft control, a whispered command. The hands , that you haven't acknowledged to be wrapped firmly around her waist ,now loosen, your fingers slowly tracing pink lines, pain free of course but full of desire, across her still completely exposed skin until they make contact in the black sheets under her thighs. She places an encouraging kiss on the tip of your nose. - "More of me later." - a pause - "Eventually."

Her weight, her proximity , her breath, her warmth... completely vanishes within seconds. Leaving you bare , feeling even more naked than you already are. The itchy flames on the tip of your fingers are quick to make an appearance in your body , forcing your digits to crack, unable to control the desire to follow the woman shifting off the bed , away from you.

"Where..." - you murmur, turning to a side , palms wandering around you, searching for Miranda, as if she has escaped. You hear her soft chuckle somewhere close. But not close enough. Your vision is blurry when you slowly open your eyes , a yawn urging to part your lips. In your sleepy state even your eyes can't seem to spot her. That's until her strong arms push your shoulders back , forcing your back to press down on the mattress.

"Go back to sleep." - another tender order, another brush of lips against yours, this time a little bit rougher - "Dream some more."

The pressure on your upper body is long gone when you press your head back to the cozy pillow below it. Last distant memory of platinum blonde hair, swinging above Miranda's define back as she walks to the bathroom, appears in your foggy mind before you begin to fall into half-sleeping half-being awake ecstasy that keeps your body buried into the warm sheets. Yet real sleep never actually finds you. Instead of it - memories from last night hit you hard as a thunder.

Miranda did her very best to absolutely tire you out, to drain the last drops of energy from your body, to knock out your muscles and vocal cords. You have no idea how long you've been tossing and turning in bed, trying varieties of different positions. You can't remember the exact number of orgasms you gifted to Miranda or the ones she gave you in return. You remember how she pulled out the rest of her collection of sex toys from their hiding place in her nightstand, you're even sure she tripped over one of them just a few minutes ago on her way to the bathroom.

However, none of these helpers were intended for you. Her pleasure seemed to be put on a higher level. You didn't mind watching her face take on that lovely, slightly scared, but hellishly turned on expression just before the vibrations from between her legs spilled through her entire body. Yet she was perfectly capable of driving you crazy with just her nimble fingers, clever mouth, and dirty words mixed with compliments. She made you enjoy things you didn't even know you were into.

Her sex drive is higher than the roof of the mansion. She only needed a few minutes of rest after each earthquake orgasm, which you somehow managed to give her - some with more, others with less help. And then she would stand up as if she hasn't breathed heavily just before that, her head buried in the pillows, with lips parting in a wicked smile. You had no idea how she kept asking for more and more, how you didn't see a drop of sweat on her skin, how you didn't even feel her heart beating after each round. Compared to her, you were a living wreck. She would break you and revive you over and over until you just had to beg her for a break, too scared of the possibility of passing out.

Miranda is definitely hard to handle. Safe to say impossible, yet you continued to bite and bite , in an attempt to devour her whole. And she herself would lie if she was to say her needs weren't exactly met. After all you aren't the only one with jelly legs.

The sound of almost invisible steps coming straight from the bathroom is diverse from its usual fluidity. You know she walks more gracefully than currently and you're certain Miranda would never allow herself to stumble ,twice. She murmurs something under her breath as she detaches pieces of clothing from her bare feet. Although she uses an entirely different language, you're sure the words that slip past her lips are nothing but curses. At the back of your head there's even a vague memory of her panting them over and over again in your ear , while you were busy showing great devotion in the name of her pleasure.

You don't have time to enjoy the moment, her irritation and the nice sonority of the whispers , which translation fails to appear in the room. Just you and her. And the cold air that fiercely scraps your skin yet again when she lifts the blanket up and throws it aside. This time an apology is absent.

"Ughhh...you cruel woman." - you groan out , sleepiness still clinging to your voice, the sound husky and deep. Your body curls up to a side , a close by pillow is swiftly grabbed and embraced tightly, your skin eager for that cozy warmth of the sheets. While the fabric heats your chest nicely - your back shivers. Why is it so cold? And why is Miranda not there to warm you up?

Boldness strikes through vines as you dare to open your eyes , only to immediately throw a thick forearm over your face , facing the consequences of Miranda's decision to torture you more. Usually her bedroom is dark , which is a good thing - the best place for few perfect hours of sleep. With her long curtains pushed aside to allow the sun rays to hit you directly in the face, however, the room shines in almost unbearable lightless.

"You're going to kill me!" - you wave your hand towards the direction of the large windows , with head still buried in the pillow, missing the way her blue eyes roll backwards. - "Stop it , stop." - you hiss out , earning yourself a chuckle. Miranda is uncertain how to stop the sun.

"You're so dramatic." - she voices out , judging by the volume of her tone you'd guess she's towering over you - "Like a child." - when she rips the pillow from the safe place of your loving hands you do cry out like one. The woman ,who's currently looking at you with the most bored expression you've ever seen, has not once made you want to slap the audacity out of her. And you almost do it , your uncalculated movements, however, do show their effect as your back cracks and you fall down on the mattress before you can even fully lift yourself up. She laughs. - "You better get up now , before i decide to force you out of bed."

"Pretty sure you're already doing it." - you argue, trusting your wiggly arms to hold your upper body as you lift yourself up, face almost hitting Miranda in the process. As you look up to her, you fail to realize how close she has gotten to the edge of the bed, unable to decide if she wants to be back in it or not.

"You've seen nothing." - her fingertips are soft against your chin , as she uses tender digits to grasp it and pull you even closer , due to your now sitting position your face is lingering close to her stomach. You can't decide if you want her to move you up or down. Your hands , however, are certain in their decision to squeeze her hips , even with the bathrobe she's wearing that seems to work against you.

"Come and show me, then?" - a tempting suggestion, quick to grant you a playful smirk. The silky fabric of her current garment limits the freedom of your lips touching her tight stomach muscles, when your face finally presses against her abdomen. Her hand doesn't wait for an invite and drags its slender fingers through your messy hair.

"Come on , cooperate a little." - her voice is sweet as the scent of summer roses. You find yourself absolutely captivated by her soft side, her hard to miss smile , delicate body, full of tenderness eyes and demanding, yet understandable behavior. Though her words betray her actions , you're swiftly lifted upwards, not yet to kiss , but to observe her face closely. Your glare doesn't leave her full lips alone, however.

"I have to change those sheets." - with that you agree, new pair is needed. Miranda leans closer , placing her chin on top of your left shoulder - she breaths in , tenderly caressing the side of your neck with a hand , devoid of use. - "My children do tend to sleep here from time to time , you know?"

"Aren't they a little old for that already?" - you arch an eyebrow. You fail in your attempt to somehow drag her in the bed , groaning , annoyed by your defeat. She's as still as a rock, her body refusing to move at all.

"Aren't you?" - you smile. Fair comeback, just in Miranda's style. Cold, with a hint of mockery. You can't resist the urge to tease her.

"Thought you said I was a bit too young the last time we discussed ages." - your smile grows when you can physically feel her body getting tenser , meaning her following reaction can be transformed in two different scenarios. Your fingers find their way beneath her bathrobe, bare and ready, you find joy in awakening delicious goosebumps under her skin. - "Not like you seem to mind that."

"Do you have any idea what time is it?" - despite her best attempt to hide it , the hitch is her breath still connects with your hearing. She moves backwards, just in time before your digits allow themselves to travel along her inner thighs. And she cups your cheeks. - "We do have to go pick up the girls, but before that you need to shower." - this is the exact moment you realise her hair is dripping wet , she has been in the shower right before you. - "And you're probably hungry, on top of that we have to go for groceries." - she presses her forehead to yours - "I was planning to get some work done, but half of my day is already over because we slept all morning, and also-"

"Miranda." - you call our for her , not too loud but enough to catch her off guard, her eyes widening for just a second before she realises you've stopped her from talking too much. Her and talking too much? Ridiculous, her mind must be still foggy from last night.

"What?" - she sighs.

"Good morning." - a nice way to telling her to take it easy, there's enough time for everything. You don't even have time to gasp when her lips glue themselves to yours. You enjoy every second of intimacy she puts into that kiss. Rough, as she likes to claim, but now that your skin is practically hers, you don't mind the force she uses. Both of you part aside from eachother after a few seconds, for the sike of actually making it out of this bed anytime today.

"Morning, little deer." - she whispers, nose gently brushing against yours.

Convincing Miranda to go simple with breakfast, or more like brunch, happens to be a tough battle. The woman just refuses to make something easy like sandwiches. You, however, are not in the mood fore some of her fancy looking, and incredibly tasty, meals. All you want is to stop the rumbling sounds coming from your stomach. As soon as possible. Consuming so much energy has it's consequences. Yet you find it rather cute that Miranda is so keen in you feeding yourself well. Only if she cared about her own diet as much as she does for yours or her children's. As she barely touches food.

You make it your main priority to make her , if she doesn't cooperate even force her, to eat together after you both get ready for the remaining day. That's your only thought as you step into her bathroom. The room is huge , its decor matching the dark aesthetic like the rest of the mansion. The air is still warm after Miranda's turn in the shower.

Your glance finds itself lingering close to a large mirror, right above the bathroom sink. And you stop to look at yourself - naked , with only a short, white towel at hand, covered in countless crimson portraits of passion Miranda has managed to paint all over the blank canvas that she decided your skin was , last night. At first sight you find the red dots around your chest bothering, but then your eyes lift up to your neck while your hands begin to explore the parts of your body that happen to itch, triggered by the steaming atmosphere of the shower.

You're almost entirely covered in signs from your recent love making, though the marks on your body don't hint for your proximity to be called that. It's like you've spent the night with an angry kitten. Your neck has suffered the most, and it shows, especially at the base of it , right before it can connect with your shoulders - where her teeth can pierce you nicely and without a care. It's going to take you a lot of effort to hide all of those hickeys , plus the amazingly deep bite marks that sparkle between the sea of symbols that scream possession, the raw edges of the wounds still fresh in blood dripping colour.

You turn around, groaning in slight annoyance. Your back isn't any better than your neck. At least all the red , continuing in a straight line , scratchy lines are mainly in one place. Yet so overdone on your skin that it is not only swollen, but also painful. You curse yourself for allowing her nails to torture you like this , in the heat of the moment , however, the feeling was greater than her lips on yours. Your thighs aren't as severely effected as your upper body, but the soft skin there has also felt Miranda's sharp teeth on it. The marks get more and more noticeable and aggressive, a fine line of ownership, as they travel up to your breasts.

As if your skin belongs to her. As if you do too.

The hot water burns these love scars , forcing hisses out of your throat. Yet you compose a still smile , knowing very well that Miranda only intended to shower you in bites simple because she was trying her best to save her mind, self and voice from a total collapse. Quick changing imagines of her legs around your waist, on your shoulders or simply pressed deep into the mattress run through your head wild free even after the water stops and you walk swiftly to your room to get dressed, leaving a path of wet steps in the corridor.

The weak , almost pathetic, way she moans your name out as you grind against her over and over again. It motives your hands to work quickly with the clothes on your bed , waiting to be put on. Miranda is keen on guiding your hands where she needs them the most, she's a good teacher and you're a fast learner, it works out perfectly. The stairs seem like an awfully long road to follow as you take the first one down to the first floor of the mansion. Her hands wander around the sheets, trying to hold onto something as she begs , you have no idea what she wants, yet you try your best to give her what she needs. There's a nice smell coming from the kitchen.

The short film of heated moments from yesterday dies in your mind as you walk behind the tall woman. Hands wrapping around her waist, you press your face in her now covered in a thin shirt back , forcing her shoulders to roll backwards. The chuckle she lets out tickles your brain perfectly. Before you know it she spins around, with wrists crossed on your nape, torso slightly forward. You expect her lips to occupy you again, and they do, but you feel them press against the skin of your neck , rather than your own lips , where you wish they had landed.

You would have loved the kisses she places there , while her hands hold you tight, if it wasn't for the quick waves of pain that travel through your body as her lips meet those still sensitive marks. The moment she presses a little bit firmer, you hiss out, gently pushing her away. She stops immediately, slender fingers going up to trace the scars of teeth left around your neck. It's only now that she realises the damage she has done. An unfamiliar look appears on her visage.

"I was a bit rough with you, wasn't I?" - regret , her eyes sparkle in regret. You don't share the same emotion. You don't mind her decorating your skin , not at all. Though it can be a little bit more composed. She realises that too , a thumb stroking your cheek, as she tilts her head to a side and a kiss lands on your shoulder, where your body is mainly absent of pain. - "I'll be more careful next time, darling."

Your body goes stuff. That sentence again. Next time.

"You plan for us to be doing that again?" - she gives you a smile when your fingers enter the roots of her hair , destroying the quick, lazy hairstyle she has done to keep the mess on top of her head in one place while preparing the food. You like it more when that giant waterfall of melted gold falls around her shoulders.

"You don't want a second date?" - what an useless question. Its answer more than obvious. Miranda counts the way you walk forward, forcing her to move as well, and pinning her to the edge of the kitchen counter as a clear way of showing her the second date is welcomed any day. Your teeth don't waste time in connecting with her flesh , mimicking her own actions from last night. While your hands find their place wandering down her sides.

"Darling, be good." - she murmurs, her palms on your shoulders. You lift yourself up, enjoying the strings of saliva that connect your hungry teeth with her now red and marked skin. Then your eyebrows furrow. You extend the collar of her shirt, revealing more and more of her chest, but you don't feel appealed by it. In fact, you get confused. You're sure she's not the only one who decided to be a little bit more possessive yesterday and leave marks of pleasure on the other. Yet her flawless skin is devoid of any scars or redness, if you exile the fresh bite you just left there.

"Why are you..." - unmarked, untouched, safe to say unclaimed, if you compare her body to yours. The fact that she's wearing only a long, thin shirt that stop somewhere mid-thigh makes it easier for your fingers to find that soft type of skin as well. It is clear as day, not a single scratch left from your nails, which you can bet were digging into her flesh with little to no care. It's impossible for Miranda to heal that soon. She , however, cuts you off before you can ask your full question.

"Shall we eat already?" - a hint of nervousness in her voice. Her chin tilts to the kitchen table and you turn, eyes locking with two plates, filled with sandwiches. A simple meal, just what you asked for, even though Miranda surely did her best to make them look extra fancy. You release her, knowing that she'll change the subject anyway, even if you continue pressing her. Your fingers hold her hand as you both sit to eat.

Silence grows between the two of you. So does your irritation, as you hate the sound of nothing.

"What was that language from earlier?" - you find it very convincing how she purposely dragged her chair further to yours , so you can sit closer to her. She stop eating as you ask her this , a tilt of her head hints that she doesn't exactly get what you're talking about. You grin. - "You curse in it when you're annoyed or very, very hor-Ow!"

You hiss as she kicks you , not hard of course, but enough to catch you by surprise. Despite the sudden pain , her action roots out a laugh from your throat. Her eyes narrow at you , an incredible cute yet grumpy look occupying her face. A hint of embarrassment wandering at the tips of her ears.

"Romanian." - that's all you get as an answer, because she refuses to cooperate any further. To you, though, the information is valuable. You put your half eaten sandwich down, placing your eyebrows on the table.

"So i was correct to assume some of the words sounded familiar." - she takes her last bite of her own sandwich and turns to look at you, her attention spilling around you yet again. And you're happy because she actually kept her promise for eating with you. - "I've studied some Latin." - she cocks an eyebrow. - "In university, you know, medicine."

"Ah yes , I've forgotten they force you to study a language that only dead people use." - her tone drips from mockery, forcing your smile to grow. Did Miranda just make a joke? True, she's not fond of today's methods of learning, especially the things they make you study in university, but here she has a point. You also don't acknowledge how the purpose of knowing how to name a random body part or organ in Latin can help you in your career, but you don't see yourself as the one to change their practice.

"Perhaps I should learn Romanian, then?" - you suggest, it wouldn't be too hard , given the fact that her language comes from Latin roots. You point at her. - "So I can talk with you instead."

"And if I use the most heavy accent i can force out?" - the way she says that proves she's very much capable of doing such thing , with one single purpose - to tease you. It wasn't hard to notice, even from the beginning, that Miranda has an accent. Though she speaks perfectly calculated , sometimes those specific sounds you can only hear in a native person's speech tend to escape her lips. It's thrilling.

"It will only bring me motivation, Mira." - you answer her with a tone , filled with proudness. She seems very pleased with you and the way you act towards her. The smile that yet again reveals her dimples is your genuine reward.

"Adorable." - she voices out what both of you are thinking about eachother. Her fingertips are soft when they gently tap on your forearm. They travel downstairs to your pointy knuckles. She works fast to tangle her digits together with yours. Miranda does that curious thing again, measuring just how much exactly her hand is larger than yours.

"Is it your mother's tongue?" - her eyes are everywhere but your face , her attention focused somewhere else.

"Hm?" - she blinks, yet her gaze never moves as she continues to examine your fingers.

"Romanian?" - you tap on the table, trying to make her listen , she just shake her head , as if you pinched it instead. - "Is it your first language?"

"Yes, yes it's...." - Miranda's tongue wets her bottom lip , just for her teeth to dig into it a second later. Are your fingers that alluring to her? Or is she just as lost in memories from last night as you are? You have no idea, but her examination is quick to finish. Your hand is released and she turns to look at her now empty plate. - "Eva speaks it too."

"What about Eveline?" - you know she's adopted, but the girl is smart.

"She's somehow fluent." - she stands up to get herself a cup of water. You smile when she places one for you as well. - "I haven't had a lot of time to teach her to talk freely in it." - a pause. - "Not like we speak it often."

"Why not? You can-"

The doorbell rings. Miranda's head follows the waves of the sound for only a second, before her face shifts back to you. A shared annoyance fills up the room, as you both roll your eyes. Her hatred towards people is understandable, for you, however it's the first time that you feel bothered by someone cutting off a conversation with another person. As Miranda actually tends to be dizzying.

"Are you expecting someone?" - you truly wish her answer is negative.

"Not at all." - she shakes her head. A squeak is composed from slipping past your lips as her fingers get a hold of your chin. She lifts your head up, reminding you how tall she stands even without her heels on. Her back bends, her lips on yours, while she whispers. - "Did i tell you how gorgeous you looked last night?"

Miranda didn't, but she surely showed her admiration. More than once.

"You want me to open the door, don't you?" - your skin yearns for the tender fingertips that leave it behind, though you skillfully hide the need of them with a mocking grin. She chuckles in response , running her thin fingers through her messy hair. Dark, blue eyes travel around the room.

"Be a darling and do that for me , while I'm getting dressed." - bow that she has mentioned it , you can't ignore the exposed skin of her thighs, as the only clothing she's currently possessing is a thin white shirt that doesn't leave much room for your imagination - her chest and underwear easily spotted by your enchanted eyes. Why would she even bother with wearing more clothes after she allowed you to explore her whole body the previous night. - "Somebody probably got lost and needs help with directions." - she waves her hand in the air. - "Happens quite often."

"And how often do you actually open the door?" - you tease, knowing she's totally the type of person to ignore the ringing sound of the bell for hours if needed. You're still surprised you've managed to force her out of bed the first time you two met.

"Just go." - a command you're ready to follow, a single click of her tongue is enough to lift you up of your seat and guide your steps to the main entrance. Meanwhile Miranda takes the path back to her bedroom upstairs.

The bell continues to ring, not giving you a break, as you slowly make your way to the door, eyes twitching in annoyance. Can't they wait a little? You quickly unlock the door, putting the keys in your pocket. Then you press the handle and finally fulfill the desires of the person from outside - for the door to be opened.

The woman revealed stands a little bit taller than you, though her gaze falls upon your body as if you're a worm in her feet. Her eyes darken once she realises you're not familiar to her. She shakes her head, the wind blows through her dark locks of hair - a nice earth colour of brown, suiting her pale skin. The smile on her face looks more than forced.

"Who are you?" - she narrows her eyes, although she looks like a sweet lady, the tone of her voice hints that she's not so very keen on being nice to other people. The anxious tapping of her feet on the concrete floor beneath her adds to her overall character.

"I'm-"

"You know what? I don't really care." - even she cannot begin to explain why she asked. Curiosity, that's it. Or more like confusion, as why the woman she's in search for doesn't open the door like she wants her to do. The unfamiliar woman waves her hand towards the mansion. Her voice is demanding. - "Fetch me Miranda."

So she's not just somebody. Judging by how desperate she looks, in need to see Miranda. Yet you can't just call her now , can you? You have to understand who you're dealing with first. You clear your throat before crossing your hands behind your back , as if you want to hide from her, appearing smaller, weaker. Letting her think you're defenseless.

"I didn't quite catch your name?" - her eyebrows furrow, yet you stand your ground. - "If you would be so kind to-"

"Mia." - she doesn't bother with a last name, not like you need it anyway. So that's Mia, the Mia, Miranda's Mia. The fact that you're standing face to face with the woman's you've just slept with ex girlfriend stuns you. Your body freezes , your head tilts downwards , your eyes try their best to not meet up with hers. - "I'm one of her colleagues, just call her so I can talk with her about-"

"Miranda hates you." - you hiss out , still not daring to look directly at her. Anger twists your hands into fists. Will Miranda be proud, if you manage to give Mia the beating she deserves? Hatred might not be the blonde's woman exact emotion towards Mia, but you know very well love is already out of the picture.

"Excuse me?" - you're not the only one spitting venom out. As she sounds both extremely mad and confused.

"I doubt she wants to see you." - finally you built the courage to lift up your head , a ball of anxiety shoved in your throat as you speak. You're not speaking Miranda's thoughts out loud, you're speaking yours. You don't even acknowledge the finger that pokes Mia's chest while you clench your jaw. - "Ever. Again."

"Who the fuck are you?" - the woman gets fed up with your insolence. Your back hits the outside wall of the mansion, showing you exactly how rough and cold the texture is, once Mia decides to move forward. With her teeth bared and eyes widened, she resembles a monster, which claws are guided by anger. Her fingertips tug hard on your collar, threating to rip it apart. It's only when your own hands begin to fight her, that her crazy looking eyes manage to take a peak from underneath your shirt, specifically your neck area - where Miranda's love bites are on full display. Her madness forces her to laugh. - "I see how it is."

The ghost from Miranda's past, the ghost that shouldn't be here at all, releases you. Mia crosses her arms in front of her chest, observing closely as you try to put your shirt back in place , determined to hide the red scars around your neck and shoulders. She smiles revealing a nice set of teeth.

"Miranda fucks like a beast, doesn't she?" - although the sonority of her voice is low , she makes sure you hear her and the mocking laugh that comes after it. - "It's almost funny, for a mighty women like her, to be acting like a whore whenever she gets the chance to."

Mia's walking on very thin ice. Your fists are impatiently waiting to meet up with her face.

"Why are you-"

"Don't consider yourself special, girl." - she pats your hair , and you loose time in shaking your head , instead of smacking her hand away, because she quickly gets a hold of your locks and pulls hard , forcing you to hiss out of pain. - "And don't think she slept with you out of anything else but desperation. She can't help herself when she feels needy." - Mia tightens her grip , threating to rip off your hair , along with the skin covering your skull. - "Remember well the fact that she seems to so easily forget - no matter what she does , and who she does it with , Miranda stays mine, my whore. Mine"

Your squirming pays off. A strong knee successfully connects with Mia's stomach, or more like her upper thigh , as your hits is strong but not well calculated. The woman groans out, clearly not taking well pain the same way Miranda does it. Her hands disappear from the roots of your hair , only to wrap around her abdomen. The sound of her teeth madly crashing at eachother can be almost heard from the distance you've managed to create between the two of you.

"How dare you talk like that about the woman who is still grieving about her lost love over you." - you would never believe that you'll be defending Miranda as fiercely as currently. Your finger shakes , from anger or deep sympathy, you're not so sure, while you point at Mia. Her face expression is hard to read. - "You treat her like an object, lacking ownership." - your ears manage to catch the sound of quiet steps somewhere behind you, yet your mind refuses to pay attention. - "But you fail to realise how much more she is."

"And for what good she's worth?" - the audacity she forces into her voice deserves to be slapped away. In fact, your palm is very close to running across her cheek. If it wasn't for the tender hand that tugs on your shoulder. You don't pay it much attention while answering Mia's unbelievable question.

"Start treating her like an actual human with real feelings, for which you care about, and you'll see." - Miranda is mean , Miranda is rude , Miranda lacks the feeling of being appreciated. Yet by getting to know her better, you've learnt she at least deserves the bare minimum. Something Mia is incapable of giving her.

"Go back inside, darling." - her voice is smoothing, breath hot at the shell of your ear. Mia's jealousy can be seen from kilometers away, her eyes focused on the way Miranda's arms are wrapped around your waist, in attempt to pull you backwards. You give the blonde woman beside you a concerned look. Both of you understand your wish to not leave her alone. A conversation between her and Mia, however, is needed. And it's you who have to step aside.

You do it. For Miranda's sake only. One mean glare , a warning, is sent in Mia's direction right before you walk back inside the mansion, the two huge doors locking behind you.

"I don't recall giving you an invitation, Mrs.Winters." - Miranda has always felt uneasy around her past lover , yet she tries her best to compose herself, with her back straightened and chin high, she likes to force her authority over the other woman. - "So why are you here?"

"Oh , drop the formalities, Miranda." - the taller woman's face stays emotionless. Mia's attempt to move closer to her is cut by a strong arm, lifting up to keep her distance. A shake of Miranda's head is a warning that keeps Mia at bay. - "We both know you're not like this."

"You still haven't answered my question, i don't like repeating myself." - she keeps her tone cold , not allowing any voice cracks that are so temptingly scratching at the base of her throat out. It's been months since her last meeting with Mia, she can't keep the emotions lurking inside her for long. - "And I'm getting impatient."

"Eveline..." - Mia swallows, now it's her own turn to glue her eyes to the floor. Miranda tends to be intimidating without even realising it , but she has never forced the effect of fear inside the brunette's body.- "I'm here to see Evie."

"Your real reason, Mia." - her actual name is spoken out loud, at what cost, however? Anger twists her voice in an almost screaming matter. It sent shivers down Mia's spine. She hasn't seen her beloved in so long , the rough treatment she's getting is not something she's expecting. But Miranda is done with locking herself around her neck everytime they meet up, forgetting completely about all the pain Mia has made her feel. - "You stopped caring about Eveline very long ago."

"I haven't seen you in months." - Mia doesn't allow herself to be as rude to Miranda as she is with you. Despite the anger traveling along her veins , she knows how to play her game. She knows what Miranda likes to hear. - "I miss you."

Convincing her has been easy before. Yet now , Mia faces an obstacle.

"You ruined me , Mia." - Miranda's words strike the younger woman like sharp arrows, eager to meet up with her skin. Her heart skips a beat when the blue eyes she's so intensely staring at start to go darker and darker, hinting the missing emotions she's searching for. - "Now you owe me time to heal. Alone."

"And how much exactly do i have to wait?" - she hisses out, chin tilting to the closed doors. - "Alone you say, meanwhile you're busy having fun with other women."

"You don't even realise how much you're hurting me, do you?" - the skin under Miranda's eyes starts to colour itself in light, red shade.

"And you?" - Mia exclaims, lifting her hands in the air, unbothered by the way she's practically screaming. - "Can't even wait for my back to turn before dragging another woman into your bed." - her arms extends to Miranda , then stops midway, knowing she's not allowed to touch her. She curses out loud. - "It's so easy for you to replace me!"

"You have to be someone in order to be replaced, Mia."

"Oh , so I'm nobody to you now?!"

The blonde woman shakes her head, unbothered by the single tear that rolls down her cheek. She tries her best to stop her chin from shaking, her nails dig into her own skin , trying to replace the pain in her chest with another.

"Miranda, please." - it's Mia who breaks into tears first, her voice almost unrecognisable. - "I still love-"

"You made your choice years ago." - Miranda's hand wraps around the base of her throat, she breaths in and out , the wind blows golden locks of her still messy hair in front of her face , limiting Mia's vision that is so impatient to break into her personal space. - "Go back to your husband, Mia."

The brunette's mouth opens to argue, to talk back , to defend herself. After a second, however, she hesitates. Mia knows she's guilty, and for the first time in years she doesn't feel the need to deny that fact. Miranda is a mighty woman, with a strong character, she's divine in so many ways. Mia felt powerful, knowing she has all of that in her hands, even after cutting their relationship into just casual fucking. You were right, she truly sees her an object. Owning her , however, it's impossible.

The apology sent in Miranda's address is murmured, yet genuine. The blonde woman tries her best not to show how her body is weakly shaking as her past lover slowly makes her way to her parked car. It's when she turns to look back , that Miranda's mind totally breaks. The burning tears are impossible to hold back.

"Mia..." - she whispers. Her voice, though, devoid of softness.

"Miranda." - the woman answers, taking a confident step forward.

"Mia, please." - blue eyes observe her body, unexpectedly stopped in the middle, locked in her abdomen. - Take better care of this child than you did of Eveline."

Mia's eyes open wide , her arms immediately wrapping around her stomach. She looks down, her fingers tugging on her loose shirt. And she begins to cry , for a completely different reason. Her breath hitches once she looks eyes with Miranda again.

"How did you-"

"Goodbye, Mrs.Winters" - the doors behind Miranda open and she takes a step inside. She doesn't allow herself to look back , knowing she won't take the view very well. The sound of tires rolling down the old road matches perfectly with the thud of the now closed doors. Mia's gone , hopefully for a long time.

Miranda's knees feel weak , unable to carry her body weight. Her chest itches from the inside, she composes the urge to dig her fingers deep inside her skin and tear her heart apart. Love is a weakness, an allergy, a death threat. She'll never allow herself to be this weak again. Yet...at such moments her loneliness craves for attention.

"Darling..?" - she voices out , a hand rubbing at the base of her throat, right above her collarbone. Her mouth fills up with saliva, as if she's about to throw up. Hatred is a weak word to describe the things she's currently feeling.

"Darling?" - Miranda realises very well what is happening to her, judging by the way her breathing becomes more rapid and ragged , her head spinning, mind dizzy. At some point she hits herself in a doorframe, she doesn't care , she feels no pain. She struggles to get enough air filling her lungs , meanwhile her body tries Its best to get more oxygen, making her completely lightheaded.

"Little deer, show yourself." - she orders , she begs , she hopes for someone to hear. You're not the kitchen, where are you? She can't keep this up. Her fingers go through the roots of her hair. Her head spinning around. - "I need... darling?"

"Miranda, are you calling for me?" - something in her tight chest snaps and she runs to you the moment you peak your head through the kitchen door. She shoves her face in the crook of your neck , her body glued to yours , the sobs that break through her are impossible for containing. - "Sorry i was upstairs and...-Shit are you crying?"

She shakes, your hands don't waste time in wrapping themselves around her, palms gently rubbing her shoulder blades. You start to feel uneasy, this Miranda has nothing to do with the one from yesterday, even when she was close to crying in the restaurant. The woman , currently stitched to your chest, is in a complete breakdown, unable to stop her tears and quiet cries. You have no idea how to comfort her, simple because you've never seen her in such state. You know she tends to be emotional, but that's a whole other story. The best thing that comes to mind is...to just be there. You place your head on her shoulder and pull her impossible close, once you try to match with her breathing you notice she begins to calm down.

"I didn't know..." - she murmurs, taking in a deep breath. - "didn't know she was pregnant."

Miranda's fingers are now playing with the edges of your hair , as she tries to think of anything else but Mia. Your chest fills up with a guilt, once you remember you did hit Mia's stomach in an act of anger. Yet that feeling fades when she pulls away and her puffed, flushed face shines in front you. You're quick to cup her cheeks and press your forehead to hers.

"Love...she says she still loves me." - her lips twitch when that simple word slips past them, you kiss her gently, showing her tenderness, comfort. - "But she shows up pregnant, that's...humiliation. And she knows, she know she's carrying his child , yet she drives all the way here to tell me she misses me. And for what?"

"To mock you, she's mocking you." - you answer instead of her, giving her enough time to process her thoughts before every other gentle kiss placed on her lips. Your chest fills up with a nice warmth when she begins to return those kisses without you guiding her into it.

"Did she scare you, darling?" - your arms finds themselves missing her a second after she departs from you. That's until her thumbs brush along your cheekbones. - "Mia can get rather...aggressive."

"That's true, but I'm okay, Mira." - you trace tender circles over the skin of her hands, smiling now that her breathing is back to normal. She tilts her head. - "Promise."

"Good." - Miranda whispers. - "Because I truly need a cigarette."

Miranda hasn't moved from her balcony for almost two hours straight. Two hours in which she did nothing but try her best to empty a freshly new box of cigarettes. You find that impossible fascinating, giving the fact that the brand she's smoking isn't exactly light, as the cigarettes are thick and hard to finish whole. Her normal sweet perfume is now dominated by the smell of smoke and nicotine.

Even if she drowns herself in all this poison, it won't change the expression she has on her face. One you can only see in old renaissance paintings, she truly looks like a piece of art - you only wish she didn't look as sorrowful as she did. Sadness is truly a great emotion that doesn't need to be shared, in order to awaken sympathy in a person's soul. Though your truly hate to see her in such state.

Miranda's shoulders roll backwards once you open the clear balcony door and walk outside, light breeze begins to play with loosen locks of your hair. You pull a chair, positioning it close to her ,but not enough to break through her personal space. Her gaze stays locked forward, in the endless sea of large, green trees. A magnificent view. You , however, fail to realise how she doesn't get bored of looking at it. Two hours is not a short period of time. Hints that the trees are of no interest to her, as she's lost in her own mind.

"You're still not tired of smoking?" - you voice out , in both concern and surprises. Then you clear your throat when she doesn't bother in giving you an answer, you try your best to sound reasonable - "It's not good for you, Mira."

"If I don't smoke, I'll drink." - she takes yet another puff of her cigarette, a tender wall of smoke covers her face a few seconds after. Her voice is rougher than usual, the movements of her hands , of her body - slow and uncalculated. - "If i don't drink I'll sleep and that feels like a waste of time."

"Why not get some work done, then?" - you suggest, hoping her workaholic nature will show up. You're even close to proposing helping her around the laboratory as well. Your words actually manage to awaken movements within her, you smile once she turns her head to you. Not returning your gesture however.

"Do you know why I'm working from home?" - she asks , her lips barely moving. You shake your head, earning yourself a sigh. - "I couldn't stand looking at Mia after... everything" - she tosses the burning stub of her cigarette on the floor, her foot stomping it immediately, while her hands wave around. And you nod , remember how the brunette woman from earlier said she and Miranda are colleagues. - "Watching in the corners while her oh so loving husband comes to bring her lunches." - her hands form into fists and she presses her back completely to the chair. - "As if I can't cook, as if I can't take better care of..." - she stops to look at, a sorrowful flame dancing inside her eyes. Her arm extents to grab the cigarette box on the table next to her. - "I refuse to feel that humiliation ever again."

Miranda lets those unfamiliar sounding curses to occupy her lips , while she holds yet another cigarette between her teeth. Her fingers are inpatient while they try to light up the tip of it, it takes you a moment to realise she's shaking, therefore not being able to transfer her desires directly into her hands. You cannot take the view.

"Okay, that's enough." - the look you receive after stealing the cigarette from between her lips just before she can take her first puff after finally managing to light it up is genuine confusion. Then her eyebrows furrow in anger, though she doesn't exactly show it. Yes , she tries to grab it again, failing miserably when you move to a side, but her body movements are lazy , as if she's not trying hard enough.

"Darling, it's my last one." - she attempts to snatch it again, her fingers barely brushing against the skin of your forearm as you move your chair further away from her. She growls. - "Don't torture me as well."

You dare not speak to her. In fact, your eyes don't even cross hers once your own lips wrap around the cigarette and you inhale hard, in hope to finish it faster. Clouds of smoke fill up your lungs , making it hard to breathe. You exhale it in short, coughed up breaths. Meanwhile Miranda's chair creaks, now devoid of her weight.

"That's not how you do it." - she comments, her body now standing still in front of you.

"I don't care." - the smoke rises up from the smoldering tip of the cigarette, curling and swirling in the air. You're unbothered, even when you begin to find it difficult to breathe. How does Miranda likes all of this smoke, this smile and the dizziness that comes with it?

"You'll hurt yourself." - she's calm, you can judge by the way her voice changes. Once you finish the cigarette - you mimic her previous self and throw it on the ground, right next to a small pile of ashes. Then you look at her from beneath your eyelashes. To your surprise, a smirk is lurking in the corners of her lips. Your hand grabs the now empty box and you crush it with your palms , making sure there's no poison left for her.

"There - no more cigarettes." - you stand up, lifting your head, not cutting eye contact. A single finger of yours points to the inside of the mansion. - "If you want I'll go and drunk all of your alcohol." - you lick your dry lips. - "Shall it means your attention will fall on me."

Miranda laughs. An actual, ringing and sweet laugh, filled with amusement. Her eyes begin to sparkle with joy. You allow her to pull you into a hug, not wasting time in shoving your head into her chest. Her warmth covers you nicely, while you wrinkle your nose at the strong smell of nicotine coming from her. It's not as bad as before, however, now that you're also covered in it.

"I think it's time to go get the girls back home." - she suggests, running her palms down your back.

"Is that an excuse for you to buy yourself more cigarettes, Miranda?" - how convenient, to remember she needs to pick her daughters up right after her favourite poison is no longer available.

"The store is on the way." - she whispers, lifting your chin up with tender fingers. You can't help the smile that urges on your lips when she pulls you close for a kiss. - "Why waste the chance?"

*****

You don't end up in a store, but a familiar gas station instead, as Miranda's car happened to be out of fuel. You remember being here a few months ago, with wet clothes from the rain, freezing inside the building as the air coordinator was on. The weird old man behind the cash register telling you nobody lives in the distant mansion. You'll like to see his face while you tell him the woman who's currently paying him for the gas is pretty much the woman he swore didn't exist.

It's only now that you realise how much time has passed and how exactly your relationship with Miranda has changed. It's weird to think about it. No complains, however, happen to cross your mind.

Your head tilts to a side, gaze landing on a white car parked next to yours. From inside comes out a man. He's wearing a hoodie. Even though he's standing with his back turned to you, no difficulty in recognising the pattern on the fabric happens to get in your way. You know that hoodie well, because you spent a good amount of time trying to decide if you should get it. It was for a gift , a birthday gift. For your boyfriend...well ex boyfriend.

What the hell is Philip doing here? You widen your eyes , in half fear and unsurenes, in what to do. You press your back the leather seat, hoping Miranda will come sooner so you can go before the man realises his ex girlfriend is standing right behind him. You find yourself praying he won't turn around. Yet the gods seem to be absent.

His eyes immediately cross with yours the moment he turns in your direction. Both of you take in a sharp breath, just standing there , glaring at eachother. Then Philip moves forward, closer to you. Fuck. You bite your lower lip, fingers nervously pulling at your seatbelt. A tap on your window makes you jump. Your head turns and you're met with a soft smile. You force yourself to roll down your window.

"Hey." - he voices out, low and tenderly. A tone so very different than the last time he spoke to you. When you broke up with him over the phone.

"Hey." - you return, the sound that slips past your lips is pure unsurenes.

You both look at eachother in silence for a moment. There's so much to be said , yet none of you decides to go there. Not now, not here.

"You...what are you doing here?" - a question sent in his regard ,whose answer your ears desire to hear. Philip looks to a side , down the old road. His fingers lift up to scratch his head.

"A friend invited me over" - he starts, licking his lips. You note that he finds it hard to find the right words, as if you make him uncomfortable. This has never happened before, he was always smooth with his speech around you. - "For a birthday party." - he specifies and you nod to show him you understand. Philip clears his throat once your eyes shift to the gas station, whose doors open automatically and a tall, blonde figure walks out. - "How about you? What are you doing here?"

"Just passing by..." - you don't even pay attention to your answer while you continue to watch Miranda getting closer and closer to the car, she's looking down into her phone, distracted.

"Alone?" - Philip points to the empty driver's seat.

"No, with..." - what is your relationship with Miranda again? - "...my boss."

Miranda opens her door the moment the words come out of your mouth. She quickly positions herself in her seat , the black seatbelt immediately going around her torso, as she's keen on safety. You're not surprised when you spot the not one , but two freshly new cigarette boxes in her lap.

Your head spins from her back to Philip. You find him horrified. His lips are slightly parted, as if he wants to scream but his body doesn't allow it. He looks completely frozen in his place, with widened, unblocking eyes. A closer observation points out his trembling hands. Meanwhile his whole face is covered in extreme fear.

"You..." - he whispers, slowly bowing his head in Miranda's direction. As she turns to look at who's so pathetically murmuring that close to her , a vicious smile curls the edges of her lips upwards.

"Hush, little boy." - she waves her hand towards the open window on her side - "I think you've got the wrong car."

"I apologise, I-"

"Wait." - you voice out , earning yourself an eyebrow arc from Miranda and a confused look from Philip. He's clearly scared of the woman, not like you blame him - she tends to be scary. Yet , he can't just be as horrified as he is without seeing her in the past. - "Do you know her?"

He hesitates, biting his lip and looking to a side, ignoring your questions and trying his best to avoid your glance. Instead of rooting an answer out of him, however, you get it from someone else.

"No." - Miranda scoffs , unbothered by the situation, she inserts the key into the ignition and turns it until the engine roars to life.

"No..." - Philip repeats, though not as convincing as Miranda. He takes a step back , shaking his head. You open your mouth, so many questions trying to escape, waiting to be spoken out. You fail in that , because the radio begins to play nearly the same time with your window rolling back up.

Miranda drives away as fast as she possibly can. Leaving Philip at the gas station, sadly waving you goodbye.

There's no way they know eachother. Right? Miranda just have this effect on people, on men. She hates them, therefore she feels no need to be charming with them. Right? But Philip's fear felt somehow different, deeper and...personal. And Miranda...she acts weird very often, but this was very unusual even for her. They can't know eachother, they can't. ...Right?

"Stop the car." - you command.

"Why?" - Miranda doesn't feel the need to look at you, she just continues to keep her eyes on the road, always the careful driver she is. When you repeat your wish she groans annoyed. - "No, darling, we're almost there I'm not going to-"

"Stop the damn car, Miranda!" - you find yourself practically screaming at her , extending your arms , in attempt to grab the the steering wheel. She slaps your hands away the moment they move too close to her personal space. The car makes a weird half turn before she manages to park it safely on the side of the road.

"Are you trying to get us into a car crash?" - she huffs , running her fingers through her hair. She takes a deep breath in, then she gives you a concerned look. A soft palm cups your cheek , you, however, refuse to lean into her touch. - "Are you upset about Philip, darling?"

"Don't call me that." - you grab her wrist, your fingertips making contact with the golden chain bracelet hooked around it. You push her hand back, a wave of confusion travels through her eyebrows.

"Don't call you what? 'Darling?'" - she suggests.

"He...used to call me that." - it's only now that you realise Miranda has given you this nickname nearly the same time you broke up with Philip. Adds more weirdness to the situation.

"So?" - she growls when in attempt to touch you again - you deny her, sinking deeper into the back of your seat. - "I thought you were over him."

"Miranda you-" - hesitation runs through your veins once her lips manage to get close enough to yours and brush against them. Your chest tightens when your palms push against her shoulders, her seatbelt is off , if you don't stop her now she might as well get on top of you with ease. - "Did your fuck my boyfriend?"

"Ex boyfriend, darling, please."

"I'm serious, Miranda!" - you don't bother with your nails digging into her skin. Though she doesn't show any signs of pain, she backs off , her eyes carefully observing the way your chest begins to lifts up and down rapidly. You're grateful for the window she rolls down, allowing fresh air to enter the car. - "I'm not stupid, nor I am blind. Did you do it?"

"Ridiculous." - she mutters , voice low as a whisper. - "You know well i have no interest in men."

"Yeah because they can't work you up the way want it, right?" - you blink fast , trying to prevent your voice from going higher, even though you're already screaming at her. Miranda purses her lips, although she's annoyed, she listens carefully. - "So you go after their girlfriends instead!"

"I don't understand why you're getting so angry about something you wished to happen." - she clenches her jaw, still trying to be reasonable. Very few people are allowed to talk back to her with such audacity. You're in luck you're one of them.

"What?" - you ask, out of breath.

"I asked you." - she grabs her forehead. - "if you desire to know if he's cheating. You agreed." - she pauses , a small smile born of pride appears on her lips. - "And you got your answer, correct?"

"You're insane." - those words are old , but unforgettable, not once have you sent them to Miranda's regard. She's not as bothered by hearing them as she was before, though now they manage to pull a string inside her chest, making her breath hitch. - "I can't believe you-" - you stop yourself, covering your mouth. - "What if I had told you I wanted him dead - would you have killed him?"

"Anything to make you happy." - Miranda finds your question fascinatingly stupid.

"I blamed him, Miranda." - you point at her, your face getting angrier with each reply she delivers, as every single one is totally unhinged. - "When it was your fault, I- didn't ask you to fuck him. You- he's innocent. And I broke up with him for your own selfish reasons, you-"

"Do you think I'll ever allow a man to touch me , let alone take me the way you did last night?" - her fingers begin to play with the edges of her shirt, her head bowed low, golden hair slipping around her shoulders. - "He was so awfully drunk, it was easy to make him believe he slept with me, but darling trust me when i say this - I didn't touch him , at all." - she takes your hand in hers , you allow her to drag it to her lips and place gentle kisses along the path of your knuckles. - "Besides, i think it's time for you to stop worrying about your ex boyfriend and start thinking about your girlfriend instead."

"I have no-" - you stop, blinking a few times to process her words. Half of your palm is already caressing her cheek , she guides it against her skin. - "Wait , you think of us like girlfriends?"

"Well I certainly don't consider us friends with benefits, darling." - Miranda lets out a soft sigh when your fingers tug a few strings of hair behind her ear , then she closes her eyes as tender nail scratches land on her scalp. She doesn't mind it when you play with her hair, at all.

"I didn't even know you considered us friends." - you joke, your other arm also extends until your palm finds the other side of her face. Then you tilt your head to a side, smiling when she open just one eye to look at you. - "Do you even have friends, Miranda?"

"You're changing the topic." - oh, she doesn't have a single one.

"Look...I don't mind being your girlfriend, or your friend in that matter." - you squeeze her cheeks, finding it extremely cute how she lazily opens her eyes to look at you. - "But you have to stop lying to me." - your thumb brushes with her bottom lip , since her seatbelt is off she can easily stretch her torso and kiss you, but you're still with it which limits your movements. - "Promise me."

"You trust me?" - she questions, finding it hard to believe.

"I know you didn't fuck him, Miranda." - he doesn't stand a chance with her anyway. - "However the fact that you seduced him , forcing him to believe into something that never happened, is enough to hurt me." - finally she decides to push herself forward, bringing her face closer to yours. - "Even if you did it for my sake."

Philip is a long lost case. You wouldn't dare to return to him even if Miranda really allowed him to warm her bed before you could do it. Yet he doesn't deserve to be blaming himself over something that is far away from the truth.

"Never again then, darling, I promise." - you'll never get tired of licking the sweet lipgloss off her lips as they continuously claim yours. You push her shoulders back before she can force her tongue into your mouth. Her teeth immediately land on the edge of your jaw. Well that's a new place to bite. - "Is it that selfish?" - she asks, although you pay more attention to the hand that tries its best to slip beneath your shirt. - "my hope for us to work out even before yesterday, or even before that..."

Perhaps around the time you broke up with your boyfriend. Miranda was there , silently watching you as you went to a breakdown, and that was still enough to calm you down.

"The kids, Mira." - you breath out, reminding her of her daughters.

"The kids, right." - she places one last kiss on your cheek before returning back to her seat and starting the car, taking the road up to the castle.

***** No matter how hard you try , how much you turn and toss in your bed - you find it impossible to drift into sweet sleep. At first you were feeling too hot - kicking the blanket off your body at the end of the bed was a solution that worked only for a while. After a few minutes the mansion decided to show you exactly how cold it can get, so you were forced to cover yourself yet again.

But it's not only those heatwaves that come and go that bother you. Your bed is not even close to being as soft as Miranda's. The pillows are too thin , the sheets don't smell like her. You hate it. After spending all day and night with her it's hard to go to sleep without having her snuggle into your embrace. You feel rather lonely.

And that same loneliness is the fuel that guides your legs down the corridor, closer and closer to the blonde woman's bedroom.

Miranda is a light sleeper. She opens her eyes at the first knock delivered on the surface of her wooden door. Even though she hates to be awaken in the middle of the night, which happens way too often recently, she smiles knowing it's you on the other side. A side of her hopes you've come to propose something more intriguing than her sleep, devoid of dreams.

"The hour is quite late, darling, don't you think?" - she asks, teasingly, rubbing her still fluffy, sleepy eyes. You swallow, taking in the view in front of you. Miranda always manages to look devine - even with the messy golden nest she call hair around her head , and the short, dark nightgown she's currently wearing.

"I can't sleep." - your tongue travels along your chapped lips as you lean on the doorframe, enjoying the way Miranda's eyes also scan your body closely.

"And you think wandering into my bedroom will fix your problem?" - although she speaks with a voice, drowned in mockery, she still steps aside, opening her door wide, an invite you gladly accept. - "Do come in, though"

"I just kind of...missed you?" - what an excuse, your whole day was spent with her. She chuckles.

"I do tend to have such effect on women, darling."

Her hands are gentle, but demanding when they wrap around your waist, her lips waste no time in connecting with the skin of your neck. You expect her to place you literally everywhere - pin you to the wall, throw you on the bed or simply take you on the floor, but no - out of all places you end up sitting nicely in front of her vanity.

"Miranda..." - you turn your head to look at her, a second later her fingers come to hold your chin, forcing you to face yourself in the mirror.

"Stay still." - a simple command you fail to follow as your body is itching to touch hers. You have no idea why she's making you so needy.

"Mira..." - you hear the clang of metal hitting into metal echoing close to your ears, and then you feel the cold material around your neck. And Miranda's thin fingers that works fast to tie it nicely so it can stay there.

"I said something." - she tugs on the necklace, the large pendulum positions itself right in the middle of your collarbone. The silver metal matches nicely with your skin, the jewelry shiny and rich looking. It suits you perfectly, as if it's made for you personally. - "Do you like it, little deer?"

"It's beautiful." - your digits lift up in order to run along the length of the necklace.

"It's yours." - Miranda whispers near the shell of your ear before placing a tender kiss there. She then takes a seat on top of her vanity, bending her back so she's still hoovering over you. Her palms caress your face, your hair, your neck...and she looks at you with such pretty, rich coloured, dreamy eyes. It's hard not to get lost into them.

"I suck at relationships, darling." - she sighs. - "I often cross the line between giving too much and giving too little. I'm not certain how to...maintain my feelings."

"I know, Mira." - her character is definitely hard to handle. A big part of you, however, knows exactly how to match with her attitude. - "I don't want to force you into a relationship, just because we slept together." - you pause to gather your thoughts. - "I know it was a moment of passion for both of us."

"There was no passion." - she sounds more than certain, a sharp finger is traveling at the edge of your jawline. - "I was thrilled by something else. I feel you closer on a whole different level."

"You're attracted to sympathy, Miranda?" - you grin, kissing the fingertips which wander curiously across your lips. You then grab her wrist, placing a trace of kisses there as well. - "Is that what you're trying to say?"

"My emotions are something I struggle a lot with." - she explains, observing closely while your lips continue to travel up her arm. At some point you stand up so you can reach her neck. - "They run deep and...they are too great for a single person to handle."

"Then let me have half of them." - you suggest, teeth nipping at that sensitive point where her neck connects with her shoulder. - "That simple, Mira."

Instead of kissing you, this time the woman practically drags you into her embrace, burying her head in the crook of your neck. She adore physical intimacy, especially one that is not born from passion, just shared admiration. She breaths in your scent , trying to remember it well.

"I do hope you can see me in a different light." - she whispers. - "I do hope you can realise I'm not completely evil, darling."

One kiss on your forehead is enough to cut any questions from forming inside your head. The last thing you see before the world caves is , surrounding you with pure darkness, is Miranda's tender eyes looking down at you, filled with pity and sadness.

*****

"I can't be a father." - the man with a blurred face says , his voice roughly and hardly recognisable. His body keeps on changing with each movement he makes - hinting that the memory of his exact height and weight is lost. The only certain things that shines in him are the golden , curly locks of hair occupying his head.

"You're acting as if the happening is my complete fault." - the woman that answers him is very easy to acknowledge, to remember and recognise. Despite the different colour of her hair , Miranda's face is the same, the two deep wells she calls eyes still have that wild flame of a single candle in the wind, stitched into them.

"You find yourself in luck, woman - do thank the God for your immaculate beauty, because without it you're nothing." - the man is not careful with his word, in fact each one of them aims to hit the brunette woman directly into her vulnerable heart. - "Do you even know what the villagers are whispering about you and your...witchcraft."

A witch, a whore, a monster. She has heard it all.

"Witchcraft?" - Miranda exclaims. - "It's medicine! I help people, i do not make potions."

"Help yourself then." - a few steps are taken closer to her by the man , making her feel uneasy. - "Use your precious medicine to get rid of the baby inside your belly."

"You want me to kill the only single blessing in my life?" - the pain in her voice can be not only heard, but felt. It mixes with the quiet tone of fear.

"It is a curse!" - the man grabs her shoulders, looking down at her body. - "You - all of you is a curse sent by the Devil himself to torture me."

"A curse, you say?" - Miranda laughs, trying her best to break free from his grip. - "Yet you call me a goddess everytime I'm in your bed."

"You were , for a while." - he lifts a finger in attempt to stop her squirming. She's afraid of his rough hand landing on her, now that she has more than just her body to protect. - "That was, of course, until you got yourself pregnant."

"With your child!" - she defends herself, grabbing his larger hand in between her palms. She hesitates to bring it down to her abdomen, however.- "Our child. It's going to be our child."

"We're not married, Miranda." - she knows it's bad when he speaks her name out loud. The woman swallows hard, her legs begin to tremble. - "The church will not accept a bastard child. Nor will my father, given his position as a priest."

"Then marry me. Make me your wife." - she hisses when his grip tightness, she knows his rough hands are going to leave red marks, which she'll have to hide again. - "Do that instead of taking me every night like a coward. And then blaming me for the consequences."

The slap that lands on her cheek is deserved. At least that's what the man believes in. Miranda stays silent.

"You don't realise it, but unlike you - I have a decent future ahead of me." - she lets out a groan of pain when he grabs her by the collar of her dress, forcing her legs to depart from the floor. She hates men's roughness. - "You're not going to ruin it, woman." - she finds it difficult to breathe, the man is unbothered. - "Get rid of it" - he says, not even considering his child as a human being. - "Before I do."

The first time Miranda's God betrayed her was when she found herself at the bottom of a high staircase. Pain pulsating in the lower part of her leg. She knows her ankle is broken, the scar of it stayed even after her immortally was gifted to her, as the wound happened to appear years before that. She doesn't care about her leg, or the awful pain, her arms are wrapped around her stomach as she begs for her unborn child to be in a fine condition. Not perfect, she just needs fine.

The faceless man observes her closely at the top of the staircase, looking down at her as if she's an ant. His hands transform into fists, his blood boiling. Miranda refused to follow his desires and he tends to be a man of his word. He didn't expected, however, for the attempt to fail. Doesn't matter for him, there's always going go be another time for a new try. He leaves in silence, ignoring her cries.

The second time Miranda felt like her god hated her was when the faceless man was taking her yet again. In the dark hour of the night, her body pressed to the uncomfortable mattress, her legs on his shoulders. He has always been rough, but the pain she's currently experiencing is greater than any other. Yet Miranda can't say a word - after all she has a roof over her head, she's being fed , she has a ring around her finger and a beautiful, healthy daughter sleeping in the other room.

She can take her husband's irritation all night if she needs to, shall it means her life can stay as peaceful as it currently is. It's funny how her world can flip upside down with just one sentence. She begged him , all morning, not to take Eva outside, as the flu is easily transferred. Yet he refused.

"She got sick." - her husband whispers, right before finishing, not bothering to pull out of her. After that she ran to her daughter's room. And she didn't come out until the girl died in her hands.

The third time God mocks her is her last straw. Her daughter, the innocent child lays dead in her coffin, her face covered in a black towel, not allowing the people gathered around to see the horrors that the flu has done to her skin.

Miranda went insane. Ten years, in which she faked being a happy wife , while having to live with a man that was constantly thinking of ending hers and her daughter's lives. Ten years, in which she had to visit church daily, to repents of her sins, meanwhile her husband was seen as a victim and a hero for deciding to marry an unholy woman like they portraited her to be. Miranda didn't even get the chance to name her child, that was the name the church gave her. Ten years...are too short for a child to live.

She had her fun watching the old structure burn , along with her awful excuse of a husband and his half-dead father. Let them call her a witch, a murderer, a devil. She doesn't care. Tonight she kills her God. Tonight she kills herself - because without the only blessing in her life she's nothing.

The world spins, time changes , day becomes night.

Miranda doesn't look like herself when she steps into the full of people club. Her height, her body, her voice, her face , her hair , everything is different. She's you. And she's here on a mission. Philip is easy to spot, she forces a smile upon moving closer to him. A hand on his shoulder forces him to freeze.

"Darling?" - he asks confused. - "What are you doing here?"

"I miss you." - lies come easily to her and while he's influenced of alcohol the man doesn't complain. Especially when his girlfriend, who's supposed to be far away and very mad at him casually shows up out of nowhere.

Miranda takes him to a hotel, where she orders him to undress and get into the bed. She tells him she'll be right back. She stays in the bathroom long enough for him to fall asleep. Exactly what she needs. She pulls a chair and sits next to the bed. All she has left is to wait.

In the morning, when she senses Philip is about to wake up - Miranda stands up to remove the dress she's wearing. Her hair shines back in golden colour the second she runs her fingers through it. After a few twists in her body - it shapes back into her usual self. She positions herself right next to the man in the bed. Watching his reaction upon seeing a completely different woman from his girlfriend laying next to him is awfully funny her. Philip will blame everything on the alcohol.

"Who are you?" - he questions in panic.

"Doesn't matter." - Miranda voices out , grabbing his chin, anything but gentle, and forces him to look at her.

"But-"

"Listen here, insolent boy." - he stops talking almost immediately. Good. Miranda smiles, adding fake sympathy to her voice. - "I'll leave in a few minutes, I want you to call your girlfriend after that and tell her what you've done."

It's on the tip of his tongue to ask exactly what he's done, but his eyes hint him the answer way too well. He's naked with another woman in a messy, hotel bed. It's easy to put the pieces together.

"Tell her what a fucking fool you are." - she takes joy in how his face twists in fear. - "Apologies for treating her bad , say you don't deserve her." - she pats his head. - "Because you don't, you truly don't. No matter how hard you try - you won't find such a treasure like her ever again."

"How do you... how do you even know about her?"

"Oh, darling boy , don't worry your head." - she bares his teeth at him. - "she's not your responsibility anymore."

***** All of your mixed, weird dreams evaporate from your head almost immediately after you wake up with a gasp, sweat covering your forehead, in the middle of the night. Your head hurts more and more with every attempt to try and remember different parts of all the scenarios lurking in your mind.

Only one image is clear - Miranda. You find comfort in hugging the real her, who's peacefully sleeping next to you. Your headache fades the second your skin presses to hers.

She's both a curse and a blessing, a goddess and a devil... she's all you care about for the rest of the night.

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