#but it still sucks

[teaboot]

if anyone is interested in the current situation on Canadian Healthcare, it is 6:45 in the morning and I am in line for the 8:00 opening of the only walk-in clinic in the city, which takes no appointments, has only one doctor, is full by 8:30, and closes at 1pm.

There are two people ahead of me, and they brought folding chairs from home.

[interstellarsystem]

I think we've talked about dysphoria from not having your abilities/powers that you remember having/should have, but I don't think we've talked about fear relating to it.

I mean, a normal human body is weak and hardly has any defense compared to what I could do. It would be like taking the hard scales and spikes from a dragon--you feel exposed, you're missing a part of you that kept you safe.

But.. we're disabled, on top of that. Not only am I weaker than I was before, but my body can't hold up to a lot of those around me who would otherwise be on similar levels. I can't stand for long. If I walk too much in a day my knees try to give out, and hurt for a week after. I can't throw a good punch. I can hardly even balance without a cane half the time. You've taken that metaphorical dragon, removed his spikes, teeth, claws, scales, wings and fire, and now he is soft. He's only skin and brittle bone. Now he is unsafe around other dragons--he wouldn't be able to win if some fight were to break out. He wouldn't be able to save himself.

It's that feeling of wrongness, of exposure, of knowing that so many things are threats now that weren't before. There's so much more that can get you. It's worse than the dysphoria itself. I would care less about losing what I had if I knew I could defend my system in this body, but I can't.

It's horrible.

[loveydoveylex]

I wish canon x canon didn't affect me the way it does

[sunflowerdigs]

It's so frustrating that even though Loki is canonically attracted to men, Lokius fans are still somehow delusional. Like, when does it become not delusional to ship the bisexual character with a man he's clearly very fond of? The whole Loki bisexual reveal seems to rest on the tacit understanding that Loki will never actually feel or act on any attraction to a man, and that's reflected in fan reaction to queer Loki ships. It's like the character is, for all intents and purposes, straight...but Marvel gets to call him bi for diversity points. It's kinda bullshit and I don't love it.

[awakefor48hours]

People love the idea of ADHD until I start to talk about the fact that I imagine killing my loved ones and struggle to feel like a real person.

[yamisnuffles]

I've been ghosted by a lot of friends over the years and man, it always hurts. To have people you spent a lot of time with, who you thought cared as much about you as you did about them, just disappear? It really stings.

[jaybirdscoffee]

can someone explain to me why binding in any form when you have a large chest is hell no matter what you do

[coffeeandinsanityy]

I wish a man's value wasnt decided just by his assets, his money and how much he can provide.

[mouseplaid]

been looking into therapy for my ocd and ive found two therapists in my area im going to look into and its almost $200 a session and they dont accept insurance...love that! love being born with a horrible life ruining mental disorder and having to pay $700-$800 a month to try and heal from it :)))))))))

[daydreamerwonderkid]

Ngl the past 6 months have probably been the most emotionally and mentally taxing I've had in a good while.

Doing my best not to give myself shit for barely writing or doing any art. Trying to keep myself occupied with crocheting huge blankets and cooking new recipes while I binge watch every silly Cdrama or Kdrama I come across.

There's still a couple weeks left of 2024, but I gotta be real with y'all. I'm so ready for it to be over. Wish I could speedrun to 2025.

Bleh.

[oopsidownloadeditagain]

If I had a nickle for each horror game protagonist who turns out to be a horrible person who had the same name as me, I'd have 2 nickles. It isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice.

[red-enby]

nothing hurts more than art you were really proud of not doing well at all compared to your other art 😀😀

[glugglugs]

Woke up with a cold and now I have to present training and im so MAD because I haven't even BEEN anywhere other than to get travel vaccinated and I was masked the whole time and walked back which means the only culprit is the friend we had over the weekend

[rexxdjarin]

I think the vast majority of this fandom has forgotten I exist as a writer/artist/creator

most of my work hasn’t been touched in months

which is really deflating

[the-brutal-hymn-of-gunpowder]

Someone stole my fucking CD´s from my mail box. My life is a fucking disaster. Im gonna burn something.

[pizzaqueen]

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