#but it still sucks

[teaboot]

if anyone is interested in the current situation on Canadian Healthcare, it is 6:45 in the morning and I am in line for the 8:00 opening of the only walk-in clinic in the city, which takes no appointments, has only one doctor, is full by 8:30, and closes at 1pm.

There are two people ahead of me, and they brought folding chairs from home.

[interstellarsystem]

I think we've talked about dysphoria from not having your abilities/powers that you remember having/should have, but I don't think we've talked about fear relating to it.

I mean, a normal human body is weak and hardly has any defense compared to what I could do. It would be like taking the hard scales and spikes from a dragon--you feel exposed, you're missing a part of you that kept you safe.

But.. we're disabled, on top of that. Not only am I weaker than I was before, but my body can't hold up to a lot of those around me who would otherwise be on similar levels. I can't stand for long. If I walk too much in a day my knees try to give out, and hurt for a week after. I can't throw a good punch. I can hardly even balance without a cane half the time. You've taken that metaphorical dragon, removed his spikes, teeth, claws, scales, wings and fire, and now he is soft. He's only skin and brittle bone. Now he is unsafe around other dragons--he wouldn't be able to win if some fight were to break out. He wouldn't be able to save himself.

It's that feeling of wrongness, of exposure, of knowing that so many things are threats now that weren't before. There's so much more that can get you. It's worse than the dysphoria itself. I would care less about losing what I had if I knew I could defend my system in this body, but I can't.

It's horrible.

[loveydoveylex]

I wish canon x canon didn't affect me the way it does

[sunflowerdigs]

It's so frustrating that even though Loki is canonically attracted to men, Lokius fans are still somehow delusional. Like, when does it become not delusional to ship the bisexual character with a man he's clearly very fond of? The whole Loki bisexual reveal seems to rest on the tacit understanding that Loki will never actually feel or act on any attraction to a man, and that's reflected in fan reaction to queer Loki ships. It's like the character is, for all intents and purposes, straight...but Marvel gets to call him bi for diversity points. It's kinda bullshit and I don't love it.

[awakefor48hours]

People love the idea of ADHD until I start to talk about the fact that I imagine killing my loved ones and struggle to feel like a real person.

[yamisnuffles]

I've been ghosted by a lot of friends over the years and man, it always hurts. To have people you spent a lot of time with, who you thought cared as much about you as you did about them, just disappear? It really stings.

[jaybirdscoffee]

can someone explain to me why binding in any form when you have a large chest is hell no matter what you do

[coffeeandinsanityy]

I wish a man's value wasnt decided just by his assets, his money and how much he can provide.

[oopsidownloadeditagain]

If I had a nickle for each horror game protagonist who turns out to be a horrible person who had the same name as me, I'd have 2 nickles. It isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice.

[red-enby]

nothing hurts more than art you were really proud of not doing well at all compared to your other art 😀😀

[glugglugs]

Woke up with a cold and now I have to present training and im so MAD because I haven't even BEEN anywhere other than to get travel vaccinated and I was masked the whole time and walked back which means the only culprit is the friend we had over the weekend

[rexxdjarin]

I think the vast majority of this fandom has forgotten I exist as a writer/artist/creator

most of my work hasn’t been touched in months

which is really deflating

[the-brutal-hymn-of-gunpowder]

Someone stole my fucking CD´s from my mail box. My life is a fucking disaster. Im gonna burn something.

[pizzaqueen]

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[nightixx]

salaries in this damn country makes me cry

Why even going to college when the highest job will pay you the same as a cashier.

[borderlinereminders]

This is a personal vent, so feel free to scroll by.

I feel like I keep getting bad news after bad news.

Being an adult sucks a lot.

I missed over half my hours last month because I was so sick and still am, so I’m missing more hours today. In the same month my partners commissions got cut in half because of a survey (the question on the survey is “would you recommend this place to anyone?” And if people say “no,” he loses “points” even though they’re usually unhappy with the service they received by the mechanics vs him (he’s a service advisor and lets people know what services their vehicles need) and it sucks. Side note: please keep in mind that when doing surveys like these, it’s usually the employees that get punished.)

And we now have to spend $900 to fix his car. And I spent a lot of money last month fixing my vehicle. And my vehicle still has issues and safety concerns and I can’t afford to get it fixed. And I am so tired. In the same month we get less money than usual, we have more issues than usual. We live in a rural area with no available bussing and have to commute to work in two different directions.

The exact same month that my freezer went and we lost all our meat and other foods that I’d bought on sale that would have helped us not go grocery shopping this month.

I am frustrated at my body and at finances. And being an adult. And my fiancés employer.

I also feel like a failure even though a lot of this is out of my control. For not being able to work, and for having too much in the freezer so that we lost a lot of value.

I know it’ll all be okay in the end. And it’ll work out. But right now, feeling overwhelmed and just frustrated at everything. Except my dogs. My dogs are my lifeline. 10/10 for them.