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midnight hangs heavy over the campsite, black as pitch in the absence of the moon. wyll still finds himself at awe of the difference in his sight, the greyscale shapes he can make out far more clearly now than he could before, so far from the fire's light it is . . . strange.
blade and armor put to rest in his tent ( the dagger tucked into his belt is a staple in the night, one can never be too careful, after all. and the blade of frontiers can hardly risk being caught unaware. ) wyll settles uninvited, careful to sit, putting @nerimoi on his bad side, it is better with some of their companions, so they know when his stare is purposeful.
“ is she kind to you ? ” in honesty, he need not ask, not when the answer is the same through every pantheon, every god. even the moonmaiden in all her goodness had turned her back on faerûn in their time of need, the lady of loss ? he supposes she must be different than the rest, if only because their pain may be prayer, worship at her altar. ( he can in some ways respect that, the honesty of her domain, though he knows little of the practice. but he may assume her followers know to expect their prayers to fall on deaf ears. )
“ or . . . i mean — ” hesitation is not the cause of questions restructure, wyll had meant what he asked, but knowing shadowheart - if one can ever truly know shadowheart - he may need to adjust for a more achievable answer.
“ — are you happy ? ”
#nerimoi#₍ ᵢ ₎ ―ㅤ * 𝘪𝘯 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘳 ‚#he worries about her :pensive:#tried to leave it ambiguous#but if this doesn't work lmk
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the real reason tmagp is on break 'til april 11th is so sam can observe ramadan without being chased by a murderous clown blob
#tmagp#tmagp s1#tmagp spoilers#the Magnus protocol#if for some islam-related reason this joke doesn't work plz tell me - i was thinking. i would like to see some content#exploring/including sam possibly being muslim considering his name and VAs ethnicity#and what better way to support that than make it myself?#joos yaps#samama#samama khalid#tmagp sam#but i am v much an outsider so lmk if i missed something#tbf. i cannot think of any way this could be somehow misconstrued. but you dont know what you dont know!
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Thinking about my Coffee Shop AU.
#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#lmk macaque#monkie kid macaque#lmk lady bone demon#monkie kid lady bone demon#Shadowpuppet#lmk shadowpuppet#I feel like Mayor is the type of retail worker who makes you immediately regret coming outside in the first place#and Macaque is just someone who doesn't want to be outside at all#LBD is CARRYING THE CAFE WITH HER STRESS#this poor woman works at the speed of light and still has a million things to think about
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lou lockscreens
5 lockscreens under the cut
please like or reblog if you save or use
#me and the besties were talking about lou lockscreens so i made some simple ones#i tested on android and his head doesn't hit the clock so lmk if that doesn't work on iphone#lou ferrigno jr#my lockscreens
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something so monstrous pt.2
(in which kas feeds from steve and triggers a bad migraine pt.2)
🤍🌷 read part 1 here this part gets really intense on the migraine. descriptions of immense pain, fever dreams, and vomiting, some body horror imagery bc pain can be fun like that
Time and space lose all meaning as Steve remains on the precipice of something that is too violent to be called sleep, but not harsh enough yet to be unconsciousness. Real sensations evade him as everything turns into pain immediately. Even the twitch of his finger becomes a thundering blaze of blinding pain shooting through his body and settling behind his eye until he is sure he will wake up blind.
The fear of that is everpresent, the blind spots too real to ignore every time it goes like this, and he imagines how they will grow. He imagines how they get worse every time until one day the pain inside his skull will be so immense it will take his eyesight in exchange for alleviation.
And even though it is unbearable, he opens his eyes whenever he can, just to make sure he can see still. It’s an added veil of terror that covers him whole and consumes him slowly but continually.
At some point he notices something cold and wet being placed over his eyes, adding another layer of darkness that is welcome, even if it leaves an imprint of pressure and sensation on his forehead that makes his skin tear around it, his skull cracking and caving in beneath the touch.
And still it helps a little, pulling him further toward consciousness but not further toward the pain itself. But Steve can only whimper weakly in response, six feet under a thick cloud of cotton-filled smog that even turns breathing into a chore, polluting his lungs with fear and horror and agony without compare.
He does fall into a fitful sleep at some point, grateful for the short reprieve, but it does nothing to alleviate his exhaustion.
It feels like his eyeballs are being pushed into his skull for what must be hours upon hours, and the pain is so unbearable, so horrible, that he's not at all surprised when nausea rises in his chest, his body responding to its current state with confusion and a hard-reset.
Steve keens, trying to roll onto his side, groaning at the flares of pain shooting up into his skull and down into his limbs. They only worsen the nausea and it's pure instinct that gives him the strength to sit up.
"Kas?” he whispers, swallowing thickly against another wave. "Bathroom?”
Instead of giving him directions or pulling him up to drag him there, Kas wastes no time. He gets up off the floor, approaching him with shuffling steps once more, and gently but quickly lifts Steve off the bed in a hold — firm, yet gentle — that brings another sting of tears to Steve's eyes. Pain and vulnerability and the need for everything to be over. That’s what makes him cry.
Still he manages to hold on, his head rolling onto Kas's shoulder, the skin of his neck blissfully cool against Steve’s overheated forehead pressing into him.
Make it stop, he thinks. Longs. Aches. It’s supposed to be over. It’s all supposed to be over now.
He whimpers again, and imagines that Kas is the one to softly shush him this time.
The coolness of Kas's neck is gone all too soon as the vampire sets Steve on the hard, uncomfortable bathroom floor. He doesn't go far, though, crouching down beside him and holding him up over the toilet. Steve can't see anything, but still he’s grateful that Kas left the lights off, the bathroom tinged in the same darkness as his bedroom.
Pathetically, Steve rests his forehead on the toilet seat, chasing the coldness of it as pain and nausea reach their peak. It’s disgusting, but be’s not strong enough to care. A whine breaks from him, and he wishes Kas would leave. Even though the cold hand on his neck feels good, and even though he knows he wouldn't be able to hold himself up right now.
I'm not weak, he wants to say. And maybe he does. But he can't recognise his own voice right now.
"Not weak, maybe, but pathetic."
No.
"You know you are."
Shut up. Go away.
It doesn't make sense for Mr Munson to suddenly be here with them, to stand in the doorway and watch his nephew, who is more monster than human these days, holding up the pathetic form of Steve, who is more pain than human. More smoke than human. More vulnerable weakness than remotely human.
Go away. Eddie? I want him to go away. Tell— Go ‘way.
The hand wanders, pulling Steve against cool skin again so his forehead rests against the toilet no longer, basking in the cold touch and the warmth of a body to hold him.
"Safe," Kas says, and Steve wants to badly to believe him. Wants Wayne to leave, wants everyone to leave and just let him suffer in silence and solitude like always.
Wayne starts talking again, but Steve can't hear him this time as he suddenly heaves and retches, throwing up what little he had to eat today. Over and over and over.
It goes like this for a long time. He has no idea how long. Has no idea where he even is anymore.
The world tilts a few times when he loses his grip, his arms buckling, his hands spasming and giving out, and still he never falls. Only ever feels the cold, damp skin of Kas’s neck.
Kas has to carry him to bed when he's done and on the brink of passing out again, and Steve doesn’t mind this time. Kas also hands him a glass of water or two before pushing him back to lie down again. That’s nice.
The wet cloth returns, and Steve isn't aware of his surroundings for much more after that.
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The next time Steve comes to, he feels like he was freshly dragged through Lover’s Lake until his lungs gave out. His head is pulsing violently, his senses are sluggish and everything feels foggy. He has no idea where he is, the room pitch black around him as he lifts a lukewarm damp cloth from his eyes.
A soft groan falls from his lips as he stretches his aching, cramped limbs, rubbing his hands over his face and regaining the feeling in his body. Little pinpricks of phantom pain shoot through him, his mouth tastes like ash and his head protests rather violently against his pathetic attempt at sitting up.
He is disoriented and something about his vision is still messed up, something in the depths of the room not quite right and leaving him with a dizziness he can’t quite shake, followed by a wave of anxiety that something’s wrong with his eyes.
He blinks. Blinks again, finding more things in the strange room as he does, his sluggish brain slowly catching up and filling in the blanks.
It all comes back to him like a tidal wave when he suddenly finds himself blinking at a pair of red eyes, softly glowing and wide open.
“Kas,” he croaks, his throat absolutely parched.
One second he’s wincing at that, the next he finds a cool glass of water pressed into his hands before the eyes and the shadowy form they belong to retreat to the foot of the bed again.
“Thanks,” he murmurs, stalling as he takes a sip. Embarrassment rises in him, but he doesn’t want to apologise. The thought of that somehow makes the vulnerability that much worse, so he tries to ignore it. It’ll all be fine if they simply not acknowledge it.
He wants to ask for the time instead, wants to know how much the migraine took from him this time, but he knows Kas doesn’t really understand the concept of it all, let alone know the numbers.
A silence settles between them and it’s somewhere between welcome and uncomfortable. Just like everything that happens in Hawkins. It makes Steve feel like a ghost again, but this time he’s a ghost in the room, not just in his own head. He’s the one who’s out of place.
With a little sigh, he places the glass on the makeshift nightstand again and falls over onto his side. His head is mad at him for it, still feeling too fragile for sudden movements, but lying down feels better than sitting.
There’s a huff from Kas that sounds more amused than derisive, so Steve looks at him. Looks at the shimmer in those eyes before closing his own again, not wanting to be looked at right now. Not wanting to face it.
“You,” Kas says then, his voice quiet and without the edge of that animalistic growl. The sound of someone who’s not meant to speak at all. The souvenir of someone who was human once before Evil grabbed him and modified him to His liking.
“Me,” Steve says, an automatic response, just as quiet. He’s listening.
“How… How are…” Kas struggles, huffing in frustration at the words that refuse to come, but still it’s the most coherent Steve has ever heard him. It makes him sit up half way again; leaning his weight on one arm to focus all his foggy and cloudy attention on the vampire trying to ask him how he is feeling.
No more words come, though, the question half finished in the air between them. But somehow it makes Steve smile. Just a little bit. This feels important. And huge.
“My head hurts,” he answers truthfully, amused when Kas’s eyes snap back to his. To search them. To communicate something.
“Hurts?”
“Yeah. It will, for a while. Always does. Nothing to do about it, really.” He wishes he felt as indifferent to it as he sounds, but that’s just the tiredness clouding his tone. It’s fast approaching now that he knows he’s relatively safe. Now that he knows he can rest. His arm gives out and he slides, slowly this time, back to lie on the pillow. “But it’s not as bad. And the other pain is gone, so…”
So. He could go home now. He should, probably. Ignoring the weakness in his bones and the exhaustion in his every fiber. If he closed his eyes again right now, he could fall asleep. Still, maybe he should—
“Stay,” Kas says again, and Steve really should have figured. He’s not quite well enough to really fight him on that, though, so he shrugs.
“Fine,” he mumbles into the pillow, halfway back to slumberland already.
There’s movement on the foot of the bed, and before he knows it Kas has tucked him in again, draped across the pillows as he is. It’s still unreal, that, but Steve won’t complain. What’s even more unreal, though, is the image Steve gets of Kas curling up by the foot of the bed in a similar position. As if he still means to keep watch.
It’s ridiculous. A little weird. And sort of endearing.
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The next time Steve wakes, everything around him is a little brighter, daylight fighting weakly to fill the room, but it stands no chance against the large wooden planks and thick curtains meant to block it out permanently.
He blinks away the heaviness, taking stock of his body. There is a crick in his neck and burgeoning cramps in his side and hip from the position he’s still in, and this head still is a pulsing, aching mess — but no more than usual.
He taps the pads of his fingers to his thumb before flexing his hands. Only then does he stretch the rest of his body and announce his wakefulness.
Opposite him, at the foot of the bed, Kas is already awake and still in the same position that Steve saw him last. Did he even sleep? Does he need that? Or has he just been staring at Steve, watching him, ready to carry him to the bathroom again for round two.
The thought of that makes his skin crawl.
“Hi,” he says to fill the silence that is all too inviting for his spiralling mind.
Kas grunts, but it sounds more like a hum. Sort of gentle around the edges. He doesn’t move, doesn’t seem at all fazed that they’re just kind of staring at each other. Steve swallows, not really sure how to go from here.
He fists the blanket and rubs the linen bedding between his fingers, feels the rough fabric catching on the callouses along his hands as uncomfortable seconds tick by. Still Kas doesn’t move.
“Listen, man,” Steve says at last, thinking back to yesterday’s events and the vampire’s sudden care. “Thanks, alright? What you did, that was, uh. That was nice. You didn’t have to do any of that.”
Another hum, and it occurs to Steve that Kas is back in his normal state, retreated back into his mind, hiding from the world himself now that it no longer needs him. It’s a strange thought, that Steve being hurt would be what brings him back. If at all. Maybe he’s reading it all wrong. Maybe it as just a coincidence, or maybe Kas tasted something in his blood that made him want to improve Steve’s physical state for selfish purposes. That’s probably more likely.
But it makes him feel even more wrong-footed than before, and it leaves him hyper-aware of the situation. Of their dynamic. Indifference and annoyance and… He doesn’t want it to change, doesn’t want some kind of debt between himself and Kas — especially not when Kas has no means to really settle it. But he also can’t feign some kind of gratitude when what he feels the most is mortification and embarrassment; and he sure as hell doesn’t want Kas to know that either.
So he throws back the blanket and gets out of the bed, a little dizzy at first, but he doesn’t care as he slips into his shoes and hurries out of the room.
He just wants to leave. Get out of here and go home, go back to bed and get over the mortification of having been seen like this. Of having been taken care of. By someone who doesn’t even like him. By someone who hissed and snapped at him one moment and then carried him to the bathroom the next.
“It looks like there’s nothing human left in him, but we do have data that suggest otherwise.” Owens’s words echo through his mind as he crosses the living room. “It seems to be in hiding, the Munson part of him; that’s our hope at least. That you can get him back out one day, make him win over the vampire part. It could be like a self defence mechanism, I guess. We hope he can still be coaxed back into the land of the living. How, though, we don’t know.”
Was this what happened? Has Steve’s weakness triggered the human part of Kas’s tortured brain to take over? No, that can’t be.
It seems unreal. Unlikely. Wayne telling him stories or Dustin talking about their campaign, that should have helped. Even Mike playing the guitar, or Robin rambling about something or other; all of that was much more close to who Munson was. Or used to be. Eddie Munson never struck Steve as someone who took care of people naturally. Someone who stepped in. He stepped up, sure, but only ever for the wrong reasons.
It makes no sense. So it must be wrong; just Steve’s exhausted brain grasping at straws. It usually does that, anyway. Nobody knows if Eddie is even still in there. Part of Steve hopes he’s not.
Just as he reaches for the front door, ready to just get out of here and pretend like nothing happened, he feels a presence behind him. Kas followed him out of the bedroom, standing in the doorway now with an unreadable expression. It's the blank one he usually takes on, but where before it was normal, it throws Steve off now. Maybe because he saw how Kas can look at him. How expressive his eyes can get.
He holds them, the red shimmer a little dimmer out here in the brighter living room.
And maybe it's the blankness in those eyes, or the lack of judgment in Kas's every action, but whatever it is, it makes Steve let go of the door and turn to face Kas properly.
"Why'd you do it?"
The vampire inclines his head. Listening. Always listening. Steve doesn't know how he never noticed that. It seemed so primitive before. Like how a dog will react to its owner speaking, but never process the words. Kas processes, though. So Steve keeps going.
"Why'd you... You kept saying that word. Safe. Do you, uh. Do you know what it means?"
Slowly, his eyes growing a little less blank, Kas nods.
Steve looks around the cabin, swallowing thickly, still feeling so out of place in here, still feeling the need to run and leave it far behind. But something makes him stay. Makes him want to understand.
"You wanted me to feel safe?" Again, Kas nods. "Why?"
There is hesitation there, and Steve wonders if it's because he doesn't want to tell him, if he doesn't know the answer, or if he doesn't know how to answer. It's a loaded question, maybe.
"Pain," he says at last, his voice barely discernible from a growl, but somehow Steve seems attuned to it now. Maybe because he listens now. Because he wants to know. To understand.
He waits, watching as Kas struggles for more words once more. Just like last night.
"Know... Know... pain. Know.” He taps his temple with a clawed hand, and Steve's heart falls, his chest aching with realisation.
Right. He would. He would know pain like that. If what the doc says is right, if what Vecna taunted them with is right, if every working theory the kids have is right, then… yeah. Kas would know. He’s know something about pain. More than any of them. Pain so intense it splits you apart from yourself.
"Shit," Steve whispers more to himself than to the room, crossing his arms in front of his chest to hug himself and keep from digging deeper, keep his heart from falling further, and keep the horror at bay.
He doesn't want to imagine the kind of torture Kas went through. Is still going through, if what the doctors say has even more truth to it. If Munson is still in there, still suffering because human minds have a way of holding on to pain — Steve knows soemthing about that, too.
"I'm sorry," he offers. It's all he can offer. In the end, it’s all that’s left.
And still it's so lame. It's not enough.
But Kas just nods again, a pained shadow of a smile appearing on his face. Something transpires between them in that moment, Steve can feel it, but he can't really define it. Maybe some kind of understanding. Some kind of safety.
"I gotta..." he starts, motioning to the door behind him. "I gotta go. Will you be fine? Did you have enough, y'know, to drink?"
Another nod, and the smile widens a little. Looks a little less pained this time.
"Good," Steve says, stuffing his hands into his pockets, lifting his shoulders to his ears, trying and failing to seem casual in the face of those glowing eyes. "I’ll– I'll see you around, yeah?"
And then he's out the door, his head spinning and aching, his steps heavy with the weight of whatever has changed between him and Kas in the past twenty-four hours.
... sooo. part 3 anyone?
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#steddie#steddie fic#steve harrington#eddie munson#steve x eddie#kas eddie munson#kas takes care of steve fic#this part is downright short for me lmao#dio words#something so monstrous#i have a lot of things to say about pain and monstrosity but instead i just juxtapose them with an actual monster#and then bend the understanding of humanity around that instead#if the tag list doesn't work pls lmk some of these tags be looking wonky on mobile#the end of this is super rushed but 1) steve is still disoriented n weak 2) the mortifying ordeal of having been taken care of must be fled#3) too many thoughts too many realisations and things rearranging overwritten by the need to leave#so pls know it’s intentional and real life is abrasive like that sometimes hdhdh
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justin jefferson/ja'marr chase - in another universe we're still best friends
the two best wide receivers, in college and in the nfl
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Carissa Potter // Cocaine Jesus, Rainbow Kitten Surprise // I thought id know you forever.., Olivia Ruby // Old Friends, Ben Rector // Breathe, Taylor Swift // The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire, Ritika Jyala // How to Lose a Friend, Wafia // I Still Forget We’re Not Even Friends, Trista Mateer // The Frost, Mitski // The Underrated Heartache, Rupi Kaur // Send My Love (To Your New Lover), Adele // Wrong Side of a Fistfight, Ashe Vernon // White Ferrari, Frank Ocean // Sue Zhao // Poem, Langston Hughes // Welcome to Castle Irwell, Crywank // The Light That Shines When Things End, Iain S Thomas // The Kids Aren’t Alright, Fall Out Boy
Who will do ‘The Griddy’ first on Sunday?
Justin Jefferson hungry to overcome family’s LSU demons
LSU's dynamic wide receiver group key to newly potent attack
How The Griddy swept over the NFL, and beyond
#justin jefferson#ja'marr chase#jjmarr#this is my BABY y'all don't know how long i've worked on this#dedicated to the friends we've all grown apart from#which is part of life! part of growing up!#it wasn't anyone's fault#but it still hurts#when you realize that you don't know your friend anymore. not like you used to.#but you still know a part of them that no one else knows#i still think they're friends!#just not as close as they used to be#but they're still connected to each other in a way that they'll never be with anyone else#the first third is looking back at lsu and all of the memories they share and they really were attached at the hip#then the slow but inevitable drift as they entered the nfl and can't talk to each other as often#the last part is dedicated to the friendship that still remains (you can never forget someone who was that important to you)#all the old lsu photos and videos... they were so small!#couldn't stop laughing at the silly purple gifs#i made my first gifs for this!#get the gat! them dancing! laughing at the white house! their handshakes! laughing in the taylor rooks interview!#also included a video of said interview of jjmarr talking about their relationship#y'all won't believe this but it's actually HARD to find videos of ja'marr and justin griddying together in lsu#had to include the sparkling from this year#and the griddies! forever connected by the griddy!#i think this is considered#web weaving#lmk if smtg doesn't show up or you want to know where a specfic photo/gif came from#pls show love <3#fifi's edits
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do you remember that one flower you give to Macaque? he still have it
DF: There is a little bit of a story behind this ask, if you guys don’t mind me telling it (ᵕ—ᴗ—).
It was originally sent all the way back when I released CHAPTER EIGHT OF COLOURS. So this ask has been sitting in my inbox for a really, really long time. The reason I didn’t answer it back then was because I thought it would enter spoiler territory (later on I realised that in fact, if I thought of a better way to answer it, then it certainly would not). So I’ve held onto it instead of deleting it in hopes that one day, I would finally be able to find the right moment to answer it!
And then I completely forgot to answer it at the right moment💀. That would have been during the previous chapter but lmao I forgot. It felt like I shot myself in the foot when I realised because I waited so long and then I absolutely ruined my own plans. So screw it, here it is! After all this time anon, I finally did it, haha! Whoever you are, I am so sorry you had to wait this long (if you even remember or have stuck around since then). Mayor finally knows :’))).
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#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#blue and violet#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#monkie kid macaque#lmk macaque#Macaque is shamelessly being clingy#he probably doesn't want Blue to go to work#I don't think I ever planned for Blue to figure out for this to be the reason Macaque kept the first flower so-#-I supposed it wouldn't hurt to include this moment in the ask blog#Just like PIF said- Macaque has always been affectionate#It just doesn't come out in ways people might expect
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So, I actually managed 1005 words! which is like 250 more than i had before, yippee!!
I think some CWs are needed for this one, basically this is a bit of insight into Cross's childhood, he's probably around 13 here?
//CW vomiting & child abuse??// (lmk if there are any more needed)
Raindrops hit the car window, blurring the sight of the city lights behind the panes with a soft pattering sound. Cross was cold. The air was humid and he wanted to go home. Wherever that was.
The car ride had been spent in silence, as had all the other ones these past months. Cross kept himself entertained, watching flashes of light pass through the darkness of the car, observing as they shifted and bent with the shape of the seats or as they passed over his legs. He didn’t know if he could do this again, if he’d find the courage to. He wanted to say something though he knew he shouldn’t, protesting never got him anything but remarks and lectures.
He’d never been good at keeping his mouth shut.
“I don’t wanna go.” His throat felt tight and there was a growing pressure behind his eyes. he had to tell someone.
A heavy sigh came from the driver’s seat and Cross winced “And I don’t wanna hear it Cross. This is your third placement in three months. You know how these things go.” her tone stayed stern and cold. He didn’t know why he ever tried. A beat passed “You know if you would just behave–”
“I know” he snapped at her, holding his brow, a low growl building in his throat.
“See? This is exactly what I mean!”
“Oh, fuck off!” He knew he’d made a mistake as soon as the words left him.
The car came to an abrupt stop at the red light and Cross flinched when she twisted around to face him, her face contorted with rage, pointing an accusing finger in his face.
“I’m doing this for you, you know that right?” She started “I’m driving you there but if you wanna be like that, you can get out of the car and walk your stuff to the new house. And then you could do the introductions and explain all that’s wrong with you. Since you like talking so much. Is that what you want? Huh?”
Cross stayed quiet, curling up on himself. He knew this was a shit idea anyway. She never listened. Tears ran down his cheeks as he kept his eyes glued to the floor. “’m sorry..”
She merely scoffed, turning back to the road as the light turned green. “And stop crying.”
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Now, Cross stood quietly, his backpack in hand, and in it all his meager belongings. He cringed as his social worker rung the doorbell of the new house.
The door opened, blinding Cross with the warm light coming from inside. He felt like he could cry again. Wanting nothing more than to go back to the car.
His social worker greeted the man at the door, a smile plastered on her face that she only used when talking to the foster parents. Cross was disgusted at her hypocrisy. This house would be just like the other ones, they’d act nice for a bit while he was quiet and docile and then at the first sign of resistance they’d realize he’s nothing but a wild animal, ‘a problem child’. Once he snaps at them, once he’s not just a way to give them good conscience. He hated them already, he hated this.
He wanted out. He liked it better with Epic. He should’ve stayed with him.
“Cross, are you coming?” He was pulled from of his thoughts as she called him inside. She’d already told his new foster parents about the protocol for his shifts, he knew because the man he’d seen earlier was holding a vial of wolfsbane in his hand. He shuddered, it was rare when foster parents let him spend full moons without sedation. He didn’t like the way they looked at him.
Like they were nice, like they weren’t going to hurt him. Cross hoped they’d let him keep his books. Maybe they wouldn’t be as bad as the last ones.
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Cross knew this placement had been a bad idea. He panted and whined as he struggled against the silver shackles attaching him to the basement radiator, his arms were pulled back uncomfortably and the silver was burning him, he could hear his own bones start to sizzle.
He’d been annoying, he knew he’d been bad, but he didn’t think they’d even keep him around long enough to deal with a full moon. They’d laced his water with wolfsbane at dinner. Of course that wouldn’t be a problem if only they hadn’t put this much. It wasn’t his usual dose and he could feel his body rejecting it, his stomach clenched and he tried his best to fight it as he gagged, his diaphragm working to expel the poison from his metabolism, his chest heaved and Cross retched, only slightly purple tinted bile left him as he sobbed.
Everything was aching, his limbs weren’t responding and he felt sluggish, his senses held in a panicked torpor. He didn’t know how long he’d been crying, his wrists feel raw and chaffed. He felt his body forcing itself into a different shape as the full moon rose and illuminated the basement through a small window, his mind stuck in an exhausting loop of unfinished thoughts and panic, and he howled in pain as the first cracks rang out and echoed in the basement.
The smell of blood permeated the air. he couldn’t think. The poison left him immobile, save for the slight shivering that wracked his small furry form. Cross wanted out.
Closing his eyes and letting his tired mind drift off, he thought of green grass and cool air, the sound of the leaves rustling with the wind, feeling his paws hit the earth with each bound, wind rushing past him, ruffling his fur, it was enough to satiate the instincts clawing at the back of his mind. And in the morning he’d wake up wishing he hadn’t. But for now, hurting and laying on cold damp concrete floor, hidden back into the retreat of his mind, he felt calmer.
#But yeah!! Crossy boy is not okay#This is while he was still in Canada where werewolves are more common knowledge than let's say at Cross's college#it's in a smaller town also which are often more affected by werewolf happenings#He used to be a bit more rambuncious than the softy he is now#he's come a very long way and still has things to unlearn#this is also what started Cross taking wolfsbane on fullmoons to 'sedate' himself#obviously he doesn't want to relive *this* but this is like a very bad case y'know#also I'm not an expert on the situations or inner workings of foster homes and the last thing I want to be is inaccurate#I know only a few people in situations like that#if this rep is upsetting please lmk#college au#my writing#my art#utmv fanfic#college au writing
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This wasn't the first incident either..
#if this doesn't work lmk <3#alcina dimitrescu#re8 lords#resident evil alcina#alcina x female reader#alcina x reader#re8 alcina#alcina x oc#alcina x maiden#alcina x y/n#lady alcina#lady dimitrescu x y/n#lady dimitrescu x reader#lady dimitrescu#bela dimitrescu x y/n#bela dimitrescu#re8 bela dimitrescu#bela dimitrescu x reader#cassandra dimitrescu#cassandra dimitrescu x reader#cassandra dimitrescu x y/n#re8 cassandra#re8 daniela#daniela dimitrescu#daniela dimitrescu x reader#daniela dimitrescu x y/n#donna beneviento#re8 donna
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🌨️ / @gwenblin
"What did you say that song was called again?" Khione knows it's by the Mary Janes but that's where her knowledge ends, too. "It's a good song to sculpt and skate to, I think. I like the beat." She's always on the look-out for new songs to add to her playlist. "Though judging from the look on your face, I take it you're not as much of a fan?"
#gwenblin#freeze girl / marvel.#//if this doesn't work lmk and i'll rewrite it#//but i saw a thing on your blog about g/wen missing the m/ary j/anes and i had to jump on it hsdufhdsi#queue.
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Happy 4th of July :)
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Welcome, Captain Seaside | Year 287 | Part 1
First (here) | Next
Workin on a comic! As the title says, this will revolve around Seaside's first meeting with the other three matriarchs.
The grump of the hour isn't here yet, but we do have these two bickering!
#baby's first attempt at something webcomic-adjacent let's gooo#this is actually just two pages cut in half. hopefully that'll help it be more readable#expect the next part of this to be out sometime next week or the week after#I'll continue with answering asks once im done with this lil set of comics#i feel like getting these done beforehand will help y'all get a better sense of what's going on in their lives so far#Stone Era#Olsa Patchfern#Elass Dunecuts#Tillneh Silkymask#(only mentioned)#Avriette Silkyface#Bugsnax#Comic#Tales of Snaktooth#Welcome Captain Seaside#Olsa's faces were so fun to draw here. this grumpy nepotism lady#also lmk if the alt text doesn't work/is messed up if u use it. i noticed that the ones written for these pages are a bit long
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may I ask what you use to draw this? Like procreate or clip studio paint, and what brush/es you use? I don’t mean to be nosy, your style is just awesome!!
Also, I’m getting the feeling Horizonshine liked Grayling? Just a feeling…
I use Photoshop but my brushes are abr files so they should be compatible with Clip and I believe Procreate supports them as well.
^ Here's the brush folder I use for Event Horizon but I pretty much solely use the EHLines brush and the Whisker Brush (which is actually from one of Devin Elle Kurtz' brush packs, I occasionally use her foliage/plant brushes as well).
Also your feeling is an accurate one hehe
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SURVEY FOR TWST PLAYERS FOR MY STAT FINAL!!!
please reblog because i do need 50 responses 🙏
#if you want i can share results at the end!! but it is probably going to be uninteresting lol#i will probably pin this post yeah#chatter#twisted wonderland#lmk if the link doesn't work!!
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but what if he was fluffy tho,,,
#That's it's that's the post it's just him#Why is pigsy like the only animal demon that doesn't get to be fluffy?#Dbk? Fluffy. The monkeys? Fluffy. The new S4 demons from the intro? All fluffy (I think)#Fluffy pigs exist too why he no fluff!!?! !!#They did him dirty fr#Lmk pigsy#Pigsy#pigsy lego monkie kid#Lego monkie kid fanart#lego monkie kid#pigsy lmk#Doodling on phone is harder than I remember but it works yahoo#Zaacoy art💫
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✘✘ Moth to a Flame ✘✘
> Closed, for @thecoldsoldiers > From [ this verse ]
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Brock leaned against the hood of a black SUV, his breath visible against the cold night air. The streets around him were empty, lined with boarded-up buildings and crumbling storefronts. There was supposed to be progress—Peace, but—
The mission tonight had been more than simple : sweep-and-clear of a suspected rebel cell. It wasn’t anything Rumlow hadn’t done a hundred times before, but as the last of the suspects were hauled off in chains, something in his chest twisted. They weren’t rebels, no—Not really. They didn’t put up a fight. They were just desperate people trying to survive.
Pierce would call them necessary sacrifices-- They were going to break ground there on a new headquarters in the morning. Brock just called it bullshit.
He hadn’t gone back after that—Instead, he’d driven aimlessly though the city until the gas light blinked on. Now he stood on a empty street corner, staring at the flickering neon sign of the gas station. Brock didn’t know what he was looking for, but he knew he wouldn’t find it behind HYDRA’s doors. The Asset’s face flashed in his mind—The stories of him being dead, buried with the rest of HYDRA’s ghosts—Brock didn’t believe it. The Asset didn’t just disappear, not unless he wanted to. And Brock couldn’t shake the feeling he knew where to find him.
The alley reeked of piss and damp concrete, but Brock had grown used to worse—His boots scraped along the ground as he walked, deeper into the maze of abandoned storefronts. The rebels didn’t post obvious guards—They didn’t need to. Anyone who wandered into this part of the city either belonged, or didn’t come back out. He wasn’t supposed to be here—If Pierce knew, he’d call it insubordination. Brock didn’t care. HYDRA’s victories felt like ash in his mouth—The missions were routine, the thrill was gone. This place wasn’t on his patrol route, it really wasn’t even supposed to exist. But Brock had heard the whispers—Zones others had claimed as theirs, places where HYDRA’s grip had slipped just enough for resistance fighters to thrive. Or hide, Brock thought.
He turned a corner, his hand brushing over the grip of his sidearm out of habit—But nobody stepped out to challenge him. Not yet.
#sorry so long i like to yap#lmk bc I had a few endings / continuings pinned down for this hehe#if this one doesn't work#[ thecoldsoldiers ]
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