#but it’s not true

[sapphosclown]

Cynthia didn’t want to talk about why she bailed on the play. She’s her fathers daughter, she grew up with basically four older brothers, feelings are not something she talks about, they’re not something anybody is supposed to know except for herself. As soon as she sees the pink ladies at her door, she goes to shut them down. She’s supposed to be alone, these are just some girls anyway, they don’t care about her.

Except they do. They push themselves inside despite her protests. That’s new. No one has ever pushed so hard to be there for her. But they are, and they’re listening. She said she doesn’t wanna talk, they said okay! They said let’s just chill and watch TV and be fucking happy for once.

That’s when Cynthia realizes she finally has friends.

They’re not the girls in her class who bullied her for grass stained skirts, they’re not the boys who- despite growing up together- disregard her constantly, they’re not her father offering her a beer when he doesn’t know what to say, and they’re not just the girl gang of Rydell. They’re friends. They notice her, they hear her, they want to be there for her.

Cynthia doesn’t talk about her feelings, but she knows she has people to lean on. That’s all she’s ever wanted anyway.

[amorhedera6]

stephanie lauter may not be a nerd, but i’ve decided she’s still a fandom girlie bc im in control. she likes parks and recreation more than the office bc she doesn’t like cringe comedy, but she can appreciate the writing on the office. she listens to audiobooks while doing other things bc she can’t focus on physical books and she doesn’t like podcasts. true crime doesn’t scare her or put her on edge, but she thinks it’s unsettling to turn the people who were treated horribly into entertainment. she likes the hunger games for what it calls out in society and listens to the audiobooks often like a favorite song. she likes fleetwood mac, obviously, and 70s rock like that, but also 90s angry girl music. paramore, bikini kill. she likes sabrina carpenter and was willing to go down fighting all the people hating on her in the sour-era. she loves movie musicals. greatest showman, mamma mia!, grease. her favorite princess was always tiana and she will fight to the death about it. she likes history class the best, even if she isn’t the best in any of her classes, and was at one point in her life totally hyperfixated on the enlightenment and all the ideas they had and discussed. she loves art from the renaissance and can’t draw or paint at all. she did when she was a kid and her dad told her that they weren’t any good so she stopped. but she knows tons of art history fun facts. she watches video essays about tv shows and movies she’s never even watched. she loves letterboxd. she’s a cool girl but she still makes pinterest boards for her favorite movies.

[tiredofsatansbullshit]

i don’t know if it’s because of the weather being cold or lack of social interactions, but holy shit my mood has gone so downhill this past week

[selectivechaos]

you are a good burden.

i recently had a flashback in front of people i’m close to. they had to care for me. and it brought back all the feelings of insecurity and social anxiety that, years ago, had led me to socially withdraw, cutting myself off from everyone i was friends with.

this recent incident just made me feel like i was broken again. like i burdened and scared everyone around me. i considered telling them that. because i made sense in my head. it made sense that i was worthless, that my existence was embarrassing and burdensome, that i was awkward and annoying to be around. i considered ending these new friendships, and avoiding everyone, because of one flashback.

but the thing is: i didn’t. and i’m so proud of myself for that. my therapist has been helping me realise that my friends trust me. they’ve shared their traumas with me, and i have taken care of them when they were upset. it wasn’t a burden to me; it was an honour, to care for someone so amazing who clearly didn’t deserve to be feeling so sad. they were good burdens.

if my friends can trust me, and let me care for them. then maybe i can trust them, and let them care for me. maybe that’s alright. maybe i’m not a burden. maybe i’m not broken.

see yourself through the eyes of those who love you most. 🌹🌹

[lacewise]

The damage done by academics who don’t communicate with craftspeople because “they know better” cannot be overstated

[andisupreme]

At the company retreat, one extremely drunk girl asked what my pronouns were. (Eventually, it took her a while to word the question.) After the whole conversation was done, she goes- "YEAHHH GURL, Get on with--with THY bad self! See what I did?? They/them/thy."

I was almost holding back tears from trying not to laugh as I told her yes that's great you nailed it honey. Thank you very much I am feeling the love.

Anyway I've been assigned Thee/Thine at Supportive Drunk Girl

[nikoisme]

I hate it when people ask me what genre of music i listen to because i genuinely have no clue. It's called Music I Like genre. The best genre out there

[jessepinwheel]

I love it when people use "shrimp" to mean "beyond the human range". like "shrimp colors" but applied to other things. "shrimp emotions" "shrimp sounds" "shrimp morality", as if shrimp are living some kind of transcendent existence that humans can never comprehend

[willabee]

[roach-works]

speculative fiction writers i am going to give you a really urgent piece of advice: don't say numbers. don't give your readers any numbers. how heavy is the sword? lots. how old is that city? plenty. how big is the fort? massive. how fast is the spaceship? not very, it's secondhand.

the minute you say a number your readers can check your math and you cannot do math better than your most autistic critic. i guarantee. don't let your readers do any math. when did something happen? awhile ago. how many bullets can that gun fire? trick question, it shoots lasers, and it shoots em HARD.

you are lying to people for fun. if you let them do math at you the lie collapses and it's no fun anymore.

[animusrox]

"You Missed the Point by Idolizing Them" Starter Pack

[androgynealienfemme]

It didn’t hit me until recently that people genuinely think Kamala Harris was a police officer because of all the people who call her a cop online.

Like I think maybe it’s important people should know she was a prosecutor. She was once a district attorney and later an attorney general for the state of California. And we can discuss how related that is to police work and how tied she is to the carceral system etc etc (but for fairness would have to include her record of pushing for lowering incarceration rates through programs helping former prisoners + her office refusing to jail folks for low level weed offense). But she was never a police officer. Like people should get that clear. Kamala Harris was never a police officer. She was a district attorney. She was never a police officer.

[chongoblog]

Me, after forgetting to cut the top off an onion before dicing it: “Aw dammit”

The Gordon Ramsey that lives in my head: “Don’t worry there, this mistake isn’t going to ruin anything. No need to be too hard on yourself”

Me: “Wow, that’s…not what I was expecting”

Gordon: “Of course, you ought to know by now that I don’t shout at cooks just to do so. I do it because the people in hit television show Kitchen Nightmares are putting their services out into the public and claim to be good enough to have the title of head chef. You’re just some guy in your twenties making beef stroganoff for yourself and your roommate. I’m kind of a dick, yeah, but I’m not gonna scream at you for a minor mistake like this”

Me: “Oh….well…thanks”

Gordon: “You’re welcome…cunt…”

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[hellmandraws]