#but it’s fucking expensive in California
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Imagine knowing Geto Suguru, one of the most respected and powerful sorcerers of the world. Imagine, being his monkey human pet. I wanna think Geto would have a Madonna-Whore complex when it comes to non-sorcerers. Sorcerers are too pure and valuable for him to fuck the way he wants, the only option left is non-sorcerers, like you, to take the brunt of his sexual frustration.
“Priestesses are supposed to be clean. Cleaner than the rotten and dirty masses yet here you are.” All you could do was moaning and gasp as Geto was pounding your pussy into the ground. You wore a priestess robe that were bound to be defiled and torn by the time Geto is done.
“Your kind is filthy, dirtying up the world with your cursed energy.” All you could do is moan as his cock hit the right spots in your pussy. Your arms were tied to the bed post, to make sure you didn’t defile Geto with your dirty hands.
“Did you enjoy watching me making her cum with my mouth?” Geto always forced you watch as he pleased other women. Of course, the female sorcerer had no idea that you were watching Geto eat out her pussy through the monitors in your room. Could it even be called a room? It was more like a golden cage. Your prison cell was decorated in a European style, with a large California King bed, the bed had heavy velvet covers. You always had 3 meals a day and they were always served on golden platters. Geto always chose what you ate, some days it would be surf-n-turf, a large steak and lobster tail. Other days it was traditional Japanese food. Sometimes sushi. Other days it was only sweets for the entire day, this only happens when Geto was in a very good mood. Usually it would be his “daughters” trying out a new sweets place and him deciding to make you try everything they did. He surprisingly has a sweet tooth.
“God- Please!!” “Yes pray to me, you filthy monkey!” His thick cock took you over the edge as you gushed all over the sheets under the two of you. How many times have you came today? You couldn’t even count. You were sore. Your neck sore from his hands strangling you, your pussy sore from his seemingly unlimited stamina, and your wrists from the bondage. He took his cock out of you, you tiredly glanced at it, it was still hard. He didn’t cum once yet… But you were so tired already… You hated when he kept going regardless of your soreness, you hated having to take days to recover from him. “With such a cute face-“ He stood from the bed and moved up to your face, he was jerking his thick cock in his hands. “-I would think you’d be human but you’re nothing more than a filthy monkey!” You closed your eyes and felt his hot cum splatter all over your face. His cum dripped from your cheek onto the expensive sheets under you.
“Aw… the monkey made the bed dirty. Don’t worry, I’ll just burn the sheets after you rest.” Geto smirked. This was humiliating…
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100k is still unquestionably fucking upper middle class for a HOUSEHOLD not even a single person in the bay area btw these people are fucking insane 😭😭
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My Shaylaaaa!!!
#California is on fire#the number 1 cause of death for minors is gun violence#the kkk feel comfortable showing themselves#health care is too expensive and people are dying#people are starving and homeless#but let’s ban an app#fuck the us government#united states of america#united states#USA Supreme Court#TikTok ban#tik tok#tiktok#tik tok ban#supreme court#ramen-flavored#USA
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okay, i'll tag this one so you can find it.
to the anons and commenters: thanks for your responses. that was a fun thing to see.
to watcher: can't wait to see what you do when you don't have advertisers looming over you! super excited for what comes next.
the the fans who have left racist comments on steven's posts: what the fuck is wrong with you?
to all the fans of watcher: i am politely bowing out of this one. i'm pretty sure you guys already hate me anyway, or at least the comments and anons have made it seem that way.
#watcher#watcher tv#shane madej#ryan bergara#ghoul boys#steven lim#buzzfeed unsolved#this situation is odd to me.#people are acting like they invented the idea of paywalling#as if dropout.tv doesn't exist#or as if streaming services don't already offer exclusive shows and charge 20 bucks a month for them#people are also acting as if they dont want to make content theyre proud of without the fear of not getting paid this week#they may have money but they live in california. it's expensive as fuck to live in my tiny town in indiana let alone LA#as a content creator myself i want to make content i'm proud of without having to worry if this is what gets the youtube gods angry at me
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every time i think it's expensive to live in the dc metro area my california mutuals keep me humble
#me: housing is incredibly expensive over here it's fucking 400k to buy a condo#me: my gf's rent is over $1700 for a one bedroom#california mutuals: $400k can get you a shitty shack in sf and $1700 is my rent when i share a 3 bedroom with roommates#me: 😐#personal
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I need to move some where that has lots of trees. mountains too.
#sigh#if Tennessee wasn't so transphobic i would move there#i love Tennessee#and Colorado too#i woulf move to Colorado but it's expensive#ig california is too which would be my first pick purely for it being more left#but also again california is expensive. and warm. and desert.#i can't with deserts i would go insane due to lack of seasons.#if i wasn't trans and disabled i would have a lot better choices with where to live it feels like#wherever i go it's gotta have good healthcare#I'm sick of being in a state that's so bad at healthcare#i don't particularly like driving over 30 minutes to see my GP who actually believes my problems#and is actually fucking helpful and has in house testing so i can get my results faster.
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Just delighted to discover that "been very emotional about things/ stomach has been very fucked for the last week" is yet AGAIN a result of finasteride really hating me and I'm probably gonna have another surgery 🙃🙃
#and I just booked a very expensive trip to California#fuck it I can die with my debt#good fucking morning to you too universe I hate your guts
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Days like these I wished I had my own place
#but noooo everything is so fucking expensive#and unaffordable in Southern California#just want to be left alone and have some peace and quiet#text
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lost my stupid dumb ass fucking idiot vape
#what u must also understand is i dropped my wallet the night before moving had to go pick it up with my parents that day forgot my keys#mid moving which was just annoying but we made it work but then also in an attempt to hide the pen from my dad for whatever fuck ass reason#lost it apparently not finding it in any bag or whatever and it’s FINE!!!!!!!! i don’t care im normal.#more annoyed than anything it was 2g and one of my last bigger expenses lmfao#abby talks#also i need an adhd test. whatever#also i did not vape before going to california bc i think it looks lame but if u had my prof you’d understand.
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It is sooo depressing to move from Colorado to Texas I'm applying for jobs for next semester and they're like 'yeah we're so cool we'll pay you $10 an hour" and I'm like I could make double that at Home Depot here bad bad kill
#rehks rants#texas has no fucking right to have such a low minimum wage#it isn't nearly as expensive as Colorado or California but it's not 7.25 worthy
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if you're seriously laughing and giggling at the wildfires because you think California is exclusively populated by rich celebrities you're a fucking moron and an asshole btw
#*felix.txt#I have family in California and they're pretty much Broke+ but you're gonna laugh at their expense?#my sister's been working two jobs her entire life. my cousin's been freelance for years#they could die. their pets could die. my sister was celebrating her birthday and all she could talk about#was how she was worried about flying home because they have three pets#and might only be able to fly two of them out of the fires#go fuck yourselves. if I see that shit on my dash one more time you're blocked
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There was that one Reddit post that was like “I just realized you can actually make hundreds of thousands a year, what the fuck am I doing, I gotta go back to school NOW”
and it made me think about how the job I’m doing is something I love but I only made $12k last year and most of that was spent on gas and food and vet bills and programming supplies for work that my work’s budget couldn’t afford
and then I got a raise in January which was great! and I’m supposed to get promoted this year in august and it’ll be a really good promotion that will double my income !!!
but that’s still not really enough to sustainably live on
so I have to go back to school for my masters so I can get a librarian job that’ll pay $60k/year hopefully and I got accepted for a 25-week certificate program (woo!!) so from there starting in January I can go for my masters officially
so Yknow 2 years from now when I have that degree fingers crossed I’ll be a real librarian but then I think about how there are still people who make double that. Triple that. Quadruple that.
And I feel nauseous.
Because while I’m working towards 60k, I’ll be making $15k and then maybe hopefully possibly $30k, and all the while there are ceos making $200 or $300 or $400k and I don’t know if what they do is as meaningful as library work yknow but idk idk idk
So now I am looking for a second job in the meantime right.
And I found some that pay twice what I’m making now in the publishing industry as proofreaders.
And it’s really hit me that I could make my promotion’s annual salary in 6 months of work.
If I was in a different industry my bachelor’s degree would be worth, income-wise, that of my hypothetical master’s.
And Yknow you see that 54% of American adults can only read and comprehend up to a 6th grade level and you see teachers and libraries so underfunded that your staff members are making pennies and can’t afford to live in the area they serve and it’s so disheartening and not even surprising that the literacy rates are so low and keep dropping
And I don’t even know where I’m going with this I’m just frustrated and sad and anyways fingers crossed I get an interview at one of these publishing places I applied to tonight idek I need more money
#this is rambly I’m sorry I’m just. feelin it now mr krabs#I had a lady complain to me because she was upset that taxes in our state make it ‘too expensive to own two houses here’#because she wanted a house in the city and a house on the coast#and ‘because of that tax rate she had to buy a beach house in California instead’#and she complained about this to me for 15 minutes#and I’m standing there like. lol. I can’t even afford a fucking apartment at my current income level.#once I get promoted I will almost certainly be moving an hour away from where I work. so that I can be out of my parents place.#and she evidently makes enough that she can have two different multimillion dollar homes on opposite sides of the country#and she’s COMPLAINING ABOUT IT#like the fucking wealth disparity here#like why am I in this fucking industry#because I like it? is that a good enough reason?#I want to be part of the positive impact on the lives of the people who come in#I want to help people#but is it fucking worth it???#I care so much about making a third space between work and home and libraries are vital to the health and wellness of a community#and I’m so passionate about it#it means so much to me#but my mental health is crashing because I’m stuck in my parents place and can’t afford fo move out#is it fucking worth it. is it worth it. I’m not sure anymore.#if you asked me a few months ago I would’ve said yes.#but then I got back to wanting to kill myself. so.#I don’t know i don’t know I don’t know I’m sorry for rambling I’m going insane I’m sorry lmao#delete later#vent post#L writes
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And they don't mention that the adobe is turning back into sand so the structure basically needs to be completely teared down as it's not salvageable
I still love New Mexico real estate listings. They’re like “This iconic adobe structure was built in 1843. There is an abandoned flooded silver mine in the back yard. This home served as a brothel, saloon, general store, post office and military base during the Mexican-American War. The abandoned silver mine in the backyard is infested with vampire bats somehow, you’re not allowed to fill it in because scientists are will studying it. The house was remodeled in the 1970s when archeological excavation of the silver mine revealed it had been the dumping site of a serial killer who was active between 1896 and 1901. Three luxurious bathrooms, 5 spacious bedrooms and a lovely courtyard. Billy the Kid stayed here during the Lincoln County War and reportedly haunts the property. In addition to the vampire bat infestation, there are a number of poisonous spiders inhabiting the mine, do not go in the mine. We cannot warn you away from the mine enough. Otherwise, a fantastic property with so much history and so few malicious entities inhabiting the structure and land. $2.3 million dollar asking price.”
#i live in New Mexico#i have seen this first hand#and fucking Californians are buying out the residents to the point we cant buy houses#as its cheap by California standards but expensive and often over asking for New Mexicans#and is sold in days#if not same day often#its bullshit
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“The golden age of America begins right now” my dude groceries are expensive and will not get cheaper overnight.
“We will be the envy of every nation” we’re not. And will not be.
Just. Eugh.
“A tide of change is sweeping over the country.” Sure is. That is correct observation.
“We now have a government that cannot manage a single issue from home” YOU MISMANAGED COVID?
YOU ARE BRING UP IMMIGRANTS NOW??
“They don’t have a home anymore. That’s interesting.” Those rich people have second and third homes and can always afford more. Shut the fuck up. If you care about people care about the people who cannot afford such things.
“I was saved by god to make America great again.” I cannot stress enough how much I dislike any god that could’ve sent this man to us.
“Meet every crisis with dignity, power and strength.” Remember when you sharpied on the path of a hurricane.
LIBERATION DAY??? FROM WHAT???
“Most consequential election…” yeah. Sure. Sure is.
Oh no not the historic executive orders— COMMON SENSE???
Declaring a national emergency at our southern border (and receiving standing ovation for it), beginning the process of deportations for “criminals” and sending troops to our border. Which. Surely won’t escalate violence at all.
I’m not familiar with this illegal aliens act from the 1700s but I fear I’m about to be very aware about it. I cannot imagine this is anything good.
DRILL BABY DRILL??? THATS GONNA SOLVE THE NATIONAL ENERGY EMERGENCY?? YOURE SHITTING ME.
“We will be a rich nation again, and it will be—
ENDING THE GREEN NEW DEAL, USING THE OIL UNDER OUR FEET WHILE CALIFORNIA BURNS. Fucking hell.
“We will tariff and tax foreign countries to enrich our citizens.” Somehow. I don’t believe that will enrich us.
Establishing the ERS and DOGE. Ough.
And he’s gonna bring back free speech while criticizing Seth Meyers for poking at him….. and he’s gonna stop political persecution. Yeah sure. Sure. Sure sure sure.
SOCIALLY ENGINEER RACE AND GENDER INTO PUBLIC AND PRIVATE PLACES?? THAT WAS HAPPENINGG.
It’s official policy. Only Male and Female. It’s really going to be official policy. Oh my fucking god. From a party that denies climate change. Oh my fucking god. I’m nonbinary and that’s about to be a fucking challenge.
“The wars we never get into.” Didn’t we worry about ww3 last time?
“That’s what I wanna be, a peacemaker and unifier.” YOURE NOT. YOU ARE NOT.
WHY ARE YOU CHANGING THE GULF OF MEXICO??
“foolishly given to the country of Panama” ITS ON THEIR LAND AND THEY CONTROL IT?? HELLO??? Yet China is operating the Panama Canal???
“As we liberate our nation” from WHAT. What are you liberating us from!?
“Pursue our manifest destiny” didnt that genocide natives— PLANT A FLAG ON MARS?
Yeah no this entire speech has been. A little concerning to say the least. And it just keeps going and going.
“Full of compassion, courage, and exceptionalism.” You are the least compassionate person here. Please.
I just. Don’t feel great after that. Hm.
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iwaizumi got a lower back tattoo on his 21st birthday.
if you showed one hundred people in the street a photo of 30-year-old hajime, and then surveyed them as to whether or not they think he has a lower back tattoo, it's unlikely more than one of them would say yes—and even the one who did probably just misheard the question. it's as unbelievable a thought as any, and still somehow it's true.
he was 21, legally drunk for the first time in america, and hanamaki and matsukawa had finally come to california to visit him to mark the occasion. it was kind of a stupid trip, they realized afterwards, because issei and hiro were still only 20 and couldn't even go out to the bars near UC irvine that all of iwa's college friends were inviting him out to for the first time.
but he didn't mind.
he bought them beer and sugary canned cocktails from the convenience store near campus using the birthday money his nanay sent him, silently repenting in his mind as the store clerk in the polyester vest rang the expensive purchase through. then they all got drunk in iwa's tiny student apartment while they played video games, called oikawa, and eventually wandered out into the warm california night in search of food.
the details beyond that are fuzzy, but the lines inked into the little space at the bottom of hajime's spine are not—even after nine whole years.
most people have no idea about the tattoo—and hajime has gone to great lengths to keep it that way. he wears a compression t-shirt at the gym so there's no risk of it riding up and accidentally revealing it. he orders patches to conceal it on the rare occasion he goes to onsens. he never showers with the athletes at work, always either opting to shower at home, shower after the team, or use the staff facilities when available.
but in spite of all of that, he's not embarrassed of it.
he doesn't even really regret it.
it's just not anybody else's business.
the ink on his skin is a secret kept between him, matsukawa, hanamaki, the guy who tattooed him, and oikawa who was screaming on facetime in the background while it happened.
and now you, too.
your hand snakes up the back of hajime's sweatshirt as he stands at the stove preparing breakfast, cool fingertips tracing the curls of ink even without seeing them—having long mapped them to memory. hajime suppresses a shiver, not expecting the contact, as you crowd yourself closer to his back and lean your weight against him.
"i was trying not to wake you," he says quietly, the hand not holding the chopsticks he's flipping his omelette with reaching behind him in search of you.
"you didn't," you murmur into his back, catching his seeking hand in yours and twining your fingers together. "smelled food."
hajime laughs to himself, his eyes crinkling. he squeezes your fingers tightly as his heart thuds in his chest.
underneath his sweatshirt, your nails rake lightly against his skin.
"shouldn't i be making your breakfast?"
hajime transfers his omelette to the plate waiting beside the stove, flicking off the burner and then turning to face you. he wraps his arms around you and holds you properly now, your face burrowing into the collar of his hoodie the way you always do, his nose brushing your temple.
"wanted to let you sleep a bit longer," hajime grunts out, his cheeks burning a bit hot—still shy, sometimes, even after so much time has passed. "thought you might be tired after..."
you snort, your head popping up to look at him. "after you fucked me within an inch of my life into the wee hours of the morning?"
the fire burning under hajime's skin grows even hotter. he splutters a little, and struggles to meet your gaze.
"i'm not tired," you whisper, a mischievous smile tugging at your lips. the incorrigible one he fell in love with. "we were celebrating, after all."
hajime's eyes are burning a little bit, to complement the stinging in his cheeks. you lift your hand up to his face so you can feel the heat of his skin, and he rests his own hand—larger, more calloused than your own—to rest overtop of it. he looks at you, and sees happiness reflected back at him in your gaze. so fathomless he thinks he could drown in it.
hajime turns his face into your touch, and his eyes flutter closed as he noses against your palm.
he presses a kiss there. soft. adoring.
then another, just slightly higher, to the ring he put on your finger the night before.
he peeks at you again, that same heat in his cheeks, though not nearly as unbearable.
he's got another secret he doesn't regret now, one just as permanent as the ink in his skin, but this one won't stay hidden long. eventually he'll call his parents, and his nanay will probably get teary. then he'll tell his friends, who will put his mother's tears to shame. he'll leave the tattoo artist out of it this time, though—wherever that guy is now.
"happy birthday, hajime," you whisper to him with a smile he can't help but return.
he might keep this secret between the two of you today, though. just for a little while longer.
it'll be his gift to himself.
#lmao i had this idea but didn't write it in time for his actual bday#happy (belated) birthday hajime the man that you are#iwaizumi x reader#iwaizumi hajime x reader#hq drabbles#hq writing#writing
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best friends mom ambessa? perchance? love ur fics 🤍
⋆ you made me crazy, you made me wild.

best friend's mother!ambessa x curvy!f!reader. men & minors dni.
synopsis: a psychic once told you you'd have the kind of love that would mark you for the rest of your life. did it have to be with your best friend's mother?
cw: milf!bessa, age difference, older woman/younger woman, modern au, you and mel are best friends, long rich people vacations, curvy!reader, reader is implied to be a woc but you can still read regardless, forbidden love, sneaking around, vaping bc i have an oral fixation however i have never once smoked i just like the vibe i fear, non-sexual intimacy, vaginal sex, vaginal fingering, overstimulation (bessa!receiving, r!recieving), multiple orgasms, tribbing, cunnilingus (bessa!receiving), you go to town on her my god, squirting (bessaaaa does it), tender sex, floor sex, manhandling, light angst, friendship breakups, angst with a happy ending.
notes: perchance is killing me. thank you so much for being so sweet mami. hope you enjoy. also, don't vape kids!
you and mel haven't spoken in three weeks.
the thought sits heavy in your chest as you perch on the window seat of your boutique, one leg tucked beneath you, the other dangling lazily. your cream silk camisole rides up your belly, catching on the velvet cushions behind you. outside, venice beach awakens like a lioness stretching in the sun, all languid and golden.
the brass bell above your door chimes softly in the morning breeze. your fingers find your vape – a delicate thing of gold, engraved with climbing roses – and bring it to your lips in a motion as natural as breathing.
the sweet ghost of vanilla mango curls around you like a familiar lover. you've always needed something between your lips, a fact that amuses your friends and once made ambessa raise an eyebrow in that way that sent heat flooding through your body.
the recent mornings have been sadder and slower than most, though objectively one wouldn’t be able to tell. you keep waking in fits, your body heavy with mourning. your reflection in the shop window shows what you've become in her absence: curves nestled in vintage, mussed hair tumbling past your shoulders, lips stained the color of crushed berries.
a crystal pendant nestles in the soft valley between your breasts, and your rings catch the light as you fidget with the hemline of your denim cutoffs. there's nothing calculated about your appearance today – no performance or intention. it's as honest as you can muster this morning.
the wooden floor creaks beneath your bare feet as you move to arrange a display of moonstone rings. your own fingers are adorned with gold bands, each one telling a story of who you were before that summer in england. before mel, before her mother and that library with its leather-bound books and muggy afternoons, before you watched her, endeared as she peered at her phone with those sunglasses perched on the top of her head.
before you realized that the soft animal of your body had found its home in the worst fucking lineage alive.
your phone lights up again – another message from mel. her name on the screen sends a fresh wave of guilt through you, but not regret. never regret. not about the way her mother’s hands felt on your waist in the conservatory, not about the first kiss that tasted of chlorine and whiskey, not even about the screaming match that ended with you on a plane back to california.
you take another long drag from your vape, watching the morning light fracture through hanging crystals into rainbow patterns across your skin. the salt air mingles with your perfume – something expensive and european that ambessa had picked out because she liked to dress you like a little doll, build your body up.
a customer pushes open the door, sending the brass bell into a symphony, and you unfold yourself from the window seat. your reflection shows a woman who knows exactly who she is – soft-bodied but steel-spined, tarnished but holding out for healing.
you tuck the vape into a vintage ceramic dish beside your register, next to the rose quartz crystal your psychic insisted would bring your true love back to you. you're not sure you believe it, but you keep it close anyway, just in case the universe is listening.
the customer's voice hits you like a wave – crisp, cultured british vowels discussing the merits of different pieces. it's nothing like ambessa's voice, really, but it's enough to send you tumbling back into that summer, that first day when everything changed.
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mel had been waiting at heathrow, practically vibrating with anxiety, her locs spun into a tight chignon at the nape of her neck—a nervous habit since childhood. you'd fallen into each other's arms like you always did, all tears and high laughter, ignoring the disapproving looks from passing businessmen. it was the same way you'd hugged since you were five, sharing grape juice boxes and childish fantasies on the playground.
"it's just a little cottage in the countryside," mel had said on facetime, twisting her initial necklace. "very quaint, very english. you'll probably think it's charming." what she hadn't mentioned was that her "cottage" was actually a sprawling estate that made downton abbey look modest.
honey-colored stone stretched towards the sky, windows gleaming like diamonds in the afternoon sun. the gravel drive seemed endless, winding through gardens that swallowed the sun within their towering walls. it must’ve been a dream to grow up here, small feet tumbling through the mazes and nothing but the entire world before you. your hand was still clasped in hers on the gearshift of her vintage mercedes, just like always, but you could feel her fingers trembling slightly.
"mom's probably in the library," mel said, killing the engine. "she's got this thing about afternoon light."
she chewed her lip, a habit you recognized from exam days and first dates.
"just… don't take it personally if she's a bit… well, you know. she can be kind of intense. dad always says she's an acquired taste."
you remember adjusting your dress, a red-and-white gingham number that clung delicately to your stomach. the bow at the bust had come undone at least three times that morning, and the skirt, airy and flared, fluttered in the slightest breeze. it felt a little too simple, too worn for the looming grandeur of mel’s childhood home, but you hadn’t thought to pack anything else. besides, something was grounding about it—the way the cotton pressed against your skin, the familiar weight of the straps on your shoulders, like it was trying to remind you who you were.
you followed mel through halls lined with oil paintings and antiquities. your sandals clicked against marble floors, echoing off high ceilings. everything smelled overwhelmingly of jasmine and time passed, the atmosphere practically bloated by money’s touch.
and then there was ambessa.
she stood in a shaft of golden light, tall and elegant in a cream linen suit that probably cost more than your entire wardrobe. silver threaded through her dark hair which was braided down into a neat, long plait and when she turned, her eyes caught yours with an intensity that made your knees weak. your psychic's words echoed in your head – "your palm reads of a love that will shake you. stand fast, girl." – and something in your chest shifted, like tectonic plates realigning.
"mom, this is my best friend," mel was saying, but her voice seemed to come from very far away. you noticed how she shifted her weight from foot to foot, how her fingers twisted in the waistband of her maxi skirt. "the one i've been telling you about."
ambessa's handshake was firm, her skin warm against yours.
"welcome to our home," she said, and her voice – god, her voice was like honey over gravel, like smoke and leather. "i trust you'll find everything… adequate."
you managed to say something appropriate, probably, though you couldn't remember what. all you could focus on was the way ambessa's eyes lingered on the wide basket of your waist, the delicate line of your collarbone, the pearl drop nestled between your breasts. it felt like a cigarette dragged slowly across your skin.
later, sprawled across mel's massive bed like you used to do at sleepovers, both of you tipsy on expensive wine stolen from the cellar, mel talked about her latest boyfriend drama – some posh boy from oxford who couldn't commit – while you traced patterns on her linen sheets. but your mind kept drifting to the library, to ambessa's knowing smile, to the way she'd looked at you over dinner like you were a deer she very much wanted to fell.
you didn't know then that those looks would become your undoing.
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you couldn't sleep that first week, your body stubbornly running on pacific time. the massive house creaked and whispered at night, all those endless corridors filled with shadows. you'd taken to wandering, padding through the halls in your cotton shorts and an old guns & roses tee, your thick hair piled high in a silk scarf that your grandmother had taught you to wrap just so.
that's how she found you the third night, curled up in the window seat of the informal library (because of course there were multiple libraries), reading the beautiful and damned by phone light. your bare legs were tucked up under you, painted toes peeking out, a half-eaten peach leaving sticky fingerprints on the pages.
"fitzgerald at three in the morning?" her voice was rough with sleep, but still commanding. ambessa stood in the doorway in a black silk robe that made your mouth go dry, her hair loose around her shoulders. "how terribly american of you."
"can't sleep," you drawled, your accent thick and lazy in the quiet. "time zones are, like, totally brutal."
the ghost of a smile touched her lips at your exaggerated californian lilt, and something warm unfurled in your chest when her eyes lingered on your face, studying you with a naked interest that made your skin prickle.
it became a ritual after that – you in your sun-faded pajamas, her in sophisticated sleepwear that probably cost more than your rent. she'd pour two fingers of sherry ("none of that silly wine you girls keep stealing." “yeah, sorry about that.”), and you'd talk about everything and nothing.
you told her about your boutique—at the time—dream, about learning to make jewelry from an old hippie who read tarot cards on the boardwalk. she spoke of art acquisitions and board meetings, but sometimes, when the night grew soft and heavy around you, she'd share pieces of herself that felt like an easy glimpse into your future.
mel noticed, of course she did.
"mum’s different with you," she said one afternoon, watching you apply coconut oil to your sun-warmed skin by the pool. her voice was careful, measured in a way that made your stomach twist. "she actually laughs at your jokes. she never laughs at anyone's jokes."
you hummed noncommittally, pretending to be absorbed in moisturizing. but you could feel mel's eyes on you, the same sharp gaze she'd inherited from her mother, taking in how you'd started wearing your nicest pajama sets to your nighttime wanderings, how you'd borrowed one of her expensive face creams "just to test it out."
during the days, you'd lounge in the massive gardens with mel, your skin deepening to further in the english sun while she talked less and less about her boyfriend's drama and more about how strange it was to see her mother so… present. but at night – at night you belonged to the library, to raspy-voiced conversations and loaded silences, to the way ambessa's eyes would trace the crescent of your folded body, the arch of your neck, the fullness of your lips.
"you're nothing like i expected," she said one night, two months in, her voice low and intimate in the darkness. you were sprawled on the persian rug, head tipped back against a leather armchair, humming some alternative song under your breath. your skin glowed warm and rich in the lamplight, a sharp contrast to the pale marble and cream walls surrounding you.
"oh?" you looked up at her through your lashes, feeling brave from the whiskey and the late hour. "what did you expect?"
"someone more like mel's other friends. polished. proper." her lips curved around the words as if they amused her. "not this beautiful little creature in threadbare pajamas, so full of freedom and self-assuredness. you hold your own."
beautiful. the word hung in the air between you, dangerous and flickering. like the growing tension you felt whenever mel watched you both at dinner, her eyes narrowing at each shared glance, each lingering moment. you sat up slowly, your movements sluggish and dream-like.
"i don’t. not really. you make me nervous, but i learned early on how to fake it."
her eyes met yours in the dim light, and the air flooded with something thick and heady. your body felt electric. behind you, a floorboard creaked – mel, you'd realize later, watching from the doorway with dawning understanding.
but in that moment, all you could see was ambessa, all you could feel was the weight of what was building between you, an avalanche you were both choosing to let bury you.
in a matter of minutes, she had her hands on you, your back against her firm chest with two fingers tucked inside of your cunt. your legs sprawled open, your pussy blossoming with arousal like rain on roses.
she was softer than you’d imagined, but it was almost relieving. the tenderness did more for you anyway, sent your pulse more freely throughout your body.
you bucked your hips as heat spiraled up from the base of your spine. ambessa pressed you back down, fingers gripping deeply into your thighs.
“no,” she murmured. “stay down.”
you were nestled into her lap, her fingers milking you gently as you arched. your voice seemed caught in your throat, your neck extended in expectation of a kiss. she indulged you, mouth capturing yours while her thumb slipped past your thatch of curls to play with your clit.
the kiss was wet and sloppy, uncoordinated as a result of your jerking body. still, she fed from you reaping kiss after kiss, suckling at your tongue. she groaned into your lips as you threaded a harsh hand into her hair, pining her face against yours.
in response, she inserted a third finger. you let out a high moan at the added stimulation, rooting a hand around her neck to better fuck yourself down. she laughed lightly at your desire, pumping faster until your cunt dribbled gratitude down her knuckles.
“there you go, sweet girl,” she cooed and you shivered.
you suddenly understood cults and their leaders, how special you could feel when their attention was laved over you. you were trying your best to remain quiet, thick thighs trembling as she fucked you a little harder. your tits were bouncing as you met her thrusts and she hid her face into your neck, sucking and biting lightly.
with a muffled squeal you came, squirting lavishly all over where the two of you were locked together. true to her nature, ambessa didn’t give you a moment. with an efficient maneuver, she slid you around and on top of her. it was then that you realized she was naked, robe hanging open at her sides. you weren’t given a second to admire her.
instead, she tucked you into her and kissed you as she extended her legs out and settled you onto her warm cunt. you collapsed fully into her, face buried in the soft crevice of her heavy tits. she let out a slight hum of satisfaction as she slotted your clits together, hooking a leg over you to better increase the spread of your puffy pussy. eventually, you understood the intention and began to rock steadily against her.
the friction was heavenly and you clutched her tightly, burrowing into her broad body as you chased your pleasure. ambessa was just as frantic, snapping up with a hand anchored into your hair. your silk scarf had fallen long ago but you didn’t worry about it. all that mattered was her deep groans of pleasure and the way she kept fucking up against you.
“fuck, honey,” she murmured and you wanted to tell her that you knew, that you understood.
but you couldn’t. you were rendered pathetic by the threat of your second orgasm and settled for cumming inside of her with a wet wail. you could feel her legs shaking but you knew she hadn’t finished, and with a great groan you slid off of her.
stumbling slightly, you stood and rearranged so that you were kneeling in between the apex of her legs with your ass high in the air. as you dripped onto the carpet you began to lap at her and reached a hand up to twist and pinch at her nipples, alternating between her tits.
her breath began to shudder, her chest heaving as she ground down on her tongue. it only took a couple more broad strokes up her pussy and a relentless circling of her clit for her to finish, the liquid dowsing your nose and chin. the spray was thick and warm.
pleased, you hummed into her and started the whole thing up again. she cried out, legs closing around you in a suffocating crush.
not once did you let go.
𓇼
the fight had been brutal. even now, the memory makes your stomach churn—leaves you flinching, sick, and unsteady.
“jesus, [name],” mel’s voice had been sharp, cutting through the quiet. “you’re playing house with my fucking mother.”
“mel—”
“no!” she snapped, her words laced with disbelief and venom. “i can’t believe you. what? are you just desperate? taking whatever scraps you can get? ‘but i love her, melly!’”
her voice pitched high, mocking, cruel in a way you’d never heard before.
“i mean, my god, just go to therapy. don’t go fucking my mother!”
your hand cracked against her cheek before you even registered the motion.
“fuck you,” you spat, trembling, the tears hot and blinding.
she staggered back a step, wide-eyed and disbelieving. you mirrored her shock, your palm still stinging. the silence that followed was suffocating, broken only by the harsh sound of both your breaths. ambessa had stepped out moments before—it was just the two of you now, suspended in the aftermath.
her lips parted as if to say something, but no words came.
your ticket was booked that afternoon, your bag packed by evening. you were gone before the sun had fully set.
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you close the shop early, your hands moving automatically as the weight of the day presses down on you.
the steady drag on your vape blurs the edges of your thoughts, a small comfort that does nothing to ease the growing ache in your chest. by the time you arrive home, the haze has lifted, but it leaves behind a sharp clarity: you’re alone. sadder than anything. the kind of heartbroken that settles deep in your bones and brings you down, quiet and constant like a low hum you can’t escape.
so you’re surprised when you’re met with a sleek range rover loitering in the parking lot outside your apartment complex.
you didn’t expect to see her this soon. or ever. didn’t want to. three weeks of silence, of space between you both, and you thought you were okay with it. you’d been fine with the quiet, with the absence. but there she is.
mel is right outside your building, sitting pretty and cross-legged in the backseat, the car’s headlights casting long, soft shadows over the cracked pavement. ambessa is sitting in the passenger seat, her face illuminated by the glow from the dashboard, and something about the way she holds herself makes it clear that she’s on the edge. she probably didn’t even want to do this. maybe she’d flown here for mel. maybe mel had flown here for you.
your chest tightens as you stand there, frozen for a moment, caught between the impulse to walk away and the need to understand what’s brought them here. you don’t move, just watch.
the undiscovered truth is that ambessa’s done this for both of you.
mel’s been struggling without you. she’s noticed it; this is her daughter after all. mel hasn’t said it outright, but ambessa can see it in the way her shoulders slump when she talks to anyone else, the small, tired smiles that don’t reach her eyes. she’s miserable without her best friend. and then—gradually—ambessa realized how much she needed you, too. wanted you.
the air between you and the car is heavy with guilt and longing. you can see it in mel’s face, too—how much she loves her mother, how she wants this to be different, even if she doesn’t quite know how to fix it.
and you? you feel a bit numb. maybe it’s the dredges of your vanilla buzz. the sadness in your chest, the loneliness, the quiet hope that maybe—just maybe—this could still work? it’s half dead, half living. you can’t tell if you’re ready to talk, to face what’s been left unsaid for so long. but you know one thing for sure: you’ve missed them both.
you keep standing there, rooted to the spot, watching the car like it’s some kind of omen. the silence feels louder than anything you’ve heard in weeks. ambessa remains in the passenger seat, her gaze distant, like she’s trying to work through something too. you don’t know what it is—whether it’s the weight of her possible regret or the silent pressure she’s putting on her daughter.
mel shifts in her seat, and then, before you can even brace yourself, she’s out of the car, the door slamming shut behind her. she’s standing in front of you now, her eyes wide with something that looks like hesitation.
“i didn’t know where else to go,” she says, her voice quiet but raw.
you don’t know what to say. the words that have been sitting in your throat for weeks suddenly seem impossible to spit out. you want to scream, to ask her why she didn’t come sooner, why it took so long. but all you can do is stand there, your chest tight and aching.
“you don’t have to say anything,” mel continues, her eyes darting between your face and the ground. “i just… i didn’t know what else to do. my mom’s…” she trails off, and there’s something in her voice—something that sounds like both love and frustration.
“she’s been miserable without you. i’ve been miserable without you.”
the admission hangs between you, thick and vulnerable. your breath catches in your throat. you didn’t know how much you missed her until this moment. you want to reach out, to pull her close, but you don’t. the ground between you both feels too fragile. finally, you speak.
“you deserve an apology too,” you croak out. “i shouldn’t have gone behind your back and i sure as hell should have never fucking hit you. it was unacceptable and i’m sorry, melly.”
her eyes grow bright and glassy with tears. she nods.
“i’m not going to say it’s fine because it’s not. but thank you for apologizing.”
you nod, resigned to another night of crying yourself to sleep.
i realized,” mel says wetly, “before this whole thing i’d never—i’d never seen you in love. i’ve never seen you that happy. i’m sorry for mocking that especially since you’ve never had that before, and it’s all you’ve ever wanted.”
you shrug, looking away.
“it’s how i’ve been living.”
before mel can say anything else, ambessa opens her door and steps out of the car. she’s quiet, her movements deliberate, but there’s something gentle in the way she walks toward you. she stops just a foot away, and without a word, she closes the gap and cups your face in her hands, her palms warm against your skin.
you blink, the shock of her touch overwhelming.
“i can’t believe you’re here,” you tell her, your voice cracking down the middle. “have you even been to california before?”
and it’s so stupid to say when you haven’t fucking seen her in months, haven’t stopped loving her for days, but ambessa only smiles. her eyes soften as she leans in, her lips brushing your forehead in a delicate.
“i’ve only ever tasted it,” she murmurs, her breath warm against your skin.
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