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ive been thinking about the red string superstition recently and also sol bufo always and it makes me sick how uncannily caldwell tanner has made sol to perfectly target me personally
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#naddpod#ba2mia#ba2umia#solum bufo#swag daniels#calliope petrichor#calder kilde#alexandrite#posts by me dot com#okay..... SECRET TAGS RAMBLE!#so basically this superstition is like ... i think a chinese/buddhist/taoist superstition?#ive taken some creative liberties with it... but its mostly accurate to how its been told to me?#but of course theres lots of variations! some more abt bad luck; some say to tie it on the doorknob#etc etc ... lots a variations#i was also rlly interested in the .... weird illogic? of the thing?#like the red attracts and repels spirits at the same time#so thats something i was thinking about with too. red is assocuated with both swag and alexandrite. which to me was kinda reflecting like#i think what murph said . swags place in the wild is in a way. an extension of what he learned from the network#mothership s inextractivle from sol and swags lives. they will always be held doen by it. thats the spirit that will follow them forever#that they choose to hold on too! as much pain as it brought ... some of the experience was worth it#and anyway. theres somethingwrong w me that the minute someone brought up this superstition my brain went#'ohhh just like sol!' < needs to touch grass moment#but i CANT BELIEVE. CALDWELL DID THE RED STRING. AND ITS LITERALLY A MOURNING RITUAL#caldwell keeps accodentally makig that frog ASIAN. to MEEEE!!!!!!#but. anyway. idk. ive always hced sol kept the piece of yarn and it makes me kinda .... what if y let the malicious spirits follow you.#and haunt you. what if its the closest you can get to keeping the person still around#and sol and swag obviously have so much about homes .... so!#(ok. weve reached the pt where maybe nobodys reading? so confession is this is sort of a well. ive just been doodling this comic everyday#after a wake. and it was sort of inspired after realising i was even a bit sad about it maybe. so. idk its about sol but also?#i guess the projection doesnt end at him being asian. hehe. is what i mean. LOL. okay secret tags over . buried lore. dont look here folks)
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The worst part about playing rdr2 again is knowing who's going to die, how they're going to die, when they're going to die, and not be able to do a single thing about it
#sorry I'm just thinking about lenny and sean a lot#they're so full of life#sean is always cheering people up and talking about whatever nonsense he talks about#he fills the silence#lenny is always chirpy and keeping himself busy with reading but is always happy to talk#kieran too#he was always nice even when everyone was cruel to him or picking on him#he did chores and helped with the horses and did whatever he was told#and was grateful for it#nobody fucking noticed when he disappeared apart from mary beth#nobody got to mourn sean#but lenny and hosea both got what they wanted#they were buried with friends#I miss them so much its why I'm still on chapter two because everything's okay for now#micah is still in jail everyone's happy#its hard#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#mick squeaks#arthur morgan#lenny summers#sean macguire#kieran duffy#molly saying “I love you dutch” and getting a “thank you dear” in return makes my blood boil#oh molly
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I need people to realize how horrible 'stalking/constant surveillance/breaking into each other's homes is how the Batfamily show love' is. Like i really need someone to just acknowledge how horrific saying this bullshit is.
Like even fics where they're shown as happy and healthy and with good ties, you've always got this thing where none of them have privacy or any boundaries with each other. Which is directly antithetical to actually having good relationships. And this invasion via hacking and stalking and breaking into homes is portrayed as a positive, good thing; it's just how they show love and care to each other, after all. But for some reason I just personally don't find stalking, lack of privacy or boundaries, and emotional manipulation funny, endearing, or healthy, and just end up disgusted at the attempt to sweep it all under the rug.
#my dc posting#dc#batman#batfamily#jason todd#barbara gordon#bruce wayne#dick grayson#tim drake#damian wayne#listen i can only take so much of it before i just breakdown okay#apparently controversial opinion but a family where its normal to vreak into each others homes and manipulate each other and stalk and#invade boundaries and autonomy and privacy can NOT be healthy#no matter how much you try to dress it up all cute w 'this is just how they are' 'its how they show their love' its never not gonna be#unhealthy and bad and toxic#like yeah they do do that. they are like that. either acknowledge it or stop trying to justify it#god this actually irks me so much#i try to idk. suspend my disblief but theres only so much i can actuallt fucking take before just#its just. im trying to read happy fluffy fics. but i cant be comforted by a family that normalizes breaking boundaries n invading privacy#and its specifically that the author aleays disregards it. instead of fixing it or making it better they opt to keep it and come up w excuse#s for it#and thats what actually triggers me#'i broke into ur house cus if i asked if i could come over ud say no' is actuallt fucking horrifying stop trying to make it seem loving???#im writing this while having a panic attack dont mind me 👍#but its like. if you can write the batfam w/o bruce hitting his kids or any other horrific thing that they do#then why must you keep the boundary&privacy breaking? why cant anyone even seemingly try to write a batfam#where theyve worked their issues abt this out best they can n have healthy established boundaries w each other??#like if u can write them all hanging out together 24/7 n bruce being s good dad why is this one simple thing the One Thing#nobody even tries to address properly???#'aw dick broke into jason's saehouse bc he wanted to hangout but jason would say no if he asked' aw. maybe dick should learn 'no means no'
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ive been unhealthily fixated on kubosai for the past few weeks, i just have no idea how to put it into words. kuboyasu aren and saiki kusuo are in love btw
#they are.#been thinking a lot about t*rusai and k*bosai and all three of them together#(really long rant in these tags that shouldve been a rant post but im not changing it soz i got carried away LMAO->)#see the thing is that k*bosai is my absolute favorite ship ever. but i get genuinely pissed when people smack talk t*rusai#idk like i get why people wouldnt ship kbs and i really dont care. and i also get that a lot of people have differing opinions and-#wont ship trsai. i honestly cant wrap my head around why (other than people who just hate teruhashi and are misogynistic) but im okay with-#agreeing to disagree and i dont care yk??#but people so often make these long discussion posts just yapping and yapping and making up shit about how trsa 'wouldnt work'#and its always just... actual complete bullshit. like unreadable word vomit.#sorry. but its true.#thats why it gets me so mad#i cant think of a single reason why you would feel the need to do that#why cant you be normal and just. not like a ship. just dont like it. hate it even. but dont make up shit just to shit on it#its so dumb i have to force myself to just scroll past them every time i encounter one#usually on tiktok or tumblr#if i read them i wont be able to stop myself from making the most concerned and upset noises ever cuz what is actually wrong with you#theyre always the biggest dumbest stretches ever and they ignore their actual development and pretend it didnt happen#it just makes me wonder why people are so okay with making fun of that ship but get mad if anyone even dislikes theirs#and then they complain about people 'shitting on their opinion'#LIKE ?? NOBODY CARES THAT U HATE THE SHIP. I CERTAINLY DONT GAF.#but ur in the main tags advertising ur hatred for it and sounding stupid as shit for no reason? UR SHITTING ON PEOPLES SHIP ON PURPOSE#AND THEN GETTING MAD AT ANYONE WHO EVEN SAYS 'i disagree actually' IM LAUGHING SO HARD STOP IM KILLING MYSELF#the one time i ever talked in that much detail about why i disliked a ship was bevause somebody specifically asked me#and yk what ?? i have literally gotten death threats over it. im not allowed to hate that ship but everyone else can do whatever i guess#okay sorry. rant over.#is that controversial i cant tell. i dont really care and im not tagging anyway#meows post
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Day 280 | id in alt
Motherfucker didn't say please.
#dailykugisaki#jjk#kugisaki nobara#gojo satoru#THE TIME HAS COME#I WILL NOW MAKE GOJO AND KUGISAKI HAVE BEEF WITH EACHOTHER#NOBODY WILL STOP ME NOW#honestly I've been reading about cannibalism for the past hour#not has bad as vigorously reading about the effects of radiation or maybe it is depends on the stuff you see#i have thoughts and a lot of them its a sort of syndrome#my back hurts bro oh no#but i will not EVER read or listen to that true crime shit. ITS FUCKING ABYSMAL AND NASTY AND HONESTLY HEINOUS.#i aint gonna look into no murderers life. aint my business aint my story dammit. plus its just quaintly stupif if you do it for fun#I'd rather read about mysteries okay. like yes tell me why that mountain is dangerous LMAO#but dinnae speak to me about the sea. i know its rapids and its caving breath#whatever though i just want Kugisaki and Gojo to throw hands and you better not think i mean physically even though i will do it
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at the end of the day i am so very picky about the satoru content i choose to consume :,)
#— ai rambles#we are all free to do whatever we want here and write characters as we please#but man. the things i’ve seen and how that’s not him AT ALL#like when we write fanfic we more or so make the said character a bit ooc one way or another#like that’s inevitable#but i’ve seen things#where he’s got 0 of the basic traits at least that makes him gojo satoru#like it’s just the name that’s gojo satoru the rest is more like kenjaku ngl#are we on the same page with character analysis sometimes i wonder#once again i am not judging anyone here okay pls nobody take this personally#i am simply super picky about what i read and like when it comes to him#ur all doing wonderful for creating art i am just a huge bitch when its about him that’s all
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im sick rn sorry
#my art#art#digital art#sketch#comic#bg3#bg3 fan comic#bg3 comic#shadowheart bg3#shadowheart#shadowheart x cal#cal x shadowheart#bg3 shadowheart#shadowheart x tav bg3#baldur’s gate shadowheart#shadowheart x tav#bg3 shart#baldurs gate shadowheart#cal mythis#oc: cal#bg3 art#bg3 fanart#astarion makes a cameo but he’s not here so not tagging him#my head is so dizzy and i dont feel okay#my throat hurts#and also nose hurts#everything hurts#should i go to doctor yes or no#nobody reads tags if its fine#am coughing nonstop might expire idk
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at what point is an intro post necessary?
OH WELL HERE IT IS!
my name on here is skate, im a minor, im a girl, i use she/her pronouns and i have no idea what im doing!!
im in highschool so im a busy girl and i will complain about school
some fun facts about me are: i play 6 instruments and sing, i like reading, my favourite season is winter, i speak a fair amount of french and italian and i can crochet.
im also mentally ill so just prepare yourself for that!
most of my posts are about osemanverse but i love taylor swift and will not shut up about her. i am in a pitch perfect and dead poets society phase at the moment so expect some of that too and mostly i post whatever else pops into my head at the time.
my asks are open and i love answering literally anything and if you ask a question ill probably fall in love with you or smth
my tags are 'skate has words' for my writing 'skate answers' for answering asks and 'skate rants!' for rants obviouslyyyy
also my messages are open and, yes, i am extremely awkward, i would LOVE to be friends !! i need to add that i am very unwell sometimes for long periods of time and will sometimes just not respond to messages. i am sorry but ill get there eventually.
im very infrequent on here and will sometimes forget tumblr exists for weeks so im never ignoring you im just stupid and i have memory issues
if youre gonna be mean to pretty much anyone i dont really want you here. just dont be an asshole guys.
anyway have a good day !! :)
#please never read this#this is embarassing#if you even think for a millisecond that you might know me in person i am politely asking you to leave immediately#intro post#i dont know what to put in here#ps i only did this bc i saw pickledsad do one so shoutout to her!#i dont know how to tag this#i also dk how to use tumblr#how does this work#theres like 120 of you so i figured at least one person would care at least a little bit and if you dont then still be nice i have feelings#( whispers )#if you wanna call me december im okay with that#it was nearly my name#anyway#nobodys gonna see this#but#if you do see this#feel free to call me december i guess#it would make me happy#but no pressure#also like#should i put my tags in this#i will#skate has words#skate answers#skate rants!#i love referring to myself in the third person#i do it ALL THE TIME#its kinda bad#but like
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#kip sabian#penelope ford#renee paquette#hangman adam page#hangman page#aew#all elite wrestling#aewedit#wrestlingedit#wrestling#night gifs#i wanna point out. even tho i know this will get lost in the shuffle in the tags but i dont want to add it into the actual post either#but kip doesnt hide behind penelope actually#i know its the 'haha funny man hiding behind his wife' trope but im tired and im sick so i have something to say#thats not whats happening here. yes he is dodging hangman by backing away#but you can see penny purposefully stepping more between them clearly instead of kip backing away behind her#they all know hangman wont hit her. but she will protect her husband come hell or high water#compare her to renee stepping away for example - for penny its the fight instinct. renee has the flight instinct as a non-competitor#kip is just fucking dumb but he aint hiding. its penny thats stepping up instead#sorry ive seen this take so many times im just irritated and nobody will read this so yeah okay carry on#my beloved#kip in a box#vampire wife#boxman saga#(rp blogs dont reblog; saving and other personal use with tag credits is fine)
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im going to be so annoying all week
#agghagahah HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HYYESAAHHHH#★ arin rambles#BRO BRO PLEASLE#PELASE#my apology for everyone. I have to make it now . Sorry. If youre following me destroy that notif button you dont wanna hear how worse i will#get#actually no just Unfollow entirely#ITS THE ADHD#PLEASE. HE IS SO . COOL. his trailer is so awesome IVE REWATECHED IT 3 TIME SNOW.#I LOVE HIMMMMMMM SO MUCHHHHH#I LOVE HIM SO BAD I JUST ADORE HIM PLEASE#HES SO PRETTY. JAW DROPPING. ICONIC. LIFE CHANGING. THE TEARS IN MY EYES. GENUINELY SOBBING RITHT NOW IT S SO OVER#aventurine likers hold me. Nobody understands. Everyone is scared of me im too crazy#actually its everything wrong with me . Hes ruining my life#i dont struggle as an aventurine liker i actually excel at this its my full rime job now#‘9 to 5’ no i work 9 to 9. Every hour is dedicated to him#im glad uguys agree with me thannk uou i was starting to think i was a freak#Well i am but im glad someone else agrees hes cool#Hes so pretty im so happy#I CAMT WAIT RILL WENDENSDAY PLEASE IM GONNA FREAKIFN BLOW UP#I LOVE AVENTURINE. I LOVE AVETURINE.#i get so happy when i see him i get a little violent its unsettling .#like im like shaking my hands and jumping around my room and then u blink and im bashing my head against the floor#its carpet. Im ok. But like not but i am#DUDE. I LOVE. THIS GUY. EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM#i needto. Just. Okay brb gonna watch ir like 20 more times ill see u guys next year im going into a Aventurine induced coma#this makes me realize people read my tags. Oh dear. Sorry everypony#i apologize for my behavior. I will get so much scarier.#HES SO COOL. HES ACTYALLU SO COOL. LIKE HOW CAN SOMEBODY BE SO COOL.#oh god OH LORERDRDRDDDDDDD WHEN I GET YOU BOY WHEN I FIND YOU. WATCH OUT. WATCH OUT I WILL GET YOU.
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oh no somebody I do not want to know about my online presence might have found this account luckily I didn't find anything suspicious in my follower list but oh my god
#nana talks#its literally my dad too I'm not gonna get into the whole lore of why I genuinely don't like him but he's an awful person#I hope nobody has to deal with somebody like that ever not even my worst enemy I'm not kidding#so like I'm hoping he's not stalking this blog#like literally what can he do not like its gonna drive me off of the platform I literally don't care about his opinion of me#but its still unsettling if he is trying to keep track of his adult daughter like this#anyways I don't know if I should reach out to tumblr support because like they probably can't do anything#literally up until I was like 15 he had stuff installed that would let him see everything I do online#eventually that app or something of his shut down and I was free hehe#like this man did and said the most horrendous things under the sun and he's like omg why does nana not want to spend time with him#I don't even care if he's reading this he knows that I don't like him#best thing you can do if you have someone like this in your life is just do whatever you want don't let them bother you that much#eventually they'll realise they can't bother you anymore#like literally for the longest while I thought he would never shut up with the insults directed towards me#but like a couple of months of not caring about it and not talking to him later and he left me alone#so like if anyone reading this can relate I am proof that it does get better my dad is the most stubborn and mean case too#so I promise you it will be okay
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no i havent been reading jack merridew/ralph fanfiction for most of the afternoon like someone demented why
#I WAS READING LORD OF THE FLIES AND I REALISED WHAT THE FUCK THEYRE SO GAY FOR NO REASON#lord of the flies#gcse english is killing me i cant take it seriously#not when i can so easily take screenshots and nobody can tell whether its an extract from the book or ao3#not when 'jack and ralph smiled at each other with shy liking'#not when 'ralph and jack looked at each other while society paused about them. the shameful knowledge grew in them and they did not know#- how to begin confession. ralph spoke first crimson in the face. '#HOW AM I MEANT TO TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY#are you joking lads#shitpost#jack merridew#ralph lotf#jalph#okay so theres apparently a shipname for them. why am i not surprised
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🌻 ₊˚⊹ ࿔ 🌳
#the weather is so lovely today. it’s breezy and cool but the sun is warm so it’s not too cold or too hot out.#i wish it was like this forever.#ive been feeling so tired lately. physically n mentally & idk if its an underlying health issue or bc i haven’t been sleeping super well#the past few days i wake up in the middle of the night but im able to go back to sleep fairly quickly. but i STILL feel exhausted.#im supposed to talk about my lab results w my doc tmrw on the phone so. i hope everything is okay but tbh i wouldn’t be surprised if#something wasn’t optimal. my iron was okay last time i checked it though. sigh i just idefk anymore.#im sick of everything. im irritable for no reason. i don’t wanna do anything. like anything. i just want to rot in my bed#and even my interests are slowly slipping away from me. writing? couldn’t care less if i don’t write anything for the rest of the year tbh.#reading? i couldn’t even care to browse the shelves when we went to the bookstore the other day and it scared the shit out of me#kpop? meh.#i have a massive to do list and uni starts in a month and i have no energy. + dealing with my own brain and nonsensical thoughts on top#of that. overthinking anxiety all that super great stuff.#im also sick of putting in 110% into my relationships and getting half of it back. family friends whoever. and it makes me so sad. +#i feel like nobody even understands me. or even tries to or wants to.#im just tired#sick and tiredddddd#actually a bit sick too my throat hurts#anyways whatever#it’ll be fine i guess#i don’t want to give up but i don’t have any desire to push through im sort of just. floating. ill deal with it when i deal with it#♡ dear diary…
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and next up, unfortunately, the horrors
#the horrors being winter + mental illness#maybe just getting over some complexes created by the previous years#but it sucks#its hard#i hear criticism and rear up like an animal in a cage#im acting like my dad 😭😭😭#and sometimes its not wven criticism but just an accurate view of MEEE#and it sounds slightly bad in tone when they say it so i end up full of offense#ugh#why am i so sensitive#is my skin really so thin#can someone shake my insecurities off of me#i just dont know how to. articulate myself well#and unfortunately i am seen by others and that means they have opinions and thoughts#and theyre not even wrong! so like. why am i upset#i wish i could talk to someone#and i can! but i dont! for some reason?#am i waiting to be given an okay?#i Do have a thing en where im worrying im talking too much and asking too much#so yeah. i probably am.#which sucks! bc no one can read my mind to give it to me!#its been so hard to feel like a person again#and im still doing it wrong I think!!! otherwise this wouldnt be happening!!!#not to have mid winter suicidal ideation but#these problems feel too hard to solve and i dont think im getting it#i wish i didnt have to deal with any of this at all and i mean none of it#i wish nobody cared about me and i wasnt here#id miss river tho so :/ nevermind lol
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i have these two really similar drawings i want to post... but i dont feel like posting them together but also not like posting them alone in their own posts... omg. i might end up posting them together anyways... sometimes i wanna post a drawing and suddenly the act of formatting a post is the most vile poison to the artist's psyche
#not my art#im sitting on a bunch of lone wolf / amulet art just bc its mostly very sketchy and/or silly.#but i Do. have some nice sketches i wanna post ::-)#this is one of the things i have to keep reminding myself that JUST because its niche does not mean nobody wants to see it.#a lot of my fav things are obscure (well in english communities) so maybe someone out there will see it and recognize it....#i really wish i knew more of the culture behind it so i feel like im only understanding it like a third of the way?#okay that and i read it thru google translate.#but if i dont talk abt it how does anyone know they can talk abt it with me.#so i have to stay true to myself/my interests even through my catastrophic self-consciousness.
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i could turn jacob seed. i could make him forgo his brothers orders and see through him for what he was evennn if he was maybe right about montana getting nuked whateverrr like what everrrr okay
#hes genuinely such an interesting character when you give it 5 seconds of thought after the obvious hotness of him okay like i GET that#i DO wanna fuck him too i GET it but dude hes a disillusioned war vet on the brink of suicide when joseph finda him again and the ONLY#reason jacob didnt eat a bullet was because somebody gave him a purpose. and he followed it. not even blindly he had his doubts but it was#something to live for and someone to protect and who better than his own little brother#even bwfore the dlc came out i was like ok even if everything went according to plan you Cannot see jacob surviving that shit#he had a death wish he did naught want to live. he fully intended to die in the process you cant convince me otherwise#im saying so much nothing rn LOL idk i just have had nobody to talk to about this game and its been 6 years. so.#just. jouist fuckin. i like this character so much. i think he served his purpose for the game and i get why he had to die#but i do still wish there was more to explore with him ykwim#anyway im just annoyed bc i wanna read about him but all anybody ever writes abt is how good at sex he is with women and its like . yawn#HE DOEESNT EVEN STRIKE ME AS SOMEONE THAT WOULD EVEN CASUALLY FUCK IS THE THING LOL like you flirt with him and hes like what the fuck#are you doing. who the fuck do you think yourr TALKING TO#can anybody hear me???? does ANYONE get it
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