#but i think the thing im happiest w tho is that i feel like it actually really matters. its actually smth im proud to say im doing
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oh btw anxiety had me by the throat so i haven't really mentioned it yet but i got a new (Real Adult™️) job :'D i'm working w a charity helping adults w intellectual disabilities!!
#ive been working here for the last 2 weeks or so it actually rules#and its so much more chill than working at the grocery store (or god forbid the hardware store)#everyone is SO nice. like they are all so so nice. literally all of the staff And all the clients ive met#and its decent money for entry level. def not the biggest reason i like it but id be lying if i said i wasnt happy w that too lol#levi.txt#took forever for my records check to come back and halfway through i convinced myself i did Secret Crimes and would lose the job over it#so i didnt want to talk too openly abt it in case i jinxed myself i guess?#welcome to my brain its a hellscape#but i think the thing im happiest w tho is that i feel like it actually really matters. its actually smth im proud to say im doing#its going to be so nice to actually see that the work im doing makes a real difference in the world
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HEYY, AIDEN x READER AT THE RINK ANON HERE!! LOVED THE WAY U WROTE THE ONESHOT!
i was waiting for your requests to open up again :D (im obsessed with aiden so bear w/ me, i'll be requesting ALOT abt him) wanted to ask if u could write a oneshot about tyler,aiden x f!reader as a love triangle! something along the lines of; how the atmosphere is around the group when those two keep on pissing each other off. Aiden being aiden and just pulling on tylers strings even though reader hasn't chosen which one she likes most!
(if its okay w u, every time i request something i'll just put 🤍Anon!)
Tyler & Aiden x fem!reader
╰┈➤ ⋆。‧˚ʚ 🎸🥀 ɞ˚‧。⋆
The more confident one here would probably be Aiden
Like ofc Tyler isn’t insecure or anything but he definitely isn’t that confident when flirting with you
Aiden would get more touchy and pushy (well if that’s even possible)
Tyler would be more calm around you and would be very overprotective over you and would protect you, just like his sister with his life
The two would bicker so much more
You turn the corner, there’s a fighting Aiden and Tyler there
Aiden would be more smug then angry when arguing with Tyler
On the other hand.. Tyler would get pissed
We all know he gets pissed easily but they wouldn’t full on fist fight probably to not raise suspicion within the others in the group
When you are alone with Tyler he would probably be more ‘flirty’
He would have his hand on your waist or hug you
You wouldn’t think anything of it because you think he’s just being friendly (reader is kinda oblivious like always, typical Y/N)
When you three would be near each other the atmosphere would be so fucking tense
Ashlyn fight her inner demons to not say “get a room the sexual tension radiating off of you is making me sick”
Some would question the weird atmosphere but the two would deny anything and everything
After a while they would probably make you choose or one of them would just make a move
If you had a crush on Aiden:
Tyler would be crushed
He would cry probably but not a full on breakdown
He would get pissy towards you and Aiden (more to Aiden)
Deep down he would still like you but after some time he moves on
Things would definitely be awkward for a while tho
On the other hand Aiden would be the happiest man alive
He would rub it in but he wouldn’t go THAT far to the point he would make Tyler feel bad
Probably just sticking his tongue out when you’re not looking or when he kisses you he would do that thing where you have your eyes closed while he is eyeing Tyler
Aiden would yap your ear off and tell you what has been going on between him and Tyler
You would just laugh it off, feeling a bit bad for Tyler but you’re happy you got together with your crush :3
If you had a crush on Tyler:
Oh he would act like he doesn’t care but deep down he wants to rub it in so bad but doesn’t want to be immature
Would probably just smirk at Aiden when you’re not looking
Aiden would still be his cheerful self but he would be crushed as well
Poor boy probably cried the whole night
Ben would glare a bit at you two like how dare you make his cousin cry
But after a while he forgets about it and moves on, going back to his usual very happy self who yaps everyones ears off
Tyler would definitely not tell you what has been happening
Like girl nuh uh that shit seems too embarrassing to be talked about anywhere near you
Would never admit he was jealous, like never
But you can tell because he looks like an angry puppy :D
After a while the atmosphere in the group would go back to normal, just some romance popping in lmao
If you don’t like them back:
the awkwardness in the group would fr go 📈
probably would plan to fight the person you like
after some time they would ofc get over it but this would take then so much longer to get over
everyone in the group is like “wtf is going on”
if you start dating that person and stat to drift away from the group they would be really sad tho
if the guy mistreats you then they will beat him up they wouldn’t even care of they get in trouble
overall your interactions would be brief and awkward
#tyler hernandez x you#tyler hernandez x y/n#tyler sbg x reader#sbg tyler x reader#sbg tyler#tyler hernandez x reader#tyler hernandez#aiden sbg x reader#sbg aiden clark#aiden clark sbg#sbg aiden#aiden sbg#aiden clark x reader#aiden clark#sbg x reader#sbg fanfic#sbg#sbg webtoon#sbg (webtoon)#school bus graveyard requests#school bus graveyard x y/n#school bus graveyard fanfiction#school bus graveyard x reader#school bus graveyard
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𐙚 ˚🍰 (cuddle buddy)⋆。˚ ᡣ𐭩
꩜ Reposting 🩰 .ᐟ
── .✦ 🎠 cell 13
── .✦🏷️ main four
˖°𓇼🌊⋆🐚🫧 (Uno)
♡ extra cuddley
he's kind jealous, and he would love to show you off at the same time, and Holding your hand in the prison corridors will sure satisfy him more than what you think.
he's fine anywhere,the place doesn't matter, he’s all over you.
hugs always wont be enough for him,he need to do something while he's hugging you as random kisses and lovely touches or whispers,at some point he did bite your ear just to get a reaction out of you.
his embarrassing secret that he so soluble when you're the one who fills him with love and flirtation,or he will get a little freaky.
when I tell you that he's so soft and warm, he is a real cozy walking oven.
laughs so much when you play card with him,he’s not silly it’s just gives him butterflies that you play with him and he loves you so much.
some times he gets behind you to see if you shivered during winter so that he could cover you up with his jacket and hug you from behind.
if someone said that you guys should get a room he’s getting a one next day.
If he is tired or had a lot of fun in his day, he would 100% prefer to be in your arms to tell you about his day while you play with his hair until he fall asleep.
he likes to watch you when you sleep in his arms and when you have a terrible sleeping? Do you honestly need someone else?.
If you like hot drinks he will do his best to search for more flavours that you can enjoy.
He gives you the gifts you love.
ᡣ𐭩
✩°𓏲⋆🌿. ⋆⸜ 🍵✮˚(Nico)
♡ made to be cuddled
any time and place will huge you big or small spoon just as long as you’re petting him he’s the happiest boy in the world.
I'm sure he likes to be in your lap for hours and watch anime or read manga ,one time he was feeling himself a little, so he by mistake spilled the apple juice on your thighs and he almost cried, to be forgiven he insisted on washing your uniform himself,poor boy he punished himself by not laying in your lap for a week even tho you never got mad ,and told him to not to do so !! ;(.
he is so shy to be asking for your kisses ,but if you did im suer you are 100% his first kiss.
you know when he used to take a bath with kaguya? , now you’re his shower partner.
if he was scared from something he will run to your arms and ask to sleep on your chest because hearing your heartbeat calms him down so fast.
if you kissed him it will give him for doing a good job he will kisses you everywhere w giggles and tell you that he wouldn’t be able to do it without you.
dont care if you we're in public,he'll always show how much he loves you.
ᡣ𐭩
˚˖𓍢ִ໋`⛩️:✧˚.🗝️⋆𖧧 (jyugo)
♡ he loves it more when you’re the one cuddling him
He loves your warmth , but he tries to deny it because he get overwhelmed by the feeling.
he likes the comfortable places to cuddles,could be like; the night if everyone is sleep or he will find a room for u two ,boy just loves having you all for himself.
he is very shy to be emotional in public, holding hands would be the saving for his heart,most likely to be touchey when he's jealous.
sometimes when he's upset or feels like crying, he would go more silent and hug you then drag you into the bed with him so he could bury his face in your neck and cry , it makes him feel safe.
If he doesn't want hug you ,then you won't be able to catch him, put him in the mood first.
He is used to head and shoulder touches but he had never had anything far from that before.
you have to consider the feelings of this poor boy.
ᡣ𐭩
‧₊˚ 🍔 ‧₊𓏲 ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖🪻(Rock)
♡ real bear for cuddle
dont mind it any time anywhere the most important thing too him is that you feel comfortable in the spaces.
just imagine him out of the shower hug you from behind with his loose hair and kisses your neck his voice is so deep after all that long tiring day of work out,now all he wants is to enjoy his cake (you are the cake).
if you’re resting on his chest after lunch he will play with your hair and tickle your tummy.
he is the most obsessed when kissing you , but please dont make it too long he gets out of breath easily.
sometimes he puts his head on your chest for bedtime to make him more sleepy,but no sleep for you ^^! he’s going snore ofcourse.
the fact that you will be his first love.
He like to hold hands and compare the sizes of your hands to his!.
He shows emotion in public and doesn't care to be honest. He's just happy to be with you, so the opinion of others doesn't matter.
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#nanbaka x reader#nanbaka uno#nanbaka jyugo#nanbaka fan#nanbaka#nanbaka rock#nanbaka nico#nanbaka the numbers#headcanon#nanbaka headcanon
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prompted by a baffling conversation with one of my friends + overall trends with events like big bangs. apparently i am deeply underestimating the amount of, like, actual consumption crossover between fanartists and fanwriters. i've been operating under the assumption that the majority of fanartists don't read fanfic and that fanfic is a relatively niche thing mostly shared between fanwriters with a few outlier exceptions. like, that the "communities" or w/e are relatively separate??
this is possibly because i've been out of "fandom" for a few years (or bc im not on twitter/insta where the artists hang out), but i feel like most of my friends are other fanwriters and most of the people who actively engage with fanfic on tumblr/ao3 are also fanwriters (and vice-versa with fanartists gravitating to each other). however. my friend disagrees? neither of us are actually artists tho so i'm putting the question out to the crowd. (more thoughts) ->
side note: i didn't include an option for being BOTH a fanartist/fanwriter because 1) you're like rare and exotic birds to me 2) i'm trying to figure out who falls into which category based on what community you "identify" with the most. if you write the occasional fanfic but you mostly think about/create fanart, you're a fanartist; if you mostly write fanfic but every now and then will think about/make some art, you're a fanwriter. the group you're more likely to engage with. that kinda thing.
side note 2: you will see i have included an option for fanwriters who don't/rarely read fanfic. i know you exist because that is my category. i read fanfic but do so rarely these days. i'm selective because i dont have a lot of time on my hands. this is possibly another reason why i feel like engagement between fanwriters is so high, because if i'm going to engage with a fanfic i'm gonna put my whole ass into it since that's the kind of engagement that makes me happiest from a writer's perspective.
for reference, when i say "engagement" i'm talking about leaving kudos, comments on ao3, asks/comments on tumblr, tags on reblogs... that kinda thing.
with all of this in mind, this could literally just be because fanfic writers are more willing to engage with other writers bc of their own shared hobby and/or because fanfic writers know what kind of engagement theyd prefer on their own fics and act accordingly--and non-writer/artists are just more willing to engage in general because that's the primary way you participate in fan communities. on the flip side, fanartists might just straight up be a really quiet bunch... possibly because your thing (affectionate) is "visual" more than "verbal" (if that makes sense).
basically... this is exactly what i'd like to know LOL.
#this is mostly abt one piece because i DEFINITELY feel like there was WAY more crossover between artist/writers reading fanfic in homestuck#but that was also literally a decade ago & i feel like theres been a HUGE shift in how people see/are willing to engage w fanfic these days#THIS ISN'T SHADE OR ANYTHING I'M GENUINELY SO CURIOUS#i found out some people i assumed didnt read fanfic at all actually DO and i was BAFFLED#the librarian urge to do research create categories and make lists#spiders loopey is an outlier and should not be counted lfasjlhlhsdfsdhfkjs (kidding ily)#gyro.txt
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Pls Kane drop eruri coded songs 🙏🏻
firstly im sorry this took so long, but this was an emotional trial pls hope u understand🙏they are not the happiest ship in the world
i have a whole spotify playlist😩but here are some highlights:
obligatory midnight sun by cinema staff
and obligatory name of love by cinema staff
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a classic perhaps? duvet by boa from levi's perspective. like it can't get MORE eruri unless their names were in the song.
on the pain agony torment scale 10/10
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francis forever by mitski from levi's pov. i hope it speaks for itself bc i can't explain without feeling gut-wrenching grief. jesus
on the pain agony torment scale 10/10
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halo by starset from levi's pov again. just... devotion :') w levi his emotions run so deep but it reflects in the song really well. also the implication that erwin is like levi's angel instead of the devil he's known as.
on the pain agony torment scale 1/10
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from erwin's pov. heat lightning by mitski. coming up on shiganshina yk.... i feel like erwin could already sense SOME conclusion was coming, although he didn't know what levi would do bc he's the one thing he could never predict (i am once again comparing them to eremika). whatever it would be tho, erwin trusted him.
on the pain agony torment scale 3/10
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UGH. wait for me by rise against from levi's pov after RtS. i need to find more happy songs...
on the pain agony torment scale 7/10
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knife prty by deftones. the SOUND of the song really helps get it across, but this is from levi's pov with ... actually letting someone in for the first time. very rough but very passionate too
on the pain agony torment scale 0/10
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in this shirt by the irrepressibles
levi's grief as usual.
on the pain agony torment scale 6/10
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the no seatbelt song by brand new
IM LOSING IT IM LOSING IT IM IN TEARS I HATE IT HERE
oh my god it hurts
erwin's feelings about levi from erwin's pov. accounts for his life on the BRINK in shiganshina though, too. possibly mid-rooftop.
on the pain agony torment scale 10/10
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say yes to heaven by lana del ray
eruri, the good ending. sort of both povs. they run away to a cabin and abandon everything, or just, you know, modern au.
on the pain agony torment scale 1/10
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love like you by rebecca sugar/from steven universe from erwin's pov
it doesn't get any more blatant than this. all of erwin's longing in a song.
on the pain agony torment scale 1/10
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tears don't fall by bullet from my valentine
UGHHHH OMG!!!!! ERWIN'S POV ALL DAYYYYYY his last moments. but like. it's not a sad song if i think of it like erwin simping for levi for 6 minutes.
on the pain agony torment scale 2/10
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i just threw out the love of my dreams by weezer from levi's pov
the song's catchiness takes away from the pain agony torment.
on the pain agony torment scale 5/10
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cirice by ghost from levi's pov. no sadness, just love
on the pain agony torment scale 0/10
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black friday by tom odell
mid-uprising and all when erwin seems to be losing himself... partly from both pov's. just everything going downhill. agony. pain. and torment of course.
on the pain agony torment scale 8/10
#eruri#aot eruri#erwin x levi#snk eruri#eruri feels#levi x erwin#levi ackerman x erwin smith#eruri attack on titan#aot ships#aot ship#snk erwin#aot levi#eruri.thoughts
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Maybe it’s one of my issues and I’m not being real at all, but like, I can imagine all the 4*town members with a little sister. Explanations under the cut💋
Like, Robaire with a lil sis who’s around 15(in these scenarios I always make Tae 17 so they can have huge crushes on each other🤞) and she’s like completely ruined and broken☹️aaand a huge rebel. Like my girl tried to cut herself up n has piercings and when Robaire finds out bout this(he wasn’t home most of the time bc of the band) he goes home/girlie moves to him(or the boys if u imagine them living together) and he tries to fix her up. Slowly they rebuild their relationship and girlie cries a lot to him, Rob finds out about all her scars and stories. She actually gets along with T., Jesse aaaand Tae(they kissed when she did his makeup once and since that they’ve been GOING AT IT, LIKE TAE’S SUCH A FOOL 4 HER BUT THEY’RE SCARED TO MAKE IT OFFICIAL TOWARDS THE OTHERS?!). And Z. ofc, but they’re not much, get along but don’t talk much. Robaire succeeded, she got fixed up!
Jesse w a lil sis around 16, and she completely doesn’t pay attention to herself. Like, almost dies twice a day and almost got arrested multiple times. He can’t be with her much bc band plus his kids, but she’s not sad about it at all, she gets it. Then, on one Christmas family dinner(if u go w him being an orphan, which I do too, you can imagine girlie living w his big sis(im sure they have one) and that’s mostly the dinner, maybe his kids too but depends) she tells Jesse that let’s go outside. They go, and he actually has the night of his life. He didn’t understand at first why is his lil sis so reckless, but he gets it now. She feels free, and he did too. He’s still worried bout her tho, so he scolds her every time he hears about shit she did, but he talks with her a lot more now🫶
Aaron T. w a lil sis around 13-14, who has two boy besties and they’re living THE life. She has a good style, good friends, skilled in everything, a natural leader, everything she could need. Except a normal story. My girlie is fun to be around, but she has seen shit. Seen it all, and the reason she doesn’t like to be alone or in silence is because she thinks those times. So, she lives off on adrenaline and actually starts getting herself into trouble. As this era of her begins, she slowly starts talking less with T. too, who comes home once because they had a concert nearby to their home and when he’s dining with the parents, girlie comes home.. all bruised and bloody? That’s when he completely freaks out and wants to help, even after she shrugged him off. Slowly but surely though, she gets to open up and they build it all up.
Or with a lil sis around 2, being the most adorable fucking thing on earth and the absolute fan favorite! Jesse even claimed that he loves her more than he loves T., once.(which was obviously not true:3) She’s like the happiest, bubbliest little girl who only feels actually alive when T. holds her. T.’s soft to begin with, but his little sis is an absolute melt, he’d do anything for the kid.
Aaron Z. with the most loveable 4 year old little sis who I have already written about. But if not 4 year old, let’s make it 14. She’s.. something. He avoids their home because of his parents, and completely blames himself for not going back to be there for her, but he just simply can’t. So when their parents called him again and he finally picks up, they told him about the sudden piercing she did and how disappointed they are in her. It all clicked for him, she couldn’t keep it up as much as he did. Their parents never changed, and Z. knows they won’t, so that was his sign to take her for the summer. She didn’t care, she doesn’t care about anything at all. It started off bumpy and she gets along better with the other members than she does with him, but it all eventually leads to a deep conversation what ended in both of them breaking down n getting vulnerable for each other. That kind of cleared it up, and they’re developing.
Tae with a 13-14-15 year old sister, who never stopped talking to him. She didn’t want to stop, he didn’t want to stop, so they never stopped. They talk at least five times a week and text daily, talking pure shit. She has problems in life and as much as he can, Tae helps her with it, even though when it’s thru a phone. He taught her how to do her eyeliner, paint nails on the first try, bake muffins, he’s truly amazing. He was there when she cried about a guy, and he was there when she has a new crush on every second day, which she does. Tae only rolls eyes at this, but he’s actually really excited to get to know more about the new crushes. He’s excited to talk to her, and really happy that he has a sister.
#4town aaron t#turning red 4town#4town headcanons#4town#4townie#4town aaron z#4town jesse#4town robaire#4town taeyoung#4 town#4 town robaire#4 town aaron z#4 town tae young#4 town x reader#4 town jesse
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it's been a while since i've been on here!! I've been p busy w school >< but i got tagged !! by @fanfiction-artist-prototype for 20 questions!! 1. how many works do you have on ao3? I have 16! but a bunch of wips hidden in my docs hehe 2. what's your total ao3 word count?
144,014!! I feel proud bc it's been,,, almost a year since i started?? I haven't really had time to write lately though :<
3. what fandoms do you write for? hmm... only lcf so far, but i wanted to write for sss class revival hunter !! but i need to catch up and brain rot harder!!!
4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?
young master, you dumb bitch
puppy teeth
in the comfort of death
death's little reaper
teeny tiny trouble
5. do you respond to comments? why/why not?
I usually do!! I feel kind of bad tho bc I see comments and then tell myself that i'd just respond later, but then forget.... hhh i will respond to them eventually ;;
6. what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
hm.. there's only a few that are done... so i guess i'll say what i think will have the angstiest once i'm done?? I think it might be between mr forgettable, witcher's calamity, or comfort of death???
7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
uhm.... i feel like a lot of mine don't really have happy endings??? hhh
8. do you get hate on fics?
no ! i'm really happy with that! i feel like the fandom is really nice tho heh
9. do you write smut? if so, what kind? :] yes,,, uh theres.. some out there
10. do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one?
i don't write crossovers hhh mostly because i would worry about trying to keep even more charas in character ;; brain too rotten w lcf
11. have you ever had a fic stolen?
not that i know of ??
12. have you ever had a fic translated?
yeah! i had one translated into russian!! that reminds me,, i should probably add a link to that to the summary or smth ghksjhg
13. have you ever co-written a fic?
hmmm officially on ao3, no, but i would consider a lot of my fics cowritten w my friends because would end up brainrotting together so hard that it would end up mostly written!! so if i end up writing it, i usually end up dedicating it to them or smth
14. what's your all time fave ship?
hmmm,,, im not too picky??? i usually like eating them all
15. whats a wip you want to finish but doubt you will?
hmm... im a bit worried about finishing comfort of death ?? i want to finish them all!! but for comfort of death i'm a bit worried because i know how i want it to end but the in between hhhh uughgggh having to connect it ughghghg we're still far out!!
16. what are your writing strengths?
my friend said that my writing felt nostalgic and like heheh that makes me feel proud!! smth abt how i desc scenes, so i think that's a thing i'm really proud of !!
17. writing weaknesses?
i think the fact that i don't like rereading is a big weakness because i'll read it again after a long ass time and then see so many errors!! I think i have a lot of run on sentences, too!!
18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language? i don't think i'm too confident on writing dialogue in another language!! I would probably just put it in italics and say its being done hhh or if i do, then i'd want it checked by someone who speaks it
19. first fandom you wrote for?
lcf!
20. fav fic you've ever written?
mmmm that's hard... but i think i'm really attached to like, teeny tiny trouble or maybe witcher's calamity? theres a few hidden ones that i'm actually really attached to !! i hope to have more time to write soon!!
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tagging
@vveirdnobdy uuh,,, idk who to tag??? whoever wants to join?
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20 Questions for Fic Writers
i was tagged by @snarky-wallflower and i love talking, lets go!
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
70 total, but 5 of those are chara's! so under my name its 65.
2. What’s your total word count?
1,427,738.....
cannot wait to break 2 million w the owl house daemon au. lets go!! never stop!!!
3. What fandoms do you write for?
whatever i'm into, but for fandoms i see myself continuing to write for in the near-ish future: deltarune and the owl house!
4. Top 5 fics by kudos
you're something special: my first kris-identity fic! i have mixed feelings on this one lol. you can tell its the first i wrote and i hadnt yet solidified my version of kris, tho i think this one probably fits better with canon. overall i like it though!
but then a bigger heart grew back: ooooooh i REALLY love this one. its postcanon owl house fic centering on hunter's grief over flapjack's death and his friendship with waffles!!! i wrote and posted it the DAY after the finale came out which is still really wild to me. its also the only fic ive seen that uses my favorite headcanon of 'hunter didnt carve waffles, she found him' which im so so fond of.
i hope your organs fail you (before i do): this was the first deltarune fic i wrote after chapter 2 came out!! the beginning of my deltarune spiral....its sort of a messy non-chronological look at deltarune's various routes and how kris might experiencing the game's multiple save files. also it has such a banger title. salt lake city by motherfolk is just banger after banger lyrics-wise
non-imaginary friends: god i hate that this is up here dkgjdfg i wrote it back when deltarune first came out and it SHOWS. i refuse to reread it but i think it's kris trying and failing to introduce the dark worlds to asriel. c'mon guys ive written so many better deltarune fics. blease. let this one rest in the past <3
we don't belong (but we're together): oooh, a warrior cats one! im....i mean, this one is like, fine, i guess. it follows hollyleaf and jayfeather in an au where the two of them flee through the tunnels. it has fun lore and i do like my oc pine but. man. its also the fic where i gave hollyleaf a power and if theres one thing i would change about my warriors au its that holly would NOT get a power. this is why i pre-write all my fics before posting now!
5. Do you respond to comments?
yes!! or at least i try my best to. i love and appreciate all my comments sometimes im just Bad at responding to them....i never know what to say beyond 'wow thank you' so sometimes i try to focus more on comments where i can actually say something of substance, yknow?
6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
oh thats hard hmmmmmmm. i think i'd have to say it's and i want to tell you something-- which is a fic about kris & ralsei & the player/soul, where susie and noelle try to save kris from the soul, but both kris and ralsei know they cant survive without it. so in the end kris shatters the soul and is implied to die rather than keep being trapped.
its!!! certainly a time!
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
hmmmm. i think most of my ending are pretty bittersweet so in terms of pure happy ending...gonna go for a deep cut here and say its my naddpod fic +1 dad in which moonshine meets lucanus when shes a kid and they hit it off and they get to have that father-daughter relationship from the start. bc lucanus is the BEST naddpod npc and oh my god he loves his daughter so so much you guys--
8. Do you get hate on fics?
i have a few times but its never been like, super major. the funniest time is. i deleted the comment so i dont have the exact wording but im pretty sure someone called me a fandom-deserting cur for. not writing more warrior cat fanfiction?
like what were they expecting. truly.
9. Do you write smut?
no im very aroace lol. i barely write romance.
10. Do you write crossovers?
i used to!!! i did the adventure zone crossed with both how to train your dragon and pokemon mystery dungeon: explorers of sky. i was a different person back then. i dont think i'd do it now, but. who knows.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
not to my knowledge!
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
no, but i HAVE had a fic pod-ficced which is still so amazing. like......woag. someone liked my fic enough to read the words out loud?????? huh????
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
not exactly co-written but both sometimes i think i left you just to see if i'd be missed and a buy one, get one free sort of friend were inspired by conversations i had with my friend @hyperfixations-go-brr! they would not have existed without those long discord chats. halloween festival will live on forever. synth my love.
14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?
im not super into ships beyond like. basic 'oh thats fun' when reading but i WILL actually give the two im the most excited to write in my dess raises kris au someday:
noelle/susie/ralsei: YOU HAVE TO TRUST ME. like. this is an au where noelle basically replaces kris in the fun gang but not in the prophecy and dkjgdfg its about. this budding relationship. and ralsei clinging to the prophecy that doesnt want noelle here and susie who bucks against anything that acts like it knows what shes supposed to do and noelle struggling with the return of her sister and a world that wants to write her out of the story and all of them wanting to be there for their friends but ralsei is dealing with so so much and in the end she gets to throw off her chains and be free <3 noelle/susie/ralsei is so real in my heart.
dess/chara: literally the funniest queerplatonic relationship ever. theyre reluctant coparents. dess trusts chara with kris's life. chara would never ever let dess watch either frisk OR kris unsupervised. chara is 'i can fix you' to dess's 'im literally the most perfect wife in the world.' dess doesn't believe romantic love is a real thing people feel. chara puts xir kids above everything else. dess never asked to be a mother even though she literally kidnapped her best friends baby sibling. they get married for the tax benefits. they should absolutely get a divorce.
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?
oh god theres so many i would love to finish but its been so long i doubt i'll go back to them lol. the sequel to +1 dad that involves baby moonshine going to gladeholm. wall-e daemon au. gravity falls transcedence au daemon au. percy jackson daemon au. deltarune daemon au fangame.
as you can see its mostly various daemon aus. they were fun while they lasted! but ive moved on </3
16. What are your writing strengths?
pov you are me suddenly forgetting every single thing i have ever written.
i think im very good at writing otherkin or otherwise nonhuman characters. the comments that always bring me the most joy are those on my otherkin fics, by people who were able to see themselves in what i wrote--i think this is a thing that took me a lot of failed attempts to get just right and im really really proud of what i have.
im very good at writing daemon aus <3 there is sort of. an art to figuring out if one a work even needs daemons and two how daemons enhance or add to some aspect of the original work. theres a lot of things i like that i dont think really work with daemons but i always really enjoy figuring out how to add daemons and how to make my daemons like, characters in their own right, you know?
i like to think im good at dialogue and characterization! theres a few characters--kris and the collector, firefly to an extent--that im really proud of the voices i've made for them.
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
fight scenes. fight scenes. oh my god i hate them so much they are SO HARD. stop making me put!! visual things!! in my text based medium!!!
really any scene that relies on having a strong idea of like, physical descriptions and sense of a place--i have aphantasia so having to describe scenery and landscape and just, anything really is always a struggle for me.
i also struggle with pacing, to an extent, especially across longer works (im looking at you, owl house daemon au)--knowing how long a plot arc needs to last and how to make it interesting still even when its going to be around for 600k+ words is a challenge and if the owl house daemon au was my first massive fic undertaking i dont think i'd be able to do it.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?
god im so bad at it but i really really am trying to be better--one big thing im going to focus on in my owl house daemon au edit is based on this because i want luz's identity to stick with her throughout the fic rather than it taking a backseat, but i am not a spanish speaker!! i know like, a LITTLE, but nowhere near enough to feel confident writing it.
so. its a time!
19. First fandom you wrote for?
warrior cats. and beyond just 'oh its the first fandom i posted fic for' no i was writing warrior cat fanfiction from the START. i was out there on the playground coming up with warrior cat ocs. i was printing this stuff out in the school library. i would hand-write fanfiction about my childhood cats becoming warrior cats and starting their own clan. i would roleplay warrior cats on my bedroom floor with pictures of cats i cut out of printer paper and bits of plastic folders i folded into triangles and write down the stories i came up with.
i was the most warrior cat kid to warrior cat kid. I Have Always Been This Way.
20. Favorite fic you’ve ever written?
ohhhhhh this is SUCH a tough question i have so many im so fond of, but i think i'm going to have to go with alterhuman. it's an animorphs fic about tobias post-canon and its an exploration of species identity and being a hawk and as a red-tailed hawk myself, a lot of it is deeply personal, a lot of it is my love letter to animorphs, and a lot of it is neffit, who is the best oc i have ever created, hands down.
as for tags, uh....anybody who wants to talk about their fics! even if we dont know each other!! go forth! ramble on about your own stuff for an hour!! truly so so fun.
also @wynterwulf7 and @mackerelgray and @hyperfixations-go-brr. obviously. <3 even if its about fic that isnt on ao3.
#chatter#this was fun!!!#its always so nice to have an excuse to talk about stuff you write yknow#like. this is why i post it! to have conversations n talk about stuff and its FUN. i love it.
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Twenty Questions for Fic Writers
thank you @glasscushion this was really fun!
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
two under various pseuds rn and 1? or 2? orphaned fics from years ago
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
19.6k!! not much but i’m proud of it <3
3. What fandoms do you write for?
hopefully f1 skdjskjd. ive got a ted lasso wip i reeeeally want to finish someday. and a newsies historically accurate magnum opus that may never see the light but that’s fine
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
i only have two non-orphaned fics published rn so:
five times colin cooks for his team (and one time his team cooks for him)
cute lil 5+1 ted lasso fic !! mildly colin/isaac but mostly colin & co being besties. written before season 3 came out
a look never hurt this much
tiny meat gang soulmates au (i refuse to be ashamed abt this). noel/cody lol
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
oh absolutely yes!! i treat comments like dms honestly i love giving a directors commentary type whatever in the comments
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
an orphaned fic in a to-remain unnamed fandom. unrequited love very very angsty stuff but more than a bit silly looking back on it (i was like 14 and really going through it). i tend to write very domestic-y stuff so not much i write has any lasting angst in it!
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
probably my tiny meat gang soulmates au mentioned above i won’t lie 😭 i haven’t read back through it since i wrote it so if it’s bad don’t blame me
8. Do you get hate on fics?
i’ve never gotten hate on fics thank god i would die
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
i’m trying to figure out how to write it lol (ask me about curly girl method lando and blowjobs). unfortunately (fortunately?) my draw to silly domestic stuff shines through so it’s not like molten hot smut, it’s kinda silly sex, i won’t lie
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
ive never published one bc i am occasionally a coward but i have many many notes on them/half written stuff. i like a lot of things and i like mashing those things together like barbie dolls! i think the craziest one i ever conceived of was newsies x music man tbh.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
who knows. as far as i know no
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
nope!
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
no but i would LOVE to omg i feel like there’s so much potential to balance out my weaknesses with other people’s
14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?
i am a multi shipper girlie i can be convinced of the appeal of ANYTHING. in terms of f1. lando/oscar maybe tho. won’t lie pierre/esteban kinda hitting…
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
hm i have some very grandiose far-reaching plots floating around rn (runners au and apartment/roommates au) that will be written and “completed,” but probably won’t ever fully get expanded to the point i’ve thought about them, if that makes sense
16. What are your writing strengths?
oh i like to think i’m very good at writing like. domestic intimacy/intimate friendships. feeling like home. comfort, and food! ppl tend to describe my writing as cozy and lived in, and i think that’s what i’m good at! (someone once said reading my fic was like eating comfort food and i literally cried)
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
transitioning!! time passing!! i’m so bad at that! also smut as i’ve discovered lol. i tend to stay away from genres i feel like im bad at writing so that’s less of an issue (hence why i haven’t really written any real angst). writing on my own w no feedback is Hard i would die for someone to look over my stuff
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
if it’s like a random line/couple of lines in a different language then usually i’ll put it in english but in italics. if the entire fic is between people who would all be speaking the same (non english) language then i don’t bother. i don’t translate to that language tho bc i don’t trust translation sites and im VERY rusty on my languages (you will not get french or mandarin in a fic from me i would die of fear). throwing in random words in other languages also makes me cringe in my own writing for some reason? but it doesn’t bother me in others’ writing lol
19. First fandom you wrote for?
if we mean published fic, for either 5 seconds of summer (cringes) or the maze runner, i can’t remember. if we mean wrote in general, definitely harry potter when i was like 9 in a little notebook that i sincerely hope has been burned since then.
20. Favourite fic you’ve written?
probably the ted lasso fic! i love writing food, and comfort, and that’s like entirety of the fic, so. if i get runners au off the ground any time soon i would bet money on that becoming my fave tho
pretty much every single one of my mutuals has been tagged in this already so. if you see this and you wanna do it do it like i’ve tagged you!!!
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20 Questions: Fic Author Edition
omg <3. thank you for tagging me @bodyelectric77<3 <3. ive never done this before so this is so exciting :o)
1) How many works do you have on ao3?
45. damn!
2) What's your total AO3 word count?
601,692
3) What fandoms do you write for?
the hunger games / ballad of songbirds and snakes mostly. sometimes total drama island lol
4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
a deep dive into the mind of annie cresta
get a load of this monster
a collection of encanto what-ifs
eat my heart out with a spoon
u focus on the wrong thing and it shows
5) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
i love responding to comments! it blows my mind that there are people reading words i wrote and taking time out of their day to be so sweet! <3
6) What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
probs you hurt my head like cheap red wine
7) What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
queen of crabs, it's the silly awkward first date antics odesta deserves <3
8) Do you get hate on fics?
no (thank god)
9) Do you write smut? If so what kind?
i tried writing E rated smut once but one thing about me is that intimacy makes me laugh out fucking loud (like i always try to do bits like im wearing the crown of clowns it can get very awkward) so whenever i write anything smut-adjacent im incapable of writing it sexy i just kinda feel silly the entire time. perhaps its the asexual in me
10) Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?
nah. but i think an umbrella academy and succession crossover would fuck
11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?
nope
12) Have you ever had a fic translated?
nope
13) Have you ever cowritten a fic before?
nope
14) What's your all-time favorite ship?
percabeth <3 (sorry odesta but on my first read thru of the hunger games i hated annie for no fucking reason and developed a hc that johanna and finnick were having an affair.. but that is a convo for another day. LOVE them now tho obv, but ive been shipping percabeth since day 1 theyre so cute and in luv)
15) What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?
tbh prob the odesta greek au. i love the concept (siren!annie is very important to me) but im just not in a greek mythology mood anymore
16) What are your writing strengths?
sometimes when i write emotions i feel like as a reader you can look at it and go "oh okay. i know that feeling" which is awesome
17) What are your writing weaknesses?
i am in love with run on sentences. "no its just a stream of consciouness writing style" baby you just wrote something that's mostly just em dashes and semicolons and parenthesis. also i don't know how to describe stuff so thank god for the internet bc i link outfits like my life depends on it. ive always struggled w writing locations too. and ive been wanting to get better at writing bits
18) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
i tried doing this with a mags fanfic i wrote bc i hc that d4 spoke spanish before the first war. there is literally only one sentence in spanish though bc i knew for a fact the phrasing was correct (at least in a casual, conversational setting) but i do think it's really cool when people write d4 characters having entire convos in spanish even though im not confident enough in my langauge skills to do it myself. also i just don't think d4 would know how to speak spanish in canon times, prob just affectionate terms like mija/o or mano or chula. like stuff that doesn't rlly affect how the capitol understands them. i get into this in the fic, but i think even by mags’ generation spanish would stop being a common language in d4. like i love the sentiment of her carrying a piece of that w her but i don’t think the capitol would let them get away with that and it’s also Not Easy to remember how to speak a language you only learned as a child and then never used for the rest of ur life, which is what i imagined happened with her + her gen. like. me and my siblings only know english bc the moment my dad moved here he was like “okay. English Time” and that stemmed from the pressure to assimilate can you imagine if the actual law got involved. anyway this answer got long but i have a lot of thoughts about this sorta stuff, esp in d4
19) First fandom you wrote for?
percy jackson lol
20) Favorite fic you've ever written?
don't keep the devil waiting, old friend. tbh this answer changes all the time any fic im currently working on is automatically my fav lol
idk why i feel a bit silly about tagging people directly, so i am informally tagging anyone who wants to do this sorry i hope this isn't a cop out <3. ily
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yena !! i hope u still remember me ʕꈍᴥꈍʔ it's the wind chime anon !! 🎐
how have u been omg (◍•ᴗ•◍) i had my exams last month n i have da notifs on for way too many blogs on here so i just uninstalled tumblr instead,,, but im back now (i was about to send this ask sooner (2 days ago ?) but i was a bit scared lmao,,, but i just saw ur post about shua so i had to come and say hi >:3) but wahh congrats on all ur milestones ! before i left i think u were about to start ur 500 followers event ! ! n i think u crossed 1234 already !! and probably even more ! that's supa cool n 'm so so proud of you ☆૮꒰ˊᗜˋ* ꒱ა also i love love love ur new theme *ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ✩
ooo n about finding jeonghan's colour,,, u looked at his pictures to figure out what colour he is ?? that's super intriguing actually. bcs the thing is idk if i have this type of synesthesia,,, im afraid what im doing is just strongly associating colours with people ? like the aspects of their personality play a major role in determining their colour but similar to the process of getting to know someone, it's v hard for me to decide on their colour. for example, jihoon. it's like, , the more i see him the more i feel like i don't even know him yk? for hansol, even tho i don't know what his colour is, i can at least tell that his colour would most prolly be a cooler shade. but for jihoon n sometimes even mingyu i can't rly figure them out? it's like i have options but i don't know for sure. n i don't rly know if this is synesthesia ?? lmdoajdjska i think i should just take the test by synesthesia battery but im just scared lmao </3
anygays i read the rest of your synesthesia posts and wahh, , yena ur just so talented. ur so cool ! ! i rly don't know what else to say. you have a way w words and it's as if i can feel the colors permeating through the descriptions. honestly it's such a gift to be able to share your vivid perception with others and i just wanna thank u for that (✿^‿^) i have sm to say about each member's colour and esp shua's but this got rly long so i'll do that in another ask ?? heh >:3
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WIND CHIME ANON OMGGGG YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU :<
i hope you've been doing okay!! how did your exams go????? literally i'd be sitting here and just thinking :(( i hope wind chime anon is doing okay in this world :(( haha ive missed you sm
it's okayy there's no need to be scared im super nice!! (i think?) thank u sm for loving my new theme too haha i love it a lot as well
and abt jeonghan: yeah! honestly synaesthesia is a really really different experience for anyone so i like to think of it as one of those sexuality labels. if you feel like it fits, then you're allowed to use it! those tests online are sketchy af anyways unless you wanna pay for a Real and Scientific Test
i think assigning colours to vibes and personalities is very interesting though!! i don't think i could do that haha, personalities have always just been so complex and different for me that a colour just doesn't come to mind at all (i don't think my synaesthesia works in that way lmao) so that's really really fascinating! honestly tho,,, im also struggling w jihoon too and maybe that's bc i haven't spent several minutes just Staring at his face yet but i just have a gut feeling that he's gonna be one tough cookie
aww thank u so much please that's so lovely to hear ^^ that really makes me the happiest oml, being told that people are able to feel my writing and my descriptions <3
aww yess please do lmk what you think of the others !! it's so nice to see you in my inbox again 💗
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quick emotional garbo abt ow2 in 2022
theres a lot to be (constructively) criticized abt ow2's current state (progression, monetization, matchmaking) but by god is it good to feel like the game (franchise too maybe) has a future again.
i love this game a lot. a stupid amount, even. its given me so many things and brought me so much joy. so to see team 4 manifest a small miracle and get something out makes me happy.
the games gonna be ow1.5 for me until pve comes out (i mean thats where the 2 comes from anyways like pvp was never the sequel) but that doesnt mean i havent had a blast playing it. i was really fuckin worried abt 5v5 and (crazily) its rly good.
but the thing thats made me happiest is new players discovering ow. sure, theres nothing groundbreaking for me (an oldie) to discover. again, waiting on pve so i can chew on it like a squeaky toy. yet the joy i feel seeing ppl falling in love w the cast in the same way i did in 2016 is unmatched. like, my heart soars seeing new blood get excited over the lore and wider universe.
since like, 2019, truly new ppl in the fandom were rare. if u met someone u didnt recognize, chances are u were friends w one of their mutuals. u could see the community shrinking in real time and it was the most depressing fandom experience ive ever had. but holy shit, not anymore!
and yes, there will always be a small part of me thats miffed over mauga getting shafted again (i love u rama but u know its true), zen getting a backstory igniting a wave of interest in the story is just <3.
i dont think all of ow2s issues are gonna be addressed overnight. ppl very conveniently forget apex fell off hard after its first season due to shitty progression. over time (but not all at once) small fixes will start to add up. and hopefully theyve learned from poor monetization stealing all the thunder from wotb.
but man im just happy. im happy new ppl are joining the fandom (deffo not on this site tho lol), im happy ppl are excited abt ow again, i love how communicative the devs are w us now, i cant fuckin wait for pve. just give us support mauga and 2023 will be perfect.
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20 questions for writers
tagged by @roipecheur mwah mwah !!
1. how many works do you have on AO3? - 34
2. what's your total AO3 word count? - 65,516
3. what fandoms do you write for? - its pure DC brainrot babes. maybe that'll change one day, but i have a hard time balancing multiple interests
4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos? - A Kind Place To Rest, What’s in a gift?, Indulgence, Always a Kitten, Red Wings
5. do you respond to comments? - i try!!! but know that even if i don't reply i give each and every comment a lil smooch
6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? - most of my stuff is pretty fucked up, but Black fish, blue fish, old fish, new fish. and The Leagues That Go Bump In The Night are probably up there? both because they involve Dick experiencing violent assaults with the promise of more to come and because he doesn't compartmentalize/justify/repress it much at all. so he's just forced to experience The Horrors. Damian's chapter in A curse in disguise. is the thing that actually makes me wanna yell though. I wrote that?? I only have myself to blame for making me feel things??? what the fuck man.
7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? - tough question. hm. I was able to pull up like, 6 candidates, but I'm not really sure how to measure "happy ending". Endings that were the most... more happy by the end than when they started...? i guess? There are a few that end on a "and the ship sailed happily ever after" type note. New Beginnings is a bit more enthusiastically happy, because Dick and Kori are just so damn excited to have babies
8. do you get hate on fics? - most of the hate i've gotten has been tumblr anons, lol
9. do you write smut? If so, what kind? - the freaky kind >:) (22/34 of my fics are explicit)
10. do you write crossovers? - nah. thought about it, have wanted to, but it takes a bit more planning than a regular fic
11. have you ever had a fic stolen? - nah
12. Have you ever had a fic translated? - no, but i would welcome it so long as it linked back and all that
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? - WAIT YES I HAVE. in middle school i think? during a sleepover a friend and i sat together on a couch and sent emails back and forth, taking turns adding onto a smut fic about british gaming youtubers that i dont think they even knew? also our incredibly innocent/prudish christian friend might have also been there lmao. that fic stayed in our emails im pretty sure.
14. What's your all-time favorite ship? - ough...h hg..... jay and cole from ninjago. w other series i tend to be more "pick a fav and explore all possible parings involving them", but i only ever picture jay and cole with each other. for me that means something
15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will? - oh uh. gotta bust out file explorer hold on. I did plan on making an entire series of fics connected to Little Princess, but I doubt I'll get to that, especially bc im not that proud of that fic anymore. there are a couple more fairly detailed and large projects sitting in my scrapped folder. and i mean, i keep a scrapped folder bc that way i dont have the pressure of finishing it but i still have the option if i want to.
16. What are your writing strengths? - uhm. uh.
17. What are your writing weaknesses? - forget to write the words. i also have a bit of dyslexia and miss stuff no matter how much i proof read
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? - depends? if it's a full conversation then i think i'd opt for <dialogue> or something like that, but if it's for random background chatter or mixed language dialogue then maybe just use the actual words. kind of have to, in the second case. spanglish type talk is fun actually, like sometimes i just talk like that to try and figure out what spanish i remember
19. First fandom you wrote for? - probably minecraft youtubers? the first i posted online was my hero academia tho. dont ask me about MHA btw i literally only care about kaminari and stopped keeping up like 4 years ago
20. Favourite fic you've written? - uh. hm. Aha! only my third fic but it ticks all my boxes and i love it dearly: Lulu Belle And The Cat-Chaser
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Him.
I met him in ninth grade. I still remember the first time i laid eyes on him. Before classes had begun the school would release the list of students and who else was in their class. I had already known who the new kids were because they had come from my school before. When we made eye contact his eyes widened at the sight of me. Later on i would learn that he was already attracted to me by then. I was friendly to him at first since he was new but as time went by he began to come out of his shell. He was vibrant, friendly, funny, very athletic, outgoing, the kind of person everyone knew. At that time i decided to put some distance because i was easily irritated by his personality. A month later i fell for him but my friend told me he already had a girlfriend. Not long after that they broke up and we got together. Although our relationship was short it was the happiest i had ever been in my entire life. He was perfect. Almost no day went by that he got rid of my mood swings and replaced it with a smile. After we broke up we still saw each other every day. We had this thing where we would stay close to each other but never actually talk. It was like we showed each other that we still had feelings but not say it. Our classmates knew. It was stupid and so dumb i wish i could take it all back and just approach him or text him. COVID arrives and we dont see each other for two years. In that time i had gone insane. I thought about him everyday, literally. And i have reason to believe that because of how much I thought about him he began to think about me too because someone had told me that he visited my neighborhood a lot but i never got out of my room. When classes went back to normal i began to see him again. I became classmates with his friends and i learned that during online classes they kept teasing him that we would get back together. Sadly, things didnt play out that way. He found someone else and i dated his friend—i know its bad but he was fine w it and so were his friends. He and i are broken up but we will see each other in college again. Recently something had happened. I was coming home from the salon and a motorcycle had passed by and the driver said my name, even the taxi driver looked at me through the rear view mirror. I never got a good look at the guy because i didnt wear my glasses but im pretty sure it was him. His neighborhood is right next to mine. Hes still in a relationship tho. I promised myself that i wouldnt bother him until hes single again but i am really hoping that we'll get back together. Its been four years and im still in love with him.
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so my high school, which was private and tailored towards neurodivergent and queer kids, is closing bc of financial reasons ig. ive only visited once since i graduated, about 3 years ago i think. altho most of the teachers id had already left even before that. as of now, going there was probably the happiest/easiest time of my life. it's weird to see it closing even if i do think it changed for the worse a bit as they expanded and it got a bit more idk mainstream? in its aims. apparently they're organizing a reunion. i may go, altho im not sure any of the ppl i was closest to would show up. even so id at least hopefully see teachers and stuff.
itd be weird tho, i think, to have to say 10 years later that ive struggled, havent finished college, havent started a career. i was part of a trio of friends who everyone thought would last forever and id have to say that no we havent talked in 9 yrs (but she lives w the other one of the trio 💀 who im still besties w). i mean i know they wouldnt judge. given the type of students there, struggling is probably more common than not. but i still wish i was doing better, less bc im ashamed and more bc it was such a highlight of my life that it feels sad to, like, let them down. idk.
but a reunion could also, along w being sad over people we've lost, could also be fun. a lot of ppl have come out as trans or married/had kids(!!!!!). again im not sure the ppl i clicked w the most would come, as they tended to be the least "school events" oriented. the whole thing does bring back a lot of feelings tho. about the last time i was in an irl setting w peers who i felt liked and accepted me, with so many prospects ahead of me. it's weird and difficult and sad and all that stuff.
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could not agree more, i would do anything for that. that’s so cute bc i fall asleep listening to his ‘only’ cover :((. hyunes whole verse in venom (and venom in general) totally made my interest in skz peak. like the song was not smth i’d heard in the other kpop groups i’m into so i was like ,, this is awesome ??? and it’s still one of my fave songs by them ever
yes exactly :(((. i guess i’m kinda working through it but one thing keeps happening after another so it’s so hard for me to just relax <///3. and i’ve tried journaling many times but for some reason it just doesn’t work for me and just makes it worse ☹️. i’ll get there tho, thank u for giving me such considerate advice bae :((. you’re too too sweet i appreciate u sm
YESS BF SKZ HC’S !!! both things you said are just so perfect 🥲 i would do anything for that, why are they all so perfect ???? who allowed this ??? bang chan i’m lookin at u 😒
omg thank u for explaining that all sounds so nice to do !! i bet it feels good to connect w the ppl you love in that way. i bet the food is so good too 😩😩 and that’s so sweet ur housemates eat w you and stuff ☹️☹️☹️☹️ so so cute i love that sm. those kinds of events are one of my fave things to do. makes me miss my bestie and her mom bc eating w them is my fave
i hope ur doing well too bae 💗💗💗💗💗 kisses
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talking abt other groups, im intrigued, what other groups do you stan? yesyes felix’ only cover is simply :hearteyes: so so bf!!
you’re always welcomed to talk to me my love, no need to thank me!!! your presence here makes me so happy!!!
u are truly ot8 i swear everytime u come over here it’s abt a diff member everytime LMAOO and i am here for it!!! guess we are talking abt bang chan now!!! he’s <333 no cs imagine him showing u his unreleased songs... sighs dreamily. and writing lyrics about you... sighs even more dreamily. feel like he’s also the type to play fight with his s/o 😋 pillow fights, poking on your waist. spending the day in is always fun with him, me thinks. minho on the other probably isn’t into play fighting. tickle him a little and he will DECK u.
hehe, i lovelovelove talking abt culture ^__^ could ramble about it everyday. mm the food is 🤩 aw, you eat with your bestie and her mum? that’s so cute ☹️
my classes got cancelled so i am currently the happiest person in the world rn, sending some of that happiness towards you <33
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