#but it was a rousing success so that's all that matters
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pomefioredove · 3 months ago
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Hello 💕 If you're still accepting headcanons requests, could you write something about a reader who seems normal and "ordinary" and even a little shy/demure but shines brilliantly on stage as if a completely different person (can be an actor, singer, idol etc.) with Rook and Vil and the Pop music club (separately)? Tysm 💓
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ the opposite of stage fright
type of post: headcanons characters: cater, kalim, rook, vil, lilia additional info: romantic or platonic, reader is gender neutral, reader is not specified to be yuu
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introverts are Lilia's favorite people
...to torture
when you first started attending club meetings, he assumed you were some kind of groupie
I mean, who wouldn't want to fawn over him?
but he still tried to drag you into club activities
you just... refused to play anything, wouldn't sing, wouldn't so much as speak...
but Lilia was confident he could get you to stop holding back
so, the club got clever
at their next concert, Kalim ~magically~ has a sore throat
and who else to take his place but the only other member of the club?
manipulative little fae...
and, as he thought, you had been holding back
the concert is a rousing success
...and he's never going to let you forget it
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Vil is like a bloodhound for talent
he can smell the potential on you from one look at your plain, slightly-disheveled self
he knows that any other student would have ignored you. but he isn't just any student
he knows you're holding out on him
and he'll crack that shell of yours no matter what it takes
that is to say,
once you've caught his eye,
you will never know peace again
...and maybe that sounds like an over exaggeration, but if you're a timid person, it's your worst nightmare
I mean dance rehearsals twice a week, vocal training, posture, projection, poise, presentation-
everything
the other Pomefiore students may give you odd looks as you walk by on their Housewarden's arm,
but he knows
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Kalim doesn't need a big performance to know that he's already proud of you
what can I say? he's got enough enthusiastic hugs to go around
and he definitely doesn't mind that you're shy
...honestly, the thought hasn't even occurred to him
even if you don't want to party or dance or say hi to everyone in the dorm every time you come over,
he like you. he doesn't need anything else
you're already amazing to him
and ... in a way, he kind of turns out to be right?
he had always said he could see the star in you, and here you are, performing on stage like a professional!
...not that he isn't surprised
Kalim is completely blown away
it's all he can talk about for the next week, actually
(much to your embarrassment)
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Rook had a feeling
...and he's also listened to you singing to yourself when you thought you were alone
I mean WHAT who said that
he definitely just had a feeling
now, seeing you on stage, he's almost brought to his knees
having watched the seed of your beauty blossom into a beautiful flower is the ultimate enrichment for him
and unlike Vil, he waited for you to blossom on your own
a hunter is nothing if not patient, after all
though, he still can't help but feel a little accomplished...
even though he didn't push you, or train you, he kept the secret of your beauty all to himself
...which is a kind of guidance
admittedly, he wouldn't have minded keeping it all to himself for a little while longer, though
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Cater always just thought of you as...
...kinda cute. right?
you were shy and quiet, always avoiding his camera, meek, the kind of person that doesn't last long at NRC
...of course, he had to take you under his wing!
sort of?
really, he just liked that you let him talk your ear off
he didn't even mind that you never let him take your picture! ...kind of
and he thought he knew you pretty well, but...
...seeing you on stage after the music club's performance...
totally wiping the floor with them...
well, well, you still find ways to surprise him
of course, though, now that he knows you're a world-class performer, he's never going to let it go
he got a lot of likes on the videos of your performance, after all
I guess he finally got that picture he wanted ;3
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melliemell · 20 days ago
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Pairing: Sigma x reader
Contents: NSFW, sex pollen, hand-job, blow-job, sigma's exemplary panic-managment (he's trying his best okay, he is), Sigma gets affected by a sex pollen and thinks he's perfectly capable of handling it by not handling it, Approx. 3.4k words
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Sweat.
Sigma could feel it dripping down his back, his clothes becoming more and more uncomfortable. He stood stock-still, gaze glued to the file you gave him. He could barely read it, the words blending in with every stubborn blink to finally make sense of it. Some time had passed, but he could still hear you speaking, diligent as ever, as you reported on your most recent task.
Sigma was glad for your focus because he doubted he could keep up this front for long. Not when his recovery time was a mere 7.32 minutes. He timed it. He had to.
And then it would start again. 
It didn’t matter what he thought of or how many times he had to swallow down his own mortification– one hand would cover his mouth, the other working fast at unzipping his trousers before he was thrusting viciously in his palm, breaths ragged as muffled against his hold. He barely had time to think anything through, the need setting in sudden and merciless each time. He’s never had a high sexual drive to begin with, so wrapping his hand around his cock, stroking until he all but blanked out from the sensation– that was beginning to take its toll. The fact that he was still at work, glued to his desk, made it all the worse. And to top it all–
Nothing helped.
Which, well… Well. Sigma should have figured as much.
It’s not like he didn’t know how aphrodisiacs worked. 
He had hoped it was something else at first. He really should have focused on his morning paperwork instead of answering your call for assistance on a… problematic guest gathering. The drunkenness and rowdy screams had caused enough noise complaints to rouse the entire floor of the royal suites’ accommodations. Only, it wasn’t just alcohol.
A substance, dark as ink and staining just as easily– Sigma had made the mistake of inspecting one of the many bottles discarded at the scene, only for it to leave blotches on his fingertips, a headache not an hour later and one of the worst instances of arousal he had ever experienced in his life.
Waiting for your report was the only saving thought he could hold onto. And now to hear it, hear you– Sigma could only blink angrily at the sheets before him, mind blank save for the ticking clock by his desk and the need for you to go away go away go away.
Worst of all– you were with him then. Saw and wrote down everything he drew your attention to. Clenching his hand now would hide the marks there, yes, but it would only serve to quell his shame if just a bit. 
There was no point in it when you knew what was there. Your sympathetic gaze made it worse, even if you tried to maintain professionalism as you discussed the finer details of the substance and how the other guests were fairing after their exposure. 
“So far we’re certain the beverages were brought in from our own supply. Mostly wine, but there were quite a few hard liquors. Still no clarity on how the bottles we found were smuggled in, but the good news is that most of the effects are fading the majority of the guests who used it,” you said matter of fact, eyes reading off the tablet in your hands. 
You seemed calm. At least Sigma knew the situation was being handled by capable hands. 
He took a steady breath, jaw clenching as he forced an even voice. “Speak with Background Security about guest identification first. I’ll grant you access to their files and the Safety Feature protocol.” Identifying who the culprits were would be no issue for the Sky Casino. It was more a matter of time than success.
You nodded, handing forward your tablet for the access signature. “I’ll be done by 3 pm. Our suspects are narrowed down to seven individuals. I’ll pull them–”
“No,” Sigma said. His headache was back, making his hand tremble as he drew his pen over the screen. “Pull all of them through.”
You hesitated. “Sir, there were over 40 people on the list. Not counting the associates.” 
“Yes.”
“This will take a lot of time.”
Sigma looked up at you. “I am aware of that. Do it.”
It was an uncomfortable sight; having a coworker narrow their eyes at him, uncertainty written all over their features. This was proving to be far more troublesome than he liked. The Casino relied on him, he could not let his workers’ trust dwindle like this. 
“Sir,” and there was an edge to your voice. A warning, as you pierced his very being with your prodding observation.
Sigma stood up, leaning against his desk for support, just in case. He forced all the confidence he did not feel to seep into his posture. “It’s alright. I’ll wait for your findings.”
You sighed. “You don’t seem alright.”
“There’s nothing to fret over,” Sigma said, mustering a smile. It felt odd on his face.
Sigma’s worry began to rise again the longer you stood there watching him. 
Lower, the sensation of… something blooming anew was slowly ebbing away at his concentration. The thought of you seeing him like this was simply– mortifying. He could feel his trousers beginning to strain again, his cock filling with blood for god knows which time. He swallowed, his Adam’s apple bobbing with the effort.
Sigma kept a neutral face, not moving a muscle.
“Frankly, you look like shit, and I worry. You have three more meetings before the evening. You can’t attend in this state,” you said.
Sigma pursed his lips. “I will be available in time.” He didn’t dare think of the alternative.
You blinked, not fazed at all. “I could call for an adult escort to be brought.”
Sigma’s eyes widened. “Absolutely not,” he said, the words coming out rushed and completely unprepared for that proposition.
“We can be discreet about it. Say she’s a regular guest and remove all records afterwards.” You cocked your head, considering. “Oh, I apologize. Or he. Whichever you prefer, of course.”
Sigma sat slowly on his chair, hand grasped firmly over his mouth as he could only look at you, not fully grasping that you out of everyone would suggest– suggest such a–
He took in a steadying breath. “No?”
“The effects of the aphrodisiac reduce after sex. At least according to the guests we interviewed so far. It was a scent thing, so long as someone’s near. It will be quicker this way… and less uncomfortable,” you said, resting your tablet on the desk. Sigma pulled back, feeling his back hit the chair as you leaned closer. “You look as if you’ve not slept in days and you’re constantly sweating. Sir. I– it’s just an idea, but please consider it. I know how much you care for your work and I don’t want you to worry even more. It might help.”
This… this was a complete mess. Sigma’s body sagged, and he dropped his face in his hands as his elbows rested atop the desk. The idea was absurd. He’d never even think of it, let alone agree. His hope stayed with figuring out more about the substance and who brought it. 
Even if he had to wait for your findings. He will manage. 
He will.
And maybe you’d find access to some type of sedative? Anything to counter it. 
But… he didn’t have the time. 
Sigma looked up at you through splayed fingers, dejection in his eyes. 
“Hey there,” you said.
“Hello.” I hate this.
“It will be alright,” you said, gaze knowing. But then you softened, eyes kind as you said,  “I have great respect for you, sir, and whichever decision you make– it will not change that.”
Sigma felt warm, the heat spreading fast. It was the aphrodisiac's work, he was certain of it. But just for a moment, he wanted to pretend… pretend it was your kindness that reached out and cupped his frail heart. Had his breath hitch. Gave him enough strength to keep on. The Casino was all Sigma had, and he wanted to do the best he could for it. For all of you.
“Well,” you said, drumming a finger on the desk’s surface. 
Sigma followed the movement with his eyes, mind going blank. Your hand was slender, fingers long and moving with an air of elegance the longer he looked. He liked them.
You were waiting for an answer. He couldn’t keep you here longer. Sigma closed his eyes, eyelids heavy with the weight of his failures. “Don’t call anyone. Please.” The thought of having a… a stranger touch him like that. Having to be this close and vulnerable–against his will if he’s honest–no. Such acts were reserved for lovers; someone who cared. He couldn’t use somebody like that, only to discard them later like it all meant nothing. It would feel even worse knowing they’d do the same to him. “I don’t want that.” 
“I understand,” you said, bowing in respect. “Although–”
Sigma wanted to shrivel up and die. “What is it?”
“Why not?”
“You’re asking me why I don’t want to bring a prostitute to our establishment?”
“Yes,” you said, calm as ever. It was driving Sigma mad by the second.
“Please go deal with Background Security,” Sigma said flatly.
“Oh, I apologize,” you said. Still hovering.
As much as it pained him to admit it, Sigma really needed you to leave. Now. Right now. The strain on his trousers was nearing painful, and the dampness from his already smeared precum made every move shoot jolts of sensation down his spine. He could feel his cheeks burning. What a sight he was making; all the more reasons to spare further embarrassment. 
For the both of you. 
Something must have slipped because instead of heading for the door, you took a step closer. “Damn it, I feel bad,” you began. “Just– you look really bad. Puffy.”
Sigma pursed his lips. “Thank you.”
“You’re welcome? Sorry. I mean– I wanted to ask, although I’m no expert or with much skill, to be frank, I wouldn’t mind helping. You have a meeting in about an hour, you might make it if it works.”
Sigma just stared. 
It’s not that he didn’t hear your words, it’s just that you did not just say that. Not only was this unprofessional, it was downright unacceptable for this to even cross your mind. He would never take advantage of an employee like that left a bitter taste in his mouth. And yet…
And yet.
Sigma remained still, forcing his every muscle to move, to say something. He could only look on at you, dumbfounded. Maybe it was the shock that–
No. No. 
“I can’t possibly do that to you, it is unacceptable.”
“Oh, not sex, don’t worry,” you corrected. “I could use my hands and it would probably work as well. So technically I’ll be “doing’’, not you. I don’t mind. If you’re comfortable with that?”
…Right. 
Sigma buried his head in his hands. 
He didn’t feel comfortable with anything. Let alone that. He knew you were waiting for an answer, standing patiently before him. Probably looking at him even now. God, how pathetic he must look. He has nothing impressive about him; not much to look at, really. Yet he was the man you should look up to as your employer. The one you could rely on in times of crisis. 
Not the other way around. 
Sigma curled up even further in himself. “I’m so sorry.”
A man like him should never have been put in such a high position. He knew sooner or later you’d all realize. He was not cut out for this, any of it.
A caress, gentle yet firm. Sigma froze, feeling your hand rest on his shoulder. Your thumb moved, the gesture almost calming.
“Sigma-san?” Your voice was close. Had you moved? Sigma wasn’t sure. He didn’t dare raise his head.
“Sigma-san.” 
Firmer this time. The hand trailed to his back, and then another joined, the feeling of being engulfed spreading as you all but draped yourself over his back, your embrace pulling him closer to you as you rested a cheek on the top of his head. 
“What are you doing?” Sigma asked, voice trembling. 
“You looked like you needed it,” you said, squeezing him even closer. “I’m sorry too.”
“What for?”
“If I had dealt with those guests alone you would’ve been okay. I’m sorry it happened like that. But to be honest, I was panicking. Your presence helped a lot,” you said.
“Oh,” was all Sigma could say. 
You stayed like that for some time, your breathing the only sound in the wide open space of Sigma’s office. He tried to relax as best as he could, but the conversation you two had, combined with having a full body pressed so close to his now… You felt his shivers begin to appear, a chill running through his entire body as he desperately fought against it. 
Too close. 
You were too close and Sigma could barely keep it straight. Your skin was cold, pleasant against his and all the more tempting. 
He could just bury his face against your neck, try and collect himself. But he was scared that if he moved, your hand would stop caressing his hair, playing absently with his locks as you rested against him. He wasn’t going to survive this, Sigma knew that. He groaned in exasperation.
You hummed atop his head. “Tell me what to do.”
It wasn’t a request, but not an order either. Just words floating between you as he pieced their meaning together. Somehow, it clicked quicker this time. “This is more than enough. You don’t have–”
“Might as well cross the bridge since we’re at it,” you said, pulling away.
Sigma closed his eyes, dragging in a calming breath. The more he thought of where this was going, the more his confidence dwindled. He hated to admit it, but leaving you lead was the only calming grace he could think of. With heavy eyelids Sigma looked up at you as he uncurled from himself as best he could. “Okay,” he said, short and simple. Easy.
If only it felt like that.
The first wave of shock came when you pulled him up, positioning yourself beside him as Sigma leaned on the desk, eyes blinking and cheeks getting redder and redder. Heat pooled beneath his naval as you tugged his trousers down, concentration written all over your features. The moment Sigma’s cock came free, a cold shiver ran up his back. Keeping as quiet as he could, he waited for your hesitant touch. 
Your hands felt cold against him, but any thought of discomfort flew out the window as the first stroke of your long fingers against his shaft had Sigma clinging to his desk for dear life.
Sigma released a shaking breath, his brows furrowed as you moved your hand, drawing forth his pleasure with every stroke. His tip began leaking again, precum trailing down his shaft. Your fingers reached up, spreading it over his tip even more, drawing a low moan from Sigma’s lips in the process. 
“Oh, this is good?” you asked, using his wetness to draw forth more stimulation. 
“Yes,” Sigma panted, his face blazing bright red. Looking at you now would be the end for him.
He’s masturbated before, of course, but nothing born out of desperation quite as this. Your body felt warm against his, anchoring him in case he lost even more of his balance. Sigma rocked his hips, breath ragged, seeking more of your attention. This was humiliating, yet his body acted on its own, melting underneath you. 
Sigma buried his face against your neck, stifling another moan just in time as you sweezed harder. He didn’t know how much experience you had, but you were taking your time with him, observing and testing out with your movements.
Soon Sigma felt like a mess, and he probably looked like one too. You had nudged his legs wider at some point, nestling in between them as you pushed him back on the desk, his bare ass planted atop the files meant for reading.
And not this. 
The world was spinning, his cock harder than he’d ever been and leaking enough to coat your firm grasp in its sheen. The sound of it too, slick and lewd with your strokes made his insides twist, his Addam’s apple bobbing every time he swallowed back a moan.
Sigma’s eyelids felt heavy so he kept his eyes closed. Having you so close to him was beyond him now. He could feel your hand stroking his cheek, pushing strands of hair over his shoulder or playing with his earlobe, tugging gently.
It was overwhelming– all those sensations coming from everywhere and all at once. He wondered if you’d kiss him. You haven’t yet. The longer this stretched the more his mind wandered– to your warm breath against his cheek, lips parting as you explored his tongue with yours. He wanted…
“Hey,” you said, smiling at him.
“Hey,” he could only answer, seeking more of your touch. The muscles in his lower belly quivered, Sigma’s breath hitching as the pressure was building more and more.
“You’re okay, right? It’s good?” you asked–
–and Sigma had to open his eyes then, show you what you’re doing to him when he was certain his words would fail him.
But he wasn’t met with your gaze. No, you were looking down, almost transfixed by the way his skin moved as you dragged it up and down his shaft. You had used some of your saliva earlier to ease the movement, sending Sigma in an even bigger spiral. The sight was engraved in his mind for all eternity.
“That’s a stupid question,” he breathed, swallowing hard.
A thoughtful, “hmm…”  was all you gave him, and you tilted your head, an idea springing to mind.  “Actually–”
Words cut by the sudden shrill of the desk phone ringing, freezing you both in place as the melody engulfed you.
Fuck. “Oh, no.” 
You peeked over Sigma’s shoulder. “Told you there’s no time. Meeting’s manager?”
“Yes,” Sigma said, sight growing foggy again as your thumb moved over his leaking slit, forcing a shiver out of him. “No, wait– I…”
“Don’t send to voicemail, but don’t pick up either. Just– give me a moment.”
This was the second shock Sigma experienced. Barely having time to react, to blink away the confusion of your words before you knelt down, lowering your head and–
A low guttural moan escaped Sigma’s lips, head thrown back as you took his length into your mouth. The phone was still ringing, distant to Sigma’s ears.. The only thing in focus was your tongue licking down the length of his dick before drawing back to swirl around his tip. 
Again and again and again.
You bobbed your head, the movement fast and precise. Sigma’s abdomen began to twitch and he had to grab onto his mouth to stifle the string of moans that threatened to slip any second. He didn’t expect you to do this, you weren’t supposed to– 
Your hand grabbed onto his thigh for support, your nails digging into his flesh. Sigma hissed, feeling his eyes water, and he knew he was near. He could  feel it rising and rising faster than he could articulate. 
“Wa–” 
Not even paying attention to him, you tongued his slit before letting Sigma’s cock bottom out in your throat, your little hums of encouragement pushing, until– 
Sigma tipped over the edge in seconds, barely having time to warn you as his load shot down your throat. He was a mess, trembling all over and he could only look down at you in shock, blinking his long lashes stupidly as you brushed the saliva trailing down your chin. The sight of it still– you between his legs, his cock still in your hand as it slowly became flaccid. Even seeing it, comprehending what happened, was another story in itself.
“Come on,” you said, pulling his underwear up. “Guess we made it in time.”
It took a second before Sigma realized, before he heard the phone still ringing.  
He groaned, running a hand through his face. “That’s why?”
“We still have work to do,” you said, and you slowly stretched up. 
“Yeah.” And a small little tug formed in Sigma’s chest. One that wanted a bit more time. Just…
His hand reached, picking up the phone. “Hello? Yes, I’ll be…”
You looked at him then, shaking your head in amusement. It was a comfort, in a way; knowing you’re still on good terms as you poked him in the cheek before patiently sitting on his chair to wait out his call.
After all, you had quite a bit to discuss after this.
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revehae · 10 months ago
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pairing ↠ johnny x you (ft. yuta)
genre .. warnings ↠ smut, noncon, choking, use of a gun
summary ↠ with news of a series of local deadly burglaries going around, you’re terrified of being the latest victim, but it’s the fault of your own disobedient nature that subjects you to a more potent kind of danger.
wc ↠ 3.0k
a/n ↠ this is a repost!
don’t like it, don’t read.
breaking: following a series of home invasions in the area, police recommend locals lock their doors.
for the past couple of weeks, the local news channel had mimicked a similar kind of warning. during the span of those weeks, nine burglaries had occurred; two involving death.
you were hoping you wouldn’t be the third. 
authorities reported that the culprit only entered homes with the intention of theft, and only when the occupants became an obstacle were they murdered. as if that was supposed to be relieving. you were no more in favor of being robbed than you were being killed, but you knew which one would be worse.
to make matters worse, that criminal was a damn good one. nine successful home invasions - some even in the same neighborhood - and all the police had on him was a poor quality CCTV footage image of the man in a mask. either he was an excellent thief, or the police were terrible.
lock your doors, they said. as if those innocent people hadn’t kept their doors locked. what use was it when the burglar knew how to pick locks and avoid homes with security? you might as well have left your doors and windows wide open, offered to him your belongings - and your lives - on a silver platter. 
“don’t be silly, babe,” said your friend yuta over the phone. he was assuring you that nothing would happen to you, or at least trying to. “everything’s gonna be fine. you should stay at taeyong’s tonight though just to be safe - you know he’s got good security.”
you bit your lip. it was a great idea. you had to give credit where credit was due; the thief, whoever he was, was meticulous, steering clear of houses where security was present. with multiple of the invasions taking place in the same neighborhoods it was almost like a taunt to the police. “i’ll talk to him,” you said. and much like some of your other neighbors, you made a note to yourself to invest in a home security system.
“don’t be a disobedient soul,” he drawled teasingly. given your tendency to rebel, the nickname was bestowed upon you by your group of friends. 
you rolled your eyes. “i’ll talk to him!”
“good. call me, okay?” yuta told you, and you nodded as if he could see you, a habit you had yet to break. 
“you just nodded, didn’t you?”
“shut up,” you said lightheartedly, giggling bashfully. 
yuta laughed, but positively didn’t stay around to tease you. “talk to you later.”
“buh-bye.”
the call cut and your phone hit the coffee table. you never winded up calling taeyong. you didn’t intend to lie to yuta, but you had already spent the night at taeyong’s - and some of your other friend’s and family with better security than you - too many times before and you didn’t like the feeling it gave you to depend on them so constantly. of course, it was better to be safe than sorry, but one night on your own wouldn’t hurt. 
besides, if someone broke in, you doubted they’d head for your bedroom. you’d just pretend to be asleep and pray it was all over soon.
spoiler alert: that was not what happened.
in the middle of the night you roused from your slumber in pursuit of one thing; water. but upon glancing over to your nightstand, you noticed your glass was empty. 
you almost didn’t move, almost forced yourself to fall right back asleep and not dare move a muscle. but awake, your mouth became dry at the possibilities of what could happen to you and anyone that knew you.
i’ll only be a second, you assured yourself, rushing into the kitchen. nothing’ll happen. everything will be fine.
it all happened so fast. 
a brimming glass of water in your hand, you twisted your body towards the direction of your bedroom yet only made it one step before you heard a noise. never had you paused dead in your tracks so quickly. the noise became clear to you - the sound of your front doorknob. 
you wanted to believe that you were simply so paranoid to the extent of making up sounds in your head, and frankly you had before, but this was different; this was real.
like a bolt of lightning, you struck behind the counter, accidentally spilling water onto the floor, but that was the least of your concerns. you ducked behind the island, pressing your knees to your chest and wrapping your arms around them. regret plagued your heart as now, more than ever, you wished that you would have listened to yuta. you forgot to even call him back, and now there was no telling if you ever would.
the noise didn’t last very long, merely seconds before it turned into that of the front door being opened and shut, followed by footsteps. part of you wanted to peek, though aside from it being awfully risky, you were too stunned to move. your heartbeat throbbed in your ears and you could feel it hammering in your chest against your knees.
so much for locking your doors. you were going to hold your middle finger to the police in a big ‘fuck you’ after this was over - if you made it out alive, that was.
those heavy, unnerving footsteps were the sole noise to cut through the ear-splitting silence. they headed somewhere down the hall and you heaved a big sigh of relief, then drew another in as if that was all the oxygen that the world had left to spare. somehow you were breathing so fast yet not at all. 
in your brief, short-lived fit of relief, your body went slack, and your knee ultimately knocked over the glass that you had forgotten was there. instantly your muscles tensed again, and your fit of relief turned into an outbreak of fear. 
“fuck,” you whispered to yourself and bit your lip. the footsteps returned merely seconds later and you immediately tried to regulate your breath in an effort to remain silent as possible. you prayed to the above that your life wasn’t over.
louder, the footsteps got. quicker. and louder, and quicker, and quicker, and louder. tears began to well from your eyes as terror and your regrets overcame you. you should’ve did this, you should’ve did that. and now that you hadn’t, the price was yours to pay.
all of a sudden, the footsteps paused, and somehow that was more unnerving than the sound of constant moving. you were tucked into yourself, doing your best to be still yet not fully conscious of the fact you were shivering with fear. please, the tiny voice in your head begged for mercy. 
and then, the footsteps continued again. and your heart sank when you saw a shadow from around the island close in on you, until another, masked figure crouched down before you. 
it was when you saw the gun tucked to his side that you lost all hope. it was over.
“found you,” said the masked man through a semi-muffled voice, his tone lighthearted. the vast majority of his face was concealed, though if it weren’t, you would have noticed the smile creep across his face as he saw every ounce of faith in your body instantly die.
found you, he had said in a teasing tone, as if this were hide and seek. maybe that’s all this was to him; a really big, really unfair game.
you said nothing. you were too shocked and far too scared to move a muscle, including your tongue.
“this little hiding spot of yours would have been wonderful,” the stranger began.  “if it weren’t for the mess you’ve made in here.”
the water you spilled earlier. and the pieces of glass that had fallen before you. you hadn’t even noticed that it shattered.
“you should’ve listened to yuta, sweetheart. he told me that you were staying at taeyong’s tonight. i had my suspicions when i saw your car parked outside, but you really are a disobedient soul, aren’t you?”
your heart stilled. only your friends knew about that nickname. and that didn’t explain how he knew yuta, much less what you discussed on a personal phone call. a jarring question emerged in your head. 
with fear heavy in your heart, you whispered, “how did you…?”
the stranger removed his mask; and suddenly he wasn’t such a stranger anymore.
you almost fainted in shock. “johnny?”
johnny flashed you a grin. “that’s my name; don’t wear it out.”
too many emotions plagued your chest and you never would’ve imagined that it would be possible to feel so many things at once. the fear, the dread. the anguish, the betrayal. it was overwhelming.
johnny and you had never been particularly close, though he was in a very specific circle of friends. you met him through yuta, much like everyone else in your friend group did, and whoever yuta trusted, so did you. you were thick as thieves. 
or so you thought. it seemed that in reality, he and johnny were (quite literally) thick as thieves. you couldn’t fathom why yuta would betray you after all you’d been through together.
you shook your head in denial, balking. maybe this was just a nightmare, just a really, really bad dream that you had yet to wake up from.
“you gotta go now,” johnny crooned. then he clawed at you with his large, heavy hands, and begin to drag you out of the kitchen. 
you tried to resist, but he was too strong. it was like fighting with a brick wall. he dragged you into your living room, and when you fell against the floor, you half-expected him to pull out his gun and finish you there, but he didn’t - instead he wrapped his hands around your throat. they were cold against your neck, like a corpse. out of natural instinct, your fingers tried to pry at his hands in an effort to pull him away, but to no avail. it was pointless to try and fight against him, he was larger and stronger and everything in between. you were simply no match for a man like johnny.
and he merely watched. he hovered above you, hands firm around your throat, and watched your trembling hands fall to your side, watched you struggle to speak coherently as you fought for breath, all while his eyes stared into yours and watched the life drain from them. and you were certain that you were on the verge of meeting your end.
but, when you were at the very brink of unconsciousness, he let go.
your chest heaved in pursuit of sucking in as much air as possible, trying to recover from near unconsciousness. he didn’t kill you - at least, not yet. you wanted to be relieved, but you were only confused.
“on second thought,” he whispered, leaning in ever so slightly. “i think i’m gonna keep you. i like the look in your eyes.”
not just the look of fear, but the look of hope and life bleeding from your irises. he liked the power your fear gave him; how he was in control of whether you lived or died, releasing you from his chokehold at the very verge of unconsciousness.
he would be lying dead to your face if he said that it hadn’t gotten him off, if he told you that he hadn’t been tempted to make you his for a while. in return, you had a slight crush on johnny, but it didn’t go anywhere and it sure as hell wouldn’t now that you had been exposed to who he really was.
you were even more confused when johnny slung you over his broad shoulders like you weighed nothing and began to carry you in the direction of your bedroom. your cries of protest went through one ear and out the other, rendering you completely powerless. 
he plopped you down unceremoniously against your sheets and leapt at you hungrily. your pulse sped with alarm when you felt him tug at the band of your underwear, and in spite of your prior futile attempts, you tried to pry him away from you, begging him to stop. 
up until now, johnny’s tone had been lighthearted and taunting, but he switched on a dime when he pulled out his gun and you felt cool metal flush against your temple. “say another word. i fucking dare you,” johnny warned. 
you gulped back every word, effectively silenced. once johnny was certain that you were startled into compliance, he put the gun away and resumed his actions. warm, regretful tears stung your eyes as you lied there helplessly. you closed your eyes, refusing to watch him in fear of the memory being perpetually etched behind your eyelids. 
impatiently, he ripped the fabric off your thighs, venting your bare flesh to the cool air. you shivered, autumn making your skin crawl. the gleam in johnny’s eyes was not lost on you, heavy with lust and nothing but. he had wanted nothing but to destroy you, and ultimately nothing would come in his way. not even yuta. 
“this is all your fault, y’know,” johnny said, smiling at you sinisterly. his teeth clamped into your thigh out of no where, and instead of your eyes wincing shut, they shot open in surprise. johnny snickered and shredded both of you of what remained of your clothes. “all you had to do was listen, baby girl. look where being a little brat gets you.” 
you said and did nothing. you had practically tuned him out, more or less out of preservation for yourself. otherwise, you might have gone insane. but there was no haven for you - no safe place. inward or outward. outside of your body, johnny had full control, but inside, there were plenty of other monsters roaming around in your brain, occupying it with terrifying thoughts. there was nowhere for you to hide. 
johnny was hard - most likely from watching you trembling in fear alone - and used his saliva as a lubricant. you still hissed when he began to thrust inside you, not at all considerably. rivulets of tears bundled together on your cheeks and you clamped your nails into his biceps, trying to anchor yourself on something. your fingernails drew long, irritably red lines on his arms, but he didn’t mind the sting. to johnny, there was no pleasure without pain. 
when your cunt had swallowed him completely, you whimpered, “it’s too big.” 
johnny wiped at the tears on your cheeks and whispered, “you poor thing.” he didn’t do much else. in his mind, you deserved this. you never listened to anyone but yourself, and this was an apt punishment. 
“should we give yuta a call?” johnny asked, noticing your phone lying at your nightstand. if he was being honest, you were a little airheaded. at very least, it would have been smart to bring your phone with you when you ventured out into the kitchen, but of course you didn’t. it was almost like you wanted him to find you, completely defenseless. “i’m sure he would love to hear about this.”
you blinked when he mentioned yuta. you hadn’t called him back earlier, like you were supposed to, but now you weren’t sure if you ever wanted to speak to him again. not after you had learned that he was more or less an accomplice in this mess, no matter how much he tried to protect you. you felt so betrayed and broken. 
though you shook your head, it seemed like you were getting a taste of how it felt to not be listened to, because johnny picked up your phone and forced you to unlock it, then scrolled to yuta’s contact himself and put the phone on speaker. 
yuta picked up after a couple of rings, and skipped the greetings to say, “y/n, what the hell? are you okay?” 
“she’s perfectly fine,” johnny answered for you, though one look at you could obviously show that you were anything but. 
yuta heard his partner’s voice and instantly knew you were in trouble. he exclaimed, “johnny, what the fuck did you do?”
“nothing you wouldn’t want to do yourself,” johnny sang without a care in the world. you watched him silently, face tensing. the emotion that plagued your chest and the thoughts to your mind wouldn’t allow you to speak. “you should feel her yourself. she’s so goddamn tight. it’ll take both of us to loosen her up.”
“i thought i told you to leave her alone,” yuta growled. much to your surprise. maybe he was innocent, but he wasn’t that innocent. he knew half of what johnny was up to all along - he could have done more to protect you from someone he was full aware was dangerous. 
johnny countered, “and i thought i told you no promises.” then, he leaned lower, clamping his teeth into your shoulder to stifle a moan. consequently, you let out a whimper. “don’t act like a saint, my friend. you know you want this just as bad.”
you blinked through your tears. that was news to you. yuta was heavily flirtatious, as were you, but it never went anywhere and you figured it meant nothing. your ears were attentive, waiting to find something in his response to redeem him before he was beyond reclaim. as unforgivable as everything else he had done was, you didn’t want to consider that it was possible for yuta to even want to do anything similar to you.
you heard rushing and fumbling in the background and yuta’s voice said, “y/n, can you hear me? i’m so fucking sorry. i’m on the way.”
johnny simply rammed his hips into you harder, making you squeal from the impact. you closed your eyes and leveled your breath. it was too late for you. johnny was already having as much fun with you as he wanted. 
“yuta’s not gonna save you, baby,” johnny sang to you directly. he did what he pleased, not caring what anyone had to say about it. that was the johnny you knew and had always known. “nobody can.”
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doot-boi · 9 months ago
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"But Finrod walks with Finarfin his father beneath the trees in Eldamar"
I think it's no surprise to my followers who pay attention to my silm posting that I love Finrod Felagund's character, but this is the line that sticks with me heavily. Within the Quenta Silmarillion, it is told that all of those Ñoldor caught within the Doom of Mandos and of the Silmarils will "yearn for [their] bodies, and find little pity", which is often taken to mean that none of those who left Valinor would be granted the possibility of returning to physical form, to live in the bliss of Aman (though arguments can clearly be made that only those who participated in the kinslaying were under such a doom, but I choose to ignore that). That's what makes this line so much more impactful to me, along with a more important facet; it's placement in the chapter.
Just 2 pages earlier, at his death, Finrod says it will be long before he is seen again amongst his people, perhaps believing he will not be granted a bodily form until such a time as the rest of the Ñoldor would be. He dies in the darkness of his corrupted tower, and is mourned at length by Beren until Lúthien his love arrives and rouses him, and together their hope is kindled again as the sun rises (a very common theme in Tolkien's works). They honour and bury Finrod atop the island, a tomb to be unchanged until the War of Wrath caused upheaval in all of Beleriand
It's here that this line comes in. His tomb is inviolate until all the land is, but he himself walks with his father, the only of Finwë's sons to remain in Valinor, and that says so many things.
He is one of few, or perhaps the only, Ñoldorin exile to be gifted bodily rebirth. He surpassed the Doom of Mandos (see my 2nd link in paragraph 1)
His father welcomes him home and forgives his leaving
No matter the state of his grave, Felagund is himself unmarred
No timeline is given for Finrod's bodily resurrection, but I choose to believe it is before the end of the First Age (and the fandom wiki agrees, tolkien gateway being more vague), for no other reason than Eärendil. It is because of Finrod, his assistance of and sacrifice for Beren, that the man of Bëor lives long enough to be united with Lúthien in the Quest, and they, along with Huan, are able to retrieve the Silmaril that Eärendil brings to Aman. I consider that Finrod is likely unaware of the success of the Quest, given it seems the rest of Valinor was (or at least they waited for a plea from Middle-Earth before acting on anything). Imagine his wonder, his pride, and his joy, at seeing that not only was the quest successful, but here, 80 years after he died, he sees Beren and Lúthien's grandson-in-law bearing the jewel. I wonder what he would have said to Amarië his love, if he would have remarked in joyous tears that the horrors and the death that led him back into Aman were not faced in vain. I wonder if, taking up his weapon to participate in the War of Wrath, he either sat a moment in sorrow, or in hope, or in some other emotion, considering what lay ahead of him, and as he came home afterwards with many of his kinsfolk, what he felt as he came to the bliss that would last until the changing of the world.
No matter his feelings on the Wars, what his experiences are and what he goes through after his resurrection, we know this:
Finrod walks with Finarfin his father beneath the trees of Eldamar
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pickinglilahs · 1 year ago
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Blackeclipse for the soul
Soulmate au
No idea how long this is
Part 1; Part 2; Part 3; Part 4; Part 5; Part 6; Part 6.5; Part 8
Remus/James/Regulus (Reggie isn't mentioned till Part 2)
I would make this a longer, more in-depth fic...but then I'd never finish it
Most people have their Soul Marks on their hands or arms. They are the lucky ones. You can usually see it appear as you shake their hand or whatever.
Even people who have them higher up on their biceps or chest from running into each other can usually see who they ran into, can feel the Mark rise to the surface.
Very few who have a Mark don't know who their Soulmate is. The people who were jostled in a crowd and didn't feel it forming. Those who met so many people at a time that it was impossible to identify the correct one.
Remus Lupin had never been lucky.
It was in his third year at Hogwarts that Madam Pomfrey brought up the Mark on his shoulder. She had asked him why he wasn't using their soul bond to help with the pain and recovery.
At his confusion, she had produced a mirror. Sure enough, on the back of his right shoulder, there was a moon inside of a sun. It looked as big as his palm and was very clearly a Soul Mark.
Poppy was surprised he didn't know it was there. Apparently, she had seen it the first Full he had spent in the castle and assumed he knew. It was rare that someone didn't know, so she hadn't thought to ask.
In a matter of seconds, Remus had resigned himself to the knowledge that he would never know his Soulmate.
There was no way to track your Soulmate until the bond was complete. So, short of posting a picture of his mark around the castle, there really wasn't anything he could do. And that was, of course, assuming they even went to Hogwarts.
It wasn't until two years later, almost to the day, that his luck changed.
~~~
He was roused by someone gently running their fingers through his hair. He was lying on his side and definitely in the Shrieking Shack.
"Hey, Moons." It was James. Remus didn't even need to open his eyes to see the tired smile on his friend's face. "Poppy will be here soon. We have to go, but we'll meet you in the hospital wing, okay?"
Remus nodded, or, at least, he tried to. He wasn't sure how successful he was considering his head felt like it had been stuffed with cotton, then used as a bludger.
Still, James must have gotten the message because he heard the other boy stand and move away. There was a soft chorus of 'bye's and 'see you in a bit's as his friends left.
It had been a success, then. The Wolf hadn't attacked his friends while they held their animagi forms. Despite his best efforts, Remus felt tears rolling sideways down to his ear.
He couldn't remember last night, but the knowledge that he hadn't been alone was enough. And, as he slowly came further into consciousness, he realized that he wasn't torn and bloody.
He didn't know if this was because his friends had already healed him, or if they had stopped him from hurting himself in the first place.
Before he could start worrying about if he had hurt his friends instead, he heard Poppy coming up from the tunnel. Remus pushed himself upright and looked over his shoulder in time to see her step through the doorway.
She helped him dress, stand, and make his way back through the tunnel. By the time they reached the castle, he almost felt better. Poppy clearly noticed the change, but she kept her comments—and suspicions—to herself.
He hadn't been settled into the hospital wing for more than five minutes when James came in with a plate of food. At this, an alarm bell went off in Remus' brain, and it took him a moment to realize why.
James was alone.
And he looked nervous.
Panic gripped Remus' heart and it must have shown on his face because James ran the last few steps to his bed.
He set the food aside and took Remus' face in both hands. "Hey, hey. Everyone's fine. No one's hurt. It was a success! We're all okay! I promise!" James' words were hushed but adamant.
Remus searched his face for any sign of a lie. Upon finding none, he slowly let out a breath. "But- Then...Why..." Remus wasn't sure how to phrase his question. He wasn't used to being at a loss for words, but his heart was still thumping painfully in his chest.
James, sitting on his bed now, stoked his thumbs over Remus' cheekbones. He smiled shyly at Remus for a moment before, "Because... I have something to tell you." At the renewed fear in Remus' eyes and the way he brought his own hands up to hold James' forearms, he hurried on. "It's not bad! It's nothing bad, just... Strange? No, not strange. Um... Unexpected?"
Remus' fear almost completely dissolved into confusion as James struggled. "James, if it's not bad, why are you nervous? And why did you have to come alone to tell me?" His voice was rough and weak, but he really couldn't take much more suspense.
James paused, took a deep breath—hands still on Remus' face—looked him in the eyes, and blurted, "We'reSoulmatesandIdidn'tknowhowtotellyoubecauseyouneversaidanythingandIdidn'tknowhowyou'dreact"
Remus froze.
He stopped breathing.
His brain short-circuited.
His heart stopped beating.
Well, that may be an exaggeration, but everything after 'We're Soulmates' was lost on him.
They were roommates. They had been roommates for YEARS now! How did they not know? How had none of them ever noticed? How did James know now? What changed? Had James really never seen his Mark before?
An eternity passed before James quietly whispered, "Remus?"
He startled, eyes focusing back on James. "Where?"
He didn't need to elaborate; James was already moving. He stood and unbuttoned his trousers. Out of habit, Remus looked away.
And then it hit him. Of course! Remus looked back and, sure enough, there was the matching Mark. James was holding his pants in such a way that the Mark was visible, but his crotch wasn't. Because there it was. On James' right hip bone, low enough to be covered by his pants and close enough to his crotch that Remus had always averted his eyes.
He had heard James and Sirius talking about it in first year, but Remus didn't know he had one then. And by the time Poppy had brought up his Mark, he had all but forgotten about James'. His immediate resignation to never finding his soulmate had kept him from telling his friends at all. He also assumed, like Poppy had with him, that they already knew it was there.
They both jumped when Remus' fingers brushed the Mark. He hadn't meant to reach out, but he was a moth to a flame. His fingers tingled as they brushed James' skin; the Mark turning silver under his touch.
Poppy cleared her throat and they both jumped again. James quickly pulled his trousers back up and Remus firmly set his hands in his lap. But she was smiling at them.
Well, she was frowning, but the arch of her eyebrow and the look in her eye showed clear amusement. "Please keep your trousers on Mr. Potter. This is not the lavatory."
James nodded quickly, but both boys smiled at her as she came over. She had James join Remus on the bed so she could show them how to use their bond to heal each other.
Because their marks were in such odd places, she had them put their hands over each other's Marks; on top of their clothes. So really, James just put his arm around him, and Remus laid on his side, hand on James' hip.
By the time they were settled and Poppy was done explaining, Remus was fast asleep.
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fedorah-the-explorah · 7 months ago
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"please just breath......"
It was a dirty trick, and stupidly, Graham hadn't thought to expect it.
It was a real shitty night. Rain fell in sheets, and powerful gusts of wind were hitting up to 80MPH. Most sane people sat safely in their boarded up homes, sheltering from the hurricane force winds; but Graham Calloway worked for an organization that quite literally had the words "villainous" and "evil" right there in its name, so. Personal safety was not something they'd call a "concern."
It was an archeological site; much like the one from the ill-fated Casa Blanca heist a couple years ago. And Graham, to his credit, was on a roll.
He'd planned the entire thing down to every last detail. El Topo and Le Chèvre had been placed on perimeter with strict instructions to let Carmen win without making it too obvious. Sheena was placed within the site itself and made for the perfect decoy while Graham pulled off the rest.
Artifact secured, he now lurked in the shadows, watching as the women fought from above. He smirked, pleased with himself for his rousing success. The mission was over, and Carmen had remained totally oblivious to his presence. Now it was time to gloat.
He stepped out into the moonlight and shielded his eyes against the slowing rain as he whistled up to Tigress.
"Oi!" He cried, "Job's done, you can give it a rest!"
The women stopped, turning in sync to look at him. Tigress grinned and cocked a hip. She flicked her hair and raindrops went flying. Next to her, Carmen stood rigid as she leered down at him. The rain had slowed to a steady drizzle, and he could see from there the hurt flashing in her eyes.
A small part of him faltered. She had left him, but...
Well.
He had tried to rip out and kill the piece of him that still cared for her, and he had failed. The heart kept score, and it was not so quick to forget. It had been years, but still, he occasionally found himself pulling a punch or two.
If she sometimes did the same, they never talked about it. And why would they? They barely spoke at all. Carmen might've been quick-witted with the others, but she iced him out with silence. Since that night on the train a year ago, the two had barely exchanged more than three words.
He blinked and shook his head free of any love lorn angsting. They made their choices.
Suddenly, Tigress lunged.
The battle had already been won, but what did that matter? When an enemy leaves herself open to attack, why the hell shouldn't you?
Carmen was quick, but she had the disadvantage of distraction. She turned to meet Tigress a second too late and instead caught a blow that sent her staggering over the edge.
She fell fourteen feet, and Graham watched.
Maybe he could have done something. Maybe he couldn't have.
It didn't matter, he watched.
She twisted before hitting the ground and prevented a landing that would have killed her. Still, she didn't quite stick it.
Her body thudded against the floor, and her left arm, which she had used with her right to break her fall, lay broken at an awkward angle.
Tigress cackled from above and called out, "That'll keep her down for a while!"
Graham glanced from Carmen to Tigress and did nothing because he was useless.
"I'll meet you at the hotel," She said, flicking her pretty blonde hair.
He swallowed the lump in his throat and watched her stalk off. He thought about following, and he thought about helping. Both options were as appealing as they were not.
He didn't want to care about her anymore. It was tedious, and painful, and more trouble than it was worth. They made their choices.
He turned his back to her and started after Tigress. There was no need for guilt; she would do the same.
He stopped suddenly, staring at his feet. She would do the same. In a way, she already had. Granted, the straits had not been so dire...
She groaned softly, and though it was almost inaudible, it cut straight to his heart. It occurred to him then that it didn't matter what she would do.
He closed his eyes and felt a headache forming.
"Ah, fuck." He said, kicking up dirt.
He turned back around and trudged over to her. He crouched down and poked her.
"Hey. You good?"
She let out this sort of displeased, animalistic groan that did a really cool job of showcasing both her displeasure and pain. She attempted to sit up, and her left arm spasmed. She cried out and collapsed, breathing raggedly. She squeezed her eyes shut tight.
"...Fuck...You..." She wheezed.
He rolled his eyes. "Alright," He said, taking hold of her, "Heeere we go."
"Wait--" She gasped, but he didn't listen. He pulled her up, and the motion forced a hoarse scream. He startled, yanking his hands away.
"Woah, hey--"
Letting her go in this state was not his brightest idea, and this became evident when she keeled over approximately two seconds later. He caught her, held her, and questioned his sanity-- all in that order.
She trembled against him, her breath hitching in soft, pained gasps. His hands hovered awkwardly over her back.
"C'mon, Lamb, it's just a broken bone...?"
She shook her head.
"No?"
"Hurts..." She wheezed, "...breathing."
"Oh."
"Oh." She mocked.
His eyebrows creased, and he scowled. "Are you kidding me?" He grabbed her and laid her gently on her right side, "Don't mock me if you're having breathing problems."
"Kill... y'self... I...dowhatiwant..." She winced and screwed her eyes shut, curling in on herself. "Ow."
"Uh huh. And how's that working out for you?"
She coughed once and brought up blood.
He inhaled sharply and his eyes blew wide.
"Shit!" He swore, "Carmen!"
"Nnnnngh."
"How could you let her do that to you? You're better than this!"
"What?! This 's--"
He backpeddled. "No, no, don't speak. I shouldn't have said that. We all have the occasional miss. Just focus on breathing, okay? Is your team around?"
She nodded. "on their way..."
She wheezed and wrapped her right arm around her midsection. She curled further in on herself as her brow creased with pain. "...this's humiliating..."
"Carmen."
"...once fell... off... moving truck."
"I'd heard."
"...was 'pletely fine..."
"Yep. Mhm. You're very impressive, I mean it. Now please, just breathe. You're only hurting yourself."
She attempted to smirk, but it presented more as a grimace. "Just thought you should..."
"...Know who I'm dealing with. Yep, I get it. Now shhh."
She glared at him. He frowned at her.
"Just take it easy, okay?"
She grunted. "wha'ver"
He sighed and sat cross-legged, settling in to wait for her team. He warily eyed their surroundings and decided to call it luck that this of all nights, they were hit with a tropical storm. It was unlikely anyone else would be out in this weather, and that helped their odds.
He turned back to Carmen and watched her. Her left arm was held close to her chest, and every so often, she would twitch her fingers or rotate her wrist as if to confirm they still worked. Her chest rose and fell in shallow, ragged breaths, and with every short inhale, he heard what could have been mistaken for whimpering catching in her throat.
He worried on his bottom lip as something he tried to keep buried stirred within him.
For the sake of the heist, he had planned things so Carmen wouldn't see him until the last minute, but it was more than just the mission.
He's never regretted doing VILEs bidding. From the day he graduated, he knew what he was signing up for, and that didn't bother him. The maiming and the cheating and the stealing? Call him a bad person because he was, but he didn't regret any of that stuff.
That night on the train, however...
He had almost crossed a line that night. When he set his crackle rod to kill and pointed it at the woman he--
He...
He couldn't bear to see her hurt.
Consumed with self-pity and remorse, Graham did not immediately notice when Carmen's already quick, shallow breathing turned harsh and rapid. He only snapped out of it when she reached for him with her trembling right hand and weakly grabbed his knee.
"Carmen?"
Her eyes were wide with fear, and her skin had taken on a deathly pallor as she struggled to breathe. She brought her hand to her throat, mimicking the choking gesture.
"Can't..." She croaked, "...get 'nough air."
He wasn't sure what possessed him, but before thinking better of it, he reached over and cupped the side of her face.
"You're hyperventilating, love. Try taking deep breaths."
Her eyes welled with tears, and her bottom lip quivered. Her breathing was still erratic.
"Shh. Deep breaths, hon. You're okay."
She nodded and closed her eyes. She drew in a shuddering breath but stopped suddenly as she sobbed. Tears slipped past her eyes, and he wiped them away.
"Keep going."
She whimpered, and he could only guess how painful this must've been for her. He'd cracked a rib or two in the past, and the pain of that had made him consider the merit of simply ceasing to respirate. Based on her everything, Graham would venture a guess that she suffered much more than a cracked rib or two. If he were in her place, he might have also chosen asphyxiation.
He brushed the hair from her face and rubbed her temple. "Help is coming, Carmen. Just keep breathing, okay? You're doing so well."
"...don' patronize me."
He snorted and retracted his hand. She was so...
She opened her eyes to leer at him. "...didn't tell you t'stop..."
He stared at her incredulously. "You're really something else, you know that?" He returned his hand, "And didn't I tell you to stop talking? Doesn't it hurt?"
"...not bad... as.. breathing."
He rolled his eyes. "Yeah, well. Unfortunately for you, breathing is something of a necessity, so."
"Hmm." She leaned into his touch and said nothing.
He gulped, and his heart did this weird skippy thing. Her weird moment of panic had passed, but she was still acting so... strange.
They'd gone an entire year of saying nothing to one another whenever they crossed paths, and now he was cradling her face while comforting her. And she was letting him.
As much as it should be, hate was not the word he'd use to describe his feelings towards her.
He wasn't sure how much time had passed before her red-headed lackeys came shouting her name, but by the time that they did, the rain had settled, and the wind died down a little. The storm was passing on.
"Carm!"
Graham turned his head and saw the girl lackey racing down the makeshift stair case two steps at a time.
"Carmen, I am so sorry," Ivy said, crouching down on her other side, "The storm made getting around absolutely suck. Are you okay? Sorry, that's a stupid question. Get your hands off her!"
He yanked away from her and held his hands up, feeling oddly intimidated.
"She needs a hospital," said Graham.
"Yeah, no shit." Said Ivy.
"No hospitals!"
"Hush!" Said Graham and Ivy.
Carmen grumbled, finding it within her to pout. "'m gonna need... the three of you... t'stop yelling a' me."
"Three?"
"She's delirious," Ivy explained, "She's forgotten how to count."
Graham narrowed his eyes and pretended he didn't notice the way her eyes flickered to Carmen's earring. "...Okay."
"Alright, Carm. Let's get you out of here."
Carmen yelped as she picked her up, tears pricking at the corners of her eyes. Graham scowled.
"Careful with her!" He snapped.
Ivy's gaze turned icy, the type of cold that killed. "Excuse me?"
"Uh..." Graham rubbed the back of his neck, averting eye contact. "You jostled her, 's all... I--"
"--Don't fucking talk to me about how to help my friend, Crackle. You have no right."
"Look--"
"--If you actually cared about her, we wouldn't be here. So I'd thank you to shut your mouth and walk the fuck away."
"I just want to make sure she's okay!"
"Well, she's not!"
Graham winced.
Carmen groaned, shifting in her arms. "...Ivy..."
"Hush, Carm. This guy is pathetic." She leveled a glare at him, "I don't know what you ever saw in him."
She continued to glare at him, waiting. As if expecting an explanation.
He had none to give.
They made their choices.
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Lady of the Ashes: Chapter 8
House of the Dragon Season 1
Aemond x TargaryenOC
Chapter Word Count: 5506
She was his everything… For her…he would do anything.
From the moment of her birth, Aemond Targaryen swore himself to the protection of his niece Aelinor Velaryon. As the two grew up inseparable, they find themselves entangled in the Dance of Dragons, battling to stay together even as their families try to pull them apart.
A/N: Sorry for the delay! Accidentally posted this one to the wrong blog haha Thanks for reading! Cross posted on A03
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Masterlist A03
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 P.1 P.2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7
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Aelinor was awake even before the sun had appeared through her window. She had not slept well, and was still exhausted from her late night, but she knew that this morning would not be one for leisure.
She wanted nothing more than to remain curled up under her blankets, but she could already hear people moving about in the parlor. Ser Vaemond would make his petition before the king at ten bells, and she had no doubt that courtiers would be flooding the throne room from the early hours, determined to get the best spot.
When she arrived in the parlor her mother was pacing back and forth, one hand on her swollen belly and the other twisting nervously at her side.
“You must rest, Mother,” Aelinor cautioned. “These nerves cannot be good for the baby.”
Rhaenyra held out a hand as her daughter stepped closer, and Aelinor took it in both of her own. “I trust you slept well.”
“As well as can be expected,” Aelinor sighed. “But come, you must sit.”
Rhaenyra shook her head. “I find myself restless. It is best that I stay on my feet.”
Aelinor gave a little smile. “I trust this isn’t a sign of my sibling to come. I could not handle another little boy with Joff’s energy.”
“It could be a girl, you know.” Rhaenyra said. “You could have a sister.”
Aelinor pursed her lips. “I suppose it could. But I shall rejoice all the same. As it is, Baela and Rhaena are all the sisters I need.” She caught her mother’s eye, letting her know just how much she meant that.
Rhaenyra sighed. “Aelinor, if you wish to speak about your father we could—”
“My father,” Aelinor said quickly. “Was Ser Laenor Velaryon. No other.”
“But we could—”
“Today is about Luc, Mother,” Aelinor said. “About his succession. We share a father, and I will stand with him as he claims the seat to which our father’s blood entitles him. As Velaryons.”
Rhaenyra squeezed her hand. “He would be a good father to you, Aelinor. I know it.”
How many times throughout the years had Aelinor wondered the same thing. This was as close as her mother had ever come to just flat out admitting the truth. Daemon Targaryen was her father. She knew it, he knew it, Baela and Rhaena almost certainly knew it. She did not think Jace and Luc were aware, and she wanted to keep it that way. It had not been Daemon Targaryen who had bandaged her bruised knees, who had taken her for her first dragonflight atop Seasmoke. No, that was her true father, a man now nine years in his grave.
But she knew her mother longed for them all to be a family. And she would not jeopardize that for anything. No matter what she suspected, family was the most important thing in the world to her, and she knew Daemon would kill for her mother, possibly even for her and her brothers.
“So long as he is good to you, Mother.” She smiled. “Now, should I begin getting ready?”
Rhaenyra looked as if she wanted to say more, but nodded. “Yes, we should all get ready. I’ll rouse the boys, and I’ll have a maid bring your dress to you.”
“No options for today?” Aelinor asked, recalling the dresses she had tried on for the ball the day before.
Rhaenyra shook her head, giving her daughter’s hand one extra tight squeeze. “It brings me heart, Daughter, to hear you speak of standing together.”
“Of course, Mother.” Aelinor nodded, dropping her mother’s hand. “I am with you, always. Now, you can rouse Luc. Because I love you so, I shall attempt to awaken the beast that is Jace.”
Rhaenyra laughed. “Then I wish you luck. I don’t think he returned to his chambers until well past midnight.”
“I think it was practically morning.” Aelinor forced a laugh. “But I’ll get him. And we shall all make ourselves presentable for you.”
Aelinor waited until her mother was gone before hurrying to Jace’s door, not even knocking before pushing her way inside. 
“Jace?” She hissed. “Are you awake?”
The shape on the bed groaned, so she moved to the window and threw open the curtains. “Let me see. We need to be presentable and I need to see how bad it is.”
Jace protested loudly at the light, pushing himself into a sitting position. Aelinor sat on the edge of his mattress, watching as he stretched both of his arms. He was shirtless, his pale skin unmarred except for a ring of dark bruises around the base of his neck. Bruises that Aemond had put there.
Aelinor clucked her tongue, reaching out to touch the edge of a bruise. “Does it hurt terribly? should I fetch something?”
“It’s fine,” Jace sighed. “My tunic should cover it.”
“And your arm?” She asked worriedly. “I could call a maester.”
“No, I…” Jace blinked sleep from his eyes and studied her. “Gods, Aelinor, why are you fretting so much?”
She punched his leg through the blanket. “Because you’re my brother and you’re hurt, you idiot. Am I not allowed to be worried? Besides, it’s my—”
“Don’t you dare say it’s your fault.” Jace interrupted her.
“You said that last night?”
“Did I?” He rubbed the back of his neck. “Sorry. I’d had a bit to drink. I should never have made you think that this was your fault. This was only Aemond’s doing. No one else’s. Which means you don’t need to be such a mother hen.”
Aelinor sighed. “I just…there has to be more to it, Jace. If I just talked to him.”
“He’s dangerous,” Jace protested. “Do you not see these bruises? This probably would have broken your neck.”
She rolled her eyes. “You aren’t that strong, and I’m not made of glass. Besides, Aemond would never hurt me.”
“Aelinor.”
“Jacaerys.” She crossed her arms. 
They stared at each other for a long moment, before he threw himself back into his pillows. “You’re impossible, you know that?”
“I’m right,” She stood, grabbing the covers and dragging them off of him. “This entire thing is supposed to be about bringing the family together. I’m not just going to stop talking to my best friend.”
“Your best friend?” Jace clawed the covers back. “Does he know that that’s what he is? Your friend?”
Aelinor groaned. “Obviously it’s more than that, Jace. Either way, I shall speak with him and find out what reason he had for attacking you. I’m sure it was all a misunderstanding.”
“And I’m sure that the only reason I’m alive is because I’m your brother,” Jace said. “If anyone else had insulted you, he probably would’ve fed them to Vhagar.”
Aelinor faked a gasp. “Are you saying you wouldn’t feed someone to Vermax to defend my honor?”
“Obviously I would,” Jace managed to wrestle the blankets out of her grip. “I would just be more diplomatic about it.”
“So you say,” She laughed. “Just leave it to me, Jace. I’ll sort out this mess. Now, get ready before Mother’s nerves give out.”
She stepped out into the hallway, nearly running into the maid coming from her room. “Your gown is inside, Princess. Will you require assistance dressing?”
Aelinor shook her head. “I’ll shout if I need help with the laces.”
“Certainly, Princess.”
She was just about to step into her room when the door next to hers opened. “Aelinor?”
“What is it, Luc?” She stopped in the doorway.
Her younger brother stepped out of his room, already dressed in his tunic, though he wore mismatched boots. “Which ones should I wear? These ones make me look taller, but these—”
“You don’t need to get any taller, Luc.” She laughed. “I already have to look up at you.”
“That’s because you forgot to grow,” He responded with an old joke, one she used to make all the time before he caught up to her in height. “But alright. Are you not ready?”
“I will get dressed now,” She stepped over to ruffle his hair. “Don’t worry, Little Tidemaster. Everything will go well.”
He batted her hand away, and she was chuckling when she closed her bedroom door behind her.
She would be lying if she said that she was truly confident about this hearing. Since she had been at court, little more than two days, she had heard nothing but rumors of Lucerys’ parentage, which she knew had likely been spread by the Queen. There was every possibility that this trial was simply a chance for Queen Alicent to weaken Rhaenyra’s claim on the throne through her children. 
But, it was a settled succession, and even with the Sea Snake’s injury there could be no good reason to challenge it that did not constitute treason. She just had to pray that everyone stuck to their own honor, and all would be well.
Her mother’s vision for a united family became clear when she saw the gown laid out on her bed. She changed quickly, slipping into the fitted black gown and managing to adjust the laces on her own. The dress was made of a thick material with embroidered dragon scales dotting the shoulders. It clung tightly to her hips before spilling out into a wider skirt, and the neckline fell wide on her collar bones. The sleeves were a deep Targaryen red, hanging nearly to her knees. At least she would not have to wear gloves with this gown, and her mother had not provided her with any.
She was running a brush through her hair when there was a knock on her door.
“Come in, Luc!” She called. “I’m nearly done!”
The door opened, but it wasn’t Luc who stepped inside.
“Prince Daemon,” She turned quickly, dropping the brush on her bed. “Is something the matter?”
The Prince was already dressed, Dark Sister hanging at his side, and he had both hands resting on the pommel as he stepped into her room, closing the door behind him. In nine years, Aelinor could not recall ever being alone with him like this. With her father.
He studied her for a long moment, a glimmer of approval in his eyes. “You’re ready, then?”
“I am.” She clasped her hands in front of her, noting how his gaze caught on her injured hand, She resisted the urge to hide it in her sleeve. “May I help you with something?”
He walked slowly around the room, examining the few meager possessions that she had unpacked. “Today is a very important day for your mother and brother.”
“I know that.” She said, turning as he moved. “And I shall do whatever necessary to help them assert their claims.”
“Will you?” He seemed genuinely surprised. “I spoke to your mother this morning. She told me of your…conversation.”
Aelinor crossed her arms. “Give me some credit, Prince Daemon. Whatever point you are trying to make, make it.”
He stopped, his fingers tapping against the pommel of his sword. “You do not call me Father.”
“No, I do not.”
“Why?”
“Do you want me to?” She scoffed, unable to believe that he was the sentimental type.
He tilted his head, considering it. “It would make your mother happy.”
“And I place my mother’s happiness above all else, except in this.” Aelinor said. “Or are we to pretend you were thinking of my happiness, or Luc or Jace’s, when you murdered the man who had raised us.”
Daemon’s lips curled upwards. “There it is. I knew my daughter was in there somewhere.”
“You have two other daughters, Prince Daemon .” Aelinor glared at him. “I think I have made it exceedingly clear how I feel about you. Now, I ask again. What do you want?”
She did not like how he studied her. Her father — because denying that he was her blood was fruitless — often reminded her of a dragon about to seize its prey. He was still, deathly so, and yet his eyes took everything in with frightening speed. And now that focus was trained on her. It should have been terrifying, but some part of her recognized herself in his gaze, and so she stood her ground.
Finally, he reached into the pocket of his tunic. “I have something for you.”
She blinked. “For me?”
“Did you not understand me the first time?” He held out a hand. “Here.”
Against her better judgement, Aelinor held out her hand, letting him drop a small metal object into her palm. It was surprisingly heavy, but when she held it close to her face, she found it to be nothing more than a hair bauble.
“A hairpin?” She said incredulously. Prince Daemon did not seem the type to give frivolous gifts, and yet that was what this was. She lifted it between two fingers. The metal was a steely silver, with the circle of the pin cast with small dragon scales, and the pin itself sharp as a dagger on one end, and shaped as a dragon’s head on the other, with a deep red gem inset as the eye. It was finely made, that was true, but it was still a hairpin.
“Why have you given me this?” She knew it was rude not to thank him, but she found the entire thing so out of character that it was unsettling.
He was quiet again, considering his words before he spoke. “It’s Valyrian steel. That particular piece came over with the Conqueror. If the rumors are to be believed, it was worn by Queen Rhaenys herself.”
“Truly?” Aelinor gasped, holding it up the light. “It is extraordinary.” Lowering it slightly, she looked at her father. “Why?”
There were a thousand questions wrapped up in that one. Why now? Why this? Have you suddenly decided to try and be a father to me? 
“It belonged to my mother.” Daemon said finally. “And it should belong to my eldest daughter.”
Her lips parted, something like warmth flooding through her. Princess Alyssa was spoken of like a god in their household, the beloved mother of King Viserys and Prince Daemon who had reportedly been a figure of light and love. To be gifted something of hers…Aelinor was without words.
“I…thank you.” She said quietly. “I don’t know what to say.”
“You don’t need to say anything,” Daemon said, gripping his sword with one hand. “Wear it. Today. Let everyone see that ours is the line of Old Valyria. Wear it for your mother.”
Aelinor nodded. “I shall.”
Prince Daemon gave a curt nod, and then left without a word.
Aelinor closed her palm of the pin, feeling the metal bite into her skin as she pressed. The pin was sharp enough to puncture flesh. She closed her eyes and tried to imagine this same metal in the hands of Princess Alyssa, or even Queen Rhaenys at the time of the Conquest. She wanted to feel some part of her ancestry sing into her blood through the cold steel.
But at the end, she felt only empty metal, and the only meaning it carried was that of the man who had given it to her. Complicated. Unyielding.
Moving to the large mirror in her chamber, Aelinor swept half of her hair up and away from her face, securing it at the back of her head with the pin. When she turned, the ruby eye glinted through her silver hair. 
She searched for her mother’s face in her reflection, for some hint of familiarity. But the more she looked, the more she settled on just how much she looked like her father. What use was it denying that which was so obvious?
“Aelinor?” Her bedroom door crept open. “Are you ready?”
She sighed, turning to Luc with a smile. “Well, heir to Driftmark? Will I do?”
“Aelinor, you…” He stepped inside, taking her hand in his and giving it a squeeze. “You look like a princess.”
“Don’t I always?” She teased. 
“Of course you do,” He bumped her to the side as they started to walk out of the room. “I just meant…”
“I know what you meant. “She sighed. “Now, let’s get this over with.”
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As if the entire ordeal weren’t enough of an insult, Princess Rhaenyra and her family were expected to wait in the corridor outside the throne room until it was time for them to be heard. They were forced to stand outside, watching as throngs of nobles made their way into the room ahead of them. Already Aelinor felt a sense of dread building. Whether they achieved the desired result or not, this would be a spectacle. Her family would become a spectacle.
It was enough to have her picking loose threads out of her gown in nervousness.
“You’re going to ruin your beautiful gown, cousin.” Rhaena said.
Aelinor sighed, looking up at her two cousins. “Sorry. I suppose my nerves are getting the better of me.”
Baela reached out to give her arm a squeeze. “With the news of the engagement, surely things must go our way. You should not be so worried.”
“I would not trust that the Hand or the Queen will take your betrothals as enough.” Aelinor said. “They’ve been waiting for this day a long time.”
They all looked to where their parents stood, Rhaenyra pacing back and forth and Daemon tracking her with his eyes, his expression unreadable. She sometimes wondered if Baela and Rhaena knew the truth of her parentage, that her existence meant that their father had been unfaithful to their mother. Sometimes she thought Baela might know, often making a comment about their sisterhood in such a way as to make Aelinor think she knew the truth, but she had not spent enough time with Rhaena to glean whether she knew as well. She did not think either of them would hold it against her, but she also did not want to throw their peculiar family even more out of sorts.
“Speaking of the betrothals,” She said quietly. “My congratulations to you both. I did not have a chance to speak with you last evening.”
“Thank you, Cousin.” Rhaena smiled, but Baela gave Aelinor a look of regret, reaching out to touch her shoulder.
“I am sorry, Aelinor, that it happened that way.” She apologized. “I did not—”
Aelinor shook her head. “I’ve heard enough apologies from my mother, and I know no one wanted me to be surprised in that way. Jace and I were not suited, and I can bear a little court gossip if it guarantees you your happiness.”
She meant it. She loved her cousins, and she loved her brothers, and she truly thought that they were all well matched. If that announcement had come in the form of a breakfast declaration or an intimate family gathering, she likely would have been the first to rejoice. It was only the unfamiliar setting of the ball, and the strangers surrounding her that had dulled her enthusiasm. After having slept on it, she truly was brimming with happiness for her family. 
“Think,” Baela grinned. “Now we shall all be sisters.”
They shared a knowing grin, before schooling their faces into something more dignified as more nobles flooded past.
“I’m going to go wait over there,” Aelinor pointed around the corner, where she would be out of view of her family. 
“Why?” Rhaena asked. “Hiding from us?”
“Hardly,” Aelinor laughed. “I’m just…waiting for someone.”
The girls let her go, and she stepped around the corner and took a deep breath. She did not want to enter this trial without speaking to Aemond, without getting to the truth of what had happened the night before. Despite what Jace said, she knew that there had to be more to it than a simple insult. There had to be.
Her prayers were answered when Aemond strode around the corner, alone and unaccompanied. His eye settled on her and he nearly skipped a step, before catching himself. She could not read the expression on his face, his lips pressed tightly together and his jaw clenched.
“Aemond,” She said quietly, aware that her family would be able to hear if she spoke any louder. “You’re early.”
“Yes, well.” He clasped both hands behind his back. “What of it?”
Ignoring his curt tone, Aelinor gave him a little smile. He had come early to speak with her, she knew it. 
“Is everything alright?” She asked. “Jace came back last night and said—”
“What did he say?” Aemond asked quickly, his eyes meeting hers like a clash of swords.
Aelinor swallowed. “He said that you attacked him. That it had something to do with my honor. But I know that cannot be true.”
Aemond didn’t respond.
“And now he thinks you’re dangerous,” She said. “But you must tell me the truth, so that I can fix this. Had you had too much to drink? Or perhaps—”
“Perhaps what?” Aemond lifted his chin. “Tell me, Lina, what excuse would justify my beating your brother in the dark of the night.”
Aelinor flinched back at his tone, and something in his face softened. “I just…I just want to know, Aemond.”
“And what…” Aemond’s voice was tight, as if he were speaking without breathing. “What if it was for your honor? What if I decided that he had insulted you enough for one evening, and that I would not stand for it? What then?”
She shook her head. “What do you mean, Aemond? I felt no insult.”
“No?” He stepped closer, and she moved away, her back pressing against the cold stone. “You are too generous, then. I am afraid that I am not so willing as to forgive a slight against you.”
“How was I slighted, Aemond?” She demanded. “The announcement was a shock, but it’s not as if Jace stood in front of the court and declared me defective! I am happy for my family. Truly, I am. I was simply unsettled from the crowd and there being so many unfamiliar faces.”
She reached out her hand and touched his upper arm. “I swear, Aemond.”
His jaw ticked. “I don’t believe you. You spoke of returning to Dragonstone. Of fleeing. Because of what they did! You’ve only just returned, how was I to—”
“So Jace was right then?” She asked. “You truly attacked him over me? You hurt my brother?”
“I let him walk away because he was your brother.” Aemond said. “But what of it, Aelinor? Now that you know what I would do for your honor, are you done? Shall you listen to him? Am I too dangerous? Am I a monster?”
Aelinor was shaking her head, trying to understand where this was coming from. “No. No! Aemond. Of course you aren’t a monster! Whoever said that you were?”
He did not answer. 
“Aemond, please,” She leaned forward and whispered. “I shall never, ever turn my back on you. You know this. We…we understand each other, don’t we?” She recalled his words the night before, when he had shown her his eye, shouting that he understood her. How could he not tell that it was the same for her?
“Just…let me in.” She begged. “Something has made you unhappy, and I—”
“Brother!” Aegon’s voice carried down the hall, and Aemond jerked out of her grasp. Without looking back, Aemond walked toward his family.
She wanted to go after him, wanted to chase him and demand that he confide in her like he used to. She still did not believe that she had the full story, and she needed to know who had ever told him that he was a monster. That was…that was too cruel to even imagine.
But a hand grabbed her elbow, and then Rhaena was at her side. “Come, Cousin. It is time.”
So with one last longing look over her shoulder, Aelinor went to stand before the Iron Throne.
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Aemond wouldn’t look at her.
It felt like she was nine years old again, standing across from him at Laena Velaryon’s funeral, with him refusing to meet her eyes and her forced to just stand there in dignified silence. Except instead of a funeral on Driftmark, this was a petition before the Iron Throne. And Aelinor wasn’t a child anymore. She understood what the stakes were, and she was determined not to fail Lucerys and her mother.
Keeping her back ramrod straight, she stood at Luc’s side as Ser Vaemond made his petition. Across the way, Alicent stood with her children, all of them looking as if they’d been forced to attend. Aegon was openly yawning and Helaena, who had once been as close to her as a sister, was huddled at his side, as timid as a mouse. Aemond had kept one shoulder angled her way throughout the entire ordeal, as close to turning his back on her as he could come.
All things considered, Ser Vaemond’s case was surprisingly restrained. There were no flying accusations, only a general plea for the preservation of the Velaryon name. Aelinor had imagined hurled insults, perhaps some thinly veiled threats. But it seemed that they were not entirely doomed.
“Princess Rhaenyra, you may now make your case for your son, Lucerys Velaryon.” Otto Hightower spoke down at them from the throne. 
Rhaenyra stepped forward, her face composed. Only Aelinor saw the way her hands shook, the only evidence of just how frightened her mother was.
“If I must grace this farce with an answer, I will begin by—”
The doors at the back of the hall opened. Two hundred heads turned toward it, to the two guards swinging apart the massive doors, and to the small man who stood there.
A strangled sound escaped Aelinor’s mouth.
“The King!” One of the guards shouted.
It was her grandfather. Frail, feeble, shuffling forward as if every step pained him, it was King Viserys. A gold mask covered half of his face — the half that she had seen bandaged the night before — and his golden crown rested on his head.
She turned, watching Otto Hightower stumble down from the throne. The Queen’s face was pale as a ghost, one hand held to her chest.
Aelinor let her eyes drift to the side, where she caught Aemond’s gaze. He must have seen something in her eyes, something that moved him, for her gave her a small nod, his mouth tightening in what might have been a smile. But then his gaze was back on the King, following the sea of people as they bowed in his wake.
Sometimes she forgot that Viserys was Aemond’s father too. He had so rarely spoken of him, being raised much more closely by Queen Alicent, learning the types of things only boys could teach from Ser Criston Cole or his older brother. But she wondered if he too felt this shuttering in his heart, seeing the head of their family rise again.
Aelinor dropped before her grandfather reached her, her curtsy taking her down to the floor. The charcoal skirts pooked around her, her chin dipping low as she felt her family follow in her wake. Only when the edges of his cloak had moved past did she rise, watching as her grandfather reached the foot of his throne.
He turned and said something to Otto Hightower, something that had the Hand nodding shakily, and then he started to climb.
Aelinor wanted to run forward, wanted to take his arm and help him as he struggled, but she knew it was not her place. Instead she knotted her sleeves in her firsts, swallowing her cry as he stumbled and his crown clattered to the floor.
But then someone else was there. Prince Daemon. Her father. The King’s brother. And with surprising tenderness, Prince Daemon helped his brother to his seat, before kneeling and setting the crown back atop his head. As he descended the steps, she shared a look with her father, dipping her chin slightly
Silence hung in the air for a long moment, broken only by the King’s labored breathing. 
“I must admit…my confusion.” The King said suddenly. “I had thought this matter settled. But surely the only person who can shed some light on the wishes of Lord Corlys…is the Princess Rhaenys.”
The Princess Rhaenys stepped forward, bowing to the King. “My husband has never wavered in his desire to be succeeded by our grandson, Prince Lucerys, and I have ever supported him. Additionally, Princess Rhaenyra and I have just announced the betrothal of her sons, Lucerys and Jacaerys, to my granddaughters, Baela and Rheana, an agreement which we have heartily accepted.” 
Aelinor saw the Queen look at the ground, and resisted the urge to grin. 
“Well, then the matter is settled, again.” The King spoke slowly. “I hereby reaffirm Prince Lucerys Velaryon as heir to Driftmark and the Driftwood Throne.”
Aelinor turned to Luc, offering him a smile. They had done it, it was settled. She saw his expression melt in relief.
“You break law, and centuries of tradition, to install your daughter as heir,” Vaemond stepped forward, outrage on his face. “But you dare tell me who deserves to inherit the name Velaryon? No. I will not allow it.”
Aelinor tensed, feeling the room collectively hold his breath. What was he doing? Had the fool gone mad?
“Allow it?” The King hissed. “Do not not forget yourself, Vaemond.”
Let that be it . Aelinor prayed. Please, please let this be it .
But alas, Vaemond did not listen to her prayers.
“That!” He shouted, whirling to point at Luc. “Is no true Velaryon!”
Aelinor stepped forward, pushing Luc behind her. He did not have to stand here and take this abuse, and she was better equipped to handle the fury rolling off their uncle. Over Vaemond’s shoulder, she saw Aemond jerk forward.
“And certainly no nephew of mine.” Vaemond continued.
“Go to your chambers, you have said enough.” Rhaenyra muttered.
But Vaemond remained, his gaze leveled on Aelinor, at the boy who was too tall to hide behind her. Luc’s hand gripped her wrist, and she thought he might be preparing to pull her behind him. What a funny pair they were, an older sister with her big little brother, both of them fighting to protect the other.
Vaemond was still talking. Still ranting, lost completely to madness.
“And gods be damned, I will not see it ended on account of this—” He caught himself.
Aelinor lifted her chin at the same moment she heard her father whisper ‘Say it.”
Vaemond cast his gaze over all of them, presumably deciding whether these were to be his final words. Aelinor saw the exact moment that he chose to accept his fate.
“Her children….” He began. “Are Bastards!”
Everyone gasped.
“And she…and her daughter…are whores.” Vaemond turned to the King, his challenge clear.
Viserys struggled to his feet, drawing a catspaw dagger. “I will have your tongue for that.”
Aelinor was not sure where it came from. One moment she was staring up at her grandfather, waiting for him to declare Vaemond’s life forfeit, and the next there was an unfamiliar whistle through the air, and Daemon’s sword cleaved Vaemond’s head clear in half.
Aelinor jerked back, finding Luc’s arms around her as he pulled her away. She saw Helaena cover her ears, everyone flinching away as the blood sprayed across the marble. Aemond’s hand was on his waist, to where his own sword hung, and she saw the question in his searching look. Are you alright?
She nodded quickly, shrugging out of Luc’s arms, yet staying pressed to his side.
“He can keep his tongue.” Daemon declared, satisfied.
“Seize him!” Otto Hightower cried.
“There is no need.” Daemon sheathed his sword, stepping away from the body. 
Alicent stepped forward, her nose wrinkling as she dodged the top of Vaemond’s skull. “There is every need. To bring this kind of…this kind of savagery into this hall. How dare—”
“Enough!” The King shouted, the power in his voice shocking everyone into silence. “This stops now. This ends today.”
“Father?” Rhaenyra said quietly.
“My King?” Alicent turned, both of them standing at the foot of his throne, staring up at him.
Aelinor looked up too, her mouth parting when she found her grandfather’s gaze trained on her. Confusion crinkled her brow, and she did not find her answer before he looked away and addressed the room.
“I have one last announcement,” He declared. “One which shall benefit our House, and the Seven Kingdoms, in blood and in name.” His breathing was quickening, every word a struggle.
“Your Grace?” Alicent was climbing the steps now, concern coloring her voice.
“I announce the betrothal of my granddaughter, Princess Aelinor Velaryon!” The King shouted.
Her mouth dropped open, and she met Aemond’s gaze, seeing horror flooding his face. This could not be happening. Who could she possibly marry? Her grandfather was sick, his mind addled with pain, and yet he would betroth her to…to…
“To my son, Prince Aemond Targaryen.”
The hall descended into chaos.
QUESTION: Do you think Aelinor chooses Team Green or Team Black? I'd love to hear your guesses.
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throughtrialbyfire · 6 months ago
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𝐖𝐈𝐏 𝐖𝐞𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲 ♥
i'm on time again!!!! >:3 hoping to make this a habit.
tagged by the lovely @your-talos-is-problematic !!!!
tagging the amazing @thequeenofthewinter @orfeoarte @dirty-bosmer @viss-and-pinegar and @oblivions-dawn !!!!
this is a long snippet of the first draft for chapter 33 of Cycle of the Serpent! sleeping in dorms is proving more difficult than expected for the trio. <3
The only thing the College of Whispers had over the dorms in the Bard's College was that at least in the College of Whispers, it was quiet. Aptly living up to its name, the cynosures shrouded in mystery held silence as priority at certain times of day, unless one was practicing the skills learnt during the day. Wyndrelis could say he missed it. One could not expect everyone to be totally and completely quiet, but at the very least, the dorms were often granted silence. The Bard's College, on the other hand, could never hope to say the same. It did not help that the kitchens were so close to the dorms, where a large hearth crackled and spat. It did not help that the year-round students practiced their instruments long into the night. And it certainly did not help that he couldn't hear the breathing of another two elves beside him. The noises of sleeping in an inn had never bothered him. It was something he'd gotten used to over the years. Spending so many of them on the road meant that the conversations, the laughter, and the playing of a traveling group of bards had become a normal sound to him. But the discordant sounds of several different songs played in several different locations cracked against his skull and thundered through his temples. He would adjust, hopefully. But for now, he bent his pillow over his ears, and stared to the wall. He made vein attempts to push away the thought of how cold the bed was, how small, how empty.
Wyndrelis did not like to be touched. He despised any attempts to hug him, and worse, if someone did and would not let go, he would not hesitate to give them a hard shove to get them off of him. But the minor distance between himself and his two companions in the beds they had shared, while at first deeply uncomfortable, settled into normalcy to the point that not being able to reach behind himself and place a hand on one of them left the room colder than if every hearth in Solitude were smothered. He would adjust. Still, he turned on his side, wide awake against his will and stared to the wall that met him all too closely. How many weeks had the trio been on the road? How many combined days? How much time had he spent drifting off to the dying sounds of an inn at night, to two other's breathings, to two other's whispers for Athenath to give back some of the blankets, for Athenath to grumble a response about how cold their back was, for Emeros to scoff and tug in a way that pulled them from Wyndrelis and left the mage sitting up in dazed, groggy confusion. Apologies and laughter and Wyndrelis grinning, before he gave the blankets a hard tug until they barely covered the other two, the rush of cold air raising bumps on their skin as the other elves scrambled for more warmth. Then they were up, and talking, and then back to sleep as soon as they could with a candle blown out and the sounds of movement below. His chest sunk. He pulled the blankets over himself and up to his nose. He would never have to worry about blanket thieving and being kept awake. That didn't mean he couldn't miss it. The Dunmer closed his eyes and drew in a deep breath, the noise of instruments set aside in slow succession through the dorms sealing the silence around him, and while he did not dream - as he often did not - the flicker of the light under his door carried itself far into his sleep.
Morning roused him from bed with deep apprehension. Did he want to get up? There was nothing the trio had to do, and nowhere they had to go, so did it matter when he woke or what he did with the time he had? But the thrum of life throughout the dorms caught him on its hook, the sounds of people milling about in the nearby kitchens, and even if he wanted to, it would be impossible for him to fall back into unconsciousness now. He greeted the cold that swept over him as he tugged his blankets off with about as much joy as he could muster, which was none at all, currently. He pulled his clothes on in a hurry and combed through his hair with his fingers, his reflection in an inkpot barely doing any good to guide him. But he saw that he was at least half-presentable, and pushed open the door to his dorm. There stood Emeros and Athenath, the Bosmer's hand raised to knock on the door, the Altmer's reaching for the handle, as if they had been disagreeing over which way to wake him. He blinked, brows raised as he observed them both. Neither looked as though they had slept too well, but were still alert, dressed, and ready for the day. He shifted his gaze from one to the other, and entertained the notion that maybe all three of them had been plagued by the absence of the others. Not likely, he scolded himself, and pushed his glasses up his nose.
"What do we do first?" He asked. Athenath grinned. "Let's grab breakfast, then maybe walk around the town?" The Altmer suggested. "We haven't exactly had a chance to enjoy being in Solitude, so…" "That sounds alright," Wyndrelis shrugged, pushing his door closed behind himself. "I should like to peruse the local apothecary. I've got a few things I would like to pick up, if that's alright." Wyndrelis looked to Emeros as he spoke, the Bosmer's words as clipped and calm as ever, but an undercurrent of sleeplessness ran through them like a dark river. He turned to Athenath, whose usual restlessness had been replaced in the night with a mild shuffling of feet, or fidgeting of hands, running a thumb nail under the other nails on his opposite hand. "I'm sure we can do that," Wyndrelis managed a chuckle, Emeros' features lightening as he moved towards the kitchens, ready to begin the day properly.
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sparklypinkflightsuit · 5 months ago
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The Witching Hour: Chapter 5
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Pairing: Detective!Bob Floyd x Reader x Sheriff!Bradley Bradshaw
WitchAU
Warnings: Angst, Fluff, Smut, Danger, Witchcraft, Swearing, Love Triangle
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18+ Only Beyond This Point
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“Bree? Bree, wake up. We gotta get moving.” You heard his hushed voice as you roused from sleep, a gentle shake of your shoulders.
You blinked as your eyes scanned the dark room.
It had been 2 weeks since you’d made a run for it, and you’d cast a warning spell on a single Bloodroot flower so that when the witches got within 50 miles, the flower would open and close repeatedly in quick succession. This did mean that you and Bob had to take turns sleeping, but if it meant you could keep him safe, you didn’t mind.
“Is the flower…?”
Bob nodded. You shot out of bed and quickly dressed, brushed your teeth and threw your new clothes in Bobs duffle bag. A routine you’d come accustomed to in the last two weeks.
You quickly loaded the car with what little belongings you’d salvaged from Bobs apartment in the first week, your Bloodroot carefully wedged in between a comforter and the duffel bag, and you hit the road.
You glanced at the clock on the dashboard and groaned. 3:43am.
“Don’t they sleep? Like at all?” You huffed, still groggy from your 4 hour nap.
Bob chuckled, “Maybe we should buy a boat and just… disappear to a little island in the middle of nowhere.” He joked.
You considered it seriously for a moment, but the reality of the situation made you want to cry.
“They’re never gonna stop. They’d find us on the moon, let alone an island.” You said softly as you gazed out the window into the darkness.
You were exhausted, your spirit greatly diminished. You so badly longed for a place where you and Bob could just be, without a constant threat looming over you.
Luckily the location spell your aunt and the rest of the witches used was not exact. It gave them a rough parameter so it bought you some time while they scouted the towns you had just left. The location spell was only able to be performed under certain conditions, most importantly a clear sky so that the moonlight was bright enough to cast a shadow. This meant the moon had to be high enough in the sky so they often had to wait until close to midnight to find your next location, which bought you more time. But it was only a matter of time before you messed up and they got the upper hand, you knew they’d outsmart you eventually.
The longest you’d managed to stay in one place was 3 days, and it was bliss. You and Bob fell into a routine around your shifts. You had booked into a beautiful cabin in a small mountain town, it felt safe and secure, and every night you made dinner together, ate outside in the fresh air, and then cuddled up together next to the warm fire.
You longed for that, uninterrupted. And you knew it would be a very long time before that happened, if the witches ever gave up. You were slowly making your way to New York, you figured if you hid in a big city it would be so much harder to find you.
Bob noticed your mood and wrapped a hand around your thigh and squeezed, you looked over at him and he smiled at you reassuringly.
“I’m sorry, Bob. That I’ve put you through this.” You whispered.
“I’m not.” He said, his eyes trained on the dark road ahead. “I mean, sure it sucks that we have to keep moving, I’d love nothing more than to just have a normal life with you, but I’m convinced we will, eventually. I’m just happy you’re in my life. I’ve felt like you always have been to be honest.”
You welled up as you listened to his deep voice. You weren’t so sure you’d ever have a normal life, but you were prepared to do whatever it took to keep Bob safe, even if that meant eventually giving yourself up to set him free. Selfishly though, you wanted Bob for just a little while longer before you did.
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At some point you must have dozed off again, because the next thing you knew you were being gently shaken awake and the sky was a medium blue, the sun just barely announcing its soon to be presence.
“Hey, we’re here.” Bob whispered, and you stretched as you looked around. Another cabin, although this one seemed to be in a more heavily wooded area.
You climbed out of the car and helped Bob with your belongings before climbing the stone stairs up to the pretty little cabin, which stood high overlooking the woods below. A good vantage point of the long winding road far down below.
“It’s beautiful, it didn’t look this nice in the pictures.” You chuckled.
“Yeah let’s just hope the inside looks as nice.” Bob mumbled.
He found the key under the doormat as the landlord had confirmed and unlocked the door. He pushed it open with a creak, and dust billowed out.
You both coughed as you walked in and began opening curtains and windows.
“He did say it’s been unoccupied for a while, too far out for most.” Bob explained. You began removing sheets from the furniture and a few minutes later you and Bob had aired and cleaned out the small cabin enough to feel comfortable. It didn’t have to be perfect, as you knew it was only temporary.
You sighed, exhausted from constantly moving. You’d moved so much you and Bob hadn’t even had time to do more than cuddling, and it was starting to have its own effects as frustration began to rear its ugly head.
The sun had begun to rise and you turned to see Bob on the porch, leaning against the railing, watching the sky turn from a deep purple to a fiery red.
You slowly walked up behind him and admired how peaceful he looked, almost unperturbed by the horrible reality of his new life.
You cleared your throat, and Bob turned with a smile, the same smile that took your breath right out of your lungs the first time you saw him.
You couldn’t help but smile softly back at him as you joined him at the railing.
It was silent for a moment while you both watched the sky change colours, birds chirping as they awoke from their nests in the canopy of thick trees below you.
“This really is a beautiful spot, Bob. I only wish we could have this forever.” You said sadly.
Bob crooked his neck to glance at you, before you felt a strong arm slink around your shoulders.
“We will, one day. I promise.”
“You shouldn’t be the one promising me that. I should be comforting you, I got you into this mess.” You murmured.
Bob chuckled.
“What?” You shot him a confused look.
“You’re quick to blame yourself but you forget that I had just as much to do with this as you did.”
You didn’t say anything, you decided it best to just enjoy the sunrise for a moment.
“You must be tired.” You whispered after a while.
Bob nodded, “A little. I’d rather spend some time with you though. You wanna go into town and grab breakfast somewhere?”
You grinned, “Yes, please.”
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Bob drove you into the small town about 10 minutes from your cabin. He parked up in front of a quaint coffee shop and let out a long yawn before unbuckling.
You chuckled, “Ok after breakfast you’re gonna take a long nap.” You instructed.
Bob grinned and shot you a look as he climbed out of the car. You followed and met him in front of the store.
“What?” You pried.
“When are we gonna ‘take a nap’ together?” He hinted, taking your hand and walking through the glass door.
You looked up at Bob, a little surprise, and you were about to answer when your shoulder knocked into something hard and steady.
You looked up and apologised as a man in tanned uniform turned to face you.
“No problem sweetheart.” A gruff voice replied, the moustached mouth smiling down at you.
You clocked his badge and the gun on his hip and realised he must be the towns sheriff. He had pretty brown eyes and gold tinted hair.
Bob, being a man of law himself, smiled politely through his jealousy and pulled you away towards the counter.
You shook off the feeling of the brown eyes that bore into the back of your head, and sidled up to Bobs side as you looked up at the menu board.
“Did I just detect a hint of jealousy Detective Floyd?” You grinned, your skin flushing hot.
Bob chuckled, “I don’t know what you’re taking about.”
Bobs eyes didn’t leave the menu board in the desperate hope you’d let it go, but part of you felt flattered that he was jealous.
You ordered coffee and breakfast and found a table near the window, the sheriff now long gone, and sat in comfortable silence for a moment while you waited.
“I wish we could stay here.” Bob finally spoke.
“Me too.”
“No, I mean it. I’d do anything to settle down, to stop running. I haven’t even had a chance to really hold you, to sleep with you in my arms for the fear we’ll miss something.” He sighed, a hand running through his caramel locks as he leaned back in his chair.
You frowned, “You don’t think I want that too?” You said quietly, staring out the window at the quaint, leafy little street.
“No, I didn’t mean that you don’t, I just…”
“You’re tired. I get it, so am I. I just don’t know what to do, they won’t give up.” You were still looking out the window, your eyes welling up when you felt Bobs strong hand envelope yours. You hadn’t noticed that Bob had gotten up from his seat and was now crouching next to your chair.
“Hey, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you.” He hummed, his free hand moving up to cup your face.
“You didn’t, it’s just this whole situation. I’m scared, like really scared, all the time.” You sighed, your hand brushing a strand of hair from his cobalt eyes.
“I need you to believe me when I say I won’t let anything happen to you.” He whispered, pulling you gently by the back of your neck until your forehead was resting gently on his.
“It’s not me I’m worried about, if anything happened to you I could never live with myself.”
“Nothing will happen to either of us, eventually they’ll give up and we can have a somewhat normal life.” He chuckled sympathetically, placing a gentle kiss on your lips.
You pulled him back to you and kissed him again, slightly longer this time, savouring the feeling.
The bell above the door jingled and you both jumped, an elderly woman making her way to the counter.
You chuckled, “Ok I think we both need some good sleep and maybe meditation or something, we are way too on edge.”
Bob stood from his crouching position and grinned down at you before he bit his lip. “I know something that will relieve stress much more effectively.”
You coughed in surprise but before you could respond the waitress brought over your coffees and breakfasts. You fully intended to wolf yours down and get back to the cabin as soon as you could.
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You burst through the cabin door with Bobs lips attached to your neck, immediately fumbling with the buttons on his plaid shirt and peeling the material off of his broad, muscular shoulders.
Bobs teeth grazed your skin and you gasped as his strong hands lifted you onto the countertop in the kitchen.
You tangled your fingers in his hair and moved his lips to yours, your arms wrapping around his neck.
Bob kissed you passionately and leaned you back against the counter, gently trailing back down your neck with his lips until he reached your collarbone. He stood straight and panted as he looked down at you, your eyes blown and desperate for more.
Bob placed his hands on the top of your legs and squeezed, before slowly sliding up towards your hips. He hooked his thumbs into your waistband and yanked your jeans down.
You suddenly felt shy and exposed in just your panties and tank top, and goosebumps erupted down your legs. Bob lifted one of your legs and brought his lips to your ankle, kissing a line down to your knee as your goosebumps subsided and your skin turned to fire. You moaned at the feeling and your back arched as his lips encroached onto your upper thigh, getting dangerously close to the place you so desperately wanted him, when suddenly…
Knock knock knock.
You gasped loudly and shot up into an upright position on the counter top, yanking your leg out of Bobs grip, your heart racing from desire and fear.
“It’s ok, it’s ok.” Bob cooed softly with a finger against his lips, motioning for you to stay in the kitchen, which was just out of sight from the front door.
You scuffled off of the counter top and hopped into your jeans, as Bob scooped his shirt off the floor and put it on, buttoning it up as he slowly made his way to the front door.
The door didn’t have a peep hole, so Bob took one long, deep breath and opened the door a crack.
You listened quietly with bated breaths from the kitchen, and it took everything in you not to rush out and protect Bob from whatever awaited him. You buttoned up your jeans and took a deep breath, ready to pounce…
“Oh, Sheriff. Hello, to what do we owe the pleasure?” You heard Bobs surprised voice.
“Hi there, I just wanted to welcome you to the neighbourhood. It’s such a small town, whenever there are new residents it’s such big news we simply can’t ignore it.” The sheriff chuckled.
You rounded the corner, surprise etched across your features.
“Ma’am.” The sheriff smiled, his brown eyes creasing. The man was slightly older than you and Bob, but not by much.
“Hello sheriff.” You forced a breathless smile as you walked up to the door.
“Please, call me Bradley. I just wanted to welcome you both to the neighbourhood and to say if you need anything, don’t hesitate to call.”
“Thank you, we’re not staying long, just passing through actually.” Bob explained, frustration evident in his deep voice.
The sheriffs smile faltered slightly but was quickly replaced with a handsome grin. “Sorry to hear it. Nonetheless if you need anything, I mean anything, just give me a call.” He handed Bob a card and smiled at you over his shoulder. “Was nice to officially meet you.”
Sheriff Bradley disappeared down the drive and Bob let out a huffed laugh. “Well that was a pointless interruption.”
You chuckled, “Maybe for the best. We wouldn’t want our first time to be while we’re tired and jumpy. Think we can risk a nap together?”
Bob grinned, wrapping an arm around your shoulder as he kissed your temple. “I think we can risk it this once.”
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cellphishthekaiju · 9 months ago
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Crackpot Headcanon: Vlaakith's 'Grand Design' for Lae'zel (and the Githyanki)
Back again on my raving bullshit for Baldur's Gate 3 (D&D and Forgotten Realms by relation), this time we're looking at the Lich Queen Tyrant, Vlaakith CLVII... cause I have lunatic thoughts of this bitch that fuel the fanfiction I write.
As with all my lunatic fandom ravings, spoilers abound for Baldur's Gate 3, associated materials, and course, take this all with COPIOUS amounts of salt. I get most, if not all, of my 'canon' info from the Forgotten Realms wiki and try to doublecheck the sources but I don't always have the time or means to.
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So what is known of Vlaakith is actually very little. The one in Baldur's Gate 3 is, presumably, the 157th githyanki to hold this title and has reigned for a thousand years (mostly as a lich). She has no known heirs and aspires to ascend to godhood (primarily through spam-casting Wish). D&D Lore is very sparse on the githyanki and even more so when it comes to nuances with the githyanki. They have existed since the days of AD&D (Advanced Dungeons & Dragons) but we didn't have much about them, canonically, for a long time.
So, lunatics like myself, let the brain worms fill in the blanks.
We know that Gith, for which the people get their namesake, was the figurehead and Leader of the rebellion that led to the toppling and near extinction of the Illithid Empire unknown millenia before. At her side, I believe both Vlaakith and Zerthimon assisted her (as advisors in different capacities... and to some unknown extent, her only 'confirmed' blood relative, her son Orpheus). As to their exact roles, it is unknown how Vlaakith advised Gith in the matters of her rebellion but given she is referred to as the first of a long series of Lich-Queens that rule the githyanki, her capacity likely involved her skill and knowledge in the arcane/Weave.
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After the rebellion, it is believed Gith and Zerthimon fell to infighting, as Gith presumably was so consumed with righteous fury, she single-mindedly wanted to continue hunting down the remaining illithids while Zerthimon, seeing they had won, wished to carve a new life for the 'gith' now that they were free.
In my deranged mind, I suspect/believe that the Proclamation of Two Skies (how the gith refer to their civil war that led to the creation of the -yanki and the -zerai) was stoked and brought to fruition by Vlaakith I. She was always manipulative and concerned, primarily, with her own ambitions. Having witnessed how Gith roused and united the gith, how they called her 'mother' may have stoked jealousy in Vlaakith and so she conspired to take that power and reverence for herself, especially under the suspicion I have that Gith and Zerthimon were lovers/mates (I wrote a theory pointing at Orpheus may be their son).
Vlaakith conspired to turn Gith and Zerthimon upon each other but her plan had an unintended consequence; the division of the gith people into the Githyanki and the Githzerai (and with time, further fracturing in the form of Pirates of Gith, Sha'sal Khou and the Githvyrik (dunno how canon this is anymore because only occurs in one novel)). However, Vlaakith saw an opportunity in this fracture; Gith to be the sacrificial lamb on the altar of her ambitions.
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It's believed Vlaakith I's first attempt at bargaining with Baator (The Nine Hells) was seeking a pact with Dispater. However, Vlaakith's attempt(s) failed for one reason or another... likely because Dispater is far more paranoid than Vlaakith is and saw no merit in a deal with such a conniving creature.
Having failed in bargaining with the Lord of Dis, Second Layer of Baator, Vlaakith found herself bargaining with Tiamat. It is, still, unknown the terms of their pact (or how she even got to bargaining with the Chromatic Dragon Queen to begin with) but the bargain was successful and Gith ended up being part of the price.
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After the githyanki retreated into the Astral Plane, since the civil war left them weakened (and the githzerai went to Limbo), Vlaakith convinces Gith to travel to Avernus (First Layer of Baator), likely with promises that fed into Gith's violent ego and giving no indication that Gith was not going to make it back. With the bargain paid, Tiamat imprisoned Gith among her hoard (presumably) while Vlaakith returned to the githyanki on the back of Ephelomon, Tiamat's Chromatic Red consort. Together, the two convinced the githyanki that Gith had martyred herself in the bargain and commanded that Vlaakith guide and rule their people in her absence.
This is where the canon gets messy, as there appears to be a discrepancy in the order of events. In the 5e Monster Manual, it suggests Vlaakith sealed the bargain with Tiamat before the Proclamation of Two Skies happened. Texts like Mordenkaine's Tome of Foes suggests the bargain with Tiamat was struck after the split. I'm more inclined to agree it happened after, since the Githzerai and other non-yanki Gith do not benefit from the terms of the pact (mainly the access to Red Dragons)
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So, what's this all got to do with the current Vlaakith?
Vlaakith CVII is more than I (want to) believe Larian has told/shown us.
Like her namesake, Vlaakith CVII is a lich that has, supposedly been in power for, roughly, a thousand years by the time the events of Baldur's Gate 3 happen. She upholds the teachings, protocols, and ambitions of her originator and predecessors yet has no known heirs (blood relative or otherwise).
My crazy idea is that Vlaakith CVII is actually Vlaakith I... and all other holders of the 'title' before her have just been Vlaakith. Vlaakith is too vain and ambitious to let something like death get in her way and likely sought every means possible to buy herself the time she needed to achieve her ultimate ambition; Godhood.
Vlaakith's insanity is well in line with the 'canon' behavior of liches, especially 'long-lived' ones. Now, she is just a creature driven by the all-consuming desire to ascend and achieve the ultimate power by any means necessary.
Ascending to divinity/godhood in D&D is... not very clear. The primary factor is faith, as a god needs followers to thrive and derive power from. By controlling the githyanki in all aspects of life, establishing castes like the Inquisitors to hunt down and silence dissenters, sealing Prince Orpheus within the Astral Prism (and infernal chains), using Gith's name and 'sacrifice' as a catylst to keep the people's devotion on herself... but this is a slow process so Vlaakith also encouraged and regulates the militaristic structure of githyanki society to produce powerful warriors that she can, later, consume and sacrifice in her spam-casting of the Wish spell and whatever other means she uses those poor souls for (aside from the husks she keeps)
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So, how and why does Lae'zel factor into all of this?
Literally, this is all because of one dialogue line Vlaakith gives in Act 3 of Baldur's Gate 3: Promising to make Lae'zel Baht Vlaakith, the Commander of Dragons; her Chosen (despite having no true divine power). She offers Lae'zel's greatest ambition; to be Kith'rak, to ascend beyond even the standards of her people and serve at Vlaakith's feet.
Weird thing to say to someone you can just Thanos-snap from existence, which Vlaakith does if your party refuses to comply with her at Creche Y'llek. (Seriously, this woman will waste a Wish on you just to remove the entire party from existence for 'waving hello' at her)
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Vlaakith has determined Lae'zel as her 'heir' and needs her to return so that she may possess/control her (either through the use of spells like Domination or something more sinister, like excising her soul and possessing her body; no clue if liches can do this). I believe some githyanki that held the title of 'Vlaakith' were simply thralls to Vlaakith I, enhancing her duplicity to make it seem like the title passes on between individuals (despite having NO information on how this is determined within githyanki society).
The only other 'brain worm' I have about why Vlaakith attempts to bargain with Lae'zel one more time about killing Orpheus instead of, I dunno, simply Wish-murder the party, is there is something important about Lae'zel that not even the githyanki herself is aware of. Not to the degree of a psionic null zone but perhaps something Vlaakith has been nurturing through controlled breeding to accelerate her consumption of power... or as an offering to Tiamat.
Hells, if you talk to Withers in the Epilogue about the fate of a Vlaakith aligned Lae'zel... he says she's just gone. Her soul no longer exists.
A fate worse than death and Lae'zel went to it, oblivious.
Yep, there it is... more cracked brainworm thoughts for Baldur's Gate 3.
I'm also not a fan of Vlaakith but hey, I feel like there needs to be way more depth and analyzing some of this stuff my brain just does on its own.. and it fuels my fan-fic writing (which you should totally check out)
I hope folks are enjoying my insane ramblings.
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robininthelabyrinth · 1 year ago
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The Other Mountain - ao3 - Chapter 18
Pairing: Lan Qiren/Wen Ruohan
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Wen Ruohan wanted to destroy something, or kill someone, or both.
This by itself was not uncommon, for him. Violence had long been the answer to virtually all of his problems, even the ones where it had initially not seemed a likely solution – it was perfectly reasonable for violence to solve the problem of the Wen sect’s contested succession, for instance, but it had come as somewhat of a surprise to find that pain and torment seemed to be the only things still capable of rousing him from his ever-increasing apathy.
Not the only things.
Wen Ruohan was not thinking about that.
He had other issues to concern himself with, and not least among them was the fact that there wasn’t anyone he could kill in his immediate vicinity, or at least not reasonably. He was surrounded by his own sect’s disciples, the army he had painstakingly trained into a force to be reckoned with, and while he supposed he could kill one or two of them to sate his bloodlust, it would be both a waste of resources and an indication that he had completely lost his mind. Which he hadn’t. Yet.
What you just did –
Wen Ruohan was not thinking about that.
He had come out here to join his army on an impulse, or at least he had thought it was merely an impulse at the time. It had been a matter of venting his rage. He had needed an outlet, and he’d wanted to go away, and he hadn’t been thinking, and someone had suggested night-hunting and the army had been night-hunting and Wen Ruohan hadn’t been thinking –
He wanted to destroy something, or kill someone, or both.
Normally, when he was in such a mood and there was nothing in his immediate vicinity that he could exercise the feeling upon, he would return to his Nightless City and pick out a likely target from his Fire Palace, but he couldn’t do that now. The Fire Palace –
He’s there, you sent him there –
Wen Ruohan was not thinking about that.
Unfortunately, leaving was not currently an option. His arrival had been badly timed, even for him, and it had not taken long to realize that he had been lured into coming here intentionally. It was an excellent plan, in fact: a well-designed and elegant masterpiece of backstabbing and betrayal.
Wen Ruohan was almost inclined to commend Qingheng-jun for having played his hand so beautifully.
When he had first heard that the sects in the area that Qingheng-jun planned to attack were starting to take up arms, Wen Ruohan had thought only that Qingheng-jun was unfortunate. He had assumed, quite reasonably, that Qingheng-jun would need to delay his war for fear of causing an escalation, the conversion of a small border skirmish into a massive war between a multitude of sects. He had thought, in what later turned out to be an erroneous assumption, that Qingheng-jun would want to avoid this outcome, since such a war would draw down the condemnation of the cultivation world and cause a great deal of death and misery besides.
It had not occurred to him that Qingheng-jun might have tried to stir the sects up deliberately.
Why would it have? Wen Ruohan was the veteran of any number of wars of conquest, and he knew, as everyone who was about that sort of business knew, that the key to achieving your goals of conquest while escaping any serious censure from the rest of the cultivation world was to keep the situation small and contained – something that other sects could call deplorable while feeling morally superior, but which did not affect their personal interests enough to actually stir them to action. No one whose goal was to enhance the power of their sect through expansion would ever risk setting off a spark that would light a wildfire, a war that would spread like contagion until no one could escape joining in.
Not even Wen Ruohan would dare. The sect that started such a war would invariably become the target of the entire cultivation world, all the rest of them immediately putting aside their usual disputes in order to stand together to cast down the enemy, and even he, in his great arrogance, did not believe his sect had the strength to stand alone against them all.
Not yet, anyway.
Qingheng-jun would have to be a fool to attack in such a moment, and Wen Ruohan had known that Qingheng-jun was not a fool. He was quite clever.
Unfortunately, he’d underestimated exactly how clever.
War was, after all, quite confusing. Facts could get distorted, the truth cast aside, and scurrilous rumor would rule the day, turning supposition into reality if only enough people believed in it. And in the end it didn’t really matter if you were the sect that had actually started the war, as long as it was another sect that took the blame for starting it. And between the Lan sect, whose reputation for cautious conservatism and unimpeachable virtue had reached its apex under Lan Qiren, and Wen Ruohan, whose taste for conquest and desire to become the master of the whole cultivation world was well known…well, it was pretty obvious which one everyone was going to blame.
It was all very clever, in fact. Wen Ruohan’s army had arrived to deal with a large-scaled haunting, which turned out to never have existed, and the nothing no-name sect that had issued the invitation for his Wen sect to night-hunt in the area, Yuexi Xu, was now frantically denying they’d ever done anything of the sort. His generals had just been in the middle of trying to figure out what had happened and extract themselves from the situation when Wen Ruohan himself had arrived, and that had destroyed all hope of claiming that their presence there was simply due to a misunderstanding.
After all, why would Wen Ruohan, with all his power and all his bloodlust and all his apathy, stir himself to join a mere night-hunt, and in another sect’s territory, no less…? With his personality, when would he ever lower himself to do such a thing? Was it not far more likely that this was all a devious plot of the sort that Wen Ruohan was famous for, a dodge designed to conceal the arrival of his forces until the last possible moment, and from there to be perfectly positioned to start a war…?
He'd been framed, of course.
But it was a very good framing. Wen Ruohan was a known liar, willing to say or do anything as long as it advanced his goals. This sort of thing was exactly in line with the sorts of things he had done in the past, and therefore seemed completely in line with the sorts of things he might be willing to do in the future. With everything so perfectly set up to appear as though it was part of one of his plans, he wouldn’t be able to wash himself clean even if he jumped into the Yellow River. No one would ever believe in his innocence…
That’s a lie.
Do not tell lies.
Wen Ruohan flinched involuntarily. The chair that he’d been slowly ripping to shreds using his cultivation – he’d been holding it in the air through force of will alone and unfurling it into its component parts, coiled up thread and wood peeling off like the skin of an apple, picking at it the way a lesser man might at his fingernails or an irritating scab – abruptly exploded into a shower of splinters. Irritated, he waved his hand, summoning flame to burn all the splinters into ash before any of them damaged the tent he was sitting in, waiting for news updates from his scouts.
He hadn’t meant to lose control of his power like that. He hated losing control like that, hated losing control generally. He’d already decided not to think about it –
You know it’s true, though. Lan Qiren would have believed you. He did believe you, back at the discussion conference, and that was even likelier to be you than this.
Wen Ruohan wasn’t thinking about it!
He believed you without you even needing to say a word, his mind continued on, heedless of his will, marching forward as brutally and ruthlessly as Wen Ruohan had ever done anything. Without proof, without explanation, and although he claimed he had used logic, there wasn’t enough time for that; that was obviously a backwards justification. It wasn’t that he found a reason to trust you – he trusted you first, and then found a reason to justify his faith.
And you just threw him into the Fire Palace over a mistake.
And that was the difficulty, wasn’t it? Wen Ruohan did not make mistakes. He was great and terrible, an ancient monster whose power dwarfed everyone around him and whose cunning struck fear into the hearts of the entire cultivation world. He was vain and arrogant, yet in so many cases his arrogance was completely justified: he was, in fact, better than so many of the others around him. Better, smarter, more powerful…Wen Ruohan was not a man who was easily played for a fool, and even when he was, he rarely admitted it, choosing instead to use his power to make himself retrospectively right. He was not a man who cared what wrongs he did as long as it got him what he wanted.
He did not make mistakes.
He did not make mistakes, he did not apologize, he did not –
Lan Qiren had trusted him. Lan Qiren had not feared him. Lan Qiren had been loyal to him from the very first moment they had taken their vows together, though he hadn’t needed to be, though Wen Ruohan hadn’t really expected him to be, all talk aside. Lan Qiren had allowed Wen Ruohan to reshape him, growing less rigid and more arrogant, more reckless, more free; more than that, Lan Qiren had reshaped himself,going out of his way to find things that would please Wen Ruohan and doing them for no purpose other than that.
Lan Qiren might even, one day, have been amenable to – to loving him, with a heart that contained both the implacable constancy of the Lan and the insatiable appetite of the Wen.
And Wen Ruohan…
Wen Ruohan had thrown him into the Fire Palace.
Wen Ruohan had made a mistake.
Wen Ruohan had been tricked, and not by Lan Qiren. It was Wang Liu that was the real traitor, with Qingheng-jun as his backing, and their betrayal had been meticulous. It was Qingheng-jun, not Lan Qiren, who had had the time to make inroads into other sects, using the months of Lan Qiren’s seclusion to set people up to spread rumors – with Wang Liu feeding him information as to who Wen Ruohan’s spies were, it would have been easy enough to do. Just as it would have been easy enough to get Sect Leader Chang, who resented being conquered, to cooperate with his kinsman to spread the false rumor of seeing Lan Qiren and his brother together, and to share the letter with one of the more ambitious-but-thoughtless of Wen Ruohan’s subordinates, one of the ones so eager to get credit for having done a good job that they didn’t think to check if they were being fooled.
The rumors had done their work, priming Wen Ruohan to begin to doubt, and from there…well, as everyone said, three men make a tiger; anything confirmed by enough separate sources seemed like the truth. Setting Lu Qupei off would hardly have been difficult, and luring Lan Qiren away likely not much more so. Wang Liu had then used his access to Wen Ruohan’s quarters to get Lan Qiren’s letters in order to take advantage of that doubt, putting his life on the line to play the trick, risking everything on the chance for success. And the gamble had paid off. It had worked splendidly: Wen Ruohan, who was famously paranoid, had fallen for their incitement, and lashed out irrationally, allowing himself to be led into an even more grievous error.
Anything could have served as the inciting incident – but they had chosen Lan Qiren.
That had probably pleased Qingheng-jun to no end.
The rest had followed from there. While Wen Ruohan was hurt and raging, Wang Liu had given him the push he’d needed. Not only to cast Lan Qiren aside, but to convince Wen Ruohan to go to see his army, and in doing so had set him up to bear the blame for a senseless war before the entire cultivation world.
The entire cultivation world.
For instance, he’d just received word from one of his scouts that Jin Guangshan was on the move with those mercenaries he’d just purchased. Wen Ruohan had initially thought that was a mistake as well, had thought that that was Qingheng-jun somehow slipping up and revealing his plans too early, but now he realized that it had been deliberate. The Lan sect didn’t use spies, which meant that Wang Liu was probably one of Lanling Jin’s, just the way Wang Liu had claimed his predecessor Qing Yu had been; Qingheng-jun had probably bought the spy off of Jin Guangshan in exchange for giving Lanling Jin the perfect excuse to gather the whole world together to attack Wen Ruohan in a moment when he appeared to do something unquestionably wrong. Jin Guangshan wouldn’t have been able to resist the idea of tearing some strips off of Qishan Wen’s greatness for his very own.
Clever. Clever, clever, clever…
Wen Ruohan was already receiving message after message from those of his people he’d sent out to get information, each one with worse news than the last: Gusu Lan had already moved their forces into Quanjiao, but they were claiming that the move had been made from necessity, that they were only there to defend the area from Wen Ruohan’s purported rampage. With Lanling Jin backing them up, the local sects had overlooked the implausibility of Gusu Lan being there so soon and had gone into a frenzy, each one certain that they were his real target…
The rest of the cultivation world wouldn’t be far behind. Yunmeng Jiang would be alarmed by the notion of a war just off their northern border, even if they hadn’t already worrying about the consequences of the agreement between Qishan Wen and Gusu Lan; they would have no choice but to start mobilizing, and the only question was how long it would take them, whether they would act with speed suggestive of Yu Ziyuan’s decisive command or sluggishness suggestive of Jiang Fengmian’s inclination towards peace at all costs. And then there would be three Great Sects all moving together, against his one – and there remained the open question of what Qinghe Nie, with its abnormally powerful and warlike disciples, would choose to do.
Wen Ruohan didn’t think the odds were very good there.
It really was a very good plan. Wen Ruohan would have liked it a great deal if he wasn’t its target.
Even the involvement of a no-name sect like Yuexi Xu was a brilliant move. It hadn’t occurred to Wen Ruohan back in the Nightless City, but the frantic digging of his disciples had revealed they had been the sect that had provided Sect Leader Wang, of Yingchuan Wang, with his much-beleaguered first wife. That meant that Qingheng-jun had used them twice over in his trickery, first as one of the quasi-subsidiary sects with ties to the Lan sect that had caused Wen Ruohan to doubt Lan Qiren and second to set the bait for this trap, presumably by making all sorts of promises – it was the sort of thing Lan Qiren would have figured out at once, with his brilliant recall of how all the small sects were connected to each other. He would have spotted the trap if Wen Ruohan had only had the chance to talk to him about it.
If Wen Ruohan had only managed to control himself long enough to talk to him.
And that, of course, was at least part of the reason Qingheng-jun had had to ensure that the two of them were divided. Only part, since the greater part of the reason was undoubtedly Qingheng-jun’s blinding hatred of Lan Qiren, the way he so obviously longed to see his own little brother hurt or in pain or even dead –
You threw him into the Fire Palace! You did that. You, you and no other!
Wen Ruohan’s fists clenched, his nails digging into his flesh, drawing blood.
Surely his disciples were smart enough to realize that he hadn’t – that he hadn’t meant it, that he would regret it later – or failing that, maybe they would be smart enough to think that he might want to see Lan Qiren’s agony himself, surely, the way he sometimes did when there was someone worthy of his attention in the Fire Palace. Surely they wouldn’t have dared to kill him, not even dared to have hurt him…or at least not hurt him too much…surely…maybe…
He couldn’t even convince himself.
Who was he trying to fool? Wen Ruohan knew better than most what type of monsters he’d filled his Fire Palace with, an even split between the desperate who had nowhere else to go and the bloodthirsty who genuinely wanted to be there. There were enough of the latter that they wouldn’t be able to resist the opportunity to hurt whoever had come into their grasp, and it was all the more likely because Lan Qiren was someone important, someone for whom the fall would hurt more. And that meant that they were hurting Lan Qiren right now, hurting him in Wen Ruohan’s name, with the machines he’d obtained for that purpose being used in ways he did not want.
Lan Qiren was probably cursing his name this very instant, just like Wen Ruoyu had all those years ago, was probably screaming, and Wen Ruohan couldn’t do a single thing to stop it because if he left Jiujiang at this moment in time, when everything was blowing up politically, he risked losing his entire sect.
They’re hurting him. They’re hurting him for you, because of you, because you told them to. It’s your fault, and he is never going to trust you again.
He’s never going to love you.
Wen Ruohan wanted to destroy something, or kill someone, or both. And right at this exact moment, the only person who seemed like a worthwhile target was himself.
He wanted to claw his own skin off. He wanted to summon his strongest power and lay waste to the entire landscape around him until it was unrecognizable and barren, needing a generation or more to recover. He wanted to disregard everything to fly back to the Fire Palace and beg Lan Qiren for forgiveness. He wanted to tear the Fire Palace itself apart brick-by-brick. He wanted to cut out his own tongue so that he’d never give such an order ever again. He wanted to destroy the whole world so that no one would ever need to know that he had erred, and erred badly, and more than likely lost out on the treasure of a lifetime as a result.
“Sect Leader, bad news!” Another scout rushed in, with the general that normally led the army right at his heels, grim expressions on both their faces. “It’s Qinghe Nie! They’ve started to move. They’re against us!”
Wen Ruohan closed his eyes briefly, forcing down his power before it could rip out of him and lash out blindly. Power, or a scream, or both…it didn’t matter. “I see. What is their stated reason?”
“Lanling Jin and Gusu Lan are both saying that you’ve gone mad, Sect Leader,” the scout reported, stone-faced. “With your personal presence here, they are saying that it indicates that this is not merely a skirmish but the first step in a war against the entire cultivation world.”
Wen Ruohan’s plan to dominate the cultivation world would eventually require such a war, and everyone knew it, including him. But his Wen sect was at least ten and probably twenty years away from being ready for a move like that – for him to start the war now would truly be a sign that he had succumbed to madness.
And Qinghe Nie…well, Qinghe Nie was more prone than most to believe in madness, what with their history of sect leaders succumbing to qi deviations. Lao Nie probably thought that he was doing Wen Ruohan a favor by taking arms against him, and if Wen Ruohan really had lost his mind, he probably would have been. Only the victors determined the spoils, after all, and Lao Nie, at least, would seek to ensure that Wen Xu inherited what was left of the Wen sect after Wen Ruohan died, minus the pieces here and there that would be peeled off to assuage the other sects’ anger and ensure they didn’t question the arrangement.
It barely even counted as a betrayal, really. Lao Nie had never actually trusted Wen Ruohan.
(Wen Ruohan had always said to himself that Lao Nie was right not to, telling himself that he would have betrayed the other man in a heartbeat if he could have grabbed some of his mighty sect for his own. But upon reflection, there had been dozens of instances when he could have done more to undermine Qinghe Nie than he had, little squabbles that meant nothing individually but could have meant something collectively, and in each case he’d thought to himself that it simply wasn’t worth the bother, wasn’t worth the inevitable argument, wasn’t worth risking Lao Nie’s rage and the potential loss of his already inconstant affections…which meant that perhaps Wen Ruohan was not so inured to betrayal as he had once thought. Not even his own.)
“Sect Leader, what do we do?” his general asked, his expression ugly. He was one of Wen Ruohan’s more trusted subordinates, of long standing; he had been the one Wen Ruohan had entrusted with the education of Wen Xu.
They’d already sent Wen Xu away, of course. They had made smuggling him out the very first priority. Even though everyone would know that that was what they were doing, Wen Ruohan hadn’t wanted to risk anyone capturing his son to try to use him against him. He’d sent him out with a few Wen disciples from his close kin, ones he knew Lu Qipei had used considerable efforts to win over, ones whose self-interests were wholly aligned with his own and which could therefore be trusted as much as anyone could be – he’d known that they had had only one shot at getting him out, at getting anything out, before the attention of the cultivation world had locked into place, and they had taken it. But it had worked: they’d gotten word back only a little while earlier that Wen Xu was successfully back within Qishan’s area of influence, safely heading to ground with his maternal Lu family.
“Sect Leader, we need to act,” his general urged. “Many of the small sects in the area have already activated their defenses. If we want to make a move, we will need to do it soon.”
Wen Ruohan was aware of that. Now was the time for decisive action, not to be worrying about the wellbeing of a man he couldn’t help – a man you hurt, a mistake you made – and as sect leader, the duty to make the decision fell to him.
With the Great Sects on the move, his options were limited. His sect could either attack or defend, and with only a single battalion of his army having come here for what they thought was a low-stakes night-hunt, they didn’t have much in the way of major armaments or cultivation treasures to support them, much less the sort of infrastructure that was preferable to have when playing defense. The only real weapon they had to hand was Wen Ruohan himself, with his incredible power and knowledge of all sorts of arrays – for most situations that would have been more than enough, but a full-scale war might be pushing it. Realistically, the best option would be for him to strike at the small sects around him now, absorb as many as he could in the short amount of time he had, then use their own defenses as the foundation to protect his army from the other Great Sects when they arrived.
But that would be playing into Qingheng-jun’s plan, taking on the role of the villain that had been set aside for him, and Wen Ruohan didn’t really want to do that.
Lan Qiren wouldn’t have wanted him to do that.
But what was the alternative?
If Wen Ruohan wasn’t here, he could order his sect to start loudly claiming that it had all been a misunderstanding (which had the unusual virtue of being true). The resulting confusion would buy him a little extra time, maybe another day or two, just enough for him to gather the rest of his army and come demanding some sort of peace on equal terms. But Wen Ruohan was too powerful, his own presence equal to three battalions or maybe more – with him here, no one would dare give him the benefit of the doubt. Yet neither could he plausibly sneak away, the way he’d sent Wen Xu away: there were too many eyes watching, no available paths he could take, and his own overweening vanity would not permit him to be seen running away with his tail between his legs. And that was assuming that anyone would believe his retreat was genuinely meant to avoid a war rather than a strategic retreat to set up a further attack, which they wouldn’t…
“Motherfucker, I’m telling you, your precious Sect Leader is going to want to see me! Yes, right now!” a sharp female voice shouted from right outside his door. “Don’t let my colors mislead you, I’m working for him!”
Wen Ruohan blinked, and rose to his feet.
“That’s Cangse Sanren,” he said, mentally mapping out the local surroundings – yes, it made sense, or at least it wasn’t wholly implausible for her to be here. She’d said that she was heading to Xixiang with the children, and that wasn’t too far from where his army was. “Send her in.”
Cangse Sanren didn’t so much get shown in as she did elbow her way in. She managed to get his general right in the gut, too, hard enough that he choked and staggered. Wen Ruohan decided not to question it – it was probably vengeance for how hard it had been for her to get through his sentries.
“Hi there!” she chirped, ire fading into cheerfulness the moment she laid eyes on Wen Ruohan himself. “I hear you’ve got yourself a problem.”
Wen Ruohan raised his eyebrows. He’d only had the one short conversation with Cangse Sanren back at the Lotus Pier, but he thought he’d gotten a decent enough sense of her character at the time.
“From your tone of voice, I suspect you’re here to offer a solution,” he drawled, scarcely daring to hope that she really did have one. “Would you care to share?”
“You’re exactly like Lan Qiren, you know?” she said carelessly, and Wen Ruohan somehow managed not to wince. “Neither of you are any fun at all – you could at least have let me be the one to say it. Anyway: there’s an old mine in Xixiang.”
“I recall. You said there was a suspected haunting there, I believe…?”
“Mm, let’s move that from ‘suspected’ to ‘confirmed,’ but also it’s completely abandoned and has tunnels that lead for hundreds if not thousands of li in every direction.”
Wen Ruohan’s eyebrows somehow managed to go further up than they were already. “Thousands of li of tunnels? What in the world were they mining?”
“Spiritual iron, I think. You know how you need to chase the energy before it slips away to make sure you get the best stuff.”
That made sense. Spiritual iron also meant that the people doing the mining had to be cultivators, making the whole process a lot faster – they were stronger, faster, less in need of sleep, capable of using talismans and arrays and treasures that could eat through dirt like a mole. It was certainly an efficient type of work, if humiliating.
“One of the entrances is near here?” Wen Ruohan asked, though he’d already put the rest of it together: an abandoned tunnel from an abandoned mine would be the perfect way for him to sneak out without being spotted. And once he wasn’t here, his army could play for time while he returned to the Nightless City, just as he’d already thought. Once he returned with the rest of his army and the claim that he’d been unjustly slandered, he’d have a fairer playing field and a better hand to play. “You’re welcome to answer that question, if you like.”
“Now it just feels like you’re being condescending. Are you coming?”
“Naturally.”
Other people might have used the opportunity to say something about owing Cangse Sanren a favor, but Wen Ruohan was above such things. If she wanted something from him, she could ask, and when she did he would remember this moment, but his Wen sect did not owe anyone anything, and Wen Ruohan himself least of all.
He took a moment to give his general and the highest-ranking local disciples their orders, as well as to draw out a few extremely powerful talismans for them to use – to maximize confusion, there had to be a plausible reason for both the Lan and Jin sects to believe that Wen Ruohan had been there in person, believable enough to create doubt in the eyewitness accounts of his arrival – and then he headed out, following behind Cangse Sanren’s sure-footed stride.
It wasn’t until Wen Ruohan was already outside the borders of his army’s encampment that it occurred to him that this, too, could be a betrayal.
At her encouragement, he had left his army behind. That could very easily be the opening move of a trap – he did not know Cangse Sanren, after all, and he certainly didn’t trust her. Her arrival had been suspiciously timely and her solution suspiciously convenient, like much-needed coal in a winter blizzard. Was it not entirely possible that this was another very clever ploy, this time to isolate and murder him? Why in the world had Wen Ruohan believed her? Much less believed her enough to follow her all on his own, without even a single guard to defend him?
It had been instinctive on his part. The trust was less his own than it was Lan Qiren’s, Wen Ruohan having automatically reasoned that surely anyone who Lan Qiren would entrust with his nephews would not be the sort of person to turn around and stab him in the back. But could he really trust that? Was he willing to trust in Lan Qiren like that?
It seemed that he was, without ever having made the decision to do so. And yet – and yet –
“Here we are!” Cangse Sanren announced just as Wen Ruohan was on the verge of succumbing to his paranoia and turning back. “See, there’s the entrance to the tunnel, right over there. I have to admit now that I omitted some critical information: you’re going to have to crawl through the first bit. Very undignified, which is why I didn’t tell you until now. Sorry-not-sorry!”
Wen Ruohan sighed.
Of course Lan Qiren wouldn’t trust someone unworthy. Irritating, yes, but not unworthy.
Probably for the best he hadn’t brought any guards, though.
There was a very brief interlude of considerable indignity – Cangse Sanren went first, which meant that Wen Ruohan’s embarrassment was at a minimum not witnessed by anyone – and then the tunnel got larger and more spacious, allowing them both to stand and walk, and then later to ride their swords if they kept them low enough to the ground.
“Why did you come help me?” Wen Ruohan asked as they flew, his voice deliberately mild. He wished in retrospect that he’d taken Lan Qiren up on the offer to learn the arrays that kept the Lan sect clothing so clean, so as to be able to erase the evidence of dirt on his knees. At the time, he’d thought it beneath him, but that was before he’d learned how low he had yet to go. “You are aware that it was a war zone, correct?”
“And that’s why I didn’t bring the children with me,” Cangse Sanren replied. “I’m not stupid, you know.”
“I didn't mean to suggest that you were. It is only that your intervention was rather timely, shall we say – particularly given that Yunmeng Jiang had already started to move against me.”
“And that’s why I didn’t bring Changze, either. He was raised a servant at the Lotus Pier, so no matter what, he’d feel guilty about doing something that would be seen as undermining them. Not a problem for me! My master doesn’t have any ties in the current cultivation world, so I don’t care.”
Wen Ruohan knew that, too.
Irritated, he decided to be blunt: “If you don’t care, why take action at all? You could have done nothing, which would have been considerably easier, and not to mention less risky.”
“Well, I didn’t have a choice, did I? I promised my little monkey that he could see the Nightless City in all its glory. He’d be terribly disappointed if something happened to diminish that glory before he even had the chance to get there…”
“Are you ever serious?” Wen Ruohan snapped.
Cangse Sanren laughed, which suggested that the answer was no. “Stop glaring, you big bully. Isn’t it obvious? Obviously I didn’t come to stick my nose in this mess for your sake. I did it for Lan Qiren.”
“That still seems like a great deal of effort to go to for a man that I was under the impression you hadn’t seen since you were sixteen,” Wen Ruohan said, since the alternative would have been to say something stupid like Why do you think helping me would help Lan Qiren.
Or, worse, If you knew what I just did to him, you wouldn’t be helping me any longer, you’d leave me in the lurch and say that he’s better off without me…
Wen Ruohan would be forced to murder her if she said that. She might be right, but that was irrelevant. Betrayal or no, even if all hope of something better was gone, he’d still kill anyone who suggested Lan Qiren shouldn’t belong to him.
“Besides, Lan Qiren would do quite well if I died,” he added bitterly. “Xu-er is only fifteen. Lan Qiren would have the right to manage the Nightless City in his stead as my widow.”
“Are you always this prone to dramatics?” Cangse Sanren asked, sounding amused. “I wish I’d known sooner. I would have come to the Nightless City much earlier if I’d known you were funny.”
Wen Ruohan scowled. “That is still not an answer.”
He wasn’t expecting Cangse Sanren to suddenly turn on her sword, cutting off his path and making him have to come to a hasty stop to avoid crashing into her.
“Fine,” she said, hands on her hips. “Fine, you want an answer? Lan Qiren was the first person in the whole cultivation world that didn’t want anything from me when I came down from the mountain, and the only one who took the time to explain to me what human morality meant in a way I could actually understand. He drew me diagrams! Hundreds of them, laying out all sorts of different situations, explaining what the right and wrong response to each one would be.”
Wen Ruohan stared at her.
“It took him months. And you know what? I don’t think he even remembers doing it. Because it wasn’t anything special for him, just another day, just another month, just another year, just the sort of thing he thinks anyone should do or would do. Because that is what Lan Qiren is to me, and what he always will be – forget fifteen years, it would be the same even if we haven’t seen each other in a hundred! And as for you…”
Cangse Sanren shook her head.
“When I saw Lan Qiren again for the first time in years, in years, he was in a terrible state, like I’ve never seen him before,” she said, her voice as practical as ever, though very far from devoid of emotion. “His qi was rioting and he was bleeding internally and he was a lot closer to a qi deviation than either of us wants to admit. You were there, you know as well as I do that if he didn’t have as good a foundation as he does, he would’ve been in serious trouble. And you know what the first thing he said to me was? The very first thing? He asked me to help him hide it because he didn’t want to worry you.”
Wen Ruohan reared back as if Cangse Sanren had just slapped him.
He might have preferred it if she’d slapped him.
“You see, he was concerned that you’d be angry enough to do something irrational if he didn’t have time to explain first – ”
Forget slapping. Stabbing would have been preferable.
“– and, you see, he didn’t want to cause you trouble. And just when I was starting to worry that he was afraid of you, he got distracted and asked me what a wife’s duties were.” She snorted. “He was deeply relieved that you let him be the husband, you know. Personally, I think he’s just got a rich boy’s mortal fear of household chores.”
Wen Ruohan had the distinct feeling of not knowing whether laughter or rage was more appropriate. “He does know that a wife in a large sect wouldn’t do those things themselves, does he not?”
“Oh, sure. But you know how Lan Qiren is – he hates change, especially once he’s finally gotten comfortable with something.”
And now they were back to the feeling of stabbing, because Wen Ruohan did know.
Lan Qiren was a creature of habit, as rigid in his personal life as he was in his perspective on virtue; he preferred things to be predictable, or at least occurring within an expected range. He had spent a great deal of time in the months he’d spent in the Nightless City building up a routine that suited him, and he had been so pleased the first time he had managed to go through an entire week without any surprises…
That was probably ruined, now. Was Lan Qiren supposed to continue taking his daily morning exercises in a courtyard from which one could faintly view the outline of the Fire Palace? Could they really continue to take the stroll through the Nightless City that they had started taking after dinner, the one that according to Lan Qiren both aided in digestion and helped establish a boundary to keep work from seeping too much into the realm of the personal, while from Wen Ruohan’s perspective serving as good time to get in all the conversation they didn’t have over dinner, given that Lan Qiren still practiced the Lan sect rule against speaking while eating? Sending Lan Qiren a note to get him to come meet somewhere or another for what Lan Qiren had snidely taken to calling “the usual reason” was one of Wen Ruohan’s more enjoyable pastimes, whether or not Lan Qiren agreed to actually do it, but if that was the way he’d been lured away this time, would he ever respond to another?
Even if Wen Ruohan pulled Lan Qiren out of the Fire Palace now, would Lan Qiren be willing to continue any of those routines that had previously given him such joy? Or would they become simply yet another torment, a miserable farce that he would need to force himself to endure in order to appease the man who could with a single word have him taken back there…?
“So, obviously, I had to come help out if I could,” Cangse Sanren said, turning herself back and starting to fly forward once more. A moment later, Wen Ruohan forced himself to start moving forward again as well, catching up easily and sliding smoothly into place beside her. “I mean, really, if he’s already put all that work into getting used to you, it seems rude to get in his way and cause him distress – ”
“Stop,” Wen Ruohan said, unable to endure any longer. “No more.”
Cangse Sanren glanced over at him, gaze sharp for a moment. But only for a moment – an instant later, she grinned.
“Oooh,” she said in a tone of outrageous delight that seemed rather inappropriate. “Did you fuck up? Are you going to have to grovel?”
“I don’t grovel!”
“Not yet you don’t, you mean.” She sniggered. “Welcome to married life. Real married life, not whatever you were doing with those wives of yours… Hey, listen, if it makes you feel better, just remember that you’re the most powerful man in the entire cultivation world. You have the capacity to make the biggest please-forgive-me gesture of all time!”
Oddly enough, that did make Wen Ruohan feel better.
It was a bit like his announcement that he’d be taking the role of wife to Lan Qiren’s husband. He knew perfectly well that most people would find it a humiliation, just the way they would see playing the receiving role in sex as a dishonor. They might think it meant something about their dignity as men, might think that it would make them a target for mockery. But Wen Ruohan was so powerful that he did not need to concern himself with what others thought: he knew that they would just see it as further evidence of his instability, another sign of his terrifying unpredictability, his capacity to do anything. What was shameful to other people was only self-indulgent eccentricity to those like him whose actions could not safely be questioned. No matter what he did, it would just mean that the rest of the world would worry about him all the more, would think about him all the more.
Wen Ruohan liked being thought about. He liked being talked about, whether for good or for evil.
“I assume that when we get to the other side of this tunnel, you’re going to go straight to the Nightless City, right?”
“Of course,” Wen Ruohan said, shaking off his reverie – and his trepidation as to what he might find waiting for him there. He had to get there as soon as possible to order Lan Qiren’s release, no matter what. “The rest of my army is there, and all of my sect’s treasures as well.”
Lan Qiren is there. And he is far from the least of my Wen sect’s treasures…
“I don’t actually care about your little war problem,” Cangse Sanren reminded him. “I only wanted to make sure you didn’t get yourself killed… Anyway, I’m coming with you, I want to talk to Lan Qiren anyway. And with two Lan, two Jiang, and one little monkey surnamed Wei, we have too many kids for Changze and I to carry on our swords, especially for any sort of long distance. Have you ever held a child before?”
“I have two sons.”
He’d had more, before. But he didn’t like to think about his first family.
“Yeah, I know. The question still stands. You wouldn’t believe how many men would be completely lost.”
Wen Ruohan rolled his eyes. “I know how to hold children.”
Though admittedly it had been a while since he’d practiced such a skill. He’d mostly given up on bothering with children after his first ones had turned against him at their mother’s instigation, back before she’d turned against them in turn, taking their lives in her increasing madness… The deaths of his first family were old wounds, long since scarred over, but they would pain him for the rest of his life. He hadn’t had reason to think of them in a long while.
“You can carry the Lan boys, then,” Cangse Sanren said practically. “Maybe you can ask them for tips on how to get their shufu to forgive you.”
That sounded reasonable enough.
Unfortunately, reality was not to live up to Wen Ruohan’s expectations.
“When Shufu is angry at me, I write him an essay explaining what I did wrong and why I won’t ever do it again,” Lan Xichen said. He was completely in earnest, so it was impossible to even be annoyed at him. “Sometimes, if it was really serious, I propose a punishment for me to fulfill. Discipline is important!”
That was a little more promising an avenue, Wen Ruohan supposed, though he was dubious. No one in the Fire Palace would dare lay their hands on their own sect leader, not even if he ordered them to do it, so it wasn’t as if he could offer to take Lan Qiren’s place for a time. Nor was there anything he could do to change the balance of power between them. They lived in his Qishan Wen: he was always going to be the sect leader, and even if he said that he’d never send Lan Qiren to the Fire Palace again, there was nothing keeping him from changing his mind later.
Frustrating.
“What about you?” he asked Lan Wangji, who was scowling. Or possibly pouting. It was hard to tell. “What do you do? Much the same, I assume?”
Lan Wangji shook his head.
“Oh? Something different, then?”
Lan Xichen cleared his throat, looking embarrassed. Nearly as embarrassed as he’d looked when Wen Ruohan had first hoisted him up in one arm, ignoring his offers to try to stand on the sword himself, though he’d dropped his complaints quickly enough when they were in the air, kicking his legs with badly concealed glee as they flew. “Uh, Wangji hasn’t – he hasn’t really mastered the whole ‘admitting he was wrong’ thing yet – ”
Wen Ruohan snorted. “Then we have that in common,” he informed Lan Wangji, who he was holding in his other arm. “I am also never wrong.”
With one exception.
Wen Ruohan was not thinking about that. Now was not the time, and anyway, he was already doing everything he could by heading back to the Nightless City with Lan Qiren’s precious nephews in tow. There was no point in thinking any further than that.
Lan Wangji looked thoughtful. After a few moments, he said, “You could write him a song.”
“Wangji,” Lan Xichen gasped, sounding almost scandalized. “You can’t just tell people to compose a song for someone!”
Wen Ruohan’s eyebrows went up a little at that.
“They are married,” Lan Wangji reminded his brother. “It is appropriate.”
“Not to interrupt this fascinating interrogation of Gusu Lan courting techniques – ” Wen Ruohan was now incredibly curious about why Lan Qiren had felt it appropriate to ask to compose a song for him, but he had the feeling that pursuing that line of inquiry with the children would only incite Lan Qiren’s ire, which was exactly what he was trying to avoid at the moment. “– but I have little talent for musical composition.”
Both Lan boys scowled at him as if he had just admitted to some serious moral failing.
“Fine,” Lan Wangji said after a little pause, though it didn’t actually sound as though he actually thought it was fine. Were musical cultivators just born like this? Or did Gusu Lan teach musical snobbery from birth? “Can you paint?”
Wen Ruohan nearly stopped flying in surprise. “Paint?”
“Sometimes, when I want Shufu to feel better, I draw him a picture,” Lan Wangji explained, his little voice very serious. “He always says that it makes him happy.”
In his youth, Wen Ruohan had been widely considered to be one of the finest painters of his generation, and naturally he had considered himself the finest. It was through that skill that he had made his name, in fact, that long-forgotten title by which much of the world had referred to him before he’d won the seat of the Wen sect leader and taken on that title as his own instead.
He hadn’t painted in…years. Decades. Longer than Lan Qiren had been alive, most likely.
He still remembered the moment he’d stopped. It had been like the aftermath of breaking a bone in battle, when adrenaline had carried you as far as it could and finally could no more, and all the pain came upon you all at once – he’d started on a great big painting, as ambitious in art as he was in all things, and when he had begun it he’d had a wife that he liked well enough, children he was proud of, a younger brother he adored, and a heart full of ambition and hope for the future, his eyes fixed firmly on the position of sect leader. He’d stopped painting in order to settle the matter of the succession, not realizing at the time that it would take quite so long to do.
When he’d come back to the painting, he had become sect leader, but he’d lost all the rest.
Holding the brush, he couldn’t even remember who the person who’d started the painting had been.
The pain had come, then, the broken bone, all his nerves at once alight with agony. He’d snapped all his brushes and set every painting of his that he could see on fire, and he’d never picked up a brush for the foolish, idle purpose of art ever again.
Of course, he didn’t think there was anything he could do that would make Lan Qiren happy with him again, either – he certainly wouldn’t be able to stomach such a betrayal – and yet that was what he was trying to do now. So maybe it wasn’t as ridiculous a suggestion as all that.
“…I’ll keep that idea in mind,” Wen Ruohan said, with some difficulty. “Perhaps. At any rate, I don’t think it’d really have the same impact coming from me as it would from one of you.”
Lan Xichen reached over and patted him on the shoulder. “Don’t worry,” he said encouragingly, having apparently completely misinterpreted Wen Ruohan’s refusal. “You’re his wife! I’m sure he’d like it very much even if it wasn’t very good.”
“It would be excellent,” Wen Ruohan informed him testily. He disliked having his abilities questioned, even by children. “I am an accomplished painter, I have the ability. I just don’t.”
“Uh-huh. Is that in the same way that I can eat spicy food, it just makes me get all teary and have to drink lots and lots of milk to make the burning stop?”
Lan Qiren would probably be angry at him if he dropped his nephews from a height, Wen Ruohan reflected. Angrier than he already was. Maybe that had been Cangse Sanren’s clever plan all along – he might not have been able to resist the temptation if it had been the Jiang children he’d been holding.
He gave up on the boys as a lost cause and instead maneuvered his sword over to where Cangse Sanren was wrangling her wiggling son, who had by now lost interest in the novelty of traveling by sword and was instead complaining about having temporarily left their family’s donkey behind in Xixiang.
Really, Wen Ruohan was doing her a favor by bringing her some adult conversation.
“What was going on with the arrays laid down in the mine?” he asked, flying close enough that little Wei Ying forgot what he was saying and clambered over to Cangse Sanren’s left side, reaching out to hold hands with Lan Wangji, who Wen Ruohan was holding in his right arm. Lan Wangji accepted the hand with an air of someone accepting their rightful due.
Charming child.
“You noticed that, huh?” Cangse Sanren shook her head. “Whoever was laying them down never heard of overkill, did they? How many suppression arrays could one place possibly need?”
“The ghosts were still not dispelled despite all the arrays present, so presumably they in fact needed more than they put down,” Wen Ruohan said dryly. “But also that was not what I meant. The top-most layer of arrays were not suppression arrays at all.”
“Huh? They weren’t? They looked like they were…”
“That was likely intentional. They were enhancement arrays. There are a wide range of options that fulfill that purpose, and I suspect whoever laid down the new set picked one that was similar to the existing ones in order to disguise their presence – ”
“Wait, wait,” Wei Changze said from his other side, flying up from beneath. He had Jiang Cheng on his shoulders and Jiang Yanli standing by his side with her arms around his waist for stability, and to Wen Ruohan’s ongoing amusement he’d been very valiantly ignoring the way the girl’s cheeks were red from more than just the cold wind. Being crushed on by a nine-year-old girl, how embarrassing. “What’s this about a new set of arrays? I thought they were all from ten years ago?”
“There is a more recent set of arrays laid upon the rest, no older than a few months, if that. Their addition is likely what disturbed the older set enough to let a few spirits leak through, enough to create rumors of a haunting – what type of creatures did you say were there? Just ghosts?”
“Yeah, a few ghosts, that’s all.”
“You said there were jiangshi,” Jiang Cheng piped up, looking cross. He had his hands firmly wedged into Wei Changze’s hair and seemed to be occasionally tugging at him, as if trying to direct him the way one would a horse. “Well, first you said there were just specters, back before we went, and then you said there were hopping corpses, and that was after we’d already gotten there!”
Wen Ruohan smirked when Cangse Sanren winced, clearly having not intended to be called out.
“I see the next generation of the Jiang sect will be a fearsome one once more,” he remarked, amused. For some reason, the innocuous statement made the Jiang boy twist his head to gape at him. “I’ll keep that in mind the next time we need to negotiate one of our longer lasting treaties.”
“Jiang Cheng is very fierce,” Wei Ying said, sounding quite fierce himself. “He’s going to be a great sect leader.”
The Jiang boy’s expression of shock immediately twisted into annoyance. “That’s not what it means! It’s a Great Sect, not a sect that’s great!”
“I’m sure A-Ying meant that you would be an excellent Yunmeng Jiang sect leader,” Wei Changze put in. “Which I have no doubt you will be. Trust me, I was raised there.”
“Forget him, trust me. I’ve suffered through three generations of Yunmeng Jiang, I’m practically an expert,” Wen Ruohan said, voice dry as dust. “Can we get back to the subject of the arrays? Ghosts and jiangshi are an interesting combination.”
“I thought so, too,” Cangse Sanren said. “Aren’t jiangshi usually warriors that died far from home?”
“Not always.”
“Well, no, but still, often enough. If you have warriors, why would you also have – uh, short ghosts?”
Wen Ruohan gave her a strange look. Short ghosts?
Cangse Sanren meaningfully flicked her eyes at her son, and then at Lan Wangji and Lan Xichen…oh, child ghosts. That made – actually, no, she was right, that made no sense. A mine of spiritual iron called for cultivators, so the presence of some warriors could be easily understood, martial cultivators being recruited to do the work and then dying there. But why would there be children there? Especially given that it was likely that all the spirits in the mine were the victims of a massacre, based on the signs in the mine, what were the circumstances that gave rise to such an event…?
“What do enhancement arrays do?” Lan Xichen asked, looking at Cangse Sanren, who shrugged, and then Wei Changze, who shook his head. “Sect Leader Wen?”
“You should be calling him Shumu! He’s your father’s younger brother’s wife, isn’t he?” Cangse Sanren said at once. Wen Ruohan glared at her and she grinned at him, unrepentant. “Either way, you’re definitely asking the right person. Sect Leader Wen is the cultivation world’s foremost expert on arrays.”
“He is? Wow!” Lan Xichen looked impressed. All the children did, actually.
“There is no need for flattery,” Wen Ruohan informed Cangse Sanren, but decided to be gracious and answer the question anyway. “Enhancement arrays are exactly what they sound like: they enhance the effects of an original ‘core’ array. It’s a method of extending the effect of a single array over a broader area. You’d be most familiar with the version of it that forms the basis of the gate arrays used by every sect, such that external defenses can be raised from a single initiation point deep within the sect.”
“So the enhancement arrays here were just strengthening the suppression?” Wei Changze asked.
“No, these ones weren’t tied to the suppression arrays, just layered on top of them.” Wen Ruohan shrugged. “I did not see the core array at any point that we passed, but it seems clear enough that the intention behind those enhancement arrays is completely different from the original goal of suppression. They almost looked like redirection arrays, the sort you use when trying to dam up a river, but there’s no point in putting that sort of thing in a mine. Perhaps if I’d had a little more time to look at them…”
He trailed off, his sharp sight landing on the distant horizon where the Nightless City waited.
“Oh, hey, kids, look ahead! Guess what that is – yes, Jiang Cheng, you’re right, it’s the Nightless City – ” Cangse Sanren was talking, but Wen Ruohan had stopped listening. With his cultivation, he could see far better than most, especially if he tried, and his vision had been drawn almost against his will to the dark hulking mass of the Fire Palace.
Right in front of it, there was the smallest speck of white shining against the darkness, a barely visible silhouette of someone standing in front of the entryway.
Not someone.
Lan Qiren.
Wen Ruohan would know him anywhere.
He instinctively picked up speed, his sword suddenly rushing forward at a speed Cangse Sanren and Wei Changze couldn’t match – he left them all behind, heedless of anything but reaching his destination.
He didn’t even know what he’d do when he got there. He just – he had to be there. He had to see him, he had to talk to him –
“That was so much fun,” Lan Xichen said in his ear as Wen Ruohan brought his sword to a stop only a few steps in front of where Lan Qiren was standing. “Can we do it again sometime?”
Wen Ruohan could barely hear him, his whole attention focused on Lan Qiren.
Lan Qiren, who looked…tired.
Tired, his face pale – his hair was arranged properly and his clothing was fresh, but he somehow gave off the air of having been run ragged regardless. And there were – there were bloody fingerprints on his forehead ribbon –
“Welcome home,” Lan Qiren said, for once ignoring the presence of his nephews. His voice was completely neutral, void of any emotion. “We need to talk.”
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luveline · 2 years ago
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JADE HAPPY NEW YEAR ILY ILY ILY!!! ♡♡♡ can i pretty please request some new years eve hurt/comfort with fred weasley from the a special friend universe? maybe r is struggling a lot so they just spend new years eve bundled up in blankets on the couch (up to you if george and angelina make an appearance)
Happy New Year! ILY, thank you for your request! Fred and his poor ghost girl :( fem!reader ♥︎ 
Fred's already awake when you rouse. If he could have, he would've let you sleep where you'd been all day, your face buried in the space between his arm and his chest and your hand held over his ribs, but he'd had to help Bill with their rogue niffler situation again. 
He turns to smile at your tired face, setting his mug of tea down on the kitchen table. 
"Hey," he says. "You okay?" 
He's an expert in you, or so he'd like to think, and your expression is worrying. You look as you had when you'd first met, face clouded with despondency, eyebrows pinched up just a touch. 
"Just tired," you murmur. Your voice is quiet and scratchy and worn, like you've been talking for a hundred years, all by yourself. 
He gestures for you to come into the kitchen. 
When you're standing close enough to touch, he tilts his head up and gives you his warmest, slowest smile. He hopes it says, You're alright, and if you aren't there's no need to worry. 
"Do you want to sit on my lap?" he asks quietly. 
"'M heavy," you mumble. 
He loves how, despite your grumbling, he only needs to sit back for you to take him up on his offer. You move very carefully and you refuse to put all of your weight on him, but Fred doesn't mind at all as your thighs press into his, and you work your arm behind his back for security. 
"There's tea," he says. 
His body reacts to you without intention, cheek dipping to your temple and arms curling around you. You take a little sip of his tea though you don't like it the way he does. 
"What's the matter, my love?" he says, again, so quiet. 
"Not sure," you say, your pitch creeping upward, a first sign of internal distress. 
He lifts his head and pulls you in closer. Your side is soft against his stomach, your face hot as it slips into the crook of his neck. Hopefully you know by now that it's okay, but still he wants to tell you, making sure with absolute surety that you understand how much he doesn't mind. 
"That's okay…" His hand closes over your arm, squeezing and massaging the dough at the crease of your elbow. "You'll tell me when you figure it out?" 
You exhale into his skin. "Yeah." 
While he doesn't care, you aren't light, and the kitchen chair is uncomfortable. His leg aches in the odd position it's held at. He doesn't tell you because while he loves you no matter what weight you are, he knows you'll internalise it, and that isn't something you need today. 
"Lie on the settee with me," he says. 
You nod like you're sleepwalking and climb out of his lap. He gets you on the settee, film on, quilt over your legs. You watch him. You aren't hostile in any way, but he does think there's something unhappy about the way you're looking at him. 
"You aren't mad at me, are you, doll?" he asks. 
"Do I look mad?" 
There's his girl. Depressed, unhappy, panicked, you're still reaching out. He pulls the quilt up to slip in beside you, hand reaching not quite gently for your face. He pushes the corner of your lips up into a half smile. 
"No," he says, grinning. 
You're infected with a smile of your own. 
It doesn't last. You sink into his side and watch the film in near silence, the only sound your sluggish breathing. He plays with your fingers for an hour, but eventually he starts to feel rather upset too. He doesn't show it, ever, that your sadness gets to him. He knows he should — honesty is important to him between the two of you, is conducive to your continued success as the best, warmest couple he knows. But he doesn't. It's one of those sacrifices of love, and it doesn't feel like a sacrifice at all. Your unhappiness makes him unhappy, and neither of you can help it. 
He steals his hand back, arm over your shoulder, behind your neck, and waves his fingers behind your ear, encouraging your neck to be bared to him. He kisses you very, very softly until he gets to your jaw, where he bestows a fiercer kiss. 
"I love you," he says, rubbing a short line into your cheek with his nose. 
"I love you too, Freddie." You clear your throat. "You mean everything to me." 
He grins like a fool. "Everything…" 
He can't get as sticky as he wants to, dissuaded by the sharp cracking sound of an disapparation near the front door. 
"Guys?" George calls. 
Fred puts some space between the two of you but not much, hand falling back to your collar, face turned to the doorway. 
George appears smartly dressed. 
"Hey," he says, more to you than Fred, as they've already seen each other today, "we missed you at breakfast. How are you feeling?" 
"I'm fine. Just tired."
"Well, you look snug. I'll take it you aren't coming tonight?" 
Somebody is throwing a New Year's Eve party. Fred and George have been invited, popular still despite years tormenting their fellow classmates, and so you're invited by extension as the love of Fred's life. He hadn't thought about it since you came out this morning. 
"No, we're coming," you say, sounding like you'd secretly rather die. 
"We definitely aren't," Fred says, twisting so he can lay in your lap. You receive him without complaint, though your lips have parted in surprise. "I'm knackered from all the strenuous activity this morning." 
"Ew," George says. 
"The niffler!" Fred shouts with a laugh. "How dare you. And while my girl's here." 
"Christ," George mutters. "Has he been like this all day?" 
You dip your face down to Fred's and look him in the eye, your gentle hands framing either side of his face. The heat of your palms seeps into his skin. "George, I love you, but this is never going to work. I'm on Fred's team," you say, fingertips threading into the start of his hairline and raking it away. "Always am," you say, lips barely parted. 
"Disgusting," George says. "Alright, well. Happy New Years for tonight. Love you both, anything gross should occur in your room and not on the shared sofa." 
Fred lifts his head and thankfully you lower your own for a kiss. He holds your face in one hand. 
"Wait until I've gone, at least! Merlin." 
Fred sits up properly and turns, a pretzel, trying to kiss you more while you're up for it. "Love you," he says again, lips pressed to yours, the words half-lost in the action. 
You pull apart.
You spend a quiet night together like that. You're not better, kisses don't ever magically fix anything, but you hold his hand and stroke his fingernails with the pad of your index finger, and you fall asleep before the countdown for the new year's begun. 
Fireworks crack over the sky outside, colours bursting in through the thin curtains. 
You shift in your sleep. 
"Happy New Year, sweetheart," he whispers, and kisses the corner of your lips. He lingers there for a moment, both your hands in his. 
As long as he's got you, he reckons it's going to be a good year. 
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bloodpotency · 1 year ago
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Homebrew V:TM 5e Humanity Track
Hey everyone, just for fun I decided to completely rework the Humanity levels in Vampire 5e. The goal of this homebrew is to take away the “moral-goodness” assigned to high humanity ratings in the original VTM 5e version. This will theoretically give the player more roleplay and gameplay freedom for their character to behave how they want them to instead of equating being a “good” person with being of high humanity, and being an “evil” person equating lower humanity. Instead, I have tried to emphasize a closer connection with one’s beast to the descent down the track. This, I think, makes the Humanity Track more compatible with Sabbat PCs. Any other changes are my own personal preference, like how I think it’s pretty dumb that vampires can only rouse their blood to resemble humans if they are “good” people (and thus cant have sex if they are “too evil”?). This also is designed to give lower humanity vampires some actual gameplay advantages- which I think makes the decision for a PC to remain a good person more compelling as they must resist the temptations of tangible buffs to their stats. Enjoy!
Humanity 10: A great deal of effort is required to achieve this state of unlife, and the storyteller and player must come up with a story event that can allow their character to reach this level. Your beast is entirely in check, almost never a problem except in your absolute darkest moments. Many Kindred pursue this level of humanity in hopes of achieving Golconda- a nirvana-like state of complete peace between the human and monster within. 
You are able to eat and drink all human food and process it without having to throw it up- although it does not sate your Hunger.
With the beast within you so thoroughly leashed, you require significantly less blood to thrive. You get a pool of 4 dice to rouse your blood at the start of each night, and still only require 1 success to avoid getting hungrier. 
No matter the circumstance, your control of your beast is stronger than it could ever be over you. You do not ever have to roll for Frenzy.
You take only halved superficial damage sunlight every turn when exposed to it.
You heal Superficial damage as a mortal, in addition to vampiric mending.
You are capable of dreaming while in Daysleep.
Torpor Length: 12 Hours
Humanity 9: Most humans do not rise any higher than this level on the humanity track. You do not let the harsh sting of your Beast's hunger control you, and through steeled principles you are a master of your own actions. The beast rarely gets through to you, and if it does, you are able to keep it in the back of your mind while you feed.
You are able to eat and drink all human food and process it without having to throw it up- although it does not sate your Hunger.
With the beast within you leashed, you require much less blood to thrive. You get a pool of 3 dice to rouse your blood at the start of each night, and still only require 1 success to avoid getting hungrier.
The allure of spilled blood does not affect you as much anymore. You have a +2 dice bonus to Frenzy checks when you smell blood at Hunger 4 or higher.
You take only superficial damage to sunlight every turn when exposed to it.
You are capable of dreaming while in Daysleep.
Torpor Length:  24 Hours
Humanity 8: Many good-intentioned and philanthropic humans are at this level. Most Kindred at this level are freshly turned and the seductive whispers of their Beast haven't taken over their subconscious yet. You remember what you used to be and what you can become if you stop caring about your convictions. To remain at this level takes good self control and strong principles… or guilt. 
You are able to drink wine and process it without having to throw it up- although it does not sate your Hunger. 
With the beast within you leashed, you require less blood to thrive. You get a pool of 2 dice to rouse your blood at the start of each night, and still only require 1 success to avoid getting hungrier.
The allure of spilled blood is easier to resist. You have a +1 die bonus to Frenzy checks when you smell blood at Hunger 4 or higher.
You are capable of dreaming while in Daysleep.
Torpor Length: 3 Days
Humanity 7: This is the average level of most humans. You have a good sense of what is socially appropriate, and enough care in your heart to at least do right by the people around you. As a Kindred, your Beast gnaws at the back of your mind, an omnipresent reminder that you can never be truly satisfied unless you act selfishly. 
You are able to drink and stomach wine as if you have Eat Food activated, however you must throw it up by the end of the night.
You are capable of dreaming while in Daysleep.
Torpor Length: One Week
Humanity 6: Most humans do not sink any lower than this level. You are motivated mostly by your own interests and interests that serve your closest friends. It is easy to make it a habit to satisfy the Beast's urges, so long as doing so doesn't backfire on you later. What's the harm in indulging once and awhile? 
You are capable of dreaming while in Daysleep.
Human logic often eludes you when faced with your kind's greatest fears. The difficulty of Terror frenzy checks is +1.
Torpor Length: Two Weeks 
Humanity 5: Honestly, who cares what others think anyway? You know what you're doing, and your instincts are often right. It's often difficult for you to put the needs of others before your own when you are hungry. You find yourself needing to sate your beast before you can clear your head and make the "right" decisions with careful thought. 
Your dominance over your natural prey is absolute. Mental disciplines always succeed against ordinary humans (even if they are not unsuspecting) if your dicepool for the roll is greater than their counterroll by a margin of 4.
Human logic eludes you when faced with your kind's greatest fears. You always Terror frenzy when taking damage from sunlight or fire.
Torpor Length: One Month
Humanity 4: The Beast is difficult to deny. It takes a great deal of mental fortitude to put off opportunities to feed, and much more to make sure your prey is comfortable when you do. It's easy to slip into selfish habits, ignore the feelings of others, and become a monster- especially when doing so only harms others rather than yourself.
Your dominance over your natural prey is absolute. Mental disciplines always succeed against ordinary humans (even if they are not unsuspecting) if your dicepool for the roll is greater than their counterroll by a margin of 3.
Human logic eludes you when faced with your kind's greatest fears. You always Terror frenzy at the sight of sunlight and large fires.
Torpor Length: One Year
Humanity 3: It is nearly impossible to look at humans and not see walking sacks of blood. Every moment of consciousness your blood tells you to indulge, or otherwise feed your deepest desires… and only the threat of societal and social consequences for doing so stops you.
Your dominance over your natural prey is absolute. Mental disciplines always succeed against ordinary humans (even if they are not unsuspecting) if your dicepool for the roll is greater than their counterroll pool by a margin of 2.
Your beast is attuned to the aroma of blood humans carry. You have a +1 die bonus to rolls attempting to locate specific humans you've either fed from or detected the Resonance of within 24 hours by utilizing their scent. The area you can track within is no larger than a single average room (human noses simply aren't that good).
You have a reckless ferocity befitting a rabid animal. You have a +1 die bonus to Athletics, Brawl, and Melee rolls.
Embracing your inhuman qualities, disciplines are easier for you to use. When using disciplines that require rouse checks, you can roll 2 dice instead of 1, and still only require one success in order to avoid getting hungrier. 
More monster than person, the traditional banes of vampires are more effective against you. You take +1 more aggravated damage from fire and sunlight every turn you are exposed to it. 
Human logic eludes you when faced with your kind's greatest fears. You always Terror frenzy at the sight of sunlight and large fires.
Torpor Length: Ten Years
Humanity 2: Very few Kindred reach this level of humanity under the jurisdiction of the Camarilla, as the utter lack of shame and self-awareness characteristic of "humanity" is gone by this point. Powerful individuals at this level are rarely negotiable and only act in their own self-interests. Only Touchstones are able to break through to you at this level and keep you in check if those interests are harmful.
Your dominance over your natural prey is absolute. Mental disciplines always succeed against ordinary humans (even if they are not unsuspecting) if your dicepool for the roll is greater than their counterroll pool by a margin of 1.
Your beast is well-attuned to the aroma of blood humans carry. You have a +2 dice bonus to rolls attempting to locate specific humans you've either fed from or detected the Resonance of within 24 hours by utilizing their scent. The area you can track within is no larger than a single spacious room.
You have a reckless ferocity befitting a rabid animal. You have a +2 die bonus to Athletics, Brawl, and Melee rolls.
Embracing your inhuman qualities, disciplines are easier for you to use. When using disciplines that require rouse checks, you can roll 3 dice instead of 1, and still only require one success in order to avoid getting hungrier. 
More monster than person, the traditional banes of vampires are much more effective against you. You take +2 more aggravated damage from fire and sunlight every turn you are exposed to it. 
Human logic eludes you when faced with your kind's greatest fears. You always Terror frenzy at the sight of sunlight and small fires.
Torpor Length: 50 Years
Humanity 1: Barely holding on to humanity, only the most desperate pleas from loved ones can prevent you from giving in to your Beast's overwhelming urges. Kindred at this level often don't survive unless they are powerful enough to fight against attempts to slay them- Hunters or otherwise. As a PC, it is often wise to invest EXP in raising your Humanity level at an appropriately cinematic moment when the raw power of this level is no longer needed.
Your dominance over your natural prey is absolute. Mental disciplines always succeed against ordinary humans (even if they are not unsuspecting) if your dicepool for the roll is greater than or equal to their counterroll pool.
Your beast is highly attuned to the aroma of blood humans carry. As a well practiced stalker of prey, you have a +3 dice bonus to rolls attempting to locate specific humans you've either fed from or detected the Resonance of within 24 hours by utilizing their scent. The area you can track within is no larger than a single building. 
You have a reckless ferocity befitting a rabid animal. You have a +3 die bonus to Athletics, Brawl, and Melee rolls. 
Embracing your inhuman qualities, disciplines are easier for you to use. When using disciplines that require rouse checks, you can roll 4 dice instead of 1, and still only require one success in order to avoid getting hungrier. 
More monster than person, the traditional banes of vampires are especially effective against you. You take +3 more aggravated damage from fire and sunlight every turn you are exposed to it. 
Human logic eludes you when faced with your kind's greatest fears. You always Terror frenzy at the sight of sunlight and fire, no matter the size.
Torpor Length: 100 Years
Humanity 0: A Wight- Kindred who have fully embraced the beast and lost all semblance of their former selves. Wights are impulsive, monstrous vampires who operate entirely on an overwhelming desire to feed. They are capable of pretending to be human by rousing their blood and using higher-level problem solving skills, but this often serves to make them more terrifying assailants. Due to the drastic nature of this level, a fitting story event should be discussed between the player and Storyteller before a character reaches it.
PCs who reach this humanity level are no longer controlled by their players and effectively become hostile NPCs with all the gameplay buffs and debuffs of Humanity 1. 
Characters at this level may raise their level back to Humanity 1 if they are at zero Hunger, and a touchstone attempts to "bring them back"- an action which the Storyteller may decide the difficulty of. 
Wights are not often able to articulate intelligent thoughts. They cannot use Dominate disciplines other than Compel.
Torpor Length: 300+ Years
Thanks for reading and let me know if you like it or even if you want to use it for a game! I hope it made the descent to becoming a wight specifically make more sense. (How does being comically evil at Humanity 1 transition to mindless animal at Humanity 0?) Additionally, I hope this makes wights seem a little bit more threatening and impactful to potential narratives. Imagine a Humanity 0 vampire passing as a human in the sole pursuit of feeding to kill. Pretty scary! The dichotomy I was going for was high humanity makes it easier to live a "normal" human life that doesn't need to do much vampire stuff, while low humanity makes it easier to be a terrifying threat to humans.
Also, please forgive any grammatical or formatting mistakes, I wrote all this on a separate document and tried to copy paste it onto the mobile web browser version and you know how that goes.
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feverishly-kpop · 1 year ago
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Yeosang & Ateez - Under the Weather
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Yeosang was miserable. Beyond miserable. And he was alone.
Logically he understood that coming down with something the day that they were set to begin filming their new variety show meant that he’d have to stay behind while the others went to work. But, given the state of fog his brain was in, Yeosang couldn’t help but feel a little bitter about being left by himself.
Yeosang had been in and out of consciousness all day after waking up that morning feeling like he had been hit by a bus. He vaguely remembered hearing Yunho on the phone with Seonghwa but he hadn’t been able to make out exactly what they were talking about. He picked up a few words here and there, like “exhausted,” “nauseous,” and “overworked.”
“Stop talking about me” Yeosang muttered under his breath to nobody but himself before pulling the edges of his blankets in closer, trying to will himself to stay awake until Yunho was off the phone. He wasn’t entirely successful.
After a few minutes Yeosang was roused by Yunho knocking on his door.
“I have to go,” Yunho said sadly, looking down at his feet. “Seonghwa-hyung wants you to stay in bed and he said he’ll come over and check on you once we are done with filming.”
Yeosang didn’t respond, only turning his back toward Yunho. Yunho sighed, feeling guilty about having to leave Yeosang alone in his condition.
“I’m sorry somebody can’t stay with you” Yunho added. “Is there anything I can get you before I leave?” Yeosang shook his head but, once again, said nothing.
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After a few hours of restless sleep Yeosang woke to the sound of keys rattling and the apartment door opening. Assuming that filming was finished and Yunho was home Yeosang closed his eyes again, hoping to get a few more minutes of sleep before Seonghwa stopped by to check up on him. He was surprised, however, when he heard his bedroom door open and the sound of soft footsteps approaching. Without a word he felt the side of his bed dip down behind him and a warm body getting comfortable under the covers with him.
Typically Yeosang wasn’t very fond of skinship or cuddling, but he had to admit that the extra warmth felt amazing. He had been bitterly cold all day, no matter how many blankets he piled on top of himself.
“What are you doing here, Wooyoung?” Yeosang asked, not even having to look over his shoulder to know who had joined him. “Is filming done?”
“No, they’re still filming. Probably for a few more hours. But I told Seonghwa-hyung that I was feeling sick and Hongjoong sent me home” Wooyoung responded in a matter of fact tone as he snuggled in closer to Yeosang.
“Shit, Woo, did I get you sick? Are you sick to your stomach? We can get you some medication…” Yeosang started before being interrupted.
“I’m not actually sick, Sang” Wooyoung interjected. “I just felt bad that you were here all alone. So I just…pretended. Maybe I should audition for a drama…”
Yeosang laughed for a second before his laugh turned into a cough.
“You’re shivering” Wooyoung said sadly after Yeosang’s cough had passed. He quickly disentangled himself from Yeosang and got out of bed before returning with another blanket.
“Did you just take that from Yunho’s bed?” Yeosang asked, already knowing the answer.
“It’s fine, he doesn’t need it right now” Wooyoung replied, draping the blanket over Yeosang and climbing back into bed, once again wrapping himself around Yeosang.
Yeosang instantly relaxed, the extra warmth and the presence of his friend providing enough comfort for him to fall asleep again.
“Hey Sangie” Wooyoung whispered Yeosang’s ear just before he was about to doze off. “If hyungs ask, I was really sick when I got back, okay? Burning up. Throwing up. All of it.”
Yeosang smiled and nodded. If he had to lie to have his friend there to take care of him when he was feeling sick, Yeosang had no problem with it.
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angstmongertina · 1 month ago
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7KPP Week: Day 2
Once again, I'm late (this time a full day already!), and my fic is tangentially related at best, so I'll add some rambling underneath about what some actual dates might be!
Anyway, day 2 is date night, here featuring a little fic of Temperance and @teaandinanity's Nisha and some discussion of NPC!Tempy and Lia!
As before, more 7KPP nonsense under the cut!
The musicale was a rousing success. That was apparent enough from the applause after the performance and the smiles of the guests as they bid Lady Nisha and herself—though, admittedly, far more towards Nisha, the official hostess of the event—farewell. And yet, Temperance hardly noticed, entranced as she still was by the melodies still dancing in her mind, the images of the violinist drawing his bow across the strings, clear and confident and with passion in every single note.
If she were to be perfectly honest with herself, she hardly cared for the social sense, but at least in the artistic sense, the musicale certainly was a success as well.
It wasn't until Nisha had bounced up to her, with far more speed and enthusiasm than her typical languorous movements would suggest, that she noticed the emptiness of the room. Their guests had all swiftly made themselves scarce, no doubt preparing for the introductions later in the day, while the performers packed up their instruments, murmuring in voices too low to be heard, even despite the acoustics of the room.
And judging by the glint in Nisha's eyes, it was a relative solitude that she intended to take full advantage of.
"I see your sister's descriptions of your musical talent were no exaggeration, Princess."
In spite of herself, she stiffened, the denial falling off her tongue with practiced ease. "You are too kind, Lady Nisha, and Princess Constance far too generous with her compliments."
"I, too kind?" A hidden smirk tugged at the corner of her mouth. "I fear Lord Blain - who has a far longer-standing acquaintance with me - would vociferously disagree with that assessment. Though, I suppose your sister's compliments carried less weight after a closer acquaintance with her… expertise.”
On instinct, she smothered her laugh, a hand clapped over her mouth before the sound, harsh and inelegant, could escape. Given the still brighter grin she received in response, however, she only partially succeeded.
And oddly, she did not really care.
She did, however, pause, looking at her new friend more carefully. "She demonstrated her musical talents?" That, even more so than the letter Lady Nisha had cheerfully delivered to her, was an indication of her sister's trust; Temperance could count on one hand the number of times her sister had voluntarily performed—if her off-tune warbling could be called that—in front of her, let alone to others of their acquaintance.
“In a matter of speaking. She happened upon my serenading of a not quite empty courtyard, you see, and gave my performance a most impressive encore."
Judging from Nisha's satisfied expression, it was hardly so simple, but before she could formulate a proper response and despite her best efforts to avoid it, she found herself tugged forward to sit at the piano, and looked back up at her friend.
"She also revealed your aptitude for music," Nisha offered, nodding towards the instrument.
Barely restraining a start, she looked down, to where her hands had instinctively settled into position for a simple minuet, and let them drop, fingers slipping from the polished ivory keys into her lap as she shook her head. "You exaggerate. It was only a few brief lessons, several months' duration at most, and many years ago now." She twisted her fingers in her lap. "Certainly hardly worthy of a beautiful instrument such as this."
"The instrument would much rather be played, I think, and if you won't, then I will."
Lady Nisha's words were a threat and one she intended to follow through, she discovered, torn between amusement and horror as her friend leaned over, fingers twisting into some facsimile of her previous position and coaxing out notes more discordant than she thought would have been possible. Even the musicians paused their conversation to glance over, and she flushed, barely resisting the un-princess-like urge to knock Nisha's hands aside.
The lady in question straightened up and winked. "Last chance?"
"Fine." She sighed, though surely even the swiftly retreating observers could see her faint smile as she settled her fingers back into position and began to play.
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Tempy is quite the musician, and if coaxed into it, will play music for a friend who might ask it of her. In particular, should you be interested in practicing any dancing, she is a very willing musician, though not a participant--she is rather nearsighted and lack of corrective lenses (because princesses do not need glasses) has made her rather clumsy. Because of this, she has memorized much of her repertoire and can perform without sheet music, if properly encouraged.
And as a bonus for Tea, Lia is similarly musically inclined, though as a mom friend through and through, her date will vary a bit more depending on what she senses you might need. For some, this might be a calming walk by the lake, while for others, this may be a meal and some light conversation, or even time spent in companionable silence in the library. If she likes you and suspects you are harboring feelings for someone, she may even try to matchmake, giving you opportunities to interact with your beloved, in whatever form would be most helpful. Even if she may be harboring feelings for the same person.
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xalygatorx · 1 year ago
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Worthy (2015) | Chapter 5, "Matters of Change"
Disappearing sporadically in public spaces quickly becomes Cora Dempsey's least concerning problem when suddenly she captures the attention of the forming Avengers Initiative, the World Security Council, and Asgard's fallen prince all in one week. And the universe is only just getting started with her.
Worthy is a slow-burn SFW Marvelverse (films) romance between Loki and a female OC. For additional details on what canon is used, see the Prologue post.
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Summary: Loki is sent on an errand and is a little too successful. The two have a heart-to-heart and get to know each other a little better. The more Cora realizes who she’s dealing with now, the more Loki realizes the same of her.
Pairing: Loki x Fem!OC
Warnings: None.
Word Count: 2.3k
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Cora's limbs felt stiff and pained when she roused the next morning, her eyelids heavy even as she lifted them to peer around the room. For the first few seconds of waking, she had a lapse in memory and wondered where she was. However, realization dawned and she sighed, turning over in her makeshift bed of old blankets and a flour sack she'd found in a few of the dust-coated boxes toward the back where the light-switch had been.
She wasn't awake for more than a couple minutes when her stomach growled quietly. It wasn't like Cora was surprised she was ravenous—after all, she hadn't eaten in probably twenty-four hours by now—but it was a bit of an inconvenience for her body to demand food when she had none to give it. Maybe if she just snuck out and went somewhere nearby, she wouldn't need to aggravate the man who was already pretty aggravated with her, but also blessedly keeping her off SHIELD's radar for the time being.
Cora started to get up when she glanced toward the opposite wall, surprised to see Loki and even more surprised to see him asleep.
He sat like the warriors she'd seen in old paintings, his back against the wall and his legs pulled up closer to his chest. His arms rested over his kneecaps and, while she was sure he could spring to action at the drop of a hat, he looked so peaceful. So peaceful, in fact, she wasn't sure if he was even the same person she'd been dealing with the day before. There was none of the anger, the bitterness, or the exasperation etched into the subtle lines on his face; he looked young and, if anything, he looked quite serene.
It didn't last long though; within seconds of her looking at him, he'd opened his eyes and they'd immediately focused on her, his brow creasing with a question. "Going somewhere?" he asked quietly, pointedly.
She felt the chill seep into her bones just from his tone and she wondered how someone could have that much influence with only their voice. She shook it off and said, "Yes, actually."
Loki hadn't been entirely expecting her straightforward answer without at least a little fearful cowering, but he was starting to get the impression that there were absolute multitudes of differences between this woman and the others he'd known in his long lifetime, and not only the mortal ones. "And what makes you think that?"
"I'm hungry and I want food," she murmured matter-of-factly.
"Ah yes. I forgot how pathetically needy your little systems are," he sighed before standing, running a hand absently over his hair. "Very well. Where may I procure food?"
"Whoa, whoa, whoa, I said I'd go," Cora argued, frowning as she got up, too, trying to right her tousled locks while maintaining a staring match with him.
He looked at her in that strange way he did sometimes, like he was measuring her up and taking apart everything she was to put it into a more understandable equation. "No."
"Excuse me?"
Loki glared and retorted, "You heard me, mortal."
Lifting up the hammer she still had tied loosely around her wrist, Cora scowled and murmured quietly, "I will use this."
He raised a brow and pressed a single fingertip against the hammer, guiding it down from his face. He wasn't willing to admit it, but his jaw still smarted a little from where she'd hit it the night before. To his slight consolation, he noticed that the knuckles of her dominant hand—which now held Mjolnir in only a marginally less threatening grip—were bruised. Though he paused to wonder why that sight bothered him as well…
"Are you even listening?"
Loki blinked and looked at her. "There was nothing said worth my listening, but you listen close," he said as her expression turned comically affronted and he felt more than ever that she might actually swing that infernal weapon at him. "I am denying your request because of that."
"I only threatened you with it because—"
"Sh, just listen to me a moment," he murmured with a strain for patience that surprised both of them. "It would be conspicuous and warrant questions. However, if you were to separate it from yourself, it may be recalled. Not only that, but you are wanted by the government sect; they will be looking for you. My face is not yet known here."
Cora frowned before gustily sighing; he made a good point. "Want to give me a general sense of where we are so I can tell you where to go?" At his frown of displeasure at her having forgotten that he didn't know their exact location, she sighed and rephrased, "Have you seen any places around here that look like they sell food?"
"There was a shop I passed yesterday that appeared to have breads in the window…"
"Good, okay, go there and… Do I really only have a fifty?" she murmured with a frown when she pulled her money from her pocket. She shrugged and instructed, "All right, go back to that shop and get two—no, three—plain bagels with cream cheese for me and get something for yourself, too. Then give the person behind the counter this. She'll give you smaller counts of money back. Bring that and the food back here. Understand?"
"Are you giving me orders?" he asked, not looking at all happy about being talked to like a child.
"Yes, I am, because you're new here."
"I have used currency before, you know."
"I'm sure you have."
"But what is a 'bagel'?"
"What depressing world did you come from where there aren't bagels?" He scowled and she waved her hands a little, the hammer swinging a bit and smacking her lightly in the ribs. "Okay, okay, I was kidding! Jokes, remember, I'm still under the impression that I'm funny! Now, go."
"…Just stay here," Loki growled before he walked out of the warehouse.
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Forty-five minutes later, Cora was listening to her stomach moan again when the door opened. At first she panicked because she didn't see the familiar hulking form of black and green she was getting used to, but she soon realized it was Loki, just…
"What are you wearing?" she asked in surprise.
Loki looked over his shoulder at her with a blank expression before giving a small, "Oh," of recognition and dropping the illusion of a blue button-up shirt and jeans from his frame, his Asgardian attire returning beneath. "Blending in." Cora had to admit, she hadn't minded what he'd picked out. She minded even less the mouthwatering smell of fresh baked goods that hit her after a few seconds of the door being closed. "Did it not look inconspicuous?"
"You looked fine. The blue was a good color on you," Cora answered honestly. "I hope my change didn't fade along with your illusion though." She only had so much money and if she was going to be on the run for a while, she'd need to really use it sparingly. Luckily, their breakfast only would've cost around six bucks.
Loki held out his hand and dropped a few coins into her hand. She waited patiently for the rest and it was only then that she looked at the box he was carrying, noting the massive size of it. "…And the rest?"
"What 'rest'?"
"…You spent forty-nine dollars on bagels?"
Loki got a bit defensive as he noted, "I require sustenance as well."
"How many bagels are in that box?"
"…Sixty."
"SIXTY."
"Yes, sixty! Is there a problem?"
"You better be eating about fifty-six of them. Hell, yes, it's a problem! I only had fifty dollars!"
Loki didn't like the way her incredulity was making him scramble to explain, almost as if he valued her opinion of him or something equally outlandish, but he hastened grumpily, "Look, I will replenish your funds and this will be more than enough food for a while yet, so…" He trailed off when he realized she'd broken into a fit of laughter. "What amuses you?" he demanded, his face reddening a little.
Cora had been mad at first. Rather feverishly so. But the fact that this alien god-who-would-be-king had dropped nearly fifty dollars on a box of bagels because "he was hungry, too," had gradually sent her from frustration to endearment then, ultimately, to sheer amusement.
"Nothing," she laughed, wiping tears from her eyes. Perhaps it was because this was easily the most uncomplicated, absurd problem she'd faced in the past few days. It felt good to have a bit of a laugh. "Did they at least give you enough stuff to put on them?"
Loki nodded tightly and inclined his head toward a bag he had balanced on top of the box.
"And a knife?" she asked, still smiling as she looked at him. He checked the bag and shook his head. "All right, I bet there's something of use in here. Go ahead and start." She got up and went to scour through a few of the boxes at the back of the warehouse, where more trivial supplies seemed to be kept, though he heard her laugh a little more once she thought she was out of earshot.
Loki sat down against the wall and opened the box, taking out one of the circular breads before tearing off a piece and experimentally popping it into his mouth. He had to admit, it wasn't bad.
He'd gotten through two before Cora returned, a pack of napkins and a box of plastic knives in her hand. She sat down next to him—a bit too close for his immediate comfort, though she'd not meant anything by it—and tore open the plastic with the edge of her nail, taking out a knife and opening the bag for one of the cream cheese tubs that had come with the obnoxiously large box of bagels. She was still giggling about it, but she was able to keep silent, which she thought was enough until he asked, "Do you normally vibrate when you eat?"
"Shut up," she told him, a tiny laugh escaping her and earning an indignant glare from the god at her side when he realized she was still humored by the stunt he'd pulled. Cora popped the lid off the tub and dipped the edge of her knife in before slathering cream cheese across the half she had balanced in her hand. He watched her and, a moment later, copied by putting some on the edge of his own, just enough to taste, finding that somehow with that addition, the already-delectable bagels managed to get even better.
Content that her appetite was finally being appeased, Cora started on the second half of her first bagel, but she'd sobered from her laughter. She really couldn't remember the last time she'd honestly laughed, at least for the few weeks this dangerous dance with SHIELD had been going on. Loki noticed the change in her just seconds after it took place, not looking at her as he asked, "Has your anger toward me renewed?"
"Why would that matter to you?" she asked a bit rhetorically though he was wondering the same thing. "No and I wasn't angry with you before either. Maybe a little frustrated, but not anymore."
"Then what ails you?"
Cora frowned before giving a general wave of her hand. "All of this. How things could've changed so much in, well, just three weeks or so."
"It is hardly something for which to look so somber. You have not been captured—by the agents, anyway—and you are alive. You have power, is that not pleasing to you?"
Cora shook her head a little after some thought, her eyes downcast toward her knife, which was absently milling cheese into the very pores of her breakfast. "No. Not in this world," she said quietly. She smiled a little bitterly. "I'm a freak. The looks on those people's faces in Central Park, in the subway, when I…"
"Most do not value what they do not understand, they spurn it, but why lay so low as to accept their misconceptions? Who cares how they look at you?"
"You don't understand," she said and, above her downturned gaze, Loki opened his mouth to argue that yes, he did, more than anyone, but he stopped, his left hand tightening. Even so, his frame had subconsciously relaxed beside hers throughout their feast and conversations, and that did not change even then.
They ate in silence for a bit longer before they'd demolished about a third of the box, Loki having done most of the damage. As he was working on his last, Cora heard him say, "We will work on it in the time we have here."
"What?" Cora asked in confusion, looking up at him.
He didn't look at her, but he did clarify in a rather stony voice after swallowing the last bit of his breakfast, "Your gifts. We will work on them."
Cora wanted to argue that they weren't gifts, that the strange invisibility thing she did and the capability for her to lift the hammer were the curses that had brought SHIELD upon her head, but she didn't. If anything, she was surprised he was offering at all.
Learn what you can, from who you can, right? she figured silently as she nodded in confirmation that she would indeed see what he could teach her.
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Next chapter: Chapter 6, Lessons in Worth
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