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'Withering away, like my memories'
Not my proudest work, but i still like it a lot ❤
Also sorry for the lack of art, i don't have much artwork as of late 😔😔
#afk journey#afk journey merlin#haven't finished the season yet#but I'm getting there!!#i have not been spoiled yet but—#i have seen people's reaction to a certain scene involving Cryonia (that's how you spell her name right??)#I'm excited honestly
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“So,” Jason says, sliding into the seat next to Leo, backpack clattering as he drops it onto the table, “you and Nico, huh?”
Leo turns to him, startled. The auditorium is so quiet that Jason’s words cut through the room, clear enough for any bystanders to hear. Thankfully, the professor doesn’t seem to give a shit about whatever drama they’re involved in, and at eight in the morning, there are barely any other students, most of them opting to skip the class for more time to catch up on sleep.
Still, Leo narrows his eyes, feeling somewhat cornered. “What are you doing here?” he asks. A pause, and then: “Isn’t your class on the other side of campus?”
Jason waves a hand to dismiss the question as though he clearly has more pressing matters to discuss. “Someone told me that they saw you two making out at the party last weekend.”
He says it like an accusation, but without any of the usual uncertainty. Jason knows. He just enjoys fucking with Leo far too much and wants to hear him say it.
“It wasn’t—we weren’t making out.” Leo reaches into his bag, grabbing his laptop and notebook and placing it on the table in front of him with a little too much force. “We were just talking. And drinking. And, maybe, kissing a little.”
“A little,” Jason echoes. The smirk on his face is infuriating.
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read chapter 1 on ao3
#the full chapter isn't quite done yet#but i'm getting there!!#also i think this might be my first time writing jason#i hope you guys look forward to the valdangelo scene later#bc it's the whole reason this chapter exists#percy jackson#pjo#heroes of olympus#hoo#valdangelo#jason grace#leo valdez#nico di angelo#snippets
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i wrote some proper yandere stuff for the first time for this evening (just some headcanons), i'm excited to see if i did it well or not!! i also feel a little bit better today, thank you to everyone for sending me nice messages u-u
#sorry for still not being super social!#i'm just very very very mentally exhausted just now#and my brain is finding it very difficult to be myself#but i'm getting there!!#finnie shouts into the void
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If anyone wants to send specific prompts in my ask box I'd like to try this out :3
dialogue prompts for ~injury~
!!please credit/tag me!!
“Shit. Shit, shit, shit, c’mere.”
“Someone get the medic. Get the medic!”
“Hey, hey, shhhh. Shhhh. You’re okay.”
“You did so good. Don’t worry, you-you did so good.”
“Here, lean on me. I can carry you.”
“We’re gonna fix you up, brand new. I promise.”
“No. No, stop. Stop talking like that. You’re gonna be fine.”
“Okay. Okay, here’s what we’re gonna do—fuck.”
“I know, I know it hurts.”
"I don't care. I'm not leaving you."
“I’m going to lift you up, okay? Tell me if it hurts.”
“Where are they? Where are they?!”
"I would believe that you're fine, but you have a goddamn knife sticking out of your leg, so."
"You just watched them die."
"This is going to hurt, okay?"
"God, I'm so sorry, it'll be over soon, I promise."
"How many fingers am I holding up? ... I don't have six fingers."
"Stop. No. Wake up. Wake up! I said wake up!"
"I came as soon as I heard."
“Get away! You’re hurting them!”
“Please be okay. Please be okay, please be okay—”
“Shit. Shit, that’s a lot of blood.”
“You dumbass. Don’t do that. Ever again.”
"Help them! Please!"
"You scared us all back there. I... Including me."
"[name]? [name], this isn't funny. Stop... please..."
"Breathe... breathe. Look at the stars, kid."
"It was supposed to be me... please, no, [name], please..."
"Tell me where it hurts, and be specific."
“You’ll be fine.” *silence* “You’ll be fine. Hey! Wake up! Please. Please wake up…”
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”
#writing prompts#prompt list#angst#rottmnt#should I be writing AADD right now? yes. am I?#trying my best fr#sorry for the wait on the AADD chapter its a bit of a hard one for me to write for some reason#but I'm getting there!!#save rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles
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My housemate's cat came into my room while my dictation was on...
#no her name is Chai Tea#she just has the robustness of a christmas chicken#dragon age#ao3#<- for illario and cause this is for my veilguard fic#I can’t believe I’ve had this breach containment and it’s not even about my own cat#I'm soooo okay with this getting more interaction than the actual story I'm so oaky with it
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How it feels getting obsessed with something new and then realizing you're going to spend anywhere from a week to the rest of your life thinking about it
#sp-rambles#Edit: I'm happy a bunch of you are overjoyed when you get an interest but like#I can't Function when I get obsessed with something#When the hyperfixation is an actual hyperfixation and takes control of your whole life
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I want to step away from the art-vs-artist side of the Gaiman issue for a bit, and talk about, well, the rest of it. Because those emotions you're feeling would be the same without the art; the art just adds another layer.
Source: I worked with a guy who turned out to be heavily involved in an international, multi-state sex-slavery/trafficking ring.
He was really nice.
Yeah.
It hits like a dumptruck of shit. You don't feel stable in your world anymore. How could someone you interacted with, liked, also be a truly horrible person? How could your judgement be that bad? How can real people, not stylized cartoon bogeymen, be actually doing this shit?
You have to sit with the fact that you couldn't, or probably couldn't, have known. You should have no guilt as part of this horror — but guilt is almost certainly part of that mess you're feeling, because our brains do this associative thing, and somehow "I liked [the version of] the guy [that I knew]", or his creations, becomes "I made a horrible mistake and should feel guilty."
You didn't, loves, you didn't.
We're human, and we can only go by the information we have. And the information we have is only the smallest glimpse into someone else's life.
I didn't work closely with the guy I knew at work, but we chatted. He wasn't just nice; he was one of the only people outside my tiny department who seemed genuinely nice in a workplace that was rapidly becoming incredibly toxic. He loaned me a bike trainer. Occasionally he'd see me at the bus stop and give me a lift home.
Yup. I was a young woman in my twenties and rode in this guy's car. More than once.
When I tell this story that part usually makes people gasp. "You must feel so scared about what could have happened to you!" "You're so lucky nothing happened!"
No, that's not how it worked. I was never in danger. This guy targeted Korean women with little-to-no English who were coerced and powerless. A white, fluent, US citizen coworker wasn't a potential victim. I got to be a person, not prey.
Y'know that little warning bell that goes off, when you're around someone who might be a danger to you? That animal sense that says "Something is off here, watch out"?
Yeah, that doesn't ping if the preferred prey isn't around.
That's what rattled me the most about this. I liked to think of myself as willing to stand up for people with less power than me. I worked with Japanese exchange students in college and put myself bodily between them and creeps, and I sure as hell got that little alarm when some asian-schoolgirl fetishist schmoozed on them. But we were all there.
I had to learn that the alarm won't go off when the hunter isn't hunting. That it's not the solid indicator I might've thought it was. That sometimes this is what the privilege of not being prey does; it completely masks your ability to detect the horrors that are going on.
A lot of people point out that 'people like that' have amazing charisma and ability to lie and manipulate, and that's true. Anyone who's gotten away with this shit for decades is going to be way smoother than the pathetic little hangers-on I dealt with in university. But it's not just that. I seriously, deeply believe that he saw me as a person, and he did not extend personhood to his victims. We didn't have a fake coworker relationship. We had a real one. And just like I don't know the ins-and-outs of most of my coworkers lives, I had no idea that what he did on his down time was perpetrate horrors.
I know this is getting off the topic, but it's so very important. Especially as a message to cis guys: please understand that you won't recognize a creep the way you might think you will. If you're not the preferred prey, the hind-brain alarm won't go off. You have to listen to victims, not your gut feeling that the person seems perfectly nice and normal. It doesn't mean there's never a false accusation, but face the fact that it's usually real, and you don't have enough information to say otherwise.
So, yeah. It fucking sucks. Writing about this twists my insides into tense knots, and it was almost a decade ago. I was never in danger. No one I knew was hurt!
Just countless, powerless women, horrifically abused by someone who was nice to me.
You don't trust your own judgement quite the same way, after. And as utterly shitty as it is, as twisted up and unstead-in-the-world as I felt the day I found out — I don't actually think that's a bad thing.
I think we all need to question our own judgement. It makes us better people.
I don't see villains around every corner just because I knew one, once. But I do own the fact that I can't know, really know, about anyone except those closest to me. They have their own full lives. They'll go from the pinnacles of kindness to the depths of depravity — and I won't know.
It's not a failing. It's just being human. Something to remember before you slap labels on people, before you condemn them or idolize them. Think about how much you can't know, and how flawed our judgement always is.
Grieve for victims, and the feeling of betrayal. But maybe let yourself off the hook, and be a bit slower to skewer others on it.
#listen to old auntie Shades#serious#fuck I don't know how to tag this#I should probably read-more this but I'm not sure where#and now I need to go take a walk for my stupid mental health#you never stop processing#you do it over and over and over and over#and hope it gets a bit easier each time#Someone might get upset by using prey#but 'preferred prey' is an important concept from the predator's view#it doesn't mean the people are inherently prey#you feel me?#it's the best word I can find for the concept#neil gaiman#adjacent
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that article going around abt firefox's new ad program is annoying bc it's phrased as though "mozilla has finally TURNED on its people and is SELLING YOU OUT for cold hard cash!!" when. that's not what's happening. it is specifically being implemented to discourage tracking behavior, and literally all the data they are giving to advertisers is aggregate and anonymized, which is like, the opposite of what that post wants you to worry about, lol
#the nemesis speaks#unfortunately i don't have enough energy to like. campaign about this.#it's actually a really interesting tactic to discourage invasive tracking#basically giving individual advertisers a way to measure '% effectiveness of ad' without individual info getting attached to it#whatever anyway i'm going to bed. do NOT discourse on this post or i will get your ass
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>Join a union
>Hear people constantly complaining that the current union leadership is super corrupt, it's all just the same ten guys making all the decisions in secret and nobody else in the union ever gets to know what's going on
>Go to the monthly union meetings that are completely open to all 1200 union members
>The only attendees are the same ten guys every month, giving detailed reports about everything that's going on
#anyway this is why i'm the way i am about politics and people who advocate against 'participating in the system'#i am on my way to becoming one of the ten guys and frankly? it's fucking exhausting#i chatted with the union president afterwards and he got this haunted look in his eye#and was like 'i'm glad to see you getting involved but remember you can say no. you can always say no.#don't let anyone bully you into doing more than you want to. make time for yourself. YOU CAN SAY NO.'#which was good and much appreciated advice! but also. ominous
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in the hour or so it took me to draw this op turned reblogs off
EDIT: reblogs are STAYING OFF. op was right and correct and i have never regretted making a post as much as this one. if you want to reblog my art you can reblog something else from my blog. or commission me, lord knows i deserve financial compensation for the nightmare this post has put me through
#art#i had to block multiple people because of this post and i easily could have blocked more#do you guys have any idea how exhausting it is to hear 400 people make the exact same unfunny joke each thinking they're being original#or worry that another person might get harassed over a post i made because of the way people are talking about them#or be harassed/insulted YOURSELF because some people don't know how to fucking behave#you guys don't get reblogs back. you should be grateful i'm leaving the post up at all.
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hey! there's zero esims left for the connecting gaza campaign as of today. i remember you promoting them earlier. could you give them a much needed boost?
oh dang! unfamiliar with that particular campaign, as I always donate via crips for e-sims because it's super easy to do, but regardless let's go people!
#signal boost#esims for gaza#crips for esims#monday is 'whatever i got that i can give' day anyway so good timing#free palestine#only thing to watch out is how much of a tip you're giving on this site bc it defaults to. super high? which. I get but c'mon#I'm here to give the money to THEM not the host site ok
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temple at the end of the road
#artists on tumblr#i'm surprisingly okay with saying goodbye to summer this year#never had anything against autumn but i hate winter#but now i'm a little bit even looking forward to it?#maybe my mood is just better#hopefully the seasonal depression doesn't get a hold of me to change that#for now i'm very happy with hot soups and warm blankets
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Okay so my brain got infected by Gravity Falls again oopsie daisy here are a bunch of random doodles
Dipper and Mabel would be 25 this year, right? Anyway I wanted to draw them grown up so woah look at that


Anway Ford totally uses two fingers to flip people off just because he can and you can't tell me otherwise
#i haven't even managed to get the book of bill yet arghdajgdsh i'm WORKING on it okay!#i have been exploring the website tho so that's fun#gravity falls#stanford pines#ford pines#stanley pines#stan pines#fiddleford mcgucket#bill cipher#baby bill cipher#mabel pines#dipper pines#billford#gravity falls fanart#tizel art#my art#digital art
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don't show him modern technology; it won't end well
bonus under the cut:
#i'm not sure if ford would really be interested in using the internet much#but i could see him wanting to look something up real quick and ending up reading something so outrageously wrong#that it pisses him off to the point that he gets into an argument about it lol#gravity falls#stan pines#stanley pines#stanford pines#digital art#my stuff#anyway i really don't like how this one turned out#but i don't feel like changing it#bc i already spent way more time on this than i actually wanted to#and i don't wanna look at it any longer
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The cat and the dad she said she "didn't want"
#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#izutsumi#chilchuck tims#i drew something#hi i've been busy exploding and dying lately#i'm trying my best to get my millions of wips to postable states#izutsumi is so hard for me to draw but that won't stop me i love babykitty
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