#but i was genuinely very scared i was about to

[eldest-moonlit]

I'm pretty sure I still don't know how to share my feelings, except in very specific situations with specific people. I am able to talk with my closest friends, with my therapist, but in other cases, even with my parents, I still don't know how to share my feelings. Twice last year I suffered massive emotional meltdowns that had me sobbing and in tears as I sat on the edge of my bed, my mom next to me as I vented and screamed. But I wasn't sure if she even understood, or I at least had doubts. Neurodivergent people feel emotions as well. We feel our emotions very intensely, or at least I do. So when I feel genuinely happy, I feel incredibly happy to the point where I feel like nothing can ruin my joy. But when I'm genuinely sad, my emotional meltdowns hit me like bricks. Those intense meltdowns are when I break down sobbing, am completely in tears, and sometimes have me screaming things I wanted to desperately say, but because I couldn't say them to my parents before, they just flood out of me during a period of intense emotion. Even when I don't have a meltdown though, genuine sadness hits me like a punch to the gut or a stab to the heart. But there's far too few people in this world outside of others on the spectrum who I've met who at least try to understand.

Even though I'm in therapy now, I still don't know how to not be a burden. I've lost track of the number of times I felt like I was not worth getting to know, not worth talking to, like my feelings and emotions don't matter...even with my three closest friends, I beg them, unspoken, but deep within my soul, to not give up on me. I've bought gifts for some of them, but I still feel scared that they might not like them. I can talk for hours with them about the things I love and am interested in, but I still worry that I might be talking too much to the point of annoyance when all I'm doing is sharing my interests and my knowledge on them. I still remain scared that I'm too vulnerable with them, that my hopes are raised but they might end up dashed in the end. And with me already having my survival in a neurotypical society getting significantly harder, I feel that even years of therapy might not help enough...

Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

[ithinkthiswasabadidea]

I'm not anywhere really near or into Kingdom Come: Deliverance, but since the second game released recently, I've seen a lot of new attention on my social medias, particularly around Henry and Hans' relationship

And I, very obviously, love queer characters and relationships, and even moreso the canon ones, so I watched the IGN video explaining how one might romance Hans in the second game

Man. I was blown away.

By now I've played a handful of rpg's and romanced a handful of npc's, but not ONCE has the dialogue and action of a confession scene ever felt quite so real and as beautifully acted

I have almost zero other context about the games or characters, yet I haven't stopped thinking about that romance scene in days

That you build up the affection and genuine care for Hans through dialogue choices feels completely non-forced, and you can tell that Hans enjoys your presence and respects you immensely. Henry gently encouraging and helping Hans when he's uncomfortable, always concerned about his wellbeing. There's such a solid foundation of mutual trust that even I, as an outside viewer, can tell that both men truly would put their lives in the others hands

And then the confession scene itself? Henry coming to say goodbye, and because of the work that has been put in to convey Henry's feelings of care and devotion for Hans, it's Hans himself who starts the conversation. He tells a story that he 'doesn't have his own words for', displaying that he's uncertain about how this might go, but knowing that it needs to be said before Henry leaves. He's both deflecting and projecting, using this story as a way to cushion the segue into his own feelings, or the blow of rejection should it come. And as Hans imagines something terrible happening to Henry, he immediately gets emotional, voice shaking, knowing he'd be unable to help

There's a small moment as Henry reassures that he'll be alright, when he places a hand on top of Hans' and this small, delightfully hopeful smile appears on Hans' face. I take this to be the moment where Hans believes that Henry has understood his story, and his way of confessing his feelings, and that Henry feels the same way about him. Then Henry stands, moving to leave and Hans' smile drops. Perhaps Henry's confidence falters here, and before he can reciprocate his true feelings and kiss him, Hans is running on adrenaline and courage and pulls Henry into the kiss instead, before he can second-guess himself

It's awkward, uncertain. Hans has this almost crushing grip on Henry like he's barely sure what he's just done, just that he couldn't let him walk away without doing something . And when Henry turns his head and steps back, noises of shock and breathlessness, Hans jumps back like he's been burned and spurned. He's stammering and stuttering out an apology, quiet and upset, unlike his usual self

Hans' body language as he turns away, making himself smaller, making more space between them than is necessary, it displays how he thinks his actions have just been perceived - that Henry doesn't feel the same way, he just ruined a perfectly good friendship, he's made himself look weak. He rubs at his mouth like he wishes he could remove the feel of Henry's lips against his own, tries apologising again, gasping for air, screws up his face in anxiety or anger for his recklessness......

Then Henry makes his own decision and speeds back over to him, pulling him into an even more crushing embrace and kiss, before they make their way over to the bed

The acting direction here in this scene is just so delectablely real . It looks and feels like I'm a fly on the wall of a real life confession, where both men are less than certain about their futures, and even less certain about how their relationship is perceived in the others eyes. Hans is visibly scared of rejection when Henry turns his back, Henry is visibly coming to terms with what he wants in this moment

The reactions are the most natural thing in the world, especially in a game that strives for realism. There was clearly a great deal of care that went into writing and directing this relationship, and with how naturally it progressed to this climax

And I think that's where the divide is for me, when I think about the romance options in BG3 or other rpgs, because there is something more flowery and shiny about those romances that I've experienced. Like they're too perfect, too polished and rehearsed, no room to have any fuck ups or moments of imperfection. But it's the awkwardness and show of non-positive emotions and reactions, rather than immediate lust and experience, that really pins the Henry and Hans scene above the rest

There's probably more I could say, and I'm sure there's more that others who know these characters and the games could say, but I just wanted to get my thoughts into some words and hope that it strikes true with someone else

I don't think I've ever seen a romance scene in a video game, that has felt so genuine as this. A thousand kudos to the actors for Hans and Henry, and the writers and directors for this marvellously curated scene ❤️

[aspentreeonahill]

I genuinely don’t think Leon hates magic as much as some people write him as.

He was literally SAVED by magic and he acknowledged that.

When he’s telling Uther about the cup of life he’s very hesitant and even looks scared to tell Uther that he was saved by magic because he knows the consequences of those who associate with magic.

I get why it makes sense for him to not like magic, especially with being raised in a kingdom that hates magic, but we also need to consider that we don’t know anything about Leon’s family.

And even if Leon’s family did hate magic, it doesn’t mean Leon would as well. Morgana was raised to hate magic but she grew to see magic users as people like anyone else, even before she knew she had magic herself. I think the same can apply to Leon.

I think that yes, he probably does have some bias towards magic but he doesn’t outright hate it and could easily see that it can be used for good.

[dualityvn]

Hey this isnt to disagree with your post about irl yanderes but to add on that these people also end up praying on mentally ill and people with disorders that can look like "yandere tendencies." I dont consider myself an "IRLyandere" but I unfortunately have the tendencies due to a slew of issues/trauma/disorders that I am trying so hard to work on and manage. And with these people seeking people like me out and encouraging these horrifically harmful behaviors or thoughts or such scare me! It's bad enough that I feel horrible for having these kinda thoughts but the fact there's people like that who would encourage it is genuinely disheartening and terrifying. Not only as someone who's worked so hard to do and be better as a person but to know these people see me as some fantasy to play with rather than an actual person genuinely struggling.

Yes, I absolutely agree. It's really toxic to encourage this and it could lead to a person's mental well-being and general progress with themselves to decline.

Also, you should be very proud of yourself for actively working on yourself, anon. I'm sure you'll continue to improve and I hope others manage to realize behavior like this is harmful and seek aid.

[imthatpowerful]

OOOOOO OKIE

DR S/O’s NAME IS HARRY EDWARD STYLES

AND HE LOOKS LIKE THIS

i’m shifting to december 2011 so ya both of us will be going on 18 in 2 months

our relationship dynamic is kinda strangers to friends (very short lived) to lovers and also kinda love at first sight kinda thing but we were both too scared to show it and also soulmates

my fav thing abt him is his laugh and smile and sense of humor like ts genuinely melts my heart 🥹

a funny fact about our relationship would prolly be the fact that we’re lowkey shit at hiding it bc like management advised us not to date but they can’t force us and esp like early on in our relationship we would lowkey be caught together on dates but we’d lie and say we’re js hangin out and one time paps caught us kissing and we got in trouble oopsies

a lot of songs remind me of him but i guess this one is how i feel about him and us (gotta love 2000s songs) if you look or listen to the lyrics you’ll get it

and lastly a scenario copied and pasted from the few scenarios i actually scripted: this was pre us dating… so like basically we at a party right, w the band, and lowkey we not drunk yet but like me n harry keep looking at eachother and it’s like not a normal look yk like a love look and ts kept happening the whole party. like even when we got super drunk we lowkey got a lil touchy (oops) and then like after this party we know we wanted to be more than friends

that’s all folks!

Challenge for Shifters: Your DR s/o

(You don't have to do all of them, just pick the ones you want)

Your S/O's name

Your S/O's face claim

Your relationship dynamic with them (rivals to lovers, childhood friends, etc)

Your favorite thing about them

A funny fact about your relationship

A song that reminds you of them

A scenario you scripted with them

Doing it myself

My S/O's name: Ana Takahashi

My S/O's face claim:

Our relationship dynamic: We start off as friends, and then we fall in love

My favorite thing about her: She's a lot taller and stronger than me, so she can hold me and carry me and stuff like that

A funny fact about our relationship: Before we start dating, she'll be really competitive with me (because she's trying to impress me) and I scripted a scenario where we have a race and I trip, and after she wins, she comes back to check on me

A song that reminds me of her:

A scenario I scripted with her: A boy starts messing with me (if yk what I mean), and me and her aren't dating yet, but she gets really protective and hugs me and flips the guy off as I'm facing the other way, and afterwards she pins me against a wall and tells me if anyone touches me, she'll kill them (she has yandere-ish tendencies, don't judge me).

Feel free to do this challenge! :D

[a-man-in-the-crowd]

Pluto Is Trans (in my humble opinion)

okay so as far as i'm aware this is a pretty common hc in the fandom (i lurk in the tumblr side of the fandom mostly and i haven't taken the time to go through the pluto tag simply bc i wanted to make this post first), BUT i just wanted to add my two cents into it bc i love pluto and need a reason to yap about him

i'm mostly going to be focusing on him in the maze arc, simply because i think his character has remained pretty consistent since then, as well as his flashback. if i ever noticed anything else in later (or even future) chapters i might come back to this but for now i think i basically have everything i can think of down

of course most of this is still pretty much projecting ☠️ i'm pretty well aware pluto isn't like ACTUALLY trans. this is just a headcanon based on things we've seen of him, not like an actual theory or anything

1. His Appearance

so the first thing that really got me thinking about how he has major trans vibes is his design

comically oversized coat that covers up his actual figure, he's slouching (to hide his chest, mayhaps??), and his hair gives me major trans vibes for reasons i'm not sure how to explain but like let me try anyways

maybe i'm digging too deep into this, but his hair feels VERY different from the other male characters (montresor with gorgeous shoulder-length hair is an outlier and shall not be counted) and again i have no clue how to put words to this but it has the vibes of someone who's too nervous to cut it too short bc 'what if it looks bad' (re: what if i look like i'm trying too hard to look like a guy). but that might just be the projection talking.

oh yeah, he's also the shortest male character as far as i'm aware. basically every male character towers over him (so, so real, i fear) and even will is taller than him (though apparently will is 5'10??? idek anymore 😭). now, does being short make you afab? no, obviously not. but that + the fact he's wearing and oversized shirt gives me some major trans vibes

most of this stuff is incidental, but honestly that's definitely the most actually concrete thing i have to explain myself

fear not, though, i can and WILL read too deep into things and i will read things however i wish

2. His Agoraphobia

the only 'level' of the fear maze that he has a big reaction to is the agoraphobia level. why?

now, could this very reasonably because he's paranoid? yes. but you can be paranoid AND trans. in fact, i think the two frequently go hand-in-hand, especially in areas where being 'caught' as trans can be dangerous.

perhaps he's scared of being stared at because he fears they'll figure out he isn't 'really' a man. and what then, when they figure it out? what'll they do then?

i wouldn't be surprised if pluto had some sort of traumatic experience while being in a crowd alone. this doesn't necessarily have anything to do with my hc, but it very well could. we know he's very small and frail, it doesn't seem like he had many friends when he was alive, and the neighbourhood he lived in doesn't seem particularly safe. he has plenty reason to be terrified, even ignoring my silly lil hc, but i think this particular debilitating fear implies he has genuine experience with something bad happening in a crowd.

3. He's Physically Affectionate

something something you can be a cis guy and be physically affectionate something something this is just a thing to consider in relation to literally everything else i'm talking about something something

anyways

he's my emotional support animal actually ❤️

obviously we've seen other male characters be physically affectionate (like duke), but this is definitely a trait i'd ascribe the most to pluto. now, does this mean anything in isolation? of course not. he has trauma, he could've just been desperate for affection when he was alive and therefore in his afterlife he has this overwhelming need to aggressively hug his friends (which is a completely fair interpretation and i think most of the the things i talk about are a combination of trauma and being trans)

but like just let me say my piece. what if he's more physically affectionate because he was raised with, let's say 'feminine rules of socializing' — which is to say, hugging your friends is extremely normal and in fact encouraged.

this is one of those things where like if it weren't for everything else i wouldn't be saying anything, but BECAUSE of everything else i feel the need to scrutinize a bit more. i think it's definitely one of my weaker points but like. i don't care, ngl.

4. His Flashback

sooo funny story i can barely ever read this scene for multiple reasons (i feel so bad for pluto i want him to be crushed by the weight of all his friends' hugs and love he deserves it) but i will try my best to recall it and get like a semi-decent photo in for reference

i think this scene is kinda what confirms in my head that this shall remain a hc, because pluto's dad refers to him as a boy and by his name (which i will get don't worry i could never forget about how incredibly transgender it is to be named fucking PLUTO). but, consider: i am delusional and a professional bullshitter.

so here is my absolutely nonsensical take based on nothing but vibes and some unfortunate personal experiences 🎉

this is gonna be my biggest 'bear with me yet', but plzplzplz bear with me. obviously by no stretch of the imagination would pluto's bitchass dad be supportive of him being trans or whatever word they'd use to describe pluto when he was alive (i've seen people theorize around ww1? idk man i don't have the knowledge on time periods required to rlly theorize about that).

but, just because someone calls you the right name and pronouns and terms doesn't make them an ally. this specific line from pluto's dad absolutely REEKED of that weaponization of gender dysphoria that at the very least i have experienced. taking every opportunity to tear down your gender identity because you're not stereotypically [gender] enough. someone like pluto's dad definitely feels like someone who would, instead of trying to deny pluto's identity, use it against him to make him feel shitty.

after all, having a son has its merits. pluto can work with no problem whatsoever, and something tells me that pluto's dad is a raging misogynist anyways. but that doesn't make him care any more for his kid, just make him more useful. and in reality, pluto's dad probably thinks it all one huge joke.

but yk that's just me yapping

5. HIS NAME IS FUCKING PLUTO?

okay so judging by pluto's comment to eulalie about his name, i think it's pretty safe to assume that he was specifically named after the roman god. and from what we've seen of pluto's dad, there is NO WAY he was the one who named him. unless pluto's dad for whatever reason had an admiration for roman mythology of all things. maybe autism runs in the family who knows.

now, i don't want to discount the idea that maybe his mother was the one who named him, but like i'm not even sure what the hell happened to his mom. so like. idk.

the name pluto in general definitely gives off the vibes of 'i named myself at twelve' (/affectionate, if your name is pluto you are beautiful and loved). it's nerdy but also mildly edgy. not exactly a common name, either. and the fact he knows his greek mythology implies interest in this sort of thing.

now, could his interest in greek and roman mythology be because of his mother, who could have named him pluto? yes, of course. in fact, the idea of a woman who was presumably living in poverty naming her son after the roman god of riches makes me teary-eyed. but so does the idea of a little trans boy living a shitty life with his shitty dad (who probably drained most of their money on booze, let's be real) naming himself after the roman god of riches.

also, the way he responds to eulalie gives off the vibe of 'well, i literally named myself after the roman god pluto so'. but that could just be me.

and last, but certainly not least...

6. His Spectre

this one is the cherry on top for me personally

he wants to escape the binds of society? go beyond what humanity deems admissible? YK LIKE BECOMING A DIFFERENT GENDER???

i don't have anything much else to say about the fact he's a cryptid, but yk what i do have more to say on?

6.5 So, like, wtf does it mean to be a 'domesticated cryptid'? — A Theory

now i am fully operating under my trans pluto hc, but i think this idea might be able to make sense with the canon of him being probably cis.

ms poppet says that cryptids are people who wish to 'go beyond what society deems admissible' — hence, they're generally wild animals. perhaps the reason pluto is a housecat is because the 'inadmissible' thing he wanted to do was live his life as he is; a normal, regular, cisgender man — or just like in general a normal dude, something he couldn't do for not-necessarily-trans reasons (like, maybe, being able to escape life with his shitty father).

he's not a wild animal because he didn't want to live outside of society, he wanted to be fully integrated into it as a normal person but he thought this impossible because society has already deemed him other. he could never be more than the role he was assigned — not the same way he could were he a normal, cis guy.

—

so yeah that's the end of my little ramble, if you read all the way thank you very much for letting me yap bc honestly i think the more i wrote this post the more genuinely convinced i was that pluto's trans. like idc if canon 100% proves me wrong it's too late i will simply ignore it and invent my own canon.

[o-sn4pple]

“Neuvi, I need you to approve this for me.”

Neuvillette barely looks up from his papers, nearly signing off on the form until he reads the neat script printed at the top. “A…marriage license? Why would you need this?”

“I need this to scare someone off,” you say with a shrug. “I’ll shred it later, but for now-”

“Why shred it?” Neuvillette casually signs the fine line and returns to his own work. “We’ve been married for quite some time now. Having it in print would be useful for tax returns-”

“What?” 

Neuvillette dabs his pen into the bottle of ink beside him. “It would make filing for taxes easier-”

“No, I mean-” You step around his desk, bending over to stare the Iudex in the eye. “What do you mean we’re married? ” 

Neuvillette hesitates, glancing at the handmade necklace dangling from your throat. The shell is clasped shut, but he knows quite well that the romaritime petals and lone pearl are still nestled within. “You are still wearing the necklace.”

“Yeah, I always do.”

“I gave that to you.”

“Yes, you did.”

Neuvillette stalls again, this time looking at the marriage form he’d so casually approved. After a moment, he says, “You are wearing the necklace that I put on you. That is how a dragon courts its mates.”

Finally, your own expression falls, brows pinched and eyes darting to and fro. The longer you think, the worse your expression seems to grow. 

Neuvillette is no better. He sits up straighter and sinks his ink pen into its stand. “Is that not how marriage works?”

Your mouth parts, but no sound comes out. It closes, then opens, then closes again, each time accompanied by a vastly different expression. He’s seen this before. You had done the same thing when he asked about human breeding seasons. 

(That had been a fascinating lesson in its own right. To think humans were so embarrassed by their natural instincts…)

Eventually, you sigh and massage your face, setting the paper aside. “ No, Monsieur Neuvillette. That isn’t how marriage works.” You give your temples one final knead before opening your eyes. The genuine curiosity is expected at this point, but it still eases the storm clouds building outside of the window. “Have you never seen a marriage proposal before?”

“None that I recall,” he says. “Though I’ve presided over many trials regarding divorce.”

“Ah, yeah. Makes sense.” You clear your throat and lean against his desk, the same posture you’ve always done whenever his ignorance rears its head. “So, marriage doesn’t exactly count if the person you’re marrying is unaware that you’re marrying them. You can’t just lay claim to them and expect other people to know…not other humans , at least.” 

Neuvillette nods, a trickle of amusement in his thoughts. So, you must have been aware enough to notice the Melusines’ sudden change in addressing after you’d donned the necklace. Good. “But if the other party is aware?”

Your throat bobs, shifting the necklace resting so openly against your skin. “Then sure, that’s marriage. In the court of law, though, it wouldn’t be recognized without the proper paperwork. Also, that would be very…uh…dehumanizing.”

“How so?” 

“People have the right to choose who they’re marrying. It isn’t exactly a union of two people if one of them didn’t even know they’re being married. That’s like marrying a fish.”

“...I see.” Neuvillette rises from his seat, stepping forward to remove the necklace. Outside, the storm clouds seem to thicken at an alarming pace. “Forgive me, then-”

You casually slap his hand away and cover the necklace with your own. “What? No, I’m still keeping this.”

Neuvillette hesitates once more, hands awkwardly returning to his side. He…didn’t exactly ask you if you wished to be his mate. You had readily accepted his offered gift, even allowed him to drape the chain around your neck when you claimed you wouldn’t be able to clasp it. If all of what you said is true (which it is, he’s figured long ago you aren’t one for lying), then you still aren’t ‘married’ by your standards. What is he to do, then?

You clear your throat, and the storm clouds nearly rupture as he watches you remove the necklace. Then you grip his wrist, dump the necklace in his waiting palm, and say, “Just ask me if I would like to be your mate” 

“Would you like to be my mate?” Neuvillette repeats automatically. It feels silly, having to verbalize such primal instincts, but your amused smile makes it worth it.

“Why, yes, silly dragon, I would love to be your mate!” you tease before turning your back to him. “Would you do me the honor  of putting it on yourself?”

Sunlight bursts through the dark clouds beyond the window as Neuvillette loops the necklace around your throat. A flick of his thumb locks the chain in place, and you give it an experimental tug before turning back to him with an equally warm smile.

“There,” you say. “Any other questions?”

Neuvillette glances at your necklace and shakes his head, the last of the gathering storm vanishing entirely. “None, my love.”

[asher-agere]

Ahhh

BSD fans. Anger me at times. I might delete this later? Undecided. But before shows in PJSK I always go into the chat to try and find BSD fans. And today…

“Dazai stole the show” No he’s just a well written character, many people find him relatable which leads to his popularity, and while he isn’t the main character he’s certainly still an important one for dozens of reasons which is why the plot follows him very often. And you can’t just deny he’s well written, he is a well written character

“fandom scares me” Don’t interact with them then? Nothing is forcing you to interact with the fandom. Don’t dictate a show based on the fandom, that’s unfair to the creators of the show

“I couldn’t follow what was going on” I understand a good chunk of BSD fans are neurodivergent and have low attention spans but some people genuinely don’t even seem to watch the show. It’s not that confusing? If you actually watch the show it’s quite clear about most things

This obviously isn’t all BSD fans but I needed to vent my anger towards this person and any and all fans that are like this. The show has faults, but if you wanna say it’s bad point out actually bad things please and thank you (If the “Ghostly” person somehow finds this post PLEASE interact I would love to argue with you more <3)

[animeomegas]

cant wait for more follower goals in the future! kakashi, sasuke, and naruto with an alpha whos scared of the dark but for some really goofy reason

Me too! And of course!

Kakashi:

I don't think he'd make fun of you, but he'd give you one hell of a side eye if your reason for being scared was really absurd.

Once you're in a deep relationship, he will tease you a bit, but it's light-hearted.

I think very experienced shinobi often have bizarre anxieties or strange hang ups. It's a coping thing, so I don't think he spends too long thinking about it.

Sasuke:

Tries to rationalise your fear with you to get you to get over it, but when it's clear that's not going to work, he just accepts it.

He will certainly roll his eyes when you plug the night light in, but it's your business, he's not actually that bothered, he just lets you get on with it.

He might feel a bit annoyed if he was ready to sympathise with you over a genuine fear of the dark, and then you pulled out some batshit reason and killed his sympathy dead lol.

Naruto:

Naruto is a bit different because he WILL make fun of you.

Laughs until he cries at your strange fear and will definitely tease you about it.

However, on the flip side, he is very proud of getting to protect you from the dark and be a bit of a knight in shining armour. So he's laughing, but he's also hugging you to comfort you. At the same time.

[qoldenskies]

same anon!! i feel validated so yes to everything you said. it was “Taking Care of your Brothers: A Two-part guide by Mikey and Donnie” by Calliopes_Anon that really made me change my perspective on how these two might act, particularly the mikey chapter simply because we get to see him look out for donnie as much as don looks out for him

and i think the fact there even was a mikey pov, much less one as thoughtful and detailed as that one is, helped a lot. because like. i can’t think of another fic envisioning this pre-movie state with a mike that isn’t constantly scared. kinda eye-opening for me lol

and yeah i do like the sorta ‘i don’t know if it can be fixed’ vs ‘i don’t know how it can be fixed’ mindsets from them and gosh i wish they didn’t take such a backseat during the movie bc i would’ve loved to see them have more of a reaction to the other two than just mild concern. i’d like to explore a version of the movie where they are frustrated, dare i say resentful, with their older brothers because ‘yeah raph can argue how much leo’s new attitude and its consequences are affecting the team. but does raph even understand that extent?’ it’d prob be a whole movie rewrite due to the fact it’s so raph and leo heavy, but isn’t that the beauty of fanfic

oh and yes to your point about donnie’s neurodivergence bc as sweet as it is to see him in fics gifting mikey his own noise blocking headphones, mikey would probably yell at them to shut up for five seconds before putting dons on his head for him

would love to see that pre-movie fic of yours one day!!

yeah with the neurodivergence thing i do genuinely feel like it would go the other way around cause like ,,, donnie is SO jumpy in canon. unexpected loud noise will even make him fall over sometimes, which means he's particularly sound-sensitive. and as a person with a trait exactly like that, i cannot handle shouting. at all. even when i expect it, it completely throws me off my game and scares the shit out of me. like i usually write it so donnie already struggles to handle getting yelled at, but i could see being in the proximity of it freaking him out too.

i do think that'd be one of those things that would piss off mikey in particular because as much as they make fun of each other and get fed up with each other, it's such an obvious and easy boundary to respect in his eyes. mikey can definitely handle yelling, even if it upsets him to see them arguing, but he would hate it because donnie very much cannot. he'd probably at least snap at them to stop or go do it elsewhere lmao

and resentment towards something like this kind of depends on just how bad raph and leo's dynamic actually was, because while its pretty heavily implied they've been arguing like this kind of continuously (especially based on their talk before they go on that mission that has them lose the key), raph's "i have to look out for you or you could all end up dead" talk feels like something that's ,,, new? considering how leo reacts to it initially before pretending to brush it off. maybe leo just normally derails the conversation faster, or normally they dont have arguments like this in private lmao

definitely what fic's for ,,,, raph and leo kind of going back to the dynamic they had in bug busters (but reversed, and likely more intense) while donnie and mikey kind of pair off together is a really interesting thing to play around with, especially with how they naturally they just go and stick close to each other in the movie (easy way to connect that to them gravitating towards each other with everything going on), ive just never really seen it in the exact Flavor that id want to see so maybe ill check out the fic you recc'd ,,, gotta expand my tastes fr

[twopoppies]

Do you think some people are just a little too much? I mean Harry and Louis are grown men. They have been in the business half their lives. They are smart they know who to trust and who not too. And yes lots of people who are around them are vile but not every person is bad. Not every fan meeting and photo is a set up .people genuinely love the guys and honestly if I met either of them and they agreed to a photo I'd be so scared to post it as the abuse I would get would be awful. Some people are very toxic about the whole thing and sometimes I think those comments and opinions etc surely must embarrass these 30s Yr old men? Do we need to look at streets they are on and Google the names of the hotels /shops around them for hidden clues? When in reality they are just in a street .. sorry but these people csn be so draining at times and over power the enjoyment by causing arguments

Yeah, it's an aspect of fandom I really don't enjoy or understand.

[ecoterrorist-katara]

hi! curious as to what you think about the comparison of aang giving up cosmic energy for katara and percy rejecting immortality for annabeth? i genuinely do not think they are the same because percabeth knew each other for years and gradually evolved from friends to lovers, in which their feelings were mutual. most importantly, him rejecting immortality did not have any negative bearing on the future of the world. as for aang, he gave up the avatar state, which he needed to save the world/defeat ozai. he risked it because of his obsession with katara, who at the time did not reciprocate his feelings at all.

hi! I agree that Percy rejecting immortality comes across as very romantic because, well, he already saved the world! Plus he was able to leverage his rejection of immortality to help people like him. That said, while I don't find the cosmic energy arc in ATLA romantic, I can't find it in myself to blame Aang in-universe. It's one of those "damn this kid is 12, he's lost everything, and I can't believe he has to make these decisions" moments of the show that made me feel super bad for him, and even if I disagree with his choice I understand why he made it.

However! I do have a HUGE problem with the arc, and it lies entirely with how the writers made Katara a damsel. They never gave Aang the opportunity to see Katara as another hero, like him.

Katara is not a Chosen One like Aang, but she still chose to be a hero. In episode 1, Katara chooses to stand up for Aang against her community. A few episodes later, she gets herself tossed into prison to free Haru and earthbenders. She demonstrates again and again that she's not worried about her own safety, as long as she's doing the right thing and protecting others.

There's a bit of dramatic irony in Crossroads of Destiny where Aang has this vision of Katara struggling in chains and looking every inch the damsel...meanwhile we the audience know that Katara is alive and well and yelling at Zuko. Then Aang goes off to save her, only for her to save him instead. He has that moment of “I’m sorry Katara” where he tries to access the Avatar State, implying that he’s letting her go, as if this is a decision about him — as if the decision to save Katara was about Aang’s attachment to her, rather than their shared values.

Even after the Ba Sing Se scare, it never seemed to occur to Aang to ask Katara what she would have wanted, and I assume this is because it never crossed the writers' minds that Katara is anything but a character development object for Aang when it comes to their romance. Would Katara be willing to sacrifice her own safety so that Aang can defeat Ozai? Uh, yes, least of all because she's scrappy and she would've figured something out to save herself (recall this was neither the first nor the last time Katara ended up in prison — is Katara the only ATLA character who’s thrown in jail every season? I think so lmao). But even if she wants Aang to let the world burn and prioritize her over his duties as the Avatar, the point is that she deserves a say.

Katara will presumably one day need to choose between love and duty. These are supposed to be shared burdens when two heroes love each other. Sokka and Suki, a secondary ship, got a whole arc where Sokka learns he doesn't have to save Suki because she has agency and she also wants to save him! But what did Ka/taang get? Nothing of the kind. It’s not clear if Katara even knows that Aang was about to give up the Avatar State for her, because they never talk about it!

I think other people have talked at length about how in ATLA, Katara is her own character and her own person with her own journey...except when she’s written as Aang’s love interest. The cosmic energy/Avatar State fiasco is another example of that.

[dolbrainrot]

FYI Shigaraki has a pussy.

(ftm Tomura Shigaraki x afab Reader)

(NSFW)

Happy (early) Valentine's day to you, Shiggy lovers. Hope you will find this fun.

Your boss has a pussy.

And apparently you are the only one who didn't know about that little fact.

"Yeah, we found out when Twice was taking our measurements."

"You tried to measure each other's dicks?"

That question was left intentionally unanswered.

Lately, answers have become harder to come by... for reasons that remain a mystery, of course.

You shouldn’t be too surprised by that little revelation about Shigaraki. His behavior often suggested he was dealing with what seemed like the worst case of PMS in the world.

Then again, for someone who talks about his own dick all the time (and acts like one no less) you would suspect him to actually have one.

"Suck my dick, dumbass."

"Choke on my massive cock."

"Get off my dick! I hope you burn in the pits of hell you nasty bitch!"

It was certainly a surprise to learn he didn’t actually own one, especially since it seemed to be a secret kept just from you. Why? You had no idea. After all, not many people around here had an actual pussy, and somehow, you ended up being the very unlucky winner of that particular lottery.

It didn't bother you that much, though you wished you wouldn't be left out of that revelation.

"Finger me."

You stared at Shigaraki in disbelief, blinking a couple of times. Was he serious? Did he really summon you to his room just to ask for that? No, he demanded it. In that condescending tone of his.

"Are you fucking deaf or something?" He grumbled, clutching the pillow to his chest.

"No, I’m- Why are you asking me this? Can't you just-" Your gaze drifted down to the pillow. Wait a second...was that a water bottle tucked in there? Steam rose from it, indicating it was somewhat warm. Then your eyes landed on the nightstand, where a cup of herbal tea sat, still hot. Since when did he drink that instead of his usual energy drinks?

Oh.

So that’s why he needed your help.

"Are you going to do it or not?" He snapped, shifting uncomfortably on the bed, impatience written all over his face.

You didn’t need him to admit he was dealing with some kind of terrible cramps. As much as you wanted to rub salt into the wound, you couldn't help but feel... almost sorry for him. He was in pain. He needed your help. And despite the biting edge to his words, the constant rudeness, and his unbearable attitude, you genuinely wanted to help him.

"You are going to fuck this up." He huffed as you tried to take off his pants. Only a bit, though. Undressing him completely would probably scare him shitless.

You bit your tongue, trying to prevent yourself from starting an unwanted fight.

You tried taking it slow, you really did. God knows how he would react if you startled him by accident. So as you slid your hand down his stomach, right under the waistband of his pants, you didn't expect him to just grab your wrist and shove it all the way down there.

Wet. Warm. Yup, definitely a pussy.

"If you are going to do it, then do it right. I don't have all day." So demanding for someone who was practically begging for your touch. In his own fucked up way, that is. Or at least you believed so.

"Just... Relax." One glance at his displeased expression and you knew that some casual fingering wasn't on the table. Like everything in Shigaraki's life, this was going to be a fight. Full of blood and sweat and his constant jabs towards you.

A gentle slide of the index finger between the folds of his pussy earned you a slight hitch of his breath. You waited for a snarky comment to follow, but to your surprise, Tomura stayed silent. This was good. So you pushed your finger a bit further this time, catching a glimpse of his entrance under your fingertips.

"You are doing it wrong." He basically spat out, that first breath still kept in his lungs without a single exhale.

"I just started- Besides, you can tell me what you want, you know. Communicating wouldn't hurt."

"Why do I have to tell you what I want? You should know that already." Did he even notice that you were holding his pussy at this very moment? And yet, he still remained a pain in the ass.

"Alright, alright... Up or down?" There was a second of silence before he sighed in irritation.

"Up."

With that, your thumb started to rub his clit. Gently, of course. Though, you couldn’t help but suspect he hadn't been so soft on himself when he handled it alone.

For a moment, he appeared to be savoring the relief, his back sinking into the pillows as the tension in his sore muscles gradually eased.

That moment of peace lasted only a minute or so. As you probably know, your boss has the attention span of a goldfish, and it wasn’t long before he grew bored with your efforts. You could easily tell by the displeased expression that quickly returned to his face.

"For someone with a pussy of your own, I thought you would be better at this." He murmured, his mouth covered by the palm of his hand.

And he was as unthankful as ever, forgetting the position he was in. So, as a punishment, or a way to shut him up, you moved your fingers past his entrance.

Shigaraki gasped, immediately jolting up, wanting to close his legs on you. But you were still sitting between them, preventing him from bringing his thighs together. The only thing closing were his tight walls around your finger. Honestly, you expected him to be stretched out a bit. He probably used all sorts of nasty toys on himself before coming to you. You can often hear the buzz of his vibrator through the thin walls of the hideout.

"Do it again and I'm kicking you out!" The threat was short lived, betrayed by his own body inviting you in. You didn't even have to move, his own hips bucking into your hand.

"What am I doing wrong? Tell me." The finger curled inside him, making him yelp in the process. "That's what I thought."

One finger was good, for a while. The blush on his cheeks made it all worth it. You abused his clit with your thumb as your other finger tried to find a better angle. But soon, you yourself grew bored of it. You were here to WIN, not to play house. Win against what exactly? Against this pretentious asshole who was always ordering you around. So here you were now, pumping your two fingers in and out of your boss's desperate pussy. And he looked like a complete mess underneath you.

"Slow down..." He managed to gasp, his words slipping out through that drooling, disgusting mouth of his.

"Why?" you asked nonchalantly, mimicking the tone he often used with you. It was a small, satisfying payback for every petty request of his you usually had to cater to. "You seem to be enjoying this."

As if your point hadn't been clear enough, you sighed, pretending that the sight of him was little more than a nuisance.

"I will fucking kill you if you-" Another curl of your fingers made his back arch, preventing him from saying anything else.

He was pathetic. Utterly, hopelessly pathetic. Why were you scared of him in the first place anyway? Oh, right. The deadly touch. Whatever.

"Just ride it out, baby boy. You are doing so good..." You were just trying to be playful, to mock him like he often mocked you. Yet, somehow, as soon as those words left your mouth, you could feel him clench around you harder than ever before. It was so tight you almost couldn't pull your fingers back. And your eyes widened in response. "What the fuck..." You murmured, watching him, searching for any reaction. So you repeated your words, expecting to repeat what just happened. "Baby boy, you are so cute... I never fingered a pussy this tight..." You purred, half joking now. And again, his walls just gripped you tighter.

"Shut the fuck!" He managed to spit out, tossing under your touch like a wild animal.

"Oh, please- You can't be serious..." You wanted to laugh. You wanted to laugh at him, to mock him, to text Toga about this whole thing so she could spread the gossip far and wide. But you didn't. Because you needed to finish what you have started first.

You leaned closer to his ear, fingers digging as far as they could reach into his dripping cunt. Your thumb was restlessly rubbing the sensitive bundle of nerves. And Shigaraki was absolutely melting. "Sweetie..." That earned you yet another squeeze of his walls. "You are such a good boy, so adorable and lovely..." Words of affirmation seemed to work on him the best. As if he craved all that sappy shit. It was hilarious, and you could’ve kept going forever... but this was Shigaraki you were dealing with. And he wasn’t going to let you drag this out. Not when he knew exactly what he wanted. No, now he was determined to get it.

With a firm grip, he seized your wrist, stopping you from pulling any tricks. His gaze snapped back to the intensity it had before all this started, cold and calculating. It was clear your boss was intent on maintaining a certain pace. You had no choice but to follow, not wanting to feel your bones crush under the force of his gloved hand.

He fucked your hand like he didn't need you. Like you were just a tool, an object existing only to be used for one specific purpose. It was still enough. Your satisfaction came from something entirely different. As you watched him come undone, his mask of anger falling apart for a split second, you felt pride. Because it was you who managed to get under his skin.

Shigaraki was still trying to catch his breath, his grip on your wrist weaker than before.

You watched him, taking in the way his messy hair, now damp with sweat, framed his face...it was surprisingly cute. His dry, chapped lips parted slightly, enjoying the taste of the release he craved for so long. But most striking of all, his eyes weren’t cold or sad. They were warm, distant in a peaceful way, as if all the dark thoughts had faded from his troubled mind. Of course, that didn’t last. You didn’t expect it to. After all, this was Shigaraki you were here with.

"Get out," he said in his usual strict tone, slipping back into his familiar, distant self.

You hadn’t expected a cuddle, or anything, really. But it was still surprising how quickly he just kicked you out. Your hand was still wet as you stood outside his room, trying to process what had just happened.

"How was it?" Toga asked, an expectant grin on her face.

"Crusty," you muttered, still in a daze.

Just then, the door to Tomura's room slammed open, and before you could react, a water bottle hit you square in the back of the head.

[vegathenorthstar]

i am slightly scared bc this post is getting a surprising amount of traction and also bc i've been thinking about almost exclusively atla for the past twenty-four hours straight and my opinions on this have changed slightly??

i still don't tolerate maiko *slander* bc i disapprove of almost all slander. the exceptions are like if it's against elon musk or something.

and i've always kinda understood basically all criticism of maiko?? like my thoughts on that were like "yeah you're totally right they wouldn't work together but they're super funny so idc." but now i feel like i get the criticism just a little more, like no they really wouldn't work together.

there were two main things ppl said that made me reconsider how i view them. the first was just someone pointing out that in the flashback in zuko alone mai is the one who has a crush on zuko, and he doesn't really have one on her. i think i just kinda forgot that but to me it emphasizes that mai was always more interested in zuko than her was in her. tbf he did seem to enjoy spending time w her in the first half of season 3, and and opened up to her abt how confused he felt and how he wasn't really happy, but it's still pretty clear that she cared about him far more (like... at the end of boiling rock he kinda just goes "oh wow okay" and then promptly forgets about her lol).

the other thing was someone mentioned how a big part of zuko's arc in season 2 was being a beggar, and a refugee, and a customer service worker in ba sing se, and learning to do manual labor and empathize with the common people and that he wasn't innately superior to them, and that shows when he gets back to the fire nation and he's uncomfortable being waited on, and wants to walk to mai's house instead of taking the palanquin. but when mai is trying to cheer him up, she suggests they can order some servants around, or take a palanquin ride "double-time," and making that connection made me be like "ohhhh she really doesn't get him does she?"

ppl talk a lot about her fearing azula coming out of nowhere, but i still don't have a problem w that. i think the idea that mai and ty lee were secretly afraid of azula, to some degree, and that they were trapped in this toxic, controlling friendship that they always felt compelled to play along with and pretend they were having a great time in––and, perhaps, that they did still enjoy azula's company, just not all the time/with reservations, and that they also cared about each other, and both decided to stick around for the other's sake––actually fits kinda perfectly with how they're portrayed throughout the show and is very compelling. (there are certainly plenty of moments where azula treats the two of them awfully, especially ty lee––like when she mocks her for opening up in ember island––and there's that moment in the drill episode where azula tells mai and ty lee to go after katara and sokka, and ty lee is SO insistent that they do it, because azula said so––almost like she's afraid of azula's wrath.)

lowkey now i ship mai and ty lee lmaooo

but i would like to reiterate that i do still like maiko, even though i acknowledge that their ship doesn't work, bc their dynamic is so fricken hilarious to watch. a large part of why i adore "ember island" so much is because of them. it's actually a little insane bc before season 3, i knew they were a thing but could not for the life of me imagine what them interacting would possible look like––i was like "wow this is going to be the worst ship in the universe... they have nothing in common... i genuinely cannot envision them making it through a single conversation on anything remotely interesting ever..."

and then they did interact and it was perfection and every time they were on screen together i was in STITCHES bc they're incredible omg

i also just liked that zuko had someone who was even a little bit in his corner while he was stuck in the fire nation having an existential crisis.

i honestly think they would work equally well as friends? i'm not against the romance, which is why i'll still go "yeah i like maiko," but especially since i do also feel that them in a relationship doesn't work long-term i think i need more maiko friendship/best-friendship––as long as they're interacting with one another, because i NEED more of them so badly. even when they're being dysfunctional/acting cruel towards each other, i'm just like "omg peak comedy. also. pookies :D"

(i also said in a post last week that they give me gay-best-friends vibes, and i still stand by that. and yes, i do also ship zutara... pls don't ask me how that works i don't know okay it's all just ~vibes~. idk maybe everyone is bi or something. i am kinda sorta genuinely convinced mai is a lesbian tho)

so. in conclusion i guess. my stance on maiko has recently landed firmly on the side of they do not work together, romantically. but i still love them bc they're silly and toxic and stupid and very very dear to me. but i don't really ship them and i like zutara far more. but if you do ship them i'm fine w that! but maybe. i just see them as friends? and also i ship mai w ty lee (... do they have a ship name) as of like ten minutes ago?? but maiko romance doesn't bother me! i kinda like it! sometimes!

in conclusion take two. maiko (romantic or platonic) are Peak

do NOT slander maiko in my presence they r so dear to me

[despite-everything]

WHY IS NO ONE I TEXTED AWAKE

SOMEONE IN MY BUILDING CHASED AFTER PEOPLE WITH A SWORD JUST NOW I WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT

[egophiliac]

Tl;Dr - I stopped playing the game but I like the characters and I wanna draw them but idk if the wiki I use is up to date for cards

Do u know any wikis that have up to date cards for all the twst characters-

Asking specifically bc of Malleus cause I can't tell anymore if he has any more new cards bc HE DOESN'T EVEN HAVE A 100 DISNEY ANIVERSARY CARD IN THE WIKI I USE 😭

Like compared to everyone else in Disanomia, he has 12 cards (in the wiki I use) and then Lilia has 17 cards 💀

Cause I think Malleus has a Bean's Day card as well, but that could just be a fanmade one, I don't have JP twst nor ENG twst anymore so I can't confirm it myself urhghrhevw 🫠

Malleus doesn't have a Beans Day card, so that would've been fanmade! and the 100 anniversary cards are actually the new round of birthday cards, so most of the characters don't have 'em yet -- Malleus should be getting his in a couple of days, when his birthday event starts! oh god my keeeeeys

I think the wiki.gg stays pretty up to date? it looks to me like they have everything that's currently up through JP, at least. :O I did go through and do a quick count just because I couldn't believe Malleus only had 12 cards, but. he really does have the least...defeated only by Silver with 13...astonishing. we need his gargoyle club wear immediately.