#but like actually. when ppl try to talk to her she just straight up doesnt realize they're trying to get her attention

[shalpilot]

she has a friend nowwww

[pumpkinsy0]

Ermmm any curly and Angela interacting w Dallas hcs pls

u already KNOW🗣️🗣️🗣️

•curly hates dally bc he steals tims attention, duh already said it before, but angela doesnt rlly have a specific personal reason for hatin dally, normally she would write guys like him off but she thinks hes wayyyyyy too involved in her life for him to do that + shes sick of hearing about him from sylvia, they want him GAWN

•sometimes tim tells curly (and if its not too dangerous for her, angela) to do something for him for dally they will procrastinate the hell out of it purposely until tim basically yells at them to do it, even when doing it its begrudgingly

•idc whhaaattttt u think, under nooooo circumstance will dally hit on angela like EVER even if its to get back at tim for hitting on sylvia. but lets say it does happen, he would gave to be drunk off his mind and even then it doesnt last long. angelas never giving him the time of day and is whooping his ass, THEN curly and tim do it, and tim will always be livid over it

•pony jokes that curly just has a crush on dally he doesnt wanna admit, the whole “boys bully u cause they has a thing for u” idea, and curlys held himself back from shoving pony very roughly into a metal pole countless times, he just hopes dally never hears it cause dallys especially not gonna take him seriously then especially

•when tim was walking around looking for dally for messing up his tires, curly was actually w him trying to find him too!! just at a different part of the drive in so u didnt see him. he wanted to see dally get his shit rocked and tim did end up fighting him, curly was just the instigator 😭😭 he could not waittttt to tell angela

•dally got bit by curly during the shepards vs curtis rumble, that bite got a lil infected and for weeks dally wouldnt shut up about it to tim🙄🙄 angela and tim were proud of curly, a lil concerned, but proud overall❤️curly was just a menace that whole rumble tbh he put up a good fight

•angela helps to patch up tim after a fight and unnnfortunatellyyyyy dally is aware of this so when he gets beat up near the shepards house he goes to her to get patched up. after bribing her is ONLY when she helps him, does she go rough while doing it as her way of rebellion??? yep!!!! dally complains a lot but he knows to shut his mouth before she kicks him out, plus he wants to get in and out before the shepard parents come home

•they make dallys life a living hell, but i don’t think they would ever rat him out to a straight up ENEMY of his/police officers, against what ppl want u to believe they dont want him dead

•when dally was part of the shepard gang, he kept coming over to their house even though NOOOObody else from the gang rlly does and he loved messing w curly and angela, he was like that annoying order brother u GENUINELY didnt like, he forced himself into that role. im talking eating their food, busting into their room without knocking, leaving clothes around etc etc, just an aggravating freeloader

•dally would sleep on the floor and as revenge curly and angela would “accidentally” kick and step on him, dally would get annoyed enough to get the point and leave so he never stayed longer than 2 RARELY 3 days

[tillythemenace]

If you’re familiar with Schaffrillas, what are your thoughts on his take about HTTYD 2 being the weakest one and that 3 was stronger?

It pissed me off tbh.

VERY long post ahead.

That logic only works when you're looking from the End to the beginning, but even then you need to really try hard to see how it makes sense. If you consider the actual finale first, then the middle would make no sense. And Schaff said it himself, that with THW ending in mind, then the rest doesn't make sense, but that's not how things work. Cause the ending of THW DOESN'T make sense to the rest of the franchise. Dean clearly didn't know how to connect the 3 movies and totally retconned so much stuff to try and justify previous events. Some examples:

-Stoick knowing about the HW and being obsessed with it, and never mentioning it, plus going after the NEST instead of the supposed HW that contains all dragons. You'd think if you wanna permanent solution for ur Dragon problem on Berk, you'd go to the actual sourse huh??

-Grimmel EXISTING. Just him existing makes no sense. Cause him being THE known Night Fury Killer was never mentioned and therefor, him knowing Stoick also doesnt make sense sine in HTTYD1 NO ONE knew anything about Night Furies, You'd think that Grimmel being this famous person with SO MUCH INFO on Night Furies, wouldn't share that knowledge? specially since he was famous? People would ASK him to deal with Night Furies in their own islands, again another retcon that pisses me off.

-Dragons being treated as pets instead of sentient beings that have their own culture, habits, traditions and rituals. And therefore it gaslights u into thinking that the first movie was bad actually since Hiccup "chained" Toothless to him and it was not his own choice because of their bond, and THEREFOR they NEED to get separated

More examples in this post (and these are just within THW)

If you see the franchise THAT way you MAY be able to justify things but that's not how I view things.

Like I love Schaff and all his reviews but this one in particular genuinely shocked me... cause how can u justify SO MANY inconsistencies?? When it's CLEAR to me that Dean didn't have an actual plan for the third movie after the 2nd. Yes, he KNEW it was gonna be a trilogy but mf lied his ass off when he said "Drago was gonna come back, everything will make sense and HTTYD2 is the bridge for 1-3" cause no? HTTYD3 and 2 seem to not be connected at ALL but in a few instances: Their designs and Valka just being there instead of Stoick. Cause thematically, tonally, narratively? they couldn't be more apart. Again with that logic then yeah I see why Schaff would say HTTYD2 is not necessary. It's a dumb way to look at things but ok...

Now I'll pick apart some key critiques he had:

Most if his critiques are to me passable cause they're not really critiques, it's some things about the pacing and Valka appearing which fine I guess but dude if you have a problem with THOSE HOW are u not pissed off at all the rectons and pacing of the third one?? cause in WHAT WORLD is THW better at that??' Also saying Valka doesn't have an important presence in the story is just straight up WRONG. like HUH????! She's literally Hiccup's HALF, how his inner conflict about who he is, dragon protector or chief, which DOES get resolved at the end. not to mention if you're pissed about how she "didn't have presence in HTTYD2"!?!? LIKE YOU KNOW WHERE SHE DOESN'T HAVE PRESENCE LIKE AT ALL??? EVEN LESS??' IN HTTYD3!!!!!!!!!!!! She's legit BARELY THERE, all that she was in the second one is absolutely GONE -_____- We don't see Stoick's impact on her or how she reintegrated herself in society, how much has changed since she left, etc

Then he talks about Stoick's death and his character which again, HTTYD3 fails to mention or give any sort of impact so like MANY ppl that were HOPING to see that in the third movie, taking it out on HTTYD2 when they gave us THE most impactful scene in the franchise (yes even more than the "separation") is blaming it on the wrong thing..... And again, saying BOTH their parents aren't important to the story in HTTYD2 is just blatantly wrong. When they BOTH were supposed to represents the WORLDS Hiccup was supposed to unite. Vikings and Dragons, like thematically? that was done perfectly. And THW just ruined it all.

HTTYD3 was supposed to give us closure.. to give TOOTHLESS closure, if ANYTHING was gonna test Toothless and Hiccup's friendship in the third one was the aftermath of Stoick's death. But it wasn't. It's never mentioned it again, it didn't put a SINGLE stain in their relationship, it was just forgotten. We also don't see Hiccup's struggle with this failure AND his determination to keep going, it happens IN the second one a little briefly (again pacing issues that could be overlooked) but that's NOT on HTTYD2, it's on TWH 's FAILURE to address it cause THAT was supposed to be Dean's plan, he said it was going to make sense at the end but it didn't. We could've explored ALL that in the TWH to make it seamless but they just didn't...

Like it seems like most of his criticisms of the Second movie rely mostly on the fact that the consequences of events never got addressed but at this point, it was already on stone that it was gonna be a trilogy and those things (like Drago) WERE going to be addressed. By that point we all knew it was gonna be a trilogy, I for one, thought that it's ok if somethings don't get resolved cause we will have a third movie to make it all make sense, so imagine my disappointment when it didn't happen.

Also Schaff saying he doesn't like the secondary cast in the second one... like boy have u seen them in the third one??? you have to be kidding me...

Also saying Toothless is not a character in HTTYD2 is downright hilarious when you think just because Toothless's romance is the focus of the third movie, that he has any characterization at all... Toothless having more "focus" on the Third one is not good when his whole character is butchered to ultimately be the one that represents how the thematic narrative of the whole franchise went into flames...

Schaff says "the third movie establishes him (Toothless) as his own being and examines what he wants out of live independent of Hiccup" and THAT to me is fundamentally misunderstanding this whole franchise and Toothless as a whole. That there. Because Toothless was ALWAYS his own being and I think the first one AND the second movie established that more than any other. THW STRIPS Toothless of his individuality, not GIVES it to him. It legit makes him a SLAVE of his own instincts to legit forget about Hiccup and resent him out of NO WHERE to be with his supposed mate. "What he wants out of life"??? he HAS chosen Hiccup over and over and OVER again, WDYM what he wants out of life? He WANTS this life. He went AGAINST his instincts for Hiccup, he became the ALPHA to protect Hiccup. That's as HIGH in life as you could get as a dragon imo. like??? He wants a mate? cool give him one, that doesn't mean he has to separate himself from Hiccup forever because AGAIN - and I cannot emphasize this enough- HICCUP WAS NOT KEEPING TOOTHLESS IN CHAINS, HE WAS FREE AND HE STILL CHOSE HIM. JUST LIKE EVERY SINGLE OTHER DRAGON AND THE BOND THEY MADE WITH THEIR HUMANS. Ugh Missed with that one big time.

And Drago? He had more parallels with Hiccup and Grimmel ever will. Sorry not sorry I have tons of posts on why that's the case. His actions had MORE impact in the story than Grimmel and YES I count Stoick's death to be more impactful and better done than "the separation", it had SO MUCH MORE weight and if you're gonna have a villain that threatens Hiccup, Both Drago and Grimmel don't hold a CANDLE to Viggo anyways. Scraff says " Drago is the reason Hiccup doesn't TRY to change Grimmel's mind in the third one and ultimate let's dragons go cause he learned his lesson" makes me so mad cause no? that's not the reason, It's because the NARRATIVE PUSHED HICCUP TO DO IT, cause they spend the whole ass movie gaslighting him into thinking he was keeping Toothless and all dragons in chains! THAT'S WHY! not Drago! Not HTTYD2!.....

The sad part is... HTTYD2 NOW is the weakest of the franchise because it has to live under HTTYD3's shadow... the FINALE, the LAST INSTALLMENT. It has to live with the fact that given how HTTYD as a whole ended, it DOES become somewhat obsolete (and the first movie too tbh and that is an actual hate crime). Stoick was not mentioned but in passing, his death had no tangible impact on Hiccup OR TOOTHLESS, his death had no impact on Valka beyond sad faces, his legacy was based on a RETCON. His presence is forgotten and how everyone acts in the THW is SO contradictory to EVERYTHING, that ppl started to just accept it, when, if you have a brain, it makes no sense. HTTYD2 becomes obsolete because its MESSAGES become obsolete thanks to the gaslighting of HTTYD3. But that's NOT HTTYD2's fault. It's the writing of HTTYD3. Cause it undoes EVERYTHING. So if you DO take into consideration HTTYD3 as CANON, and the whole trilogy as one big story, then yeah HTTYD2 becomes the weakest. IF that's the way you choose to look at things... like Schaff... which again I DO NOT agree with. Cause FUCK httyd3 and how it ruined everything.

Sighs... Sorry if I went on a rant it's not against you anon or Schaff, just letting out my frustrations with the third one :'V

[angy-grrr]

Only thing Ochako "confessed" to Izuku is about her being a lesbian. Like she had always looked up to him (canonically), so it would make complete sense if he's the first person she comes out to. A cis girl/woman having a crush on a cis guy isn't stigmatised like queer attraction is, so why would it take her so much time + mental energy spent evaluating her own feelings if she really did have a crush on him? She wasn't being a passive character when she wanted to connect to Himiko, or when she worked towards her own goals. She would've already done something about her supposed "crush" if she did actually have a crush on Izuku. Just waiting for him to give her a chance to confess for 8 years is just completely out of character for someone like her, even if she was straight or mspec and not a lesbian.

himiko gave her strength, while izuku... well, whenever ppl brought up the crush, she became weaker and unfocused. And I completely agree with everything; thinking of 431 as a love confession is an insult for the characters for many reasons, and one of these is how ooc would it be, for Deku to just say it like yeah he cares about it but its not like he is embarrassed about it or a little insecure or anything really (he is still an oblivious damn nerd, confirmed in the same chapter), and for Ochako to just never confess -or even keep being close to him- when she wants to after what happened with Himiko.

I think it makes more sense to think they just lost touch like normal adults do, with all the work they were doing and Ochako fixating on the program and hero work, so she in general neglected this friendship just like Deku did if their schedules dont align. So, once they were able to talk more again, she wasn't able to bring it up, bc it is not that dramatic -its okay as they weren't on bad terms or anything like that, its normal for things to change as adults, and for friendship to not be as close as in high school-, even if she wanted to come back to how things where back in high school.

And Deku, who has not really tried to be closer to his wishes and dreams (430), doesnt seem to notice how ppl would want to be around him more, or treat others differently depending on who they are, until Katsuki tells him ambiguous words, and the conversation about Kaminari and Jirou being friends and feeling like in high school bc their agencies are close... well, I see it as him noticing he now treats Ochako like she is another classmate, when they were close friends in high school. So she wants to tell her right at that moment, but something comes up and they have to go away.

When going back home, after Katsuki cant give him a ride, he sees her, runs so he doesnt lose her with all the ppl around, and tells her he wants to talk from now on more, not just tonight, as things arent as simple as respecting and loving others on his own (without acting to improve relationships). This is exactly what Ochako wanted, for things to be like their good lighthearted memories high school between them, and Himiko pushes her to live how she wants, which causes her to fall on him.

That's embarrassing! They blush and things are a little awkward bc of that random physical closeness, and she tries to keep things lighthearted by having a more confident smile while suggesting a handshake. Izuku gets happy they are able to be close again, and accepts the handshake.

END.

I pretty much prefer this interpretation, I think it works for the characters better, makes sense, and would be much cuter, even if I still think many of the drawings look weird and ugly.

Also, I just have a hard time believing Deku would "just" notice shes the love of his life after kami//jirou got shut down, and his first reaction is to try to talk to her casually. Like what, would he just confess really quick in private and then go back to the izakaya? Or am I supposed to believe he would confess in front of everyone? Knowing they arent as close, I believe Deku would not be confident about confessing his love to a friend who is no longer close to him, so that idea makes him look like another person to me.

[coconox]

"little" silly and biased theory i think that noctis, like vera, wanted gr skk to be cerberus' skk

in rozen's secrets she has thought so much about wanting our skk to be cerbys skk she straight up came up w a method of hypothetically transferring them to cerberus

i think it also kinda lines up w the fact that vera doesnt really trust murray as much as she does w skk. now ofc it could just be the whole "everyone loves mc" trope, but it was stated somewhere in main story abt how vera still doesnt really trust murray due to him being so secretive and leaving many ppl in the dark abt his intentions, plus vera always ran into dead ends when trying to dig up any sort of secrets in regards to murray (i kinda think this is sort of a protective measure vera went through to ensure nothing bad would happen to noctis or 21 if murray became cerberus' skk, but thats more of a hc and i have no evidence to back that up lol)

while yes cerberus does listen to murray, it doesnt always mean theyll 100% trust him like they do w skk. i think the fact that murray is also a remote skk leaves some sort of emotional disconnect btwn him and cerberus. whereas w our skk, who is always on field, has a bit more connection (both physically and emotionally lol 💀) w cerberus purely from just being able to fight alongside them and being the go-to skk for m.i.n.d. connection if anything goes south

another small thing i'd also like to add is the fact that skk was the only one able to give buddy nicknames shows how much 21 grew to trust skk, considering in most of ex05 21 refused to acknowledge/cooperate w skk unless vera tells her to

there was also chaos unsnarled, where 21 was practically unphased from skk m.i.n.d. linking w her out of nowhere, compared to ex05 where she kinda hated the fact that they had to connect to her at the beginning.

now back to noctis, back in chapter 10 (we are now in chapter 24 as of the making of this post) noctis brings up skk in a convo w bianca

this is very much a huge stretch, but his remark on "but now that commandant is leading a team of... trash" seems a bit of a /hj to me. while yeah its a jab at how cerberus likes to poke fun at gray raven, it also feels like hes saying it w a bit of envy? his earlier remark abt how skk treats him (i.e. most likely in a kind/friendly way) is smth he wishes he could have, noting how cold and ruthless a lot of purifying force members tend to be. should also be noted how he stated our skk and not his skk, again reinforcing the small disconnect cerberus has w their actual skk i mentioned earlier.

timeskip to ex05, where cerberus works alongside our skk. to them it would almost feel like a trial run for if skk was in cerby rather than gr.

again, i could very much be exaggerating his excitement and dissect the "of course, i'm very friendly" line using his dorm lines as further evidence, but i'll leave out as much spoilers abt noctis' er story+general content released in sands of wrath as possible for this post. for the first bit of interaction btwn skk and noctis, he appeared to be VERY responsive to a lot of skk's remarks, essentially not containing his excitement of meeting AND working directly w skk. theres also the fact that despite vera pulling a /j w the whole "humor skk while im not talking" comment, again, it feels more like a /hj moment. i do think vera wants noctis and 21 to open up to/get along w skk as well, considering skk is like a breath of fresh air in terms of how the majority of ppl react to cerberus' presence/treat cerberus in general.

from vera wanting to kidnap skk, to 21 considering skk as more than her companion, to nocti considering skk as his partner, i think the lack of mentioning murray while praising skk speaks volumes over which skk they prefer/genuinely want. now again, this could be a whole "everyone loves mc" trope w the added bonus of murray only being mentioned if lee is around/the subject in question, but this is just a silly game theory,, ok mayyybe hc territory, idk im bored and impatiently waiting for sands of wrath HGJDKFGHK

also this was totally an excuse to further build on my skk oc lore LOL /hj

[jiminjeonging]

himbo jm x nerd mj

himbo jm is dumb but smart at the same time in the same way dogs are very good learners but will still eat grass until they get sick and will run headfirst into glass doors. like she may be an idiot but shes not stupid have some respect for her name!!! shes a swimmer, carries herself with confidence in water but a big loser outside of it.

nerd mj is someone thats kinda done with everyones bullshit, stoic on the outside- imagine 240902 soundcheck mj with the cold demeanour of her dancing tiktok- and she is sooo "people be scared to say stuff BUT IM NOT that's why everybody want to kill me, or have sex with me" meme. she has about 3 friends maybe 3.5 and happy with it. she just wants to do well in classes and move on with her life. no interest in socializing whatsoever.

their meeting is classic. jm's coach ask mj to tutor jm so she can be eligible for swimming competitions coming up since she cant compete with a failing grade, promosing her extra credits from class' proff. mj is like 'whatever fine.' she heard about jm before— tall, a jock, charming enough to talk her way out of a ticket, supposedly gets around. but she wasnt someone that she gave too much thought about it. she figures the swimmer would be mildly annoying to deal with like most people are. so when they first meet mj is a little surprised because she doesnt seem like what ppl described at all.

she seems a little fidgety with the way shes shifting her weight from one foot to the other, hands stuffed to her jacket pockets, then pulled out again just to adjust her collar. when her gaze darts from her shoes to the library entrance and back, she finally notices mj approaching. she immediately stands up straight before wiping her hands to her jeans and offers mj a handshake. 'Thanks for doing this,'

mj waves a hand dismissively, “Don’t mention it.” but when jm just stares stares and stares, mj raises an eyebrow, feeling a bit weirded out. “What?” she finally asks, breaking the silence. jm’s ears redden almost instantly, and she clears her throat, looking anywhere but at her. “Nothing! Um, shall we…?” she stammers, gesturing toward the library entrance so mj just shrugs and leads the way.

once they start studying, mj quickly picks up on one thing: jm is clearly nervous as fuck. It’s in the way she fumbles with her pencil, twirling it between her fingers only to drop it more than once. she keeps adjusting her position, shifting in her chair like she can’t quite get comfortable. when mj asks her a question, she answers quickly, her voice a little higher than normal even cracks halfway through, and mj has to bite back a chuckle, pressing her lips together to keep from smiling. and those glances—jm keeps sneaking them mj’s way, only to look down at her notes the moment she catches her.

is she scared of me or something? mj wonders, starting to feel a little annoyed. she knows she has a reputation for being a little aloof, but she didn’t think it’d make the girl this on edge.

their study sessions go like this: mj explaining concepts while jm nods along, but she eventually realizes that the swimmer isn’t actually absorbing much of anything. jm never asks questions about the stuff she doesn’t understand, just scribbling down notes and offering stiff smiles. mj gets really fed up when she gives jm a mock test, and the girl gets more than half of the questions wrong.

“Okay, what the fuck is wrong with you?” mj blurts out, cleary frustrated and to be honest, she was starting to get offended a little bit. she’d been trying to be as patient and kind as possible, but it felt like all her efforts were going down the drain. “I’m not going to bite you, you know.”

jm’s ears redden again, like they always did when mj confronted her. she might have found how easily she blushed cute if the reason for it wasn’t so damn annoying. jm’s eyes dart everywhere but toward mj, her mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water. after a few seconds of awkward silence, she finally mumbles, “I, um… wanted to… ask you out.”

“Oh.” mj blinks, the realization settling in, but it still doesn’t make much sense. she crosses her arms and says, “That’s a stupid reason for not listening to me.”

jm jumps in quickly, “I am listening! You always have my full attention, it’s just that sometimes...” her voice trails off, confidence crumbling. “...sometimes I don’t get what you’re saying.”

mj narrows her eyes. “Then why don’t you just ask about it?”

“I didn't want you to think I’m stupid,” jm mutters and mj finds her shyness adorable.

mj lets out a short, dry laugh. “Well, I wasn’t thinking that, but I am now. You’re dumb for wasting both of our time like this.”

jm’s cheeks flush red, and she fumbles to recover. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry! Let me make it up to you on our date.” she finally meets mj’s gaze, nervously chewing her lip as she waits for a response.

mj looks her over, considering for a moment before she says, “How about this. Pass your class, and I’ll let you take me out.” she doesn’t really know why she’s entertaining the idea. she could’ve just said no and walked away. maybe she figures this will be enough motivation for jm to finally take studying seriously. yeah, that’s it. and the determined look jm gives her, nodding eagerly, is proof that her plan just might work.

in the days that follow, jm isn't nearly as nervous as before, and mj is happy. finally she feels like she’s not talking to a brick wall. but those lingering glances don’t stop, and well mj is still annoyed. for all the wrong reasons tho. It’s not because she thinks jm is distracted no matter thats what she wanted to believe. it’s because of the way her own heartbeat speeds up every time she catches the girl looking at her like she’s peering right into her soul.

[heckinpupperino]

that jesse james kissing person from the video u posted was such weird case of U dont have to post this (about her originaly posting it not u putting it on tumblr). like she probably only did it TO post it and doesnt do stuff like this in her daily life, like I dont doubt at all that there was something going on mentally.. buuut ppl hopped on the chance to bully a mentally ill trans woman when really we just had to point out how weird all this was and disingenuous..ESPECUALLY WEIRD...instead they wanted to talk about how the age gap in her same body romance was problematic? and that she had to be faking having mental illness. like....no person without mentals illness does this. she may be acting out scenes for the camera but she is very clearly mentally ill.....plus the fact so many people jumped on her just because they got the excuse to bully a trans woman. whyy cant we just call weird stuff weird -_- bah srry that video reminded me of that whoole thing i remmember when it was happening.....

I cannaur comment on what was happening at the time of it happening because I was late to the drama like I've known about it now for a while but it was definitely after the hype wore down. my thoughts now are that shawty was clearly unwell whether or not she had did like you said lol.

I actually don't think she was faking though I think she genuinely convinced herself it was real (I heard now she doesn't consider herself to have did but thinks she's literally 2 souls in 1 body, which honestly is not super far off from people who convince themselves on here that they're actually angels or mermaids or whatnot with otherkin). and like you said you just don't post videos like that if you're all there. another thing I noticed, people are always saying her story was constantly changing, but I actually think it was fairly consistent? which I don't think shed be able to keep it so straight if she was intentionally lying about everything. the most inconsistent parts of her story were when she would try to use did terminology, but other than that she always spoke about her experience pretty much the same the entire time. what convinced me she believed what she was saying though was a quote someone found from one of her old reddit accounts when she was talking about starting HRT and trying to describe how she felt like the person she was now was an entirely separate being from the one she was before (who was "definitely a man" and who "died to let her live" or something or another), that sounded like a genuine experience (and obviously not exactly one that screams that she was doing well, by the way) to me and I think she just ended up conflating that with did because it was such a craze at the time to identify as such.

I don't know if im convinced people were only bullying her because she was a trans woman, im sure some people were more unfair to her because of it but I do think a pretty large part of her community was trans safe/inclusive + people are just as harsh to transmasc/nonbinary and even cis people who do the same thing so I dunno. but again I wasn't really there for that I can only comment on what im looking at now

[apsychicrage]

band chisme

ok so like all my bandmates except me (kinda) are in other bands (altho my drummers bands are mostly like side projects) anyy way my lead guitar Sam is in two other projects one is like, Rock and Roll and big haired men with guitars and they are so cool even if its not rly the shows i go to i always enjoy myself.

His otherrrr band (which he joined after ours) is annnotherrr goth project. I dont rly care tbh bc this goth chick singer doesnt do what i do - I have punk rock influences and a growly scary prescense, my lyrics and presentation are explicitly gay, and my songs are either melodic and boldly sung or faster tempo and more spoken.

Her thing is more "spooky" she sings whispery slow songs and is pretty and ethereal and waves her arms around in long black dresses. Shes straight, and all her bandmates besides Sam are too. Ive never had any problem with her - I love goths in all forms and play with a lot of projects that dont have the same sound as mine.

But before we were everrrrr in bands shes had a strangely competitive vibe with me that always confused me - she thinks of me as direct competition, which vaguely annoys me bc i dont lol. We are rly different in my eyes but like... she rly doesnt participate in the goth scene here so she doesnt interact with the millions of goth chicks that like... are actually more her speed. And non of us other rocker gurlies are like that with each other we hype each other up u kno???

anyway so lately ive been able to tell that her band is like TALKING about my band a lot, basically trying to steal my guitarist from me 🤨... and hes always on some coke head "trying to be a star" bullshit that they exploit. He gets pissy when our shit interrupts theirs, etc....

anyway we just had a pretty huge and wild show with great turnout and we sounded like the best we ever had at a bigger venue than we have ever played and the crowd was living and it was increeeedibleeee and at one point i saw her glaring at me in the audience!!! right behind a group of crazy ppl i know and love that were basically moshing the whole time 🥰🥰 but i didnt see her at all for the other sets she never said hi to anyone etc like!!!!

and now the relationship between Sam and her band is deteriorating bc like... shes bitchin at him for being cooler in our band tbh. And she sucks at performing dude like im so sorry.... im not tryna b mean but she did start this like girl ur in a Party City morticia addams dress flailing ur arms and whispering, trying to "make it big" playing shitty shows at shitty venues (and making beautiful music videos that Only feature her)

and the fuckiiiin cherry on top i just realized is that her weird old man boyfriend (COULD NOT BE ME) is THE BAND MANAGER (CALL HR) and apparently HE bitched at Sam after sam came to practice hung over the night after our show. And asked why sam couldnt book her band the same kinda show we had (Sam played no part in booking this show it was a booker who knows and loves our band and throws amazing shows that almost always sell out. Our first show with her sold out and she only gave us a chance bc i always showed up to her parties and had fun and danced)

anyway tldr this chick started one sided beef with me that i never have to acknowledge but am 100% winning 🥰 stay pressed straight gurl!

[superdeluxeaverage]

I thimk megalopolis was one of the most shitass movies ive ever seen but im glad i saw it in theatres and am gonna see it again with my sister thursday like the best way to describe it would be that it feels like a bad adapatation of a book that doesnt exist there was so much straight up stupid moments in it it felt like unreal spoilers if any1 even gives a shit

Theres this scene where adam drivers gets shot but his face heals with the power of the megalon and he has his face in wraps and when he takes his wraps off and reveals his healing face it plays THE most generic indian and tabla musical cue that in no way matches with the rest of the soundtrack and puts this fucking snapchat ass filter where theres like doubles of him behind him to his left and right infinitely going abd i was like is this fuckinh chowder or some shit. Ill never say the movie was good tho cause theres something i see no one talking abt atleast on letterboxd presumably cause they love deepthroating autuer dick so much even (or especially) when they kno the auteur in question is a creep but there was this weird subplot where there was this pop star with a like "virgin teen" image and they leaked a sex tape of her and the main character so the main character was arrested for being a pedophile but then it was immediately after revealed that the tape was faked (?) (They never say how they just say it was faked) and that the pop star was actually not from america abd was in her 20s. This whole subplot is obv coppola trying to exonerate all his sex offender best friends and its such a gross kneejerk response like why say the tape was fake but then also say oh shes a bad person dishonest liar too lol. Then when its showing news reports of it it cuts to her lile having changed her image to a like pop punk image and making more sexually suggestive music instead of conservative clean music like b4 so its supposed to be like she just moved onto the next image unfazed cause shes a liar its such a cringe subplot and it happens in the span of like 15 mins and is never mentioned again and very clearly is just supposed to be a rebuttal to accusations and scandals sooo fkn embarrassing especially given the fact hes been trying to get this movie made his whole life LOL the two (yes 2) other women in the movie are also treated super sexistly like the main characters love interest has no personality aside from always standing behind her mans artistic vision and passion and "completing" him then the aubrey plaza character is just supposed to be the sexy woman who sleeps with any1 for power like coppola def most sexist guy alive ever the fact he made that movie dedicated it to his wife at the end yup this man is going to hell. Probably the hardest movie to talk abt cause its not u kno deserving of praise the only frame of reference is camp rly like in that same ballpark not so bad its good but just a very wtf type of movie. Im also scared cause shia labeouf was in this doing a type of scary dennis hopper character (coppola even saying working with him reminded him of hopper) and obv this film flopped and is not gonna make any1 famous since even the acting was p bad from every1 or just v disconnected and unrelatable on a human level but watching this has me worried that labeouf is gonna thrive with piece of shit directors by using the dennis hopper/klaus kinski method of having ppl praise ur "energy" when its just that u only take roles where u play sadistic fucks cause ur a sadistic abusive fuck so ppl get convinced ur a great actor when ur not even acting.

[toxic-mothers-tourney]

Toxic propaganda: Rosa Ushiromiya (Umineko: When They Cry)

Left her daughter alone, sometimes for days at a time, with the excuse that it was for work when in reality she was off on vacations on her own multiple times, when people around her neighborhood got concerned SHE got mad at her daughter, when her daughter was seen playing with a stuffed animal with herself she also got mad thinking people would think they're weird, her daughter is 9. She is also physically and emotionally abusive as seen when she "killed" one of her daughters stuffed animals after she wouldn't stop playing with it. Literally the worst

she isolates, destroys the toys of (including the very precious lion plush that her daughter regards as a little brother/best friend), beats, and blames her (heavily implied but not directly stated to be) autistic 8-year-old daughter Maria for, among other things, her lover leaving her and her business failing, and her low status in the family. there's extensive sections of an already very very long visual novel devoted to whether it's right (as in moral and as in the practical choice to survive) for Maria to try to recognize her kind moments and to separate 'good' Rosa and 'bad' Rosa that made me cry several times. those sections about Maria's perception of her are tied in closely with overarching themes of the work and compared to the abuse dynamics of other parts of the family

A sad angry ball of generational trauma in the shape of a woman, just like the rest of her family. She is the mom of all time.

She's written incredibly realistically to the point that you absolutely understand where she's coming from but also understand she's a horrible person. The writer of Umineko was a social worker before a writer, and it absolutely shows.

some notable things single mom rosa has done:

-got mad that some nice lady on the train tried to give her daughter maria some candy cause ???, and when maria wouldnt give the candy back straight up hit her. bought maria a lollipop to try to make up for hitting her and then later crushed the lollipop cause maria was being 'creepy' by talking about the occult to her family (maria is 9)

-left an even younger maria alone at home for days at a time while she was gone on business trips (actually vacations with her boyfriends). she would literally coach maria on how to not draw attention to herself when doing this (dont bring your plushies, dont go to the same store multiple days in a row, dont talk to ppl etc)

-when this came out after maria lost her house key and cps came investigating, she 'killed' two of marias imaginary friends by destroying the toys they were connected to. maria has a very active imagination and to her this was clearly her friends being murdered in front of her, the sound effect from when someone dies even plays

-this is more funny than bad but she told maria she doesnt have a dad cause the father ran off with the money she gave him to make his fortune with, so now maria thinks shes a virgin birth and kickstarting her interest in the occult

in short she loves maria but also resents her a lot, so she ends up emotionally and physically abusing and neglecting her, and then trying to make up for it, mostly with gifts

She's a really complicated portrayal of how some of the worse abuse comes with good intentions. She really does love her daughter and is really concerned about people will treat her for being autistic but that means she ends up being super concerned about Maria being "normal" in really harmful ways

So adept at psychological and physical attacks that her 9yo daughter was rooting for an evil witch to kill their entire family so she could reunite with her "nice mama" in the afterlife

your favorite child beater and emotional mess

[sirotras]

here i come several days later with my opinions on the last swtor update. undercut for spoilers

it started strong but lost me a little after you actually get to kessans landing

the opening on port nowhere was fun!

the envirnments rly cool tho!

im... not really sure what they were going for with petra? like shes just very suddenly force sensitive it seems? idk. then she ducked out when the camera wasnt on her and that... doesnt seem like its going anywhere i guess

what was rly sticking with me was... at the very start, as an imp side character, they make a point on how you'll need to avoid attention bc, obviously if anyone noticed an imperial bigshot just wandering around a republic planet, well. you wouldnt be able to get much done before things got complicated

(sidenote: omggg hiiiii that one guy from the sith inquisitor prologue!! hello!!! you still suck!)

BUT THEN by the end theyre talking abt how "ooh ppl seeing an IMPERIAL helping them will exacerbate their resentment to the republic and maybe make them open to joining us! and word will spread!"

which.... isnt that exactly the opposite of what we want?? if word spreads the republic military will come running straight for us? wasnt that the whole point of why we had to seek out that corrupt politician?

not to mention as someone playing a saboteur. getting a planet to potentially secede from the republic and join the empire is. not ideal?

(not that ive been very impressed by the saboteur options we've had so far. but man. we couldnt even shoot jonas a message like "hey by the way the empire has apparently been up to some Shit on ord mantell for years. might want to try and stop that)

also if you take tyrus prisoner, why do we then give him to the empire?? wouldnt it make more sense to give him to the mandalorians?

[pumpkinsy0]

Tim being protective of curly hcs 😘

look at these two🙄🙄🙄

•tim isnt as protective of curly as he is w angela, ive said this before, but he is still pretty protective in the way that he IS protective of him

•during rumbles, tim looks out for curly, especially if its one of those rumbles where they can use weapons, but tim ofc has his limits, there r some rumbles w weapons where he will NOT let curly join under any circumstance

•tim sends curly to do jobs, and heeeeee will not sleep till he knows curlys safe at home

•he appreciates that curly wants to have a “tuff looking scar” like him, but tim doesnt care about curly looking tuff, if he can avoid curly getting any sort of scar, he’ll take it

•curlys jacket is actually tims old one that doesnt fit anymore and hes glad curly has it bc 1) aye we savin money 2) if them looking alike wasnt enough, the jacket basically screams “HEY MY BROTHER IS TIM SHEPARD🗣️🗣️” so it helps ppl stay away from trying to mess w curly

•i think curly has special treatment in the shepard gang, its not like straight up PRINCESS treatment, but tim says he doesnt, however to the other gang members, curly def does and it angers them so bad, but tim barely acknowledges that concern

•when he found curly w his arm broken, pony doesnt know it, but tim was acc so mad at him, cause for a bit, he thought pony dared him to, like maybe pony say how much influence he could have over curly and he just decided to “test the waters”

•same thing w that whole chicken thing btw, but maybe ti a lesser extend bc pony was in on that bs too

•when they first moved to america, id say that bc curly was the more talkative one out of all 3 of em, so he did have to deal w the most bullying, physical and verbal, and that was like, the closest, most obvious, “tim is protective of curly” thing ever, bc tim would walk w curly everywhere and hurt anyone who gave curly any grief

•tim HATES their mom for how he treats curly (and angela but shes a different reason y), its bc he KNOWS how much of a mamas boy curly is and how their mom will take advantage of that w the way she talks to him, its like shes stringing him along and tim hate it, if it wasnt for that, tim wouldnt b getting into the arguments he gets into w her

•this is rare, but tim will put his arm around curlys shoulders, as a way to pull him close and a lilllll bit to support him

[saltressmistress]

Praying to god no one actually sees this and i can just vent into the void that is tumblr maybe *ahem ahem*

GOD LONELINESS SUCK 😭😭😭 im so patheric lmao all i did was eat lunch alone today cuz my one friend is sick and my other friends have a different class later so they had to go

But man i hate- i HATE being alone w/ my own thoughts and feelings <///3 i hate it smmmmm

I just- ugh idk,,,,,,

I've sorta always known that i cant talk to ppl properly, yes im introverted and its nothing bad but i WANT to socialize like properly and rlly badly but i can never say anything on my own accord

I just jump off on what the ppl around me usually say abd its fun but man i can-- i just cry dude idk what im typing

No beta we die like how i should be dead rn cuz whats even the point ;-;

Im the type thats like, i never *felt* like i had the freedom to speak when i wanted and that i was never taught to be social only told to

My mother was a very,,,,, negative person

Her first instinct is to complain and ask and/or answer questions in a very accusatory way as if you were the one doing something wrong like no??? Shut up pls???? Ur making me feel stupid for wanting to learn????

She shot down a lot of opportunities for me to be confident in myself and god do i hate that but yk cant rlly hate her, she is a good person in regards to everything else

She just doesnt have the best personality for being a mother (eldest daughter problems amirite)

But still, i point to her for my lack of social confident u-u </3

And ig general feelings of loneliness cuz even now she is VERY difficult to talk to, i have zero strength or willpower to defend myself in a conversation and she has like 2 modes: talking over you or straight up walking away while im tryna answer her

Ive given up on getting her attention, a day of her not noticing me (unless its completely necessary) is a good day

I wanna cry. I dont like how she is and idk how she can change i just wanna grow up so i can be less dependent on her but i have zero life skills and idk what to do

Havent even gotten to the worst part, that being she drives me to and from school everyday, almost a 2 hour drive each time

And she is an ABSOLUTE BITCH ON THE ROAD T^T

She has INTENSE road rage and its such a bad environment to be in that small cramped space w/ someone that just curses and screams at ppl who wont even hear her, ppl that she quickly passes by but still makes an effort to fucking complain

Its been driving my morality, my mentality, my everything down

Any ounce of positivity and affection i have in my body is being suck out and replaced by learned behaviors from a women who only knows how to react negatively

And she's the only person thats been raising me rlly- im eternally grateful that there were other ppl there also but as the 1st grandchild in that house, the other adults didnt rlly wanna interact w/ the child yk

My mom didnt even plan for me, she hid my existence for 5 months before she couldnt hide it anymore ×_×

The more grandkids that came along the house became more and more child friendly, but man it was rough for me ;-;

And now idk how to act around ppl my age, not really, idk the right things to say I OVERTHINK WAY TOO MUCH AND I JUST WANT THESE DAMN ADHD VOICES TO STAWPPPP

I cant focus,,,,,,, i cant do anything,,,,,,,, fuck shit ive been writing affirmations on sticky notes and its kinda working BUT ITS NOT ENOUGH UGH :[

I want

I want to hear it from someone else

Not from mother. Shes been at least trying to teach me how to be a proper human being but anything that comes out of her mouth feels numbing

It doesnt resonate with me at all

I had to ask someone else to tell me something that my mom said just so i can take it to heart better

Fucken reflexes man i dont like it

I had a proper discussion w/ my aunt and boy it was so productive AND I KNEW FULL WELL IF I TALKED LIKE THAT W/ MY MOTHER SHE'D BE YELLING LIKE CRAZY AS IF I WAS TRYNA PROVE HRR WRONG OR SMTH

My aunt was actually explaining her point and she was still right abt it-- yes i didnt get why she had this claim BUT SHE EXPLAINED IT AND I UNDERSTOOD!! A PRODUCTIVE DISCUSSION!!!

I also just fear that idk how to keep my dignity in conversations, im such a yes-man that i probably dont even have my own opinions anymore

I wanna talk to ppl i dont know and have genuine discussion consistently, learn about things and not feel stupid for not knowing them

I wanna be treated like a child and be told that im doing a good job and be told about simple things bcuz i dont think i understood any of that enough while i was growing up

I dont feel like an individual, im rlly just a side character in everyone else's stories and im just sad abt it

I have no energy for it anymore, no other emotions to feel other than longing and wanting and wishing to be anything other than this.

[malinelle]

the thing with the breakdancing dad thing is like . for clarify i am in almost the same situation as ppl think shes in i was raised by my mom who was financially neglecting me and cutting my dad off from me when he wanted to see me and she was taking the child support money he was paying her to spend on herself i am the person who is the most in a position to sympathize with him but like i just dont. bec okay

that wasnt that many videos and the fact that its all holidays and special events isnt at all contradictory with 'he was there for some big events but he wasnt There in our lives', and the fact that this is also just like how home videos tend to work makes them really not convincing "evidence" of a happy childhood. like were u expecting to see videos of her saying she fucking hates her dad and hes never there for her To The Camera. when i was with my moms side of the family obviously you smile for pictures and act cute in front of the camera bc they get mad at you if you dont! also hes REALLY invading their privacy by posting videos that arent even of her and are instead of his other kids who literally have nothing to do with this. ALSO childhood evidence is always going to be skewed in the parent's favor bc the kid straight up isnt old enough to rly be able to advocate for themselves. notice how the videos switch to photos as she gets older meaning we have no idea how they interacted when they talked and the one text message she shows is them interacting rly awkwardly like two distant acquaintances

man fuck this dude for calling it "brainwashing". like Again it literally happened to me my mom was lying to me to steal money that was meant for us but he could just. say that. the concrete thing she did wrong. instead of being like It Was The Genders.

theres no proof that he paid anything. he said millions but like he just said that. people can lie. very silly and quirky that he has video evidence of his 10 yr old kid talking about youtube as definitive proof he was a loving father but he cant figure out how to censor one of the bajillion emails they send you when you pay medical bills. tbc i dont rly think he shouldve posted either bc again sensitive information but if youre gonna doxx your kids at least do it in a way that looks less like youre trying to use unreliable footage to make an emotional appeal over the Factual Innacuracies. same thing with screenshots of all the insane bitchy things your daughter and wife are totally saying

the most damning thing: dude you have your daughters phone number. if you really had a good relationship and she was exaggerating to make a story funnier you wouldve messaged her like "??? we made lasagna together last week why didnt you tell me i abandoned you at your mothers doorstep" and she wouldve been like "im sorry father i sold you out for views" and then she wouldve made a video breaking keyfabe. personally i dont believe women are insane gender-brainwashed lunatics so i figure she had her reasons

he stresses their politics differ a lot so my actual projection is that i figure madi as a kid was fine with her dad only showing up for holidays and not really being around and wasnt really thinking about money stuff but then as she grew up she started re-examining their relationship and drifted away from him as he became a sexist bitcoin breakdancer and so eventually she had a negative enough view of him to make a pretty uncharitable video bc if you and your dad had a huge argument over him being a sexist bitcoin breakdancer and then you saw a tiktok challenge about funny trauma you might very well think "oh man. the fact that my dad divorced my mom and then started a breakdancing career is funny as hell. im going to flatten this fairly complicated family history to fit into a tiktok" and then when her dad who she doesnt like anymore made a public response she doubled down bc fuck that guy he hates women. its not like shes sending hitmen to his front door she made a mean tiktok. ppl are acting like this has destroyed his reputation but im gonna go out on a limb and say that the ppl making fun of him for being a deadbeat dad are probably not ppl who otherwise wouldve been fans of a sexist bitcoin breakdancer. i think his core audience was never gonna be shattered by this which i am more sure of bc even before he posted a reply bitcoin bros were gathering around him like protective mother birds. if he didnt want his daughter to disrespect him and re-examine his treatment of her as an adult with a more critical eye, personally i would suggest he be nicer to his daughter and not call her brainwashed or talk about how its all genders fault. i think that would really help convince her to have a more positive view of him

[mememan93]

K im out of work now so im gonna talk about this

Spoilers, like massive spoilers, for TOTK under the cut. Also negative opinions on Botw and Totk under the cut

TLDR: Botw and Totk don't pay a lot of credit to older zelda's, and what they do is misrepresented, and also totk is trying to be a new version of an older game instead of being its own thing.

This is a filler sentence because i know in the notes under the cut doesn't work and sometimes people see the first sentence and get spoiled it happens to me and it sucks so ppl in the notes dont look anymore K?

ok hopefully that^ is enough to stop tumblr's terrible ass features from ruining someone elses experience.

Yes, I do totally think they overshadow older zelda games. Not in a 'they're better' way, but in a 'older zelda games? what are those?' way.

I mean, look at the Loz tag! its almost all botw or totk, and im just talking abt the popular page rn, (totk just came out ofc the recent page is gonna be totk that's obvious). The other posts are some (really good) art of midna, a character who even ppl who've only played botw are obsessed with cause shes hot

Part of this definitely has to do with COVID, and the influx of ppl buying switches, and therefore BOTW. And it's not their fault, if botw and totk are the only games they've played, until recently, nintendo didn't make a lot of their games accessible on the switch, and oot and mm still need a DLC to a paid service (which SUCKKKS)

But part of the reason it kinda annoys me is that Botw doesnt lend itself to the other games, except maybe skyward sword, but in the worst way possible. Playing botw doesn't really make people wanna play the older zelda games, especially because they're nothing alike. I've seen people complain that totk was gonna have bigger dungeons, because dungeons were the reason they avoided zelda before botw, and I don't want to be gatekeepy, but like, really? You're upset that a core part of the zelda series is returning, because you liked the easy puzzles of botw, and get mad that people wanted them back? (and this was before totk came out, and im sorry to say that while they're good, they're nowhere near the level of OOT or Sws)

Botw takes bare minimum lore from other zelda games, and the lore it takes is from skyward sword. And everyone knows that I love love love skyward sword, but it also misrepresents the lore it does take. Like, for example, Hylia. She is dead, she died pre-skyward sword to become Zelda. Botw not elaborating this and making her seem like an absent deity is kinda frustrating and a misrepresentation of one of the key themes of skyward sword.

And then tears of the kingdom comes along and just straight up implies that Hylia, and the golden goddesses for that matter, are not the source of zelda's, actually any of the zeldas post Skyward sword if you believe that rauru and sonia founded the first hyrule, but instead from the Zonai, who DIDN'T EXIST prior to botw. they weren't even hinted at in skyward sword. (No, that one swirl on the sandship was just a design. not a zonai rune ffs)

And right now, Totk feels like it's trying to redo and outdo OOT.

When I say "Sages" what game do you think of? It's true, OOT isn't the only game to have sages. TP, WW, ALBW, ALTTP (except its the maidens), and ST (lokomo sages count) all have sages, but you usually think of OOT and their medalions, because they're the most notable.

I mean, a sage story isn't anything new and isn't inherently OOT, but.

Seven sages (Including Zelda). Medalions/Secret Stones that enhance/contain bits of power, a light sage named rauru, who kinda looks like an owl. come on.

And then there's this blatant callback.

( i dont know why they won't go in the right order)

Ganondorf swearing his fealty (ITS THE SAME POSE) and zelda knowing he's evil, but then he kills someone and Zelda who knew he was evil couldn't protect them so she teams up with the sages to seal him away. Am i talking about totk or oot? You tell me

I've said in another post (I think it was an ask you sent me lol) that there's nothing wrong with a callback or a refernce, infact its good, but it feels like TOTK isn't trying to be TOTK, or even BOTW 2, but instead be OOT 2.

I was talking to someone abt it, and they said "It's trying to be a sequel to a game its not even a sequel too"

It's like its trying to be ocarina of time, but with the botw lore, because it was popular and sold a lot of copies. Its oot without the oot.

I said before I didn't want a lot of skyward sword references, because I wanted totk to be its own game, and i guess i got monkey's pawed because so far, besides the floating islands and the hylia statues, the only skyward sword reference was Fi noises, and instead totk became OOT but with minimal charm.

Sigh. rant over

I would also like to hear additional thoughts if you guys have any

[arlathen]

woke up at 3 this morning and couldnt get back to sleep so im in a terrible mood and im gonna end up biting the janitor at work.