#but it'll still cost me

[musicfeedsmysoul12]

Hey so… guess who had the worst fucking luck?

It me! No nothing was stolen, nothing was missing. I dont have anything in my car to steal and I use a seat belt lock after a car was stolen in my neighbourhood. I just walked outside to see this. Glass was inside and outside so who knows what happened?

But I can't really afford to replace it. My parents are willing to help but like I will still be in the red plus I haven't gotten full time hours for a while (and may not because my company sucks).

If anyone can donate anything I would be so thankful as I look for a full time job now that I'm graduated.

[anotherqueersnailowner]

Trans? Need a Name?

i will fucking name you hmu

Edit: istg y'all if you want a name ask for one via reblogs and at the very least tell me your gender or pronouns Im not scrolling through all the damn comments and looking at your bio looking for basic info names are reblog only from this point forward (& I probably won't get to it bc I never check my tumblr)

[talaricula]

my favourite activity is telling adults to Get The HPV Vaccine (Gardasil) Now Yes It's Still Useful

many of us were told as teenagers or young adults that you needed to get it before you became sexually active for it to be effective, but that's nonsense and weird cultural slutshaming.

the vaccine protects against 4 HPV strains, and it is very unlikely that you already have all four of them. each of those strains can cause cancer. even if you already had three strains it would still offer you protection against one cancer-causing viral strain. if you can financially afford it, there's no reason not to do it. it's a vaccine against cancer. that's nothing short of miraculous, and people who tell you it's too late to get it are relying on incorrect information, unless they have tested you for all strains and can prove you have them all.

obv get it if you have a cervix, but also get it if you don't! for two reasons:

These HPV strains also cause throat cancer when transmitted through oral sex, as well as anal and penile cancers

By vaccinating yourself you protect your sexual partners (regardless of whether or not they have a cervix) against getting HPV from you and thus against getting the associated cancers

[spiderman2-99]

Where should you be kissed?

Knuckles. it feels as though you have fought every day of your life. sometimes, you cannot even tell how much of the blood on your hands is your own... and how much comes from those who've tried to hurt those you defend. you deserve the gentleness of a kiss to your bruised knuckles and broken skin, a reminder that you are not only made of violence.

[stolen from templeofvengeance; tagging you]

[pompompurin1028]

I'm gonna flip a table at some point with all the universities asking for a English proficiency test for a masters in English

[nono-uwu]

Mentally preparing myself for the very real possibility of Crowley actually kicking the bucket via brain fry in the next chapters

Please god let me be wrong for once in my life

[kirishwima]

the dehumidifier cleans the air so well. helps my clothes dry faster. prevents mold. but at what cost. WHAT COST.

[graff-aganda]

My sample pins arrived!! 🤩👽🐰

The other three in the Summer Blubbin' set are drying bc the pinbacks came off with their rear protective sheets and I had to glue them back on. 😭 I'm pretty happy with their sizes overall! Bogos binted came out kind of large and the raygun came out kind of small by comparison though, so I'll probably see what I can do to fix them. And with the Blubby pins, I might lower the opacity of her blush, it printed kinda dark.

In addition to these I got a few extra designs for funsies. Some TMBG pins based off the Hotel Detective MV for my friends and I who are going to see them this year!! 🤩 One with that WTTH photo I did a redraw of, just for me. And two JFKs (Clone High) bc I thought they'd make funny collar pins hehe. I keep meaning to watch the new season but I want to watch the original again first... hard to find the time!!

[caterpillarinacave]

well this sucks

[beesinspades]

how do you find a job when

you have no proper experience

you have no diplomas

you have no training in anything

you don't have a driving license

you need your job to be part-time but they're harder to find

you need your job to involve as little contact with customers as possible

you need a job that doesn't require you to take/make phonecalls

you have rejection sensitivity that makes you want to cry and sends you in a spiral of anxiety at the slightest negative remark from both colleague and client, even if they're not being mean about it

you have undiagnosed adhd which makes you unable to take up any training/studies because you just can't get yourself to start something that you're not deeply interested in, and even then it can still be a struggle to focus on learning/studying because your brain just Doesn't Want To no matter how much you do

you are terrified of the plague but no one else gives a shit anymore and you're too chicken to stand up for yourself over wanting to mask amongst people who will either straight up not allow it or make you feel shitty/weird for it

honestly i feel like i could've figured something out with the program the unemployment office is putting me in, i really think it could help me, but then worldwide plague denial happened, so even that program is scary and stressful now :)

the dream would be an entirely remote part-time job but they're much less common in my country, and when there's one I'm not qualified and the amount of tasks to do makes me feel super overwhelmed

[am-alien]

have cursed myself by being ambitious and trying to impress the wrong people

[starlit-mansion]

As difficult as it can be, if you haven't tied your livelihood or personal brand to a franchise in some way, i think it's best to cultivate a willingness to disengage from installments of an ongoing property that disappoint and upset you.

it's hard. ime, it's more energizing to hate on something that makes a mockery of your beloved. but like. idk to me, it feels like holding onto a cursed sword. it's more effective. but more draining. it disincentives putting it down the more you use it.

it's hard to tell with mixed installments where you like some parts and hate others, and god knows there's like a million memes about how good stuff gets a 'nice' before moving on and mediocre stuff that didnt live up to its promise inspires the most passionate fanbases in the world. but staying in a fandom while actively hating the current material is a terrible space for me and makes me feel worse about the time i spent on it and my own inability to let go and accept the end. if i'm at the point where i can only enjoy fanworks and not the thing itself, then i brought her back wrong and she was better dead.

ymmv tho.

[altruistic-meme]

how dare they steal my car and not even tell me what's wrong

[k2ulhu]

officially less than 150 days until I see metallica 1400 miles away and I do not have money, a job, a car, or a license, loud noises and being close to people give me panic attacks, bright lights and the smell of marijuana give me migraines, I am very afraid of fire, I haven't stayed in a hotel in over 6 years, I've left the house less than a dozen times since covid started, I got less than 5 hours of sleep every single day of february,

[jaydenism]

I would love to see what your hypothetical Kanade crash out would look like ngl (you don't need to draw for this if you don't want to a text explanation would still be awesome)

ok soooo this isn't exactly the crashout but rather building up to it i guess :P

the rest of this post is gonna be rambling and predictions ⬇️

alright this ask enabled me, im gonna just dump all my thoughts as of now on what's to come for kanade's story :) i could end up being completely wrong, but hey im just theorizing and having fun here while i wait very impatiently lol

To start, I don't think kana5 will be on the scale of mizu5 (i mean i might be biased but idk if anything will come close to that level of insanity again), mainly because there hasn't been as much build-up to a breaking point. Kanade's issues have been pushed aside (by herself especially) and not heavily focused on up to this point in the story. There hasn't been any increasing tension for things to reach a climax yet. Having her big break be in this next event would be too sudden and sort of unprecedented. For this event at least, I highly doubt that'll be the case. Instead, I think this event will start to touch on Kanade's buried issues more, and begin building that tension for something bigger. I can see this being a multiple event arc, similar to the events leading up to the climax of Mafuyu's story. Summarizing that, yes I think Kanade's got some real tough shit ahead of her, but that's why this won't be a one-off event story. I think it'll just be the beginning.

That being said, to touch more on my predictions for kana5 itself, I think Kanade will start to slip, and the others, Mafuyu especially, will take notice. I can't really predict anything specific, but I think something will happen that will make her question her ability to save people, or cause her to be harder on herself, as she has in the past, to keep composing persistently, neglecting her own needs and health. However, things are different now than they were before niigo. She has more people around her that will be able to see the damage she's doing to herself. But she also knows they all look up to her, and that her music lifts them up. She knows they all have a lot they're dealing with, and she needs to be there for them. She can't let them down.

Then, when Kanade pushes herself past her limits at the cost of her well-being, what will she do then? She meets with the others on nightcord every night, and Mafuyu is living at her place. She won't be able to rot away by herself anymore without people noticing. But she still feels this need to be the group's rock and to be the one to save everyone, so she'll try her damn hardest to prevent the others from worrying about her. She'll shoot down their attempts at trying to talk about it. I think she might be especially stubborn this time around, and it might cause niigo to have to figure out a way to help Kanade, since they won't be able to get through to her at first.

Kanade has shown in the past to get uncharacteristically aggressive when she's pushing herself too hard, as shown above. She starts to take on everything herself, and snaps at anyone who tries to stop her. I think this side of her will be shown more going forward, as she begins to go down this kind of self-destructive path yet again. At least, that's where I think her story will go. Her tendency to work herself to the bone hasn't really been resolved, and she's gone so far with it before to end up in the hospital after passing out. She doesn't care what happens to her, as long as she can save people. The only reason she has ((slightly)) gotten better at taking care of herself is so that she can be able to keep composing without ending up in the hospital again. Not because she cares about her health. Because she must keep composing. She still only does the bare minimum for herself. If it's her cooking, she's only having instant ramen, and most days she's probably not going to see the sun. She still doesn't sleep much, and Mafuyu has said that she's often falling asleep at her computer.

This might be getting a little rambley atp, but my point is that Kanade neglects her own needs in her determination to save others. I mentioned how she neglects her physical health in the last paragraph, but she also neglects her own feelings as well.

She minimizes her own problems or just doesn't even talk about them. I think she truly believes that her problems don't matter, that they only distract her from her goals. The reason she doesn't open up is likely because she herself doesn't believe her feelings are important at all. She doesn't pay them any mind, and she doesn't want anyone else to either.

Of course, I have to bring this card up. I think this is just a perfect visual representation of Kanade's feelings, and it's great foreshadowing for what's to come. Those feelings are buried deep within Kanade, yet to be addressed or solved. THIS is what we're getting into. Kanade, depicted as an angel, surrounded by death. I think this is related to her guilt surrounding what happened to her father, believing it was her fault. That she destroyed everything. But because of that incident, she told herself she has to keep composing, and never stop, in order to save people. She feels like she owes that much, and that that's her sole purpose. She won't allow herself to think otherwise. No matter how much it destroys her, she must be a savior for others.

Last thing I wanted to add, because I saw this reblog under a prev kanade analysis post, and they brought up great points. Especially how dangerous Kanade's composing grind can get. We wouldn't even have a story if Honami hadn't found Kanade unconscious!!! I think she might get to a really low point again like this, but having Mafuyu there especially, it won't be able to go unnoticed. I don't have much else to add to those tags though cus they speak for themselves 🙏

Finally, just real quickly going back to the little comic I drew, this is just a rough idea of how I think Kanade could act. She'll get noticeably worse, but will try to hide that fact from the others and deny any help from them. I also mentioned that I think we could see more aggression from her again, so I included that, as she feels threatened in a way by Mafuyu worrying about her. She can't let that happen. Also, Kanade's impending doom aside, I think this progression in the story may also spark some change in Mafuyu. She might show some more emotion in this or future events, and she may realize how much Kanade means to her, motivating her to do more for her. I think it'll be a full group effort to save Kanade, but I wanna see Mafuyu taking a bigger role in this. I just think this also has the potential to grow Mafuyu's character more.

Also, as for the Kanade crashout, I really don't know how they'll handle that. I can't really predict what they're gonna do with her climax. But I want her screaming yelling and crying !!! like she better go insaneeee 🙏 and I also feel like they have a lot of potential with her seiyuu/VA and stepping out of the soft quiet voice to do some crazy shit, maybe in the songs too pls pls pls give us loud kanadeeee

OKAY THATS ENOUGH YAPPING its 5 am i havent slept....

[mischievouslittlecreature]

I am campaigning so damn hard to get carpets put into this fucking basement so I don't have a Raynaud's flare up and have to bundle myself in 10,000 layers every time it snows.