#but my sleep schedule is FUCKED rn so that sucks

[izzy-b-hands]

My doctor messaging me at 12:30 in the morning to tell me she wants to do a telehealth visit abt the side effects I'm having with my new Lamotrigine dose (including worse insomnia than my usual insomnia, as u may have guessed lmao) is. something.

[rouge-the-bat]

man trying to adjust my sleep schedule SUCKS. its so hard to resist the sleepies. but i want to be awake for my aunts new years party 😭

[thepandalion]

ok hot take that's been sitting in brain for a while now but like... why are we as a society normalizing and even glorifying not getting enough sleep?

like, maybe it's just because I medically require 10 hours of sleep so as to not straight up go unconscious at random points during the day, but I see people talk about how staying up until 2am is "amature shit" and you can do with less

guys. sleep is great. its so important and not getting enough sleep can fuck you up so bad on so many fronts. stop bragging about getting no sleep all week. the fanfics will wait. I have previously tried staying up to 11pm once to finish a fic, didn't even finish it, then fell asleep at work for 4 hours. over a half our of missing sleep

for that matter we should also yell at workplaces that make it harder to get necessary sleep

like. people on call 24 hours. doctors and stuff pulling all nighters and 24 hour shifts and stuff. that's not bragworthy. thats fucked up

[lear-dot-rpy]

me: thank you for everything sir

my prof: you shouldn't be taking me, you should be annoyed at me.

me, incapable of anger and on the verge of tears: no, still, thank you. even though I failed, you still gave me the opportunity to try and achieve my dreams by helping me shift courses. you still gave a shot to study here in this state university. i still get to live on with no regrets that i didnt try

my prof: ... Ms. Lear, no matter where you may go, I hope you [something I didn't hear]

me: what?

my prof: just looking at you stresses me out. everytime i look at you i feel stressed out. just take a break and do what you want to do in life

me, emotional whiplash: wait what, what do you mean-

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I start a new job in a couple weeks that will require me to wake up at 6:30am. Am I preparing for that? Am I steadily going to sleep earlier and waking up earlier so that this transition is smooth?

It's 2:15am and I didn't sleep sooner because I was cross stitching and watching Dimension 20. I'll let you guess how well the preparing is going.

[burningcomputerpersona]

how the fuck are ppl having actual social lives with this amount of courseload. i lose all my hobbies during the semester bc i don't have time for anything besides schoolwork but there are ppl out there hanging out with friends every day and having parties on the weekend. how.

[helloidkwhatimdoing-0]

Everytime im about ready to go to bed, it also happens to have been long enough since dinner that my stomach starts SCREAMING at me to eat something

But because its the middle of the night I end up just having a snack, which is enough that my stomach lets me sleep but not enough that I'm actually comfortable

I don't have a solution yet and i actually dont want to be going to bed this late and its driving me insane, but yeah this is just a thing now

[dendroculus]

i'm fighting demons

[yokakaiju]

i got bored and made a tierlist based off who smokes the most weed

justifications under cut

so like i made this cause its funny first and foremost, but i did put like somewhat actual thought into this. not much, but synapses were firing in my brain putting this together

also im not tagging everyone, ill just like pick 2 or whatevs

okay so first up is chidaruma. dude prolly invented weed ngl. you know he's smoked everyway imaginable: blunt, pipe, bong, can, apple, vape, synthesized, edible, hotbox, blower; you name it, he's done it. he's kinda over it, but he's still up there just cause like... idk he is and won't take criticism

haru is a beautiful weed smoking gf thats literally it

13's entire schedule is probably wake up, smoke, jerk off, sleep, eat, smoke, jerk off, eat, smoke, repeat. he also would probably kin jesse pinkman

ton is a bitch and smokes all the cross-eye commanders weed. like they'll save up for MONTHS to get like 5oz (one for each of them :3) and he'll be like, "woah! a bag of weed!" and smoke it ALLLLLL in like an hour. he's like a truffle pig for weed, they can try to hide it but his ass always finds it and smokes it all. he would prolly also call it za or skunk or some shit like that

ebisu isn't quite in the high 24/7 catagory, but she could be. dawg loves weed, like she is also 100% a fucking master at rolling blunts she rivals chidaruma at it. rolling blunts is like a sport for her tbh

aikawa's gotta cope dawg. like if he aint at school or currently being possed by demons his ass is smokin that shit bruh he needs a minute to chill. also he's got crazy money (kai's money but shhh) so he might as well spend it on his pookie <3 (risu)

noi may be controversial being up so high, but hear me out. weed smoking gf? i think yes B) mogs at you

asuka also has to cope, but its cause shes a blackpilled femcel (her own words i stg)

chota would smoke, but he hates the smell and doesn't want it to ruin his clothes and shit. he prolly wears like silk gowns and dances around to madonna while trippin off like 10g. he's livin the life tbh

OKAY HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUT johnston. fucking johnston is only i repeat ONLY UP HERE‼️ because kasukabe gives him those little non thc thc pills people give to dogs with anxiety and agression issues to keep him calm

poor dokuga cant share with his besties so he's been condemed to eating edibles alone... also smoking/inhaling smoke makes him drool a bit so like a bit deadly for everyone around him to even try. i like, debated on putting him in never, but tetsujo prolly cooks smth up for him so he doesn't feel left out <3

natsuki is only at the top of sometimes because she probably would more if she had money. also she sucks in a blunt rotation cause her ass ALWAYS WITHOUT FAIL tries to hold it in and always coughs like a mfer and taps out after like one hit

vaux just makes sense. he looks like an average 30-40smth nu metal oldhead, theres no way he DOESNT smoke at least a little. id put him in 100% but he's also a fairly responsible doctor so liek idk

kasukabe doesnt as much anymore, mostly only when he's with haru, but he still does sometimes for funsies cause he's just chiil like that :3

tetsujo doesn't thattt much cause it fucks with his already dog shit depth perception super bad, but sometimes if ton or the others dont find it he shares it with dokuga and they like yuri pose and eat edibles together or smth idk

ik kaiman is gonna be controversial being so low, but listen. 1) his ass is too focused on socerers and shit to care 2) he's dirt poor. he simply cannot afford it 3) how tf is he gonna smoke with no lips? that blunt would just get chewed to shit. like genuinely he would maybe get one singular edible if nikaido or vaux were feeling nice, but other than that its like, idk almost never for him

i would but shin in never, but ik noi is like "boss!!!! come take hits off this bong with me!! its gonna be so sick omg you HAVE to come smoke with me RN!!!!" and he'd be like "sighhhhhh... anything for my weed smoking gf ig..."

ushishimada is only so low cause i feel like he's too mothery to smoke a lot? like, he's too responsible, but not responsible enough to outright say no. also they're poor asf and ton always smokes it all

fukuyama would get his ass kicked by tanba if he found out, but ik dawgs gotta take a load off sometimes tbh

now again, controversial take but i have reasons. risu is so fucking poor. like, genuinely he is too worried about his tuition, bills, and groceries to give af about it (also cause aikawa is a bitch and makes him pay for everything cause "i forgot my wallet oopsie :3c"). now aikawa does supply him tho and he hooks him up with the primo shit ong. so at least when he does smoke he smokes that good shit (also they yuri pose as well while they smoke)

again, saji is too mommy to smoke that much weed (also another case of being too poor). bro doesn't want his clothes and needlework to smell like shit, which i respect

ai 100% would if his ass wasnt so busy with his damn self expiramentation bs. like, he wants to smoke so bad tbh, but he's like "sigh i gotta work on my plans to rebuild my body from the ground up.. maybe tomorrow" stares longingly out the window imagining how cool smoking weed is

again, kai's over here fuckin "i have to go to work" like he genuinely just doesn't care or have time. he's never even thought about it tbh, like you're tellin me this mfer has had a single thought outside of total domination in his entire existance??? HELL NAH HIS ASS DOES NOT THINK HE HAS ZERO THOUGHTS IN HIS HEAD I STG

now this may also be controversial. why isn't by beautiful coquette cottagecore angelcore babe out there rolling and smoking the fattest blunts known to man? turkey just like doesnt feel it. its not for her tbh. she tried smoking, she tried edibles. she just wasnt a fan tbh. like, she'll cook up some of the tastiest edibles you've ever had if you ask, but she just aint a fan

kirion also just doesn't feel it tbh. again, its not for her and thats alright

wow surprise surprise another controversial take. like, before you get mad just think abt it for a sec. like, she's so fucking business first and always has been that i think she would just see it as a major hinderance on her job performance, as well as the performance of her employees later down the line. now im not saying she's a narc or hardass about it, im saying she just doesn't feel it. the high she gets from people enjoying her food and making money is enough for her tbh. also she does do edibles sometimes, but mostly like when it rains in hole to make it a little less miserable and painful

en is about the same. like, he def has. he's just like, idk. he doesnt wanna. its not for him anymore. he doesn't care if anyone in the family does it, but they better not sacrifice the quality of their work for it. like if he catches you high on the job its prolly like some sort of repremanding, but off the clock he dont gaf

genuinely copy paste nikaidos shit for tanba. he's too worried about his business to even consider smoking weed

now... kawajiri is a fucking narc and a half. his ass would be like "erm ☝️🤓 well actually" and then give a big long speech about how weed is bad blah blah blah whatever no one cares dawg stop fuckin yappin. but like, he's just pissed cause no one will smoke with him or share their weed with him cause he's such a hardass

fujita is kinda weed smoking gf coded, but like ik his ass would be like "EN! EN! I SAW EBISU SMOKING A BLUNT THE SIZE OF HER OWN FOREARM AND TRYING TO SHARE IT WITH KIKURAGE!!! YOU NEED TO STOP HER RN!!!!" but hes only like this cause when he was in a blunt roation with shin, noi, and ebisu they all told him holding it in made you higher, but he ended up puking and they all laughed at him and made fun of him for it because hes a fucking idiot. so now he's an evil little narc who squeals to en when he even catches a whiff of a skunk like scent

curse is a bitch and ik his ass is like "RAAAHHHH‼️ I GOTTA GO KILL THE CROSS-EYES BOSS RAHHH‼️ I NEED TO SEEK REVENEGE FOR MY MURDER RAHHHHHH‼️" like dawg chill tf out be so real rn. he's too focused on revenge and shit to smoke and like, i think if he did smoke and kai also smoked they'd have beautiful hot sexy yaoi, thats just me tho

oh my god shou is such a bitch about it. like sure kawajiri gives lectures about the "scary true reality of weed" and fujita is a narc, but this guy. oh my god this mfer. THIS IS THE REAL REASON EVERYONE FORGOT ABOUT HIM ITS CAUSE THEY KNOW HIS ASS IS GONNA WHINE AND BITCH AND MAKE YOU GO TO LIKE AA OR NA OR WHATEVER FOR IT!!!! HE'LL START CALLIN YOI AND ADDICT AND SAYIN ITS A GATEWAY AND SHIT AND HOW THE DEVILS WILL IMMEDIATLY DRAG YOI TO HELL AND TORTURE YOU FOREVER IF YOU EVEN THINK ABOUT IT OH MY BALLS

kikurage is literally just a dog dawg. her ass dont even know what weed is

store crow mauler is like... idk man. idk how it would smoke weed or if it even knows or cares what weed is. whatever, its kinds like a pet so whatevs

[kyosaya-enthusiast]

Crazy long personal rant auggh

I feel like there's nobody I can really talk to anymore,,

my friends at school play everything off as a joke and say I'm simply being a baby

But then it's difficult to open up with the people who I trust the most because I don't want to worry them either...????

I haven't been able to sleep or eat well. I'm constantly feeling guilty about so many things that I can't change even if I wanted to and now a whole group of my... frrrriieennndss... keep saying such nasty things to me, it SUCKS cuz I've been struggling to even look at myself in the mirror lately and them shaming me for the way I look and act is making it even worse???

This person who's basically a friend of a friend keeps punching me and trying to scratch me constantly (i have slight cuts and big bruises on me due to this)?!?!?!?!? they keep insulting everything about me and my connections because my friends decided to tell her my business... the fact that it's not even JUST her getting on my nerves this year. it's a whole group of people for both school days (since I switch schedules per day) is ughg.h.. SICK and tired of even being here, man

Nobody even likes ME for ME. Half of these people don't even remember my name they just shove papers in my face and make me do their work, or they'll start doing things that they know will bother by making fun of me and such

Genuinely feel so weak rn physically AND mentally.

It takes so much just to get out of bed now. I used to love going to school and everything, I've been a straight A student since FOREVER and now I'm struggling to even stay awake in class or to not cry as soon as I receive a test cuz ik I'll just make me mom angry at me too

For the sake of the few people who might actually care about me I try to not hurt myself in any way but it's so... uagfhhg it gets so bad that it jjst hurts to think abt anything.

Seriously just...SO ANNOYED AT EVERYTHINGGG I WANT OUTTTTTT I WANT OUTTTT I NEED I NEEDDDDD TO LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND GAHDHFHFHH

"Mar why have you been so weird recently its sorta annoying"

Hey so I'm trying to NOT die rn give me an hour to relax, take a deep breath, and then maybe I'll smile for you and laugh at your stupid fucking jokes made to mock me all day ok!!!

Myyyy bad, sorta tired im sleepy!!

Cluching pmmm content in my arms gahh only thing keeping me sane...

[lixenn]

long vent post, this mostly me just word vomitting my feelings into the voide to cope, feel free to ignore

Got five hours of sleep last night (totally my own fault cause I napped in the afternoon which fucked over my schedule) and I'm so tired. I could technically nap again but this is kind of what got me in this mess so I might just try to power through.

I mostly didn't sleep because of the nap but I also started reading dark fic to distract myself from feeling sad and upset and just generally kind of shitty which naturally made me feel even more like crap. I thought I kicked that bad habit but apparently I didn't which means I need to pay more attention to my emotional state and what I consume in the future... yay about that I guess.

I know I should go outside cause it's been days since I left the house but it's hard OTL it's raining so motivation is even lower than usual. Also my mum wants me to cook this one thing (it's this soup paste thingy? which can be added to several dishes for taste) and I'm so fucking tired I dunno if I can handle making it today because there's a lot of prep work involved. Nap... I want to nap so bad... maybe i can do a power nap on the couch...

Also, I really want to finish chapter 5 but it's dragging a bit. I dunno if it's too dialogue heavy... like my writing is generally pretty damn dialogue heavy but this one hmmmm... yeah. I will need to sort out the one scene I'm working on and then figure out the next one. In general I'm kinda unstasified with my writing rn which might just be because of my low mood and because I stared at it too long but it still sucks feeling that way.

Art wise I'm doing... kinda okay? could be better. could be worse. I wanted to draw a new oc and used a reference on the charater she was inspired by but in the end I just drew the character because... yeah... the pose was too difficult to adjust for proper desgin change OTL I might just finished it anways and just make it a fanart but I put it on hold for now. I will try designing her on actual paper later though I really don't know about hairstyle... I might need to look at pinterest for inspo. Also I keep having ideas for drawing but no real motivation to actually make it because I know it will be difficult. I might need to go back to emote making for something easy to do.

Also I can't continue rewatching that let's play I did recently cause Resident Evil is not something I should watch when I feel like this (the fanfics that fucked me over where RE ones because of course they are). But I'm still in a horror mood so more fluffy things to watch don't hit the vibe. But I wanna watch something... But I can't watch what I want to watch cause it's bad for the brain. Ugh... I'll need to dig through my let's player's old stuff to see if something will scratch the itch without making me bleed.

[almondmlkbtch]

I am so fat and it is so annoying and i am relying too much on coffee rn & it’s fucking up my sleep schedule + caffeine crashes have been so intense that i am getting less done im so upset. I always fkn do this i get so high on the initial weight loss & then can’t handle when it slows down I am addicted to the scale even if I try to pretend im not. 1 & 1/2 wks ago i would have died to b 126 & all i can fucking think abt is how it won’t b noticeable I lost weight until im 122ish & I won’t start looking skinny ish until 118. I have to readjust my expectations redo all my calendars or something. I have been so light headed & weak feeling it fkn sucks having symptoms when u don’t get a boost from seeing the scale go down. Ugh sry for the annoying rant im done (i think)

[tohisprettyc00l]

Hunter alphabets

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?) Idk why but I feel like he would love to give gifts. Especially homemade ones. He likes to see your reaction :).

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?) Honestly, he's so nice (have you seen how he acts with Gus-) He asks for book and show recommendations. Bro if you ask him for recommendations, you better have at least an hour because, for each book/show, he recommends he has an at least ten-minute ramble about it.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?) He loves to cuddle so fucking much. He's usually a little spoon (Dude NEEDS to be held) But he also loves to hold you. Any chance he gets to cuddle with you he will happily take <333.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?) He's great at cleaning! Cooking on the other hand 😬. We all saw Thanks To Them, right? He was a part of that weird monster food that he, Willow, Gus, and Amity made( That was definitely not fit for human consumption.)

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?) Bro wtf- why do you have to do this to me??? I feel like he wouldn't be able to say it to your face. So he'll probably leave a note in a place he knows you'll see it. After that, he does everything he can to avoid you. He can't bear to see your face again.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?) Fears commitment 😨. Yeah, Belos has destroyed this mans trust. Takes a few weeks to months (Depending on if we're pre or post-Thanks To Them) But once he does trust he trusts you with his life. He wants to get married like right away but he is responsible. He isn't going to propose like ever but if he did he would wait. He doesn't want to rush things.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?) He is the most gentle person you'll ever meet when it comes to both. He'll do everything in his power not to lose you. If he ever hurt you either way he'll probably be more distraught than you. Will be begging for forgiveness even after you say you forgive him.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?) Read the last few sentences of gentle to get even an idea of how much he needs hugs. I've said this throughout this whole chapter but he can not get enough of physical touch. Once he learns more about what a hug is he'll be asking for it all the time!

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?) Ethier says like a week after dating or a year in. No in-between. Yeah, I have nothing else to say on the topic.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they're jealous?) Okay, I've been trying my best to avoid mentioning the fact that this was written after the fluff alphabet. But there's the exact same question as that one so just read rn or wait.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?) He sucks at kisses. He does like to give you kisses on the cheek and likes to be kissed on the cheek back though.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?) I have to admit this man is horrible with kids. He wasn't raised well as a kid. But that's all he knows so he thinks it's normal. Don't worry he doesn't yell or hit any kids though don't worry. Though he is kinda unnecessarily mean to these like eight-year-olds. He does eventually stop.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?) Breakfast? Not in bed but on the table. He wakes up hella early tho so at first he keeps on making the food too early and has to put it in the fridge. And if it's the weekend he'll watch some episodes of a show you both like, with you.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?) We all know that on top of getting up early, he goes to bed late too. Despite him having a bad sleep schedule he WILL NOT take you also having a bad sleep schedule to >:(. If he sees that you are late like him he will force you to go to sleep.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?) I think I've said enough for you to know that it takes him a while to open up.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?) It takes a lot for you to angerhim. This comes from a mix of not being allowed to question Belos and his fear of losing you. Though he does speak his mind so while he doesn't get angry quickly he does talk when things bother him.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?) Remember a lot of the smaller details. Not every detail is more than most others. Also not sure if I have to clarify this but he does remember a lot of big things about you.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?) It might be kind of cheesy but your first date. Him finally being able to make good relationships outside of the emperor's coven. If it went perfectly it's one of his favorites it's his favorite for obvious reasons. It went just as perfectly as he sees you <3. If it went wrong he loves it because despite all the flaws you still ended up with him <3.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?) Protective, but only really acts if you are in danger. He is kinda nervous whenever he leaves alone because of your association with him. I mean being with a gut who is wanted by the Emperor himself is a reason to be cautious.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?) When it comes to the first three, you would not believe how much effort he puts into them omg. He takes hours planning dates and anniversaries, making sure everything will go to plan. As mentioned before he loves to make gifts for you. Also with everyday tasks, he puts the normal amount of effort into them lmao.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?) Often views himself as worthless :(. Also feels the need to prove himself to you, even when you tell him there's no need.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?) Ehhhh it's complicated. He is not really concerned with his looks. But he does wanna look nice to you. So after you start dating he does start putting more effort into his appearance.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?) Does he feel incomplete when you're gone? No. Does he miss so fucking much. Obviously 🙄. I feel like he would try to sing when he's alone idk.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.) The one time he tried melatonin he passed out for like the whole day. (Me? Projecting even the smallest thing onto Hunter? Yes.)

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn't like, either in general or in a partner?) I feel like he hates messy spaces. Ecsapilly if it's a place that you're supposed to work in. He immediately cleans it himself.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?) Look at those bags under his eyes. Are you telling me he has a healthy sleep schedule? Absolutely not. He goes to bed at 2 A.M and wakes up at 6 A.M.

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A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them? He would love to tell you about the books he's reading, and vice versa! If you tell him you want to read the book he's talking about? He'll get so excited!!! Will constantly ask you where you are in the book and your thoughts. Okay, I got a little sidetracked but bottom line my boy likes reading and talking about it.

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them? He finds you beautiful no matter what you look like <3, and he admires your kindness! He has been so starved of kindness so like any amount of praise you give him will be greatly appreciated.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.? Has he had many panic attacks? Yes. Does he know how to help with one? No. All he knows is the basics. Comforting words, hugs n cuddles, and not much else. Though if you tell him what helps he will try his best to do it!

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o? He just wants to have a nice comfy life. After everything he's been through a lot, he wants to want to be calm and cozy, with you He would love to drink hot drinks and read books. Have the definition of a cottage care life.

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive? This question makes me uncomfy.

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting? If it was something small he forgives you after a day or two. But if it's something bigger Belos cough cough it takes him a while. But after a while, he will forgive you.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them? This answer should be obvious, he is so fucking grateful. He can't put into words how grateful for you, especially if/when you help him escape Belos. He is very aware and he is still kinda in the mindset of needing to prove he's useful to you(because there's nothing worse than disappointing someone who thinks you're special.) But after a while, he gets used to having a healthy relationship :).

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything? He tries, though he does tend to hide things for fear of disappointing you. Though, one thing does eventually slip and panic. He is surprised when you aren't mad (you do discuss communicating better because withholding info isn't healthy.)

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helping them overcome personal problems? I feel like the answer is pretty obvious: you changed him and he (probably) changed you. If you ever pick up a new hobby he is so encouraging. If you even handedly say you want to try baking. The next time you see him he has a whole baking set + ingredients.

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it? Ehhhhhh kinda. He worries that you might leave him when you get really close to other people. But more of an "oh God what if they replace me" way. Though after a few affirmations, he's good.

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

This man had/has no idea what he's doing 💀 If you don't initiate the kiss then it's not happening. Don't get me wrong he loves kisses, he's just too awkward to initiate them.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o? It's either an accident and just slips out, or it's super duper cheesy. But I like the cheesy idea better. He uses one of those pickup lines like "Do you like raisins? What about a date?" It's super cringey and cute.

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like? Yep mans wants to get married so badly. Though his ass is not proposing. Especially if he was the one who asked you out. He can not handle being that nervous again. Being married is pretty much the same yet it feels more special

N icknames - What do they call their s/o? he calls you: pumpkin, honey, princess//prince/royalty (Also if you are a woman he 100% called you unironically called you baby girl and had no idea why you were laughing)

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings? He thinks he's so good about hiding his feelings (He's not.) It's super obvious, you're just oblivious. He is a blushing mess around you.

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching? When you're around others he doesn't do much PDA. But when you're gone and he's around others, he brags about you so much omg. He has gotten into many fights with Amity and Luz (separately) about whose partner is better.

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that's beneficial in a relationship. Dudes fumking strong also at one point he was the Golden Guard.

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative? He is pretty cliché, at least at first. He has no idea what counts as being romantic, so he binge-watches a bunch of romantic movies and copies lines from there. Though throughout the relationship, he starts being romantic in his way.

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them? Kinda already answered this with the inspiration prompt he very much believes in you<3. He, himself, would even try to get into the activity too. He would ask you for tips about the subject and sometimes it actually helps him find new hobbies.

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine? No. Like not at all. This boy NEEDS even a little bit of stability, that's not to say he doesn't like to try new things. But he doesn't like to keep changing things around or just jump head first into things.

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic? He's pretty okay at reading facial expressions, so if you're an expressive person it's a lot easier for him to tell what you're feeling. But once he does figure out what you're feeling, he quickly tries to comfort you if you're feeling bad.

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it's worth in comparison to other things in their life? I'm not sure how much more I can emphasize that you mean the world to them. Your so fucking important to him and theres little to nothing he would choose over you.

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon. He made a wolf fursona the millisecond he found out about in the human realm. Luz has watched sad movies with hunter, she warned him beforehand and he was like "No I'm not sensitive enough to get sad at a movie." And he was way more sad than anyone else. If Luz and Hunter find out they like the same show/book they would 100% write fanfiction together.

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle? He loves to cuddle you!!! He also loves to kiss you and when you kiss him <3. Whenever he gets the chance he will ask for cuddles (and hugs when he learns what they are.)

Y earning - How will they cope when they're missing their partner? Depending on the time of day (or whatever day it was) He will either try to do as many missions as he can. Or he will mess around with flapjack and read.

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of? Very big lengths you are his everything. If you were dating him as the Golden Guard your relationship is that one simpsons clip that is like "I'd kill for you. Please ask me to kill for you." "No Goldie-"

[captainimprobable]

im so tired of being chronically ill like. i know im barely chronically ill. Idk if it even counts? But I feel sick all the time regardless?

like okay, put aside the mental illness, which is consistent. My narcolepsy has been okay recently but its gotten so much worse. the past couple weeks ive been comatose by 5pm if i spend the day doing literally ANYTHING. Anything. I get serious brain fog, I get stupid, I can't think or understand anything, I walk around like a zombie, and I randomly burst into tears. And my whole body hurts. And I'm just so fucking TIRED. I've been canceling plans over and over and people are starting to get upset, because "im tired" sounds like an excuse. but when theres maybe a three hour window that I can exist normally before taking a nap, it's hard to stick to plans. I have katsu next week and I just had to make a schedule so I can ensure I take naps, and also had to make the decision to not do late night panels unless I feel okay. And that sucks, because those are so fun, but when I feel like shit it's just. not worth it. And im so scared the whole thing will be ruined bc ill just be too tired to even leave the room. On top of that, my ARFID was getting better too! And then I couldn't even eat any safe foods today. So I just keep having days where I'm exhausted and starving, and being hungry makes me even more tired, but i cant sleep bc im so fucking hungry. I just wanna be a normal person who can go do things and not have to worry about if Ill be able to eat anything or if ill have to leave to go to sleep. (last year i left my own meetup an hour early bc i was too tired. so.) I want to hang out with friends and not act like a fucking idiot by the end of the day! I feel so weak and lame and it's all things other people don't understand are actual issues so when I try to explain it it all just feels like excuses.

I can only say "sorry i have brain fog rn" so many times before people start to think im just stupid.

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Hrmm. It's 6:30am, I have to wake up at 9am, but my friend and I are still deep in conversation. Should I even go to bed now?

[nikatyler]

Zeph 1.0

Almost there…yes I closed the game so I could get the 69 hours played screenshot…almost got it! 😅

I'm such a stupid 13yo at heart

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did i mention i love him

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Oof besties I think it's Moonrise time

Moonrise time over because ya girl is going to work tomorrow and it's getting late 🥲 but I so didn't want to quit the game today ugh

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Need to incorporate "let's not do anything hilarious" into my vocabulary because it's the biggest realest mood

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no way he approved lmao

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oh... OH

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forevermore? as in you and me forevermore? don't read the last page but i stay when it's hard or it's wrong or we're making mistakes omg a taylor swift reference!! 🤭🤭

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Zeph is looking so good in their new armor 😩

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Oh I'm gonna be reloading this fight a million times huh

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THIS WAS SO INTENSE WTF

Dude never thought I'd say this but Shadowheart carried this battle. I'm going to bed in game and irl because two intense battles back to back are too much for my anxiety 😭

This game is gonna wreck me isn't it

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So in the battle I had yesterday, Jaheira was killed, but I thought, well, it would be a shame to leave her stuff behind and she doesn't need it anymore, might as well take it…now I loaded the game again and notice she's there in just her underwear 😭 I'm sorry 😭😭

Yes I loot everyone and everything shamelessly, I learned from the best 🤭

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hole hehe

hole not hehe this is disgusting jfc

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"I could fix him" "I could make him worse" well I personally hope that *he* will make *me* worse

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We're not gonna talk about this party kill Nailed it! Took me three tries though 😂

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THIS GODDAMN PUZZLE I SWEAR TO GOD

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Big brain time

The f u c k?

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well i may have a few ideas how to use this one 🫢

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Well. I think I'll be starting act 3 tomorrow? 😬

(I'm excited but also nervous. Oh man this is exactly why I've never played this kind of games before 😂)

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I think I fucked up…I was going to do the crèche and the mountain pass stuff later but I can't anymore, I completely skipped it 😭 without too many spoilers, are there going to be bad consequences maybe?

I could pull up an older save but I've done so many other things already…I'm not sure if I want to replay them at the moment 🥲 Think I might just have to leave it for my second playthrough but it sucks that I completely skipped such a big part

And I know at some point it told me some things wouldn't be available if I continue but I didn't think it would be this 😭 I need clearer instructions y'all, I'm a dummy

This is ridiculous but I'm about to cry bc I missed such a huge part, I think I might go back to an older save and just redo everything idk 🥲 idk what to do ���� overthinking this too much

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"magnificent bastard" is a wonderful gender tbh

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dude i'm not some fucking pokémon 💀

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oh god i love him 💀 is he wrong though?

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she's serving too much cnt to handle i'm afraid

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A fellow clown hater! 🤩

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ohhh i was looking forward to this line 😂

omg Zeph really went "so aren't you worried about that old master of yours? yeah? anyway wanna smash tonight?"

KJLFGKSJFGKLJL BRO??????? the fuck did i do to you

hello ?????????? ????? ??????? ???????? ??????? no genuinely i don't know what i did/did not do 💀 idgaf I'm handing his ass to Cazador

me and Zeph both rn

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delivery not guaranteed? that's so Česká pošta coded

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bears in the closet you say? what was halsin doing in your closet? 🫢

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not me actually accidentally making Zeph jump off of a very tall something

and right after the second short rest and the idiot took so much damage 💀

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Oh we're playing Among Us now, how fun!

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I fear this will be another full night of playing...not a good idea considering we're going on a family trip tomorrow but eh whatever

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We did it again besties, let's hope I'll get my sleep schedule back on track before I return to work 😂

But it was definitely worth it, I had so much fun playing today. Aside from essentially being dumped but I'm gonna clown and hope all will be well (no spoilers pls)…I promise I will be normal and not actually irl cry about it 🫢😂

Gotta love that rejection hypersensitivity that kicks in no matter what 🤩 real person, fictional, who cares, it hurts 🤩 (no really I'm okay, I'm exaggerating, you know me)

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Next time I go "hehehe I won't sleep tonight, it's gaming time", stop me please. I'm not built for this

And daylight savings are kicking in today? fk me rip my sleep schedule

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hehe god i wish

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oop

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I'm getting overwhelmed with all the quests jfc 😭 can we just skip to the part where I romance the vampire again

I also (and this is me overthinking again) can't help but feel like I'm playing the game wrong and that I'm ruining everything as I go and we will not reach a nice ending 💀

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WHY IS HE NOT WEARING MUCH KDAFJLAJKDFLKJ WHAT'S GOING ON I HATE THIS

What the actual f u c k was that

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