#but its not. he can love will AND be angry abt how much responsibility he had to take for will and the family

[cassgirlie]

pov you're jonathan byers

older than i am – lennon stella // welcome to the family – watsky // shoreline – broder daniel // family line – conan gray // older than i am – lennon stella // me and my friends are lonely – matt maeson

[cornerdreams-txt]

thoughts abt cubitos regressing together? Like tiny codebreakers or little hide duo?

GRIPS YOUR SHOULDERS. ANON YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I THINK ABOUT THIS STUFF. YOU HAVE UNLEASHED A MONSTER. HERE'S MY FAVS. LONG POST SO ITS UNDER THE CUT

contains agere hcs for: codebreakers, veterans, hideduo, guapoduo

★ CODEBREAKERS

— a little bird and his equally tiny knight in shining armor <3 they're precious together. phil is always holding onto etoiles and following close by, and etoiles doesn't ever want to leave phil's side, and will look around frantically for him if they get separated. they're equally feral about protecting each other, but when they're small together and there's no threats, they're basically joined at the hip.

— phil can't imagine feeling safer with anyone else, and chirps and makes little sing-song sounds in response to etoiles' rambling at him, clinging to etoiles' arm or shirt or backpack straps, huddling close and resting his chin on etoiles' shoulder whenever he gets the chance to.

— etoiles is always giddy to be around his brother, and keeps some kind of weapon in his off hand, with phil's hand in his other. if there's some kind of threat, he always pushes phil behind him. he knows phil can fight for himself, but he's brave and strong and he's phil's knight! phil will always be safe with him! and then if he gets hurt he tries to tough it out and ignore how bad it stings while phil fusses over him and takes care of him and makes him eat a golden apple to heal up his ouchies.

— little birdbrain over here gets very jealous of people dragging etoiles away, and will make angry trilling noises and ruffle his wings threateningly until etoiles grabs onto him and drags him with, always refusing to leave his side. etoiles doesn't like being separated any more than phil does, and it always helps with the stinging jealousy of "that's my family" that hits when someone tries to pull etoiles from phil's side.

— despite adoring one another, phil still refuses to let etoiles help with his nests. he wants to do it by himself, and he wants it done RIGHT. but that's okay! etoiles will scour the house and grab soft blankets and pillows and offer his hoodie to phil to add to the nest, and then he hurries off to get them water and easy snacks to enjoy while phil makes their nest for them to curl up in together.

— if they need supervision, your best bets are fit (easily gets phil's attention, and etoiles will follow phil anywhere) or cellbit (both of them LOVE hanging out with cellbit, and cellbit has a whole castle for them to play in with minimal risk of injury), but typically, they can handle themselves just fine!

— etoiles calls phil "little brother" and "baby bird" in french when he's regressed with him. phil calls etoiles "big brother" in response, or chirps family-based calls at him. :)

★ VETERANS

— with phil being a bird regressor, and fit regressing to older years, you get a very sweet dynamic of phil being fit's little songbird, following him around and whistling and chirping at him cheerfully, while fit hangs out in safe places with him, dragging phil headfirst into various little tasks to keep them both occupied, proud that phil wants to hang out with him, of all people. he's so cool, and clearly, phil knows it!

— one of their favorite spots to hang out is at techno's shrine by the potato farm. phil tucks himself up into a corner, and fit sits across from him. they'll talk for hours there, phil scribbling his words down on signs, and fit sometimes doing the same. they always leave something at the shrine for techno - phil always leaving an emerald or a green shiny object, and fit leaving cool-looking mob drops he has scattered around, or a baked potato or two. whatever feels right in the moment.

— fit is quick to jump to phil's defense when they encounter mobs, but phil is violent and feral when it comes to mobs coming up on fit, and fit isn't reacting to them. zombies are shredded into skeletons with strips of rotten meat hanging off the joints, skeletons have bones broken and shattered, endermen are ripped apart, the whole nine yards. he might be only a little bird, but even regressed, phil is a vicious fighter who doesn't hesitate to protect his own.

— but typically, the two of them prefer to curl up somewhere safe and just relax in each other's presence. phil drapes a wing over fit while they snuggle close, and fit uses his good arm as a pillow for phil, holding his head close to his chest and closing his eyes to listen to phil's whistling breaths.

— fit is allowed to help construct the bases for the nests phil creates, because phil knows fit is VERY particular about where he sleeps and rests, and wants him to be comfortable. but! the details and layout are phil's job to complete. fit just sits and watches, always interested in how phil makes his nests so cozy, and happy to watch his friend.

— they don't need supervision. you're welcome to check on them, but between fit being a 2b2t veteran, and phil's status of the angel of death, they always have eyes watching them from a void-washed realm, the crows that phil always chirps greetings to when they pass by being how a goddess watches over her little followers.

★ HIDEDUO

— the sweetest little pair ever :( they desperately need a babysitter, though! pac is too reckless and chaotic, and fit is too paranoid. usually, mike is the best option for that, but other times they end up harassing tubbo (or phil) until they get tired and leave to go sleep, or until one of them slips out of regression and can take care of the other person.

— fit gets nervous and stiff around people, but pac loves socializing, so sometimes fit hangs behind and watches over pac while pac talks to people, before turning and bounding back to fit's side, grabbing his hand and dragging him into their next adventure.

— pac knows that fit hates being out in public when he's small, so he likes taking fit to the hide and seek arenas to play in while they're little. they'll chase each other around, play proper hide and seek, and bring food so they can climb up as high as they can go to have a picnic together and watch the clouds and talk!

— language lessons! pac tries to teach fit new words in portugese, and giggles at fit's difficulty with specific sounds, promising him that it's okay! he's doing great! it's cute! and fit grumbles and gets flustered and changes the topic. they'll try again when they're not so little.

— usually, they sleep in one of the houses in the favela that pac turned into a hideaway for when he's little, because it's safe and perfectly designed to match the needs of a little one or two, or in chume labs, because mike is usually in the labs and will protect both of them while they rest.

— fit is very shy around mike when he's small, by the way. pac typically drags him along and nudges him into things, translating between mike and fit for them. he doesn't mind - he actually quite likes helping his soulmate and his fitchi understand each other better!

— fit calls pac "trix" as a joke when he's little, because of the american cereal. pac fires back by calling him "águia," which means eagle in portugese. because. yk. bald eagles. and fit's bald. yk? eh? eh? :D

★ GUAPODUO

— oh, guapoduo... gatito e pequena aranha.... little kitty and little spider. so cute, so RIDICULOUSLY chaotic.

— roier is an enabler. there's no nice way to say it - he enables cellbit so hard. he squeals and laughs and cheers him on when he does stupid stunts and takes down mobs and play fights roughly, and cellbit is absolutely smitten with roier's laugh and will do anything to hear it.

— when cellbit's REALLY small, he just makes cat noises instead of using his words, and roier understands him (most of the time) anyway. roier becomes his translater, standing proud and tall, arms folded over his chest smugly while cellbit clings to him and rubs his face against roier's shoulder.

— they trade overwear! cellbit gets roier's hoodie, and roier gets cellbit's jacket. they love doing that, cellbit burrowing into the soft fabric and shoving his face into his hands, covered by the sleeves, so he can smell his guapito. and roier spins in circles to feel the jacket flare out, giggling happily at the feeling and holding the collar close to his face to breathe in the smell of his gatinho's favorite coffee blends.

— roier complains about cellbit's coffee breath when he's little, so whenever they're both small, the threat of withholding kisses is always enough to make cellbit give up his coffee and opt for juice, water, or milk instead. he's not a huge hot chocolate fan, and he's picky about tea, so cool drinks are a safer bet. roier doesn't REALLY hate cellbit's coffee breath so much, but he does think it's a bit stupid cellbit wants to drink it when he's little. clever little spider knows exactly how to get what he wants.

— cellbit's tail likes wrapping itself around roier's limbs when he's little, and roier likes petting cellbit's tail when HE'S little. a perfect win-win situation!

— to an outside eye, roier looks like he's taking care of cellbit pretty often. following him into trouble, petting his hair and ears, smothering him in love, giving cellbit disapproving scowls when he does something dumb.

— but internally, that's all in response to cellbit promising he'll always-always-always-forever protect roier, wandering off with the knowledge that if something happens, he'll sprint right back to roier's side. cellbit rubs his face on roier to make him smell like CELLBIT, helps him reach stuff on higher shelves - cellbit protects and looks out for roier, and roier does everything he can to return the favor in thanks.

— they don't USUALLY need supervision, but if they do, then getting jaiden, bad, foolish, or phil is a good idea. not quackity though, little cellbit isn't very fond of quackity. or his twin, for that matter (roier tries to help them get along! but cellbit is stubborn and possessive and hisses at quackity when he gets too close to HIS husband.)

[kshaar]

finally watched elsbeth & here's a(n overlong) ramble of thoughts

i had watched the first three-ish episodes with great anticipation (and expectations) back when the show first aired (and tbh delight! jane krakowski was there!) and then i stopped cause

elsbeth tascioni has been my Fave since her first appearance on tgw and i had come to expect 1. viewers being unaware of exactly what she was thinking and counting on her expertise in the intricacies of procedure and 2. she would so cheerfully do morally dubious things. she wasn't immoral but it seemed like it really wasn't a concern for her, she seemed to look at it in a much much more abstract way. it made her a fascinating character especially for a woman, especially especially an evidently neurodivergent woman

i have always favoured fair-play whodunnits

so i dropped it to pick it up again when i wasn't expecting it to be something it clearly wasn't

and then a streaming merger made the show available and i binged the whole thing and lads this might be the toughest "its not that deep" we've faced yet because 1. it was that deep 2. it could have been that deep and 3. its obviously never going to be that deep, that's not what this show is but!!!!!! okay:

in tgw the one time she goes up against alicia, alicia uses cartoons and images of penguins or whatever the fuck to throw her off in the single most fury-inducing scene in a show not lacking in them. we never see a reaction to her learning that her "friend" is willing to trick her in this way

in tgf there's a case being made against her clients by a dishonest attorney based on insufficient evidence who then threatens elsbeth. in response, she "runs into" that attorney's wife in a grocery store and befriends her and goes back to their house to hang out w her and waits for the dishonest attorney to show up like ":) :) hi!!!" ------- thinking about that in the context of what pupetta did w teddy and how shaken elsbeth was by it and. like obviously it's not the same thing but it's the same kind of thing and it could have been something

her last appearance in tgf (with andre braugher!! id forgotten how much FUN guest stars can be and elsbeth has a fucking buffet of them!) had a fascinating arc of her going "i love the law!" in the abstract and then ultimately "winning" a case that leaves them all feeling disgusted by it

and so she *is* in a prime space to grapple with morals

and then give her a no-grappling-with-morals show

the thing is!!! she definitely is the kind of person who'd push it all down and flit away to avoid whatever it is that made her leave but the actual backstory for it was so thin :(

her breakdown in unalive and well was fucking fantastic and the fact that she names "angry" and "embarrassed" as her main two emotions about what happened and why she quit law is everything to me

i so so so loved the scenes abt teddy pointing out that she wasnt always present and how they're working on boundaries and even her evading when he directly asks her what happened! its fascinating! tiny tiny bit of hope that there's still more to find out? maybe?

and even after leaving Law she still wants him to follow in her footsteps! is it that she doesn't trust herself to practice it then? but she does trust herself to investigate? (chewing on this)

in conclusion i wish it was a teeny tiny bit darker but i understand that it's never going to be that

that murder mystery tv show murder mystery episode was one of the funniest fucking things ive seen

and i am really having fun with what we did get! it's a really fun show!

[ay-chuu]

Be My Lover?

Warning: (gn!reader but pls dont care abt the words about gender in songs... tagging my love, @senpaiofotome)

I must confess girl, yes, I wanna be your lover

He's the purest boy you'll ever see. Immature, who lives entirely based on his feelings and will most likely be a big pain in the ass. He's so stupid and unstable that your parents might question why you started dating him. he's so weird that he's in the category of the last person older people want to hire. He's like the clichéd protagonist of a cheap comic book that's been written. Oddly enough, after he confessed his love for you in a “brave” way, his trembling makes him more suitable for this pattern. A stupid, shy and naive boy.

Take a chance, my love is like no other

But these things that you know about him, gives you an another truth. He is so immature that his love is as pure and natural as himself. A love big enough to knock you off your feet without even realizing it himself. A love that you will involuntarily soften into two sweet eyes, even if you are angry with him.  the kind of stupid boy love that he will ask the mans who tell you that he can find better , “but there's no one better than them?"  look them in the eye. It is like a seed that has been planted but has not blossomed.

On the dance floor getting down

But you know that the seed you sow has a lot of responsibilities. This relationship is going to be bumpy. For example, when he hurts you, he won't understand, but he will put his soul out to win you back, no matter the reason. Or he won't understand when you explain to him the issues that you feel insecure about, but its because that he sees you as perfect in every way, no matter what the topic is. Your relationship will be a responsibility that matures him. A responsibility that would make him realize that he was already mature on the one hand while discovering himself.

Hold tight, I'll never let you down

But you know that none of your efforts will be wasted. Because even when the seed you planted becomes a tree, it will always be grateful to you and will bear fruit to you. And when you are with him and you will never be abandoned, feel unloved or anything else you scared. You are sure of this because no matter how pure his love is, it is also so strong. It's like a fire that has just been lit, but it won't go out. It is stronger than all the love that other men can give to prove his commitment and determination to you.

My love is definitely the key, like Boyz II Men I'm on bent knee

That's why you don't regret holding his hands and accepting his love now. Because you are sure of the end of this long journey that you will embark on. Eternal lovers.

And looking at that smile that came to his face when he was trembling with happiness, you couldn't help yourself and pulled his face to yourself. You knew what he was thinking when you calmed him down with a kiss. The person he was in love with was as much in love with her as he was. Be his lover? Yes, his lover.

I want to be your lover

DEUCE, Ace, Epel, Kalim, Ruggie, Jack, Silver, Sebek, IZUKU, Shoto, Kirishima, Denki, Shinsou, CHUUYA, Ranpo, Atsushi, MAMMON, Leviathan, Beelzebub, Scaramouche, Kazuha, Xiao

song: La Bouche - Be My Lover

[daisyjonesgf]

ommggg i read let me down easy today and i kept re-reading it bc its TOO GOOD AHH !!🦅🦅

it hurt so much but im a whore for angst first, and a human second🫶

just thinking about the reader suffering in silence because she feels guilty for having any negative feelings towards finnick :(( the way she dismisses those feelings bc she thinks that whatever she’s going through is nothing compared to what he’s been through :((

also thinking abt finnick’s slow realization that she’s suffering because of him :(( like the incident at the market is when he began to notice the changes :(( and later when he fully understands how his behavior affected her IT MESSES HIM UP SO BAD

i just know he was remembering his past interactions with reader (where she breaks the glass / when she rejected his money at the pearl necklace stand) AND CRINGING …and it only gets worse when reader spills her guts about what she went through. omg ik he was sick.

another #thougjt i had was how this might mess up the reader for a bit after too #idk (that just might be me tho lmaoo) bc i feel like once you’ve been in that cycle of feeling depressed/insecure for so long it’s hard to snap out of, even with constant reassurance 😔

But maybe that’s just my angsty side talking HAHA

but i loved this fic, 11/10🫶

-🦅

omg yes, literally my favorite thing I've ever written. ik I wrote it, but it's the only thing of mine I reread bc it's like the perfect expression of how I feel, like if I could represent myself in one fic it would be that one if that makes any sense. it's like a concept that always haunts my mind no matter what I'm hyperfixating on maybe because I'm just like melancholy like that 🎀🎀🎀

but thank you so much, I'm literally so glad people are enjoying it because it literally is my own roman empire

yes she wants to be angry, she is angry, but refuses to let herself be because his issues are what she needs to prioritize. how can she be angry when he is constantly suffering? even if it's not so slowly tearing her apart, like a piece of paper sitting in water, she's trying to stay connected for the illusion of it all, to be strong for him.

her being loving isn't new to him, so he isn't thrown off by that, only slightly confused by her waking up earlier then usual. so her gifts have little bearing when he's used to it and he really doesn't want to feel loved right now because he's trying to reject whatever will make him seek comfort. when she starts changing her clothes and makeup, it's different, but he's not responsive because she's always been his pretty girl and always will be, her buying new clothes doesn't make him perceive her any differently or wonder if there's a reason, people try out new things.

when he notices how other peoples interactions with her have changed that's when he really starts to notice, if everyone else perceives her as melancholy then something has to be wrong. even if he's not quick to point the finger back to himself. he tries gifts, maybe she wouldn't buy something because she wanted him to do it, some sort of attention, but it's not big enough part of the issue to have any bearing on the effects it's now had on her. the girl rotting depression era shall we say. eventually through that, what people say to him, self-reflection he gains full consciousness of what he's been doing, how he's been hurting the person he loves so much. and the guilt is incomprehendable.

how could he be so selfish? so closed off as not to process all the clear cries for help? thinking about how he was getting annoyed, feeling like she was being moody when she insisted on doing the dishes until the dish broke. how she ran out into the ocean, in the rain without a care to regain some sense of composure, composure to try and make him happy. then the necklace thing, how could he miss her clearly trying just to be with him, be near him, have the interactions with him that he was giving to the girl at the shop instead? he was so unresponsive to the emotional needs he just assumed it to be a material need that he was willing to give. so when she rejects the money it just doesn't compute, to buy it she needs it, and then she tries to send the message that buying something isn't what she's asking for but he misses it completely. he gets snappy and it snaps her.

so when he's finally talking to her, he needs her to tell him the truth, the nuances because he's been so blind to all of it. he needs to know how he hurt her and it really is like a full wake up call. he can't let his own trauma consume him, allowing it to traumatize her in different ways. like when she mentions her getting to the point of just wanting him to want her body if he wouldn't want her because that's how people perceive him, that's what was hurting him, but he inadvertently made her feel that way. it breaks him to think that he did that to her, that he hurt his girl that way. then the idea that she would have let him cheat on her, she would've picked being with him over her own well-being, well she did, and he doesn't deserve that. he can't fathom how he could be with someone who loves him so blindly as to choose being with a ghost of him over not having him at all, when she deserves so much better. when he has been so callous with such a precious kind of love. or the fact that he even made it seem like he had interest in anyone but her.

there will be a fluffy, smutty requested sequel but readers issues afterwards will be lightly touched upon in it. but yes, she would have to spend so much time mending her relationship with herself afterwards. he's totally on hand and knee trying to make it up to her, to prove how much he loves and needs her, to give the attention she deserves. but she's still paranoid about cheating, insecure, scared, even if she tries to mask it. but he knows. he could, and does, spend hours praising her, telling her how pretty she is, how she's the only one, how sorry he is, how much he adores her, but it doesn't stop the nagging voice in the back of her head. she tries to hide it but she's clingier and he's okay with that, she needs him more.

but yes there's lots of long term effects the incident has on there relationship. and they have to try and navigate that together.

thank you pookie, I love your thoughts sm 💋💋💋💋💋💋

[valdrift]

as the end of 2024 has been getting closer ive been both dreading and anticipating the new year and its a feeling tht i really dislike lol (more under cut bc my rambling got way longer than i thought 😦)

like i moved out 2022 and its been amazing for both my mental health and growth as a person since being away from my family gave me the space to figure out what i want to do and how to. idk. live ? got medicated, developed better coping mechanisms, made great friends, etc. i mean im living with my friends rn and theyre like family and i just got licensed to be an lvt and its all great ! but the thing is that my bio family need me and thts probably the root of the issue

cus my family is dirt poor, like living on gov aid, and none of them can work so growing up i was always told how i needed to be successful to take care of them even though i had plenty of rich relatives and i always wondered why none of them bothered to help and decided to put all that responsibility on a kid ?? and i was pretty much raised into being my family's eventual caretaker. from 13-17 i used to be so angry/depressed/resentful about it and hated my family bc it felt like they robbed me of my agency but now, i cant blame them. im not saying they should have done tht to a kid but i understand why. theres a bunch of complicated legal things and other stuff i dont want to get into and my family are either old, disabled, or both and god knows my relatives arent going to help so its up to me yknow ? its why im moving back in with them by 2025 to take care of them. and i love my family, i really do even if i dont tell them bc we dont talk like that and we all know it anyways. my mom is such a strong person despite how everyone looks down on her and i want her to have nice things, i want my family to live in a house that is clean and not falling apart, i want my mom to not have to ever worry about working and to have time for herself bc shes been stuck caring for kids for half her life. i love my family, i want to take care of them, and im angry i never got a choice. family is complicated and i wish it was as easy as just going "i dont want this responsibility" but i know its not

i keep telling myself that this is just how things are supposed to be and im going to spend the rest of my life taking care of them and i thought i accepted it but theres still some small part of me thats reluctant. i know im never going to have a partner or romance bc my family is and always will be my first priority and ig thats sad but i really dont mind. and im not just saying that, like genuinely im fine being single, i dont need companionship and have never felt that loneliness. im just fine with my friends and i dont need anything more, it just kinda sucks i dont get that choice. the whole thing is kinda sad and ive been told as much but these are the cards life dealt me and better me than someone else i guess

truth is im kind of scared, it feels like my life has already peaked and being away from my family has been so freeing but its selfish and damn if i dont want to be selfish for just a little longer. but its hard when i can see my mom getting older and the house getting worse and im angry that this isnt as easy as it should be. this country is awful and the systems in place are cruel and makes life as difficult as possible for people of color, the poor, and disabled. i know i'll get over it and i'll be moving back in and helping them like i promised but i'm only 22. my relatives are acting like i'm wasting my life every second im not helping my family or working towards making 6 figures or whatever and i won't lie it's put doubts in my mind. but im only 22!!!! i dont know. maybe im being dramatic because honestly it could be worse and we're even lucky to have a roof over our heads and to even have a steady source of income no matter how little it is. ive never told anyone the last bit abt being scared and all that, i think its easier to type it than say it, and it also helps i dont have a face to yall and i dont have to look you in the eye. i dont know if ive ever shared this much or anything like this on here either lol. i dont know

tldr; do it scared i guess

[hazbin-proship-central]

okay!!! this is my sign to go insane abt lucifer/charlie !!!

they have the potential to be so cute and wholesome, but it's me - i can't have my ships nice and fluffy. healthy relationships are for the real world, everything needs to be fucked up in fiction !!

my headcanon is that charlie always had a special relationship with her dad. a better one with mom, but her times spent with lucifer even though rare were closer. but its normal, she's his only daughter and it's just normal parental love!! he didn't dare try anything when she was little, hes not that horrible (he totally is but he cant show that part of himself to charlie). it was a loooong investment to slightly push those boundaries more and more, but he has all the time in the world to do so.

so, when charlie is all grown and lucifer visits the hotel for the first time, they greet eachother and start making out. everyone freaks out because holy shit why didn't she ever mention theyre like that??? why are they like that???

she never mentioned it cuz its normal for her. she never knew another father-daughter relationship, it's nothing out of ordinary for them to cuddle, kiss and get a little touchy. and lucifer couldn't give two shits about what some lowly sinners think of that when he can destroy them with a snap of his fingers.

they were never human, so human taboos don't apply to them. or maybe they apply to hellborns too, but as i said - lucifer simply doesnt give a fuck lol. he's the devil. from the bible. let him be a little awful...

ALTERNATIVELY, they had a normal regular not weird relationship. and when charlie reunites with her dad, he's acting just a bit weird. okay, maybe he just doesn't know how to act after such long separation, maybe he's nervous about others, maybe he's just not used to his little girl being grown up.

or maybe that's what bugs him. she's so different now, responsible, so mature and oh lord why is she kinda hot?!?!? she can't be hot, she's my daughter!! but all denial went out when he saw her kicking ass in the final battle, full demon form.

he gets even weirder, there's so much emphasis on my charlie, my daughter, my little girl, and yeah okay he missed her for sure but isn't that a bit over the top??

he's surely just overprotective as always, angry at anyone who touches charlie, anyone who spends time with her alone, and he always growled at alastor when he was too friendly with her. so its not weird. charlie just has to accept him as he is, she could've just misremembered how he was before.

(small intermission: radioapple enemies to continued enemies but they're now both fucking charlie so they have one thing to agree on. they make a competition out of this too tho.

okay, back to the scheduled ship!)

eventually his self control breaks and they fuck nasty about it, charlie knows it shouldn't be like that, but it's not cheating, right?? he's not her lover, he's her dad. and she always wanted him to pay more attention to her, so now that he does charlie shouldn't complain. take what he gives, and if it's mind-blowing sex that's an added bonus (adam's first and second wife didnt seem to hate what he had to offer, charlie doesn't seem to hate it too ^w^)

so, two options! either she's on that from the start, or he drags her into this later (that includes more guilt and shame!! always a treat)

and about charlie x vaggie x lucifer - i thought of that too and it's fun, but i just can't bring myself to really get into anything chaggie. don't get me wrong, they're cute, but that's their only thing. vaggie's personality doesn't (yet? i hope) exist besides charlie, she's just her girlfriend (that happened to be an exorcist but that's it. not much else). chaggie and vaggie's character in general had so much potential, but imo they ruined it by automatically making them girlfriends. both songs that vaggie sings revolve around charlie, it's always vaggie AND charlie!! (barbie and ken kinda situation, they ken-ned vaggie 😭) give my girl some personality, damn it. and what draws me to a ship is all the intricacies that make the relationship interesting, i sadly can't see that in them :/

(but consider this: charlie and lucifer's "more than anything" love song, and vaggie having to sing a reprise later to say "hello??? im also your partner, remember??? i love you more than anything too???" LMAO)

- 🌈

Ah! I love reading your rants, rainbow anon.

Both of these scenarios are so fucked up and yummy! I really like the guilt aspects that can be played with in this ship. The denial <3 "Oh, im just being... overprotective! Its nothing weird! It cant be weird! Im her father!"

Plus, Charlie gaslighting herself into thinking its okay and healthy is sooo good😋 of course, with them being in Hell, they dont have a moral system like us humans do, so it makes sense they wouldnt really care. But, I like the concept of Charlie and Lucifer both intuitively knowing what theyre doing is wrong (maybe influenced from Lucifers time in heaven, considering he is a fallen angel). They both have sex, and Charlie is overwhelmed with feelings of guilt, but she cant stop. It feels too good, and she loves that shes finally getting one on one time with her daddy. She feels so loved and safe.

Lucifer feels bad, because he knows he groomed his daughter into this situation, but he just cant help himself. Shes so pretty, prettier than Lilith could have ever been. (haha I like the idea of him secretly lusting for Charlie over Lilith, I read a fanfic about it and it drove me wild.) Shes his daughter, he created her, technically owns her, in a sense. He can do what he wants to her. Thats how he justifies it.

Matter of fact, I've read multiple Morningstarcest fics. When I first joined the fandom, I was uninterested in the ship, but then I got an urge to just... look at the tag on ao3. Give it a shot. I was sold 🤭

Oh, and I TOTALLY agree with you on Vaggie. "They ken-ned Vaggie" is SO TRUE i never even thought of it in that way but thats such an accurate way to put it! She really needs to go off and have her own adventures/goals/whatever, separate from Charlie and the hotel. Some sort of type B plot.

Hmm... random idea that popped into my head, maybe she could make some sort of support group for other fallen angels in hell (im assuming her and Luci can't be the ONLY ones down there), and they could like. Train for exterminations or something. Ah, im going off topic.

Anyway, yeah! Morningstarcest is great.

[albaqae]

OH MY GOD I FINALLY WATCHED MUTANT MAYHEM AND DJJSAJJSNSNFHXJDJ

queue the ramble :) (also yes spoilers)

I’m so so happy being able to take off mutant mayhem filters NOW I CAN BASK IN THE FANART YES YESBEYYEYSYSYSYSA

Ok so like I pulled up right and I knew it was gon be GOOD, but IT WAS GOODER THAT GOOD???? After I watched rise I was like mkmk yea there’s NO WAY they can make them more teenager-y But they Did.

My friend my love told me that they told the VA to change the script if they wanted to and if they thought it was more relevant and honestly? BEST DECISION EVER

U can feel however u want abt the movie but I will Fight You about the relevancy of it so bad, like something that media tends to focus on capturing is the Present, the feeling of the very moment “insert thing” happens, and the relevancy of certain situations in certain times. It’s the very reason why nostalgia hits so hard, because it is capturing the feeling of being right there in that moment, and so effortlessly

That’s what I felt watching the movie, THEY LITERALLT SAID RIZZ AND SUS, and I never in my LIFE thought I’d hear that in an ACTUAL OFFICIAL MOVIE, I just KNOW history scholars are gonna psycho analyze every reference they make

ALSO I ADORE SPLINTER SO SO SO MUCHANJAJASJKEKNX, I love seeing just-became-a-father splinter it’s AKJSNDNX. I really really love the angle they took with him, and him seeing himself reflected in superfly and how being so strict hurts his kids because it doesn’t let them explore options or themselves fully, even if he really does think he’s right

ALSO HIM AND SCUMBAG AKAJNSNSNX IT WAS SO CUTEEEE IT KILLED MEEE

AND OH GOD near the end when superfly had the turtles and was abt to like snap them and I saw the broken shells I, no kidding, screamed. THE AMOUNT OF ANGST IVE CONSUMED THAT HAS HAD BROKEN SHELLS AS ONE OF ITS MAIN PLOTS AOQJJWNSNX, it was WILDDD having it canon ngl

Overall all the characters, like every single one, felt so fleshed out and real, it was genuinely so refreshing. I love how media now focuses on capturing raw human states instead of the heavily filtered beauty standard that our societies have for so long clung to. I think future generations being able to see that will really heal some of the damage being “chronically online” can cause

April had SUCH GOOD STYLE and I loved her :) because the plot was so heavy I almost expected a lot of the characters to not have an arc at all, so I was real surprised when splinter and April realized what they did was hurting ppl. The writers were REAL good at keep the plot semi-un-crowded despite how much was going on

Again, THE HUMOR WAS SO SO PRESENT DAY AKAJWJENNX

I loved Raph LIKE ALWAYS and how they made him an angry mf w/o making it against his brothers, and just making it as just how he is, I thought it was so nice to have an iteration where he keeps his spark without making it harmful to those he cares abt (his outfit at the end was so very fire it was my fav)

Mikey was so so sweet, I love whenever he’s both a goofy goober but also one of the most empathetic ones, the hope and kindness in his eyes <33

DONNIE WAS SO RADDDD, the VA did SUCH a good job, he has my fav voice and overall he was so cool in character too, freaking out abt the attack on titan doodle was so me and I love seeing a representation of what non-toxic fandom looks like that wasn’t seen as a problem or as meant to be looked down on, bro just loves k-pop and anime!!!

Leo was AMAZINFGGGT, they kept his leader persona and his want to take responsibility and decency without making him an ass !!! And for someone who grew up with 2012 Leo that’s something I was REALLY at awe at

It’s also the first turtle x human ship i don’t hate, they didn’t make Leo be CREEPY ASF LIKE W 2012 DONNIE, but he was still a hormonal teenager having a real crush and they were still friends

I also loved lizard dude

Superfly character was so rad too, the way he spoke and carried himself was really interesting to look at and I thought it was so cool, I love villains that have actual stories, AND BABY HIM WAS SO CUTEEEEE, wish we got more sibling content on him and his crew tho, but that’s very me nitpicking

Splinter cracking his back remind me of “BUMBUMBUM BUM BUM BUM!”

I love when tmnt doesn’t do orientalism :))) it’s very hard to avoid in iterations cause of the very foundation of tmnt, but I take it as a major W whenever we get a decent story(USUALLY AMAZING STORIES) that doesn’t rely on “oooohhhh mystery ninja stuff ooooooo” to make a compelling “aesthetic”

I also loved how Baxter stockman looked, and the turtle tots, the animation was OUT OF THIS WORLDDD, I rlly love how, as artists, we accept more diverse styles rather than just sticking to realism being the standard, because it allows for stuff like this to happen!!! And the scribbles added so much to the world ownqnnsndndjxjx I’ll rewatch it over and over again just for the art style

And also when Leo call himself leon IT MADE ME SO HAPPY BC LIKE LEO IN RISE LIKES LEON TOO IT FELT LIKE A WINK WINK SKSNSNWNMSND not sure if it was tho but it was me giggling and kicking my feet

The plot itself was so good too in the way that it applies to more than mutants, the seeking of acceptance is something really really relatable in so many contexts: neurodivergence, queerness, immigration, and so so so much more????? It’s one of my fav things of most tmnt iterations, its themes carry on to other contexts, not just to the specific story being told. This is what leads it to being so attractive to so many audiences

The music was very atsv and I thought it was so rad, it’s always nice to watch a movie that has that kinda soundtrack, especially in urban settings it’s a lot more fitting than an orchestra (sometimes, or at least I think)

By the time me movie was over with the BADASS SHREDDER APPEARANCE I lost control of my body and was just happy stimming violently and my friends just kinda 🧍‍♂️ at me, and they got the same rant u just read but even more messy, if that’s possible

I’m proud to have mutant mayhem as an official tmnt iteration, and I’m proud of the work that’s been done, and I hope to in the future maybe somehow contribute to a version too!!

I didn’t revise this, and it’s very messy, and I doubt I’ll go back and fix it, but it’s just beginning thoughts :D if you actually read this far thank you and I love you

[pomplalamoose]

hey omg I have this idea, could you maybe do headcanons (IF YOU WANT TO) abt enemies to lovers with Luke? Well, you can have it kinda be like a Mara Jade scenario where she needs to kill him but Luke doesn’t necessarily hate her. Honestly all up to you!

Hiii anon, thanks for your ask🩵 I really like the idea, so let's jump right into it!

• I find this to be a very interesting concept because there are so many possibilities how this could play out 

• across the galaxy there is a wide array of people that could have good reasons to hate Luke, even the ones that have never actually met him before 

• the reasons for said dislike can range from petty to understandable, depending wholly on whose side you are on

• imagine: you could be a fellow kid from Tatooine, having one sided beef with Luke because he was always the better pilot and shooting womp rats came to him easily, whereas you wanted nothing more than to beat him once but always failed 

• maybe Luke stole the love of your life right from underneath your nose without even realizing 

• maybe you hate him just because he made it off that hell hole of a planet and casually overthrew the Empire in the process 

• like, THAT COULD HAVE BEEN YOU and the jealousy is gnawing at you

• maybe you are a politician's assistant or the politician yourself and, because you can't stand Leia, hate Luke too, simply because they are related 

• possibly Luke's actions, unbeknownst to him, had a serious impact on your life; you are left reeling, trying your hardest to pick up the pieces left

• maybe you worked for Jabba and lost your job due to his death 

• alternatively you lost friends in the same battle that cost your boss his life 

• or maybe Jabba died before he could pay you your well deserved money

• and worse: you are responsible for caring for friends or family and now can't do that anymore because your employer is fucking dead

• maybe you had family or friends on the Death Star

• maybe you are part of what remains of the Empire 

• alternatively you could have been raised to hate and fight the Jedi, and now, that there is only one left, you want to end them one and for all

• either way: the only thing still keeping you from crumbling down, what keeps you going,  is the thought of revenge 

• no matter your motive, Luke will not hate you in return no matter what you do

• we have to be realistic here, that man didn't even hate his father and refused to kill the Emperor with his own hands

• so the whole enemy part is pretty much one sided, to him you are a slight annoyance at best 

• (additional reason to absolutely hate his guts)

• (personally I think it's hilarious but obviously you don't)

• there is nothing more infuriating than your sworn nemesis acknowledging your presence but not being really bothered by it 

• and why would he? 

• (going forward I'll assume your goal is to hurt him or possibly end his life)

• unless you have some serious outstanding skills, you wont be able to even get close enough to do any harm

• plus, it would be in your best interest to catch him alone, which in its own right is hardly implementable

• if you somehow get this far though, he will already know 

• it's basically impossible to sneak up on him, especially with murder on your mind 

• and taking on Luke wholly on your own? You wouldn't stand a chance 

• even though you could potentially be a trained fighter you are blinded by rage and thus not equipped to meet him at the same level he's on

• all of this, of course, doesn't mean that Luke would simply accept the way you keep trying to mess up him or his family 

• he might have developed lots of patience during his training and over the years but when the people he loves are in danger, he isn't playing around 

• (it doesn't matter that every single one of them is dangerous in their own right and can very well defend themselves)

• if you're lucky he only gets angry 

• but if you somehow manage to catch his interest and become subjected to his curiosity, you might as well turn yourself in straight away

• he will either make an effort to get you arrested, or alternatively, seek you out himself 

• abruptly the roles are going to be reversed; no longer will you be the hunter but instead the hunted 

• Luke will naturally want to know who you are and where you are from, what your occupation is or was and whether you are working alone 

• most importantly he'll want to hold you accountable for your actions 

• since he doesn't consider you a real threat he is able to take his time to methodically tire you out 

• he doesn't mind if you constantly manage to evade his grasp, he knows you will return again to try and hurt him

• eventually, if you like it or not, he'll get his chance to confront you 

• depending on your reaction, the results are different ones 

• if you insist on following your path, he'll see you punished according to your crimes

• if you're willing to engage in conversation/are reasonable enough, he will reach out, offer his help 

• you absolutely don't want to go to prison but his pity would make you feel similarly awful 

• it's easy to stoke hatred and to keep your anger burning when your target is, as far as you are concerned, a monster 

• however, coming face to face with Luke for the first time, you are thrown and your world, once again, is turned upside down 

• he is nothing like you imagined 

• he is kind, charming even, and not arrogant and blinded by pride, like you thought 

• above all he's so beautiful it hurts

• despite everything you did in order to bring him harm, he is ready to forgive you 

• and not only that: he offers his support, might even apologize and explain his point of view should you entrust him with the reason for your actions 

• while Luke does not expect you to do so, in fact doesn't demand anything, he still wants to come to an agreement 

• he's busy enough as it is and permanently keeping an eye out for you is, frankly, irritating 

• so what is it that you want? A stable job? A place to live? Money? Some other kind of compensation for what happened to you?

• it's hard to face the fact that maybe, just maybe, you were in the wrong all along 

• that he is, just like you, a survivor of the war and it's circumstances and did only what had to be done 

• (alternatively you are a Sith and want to admit to your faults even less)

• whatever the case, Luke will remain understanding and, should you refuse his help, won't judge you for it 

• if you promise to leave him and his family alone, he'll let you go

• it's all up to you and he won't pressure you into something your pride doesn't allow 

• he'll be happy to part ways peacefully, of course, but if that's not the case you'll still get your chance to stand by your word to not cross his path again 

• regretfully he does not disappear from your thoughts, no matter how much you try to forget about this embarassing encounter

• maybe you try to unfairly twist your interactions to make them fit your narrative

• it's not working though and with growing frustration you realize you want to, need to, see him again 

• only to accuse him of messing with your mind of course, no other reason (like taking a last look into his crystal blue eyes)

• if you can settle this once and for all, maybe he'll stop appearing in your dreams and leave you alone 

• surely this is all the doing of a Jedi and has nothing to do with a guilty conscience and a burning longing to be held in his arms

[darishima]

bonesy here ! do the character ask thing with either ummmm aubrey omori (because you said shes you coded)(i know you havent finished the game im just thinking lots about it becuase im still formulating my response) or midari (because i know youre so abnormal abt her dari) or stan pines (because you keep posting about him) -🦴

hehe hiii bonesy. thats just your name now i guess. change it legally thats the rules

sidenote but the other day (yesterday actually) i was on a discord call w my friend and mentioned offhandedly something like "oh yeah theres an anon that regularly sends me stuff and the other day they asked--" and then they went "oh yeah i know i've seen bonesy asks" LIKE LMFAO.. bonesy truly just is your name now. and all my mutuals will know of you

anyway. hmm. for aubrey (please note i have played like 30 minutes of omori):

sexuality headcanon: lesbian gender headcanon: transfem aubrey is good but to me thats a she/they cis girl a ship i have with said character: AUBREY X KIM, EASY a BROTP I have with said character: kel and aubrey 4ever a NOTP I have with said character: aubrey x any man. any of them. especially sunny. sunburn makes me want to throw up and i dont respect anyone who ships it sorry. i pray youre not a sunburn shipper bonesy or i'll hafta kick you out of my inbox /j a random headcanon: hmm. she plays guitar or bass general opinion of said character: i like her :3 i'll like her a lot more when i actually . yk. finish omori.

also since my omori knowledge is limited i consulted my wonderful best friend-partner-mortal enemy @/stariacht, my resident omori expert (who im playing it with) and when i asked about his general opinion he said: "she’s such a good character and the omori fandom not only has no idea how to interpret her but they dumb her down so much and i refuse to talk to anyone about aubrey unless they prove to me they aren’t stupid LMAO" and to that i say he is right. and i agree

midari, i have some OPINIONS ABOUT WHICH WILL MAKE SOME PEOPLE ANGRY BUT IM OBJECTIVELY RIGHT:

sexuality headcanon: lesbian, only sexually involved with men for her own gain/pleasure, not actually attracted to them gender headcanon: i think outwardly she presents as a cis girl cause she doesnt really care what people think about her but internally she's like, genderqueer nonbinary, she/it/they, but she wouldnt bother coming out beyond occasional offhanded mentions of "not being a girl" a ship i have with said character: MIDARI X SAYAKA!!! also midari x yumeko because im WHAT? DELUSIONAL ! [im schizophrenic i can say that] a BROTP I have with said character: midari x runa, weird little freak creatures <3 a NOTP I have with said character: this is about to piss some people off . but yuriko x midari is my notp. i dont HATE IT necessarily its just.. such a nothingburger.. yuriko doesnt have enough characterization in canon for me to care about her beyond the version of yuriko that exists in my head so i dont want midari with her. theyre friends though and midari likes her. also midari x ryota is so disgusting it makes me want to slit my throat general opinion of said character: me irl /srs. my one true love. my world, my everything, the center of the universe, the point that my entire life and identity revolves around. without midari i am nothing. without midari i do not exist

stan pines:

sexuality headcanon: he feels kinda aroace i cant lie but maybe pansexual. or bisexual. or, more likely, he has no idea what any of the labels mean and just calls himself whatever will serve him in the moment LMAO gender headcanon: just a guy. jus some dude a ship i have with said character: none, really ? maybe stan x eda clawthorne cause its funny, but nobody from gf a BROTP I have with said character: stan and soos !!! a NOTP I have with said character: stan x bill. eugh a random headcanon: he secretly feeds waddles leftovers or scraps under the table at dinner. he loves that damn pig general opinion of said character: looove him. love him dearly. wish he was my uncle...

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

re parent regret article.... recently got my mom to admit she and my dad are deeply unhappy and the only reason they got married and had kids (in their early 20s, and it has dictated every moment of their lives since) is because it was what was expected of them and they felt like it was just the thing to do ... its very upsetting to think of how unhappy and unfulfilled my parents are but at the same time its kind of freeing because I understand a lot of their actions better now and their inability to raise us and give me the care I needed. this year I am older than my parents were when they had my oldest sibling and I kind of feel like im older than them now because theyve never fully grown past that point at least not as individuals. ya I suppose everyone has their paths in life and it all fits together and works and means something but it is very sad to realize your childhood was painful because your parents were really just not suited to be parents and couldn't have done any better. im trying to not be weighed down by their lack of self actualization and to be an example for them by manifesting my life in the way I want despite them being upset by it, and to encourage them to become real people now that theyre 60.. umm ya sorry your inbox has become my therapy sessions recently it just feels so much better to confess these things anonymously and write it all out to someone instead of trying to explain to someone face to face and have it deal with their responses. plus i think u understand a lot of my issues although objectively our lives are quite different! anyway yeah hope you have a nice day!!!! xoxo 2012 :3

ilu <3 i relate to much of this i will detail my thoughts below , im glad my inbox can be of use to u i believ The Confessional is a very necessary function in society it can be so transcendent to get something off your chest w/o having to affect your personal life in any way ^^ and i did have a super nice day ty i hope u did too..<3 :readmore:

it is really crazy to think about the pressure ppl face to start families , seems to be less prevalent now but yeah even 20-30 yrs ago it was just, What You Do.. for my parents, they were in love, and i think they rly did want kids, they were together for 5 years before doing it they planned it out, i DO believe they were soulmates. but then once the reality set in idrk there was just this disconnect. my dad was the more nurturing parent, and he had kids from a prior marriage so he knew wat he was in for, i think he missed my brothers a lot so he had perspective. i assume anyway. but he was also major alcoholic which i thought was normal for so long (in england it is i spose). that took up a lot of his time. i know so little about him or his inner workings its quite torturous to me lol.

and my mom is still alive but i know so little about her too, other than stuff i learned thru drunken outbursts. when i try to ask her anything remotely personal or emotional now she stonewalls me so hard :/ she's always just been closed. her childhood was Horrific tho like both her parents were still minors when she was born, her mom is a WW2 orphan and her dad was a delinquent forced to enlist in the navy instead of being sent to juvie. all the stuff she HAS revealed to me abt her life is absolutely bats**t. its awful like i genuinely can not feel a single morsel of bitterness towards my mom knowing wat she's been thru.

that being said i WAS extremely angry at her for a big portion of my life its been a journey to unravel. but at this point i feel so much forgiveness idek how i got here or when. but i love her unconditionally! i also feel that my moms self actualization was rly stunted, not even by having kids but by my dads death, and being left with these kids she has to care for alone, oh god if i try to imagine how she felt it turns my insides to stone. like it really fractured her soul and made existing problems spiral out of control. although that being said she is doing WAY better now in comparison to the past, im rly proud of her. when we talk i try to always encourage her like u say..

really the best medicine is being able to zoom out and view the big picture of Life, not just your life but how all our lives fit together, when you zoom out you can spot the patterns find the order in the chaos. for ages n ages i cldnt understand the reason everything in my life was hell while all these other ppl i knew seemed to have it so normal. Nowadays i can understand how it lead me here, the trajectory and timing of everything, it brought me a lot of EXPerience i can use to help others..Even just by having this blog where i can talk about vulnerable topics , ppl tell me it helps them, i begin to see a new sense of value in my endured sufferings. if i feel like im healing someone that heals me ..

thanx for the msg :] ermm i hope my response dont come off as traumadumping or something LOL i write this all with a matter-of-fact tone in mind. just explaining some stuff for anyone who may need it. hope u have a good night 2012-chan keep shining bright for your family.. <3pmd9

[common-grackle]

hello i am here to tell you about my best friend alice dyer magnusprotocol .

so she is working at thje oiar office of incident assessment and response which is like. magnus institute part two. or something. she has this ex boyfreind called samama khalid (i love him <3) and thjey are also besties and she got him the job at the oiar and in the 1st episode she shows him how to do things adn shes so silly abiut it shes likw . hold on let me screenshot thje fucking. the transed cript

dont look at my tabs .

anywya colin is the it guy and hes so babygirl literally,, this isnt abt him though its about alice

alice shows sam the gay people on the windows 95 ALSO SHE NAMED EVERYTHING WHICH. FUCK YEAH I DO YHIS like the system thjey use on the old ass computers. it doestn have a name but also his name is freddie . because fr3-d1 . and she also named thje voices that the compiters read out statements(??) in she named them norris chester and augustus (i am so normal about norris and chester . however if i told you WHY that woudl spoil tma for you + idk maybe youvw already had it spoiled adn seen things about them . or you dont care . either way its a story for another time anyway) alice often gets scolded by gwen bouchard who is . also working there and also shes hot. who said that uhh yes alice loves to annoy her and also gwen is so interesting to me but THATS A STORY FOR ANOTHER TIME !!!!! umm what else what else REMEMBER COLIN okay this is going to be a little bit about colin . he fucking . hes such a character. ok like he Knows somwthjing is wrong ?? like he can Tell . like the way the first tmagp episode ends is . interesting . to say the least . hes probably had a fucked up fear encounter . hes even scottish . and um thjeres a bit in the first episode when sam talks to him and its so silly becausw sam is like "hey colin how is the app going" and colin is like "THIS APP KILLED MY GRANDMA ))):< " or something . not that but like he got angyr You Get It and sam is like "oh my bad. i mso sorry alice told me to ask ." and colin is immediately like ". oh . (: ok then :D tell alice it was funny adn i laughed :smiling face with three hearts emoji: " LIKE . he hates everyone except alice <33 i lovw thjem so much ): AND WE SEE TJEM INTERAC T IN THE THIRD EPISODE . I LOVE THEM SO MUCH . AUGH . ummm augh the fucking conversation with sam and colin was so funny too sam is so awkward . poor boy anyway umm what else what else . YEAH UMMM AS A LOT OD PEOPLE HAVE OOINTED OUT. ALICE IS AWFULLY SIMILAR TO TIM STOKER MAGNUSARCHIVES FROM LIKE SEASON 1 . AND LIKE . god tim makes me feel shrimp emotions UMM LIKE IN SEASON ONE HES BEINGG LIKE REALLY FUNNY AND EVERYTHING . IN S2 HE LIKE. he starts getting a bit angry at everything because things have Really started to Go Wrong at the institute and also jon is being a little bitch . and at the end of s2/beginning of s3 he like . ok so theres anothjer archival assistant in like s1/s2(??) there her name is sasha and she and tim were best friends <333 some people ship them romantically some dont but either way. they were so so close and loved each other so much adn like they always come together like yk what i mean like you cant think of one of them without thinking of the other . thats how Two Of Them they were and i love them so much and augughghgh anyway ummmmm at the end of season 1 something . happens to sasha ! and its just ! not addressed until the end of s2 but like she starts acting different and everything and at the end of s2 we like learn that sasha fucking died bcause she was eaten by the not!them which is this thing thats with the fear entity known as the stranger . and um . basically it eats people and takes their place and almost no one can tell the difference like it alters everyone's memories and all the pictures and things of that person but like theres always like one or two people that can tell that it's a . whole other person . because they remember the way the real person used to be like the not!them appears in episode 3 across the street and eats this guy graham folger (love him) and amy patel (the statement giver) like remembers what og graham was like before the not!them got him yk . and in sasha's case it was this girl melanie that remembered her (i love melanie she is this youtuber she has a show called ghost hunt uk and she and jon hate each other and Cannot take each other seriously its so funny) anyway melanie was like "hgirllie that is not. sasha i?? are there two sashas" when jon assures her that sasha let her inside after she asked abt where sasha was . yk . and then jon does Researc h

i ran out of characters for this block wait

AND HE FUCKING FINDS WHAT SASHAS REAL VOICE SOUNDED LIKE BECAUSE THE NOT!THEM CANT FUCK WITH THE OLD ASS CASSETTE TAPE RECORDERS . YK and thjen he accidentally. Releases the not them into the wild lmao but um thats a whole other story the point is we learn that sasha was not. sasha . yk anyway back to tim . s3 is so bad for him and he gets like fucking . depressed . now like theres the one whole thing with sasha (thjeres this one bit where hes like "i dont even know who im sad for" UUGHGHGHGHGH) BUT ALSO we learn that the stranger also got his younger brother danny !!! traumatizing fucking experience also why is the stranhger targeting Him Specifically . one of the reasons i hate the stranger its fucking EVIL also tim hates jon now ! and he has reason to anyway um . tim is fucking . hes Sad and going through all the stages of grief aND HE DOESNT EVEN FUCKING FINISH . BECAUSE HE DIES . IN THE UNKNOWING . well trying to stop it . and UUUHUHHGHJGHJHGHJHGJHGJHJHJKJHBGHJKJHJKJHGJKJHJJHNJKJHBJKJHBMKJHBJNMKJHBJHB a bit more on this topic when jon goes to get jonah magnus' ass in s5 he like fucking sits him down adn just like fucking goes "that was for tim" "that was for sasha" AND I WAS HHDHSMDSHJDSM and then the fucking "i dont want to die" "neither did they" I AUAYUGYUHFGJHHGCFJNKNHFGVGBHJNFGH AND DONT GET ME FUCKING S T A R T E D ON THE BIRTHDAY TAPE. anyway. um. dear god how did i get from alice to this . anyway . um . YES alice reminds us so much of tim and she even has a younger brother.,,, but yes she reminds us so much of timWHICH MAKES ME SO FUCKING. WORRIED. IM GOINg TO RUN INTO MY WALL AT FULL SPEED i am so worried :thumbsup: anyway. um. uh. this was it i think i am hgoing to go play bideo games now goodbye and remember that bones are a lie peddled by big milk to keep you buying

HKDSBKJFBMNVSDJFKDBKFJH INSANE. HI

"one of the reasons i hate the stranger its fucking EVIL" is a rly good sentence

ugh i kinda want to listen to tma now. yuor fault. affectionate

ANYWAYYYY augh tragedy fans when the tragedy tragedies

UM. this was rly good and fun to read. i dont have like. words to say about the content. but YEAG BLORBOS IN LAW YOU GO 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

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no salt to the tagger cuz ppl are just hangin out online and i doubt they mean any ill will but i always hate this sentiment cuz if you looked into the history of eva and the community, youd see how this sort of entitled behavior is exactly what made finishing eva so hard for him

this was him talking about the fans response to the end of the tv show

the man goes through a horrible depression, projects it into his work and it gets some attention, and this is how people responded cuz they didnt like the ending, it was with death threats and just absolutely hating on him

eva later goes to be a big hit, and rebuilds get made and theyre much more of a shonen action (like the first half of the show) and then people just kinda...fall into the same mindset, just not as angry but still lxke "were discrediting what you're doing"

eva only got completed cuz of his wife. the person who supported him every day and really pushed him to see eva through to the end, because she knew if he never finished it, it would haunt him the rest of his life. (edited to remove mari cuz my comments abt her were wrong lol)

people say they like eva for anno's self expression but i dont think they truly mean it. the treatment he gets by fans has always been so fickle and selfish. if eva is loved by the expression of humanity in it then i dont know how you can truly hate the rebuilds cuz its anno trying to move on

if i ever met anno the last thing i would ever mention was liking eva cuz at this point i wouldnt blame him if he hated the fans. he knows how quickly they can go from "i love your works" to "not MY eva"

i always remember it being harder than i expect it to be to find video of ramiels screams so heres a little compilation

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why are u tweaking over people expressing sympathetic comments about a character they like. yes they arent real but its very normal to experience sympathy/empathy for characters, especially in live action lol.

uhhhh alright long answer bc you did ask sooo nicely anon .. i didnt wanna tweak or anything ... i know this show helps a lot of people to just like survive (me included) and ig thats why everyone is so pissed off abt everything. its important !! i just believe we shouldnt spend so much time arguing abt things that the characters moved on from a long time ago and we should stop acting like the resolution to spns conflicts should be like the ones people go through irl

when people start going on and on abt how sam is deans victim and the show is wrong for making them move past that stuff or like its their responsibility to give sam a good life you are just not .. going anywhere? its a tv show and they are assholes and they do stupid violent things and hurt each other and dean hurts sam and yeah but they moved past it. why ignore what is convenient in the canon? dont you like the show? dont you like dean? can you like sam without liking dean? why shouldnt you like a character who sucks? and sam sucks too yk ... just in a less obvious way.

im saying this stuff bc i believed for a while that dean was like .. .an enemy yk? bc thats how some ppl talk abt him to uhh defend sam or whatever. the community is always changing and this trend will fade so i just want to give my opinion so we can reconsider our perspective of the show. bc dean people tend to be very annoying sam people got like angry abt it so its just a silly war but i dont think it feels nice to hate a character who defines one of the most important thing in my life, sam.

i think everyone is always hating and acting like the show sucks and there is nothing good in late seasons and thats not true, i just wish people stopped believing so much in fanon and out of context gifs so everybody could watch the show and have some fun

a lot of wincesties talk abt how d3stiel ppl ignore the canon and i agree. but to act like that is to ignore who sam is in the show and to just idealize him like so many ppl say dean does yk ...

and the empathy stuff. i get it !! i cry every time i think abt what they did to sam in s4 but even if its completely fair to feel sad abt it i think its silly to act like sam, the guy we love, didnt forgive dean. and yeah its not healthy. so what? in the shows rules, which are not the same as the real worlds rules, its okay

also sam had a life after deans death. and he missed him so much yk? thats the character. he is like that. when you resent everything dean did you ignore a part of sam bc he chose to be together with his brotherhusband !!! . look at them ! its amazing what this show did. and i think abt it now and i feel much happier than i felt back in my dean hating days

so yeah dean is very shitty and sam loves him and sam is shitty and they love to kill and burn the world for each other and hurt each other and learn !!!!!!!!!!!!! they learn !!!!!!!! lets just remember that dean does get better and the writers dont owe sam a normal life and that SAM does not want that anymore. he wants dean !

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Yap to me abt smth! Literally anything just tell me abt smth you enjoy! Go into as much detail and write as you want! Could be a sentence or an essay i rly dont mind :]

Imma yap about my ocs, specifically a side character I really love! (This is gonna be long so get your seatbelts ready lol.) Her names elley, and her entire story is about abandonment issues and how it can effect someone, badly most of the time, and how she still deserves love. How she's only human and learns that no one's going to leave her, growing as a character.

Basically it all starts when she's 7 years old and her brother is 4. Her & her dad are like this 🤞. Super close. But her & mom divorce, and soon she's heavily neglected by her mom. Elley believes she's the reason her dad left her, if only she didn't do XYZ then she would still be happy and not miserable.

She also has a best friend, Lucy. She's been with her through it all. And because of those 2 traumas, is scared that, if she doesn't do something to protect their friendship, she'll leave her.

A good example of this being her & bears dynamic.

Elley started a band with Lucy, it was just supposed to be the 2 of them but after a lot of pleading, elley gives in and let's bear join too. he's the drummer.

Whenever bear or Lucy would talk, elleys brain would be sent alarm bells and she'd get really anxious and start thinking that if she doesn't do anything, she's going to leave her. So she'd always be around them, watching like a hawk, and would start trying to push bear away from Lucy. Not outright mean but still pretty mean.

Bear, oddly enough, never takes any of that to heart and knows she probably can't control it, and is overly understanding.

One time they meet up by conwinsadence in town and hang out at a local Cafe. They actually get along, just fine and are... kinda friends. Even if the entire time elleys trying to hate him, which she can't.

One day though, Lucy finally works up the courage to tell elley off for this as polite & nicely as she can. Basically asking her to stop and that it's really mean and she doesn't like it and she wants to make new friends.

Elley, reluctantly agrees. She stops, she backs off. After that Lucy meets koia (the 2nd MC) who is the person she's been looking for, for a long time. Her long lost best friend.

The next couple of weeks Lucy slowly But surely (and unintentionally) starts blowing elley off and becomes really distant with her. She's completely hyperfixated on koia and having her friend back.

Elley, in reaction to this, sees the signs and... immediately thinks that she's losing her. That there's nothing she can do, she's leaving! That her worst fears came true. She stopped protecting their friendship and she left! She, left!

In a manic episode sorta way (ig?) She decides that, if shes leaving, she's having the final words. So when she sees her again at band practice, she EXPLODES! SHOUTING! SCREAMING! PROJECTING ALL OF HER HURT & INSECURITIES AT HER! TELLUNG YER SHES THE REASON SHES LIKE THIS! the others are there (ruby, bear, koia), and watch in horror as Lucy just stands there, frozen, and scared.

When elley stops, she realises she messed up, because Lucy's shaking and... crying? Lucy starts having a trauma response because she's been in a physical abusive relationship with a god for millennia. The one thing he always does before hitting her is screaming that she's the problem. That it's all her fault (even if it isn't.)

Elley looks at everyone. Ruby confused and angry, koia comforting Lucy, and bear... oh bear. He looks confused and... sad? Concured? It doesn't matter.

Elley runs away. She runs home and blows up at her mom when she's being a bitch (so all the time). It's very similar to what happened with her & Lucy.

She fully runs away now. Packing her bags and grabbing her skateboard (she skates btw), and leaves.

She finishes this episode, falling asleep on a public park bench when the sun's setting and its raining. She's hit rock bottom. She hates herself and thinks she deserves all of this. All of it.

When she wakes up, it's dark out. Only being illuminated by the streetlamp above her. She's also awoken by... wheels? Bear! Oh! Also bears disabled btw and uses a wheelchair.

He's found her is so releaved. To elleys confusion. Bear gives her an umbrella and walks her back to his place, to which his mom takes her in and helps her out.

She cleans elley for her as she's so tired she doesnt even have the energy but still wants to be cleaned. I also did that because of that one mitski song lol.

Afterwards she's sitting next to him on the couch watching TV when she asks why he did this. Why he didn't just leave her out there, like she thought he wanted to do because she's awful and deserves it, right?

Bear goes to explain now he genuinely loves her, that he's her friend and he couldn't just leave her out there. That he knew she messed up that day but that doesn't mean she deserves to be left out, homeless in the rain. No one deserves that fate.

Finally she cries into him and for the first time in a long time, believes it. Believes she's loved, Believes that maybe she didn't deserve that. That maybe one day she can go back home, but for now she's living her.

And it's just really sweet :3

Some more stuff happened but I'll stop it there.

Anyways yeah, love her! She's also very BPD coded, which was a total accident on my part lol but I hope ppl like that.

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f1 anon here! yall are so so sweet omg, ill cry rn. my current opinions on it are: i love mclaren and ferrari (what can i say, i love the color red). other than that i really dont even know what im talking abt, i really do just think its so fun to watch. at the end of the day i am a simple create, i like to see fast cars go fast. but please share and ramble abt your favs and your opinions, i would love to hear them!!

hi my love!! i’ve tagged you as 🏁 anon, so you can find all of your posts and responses in one place <3

oh you’re a girly with taste 😌 and that’s what it’s all about!! we like to see fast cars go fast <3

i’m about to ramble your fuckin socks off so be warned mwahahaha

mclaren are my favourite team!! it’s a funny one, because they’re so good to lando and oscar, were so good to carlos, but they treated danny so terribly. they’re definitely my number one team, 100%, but sometimes i do get a little angry when i think about what danny went through in a year there

I like the ferrari drivers - I don’t like ferrari as a team. or at least, I didn’t. fred vasseur (their new team principle) has come in and changed the game, which gives me hope. fuck mattia!! I just think… how are you the most successful team in the history of f1 but right now you have no strategy and no communication and a mess of a car etc etc. like how did we end up here

not huge on red bull as a team, but that’s probably because i’m not massive on checo or horner. but i adore maxie. i feel like we’d get along really well if we ever met. he’s such a complex personality but in the best way, and the most talented driver of his generation.

if I had to make a fave drivers list, it would probably look something like -

lando, maxie, daniel, carlos, charles, alex, oscar

alex mf albon!! he’s so underrated and we do not talk about him enough. he outperforms the car week after week. king shit <3

and lando is my number one, of course. we have a lot in common, and I think we’re pretty similar people. I do think I’d be able to make him laugh until he cried (not that it’s hard). he’s a ridiculously talented driver, which he’s proven again and again. he gets discredited because he’s never won, but it’s just an unfortunate coincidence that his best season coincided with maxies best season too. he’s always learning and experimenting, and other drivers have said that they watch his onboards to look at the lines he’s choosing etc etc, because he’s always pushing the limits. I cannot even describe to you how much I would love to watch him win this season.

and daniel, sweet daniel. he’s so bittersweet to watch, because he really did leave red bull thinking he’d find something better and then never found it. genuinely wouldn’t be surprised if he took checos seat next year. he’s so talented, and he’s been racing for such a long time, so it’d be nice to see him on the podium again soon. he just needs a rocketship of a car!! glad to see him back in a team that cares about him, though. he’s a ray of sunshine <3

I shall not ramble anymore… unless… 😌

anon, tell me your thoughts and faves and opinions, don’t let me talk your ear off anymore!!