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charmre · 2 months ago

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I've been working all day, if I have to see a Figma screen again tonight I'm gonna scream

#personal #and that's my cue to take a break for the night #but it feels like I got nothing done at the same time???? idk?????#like the website for the one class is cleaned up and designed but no new features have really been added #so it's almost like I made no progress??????? idk??????#and this has to be like a 10-15 min presentation but also this project only got started a few weeks ago #so like compared to others who have been working on a single project for the semester it's not as robust #and THAT'S what worries me in comparison #😞😞😞

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thegreatyin · 7 months ago

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this nemesis ambition started out a little slow but I am getting closer to finding that bastard who killed my wife, and I’ll not rest a minute now that im far closer to on his trail

sorry got in character for a second

Anyways fun ambition so far very fucked up though

congratulations on joining the murder club anon!!!! depending on who you ask the name refers to either people who have murdered or people who have witnessed murder. usually both. actually extremely often both. it's a swell time you'll feel right at home (don't mind our collective skyglass knife collection in the back)

#im still not far into nemesis personally but im very much enjoying it #honestly in a weird way it feels like it's moving faster than HD did. which. is funny bc nemesis is like The gated behind item grinds quest #idk. HD was a fun slowburn where we adventured around gathering our rogues gallery before the action kicked in #nemesis on the other hand feels like im picking up halfway through a batman serial #fallen london #ask #it's WAY more fucked up right off the bat than HD was. honestly ive thought abt red honey for ages. that's so fucked up #and we LEAD with that?? Okay #definitely a horrors-filled ambition befitting caeru (the guy who's constantly going through horrors)#it really encourages you to get fucked up and freaky and in ur character's headspace at basically every step along the way #i only have HD to compare it too but HD was like. a lot more interpretative in comparison? at least to me. that's what it felt like #and i adore HD for that dont get me wrong here #HD just also waited until like. halfway through before it asked what the scoundrel actually Wanted out of its heart's desire #nemesis in comparison is right off the bat who died? who are you mourning? anguish. justice. there must be vengeance.#it's a delightfully different vibe!! i like it!!!#oh god sorry anon im doing the classic yin talking way too much in the tags thing again #i havent had much excuse to talk abt nemesis and what i think of it so far and of course its rp effects on caeru #but i do have a handful of thoughts on it #it's good. im liking it so far. it's starting very strong if nothing else. and i have no spoiler knowledge of what happens in the future #beyond the choice between rewards at the very end #and im SO curious how we'll get to that point. what horrors will we adventure through next? off we go to find out!#it's biggest glaring weakness so far is how horrendously grindy it is. and like. ive been warned and done my research ahead of time #im doing it on the same account im seeking. i knew what i was getting into. but also gots damn.#in comparison HD's 5-card lodgings and dreamgate feel like footnotes #anyway while im already way too deep into rambling did you know the honey trip gives you fate?? insane. why does it do that. hilarious even

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pilonciillo · 1 month ago

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lol didn’t think someone giving money would give me anxiety

#to the judge that’s gonna see this case next year and the lawyer that is representing it assuming the state idk how this all works #why has the person to say the least get to go a whole year without consequence? a known criminal who after stealing from me and being #released and again getting arrest now for gang violence or some shit she was let go? she maybe associated to the group that killed that boy #last year. and here i am panicking because im afraid to carry cash. im paranoid that imma go outside and my car will be missing. i’m get #panic attacks when i drive to close to that gym and tired going back but physically cannot get out of my car and i start to cry in the #parking lot. i’m not sitting at work shaking forcing myself not to cry because someone handed me cash and i’m afraid someone is going to #steal my purse again. you think that’s not a big deal and honestly i didn’t think it was until my purse was gone. my cards stolen and used.#my key missing EVERYTHING in my purse GONE. so many things in there plus the purse i had money and all that is stuff i paid for now im out #all that cash i’m out 500$ for a key replacement i stopped feeling safe leaving my house all my non replaceable things gone and everyone #spoke to me like it was my fault and had to stand their crying while adults told me not to use a gym locker ??? but in the same breath telli #telling me this isn’t the first time she’s done this she has a warrant for her arrest she’s known to steal cars i’m the problem and there’s #nothing they can do to help me. so while i cry because all the money i had lost and never got back i had to do ALL the work to call my bank #track where my cards were being spent at call the jpay line she transferred money to look up the person she cashapped money to call the #business she was actively spending money at ask the manger if she is currently there and if they could give the police all the receipts and #video of her there for them to act like the hero’s for my brother and i tracking her down while you all belittled me #FUCK YOU AND FUCK HER i can’t be fucking normal about STUPID mundane shit i’m stuck here shaking and crying and what you tell me later it’s #not a big deal? give me all the content of your car and wallet or purse or backpack take nothing out and see what you’re left with and how m #much you need to spend to drive your car again and to tow your car home let a stranger have all your cards and address and tell me you feel #safe #OH and for the gym to tell me they know about her she used to be an employee there she doesn’t have a membership so they don’t know how she #got in and they can’t help but she did steal from another girl that night and an employee last month and who knows how many more ppl like #that’s convenient you pos sounds like she has friends that still work at the gym and open the back door for her or just let her in that’s #crazy no ? and this is all alleged because when if i lost all these things i can’t speak on what did or didn’t happen that’s some crazy bull #shit anyways the towing company felt bad for me maybe because i hadn’t stopped crying they gave me the key replacement number and told me to #mention he referred me so i could get a discount and the layman felt back for me because when i called him i started to cry and when he told #me the price i cried harder so 500$ was the cheapest but pretty much my whole check #key man*#bad** LET ME FIX TAGS #allegedly all these ppl are privileged kids from a privileged background that grew up in a sheltered community and thing there’s no #consequences to their actions because of the lack of accountability from their parents who willing pay for people to look the other way

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adriartts · 2 months ago

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alas, turns out grad school is hard so i haven't been drawing much of anything BUT. now. some side characters for yall

#original #ocs #art #satyrs #artists on tumblr #character design #Heiti Varrater #Tcham Bakome #Angus Singh #HAII. i've needed to design these 3 in particular for EVER. finally i have done eet #i actually. really REALLY like how bakome turned out. he looks FANTASTIC #bang on with this guy. he looks great #also rlly like how singh turned out. that dude is singh for sure #heiti.... she's giving me problems. as she does best #this is her 2nd design now and it's better than my first but theres something still missing. idk what #ill probably continue to refine her with time #grouping her with these 2 is kinda odd cause like. she has nothing to do with them other than being in the same general storyline #like she never really meets them?? maybe once for a brief period. idk i havent thought about it much #they're on different ships. theyre doin different things #but theyre all side characters that are relatively important SO. put them together #ive resigned to just. drawing humans with pointy ears. bcause why the fuck wouldnt i #every other species gets fun ears. give humans some point to em why not #there is a. range. of feelings about these guys #LOVE heiti. she sucks (affectionate). she's fantastic. obsessed with her #bakome has lots going on and im not even sure of most of it. but he is VERY interesting and he occupies a cool middle space of like.#doing no harm but preventing no harm either. doing no harm but allowing harm to be done. he has morality but he turns the other way #idk. i like him and i think he borders on sucks but either way he's interesting #and then there singh. god he sucks. he sucks so bad. worst of em all. captain worst #the harm that is being done is allowed by him because hes the captain and that's if hes not just doing it himself. fuck that guy #i do think hes fun tho. hes. a little flatter than bakome rn but hes still got SOME interesting stuff going on. just a lil

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago

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Hrmm... Revising my game and I feel like there's still sooo much writing left to do, for something that probably won't even amount to much, so.. I do want to narrow my focus more (especially given my health problems seeming to get worse/less energy the past few years), but I'm not sure how would be best to...

I currently have 5 characters as the Main ones with full planned questlines and such, with each character having 6 quests you can do for them. But I haven't really started the writing for the 5th main character. So then I was thinking, if I were going to write 6 full quests worth of content anyway... is it better to allocate that time on just doing a Complete 6 Quests for ONE single character, OR would it be better to do something like.. choose THREE side characters and do 2 quests for each of them? So that people have a wider variety to interact with and sort of sample around (of course with the idea that, once the first version of the game is released, IF people actually care about it enough to make it worth the effort, I would then add additional content to complete those 3 characters stories as well)

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SO... If you were playing an interactive fiction sort of game centered around talking to & doing quests for a cast of characters (like there's no larger plot, more it's just about interacting with people, every character kind of has a self contained story, the focus is just learning about them and the world and exploring the area) --- Which would you rather have?

(and of course it would be stated up front which characters have only partial questlines, so people don't expect them to have full quests like the others and then get disappointed, or etc. etc.)

Basically, is it better to just focus in specifically on having one fully complete questline? Or for there to be a few stories that are not complete yet, but have more initial options available?

#I guess I just feel weird about investing too much into characters if possibly nobody will like them. so the idea of being able to sample #around a wider variety opens up the option of like 'hey even if neither of these 4 are your favorite - you have 3 other options soon too!'#or whatever. BUT I also am very anti-the trend of releasing half finished games or shit like that where people preorder and then #the game sucks on actual release and isn't fully playable or good until 5 updates later #HOWEVER.. those are giant companies with hundreds of employees and millions in funding. I feel like it's different for someone #if they're just like ''hey I am getting zero money for this and doing it entirely on my own in my free time and before I do like 50+ hours #of work on top of the 100+ hours of work that I already did - I would like maybe to at least see some proof #people are interested in this - so I'm releasing the game with like a small amount of the originally intended content removed #that I still have planned out and hope to add later and the game is still entirely done and completely functional #except for just a few quests I might add later.. sorry'' etc. etc. ??? like I think that's different. but maybe some people dont see #it that way and would still be like 'grrr.. how dare there be unfinished options..>:V" idk #And the nature of the quests is such that it's not weird to have it be partial like.. again.there's no major plot. it's not like the quests #are leading up to some dramatic thing and having them half done would make it feel like a cliffhanger. It's meant to be very casual just #chilling and doing little tasks and such. And last thing to clarify I guess - by 'side character' I don't mean taking some unimportant bac #ground character and forcing them to have quests. I mean like.. originally the game had 8 full characters and I thought that was #too much so I cut it down to 5. So I still had everything planned for all the side characters too. Id' just be like.. re-giving them #quests and focuses that were already planned from the beginning but that I got rid of.. former main characters banished to the side lol..#ANYWAY... hrmm... hard to decide... It's just so niche I think. I feel more and more like I should just get it to a 'proof #of concept' state and get it out there to interest check rather than invest in it soooo much for nothing. Because I really do not have the #tastes other people do or interact with games or have interest in things in the same way. A lot of the stuff that I love (slow. character #focused things with basicaly no action or plot where its' just about getting to explore a world and learn about #people in a casual low stakes setting but ALSO not romance) I think people find very boring so... lol...#This year as I try to pick the project back up again after abandoning it for like 3 years I keep looking at stuff and going.. ough...#yeah... cut this maybe.. I should cut that too.. I should make them a side character.. remove this.. blah blah..#Though I did ADD a journal and inventory system and other things that like People Expect Games To Have so.. maybe #that will count for something.. hey..you can collect items.. it's not just 'talking to elves for 600 hours simulator'.. are you #entertained yet? lol.... When I was making my other tiny game for that pet website and I gave it to the play testers and someone was like #''it should have achievements so I feel I'm working towards something concrete'' I was literally so blindsided like..??... people WANT that #in games..? is the goal not simply to wander aimlessly &fixate on world/character lore& make your own silly pointless personal goals? I did #do them though because it IS fun to make up little achievement names and such but.. i fear i am out of touch so bad lol..

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pup-pee · 8 months ago

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y does it feel so SO wrong 2 share ur opinion???

#oh u solved the problem #urself!#like its not even about bing right or wrong its just about literally communicating & i think im doing it BAD #IM NOT AFRAID OF BING “H8ED” ON I JUST #i think i just dont like having the chance of making ppl feel bad?#or soemthing aloong those lines?#theres a line a vry easy line 2 cross #like expressing a comic book opinion right? bc its super easy 2 sway a bunch of ppl #but if ur saying smth u dont like it while some1 does it has the possibility of making that person feel bad #& I H8 THAT...idk y it makes me feel like shit????? @ the possibility???#this feels like smth i should bring up w/a therapist LMAOOOOOOO #but like same thing when i was in class right? giving a presentation i got RLLY SCARED 2 do it bc i was giving an opinion or a fact BUT I #COULD B WRONG ON THE FACT!! which is y i just never did them bc i would cry lol but its just #it kinda feels the same way #its weird bc im fine w/getting shit wrong. its only when i share an opinion when i feel stupid??????? ok not stupid just mean? i think? yea #this is possibly the reason y i get nervous sharing hcs or aus. bc it wont b “canon accurate” & then will like fuck up some1s perception id #its not like any1 reads this lashfkj i just hmmmmmmm theres defiantly smth i should b discovering here i just am not...#i want 2 share my opinion bc its a fucking opinion theres nothing wrong w/it bc its not a fact EXCEPT in the way its a fact of how i FEEL o #THINK?? like its just its strange. i think this has a lot 2 do w/me never bing listened 2 as a child LOL uhhhhhhhh hmmmmmm yeah prolly akj #I FIGURED IT OUT I GOT IT ALLLLLL UNLOCKED #god i hhhhhhhhhhh some1 make a clone of me so i can talk 2 me like a therapist or smth #this is y i cant do therapy actualyl its bc i just keep yapping then by the time im done the therapist always went tyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy #srry ramblings

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 1 year ago

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skipping class for the first time in my life bc my professor has covid and he sent out an email saying we’re having class and he’s asymptomatic and will wear a mask per cdc guidelines even tho he’s past the 5 day required isolation period. like. great whatevs but have you actually tested negative

update: the answer was no he had not

#stressed as FUCK #it’s fine we have a textbook and he doesn’t take roll #hoping he doesn’t do an extra credit activity but if i miss it for the sake of my health so be it #i have to go home afterwards anyway bc i have an appointment the next day with my thyroid dr #stressed abt that too bc my mum has dropped all precautions as if she isn’t in her 60s and didn’t lose her husband to covid #and idk what my sibling is doing but i know they’ve stopped masking at their practices and i wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped masking #all together. they also only wear cloth masks but at least it was something #idk i just feel like im the only one not ignoring it. like. when my dad got sick i asked him early on if he could smell and he was like #‘I’m just congested’ and my mum was like ‘no he’s just sick it’s not covid’ and then we waited until it was too late #like. i tell my mum that there’s nothing we could have done bc i don’t want her to feel guilty but like #idk. part of me thinks that if people had just listened to me and gotten him tested earlier and not lived in denial that maybe he’d still be #here. and my mum is pretty healthy but again she’s in her 60s. i don’t want to lose another parent to covid. or if she gets it and has it #bad or ends up with long covid then im gonna have to come home to take care of her or. idek. like i don’t live at home anymore so i can’t #pick up the slack if something happens to her. and my sibling definitely can’t #it’s so stressful. did we not watch the same process of my dad rapidly deteriorating. by the time we took him to the hospital he looked like #a corpse. he was completely grey and his eyes were glazed and he couldn’t even sit up or wave goodbye. has she just forgotten that happened #am i the only one who remembers watching my dad deteriorate in front of us #vent tw #covid tw

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skrunksthatwunk · 9 months ago

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fuck that last fight against nightmare boooooo this shit is actually so stupid and evil and i don't like it >:(

#it's. eugh. it's. FUCK #i don't like it it's so bad i've done it like 10 times now #eughhhhhhhghhhnghn #dmc #dmc1 #i still ahven't beaten it either.. sheeshhh #and i have to fight the stupid ice lizard things before a lot of the attempts too and half the time i can't dodge their jump thing because #i'm mid-combo so any indication of the wind-up to it can't actually be reacted to bc i'm busy getting hit or hitting #such that by the time the move is finished i literally can't get out of the way. often a roll isn't even enough range and they stand next t #each other so one roll's basically all i have time for anyway. sigh #whateverrr. this blows. this blows actual literal severe ass. ughhhhghh #dante. dante i believe in you i believe in us we can do this. but FUCK YOU NIGHTMARE YOU STUPID OOZE #arrrhghrhharzagraaaaa #sigh.. look the vulnerable points shouldn't only be available during 100% attacks in that area such that you take crazy damage if you #actually try to attack the part you have to attack before it goes away. and i've gotten so close ONLY FOR THE SECOND PHASE TO INITIATE AND #IMMEDIATELY KILL ME. BROOOOO WHAT ARE YOU DOINGG #look maybe i'm a pissbaby who's bad at video games but this pissbaby's got feelings #i should probably try a different weapon combo... sigh...#i did so bad on my alastor attempt that i've been using ifrit (i also like how fast the devil time is given the brevity of the weak spot's #appearances) but maybe sparda would be a better choice. but i like the devil trigger. i gotta listen to the song y'know. it's all about the #devil trigger babyy it's all about the devil time. and sparda's got nothing. maybe i should use that gun that looks like the goop #like. like is that a hint? idk i'd think if they were made of the same stuff it would be less effective #and i don't like that it seems to stunt your devil gauge. but if i'm using sparda anyway in for a penny in for a pound ig #whatever. rant over. i am. Calm (<- lying). so i'm gonna try again #and if i get mad again i'll do hw or something

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ummm-no · 2 years ago

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Truthfully I hate hearing people call me by name because it makes me immediately feel stressed like I’m in trouble. And because the moment someone says my name like it’s a nasty dirty word….I hear that tone every time they say my name from there on out whether they use it or not it just echoes through my brain.

#it doesn’t matter #I don’t matter #nothing fucking matters #I already just want to be alone #not really #but also yeah #I made a mistake and you act like it’s just me #being horrible all the time #like sorry I forgot that you actually cleaned for the the first time in weeks and weeks #and I assumed that the laundry that’s been sitting in the same spot for like two months was still dirty #like it was sitting in the exact same spot that it’s been in #of course I thought it was dirty #I had work yesterday and you didn’t tell me you washed it while I was at work #like I know you took a nap like you usually do while I’m gone and you got some other stuff done #idk I’m just rambling now #I just…you were the only person that hearing my name come out of your mouth didn’t cause me to have this tiny spike of anxiety #like you’d only ever said my name lovingly #like it’s a beautiful thing #and just…the derision in your voice made my whole body feel cold.#tired of this existence

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flashhwing · 2 years ago

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so I've established that an Anders rivalmance while still being a decent person is very difficult. what about Fenris? I'm considering replaying Oliver when I'm done with Ari and maybe rivalling Fenris this time. getting pro-mage rivalry points should be easy enough, but A Bitter Pill gives sooooo much friendship just for ..... not being a dick to him. so like. can it be done?

#the thing about Oliver is he only does fenrismance for the beginning of act 2 #getting his heart broken by Fenris is actually a Key Part of his character arc #i think it could be interestign to have him rival this time #....... then again may run into some of the same issues as rivalmancing anders as ari #because oliver is pro-templar in act one #last time i brought fenris everywhere act 1 and got his friendship to 100 before the deep roads even lol #also divided whether to do templar or warden carver #on the one hand carver becoming a templar is Also A Key Character Moment for Oliver #on the other hand p much any post da2 fic i write would have warden Carver just coz idk that's how my brain sees the worldstate #oliver's headspace is less. 'failed his family' than 'can't keep the people he loves by his side'#he feels like he's never enough #and fenris leaving and carver becoming a templar Feed Into that #and part of Oliver's arc is sort of coming to terms with the fact that neither of those were about him #nothing he could've done would have made them stay #anyway. don't be fooled by my liveblogging Ari playthrough. Oliver is my canon hawke #this has been a post

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bluefuecoco · 2 years ago

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it’s funny, cuz when i was finishing pokemon shield to help with dex completion in sword, i was able to finish it in like....less than a week. but trying to beat violet for dex completion in scarlet is like....taking forever cuz there’s so much more STUFF that needs to be done...

#it's kinda exhausting #i mean it's great having so much to do!#but also like....idk maybe it's a problem with video game culture now or just being on the internet #the same thing is happening with totk where like #there's so MUCH and i want to experience it all in my own time #but i feel like i have to play faster so nothing is spoiled for me #because so many people just...spread information all the time #i saw a screenshot of some characters that i havent even met yet and it was just like....#oh....ok.........i guess that got spoiled for me.....#i had to play scarlet so quickly because i wanted to get the story done before it was spoiled for me #idk now i'm sad....

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gelarshiesprofruitboarder · 2 months ago

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arts so stupid whyd i have to choose it to be The Thing I Do

#put effort into shit and spend hours on it and then it gets nothing and it sucks #or dont and either you get deserved nothing or you feel bad that the bad shit got popular #usually the first kne #god why couldn't i have done like literally anything else #is it my style i know its not the best but i didnt think it was that bad #or am i just not good at it. am i making myself look stupid #tumblrs fucking awful but everyones on here twitters barely better i get more but its just the same like 7 mutuals #shoutout those guys btw. love all of my mutuals but the same few ppl on twitter that like like all my art are inspiring idk how #they deal with me #tiktoks fine i get like 30-50 likes per art dump bit then again when my average likes over there are over a hundred if not 200 #its not as nice #god im such a self centered freak arent i why do i even care about fucking social media shit #i tell myself that but then like last night this plus like one person ignoring me managed to make me suicidal for a few hours #so thats nice #trying so hard to not be jealous and a bitch but at the same time what makes me so much worse than everyone else that the stuff i put so #much effort into gets so little attention while people can put barely anything into something and get so much #god i really need to get offline #but theres literally nothing irl for me to do instead #and online is where all the stuff pertaining to my hyperfixation is #someone just fucking kill me at this point #jello shut up challenge #am i having an episode or some shit im actually so serious for the past like month or two ive been like this every night #man i really wish my therapist hadnt quit right about now

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zipquips · 5 months ago

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#i was hanging out with the other first year students yesterday #and it was super fun!#but then someone made the comment about how they hate seeing people with non astro backgrounds (ex: computer science/engineering/ect)#get into astro programs because those people are taking spots away from astro majors (their words not mine)#and i don't think the comment was about me #because everyone is really nice when i talk to them #but they also know i am someone with a non-astro background #so i was just really quiet and felt very awkward in that moment #so idk #like i know i deserve to be here (otherwise i wouldn't have gotten into the program)#but i sort of feel like shit because they think people like me have taken spots away from them #especially because i have been having a mild crisis about not knowing the same basic things as everyone else seems to #(because of my non-astro background)#and sometimes i do still doubt that everyone likes me #mostly because there are some times i can't interpret the meaning behind what people say in response to the things i say #(mostly when i'm trying to be funny)#and i can't tell how people interpret me all of them time yet #<- as in i can't tell if they have gathered that i'm autistic or if they just think i'm strange in a bad way #idk i'm just annoyed about that comment + the fact that there's been a couple comments about me that feel infantilizing?#but i'm also not sure?#again the autism <- idk how to interpret the meaning #like i got comments that were something along the lines of “aw precious baby/child”#when i said i didn't know what some website was that you can post your academic stats + grad school acceptances/rejections #and that scooby doo used to scare me when i was a literal child (but it doesn't anymore)#any everything i'm venting about is so minor and so meaningless and so something i wouldn't really think much about/very easily let go #if i wasn't already feeling like shit because i woke up too late to take my adderall and now i've done literally nothing all day #and i'm very frustrated with myself #and i very much miss my friends from home #and i cannot stop thinking about them because most of them were my grad school friends at my old college #and now i'm making new grad school friends

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waywardsalt · 6 months ago

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tag rant but man i fuckin hate the new direction for loz

#its like. this is more on like. why is it bad that theres a zelda formula. why is it bad that all of the games follow this formula #that’s their identity??? like pokemon games and fire emblem games all have their own formulas so to say #and so thats their identity thats what you expect going in thats their niche their gameplay experience identity #and i just. really fucking hate how loz seems to be going the route of just. throwing shit at the wall and trying everything else #and nothing sticks so the more recent ones just feel like open world slop that dont excel at anything #so fuck this im going to play elden ring with a double jumping horse and great and challenging combat. i’ll play minecraft #yknow? and i dont understand why loz games feeling ‘similar’ is so fucking bad like???? every game series’ entries feel similar thats the #point yknow. if they suddenly made a fire emblem that was an fps for no reason other than to break convention and break away feom the #formula then what the fuck thats not even fire emblem any more. like. idk. i kinda just despise the newer stuff bc its so. middle of the #road whatever and has just about nothing i actually like and look for in the series. they dont have that niche identity any more #its a shift that just makes them like part of the open world white noise every aspect is honed down and done better in other games #its not like the formula causes every loz game to be really predictable or blend together fuck no #theyre still each very unique from each other even if they follow the same guidelines thats the fun???#like woah i wonder how the dungeons will differ what the new story and characters will be what new items #fucking hell boo hoo this game series’ games are similar to each other. almost as if they share the same central identity #absolutely just letting off steam and frustration here i hate when ppl treat the formula as a bad thing when it’s like. what makes them loz #like fuck its not like theyre exactly the same like i said theres a great deal of variety in what each one offers no need to just chuck it #all thats the kind of shit i come to loz for. i go to fire emblem for the specific leveling up strategy gameplay i go to pokemon for the #creature battling and specific world feel botw/totk just. do not carry with them the same signifiers of loz and they dont really have #identities beyond go do whatever the fuck which is not very compelling??? like can we at least commit to something here?#im yelling at shadows here im just. fuckin tired and feeling pessimistic abt this future of this game series whose core gameplay is one of #my all time favorites i really like the tightly designed linear-with-freedom dungeons and puzzles and world and all that #like the aesthetics changing is great and its fun to see different takes and tones on it but that core sense of things is like. The Point #of choosing to play loz yknow what i mean. like just bc its got ‘legend of zelda’ slapped on it doesnt gonna mean im gonna want to play a #vastly different experience if that makes sense. thats not the precedent thats not what you like. expect and associate with this #i feel like i sound like some entitled fuck abt this but like. is that tried and true style just going to be trashed in favor of this #honestly kinda bland everyman-ass style just bc it started to seem like it was getting stale. fuck this im gonna see what tunic’s about #likely delete later this was just a vent. ‘the zelda formula is a bad thing-‘ are you fucking serious rn #like hesitantly hopeful abt eow bc someone i know is excited for it so ill def play it but just. man

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merkerlerspeaks · 6 months ago

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Zodi/Celeste/Raine is somehow both my baby and also the girl my inner little weird girl looks up to so much she adopts parts of her as her personality

#Making Zodi so into entomology got ME into it enough that I got over my phobia of bees #And now things that I think first that she would like I end up liking myself a bit more than I have in the past #like green apple and coconut smells #Instead of basing your OC off your personality....base your personality off your OC LOL #I'm kidding but seriously the adult version of her I have planned would be the absolute coolest friend to have I think #I think creating her I just took a lot of traits I admire and smashed them into one character #She loves being feminine but she's also super tomboyish #She's wicked smart both in street smarts and academics #She has an ambiguous enough tragic backstory and affliction that anyone with a chronic illness #mental health issues #or has done something horrible and regrets it so so much #would be able to relate to her (symbolically at least)#She's a weird girl with weird interests #She's loyal near to a fault #She can treat most afflictions because her ADHD butt has a special interests in medivial/magic medicine #But she is also far from perfect because she does things WRONG and suffers for it #and tries to right it #And suffers with a lot of jealousy problems and some anxieties #She gets angry and bottles up that anger sometimes till she lashes out #But she's also super forgiving because she KNOWS how doing things you regret feels all to well #Idk I just love her #Im thinking about her and she is by far my favourite girl #I've seriously considered taking her and using her in another story #Like she would still be a Tangled OC but at the same time....I'd also take the exact same character #and build a nice story for her to star in bc she is my baby and something I like this much really should have its own thing #Oh I forgot to mention too that I just really like that she doesn't have much focus on things like kids and romance #Like yeah she COULD she has nothing against it but....why tho?#She could take it or leave it. She doesn't need it so she focuses on her own things.#And I also love that I can like her so much and not be trying to ship her with anyone #that's one of my favourite features about her

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misskamelie · 8 months ago

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Also had a bit of a heart breaking moment yesterday because apparently people do look forward to going back home after being abroad to study for one semester. I felt nothing of that.

#I came back because I *had* to and staying longer would have been an irresponsible move because of what I have going on here #from what I've heard some other people came back because they had to but were also looking forward to it because they wanted to go back #to their life and were actively looking forward to keep going with their plans #but I miss it. I miss it terribly #everything will turn out alright at one point I know #it's just that I came back and I guess I got thrown somewhat out of the loop since I left+came back midway #so if we follow this line of thought... I should be doing better when next academic year rolls by?#since I should be done with one degree and will start following courses at uni again #and new projects will start again #man lowkey envying that german guy I met who decided he had almost nothing waiting him back home and decided to stay abroad 😪#hopefully time will do its thing #but idk I feel like this ongoing melancholy might affect how I make new friends next year #(as in. I will try searching for something I got at one point and then be disappointed when I realize it's not the same thing)#my post

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